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“Hey, mum uh it’s time.” “Time? Oh, time like go time, alrighty then let’s get going then.” I walk out to the foyer to put my shoes on stay calm George everything is okay just get to the hospital that’s what’s important right now. “Okay, darling you got the bag perfect you have your wallet?” She looks at me smirking I nod “Alright then c’mon.” I never really liked hospitals who does? I’ve always thought of them as a bad thing like something medically went wrong so you have to go to the hospital I never thought of them as a happy place but here I am waiting for a new life to be brought into the world a life I will care for, love and raise. Thats still terrifying to think about but I'm ready I think I've read more about parenthood in the past 3 months than I read collectively all my years in secondary school, and we have the things he needs to live I think? We have a cot, a pram, lot's of clothes, blankets, nappies, bottles, formula, books, changing table. I mean the list goes on I'm ready right? Yeah...

“Do you have any details on how they are doing?” Mum a necessary distracting voice in the chaos of my worried brain. “Her friend said the waters broke at home or is that how you say it?” “The baby's water broke okay do you know how far along she is?” “Uh s-seven I think.” “Seven centimeters more than halfway, good that’s good darling.” I nod fidgeting with my hands I feel her warm hands on mine “I know your nervous love but I’m right here I’m not going anywhere I’m here, however, you need me.” And for that, I’m grateful because there is no way in hell I could do this alone I’m 22 and about to be a father. “Thanks, mum.” She gives her warm crooked teeth smile.

“Mr. Davidson.” Oh shit that’s me okay is it time? I look to my left she nods towards the nurse “Go meet your boy.” I walk over to the nurse my legs kinda feel like jelly but I walk on “H-hello.” She gives a kind smile “Hiya I’m Jen a nurse here you can walk with me, alrighty so Nia just gave birth everything went well baby boy looks great born at 16:28, he is just getting the cord cut now and getting cleaned up for his daddy to meet him so you ready?” Holy fuck this is happening like now this is happening okay yeah right I can do this he is healthy, right? “Yeah ready.” That came out a bit more of a question than I would like I mean I’ve been preparing for a while now I should be ready, she opens a door to a room with two other nurses and a screeching baby a baby my baby.

“Alright, dad you want to do skin to skin?” “O-okay yeah is he okay?” An older blond nurse is holding him with a loose blanket on him and with one arm how is she doing that? “Oh yeah, it’s just hard work being born isn't it baby say I'm only 7 minutes old, okay dad so sit on the bed.” A blond nurse walks over to the bed with him “So your shirt isn’t super stretchy so just take it off and I’ll give you a swaddle blanket to put over you two.” I nod quickly pulling my shirt off “Just sit back and I’ll plop your baby on your chest.” I move till my back is against the headboard this is like a real bed I didn’t know they did that at hospitals I guess if I’m staying here that’s nice “Meet your daddy.” She places him on my chest oh wow he is tiny I feel like I could break him he feels so fragile how did she hold him like that the other nurse puts a warm blanket over him they keep saying that I’m the dad and he is mine but it doesn’t really feel real like I just have a child now? They can just hand him off to me I mean I know I have to like check-in and everything with the hospital but still, it's just like they're handing out babies. “So just put your hand on his bum over the blanket.”

I do as told what about his neck? “Should I hold his neck too?” My voice is quiet he is still crying stop the crying George what did I read uh shushing and rocking he seems too little for that okay just skin to skin, for now, this is important for bonding, “You don’t have to right now his head is on your chest and you're leaning back.” She backs away I’m holding him holy fuck I’m holding him on my own he is still crying I need to calm him “H-hi… hi shh it’s alright, I’m here.” The nurse that walked me in and the other one leaves I look down at the baby my baby right my baby I’m a dad. Thank goodness he is calming down he is okay, oh Nidya is she okay? “They're both okay right? Nothing was wrong? Like the birth and everything?” “They are both great everything went smoothly nothing to worry about we will be in and out for the next 24 ish hours but for the next hour is just you and him for some skin to skin so you can bond and get to know each other then we will do some test and all that stuff. Do you have a first name yet I can put on the board?” I smirk thinking back to when I found his name Ginny, mum and I were raddling off so many names the ones they liked were boring and mum's suggestions were very Britsh until finally, Ginny said his name from a long list on the internet it caught my attention because my first thought was Minecraft but to most of the world it's a normal name but also to me it has a nod to an important game in my life, Is it kinda immature that I liked the name because of a block game sure but I don't care he is my child. “Yeah is Ender.” She stands at a small whiteboard with all his information like weight and length which isn't filled out yet I'm sure they will after. “Oh, what a lovely name I’ll write that up here… is that spelled how you want it?” “Yup.” “Okay well I’ll leave you for now, here is the remote if you need to call a nurse just push this right here.” She points to a button then sets it down before leaving me alone with him I’m alone with this little baby on my chest “Hello Ender I’m your daddy… and you're my son.” My eyes fill with tears I’m crying I didn’t think I would cry he is my little baby it’s real now I have a son. He looks so small and precious on my chest he has dark hair wavy-ish maybe he will have curly hair? “ I’m sure being born was hard but I’m so proud of you. You are so brave, strong, and powerful little baby I promise I’ll tell you that as much as I can. I read in a book that you should talk to babies even if they can’t really understand you I’ve read a lot of books and did days of research because I want to be the best dad I can be for you. ” I'm going to be the dad I wish I had growing up.

Tears flow slowly down my face as I whisper to him holding him tight he makes a cute little sound “Awe that was sweet you hear me talkin?” As if he can hear me fully he squeaks again “Well I guess I’ll talk to you some more then your Nana is here too you will meet her in a little you have an antie named Ginny she is very excited to meet you. I’ve graduated Uni I have a computer science degree I uh code a lot of things especially in Minecraft which is a block game I’ve met some super cool people through it it’s kinda like my job right now but now my life is you and taking care of you. I still live with your Nana for now but that means we get to have sleepovers like every night because we share a room pretty cool if you ask me.”

I’ve been a dad for a full 24 hours now actually and I’m in love already as cheesy as it is I really do love him so much. I read that some people, especially dads, don't always have a connection to their baby right away, and honestly, I half expected it although we still have to get to know each other I do have a love for him already that can't be explained. Looking down at him now his eyes open wide it looks like he is actually looking at me “Hello there you're wide awake huh? Yeah, you are cute you know that your nose is like a little button.” I stroke his little cheek with my finger “Your not as puffy anymore now I can see your face more I think you have my lips and eye shape. I think you're getting a little bath tonight hopefully you don’t cry too much I don’t want you to be upset maybe you can just sleep through it your good at sleeping. You have been doing so good with all your test I know they aren't fun but they have to do them to make sure you are all healthy so we can go home.”
Enders First month of life
~Before leaving the hospital~

While my mom has Ender I should probably go see Nidya since she asked me to, hopefully, everything is okay everything went through for the paperwork Ender is all mine so it’s not like she can do much he is legally mine but still.
“Hey.” “Hi you wanted to talk to me?” “If that’s alright I know your guys probably leaving soon since I’m leaving soon.” “Yeah just was finishing up on his paperwork.” She nods “Well I just wanted to say goodbye and thank you I know I had to go over it with all the official people but I just want to make sure with you again. You will never tell him who I am right? Even if he asks when he is older and wants to look for me?” Oh thank fuck everything is just how we planned it. “Yes of course that’s what you want and what we both agreed on so I’ll honor that.” “Okay good because most of the people here keep telling me that I’m going to regret it I even had to talk to a psychologist to make sure I was sane I don’t get the big deal with people being so shocked that I don’t want anything to do with him I just kept him alive till he could go to his real home. But seriously I’m grateful you took him at least he will be in good hands and have a good life unlike if I put him up for adoption.” I nod “Of course and thank you for keeping him alive and growing him.” She laughs lightly “Sure George well that’s all I’m almost out of here thank the gods.” “I should get back anyway so goodbye and good luck in France.” “Yeah thanks goodbye to you too.” ~ First days at home~ Wow, this is pretty hard fuck having a newborn is no joke they need you a lot. Right now he is content on my chest sitting like a little frog this is his favorite way to be positioned when being held his legs tucked up us chest to chest I love it too when he doesn't need anything he is a pretty chill baby content to lay on me for hours. I talk to him a lot of the time I hold him while I talk to online friends ready to mute or leave at any point. “There is the one guy who you will probably hear a lot I’m becoming close with his name is Dream that’s not his real name but he is probably my best friend right now everyone else kinda ditched me but that’s okay because I have you and they weren't my real friends if they didn’t want to be friends because I'm a dad. Dream is like 19 or 20 I think and he has a best friend named Pandas or Sapnap again not his real name. We all seem to click well together I like them I wasn’t so sure at first because when Dream first tried to talk to me he was like 16 and I was 19 so I didn’t want to be friends with a kid on the internet thats weird but now he is 20 he is a pretty good coder for being basically self-taught but I would never tell him that it would go right to his head Pandas is kinda annoying at times but he works hard it school and we play off of each other well he makes fun of me and I make fun of him but it's cool it's not a mean way you never should make fun of someone normally. I’ve always had friends on the internet but these ones feel different maybe because I’m older I’m a whole ass adult with a child also you can swear I don’t care but not in front of Nana she would flip out, let’s focus on saying dada first okay little baby? You are a whole 10 days old I’m so proud of you you are getting so big daddy loves you very much I didn’t know you could love someone as I love you it’s quite crazy you have taught me a lot already. ”

~ Dream finds out ~

No one's POV

George talks to his online friends close to every day shocking no one has heard anything, George wishes he could tell some of them but would they not want to be friends anymore because he is a dad? Currently, Dream and George are on call they were working on a code that Dream wrote out but now they are just talking randomly well Dream will talk George is super quiet trying his best to hold back his emotions. Running on no sleep and dealing with a newborn basically alone it's making it hard to keep it together. “George are you okay? You have been really quiet?” “No.” George said without emotion “No what you’re not okay?” “M’not okay.” “Okay, that’s alright just talk to me what can I do?” “I shouldn’t tell you.” “But do you want to?” “Fuck yes so badly.” The brown-headed boy sighs looking at the sleeping newborn next to him “Just tell me I won’t judge you know that.” George is silent as he watches the newborn’s body move as he breathes short intakes of breaths can be heard as he starts to cry. “ Aw George it’s okay you can cry. ” The British boy’s body shakes with quiet sobs as to not wake the baby he doesn’t try to calm down or stop the crying he just lets the months of built-up emotions all out as Dream whisper’s calming words to the shaking boy trying his best to help him from over four thousand miles away.
George with the help of Dream takes some deep breaths, he collects himself enough to talk. “Sorry for crying agh.” “It’s okay I don’t mind I sounded much needed just talk whenever you’re ready.” “You can’t tell anyone I mean it not even Pandas, Dream I’m deadass serious.” Dream sits up in his chair suddenly realizing how serious this is by his tone of voice. “Okay, George I promise hundred percent.” George looks at his son as he spills his deep secret “I have a child.” George says as quietly as he can while still being heard, There is silence to George it seemed like minutes when actually it was 20 secs tops “H-how old?” The Floridian chokes out “3 weeks 2 days and 11 hours.” “What you don’t have the minutes counted too?” Dream jokes effectively lighting the mood “No I haven’t.” “This is for real?” “Trust me I wouldn’t joke about this.” “Damn George you must be getting no sleep.” “I feel like shit… but then I hold him and see his face and suddenly I don’t care. It fucking weird how much I love him.” The little baby in question moves his arms around to his face making George smirk

“It’s a boy, You have a son?” “I have a son.” “So how did this happen? I mean you didn’t birth a baby do you have a girlfriend I don’t know about?” “No no um this girl I went to Uni with we met up at a bar near campus and hooked up I wore protection but something went wrong I was slightly intoxicated so maybe it had a hole or something and I didn’t see. She came to me when she was 5 months pregnant and said that she wanted nothing to do with a baby she has her whole career ahead of her and she doesn’t want kids nor does she like them. Luckily she asked me if I wanted to keep the baby my first reaction was no but after a couple of days of thinking and talking to my mum, I realized I was being a little bitch and I can do this I can raise a kid I know I can give him a great life an amazing childhood full of love and happiness. What if he was put into a family that didn’t treat him right? I would hate myself forever if I knew I had a kid out in the world and wasn’t a part of their life. So we went through all the paperwork for me to have full custody of him she moved to France she is gone from his life forever she doesn’t know his name or anything about him which is what she wanted. I was most definitely not expecting to have a child within the next ten years but here we are, he is mine and I am his.”

“Wow George that’s- your very admirable, thank you for telling me, It’s kinda hard for me to believe and wrap my head around.” “D-do you still want to be friends I know it’s kinda weird but I promise I’m still me I’m just also a dad.” “George come on of course I want to be your friend still your cool I’m super happy we have been working together more like with youtube and everything, I’ll try my best to help you however I can.” “Me telling you is helping already it hurt when most of my old friends here cut me off because of him I’d like to think of him as a bonus to being my friend so I’m glad you don’t mind. When I talked to you knowing I was keeping something this big from you it felt wrong but I felt it was necessary and I still think it’s necessary that everyone else doesn’t know.” “Don’t worry I won’t tell a soul could I uh maybe see him if you have a picture or something?” “Oh trust me I have so many pictures and videos and he barely does anything I’m so annoying already.”

George opens his camera roll to search for some the first one that is sent is Ender laying in George’s lap his legs together “He is 5 days old here I finally got a picture with his eyes open baby’s sleep so much and a lot of the time when he was awake it was crying because he wanted food or needed his nappy changed or something. He has grayish eyes they were super dark when he was first born but I learned along with many other things that babies' eyes change.” “Awe George he is a cute baby not to be mean but some are ugly but he is actually cute; his little nose.” George laughs “Yeah some are lucky he is adorable oh this is a good one he is doing tummy time, uh you can see his hair in this one it looks kinda wavey ish even when he was firstborn.” George sends another one and continues to for the next thirty minutes the brown-headed boy is thrilled to finally tell someone who actually wants to hear and who isn’t family about his little boy. Although Dream and George were fairly close before after telling Dream the two become/became super close a more intimate bond grew every day from then on.

~ First Halloween ~

George POV

I gently stroke two fingers on his head and cheek “It’s Halloween little baby today a bunch of people dress up to go to houses and when you get to a house you say trick or treat then they give you candy. You are a little too young to go but we can watch a Halloween movie not a scary one though not that you would know the difference you will be sleeping on me but daddy doesn’t like them. I didn’t want you to be left out on your first Halloween though so I have a frog hat for you as a costume because you lay on me like a little frog.” I lean forward and kiss his forehead lightly before laying my head back on the bed facing him “I love you little boy so much.”

~ One month ~

“Happy one-month little baby it’s crazy that a month has already passed I’m so proud of you and all your accomplishments. You are the best thing to happen in my life I'm so happy I'm your daddy, Ender Rue Davidson I love you.” I kiss his cheeks and forehead lightly over and over I just can't get enough of his cuteness.

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Tonight is the first really rough night Ender and I have had when he first came home it was hard for me to get up every couple of hours feeling like I never slept, we both had to learn a lot mostly me learning how to be a dad and learning more about him what he likes and doesn’t like. Luckily I live with my mum and sister so sometimes they would take him so I could take a little nap or work but I usually choose nap.

Tonight he is having a hard night he has been crying nonstop and it feels like I can’t calm him no matter what I do “Shh it’s okay shh shh your okay baby daddy is here shhh.” He calms down for a short amount of time then he will start up again it’s been like since 12 AM it's now 2:30 AM. This last go around I’ve been bouncing and swaying for 20 something minutes and he is still screeching his nappy is changed, he doesn’t want a bottle, he drops the binkie from his mouth because he is crying, there are no clothing tags or anything poking him, he isn’t cold or hot. Every minute that passes I start to break down more and more I just want him to be okay and not upset and I can’t seem to do anything to help I’m completely helpless I’m his father I’m supposed to calm him and help him right now I’m failing.

“It’s alright baby shhhh shhhhh.” I open my eyes when I hear my door open to see my poor mum awake in her nightgown and robe. I figured everyone would wake up because of the crying but I still feel bad she has work in the morning so does Ginny they need rest. “Awe darling.” She says lightly walking into my room with a kind face not a hit of annoyance.

“What am I doing wrong?” I plead to her “Nothing George your doing nothing wrong, how about I take him and you can take a breather. Sound okay?” I should stay he needs me right now this is my job to take care of him. “No offense dear but you look your on the verge of a breakdown just step out a second he is going to feed off your energy if you are really frazzled he’s gonna sense it go calm down even for just a couple of minutes.”

So I hand him off to my mum still crying as much as I feel I need to stay she is probably right she normally always is. Breathe in and out my eyes start to water why can’t I do this why can’t I calm my own child what am I doing wrong? I wipe my face and take some more breaths everything will be alright I just have to get through tonight.

After a much-needed breather, I walk back to my room and shockingly I hear no cry well I guess not too shocking considering my mum is incredible and did raise two kids already. “Oh, daddy is back.” I smirk walking over to her Ender is still awake and wrapped in a swaddle I guess he wanted to be swaddled now “What did you do? He didn’t want to be swaddled earlier.” “I moved his legs around and he passed gas then he seemed to start to calm down so I swaddled him up.” She passes him over to me I hold under his head taking him “So that’s what was wrong? I’m stupid I should have thought of that.” I shake my head looking down at him his eyes are open just looking up “Just some gas you would have got it eventually, babies can only communicate through cries so it’s kinda like a guessing game it makes it much harder to think when they are screaming in your ear. You are doing really good George he is lucky to have you as a dad.” I look at her I’ve never been good with words so a “Thank you mum truly.” Is the best I can say she nods walking out of my room “Your welcome darling try to get some sleep.”

After a little more rocking Ender is finally asleep probably not for long because his next feeding is in about an hour but I’ll take it for now.

The rest of the night well morning went okay not great but we did it we made it through to the other side hopefully tonight will be better. That's just how it is sometimes we will have rough nights

~ ~ ~

Ender is more than a month old to be exact he is one month three weeks and 2 days I think we have somewhat of a routine our night starts at:

Around 12:00 AM

Oddly enough you would think it would start in the morning but he eats every three-ish hours while he eats I’m normally talking to Dream, Pandas, or his new name Sapnap but we still say Pandas sometimes, or Bad but mostly Dream then I burp him and get in a few more cuddles while he falls asleep he then goes into his bassinet. Sapnap and Bad don’t know about Ender so I usually tell them I have to go do something, I’m busy, or I mute. Tonight it’s just Dream and I thought so I can talk freely as Ender sucks down his bottle

“I bet formula tastes terrible.” Dream states “Yeah probably but he loves it.” “Do you have to heat it up?” “Yeah slightly but you do it after you make it in the bottle we have a bottle warmer till it’s lukewarm I test it on the back of my hand or wrist to make sure it’s not too hot.” “Hm that makes sense.” I look down his eyes are wide open I smile at him he really is cute.

“The Minecraft with only one slot video is doing well George oh are we still good to film the XRAY pickaxe video on the 29th?” Ah yes work I thought I would have a small break because we just uploaded but our videos have been doing better with views so we have to keep on it. I mean I am very lucky considering right now this is my job and it’s flexible and I make my own schedule for the most part which is very helpful when trying to raise a baby and work. “Yeah, that should still work.”

Dream and I talk more about video plans while Ender finishes eating “It’s all gone you drank it all I’m sorry.” He is crying because I pulled the bottle away I gently pat his back burping him “Shh shh it’s alright was that bottle was just so good?” I sway in my chair trying to get him back to sleep he also likes when I rub his back.

With the combination of all three, he calms down enough so I can swaddle him up so he can go to sleep again I cuddle him for a couple more minutes giving him some more kisses then confirm he is sleeping before putting him in the bassinet right by my bed I kiss his forehead lightly careful not to wake him then I turn on his white noise machine to help keep him asleep and it helps calm him if he does wake up “Love you little baby.”

One thing that makes my life slightly easier is that I have a mini-fridge in my room so when I put him to sleep than I usually make two extra bottles while I’m not tired or half-asleep then the only thing I have to do is heat it. I have a warmer in my room all I add is water if need be. So I’ll make them then put them in the fridge so I have it for the 3 AM and the 6 AM feed because formula can stay in a fridge for 24 hours they never stay in there longer than 7 and a half hours anyway.

2 AM

Ender is still asleep Dream and I have been working on a code for an upcoming video mostly me working because I’m the greatest, of course, okay not really I mean I am the greatest but he is helping some he actually started the code but need my help because I’m what… The greatest yes thank you, Ender should wake up in the next hour and a half-ish so I’ll work till he wakes up to eat again then I’ll go to sleep.

He does make noise and sometimes wakes up randomly but not fully he will like whimper or whine and I always turn to him but he usually never fully wakes up he also has this sock-looking thing that monitors his heart rate and blood oxygen levels it’s probably not 100% necessary but my cousin got it for me and said it help with peace of mind which I will say it does help sometimes to confirm that he is okay.

3:30 AM

Ender has eaten again and is swaddled back up ready to go back in his bassinet I said goodnight to Dream right when Ender woke up. Now it’s time for me to sleep this is normally what happens sometimes I fall asleep before this but I usually do most of my work at night so I can give Ender my attention during the day although there is a lot of the day when he is sleeping that I work too like recording videos.

6 AM

Ender my personal alarm clock wakes me up screeching so I get him up and put the pre-made bottle in the warmer so it heats up while I change him I’m usually a literal zombie during this feed and change and just want to go back to sleep but sadly I can’t till his next little nap. So we chill in our room in my bed I hold him and make silly noises to entertain him I kiss him a lot during this time and we talk he makes noises which of course “I agree… tell me about it.” He coo’s back we go back and forth in conversation I do most of the talking as expected.

9 AM

After another bottle it’s finally nap time he sleeps for about two hours and so do I the second he is good in his bassinet I am asleep.

11 AM

We are both up this is when I make my breakfast he is in his swing thing while I eat and get ready normally he is pretty chill. Sometimes he cries so I have to get him and hold off on getting ready for a bit while I calm him down.

12 PM

Tummy time! He does tummy time several times a day this is the first of the day he does it for three-ish minutes he can hold his head up for about 3 seconds. Then I turn him over to his back he likes to look at himself in a mirror and looks at black and white things which he is fascinated by almost all babies are at this age. He also has a raddle that he likes, so we play until he gets fussy telling me he is done it’s usually about 30 minutes.

12:30 PM

Naptime yet again I get lot’s of work done turning his naps or I sleep, when he wakes up we do it all again we play maybe do tummy time eat change until…

3 PM

When my sister gets home she will hang out with him for about an hour or less than give him back and do her own thing my mum gets home at…

5 PM

I’m with Ender in the living room while my mum and sister make dinner my mum always takes Ender as soon as she can, she was very thrilled to be a Grandmother and loves being one as well so they play and cuddle.

6:30 PM

We eat dinner then either one of them will take Ender while I clean up the kitchen since I don’t cook.

7-12 PM/AM

3 times a week Ender takes a bath then his favorite part of it is a massage with lotion he loves it a lot he becomes very relaxed even if he doesn't take a bath I massage him with lotion every night. I even massage randomly during the day because he likes it so much it relaxes him. During this time of night we do lots of cuddling, kisses, and talking some playing like when he lays in my bed and I play with his arms or legs gently stretching them and making silly noises. I love when I talk to him and he smiles it makes my heart melt instantly.

Although Ender currently doesn’t do much I love my little cuddly frog baby. I didn’t know having a child could bring me so much happiness and joy. I can’t wait to see what the next couple of months are like watching him grow and learn more.

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It is the middle of July it’s been a good summer Ender has been loving walks outside when it’s not too hot and he likes to play outside too since my mum has a small back garden we will go there sometimes so he can play.

The truth is I’ve been feeling heavier lately.

Life is good great even the DSMP is doing well lot’s of new people, we’ve been steaming more, posting on youtube more with Dream team videos, and I’ve been making a lot of friends I’m having a lot of fun laughing a lot, we moved to a new flat a little bit ago so E and I have our own space. Dream and I are the closest we have ever been. He is genuinely my best friend.

Ender is getting so big he is a little more than 9 months which is insane that he will be a year old in less than three months. He babble’s a lot now he has said dada but he didn’t know what it meant but I still love it, all the same, he stands up on furniture now and he has walked only a handful of times when holding on to the furniture, my favorite things are he can play and now that he crawls it makes it even better, he laughs and smiles a lot, the best thing is he loves cuddling which I of course love. Overall he is just incredible sure there are other fun parts in my life but he is definitely the best.

See like I said life is good of course there is a but… But I am keeping a hugely important part of my life to so many people considering I’ve been meeting new people because of Dream which of course is a very good thing although it’s difficult I have to do it and will do it for the protection of Ender.

It would be so easy for someone to accidentally say something on their stream and it’s really important to me that he is kept private not just for his safety which is the most important but I was the one who chose to have a life on the internet not him. In all honesty, I don’t want the internet to know about him I want to keep my life private as much as I can.

It seems silly almost to say I’m having a bit of a hard time right now when my life is great but I can’t deny how I feel which is stressed maybe? It’s a good kind of stress if that’s possible.

Being a single parent and having a job is challenging it’s not a super difficult job but still, I’m having to film, edit, stream, or be on other people's streams or videos yes it’s fun I’m with my friends but it’s difficult at times. I only just started streaming so I'm trying to figure that out too, I randomly code or program something for someone but mostly it's for our videos.

I have most days off to devote myself fully to Ender and when I do work I can usually do most of my work while Ender sleeps at night plus luckily he usually takes two naps so I could work then too or I clean, cook or I nap because I’m tired. It’s odd because although this is hard, when he was a newborn it was even harder but it’s a different kind of difficulty now that he is older it’s like each stage of his life there has been different challenges depending on how old he was of course that also came with different accomplishments and milestones as well.

My mum does take him sometimes which is incredibly helpful and she will come over to watch him or I drop him off at her house. Like today she wanted to take him since it’s the weekend so I could work a little, clean the flat, do the washing all the boring house stuff which was great I was quite productive. She doesn't just take him when I'm busy I could have had nothing to do today and she still would have watched him because she wants to. But now it’s time to get my baby! So I’m walking to meet my mum at the park near my flat.

I can see him! I start walking faster, he is standing by a bench pounding his little hands on it. “Oh, Ender look!” My mum points up to me I squat down by his side his face lights up and he squeals my face matches him I can hear my mum laughing, I put my hands out for him to come to me “Hi baby!” I pick him up kissing his cheeks which makes him giggle which will forever be my favorite sound I stand up to look at my mum who has a big smile “Did you have a fun day with nana?”

“Back home! Yeah? Yeah!” I bounce him in my arms as I talk, finally back home “Dada missed you today, I got you some more yogurt today since you love it so much and some bananas too.”

I set his bag down in the living room and walk into his room “Shall we play for a bit? It’s not quite bedtime.” “Ba babaaaaahhh.” I laugh setting him on the ground “Exactly.” I kiss his cheek before he turns away crawling to his books “You want me to read?” He picks up a book shoving it into his mouth. “You just want to eat it? Would y- oh who is calling? It’s Dream.” The ring town intrigues him he drops the book crawling back over to me.

“Hello?” Ender pulls himself up on me I wrap an arm around him helping him stay standing “Hey did you get Ender yet?” I put him on speaker “Wow don’t even care about me?" I scoff jokingly "He is better than you." He jokes back honestly Ender is probably better.

“Whatever yes just got home we were going to play before bath huh?” Ender looks at me curiously I rub his back a little. “It is Dream say hi.” “Hi, lovebug can you turn on your camera?” I do of course Dream doesn’t for obvious reasons.

“Hi!” Ender looks around he still doesn’t understand sometimes that the voice is on the phone not in the room “On dada's phone baby.” I point to it he looks at the screen and to reach for it I let him consider I just clean my phone I never did that before having a kid but babies put EVERYTHING in their mouths and phones are gross so I clean and sanitize it often.

“You gonna eat Dream!?” He laughs putting it into his mouth Dream screams pretending to be eaten making Ender giggle more “You eating him!” He laughs more making the phone fall I pick up my now saliva-covered phone “You got dada phone all gross silly.” He giggles plopping down to play with something new I set my phone against his wardrobe so I don’t have to hold it. We play and talk on the phone with Dream through dinner, bath, and bedtime which Dream sings to him helping him calm down.

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Ender is down for his nap so I'm able to get on a call with Dream and Sapnap so we can film, he normally sleeps for a couple of hours so hopefully, we can get it done in that time.

Shit, I’m pretty sure he heard Ender cry before I muted it came through pretty loud it scared me even, “What the fuck was that?” Yeah Sapnap definitely heard. Usually, stays on a good schedule never waking up early, especially his second nap which is the one right now because he has eaten lunch so he is full which helps him sleep longer. “Was that a baby?” Shit okay whatever it doesn’t matter for now because Ender needs me and is awake so we are done filming for the day.

I stand over his crib he puts his arms up with tears in his eyes “Aw my love.” He falls right into me as I pick him up “It’s alright dada’s here baby, what’s happened?” I rub his back and turn off the sound machine.

“Shh shh, I’ve got you.” He calms down pretty quickly now that I’m holding him just little whimpers, I wrap his blanket around him and walk out to the living room giving him some kisses “It’s alright dada’s got you.” I sit at my desk making sure I’m muted.

“I think it’s time to tell Sapnap about you little baby, what do you think hmm?” I give him several kisses on his head wiping his tears “I’ll warm up the rest of your bottle from earlier then we will talk to them.” He barely drank any of his bottle before nap so maybe he will finish that.

Okay, with a bottle warm and ready I walk back to my desk little hands try to reach out for it whining “Okay here there you go.” I put the nipple in his mouth he eagerly starts sucking “Shall we tell him, Ender? Hm? You know Sapnap but he doesn’t know anything about you. Guess it’s time to change that.” It’s a good time to tell him any way I mean honestly I’m surprised I’ve kept it a secret this long, he is one of my best friends he deserves to know.

I put my headphones back on, “Why did he have to leave I’m so confused.” “I don’t know maybe he had to poop.” I laugh wow great cover-up Dream.

“What that stupid? Why didn’t he just say that? We’re literally in the middle of filming, he muted too why did he have to mute?” “Dude stop reading into it I’m sure it’s nothing.”

Okay, time to unmute “Hey.” “George where the fuck did you go?” “Uh well, I have to tell you something.” He laughs “Okayyy? Wait why just me not Dream too?” “Dream already knows.” “Oh okay, what then?”

I take a breath looking down at Ender who has heavy eyes as he drinks his bottle “I have a baby well not quite he is nine months.” “Haha so funny, not! George, you can’t joke about that shit dude.” “I’m not joking.” “I don’t believe you, you don’t have a girlfriend. Or are you lying to me about that too?” I can hear in his voice he still thinks I’m lying.

“No I’m not with anyone but really I’m not lying I’m a dad.” He laughs in disbelief “Stop fucking with me, Dream? This can’t for real? You’re doing a prank since we are recording so you can get my reaction on video.” “It’s for real Nick it’s not a prank. George has a son.” Dream defends “Fine prove it then show me. Like a video, so you can’t photoshop.” “Face time me then.” “Wait it’s with you now?” I laugh at him say it instead of him.

“Yes, he is drinking a bottle.” The facetime call pops up on my phone so I slide it and set my phone down so I can hold Ender and his bottle properly could I do it with one hand yes but I don’t have to so I prop it showing Ender in my arms his jaw drops making me laugh at the pure disbelief on his face. “WHAT!” Ender jumps slightly at the loud noise I rub his arm since that’s what is next to my fingers “Shh it’s alright.”

I can hear Dream laughing in my ear at his reaction “George that’s not yours it’s your sisters or something, you're not a whole ass father!” I look back at my phone to his still shocked face. “Yes I am dumbass he is my child he has part of my DNA.” “Wait wait, Dream KNOWS! And I don’t?” We both stay silent because it feels like Dream has known for so long and we have been lying to Sapnap.

He hangs up so we can all talk together on discord “I wanted to tell you but with us streaming and filming it would be so easy for you to say something accidentally or you could say something to one of our friends I just want to keep the people that know at a small limit. I want to keep this private for as long as I possibly can. I know we are all best friends and I have felt bad about not telling you but I am now.” “Okay, but why did you tell Dream and not me that’s not fair at all so you trust him more?” He sounds kinda angry but I can’t blame him.

“No, it’s not about trust when Dream found out I was struggling so much I was sobbing to him, I needed to talk to and tell someone and he happened to be on call with me at the time.” “How long?” We both stay quiet “How long?”

I stroke Ender's head looking down at him “E was a little more than three weeks.” Dream explains Ender's eyes begin to close which makes sense considering he only slept for 50 ish minutes “Three fucking weeks! You have both been lying to me for like 8 months.” We both are silent once again.

“Now you're not going to talk? Whatever bye.” “No Sapnap I- and he’s gone.” I take some deep breaths Ender is done with his bottle plus he is falling asleep so I pull it away and slowly sway in my chair to help him fall back asleep I can hear Dream sigh.

“That went well.” “Yeah I mean I understand his anger though. Did I ruin everything?” “No no George of course, not he will calm down and I’ll talk to him. He would have found out sometime anyway so it's that better he found out earlier rather than later.” “Guess yeah but now he is made and that's valid but not he probably hates me. I should have told him he deserved to know.” “He doesn’t hate you George I mean he probably doesn’t love us completely at the current moment but he doesn’t hate us.”

“Oh fuck I brought you into this to I made you keep a secret now he will be upset at you too. I’m sorry Dream it’s one thing if he is mad at me but now I messed up your friendship. I shouldn’t have made you lie for me that was wrong.” “It’s okay I would have gladly kept it a secret longer if you asked me to I will say I’m glad he knows but you didn’t do anything wrong you are just doing what you think is best. Ender is your child and it’s your life you get to choose who knows what about you and your son's life.”

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It’s been almost a full two days since Sapnap found out and he hasn’t replied to me on anything which I said in the message he can take as long as he needs and I’m ready to talk whenever he wants but selfishly, I hope it’s soon because the guilt is eating at me. I’m trying to stay positive but what if I ruined everything. I’ve just been doing useless things on my computer and phone to try and distract myself while Ender is sleeping, he should be up soon anyway.

I think I just heard him cry a little bit so I look at the monitor on my phone to confirm yes he is squirming around fussing with his eyes open. I get up and walk into his room going over to his crib “Dada.” Awe my baby boy “Yeah I’m your dada hi my love!” He smirks lifting his arms up, right when I pick him up he cuddles into my chest I hold him close feeling my eyes water even if he doesn’t know what him saying dada means completely, it means everything to me. I’m his dada he is the most important thing even if other parts of my life aren’t the best he makes it all sunny again. “Dada loves you so much, baby.” Everything with Sapnap is important and still worrying but it's not as important as Ender. I’m sure he will come around at some point but if he doesn’t my most important job is to be a father, when I’m with Ender I don’t feel as heavy.

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George POV

Sapnap did come around after laughing thinking that I was yet again joking because his name is kinda a Minecraft name. We talk for a while both apologizing, he got to meet Ender over facetime. It all turned out okay well besides me keeping Ender a secret from everyone else but I only just met a lot of the new people on the SMP and stuff and although we are becoming friends I don’t feel as bad since I haven't been friends with them as long as Dream, Sapnap and I.

Dream and I are on call as I play with Ender “Only thirteen more days then you can’t hide behind your screen anymore.” “Wow, you want to see me so bad your counting the days.” He laughs I roll my eyes looking at Ender who is pulling different cloths out of a box which is good for his motor skills “No idiot I know there are fifteen days till his birthday so I just minus from that.” “Whatever you're just obsessed with me.” “Pretty sure it’s the other way around. You're literally coming over four thousand miles to see me.” Ender grunts because the cloths are gone so I move over to him so I can put them back in the box.

“Wrong! I’m not there for you at all I’m there for Ender so hah.” “Fine no hugs from me then.” “That’s fine Ender will cuddle me.” I look at Ender raising my voice only slightly to intrigue him “Say no Dreamie you stink blak.” I stick my tongue with the last word which makes him smile “Bbbbbbbb.” “Yeah, bbbbb I agree.”

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Third-person POV (sorry for the switch)
Dream is on the plane right now, he will be here in like 3 hours! George will be meeting his best friend in real life soon his emotions are all over he is excited shockingly he thought it would be way more nerve-racking but now the anticipation of being with him is overwhelming he will finally be with him in real life

George will finally know what he looks like when he laughs or tells a story, not that looks matter to George but then he will have a face in his head and just know what he looks like is his face long or round? Is his nose small or pointy? Does he talk with his hands? Do his eyes light up when he talks about certain things? The hundreds of questions that he has will be answered. Something even more exciting is he will meet Ender which feels like a big deal considering how close Dream and George are and how important Dream has been in Ender's life he was the first one to know about him out of his current friends. Plus he will be here for Ender's first birthday which is a big deal Dream will be here for a big moment in both Ender and George's lives. He should be here almost two hours before Ender goes to bed so they will have a bit of time to meet and play. George is unsure how his son will react if he recognizes Dream's voice or be scared and cling to his dad? It might take a day or two for him to be comfortable around Dream which is okay George isn’t going to force his son into anything.

Ender and George are playing in the living room when George gets a text saying I’m here then there is a knock a the door. George can feel his heart rate pick up is it excitement or nerves he can’t say “Ender I think Dreamie is here.” The little one doesn’t care to enthralled with his book so George picks him up book and all.

Once they make it down the stairs George takes a breath before slowly opening the door to see a tall smiling man standing before them he laughs confirming with George that it is him he swings the door open fully smiling “George!” “Dream!” Both of their first reaction is to hug but George is still holding Ender so instead he steps back to let him in “ Come in come in. ” His voice far more excited than it should be the tall man steps in with his bags George closes the door locking it as he looks down at Ender who is staring at Dream “Who is that? Hmm is that Dreamie?” “Hi, lovebug.” He says softly making the older British boy smirk.

They along with all of Dreams bags make it up the stairs once Ender sees his toys he squirms to get out of his father's arms so he is set down “There you go.”
As soon as the shorter man stands up the taller man hugs him tightly “OH hi!” He laughs a bit unexpected but still wraps his arms around him “Hi.” Dream says so softly it makes the other's heartbeat faster the hug feels nice Dream is warm despite it being fall.

As they both sit down George can feel Dream's gaze on him so he looks up Dream being the confident man he is, just smiles as they stare into each other's eyes. Before long the shorter man can’t handle it so he looks down at his son who is perfectly fine but he couldn’t stare into his yellow eyes any longer.
Ender goes to George’s side unsure of the man who just sat down by all of his toys. George wraps his arms around his son “It’s alright it’s Dream.” He kisses the baby's cheek yet he still looks at him concerned “It’s okay love I promise.” George now looks into his son's eyes comforting him he rubs his back gently “It might take him a bit to warm up to you.” George says a bit apologetically “It’s alright I understand I mean he has never seen me before I’m basically a stranger.” “You could be maybe you're an obsessed fan who is pretending to be Dream, I’d have no way of knowing.” The blond shakes his head grabbing a toy block “I am a George Stan.” He jokes back Ender makes a noise and reaches his little hand out to the block in Dream's much larger hand he holds it out trying to give Ender the pink block but he clings to George more making George hold him rubbing his back “ Dada grab it, see? ” He grabs the block holding it out, a small chubby hand grabs it happily.

After a couple more minutes the baby is still unsure but he hasn’t cried at all which is a good sign “What if I sing? Do you think he would recognize that?” “Oh yeah, you could try.” “Hush hush little bug hush hush my little love bug. Close your eyes little bug hush hush…” Ender smirks at his dad turning to look at Dream then George his dad nods smiling “It's Dream.” He confirms Ender drops the block and his butt on the ground he crawls over to Dream who opens his arms Ender pulls himself up on Dream smiling which completely melts George, Dream smiles wide putting a hand on Ender's back to help keep him steady “Aw hi baby you remember me singing?” Of course, the little boy doesn’t respond but his smile says it all he pats Dream's chest excitedly “You are so smart Ender.” George says smiling at the adorable sight before him.

After an hour or so of playing together and a call with Sapnap, it’s time for Ender to go to bed “Hey Ender.” The brown-headed boy looks up “It’s time for bed.” George holds his hands out “Come here baby let’s go brush your teeth.” Ender crawls over to him “You can come with if you want or you can just chill while I put him to bed.” “No, I’ll come maybe I can sing to him to sleep like in real life?” George's heart warms at the thought of almost a year of singing over the phone it can happen in real life. “Yeah, I’m sure he would love that.” Secretly George would like it too.

After they do the whole night routine brush teeth, lotion, pick out clothes, and so on. It’s now time for cuddles and for Dream to sing he has to sit in a dining room chair next to the rocking chair but it works.
George holds Ender against his body rocking him surprisingly he is pretty chill with Dream being in the room maybe it’s his relaxing voice singing somewhere over the rainbow. Both men although they try to hide it are absolutely loving the moment, etching it into their brains after years of friendship they are finally in the same space. George gets to hold his perfect beautiful son as he slowly falls asleep to his best friend's soft voice. Dream gets to watch his best friend be a wonderful dad in real life and sing to sleep a sweet boy that he has known most of his life. The moment is rich yet so incredibly comforting.

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Ender has been placed in his crib asleep so they both step out quietly and walk back to the living room to sit on the couch. George laughs as he looks back at the tall man before him “What?” George shakes his head “I just can’t believe I’m actually seeing your stupid face.” Dream hums “And what do you think? Am I everything you dreamed I would be?” “I honestly didn’t have an idea in mind except for your Minecraft skin.” “Hang on when you thought of me in your head you saw my Minecraft skin?” He laughs slightly “Yeah I mean what else could I think of?” “I don’t know it's just funny that you thought of my stupid lime green blob whenever you thought of me.”

“Are you hungry we can order food or I can try to make something?” “Uh, I couldn’t eat a full meal maybe like a snack.” “Well in the cupboard there are some snacks, here follow me.”

They decide on tortilla chips and salsa easy enough, they also decide to watch the British bake-off which is what is on just the normal station. “Ew, this salsa is so bland what the hell?” “Shut the fuck up it's normal salsa.” “No this is not it has like no spices.” “Do you want something else?” George says surprisingly seriously he does want to accommodate Dream the best way he can “No this isn’t bad it just has no flavor.” Brown eyes roll as he looks at the tv but Dream stays looking at him after a minute of staring George looks back “What?” “You look different in person.” He says quietly “Do I?” “Mhm not much it’s just I can see all the small stuff I never knew about before you are in HD now.” George blushes lightly lucky for him you can’t see it in this lighting. “You’re an idiot.” He shakes his head looking away as an unfamiliar feeling grows in his chest this time Dream also looks away but with a smirk on his face.
It’s kinda odd in a way that nothing was awkward they immediately clicked acting just like they do online although it is different seeing the person before you. Some of George's questions have been answered like his face is sharper in some areas like his jaw but it isn’t harsh his nose is straight but perked up adorably just slightly at the end. So far he hasn’t talked much with his hands but George knows they are bigger than his although George's fingers are longer he thinks. His eyes do light up like when Ender came over to him for the first time his eyes shined happily his whole face did really and George could bet he looked much the same.

When Dream lays in a bed that isn’t his that night he can’t help but smile for no reason specifically more like a bunch of reasons put together he is just happy.

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It's the second day of Dream being in England the first day was spent with Dream sleeping a good chunk of the day jet lag got to him, but they still, of course, played Ender is enjoying another person he can play with he has warmed up to Dream quite quickly.

Something also happened that day as Dream slept that George has yet to tell him.

He was so tired that when Ender took a nap in-between Dream and George in George's bed, the blond also slept while George was on his phone he didn't sleep because then it wouldn’t be safe for Ender considering he is still a baby. He, of course, took photos of them they look too adorable not to, they slept for about an hour and a half until something George was never expecting happened; Dream's hand was on his butt, and not just for a second.

Ender started to fuss a little, so George moved to his side shushing and rubbing his back knowing he can and should sleep longer.

Apparently in his sleep Dream wanted to help too because he reaches over and starts patting what he thinks is Ender's butt but actually, it was George's He is too asleep to even notice, the awake man blushes heavily while trying to hold in his laughter to not wake the two. It’s an odd feeling to have your best friend's hand on your butt.

Eventually much to George's relief his hand moves to George's leg, and they sleep for another hour, George hasn’t mentioned it for now.

As Dream wakes up his brain registers a baby babbling he pulls himself out of bed brushing his teeth before making his way to the kitchen. He stops slightly behind the wall so George can’t fully see him, Dream watches him pouring batter into a waffle maker as Ender sits in his high chair a couple of feet away “Dada pours it in then I close this then it goes flip now we wait for it to cook. Do you want fruit too?” He asks as he already is walking to the fridge he holds out strawberries and peaches which are both already cut up in bowls. “Which one baby?” Ender looks like he is considering them then hits his hand on the peaches. “Okay, peaches and waffles it is.” He kisses Ender's head before putting the strawberries back.

Dream just observes as George hums and narrates things to Ender he doesn’t get to see this side of George it makes him feel all fuzzy as he smiles at the pair, after five minutes of just watching he clears his throat making both brunettes look. George can’t help but smirk “Good morning Dream.” He walks over and sits in a chair near Enders “Good morning.” The baby makes an exciting sound “Oh well good morning Ender.”

After breakfast Dream so graciously said he would take Ender and get him ready while George takes a shower and gets ready before his mum gets there.

“Okay E let’s get you changed yeah?” Dream lays Ender down on his changing table luckily he saw his mom changing his young sibling's diaper and his brother has a son, so he knows how. “At least you’re not poopy.” Ender giggles at the silly voice “I don’t like poopy diapers eww.” More giggles make the Floridian smile.

“Okay bug aaallll dressed oh where are your socks silly daddy didn’t get any.”

After finding socks he puts them on and then stands Ender up almost immediately he starts crying. Dream slightly panicked holds him close “Shhh what happened?” He looks for tags on his clothes that could be uncomfortable he makes sure nothing is too tight but as the seconds pass his anxiety about the situation increases.

George walks into the room “He has been crying ever since I got him dressed I checked the clothes and there are no tags or strings I don’t know what’s wrong I’m sorry.” George takes his son and looks him over “What’s wrong then Ender? Oh, I think dada sees what’s wrong?” Dream looks at George dumbfounded as he takes off Ender's socks “Shhh it’s alright, I’ve taken them off see.” George rubs Ender's bare feet Dream looks at the two of them in slight shock that George knew within less than 10 seconds he is amazed more every day he is here how incredible of a father George is. Ender, starts to calm down laying on his dad as George rubs his back helping him calm down “I should have told you Ender hates socks he will sometimes wear this one brand I just haven’t gotten around to getting rid of the socks yet, so they are still in his drawer I’m sorry you had to deal with him crying.” “Oh that’s okay I’m just glad it was nothing major and he is alright.” He sighs relieved Ender has stopped crying George still comforts him kissing his head “Yeah you’re alright, huh? Just hate yucky socks.”

George's mum comes to watch Ender so then the boys can hang out without entertaining an almost one-year-old.

Just like they once talked about George and Dream go out on a sushi date, they go out to George's favorite place it has cool neon signs and beautiful lights that Ender loves to stare at, although he isn’t here of course he still mentions it to Dream not being able to resist talking about his son.

Dream's first time eating sushi goes well he enjoys it even if he has no clue what he was eating because George ordered it all for them. As they eat George can’t help but stare at Dream still trying to get used to his face, he is very beautiful and he has no shame in admitting that.

Shockingly George doesn’t stop himself he lets himself watch as his facial expressions change with different sushi rolls, he watches in contentment and adoration. If Dream notices he doesn’t say anything or maybe he just likes the attention.

George decided that he should show Dream around and go shopping, the blond is quite certain he just wants him to buy him things not that Dream minds too much. They walk along the streets of London walking into shops occasionally when something catches their attention.

After collecting several bags filled with trinkets for Dream's family and a couple for George and Ender they find themselves at a bench overlooking the sea “I’m fucking cold.” George giggles adorably “Awe is Dreamie cold?” Dream shakes his head “Yes I’m a Florida boy.” “You're such a baby it’s 11°.”

“Wait 11 shouldn’t it be like snowing?” “In Celsius dumbass, it's 52 Fahrenheit.” “Ohhh.” “You’re so stupid.” He laughs again “So are you ready for your little boy to be one?” “Oh god it’s insane I can’t believe it. It feels like yesterday that he was learning to roll over and sit up by himself I remember…” George continues sharing stories as Dream watches his face light up as he talks he never thought being in person would make him feel so many more emotions but here he is unknowingly falling in love with the man he gets to call his best friend.

They make it home right as his mum is putting Ender to bed, George quickly takes his son from her arms he can’t resist cuddling his little boy on his last night before he turns one.

So that’s how he finds himself now at 23:45 looking down at his beautiful son in his arms normally Ender would be in his own bed by now but tonight is special and George just can’t seem to put his son down.
In fifteen minutes it will be Ender's birthday, although he won’t be officially one until 16:28 the time he was born.

George has been holding him for well over an hour now just staring at his son's perfect squishy face thinking about the past year.

The first months of his life were hard there were a lot of adjustments, but they were also incredible George learned how to be a father to this sweet boy, he learned what the sound of a cry meant, and how to change a nappy the most efficient way so there was minimal crying. Ender learned things too like how to roll over, how to eat foods other than milk, how to make sounds, and how to use his hands and feet.

The best of all though is they had each other they got to spend every single day together, George got to experience a human and have all of their firsts and look at the world with a fresh perspective.

For the past two hours, the father has tried to remember it all in doing so many tears have fallen as he tells the sweet boy all the stories “I remember when you first rolled over I was so proud of you I didn’t know I could be so happy over something small like that, but it wasn’t small at the time. The night you were born I remember holding you as I am now thinking how absolutely crazy it was that you were mine I was a dad now I was in charge of keeping another human alive and now I can not imagine living a day without you. You taught me how to be selfless and patient. You’ve brought me more joy and happiness than I ever knew was possible little baby, although I don’t know if I can call you that now, huh?” George cries as he thinks of how big Ender is now and how fast a year can pass. When he looks at the clock again it’s 00:08 “Happy first birthday little baby. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I'm over the moon that I get to be your dad. I love you so much, Ender Rue Davidson.” He kisses his cheeks and head gently, so he doesn’t wake the boy up.

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Sadly, Dream couldn’t return to England until the spring of 2021 roughly five months later.

Dream arrived at George's flat mid-afternoon they had a wonderful day playing with Ender but now it’s time for Ender to go to sleep meaning they will finally have a moment to themselves.

George gently closes Ender’s door and makes his way to the kitchen where he can hear Dream opening up their take-out. “He went to sleep quick you must have worn him out.” Dream turns to him and smirks happy that he is just in the room “Well he went up the stairs like forty times.” Now George smirks “He loves it I usually cut him off, so he was probably thrilled.

The taller man moves George's arms to his shoulders and then puts his own hands on his waist, it’s reminiscent of the position in a slow dance.

“I missed you.” George whispers hoping if he is quieter it will hide his emotions, even though they talk everyday Dream knows that he means he missed being in person.

“I missed you too.” Dream slowly runs his hands on the smaller boy's sides George looks deeply into Dream's eyes a look that could end in a kiss the possibility hangs between them George’s thumb grazes over Dream's lips his eyes filled with sadness he could blame it on tiredness, but the real reason is the overwhelming need to kiss the beautiful boy in front of him but knowing he shouldn't. It would fuck everything up even just one kiss because it can’t just be one they couldn’t stop if they started the all-consuming lust would take over. The deep want formed over time it would take over, so the longing they both have is pushed down and is turned into a hug one that still holds emotion. As George gently sets his head on Dream's chest listening to his heartbeat Dream fully engulfs the man he is hopelessly in love with in his arms.

Dream wants to date George, it takes every bit of power in him to not kiss him until they can’t breathe to tell him he loves him so many times his voice goes out. But he can’t right now because George isn’t ready, he will wait as long as it takes so long as he can be in their lives he is happy.

George wakes up on his own which is odd usually Ender’s voice or cries though the monitor is what wakes him, thinking it’s the middle of the night still he checks the clock, and the moment his eyes read 10:37 he panics jumping out of bed running straight to Enders room when he sees no little boy his heart sinks his chest tightens. His body is moving before his brain can even comprehend him running to check every room he quickly comes to the living room where two faces look up at him confused he immediately drops to the ground, putting a hand on Ender’s cheek kissing the top of his head “Dada.” George sits on the ground so Ender can move over to him. “George?” His breathing is slightly shaken still as he holds Ender “I panicked when I woke up and didn’t find him.” Dream feels slightly guilty now “Oh I’m sorry I just figured I’d let you get some sleep. I didn’t mean to scare you.” “S’alright you didn’t have to do that you should get some sleep too.” “I don’t mind at all.” George looks up at him, but Dream can’t read his face it is a mix of emotions like love and realization. Their trance is broken when Ender speaks “Play.” “Okay baby we can play.”

They play for an hour together before George's stomach makes it known he wants food, so he decides to make pasta for everyone.

With the table set for three, he walks in to see them on the couch Ender is in Dream's lap along with Bap the sheep Ender’s favorite stuffed animal, Dream is reading a book to him, it truly is an adorable sight. The image alone warms George's heart but the look they both give him makes it all the more perfect.

Ender is at the age where he uses his utensils for some food and his hands for the rest so by the end of the meal his hands are quite dirty. Dream naturally wets a napkin and tries to wipe his hand which the little one doesn’t like George is ready to step in but instead, Dream grasps the little hand again moving it up and down “Nice to meet you, sir.” He pretends to shake his hand making E laugh the father watches eyes full of adoration.

George puts Ender down for his nap which gives them around two hours or more of alone time. George sits on the couch more intentionally than he wishes to admit.
“Dream?” He hums looking at the brunette who doesn’t make eye contact “Did you-? Do you still mean it?” He is almost positive he knows what George means, but he wants to hear him say “That you love me more than… more than a best friend.” “I did and I still do.” George lets his head fall to the back of the couch Dream takes his hand carefully waiting for him to pull away, but he doesn’t

George takes a breath as if preparing himself “When I look at you, I don’t see my best friend.” Dream frowns

“I look at you and see a partner, a lover, someone to share my life with, I see someone who I want to call my own and only mine. I was scared for so long because I thought I had to choose between being a father or having a relationship and I knew 10 out of 10 times I would always choose to be a father. Ender is the most important person in my life being his dad will always be my number one priority. So when I started to fall in love with you, I was scared. Then I see you with Ender doing the things I do with him and I fall in love even more. I realize that being a father and having a relationship can coexist. I don’t have to choose and I know you will never make me. I love you endlessly I want to be with you.” Dream's smile is so big his cheeks are going to hurt he tackles the other man to his back making him laugh wrapping his arms around him “I love you I love you I love you.” Dream repeats kissing George's cheek each time “You’re an idiot I love you.” George says back between laughs, large hands cradle his face as green eyes stare at pink soft lips but he makes no move. George is done waiting he takes action leaning up to kiss him instead.

It’s soft yet passionate as George tries to pull away even slightly Dream chases his lips till they are smiling too much to continue “Soooo does this mean you're mine ?” “Only if you’re mine Dreamie.” “Hell yeah, I am. Are you ready for two hours of not interrupted kissing and cuddling? “Hell yeah.”