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Minho didn’t know it, but he was Jisung’s strongest drug. Stronger than the pills, stronger than the needles, stronger than the smoke that used to fill his lungs and choke his pain into silence. Just being here, just being near him, Jisung felt something close to peace.
Or: Han Jisung, drug addict boy knows the strongest drug he has ever used, Lee Minho
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28 Oct 2025
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“Um,” he squeaked, internally kicking himself when his voice cracked. “I… My name’s Han Jisung, I’m sixteen, and I…” He swallowed the lump in his throat, his knees pressing closer to his chest as he fumbled over what words were to come out of his mouth next. He didn’t want to say it, because in his heart it wasn’t true, but if he had asked any of his friends; his family, they’d all tell him the same thing.
“I tried to kill myself.”
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after a failed suicide attempt, jisung finds comfort in his peculiar new roommates in the psych ward.
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07 Oct 2025
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Why was he thinking about this in the first place? There was no way Chan was ready to have kids yet. He was barely able to take care of himself and he was always away at work until ungodly hours of the night, kids shouldn’t even be on the table.
But…
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alternatively: chan starts off fostering one kid and ultimately ends up with six
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- Part 1 of finding home
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02 Oct 2025
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“We’ll escape this place eventually, yeah? Together.”
“Promise me?”
“I promise.”
“And we’ll go everywhere? We won’t end up like my mom, will we? Not stuck in an unhappy marriage in a town that eats us alive, right?”
Hyunjin meets Seungmin in their quiet and small hometown when he’s five years old, and they become inseparable in the blink of an eye. Throughout the years, Hyunjin learns a thing or two about the world and himself, falls in love with his best friend, and grows up in the process.
When Seungmin leaves, he takes a piece of Hyunjin’s heart with him. Hyunjin thinks that’s the end of it.
Or, Hyunjin’s trials and tribulations through growing up and falling in love with his best friend. There’s a treehouse, a train track moment, heartbreak, and a whole lot of yearning.
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30 Sep 2025
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Seungmin doesn't step on it today.
He has already eaten. He's already dressed. He doesn't want to strip down again. It's too cold out for that. He would have had to have done it before his walk, but he forgot. It's too late to do it today. He'll do it tomorrow. He'll remember. (He won't. It's becoming too easy to forget.)
He opens his window more and lights a candle on top of his desk. His room won't smell of his soul rotting anymore, at least for today. He's back out of his room and working on finding things to do. The day is monotonous. He does his laundry. He sweeps. He watches videos on his phone. He eats a reheated lunch. He puts away his laundry. That's a real feat. That's a reason to celebrate. He wipes the counter and tables off. He’s on his phone again. He showers. Watches the grime peel off his skin like the orange he eats as a snack, and run down the drain. He spends more time on his phone. He ignores messages. He reads them but ignores them. That's too much. He's already doing a lot. He can't add that on.
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- Part 7 of Self-Destructive Kim Seungmin
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27 Sep 2025
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Everything is too hot. Seungmin's body is boiling, sweat dripping profusely down his neck and his vision hazy. No amount of water helps, he’s already had 3 bottles in the span of two hours. No, water isn’t what he needs. He knows what he needs. The little white pills sitting heavy in his bag.
Or, Seungmin is dealing with a lot and finds solace in a very destructive way.
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24 Sep 2025
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“Thank you,” he whispers when the hand slides over his back, threatening to run over the base of his neck. The touch is firm and steady but also light—caring even. Seungmin takes in the pile of wires and faintly glowing tech before he closes his eyes and soaks up Changbin's gentle strokes.
“I love you.”
He reaches out and splays his hand over the core. There is no warmth. Not yet, anyway. But he can feel the previously dormant life start to stir.
“I love you, Changbin.”
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23 Sep 2025
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“Okay. So …” Chan sat down next to Seungmin on the big bed and began slowly counting on his fingers. “I just want to make sure I got everything. You don’t really like being naked, sometimes you can’t speak after too much physical touch, and you want to be spanked over my knees a little in order to get out of your head enough to actually enjoy the sex. Oh, and no yelling. Only soft words. That sound about right?”
Seungmin winced and folded into himself, pulling his knees up to his chest and hiding his face. “When you say it like that, it sounds impossible, hyung …” he whined, and felt Chan reach over to ruffle his hair and sigh softly, the gentle smile apparent in his voice.
“It’s a tall order, but nothing I can’t handle. Hyung’s got you.”
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It happens because, on a random Thursday night, after one too many shots of vodka, two too many drunken, self-deprecating jokes, and three too many encouraging friends standing over his shoulder as he sat at his laptop, Seungmin decides to order a daddy Dom from an escort website.
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21 Sep 2025
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Han Jisung’s body is found just before 5:00 on a Thursday morning. A little more than an hour later, his academic rival Kim Seungmin gets into a near-fatal car crash that leaves him paralyzed.
While lying in a hospital bed, Seungmin encounters Jisung’s ghost, who has lost all of his memories, and they make a deal: In exchange for Jisung helping Seungmin walk again, Seungmin agrees to help find Jisung’s killer.
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16 Sep 2025
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Han Jisung had a plan.
And part of that plan was to go to the club and party like he never had before, every day, for a week straight.
The other half was much less exciting.Or Minho meets the man of his dreams unexpectedly on a night out but as they get to know each other it might be more than he bargained for.
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12 Sep 2025
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He had spent the entire day like that. Not even hunger could force him to move from his spot, now a permanent dip in the mattress. Seungmin knew he had things to do. He should put away his laundry. He should take a shower. He should eat some of the food in the fridge before it spoils. He should exist outside of the spot he had made his own prison.
But he just couldn’t
The effort to move too much. Every time he looked at his laundry he would get too overwhelmed and then crawl back under the comfort of his blankets. Even his blankets need a wash at this point. He could smell his own b.o lingering on them. He hated it. He was disgusted with himself and yet all he could do was wallow in the disgust.
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- Part 2 of Self-Destructive Kim Seungmin
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08 Sep 2025
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white powder in my nose, (ring ring, hearing dial tones.) by onlytodobaku
Fandoms: Stray Kids (Band)
10 Aug 2021
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That’s the thing about quicksand, the harder you try to escape it, the further down you sink.
And he’s made his decision, in a way.
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- Part 2 of fourty-two
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05 Sep 2025
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"If you die in that arena I'll never forgive you," says Minho. "So come back home."
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03 Sep 2025
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The Eighty-Fourth annual Hunger Games are around the corner. On Reaping day, Minho stands with his two best friends, awaiting everyone's fate. It's his last year, and the chances of him getting Reaped are low.
Or, the worst thing Minho could have ever imagined happens.
Jisung, who is one of the leaders of the Rebellion in the Capitol, can't help but be interested in Minho.
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03 Sep 2025
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Seungmin cuts himself to get Minho's attention, until one day he doesn't.
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02 Sep 2025
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“Do you have trouble sleeping, hyung?” he asked, worry seeping into his tone.
Chan startled, shocked to see he had forgotten all about the bottle of sleeping pills sitting right in the middle of his living room. “Ah— yeah, sometimes,” he replied, handing one of the mugs to the younger man who accepted it gratefully, wrapping his fingers around the ceramic to warm them up after having been outside all afternoon.
“Be careful with those, hyung,” he said, taking a sip of his hot chocolate. “I heard it’s really easy to overdose with them.”
Guilt welled in his stomach, settling like a rock. “I will, Jisung-ah,” he lied. “Hyung promises.”
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Chan is ready to end it all when he— quite literally— bumps into a frantic Jisung who gives him a reason to stick around a bit longer. Before he knows it, Chan has a whole group of people he would die for instead of in spite of.
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29 Aug 2025
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And so, Chan intentionally kept his head down and he took each and every blow; promising both himself and Jisung that one day, he would get them out of there.
Or; It’s always been Chan and Jisung versus the world, but they make the most of it.
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- Part 4 of Disabled SKZ
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27 Aug 2025
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Minho's house was built on the ocean. The hurricane started right in the middle of his house. Jisung's eye of the hurricane was never a safe place for him. It took him drowning and dying for him to understand that. Minho's drowning and dying made Jisung realize after his hurricane brought destruction to the only thing he was trying to protect he was bound to die out too.
*ੈ✩‧₊˚ ⋆✴︎˚｡⋆or... Jisung and Minho has to work together after a messy breakup.
*ੈ✩‧₊˚ ⋆✴︎˚｡⋆I started this as an enemies to lovers Minsung fic but I got way too invested in my side character arcs(Hyunlix) that I ended up prolonging it to finish their stories. So fuck it, 4 person POV, angsty ass hell, 180k words fanfic.
Just to clear up any confusion before it comes up... All these characters might show one or two telltale signs of some mental illnesses. 3/4 main characters in this story are a little messed up. Bear with them.
And, just in case, before anyone's confused, Minho isn't crazy(depends on who). Nothing bad will happen. No one is dead or imagining things. Don't be scared. Nothing bad happens(except when it does)
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27 Aug 2025
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By the time he realized just how bad things with his boyfriend had gotten, Jisung was in so deep, it felt easier to just swim down.
Thankfully, Chan and his friends have no intention of stopping until Han breaks the surface.Bookmarked by XiRow
27 Aug 2025
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Han Jisung fucked around and found out…literally. A single night of pleasure changes his life. She’s pregnant. He’s the father.
They agree to give up the baby for adoption. However, that all quickly changes the second the nurse places the newly born bundle in his arms and he decides that he’ll keep the baby.
As the old saying goes, it takes a whole village to raise a child. Who better to play the role of villagers than his group of friends, including his best friend, Minho, who’s suddenly back in Seoul?
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Prompt P011 for Minsung Ficathon Round Five
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26 Aug 2025