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"Shut the FUCK up Tommy! All you ever do is bitch and whine, maybe if you shut the fuck up for once, we wouldn't have to do this, huh?" Dream had said. Stomping on Tommy's aching ribcage. Dream didn't like it when he cried, Or talked back. Or talked at all, really, except for his loyal 'yes, Dream' and 'no, Dream's.'

“I’m- sorry dream!” “You hid stuff from me! I thought I could trust you after all this time.” Dream yelled as he drove his sword into the side of Tommy’s stomach, Tommy screamed coughing up blood in the process. Tommy desperately tried to keep his eyes open but his strength was fading and decided to just remain motionless on the prickly weed infested floor.

“Get up.....I said get up!”

“I'm sorry dream- I promise I won't make you mad again, just give me one more chance- ill stop getting new stuff, I'll stop talking back, just ple-”

''Stop with your begging, will you! God just shut up for once, your voice is so goddamn annoying!” Dream said, Lifting tommy up by his throat  “dream- p-please I cant..breat-h” Tommy begged “DIDN'T I SAY TO STOP TALKING!” Dream snapped, letting anger rush over him. Before he knew it Dream finally added too much force then he meant to until, both party's heard the unfamiliar crack of a broken windpipe.

Dream dropped Tommy shocked at his own doing, he looked down and let out a small chuckle seeing how defeated the boy looked on the floor. He looked nothing like the man he saw before, the man that caused him so much trouble, the man who ruined his plans, the man who brought bravery to anyone who fought with him… Now he was just- a boy.

After a while of watching Tommy lay on the floor, chest barely able to fill with air, Dream crouched down and poked Tommy with a stick he found next to him only receiving a small feeble flinch in return. Dream sighed as he stood back up walking back to the portal.

Right before he stepped in, Dream turned his head, sighing again “You're useless Tommy, not just to me but everyone now. I was only here to mess with you, not ‘be your friend’ now you're no fun any more…and the more I think about it, it would just be better if you just died already saving me and everyone else the hassle of killing you.” Dream paused taking one long last look at Tommy. “I mean you can’t really blame me can you?” He finally looked away and stepped fully into the portal, leaving Tommy in shambles, not just physically but mentally.

Tommy raised his head slowly wanting so badly to scream out to dream and beg him not to leave him but no matter how hard he tried nothing came out of his throat. He could only watch as he saw his one last ‘friend’ leave him. He begged to whatever god was listening to put him out of his misery, he had nothing anymore not his home, discs, friends, father, brothers,-tubbo.

As the sun started to set Tommy slowly regained enough strength to get up, he slowly grabbed all the dirt and wood he could and started building up with it. At the top, Tommy finally looked down at the tall pillar he created and a sense of relief washed over him realizing he could now get out of everyone's way. "Maybe Dream was right. I am causing trouble for everyone, I couldn't even stay out of their way and instead i tried to distract them all with a stupid party when they are all clearly busy right now fixing my mistakes, I should have known without dream having to tell me." Tommy thought as he began spiraling into his negative thoughts.

“what if Dream came right now and saw me up here would he hurt the others because of me? Would he hurt tubbo-” The thought of Dream treating anyone else like this made his stomach turn.“ well- if I'm dead he won't be able to punish me because this time I won't come back. He looked up at the moon as it slowly rose. "So this is ok for me to do...right?" Tommy coughed shooting pain down his throat and side.

Tommy laid down with his legs off the ledge still clutching his side to stop the blood from gushing out. Without realizing him even realizing his eyes began to close, exhausted from the day he just began to process.

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“Are you sure you want to go see Tommy?” Techno said buckling Carl, his horse, up.

”Of course I do! He was my right hand man, and to be honest I don’t think I would have been able to accomplish anything without him there at the time.” After some silence he added “I just hope he will forgive me for throwing it all away and leaving him” Wilbur chuckled. “I can imagine him ranting about how much he hates me, so what has he said about me, come on spill it." Wilbur chuckled some more nudging Techno’s side.

“He hasn't said anything about it, honest.“ Techno said anxiously, technically he wasn't wrong Tommy hadn't said anything not because he forgave Wilbur, but because Techno hasn't spoken to Tommy after he blew up the remains of his country. But Techno knew if he told Wilbur that he would be furious. It was one thing for Wilbur because he was insane at the time, but Techno was completely sane as he shot his little brother's best friend in front of him.

“Oh I'm actually surprised by that…'' Wilbur admitted “Anyways how's he been? I know he's always been quiet around you and dad but he hasn't been completely alone and away from you guys, has he?" Trying to avoid the question, Techno looked down and started curling his hair around his finger.

“I'm actually glad he still had you and dad around, looking back on it Tommy was so young at the start of the war, but he had you two so I’m sure he’s fine, ” Wilbur ended with a sigh of relief.

“Well I wouldn’t be too sure about that one-“ Techno said, still looking down, curling his hair around his finger. ”What do you mean by that techno?” Wilbur said, cutting his brother off.

” I haven’t told you yet,” Techno gulped out of anxiousness “ because I knew you would be upset by this, but Tommy’s in exile right now, and he isn’t on the best terms with me and dad anymore -so..”

”And why is that Techno?” He said gritting his teeth. “At least tell me he’s not alone! Or that you checked up on him, even if it was from the sidelines!”

”Look I’m sorry Wilbur but I’m sure he’s fine, he was always independent as a child, I can’t even remember a time he’s asked me or dad for help with any mundane task.”

”BECAUSE YOU WERE ALWAYS AWAY WITH DAD, I HAD TO RAISE HIM!” Wilbur yelled but stopped himself an took a deep breath before continuing. "He never asked you two for anything because he never felt close to you and dad. You two were like strangers to him when he was little because it was only me and him at the house when he was growing up, you and dad were always on adventures leaving us for months at a time!”

Techno’s hands shook, Wilbur was always the one person who was able to make Techno anxious or scared. Wilbur was always the relaxed, reliable one in the family, so when he was mad it was for a good reason.

Techno remained silent quickly becoming more and more frightened as he listened to his brother yell at him

E

Techno scared?

brother mad

BLOOD FOR THE BLOOD GOD

EEEEEE

Say sorry!

Techno scared!

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“Didn’t you leave him, too, Wilbur?!” Techno snapped back, his anxiety reaching its limit.

Wilbur's rant stopped and his eyes pricked with tears as his face turned pale now just realizing the severity of his leaving and the effect it had on his brother, his head quickly turned to the side as he realized he couldn't hide his tears.

Techno registered how much his words probably hurt his brother after seeing the sick look on his face. ”I’m so sorry Wilbur, I didn’t mean it really, I was just scared angry and blurted it out.”

”No it’s fine tech, thank you for setting me straight, it never really hit me, how hard it must have actually been for tommy. And I'm sorry for yelling at you, you're right... I did leave him and if anything you should be the one yelling at me.” Wilbur wiped his eyes and tried to compose himself once again.

They both stood in silence looking at each other's feet or the snow around them, both trying to avoid eye contact, unsure of what to say now.

The awkward silence was broken by Techno as he sighed and got on the back of Carl holding out his hand for Wilbur. "We should go looking for Tommy now.” he cleared his throat trying to clear the thick air around them. “ I think we should go through the plains biome near here instead of the nether, it would be easier for Carl that way .."

Wilbur smiled realizing what Techno was trying to do "ok, sounds like a plan." Wilbur added taking Techno’s hand and hopping on Carl as well.