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There, out in the darkness, fugitives wander,
Fallen to doom, fallen from grace.
As Eru my witness, tears unnumbered you’ll shed
If you go from this place.
If you go from this place,
You’ll go your way in the dark
Hear me now, heed my word:
Those who follow the path of the Vanyar
Shall have their reward
But if you vow as Feanor vowed
The flame, the sword!

Stars, in their multitudes,
Number uncounted,
Filling the darkness
With order and light,
They are my witnesses
Silent and sure
Keeping watch in the night
Keeping watch in the night
They know their place in the sky
They hold their course and their aim
And each in its time returns and returns
And is always the same.
And if you fall as Melkor fell
You fall in flame!

And so it must be for so it is written
On the shoreway to Valinor
That those who flee us and kill their kin
Must pay the price!

Melkor, one day we will find him
That we may see him
Safe behind bars
In outer darkness
Until then
Go your way
Go your way by the stars!

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Beren:
In my life
You dance like the stars and the light of the sun!

Luthien:
And my life
Seems to stop
As if something is over
Before scarcely begun!

Beren:
Tinuviel, you’re the fate
Who has brought me here
Thanks to you, I’m lost in a dream
Where my love is near!
And I soar through a world that is new
That is free…

Daeron:
Every word that she sings
Is a dagger in me.
In my life, there’s been no one like her anywhere
Anywhere that she is,
Flowers spring where her feet kiss.

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Beren:
A heart full of love
A heart full of song -
I’m doing everything all wrong -
Valar, for shame, I do not even know your name,
Dear nightingale
Won’t you say?
Won’t you tell?

Luthien:
A heart full of love -
But who are you then?

Beren:
My name’s Beren, Barahir’s son.

Luthien:
And I’m Luthien.

Beren:
Luthien! I don’t know what to say.

Luthien:
Then make no sound.

Beren:
I am lost.

Luthien:
I am found.

Beren:
A heart full of love.

Daeron:
She was never mine to lose.

Luthien:
A heart full of you.

Daeron:
Why regret what could not be?

Beren:
One single look and then I knew.

Daeron:
These are words she’ll never say

Luthien:
I knew it, too.

Daeron:
Not to me, not for me,

Beren and Luthien:
From today, everyday.
For it isn’t a dream,
Not a dream, after all!

Daeron:
She will never feel this way!

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There was a time when life was kind,
Voices were soft and words inviting
There was a time when love was mine,
And love was a song
And the song was exciting.
There was a time
Then it all went wrong.

I loved a Man in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I could not dream that he would die
I thought my Father’d be forgiving.

But I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used
And wasted
I thought my ransom would be paid
My bride-price won
And all love tasted.

But my fate has come at last
And its voice, as soft as thunder,
Has torn my hopes apart
Have turned my dreams to shame.

He spent a summer by my side -
He filled my days with endless wonder!
We fought monsters in our time
But he was dead when autumn came!

And still I dream he’ll come to me
And we could live our years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are fates we cannot weather.

How I dreamed my life would be
So different from this hell I’m living
So different now from what it seemed
Now fate has killed the love I dreamed.

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What have I done, sweet Eru, what have I done?
Become a thief in the night, become a dog on the run?
Have I fallen so far and is the hour so late
That nothing remains but the Oath of my hate
And my cries in the dark that nobody hears
Here where I stand at the turning of the years?

If there’s another way to go, we missed it long ages ago
Our Oath was a war that could never be won
Unnumbered tears and a murdered Fingon
He found me when I was almost dead
He became my saviour instead.

Yet why did I allow that one
To touch my heart and teach me love?
He treated me like any other,
Gave me his trust, he called me lover.
My heart he sought to raise above
Can such things be?
Now he’s gone I hate the world
This world that always hated me!

The Oath I now fulfil in doubt
As I have doubted all these years
My heart is gone and yet it trembles
The love I have known is lost in shadow.

Are these guards Valar or are they Orcs?
And do they know
That by allowing me to leave
They have killed me even so.

I am reaching but I fall
Even the stars are black and cold
I stare into a fiery void
And the ground, it will not hold.

I’ll escape now from this land
From the land without Fingon
There is nowhere I can turn
There is no way to go on!

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Who were those guards?
What sort of Orc-ways were these?
They had us dead to rights
And choose to let us go free?
It was our hour at last
To meet our final fate
They cannot wipe out the past
Or wash us clean from the slate
But all it would take is a flick of a knife
This pain could end, along with this life.

Damned if I’ll go back, repent as a thief
Damned as I hold it at the end of the chase
I made an Oath and the Oath is not mocked -
I wish the Silmarils had never been made!
It burns me but fair is fair
The pain I must bear I’ll bear.

How can I be allowed to live?
There is no place I can be free.
I am desperate, I am hunted
There is nowhere I can be.

I should have perished in the night.
It was their right.
It was my right to die as well.
Instead I live but live in hell.

And my thoughts fly apart
Can it be believed?
Can I be forgiven?
Can my crimes be reprieved?

That I have erred I do not doubt
I never doubted all these years
My heart was stone but now it trembles
My world, I know, was lost in Shadow.

Can I save my soul?
How do I know?
What can I do to change my life?
Is there another way to go?

I am reaching but I fall
And the dark is closing in
I stare into the Sea
I lift, I throw it in,
I’ll escape now from this world
And from all I have become
Maglor is nothing now
Another journey must begin!