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Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov got married in secret and for two whole years, they lived their life quietly.
They broke apart quietly, too.
The worst part is that none of it feels right. Not their continued rivalry on the ice, not the divorce papers on Shane’s table, and definitely not the idea of saying goodbye. There are too many wounds untouched, too many things left unsaid, and too much love between them still.
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20 Apr 2026
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“-can’t see each other again,” Ilya says, looking only at Shane’s hand, holding it so, so gently and stroking over Shane’s skin so, so softly. The soothing feeling of it makes it very hard to focus, but Shane tries very hard to do it anyway. “I tried-we tried, but this can’t happen again.” It takes a moment, but Shane finally manages to make sense of the words, and he lets out a soft noise of understanding.
Ah. He’s apologizing that he won’t be able to see Shane in the hospital again before he leaves.
“I understand,” he says, and he does. It was probably really hard for Ilya to get here even once, and it can’t be very long before his plane leaves. He’s sad, of course–they didn’t even get to spend time together, really–but it’s not like this will be the last chance they ever have to see each other. He gives Ilya his best attempt at a smile, and if it comes out a little sad, too, all Ilya does is reach out to stroke the backs of his fingers gently over his cheek.
(ilya goes through with his plan to break up with shane in the hospital) (the problem? shane is too high to understand that he's being broken up with)
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11 Apr 2026
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don't smile because it happened (cry because its over) by aristrocatt
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
09 Apr 2026
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The thing about grand gestures, Ilya will understand much later, is that they have an end. You plan the kayak and pack the basket and watch Shane laugh, and there is a clean and finished quality to the feeling. What he is not good at—has never been good at—is the open wire, the exposed, unfinished thing that hangs in the air between I should call and I didn’t.
The only time Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov break up, come apart, and then come together.
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10 Apr 2026
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coffee at midnight by waveydnp for dizzy
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (YouTube RPF)
16 Oct 2019
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A recent trauma has lead Phil to embrace a ‘try new things’ approach to his life. One of those new things is learning how to swim, and Dan is the lifeguard who’s going to teach him.
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wait, is this fucking book about us? by noxhsw for sunbeambisexual
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (YouTube RPF)
10 Aug 2025
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Dan is a depressed lawyer, Phil is a sad romance author. They meet when they're stranded at an airport, thinking they'll never see each other again. But when Phil writes a book about their encounter, Dan wants to meet him once more.
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