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    Slowly—too slowly—Naruto traced up and down Sasuke’s knuckles, caressing each finger, skipping across his bones. Sasuke’s fingers twitched—he wanted to grip Naruto’s hand, to pull him closer, to take more, but, as if sensing it, Naruto’s fingers slid up the back of his hand and circled his wrist lightly, holding, commanding—stay—he seemed to say.

    And Sasuke obeyed.

    With his other hand, Naruto reached for his Kindle. “It’s just us here,” he said softly. “You said you wanted to read good smut.” He tapped on the screen and pushed it towards Sasuke. “Here. This one’s my favourite.”

    Sasuke nodded, pulled it closer with his other hand, not wanting to withdraw from Naruto’s touch, when suddenly the blond’s expression changed into something playful yet predatory.

    “Read it aloud.”

    Naruto reads smut in a stylish library. Sasuke is the night shift librarian. The topic of Hysterical Literature and smutty fanfiction comes up and Naruto has a sexy voice and wicked ideas.

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    11 Apr 2026

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    lassitude (n.): weariness of body or mind; lack of energy, interest or spirit

    For a few seconds, Naruto thought the ball of something that had been constantly growing in the middle of his chest would suffocate him, but he dug his nails in the palms of his hands and learned to breathe around it.

    He went home and crawled into bed.

     

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    They win the war, but somehow Naruto still feels like he's fighting something.

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    11 Apr 2026

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    saudade (n.): a feeling of longing, melancholy or nostalgia

    He was turning 18 in a few months. This entire year had felt like a vivid nightmare. And still, he turned towards where the hospital was, kilometers away, and thought the only true regret he was left with was leaving the first time, and the second time, and all the times in between. The only true regret he still had was his hand through the chest of the only person he'll ever love. 

     

     

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    Sasuke thought getting Naruto out of that goddamned bed would be it. He was wrong.

     

    sequel to : lassitude

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    metanoia (n.):the journey of changing one's mind, heart, self, or way of life

    Sasuke remained silent, swallowing around the dryness of his throat, and simply clutched Naruto’s hand tighter, using his other hand to pull him even closer, as if he could just hide him inside his chest, where no one could ever hurt him again.

    Naruto’s hand was clutching at his shirt, like a child would, and Sasuke’s heart was breaking over and over again every day, seeing the difference, the way Naruto turned from the loudest, in-your-face, obnoxious brat, to this silent boy, lost and scared.

     

     

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    It's always two steps forward, one step back. Naruto comes home.

     

    sequel to: saudade

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    11 Apr 2026

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    Naruto didn't want to worry anyone, and really, he didn't need to. So what, a year had passed and most everyone had learned how to live with themselves. So what, he was still stuck in the past, reliving memories that weren't his own?

    He would figure it out; he had to. He just didn't think it'd be this hard. Didn't think it'd take so long, and now his friends are involved and he almost regrets not going to them earlier.

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