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The year was 1997. Harry was on a mission to destroy all voldemort's horcruxes. They found the locket but it divided his friends. Ron ended up leaving and hermione miss him dearly. She often wanted to be alone and was often on night patrol. 

Harry really wanted to leave; he needed to get out of this poisonous environment they had created. He also felt really bad for hermione. He knew she liked Ron and him leaving really hurt her. He wanted to give her as much space or closeness as she needed. 

He was now 17 and there was something he always wanted to do. Go to a gay club. He has known his bi for a long time but chose to keep it to himself in fear of others. But one of his bucket list was to go a gay club and maybe kiss a guy. He's never kissed a guy before, though he wished for it alot. 

He told Hermione he was going into town and for her to watch the camp. She was worried at first but he showed her his glamor. She still argued but he really wanted to go but promised to be back. She knew she wasn't going to win the fight and let him go. He looked to be 5.7, blue eyes, pale, short Brown straight hair. ( Movie harry)

Harry pov

The club was more than I expected. I didn't think I was going to a strip club. I had seen the boys in his locker rooms but either tried not to look or never cared. Most men his age don't interest me but here was a different story. I got some drinks to try and relax me Abit. 

A man with dark chocolate hair and almost black eyes came by to sit next to him. The man ordered two drinks then said, " you look like you need it". 

I thanked the man for the drink and drank it. It tasted really good but I knows I'm not used to drinking and don't know my limits yet. He asked me, " so did you just come out of the closet or are you always this nervous kitten?".

H..how could he know I'm part cat. My glamor is still up. Ever since I truned 17 and turned into a cat. I think people called it necko or furry. I've been wearing a glamor non stop to make sure no one sees. I tried to hide it from Lupin but he was a werewolf and smelled me right away. Is this guy a werewolf? There's nothing wrong with him but that also means he can smell I'm Harry potter. Ok Harry calmed down, it was probably just a pet name. I've heard people talk like that I'm halls before it's nothing weird. 

" I…no I'm not. I mean I haven't really told my friends yet…t but I've known what I'm… I liked for w..while. and don't call me kitten I'm not a cat". I puff out my checks at the last part.

" Hahaha sorry, just a little name, nothing serious. You just seem like a fish out of water. Are you even old enough to be here" he said nugging into me. 

" Yes I just tried 17 a few months ago". I look down as I say, " I've just never been to a club before". Oh mirlen I know I'm blushing. Stop it, Harry, stop it. Try to act cool. You're supposed to be a bloody brave griffindoors for godric sack. 

He gets ready close to me, " you know we can smell a baby gay from miles away". 

" W..what you mean" I moved away Abit.

" We've all been there. Never been to the club before. Never been with a guy. Nervus. Wants to look cool but doesn't know what you're doing or if it's right". 

I look away and nod. He hit the nail on the head. " Am I really that obvious"

 " Its ok. We've all been there. I will ask kid, are you looking for a relationship here or just some fun. I can help you with one of those things" he said with a big smirk. 

" I'm not a kid"

He rolls his eyes, " there's a reason you're called you young adults. So to us your still a kid"

" Oh ya and how old are you smarty"

" I'll be 26 by the end of the year"

My eyes light up, " a December baby. I bets that's so fun having your birthday right next to Christmas"

He laughs at this, " no no no you couldn't be more wrong. For Christmas baby's you either get Christmas or birthday, not both. I didn't even celebrate my birthday tell I was an adult. By then I really didn't care. It's just a day to me now". 

I look up at him in shock, " you have to do something. I didn't get anything either but I always stayed up till midnight and watched the stairs. Maybe steal dorm candy from my relatives". 

" Well sometimes when I was little I would charm the candy store man to give me some Candy." I nod at him. " You haven't answered my question yet"

I wish I could date someone right now but I can't let one get close to me. I'm still sad about having to give up ginny. I shake my head, " no I'm not looking for anything too serious. I'm not in the position to date right now".

" Good neither am I. I booked a hotel nearby, want to come with me". He gets out of his seat and offers his hand. 

" I.. don't even know your name"

" Thomas. Thomas Gaunt''. I looked up at him confused. Gaunt. There are no more gaunt voldemort killed the last of them. How… no he's probably just a squib. I nod my head and shake his hand. " So are you going to tell me you're".

 O mirlin I asked him for his without realizing I never gave mine. I must seem like such a git. " O m…bloody hell I didn't realize I didn't introduce myself. Sorry. I'm Jerry. Jerry Evans." He smiles.

" Well Evans let's get going". He starts walking away and I try catching up to him. I really hope I don't come off as too needy for him and I'm just playing right into his game. If we are both here to have a fun time then I guess I am. When should I say I'm a virgin, with man adlest. Though I bet he could tell, he called a "baby gay". I don't know whether I should take offense to that or not. Ok Harry, calm down. This is going to be fun. It's supposed to be fun. 

We walked Into his hotel room. It looks nice, just a basic muggle hotel room. He lets me in and shuts the door behind us. 

" Before we begin, Jerry, I need to know what experiences you have with man. If any."

" D..does that really matter" I say nervously scratching the back of my head.

His face softens, " yes it absolutely does. If I'm not careful I could hurt you and don't think either of us want that. "

I nod. I'm glad he's worried about me, though that might just be the normal thing and I'm such an idiot. " I have been with a girl before but never had the chance to be with a guy before. I'm not… I'm not ready to tell others yet". 

He nods, " that's ok but I will warn you, I don't take up. That will be you, if you don't feel comfortable we can end this-"

" Nonono I really wanna do this. I…mean I've always wanted to be the one to take it". I interpret him. I'm not ending this now. I've gone too far for that now.

He smirks and starts walking to me, " so you like not having control" 

"I… I don't know. I mean the girls I've been with, though not weak or anything, always expect me to be the top. I guess it makes sense since there are girls". 

Before I know it his right in my face. I back up A Bit nervous, " that's not true. Plenty of woman like to top and be the dominant one."

I look at him so confused, " how they don't have a…"

" You don't need a dick to be the dominant one. And Just because you have a dick doesn't make you the dominant person. One way is called riding." He puts his hand on my check. I can feel myself blush. He seems so tough but also is being so gentle with me. I can't help myself but to lean and rub into his hand. " I can show you what that's like another time." He moves his hand to my chin. I fell completely under his mercy. I don't normally like when others take control. Right now though, I've never been so turned on in my life. I know if he kisses me I will get a hard on right away. I hate that whenever I get kissed I get a hard on. Every time. Which sucks, most women won't help me but I don't want them to stop kissing me. Adlest I thought he was going to kiss me but instead I moved to my neck. Wtf is he doing. " But for now let's just stick with tradition and maybe move from there, '' he says as he kisses my neck. What the heck. Every kiss is sending waves through my body." How that sound, kitten". I'm trying to hold back my noice. I unconsciously open my neck more to him, which he takes full advantage of. Licking all up and down my neck. Fuck I didn't know you could fell stuff like this on your neck. Out of nowhere he bits me and I can't hold back my mown. I fall my weight on him, fully letting do whatever he wanted. If it feels good just to do this I'm almost scared to know what else there is.

I can feel him holding the back of my head. He starts to scratch behind my ears. I start prrring. I've never had anyone scratch there before, it feels so nice. Wait, what my ears. Oh nononono. I back away from him and hold my ears down. 

" How they.. nono. ". 

I try putting my ears away but he grabs my hands. " Please don't. You look really cute like that. I don't want you to hide yourself. I didn't know you were a necko".

I try hiding my face " no one is supposed to".

" And why is that"

I can feel a tear about to fall, " because people will think I'm a…. Weird and see me differently" I take a small glance at him and he looks pissed. I hid my face more. His probably really mad at me and i upset him. 

" This is why I hate the magical world. There is nothing wrong with you and you shouldn't have to hide yourself. Even werewolves are fine every day of the year as long as they take their meditation like they're supposed to. But they are seen as second hand citizens or less than human". He clenches Hands into a fist. It's nice to hear someone other than lupin saying that. I still can't help but be scared by his body language.

He looks over at me and releases his hands and walks to me, putting his hand on my check, " I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you. They really just piss me off". 

I nuzzled into his hand again, " it's ok". He smiles at me. He has such a sweet smile.

 He leans in close to me. " We don't, we both take off our glamors and we can get started". So he really Is a wizard. I nervously take off my glamor but go too far and show off my cat form. 

" Nonono I went too far" I hide my face in my hands but he grabs my hands again and moves them away.

" You went just enough. I wanted to see the real you though I wasn't expecting to see you potter". 

I look away and nod. " Now you can tell the whole world the famous harry potter is a neko" I sit on the bed sad. Tail between my legs. 

He puts his hands on his hips, " I'm not going to do that harry. Ive actually wanted to talk to you for a long time now. Face to face i mean".

I look up at him confused. " Who-" I didn't finish my sentence when he removed his glamor. O Fuck oh Fuck Fuck Fuck. I moved back on the bed scared. "Voldemort"

" In the flesh"

" H..how, you looked all pale and snake like before. I've seen your memories, how do you look in the diary now".

He raises his eyebrow, " how do you know what I look like in the diary"

" Because your poor excuse of a death eater planted it in our school my second year. I destroyed it btw" I make the smuggest face i can make.

He looks back pissed. "I'm going to kill lucius. I should have never left it with that worthless man".

I roll my eyes, " his son is worse". 

" His son may be a coward but he can do as he is told. He will actually stand up for his family and not hide behind them making his son do his dirty work".

" That's only because you made Draco do it".

" I did nothing. I was punishing Lucius for his failure and he begged for me to save his life. Offering up his own son to kill dumbledore. I didn't even come up with the idea but couldn't say no to the opportunity"

" Your sick for making a child kill someone"

" I've seen children kill each other at a much younger age than 16. I never even laid a hand on him when Severus had to do this job for him. "

" You're still a sick bastard". 

" Sorry sweetie but my parents were married when they had me. I thought dumbledore told you alllll about me"

" Ya that you were made from a love potion and you will never know love. What were you even doing in a muggle club anyway? You hate muggles''

" Yes they nothing but pigs to me but there one of the few places that people don't know who I am. I assume your the same reason".

" Whatever. What are we doing here? We are supposed to be killing each other. You want me dead".

" That's a lie I don't want you dead anymore"

" What" I look up at him in shock" your lying you've always wanted me dead"

" That true until I learned you were one of my treasures"

" Your what…" has he gone mad.

" Don't tell me dumbledore sent you on a mission to collect and destroy my horcrux, which I know he didn't tell you how to distory them. But he didn't even tell you that your one yourself."

" W..what. I am not"

" Think about it harry. You can speak parseltongue, something the potters can't do. You are related to gryffindor not slytherins like the gaunts. We can also look into each other's minds. You can even see into nigins eyes, something no wizard can do"

" I'm not an idiot. You can use Legilimency to look in others minds"

" Yes but first you need to cast a spell, I don't need to for you. Second they have to be close enough to be hit by the spell. We can read each other miles away. That's not Legilimency, that's my horcrux. Dumbledore even knows you are one and sent you on a mission to die"

" He didn't know. He would have told me"

" Really"

" Yes unlike you I trust dumbledore and he would never do that to me"

" You asked Dumbledore why there is a connection between you and me and he said the night of godric hollow I gave some of my "powers" to you. That's a child way of telling you I gave you my fucking soul"

" Then why have you need trying to kill me"

" That's what I've been trying to get across to you. I don't want to kill you anymore. 2 years ago I did nothing but try to get into your head to join my side. Last year I left you alone while Dumbledore was showing you my memories and why I am the way I am. I could have easily killed you and your little friend a long time ago. Hell I have the snatchers right now ordered to catch you but not to harm you. I know what you and little friends have been doing and where your camp is right now"

" Is that why you're here to talk to me? To try to get me on your side. This all a little game to you, well I'm not playing. I will never join your side. I will never kill innocent people. "

" Yes, because it's much better to play for a man who raises you like a pig for slaughter. Why do you think he keeps sending you back to your awful family? I am many things harry but child abuser I am not." 

" F..for the blood protection so you could never find me"

" Three things: one that protection only works if you call that place your home. You and I both know you haven't called it home in a long time. Hogwarts is your home. Second, there are better worded places than a muggle's house. I know the order is at the black manor right now but we can't reach it because the word is so powerful. And lastly no that's not why dumbledore sends you back. He makes you go though living hell year after year so when you finally come.back home to hogwarts you will do anything he was to stay and fell any form of love"

" Your wrong"

" Am I Potter. Tell me how dumbledore has given you may from of love that you fell you didn't have to earn". I cant. I want say his wrong but he isn't. I…

 "What ever. I will still never join your cause. You kill and murder innocent people"

" Not everything is black and white you know"

" You killed Sirius"

" Bell killed Sirius. I hate wasting magical blood. It sadness me every time and trust me Harry I have to keep that girl on a very tight leash. As much as I love her loyalty she will ruin all my plans if I'm not careful with her"

I smirk up at him, " I bet you like putting her on a leash you kinky Fuck".

He gets right up in my face again, " I wouldn't know never been with a girl before. You know more about that than I do potter". I move away blushing." Why do you think I was in that club tonight"

" T..to follow me into a trap"

" To be honest I didn't mean to meet you here tonight. I didn't even know you were coming".

" Then why. You hate muggles you said yourself, there as pigs"

" Makes it more fun when I Fuck something I give give no shits about it"

" W..why you still can't feel love" 

He put a hand over his heart, " that was very rude harry. I have feelings too you know" he says sarcastically.

" But it's true. Dumbledore said someone born from a love potion s can't feel love And most of the time I don't feel anything for other people. But I do have love for what's mine. I've been letting you children room free but if you guys ever actually destroy my horcruxes I will make you feel the worst pain in your life and I won't stop." He gets in my face again and grabs my shirt. My ears flop down scared again. How can he keep doing this? I'm a gryffindor. I shouldn't be so scared of this snake. " Besides love and lust and two very different things. Something a child wouldn't understand.".

"I understand the difference but to have sex with someone with no love is wrong. how long have you been using muggles for"

"Oh please I've had men falling for me for over 40 years. I don't even have to try, they ask me sometimes begging me to. Wizard and muggle. but I haven't had a chance in this new body of mine. I was really hoping to try it out tonight". He looks at me with a smirk. 

"Why are you still looking at me like that? You know who I am, why would you still want to do that". 

" I can't lie, Harry, you're very attractive and you said yourself you've never cared for people your own age. Though I don't expect anything to happen anymore. Which suckes I was really looking forward to try out this body. Well it was fun while it lasted. I've never been with a furry before. There cuter then I imagined"

I hold my ears down again. I get up and start heading to the door, " I have to go"

" Bye and harry" For some reason I trun back to him. " I did mean it. If your friends don't like you because your part cat they aren't your friends. Say what you will about the us but all creatures are welcomed and I want them to be more accepted in society"

I don't even respond and leave.

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Harry pov

When I left the hotel room I apporated going back to the camp. Voldemort's words are still fresh in my mind. 

" So Harry, did you have fun with the ladies?". 

I look at her confused. " No, I just wanted to walk around town". 

She raises her eyebrow at me, " don't lie harry I saw you messing around in the mirror earlier. I've only ever see you do that for cho or ginny".

I look away embarrassed, " ok fine I went out to the club. I wasn't expecting to pick anyone I just wanted a drink and enjoy being 17"

"Sigh harry I get it. I don't want to be here either but we really shouldn't be spending our time parting. There's a war going-"

" I know Hermione but this isn't working. Ron was right that we haven't made my progress destroying it since we got it. We are just wasting time, hurting ourselves in the process." I sit down and put my head in my hands. 

She takes off the locket and sits next to me, " I know things have been difficult since Ron left but we can't give up now. We've come too far for that, given up too much". 

" No you two have given up too much. I shouldn't have let you two join."

" There was no way we are going to let you go alone."

" And risk you losing your families." My breathing gets heavier as I'm trying to stay calm. " Ron's family could have died for all we knew and I yelled at him for being worried. And your parents might forget about you forever. And for what. Even if we find more horcruxes there's no way we can actually destroy it" 

"You've done it before Harry, we can do it again."

" I was 12 and almost died"

" But the fact is you did it. You are the best one to destroy these things, with your connection to them and him". 

" That's something I've been wondering about. Why is it that I can hear them? Why is it that we can enter into each other's heads? It doesn't make sense" 

" I've had my theories but I haven't wanted to say"

" Sniffles.. but you know it's true and what I have to do. I don't want to drag you down with me"

" I'm not letting you do it alone. Just because your the bloody chosen one doesn't mean you have to do everything by yourself"

" I never wanted to be the chosen one. I never asked for any of this" 

She backs away from me and looks at me with shock. " H..harry"

I looked at her confused, " what" then I felt my tail stick in my pants. " Owowo" I say as I pull it out. I hate when my tail gets stuck, it's rather painful. 

" H..harry your a-"

" I know I'm a black cat. I got my creature inheritance". 

" Since when" she starts cautiously walking towards me. 

" Since last summer!" I jumped at the sudden touch of my ears. " Don't touch them"

" Sorry Harry, I've just never seen a creature before. Other than lupin but his different. Do you know what type you are. How did you get it, the potters aren't known for creatures. Is it just your ears and tail or your whole body? Do you have claws? Have you gotten any cat like traits?" 

She gets really close to me and asks. "Enough hermione please, I'm not some zoo animal"

" Oh I'm sorry harry. I guess I got carried away". I look away from her. " What's wrong I'm sorry if I got too invasive"

I put my hand up, " no it's fine, I expected as much". I say monotone.  

" Theres is something, something you're not telling me harry". 

" It isn't just the ears and tail" I look away nervously. 

" What is it"

I removed my full glamor. There's no point in it any more. " I went to Gringotts to try and figure out what was going on. They told me I was a black panther. A dark creature usually very strong in dark magic"

" Oh" she stays silent and moves a little away. " I guess that's why you're so good at defences against the dark arts and fight you know who.''. She nervously smiles.

" Hermione, I literally have a dark creature inside of me and my magical core is dark. If my parents knew-" I cover my face in my hands. 

" They would still love you. You're their son".

" Their son who is a dark creature. Dark wizards and had the soul of their killer inside of them!". I cry, grabbing my chest with one of my hands.

" All that matters is how you use your magic. Lupin is a dark creature but doesn't hurt anyone". 

" Even Lupin told me to keep quiet about my magic and creatures. I fear being seen as less than human. He is right. Creatures, Especially dark creatures, are seen as second hand citizens. That won't change after this war. I always have been and always still be seen as a… freak."

" That's not true harry. You aren't a freak. It isn't fair that purebloods hate anything different from them. People should be free no matter how they were born or want happened to them"

" As sweet as it is, I dough on the light side. like me. I can see the news articles now. The lights hero turned dark creature. This isn't anything new for me. All 5th year no one believed me and dumbledore that voldemort was back and hated me. And the year before that they all thought I cheated to get into the tournament. Nothing will ever change. It will never be good enough, always something to disappoint. I've been told this my enter life. Since I was old enough to speak I've been told I'm a… a freak. Less than a human who doesn't deserve to live. This is just another one. You know I was so happy to finally turn 17 and get away from the dursleys but they are still here". I point to my head. " Nothing has changed since I've left one toxic world for another. I've always just been a tool for people to use then throw away like it doesn't matter"

" You do matter harry. I don't care what others say you are important. You are the savior of the bloody wizarding for merlin sack. Everyone is counting on you". 

" Ya and they all expect me to die for them while being treated less than dirt"

" That's not true harry. We love you".

" Oh yes while you borrowed me with questions and touch me without me asking like I'm a cat you found on the streets"

" I already said I'm sorry I won't do that again"

" You should already know. I don't touch your boobs just because I've never seen them before. It's basic human respect."

" I'm really sorry harry I won't do that again". She says as he covers chest with her arms. 

I just roll my eyes. " I'm going to bed"

" Please harry don't shut me out"

" Hermione it's late, I'm cranky and I don't want to say anything else I might regret. Good night" I left my room in the tent. Taking the locket with me

" Good night Harry".

Harry walks into his room and slabs the door. Puts silence charms and locks. I flop on the bed.

Why can't I be just like any other kid? The only worry in the world is bullies and tests. But no, I'm the chosen one. Chosen to die. Dumbledore said that you can't escape fate. Neither she'll live while the other survives. That's what the prophecy said. You can't escape it, my fate is to die killing voldemort. The world has been trying to kill me since I was a baby. First with voldemort, then the dursleys barely keeping me Alive, then again voldemort in first year, voldemort diary in second, Petter in third year, voldemort and the triwizard tournament, umbridge and her sadistic punishments. 

No one has ever asked me what I want. I'm supposed to save the day then be thrown away. 

That is with them never telling me anything. Why in fear Voldemort will just learn everything? TO FUCKING LATE NOW. Did they think I'd run away and not do as I'm told if I knew the truth. Will I. Now that I know I hate to die, can I do it? It's easy when people are attacking you to face death but to choose it for yourself is another. I have no problem risking my life to save others but this is different. I fell like I got a dagger stabbing me in the gut. This is what everyone except for me. The selfless hero saves the day. I never wanted this. I never wanted to be the hero. Ya I wanted to be loved but this isn't what I meant. Urgggg

As much as I hate all the treatment to me I can't hate them. There is the only thing close to family I have. Oh and Sirius if he knew. James Potter's son is a horcruxes holding his killer's soul. I grab the locket and look at it. Being nothing more than a babysitter for his little treasures. 

I fan my shirt, feeling the sweat on my body. I quickly rip off my clothes. I hate wearing clothes in my furry form, it just gets so hot. I get down to my boxers and I remember my evening earlier. Fuck. This is all so much. I decided taking a cold shower would be a good idea. 

I get up and walk over to our shower area and cast the water charm. O merlin I knew I wanted for cold but blood hell it's like ice. I made my way into the shower. Oh bloody hell it feels like fire how cold the water is. Adlest it should help with my little problem. I haven't had shampoo or conditioner in weeks. I stole a few soup bars, Without Hermione knowing of course, a few weeks ago. I lather the soup all over my furry. Life was easier when the only hair I had to worry about was on top of my head. Takes so much damn time, so annoying. I smell the air and of course I smell the steam and me but I can.

Also tell the soup bar has some pumpkin spice in it. That's one good thing about this form, my sense of smell is really strong now. Hmmmm I love pumpkin. Fall is my favorite time of the year, all the smells and colors are so pretty. 

I turn off the water and get out. I grab the tale and start drying myself off. That's another thing, it takes like an hour for all this fur to dry off. I say Fuck it haft fast and go to bed. 

I climb into bed and snuggle into my pillows. I have one for my head and one for my legs. I've always liked hugging things at night. That's another thing about this, is I don't get cold easily but sweat a lot. In no time the bed went from ice cold to nice and warm in no time.