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"Now can I come in?" You asked as Kevin opened the door again. He had obviously just woken up. He was dressed in his day clothes but that was all, his hair wasn't done and he was noticeably tired. Though, that was understandable. You had ran to his house first thing in the morning. "Sure. Whatever." You stepped into his house before he could even step aside for you. You looked around, looking for anything suspicious. You didn't see anything right off hand, though. "Are you rested yet?" You asked, turning toward him after he shut his front door. "Oh. Yeah I am now." He ran his fingers through his hair, using them as a makeshift brush. "Who exactly did you have to pick up?" "I told you. Just a friend." "Do I know them?" "Babe, its too early for all these questions." "Shouldn't we be willing to make time for each other and maybe answer questions with detail? I'm kinda supposed to trust you and you're not making that easy for me." You snapped, keeping your voice low and intimidating. Kevin raised his eyebrows at you. Surprised by your sudden change of attitude.
"Why do you always assume I did something wrong?" "Because 9 out of 10 times you did. The whole town doesn't know your name for nothing." Kevin bit the inside of his cheek. "So, if you did nothing wrong, tell me who you went go pick up and why." Kevin looked down and away, sneering. As if you caught him in the act of something. "So you did something then?" "It was Sarah and she doesn't drive so she asked me for a ride home."
"You see?! This is why I don't trust you!" Kevin jumped at your sudden change of tone once again. "If you would have just told me that you needed to pick up Sarah yesterday and came back home I wouldn't care! Sure, I would be a bit upset but this wouldn't be happening! What were you doing with her that was so important that you can't even tell me?!" "I thought you would be mad! Christ!" He argued back. Here you were, fighting again.
"What you don't know can't hurt you. So I wasn't gonna tell you I was leaving you to pick her up because I know you hate her! How was I supposed to know you wouldn't care!?" "Maybe if you told me, then you would know if I cared or not." Kevin smacked his hand onto his forehead and slid it down his face. Resting it over his lips. "How do you expect this to work out if you always want to play the victim?" "I don't." You admitted. And that was the moment when you finally convinced yourself that this couldn't work.
"You've done too much. I don't think I can fix this." You admitted, crossing your arms. "Kevin." You stated, it took you this long, but you were finally able to get the words out. You knew you could this time. But before you could, you were stopped by Kevin, saying your name urgently. "Don't do it! Please. I'm sorry, I'll take back everything I did. Just, don't do it. Please!" "Why should I believe you this time too?" "What do you want me to do? I'll do it." "If I wanted something from you I would have taken it and ran already. Listen here, buddy." You spat, tired of this. Tired of every thing. Tired of him.
"I've had a lot of time to think about this. And I came to a conclusion a long time ago. But I always denied it. I wanted to expect the best from you. And to prove Jenny, and buck and everyone else that you weren't who they thought you were. I put up with your shit for you. You drove me crazy sometimes, but I always forgave you. You did questionable things but I trusted you anyway because I expected more from you. I should have known that any man who would drive up to a girl on the street and just give them there number was bad news. One who everyone knew none-the-less. But I didn't. Because I put you higher than me. Because I respected you!" you began to yell, fighting back tears that were inevitable to fall.
"I put you above myself for your own good! I could have pushed you off, ignored you but didn't! When you tried to change my friends, I listened to you even though I knew you were wrong. When you acted out in public, I took responsibility. I could have acted like I didn't know you. I cared. But what did you give me? Lies. Even if you didn't cheat on me. You lied to me when you said you were meeting with a friend. You knew I didn't want you around her because it made me insecure. You knew that! It was obvious! I made it obvious! So you lied and told me it was nothing! So what was it that you wanted just now!? You wanted me to tell you if I wanted anything from you? I sure as hell do. I want my time back. And my trust. And the way people see me, to go back to the way it was before! But you can't give me that can you?!" You poured. Your face was blank and emotionless, but covered in tears. Even Kevin was getting emotional. It was obvious something like this had never happened to him before. He had never been yelled at like this. But that was all true. You couldn't trust people as much now after his damage. And your friends, thought you didn't trust them as much either. After you blew them off and went with Kevin even after what they told you. And all that time, and effort you wasted on him.
"So...what are you gonna do now?" You asked quietly stepping closer. "Are you gonna beg for me not to leave again? Or do you want to know the one thing I want that you can give me?" "What could you possibly want from me now?" "The truth. Everything you have lied to Me about. Tell me. I don't care anymore just tell me."
"Sure you want that, babe?" You raised your eye brows. "Lay it on me." Kevin chucked darkly and stepped back from you. "I saw you yesterday. I know you followed me. So, I just, took a detour with her to distract you and make it look like I was actually taking her home. 'Didn't though, took her here." "Why?" You intervened. "We never broke up, babe. Sarah and I never broke up." You swallowed the lump in your throat and kept the same, expressionless face on. Fury was pooling in your eyes as one more enraged tear fell down your cheek. "Honestly, babe. You've just been a toy. Sarah knew about you too. She was sitting back and watching this play out. Seeing how long this would last. And I mean I think it did pretty well. I got a full night out of you." Kevin reminded devilishly, looking at the back of his hand with a smug look on his face.
"Did you really think I was that nice? Promising you anything. Depending on you and telling you how much you meant to me? Nah. I'm not like that. I like being a jerk. Its funny. Everyone reacts differently to it. Even you." Kevin informed putting a poised hand under your chin and making you look at him. "'Never had anyone yell at me like that. You've got quite some lungs on you, girl. Passionate, too. I like that. Almost wish I could have made this thing work." He taunted, trying to make your blood boil. Stooping lower than you thought was possible.
You shook where you were. Frozen in your shoes, still trying to comprehend what you had been told. How could you be so stupid? You were right the whole time! How many times did a part of you try to tell you to get away from him before it was too late? Too many. And you ignored it everytime. But not this time. Of course not. Everything he had just said hit you at once. And if it was a physical hit, you would be down, and coughing up blood from the impact. But, instead. It was channeled into anger. A burning rage that caused you to act.
You grabbed the wrist that was under you chin and pulled it away from you, holding it to the side before yelling; "Fuck you!" And punching him straight across the jaw line. Hard enough to make him yell in pain and fall to his knees. You pushed him onto his back with your foot and leaned down closer to him. "Wait till Jenny hears about this." You said before storming out quicker than you ever had before. Slamming the door behind you, and wiping the tear stains under your eyes away.
You practically ran to your house and stepped inside. Screaming with every emotion possible when the door was shut behind you. You didn't even get a foot past your door before sitting down and hugging your knees to your chest. Putting your face in your hands. Expecting tears, but none came. Just dry sobs. Sobs of relief. The bondage of this relationship, This ordeal, was completely lifted. Sure, it left a few scares that your future significant others would have to deal with. But, it was alright. You could deal with it. You could pull through. And as you sat at your door, your mind in a wild buzz, but still, somehow totally blank. You felt the familiar fur of Robin rub against your leg. She meowed quietly. You picked her up and hugged her. Sure, she reminded you of him. But you related to her now. No matter how funny or cliché it sounds, you understand this cat, and it, you.
This cat use to belong to the same owner as you. She was treated like property. And she wanted to get away but couldn't. Didn't know how. Until you came around and you saved her. You understood now why every time he showed up around her, she would spit at him, and hiss in dislike. Because you would too now. Just at the mention of the name, Kevin. You would hiss, and turn up your nose. You forgave him once, but never again. Never again would you ever trust a jerk like him again. Because that's all he is, was, and all he ever will be. A jerk.
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