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Humans can’t live alone, that is a well-known knowledge that most people know. No matter how advanced this world is and how humans can be so individualistic, at the end of the day no one can live alone without costing their sanity.
And that is what Ryeowook knows as well. As one of the members of a legendary group idol, Super Junior, he really knows how humans can’t live by themselves. As a member of the group idols, Ryeowook also needs other members to perform.
But, humans relationship can be… a bit difficult to understand.
“Yesung, can you go on?”
“…sorry, no…”
“Yesung-hyung, just rest if you are exhausted.”
“Okay…”
Ryeowook looks at one of the older members, Yesung, from behind his shoulder.
As a group of idols, Super Junior is getting old, sure. They are also becoming old. They don’t have the same stamina just like when they first debuted.
But, Yesung’s stamina is on a different level. And it isn’t just because he is getting old.
Ryeowook looks at how Yesung walks out of the practice room with a dejected face.
“Yah… it isn’t even one hour yet.”
“Don’t worry, he will be back. Let’s just continue, Eunhyuk.”
Ryeowook just huffs and lets his body dance along with the music again. The empty place of Yesung is replaced by a back dancer. It isn’t a new sight for them to see a member’s spot replaced by a back dancer. Mainly because Super Junior members are busy with their own schedules, so there are quite a lot of back dancers available to make sure the rest of the members can train without them.
But, Yesung’s lack of stamina is a routine occurrence.
Once they practiced for one hour, the other members start to goof around, but Yesung still isn’t back yet.
Ryeowook just stares at the door with a concerned face.
“Teuk-hyung,” he approaches the leader of the group. Leeteuk is sprawled on the floor, drenched with sweat. He is the oldest one, so the dance practice is rough for him as well but he never walks out of the practice room like Yesung.
“What is it, Ryeowook?” Leeteuk sits up. Ryeowook crouches down beside him.
“Isn’t Yesung-hyung’s condition getting worse? Shouldn’t… you talk about it to him?” Ryeowook asks with a bit of nervousness.
“About his diet, you mean?” Leeteuk asks back. Suddenly, Leeteuk looks even more tired. “I have, many times.”
It is common knowledge for the ones who know Super Junior and Yesung.
Yesung’s diet.
His lack of consuming food to be exact.
His ongoing diet never stops.
The way he refuses to eat when they schedule their comeback album. How he consumes the bare minimum to maintain his weight. The way it affects his stamina badly.
The way it makes everyone around him so worried about his diet.
“I have talked about it to him too,” Eunhyuk joins the conversation. “But, he is so stubborn. He wouldn’t listen to me.”
“I did too,” Shindong raises his hand as well. “I feel so sick just to see him and persuade him to eat more, but he flatly refused me.”
“He ignored me completely when I tried to talk about it to him,” Donghae says too with a small pout.
“Me too,” Siwon nods along. “He is really stubborn about it.”
“I think everyone has tried to talk about it to him,” Kyuhyun adds. “Even the managers, they tried. Yesung-hyung wouldn’t listen.”
“Me as well,” Ryeowook sighs while looking down.
“I think we have tried to talk to him about it, like for hundred times, but he wouldn’t listen,” Leeteuk says in an exaggerated way, but he has a concerned expression. “I think he is getting thinner every year… I’m worried about him.”
“I think he lied about his weight,” Kyuhyun says with a serious face. “I believe that his actual weight is under 60 kg.”
“So rather than lying by making him weigh less, he lied that he weighs more? That sounds hard to believe,” Shindong snickers.
“He can’t even endure 1-hour dance practice now… I’m afraid of Yesung-hyung fainting during our concert, that would be a total nightmare.” Eunhyuk adds.
“I already warned him, if he ever gets hospitalized because of his diet, I will make sure to make Yesung stop his diet no matter what,” Leeteuk says with a determined face. But then he deflates. “But, that’s all I can warn him. Somehow, Yesung can still hold on for this long without getting into any incident. I wonder how he does it.”
“If he doesn’t stop his dieting, it is just a matter of time till it really happens,” Kyuhyun says with a sigh.
“Please don’t say that,” Siwon scolds Kyuhyun slightly. Kyuhyun smiles sheepishly.
“But, you know I’m right.”
“Now, now, let’s go back to our practice.” The manager stops their conversation there. Ryeowook wants to mention how Yesung is still not back with them, but he holds his tongue.
“Can we eat first? I’m starving, I don’t think I can continue without eating first,” Shindong voices his opinion.
“Great, let’s eat first!” Donghae sounds excited.
“Eat! Eat! Eat!” Eunhyuk joins them.
“Okay, okay, let’s eat first but then after that you guys need to continue the practice, okay?” The manager quickly gives up on their request.
Ryeowook chuckles at seeing the members’ crazy antics. But then he frowns at the door of the practice room.
0o0o0o0
Ryeowook is wandering around the agency building, looking for his dieting Hyung. He couldn’t find Yesung in the waiting room or cafeteria. The other members are having fun eating food both from the cafeteria and from the delivery service. Ryeowook himself slips out once he grabs a few bites because he is on diet as well.
Not as extreme as Yesung though.
“Found him…” Ryeowook smiles thinly at himself.
Finally, he finds Yesung chilling alone on the emergency stairs.
“Yesung-hyung,” he calls him, not forgetting to sound extra cute to grab his hyung’s attention.
Yesung pulls out his wired earphone and looks at him. Ryeowook approaches him and sits beside him on the stairs. “What are you doing here?”
Yesung is holding an old iPod and there is a bag of crackers beside him, it is actually clear what he is doing here.
“I’m resting and having a meal, obviously. You don’t need to ask,” Yesung replies with a small smile.
Like that small bag of crackers can be counted as a meal. And the fact that he is resting here, instead of in other decent rooms, just makes Ryeowook more concerned. “Hyung, we ordered really delicious fried chicken from Shindong-hyung’s recommendation, you need to try it.” Ryeowook tries to persuade Yesung with a cute smile.
“No thank you, you guys can eat it.” Yesung smiles sheepishly and sighs. He is looking distantly at nothing.
“Aren’t you hungry?” Ryeowook asks.
“Very hungry,” Yesung says honestly.
“Then eat.”
Yesung chuckles as if Ryeowook just said something funny. “I’m fine. I will eat later.”
“Hyung…,” Ryeowook whines and pulls at Yesung’s sleeve, trying to persuade him with his aegyo charm.
“Why are you like this?” Yesung asks with a small laugh, pulling Ryeowook’s hand away from his sleeve. “Are you annoyed because I disturb our dance practice? I will be back after a few more minutes resting.”
“You dummy, I’m worried about you,” Ryeowook says with a small pout.
Yesung’s eyes soften. “Thank you for the concern, I’m really okay. You know, my stamina isn’t good these days.”
“Yeah, because you don’t eat,” Ryeowook says sarcastically.
“You fool, of course, I eat. I will die if I don’t eat,” Yesung denies his claim.
“Yeah, but not enough,” Ryeowook says again. He doesn’t want to back up and let Yesung get away with this. Yesung can be stubborn but Ryeowook can play this game as well.
Yesung sighs and stares into the younger member’s eyes. “Ryeowook,” the way Yesung says it. He is using his ‘older member’ tone. He is warning him. He is ordering Ryeowook to stop.
Ryeowook pouts and sighs. It is hard when Yesung is using his privilege of being the older one between them.
“But, seriously Hyung… You know that everyone is concerned about you… They can’t understand, I can’t understand too. Just why you are doing this to yourself? In my opinion, this is a bit extreme,” Ryeowook is still protesting.
It has been going on for years.
And people have been asking Yesung to stop his extreme diet for years to no avail.
And Ryeowook already knows the answer to this question, because he has asked about this in the past, but he feels the need to ask this question again.
“You know that I easily gain weight and my face become so chubby, I don’t like that,” Yesung answers with the same answer he has explained to Ryeowook in the past.
Ryeowook knows that. Dieting is one of the disadvantages of being an idol. They need to maintain their body to cater to the ideal but toxic body image.
But there is always an exception, like Shindong.
“But everyone gained weight. We are getting old. We aren’t as skinny as we used to be and our fans understand that” Ryeowook counters back.
That is the truth. All of the members of Super Junior, besides Eunhyuk and Yesung, are getting more weight as they get older. Eunhyuk is skinny because that is how his metabolism work. But, Yesung is the only one who gets thinner because of his constant dieting.
“I’m not asking you to stop dieting, Yesung-hyung… but, you don’t need to get this thin to appeal to our fans, your stamina is so low now,” Ryeowook adds more. Yes, he just doesn’t want Yesung to get so thin until his stamina depletes drastically compared to his younger self.
And that is saying something because Ryeowook knows that Yesung is always moving in efficient ways to preserve his stamina. His nonchalant dance is lacking power, especially during dance practice. Eunhyuk has complained about how Yesung seemed so indifferent during dance practice and never gave it his all, but the main dancer has long given up on correcting Yesung’s dancing ability.
This sly man knows he only needs to dance wholeheartedly in front of the camera or fans. That is Yesung for you.
But, even with his nonchalant dancing, Yesung just can’t endure dancing practice fully from the beginning to the end. He will drop out in the middle after looking like he will faint then he will come back after resting.
It has been going on for years.
And in Ryeowook’s opinion, it is getting worse and worse.
Yesung sighs. He doesn’t smile anymore. Maybe he decides to stop pretending that he is fine.
“You don’t know anything…” He says that with his low voice, not looking into Ryeowook’s eyes.
“You need to tell me first, how would I know if you don’t tell me anything?” Ryeowook asks back, his voice getting higher.
He knows that there is more to this. There should be more reasons why this Hyung forcing himself to get through this.
Yesung is silent for a while, his eyes are looking at his own hands. He looks like he is contemplating whether to tell Ryeowook or not.
Ryeowook is just sitting there and waiting. He is glad that he left his phone in the waiting room because he is sure that the other members are looking for him right now. But, Ryeowook wants to settle this matter first before he can focus on the dance practice again.
“You know that I have a bad case of insecurity, right?”
Finally, Yesung opens his mouth again. And his words are making Ryeowook a bit startled.
“I know…” Ryeowook answers with a small voice.
Ryeowook knows that Yesung are struggling with his insecurity for years.
“You know that I barely debuted, even after being a trainee for years, right?” Yesung asks again.
“I know…,” Ryeowook nods again. Even though Ryeowook didn’t share the same experience as Yesung, Yesung’s bad insecurity is common knowledge among all of the members.
Even if he isn’t the only one who trained to be an idol for years before debuted, his lack of getting the spotlight was quite an issue for him. Back then when Super Junior was still a project group, Yesung was always looking at the edge all the time.
He was so afraid of getting kicked out from the group. All the members know about this.
“Right, I was even wary about you and Kyuhyun at first… like, I was afraid you two would replace me…,” Yesung snorts sarcastically. “The thing is… I never get why. Just… what made me so different from the other members that the agency seemed reluctantly let me debut?”
Yesung sighs heavily and Ryeowook is silent.
“I think… it might be because I’m not an idol material… like, maybe from all of the other members, I’m not fit to be an idol the most,” Yesung continues to talk, he doesn’t look at Ryeowook's eyes, but toward the stairs below them. “I’m not good-looking, I’m not entertaining, I’m not good at dancing, I’m not very sociable, if it isn’t because of my singing skill, it would be impossible for me to be an idol.”
There is a heavy silence between them. Ryeowook experienced this when Yesung opens himself and talks about his insecurity, about his worry. The other members used to avoid this at all cost because they just don’t like to have a serious talk, maybe only Leeteuk who don’t avoid it. Ryeowook used to avoid this kind of talk as well because it felt burdening.
But, today, he decides to listen to Yesung. Even though it feels a bit awkward and heavy.
“But the thing is, the agency is full with so many talented singers already… So, I guess, just being good at singing isn’t enough…” Yesung continues again.
“Then, what about me and Kyuhyun?” Ryeowook talks back and finally found his voice again.
“You two have the charm to be idols… like, you are cute and Kyuhyun is just… Kyuhyun. I don’t know, I don’t understand it either,” Yesung smiles sadly. “I just feel that I’m different from all of you, I’m not supposed to be an idol. I mean… I can’t imagine myself to be anything but an idol, but… I guess for other people, I’m not fit to be an idol.”
Yesung’s words are a bit confusing, but Ryeowook gets it.
Super Junior is full of crazy and weird members.
But still, Yesung is an odd one between them.
There is just something that makes him different from the rest.
“So, I thought that I need to improve myself. I need to find a way to fit myself into an idol image that people have. But then…” Yesung chuckles sadly. “I can’t just be an energetic and optimist person, I can’t change my look without getting plastic surgery, I can’t just beat our dancers in terms of dancing, improving my singing skill isn’t enough… so… I found that, even if I don’t get plastic surgery, I can improve my overall look with dieting and styling.”
Finally, Yesung turns at Ryeowook. “Do you get it? After I do diet and style myself, I feel like I’m more like an idol than before. I can show people that, this is my effort to be a better idol. I can say to myself that this is me doing my best to suit the image of an idol in my mind.” Yesung pauses for a second then he smiles thinly.
“Because of that I can’t stop dieting, it is like asking me to stop being an idol. The reason why I do this is more for my own sake, than for other people, I hope you can understand that, Ryeowook.”
It is true though. Ryeowook knows that Yesung looks more confident after dieting. And his styling skill is really good now. He looks so different than how he was in the past.
Though, Ryeowook feels sad that Yesung needs to torture himself with being starving just so he can feel more confident in himself.
“You know that Super Junior can’t be without you, Yesung-hyung. KRY won’t be without you too,” Ryeowook reminds him. Whether it is the chubby Yesung or the thin Yesung, they need Yesung to be there with them.
Yesung’s eyes soften. “Geez, I know it.”
Ryeowook sighs. “Now, I understand the reason why you do this, Hyung. But still, I don’t want you to get ill.”
“I won’t, I promise Teuk-hyung that I won’t get hospitalized because of my dieting,” Yesung shows a grin. “In fact, I feel better now. Let’s join the dance practice again.” Yesung stands and offers his hand to Ryeowook.
Ryeowook grabs onto Yesung’s hand.
At least, this hand doesn’t feel bony.
Yesung is thin, but not like sickeningly thin.
Ryeowook wonders if it is still fine for him to let Yesung keep doing this.
Because even if Yesung looks brightened now, Ryeowook can’t help but feel sorry for his Hyung.
0o0o0o0
A small hand is scrolling through the screen, browsing through hundreds of photos.
The photos of people showing their cutting scars.
Then the finger stops and taps one image.
Then scrolling down to see the comment.
“Why is it wrong if they want attention?” Yesung mutters softly to himself.
These unknown people on the internet, who struggles and harm themselves, Yesung feels sorry for them. And he feels even more sorry when people left comments about how these kinds of people are just seeking attention.
For Yesung himself, craving or seeking attention is never a bad thing.
Because he isn’t that much different.
Even though there are no scars of self-harming on his body.
But, he is asking for people’s attention in the same way.
His fingers move on the screen and this time stops at his camera gallery. He taps into one photo and smiles to see a selfie of himself and his precious younger member, Ryeowook.
“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you everything,” Yesung softly mutters.
That is the ugly side of himself that he won’t ever admit openly to others.
He enjoys how people worry for him when he does his diet.
He basks in their attention.
He feels loved.
It is sickening for him to feel that way. He didn’t do it on purpose at first.
But then he noticed that he enjoyed the attention when people are worried about him.
The members would keep asking him to eat.
The fans would shower him with love and comments.
Yesung loves all of that, secretly.
Because when he didn’t do that, he can remember how he would just stand on the corner, forgotten. Or being bullied so that people pay attention to him.
Even when he asked for their attention, they would either ignore him or shoved him aside.
What is wrong with asking for attention?
These people who do self-harm, maybe they just simply don’t know how to ask for attention in the right way.
Yesung feels the same way.
That is why he always makes sure that people don’t forget that he dieting. He reminds everyone, the members, and his fans, that he is on diet every once in a while, to make sure they never forget. To make sure that they know Yesung is still dieting.
“I’m so sick…” Yesung smiles at himself sadly.
Because he just can’t be the center of attention in a natural way.
He isn’t that charming, he isn’t that funny, he isn’t that handsome, he isn’t very sociable.
He is just an awkward and shy guy, who has crippling insecurity and self-esteem issue.
He wonders if people know why Yesung dislikes sad songs because his mind is already full of sad thoughts.
The fact that despite looking narcissistic, he hates himself more than anyone.
If he can, of course, he wants to be as confident as other people, like the other members. Even if he has been an idol for years and has a solid fanbase now, the fear of getting replaced or kicked out from the group is still haunting his mind.
The truth is, Super Junior can still go on without him.
They started with 12 people, then 13 people, then 11 people, and then now 9 people.
They would survive with only 8 members.
Kyuhyun and Ryeowook are enough as the main vocals for Super Junior.
They can do well without him.
He isn’t the leader, he isn’t a reliable older member, he isn’t…
He is just Yesung.
The truth is, he is just a pathetic person. And he is living by denying that as long as he can.
Sometimes, he feels sorry for the other members and they need to endure having someone like him in their group.
“The least I can do is not trouble them more,” Yesung huffs as he covers his face with his hands.
Right, he needs to stop dieting so hard. He doesn’t even like to feel hungry all the time, but the attention and the acknowledgment he gets just feel so worth it.
Yesung chuckles at himself. But if he keeps continues to trouble the other members, rather than feeling sorry, they might kick him out for real for his stubbornness.
So, Yesung takes the plain piece of bread from the plate.
And eat it.
0o0o0o0
Of course, just having breakfast once after not having breakfast for so long won’t suddenly improve his stamina.
Yesung is back at his secret place, sitting on the emergency stairs case with a bag of crackers beside him and wired earphones on his ears. He is listening to the upcoming album of his group, especially his parts. He managed to preserve about 1-hour dance practice, but his vision got hazy and he escaped before he fainted in front of the members.
Yesung dislikes being alone. But after he is getting older, he learns to embrace the lonely feeling. It feels better to be alone than when he is surrounded by people who ignored him. The waiting room is simply not good because the staff kept giving him side glances for being there during dance practice, so Yesung chooses to be here.
Actually, he prefers to be inside the practice room. He loves to watch the members practice their crazy antics. But staying there would make him feel guilty.
Or sometimes, making him feel left out.
So, here he is. Listening to their newest songs while snacking on the crackers. Old habit dies hard.
“Yesung-hyung.”
Yesung turns to look behind him.
Ryeowook is standing there, waving cutely at him.
Then there is his precious younger member.
Yesung feels a bit sorry for him to act like this. He wants to ask Ryeowook to stop looking out for him, Yesung will be fine even if he is alone. He is still learning to be a loner, he will get there eventually.
“Here, come with me, I need to show you something,” Ryeowook urges him to follow him.
Yesung feels that this is another Ryeowook’s scheme to make him get out of this place. Despite his innocent look, Ryeowook can be cunning and he can manipulate people subtly.
Well, Yesung is also an easy person to be manipulated.
The older member smiles thinly and follows the younger member with small steps.
Ryeowook is leading him to a small room waiting room, the one that people rarely use because of its small size.
He pulls one of the chairs and gestures for Yesung to sit beside him.
Yesung is following Ryeowook obediently. “What is it?”
Ryeowook is pulling out a bag from out of nowhere. Then he pulls out a plastic container.
“Here, eats this salad,” Ryeowook says as he opens the plastic container.
Yesung just blinks then stares at Ryeowook. He has explained to Ryeowook the reason for his dieting a few days ago, it seems the younger one is still not giving up yet.
“Ryeowook-“
“I made this for you, so eat it please,” Ryeowook cuts his words with a sly smile. “See? I prepare one for myself as well.” Ryeowook shows him another plastic container filled with a sandwich made from rye bread.
“Why?” Yesung asks him.
Yesung knows that Ryeowook is a sweet guy. Actually, despite a few members can be afraid of him, for Yesung, Ryeowook is really sweet.
“Because I know that you asked for salads several times when we ordered delivery foods, but the others always ignored you,” Ryeowook says as he opens his plastic container and picks out his sandwich. “Don’t worry, the ice Americanos are on the way too.”
Oh, Ryeowook noticed about the salads? Yesung picks out the utensil reluctantly. He feels a bit embarrassed. He knows that the members don’t really like salads so it was a futile attempt for him. It was normal for him to get ignored in that kind of situation. He didn’t know that Ryeowook has been paying attention to him.
“You are really cunning if this is how you making me eat…,” Yesung compliments Ryeowook. Because if it is like this, there is no way for Yesung to refuse the food. How could he refuse when his precious younger member made it specifically for him?
He is happy that Ryeowook is showering him with attention and affection. Maybe partly because he pities him, but Yesung won’t refuse it.
“Because I want to see you eat well, Yesung-hyung,” Ryeowook says. “I think everyone does as well.”
Yesung snorts. “The others love to tease me when I want to eat something though,” there were several times when the members actually forbid him to eat to tease him.
Yesung shoves the salad into his mouth and enjoys the taste. Ryeowook is good at cooking. He misses this taste.
“Don’t listen to them, they are incarnations of evil,” Ryeowook dissing the other members, and Yesung can’t help but laugh out loud to hear that.
“At least you need to eat enough during our dance practice week, Yesung-hyung. I don’t want to be the only one who dances badly in our group,” Ryeowook adds again as he bites into his sandwich.
Yesung can’t help but laugh again. “But there is Kyuhyun.”
“No, Kyuhyun can dance decently if he puts his mind to it,” Ryeowook adds. “But actually, three of us can do that, we are too lazy though.”
Yesung erases the tears from his eyes because he is laughing so much. “Well, we are the vocal line.”
“You are right. But we still need to dance, so it can’t be helped. You can’t leave me, Yesung-hyung.” Ryeowook smiles sweetly at him.
Strangely after hearing that, it makes Yesung’s mood brightened. It is such a ridiculous reason to be needed, but Ryeowook is being honest. And it feels a bit personal.
It feels as if Ryeowook managed to get inside Yesung’s mind and saw the older member’s nightmare that has been haunting him.
It makes Yesung’s eyes a bit teary because it feels as if Ryeowook pleaded with him to never leave the group. While it should have been the other way around, Yesung is the one who should plead with them to never kick him out. Yesung tries to cover his sudden emotional state by shoving more salad into his mouth.
“Well, eating together once in a while isn’t bad,” Yesung admits it. Eating crackers by himself feels miserable and lonely, Yesung feels that. “I will try to lessen dieting during our dance practices, but I won’t promise you anything.” Because the old habit is hard to change. But, he doesn’t want to make Ryeowook worry or trouble him more than this.
If it is for this sweet younger member, maybe Yesung can try to lessen his extreme diet.
“And during our concerts too.”
“I won’t be able to do any diet during the concert even if I want to,” Yesung responds. The group tends to eat so much food during the tour.
“You will still find a way,” Ryeowook denies him. Yesung just continues to eat the salad, because, yes, he will find a way to limit his intake even when there are tons of foods around him. He will end up eating more than what he plans, so he didn’t lie about it.
“When you are with me, I will make sure to make you decently eat, Yesung-hyung. You can eat low-calorie food if you want, but you still need to eat. I won’t accept ‘no’ as an answer.” Ryeowook says with determination in his eyes.
And a determined Ryeowook is hard to fight, Yesung knows that.
“We will see,” Yesung humor his younger member. Between his stubbornness and Ryeowook’s determination, who will win? Yesung doesn’t know.
“Challenge accepted,” Ryeowook nods with a smile. Then he bites into his sandwich again.
Yesung just looks at him with adoration. He wonders just why Ryeowook even bothers himself to do any of this. Strictly speaking, they are like co-workers or colleagues. Yesung has been craving to have a deeper relationship with the members, like friends or best friends but he realized that he is the odd one to wish for something like that.
Or generally, because he isn’t a very likable person among the members.
So, he can’t really understand just why Ryeowook acts like this to him.
Yesung just feels grateful though.
“Yesung-hyung, did you hear what I say?”
“Oh, sorry, what is it?”
“I want to visit your café this week, can I do that? For my youtube, it is okay right?”
“Of course,” Yesung smiles brighter. “I have been waiting for you to visit my new café.” But Yesung is too timid to even ask Ryeowook to come around.
“It is settled then!” Ryeowook chirps happily and Yesung just chuckles at how cute Ryeowook behaves.
Their happiness shatters a bit when their phones start to ring loudly.
“Crap, Teuk-hyung is getting angry.”
“We need to go back quickly! Come on!”
They are tidying up quickly and run to the practice room while laughing and joking between themselves, somehow reminding the sweet memories of when they just debuted.
And that day by the time the dance practice is over, Eunhyuk congratulates Yesung for being able to memorize the whole dance choreography. Shindong also orders delivery foods with extra salads on the side. Donghae hugs him out of nowhere. Siwon suddenly gives him a surprise quiz for his youtube. Leeteuk sets aside his salad with an extra big piece of meat on top of it before the others attack the food. And Kyuhyun offers him another cup of ice americano.
And Ryeowook is sticking beside Yesung all the time while laughing and complaining at the other members’ antics.
All of his worries and dark thought exist maybe because he has been craving someone’s attention and affection. Now that Ryeowook is beside him and the others are paying him attention, it feels as if what Yesung has been worrying about is all stupid.
Having someone by his side… sure feels nice, better than when he starves himself to get attention.
Not that Yesung will ever stop his diet though.
That is a different story.
End