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At your very best, you still won’t be good enough for the wrong person — but at your absolute worst, you’ll still be worth everything to the right one.
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- Part 9 of A to Z titles but mostly unrelated
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Arthur’s death should have been the end.
But it wasn’t.
One moment he was breathing against Merlin’s shoulder — the next, he was simply gone, his soul slipping from reach before Avalon could take him.
Not resting.
Not at peace.
Lost.
Merlin could have learned to grieve a death.
But how do you mourn someone who isn’t anywhere?
So he searches.
Through fractured timelines. Through gentler worlds and crueler ones — worlds where Arthur lives without him, dies without knowing him, or almost remembers but not quite.
In every life, Merlin finds him.
In every life, he loses him all over again.
Until, at last — once, for the first time across lifetimes — he is not too late.
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- Part 6 of A to Z titles but mostly unrelated
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History doesn’t start over — it circles back.
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- Part 8 of A to Z titles but mostly unrelated
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Guilt wears many faces.
There is the kind you inherit — before you ever speak a word.
The kind you forge yourself — in blood and haste.
The kind born of silence — when you should have acted and didn’t.
And the kind that lingers longest — when love is offered too late.
Most people carry one.
Some carry all of them.
Guilt does not fade with time.
It simply waits — quietly — to see whether you will carry it like a burden, or let it carve you into someone worth becoming.
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- Part 7 of A to Z titles but mostly unrelated
- Part 1 of Of Guilt and Grief
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He remembers the laughter, the shove in the courtyard, the mud still clinging to his clothes when Arthur smiled and breathed, “I thought we’d lost you.”
Arthur was sunlight. Merlin was what came after.
And so he walks —
by the lake where Arthur vanished,
in a world that no longer knows his name.
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- Part 5 of A to Z titles but mostly unrelated
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A to Z titles but mostly unrelated by Xerxis
Fandom Merlin (TV), Red White & Royal Blue (2023)
19 Nov 2025
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A to Z titles of mostly Merlin/Arthur. Mostly unrelated works unless otherwise mentioned.
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Please Hate Me, I am Difficult to Love (Loving You is Like Breathing) by portently
Fandoms: Merlin (TV)
09 Dec 2023
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Arthur should have hated what he saw. He should have been recoiling in disgust. Magic was cruel, disgusting, and violent. It corrupted and brought only pain to those around it.
But everything had been so gold, so full of life, so beautiful.
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In which Arthur befriends a sorcerer hiding in the forests while hiding his identity as the Prince. As they navigate their budding relationship, the two explore what it means to be good and what it means to be loved.
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12 Oct 2025
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And like the cycle of the year, we begin again by katherynefromphilly
Fandoms: Merlin (TV)
27 Nov 2016
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Set after the Merlin Series 5 Finale "Diamond of the Day".
Canon Compliant. In Character. Arthur Pendragon Returns.
Cover art by Lao-Pendragon------
For many long years Merlin waited.
For the other part of his soul, for the other half of his life. He was born to serve Arthur. So that meant he was also born to wait. Even if it took a thousand years. Even if the wait seemed never to end.
Until one day, suddenly, it did.
When Arthur stumbles from the Lake of Avalon 1,500 years after his death, he finds a world unlike the one he knew. Faced with the loss of everyone he loved, and the threat of impending prophecy, Arthur must learn what it means to be not just a king, but the Once and Future King. Merlin does all he can to guide him, even as he struggles to hide his love for his king, and his fear of losing him again.
Story includes sass, banter, horseplay, & True Love.
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- Part 1 of We Begin Again
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11 Oct 2025
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Lay Your Head Down on the Shoulder of a Good Friend by Skitz_phenom
Fandoms: Merlin (TV)
31 Oct 2019
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With Camelot readying for the upcoming gathering of rulers of the Southern Kingdoms to discuss peace, Uther has tasked Arthur with an additional duty: befriend the Prince of Essetir and learn anything he can of King Balinor, and of magic, and of dragons, that might be of interest should the treaty not succeed.
That's easier said than done, as he and Prince Merlin don't exactly hit it off immediately. But, befriending Merlin and learning of magic and life in Essetir leads Arthur down the paths of discovering long held secrets surrounding his own birth, and his mother's ill health, and his father's hatred of all things magic.
Adding even more complications to the mix are rowdy knights, frustrating princesses, a possible traitor in their midst, and an overly-verbose dragon; not to mention the burgeoning and peculiar feelings for his fellow prince that Arthur struggles to put a name to.
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05 Oct 2025
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Text by SPowell, Art by MichelleMisfit.
Arthur Pendragon has been, for the most part, raised by his father’s butler and cook. His sister got away from home and company as soon as she was old enough to do so, but Arthur is stuck in his role as Jr. CEO at Pendragon Industries, in the closet, and miserable. His life consists of his plants, his neighbor’s fish, and his Harry Potter DVDs. When he decides to be adventurous and take on a flat-mate, he hopes it might put a little spice into his life. Merlin Emrys has ADHD and is being thrown out of his flat because he can’t remember to pay his rent or lock the door. He’s openly gay, his f-buddy, Mordred, is a little bizarre, and Merlin’s ADHD meds are about to give him sleep problems. He can’t believe that the boss’s son and future CEO of the company is offering him a room in a gorgeous penthouse flat for next to nothing. People at work are either scared of Arthur Pendragon or think he’s odd, but Merlin just thinks he’s hot and a little endearing. Cue karaoke, posing in the nude, Neil Diamond, sleep-walking, dirty dancing, sex toy stores, and mid-night confessions. And, just maybe, love!- Language:
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27 Sep 2025
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Unraveled by follow_your_fire for Sorceressofdragons, Saga_Thorn, TheCourtSorcerer
Fandoms: Merlin (TV)
26 Dec 2021
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“Are you telling me you broke up, because you can’t keep it down?”
Arthur scowls into his pint, giving Gwaine an unimpressed look.
Gwaine grimaces. “Sorry, that came out wrong. You broke up, because she didn’t like that you’re a little more...vocal when showing your appreciation?”
Now, that sounds even worse. Why has he told Gwaine anything again?
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In which Arthur is too loud during sex, and his lovers hate it. Cue Merlin, who's determined to take Arthur apart.Bookmarked by Xerxis
26 Sep 2025
