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“Look,” Chimney’s back to a frantic whisper and Eddie can hear the sound of metal clanking together in the ambulance. “You gotta promise you’re not going to tell anyone I told you this. Promise me, Eddie.”
“Tell anyone what?”
He’s used to Chimney’s typical weird behavior. But this feels different.
“Buckisgoingtogowithhim."
“What? Chim, I can’t understand you.”
“Eddie,” he groans into the phone, dropping his voice low. “Buck is going to go with Tommy. To New York.”
or, amidst his son leaving for Texas, a sexuality crisis in his 30s, and the possibility of losing his best friend, Eddie can’t seem to catch a break.
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11 Oct 2024
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eddie's not entirely sure he believes in getting help, at least not for himself. there's only so much healing to be had for a body torn apart by bullets, for a mind that's only half there, for a man who's been leaving pieces of himself behind all his life with nothing to take their place.
except, as it turns out, falling apart happens in increments, and healing does, too: it happens when you gnaw a hole in your lip trying to keep quiet only to have the words escape; when you realize that the ghost you've been seeing out of the corner of your eye is yourself; when your best friend smiles, and you allow it to take your breath away.
it happens through the smallest of things: bird feeders, and cacti, and pasta shapes.
meanwhile, the world goes on.
(or: the entity often affectionately referred to as the unrepression fic.)
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- Part 1 of tell me about despair
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10 Oct 2024
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War, Children by Nonymos
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), The Avengers - Ambiguous Fandom, The Avengers (Marvel) - All Media Types
29 Feb 2016
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After Bucky was released from the hospital, it only took him a couple of weeks to give up on himself. Difficult to believe in any kind of future when the simple act of staying alive was almost too big an effort.
Out the frosted window, across the street, there was a tiny homeless guy burrowing under an awning.
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05 Oct 2024
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“C’mon Doc, I’m fine, nothing wrong with me that some rest and painkillers won’t fix.”
Just hearing Eddie’s voice from down the hallway, hoarse but strong and steady, is enough to slow Buck down from his jog through the hospital hallways. Well, hearing Eddie’s voice, and seeing the disapproving looks from literally every single nurse he passes. When he gets to Eddie’s room, the doctor standing at Eddie’s bedside has her arms crossed, and Eddie’s giving her his best puppy dog eyes. They’re proving less effective than usual apparently, maybe on account of how red-rimmed Eddie’s eyes still are, because the doctor shakes her head.
“Maybe so, but I’m not comfortable releasing you unless there’s someone who can keep an eye on you for the rest of the night, Mr. Diaz,” she says.
Buck looks after Eddie, after the events of "Eddie Begins".
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03 Oct 2024
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“I want you in my family, I want us to be a family. Officially. A family can be a guy, his son, and his best friend, right?”
Buck’s lower lip was trembling. “You’re really asking me to be your…what, now?”
“Frank called it ‘platonic life partners.’”
Buck looked stunned, and also…hopeful. “We could really do that?”
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Buck and Eddie decide to become platonic domestic partners and co-parents. They are 100% super normal about it and absolutely nothing is awakened in them, except a mutual annoyance at being referred to as "husbros."
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03 Oct 2024
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He meets her gaze for the shortest moment before turning to look out over the woods, gesturing at it with a gloved hand. “Is this why you brought me here? To talk about memories?”
“No. I wanted to talk about marriage.”
When Sansa suggests it's time for her and Jon to marry, she means they should make marriage alliances with the other Northern houses. Jon, though, assumes she means they should marry each other.
A post s7 story where Jon and Sansa struggle to navigate their new political landscape while suppressing their feelings for one another, Arya does everything in her power to protect her pack, and Bran and Sam try to figure out how to kill the Night King.- Language:
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28 Sep 2024
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And All This Devotion, I Never Knew At All by vixleonard
Fandoms: A Song of Ice and Fire - George R. R. Martin
15 May 2012
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Jon doesn't realize just how much he loves Sansa until their son is born.
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28 Sep 2024
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Eddie is made of shattered glass. Not like a mosaic - not something broken made beautiful. No, Eddie is all sharp points and jagged edges; he’s hurt everyone that’s ever tried to hold him.
But Buck…Buck holds him like it’s easy. Like there’s nothing else in the world he would rather be doing. He holds Eddie like he’s precious, cradling him between gentle hands with a kind of reverence that is usually reserved for something holy. Something god-like. And then Eddie catches a glimpse of him and Buck in the mirror next to Buck’s bed, and he thinks oh. He thinks maybe this is as close to heaven as a man like him will ever get.
So no one can blame him for wanting to enjoy it while it lasts.
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26 Sep 2024
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“I feel fucking explosive, Buck. Like I’m about to go off at any second. I don’t want you caught in my mess.”
His eyes sting. At the very least, Buck contains the sound of it in his voice. “Eddie, I don’t know if you’ve noticed,” he replies, “but I already am.”
Eddie self-implodes. Christopher, seeking refuge, flees to Buck—whose priorities amount to, in varying order: take in the kid, get Eddie to talk to him, and keep the three of them afloat in the process. (Oh, and Tommy’s there too. He thinks.)
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23 Sep 2024
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Eddie should say something. He should—
Buck slots a knee between his legs. And— okay, that's—
Fuck .
“We should—,” he says between kisses. “We should stop.”
Buck actually does stop and Eddie lets out a pathetic moan at the loss of contact.
“Yeah?”
Eddie nods. “We—,” he can't seem to tear his eyes away from Buck's lips. So red, so swollen. You did that, you made him look like that — a possessive little voice in his head supplies.
God, he wants to drop to his knees and swallow him whole.
Which— okay. Damn.
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Or: Eddie and Buck share a moment in the bunk room. Ft. Eddie's unfiltered thoughts.
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23 Sep 2024
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At this point Buck is officially drifting into freaking out territory, so he does the only other thing he can think of and scrolls through his home screen until he’s found Find my Friends.
The sting of Christopher’s icon being 800 miles away in El Paso nearly takes his breath away. He can’t let himself look at it for too long. It looks like Maddie’s at work, and when he zooms in on Eddie—no that can’t be right.
or,
Eddie has a mustache, a cat, and a night out. Buck gets a phone call, a near heart attack, and a whole new perspective.
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22 Sep 2024
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August comes, and with it comes Eddie.
Eddie and that friend of his who was there back at the start of the summer, the one Christopher has talked so much about over the past few months. Buck this, and Buck that, and –
All of it. Helena takes one look at them, and she knows.
eddie and buck take christopher home to california; helena and ramon decide to follow
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- Part 1 of the love triptych
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22 Sep 2024
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“You’re going to be a great father someday,” Eddie says eventually, because he’s worse than he used to be and Buck’s reverent eyes make him feel—they just make him feel.
“Eddie, I—”
“You are,” he repeats, firm. “Don’t you think I’d know better than anyone?”
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20 Sep 2024
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"I was worried, I’ve never seen Eddie like that, he was--It was...” Buck says. “He needed something to hold onto, okay.”
“So you slept with him?”
“I..." he says. "Yes.”
Maddie hisses a breath out through her teeth.-
Buck and Eddie and the many paths home.
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20 Sep 2024
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it's a church of burnt romances (and i'm too far gone to pray) by justhockey
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
05 May 2024
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Eddie looks back, sifting through the ashes of every relationship he’s ever had that has burned to the ground. And his hands shake, and his heart beats too fast, and it’s there, right on the tip of his tongue. It’s close enough that he could reach out and touch it if he were brave enough. The reason, that no matter how hard he tried - no matter how much he wanted to, or how often he literally prayed for it - his relationships with women have never worked out.
And he knows. Knows that no amount of women, or trying, or praying will ever be able to change it. You can’t fix what isn’t broken, and Eddie isn’t broken. He isn’t. He’s just…well.
He’s in love with Buck, isn’t he?
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18 Sep 2024
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some things fall when they're meant to fall by sibylsleaves for burnthatbridge
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
07 Jun 2024
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Eddie’s gaze drop to Buck’s lips—pink, like his birthmark. Eddie wants to taste those lips, and he wants it with a fierceness so sudden it shocks him.
“I’m, uh,” Buck stammers. “Last night. When you saw me and Tommy…we—we were on a date.”
Everything inside Eddie goes still. If his heart is a kite, then this is the moment it plummets back to earth.
or, Buck tells Eddie some news. Eddie has a realization and breaks up with his girlfriend. Not necessarily in that order.
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17 Sep 2024
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you're almost home (i've been waiting for you to come in) by sibylsleaves
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
19 Aug 2024
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“You’re really starting over, then,” Eddie says.
“That’s what I wanted,” Buck replies. “Clean slate, you know?”
“Well, you’re welcome to stay here as long as you need,” Eddie says, knocking his shoulder against Buck’s. “That should go without saying.”
When Buck had hastily packed his bag and slipped out the door to his Jeep, he hadn’t really known where he was heading for the night. He thought about going to Maddie’s place, or even Albert’s new apartment, but in the end he’d driven himself here—to Eddie’s.
Buck moves in. Eddie comes out. Things get a little messy.
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16 Sep 2024
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"I think we should go clubbing again," Buck announces in between Forza races. "We have a Friday in the middle of our 96, it would be perfect."
"You guys planning something?" Hen asks, coming over from the kitchen with a bowl of trail mix.
"I'm trying to get Eddie to come pick up guys with me," Buck says.
Hen's eyebrows arch high above her glasses. "Really," Hen says.
"It's more of a wingman situation," Eddie tries to explain.
"Yeah, Eddie picks the guys so I don't make stupid decisions," Buck says, flicking through menus to pick a new racetrack.
The combination of Hen munching peanuts and looking back and forth between them makes Eddie feel like he's a zoo exhibit. Best Friends, captured in the wild, still feral, exhibiting behaviors heretofore unknown to science.
"Well, good luck with - all that," Hen says pointedly to Eddie. She is definitely not talking about the video game.
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16 Sep 2024
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Missing Chris is less of an emotion these days and more of a physical entity. He’s sure everyone can see that he’s slowly hollowing himself out, that he can’t do much of anything else.
But when Jee laughs at him trying to get his tongue to touch his nose, and Mara loops one of her arms through his to keep him from tossing the rest of his cup in the garbage, Eddie feels solid again.
Maybe he likes yellow birthday cake ice cream after all.
(or, gerrard messes with the team's schedules and eddie 'i just drove my son to flee the state' diaz is the only option to watch mara and jee-yun after school on tuesdays, which, shouldn't be a problem at all, right?)
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16 Sep 2024
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“Why not a hook, though?” Brienne said, and Jaime followed her gaze to the golden hand covering his stump. He paused, and she added, “It’s pretty, but it’s not much use, is it?"
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- Part 6 of Game of Thrones works
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11 Sep 2024