a_sad_queer
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chasing old ghosts (or are they chasing you?) by a_sad_queer
Fandoms: Detroit: Become Human (Video Game)
19 Oct 2025
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The Zen Garden is dead, its wind screeching in his ears, snow sticking to his jacket– he remembers feeling himself moving without permission, fingers flicking the safety off his gun without consent, a sadistic smile. A blizzard, violent and harsh.
"I'm done chasing ghosts."
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Connor thinks about humanity, sacrifice, fears. When confronting a past part of him, he finally decides something for himself.
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sex with a ghost (‘cause she knows i’m alone) by a_sad_queer
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
15 Jul 2025
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A boy with pale skin, silver hair, cold hands. A ghost without name, who lingers around those in need, who appears and disappears in the blink of an eye. A ghost who knows what to say, knows how to pick and choose words. A ghost that seems too knowledgeable, too melancholic.
Atsushi Nakajima was a ghost.
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How Atsushi Nakajima of the future helps his family, one by one. And how his family will help him keep the world safe.
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and the poison still stains my mouth by a_sad_queer
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
07 Jul 2025
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Atsushi doesn’t open up to a lot of people.
He knows, from the bottom of his heart, that feeling like he does is pathetic, and willingly telling people how he has been beaten and ridiculed his entire life is unnecessary.
No one wants to hear it. It’s not like Atsushi wanted to tell it, either. It’s one of those taboo topics adults talk about in a low, quiet voice, so no one else hears what they’re saying, or to which parents cover their children’s ears whenever brought up in their proximity. It’s private. Impure.
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Atsushi Nakajima and parallels.
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Atsushi’s journey from the middle of nowhere to a chaos-filled city.
(Atsushi's hard journey to home.)
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- Part 1 of tales left untold
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"Atsushi hated pain. But pain had been an intimate part of his life for as long as he could remember. Pain made Atsushi feel like himself. He didn’t know any other way to experience this feeling."
On the contrary, Atsushi suddenly finds he loves pain, he can’t live without it, just how he cannot live without Byakko. It's a part of him, and always has been. Yet, despite knowing it's wrong, there's something stopping him from telling anyone.
Cowardice, perhaps.
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Atsushi doesn't like talking about his life before being taken into the Armed Detective Agency. It's good that no one asks, because he feels a gaping hole in his chest whenever he thinks of it- of the orphanage. Of everything from before.
What is he keeping hidden?
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Just when they seemed about to settle on five hundred million yen, a calm, yet authoritative voice piped up from the back of the room:
“One billion yen.”
A hush immediately fell over the room. Atsushi paled. One. Billion. Yen. He didn’t even know that such wealth existed. He strained his eyes, trying to find the source of the offer, but under the harsh lights and the darkness of the audience, it was impossible.
“One billion yen…going once, twice, three times…sold to the man with the bandages!”
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Atsushi is taken from the Orphanage and sold to the Port Mafia to be Dazai's new apprentice
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08 Nov 2025
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You believe me like a god (I betray you like a man) by Im_Pizza
Fandoms: Detroit: Become Human (Video Game), Detroit: Become Human (Video Game) RPF
10 Mar 2024
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Connor believes him like a god
Markus destroys him like he is(Or, Markus is an atheist in a house of worship)
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30 Oct 2025
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Falling, Falling, Gone by ORPHANED (unholygrass)
Fandoms: Detroit: Become Human (Video Game)
28 Oct 2018
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Hank discovers Connor's fear of heights and where it stems from.
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19 Oct 2025
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[Define: ‘Burn’]
[Verb]
[Definition: ‘To be consumed by fire’]
“Didn’t even fucking hurt, did it?” Reed said, mouth stretching in a satisfied grin.
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17 Oct 2025
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In The Middle of My Story (All I Want Is to Feel Alive) by orphan_account
Fandoms: Detroit: Become Human (Video Game)
21 Jul 2020
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While the world struggles to adapt to androids coexisting as living beings, Connor struggles to get a handle on what it even means to be alive. CyberLife didn’t provide him the resources to understand these problematic emotions. At least not the ones he felt.
Deviancy was turning out to be a complicated matter, one that no pre-constructing could figure out.
And Hank? Well, Hank had been drowning his emotions in the bottom of a bottle for years. He was the last person anyone should turn to for this B.S. On top of it all, he knew jack shit about android’s.
But hell, he was starting to learn how to change the settings on his phone.
Maybe there was hope for them both after all.
(Or: 5 Times Connor Reminded Hank of Fatherhood, and the 1 Time He’d Never Soon Forget)
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16 Oct 2025