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Alastor was always poised, graceful even. He had calculated movements and grandiose theatrical flair. You envied his coordination, never once looking awkward. So it was weird to see him twitch so much. From morning till now as you all sat eating the dinner the deer demon prepared, you’d noticed how his ears flicked and how he’d shake his head every so often. His hands, graceful and confident with whatever he was doing, would make small aborted movements every now and then.
The usually stoic Alastor looked uncomfortable and only you seemed to notice.
“Is the jambalaya not to your liking, my dear? You haven’t taken a bite.” Across from you, his staticky voice drew your attention from his small movements back to the present. He dabbed a napkin to his grinning mouth while looking at you in question. You blinked and coughed a little, embarrassed to be caught staring.
“Uh no… sorry. Was a little distracted there.” You take a bite of the dish he had prepared and savor the spicy rich taste. It was so good you could feel yourself smiling a little in bliss. “Delicious as usual, Alastor. Thank you for the food.”
“My pleasure, dear. My pleasure. It brings me great joy to hear compliments on my mother’s recipe.”
The others chimed in with burps, asking for seconds or more compliments. Dinner continued as usual and you momentarily stopped thinking about the demon’s weird behavior. It was probably nothing.
You bring the dirty dishes to the sink afterwards before putting on an apron to wash them. You took over this chore as it bothered you that the cook also cleaned the kitchen. That’s just not how it was done when you were alive and those old ingrained lessons from childhood remained in you after all that time.
Behind you, Alastor was organizing his spice cabinet. The man was particular about where each spice was kept so he insisted on doing this himself.
The tune of some long ago melody was playing from him. Like most nights, this was a peaceful and quiet time. A few months ago, you would flinch and fight the urge to run away whenever the Radio Demon was near. One day, when you’d gathered the courage to speak to Alastor after dinner, you’d told him that you would like to do the dishes in thanks for his cooking. He’d laughed a staticky fake chuckle and accepted your offer. He then proceeded to watch you work the whole time, chiming in when things weren’t done the way he’d liked. It was arguably, one of the most unpleasant experiences you’d had since coming down. The radio demon did not hold back when it came to his kitchen. Now, you enjoyed these peaceful moments where the clinking of dishes were accompanied by the sound of an old tune.
You were just catching onto the tune, about to hum with it, when it was suddenly cut short. Behind you, there was a growl and the sound of scratching.
“You okay?” You dry your hands as you look over at him. He was scratching at his ear like a puppy.
“Just fine, my dear. Nothing to worry about.” He made a dismissive gesture though his grin remained a tad strained. He peeled a piece of what looked like skin from his antler which seemed to be what was bugging him. He inspected the piece before throwing it in the bin. It was bloody and disgusting and you must’ve been making a face because he chuckled when he looked back at you.
You’d seen this on TV before, back when you were alive. Deer needed to shed skin from their antlers as part of the growth process. You didn’t think that would apply to a deer demon since you’ve seen him change the size of his antlers at will. But all animal demons carried some animal quirk or another based on their form. It made some sense that Alastor would have to go through something so irritating yet utterly pointless in his afterlife. This was Hell after all.
You wanted to pick at it. Would it be squishy? Soft? Was it as gross as it looked? There was an impulse to poke at the spots you now could see shedding but you knew the demon would blast you for even trying. It was a little impulsive but you just had to ask him if you could touch it.
“I noticed you looking a little…uncomfortable today. Would you like some help with shedding the velvet from your antlers?”
Alastor’s POV
While he knew Ynna was a very forward, even blunt, individual, he was still caught by surprise at the offer. Mostly, by the nature of the task. In all her time here at the hotel, she had not tried to initiate contact with him except for a handshake in the beginning. He’s seen her hug Angel Dust and the girls, give friendly pats in passing to Husker and the snake. In fact, his impression of her was that she was a very touchy person, especially after she had settled in with the group. But she had never done so with him once he’d expressed his dislike for being touched. He knew it stemmed from a healthy amount of fear she had for him. He liked that about her.
She was more thoughtful than the rest, even going as far as unconsciously blocking others from touching him by accident.
In fact, he had just enough good will for her to consider her offer.
Part of him recoiled at the thought of someone getting close to his head. A bigger part of him was just begging at the bit scrape off all the excess skin. All day, he’d felt the tight pull against his antlers. All day, he’d held back the urge to find a suitable tree to rub against. It was a humiliating display that he’d rather not have to do but was forced to every single year.
“I don’t think you’d like that, dear. It’s a bit more of a hassle than it looks.”
Her head tilted a little to the side, surely doubting his statement due to how small his antlers looked atop his head. Silly girl. She’s had the fortune of not seeing his full demon form. If she had, it may have taken longer for her to try opening up to him. Maybe never at all if all the times she’d avoided him in the past were any indication of just how terrified she was of him.
Even now, there was hesitation and apprehension in her eyes though she looked quite sincere with her offer. Was this a gesture of friendship on her part? It was almost touching how caring she looked at the moment.
“All the more reason for me to help. Unless you just don’t want me to touch you, which is fine. Just thought I’d offer.” Her hands went in front of her in a gentle surrender, as if giving back space she’d invaded on accident.
There it was again. Caring and respectful, though he’d call it cowardly if he was being honest. Very forward but also easily backed down. So very much like the mountain goat animal her form was, taking careful steps to get to her destination but always hanging at the edge of a cliff. If she fell, would she stick the landing? So far, she had.
He looked at her as if contemplating her offer. He already made up his mind to take her up on it. No one had ever touched his antlers. He wasn’t sure if it would feel just as deplorable as being touched anywhere else on his body. At the very least, she was the most respectful of boundaries within the hotel. He could trust her with making the experience somewhat tolerable if it would rid him of the irritation quicker.
His silent stare unnerved her and it was so very entertaining to see her doubt herself. He could see the thoughts running through her mind. Had she just overstepped some unspoken boundary with an Overlord? Was he offended? Should she just pretend it never happened?
“Then I’ll take you up on that offer. Meet me in my suite later?” He answered just as she was about to retract her offer. She sighed and then smiled in relief. She was surprised he agreed. Why she bothered to try being friendly with him when it caused her so much distress, he would never understand but was it so very amusing to watch.
“Great. I’ll see you later.” The woman turned back to the dishes, humming a tune he recognized as the one he was playing earlier. How adorable.
Ynna’s POV
You were surprisingly looking forward to helping Alastor. After feeling at home with everybody at the hotel, it bothered you that you weren’t as close to Alastor as with the rest. Of course, you didn’t think that Alastor would be the type to have friends but it felt like giving up to not even try to close some of the gap. Now that you were a little less terrified of him and he seemed to not mind your presence, it was a good time to try getting closer.
Approaching the demon’s door, you wondered what it would look like inside. How would Alastor’s prim and proper appearance translate to his personal space? How many radios would he have in there?
The door opened with magic after you knocked. The scene inside stunned you. Passed the vanity and bed was a swamp that seemed to go further in with no wall on the other side. Before you could really think about how he managed to keep a swamp in here, little scratching noises drew your attention to the room’s occupant. At a table near the edge of the swamp, Alastor sat picking at his now elongated antlers. They were stunningly huge. You’ve never seen them that grand before, spanning longer than his arms and a head taller. They were comically disproportionate to his body.
“Welcome my dear. I hope you’re still up to the task after seeing this?” The smile on his face was a touch amused, probably because you were once again caught staring. Going deeper into the room, you note its tidiness. It was oddly minimalistic. Bookshelf, radios (you count at least 2), dresser, vanity and a bed. You guess the swamp did count as an eccentric item that matched Alastor’s huge looming presence. There was also the vivid red wallpaper that gave the room a rich feeling.
Overall, the room fit him with its odd juxtaposition.
“Looks like fun.” Stepping up to him, you stand behind where he’s seated. The sight was gruesome from up close. Blackening bone peaked out from peeling skin. Little bits dangled from where threads still kept hanging on. Everything was bloody. It was so gross yet so fascinating. “Should I get started?”
“Knock yourself out, my dear.”
With his consent, you pinch a bit of the dangling skin. The furry part was soft to the touch though there was definitely a squelch of fleshy bits underneath. “Does that hurt?”
“Haha not even a bit.” He says as he sips a cup of coffee that had manifested in front of him.
“Ok. Cool.” This time you take out a fileting knife. “I’m gonna use a knife to scrape the velvet off. Let me know if it bothers you.” He casually waved, amused that you thought you could hurt him.
Starting from the farthest tip of his right antler, you scrape against the bone. It became quickly apparent that the antler was harder than your knife as it dealt no damage to the bone beneath the velvet. Carefully skinning the fleshy parts, you become entranced with the process. Each slice easily cut through skin and with a bit of pressure, it peeled away.
There was a soft tune, too soft for you to hear the words in the song, but it played from one of the radios in the room. For a moment, you think about the kitchen. The atmosphere in the room felt similar to that. It was calm and peaceful despite your fingers getting bloodier with each piece you stripped from bone. A memory overlaps with the sight in front of you. You used to brush your sister’s hair when you were alive.
“I must say, this is turning out to be a lot more pleasant than expected. Like a spa day as you dames would call it.”
“I can wash your hair after too if you’d like. This is actually pretty fun.”
As you tugged a long strip off the antler, it resembled a thick strand of hair. If you had enough strands, you could make a braid. You giggled at the gross imagery of a bloody ribbon before you cut the strand off completely. “What should I do with this?” Showing the macabre strand to the demon.
“Did you know that stags eat this after they’ve shed?”
“Nope. I thought they were herbivores.”
“On occasion, they do eat meat. I’ve seen one gnaw on human flesh before.” He had to be kidding, right? He was the type to say something horrible just to see people around him squirm but he also wasn’t a liar so that must be true.
“That is…fascinating. Not the kind of red velvet I’d eat but to each their own I guess.” You continue to cut through the skin. You’re about halfway through the first antler, pulling a strand off a pointed tip like pulling off a sock. Except there was a bloody residue left behind, sparkling on the obsidian like bone.
“Oh? What kind of red velvet do you eat, my dear? Pillow covers?”
It took a second for you to process that. You laugh more at the absurdity of the radio demon and how poorly executed that quip was. “Was that a sex joke? From you, Alastor?” You cackle some more while taking another slice at the antler. “And it’s cake. Red velvet is a cake flavor.”
You set the bits and pieces you peeled off on the table. Surely, things were going well if he was trying to crack jokes.
“I didn’t think you’d get it my dear. You always struck me as rather vanilla.” You laugh some more. Puns were always your weakness.
“I see someone had pun-cakes for breakfast.” The antler beneath shakes a bit as the man chuckles. Static crackles in your ear. You’re rather pleased with yourself at the sound.
Alastor POV
“No batter way to start the day, I say.” He laughed at his own joke, watching with interest as your bloody hand dropped pieces of him on the table. It was almost a shame that he couldn’t feel any pain from it.
“I am thankful you didn’t waffle on your offer to help. Though it did catch me by surprise.” The sound of her laughter was lovely. He’d found so few who could appreciate his sense of humor.
“Same here. Glad I asked. I didn’t know your sense of humor would be so en-deer-ing.”
Her hands were closer to the base of his antler now. The scraping felt more prominent, each pass of the knife sending pleasant shivers down his spine. Like an itch finally scratched, it was euphoric. It almost made him regret not getting some unfortunate soul to tend to this need sooner. Almost. Ynna’s pleasant company surely played a role in his enjoyment. As he’d expected, she was careful where she touched. Even though it must’ve strained her a bit to reach over his head, she still made an effort not to touch any part of him other than his antlers.
Picking up a piece of velvet, he started to tear into the strip like jerky. Above him, her hands stilled. She must’ve been repulsed by the display. Turning to get a look at her face, his grin widened when indeed she had turned green and pale before coming back to normal.
“Something wrong, dear?”
He heard her swallow what could have been bile or a bad remark about his eating habits. Either way, what fun it was to make her uncomfortable.
“No. Nothing wrong..” she placed another piece onto the table and continued to work as if she wasn’t watching him cannibalize himself with pieces she’d “prepared”.
She must’ve finished the right antler by now as her hands started working on the left. Inch by inch, he felt the pressure on his antler lighten. Discreetly bringing his microphone at an angle facing them, he peered through its eye to watch Ynna as she worked. Contrary to what he thought, she was smiling. He knew she was disgusted seeing him eat the velvet but she looked like she enjoyed the act of skinning his antlers. He recognized the fascination on her face, almost childlike and serene.
“Were you a medical professional in life? You seem rather handy with a knife.”
“No. The only time I held a scalpel was to dissect frogs during a biology class.”
“You’re a highly educated gal then. I only finished high school before jumping into broadcasting.” School hadn’t been a good memory for him. The usual bullies and brutes strutting about making hell on earth for the other children.
“What was your broadcast like? I’m sure it wasn’t murder and tips from cannibal culinary critics.”
“So you do listen to my show.” How delightful. He was almost certain no one in the hotel cared for his broadcast. Not that they had a choice. “In the earlier years, it was the news, and jazz. When it really took off was when I was able to obtain details about the mysterious killings happening in New Orleans from the police.”
Remembering those old days, he mimicked the tone of the time. “New Orleans killer strikes again as a new victim was found last night. Please be advised, dear listeners, a devil walks among us.”
“And were you that devil, Alastor?” Her hands continued to work, already anticipating his answer and seemingly unbothered.
“Of course.” He took a hearty bite of velvet as he answered her. From the microphone’s cyclops eye, he saw her face turn contemplative though she didn’t stop the rhythm she had going on. He was interested to see her reaction. He’d never shared that detail about his past before. It was just heavily implied.
Ynna’s POV
Were you bothered by Alastor’s casual admittance to being a serial killer? Not really. It was heavily implied with how he carried himself and acted. It was more that you could picture yourself as one of those people in the audience, listening closely to each detail that the police had allowed to be on air. It would have been scandalous, scary, sensational.
“I would have been hooked, become a fan of the show. Something about death was so fascinating when we were alive. Plus, your delivery was great.” You shared your honest thoughts.
“I’m a professional, my dear. Thank you for the praise.” Alastor preened below you, proud of his work back up top. You ponder about how many he must’ve killed to become so powerful immediately upon entry to Hell. It was gross to think about. A sad and unpleasant reality. Many denizens of Hell were like him, unrepentant or even proud murderers. You as well, though it had only been the one.
Jazz was playing on the radio now. The sound was noticeably louder than the earlier songs. It filled the room, leaving no space for conversation. It was like a spell cast upon the scene, both of you silently enjoying the evening.
As you pull the last bit of velvet off, a tiny fluffy bit, you think about how Alastor seemed to actually be enjoying eating the pieces. Though you’d never try it, you did think about taking a bite just to see. You weren’t convinced it would taste good at all, it was raw and furry, not to mention unseasoned.
It was in your mouth before you even thought to put it down.
You choked, unable to decide whether it would be extremely rude to spit it out and wretch like you wanted to but also freaked out that you acted on that intrusive thought.
It sat on your tongue, saliva pooling around it. You could taste the metallic tang of blood and feel the unpleasant sensation of hairs tickling the roof of your mouth. Bile was burning up your throat from the need to puke but you were stubbornly keeping your mouth shut because the Radio Demon was looking at you like he was about to eat you.
Alastor’s head whipped 180 degrees to look at you. His grin was menacing and eyes wide with dials for pupils.
You didn’t mean to. Oh gods you didn’t mean to. What the fuck were you supposed to do in this situation?! He’s angry! Fuck fuck fuck!
Alastor’s POV
At some point, Ynna had fallen into a rhythm, no longer focused on the task at hand and letting her mind wander. It was impressive to see her do it. Her eyes were unfocused but her hands were still careful with the knife. She tended to get like this at times when working in the hotel. While he could chastise her for losing focus, she hadn’t caused any accidents thus far so he let it go.
He was enjoying the treatment and the atmosphere was nice. Up until the very end when her unfocused eyes looked at the last bit of velvet she’d scraped off the tip and popped it into her mouth like a candy drop.
His head swiveled in surprise.
Did she just-? How dare she!? How dare she partake of him without his permission!?
Her hands had gone to her neck. Many emotions passed through her eyes. Surprise, disgust and confusion. She must not have even thought about what she was doing, just acted on a whim. She was turning red and green at the same time. She was stuck and unsure of what to do. Panic was setting in unaware that the real thing she had to panic about was staring at her audacity.
When she finally looked at him, she turned pale, hairs standing on end at the look he must be giving her. She should be afraid. He was angry. Never had a demon in Hell managed to even get a hold of him without his say so. To partake of him so thoughtlessly as if it was natural and she was welcome to it. She deserved no such thing. It was a violation of the trust he’d given her. Where was the respect!?
“My my doll. I didn’t think you’d be interested in eating a piece of me. How is it? Satisfied your curiosity?” His voice was crackling in static and deeper as he growled out his displeasure. Abruptly, he stood from his chair, body turning to face her as well. She fell to the ground as her knees gave out. Shadows grew around the room, boxing her in, their dark claws leaving her no way out. As he loomed over her, much taller than he had already been, red started to fill the room, his demonic energy intended to suffocate her.
Her wide eyes were watering, fat tears threatening to spill. Her breaths were slower and deeper, a concentrated effort to calm down that she was desperately failing at. She was starting to shake. It was hilarious.
“Come on now dear. Don’t leave me hanging. I want to hear what you think.” A clawed hand covered her mouth roughly. His claws put enough pressure to prick her cheeks. “Don’t you dare spit it out.” He growled.
Her cheeks puffed with the effort to keep the piece in her mouth. So she didn’t want to eat it. She just stupidly put it in her mouth. He might have to reevaluate his impression of her. She was definitely dumber than he thought.
Beneath his palm, he could feel her starting to swallow then hesitantly chew. Tears were now streaming down her face. “Don’t cry, darling. You wanted to try it so go ahead.” A claw from his free hand mockingly wiped the tears from her face, leaving thin bleeding scratches in their wake. She closed her eyes to avoid injury and also avoid looking into his terrifying gaze. It was a way for her to concentrate and think through what was happening. To him, it looked like she was savoring the taste of him in her mouth.
He imagined it then, her teeth chewing, tearing through his flesh, savoring the bite and then swallowing. A shiver racked his body at the ghostly sensation the thought produced. It was foreign and uncomfortable. Was it unpleasant? Not entirely. It made him watch her with rapt attention.
Every motion of her jaw, every breath, every swallow. More and more of those shivers passed through him. From the top of his head and all through his chest, it felt like he was vibrating. Was it that his flesh still held the ability to feel what was happening to it? No. He hadn’t felt anything when he was eating it himself earlier. It had to be her.
For a tense half a minute, both of them were going through extremely uncomfortable feelings. Ynna wanted to throw up but kept on chewing until the velvet was easier to swallow. He watched her, his mind providing feelings to accompany the visual. There was disgust and resignation and even determination as she worked through that littlest bit but he was almost overwhelmed by the feelings running through his body.
When she finished with the task, he let her go. The anger in him had subsided, too distracted by the foreign sensations he was experiencing at the moment. “Done?”
“Y-y-yes.”
“Splendid. Now GET OUT.” He threw her out the door, unable to stand seeing her flushed crying face.
Notes:
This better not awaken something in him...
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Alastor’s POV
While lying in his bed that evening, he still felt the vibrations in his chest. They surged every time he thought of her. Like getting electrocuted by those gag rings, it was an annoying shock that left him irritated and furious with unnamed sensations ebbing and crashing like a tide.
How dare she?! After he’d given her the privilege of such intimate contact with him. How dare she abuse his generosity? And so carelessly at that! He knew that she wasn’t thinking when she’d done it and that somehow infuriated him more than if she’d done it deliberately. It would have at least shown that she wasn’t as cowardly as he thought.
His chest buzzed in fury and static. He needed to think of a way to punish the little brat. Something severe but hidden so as not to trample the princess of Hell’s good sensibilities. It wouldn’t do to have her get in the way of his punishment. Something to make Ynna scared, make her cry and beg for mercy. He wanted to wear her down with sandpaper and grind her into dust.
The image of her crying face flashed into his mind. A shock of static filled the room, bulbs flickering with its passing.
“Dammit.”
With a huff, he forced himself into a trance, the only way he would be able to sleep while he was so wired. Words of power flowed from his lips, strung like a melody, laced with magic.
The spell was cast and his consciousness was falling, falling into a familiar void. Red eyes opened casting a red glow from their shine but they saw nothing as his mind had already sunk into the realm of dreams.
He brushed imaginary dust off his shoulders after throwing the goat demon out. Behind the closed door, she whimpered. She’d land with a loud and painful thud, appeasing some of his anger, but not enough. Not even close to enough. His chest still buzzed with unknown energy, the need to do something clawing at his insides. Usually, it meant that he needed to maim, kill, destroy. But as he opened a portal to some soon to be unfortunate location, it felt like the wrong course of action.
He glitched in frustration. He needed to think.
Taking deep breaths to calm himself, he tried to identify the feeling so he could figure out how it could be satisfied. It was triggered by Ynna eating his velvet.
The deep breathing worked its magic as his form receded back to its usual shape. Bracing himself for whatever onslaught of feelings he was about to unleash, he forced himself to replay Ynna’s image in his mind again.
Tearful eyes broadcast her desperation and fear. Blood had flowed from where his claws cut her skin. Beneath his palm, her jaw clenched and relaxed. He imagined her tongue swiping across her teeth. The smooth muscle traveled over white fangs, teeth now shaperned from their usual bluntness. It would have been the only way she could chew through it. A thrill zipped through his chest and his skin prickled as he imagined her sharpened teeth puncturing the skin, first shy nibbles then, rough tears.
There was still blood on the velvet. She suckled on it as she worked the piece in her mouth. Heat traveled up his arm as he felt the phantom movement of her throat on his palm as she swallowed that piece of him, eyes closed as if committing the taste of him to memory.
The vibrations intensified, feeling as if they would knock him off his feet.
Immediately, it hit him what these unfamiliar feelings were. Desire and Arousal. As evidence, the front of his trousers were now painfully tight, his lower half awakened.
Revulsion followed the discovery.
Desire, he could accept; he even welcomed it. After all, to want came naturally to him. Want to kill, want to eat, want to overthrow. A greedy being he was, always wanting and taking to satisfy his desires.
But Arousal…He hadn’t felt this need since his pubescent years, all but eliminated in adulthood. It was the one desire that was never worth the effort. The hunt had been far more stimulating and brought him greater satisfaction than pleasures of the flesh could.
Disdain once again filled him for Ynna who was the cause of this, his displeasure almost turning his grin into sneer. Had the twit thought things through, they could have had a lovely evening without feeling all…this.
The feelings identified, he now knew how to handle it. They would resolve themselves eventually. He couldn’t bring himself to take care of them, too insulted that an idiotic twit had triggered them.
Huffing in disgust, he straightened himself up and set about tidying his space. He set fire to the velvet that remained on the table, finding the morsels distasteful, the memory they presented marring his sanctuary. In fact, he set fire to the table too. The less reminders there were, the easier it would be for his…problem. He scowled.
Knock. Knock. Knock.
Turning his attention to the door, he could already feel who’s energy stood behind it.
Damn that girl, was she too stupid to know she was unwelcome!?
He wrenched the door open, once again growing into his demonic form in a bloodthirsty rage. When he’d finally grasped a moment of peace, she came to wreck it once more. Enough was enough. He was ready to throttle the rude idiotic brat who dared to come back. He would rip her to shreds and get rid of her like he did all other reminders of that feeling. He’d find a way to cover it up so others wouldn’t find out. He won’t have his entertainment stained by something so brutish and vulgar and —
“I’m sorry, Al.”
The scent of blood hit him before he could register the full picture in front of him. Her sleeve was stained red, rapidly creeping up her arm and dripping onto the floor. In her hand was a piece of skin at least a foot long. It must’ve been from her forearm. Her flaying knife lay in a pool of blood on the ground.
“I was careless and I didn’t mean to offend you.” Her lips pinched into a thin line and sweat covered her brow.
“Please forgive me?” She raised the flayed flesh up with both hands in offering; hands that were now dripping with blood. From them, he could smell not only her own but his scent as well, intermingling from whatever mess remained from his antlers. She looked up at him as if she was making an offering to a god, vulnerable yet determined.
Something violently clicked as he met her gaze.
He was stunned, all murderous intent halted and vanished. She had those eyes again. Caring and sincere, blown wide from the pain she’d inflicted on herself. Her small form shook with the effort to keep still. He could smell her fear but she did not back down this time, even when faced with his semi-transformed and enraged state.
“If it’s not enough, I’m willing to do anything to make it up to you.” He felt that feeling again, registering the static that screeched as it hit. Desire. More clicking sounds echoed in his mind.
As her blood dripped from the gaps of her fingers, a switch was flipped.
He’d always thought her efforts to befriend him pathetic but amusing. For the first time, he’d thought they were fearsome.
He had to challenge it.
“Anything is a big word, my dear.” He leaned in close to her, nose almost touching hers. Surprised, she flinched and backed away a bit. He followed her inch for inch, unwillingly to let her run away, until her back hit the wall. His arms caged her, trying to intimidate. “I don’t think you know exactly how big of a word it is.”
Despite being trapped, her eyes never left his. She let out a shaky breath, without a doubt feeling suffocated by him. His eyes focused on her mouth. Her pink tongue darted out to wet her lip. Another wave of static screeched around them, the incessant clicking becoming deafening, only pausing to hear her say,
“Anything.”
Alastor awoke in pitch black darkness. His dream self had become overwhelmed. The static, the clicking, the scent of blood at the tip of his tongue, the breath brushing along his face.
He took one slow breath.
He’d wanted to lick his cuts on her face, follow the bloody trails that cascaded down her cheeks. He’d wanted to stick her flayed skin back to her arm but also hide it away in the depths of his belly. He’d wanted to see his blood on her tongue as he fed it to her because she’d had the audacity to say she’d do anything.
And that damned word. The moment she said it, a fuse had broken.
“Anything.”
Even now it echoed in his mind.
“Anything.”
He pictured her, the cowardly her in reality, trying to say it with her fear and stutter, always ready to step back when she put one foot forward.
It failed to be less enticing, for he knew that if her offer was accepted, she’d go through with it even to her detriment. Even if she regretted it in the end.
“Anything.”
One final knob clicked in his mind and then it was finally silent.
Like when he’d fallen asleep, there was only tranquility. Calm had finally returned to him and the buzz in his chest was just thrumming static once more. It was the calm brought on by clarity.
He hadn’t wanted something so ravenously in such a long time.
And oh, how he wanted it.
Notes:
...Good Luck, (Y/N).
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Ynna’s POV
Last night was a disaster. If you had anywhere else to go, you would have fled the hotel altogether. It started out so well. You thought you were finally establishing a friendship with Alastor. He was being creepy and gross but at least he wasn’t actively threatening your safety for his personal amusement. Then, your lack of impulse control got you again at the last minute. You still can’t believe you actually ate the thing.
Once you’d gotten back, you tried to throw up in the toilet. You tried very hard. No matter how heavy the need to puke was and the heartburn it induced, you weren’t able to regurgitate anything but spittle and now you were awake, moping pitifully in the bathtub, facing the reality that you have ingested a little bit of the Radio Demon.
Did that make you a cannibal, now?
You groaned into a ball as you rolled over in the empty tub, seeking comfort from the cool porcelain.
You weren’t happy about it.
You could already tell that your mind was trying to block the memory but it remained vivid in your mind. Surrounded by red and shadows, his dial eyes popped with asynchronous ticking. The claws holding you pierced your skin, drawing blood. They were made from the same blackened bone of his antlers but sharpened to reddened points. The room that smelled of ozone, paper and coffee suddenly smelled of rotting flesh and pond water. You felt hot and cold at the same time. Static screeched in your ears, warping Alastor’s voice so that you couldn’t tell if he was growling or hissing. It was so horrific that you had to close your eyes or you would have fainted and who knows what he would have done to you then.
He was the stuff of nightmares. And you could still taste him on your tongue.
The scratches from his claws had yet to heal and were evidence that he’d come very close to killing you last night. Maybe if you weren’t in the hotel, he would have. Maybe he would change his mind and do it anyway.
You shook your head side to side in dismay. Seeing the morning light filter in through the small window above you, you felt the grossness of your body. There were crusty trails running down your cheeks, from your tears or blood, you weren’t sure. Your nails were still caked with blood and fluff from handling the velvet. And you smelled.
Reaching over to turn on the shower, the tap screeched. The high pitched squeak not unlike the one you felt bubbling up your throat at the thought of having to face Alastor any time soon. You wouldn’t be surprised if he cut you to pieces and just kept cutting again and again as your immortal soul tried to regenerate.
Instead of soothing hot water, only a cold spray hit you, shocking you out of your misery and dread momentarily. Then, you started to cry. You couldn’t even mope in the shower comfortably. Today was promising to be a very bad day for you.
———
You weren’t planning to leave your room at all but Charlie had come calling.
“Good Morning Ynna! Breakfast is ready!” The blonde chirped merrily at the door when you opened it. “Oh my gosh! What happened to your face?” Pale hands hovered above the scratches, cataloging each one and trying to figure out the best way to heal them.
“Was taking a walk outside and fell face first into a bush.” You made up an excuse. While you didn’t want to lie to Charlie, you also didn't know how to even mention what happened last night.
“Ouch. We have a first aid kit in the kitchen. We can patch up your face while we eat.” She reached for your hand to lead you out. Her small soft palm was slightly comforting in these trying times, partly because you knew the blonde would protect you from Alastor if needed. As she strolled down the hall, you were too tired to protest against the Princess so you followed her to the kitchen.
The thought of food made you nauseous. It reminded you of what you were still digesting alongside last night’s dinner. Unfortunately, your greedy belly was growling for grub and you had always found hunger hard to ignore. You decided to get tea or coffee instead, something scalding hot to burn away the aftertaste that stubbornly clung even after you brushed your teeth.
“Whoa what happened t’ya toots? Got into a cat fight?” Angel Dust swaggered to you and Charlie, slinging one arm around your shoulders, bringing his face conspiratorially close to yours. “Maybe a rough night?” His eyebrows wiggled suggestively, hoping it was the latter.
You were rather proud of how you didn’t start retching in the corner at his implication. You didn’t even make a face. Alastor plus sex did not compute and your mind graciously threw the thought out the window before you could even try to imagine it.
“Got it from a bush.”
“You were an outdoorsy type, babe? I can give you tips to avoid that next time.” He laughed and winked.
“I’ll call you next time I’m about to fall into a shrub.”
The closer you three got to the kitchen, the tighter you squeezed Charlie’s hand. Not everyone woke up on the same schedule so breakfast was usually you, Sir Pentious, Charlie and Vaggie. Alastor was up and gone early most days, returning around noon for hotel business. Nifty too was an early riser. Angel and Husker joined if they ever woke up in the morning.
There was a slim chance that you would encounter Alastor here. Very slim. But the chance was still there.
“Salutations dear friendsss! What a lovely day we have ahead of usss.” Sir Pentious sat with a stack of pancakes in front of him and his minions. You greeted him back, feeling a little lightened by his energy.
“Yeah Boss.”
“Lots of inventions to work on today.”
“I thought we were going outside today.”
“We had plans?”
“Good Morning!” Charlie chirped. While Angel took a seat, Charlie motioned to Vaggie that you needed the first aid kit. Still holding your hand, she walked you to the kitchen doors.
Scanning the room, you note the Egg Bois talking amongst themselves. Nifty and Husk weren’t around. Vaggie was sitting back down, waving to you in greeting. Everything seemed good. Something did catch your eye though. It was Sir Pentious’ plate.
Pancakes. You were having pancakes for breakfast. A snippet from last night crossed your mind. It couldn’t have been a coincidence, right?
On cue, the double doors separating the dining room from the kitchen swung open, revealing Alastor with a pot of coffee in hand.
“Hey Al! Thanks for making pancakes this morning. You know you don’t have to cook breakfast for everyone, right?” The Princess greeted the Radio Demon, unaware of how you minutely froze behind her.
“Not to worry, my dear. I was feeling rather inspired this morning.” His eyes finally turned to you. Just slightly, they narrowed, his grin growing just a tad wider. “Good Morning to you, Ynna. Slept well, I hope?” You were sure those eyes were hoping the exact opposite. You swore, Hell fire burned in them for a split second.
“Hm-um yeah. Good Morning.” You couldn’t bear to look at him at all, afraid he’d suck the soul right out of you.
“Go ahead and start without us. We gotta patch up Ynna’s face.”
“Oh? What could have happened there?” His face leaned down uncomfortably close to yours, examining the marks he left. His gaze caused your heart rate to pick up, anxiety shooting through like a bullet. You squeaked at his proximity. While not the first time he’d ever invaded your space, it was 10 times more terrifying today.
Blood pounding in your ears, you leaned away from him and only replied once you had a decent distance. “Fell into a bush. Pretty clumsy mistake.”
“Hmmm yes, clumsy.” He finally backed away, smiling less wide and more like his usual grin. “Not all of us are born with good motor controls.” You heard the mocking in his voice directed at you. “Fortunately, we keep our first aid supplies well stocked for such occasions. First cupboard on the right, Charlie.”
“Thanks, Al!” The blonde led you away as the Radio Demon moved to take a seat at the head of the table.
Your mind was whirling. Was that it? You expected him to blow up at you or at the very least, be more condescending. Was he putting on a civil front while the others were around?
He didn’t mention anything about last night so that meant he wanted to keep it between the two of you. His lack of violence gave you hope that you could apologize and make things right. You just had to wait for the right time.
“Here it is.” Charlie pulled a red tin box from the cupboard. Inside, bandages with cute little cartoon faces smiled at you. “You’re gonna need one, two…” While she counted the scratches and dug around to find the appropriate bandages, you reached for a tube of ointment. You’re once again so very thankful for Charlie and her hotel. Most demons couldn’t get medicine if they begged and those with money didn’t care for it. Why waste money on a cream when you’re powerful enough to regenerate quickly anyway?
Spreading the healing gel on the now itchy spots on your face, they began to sting a little. The particularly painful ones were the longer scratches under your eyes from where he’d wiped your tears away. You repressed a shiver as you remembered how close those razor sharp claws came to your eyeballs.
When you were done, one big smiley face circular band-aid covered the puncture wounds on your left cheek while a cloth bandage sat under your eyes, across your nose bridge for the rest. It looked very severe but at least your wounds were protected from infection.
You pocketed the ointment to use for later before fixing yourself up a cup of tea. You would have preferred coffee but since Alastor had the whole pot, you didn’t want to ask for any. You thought it was best to give him space.
Once in the dining room, you took your usual seat and immediately felt fear shoot up your spine. You hadn’t really noticed until then but Alastor was sitting at the head of the table, leisurely humming as he read the newspaper. He usually sat across from you, at the right side of the head while you sat on the left. He had chosen a seat closer to you.
Your insides clenched in apprehension. Oh, he was definitely up to something and it had you quaking in your seat.
“Just tea for breakfast, dear?” He moved the newspaper away from his face.
“Y-yeah. Not feeling very hungry right now.”
“Oh that’s a shame. Our conversation last night was what inspired me to make this spread.” His hand gestured to the stacked pancakes and bowls of fruit compote and whipped cream.
“Did it? Haha.” You nervously laughed back at him, unsure why he was doing this.
“Of course. It’s been some time since someone buttered me up with some quality humor. It was berry sweet of you to try so I thought why not have pun-cakes for breakfast as you suggested.” He set the paper down and gestured as he talked. You absentmindedly noticed that he was back to moving smoothly, dramatic sweeps of his arms and all.
“I’d love for you to try it, my dear.” His eyes were just a tad narrowed as he spoke to you in mildly disappointed tones. From the side, you noticed Charlie starting to take note of the conversion. Knowing her, she would encourage you to eat to not disappoint Alastor who was being uncharacteristically nice.
“Hahaha. I see…” Your mother used to do the same thing, guilting you into eating even when you were already full. It never failed to make you feel bad and Alastor had managed to evoke the same emotions within you, with an added touch of fear thrown into the mix.
“You did say there was no batter way to start the day.” You tried to sound less nervous as you took a plate and one pancake, echoing his response to your pun right back to him. You hoped it would appease the demon some so he would stop looking at you so intensely.
Husk entered the room just then, hearing you make a pun.
“Oh Brother, not you too Ynna.” He sat in his usual seat, making sure to shake his head in disappointment at you while he did so. He mentioned once that having to listen to Alastor’s puns was an unexpected torture he didn’t know he’d signed up for. You smiled abashed at him before turning to Angel who sat on your left.
“Pass the maple syrup please, Angel.” The spider’s long arm was able to reach the bottle at the other end of the table.
By the time you turned back to your plate to add the syrup, whipped cream and strawberry compote were already on your pancake, the cream’s serving spoon still in Alastor’s hand.
“Ah ah ah. Try this, my dear. It’s an old family recipe I whipped up from memory.” He grinned as he stirred the whipped cream bowl. Down the table, Husk groaned again to which Alastor threw him a warning glance, toothy smile narrowing. If you weren’t so cautious of him right now, you would’ve been laughing at his constant onslaught of puns. He was unsettling. He never insisted on anyone eating his food, the man didn’t care enough. But now he was practically filling your plate up for you. If the others weren’t also eating the food, you would have believed that he’d poisoned it. Now that you thought of it, you weren’t entirely convinced it wasn’t.
You swallowed your worry, feeling resigned to whatever retaliation Alastor had cooked up (hah!) for you.
You ate the meal, surprised that your tongue didn’t fall out at first bite. Despite the knots in your stomach, the fluffy pancake was delicious. The compote was sour and sweet and a bit bitter, lightened by the smoothness of the whipped cream. Being a foodie, you couldn’t help but savor it, eyes closing to concentrate on the flavor. Damn, the man could cook. Even if this was poisoned, you would happily eat it at this point.
“This is fantastic. Thanks Alastor.” You smiled the first genuine smile you could manage this morning. It was hard not to when the food was so good.
“My pleasure as always, my dear. My pleasure.” His words were growled, causing you to freeze. You could see him holding onto the newspaper tightly. Having seen you eat, the demon went back to reading and the morning went as normal. But not before shooting you one more terrifyingly intense glare, static sharp as you met his eyes. The fluffy pancake dropped like lead in your stomach. Did you do something wrong? But you did what he told you to? You asked frantically with your eyes but Alastor was already looking away, offering no explanations, choosing to ignore you.
Why was he being so hot and cold, offering you food and then being scarier than normal? It was so unlike him, usually letting his irritation be known with acts of violence and displays of great power. You didn’t know how to react. Left unsure, you drowned your dread with tea, its bitterness washing away what joy from the food Alastor hadn’t managed to trample. At least, you could hope for breakfast to pass quickly as you sat tensely at the table. You noticed soft static screeching coming from the demon. Alastor only screeched when he was angry so that had to mean that he was simmering.
“So I was thinking…” Charlie started to say. Everyone turned their attention to her. “We’ve all been living together for a while now and everybody’s made great strides in getting along and forming meaningful friendships with each other.”
You blinked at that. As you glanced around the room, you supposed that the hotel crew were the most meaningful relationships you’d formed since dying. As far as you knew, it was the same situation for everyone else, as sad as that sounded given how long some of you all had been in Hell for. And then of course, there was Alastor who didn’t count because he was Alastor.
“So I think we should try to build up our camaraderie by going on a field trip!” Out of nowhere, she pulled out a stack of brochures. The shiny papers were full of pictures of hiking trails and smiling sinners.
“I read a book that said that ‘nature heals the soul’ so I thought we should go hiking!” Brochures were passed down the table for everyone to see. It looked like a typical travel brochure except the landscapes were hellish. It actually did look like a fun time, piquing your interest. You haven’t been outside Pentagram City before. You squinted as something caught your eye in the background. There was a blond sinner happily walking through a forest of charred trees with his friends. Was that a dead b—
The brochure was snatched from your hand by Alastor who examined the paper with interest.
“We could go tomorrow? I know that’s when Angel has a day off. Is everyone else free?” Her lashes batted cutely, hoping to charm everyone into agreeing.
“No thanks, Char. The bugs? The dirt? Not my thing, toots.” Beside you, Angel lazily spooned blueberry compote into his mouth. He’d forgone the pancake altogether which made you a little nauseous. It had to have been extremely sweet.
“Nothing to see outside of the city.” Husk said and Sir Pentious beside him was nodding. “I quite agree.”
Charlie visibly deflated before turning her hopeful eyes to you. She somehow managed to up the puppy dog factor in them to the point that you couldn’t resist, not like you weren’t already excited by the idea of going out. Not wanting to disappoint her, you prepared yourself to convince the others.
“Lies.” Scandalously, you teased the spider beside you. Mismatched eyes regarded you with slight interest. “You know you like to get down and dirty, Angel.” You nudge and wink at the spider. He gently hit you back with one of his arms, gold tooth glinting as he smiled. “True.”
You grinned in response before turning back to Charlie. “But I do think most of us are city sinners, not really used to long hikes so why don’t we find an easier hike to do, more of a walking trail than an actual hike? 4000 feet elevation up a volcano sounds harsh even if we have the stamina for it. Right, Angel?”
“Stamina ain’t the problem here, Yn’s. Cuz you know I got it.”
“Then is that a yes? Maybe?” To which he huffed a no. You leaned closer to him. “Come oooon. It sounds like fun. If I find an easier one, won’t you come with us?” You batted your lashes at him, using your ultimate weapon, your goat eyes. “Please.”
“Not the eyes!” Angel Dust had a fondness for farm animal eyes, something about how blissfully ignorant they looked struck his heart. It’s why he thought Fat Nuggets was cute. One gloved hand pinched your uninjured cheek in retaliation for using his weakness, fondly not minding your cheekiness one bit.
“Fine. Fine. Pick an easy one.” With a finger between your brows, he pushed you back into your seat as you giggled, grabbing his brochure to look through the options.
Alastor’s POV
“Anything” was a broad word, encompassing so many things yet nothing specific. Hours after the dream, he’d had more time to think and came to the conclusion that he was unsure of exactly what he wanted from Ynna. Was it her pain? Submission? Regret? Yes, those sounded lovely but also not quite right. He scoffed at the thought of wanting her love or adoration, believing these emotions too fickle to be of any substance. Fear, then? Respect? Again, close but no.
Sexual gratification?
The thought made him shudder. Definitely not. It was something else, something more but it eluded him to the point of frustration. It couldn’t be that he wanted to devour her—
He paused, rethinking.
—at least not completely.
With no clear picture of what he wanted, he could only start at the beginning. Watching her eat him. Despite the arousal it triggered in him, he wanted to witness Ynna take a piece of him again. He wanted to feel the thrill of it, to feel like a live wire, his body abuzz with energy threatening to consume him from the inside.
With a sense of excitement, possibilities flitted through his mind. A subtle approach seemed appropriate, at least until he had a clearer picture of his end goal. He’d start small, build his way up and observe his body’s reactions along the way.
His plan started with breakfast.
—-
The audacious brat came down to breakfast as was her routine, though it looked like it was by the princess’ doing given how apprehensive she appeared. The injuries he caused last night were left untreated, something the princess wanted to correct. Had she told Charlie how she’d gotten them?
“Fell into a bush. Pretty clumsy mistake.”
So she decided to keep last night a secret. A wise move on her part, no need to involve others in their affairs, and it worked perfectly in his favor.
Though small, he perceived her body’s trembling as he observed the marks he’d left. Poor dear was back to being terrified of him. He felt quite satisfied seeing her so rattled. It appeased the last of his indignation that had yet to fully subside. He decided that he would no longer hold a grudge against her as he’d won out in the end. The infuriating incident produced a new form of entertainment, one he looked forward to savoring.
“Hmmm yes.” He dragged out the word before pointedly describing her. “Clumsy.” She flinched a little, unwilling to look at his eyes and instead casting a glance at the exit.
“Not all of us are born with good motor controls.”
‘Some of us have no control over ourselves at all’, he thought sarcastically. She paled a little as if she’d heard his silent derision. Ah, he thought her one point more intelligent than his last evaluation. It seemed the little goat could perceive his disdain well, unlike the princess who remained cheerfully unaware.
“Fortunately, we keep our first aid supplies well stocked for such occasions. First cupboard on the right, Charlie.”
Finding adequate amusement in Ynna’s discomfort, he thought it was time to put his plan into action. He had the perfect opportunity as the girls disappeared into the kitchen.
“Coffee, anyone?”
The carafe was passed around until there was just enough for two more cups. Filling his own, he discreetly cut his finger. Blood mixed with the rest of the drink, which he would kindly offer to Ynna who looked as if she’d had a sleepless night. Its bitterness would mask the new ingredient. It wasn’t exactly his flesh but it was close enough, for now. He would use this opportunity to test just how much he needed to give to elicit his body’s reaction.
His excitement was short-lived when she emerged from the kitchen, stupidly holding a cup of tea. Green tea at that. He wouldn’t be able to hide anything in the clear liquid. How vexing.
Displeased, he pretended to read the daily paper, trying to find an opportunity to slip something into her meal. From the corner of his eye, precisely why he chose this seat, he spied her tensed form, flinching when she’d noticed his position. It looked like she had no plans to eat at all. That wouldn’t do.
An opportunity presented itself after everyone had gotten themselves a serving of breakfast. Choosing guilt as his weapon to subtly pressure her, he dropped pun after pun with the intention to lighten the mood and tickle out her laughter only to fail at both, her apprehension of him getting in the way.
“You did say there was batter way to start the day.” Oh, how he adored when people listened to him. While he was disappointed by her lackluster response to his clever word choices, only barely answering back with one of her own (really, it was his), he did successfully guilt her into taking some food.
Her momentary distraction with Husker’s entrance only made it that much easier to slip his blood onto her plate, a spurt of blood blending into sweet strawberry compote.
He watched in anticipation as she warily took her first bite. Immediately, her eyes closed in bliss, her love of food shining through. A soft hum escaped her lips, very obviously pleased.
He inhaled sharply, eyes sharpening in focus.
While he’d been prepared, waiting for this moment all morning, the jolt of satisfaction from her pleased response still blew him away. His fingers clenched, putting holes into the forgotten newspaper. He hadn’t expected that. There was no way for him to have anticipated that she would enjoy it at all, let alone so thoroughly. Was she unable to tell what she’d just eaten? Or was it that his blood suited her palette?
The thrumming within him started anew, satisfaction feeling akin to the pleasure of a very worthy kill, heart beating in excitement.
He’d secretly fed her his blood and she thanked him for it! He felt like laughing out loud. What a joy, an absolute delight!
When her eyes met his own again, another pop of satisfaction filled him, static punctuating the feeling. He had to look away lest he arouse suspicion, only just barely containing the urge to watch her finish her meal.
Absently scanning the paper, the words were tucked away in the back of his mind in favor of observing the deep satisfaction coursing through his body. Static thrummed with his increased heart rate, taking all his effort to remain quiet and unnoticed.
Desire was there. He wanted to feed her more.
Arousal as well, though to a much lesser degree. Its presence, though unwelcome, did not detract from the experience as much as it had in his dream and the prior evening. The thrumming in his chest trumped any discomfort it may have brought.
Pleasantly surprised by this knowledge and so focused on his internal observations, he had failed to pay attention to everything else that was happening. Pamphlets had been handed out. Glancing in her direction, a new sight that he’d never seen from her unfurled before him.
Ynna’s eyes were sparkling, excitement shining through. What had she seen to cause such a strong reaction? In his memories, the girl’s enthusiasm had never peaked as highly as this moment. Eating a particularly delicious meal had been the closest and even then, it was never to this extent.
Plucking the pamphlet from her little fingers, he read through the hiking brochure. Hiking? Climbing mountains? How funny and fitting for a mountain goat demon to want to traverse such steep paths.
Unfortunately, the others weren’t as excited by the princess’ proposal. Neither was he to be honest.
“Come oooon. It sounds like fun. If I find an easier one, won’t you come with us?” He watched her sweetly try to convince the spider, little pokes and jabs being exchanged between the two. It seemed she was determined to make the excursion go through.
“Yay! This’ll be so much fun. We can take pictures with everyone and have a little picnic—“ The princess prattled on, bouncing in her seat in excitement, when the spider had given in to Ynna’s pleas. His mind, however, latched onto a single word, one that presented another opportunity to chase that feeling once more.
“Might I give a suggestion?”
Notes:
I appreciate the comments everyone. It’s been my main motivator to write. I have the ending figured out. I just need to flesh out (haha) the middle.
Stay tuned
Chapter Text
Afternoons at the hotel involved cleaning the rooms. It was one of your chores that you volunteered for because you thought helping out around the hotel would ease your path to redemption. Unfortunately, the lack of hotel guests meant that most rooms didn’t need to be cleaned more than once a week and even then, only light dusting. To stave off boredom, you hung out with Niffty who still thought that there was cleaning to be done.
The small demon was busily scrubbing soot from a fireplace. How it had gotten dirty when no one was using this room, you didn’t know. You added it to the mental list of mysteries of the hotel, below how Alastor managed to put a swamp in his room.
“So we’re having a picnic tomorrow, right? Oh I love picnics. My husband and I used to go all the time. He was so sweet back then but he stopped taking me out on dates after being married for two years. I was a little sad but he was “working” all the time so what could you do? Did you go on dates, Ynna? Did you have a boyfriend? Were you married?” How Niffty had the lung capacity to say all of that in one breath when she was so tiny, you also didn’t know. You filed it away as another mystery about Niffty.
Fondly regarding the hyperactive demon, you answered her rapid fire questions. “Yes, I dated. Never got married.”
“You don’t sound very excited at all. We’re talking about our love lives! Boys! Did you not like your dates? Were they that bad? Were they bad ? Did they break your heart? Are they in Hell? Do we need to beat them up?” She turned to you, eye wide, tiny hands on her hips and a kitchen knife ready to cut somebody. Where she stashed so many knives, you also didn’t know.
“The guys I went out with were fine but they were meh.” Large lashes blinked up and down, waiting impatiently for you to answer her other questions. She was really so cute with her big eye and tiny everything else. “No one broke my heart and I haven’t dated since I died.” Already her chest was puffing out. You raised your finger to stop her from speaking. “And before you ask, no, I’m not interested in anyone right now.”
“That’s so lame.” Although unhappy with the boring replies, they seemed to appease the demon and she went back to her work. It was fun watching Niffty. You sometimes wished you had the energy to do as much as she did. It would at least distract you from your worries about Alastor. His odd hot and cold behavior persisted through the morning, hence, why you were hiding with Niffty.
In leisurely observation, you recognized the little dots on her dress represented bullet wounds. You wanted to poke them. From what she said earlier, her husband started to neglect her not that long after they married. He may have been the one who killed her too. Or she probably killed him. Either way, it was sad to think of the tiny demon, alive and in a tragic marriage.
Niffty squealed loudly, bringing your mind back to her.
“What was that for?” In her tiny hand was your intruding finger. You must've jabbed the dot on her rib.
“Oh whoops. Sorry, I didn't mean to do that.”
“You shouldn’t. I’m ticklish.” Her eye glanced toward your rib cage. “Are you ticklish too, Ynna?” She didn’t even finish her question, going for your ribs and effectively pushing you down despite her tiny stature.
“No— wait! Stop!” Gasps left you as your ribs were mercilessly tickled. How was she so strong!? It was getting hard to breathe with all the laughter her antics elicited.
“Revenge!” The little gremlin cackled out, her assault unceasing.
“Ok! OK! I give! I’m sorry! No more poking Niffty!” Laughing together (really, Niffty was still cackling), you two got up dusting each other off. Have you ever been this silly and carefree since dying?
“I still have so much cleaning to do!” Niffty’s cackling stopped as she glanced at the clock. “Shoo. Shoo. You keep distracting me, Ynna.”
“Alright, alright. I’ll see ya at dinner, Nif.” The she-demon hadn’t heard, already flitting about the room once more. Opening the door, you checked the hallway. Seeing no one in sight, you turned back to Niffty. “Thanks for hanging out with me.”
Your step outside the door was cut short, your face hitting a hard chest and knocking you off-balance. An arm came out to keep you from falling but it wasn’t welcome for long. Pain suddenly shot up your arm, muscles being squeezed too harshly causing you to cry out.
“Watch your step, dear.” The one you were avoiding suddenly appeared, gloved hand squeezing your arm with the intention to cause pain. His grin was strained, looking down at you in obvious displeasure..
“S-sorry for running into you, Alastor.” His hand tensed, causing more pain, static whirring getting louder. In front of you eyes, the world seemed to disappear into black behind him, your focus drawn to his red red eyes. You wanted to get away, jump back and hide but his grip remained steadfast. “Could you please let go of my arm…you’re hurting me.”
“Al! You shouldn’t treat a lady like that!” Somehow hearing the last bit of your plea despite it being mumbled, Niffty scolded Alastor. Just like that, the red edges that had started to appear around Alastor reverted back.
“I apologize, my dear. Seems I don’t know my own strength.” Letting go of you and stepping back a reasonable distance, the demon reverted back to a more jovial appearance. “Need I remind you about how I don’t like to be touched?”
“No need. I’ll be more careful next time. I just didn’t see you there, Alastor.” His arms reached out, straightening your collar and gently patting the arm he’d injured. Despite the gentle contact, you were strongly fighting the urge to jerk away, distrust and fear melding with every throb of your injured arm.
“Girls are delicate, Al. You can’t treat them so roughly just because they accidentally touched you.” Alastor’s eyes narrowed at the cyclops, a sign of annoyance that you'd become familiar with over the months and especially today.
“It’s okay. I’m fine. I should be watching where I’m going anyway.” Nevermind that you were certain that he’d appeared out of thin air. How were you supposed to dodge him when he sneaked up on you like that?
“You shouldn’t let him get away with that, Ynna.” While you appreciated Niffty’s defense, Alastor’s smile was starting to stretch, each twist tying knots in your stomach, afraid that his power would leak out with his ire.
“It’s fine!” You perhaps insisted too loudly as both demons looked at you in wonder. Collecting yourself, you tried to speak more calmly, giving what small smile you could muster to the demon in front of you. “It was an accident. Thanks for catching me anyway.”
You weren’t in a position to get mad at Alastor, having not even properly apologized for last night’s mishap. You still hadn’t pinned down exactly how he felt about you at the moment. He was still mad obviously but was he leaning towards murder or some milder punishment? You couldn’t be sure so you at least tried to lessen any additional ire.
“See, no harm done. Now run along Ynna, dear. I need to speak with Niffty.” Without sparing you another glance, Alastor moved you to the side to step into the room. Though his attention was Niffty, you left with the feeling of glowing eyes behind you.
Alastor’s POV
“Why are you being so mean to Ynna?”
Said girl speedily walked away, the slight trembling in her step not escaping his microphone’s eye. Bringing his attention back to Niffty, the ever gossip loving demoness was looking at him in curiosity.
“I have no idea what you’re talking about.” It may have sounded like he was feigning ignorance but he genuinely had no intentions of being mean to Ynna. Apart from pointing out her clumsiness this morning, he’d been a perfect gentleman to her all day.
“Yes you do. You’ve been flaring up your power at her all morning.” The little demon crossed her arms, unimpressed, her large eye narrowed in evident distrust. “I haven’t seen her that scared of you since she first got here.”
Well, this was new information to him. He thought for certain that he was acting as usual around the girl. It wasn’t in his favor to alert the goat of his interest, not when he was still exploring how deeply it ran.
“While I have noticed that she’s been jumpy today, I can assure you that it was not my intention to be mean to her. Why she’s reacting like that is her own business and I’m not privy to the workings of her mind.” That last part may have been a bit of a lie. Clearly, Ynna was still paranoid after what happened last night which was understandable as he’d been very close to ripping her jaw open for the offense.
Now though, he wanted to see her do it again.
“Then why did you hurt her arm?”
“Purely accidental. I was as surprised as Ynna when it happened. Now, are you finished with this interrogation? There’s a cockroach outbreak on the third floor that needs handling.” The gremlin’s line of questioning was starting to irritate him. Narrowing his eyes, he signaled his annoyance to her, which the little imp promptly ignored in favor of speaking her mind.
“Well, now you know that you’re freaking her out so try being less of a creep than usual, Al.”
“I’m perfectly capable of judging how to act around others, Niffty. Don’t tell me what to do.” Shadows rose from the edges of his vision as he finished speaking. If she insisted on chastising him any longer, he would gladly display what it actually meant for the Radio Demon to ‘flare up.’
Seeing that she had toed the line, the gremlin wisely decided to drop the conversation.
After seeing Niffty take herself to her new assignment, he made a detour to his suite to check on his condition. Looking at himself in the mirror, a light flush colored his reflection.
How embarrassing it was to realize his attempts to suppress his new feelings around the goat had been unsubtle. It couldn’t be helped. Ever since he’d found another chance to feed her, he’d been brimming with excitement, barely able to contain himself. New recipes popped into his head every time he saw her, anticipation bubbling in the cauldron of his mind…and apparently leaking out.
Never in all his years had he felt this inability to control himself. Even in life, he had been able to contain the glee he felt after murder, the pride that brimmed as the baffled detectives chased countless deadends, the mockery as said detectives shared case details to the very scoundrel they were searching for. No one had known it was him until the very end. He was just that good.
Maybe his time in Hell had blunted his ability to mask his emotions. Decades had passed since he had a true need to do so. Still, being called out for such juvenile mistakes was mortifying. He will have to do a better job if only to avoid unwanted nosy cretins butting in where they didn’t belong.
In the privacy of his en suite, he removed his overcoat and shirt. The bandages covering his stomach were beginning to drip blood. Sending a shadow to fetch a first aid kit, he unraveled the stained cloths, slowly revealing the flat expanse of his stomach. Where smooth beige skin should stretch over lean muscle, a bleeding square patch of sensitive new skin appeared, his skinned abdomen. It was only an hour ago that he painstakingly peeled off that expanse of flesh to dry brine for tomorrow’s treat.
His fingers hovered over the wound, magic prodding to determine the extent of the damage and encourage healing.
His run in with Ynna had reopened it, skin too new to absorb even the light impact of her body.
It was a miscalculation on his part. He wanted to get in Ynna’s face, pop up in surprise, just to see her reaction, feel a zing of delight pass through his core with her frightened glance. He was not expecting the girl to exit the door so quickly.
As he held her arm to steady her, the skin fibers of his belly tore asunder. Flustered and already off-balanced in their collide, pain ripped through his belly and he unintentionally held onto her too tightly, a fact that he regretted deeply. Niffty had been right. Unintentional as it was, causing harm to the girl was mean of him. His mother wouldn’t have approved of how he’d handled it.
Redressing the wound, he pondered Niffty’s other warning. Ynna’s fear of him would become apparent to the rest of the hotel denizens, at least, those with enough awareness for such things. He needed to reassure her that her fear was unwarranted, that he had no plans to harm her. He decided that the best course of action was a peace offering, a way to make up for his mistake and earn back her ease.
Staring into the bathroom mirror, dial eyes looked back at him. Their ticking sounds like clock hands turning, turning back time. Her pained expression as she’d pleaded to him appeared in his mind, adorable in her shock and incredulity.
Yes, he would make it up to her.
After he got to see that face a few more times.
Ynna’s POV
From afternoon to evening, each encounter with Alastor had some sign of his negativity towards you. His static broke and screeched when you passed by. Sometimes his eyes glowed when your eyes met. He popped out of nowhere, so close and unexpected that you inevitably bumped into him.
Thankfully, he didn’t hurt you again after Niffty had scolded him but it was implied that he could, claws always flexing on your shoulders when he pushed you away for accidentally touching him.
He was doing this on purpose! Your nerves were strung taut, constantly on the lookout for him. Where was he going to pop out next? Would he hurt you again? Can’t this just be over with? He was driving you insane!
The stress had built up to such a degree that Husk started to give you weird looks. You couldn’t even remember what you had for dinner because you inhaled it as quickly as you could to get away from him. If only you could pass on your chores or feign some sickness but you honestly didn’t want to draw anymore attention than you had already.
Avoiding him had become such a priority that you resorted to asking Charlie to help you with the dishes just so you wouldn’t be alone with him. And Charlie, her grandfather bless her heart, despite being royalty, the lovely girl happily offered her help.
At the sink, both of you chatted softly as you washed the dishes and she dried them. Behind you, Alastor was humming, doing his own thing as he usually did. From outside looking in, it was a peaceful and mundane post-dinner cleanup. On the inside, you were aware of the tendrils of Alastor’s eldritch magic brushing against your back. Or it could have been the air conditioning. You didn’t have the courage to find out.
Sighing internally but keeping up a cheerful face, you lamented the loss of your quiet time with Alastor; it had become one of your favorites throughout the day. Now, it was just torture and you had only yourself to blame, doubly so as you still couldn’t find the guts (specially with how today went) to apologize to the man.
Curiously, Alastor didn’t say anything about Charlie joining you, not even a crinkle in his eye even though he’d sent you so many intense stares all day.
“So I was thinking that if the hike goes well, we should do some other fun things as a group.”
“We’ll see how things go first. We gotta take it one step at a time.” Your mind drifted off to other possible adventures your group could do, finding very few wholesome outings given the nature of services offered in Hell.
“I know, you’re right. It’s just, I was hoping things would be going a lot faster than they have been.” The princess drooped beside you. “Hey Ynna?”
“Hmm?”
“You haven’t been in Hell for as long as most of us. You haven’t become as jaded as most of its people have. Can you be honest with me? Do you think that what we’re doing here…has a chance?” You didn’t need to look at her to know that her doubts and insecurities had resurged from wherever the princess kept them locked up tight, a Pandora’s gigantic security vault of worries within the girl.
“Come here, Char.” Softly beckoning, your arms wrapped around the taller girl, giving her a comforting squeeze. At times like these, you wished you had more than cliche sayings in your head to help lift the girl up from her struggles. Unfortunately, you weren’t that gifted for words.
“I think…well.” It was hard to articulate exactly how you felt. People didn’t change unless they wanted to or were pushed to the edge. Before coming, you had never met anyone who ever thought about finding a way out of Hell. When you saw the commercial, you were skeptical and only went in hopes of finding shelter before the next extermination. You came to the hotel with almost no belief that it would work…but Charlie and everybody gave you a place you could call home for the first time. Even the terrifying Overlord, who you were sure was listening to this conversation, became a part of that home.
“Charlie, you give me hope that things can change. I’m sure others think like that too.” Your throat clenched, afraid that you were going to say the wrong thing. What did they say was a good way to do these kinds of things? Compliment sandwich? “You created something that’s never been thought of before and because you created a path, you created a chance when there wasn’t before.”
“Thanks Ynna. That means a lot.” She looked at you relieved and grateful, her brightness returning slowly. You wanted to give her something stronger to hold on to than the words you said because what she wanted, what she dreamed of, hadn’t ever been done before. There were going to be so many more days that she’d face failure after failure and seemingly endless disappointment, with you possibly being one of those, as a guest at the hotel.
“Can I offer some advice? I know you wanted my opinion because you’re probably feeling bad so I’m not sure if you’d want someone telling you what to do.”
“Sure. Go ahead.” She seemed hesitant but gave you permission anyway.
“You shouldn’t base your hopes on someone else’s opinion.” Your nose felt spicy as you tried to get the words out, throat clenching around your words.
“What?” She looked stricken at your change of tone but you plowed on hoping that you were giving her good advice.
“People…People are flawed and they change all the time. They fail each other and themselves all the time. You can’t build your confidence and conviction on something as unstable as people’s opinions.” Slowly, you deliver your thoughts trying your best to convey that there was a high chance she would fail without saying it outright.
“You…you should build your hope on a fact. Like, no one thought that humans could ever fly. It was impossible until two brothers persisted and created the first airplane. 60 years later, humans went beyond the sky and landed on the moon.” Letting go of her, you looked into her eyes. “This means that there is evidence that what’s impossible today just needs time and persistence and the (w)right opportunity.”
At this point, your throat burned from both embarrassment and nervousness. Having heart to hearts with people was difficult. In wanting to be completely honest and genuine, you opened yourself up to conflict and rejection. What if you said something bad? What if it was totally worthless? Or maybe you didn’t even get your point across correctly. Trying to paraphrase cool things you’d heard from somewhere that you thought were relevant to the situation was damned hard!
“Wow. Haha. Ynna. I was the one who was feeling down. Why do you look like you’re about to cry?” Though she said that, reaching a pale hand to offer her comfort, she looked like she wanted to cry too. She truly was a lovely girl, the kindest soul in Hell.
“I just…I know you’re hoping I can be redeemed Charlie and while I want to believe it can happen, there’s a big chance that I’ll disappoint you. That’s why, if I turn out to be a failure, please don’t think it’s your fault. I think you’re doing a great thing here. You’re giving what’s impossible a chance to happen.” You hugged her, squeezing tightly to convey how precious she was. “Please don’t ever stop.”
“ *sniffle* Thank you… *sniffle* for believing in me. It…that…” Both of you were trying very hard to hold in your tears and failing miserably. You sympathized with the girl whose dreams kept being torn down by everyone around her, the result of her failures painting the streets of Pentagram City once a year.
A clawed hand offered a red handkerchief to your face. Looking at Alastor in confusion, the demon only had his usual smile, no screeching static to be heard.
“Dry your tears, my dear. It was a very lovely thing for you to say to dear Charlie. In moments of doubt, one must always find a guiding principle to hold on to. It’s only impossible until it is not. I’m sure that’s what you intended to share with Charlie, right?” He summarized what you wanted to say perfectly, offering a kind smile as he did so.
No condescending tone, no flaring energy. It was just plain Alastor tagging in to offer you assistance in comforting your crying princess.
“Y-yes.” You took the kerchief from his hand, once again off-balanced by his ever changing attitude towards you. The sniffling beside you called your attention back to Charlie. You tried to offer her the kerchief, feeling sorry for her tear-stained face.
“No. You keep it. I have one.” She took out her own from the pocket of her jacket. It was lilac and lace, each dab at her tear-stained cheeks, a moth’s sweet kiss.
Alastor’s POV
He’d been quite torn between leaving the room to let the ladies have their privacy or to join them to encourage the princess. His opinions on Charlie’s business venture were well-known amongst the group. No soul, devil or god could convince him that a sinner could be redeemed.
Even sweet Ynna, who by comparison was the cleanest sinner among the group (barring her moments of unintentional cannibalism), didn’t fully believe that she could be redeemed. That she’d told Charlie so was a point in her favor. No use sugarcoating the truth from the girl.
With both women crying, it was only proper that he as a gentleman and Charlie’s business partner show his support. Quietly making his way to them so as not to startle the delicate girls, he prepared himself for the onslaught of feelings that accompanied Ynna’s attention, their intensity would distract him from his task. But perhaps the atmosphere had been too heavy as for the first time that day, he hadn’t felt a shooting spark in his chest as his eyes met Ynna’s own. Could her effect have already diminished so soon?
Her teary expression was messy and pathetic as she took his offered handkerchief, apprehension still clouding her eyes. She murmured her thanks, barely audible in the silent kitchen, eventually wiping her tears with his offering.
Ahhhhh, there the buzz was.
Unlike earlier instances, where its intensity came sudden and electrifying, this feeling was more of a low rumble in his chest, like purr of a car engine. Committing her face to memory to study this new reaction at a later time, he turned his attention to Charlie, placing a supportive hand on her shoulder.
“If you don’t mind hearing my thoughts, Charlie, my dear, you have a unique vision and I am happy to fulfill your bizarre requests.” Her pale hand came up to squeeze his own, first seeking comfort and then expressing gratitude. “Your efforts have been impressive and I believe that I can speak for at least Ynna and myself that we are very proud of you.”
Indeed, Charlie had exceeded his expectations, somehow managing to keep the hotel running for so long and managing to attract a guest with some intention of redemption. He was very proud to have chosen a hard-working and creative candidate to provide him with entertainment. His days had been rather colorful since meeting the young woman and his time at the hotel proved fruitful.
His words of encouragement struck a chord with the princess causing her to shed a few more tears. Discomfort started to bubble up within him, encroaching on the pleasant thrum from earlier. His words had meant to make her smile, bring back her joy. He supposed that he had done his part to be supportive, perhaps what she needed was space.
He was about to remove his hand when another smaller one shyly took its place on the girl’s other shoulder, giving a gentle squeeze in solidarity.
Charlie, in her emotional state, threw her arms around her two supporters, bringing them both in for a hug. He would normally cut such interaction off short but for the princess, he would make an exception this one time.
As his proximity to Ynna lessened, he noticed the girl freeze, uncertain how to act in a group hug involving him. Her adorable reactions just fueled his buzz, warming his chest like fire and brimstone. Look at her trying to respect his space while also comforting her friend. Such dedication in the face of assumed danger.
Remembering that he had planned to allay her fears of him, he hovered his free arm behind her, a sign that he accepted the contact Charlie required from her friends. Gently enclosing the girls in his arms, Ynna took that as her cue and relaxed into Charlie’s and his’ embrace.
For a moment, their eyes locked and she looked at him with gratitude, soft and lovely. Sparks of feeling danced in his chest, tickling in a delight less darker than what he usually indulged in. They remained locked in arms like that until Charlie had gotten herself back together, all bubbly and happy and rainbows in her eyes.
As they returned to their tasks, cheerful piano music played the rest of the evening, the warm thrumming in his chest persisting long into the night.
Notes:
Guess who watched episode 5~~
I can’t get over “Hell’s Great Dad” so I just had to put Dadlastor in.
*Lucifer plays fiddle aggressively in the background*
Chapter 5: Friendship?
Chapter Text
“Hey Charlie, the hot water in my room isn’t working.” For the second day now, you were denied a hot shower. It really soured your already plummeting mood, taking some of the spark out from today’s outing.
To everyone’s surprise, Alastor suggested a forest trail for today’s field trip, a relatively easy walking path filled with lush (?) trees and (safe?) vegetation. His participation in the event planning was unexpected as he usually left those things to Charlie and Vaggie. Not only that but every detail about the Radio Demon gave the impression that he was a city man, uninterested in frolicking in nature. His shoes would get dirty.
You apparently misjudged him as the demon went on to explain the path with detail, citing the perfect time of day to go explore and precautions to take.
Naturally, that meant he would be joining everyone on the trip. Disappointment filled you and your stomach churned. You had hoped that he’d be uninterested and that you could spend some time away from him, still unsettled by his flip-flopping treatment of you yesterday.
Seeing the blonde princess happily checking the supplies for the day, a bit red-eyed but bushy-tailed nonetheless, you thought back to last night and how comforting Alastor had been. Everyone knew that he was only in the hotel to get his shits and giggles, eternity dragging on for an almighty Overlord. While you didn’t trust that he had Charlie’s best interests at heart, you could still feel that he meant the words he’d said to Charlie. To top it off, he’d not made a single daunting move until the end of the evening.
And how the evening had ended! It was peaceful and serene with just the radio playing, everyone content. For a day that had been mostly terrible, it had somehow ended on a perfect note. It left you unsure about what to expect from Alastor today.
“Your shower isn’t working?” Charlie looked up from her checklist for today’s activities. She was wearing denim jeans today, heeding Alastor’s warning about poison ivy and bugs. Vaggie too wore pants to protect her from vegetation. The cute couple were matching.
“Yeah, I haven’t had hot water since yesterday.” Nodding your head unconsciously, you made a mental note to bring more drinking water before you left, the large bag in Charlie’s hand not fitting nearly enough.
“That’s weird. Al, could you go take a look?”
“Certainly.” A jolt went through your spine at the Radio Demon’s staticky voice coming from behind you, really close behind you. Given the amount of times he’d done this yesterday, you should have built up some tolerance but your heart begged to differ. It quivered and cowered in your chest, little tiny screams begging for the demon to stop sneaking up on you so much.
“Good Morning, my dear. Let’s hope to get this fixed before our outing today. Lead the way. ” Your heart hammered in your throat as your reaper’s red pin-striped arm went around your shoulders, turning you back the way you came. There was no time for you to protest or make a hasty excuse to get one of the girls to go with you as you were quickly escorted away.
Deep breaths. Deep breaths. You had no reason to panic so far. Only that this would be the first time you were alone with the demon since the incident with his velvet.
Had the hallways always been this long, seeming to stretch forever to your room? Only your footsteps echoed in the passage, its desolation weighing heavily on your mind whose focus was trained on the only other soul in the space.
The intimidating arm fell from your shoulders. It left no hints of violence or threats of pain in its smooth descent back to its owner. Walking beside you, Alastor said nothing, his static a low and steady thrumming leading the way to music. Words from a foreign language softly crooned a cheerful melody to accompany your walk, the atmosphere sweet and unthreatening. Even when sparing a glance at you, his eyes remained unchanged.
This was the Alastor that you usually saw, the one from before your goof the other night. Why was he suddenly being so…nice? Was he…not angry with you anymore? Was it too much to hope that last night’s peace would be a lasting one? Maybe. This was the Radio Demon, afterall.
Bracing yourself, you waited for the other shoe to drop. Any second now he would finally make his ire known. Away from everyone’s eyes, he was free to act out whatever punishment he’d had in mind. Any second…now….
It was a wasted effort.
Not in the hallway, not even when you’d gotten to your room. There was no punishment from the Radio Demon.
Standing at the door to your bathroom, the pair of you watched a shadow dismantle the shower head and knobs, searching for the problem.
“Thanks for getting the repairs under way.” Looking his way, you shyly started a conversation. While it wasn’t exactly quiet, music still coming from his radio, there seemed to be a tension that squeezed on your nerves. Or maybe it was just you, still nervous and waiting for the demon to do something , as was his character.
“Just doing my job as this hotel’s Facility Manager. No need to thank me, dear.” He sounded almost bored, finding zero fulfillment or entertainment in doing his job.
Observing the demon, you found no signs of yesterday’s aggression. It was just a feeling, that maybe he had let it go, that he was no longer in a state where you knew no apology short of utter self-destruction would appease him. Swallowing your nervousness, you tried to appeal to him.
“It was bothering me enough that I just had to pipe up.”
Static buzzed for a moment, your heart surging with fright at the sound, before Alastor grinned wide and amused.
“I’ve had my fair share of unexpected icy sprays. It really does throw a wrench in your day doesn’t it dear?” Alastor chuckled, canned audience laughter accompanying him, your hope rising with each quiet laugh.
“Water the chances it’ll be fixed by the time we get back?”
“Our hotel offers only the finest services. As our lovely guest, you have no need to fret, my dear. We’ll get this little problem squared away by today.” Brows up in amusement, he leaned just a little closer, just enough for you to know that he wasn’t finished speaking. “I’ll make curtain of it.” Both of you chuckled, turning into full blown laughter from you as the laugh track played.
Just like that, all the anxiety, fear and guilt you’d accumulated in the last 30 something hours collapsed inside of you at the sight of his lackadaisical grin. Courage sprouted in their place. It was now or never.
“Alastor.” Red eyes turned to you, grin widening with interest. “Can I speak with you for a moment?”
“Of course dear. What’s on your mind?”
You closed the door to the bathroom, not wanting even the shadow (that was rolling its eyes at you both) to hear your conversation.
Moving back into the main area of the room, you thought of what to say. How do you apologize for eating someone? Words were never your strong suit and the weirdness of the situation made it many times more difficult to find the right things to say. You so badly wanted to fix this, not just because his anger scared the shit out of you but also because you’d missed this Alastor a lot more than you thought, given how happy you were that last night ended amicably for everyone.
It had only been a day but you wanted everything to go back to the way it was, not wanting to avoid the Overlord in fear anymore. Not when you knew that he could be nice, his company soothing and even funny. This was all your fault and you needed to make it up to him someh—
“Penny for your thoughts?”
“I’m sorry for eating your velvet.”
Snapping out of your internal tirade and suffocating with urgency, words left your mouth before you could fully process them. Your abruptness surprised both of you given how the man’s eyes widened ever so slightly but you could only plow on.
“It was extremely out of line. I really don’t know how to apologize for cannibalizing you but I want you to know that I deeply regret it.” You tried to say the rest slowly, forcing all your effort and care into them in hopes that the man would feel your sincere regret. As one-sided as it probably was, he was someone you’d considered a friend. “I didn’t mean for it to happen. I just wanted us to be friends.”
Like a deer in headlights seeing the crash as it happens, your eyes strained wide awaiting his answer. You felt manic, blurting out your apology knowing it had no finesse whatsoever. At some point while you were thinking of the proper words to express yourself, your hands were clasped together at your chest. Fingers squeezed in hope, in silent prayer to the god that threw you down here that your relationship with the man was salvageable.
Alastor’s POV
Compared to the apology his dream had conjured up, this attempt was almost laughable. How does one apologize for cannibalizing another? He laughed mockingly in his mind. One simply doesn’t. The other party would usually be dead and gone, no forgiveness to be gotten, words of apology said only to appease the sinner’s own guilt.
Yet as she stood before him trembling, hands clasped in unconscious prayer, he felt no derision for her, only the urge to comfort her…devour her…keep her in his belly where only he could hear her adorable words. She sounded so pathetic yet lovely all the same. The feelings she elicited in him were so foreign, so different and unexpected, bringing him seemingly endless delight.
He’d been in an especially good mood, the result of all the fun he had yesterday seeing her jump whenever he materialized in her immediate vicinity, her frightened face so amusing to him.
Shivers had racked his spine when he thought of the treat he’d covertly prepared for her meal today. Already imagining her sweetly smiling lips as she enjoyed it, he had to take a few moments until other unappreciated reactions in his body had died down before he could start his day.
The morning brought a delicious realization: the thrumming in his chest had never left, smaller now but still going, lifting his mood further in anticipation of today’s plan. He was almost giddy, willing the hours to pass faster like a child on Christmas morning. If he hadn’t known the cause of his heart’s palpitations, he would have thought it was a disease.
Ah. An apology this early. How should he go about this?
He had half a mind to continue teasing the girl, get to see her squirm and fret for a while more before giving into her efforts to reconcile. It may cause her enough distress to alert everyone else but he would have had enough fun by then so it wouldn’t matter.
Looking at her again, her wide eyes radiating sincerity and desperation, two images of her, the dream and the one before him, overlapped, the merge fuzzy around the edges except for her eyes, coming into sharp focus and trapping his gaze.
*click*
The sound reverberated through his mind, erasing the warm buzz from the prior evening. A familiar clarity and tranquility took over where it had died, allowing him to assess the situation more. Unlike the dream, there was no blood or pain or sacrifice being offered in exchange for his grace. Yet her eyes held that same look of sincere apology, desperately wanting to mend their relationship.
He decided. He was going to challenge that sincerity.
“Took you long enough to come begging for my forgiveness. I was beginning to think you’d avoid me for the rest of your afterlife.” Taking deliberately small and slow strides, he crowded her space, watching intently as she cowered back, taking twice as many steps in her retreat. Even when she hit the wall, he continued his approach, slowly leaning in until all he could clearly see were those hell-damned eyes. “I’m a bit disappointed with how long I had to wait for this apology.”
As if prophesied, her movements followed the script written in his dream, each movement an exact copy from her breaths to her focused stare. Excitement pounded in his chest, electricity dancing across his skin. Drool pooled in his mouth in anticipation for her response.
What would the real Ynna do? What would she offer for his pardon? What surprises would this coward of a goat demon feed him?
The answer was nothing. She would offer him nothing.
“I-I wanted to but I just couldn’t…” Before his eyes, his little coward transformed, each word she spoke seeming to grow her courage as she moved closer to him. He could do nothing but watch the scant inches between them disappear, waiting for what she would do.
From a hair’s breadth away, she continued her speech, whispering her words as if reciting a spell, electrifying the air between them to a frequency that played directly to his brain and setting off a series of incessant clicking. “I didn’t think you’d forgive me.”
Startled by the sounds in his mind, he backed away a few steps, no longer able to stand against her onslaught. Her powerful gaze never left his face even as her small lips stumbled over her words. Judging that he’d moved much too far back, she began to follow him, her two steps matching each one of his.
“You were being well…with the eyes and the power flares ups and the appearing out of nowhere and pushing me around, I thought you wanted to kill me.” From this distance, he was able to take in all of her. No trembles racked her form, standing steady as a painting. Still so very vulnerable in her stance but sincere in her lack of overt aggression.
“Oh I was thinking about it. It’s not everyday someone has the audacity to eat me, of all people. It’s the stupidest thing I’ve ever seen someone do.” He spat out words meant to intimidate her, to remind her which one of them held the power to rip the other apart, to take back ground she had taken in this confrontation.
“Why haven’t you?” She stilled her approach, not in fear, he recognized, but in respect for his space once more. Belatedly, he noticed that they stood back where they had started, the realization awakening that feeling within him anew. Satisfaction washed through him like a tide, a rumble shaking through his body. She’d answered his challenge perfectly, more surprisingly than the one in his dream.
“Haha! You don’t have to look so scared, Ynna.” Bringing back a lighthearted tone, he approached her once more, placing his hands on her shoulders. She flinched at his gentle touch but remained still, listening attentively as he spoke. “After I’ve had some time to think, I realized that I’ve become quite fond of you. Enough to forgive you for eating a part of me.”
A silent gasp escaped her mouth, surprise and relief bringing a lovely sparkle to her eyes as if he’d given her a great gift.
“You’re lucky I find your company so en-deer-ing.” He pinched her uninjured cheek for emphasis. She had offered him, the greedy and insatiable Radio Demon, nothing but excuses yet he felt as happy as a clam. Truly, he was just experiencing so many new things ever since the incident she thoughtlessly threw them into.
“Thank you. Thank you, Alastor!” With a jubilant cry, she wrapped her arms around his torso for a hug, discomfort filling him in an instant, stilling even the rumbling she had started. Torn between pushing her away and letting her continue to express her joy, she made the decision for him, dislodging herself as quickly as she came. “Oops, sorry.”
“You’re fine, my dear.” Curiously, he felt no ire from being subjected to a hug, feeling rather neutral about it despite the discomfort it brought. Filing away that tidbit for later, he stirred the conversation elsewhere, a topic that brought bolts of shock and shivers as he thought about it. “On the topic of apologies, I believe I owe you one for your arm.”
“Oh that’s fine. It doesn’t even hurt anymore.” Ever the gracious child, she had pardoned him despite his half-hearted (more quarter-hearted really) apology yesterday. She raised the arm of topic, rotating and flexing unhindered by pain just to show him.
“Well too late. I already made a gift to apologize and I won’t have it go to waste.” His mind buzzed with the thought of his gift.
“You did?” Her curiosity was piqued. Surely she would ask, little smile and sparkle lighting her face, and he felt himself giddy enough that he may give it away. It was best to leave now that they had both gotten what they wanted from this encounter.
“Yes. I’m planning to give it to you during our picnic.” Taking out his pocket watch, he absently noted the time, still plenty before their departure but he was unwilling to stay in her presence any longer, the shivers in his body barely suppressed as they were. “Speaking of which, I should get going. I still have a few things to prepare before we leave.”
“Ok. I’ll see you later.” With a weight lifted off her shoulders, she escorted him the few steps to the door, spring in her step like a prancing lamb.
“Til then, my dear.”
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A shrill scream echoed down the hall after he’d walked a few paces from her closed door. It was followed by giggling from Ynna, no doubt happy to have not only recovered but also grown their ‘friendship’.
Friendship. It wasn’t the word he would use to describe their relationship. From his perspective, he held too much power in their dynamic, sending her through bouts of terror and peace with just a flare of his magic. He struggled to find the correct words to cover what had become of them for he himself didn’t have a diverse portfolio of relationships to refer to.
Would she be the object of his desire? Technically, it was the emotions she stirred within him that he desired. She was just the vessel for which he could feel this newly awakened emotion. There may be other outlets available to him. He would have to see about that.
‘Perpetrator and Victim’ would be a far more apt label, as uncreative as that was for him.
Her face as she chewed his velvet came to mind, jolt of desire almost causing him to stumble as he walked. Well, she was his most en-deer-ing victim.
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Ynna’s POV
You didn’t know what to expect from a forest from Hell but it certainly wasn’t this.
Alastor had opened a portal to your destination and everything looked fine for a second until huge black tentacles jutted out, grabbing each and everyone of you into the unknown depths with the screams of your friends echoing the whole time.
It was hot and wet and cold and dry and you couldn’t tell up from down, the pressure of the eldritch arm the only point of certainty you felt as you traveled through infinite shades of black, green and red.
Everyone, save for Alastor who primly walked out of the portal, was unceremoniously deposited on the ground of your destination, the forest on the outskirts of the western Pride Ring.
“How was everyone’s first trip through the eldritch sphere?” The red asshole kindly asked.
“Oh the lights! So pretty~” Niffty answered, eye swirling to follow the lights burned into her retina.
In various states of nausea, the group groaned an answer. Eyes tightly closed, you were on your hands and knees, still trying to ground the spinning world, hugging the dirt floor and concentrating on only one or two of your jostled senses.
“I’m glad you enjoyed yourselves. Now, let’s get along. We have much ground to cover before we can set up for lunch.” The chuckle in his staticky voice didn’t escape your notice. The all-powerful Overlord had many ways to travel through space, that he chose one so violent was definitely to watch the spectacle everyone was making.
Inwardly cursing the guy, you slowly got up, wiping your dirtied hands on your jeans. World finally steadied again, you took in your surroundings. Tall lush trees towered above your heads, the red sky peeking from the small gaps in the canopy. Moss grew on massive trunks, ferns covering the forest floor as cool mist surrounded them. Red sky aside, the forest looked exactly like those on Earth.
“This is amazing…” The scenery left you in awe, nature’s majestic beauty always having had that effect on you. Tears fogged your vision as you were touched. Never, since death had landed you in the vicious bustle of Pentagram City, did you think you’d see something so beautiful again.
“How’d you know about this place, Alastor?” Too busy taking in the sight, you noted that it was Charlie speaking.
“I come here regularly. It’s the best hunting grounds for game meat in the area.”
“Wait, are you saying this is where you got the deer from last time?” That was Vaggie, sounding curious, disturbed and angry at the same time. You wondered when she’d seen Alastor with a deer and what she’d seen for her to sound just a smidge disgusted.
“You hunt, Alastor?” Noting that he wore his usual attire despite warning everyone else to wear appropriate clothing, you were surprised by the new fact you learned about your companion.
“Yes. It’s a hobby I’ve had since before I got here.” Using his microphone as a placeholder, he cocked the staff onto his shoulder, taking aim and pulling the imaginary rifle. Reaching into your imagination, the small details you’d come to know about him painted a picture in which this new knowledge fell into place. A young radio show host in Louisiana, hunting on the weekends. She was sure it wasn’t always animals he shot.
“Deer?” Looking up at his tiny (now clean) antlers and back to his face, you pointed out the irony of what he was describing.
“I’m not very picky but venison was always a personal favorite.” As a man with self-awareness, he grinned widely at catching your meaning, completely amused by the deadpan expression you were sending him. You should have expected that answer from a cannibal. You could only snort at your friend’s creepiness.
With everyone ready to go, Alastor led the pack through the very small and unused trail he’d picked.
“So like, what do we do? Are we just gonna walk the whole time?” Angel Dust took his place beside you, choosing to bother you since you were the one who insisted the spider come.
“Yep. We can talk too.” Unlike him, you were bursting with energy, feet moving of their own accord to follow down the lightly beaten pathway. Hooking your arm to the spider’s lower arm, you cheerfully continued as you were, happy and content for the first time in what felt like forever.
“Arggh that sounds so boring. Knew this was gonna be lame.” He crossed his upper limbs, slumping forward in a pout, his free arm already bringing out his phone to start texting. Funnily enough, the reception here was fantastic.
“Oh come on, it ain’t that bad.” Swiping his phone, you opened the front-facing camera, bringing him down to your height to take a selfie while hugging him. “Besides, you look so cute.” In the photo you snapped, Angel Dust wore a straw sun hat and shiny purple shades. Always ready for a photo, he had a smirk on, tongue sticking out in a lascivious manner while Niffty, Husk, Sir Pentious and the Egg bois peeked from behind the brim of his hat.
“I’m always cute, babe.”
Ahead of you four, Charlie was squealing, likely happy to see everyone getting along. She was snapping pictures of everyone, trying to get candid shots as you walked. Vaggie was shaking her head at her girlfriend’s antics but still carefully maneuvered the girl away from any obstacle when she was too distracted.
Flipping the camera to take a photo of the three in front of you, you sighed seeing Alastor’s body blinking in and out on the screen.
“Alastor! I thought you only didn’t appear on video. Can we get a photo at least?” You called to the demon leading the trail. He leisurely turned back to respond, a teasing expression on his face.
“Hah! Not with that device, no.”
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Gossip and drama and dirty jokes were exchanged as you walked for over two hours, essentially being a rowdy bunch of teenagers the whole time. It was so much fun. The openness of the environment, empty of signs of other sinners and souls, worked well in easing everyone into a chatty and free mood.
More than once, you exchanged looks with Charlie, congratulating her on a well thought of outing. The girl was positively on cloud nine making you wonder if the girl had ever done a trip like this with friends. Her bubbly cheer made it worth the amount of effort you put into keeping Angel entertained when all you wanted was to savor the scenery. It wasn’t that you didn’t like talking to your friends but…you really just wanted to take it all in, let the peace and calm and beauty resonate with your soul.
Eventually, you all found a good spot for lunch, setting a HUGE blanket down for everyone to sit on. Sandwiches, courtesy of Alastor, were passed around as well as fizzy drinks that Vaggie and Charlie brought, the mood between everyone still jovial and friendly.
This was nice, you thought. So much fun that you felt like letting loose a little. Husk from beside you had an unlabeled bottle of alcohol, taking swigs occasionally from it as he ate.
“Hey Husk, do you mind?” Pinching your fingers to show just how much you were asking for, the bartender added a splash of clear alcohol into your fizzy drink. Tequila or vodka? Or maybe something else but you were willing to bet it was one of those. It made you wonder how the cat stayed sober enough if he was drinking hard liquor so early in the day. “Thanks.”
“Cheers, kid.” Clinking your plastic cup to his bottle, you took a sip. It was tequila, thankfully.
“Ynna.” Alastor appeared on your right, taking a seat crisscross apple sauce. It was strange to see him so informal, especially in his red suit. His posture was still immaculate despite the leisurely atmosphere and seating so you supposed it still fit. There was a paper bag in his hands and you remembered what he told you this morning.
No amount of screaming into your pillow could exhaust the excitement and joy you felt from being friends with the demon. You didn’t have to worry about whether his flaring powers meant he wanted to kill you, or if you would get kicked out of the hotel for angering him or…if you could get back the fun times you had. When he wasn’t directing his psychopathic tendencies towards you, Alastor was a quirky and creepy gentleman with a mean streak that cooked really good food, which is what you thought he brought you.
“A gift to make up for yesterday, as promised.” You happily took the bag from him, surprised by how light it was. Opening the bag, surprise and delight shot through you. He couldn’t have known how to make this unless he looked it up specifically.
“Oh my gosh. Thank you, Al!” Beaming in happiness, you thanked the demon, ignoring the way his static broke as you did so.
“Hey hey, why does Ynna get a treat?” Angel, noticing the exchange, leaned over your head, his superior height making it easy to do.
Alastor’s POV
“Pork rinds?” Angel Dust squinted to take a better look at the opened bag.
“Chicharrones.” Both he and Ynna corrected together. She was beaming as she looked into the bag, the treat bringing her joy just by her acquisition of it.
“And not for sharing. I made this just for Ynna to make up for a little mishap yesterday.” He tacked it on before the group could ask for a bite, the mere thought of it disgusting him.
“This is for her arm yesterday, isn’t it?” Niffty, the little gremlin, blurted out, causing the others to look at her, asking for clarification. “He hurt her arm yesterday because she bumped into him.”
“It was an accident!” Ynna quickly clarified, defending him. It was sweet of her to do so. He was prepared to put on a show of humility to appease the others, having planned for this reaction specifically. By giving her treats in front of the others, he could establish a pattern of specially serving meals just for her in the future.
“Yet I still felt badly for it. I am so very sorry, my dear.” The others were sufficiently pacified by his words and Ynna’s insisting, bringing peace back to their lunch hour.
“Aww. I said it was okay but I love this anyway. Thanks, Al.” Al. She started calling him by nickname, the single syllable bringing to mind images from his dream once more. Little shocks were starting to gather under his skin from her bursting joy at his gift. Any moment now she would eat and he would have the pay off he’d been waiting for.
“You heard the man, not for you.” Ynna playfully batted away the spider’s wandering hands, safeguarding the fried pieces of his skin like treasure. He spied a bit of greed in her eyes as she shooed the spider away. The little sparks were turning into burning tinder, slowly but surely setting his body alight. How much more adorable could she be, not knowing what it was that she held avidly in her little hands?
He couldn’t wait much longer. Taking out a small sauce container, he presented it to her.
“You even brought vinegar? You really thought this through.”
“I had a little fun making these. It’s a cuisine I’ve yet to try so I took great pains to make sure they turned out correct.”
“How did you even know I liked this?”
“I heard it from somewhere.”
She opened the vinegar container, its sour smell wafting into the air, a scent that crinkled her nose but did not deter her from taking a crispy piece of skin. Its bubbled surface shone with a little sheen of oil, fried perfectly golden and seasoned with chili powder and salt. A perfectly appetizing morsel, if he did say so himself.
As she dipped the piece in vinegar, his stomach coiled in anticipation. Using her other hand to catch any dripping, she brought the piece up…and to his mouth. He blinked in confusion, not understanding why she was offering it to him instead of taking the bite as she should have, as he’d been waiting so patiently for.
“You haven’t tried this before, right? You should get the first bite, chef.” She innocently offered to feed him, friendly and oblivious to the torrent of emotions her small act of affability detonated in his mind. Many things were clicking manically in his head, warring urges springing forth, making him unable to decide the correct course of action.
While she was always forward with the others, she never acted like this with him. The usual way she would have offered him the snack was to give him the bag or by using her words to ask. Why was she trying to feed him from her hand? Was it because they had officially become friends earlier? Was this her way of showing affection to her friends? Did she do this with everyone!?
“Al?” Static screeched as he processed what was happening, causing the lively atmosphere to once again center on them. Unbeknownst to the others, panic and elation were fighting within him, unsure what exactly he wanted to do.
“Are you okay, Alastor?” Charlie was asking about him now. He needed to get it together! Grasping the frayed strands of his mental fortitude, he forced a metaphorical switch to flip in his mind, to shut down the feelings threatening to overwhelm and befuddle him.
“Yes. Pardon me. I was just taken aback, my dear. Thank you.” Taking the snack from her hand, he tossed it into his own mouth. His acceptance seemed to please her even more. Did she find the act of feeding someone pleasing or was it just for those she cared for?
An inkling of an image tried to sneak into his mind, of her feeding him other things . The metaphorical switch threatened to flip back up, but he tamped it down viciously. Another thing to ponder for later.
“How is it?”
“Delicious.” The skin was crisp and crackled in his mouth, sprinkling bits of fat across his palate, complemented by the chili powder and washed away by the sourness of white vinegar.
She grabbed another piece, this time finally eating it herself. His ears honed in on the crackling, filtering out all other noises save for her teeth biting through his fried skin. Each crisp sound reverberated from the center of his chest, echoing and bouncing through his limbs. Ghostly sensations prickled along his abdomen around the area where he’d cut those pieces from.
Glancing at him briefly, a smile on her shiny lips, she chewed through his skin with relish. Goosebumps rose all over his body, as if awaiting her touch though she had made no move to get closer. He imagined her little teeth biting and nipping along his belly, leaving marks on the regrown skin. When she swallowed, his eyes followed the column of her throat, watching that part of him disappear into her, forever lost into her void. Her pink tongue darted out, licking a shy strip on the corner of her little mouth, savoring even the crumbs of him and leaving nothing behind.
“This is great, Al. What did you use? The flavor is a little different but it’s so good!” She popped another piece into her mouth, forgoing the vinegar, tasting only salt, skin and spice. His throat felt dry, an inferno blazing under his skin.
“I kept it simple and seasoned it with chili powder and salt.” The entire weight of his control was being pushed to the limit trying to keep that metaphorical switch down. Crunch. Crackle. Swallow. It was like stars were bursting behind his eyes.
“Must be good meat then.” Ah, this girl was driving him insane. If only he could laugh out loud. Desire and wicked glee formed a tight ball within his chest, arousal lost within the weight of their gravity. Each little one of her gestures threatened to tip the scales of his sanity. All the feelings he’d tightly leashed in the last few minutes, if he let go of his concentration, would burst with a reckoning.
And he was just waiting for the right time to let loose.
“It’s from my favorite butcher.”
Notes:
Just watched the finale and Al's solo had me swooning.
Please leave a comment and let me know what you think of this chapter. I love hearing your favorite parts.
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Ynna’s POV
After a very delicious lunch, everyone was knocked out, too lazy to actually move and continue walking. Charlie called it in for the day’s hiking, instead opting to extend the picnic, which just meant lounging around until it was time to go home. You took this as the perfect time to slink off and take a long meditative walk that you'd been dying to have.
Finally having some quiet time, you walked through the woods, staying on the trail to avoid getting lost. The trees were actually different from Earth’s, now that you could look at them closely. Their leaves were just a little too razor edged, the shapes themselves not following any logic that could tell you about the climate in the area or any such details.
Nonetheless, it looked beautiful when you didn’t look too closely. The quiet was soothing, only the lightest crunches of your steps standing out from the distant sounds of wildlife. Now that you thought about it, if there were deer in these woods, could there be bears? Animals in Hell took on slightly hellish appearances but weren’t much different. Of course, a regular brown bear was a monster all by itself and you were no match for one whether it was in life or death.
Turning around, you decided that was enough adventuring for you. Following the trail back, a rustling caught your attention. Immediately on alert, you got ready to react to whatever creature was coming. If only you’d brought a weapon with you, you would have felt safer. The rustling became more frantic, coming closer and closer until a four legged creature jumped into your path and landed with a crunchy splat, the sound twisting your stomach.
A doe, limping on its front legs and bleeding from its hind ones, fell in front of you. The collapsed creature seemed to have run out of steam, only its heavy breathing indicating that it hadn’t died yet. You slowly approached it, being cautious that it could get back up.
It became apparent that there was no saving the thing. Its legs were broken and a large slash oozed blood from its back. Fat tears were forming in its eyes, fear and pain evident in its graceful face. Your heart stirred, all too familiar with slow and painful death.
Since you couldn’t do anything, you just stayed beside it, morbidly fascinated by its dying form. It was a beautiful creature, everything about it bringing the word ‘slender’ to mind. Its long legs, bleeding and slightly dented out of place, were delicate along the forest floor. Its slender neck lead up to an adorable face that softened your heart. It was a tragic beauty and you wished there was something you could do for this fragile and delicate being.
Alastor’s POV
Lunch had come and gone and the hotel crew continued to chatter, no longer willing to walk. Ynna excused herself to explore some more, promising to be back within the hour.
He sat there, thrumming with energy, Ynna’s earlier display running through his mind over and over. He remained quiet, sipping his drink as the others talked about things he absently took note of. All he could think about was the need to run rampant, be free, let all his locked up emotions run their course through him and experience them to the fullest.
With a silent chant, he casted a spell and the atmosphere became more comfortable, more soothing. One by one, the others fell asleep, the food and drink they’d been plied with working its way through their bodies and inducing nap time. That was good. He himself hadn’t eaten much, too engrossed in watching Ynna blatantly from his microphone’s eye.
As the Husk fell asleep, no more eyes could watch as he shadowed away, finally letting go of his hard-kept composure as soon as he finished materializing. It started with just shivers running down his spine, then bursts of feeling in his chest and then lightning bolts were shooting through his body. He remembered it so vividly.
She’d eagerly thrown his skin into her mouth, crunching as if she had chewed on his bones. Her lips pursed cutely, the sourness of vinegar on her tongue. Those same lips kissed some of those pieces when she’d pause her consumption to laugh at something that was said. Teasingly bringing it back up to her mouth only to abort when she wanted to talk, phantom sensations ghosting over his skin like cool breaths on his back.
The shivers were becoming unbearable, clouding his mind like never before. It was thrilling. It was exhilarating. It was frightening in its power over him.
He leaned back against a tree, antlers hitting the bark as they grew larger atop his head, sending more shivers down his spine just like when she carefully, delicately cleaned them of velvet. He turned around, holding on to the wide trunk and rubbed his antlers against it, chasing that feeling and the memory it invoked. Little hands expertly wielding a knife, a terrified face under his palm. It was hard to breathe. Every inhale was insufficient, the fire in his chest gobbling all the oxygen in his lungs.
He felt helpless and frustrated, unable to separate desire from lust, but the gouges in the tree made him feel better. Like stabbing a warm body. Over and over again, he rutted his antlers against the abused bark, drawing slash after slash, imagining they were knife wounds oozing blood instead of sap, stripping off skin in place of tree bark.
He wanted to feed her more of him, hear the crackling of his skin like bones fracturing underfoot. He wanted her to feed him. Whatever was in her hand, just as long as she gave it to him. He wanted. Wanted. Wanted.
Long claws pushed into the bark, his hands using all their strength to rake deep slow gauges as he thought of her teeth scraping against his skin, eyes thankful and happy as she did so.
“Fuck!” This was too much. He needed an outlet. He needed to hunt.
He was much calmer now, sated by the hunt. In a span of half an hour, he had managed to devour at least 8 deer, doe and stags both. His hunger was satisfied, excess energies spent and now he was just tracking one more that got away with the intention of bringing it home for dinner.
As he walked through the familiar woods with a much calmer mind, he thought through his reaction. It had been overwhelming, more than he could have imagined possible. One factor for its intensity was most likely the duration of it as the woman had gone through the entire bag he had presented her, each bite prolonging the enjoyable agony.
There was also the factor of senses. The sound had played a big role, echoing in his memory like vibrations on his skin. Sound had always been his favorite sense, delighting in the low notes of jazz, the buzz of electricity running through his radio, the scratch of a record about to start. It was why he chose his profession, not just to hear himself speak but to access music at his fingertips.
To think he would add the sound of his skin breaking on teeth as one of his favorites. This endeavor to pursue the pleasures of being eaten was delightful. He was learning so much about himself. But he hesitated to continue. The feeling of it was addicting, a rush unrivaled by any other but the one of his first kill. The only reason it wasn’t at the very top was because he felt damned annoyed by the arousal it brought.
It was why he was hesitant now. This last experience had topped even the one in his dream but he could not stomach how his body had reacted, unable to enjoy just the desire and delight without the lust. And the intensity with which these feelings held him under their grasp had him reeling in shock at himself.
He was a murder, a psychopath, a depraved, cruel and greedy animal, but he was not that kind of animal. A man had to have standards.
Perhaps, he should pause his experiments. Let their novelty dull with time so that he could enjoy them in less extreme intensity. Yes, that would be preferable to losing himself so completely to urges he found unacceptable.
The doe had managed to get itself close to the trail, the path most animals wouldn’t take to avoid travelers. He expected it to fall soon given how he’d mangled its legs. It was impressive that it had even gotten that far away. He would honor the animal by making it into stew tonight.
Following its trail, he soon heard a familiar voice speaking in hushed tones.
“Poor thing. I wish there was something I could do for you.”
Ynna spoke softly to the dying creature in front of her, eyes looking on with the same fascination he’d seen as she sliced the skin from his antlers. She sounded unhappy, a little troubled. Her eyes were dazed deeply in thought, a look that he was finding familiar, and that’s when he saw it, her hands moving before her mind could catch up. Wrapping around the doe’s head, she twisted its neck with surprising force, the snap of it seeming to be the thing that brought her back to reality.
She gasped at what she’d done, looking down at her hands as if asking what devil had possessed them. Her shock and horror gave way to apathy and then sadness as she murmured an apology to the life she just ended. “Shit…fuck..I didn’t mean to do that…but at least you’re not suffering anymore.”
He heard the heartbreak and vulnerability echoing in those words, teasing his mind until the pieces locked into place. Little things about Ynna, how she sometimes looked far away yet able to move well despite her lack of focus, the incident with his velvet. How she couldn’t seem to stop herself until the damage was already done.
“Well this is surprising. I didn’t think that those moments of impulsivity of yours would take a darker turn. Is this something new or has this always been a problem, doll?” Making his presence known, the girl jumped from where she was kneeling, expression like a deer in headlights. It tickled something in him to see her face so surprised, a familiar feeling that he enjoyed, that he could control.
“Alastor…” Her shock ebbed away quickly back to the melancholy that he’d found her in. What difference one morning made of her reactions to him. Now that they had reconciled, she was completely comfortable and trusting. It was almost a pity that he couldn’t scare her like before but, remembering her bravery this morning, he decided that he liked this better. “You saw that, huh?”
“Mmhmm. I always wondered why a sweet gal like you would end up in Hell. You’re far too nice to be running around in these circles.” He walked to her with a teasing voice, amused to have discovered the answer to one of the questions he’d had about the girl. Her impulse control was sloppy, and deadly.
“The intrusive thoughts…aren’t usually a problem because they don’t happen a lot and they're usually little things. I mean, except the thing with your velvet and this…” Looking down at the deer, she’d adjusted its head with gentle remorse. If one didn’t know, they wouldn’t have noticed its neck was broken. “The only time I’ve really hurt someone was, well they died and that’s why I’m…here. At least, I think that’s why.” She explained her predicament is a small voice, rough with guilt and self-loathing.
Her shame was delicious to watch. No wonder she wasn't confident in her redemption even though she was the model good denizen. It wasn’t that she wanted to hurt people, it’s that it could happen without her control and she only needed to do it once to damn her soul once more.
“So you thoughtlessly do these things and one day, it turned murderous. I have to say, it’s idiotic, dear. Imagine being cast into infernal blaze for all eternity, for acting on an intrusive thought.” It was pathetic and surprising. How stupid could this child be to not be able to restrain herself? And with only one kill, no wonder she was such a weak demon. He idly wondered if there were other sins she’d committed on impulse that weighed on her soul enough to drag her down. Cannibalism was the most recent one, he thought, not that she was fully aware of how badly it did.
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Ynna’s POV
“Yeah, well that’s my reality.” Your tone was clipped, no longer wanting to talk about it. He was being an ass which was to be expected from Alastor. Of all the people who could have figured out what your problem was, it had to be this man. Anyone else would have been sympathetic. Well, maybe Niffty and Angel would laugh but they would get that you didn’t like talking about it and were great at getting you back into a better mood.
“The road to Heaven is straight as a stick and narrow. Some people just jumped right off and some…just weren’t watching where they were going. I’m sure you wouldn’t be the only soul down here in that predicament though yours seems to be something that can’t be controlled.” Was that his attempt at consoling you? Yes, given that it was Alastor, it wasn’t surprising that it sounded like an insult. You looked back at him then, his grin stretching wide, all teeth. “I could help you with that, if that’s something you desire.”
“No thanks. I’ll deal with it on my own.” The nerve of this man! First he made fun of you and now he wanted to own your soul! After he said you were an idiot too! You stood to your full height, frowning at the deer demon but he only slightly smoothed out his expression in response, still looking down on you figuratively and literally.
“Are you sure, my dear? In just the last 2 days your little problem has already added two more sins to your soul. I don’t think this is something you would be able to do all on your own.” The devil leaned closer to you, his voice lower as he continued. “As your friend, I could help. And it wouldn’t cost you your soul.”
A reminder of your mistakes set off a dam in you. He was right. The list of your sins has gotten longer, erasing all the progress you’d made. You’d worked so hard and yet…
Who were you kidding? You’d been living a good clean life since you’d gotten to the hotel and by all means, you should have already gone to Heaven. There was no more progress to be made. You were just stuck. You knew that even if you lived like a nun for all of eternity, it wouldn’t erase the careless impulse that you had and it was ultimately your downfall.
“What do you want?” Reluctantly, you asked for his terms, a part of you curious as to what your ‘friend’ wanted. Another part of you that sounded like Vaggie and Charlie told you not to make a deal with the Radio Demon.
“A favor of my choosing, to be called on anytime I want.” He said it easily, as if what he had in mind was a simple thing. He should’ve known that if it was simple, he wouldn’t have had to make a deal to get it from you. That’s what it meant to be your friend. You two had known each other long enough that he should have known that. And you felt a little betrayed. Just a little. He was a deal maker and you’d known him long enough to know that he would take advantage of sinners like this, even if it was a friend.
“A favor? I doubt there’s anything I could do for you that you wouldn’t be able to do yourself. You said so yourself, I’m an idiot.” What could he want when you owned nothing, no power, no influence, not even full control of your actions? Your throat constricted. You hated this. You hated having to think about this and remember how pathetic you were. The self-loathing and helplessness were so great that you wanted to cry, but you refused.
“There there, Ynna. We all have our strengths and weaknesses. I’m sure there will be something you can do for me. Besides, the terms of this deal will take away that idiotic part of you so wouldn’t everything be better then?” Arms reached out to give you a hug, a surprising act on the demon’s part. He wasn’t the type to initiate intimate contact like this. As you looked up at him in question, he was unbothered, even sweet. He whispered comfort and temptation to you and you just wanted to melt away and forget this was happening. His red red eyes were hypnotizingly soft as he held you.
The only thing standing in the way of redemption was your inability to catch yourself. No matter how harmless your tick normally was, one sick and twisted thought was all it took to fall.
“…I won’t murder, hurt or torture anyone.”
There were nights where you worried that the longer you were in Hell, the worse those impulses would become as it became easier to accept the violence and depravity around you, and in your friends. Just look at what happened just now. You snapped a neck just because it looked delicate enough that you could. What if it got worse? What if you hurt the others next? If you took the deal, there was nothing stopping you from achieving redemption, nothing that could drag you back down.
Except for whatever Alastor would ask of you.
“Oh that’s really cute, doll, but you’re far too weak a demon to kill anyone of import. Haha.” The mocking in his voice was softened by the small smile he had, not a wicked grin as earlier. He looked at you, eager and excited. “But I accept your terms. So do we have a deal?”
The demon was smiling freely, already aware that he’d caught you. You felt resigned to your fate by his hands once more. Whatever it was that he wanted, you would do it and you would work on your redemption after.
“Deal.”
You were an idiot.
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Chapter Text
You sat in the kitchen watching Alastor cook. There had been no improving your mood after you’d shaken the devil’s hand. When you got back to the others, you blamed your dark demeanor on seeing the deer die which was also when Alastor announced what dinner would be tonight.
“Venison stew.” His staticky voice had said, proudly presenting the kill to everyone’s disgust before portaling it away. You’d had the urge to chop him up right then. He can be the damned venison, son of b—. You caught yourself. You shouldn’t be angry. Shouldn’t be angry…
You tried to think of happy thoughts the whole way home.
Now, you sat at the kitchen table, staring blankly as the man prepared the deer you killed. Well, he mostly killed it but you finished it. Ah, you sighed out loud. That was dark thought. It was a good thing he took your impulsiveness away.
“If you’re going to be brooding while you sit there, you can at least do it in the lobby.” The man’s voice had a bite to it, clearly a little annoyed with you, which was what you wanted given how upset you were with him for offering you a deal. And even more upset with yourself for accepting. While you sat in contemplative misery, he was happily working on that deer, cleaning and cutting, guts and other innards disappearing into his toothy maw. “Pass the salt, dear.”
“Won’t that spoil your appetite?” You grimaced as he cleanly disposed of the unwanted bits, jaw growing freakishly wide and drool leaking from the edges of his grin. He slurped some intestines like spaghetti, the noxious smell of it making you want to throw up.
While disgusting, it was fascinating to watch him work. He butchered the carcass cleanly and efficiently with clear expertise but he ate the discarded parts with freakish filthy relish. It was hard to stop watching the duality of it all.
“Not a bit. I always have room to spare for a good meal. Now, salt?” You walked over and placed the container into his bloody hand and just stood there observing him. The originally white apron he wore was stained in blood and viscera but the rest of him except his hands remained clean. A true image of a serial killer cook, like Hannibal. With feigned nonchalance, he turned to you. “Need something?”
“You meant it when you said you were my friend earlier, right?” It was really bothering you. The two of you had only reconciled this morning and things were going well. He joined in when you were chatting with everyone, teasing and snarking as he usually did. He gave you a great apology snack that you knew took a lot of effort. He seemed to genuinely care and wanted to be friends. So you were shocked that he took your moment of vulnerability and made one of his deals.
“Of course I do. You’re one of the few people in this ring that isn’t a completely lost cause in terms of company. While not as adventurous as my other acquaintances, you’re fun in your own way.” His response came as a surprise, so much that you zeroed in on him, watching his expression, his tone, everything to see any sign of deception. All you found was an easy smile that warped when he thought of something. “And a lot more refined, in some aspects.” Or someone, it seemed.
“But you still think I’m stupid.” That sounded pathetically self-deprecating. You almost winced at yourself.
“And you think I’m a psychopath. Who here has more questionable tastes in friends?” While you never said that to him out loud, it was still shocking to be called out like that. Watching to see his reaction, he remained smiling, clearly more amused than insulted. He probably thought you were foolish.
He was right. Despite knowing what kind of person he was, you had reached out, wanting to be close to him. He was just too fascinating to leave alone and it was nice to hear him say all of that. It was nice to have this comfortable banter.
Your irritation with him gave way to admiration for his wit and honesty. Something about him made you want to be close, maybe it was the way he held himself with grace and confidence and style, but you just couldn’t stay mad for long. The way he smiled, a little mocking, a little vicious but enjoying himself freely, lit a spark within you for him.
It was too late to back out of the deal now anyway. No use holding a grudge when you could just enjoy joking around with one of Hell’s strongest Overlords.
You just hoped he was genuine.
“Well, I have no counter to that argument.” Slapping the countertop to signal your joke, you resolved to push away those stormy feelings and replace them with more affectionate ones. This was your friend. You would handle whatever shit he’d throw at you when it happened.
“We can table this for later when you think of something.” Without missing a beat, Alastor responded back with his own joke, immersing himself with cooking once again.
“I have a sink-ing feeling that I’d lose that desk-cussion.” Laughter was making its way through your chest and out. He butchered the carcass cleanly as you chortled. What once was a cute animal now looked like prime cuts of meat from the grocer. He even ate the whole head. In. One. Bite.
You almost regarded him fondly. Why did this sicko have to be your kinda guy?
“You know, I’ve never had venison before. I’m kinda excited to see what it tastes like.” Changing the topic to something that might interest the disgusting showman, your off-hand comment got an eyebrow raise from him.
“I seem to recall you taking a bite only a couple nights ago.” With a lazy smirk, he dropped what sounded like an innuendo. He was referring to his velvet, of course. But you felt a blush rush to your cheeks because that sounded almost flirty. Alastor? Flirty?!
“Oh oooh no. It sounds so wrong when you say it like that.” Perhaps he didn’t get what you meant when you reacted like that, thinking your horrified face was because of the idea of cannibalism rather than the Radio Demon dropping some unimaginable charm into your banter.
“Haha. No need to fret, dear. Why, I remember my first foray into alternative food sources.” The man changed his tone and you felt your fluster turn to dread within you. He was about to say something gross. “The year was 1931, poverty and starvation was rampant among the population. So many orphans—“ You were willing to listen to whatever gross story he was about to tell, as he rarely shared much, but you drew the line there. Slapping the counter, this time to stop him from talking, you raised a frantic voice.
“Orphans! Please don’t tell me you ate orphans.” The idea of it sickened you. Of course you learned how terrible things had gotten at that period of time and it was certainly possible that some people actually…but eww no. You didn’t want to think about it.
“Of course not. I have no interest in harming children. There’s no fun to be had in that. Now as I was saying, it was a warm summer night in 1931 when I caught a drunkard off the street. After I sent him to meet his maker, I grew a little curious, groceries were getting quite expensive at the time and—“ Cutting into the venison to emphasize just how he might have ended that victim, his nonchalance as he recounted the story was disturbing and impressive. Mostly disturbing.
“Aaand I’ll stop you right there. I don’t think I’m ready to hear this story but it’s great to hear…context? For when you started your uhhh diet, I guess. Haha.” You tried to gently get him to stop, not actually wanting to listen to the details (you’d probably get hooked and regret it) but also not wanting to discourage Al from sharing stories in the future.
Alastor smirked knowingly at you, red eyes sparking with mirth.
“I’ll get out of your way.” You shyly smiled back, already making a not run to the door in case he changed his mind and started talking again. He had the voice to captivate an audience and he would wield it to your dismay.
“Dinner’s in 2 hours.” With a sing-song voice, Al started whistling, playing music from his radio as he started. He was getting into his groove as you left the kitchen.
“So I was saying—oh hey! There ya are, toots! Been wondering where ya were.” In the lobby, the group except Vaggie and Charlie, were having what looked like a serious discussion. They were gathered in a circle, huddled closely.
“Was talking to Al.” Taking your place in the gap the group opened for you on the couch, you observed. Everyone looked amused though Sir Pentious looked nervous. Whatever they were talking about must’ve had something to do with him.
“Since when did you two get so buddy-buddy anyway? It was freaky seeing Smiles be all chummy with ya.” Angel’s arms sprawled behind you, face in a grimace to express his distaste.
“Hmm? I mean we always kinda got along but I think we’re friends now.” Making yourself comfortable, the others looked at you curiously. Husk seemed the most skeptical of the bunch and he made an aborted movement as if thinking better of saying anything. You understood where the cat was coming from. You too made a deal with the demon and only resolved to shelve your distrust just now. It was most likely worse for Husk who actually sold his soul to Alastor. You shared a look of understanding with him.
“Jeez. You’re the only sane bitch I know who’d say they were friends with Mr. Creepy-smiley-face.” You also questioned your choices, narrowly escaping what would have been a scarring but fascinating story from the Radio Demon. But what’s Hell without a few crazy friends?
“There’s Charlie?” You suggested.
“She doesn’t count.” True. The blonde would be friends with anyone she thought was even slightly decent.
“Oh! Oh! I’m friends with Al!” Niffty jumped up and down, hand waving in the air with a giggle.
“See my point?” Angel’s deadpan expression was accompanied by a smirk. He knew he got you there so you could only snort back at his smug face.
“Anyway, what were y’all talking about?”
“What makes ya look at a guy and go ‘Ooh. I’d hit that.’”
“Why?” It really was a surprise because, Niffty, you could see liking this conversation but everyone else?
“Sir Pent here’s got a crush and needs advice.” Gesturing to the snake man, he blushed a little, little tongue hissing out in reflex.
“I believe I should work on my appearance a little but…well, it’s been a while since I’ve thought to pursue anyone.” You had never thought the man to be cute, he was always a little awkward with his old fashioned speech and ways but seeing his scales flush a light pink was adorable.
“I think you look fine, Sir Pent.” Looking at him once over, from height to build, you didn’t find anything unpleasant to look at, at least from a Hell standpoint. The comment seemed to make him a little happy as the furrow in his brow lessened.
“Not the answer we was lookin’ for.”
“So what is the answer?” You turned to Angel in question.
“Are you an abs or butt kinda girl? Whiskers here says abs. Niffty thinks butt.”
“Better to smack it with.” The gremlin made a smacking motion, totally misaligned with her childish build and stature. It was hilarious.
“Ahh. Both cuz why not?” You answered noncommittally. While you wouldn’t go as far as to say you’d bang a someone because of their hot body, not really ever feeling that urge at all, it didn’t hurt to look at something pretty. “But for Sir Pent, I guess abs would be the only thing you can work on.”
“See that’s what I was sayin’. Come on, Scales. Let’s see what you’re workin’ with.” Laying back onto the couch, Angel gestured for the snake to take off his shirt. Sir Pentitious seemed scandalized by that and you were once again reminded that he came from a time when that would not have been appropriate even amongst friends.
“Oh well…this is a smidge embarrassing.”
“You don’t have to do it if you’re uncomfortable, Sir Pent.” You tried to give him a way out. If he insisted that he didn’t want to, you’d dissuade the others.
“Naw, show us the goods.” Like a frat boy, Angel hooted good (?) naturedly. To which Sir Pent actually responded with an affirmative.
The snake man untied his bow and got rid of his overcoat. From the contour of his white shirt, one could tell that he was lean-figured. As the article of clothing was shed, your jaws dropped to the ground.
“Oh.” Angel’s whistled slowly.
“ Holy shit. ” You and Husk whispered.
“Wowwee!” You all had to restrain Niffty from committing sexual assault.
Alastor’s POV
He hadn’t expected Ynna to take the deal so badly. Wicked glee had filled him after finding out what hindered her path to redemption. It was so simple yet the consequences were profound. With the new knowledge, he saw an opportunity.
He’d been all too happy to offer to take away her problem in exchange for a favor, of which he had a few ideas . He had no worries that she would redeem herself before he could cash in her part. Unknowingly sinning still tainted one’s soul, after all.
However, taking advantage of the situation rightfully upset the girl, which he only belatedly realized after making his offer. In a spontaneous act of care, he pulled her into his arms, wanting to comfort her. It was an act more to lessen her ire of him than to persuade her but it had managed to do both as he felt her lean into him.
“I won’t murder, hurt or torture anyone.” Very specific, as one should be when offering terms to a contract. That she had only specified those three showed her innocence. There were so many other things he could have her do.
Warmth grew from where her head leaned on his chest, a familiar thrumming starting as she looked up at him with a resigned and determined face. There was excitement as she gave into him, who hadn’t even had to work hard to persuade her. Now, he had another ace up his sleeve to use for later and he’d managed to help the little goat in his own way. This day was a very good one.
That was, until Ynna had refused to be at ease afterwards. Every sinner that’s had the displeasure of having to make a deal with him was some form of upset, despairing or angry afterwards and it was a perfectly understandable reaction. His reputation was well-deserved and only the truly desperate or foolish would accept his offer. He’d delighted in their torment but this wasn’t the case with Ynna. As they traversed back to the hotel, he observed her sullen appearance.
It angered him. No words were exchanged between them as they made their way back to the group, a stark contrast to only two hours ago when she pranced about the forest on their hike. He tried to chatter at her but she only replied with “I need to think for a bit.” before going off and walking faster away from him.
Her avoidance made him uncomfortable and his discomfort turned to anger. It was one thing for her to avoid him when he was intentionally striking fear into her cowardly heart, to be upset with him when he’d done something he knew was against her wishes. The deal, however, was a mutual choice. And she’d made her choices.
Why should she subject him to her brooding company? He hadn’t forced her to take the deal, he’d even offered it for cheap. Why was he being forced to feel her annoyance and ire?
When those eyes of hers looked at him in sadness and distrust, he’d wanted to tear them out of her skull. The nerve of her!
He thought he would find some reprieve from her but she’d followed him to the kitchen as soon as they had gotten back. She’d made it perfectly clear to the both of them that his presence should have been something she detested at the moment. Why was she sticking around? He fully anticipated her to take back the deal as she clearly regretted it. He was almost willing to let it go just to appease her.
The girl, however, didn’t. She simply sat down and stared, eyes in a daze to show that she was deep in thought.
It was irksome but he relented. Since she was being quiet, he wouldn’t throw her out. Turning to tonight’s meal, he prepared the deer carefully. It had been some time since he’d bothered to butcher the carcass like this, usually eating it raw up in his room. Summoning his shadows, he ordered them to drain its blood.
His ears pricked as he heard the sound of scraping. Looking to the other occupant of the room, she was absently scraping one fingernail on the smooth wooden surface she lay on. The sound was accompanied by a small low sigh. The two sounds combined, starting little pleasant shivers from his ears down his back. Nothing so great as those he got when she was savoring his special treats, but pleasant still.
His irritation with her ebbed as he listened to the little sounds she was making. Sometimes, she tapped her nail on the table, clacking like little static pops of a radio. Other times, she hummed with no tune, just to make a sound with her voice. There were also times where she growled, the sound small and low and no more frightening than a chihuahua. It was adorable.
Instead of putting on music as he normally would, he worked to the tune she was making, finding strange comfort in the tiny sounds. His ears strained to hear her over the noises of his butchering, her scraping of the table against his chopping of the knife, her nasally breathing against the squelch of flesh. It was relaxing.
The only detractor was her loud pathetic sighing. It irked him to hear her glumness knowing it was related to him. If she had to make a sound he’d rather it be laughter to his jokes, humming to his music or appreciation for his food. Not this moroseness!
A dark pit settled in his stomach, like hunger coated in anger and irritation. It weighed heavily in his chest, washing away the peace they were enjoying. He cut open the deer’s stomach, relishing as its guts spilled onto the counter. To sate the growing void, he ate the offal, the slightly warm flesh only mildly satisfying. Feeling her eyes on him, he made sure to eat particularly repugnantly to disgust her. He was being childish, true, but he felt like he needed to make a point. If she was going to be unhappy with him, it would be by his intention.
She continued watching his grotesque display, not once voicing a complaint or comment. Whatever reaction he had been hoping for, she did not deliver. Instead, another sad sigh left her lips and he had had enough.
He passively told her to leave, not wanting to ruin the experience of cutting through flesh with her moping. A little twinge shot in his brain, thinking his comment was perhaps a tad too aggressive, and he quickly added a request for salt as a way to be a little more gentle, he supposed. As she made her way to him, still sad and quiet, she stayed beside him instead of leaving or returning to her seat. What was going on in that mind?
“You meant it when you said you were my friend earlier, right?” Her sad little eyes looked at him, both thrilling and unpleasant.
She asked her question, still watching his hands work on the carcass, almost mesmerized by his work. Was that what was bothering her about this whole thing? She just wanted to reaffirm their friendship? Was it because he’d stooped low enough to try bartering with her for a favor that she doubted him? In hindsight, it was a callous thing to propose. The deal had just come naturally to him, a little scratching of backs between two people. He pondered her question and answered what he felt was the correct response.
“Of course I do.” The answer had been more honest than he expected. He was surprised at how true the words rang to him. Just this morning, he was thinking she was his victim but now, he was singing another tune. Why?
“You’re one of the few people in this ring that isn’t a completely lost cause in terms of company.” If the last half hour could be used as an example, even when she was irritating, there was still something of her company to be enjoyed.
“While not as adventurous as my other acquaintances, you’re fun in your own way.” Indeed, she was too ordinary for his company but the shivers and bolts of feeling she brought about were the most fun he’d had in decades.
“And a lot more refined, in some aspects.” He thought of Niffty for example, while he got along well with the tiny woman…well, Ynna wouldn’t stab him. Though now that he thought about it…It would be intriguing to see the calm goat get violent. The thought sent shocks through him as he imagined her furious and unafraid.
“But you still think I’m stupid.” Her eyes looked at him with a deadpan expression, no longer sad but contemplating him and his answers. This expression on her face was much better, less irksome than her sadness.
“And you think I’m a psychopath. Who here has more questionable tastes in friends?” He teased her for it was true. Knowing the kind of man he was, she still made an effort to become friends with him, even let down her guard to show him equal affection as she did to the others.
And maybe that was the answer. His victim was too kind and too genuine. While he still thought it was laughable, it didn’t stop him from appreciating those qualities of hers when directed at himself. This was…he wasn’t entirely sure what to make of this development, having never attached any sentiments towards his victims before. He supposed that he should treat her with a bit more care then.
His honesty was rewarded with a happy Ynna, throwing puns at him, a challenge he delightedly responded to.
“You know, I’ve never had venison before. I’m kind of excited to see what it tastes like.” Oh if only she knew. He had to stop himself from smirking too widely at her.
“I seem to recall you taking a bite only a couple nights ago.” A spark lit within him at the memory they were sharing at the moment. Her flushed expression was delicious.
Caught in a good mood by her bantering, he thought to share some more tidbits of his life, the parts he knew she, who had some fascination with death, would be intrigued and disgusted to hear. Delight and mirth filled his mind as she politely declined to hear the rest of his story. Such a pity. He continued dinner preparations in a much more joyful mood. Now what should he add to tonight’s dish?
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The rich taste of the stew danced on his tongue. Tender venison melded together with onions, carrots and garlic to create a rich and savory meal. From the corner of his eyes, Ynna seemed to think the same, pausing in her chatter with the others to truly immerse herself in her first bite of ‘venison’. She turned to him, smiling with her eyes, too busy with her mouthful to express her gratitude in words.
A shiver rattled through him, static popping as she swallowed. His body felt warm, heated coals of desire burning in the pit of his guts. A bit of stew stuck to the corner of her mouth and he had to restrain himself from wiping it with his finger…from shoving it in her mouth, feeling the roughness of her tongue against the pads of his thumb. His observation had been correct, quantity also affected how much these feelings burned within him. He would make a note for next time. Perhaps, with smaller bits. This was beginning to take an inappropriate turn.
Adjusting his seating position to get more comfortable, he continued to savor his meal, eyes only straying towards Ynna’s direction occasionally. But what bliss he felt in those few glances.
“I think you’re attractive enough as is Sir Pent.” Ynna’s comment caught his attention. Pulling back from within himself, he focused on the current discussion. As soon as she had spoken, a crossed look came about her face, as if she had just thought of something. “Actually, I take that back. What do you want out of this, like, are you in love or just in it for the physical aspects?”
“Physical assspects?” Across Angel Dust and Ynna, the snake looked at them in confusion. It seemed the conversation was a little romantic counseling session for the snake. While uninteresting, he did enjoy the way the snake fidgeted in their light interrogation.
“She means, do ya wanna fuck her, big guy?” Ever the crude one, Angel Dust pointed to the snake as if his spoon was a teacher’s pointer.
“Oh in that case then yes!” The snake met eyes with several of the women, all of whom looked bemused if not disapproving of his answer. Vaggie, the one most disapproving, raised a judgmental eyebrow that seemed to give the snake a hint that he’d said the wrong thing. How funny. “I-I mean no. I mean, I would like to get to know Miss Cherri on all levels.” That seemed to get the approval of everyone on the table.
“In that case, I think you look great. Angel can probably tell you what Cherri Bomb likes and you can work on getting to know her from there.” Charlie piped in, plans going through her little head on how to help the snake man court his unfortunate love interest.
“You don’t think I look a tad old fashioned?”
“Every man looks fantastic in a well-tailored suit.” Ynna’s eyes scanned over the snake, giving two thumbs up to show her approval of his appearance. Her eyes turned to him, giving him a once over as well. Electricity followed where her eyes landed, ending with a zap when their eyes met. “Al probably knows a good tailor if you want a more fashionable cut.”
“I could recommend a few good ones but my favorite would be in Cannibal Town.” While he didn’t like being volunteered, at least Ynna had good taste.
Notes:
Venison Stew because Al's stewing in his feelings :3
I'm debating how the plot goes from here so I'll stop posting updates for a while until I've written out more and am happy with it.
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Chapter 8: Sounds like
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Alastor’s POV
“And that’s what I’ve been up to these days.” Sitting primly at a table in Rosie’s shop, Alastor recounted his new obsession of the last two weeks to his fellow Overlord. Two weeks he had relished the new feelings Ynna had unlocked within him, experimenting with different cuts and creative recipes to wow her palette. His painstaking efforts were rewarded with her sweet gratitude and the chaotic symphony of his body’s reactions.
With a proud smile, he sipped his coffee, pleased.
“Ah! I can’t believe it! How did this happen and to you of all people Alastor? Must’ve been a shock to learn something new about yourself this late in the afterlife. Though better late than never.” Sitting across from him, Rosie was engrossed, absolutely loving his story thus far. Her elegant posture belied the absolute glee he could feel from the Overlord. Her cheeky grin stretched wide as if she had eaten something delicious, and gossip always was.
“Oh it was certainly a surprise. I can’t even begin to tell you how marvelous this discovery has been for me.” While running the hotel had been entertaining, it was still a painfully boring job to fix messes day in and day out. With his new venture, he felt energized and creative. There was always something to look forward to and whenever he felt particularly bored, he only needed to find Ynna and a zing would go through him. He could feel his cheeks stretch wider at the memory of just this morning.
“Well, try it.” Was his reminiscing plain to see on his face? The lady all but demanded that he put into words just how lovely a time he’d been having. Of course, that’s what he was here for.
“Haha. Then pardon me for being crass but seeing her consume a part of me felt electrifying, exhilarating, more pleasurable than anything I’ve ever experienced before. A new world to explore, every discovery a delight.” The thrill of it had not ebbed no matter how many days passed, how many times he’d watched her feed. He only needed to think of her and he already felt much lighter, much more alive. “I would definitely recommend it.”
“Oh Alastor. My goodness, I didn’t think you’d ever get to feel like that. Is that why you’re here? Need advice on how to woo your lady friend? You came to the right place, I always know how to get a girl.” Rosie spoke with a small blush in her face, already making plans to help with the preposterous situation she had gleaned from his story.
“Woo? I assure you that romance isn’t involved.” He raised an eyebrow at her, confusion following his friend’s offer. What was she on about? He was clearly expressing the joys of being eaten.
“It’s not? Then are you really just here for a house call? I thought for sure you’d be biting at the bit to snag her off the market. Not many ladies out there wanting to eat their man and keep him alive too.” She gestured broadly, inviting him to think of the world of cretins and cannibals out there. The misguided warning felt unnecessary. While it was true that Ynna was unique in eliciting such a reaction from him, surely she wasn’t the only one.
Setting down his coffee mug, he took out a packaged lunch box from his portal space. Placing the box on the table, he uncovered the meal, steam rising from its perfectly preserved state. It was today’s breakfast, a hash of potatoes and meat from his forearm, chopped and pan fried to a crisp in bacon fat. He’d even gone as far as to add a fried egg on top.
“I’m actually here on a bit of an experiment. Since finding out how enjoyable the experience was, I’ve been recreating it again by feeding her. It’s been exhilarating but I’m starting to wonder if there are other avenues I could use.” Nudging the meal closer to her, he offered the carefully planned brunch.
“Are you asking me to try it? Alastor, darling, that’s a little forward, even for you.” Her toothy grin froze to one of surprise, a delicate hand going over her chest as if to keep her gasp in check.
“Yes. I’ve thought of trying out the same thing with other people but the mere idea of it disgusts me.” He couldn’t even imagine the others at the hotel partaking without revulsion and anger clouding his mind. “But I thought I might try with you as this is closer to your tastes.”
“If it’s working out with her, why would you need to find another outlet or could it be? Ah! No! Alastor!” Either his facial expressions were getting sloppy or Rosie knew him too well for she seemed to have read his mind. He was inclined to the latter explanation as he too could see through her. Her scandalized gasp and frown didn’t hide the grin that was threatening to split her face. She was enjoying the drama he was about to add.
“Yes, she’s unaware of what she’s been eating.” There was a little bit of guilt that accompanied his answer though there was also a touch of pride. Many times, he’d brushed off the little whispers telling him to treat the girl better and how devastated she would be to learn of what she was happily consuming. Because they were friends . But it was difficult to stop himself come meal time and he hadn’t been caught so far.
“Oh dear, oh dear, oh dear. You’ve certainly been up to something naughty. Does anyone know what you’ve been doing to the poor girl? Just me? Haha! So, are you branching out because she’s no longer enough for you? You can’t fool me, Alastor. You’ve always been a greedy one.”
“No.” Ynna was entertaining him perfectly well. He was just curious. “I’m merely here to see where this goes. You know you’re the only one I can trust with this kind of request.” With a matter of fact tone, he once again pushed the meal to Rosie, hoping for the hellborn to try it.
“Well, I’m not one to turn down a free meal though this doesn’t change our relationship whatsoever.” Manifesting a fork, she smiled slyly at him. Her gloved hand delicately pierced meat and potatoes slowly, as if asking him if he was sure.
“Naturally. I wouldn’t have it any other way.” With a relaxed smile, he urged her once again. “Bon appétit, Madame.”
He observed the lady as she gave him a sort of bemused snort before digging in. As she brought a delicate bite to her mouth, he observed himself, awaiting the explosion of feelings that accompanied such a display. Should have accompanied it.
There were no sparks or explosions erupting in his head. In fact, the neutrality he felt dwindled closer to discomfort and then disgust the longer he watched her eat. Rosie was his closest friend, the only person who could understand his taste for power, violence and flesh. She was the only other person he could think of to offer to but even all his fondness for her couldn’t push away the bile that was coming up his throat.
“Alastor, you look like I scratched your favorite record. I take it the experiment was a failure?” Rosie smirked at him, as if already anticipating this would happen.
“It looks to be the case. Pardon my brashness and thank you for indulging my little request.” He swallowed thickly against the disgust he felt. Taking a sip of coffee, he tried to regain his composure lest he do something uncivil like toppling the table in revulsion. It wasn’t Rosie’s fault he felt this way.
“You’re welcome, darling. For what it’s worth, you were delicious.” Her cheeky comment only made him grimace, much to her amusement. “Why did you need to find somewhere else to let off some steam? Are you afraid she’ll get mad? I’m sure if you tell her, she might even be flattered. I know plenty of cannibettes who would swoon if their man liked, no, loved being eaten.” It seemed he forgot to mention an important bit of information.
“She does not share…our tastes.” Which was really a problem. More and more, he could feel that little guilt he felt for his actions stacking with each friendly smile and gesture Ynna gave him. Her affection for her friends was surprising in its loveliness and he would hate to see her upset after finding out what he was doing. Those eyes that looked at him so sincerely would never be the same.
“She’s not even a cannibal! You’ve really dug yourself into a hole this time my friend.” So surprised by his admission, she slapped the table in an unlady-like manner which was uncharacteristic of her. He had the grace to blush when Rosie pointed out the situation he was in. Her sharp eyes picked it up and mercifully offered her help. “Well how about this, if consent is what you’re looking for, why not bring your little lady friend here. Maybe I can get her into the culture. You know how persuasive I can be.”
Was Ynna’s consent what he was missing? It would assuage the tiny voice of his conscience if he knew he didn’t have to hide what her meals comprised of. On the other hand, the thrill of doing something so devious was a rush in and of itself.
He imagined her, willing and happy to oblige his requests, her eyes sincere in her wish to fulfill him. His breath caught in his chest, static breaking at the image. Oh that would be lovely. It would be a dream. It would be THE dream.
“Anything.” She had whispered.
One single click reverberated in his skull, a revelation descending before him.
What he wanted, what he craved, it was her offering to send him into these torrential feelings of her own volition. That she knew what she was eating, that she knew what she was thanking him for. That she knew and she happily did it for him.
Was it so simple as that? No. Her preferences didn’t lean that way so this was in no way simple but he was certain this was it. Her gratitude without the guilt, her full fondness for his offerings. An explosion set to erupt in his mind, already stitching together the image of Ynna that he was looking for.
“Maybe I can get her to try some of the local dishes. I know a couple farmers and postmen that could do the job. She’ll be feeding on your hand in no time.” The fire in his belly vanished just then, the image of Ynna snacking on some poor wretch of a sinner quelling all desire that had been rising within him. How revolting that image was!
“Haha! Oh your face darling. I haven’t seen you so mad. You don’t like the idea of her eating anyone else? Haha. And you’re sure you aren’t holding a torch for the little lady?” He was glaring at her before she could finish speaking, a viscous anger clawing at his insides and wanting to rip that image she put in his head to shreds. “Clearly, that girl is special to you.”
“It’s all about feeding Rosie. I have no need for her affections.” He all but hissed, distaste (denial) coloring his speech, skin flushed in anger and annoyance (embarrassment) at her ridicule.
“Let me get this straight, Alastor. She’s the only one who can evoke that feeling you enjoy so much. You like her company enough to be her friend. You care about how she’ll feel if she ever found out about the things you’ve been doing to her AND you don’t like the idea of her trying other people.” With a winning smirk, she pushed the lunch box back to him.
“Sounds like you’re in love to me, darling.”
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Ynna’s POV
The past two weeks were probably the best you ever had since death. Those little impulses no longer seemed to be a problem. Your intrusive thoughts remained just that, thoughts that never translated to action. It felt like you could breathe, finally able to look at yourself and feel like you weren’t a freak. The urge to burst into tears followed and you had to take a breath to steady yourself. You were usually very good at forgetting and not thinking about your problem.
Ever since Alastor found out about it and made a deal with you, it was all you could think about. Every thought and action you made, you studied to make sure they were done with intention. And they were. The deal had worked and you only needed to worry about what Alastor wanted for his favor. Once it was done, you could truly start on your journey to redemption.
Walking with a pep to your step, you strolled through the streets of the city with Angel Dust who was walking Fat Nuggets on a leash.
“Geez Yn’s. You’re bouncin’ around like you’re abouta sing the Sound of Music.”
“I can’t help it. I just feel so great. My hair is shiny and my face is clear and today’s just been great so far.”
“Must be great not having any problems.” Angel Dust huffed under his breath. Sensing your companion’s sour mood, you looked up at him with concern. Sour wasn’t the right word to use. The man looked pretty darned upset. His eyes squinted into a glare, looking passed you and at the pavement.
“It’s been great getting to strut around town with my favorite spider and piggy-wiggly.” You tried to lighten his mood, reminding him that part of the reason you were happy was because you could hang out with the usually busy and overworked porn star. It seemed to only make the face he was making worse and you immediately wanted to give him space. “Was I being too much?”
“It’s not that Yn’s. I just got to thinkin’. You seem like the best candidate for this redemption stuff. You’re nice and honest. You’re probably the sweetest little shit I know. I wouldn’t be surprised if Heaven opened up and took ya any day now.” His expression softened before becoming more aloof as if shutting off the feelings he was handling in the moment. “Guess, I’d just miss ya.”
A cold bucket of water rained over your happy mood. It hadn’t ever occurred to you that redemption meant…you wouldn’t see the others again. At least, not until they could get their own redemptions.
Your heart constricted painfully and it felt hard to breathe. There was already a slim chance you could go to Heaven, cleanse all your sins and be freed from Hell. There was an even smaller chance that you would get to go with anyone from the crew.
If you did go to Heaven…Angel, Husk, Charlie, Vaggie, Sir Pent, the Egg bois, Niffty, Al…you wouldn’t ever see them again. The thought broke your heart and shattered the perfect image of Heaven for you to pieces.
“Toots? You okay?” Long spindly arms held your shoulders, jostling you from what you recognized would have been a panic attack. Angel’s mismatched eyes looked at you concerned and it hammered into your skull the idea. You were with people who cared about you. And you would have to leave them all behind eventually.
“I’d miss you too, Angel.” It came out shaky but you covered it up with a hug. “But you’re talking like you haven’t been making progress. Didn’t Charlie just give us a pep talk this morning about what a good job we’re doing?”
“I still got a ways away from being clean, Yn’s.”
“And like Charlie said, you’ve already come a long way from where you were.”
“Having you losers around’s been makin it easier.”
“It does, doesn’t it?” You offered the spider a sad smile, now also understanding how much he relied on your support. It was just like how you relied on your friends to make living in Hell more tolerable. “Why’d you have to say something so sad?”
“I tend to get all sappy when you’re around.” His nose twitched in distaste before regaining his usual posture, strutting down the streets again. Following his lead, you decided not to think about the sad parts of redemption, it was your goal. For yourself. For Charlie.
Forget, forget, forget. You always seemed to just forget everything that made you sad, didn’t you?
Throwing your unhealthy thoughts aside, you focused on having a cute outing with Angel and Fat Nuggets. For not going outside of the hotel much, the pig was perfectly well-behaved on a leash. It walked without too many distractions and heeded Angel’s occasional warnings and commands.
“Is he just smart or did you teach him all that?”
“Nuggs here is just that awesome. Ain’t that right, Nuggsy baby?” Being cooed at brought the demon pig’s attention to both of you, its beady little eyes staring cutely as it grunt an affirmative oink.
“ Awww .”
“Speakin of skin. Looks like your face is done healin’, huh?”
“I know, right. It took way too long.” It had taken a surprising two weeks for the scratches in your face to fully heal. Even though you were a weak sinner, that was still too long. You wondered if it was because Alastor had been the one to make them but it didn’t seem to make sense since your arm had healed fairly quickly. It was a mystery but you were just glad they were gone. You made a note to be careful with facial injuries in the future if they took so long to regenerate.
Humming a random tune, you touched your cheeks again. Feeling the smooth skin was satisfying.
“Hey Ynna. Ya know ya can tell me anything, right?” From his height, he glanced down at you, still walking though a little slower.
“Yeah, of course. Why?” Curiously, you looked up at your companion, a bit of anxiety seeping in. Those words usually meant trouble.
“Your face. I know claw marks when I see ‘em.” Stopping his pace, he reached out a gloved hand to tilt your chin up to look at him. His eyes scanned across your now regenerated skin, remembering the gashes he had seen there. You froze at his scrutiny. “Who did it, toots? Was it Smiles? If the prick’s been botherin ya, we can tell Charlie to get him to back the fuck off.” Aggression lay beneath the concern in his words, making his anger known.
“Why do you think Al did it?” Not bothering to lie to the perceptive man, you instead asked the next best question. You took great care not to be obvious on the day it happened. No one should have noticed.
“There was that day ya looked like ya swallowed a lemon whenever he showed up. Not ta mention how much he’s been hangin around ya since then.” Okay, maybe not enough care then.
“Yeahhhh. I did something that made him really mad, like, he could have killed me kind of mad.” There was no point in lying so you just shrugged and confirmed his suspicions. Immediately, he bristled, anger and indignation burning in his eyes.
“You’re a guest at the hotel! That fucka shouldn’t be layin his hands on ya even if he was pissed!” Towering over you, he cursed, his anger just a little scary but all the more endearing for his concern for you.
“It was a spur of the moment kinda thing and I did sorta deserve it.” With a gentle tone, you tried to calm the spider down. While he was right to be mad, the whole thing was your fault and the spider didn’t know that.
“Then the thing with your arm?” Two sets of hands rubbed comfortingly over both of your arms. He didn’t know which one got injured before but he still wanted to make sure you were okay.
“He apologized for that one.” Reaching for his arms, you gave them a gentle squeeze, trying to reassure your friend that you were alright. “Look, we made up. We’re actually friends now after all of that so it worked out in the end.”
“Yn’s, babe. Not saying ya got shitty tastes in friends after all ya got me, but seriously? Him? The guy’s bad news all around. He’s—“ Gently pulling away from your hold, he dramatically slapped his forehead, disbelief and mocking written on his face.
“A freaky demented psycho. I’m aware. I still like him though.” Without missing a beat, you described Alastor as you’d always seen him. Remembering the nightmare he looked that night, how could you not know how dangerous he was?
“The guy’s a walking red flag!” Four arms flared out as if the grand gesture would get his point across any better.
“Who cooks really yummy food and likes my jokes.” But you remained unphased by his exasperation. Instead, all you felt was a deep affection for this guy who was determined to be a good friend. Once again reaching out, you gathered his four hands into yours, gathering them to your heart.
“I haven’t met that many people when I was alive and after that I liked as much as I like everyone at the hotel, Al included.” A confession like this would’ve had your throat constricted and inflamed with anxiety. But in the face of Angel’s genuine concern, it felt easier to talk. “Everyone’s got their quirks and shit they do and deal with and I honestly don’t mind any of that.” Looking into his wavering eyes, you continued.
“I only care about how you guys treat me and so far, you all have been the best people I could have asked fo-or.” Your voice cracked at the end, emotion finally getting the better of you. It was a blessing to have someone who cared about you like this.
“Ah shit. Who’s saying all that sentimental shit now?” He sniffled once before he put his hand on your head in a not very rough pat, affection clear in the way he smiled at you.
“Hehe.” Blessed happiness. You felt thankful once again for his friendship.
“Oink.” On the ground, Fat Nuggets snorted, looking for both of your attentions. His little pink face scrunched in concern while looking at Angel, to which both of you cooed once more.
The moment over, you started the walk again. There was a new lightness in the atmosphere despite having talked so deeply.
“So…do ya like the guy? I mean, I get the appeal, babe. He’s got that freak in the sheets vibe goin on for him. Not to mention he ain’t that bad to look at.” And of course, Angel would ask that. You almost smirked at him for how predictable he was except you actually had to think about your answer.
“Not like that, I think.” It was weird to think of Alastor in any romantic or intimate context. While he was handsome and charming, he was…too detached from everything? You felt that he didn’t care too much. But it was also this detachment that made your friendship with him so special. You had a particular fondness for the Radio Demon, who’s relationship with you, while not as easy going as with Angel, was still meaningful because it ware rare for the demon.
“What’dya mean, ya think? You’ve dated guys before. Shouldn’t you know if ya like a guy or not?” Oh Angel was really annoyed by your answer. He used two sets of arms to make a dismissive gesture. It was cute.
“Weren’t you just saying he was a red flag?” You decided to tease him by answering with a question which effectively made the spider pout.
“Flamin’ red. Now answer th—“
Honk. Honk.
Chapter 9: Crushed
Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
A flaming red stretch limo barreled down the street, smoothly hitting all unfortunate sinners in its way.
“Shit, we gotta go.” At Angel’s worried urging, you picked up the pace, almost running, hoping to find a shop or corner to turn and hide into. You knew better than to question whenever your friends said to go, especially Angel who didn’t scare quickly.
As if anticipating your move, the limo drove even faster until it reached you, stopping as the back window rolled down.
“Angel Cakes!” An exaggerated saccharine voice called out. You could almost see the exact moment your friend’s face shut down to work mode. It could only mean that the caller was his boss, Valentino.
Dislike roiled in your stomach at the recognition but you kept a neutral if somewhat skeptical expression on your face as you two were forced to stop so Angel could acknowledge the demon.
“Valentino.”
“Nice to see you around town, Love Bug. I see you’re hanging around with some bi—. Oooh you’re cute.” The way he immediately switched from calling you names to being sweet was insulting. Stepping out of the vehicle, his leather shoes hit the pavement with a crunch as he stood to full height. The pimpishly-dressed man was taller than your friend, red eyes hidden behind heart-shaped sunglasses. With suave strides, his two steps easily closed the gap between you, catching the hand you had tried to avoid him with and pulling you closer. “Say Dolly, are you looking for a job?” You resisted the urge to clarify that you were not a sheep, his kissing of your hand making it easier as you cringed in rejection.
Turning to your friend, his slick smile never wavered despite the apparent discomfort you were showing. “Angel darling, why don’t you introduce us?” You tried to free your arm from his grasp but the man’s grip remained firm, freakish strength hidden by his lanky frame.
“This is Ynna. Ynna, this is my boss, Valentino.” With a lot of reluctance, the spider made introductions. His eyes stayed on the hand gripping you, worry evident on his face as he spoke.
“Ynna.” You’d never heard your name sound so disgusting as when the moth purred it like that. “Such an adorable name. Nice to meet you, Guapita. So about that job, a little lamb like you could be a star with that adorable face.” His upper hands cupped your chin as he drew closer, so close you could scent the intoxicating smell of cigarette smoke and cologne wafting from him. It made your head spin.
“Ah. Nice to meet you too, Angel’s boss. No, I’m not looking for a job right now so I’ll decline.” With your most polite voice from a past life of customer service, you tried to keep your head on as you replied. Something about his smell was definitely not right. Alarm bells were ringing in your head just as quickly as each breath you took was turning them off. You turned away from him as much as you could to escape whatever fog was drifting into your mind. He was definitely doing something more than just inappropriately touching you.
“Hey Val, what’d ya stop by for? Were ya lookin for me?” Noticing your plight. Angel was by your side in an instant, trying to distract the pimp from his interest in you.
“Hush Angel. Can’t you see I’m a little busy here?” The taller man hissed before crowding you once more. “Come on now, Bambina. I’ve got just the right spotlight for you.” Multiple hands felt up your back and sides, that smell invading your lungs just as much as its source was invading your space.
“No!” You tried with all your might to push against those creepy hands. Panic rose within you as they teasingly plucked at your shirt in their exploration, claws prickling your skin beneath the fabric.
“Val!” Angel grabbed those invading hands. Something in what he did must’ve triggered the man as you were roughly shoved to the side before he rounded on Angel, venomous drool seeping from his lips as his coat flared out, turning into wings.
“Angel, Angel, Angel. Are you fucking trying to tell me what to do? Did you forget, you’re my bitch! Shut the fuck up and let me do my business.” The sweetness from his voice drained with each word, replaced by a repulsive hiss as he spat abuse at the cowering Angel Dust.
“But Val, she’s not that typ’a girl. And—“ A fist flew at his face so fast that Angel couldn’t avoid it. With a gasp, you watched your tallest friend topple to the ground, eye already swelling from the impact.
“Oh baby, look at what you made me do.” The man went to pick up the fallen spider who dangled helplessly from his abuser’s grip. “Listen to me you sorry ass twink. Don’t you for a second think you can tell me what to do.”
Anger filled you as you watched it unfold. This was bad. This was worse than you ever could have imagined your friend was going through. A fiery pit of hatred began to boil in your stomach, urging you to beat the shit out of the asshole.
“Just because you have a little clout from flashing that shitty hole of yours doesn’t mean you get to talk as if you actually mattered here, got that you sorry sack of shit?” Was this what Angel had to go through under his deal? Valentino pulled his free arm back, this time intending to slap the spider across the face.
You sprang to stop the abuse from happening, rage fueling your actions as you leapt forth. With claws extended, you reached out to pull the tall man away.
Snap!
“What the actual fuck!?” Holding onto the man’s forearm, you froze at the loud sound. Beneath your palm, you could feel the sharp edge poking under the blue exposed skin. With surprising strength, the bone snapped as you jerked it away from your friend, to the surprise of everyone, including you.
You had no time to register what you had just done when an equally brutal hand wrapped around your neck, slamming you into the wall. Cement scraped painfully against your back as the man dragged you up until your feet were too far from the ground.
“Crazy little bitch. What the fuck did you do?” Anger still burning within you, you tried to kick at the man strangling you. Unfortunately, you were unmatched in arms as his extra uninjured limbs subdued your legs easily. “Trying to be a hero for little Angel? Think you’re all that?!” He kicked his knee into your stomach, knocking the wind out of you. Pain erupted from your stomach, the shockwaves traveling through your body with such intensity that you wanted to scream.
“Aww did that hurt? Watch me do it again.” Another kick followed as he laughed. This time, you choked. The little air you had left to cough out had nowhere to go as he clenched his brutal hand tighter around your neck.
“Val stop it please!” Angel’s cries didn’t reach the bloodthirsty man’s ears, too engrossed in the beating he was giving and not actually giving a fuck about what the spider wanted.
“Oh you look so cute crying. That pretty face is gonna make us a lot of money.” The sleazy fucker grinned widely at you, back to his facade of calm. His claws traced the tears dripping down your face from the pain and lack of oxygen. “Come on baby. Cry more for daddy.”
Oh he was so disgusting! In a fit of enraged petulance, you bit his god-damned hand. If he was going to give you the chance, you were gonna hurt him where you could. You bit down in fevered relish, sharpened teeth piercing through leather gloves and drawing blood. You didn’t care if the guy could kill you, you just wanted to make him pay, make him bleed. Channeling all your pain and anger, you didn’t stop even as he tried to jerk away, keeping the meaty part of his palm firmly in your grasp with a stubbornness befitting of your form.
“Feral cunt!” The pressure on your neck tightened even more and you could feel your own blood start to rise up your throat as something burst. The muscles on your neck were screaming. He was going to kill you.
Alastor’s POV
Tea time with Rosie had been…productive so to speak. It had been pleasant all the way until the end. The lady was convinced that he was in love with Ynna and hadn’t let it go, much to his annoyance. He had to cut the meeting early, unwilling to stand her teasing much longer.
Instead of teleporting back to the hotel and being faced with the goat demon, he’d opted for a longer stroll around the city. It gave him time to think while also enjoying the terror his presence raised in the surrounding lowlifes. The cement sidewalks clopped rhythmically beneath his heels as he prowled along the streets.
He’d finally understood what Anything meant. It was Ynna offering to indulge his desires of her own volition. It meant wanting her dedication, her sincerity and her acceptance of his unconventional delights. But did that mean he wanted her love?
Certainly, he could get those things if he secured her loyalty and devotion. She was deeply affectionate with her companions, the type who was always willing to help or support her friends even to her own dismay. If he nursed their current friendship, he would surely be able to ask her to eat him and receive a positive response in the future.
So what else could receiving her love entail? There was Affection, he supposed. But she already gave that freely in the ways she included him in discussions and started jokes just to entertain him.
Intimacy then. In terms of trust, they already bonded quite well. He trusted her enough to share tidbits about his life and felt comfort in her presence. As for physical intimacy…
What could be more intimate than sharing his flesh with her? It was a privilege no one else enjoyed. He was almost certain that her bond with him was enough that he could ask her to share in his new hobby and she would reluctantly agree. She would do it in the name of friendship.
Friendship. She would do anything for her friends…anything. And she had a lot of those…friends. A faint whisper in his ears, shadows trying to guide him where he was too blind to see.
Snap.
The juicy sound of bone breaking cleanly caught his attention. Beside a limousine, Angel Dust was groveling on the floor, one of the Vees ragdolling him. The moth Overlord was screaming profanities and Ynna held the man’s broken arm. She was…
Ynna was a sight to behold. The goat was enraged to the point of releasing her form. Long sharp horns grew and curled from her head, teeth sharpened and poking out of her tight-lipped grimace. Two more eyes opened from where her brows usually lay. Her ears had elongated, looking more goat-like as they poked through her tousled hair. Surrounding the demoness was a faint red glow, a whisper of power that had laid dormant within the goat.
She looked magnificently bloodthirsty…but was immediately subdued.
With back-breaking impact, she was slammed against a wall and strangled by the Overlord she’d hurt. More profanities reached his ears but he was already buzzing with bloodthirst as he heard her strangled cry.
It all happened quickly, the Vee’s gangly hands restraining her and raining abuse on her body as Angel Dust desperately begged for it to stop. Without waiting much longer, he shadowed over to where the commotion was happening, ready to rip the Overlord apart for daring to hurt one of his.
Just as he was to step in, Ynna in her desperate stupidity, bit the hand of the sexual deviant.
Tears of anger and pain cascaded down her face, claws scratching the cement from where her hands were pinned. Blood poured from where her fangs ruthlessly pierced skin, down the corners of her mouth and something broke within him.
WHAT.THE.FUCK!?
Eldritch arms batted the vile shitstain of a demon away before he could think to move. He landed on his car, the impact making a sizable dent against the metal. Anger. Rage. Disgust. Black feelings swirled within him wanting to burst forth and wreak havoc on the filthy wretch, a sharp contrast to his clear mind.
“Alastor!” “The Radio Demon!?” The men exclaimed at his attack. Turning to the most problematic scum, he grinned to his fullest malice.
“I see someone had the audacity to lay their filthy hands on a guest of our hotel.”
“The girl was a guest? Why-why I didn’t know nor did I think you would care so much.” The moth spat out blood, rising up to his full height. “I didn’t think the great Alastor had gone all soft after all this time. Protecting little ladies doesn’t seem like you.”
“My mother said to always treat the fairer kind well. I’m sure you wouldn’t be familiar with that sentiment.” Several eldritch arms sprouted from the ground next to the offensive cretin. Power surged through him and into the air as he commanded them to attack. Dark tentacles aimed to pierce and swat the pest, wanting to see him bleed from more than just his injured hand.
“After all this time, you’d think you Vees would have enough of a brain between the three of you to know better than to pick fights you can’t win.” The pesky moth dodged nimbly despite his tall figure. From the folds of his suit, the man pulled out guns, aiming for his body. With a whisper to the shadows, tendrils of darkness engulfed the weapons rendering them useless. “Well it’s not like little scum like you would ever be able to control yourselves.”
Static screeched in horrific frequency, the filter on his voice morphing as he let more of his power loose. The surroundings grew darker as several shadows began to engulf the space in response to his bloodlust. The other Overlord was trying to say something as he dove into his vehicle for cover. He was uninterested in listening. He only wanted to send a message.
“The next time you harm one of our guests needlessly, I’ll make sure to put an end to your show.” The limousine’s engines roared to life and sped away but not before he crushed the rear window with one last swing of a tentacle. Cowardly as ever, pathetic sniveling swine.
“Yn’s? Ynna!? Bitch wake up!” Retracting all his power back into his body, he turned to the screaming spider. Cradled on his lap, bruised and bloodied, Ynna lay motionless. The spider looked close to losing his mind, hands hovering over the unresponsive girl, unsure what to do.
With calm steps, he approached them, eyes focused on her the whole time. Her hair was disheveled, blood and tears marring her face. With two fingers, he gingerly felt for a pulse on her bruised neck and received a pained groan in response. She was alive, albeit just barely. A knot he hadn’t even known was there untangled within his chest. He didn’t even realize that he had been expecting the worst and was relieved to be wrong.
“How are you doing dear? That was stupid fighting an Overloard with just your power.”
“…h..urt..s” The girl’s eyes didn’t even open as she responded, breathing labored as she choked on the blood pooling in her throat, her and that bastard’s. Irritation like never before grew within him.
“Thank fuck you’re okay, Yn’s…I’m so sorry I got you caught up in that.” Angel Dust cried as he spoke, arms maneuvering to try to lift her up. More irritation filled him at his useless sniveling. He moved to stop the spider, taking the injured girl from his grasp with quick yet careful movements. With a manifested handkerchief, he gently wiped the unsightly blood from her face. If he could have washed her mouth, he would have, unable to stand the image of her biting the moth even in defense of herself.
“Even with a lack of attack options, you should still be mindful about what goes in your mouth, Ynna.” A pained groan was all he got in response, her breathing slowing as tension left her body. Her fragile body sunk into his embrace, seeking comfort and protection. Even in this broken state, she looked adorable. There was an urge to lick away her tears and replace them with ones of his own making.
“We should return to the hotel and get you cleaned up.” With one arm supporting her head and the other under her knees, he waited for Angel Dust to gather himself and his pig before calling the shadows to bring them back, materializing in the lobby of the hotel.
He was careful to make the travel quick and easy though all three of his passengers still looked queasy from the unfamiliar magic.
“Alastor? OH MY GOSH!” It must’ve made quite a sight, a spider with a black eye and Ynna curled up in his arms barely holding on to consciousness. The princess rushed to his side, eyes frantically scanning the most injured member of their party. “What happened?” She whispered in disbelief.
“We can talk specifics after getting Ynna cleaned up.” He had a feeling that waiting too long would end up with the girl dying as she waited to get treated. The others immediately took in the two injured guests, leaving him with an odd sense of unease as she was taken away.
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Ynna’s room was rather plain with its green walls and rather barren interior. There was the usual furniture every room had, a bed, desk, dresser and bookshelf. A few pictures of Ynna with everyone were pinned to a cork board by the desk, even a blurry one of himself and her that he was kind enough to allow from their hiking trip. On the desk was a small radio, the one she probably used to listen to his broadcast. There was an assortment of potted plants by the window.
He carried the unconscious girl further in, noting how reflective the room was of its owner. Simple with a focus of caring for others. Perhaps the only unexpected feature of the room was her bed. Several lush pillows and comfortable knitted blankets were neatly arranged on it like a small mountain against the headboard. He even spotted a couple of velvet pillows in the mix. It brought to mind a conversation from earlier, easing a bit of the tension he held in his smile.
Bringing the light body to the bed. Shadows pushed away the excess bedding, creating a little nest for him to place her on. He peeled back the throw, duvet and blanket to lay her down. Somewhere between being treated and being brought up to her room, Ynna had succumbed to a much needed recovery sleep.
The damage had been worse than they’d thought. Broken ribs, bruising on her limbs, burning scratches on her back and a crushed windpipe. He could only think that it was by pure stubbornness alone that she’d managed to stay alive. Truly an adorably resilient goat.
Charlie stepped into the room and took a place on the opposite side of the bed, pale hands smoothing the blanket over Ynna’s form. “Thanks for stepping in to save them.”
“It was fortunate that I was passing by, else, things may not have ended with just this.” Just. That Ynna was still alive and not sent to respawn was indeed fortunate…for the moth. The irritation had still not ebbed, whispers in his ears telling him to rip off the arms that Ynna had damaged on the moth, especially the one she had bitten.
“I’ll have a talk with Valentino, Al.”
“Are you sure you don’t need me to accompany you?”
“Yes. We can’t involve the hotel in a war between Overlords so let me handle it.” There was something admirable in Charlie’s dedication to preserving her hotel’s peace, though he himself found that same dedication an annoyance. His eyes narrowed to let Charlie know just that. The princess got the message but remained firm.
“Suit yourself.” Reigning in his bloodthirst, he let the princess have her way only because she had primary decision-making in matters involving the hotel.
“ *phew* We should let Ynna rest.” It appeared the princess wasn’t fully convinced that he wouldn’t push to get his way. Rather than feel amusement at her relief, it only fanned the irritation that simmered in his gut.
—--
Static buzzed about him as he lay in his bed. Whenever he closed his eyes, the image of Ynna, feral in rage, fighting tooth and nail against an Overlord, played beneath his eyelids, plaguing him in unresolved irritation. She truly was special, as Rosie had said, to be able to leave him this wired and unable to sleep not just once but twice now.
If only he hadn’t agreed with Charlie to stay put for the sake of the hotel. He tugged on his nightshirt, the scratching of the fabric giving him something to take out this frustration on. What even was the source of this frustration? That he wasn’t free to throttle the Vee as he pleased? That Ynna had been hurt right in front of him? Yes, certainly both were incredibly irritating things but what truly kept him up was having his mind replay the exact moment she sank her teeth into the man.
The scratch of static filled the air as the same revulsion and anger from earlier engulfed him. Not only was he subjected to the possibility of Ynna consuming another at his meeting with Rosie but he had also been witness to it in reality. No rationalizing that it was done in self-defense could quell the ever growing void in him. It felt like something had been stolen from him and he had no avenue to fix it. He wouldn’t even be able to feed her anything until she woke up from her coma.
The sound of tearing caught his attention. His claws had punctured through his abused nightshirt, only adding to his irritation.
He needed to wait. Just until she woke up again. But who knew how long that would take given how weak she was. With a growl, he got up and put on his slippers. He could at least check her condition and estimate when she would wake. With that plan in mind, he shadowed to her bedside, eyes glowing in the darkness of her room.
Ynna lay unmoved from where they had left her hours ago. Her breathing, slow and shallow, looked almost imperceptible as he studied her. With her pale face and bruised neck, she looked no better than a corpse, unaware of how he was brimming with emotions because of her.
His eyes immediately went to her mouth, soft breaths puffing from slightly parted lips, the source of his frustration. It was envy, the name of that frustration. He envied the unworthy scoundrel who got to experience her aggression first hand. The last thing she had tasted was the blood of another demon and it angered him to no end.
Static buzzed around him causing the lights to flicker on and off. A bedlam of clicking resounded in his mind, thoughts centered in irrational envy. He longed to change it.
Eyes reddened in fury, she latched onto the hand in her mouth. Knowing it was the only damage she could deal to the Overlord, she stubbornly clung on, teeth aching to rend and tear through the man who abused her friend. Those teary eyes focused a determined gaze onto the other man, wanting to cause hurt, wanting to cause pain, wanting to rip muscle from bone and devour it just to spite him before he could kill her.
He didn’t want to remember it.
He needed to change it.
In a fit of madness, he climbed onto her bed, straddling the sleeping body. Despite looking like a corpse, she was warm to the touch, her heat fueling the cacophonic haze he was currently under. With his eyes on those parted lips, he cut open his palm with a claw, not even registering the sting of it as he moved to open that blessed mouth.
Carefully he maneuvered her jaw, slotting his bleeding palm into the gap between her teeth. With just enough pressure not to bruise, he pushed her mouth closed over his bleeding appendage, the sting of her blunt teeth against the fresh cut sending lightning through his body. As his blood overflowed from her lips staining her pillow and neck, satisfaction coursed through him. His heart thudded loudly in his chest, heat rising to his face as he overrode the memory of her biting someone else with this image.
Shivers climbed from the small of his back to the tips of his ears, his breathing just as shaken as it passed. His eyes focused on every detail, carving this image into his mind until he was sure to see this whenever he closed them. It was his hand in her mouth, his presence looming over her. If her eyes had been open, it would be his image they reflected.
Drunk on the visage before him, he pushed her jaw even more. The sweet pain as her teeth dug in crumpled any illusions he might have had about finding another to indulge his twisted desire for how could this perfect explosion of feelings exist anywhere else? He felt Desire in all senses of the word and he relished it.
Letting go, he slumped down beside her, exhausted from the rollercoaster of feelings he had just gone through. He felt blissfully weak as he watched her lips be stained with his blood.
“Sounds like you’re in love to me, darling.”
A woman’s intuition was a frightful thing.
The clicking in his head stopped as he came to accept that Rosie had been right. There was no one else that could make him feel this high and he would allow no else to ever feel this way from her. He moved closer to her until he could rest his head on her shoulder, relishing her warmth as the last vestiges of excitement left him.
One breath, two. The faint scent of blood still lingered from her mouth. A lazy grin split his face. Another breath and then he let go.
With a wave of magic, he cleaned up the messes he’d made on her and himself until they looked pristine once more. Calm and sane once again, a wave of guilt engulfed him at what he’d done. This crossed even his own twisted moral boundaries. No matter. If she would be his, then he had an eternal afterlife to make it up to her. He would start once she woke up.
He stared into space as he lay next to her, head empty of all things, silent except for the small rhythmic breaths of his unaware victim beckoning him to sweet slumber. But he’d already crossed too many lines this evening. Frighteningly too many.
Belatedly, he remembered why he came here in the first place. Concentrating on his power, he let the energy wash over her, trying to feel her own. Her soul remained strong within the body though the power it emitted was weak, pulsing a faint green against his red. She wouldn’t wake soon with such weak energies to repair the damage she’d endured today.
That was what he thought, until he felt wisps of another energy mingling faintly with hers. It was darker and more powerful.
It was his.
Faint tendrils of his power emitted from her body and it bolstered her own until it was used up completely to fix the damage.
Come to think of it, when she’d broken the Vee’s arm, her energy had been red and strong enough to hurt a much more powerful demon than she. The current aura of her soul wouldn’t have been able to summon that much power, not without a significant sacrifice, so the only explanation would be that it was his that she used. His power…that she’d acquired from his feedings.
Now that was interesting.
Notes:
This chapter was so hard to write.
Let me know what y'all think of this chapter in comments.
Chapter 10: Mic Test
Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
Your body felt stiff and your throat hurt as you regained consciousness. You remembered the burning sensation in your lungs as Valentino squeezed the life out of you before Alastor came to the rescue. Even now, you could still taste the metallic tang of blood in your mouth from trying to rip his hand to shreds, a dull ache in your jaw from your teeth being rattled. The pain was worth it though, as it distracted the Overlord from further harming Angel.
With the view of a familiar ceiling and the scratch of your knitted blankets, it became apparent that you were in your room. Your last memory was falling asleep as Alastor carried you back, the electric thrumming from his chest lulling you to unconsciousness with his steady rocking gait.
Sitting up was surprisingly not painful. You were sure you’d felt a couple of ribs break under Valentino’s onslaught, the shock of it causing you to bite down even harder on the shitty moth. Lifting up your shirt, black, green and brown splotches littered your abdomen, tender to the touch but they weren’t painful when you moved. With a gentle press, you traced your rib cage to check that everything was indeed healed.
Two knocks came from the door.
“C— *cough cough* come in.” Putting your shirt back down, you tried to gently massage your throat. It hurt to talk, something like a crack threatening to rip open when you vocalized.
The door opened with a loud bang, revealing Alastor, much to your surprise. It was usually Charlie or Vaggie that came to check on you in the mornings. Though today was a special case as you just woke up from a coma, the Radio Demon was still the last person you expected to check on you. And it was so soon after you woke up. How could he have known you were awake?
“Ynna! It’s so good to see you up, my dear. How are your injuries?” The dapper man stepped into the room in a chipper mood, seemingly genuine in his excitement to see you. The quiet atmosphere from just seconds ago was completely overpowered by his presence at the door. Taking note of his exuberance, you made an ‘okay’ gesture with your hand as you tried to gauge just how painful it would be to speak.
“I—I’m okay.” It came out in a whisper, the loudest you could go without feeling pain. The ears atop the demon’s head twitched to face your general direction, trying to catch what little could be heard. Huh. You didn’t know they could move.
“What was that, doll?”
You gestured for the man to come closer until he was at your bedside. With his long legs, he towered over you such that you had to uncomfortably crane your neck to make eye contact. You gestured again for him to come down to your level, the height difference still too far to properly carry your small voice. Even bending down like this, his posture remained impeccable with his legs straight and back slightly bent at his waist.
“I’m okay. Throat hurts too much to talk louder than this.” His red-furred ears twitched cutely as you whispered to him. There was an itch in your fingers to touch them. They looked like they would be soft. Or what if they were mostly fluff? Just tiny little triangles with thick gravity-defying fur.
The temptation was taken away from you when Alastor stood back up to full height. Thankfully, he didn’t catch your staring, his eyes too busy scanning over you.
“Do you mind?” Raising his hand to your view, he asked for permission to check the state of your neck. The surprisingly attentive gesture was very unexpected from him. He usually just touched people without permission or told them what he was about to do. It was a little bewildering that he asked but you nodded your head in affirmative anyway. You tried not to flinch as cold knuckles gently brushed against your throat followed by the pads of his fingertips. Did he just retract his claws?
“There’s definitely still some light bruising but much better than 3 days ago.” There was a small satisfied smile on his face making his sharp features look kind, a disturbing contrast from his usual mischievous expression. This nice and attentive Alastor was starting to have you question if the suffocation caused any brain damage.
“You should have seen it then. One would’ve thought you’d gone the way that deer we had the other evening by how badly it swelled.” Ah. There was that mean grin. No brain damage then. He must’ve really been worried if he cared enough to be respectful, even if only for a short while. That was kinda sweet coming from him. Still though…
You gave him an unamused look, already used to his casual remarks about you killing that deer despite you telling him that you didn’t appreciate it. The man only smiled wider, enjoying your annoyance.
“How long have I been out?”
“About 4 days.” That…actually wasn’t very long. Given the damage Valentino did, it should’ve taken at least a couple of weeks, if not a whole month, for you to wake up and recover. “Are you feeling up to come down for breakfast or should we bring in room service?”
At the mention of food, your stomach grumbled, a sound Alastor no doubt heard from how close he was to you. With a small chuckle at your own comedic timing, you nodded your head. “I’ll head down in a few minutes.”
“Alright. I’ll see you in a little bit then, my dear.” Alastor left the room just as quickly as he had come, sending your space back to its familiar comforting peace.
It was a little difficult to get out of bed, not just because it was blessedly warm and comfortable but because it was physically challenging. Someone arranged your many pillows into a low wall around your body and on your legs. Your numerous blankets were tucked around you as if individually placed there rather than being used as one thick sheet. You had to wonder who thought it was necessary to swaddle you in your beddings like this. It was impossible to move without knocking anything onto the floor. For a second, you were tempted to stay in the warm nest but your stomach howled to be fed.
After wrestling your way out of your sheets, you noticed a neatly arranged display of “Get Well Soon” cards on your desk, familiar doodles and handwriting decorating the paper exteriors. Warmth bloomed in your heart at your friends’ well wishes and care. When was the last time you’d received a gift from anyone but family? Was it a little after graduation?
With a quick rinse in the shower, you freshened up and changed clothes. A quick body check in front of the mirror confirmed your earlier observations; you’d somehow managed to heal the worst of your wounds in only a few days. You wondered if Charlie had a hand in it, maybe some healing ability from her angelic lineage that you didn’t know about. Maybe you’d ask her later.
Stepping out the door you were greeted by a surprise again. Alastor stood in the hallway, perking up as you left your room. Was he waiting for you? Before you could ask if he needed something, he saddled up to your side, elbow extended out for you to take.
“Let me escort you to the dining room, dear.”
“Oh. Thanks.” It was strange to be offered an escort like this. It wasn’t a common occurrence during your time alive and since this was Alastor, you weren’t exactly sure how to take the offered arm. Do you loop your whole arm around it? Just your hand? You were still calculating the appropriate amount of contact when his hand took one of your own and secured it around the crook of his arm, stepping a little closer to make sure that he was actually supporting you.
“Shall we?” With a clack of his heel against the hallway tile, he started walking, almost dragging you along with those first steps but he quickly adjusted. Even though his legs were longer, he kept a comfortable stride that you could keep up with. On the occasion when your still stiff body had trouble walking, his arm remained steady to guide you, his expression patient even when you leaned into his side with the occasional stumble, the crack of his static the only sign that it may have made him uncomfortable.
He even played some of his radio music as you walked the slower pace to the dining room. It was incredibly sweet of him and so uncharacteristic. While he played the part of a gentleman, he wasn’t particularly chivalrous. You wondered what his reason for the gallant behavior was but refrained from asking. He looked too much in a good mood for you to spoil and you were enjoying the attention even if it was curious.
As you entered the dining room, everyone’s eyes turned to you. It looked like everyone came to breakfast today.
“ Ynna! ” With a chorus of happy cries, your friends made to get up and greet you. Niffty was the first to get you, climbing up your body like a roach until she could dangle from your shoulders, arms just a little too short to fully circle around you. “You’re alive!”
“Hey guys.” With a rough scratchy whisper, you greeted them. With Niffty’s weight around your shoulders, the tenderness of your torso became more apparent, pain starting to bloom in different areas of your body. You moved your arms to try to carry her but before you could hold the little goblin, she was lifted away.
“Now now we must be careful. Ynna’s neck and throat are still in bad condition.” Like chastising a cat, Alastor held the tiny demon by her scruff before setting her down to the ground. The cheers died down immediately, concern coloring the faces of your friends.
“Are you okay? Shouldn’t you be resting some more?” Charlie approached, gentle hand hovering close to where she could now clearly see the yellow hues around your neck.
“I’m fine. Wanted to see you guys anyway.” Her wide doe eyes crinkled slightly at your whispered answer, worry painting her face as her hand lightly held your shoulder.
“Well come sit. It’s a free-for-all today. Do you want cereal? Toast?” The princess guided you to your usual seat beside Angel. The spider had a slightly strained smile on his face as he looked at you, a bit of fear and a lot of guilt shining in those eyes that roamed over your body, focusing on your neck.
“Hey toots.” The greeting lacked the spunk he usually spoke with even as he tried to smile as normal. His face was healed, no traces black eyes or swollen cheeks to be seen though he looked tired and a little haunted as he regarded you.
“Hey.” The distress on his face struck a chord in you, realizing that he must have been as worried about you as you were about him. Pulling the seated man into a hug, you patted gentle circles on his thin back. “I’m so glad you’re okay.” You whispered softly to him. Those spindly arms of his returned the hug loosely, too afraid of hurting you to actually touch you but it was alright. You squeezed him just a little tighter to let him know that.
“Thanks to you, toots. I’m glad you’re okay too.” He whispered back before gently pushing you away. “So what’ya want to eat? I’ll make it for ya.” The smile on his face was back, the reddening of his eyes hidden by the slight flush on his face as he stood up.
“Ooh Chef Angel Dust?”
“Don’t be expecting too much though. I can make, like, a poptart or something.” For all his swagger, he threw out his disclaimer quickly, not really one to actually cook. Still, it was nice that he offered, some of that strain in his gaze easing as you talked.
“Oatmeal?” Something warm and easy to swallow sounded heavenly for your aching throat.
“Ya got it, babe.” Winking as he left, you waved hi to everyone else as you sat down. Since they were too far away to hear your small voice, you could only mouth a greeting or nod back but it still seemed to make them happy.
A mug was carefully placed in front of you, hot coffee freshly poured from the carafe still in Alastor’s hand. “Cream or sugar?” The hum of his static was a bit loud.
“Cream, please.” You thanked the man, slowly digesting his extra thoughtful care of you this morning. It was almost too much coming from the Radio Demon. Almost. It was hard to deny that you felt touched by the attention.
He sat down at the head of the table, his new official seat, with his own cup of coffee and a newspaper. Your eyes widened as you processed what was on the front page. Said newspaper’s headline was about a fire happening in the Vees station yesterday, a certain princess seen tearfully leaving the scene with a furious Valentino in front of the cameras.
“!”
Turning to Charlie, you waved your arms wanting to ask about the headline. However, trying to get Charlie’s attention over the chatter and clatter of breakfast proved difficult, your voice too soft to reach down the long table. Luckily, Alastor noticed your burning (hah!) question. The demon put down the newspaper watching you gesture to the front page and seeming to get the gist of what you were trying to ask. You tried mouthing the words too but he seemed unimpressed by your effort.
“This is going to be a problem for a while, isn’t it? Here. Try using this, darling.” Instead of answering or speaking for you, the demon snapped his fingers and summoned his microphone/staff, the apparatus landing softly on your lap. Curiously picking it up, the cool metal felt heavy and solid despite how easily Alastor usually swung it around. You sent him a questioning look to which he only encouraged you to speak.
“Charlie?” You whispered into the mic. Your voice, through the same filter Alastor used, carried across the room, halting everyone in surprise.
“See, we can hear you much better now.”
“Thanks.”
“Aww that’s so nice of you, Alastor. What is it, Ynna?” Charlie was thrilled to see the Radio Demon being so kind, only for her smiley face to freeze and blush with embarrassment as you pointed to the paper Alastor held up again.
“Please tell me that was intentional.” Given that she was crying in the photo, it probably wasn’t the case but she was also unscathed so that had to mean she got away with it. Grinning sheepishly (goatishly), a vindictive rush flowed through you. The idea of Charlie barging in there and wreaking havoc on Valentino was an exciting one for you.
The princess groaned into her palms looking equal parts embarrassed and guilty. “That was an accident. And Angel even got in trouble for that.” Your amusement was cut short at the mention of Angel getting in trouble. While you were sure no Overlord could touch Charlie, the Princess of Hell, it was definitely a different situation for Angel, Valentino’s employee.
You sighed in both worry and internal consternation. A heavy feeling gripped your chest as you thought about the man who attacked you. Maybe this was what it felt like to hate someone. Whatever negativity you’d held for anyone or anything in your (after)life paled in comparison to what you felt for Valentino after meeting him. Even just seeing his face on the paper had a black pit forming in your stomach wanting to bite his smug-looking ugly mug. For once, you were alright with the violent thoughts running through your head. Violence begets violence, after all. It was a good thing you made that deal.
“Oh hey. That made the papers?” A bowl of runny oatmeal was placed in front of you (it had a smiley face made of raisins) as Angel leaned over to scan the paper in Al’s hands. To your relief, the spider looked unbothered by what he saw on paper.
“Ohhhh I’m still so sorry about all that Angel.” The princess looked teary as she spoke to the spider who looked at her softly, a little fond and awkward as he sat down.
“Like I said, it’s okay, Charlie. I get it. Thanks for going there to have my back.”
“Oh.” The princess squeaked as she dabbed some stray tears from her eyes.
“What did I miss?” Turning your question to Angel, you hoped to get some backstory for what happened but the spider was distracted by the mic in your hands instead.
“Woah. That’s neat. Can I try?” His grubby little hands went for the mic and you had to stop him from grabbing the shiny new toy. Though you did understand. Hearing yourself talk with the radio voice was a pretty cool experience.
“Ask Al.”
“Hey Smiles, can I play with your music stick? Wanna see how loud it can get me.” You snorted at the terribly flirty line. If you weren’t between the two, he might have actually tried to invade the Radio Demon’s space, as per usual.
“No.” Said Radio Demon looked very unamused. With a snap of his fingers, the mic disappeared with a pop.
“Aww boooo.”
Alastor’s POV
He had been in the middle of stabbing a fork into fresh venison, hunted just this morning, when his shadow reported his goat’s waking. Finally. Saving the carcass for later, he speedily made his way to her room.
Standing outside her door, he felt rather giddy at the thought of seeing her. He hadn’t set foot in her room nor seen so much as a hair of hers since he left her bed that eventful evening.
After that night, he had to put a personal restraint on himself against further intruding upon Ynna. There was a bit of apprehension on what bounds he would be tempted to cross if he continued to watch over her in her sleep.
And what boundaries did he want to cross now that she occupied his attention? The revelation of where his desires pointed to and how potently they affected him were heavy things to consider. He had thought this to be a bit of fun that he could revel in for a little while, surely not forever and not with only one person. Now, he had to consider what his future would look like and how she fit into it.
How could he keep her by his side? He could trick her into selling him her soul. It would be the easiest way. But it would risk turning her into a bitter sad being like Husker. No, he much preferred her when she wasn’t moping.
He tried to picture them as lovers but the image felt completely wrong. He had no desire to engage in the sappy romances most braindead denizens spoke so highly of. He hardly thought Ynna would appreciate any half-hearted attempts at flattery either. If he was to put up a facade, he would need to stick to the one that came naturally. Pretending to be a hopeless romantic was unideal and would invite only trouble, especially when there was still the risk of his prior activities becoming known by her to worry about.
The best way would be to become the most valuable person in her life, so much so that she would stay beside him happily. No need to engage in superficial acts of courtship when he could just take advantage of their friendship.
That in mind, anticipation bubbled in him as his shadows reported back. He may have opened her door with a bit too much enthusiasm if the way she winced at his entrance was any indication. But he was too preoccupied by the buzzing in his chest at finally laying eyes on his little goat. Judging from her pained attempts at speaking, she wasn’t fully healed.
She beckoned him closer, thinking that he wasn’t able to hear her tiny voice. Oh, he would have approached her regardless but something about being invited into her space was satisfying in its own way. Getting close enough that only a few inches separated their faces, he lent her his ear.
His fingers clenched tightly behind his back to hold against the shivers that ran down his spine as her airy voice brushed against him. The faint traces of his blood still lingered on her stale breath, an observation that had him grinning in pride. He wondered to what extent she was able to heal with how much he had fed her. He wondered if he could convince her to take more.
As he moved away to properly study her condition, he noticed her unfocused gaze. What impulse could she have just held back on? He was almost sorry that he gave her control of it. What chaos would have ensued between them if she had acted on it?
With her permission, he touched the delicate skin of her neck. Yellow and brown splotches decorated the column of her throat in the faint shape of the pimp’s hand, bringing unwanted images in his mind that he chased away with the feeling of soft warm skin beneath his fingertips. Aside from her throat, all major damages were healed, leaving only bruises in their wake.
It was impressive how much power she was able to accumulate with just the few bits of flesh he’d fed her. He had been feeling a little guilty for the schadenfreude but now there was no need. His actions had spared her the slow and painful process of respawning. Satisfaction pooled in his gut at that fact, boosting the buzzing he felt in his chest.
When they talked about food, it was all he could do to not break out into an overzealous grin, already looking forward to feeding her again. Oh how he had missed it. He hadn’t prepared today but he could whip something up quickly. Maybe something sweet to celebrate her recovery. Maybe a little blood in jam or ketchup would go unnoticed. Nothing too crazy. Ideas ran through his mind, filling him with an enthusiasm that he hadn’t felt in days.
He almost couldn’t wait for her to emerge from her room. With a bit of impatience, he took her by the arm only to have to slow down once the weakness in her body became apparent. Such a pathetically weak form. At least he didn’t find the prolonged contact with her uncomfortable; it was even calming at times.
The cheerful atmosphere when they arrived was to be expected. A somber cloud had clung to their little group over the last few days due to worry for their goat comrade. It was quite a show watching Charlie try to calm down both Niffty and Vaggie from extorting vengeance on their dear’s behalf all the while Angel Dust seethed and cowered in his corner. He even expected the little emotional moment between the spider and his goat. What he didn’t expect was Angel Dust to offer to prepare breakfast for her before he could.
For a moment, his shadow wanted to scream and lunge at the spider. Just half a second. He was able to reign his disappointment and annoyance in before anyone could notice. He couldn’t even slip anything into her coffee as she opted to load her cup with copious amounts of cream. What a morning this was turning out to be.
Ynna’s POV
After breakfast, Alastor gave you his mic again saying that he trusted you not to lose or damage the thing before disappearing off to wherever he usually went to for work.
“Wait, are you sure?” You were equal parts dreading and excited to be trusted with something so important to the man. He was doing you such a huge favor by letting you borrow his mic to talk to properly.
“Sure. Just don’t get too amped up, dear.” A giggle made its way out your lips when you realized what he’d just said. With a quick pat to your head and a hum to his step, he was gone.
You might have squealed if doing so wouldn’t further damage your still sore vocal chords. You wanted to pump your fists in the air for having acquired the Radio Demon’s microphone. What an honor.
With nothing to do around the hotel after Charlie specifically told you not to do any chores until you were done healing, you decided to just explore and hopefully find someone to hang out with. Picking a random direction, you skipped down the hallway feeling happy. Though you still felt weak and random pains would go through you, your mood wasn’t dampened in the slightest.
The microphone’s weight rested comfortably in your hands, a bit of static feedback emitting from it as you walked. It was perfectly balanced and long enough that you…wanted to twirl the thing around. The impulsive thought reared its enticing head and you actually wanted to go through with it. Glancing to the left and right, up and down the hall, you guaranteed that there was no one.
Grabbing the end of the mic, you cautiously swung the staff in a circle. At the glorious swing of the pendulum-like motion, you grabbed the middle of the staff to twist it around like a baton. First slowly and then more sure as you got used to the weight. Ah, this was so much fun. You were giggling madly to yourself at the end of it, impulse happily satisfied.
No wonder Alastor always had it out. You felt fancy just having the thing leaning on your shoulder. You tried to picture the ways Alastor held it. Sometimes he leaned on it like a cane, a stern older gentleman kind of vibe emitting from him. You tried to imitate the pose, giggling as you twirled a non-existent mustache. So fancy.
“Hahaha.”
You tried to imitate the way he walked sometimes, arms behind his back, posture straight and eyes looking ahead half-lidded. You even curled your lips the same way he did, amused and looking for some misery to inflict upon an unsuspecting soul. Your steps walking down the hallway felt prowlier as you walked like the Radio Demon. It sent you into soundless gasping laughs that had you leaning on a window sill for support. It was a good thing Alastor couldn’t see you.
“What the fuck? Ynna? Wait, is that Alastor’s mic?” Husk rounded the corner just in time to watch you flex your claws with a high-brow smirk like you’d seen Alastor do. Heat immediately rushed up your face at having been caught in your full goofiness but the twitching of Husk’s whiskers as he tried not to laugh at you gave you an idea.
Fixing a non-existent bow tie on your neck, you strode over to the baffled cat, stopping a respectable distance away. Bringing the mic closer to your face, you extended a hand, posture straight and slightly bent at the waist.
“It’s Ynnalastor, dear Husker. Pleasure to meet you. Quite a pleasure!” Static cracked with your filtered voice as you dropped one of Alastor’s signature greetings. You may have botched the accent but the wheezing laughter of the cat was worth the embarrassment you felt beneath your ‘wicked’ grin. “I say my good cat, it’s a fine day to find some entertainment around here. Ah, let’s put on some jazz while I not so silently judge your taste in music.”
“Holy shit, kid. That’s good. Haha. That was good.” Wiping a tear from his eye, the cat regarded you with a mildly exasperated expression, a few chuckles still trapped in his smile. “So he’s letting you keep the thing?”
“Yeah. Just until I can talk normally again.”
“You doin anything today, kid?”
“Not a thing. Can I hang out with you?”
“Sure. Come on.” With an easy smile, the cat led you back to his bar. The swaying of his long tail was mildly distracting. You felt like a cat yourself, wanting to swat it.
“Want anything to drink?” Sitting on the bar stool, you watched him move around the counter, wings fluttering as he walked. Standing behind the bar, the cat started preparing glasses.
“Something that won’t hurt my throat?” You weren’t sure if there would be one but weren’t going to complain if you were served something non-alcoholic.
“Got just the thing.” You watched the cat work. In fluid motions, he set some water to boil, set out some lemon wedges and a clean glass. Pouring the boiling water onto the glass, he let it sit as he fished out a jar of honey and a bottle of bourbon. With practiced movements, he disposed of the water having only wanted to heat the glass before adding bourbon, honey and a lemon wedge into the cup. From a high angle, he poured hot water into the mix, stopping just close to almost filling the glass. He mixed until the honey was dissolved into the amber liquid and garnished it with a cinnamon stick. “Viola.”
“Thanks, Husk.” Carefully placing the mic on the counter, you pulled the hot cocktail to you. Taking a whiff of the steam, the comforting smell of cinnamon and lemon were the first things you noticed before being surrounded by the vanilla sweet scent of bourbon. With a small sip so as not to burn yourself, the warm liquid soothed the burning in your throat just a bit. “Yummy.”
“Can’t believe you’re picking up day drinking.” The cat teased as he poured himself a drink, just the bourdon for him.
“Only when I’m on vacation.” You sipped the drink slowly, savoring the warmth and sweetness it brought. “Ah. That feels good. My throat’s been killing me.” His dark eyes squinted at you.
“You coulda been killed, kid. You were practically half-dead when they brought you back. You’re lucky Alastor got there just in time.” The grumpy cat took a sip of his own drink. “But you did good, kid. Angel told us what happened. Taking on an Overlord? Gotta say, it was stupid but I’m impressed. Can’t say I wouldn't have done the same thing if I was there.”
“If you were there, you coulda beaten the creep up some more. He was so gross.” You grimaced. The memory of those hands and that scent of his made you shiver in utter revulsion and spite. You didn’t think you’d ever hate anybody but Valentino…Valentino would probably be the first. “Glad I got to see Al send him running before I passed out.”
“Speaking of Alastor, seems you weren’t kidding when you said you were friends.” A white claw pointed to the innocently laying staff. “Don’t think I’ve ever seen him let other people hold that thing.”
“I’m surprised too but he’s been pretty nice since the hiking trip in general.” Since the incident, you felt comfortable around the demon. There was just something about the way he treated you that shifted, particularly after making the deal. At first, you chalked it up to your own attitude towards him, trusting him more and not feeling as much fear in his presence. But then, he also changed slightly. What was it…?
Consideration, that was the word. There were times where he showed you consideration when he used to only do as he pleased. Like this morning, asking for permission to touch your neck or when you were moping in the kitchen and he didn’t immediately throw you out even as you irritated him for at least half an hour before that. He sometimes even asked what you would like to eat when making dinner plans. They were small things that your other friends would have done for you but coming from Alastor, those small things mattered because they were rare.
And of things that mattered, you contemplated Husk. You’d heard him mention before that the Radio Demon owned his soul. You wondered…
“Hey Husk, are you okay with me being friends with Al? I know you two don’t have a good relationship because of your deal and all.” A soul shackled at the whims of someone with power and low morality. Even you who only owed Al one favor felt the weight of dread for whenever and whatever he would ask of you. What more for someone stuck in that cycle forever? “Did he…has he ever made you do something terrible?”
“My relationship with the guy is my problem, kid. I can’t tell ya who to be friends with.” There was a harshness to his tone, the years of resentment for the Radio Demon wearing on him. Taking another sip of his bourbon, he let out a loud sigh. “For the other stuff…it’s not like he’s told me to do things I haven’t done before. I was an Overlord once, you know?” He finished his drink and poured himself another immediately. Looks like the conversation was driving him to drink more or maybe that was just his alcoholism. Probably both, you thought sadly. “Just don’t like not having a choice in it.”
“Listen, don’t worry about how I’m feeling. So long as he’s treating ya alright, I don’t see a problem. Just…watch yourself. He’s ‘nice’ to women but not that much nicer.”
“Yeah…” You remembered how terrified you were of the Radio Demon in the beginning. How he made a deal with you the moment he found an opening. The man was one who only looked out for himself, you reminded yourself. It was sad to think about but you had to temper your fondness for the dapper demon. Shouldn’t expect too much from him.
Alastor’s POV
“I’m cutting you off there. I know you’re a lightweight and you don’t need to be stumbling around when you’re still recovering.”
“Booo. Haha. Got any games we can play?”
Standing in the joint office with his business partners, he listened in on the conversation Husker and Ynna were having.
He wasn’t sure if he should be pleased that Ynna was clever enough to be cautious of him still or irritated by it. She certainly shouldn’t need to consider Husker’s opinion of their relationship.
By leaving his microphone with her, he could hear the sounds it picked up, including the conversations she was having. While he had offered her use of it purely because she seemed so pitiful in her inability to speak louder, it didn’t mean he wouldn’t take advantage of the perks that came with it.
When he focused, he could hear her as if she were standing next to him, whispering into his ears as she had this morning. The memory of her airy voice still sent shivers up his spine. A new delightful thing from his goat to add to the other fun things about her.
“I was thinking we could add a meditation room or maybe a pool. After what happened to Angel and Ynna, we should add something therapeutic, don’t you think?”
“What was that?” Returning his attention back to Charlie, she and Vaggie were suggesting improvements for the hotel. On the princess’s desk were some crudely drawn plans to expand the amenities for their facility. The one she was pointing to had stick figures of Angel Dust and Ynna dancing around a blue swirl of a swimming pool under a rainbow.
“A pool or a meditation room or maybe an exercise room. Just something for everyone to get stress out of their systems.” As she spoke, she pulled out more drawings from the pile, spreading the colorful mess all over her desk.
“That’s what the bar is for. Alcohol is always a good distraction from all of one’s problems.”
“Getting shit-faced drunk isn’t the image the hotel is going for. We want sinners to let go of their vices, not cling to them when something traumatizing happens.” From beside Charlie, the moth looked at him with her usual annoyed stare. She probably saw through his attempt at not having to work on this project, much to his amusement.
“Vaggie’s right. If we have healthy recreational activities available, it will encourage better behavior!” Unfortunately, there was no dissuading Charlie. Not that he actually expected it given how enthusiastic the blonde was.
“I, for one, think it’s a bad idea. First, our current staff won’t be able to handle taking charge of a pool responsibly. We would need to hire a lifeguard just to make sure no one drowns. Then there's the time it would take to construct the thing.” He pointed out some logistical issues he thought of. Each one of his points seemed to deflate the princess who thought through his answer. While the cogs were ticking in her mind, it would be the perfect time to suggest something else.
“If it’s about letting our current guests de-stress, then I suggest we throw a party.”
“A party?”
“Yes. A little music and alcohol of reasonable quantities would certainly be fun for everyone. Not to mention you could use the occasion as an advertisement for the hotel.”
“That actually sounds like a good idea.” Vaggie was actually pleased by something he suggested. He idly wondered if hellfire would start to freeze over any time soon.
“If we’re going to throw a party…” Charlie picked up a pen and paper, scribbling down ideas and making her checklists while Vaggie peered over her shoulder.
“It’s going to suck having to wait until my throat heals. It’s gonna take forever.”
Ynna’s soft voice cut through his mind like a passing breeze. Seeing as Charlie was busily making plans and suggestions without needing his input, he tuned back into his microphone. It was more idle conversation between the two, nothing so interesting aside from just listening to the girl speak.
The goat’s complaint gave him a frightening (tempting) idea but it would be risky. His static cracked a bit, just silent enough that only he noticed.
Notes:
This chapter was originally shorter with just reader's POV but then, I really like writing in Al's POV.
Also, who's gonna tell Alastor that you don't necessarily have to be romantic to be lovers?
Like always, please let me know what you think in the comments :3
Chapter 11: Toeing the Line
Notes:
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Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
“I’m beginning to think you actually missed me, Al.” You were once again arm in arm with the Radio Demon as he walked you back to your room after dinner. You tried to decline his offer since you were feeling alright to move but he had insisted. Now, it was just the two of you in the quiet hallway, listening to whatever cheerful tune he was playing.
“Hmmm. One does get accustomed to their routines.” It warmed your heart to hear that your absence was noticed, especially from the most unlikely of your friends to ever mention it. The demon strolled serenely down the hall, walking in step with you the whole time. The easy air about him was contagious, the soothing atmosphere beckoning sleep just around the corner.
Your relatively relaxed day ended with a dinner of cream of chicken soup and fresh baked bread. It was Charlie’s idea, keeping in mind that you were still injured so a light meal would be best. As everyone consumed the joint efforts of Alastor and Charlie (apparently, the Radio Demon didn’t bake), they also announced an event they wanted to host in a week’s time, a party!
“I’m so excited for the party. I haven’t been to one in years. And that was before I died.” Even with the mic still in your hand, your voice sounded softer, more tired as you got closer to your destination. “I heard it was your idea.”
“Oh I can’t take all the credit. Charlie was the one who wanted to do something to alleviate the stress you may be under after your unfortunate encounter with Hell’s scum.”
“That’s really sweet of y’all.” As you stopped by your door, letting go of his arm, you handed back his mic feeling a little sad to see your new toy go. “Thanks.”
“Only too happy to help, my dear. Actually, I wanted to give you something.” From the inner pocket of his coat, he produced a brown medicine bottle, no bigger than the palm of your hand. You accepted the bottle with curiosity. It was unlabeled but full of runny liquid. “I’ve concocted this little potion. Drinking this should help heal you the rest of the way. It will take overnight so you should drink it before going to sleep.”
“Really?” You were excited by the thought of getting better sooner. The sore throat kept reminding you of how vile Valentino was and the sooner you got better, the sooner you could forget. Not to mention Angel’s eyes kept roaming to your neck whenever you saw each other. It hurt to see him hurt whenever he saw the bruises.
“Thanks.” You immediately uncapped the bottle, taking a small sniff at the contents before downing the contents. It tasted like cough syrup, artificial cherry and sugars trying to mask the bitterness. It had a curious little bit of tang to it, like electricity sparking on your tongue. “Was this…magic?”
“Yes…” There was a curious pause from your companion. Looking up at him, his static popped and his smile wobbled.
“Something wrong, Al?” Whatever thoughts were running through his head stopped as he cleared his throat before speaking to you again.
“I’m surprised to see you just go for it. Didn’t think to ask what was in that bottle first?” You froze when he asked that because his expression turned to a strange mix of equally uncomfortable, amused and cruel. His pupils contracted to little dots as his grin stretched in a strained manner. Based on his question, the cruelty you sensed was probably because you did something stupid. In hindsight, drinking an unlabeled bottle from Alastor was probably…stupid.
“I’m going to regret asking, aren’t I?” His mouth closed, regarding you seriously before answering an awkwardly hopeful “Maybe.”
You swallowed in trepidation, the aftertaste of artificial cherry following you the whole way. “What…was in it?”
“I noticed after your spat with the Vees, you healed a lot faster than you normally would. That kind of damage doesn’t just go away easily for someone with your weak demonic constitution.” Oh no. He had to explain. If he had to explain, it meant it was something bad. “When I checked on you a few days ago, you had a strange energy about you and it was actually speeding up your recovery. I figured out what it was after doing some inspection.”
“Okay…?” The suspense was killing you.
“It was blood. You may have ingested some of the Vees’ blood. The power in whatever you ingested boosted your own.” Oh no. Oh no. OHNOOHNOOHNO. You breathed heavily through your nose as you caught up with what he was implying. His red eyes stared directly into yours as he answered your unvoiced question. “I mixed some of my blood and magic into that cough syrup to boost its healing properties, for you.”
Frozen on the spot staring at nothing, you tried to process everything. Biting Valentino ended up being a good thing because it helped you heal from his beating? You can get stronger by drinking the blood of other demons? You raised your eyes up to meet Alastor’s again. He looked serious with a thin smile on his face, waiting for your reaction.
“You…gave me your blood to help me heal faster?”
“Yes.”
A mix of horror and disgust filled you as you looked between the bottle and the demon in front of you.
“You couldn’t have told me before I chugged it?!” You meant to sound incredulous. It was a rhetorical question. Instead, your voice came out shrill and accusatory and louder than was appropriate for your throat at the moment. It hurt but you were too stupefied by what just happened to care.
“Well, I wasn’t expecting you to just down it in one go before I could even explain what it was. Didn’t I warn you before about being careful with what you put in your mouth?”
“That was when I bit an Overlord that almost killed me! *cough cough cough* ” You held your throat, pained from overstraining it. The metallic tang in your mouth signaled that you’d reopened whatever internal wound had yet to fully heal. In disgust, you tried to erase the taste from your mouth, swallowing whatever saliva you could to push it all back down. But even that hurt to do.
Alastor reached behind you, rubbing soothing circles on your back as you tried and failed to stop your throat from seizing. There was a faint click behind you. A firm hand guided you into your room and to the bathroom sink. Without needing to be prompted, you drank from the faucet, the cool water almost choking you as you greedily gulped it down.
“That’s it, dear. Wash it all down. Don’t forget to breathe.” Beside you, Alastor gently cooed, his hands still working to soothe and calm you as you finally stopped coughing. Turning the faucet off and wiping your mouth with your sleeve, you turned to the demon only to find him still thin smiled and patiently waiting for you to recover from your outburst. His hands gently squeezed your shoulders, a sensation that was both comforting and discomfiting as you thought about the unholy medicine you just drank.
“How can you be so nonchalant about this? Didn’t you freak out when I ate your velvet last time?” His ears twitched atop his head, honing in on your even softer whisper. Even this volume scratched at your vocal chords in irritation but you pushed through, needing to understand what the hell this man was thinking in giving you a blood potion.
“Oh that was more irritation at being eaten without permission. You have to understand, dear. The moment took me by surprise. It was a first for me and a massive invasion of my person.” His features morphed sharper as he recalled how he felt at the time. His power flared and static crackled for a moment, reminding you of the terror you felt during and the day after that event.
“Sorry.” On reflex, you apologized. The simple word brought him back to a more calm state.
“Oh none of that, dear. We’ve already reconciled. Come.” His arm circled around your shoulders, providing support as he brought you to sit on your bed. “It’s a different situation when I decide it’s acceptable for you to partake and I’ve decided that I can spare a few drops of blood for your sake.”
“But why? I would’ve been fine in like…a week, probably.” A wince crinkled your face as you finished that sentence causing the man beside you to cluck his tongue.
“Look at the state of you, dear.” Those clawed hands brushed against your neck, his eyes narrowing in that way that meant he was irritated. His static still crackled softly in the background, harsh in their little screeches but further emphasizing the demon’s displeasure. “Bruised. Weak. In pain. The marks of that vermin are still on you. I thought you would appreciate a shortcut to getting better even if you found the solution a bit unsavory.”
“It’s because it was too savory that I’m bothered by it.” The thought of having your friend’s blood in your stomach made you feel nauseous. Did this count as an act of cannibalism? Did he offer it to you knowing that it could count against your redemption path? Probably. Not that he ever cared to see any of you get redeemed. You turned to look at him directly, into his sharp red eyes. “This is like…cannibalism, right? Dark magic? I’m honestly so grossed out. Why aren’t you?”
“I believe the answers lie in your own question, darling.” With a shrug of his shoulders, a mocking smile adorned his face as if questioning why you even bothered to ask. Now that the shock had dissipated some, annoyance and irritation took its place. The demon was right, of course. While giving you his blood was weird as fuck to do, this was Alastor. He was a demon with weird magic AND a cannibal AND a murderer. Shedding blood was easy for him. It was stupidly easy for him.
But shedding his own blood? To do something nice? Of course you could see your creepy as fuck friend doing something incredibly horrific. That was par for the course with the Radio Demon. It was the hurting himself to be nice part that was sending you into a tizzy, confusion and irritation bubbling in your chest as you looked at his unapologetic face.
Breathe in. Out.
You don’t remember ever seeing him harm himself or even get hurt, ever. He was just too powerful. So this was…an act of care? A sick twisted act of care that strangely fit the man. Or was it a way for him to hit two birds with one stone? To be nice but also knock you down from the ladder of Heavenly Ascension. It was probably both, knowing him and it piled onto your irritation a bit more.
“Are you really that bothered that you drank my blood?” The tall demon was honestly starting to look a bit concerned at your silence. Worried? It was a little hard to tell when he firmly kept a smile on his face.
“I’m thinking about it. Wait for a bit.” Whatever he was feeling, you didn’t really care at the moment. You focused on making a good decision. What was a good decision here? Blow up at him? Yell and scream and retch in a corner just to spite him? No. As upset as you were for consuming something so ungodly, you knew better than to start a fight just because it would feel good in the moment. So what could you do? What was the end result you wanted?
He did something gross but…could you be okay with it? You really looked deep into your own feelings. Beneath all the bodily disgust and anger, a part of you recounted…his nightmarish visage, anxiety and terror, joy at his fondness for you, peaceful moments spent listening to him playing a tune. Two weeks of peace and his coming to save you from the brink of death. Would you give all that up because of a blood potion? No, that was stupid.
Looking into those red eyes, the chatterbox of a pushy man was actually waiting in silence. Patiently. The pop rocks crackling of his static was the only indication that he wasn’t as calm as he seemed.
In his own twisted way, he was showing he cared. And that was…amazing. Having people care about you was important, the most important thing to you after entering a miserable afterlife where everyone had been out to swindle, rape or kill you from day one.
You thought about what would have happened had you known what it was. It was a kind gesture from him so you would have reluctantly accepted it. You probably wouldn’t drink it…unless you really had to. There were too many dangers in Hell for you not to take advantage of a quick healing solution despite the bodily disgust you felt at the idea of ingesting blood.
“Listen, Alastor. Thanks for thinking of me. I appreciate that you care about my health. But this was extreme. You shouldn’t hurt yourself to help me, Alastor. I also feel really grossed out thinking about drinking someone’s blood. It was bad enough when I bit Valentino.” Your stomach threatened to heave when you thought about the coppery tang in your mouth this morning.
“Of course, I’d care, darling. It’s not everyday I find someone worthy of being my friend. But I do understand where you are coming from so I apologize for offering you something you find so vile.” He looked almost sweet, so fucking sweet that you were starting to feel bad for getting angry. “I wanted to offer you some assistance. Being in pain doesn’t suit you, my dear.”
And that was such a kicker, wasn’t it? In the last few weeks, you two had gotten closer but you never would’ve guessed that he cared this deeply for you. Never really thought that his friendship extended beyond jokes and polite company. What friend cuts themselves up for you to get better when they could have just waited a week to get the same results? Alastor, apparently. You added ‘crazy’ to the list of words used to describe him.
“But you didn’t give me a vial. It was a bottle. ”
“Hah! Good one.” You personally thought it really wasn’t but at least it got him to laugh for a bit. That thin smile grew a tad wider, less serious and more friendly. “Now, while I’m a strong proponent of smiling as a way to mask discomfort, I would much rather you be honest with me about how you’re feeling, Ynna. It’s one of your most charming traits, after all.” His response stunned you. You tried to put a stop to the conversation by joking but he hadn’t taken the out. Didn’t that mean he was actually sincerely apologizing? The show of serious consideration for your feelings made your heart pound and your already sore throat constrict. You were touched.
“Thanks for the apology and for not being offended that I called it gross, Alastor. I really do appreciate that you care. You had to hurt yourself for this and I can’t be mad when I think about that.” Getting a grip on yourself you approached him first, to show that you meant what you said. You handed the empty bottle back to him, placing it into his palm when he went to receive it. “What’s done is done. I’m uncomfortable thinking about it so I’d like to not think about it anymore and just focus on hopefully feeling better tomorrow. Is that alright? Or did you…want to keep talking about it?”
A gloved palm slowly went to your head, first approaching eye-level before going up, giving you plenty of time to step back if it was unwelcome. The hand gently patted your head, something the elder people in your family used to do to show affection to the children. Your heart twinged at the warm touch.
“You’re far too kind, darling. You should just be focusing on yourself as the offended party.” You wanted to contradict him. That wasn’t how you treated people that mattered. “But I know that’s just how you are. Another charm point of yours. I have nothing further to say but if you ever feel the need to complain about this in the future…I’ll entertain the topic just once more.”
“Wow. That makes you sound like a jerk.” His pompous way of speaking got an exasperated smile out of you.
“Well I’m not as nice as you, dear.”
“Fine. Fine. You’re right.” With both hands, you gently removed his hand from your head, watching as it disappeared behind his back. “Good night, Alastor. And thanks for the potion. It’s a weird gift but thanks.”
“Sweet dreams, Ynna.” The man said with a small smile before going on his way.
Alastor’s POV
He appeared in his room as soon as Ynna’s door closed. Leaning against the nearest wall for support, he ran both clawed hands down his face, finally able to release all the tension he held from the confrontation.
“Ha.”
“Haha.”
Electricity charged the room, sparks flying from him as he slumped against the wall. What a dizzying turn of events!
He handed her the potion with the intention of letting her know what it was. See if she would give in to the temptation of a quick recovery even if it meant consuming blood. She didn’t even have to take it. He had only wanted to introduce the idea to her, let it sit in the back of her mind as a possibility. But the stupid woman went off script.
“She drank the whole bottle. Haha. Didn’t even hesitate.” Despite her words of wariness to Husker, she showed complete trust in him that just…did not make any sense. Why did she insist on leaving herself so vulnerable to him? Tracing a finger over the bottle’s rim, it was dry now but the way it had touched her lips still remained in his mind. How unguarded her eyes were as she drank his blood and magic.
A violent shiver raced down his back at the imagery. It was a good thing that he had been able to recover himself instead of getting lost in the way she licked her lips after draining the bottle. Else he would have missed his chance to let her know all the important details.
He made a gamble and he won. Even after knowing what was in the medicine she drank, even after the visceral revulsion she displayed, his goat ultimately did not reject him.
The thrumming in his chest that had started the moment she’d leaned against him after coughing up a storm intensified as he recalled her reactions.
So many emotions flashed through her various expressions. Shock, disgust, dismay, uncertainty. And her eyes! Revulsion and wariness danced in their infernal depths as she regarded him after her shock. He’d gotten goosebumps as her pupils turned to vertical slits when they looked at him, watching for any twitch or sign that would sway her mind one way or the other. His breath caught at their intensity, a mix of anxiety and anticipation curling in his gut as he waited for her judgment to come down.
Would she yell and scream at him for giving her something so unholy? Would she break off from him? Would she cry and break down? Had he made a misstep too early? Of course not. His goat has never disappointed him yet (only threw fun curveballs at him from time to time). In typical Ynna-fashion, she forgave him.
“You shouldn’t hurt yourself to help me, Alastor.” She said, showing that sincerity and care of hers though her eyes remained slitted and displeased. How fascinating to see the meek and soft woman look so predatory.
When he thought that maybe she would shut him out again just as she had when they made that deal, she instead forgave him for tripping her delicate sensibilities. What a resilient mind his little demon had. Or maybe it was just pure stubbornness, unwilling to change her mind about having a harmful companion by her side.
He wanted to know what more she had to say. The flint and steel in her gaze created the most fascinating view. Even when they warmed, the stern determination in them did not falter while his own self-control was being swallowed by their depths. Oh the things this woman made him feel.
“You had to hurt yourself for this and I can’t be mad when I think about that.”
How he’d wanted to reassure her that he relished it as he dug the knife into his palms, relished how his blood and power flowed obediently to his whims. How he imagined the little bottle sitting tauntingly at her bedside. How many times she would look at his gift and think about whether to use it or not. How she might have imagined the sickly sweet concoction touching her lips and running down her throat, just as he had. There was only desire and anticipation in every step he took.
He watched the moment it clicked in her mind just how depraved his actions could be, would continue to be, if she remained within his circle. Yet the woman remained steadfast in her commitment to their relationship. She was too lovely. Too nice. Too willing to forgive. And now he knew he could push her to do more.
Pushing himself off the wall, he made his way to his table. Stripping off his overcoat and shirt along the way, he neatly hung the clothes onto the chair back. The knife he’d used to stab himself for the potion glinted cleanly atop the table. Picking it up, he ran his finger over the sharp edge, contemplating. What part should he carve out to fill her belly? Belly…bacon, maybe?
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Chapter 12: No Hesitation
Notes:
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Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
You were able to sleep after brushing your teeth several times and gargling until you finished all your mouthwash. Like before, when the nausea and disgust got too much, you tried to force yourself to throw up but it didn’t work. By the end of it all, you were just tired enough to sleep, finding comfort in your little mountain of blankets and pillows.
Despite all the stress of last evening, you woke up bright and early and feeling superbly refreshed. The moment you realized this, you sprang out of bed and ran to the bathroom mirror. The smooth expanse of unblemished skin and your healed throat were evidence that drinking…that…worked. You were back to full health. And it only cost you a bit of your sanity.
“Well. That’s that, I guess.” With one slow exhale, you told yourself to let it go and actually felt those misgivings leave this time. It worked. It was done. No use crying over another mark against your redemption. And Alastor, well…you had one more person who sincerely cared about you. That had to be good.
After getting ready, you made your way to the kitchen. As usual, Alastor was already bustling about making food. Bacon and eggs were sizzling in multiple griddles. You paused at the door in thought. Seeing him did not bring up any negative emotions which bothered you …because no matter what you said about forgiving and letting go, being able to actually let go should have been harder. It was a blood potion! His blood! Yet here you were, completely over it and hungry for breakfast. You should’ve at least been a little nauseous after last night!
You were just a little disappointed with yourself for not being able to hold a grudge.
“Good Morning, darling. Glad to see you looking much better today.” As if all the seriousness from last night hadn’t happened, Alastor greeted you with his usual sing-song manner, smile just a little sly as he saw the lack of bruising around your neck. He was wearing a ‘Kiss The Cook’ apron, with ‘Kiss’ roughly scrawled out with a thick red marker.
“Yeah. It worked. Thanks.”
He returned your uncertain greeting with a flourish of a spatula and a monotone “Hmm.” that roughly translated to: ‘Of course, I was right.’ With the spatula in his hand and a content grin on his face, he managed to look both dorky and elegant as he flipped the eggs for an over easy cook. Your uncertainty vanished with his happy humming.
Grabbing a stack of plates and silverware, you left them at the end of the dining table for everyone to grab when they came in. Surprisingly, the first to arrive were Husk and Angel, both looking hungover and dead tired as they slumped in their seats.
“What the hell happened to you two?”
“Bad night at work. Thought we’d drink it off.” Angel’s upper hands rubbed at his eyes, likely feeling a migraine while his bottom ones supported him against the table. Husk wasn’t much better, using his wings to block out the light.
“Wanna sleep it off?” Quietly asking from beside Angel, you noted the little tufts and flattened areas in his fur, little remnants from whatever work he had last night. You bit your tongue against the sour feelings that arose when you thought of what he must’ve gone through, damning Valentino to deeper pits of Hell in your head. You should’ve bitten the shitface’s whole hand off.
At least Husk was there to commiserate with the spider.
“I need grub.” Angel groaned out. Across from him, Husk lifted a finger to ask for food as well.
“You got it.” Marching back into the kitchen, you found some paper plates and sandwich wrappers.
“Hey, Al. I’m gonna go make some sandwiches for Angel and Husk. Just gonna grab what you made. Is that okay?” Your hand hovered over a stack of toast, waiting for the okay from the chef.
“Go ahead, my dear. But what more’s gone wrong with that duo?” With a raised eyebrow, he plated the first batch of bacon and eggs, kindly placing them near where you started to assemble breakfast sandwiches.
“Hangover.” Stacking an egg and a couple slices of bacon on toast, it looked too sad for a hangover sandwich. You needed some condiments. Walking over to the refrigerator, you grabbed mayonnaise and some sliced cheese too, turning around just in time to see Alastor about to squirt a myterious bottle of something over your sandwiches. “Ah ah ah!” Like shooing a naughty cat, you stomped over to the man who wore a mischievous smile even though he got caught.
“I was just thinking to spice things up a bit. I heard it’s actually good after a night of heavy drinking.” The man was holding a bottle of hot sauce.
“If you mess with my sandwiches, you’re gonna be toast.” You protectively blocked the unfinished sandwiches from Alastor’s evil looking bottle with a hellfire label. He just laughed, threatening to put the sauce on your work with his superior height and armspan as you heroically tried to block him. Good thing you had his aversion to touch to your advantage, having Alastor unconsciously dodge your ‘attacks’ to his person.
“Tsk.” After a few seconds of this comical dance, Alastor finally gave up, looking mildly annoyed that he couldn’t cause chaos. When he stepped away, you finally completed your stacks of toast, egg, bacon, cheese and mayo with more bacon.
The curious little bottle of hot sauce was left on the table, innocently inviting your curiosity with its bright label and shiny exterior. You gave into temptation. Putting a little dab of it on your finger, you taste-tested it to see how bad it could be. Maybe it was something Angel and Husk would actually like. At first it tasted bitter and gradually got hotter and hotter. It was so hot that your sinuses instantly cleared but wow. When Alastor wasn’t looking, you added a couple of drops in the sandwiches. He was right. It was good. In small amounts.
Wrapping up the meals in smiley-face printed wax paper, you also grabbed a couple of napkins before heading back to the dining room. You gave the sad-looking duo their sandwiches and told them to go to bed. They looked ready to pass out but gratefully groaned as they slugged away.
The rest of breakfast was only mildly interesting. Charlie practically threw you around and spun you after seeing you were healed. Niffty, with her freakish strength, actually tried to throw you when she saw Charlie doing it. Luckily, Vaggie and Sir Pent stopped her. Alastor sipped on his coffee chuckling as it all happened. The Egg Bois ate eggs…
After cleaning up, you sat in the lobby wondering what to do today. It was still the middle of the week so it wasn’t time to clean the rooms yet. As you lay there pondering, the trio of Vaggie, Charlie and Alastor came wandering in. They were talking about party preparations which sounded like something to do.
“Hey guys, did you need help with prepping for the party? I’m pretty free right now.”
“Vaggie and I are going out to get decorations and send out invites. You can come with us if you want.” Glancing between the two girls, you immediately wanted to decline. You didn’t want to intrude between them if it was a date-while-doing-chores kind of outing.
“I’ll be heading out to recruit some entertainers for the event. You’re welcome to join me.” Now that sounded fun and wouldn’t involve you third-wheeling all day.
“I’ll go with Al.”
Alastor’s POV
“Uhhh…is this a bar? A club?” Ynna looked at the flashing neon lights of the Stardust Lounge with wonder. Her eyes wandered from one clientele to another, observing the varying fashions of the club’s patrons.
“A little club owned by a friend of mine.” The bouncer quaked as he saw exactly who was darkening the business’s door, a fact he always relished whenever he visited. Poor sap still hasn’t gotten used to him despite his long ongoing patronage of this establishment.
He gestured for the little lady to enter first, as a gentleman should, and watched her facial expressions as she was bombarded by the loud music within. The live band played upbeat music, the trumpet player taking charge of the stage. Several girls with short beaded dresses danced behind them, the feathers in their hair fluttering as they stepped to the beat.
With a little bit of focus, he could hear the quickening beating of Ynna’s heart as her eyes took in the sights, flashing lights illuminating the sparkles in her eyes. She was the picture of the same wonder and excitement he felt the first time he’d entered the scene in his adolescent years. Within a few moments, she gathered herself and turned those sparkling eyes to him, asking where to go from here.
He pointed to the bar, the more perceptive demons already clearing the space when they saw him. As they each took a seat, the bartender approached them. “Let Mimzy know that Alastor is here to see her, would you?”
The stoic barkeep only nodded before passing along his message to the backstage crew.
Ynna remained quiet, taking everything in with a small smile and wide eyes. It might have been the first time he’d ever seen her little ears twitching.
“Never been to a joint like this, doll?” The wide-eyed glance she spared him was answer enough but he did find amusement in the little blush that dusted her face as she answered.
“No. Not like this one, at least.” Her eyes glazed over, another impulsive thought running through her head before they snapped back to focus. With a little giggle, she pushed herself until the seat swirled on its stand, one little circle displaying her excitement. “This is so much more…” Her hands gestured, not able to grasp the right words to describe everything yet still perfectly conveying her amazement all the same.
“I like it.” She grinned at him as she said so.
“Glad to see you enjoying yourself. So many new sinners lack good taste these days.” He watched her in curiosity. There was not an ounce of the hesitation and grief she held for him last night. There had been a moment when they first met this morning when she’d been a tad silent. He thought that she would finally renounce him but here she was, happily walking around town with him. Truly a little darling fool.
“Alastor! Sweetie! How ya been, doll face? Coming to visit little old me?” The familiar rich trill of his old friend called from the end of the bar behind Ynna. The plump woman walked with little steps, the beads on her dress swinging and sparkling under the lights. He stood to greet her, arms open already expecting the hug she would give him.
“There you are sweetheart. Been doing fine, I see?”
“Oh a little of the same, you know how it is. What about you? Heard you were shacking up in that dingy hotel the princess is running. How’s that workin out for ya?” Her rouged lips quirked snidely at the mention of the hotel, hands on her hips as she teased him for his ‘generous’ contributions to it.
“Oh that’s why we’re here actually.” Turning his friend’s attention to the goat she had conveniently ignored, he made introductions between the two women. “Allow me to introduce Ynna, a guest of the hotel and a new friend of mine. Ynna, may I introduce the charming and spectacular Mimzy.”
“Oh Alastor! Flattery will get you everywhere. Haha. Nice to meet you sweetheart.” The singer shook Ynna’s outstretched hand yet gave no chance for the girl to talk at all, bringing awkwardness to his companion’s smile. “Rare to see ol’ Alastor here bringing a fresh face around. Oh where are my manners? CARL! Get these two a drink, why don’t cha?!” With fluid steps, she took a seat at his other side, yelling at the barkeep to hurry up and serve them.
“So what business have you got for me?” He regarded her fondly, even in his presence, she moved them along to her rhythm.
“The hotel is about to throw a little shindig and we’re here to invite you to headline the show.” With a flick of his wrist, an invitation card was produced and handed over. “There’ll be food and drinks and you can bring the music and the dancing. Sound like a good time?”
“Oh I don’t know Alastor, pulling off a big show on short notice isn’t my thing. Just kidding! Of course I’ll do it. You think I’ll pass up a chance to spotlight on stage? Besides, knowing you, you’ll throw one helluva party.”
“I knew I could count on you, ol’ girl.”
“Hey, watch it! Never discuss a lady’s age, didn’t your mother ever teach you that?” His brow twitched at the mention of his mother, something Ynna must’ve caught as she jumped in right away, stirring the conversation to her side.
“Wow. You two must be really close. It’s nice to meet you, Ms. Mimzy.” It was rather smoothly done, the quick glance she’d sent him being the only clue he had that distraction was her actual intention. How sweet of her, trying to keep things nice and peaceful. Unnecessary but sweet.
“Oh we go way back. Used to run in the same circles back when we were alive. He’s the only man I know who can pound whiskey like a sailor and still keep up with me on the dance floor.” Ynna’s eyes watched Mimzy in curiosity, looking genuinely interested in that bit of old history. Of course, she didn’t get much more than that.
“Speaking of. My number’s almost on. Watch a little bit, sweet cheeks. Take it as a little preview of the party.” The whirlwind of a woman left them just as quickly as she had arrived, blowing them kisses as she sashayed to the stage.
“Well, she really knows how to fill up a room.” He had only seen that expression on Ynna’s face a few times before, awkward wonder and slightly overwhelmed. She looked like that the first few days after she moved to the hotel, the staff and guests a new kind of pandemonium she had yet to experience at the time.
“Mimzy is quite a character, isn’t she? Used to be on the silver screen once upon a time.” If he remembered correctly, a few starlets and hopefuls had disappeared for it under mysterious circumstances. He took a sip of his drink, the bitter burn of whiskey delightful on his tongue.
They watched the performance in silence, admiring the pizzazz his friend added to the stage, confetti raining upon her as she moved. A dancing song came on, bodies moving to the dance floor to swing with the music. He heard a faint catch of breath. A glance at his companion showed that same sparkle in her eyes as when they planned their hiking excursion.
He smiled wider into his glass of whiskey. It had been a fantastic idea to invite her to join him today. It seemed she was having even more fun than he was at one of his favorite haunts.
A rhythmic tapping caught his attention this time. Glancing down, he spied her feet doing small taps and sweeps. Her eyes remained glued to the dance floor, eyeing one couple in particular as they glided across the floor in a foxtrot. Was she trying to mimic their steps? Perhaps the little darling wanted to dance. Well, he would certainly be more than happy to accommodate her, already feeling an itch to move along with the music himself.
“Wanna dance, dear?” He stood up, hand out to invite the restless her into the crowd. Instead of the enthusiastic affirmative he was expecting, she instead regarded him with confusion, a little of that sparkle dimming as their eyes met.
“Huh? You’re inviting me to dance?”
“Yes, I believe I just did.” A prickle of discontent sparked within him when he thought she would decline. Maybe he was incorrect and she didn’t feel quite as comfortable with him anymore. The thought chilled his enthusiasm a bit, already thinking of ways to win back any affection he’d lost from her. However, her small hand lightly touched his palm, not quite taking his offer just yet.
“I don’t know this dance. I think I got it though. Hope you don’t mind teaching me.” Ah. She was giving him the chance to rescind in case he found her inexperience inconvenient. How delightfully thoughtful of her.
“Not at all. Come on. Who better to show you how it’s done than one of the best?” Taking her hand in his, he guided her to the dance floor. With just a small flare of his power, he opened a big enough space that they could dance freely without bumping into other bodies. Guiding her smaller form, he placed her hands on his shoulders, his at her back and drew her closer.
There was tension in her posture, a mix of nervousness and caution against overly touching him. Her mindfulness was cute but he wouldn’t have offered it if he had minded the contact in the first place. He pushed her into his chest, her eyes snapping up to his, checking how he felt.
“Follow my lead, darling.” It seemed she understood that she had nothing to worry about. Stepping away to a more reasonable distance, she focused on his footwork, allowing him to guide her.
She must’ve had some experience in dancing or perhaps she was rhythmically talented as she matched his slowed steps quickly. In just a few moves, she was dancing like she’d known the song all her life. Her eyes sparkled proudly as she kept pace with him, their glimmer soft and pleased. So naturally, he went faster.
“Ah! Al!”
“Keep up, darling. I know you can do it.” A small flush covered her cheeks, determination evident in her eyes. Hiccuping, she concentrated, unwilling to just give up as he upped the tempo. And for a bit, she was able to keep up with him, her body moving in sync to the music, following his queues well, although a little clumsily.
Knowing that she had met his challenge, the cheeky woman had the audacity to grin at him. As if her small achievement (already impressive by normal standards) was something worthy of his praise. Excitement thrummed in his chest as she confidently skipped and stepped to the music. Since she seemed so comfortable with the movement, he might as well take this to an advanced level. With his hand between her shoulder blades, he practically carried her across the dance floor, her feet dragging when she couldn’t keep up.
Despite making the dance difficult (impossible) for her, she was laughing through it, giving in to whatever dance move he guided them through next to the best of her minuscule ability. To his delight, her claws had come out, their fine points prickling against his shoulder in an unconscious attempt to stay with him as he spun them around the floor. Little waves and sparks resonated through his body to the beat of the drummer and her laughter, a feeling so different from desire yet just as drunkenly potent as it rode the highs and lows of the trumpets sound.
“You’re hopeless at this, dear.”
“You’re not really teaching me anymore, Al.” The little goat was panting, tired from the exertion, with a big grin stretching her flushed face. Beads of sweat were starting to drip down her face. Whispers in his belly told him to lick them but he had more class than that at the moment. For her sake, he mercifully slowed the tempo, leading them back to the basic steps of earlier to give her some reprieve.
“There’s no shame in not being able to keep up.” He spun her suddenly causing her to lose her footing, just as he intended. With a shriek, she fell, claws digging into his arms to avoid crashing onto the floor. As she stumbled down, his quick hand grasped her waist to catch her into a dip, bringing her low to the ground and up again with perfect control. She giggled into his face as she regained her balance.
“Give me a few weeks of this and I’ll get way better.” The thrumming in his chest buzzed a little louder. He quite liked the idea of dancing with her again, even if it was really just him dragging her across the dance floor. Both of her arms hung around his neck, eyes dizzy with vertigo as she spoke to him. The distance between them had lessened but he found himself not minding the invasion of his space.
The music reached its final notes signaling the end of this dance number. He could feel the tiny shakes from his dance partner as the exertion caught up with her. She wouldn’t be able to do another dance with him at this rate. But she seemed eager enough to try should he insist. With an arm around her waist, he was about to ask for another.
“Mind if I cut in?” Mimzy, having finished her performance, stepped up to them in the small pause as Ynna tried to regain herself. The goat’s small hands loosened their grip on him before pulling away completely. There was no hesitation at all as she handed him over to the other woman, an observation that left him just a little vexed for reasons he wasn’t quite clear on.
“Not at all. I’ll go grab a drink.” Pushing aside what vaguely felt like disappointment as she left, he turned to his friend, falling into familiar steps and rhythms with the demoness.
“So why’re you hanging out with the little sweetie pie over there? She’s not exactly your type.” A sneer mixed with the cheeky smile of the haughty woman.
“I don’t exactly have a type.”
“Aww you don’t you mean that. You don’t like goody types. They’re too boring for your taste, Alastor.”
“While you’re not wrong, she is surprisingly entertaining.”
A panicked face and a broken deer’s neck flashed through his mind. Evenings spent in the sound of music and clattering dishes. Neither of those things sounded boring to him.
Ynna’s POV
You watched in rapt attention as Alastor and Mimzy tore through the dance floor. Their dance was chaotic, arms and legs swinging to the ever louder beat and yet they made it look easy and elegant. It was so impressive that you could only sit there grinning, feet tapping along to the music.
In your mind, the scene was changing. What would it have been like when these two were alive? Surely they were just as dazzling back then as they were now. The music came to a crescendo as Alastor and Mimzy kept their breathtaking pace, your heartbeat speeding along with it. Why wasn’t the room on fire yet?
And Alastor. The man was completely different from how you knew him. Gone was the terrifying, mischievous Radio Demon. The man on the dance floor was sauve, chaotic, utterly free and even more graceful. He was in his element in a way that you had never imagined he could be, limbs and body swaying in the most handsome ways. As the pair moved together under the flashing lights, it painted one of the most heartracingly beautiful scenes you’d ever seen.
Just as the song came to an end, the windows at front the entrance were smashed open. The music stopped, everyone stopped. All heads previously dizzy with the vibe turned to where the commotion was happening. Several shark demons in suits walked in, guns and clubs in their hands, looking threatening.
“Where’s Mimzy!?” The leader shouted and immediately all patrons scrambled, making a clear path to Alastor and Mimzy who were centered on the dance floor. In the chaos of people leaving, you stood up, moving closer to the stage behind the two, trying to get a feel for what the appropriate response would be.
There was a tingling in the back of your head, the same danger bells that kept you alive when you first got to Hell ringing non-stop. You tried not to focus too much on them though, after all, the most dangerous being in the room wasn’t those thugs. Said dangerous being was giving Mimzy a fondly exasperated look as the woman was sheepishly saying something.
With a nonchalant wave, he faced the intruders, paying no mind to the unfortunate patrons who had yet to get out. Some were even smashing the windows to create escape routes. And with good reason as the Radio Demon grew in size, his horrifying shape filling the empty dance hall.
“Yeahhhh! Go get’em, Alastor!” Walking over to Mimzy, the woman cheered as tentacles grew out from Al’s back, eldritch magic glowing an eerie green about him. “Oh there you are, sweetie. Looks like you didn’t get swept up in the crowd.”
“Who are they?”
“Oh just some loan sharks I pissed off. No biggie.” She had the confidence of a woman who knew someone would bail her out from her problems, giggling and punching the air as tentacles skewered the poor thugs. You watched in horrified awe beside her as the gigantic Radio Demon pierced and ate the screaming shark demons…loan sharks that were actual sharks. You couldn’t help but snort at that. Oh, that was terrible.
Alastor wasn’t being very clean about it either. Dismembered limbs were flying everywhere and you knew he could just eat the whole person so why make a mess out of it too? Because he was a sadist. With an unimpressed stare at this impressively gruesome display, you tapped the shoulder of the woman beside you. From the corner of your eye, a stray limb was about to smack you two.
“We better move.” With a gentle pull, you got the woman out of the way. She seemed unhappy with being touched, a sneer peeking from dark lips, until the wet squelch of the disembodied arm hit right where she had been standing before you moved her.
“Good idea.” You two scurried until you reached the safety of the second floor, looking over the balcony above the stage at Alastor’s carnage. You felt just a little sorry for the unfortunate men, choosing today of all days to come collect. They did deserve a little bit of it though. There was no need to smash the place up. “That’ll show Valentino’s stupid lackeys not to mess with my lounge.”
“They’re Valentino’s?” The mention of the mothman raised hackles within you, the image of an exhausted Angel Dust from this morning rekindling the flame of distaste you had for his boss. Suddenly, all your empathy for the sharks vanished.
After only a few minutes, Al had managed to ‘clean up’ the thugs that invaded the club. Chairs and tables were toppled over, spilled drinks and broken glass littered the dance floor. All patrons and staff had (maybe) gotten out and away from the danger, leaving only you three in the aftermath. Or maybe not just you three.
One of the sharks managed to get around Al, climbing up the long swathes of curtains that decorated the stage. His claws crunched against the velvet drapery as he climbed his way up to the balcony. You crouched down to meet his gaze as he dangled against the edge in front of you. His beady eyes glared at you then at Mimzy behind you.
“I’ll get ya, you little bitch!” A thick arm swung from below, claws narrowly missing you as they dug into the ground next to your feet. You immediately stomped on the intruding hand causing the man to scream profanities again. He even swore like Valentino, with the same accent and everything. He focused on you now, glaring those black button-like eyes at you promising pain if he ever got his hand on you. You’d seen worse. Red was a much scarier color than those shiny black beads.
You wanted to poke them.
“Hey Al, you missed one!” And you did.
Alastor’s POV
It felt good to let loose after months of holding back. Like being able to get a good stretch in after being seated for a long time. His shadows laughed within him at the poor souls he’d just consumed. They’ll have such a difficult time respawning, building their mangled bodies from scratch bit by painful bit. He could imagine the agony. It would be delicious.
This day turned out to be more entertaining than he had anticipated. The dance hall was always a pleasure to be in and Ynna’s company had been riveting. Speaking of. Where did his goat go? Had she gotten caught up in the panicking mob? Displeasure spiked through him at the thought that the woman might have been hurt in the scuffle once again, followed by delight that he could maybe offer a bit of himself should she be injured. For healing purposes.
Whatever her reaction to that would be, he would care for and soothe her. That seemed to be the way to push past her moral barriers and let her guard down. He was about to retract his form when Ynna’s voice echoed through the empty dance hall.
“Hey Al, you missed one!” His head turned 180 degrees just in time to catch the split second changes in Ynna’s focus, another intrusive thought passing her mind only… she actually went ahead with it. Chose to go ahead and do it. With unceremonious motions, she poked the shark’s eyes causing the man to fall from where he’d clung at her feet. Those focused eyes watched as one of his tentacles snapped out and caught the fiend.
Had she just…delivered a sinner to his death to him, knowing he would devour the pathetic lug?
With deliberately slowed actions, he brought the sinner to him, the screams of the damned like music to his ears. His eyes, however, were focused on his goat, just watching the man she’d condemned be slowly brought to his demise. Anticipation coiled in his gut. For what though, he couldn’t say.
Her eyes remained steady, cold, as he chucked the unfortunate shark into his mouth, the crunch of his flesh not nearly as sweet as having Ynna’s gaze on him. He licked his lips, drool dripping to the floor with a sadistic drag of tongue against yellowed fangs. It was a depraved display yet…when those unflinching eyes met his, she only nodded. And that was it. A small motion, almost imperceptible from where he stood but it lit his brain on fire.
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Chapter 13: Bitter Tastes
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Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
In a spectacular display of power, Alastor cleaned up the battered Stardust Lounge. Legions of shadowy figures swarmed the place and put it back together in a matter of minutes as their master transformed back to his more refined gentlemanly form. Static buzzed around him, electrifying the air. A manic grin firmly split across his face.
You watched in equal parts disturbed and awed and mildly exasperated at his sadistic glee.
With Mimzy’s gratitude and reassurance that she would definitely come to the party, you and Alastor left the club. Even with all that had happened, it was only early afternoon, the pentagram above shining its bright red glow over the city streets. The man immediately made a left turn, heels clacking along the pavement. You quickly tried to catch up to him and his long legs.
Walking along the blood (and other more questionable things) spattered sidewalks, your companion hummed a happy tune, a harsh static screech breaking his vocalization every now and then. It sounded like he was glitching but the man continued along as if it was perfectly normal.
He was being exceedingly happy after his recent murder spree. The aura of his power crashed against you in waves that had sweat running down your back with the urge to run away. It had been a while since he last made you feel this unease with just his presence.
Every once in a while, he caught you watching him warily. His features sharpened whenever your eyes met before morphing back to something more nonchalant, eyes glowing beneath half-closed lids. He was too happy and you were starting to get stressed.
“You okay, Alastor?”
“Just peachy, darling. I haven’t had a chance to let loose like that in ages. Hmm!” Stretching his arms above his head, the man rolled his head in a full dramatic unnatural circle, sighing in relief when it cracked a crunchy sound that had you squinting. Gross.
“Are you talking about the dancing or the killing spree?”
“Both. Music and murder are my second loves, you know? And I just happen to be very talented at both. Wouldn’t you agree, darling?” With an easy slide, his hand took hold of yours, spinning you around in a loose spiral. That graceful arm guided you a few steps forward before letting you two return to walking normally. The demon’s carefree actions brought a smile to your face as the level of sinister in his dropped to a more friendly one.
“Well, you definitely killed it on the dance floor.” The man’s eyes crinkled as you laughed at your own pun, providing a laugh track to accompany you. That grinning mouth twitched, about to say something witty you were sure, but he was cut off by a loud and long rumbling.
“Worked up an appetite, didn’t we?” You blushed at his teasing tone but felt far more comfortable now that he was over his sadistic high.
“Yeah. Do you mind if we stop by a coffee shop? I think I saw one just down the street a bit. Or you can just leave me here if you’re busy.” An Overlord was bound to be busy. Alastor, in particular, only spent a few hours at the hotel at a time, at least, from what you saw of him. But you hoped he could squeeze you in for a few. Despite his gruesome display earlier, you were still having a nice day with him so far.
“Midday coffee sounds like a splendid idea. In fact, I happen to know just the place that serves a particularly good brew. We’ll have to take my way to get there though, if that’s alright with you, darling?” His chattery voice picked up and he leaned a little more towards you almost intimidatingly, a sign that he liked the idea. Since the man only really liked to cause mischief and suffering, his eager countenance immediately tripped a warning in your mind.
“No Eldritch Sphere.” Remembering the tentacled transport, you vehemently insisted against it, much to Alastor’s amusement. The smile on his face told you that he had been thinking about that one, the jerk. With a nonchalant ‘Hm’, he backed away slightly, not the least put off by your demand.
“Haha. Alright, my dear. We’ll do as the lady says. Shall we?” A clawed hand extended out to you in polite invitation. As soon as you took it, your arm was securely wrapped around his, bringing you to his side to escort, something you were growing used to by now.
His shadows engulfed the both of you and you two began to walk through an inverted landscape. The colors were swapped and dark blurred figures passed by quickly.
“Keep a tight hold on me here. Wouldn’t want to get lost in this realm. The residents are of a more ‘shady’ sort than even those in the Pentagram.” Misshapen shadows (ah! Shades. ‘Shady’, you snorted to yourself) with colorful pits for eyes narrowly brushed against you. Their weird shapes stretched around and in comical ways to avoid the two of you as Alastor led without compromising his path to any specter.
The scenery shifted quickly. Within two more steps, the inverted world let go of you and you two were outside a quaint looking building with ‘Café’ plainly painted on the red awning. It couldn't have taken more than 100 steps in that shadow plane but according to the pentagram in the sky, you two were now on the opposite end of the city from where you had been. The delicious scents of food and coffee wafted from the open door causing your stomach to growl once again, hunger getting to an uncomfortable level.
Ever the gentleman, Alastor led you inside, arm still curled comfortably around yours. The waitstaff at the front greeted the two of you with a smile, only to flinch when his eyes registered the bright red Overlord beside you. Before the scared server could scuttle away, Alastor stepped forward.
“Table for two, my good man. Preferably outside since the weather is so pleasant today.”
“Of course. Please follow me.” To the server’s credit, he didn’t stutter as he led you and Al to the outdoor seating area. Seeing your arrival, several other customers vacated their seats or curled away trying to make their presence smaller. This pattern of fear and avoidance was familiar. You used to do the same when encountering an Overlord.
Alastor’s POV
Pulling out a chair, he waited for Ynna to sit only to find his chivalry had gone completely unnoticed by the woman who was pulling her own chair out.
“Ehem.” Wide eyes turned to him in confusion before he gestured to the chair he’d pulled.
“Oh.” The confused woman quickly made her way over and he seated her nicely. “Thanks, Al.” The waiter left the menu as he took a seat across from her. There was an awkward smile on her face as she regarded him, the same one she had when he offered to escort her to breakfast yesterday.
“You really aren’t used to being escorted around, are you? Were there no gentlemen around when you were alive?” They were small instances but the hesitation and outright rejections to his courtesy were starting to pile up. She clearly knew he was a gentleman yet she never seemed to expect him to act like it. It was just a bit insulting.
“Not really. Some of my exes did stuff like that from time to time but it’s not really common anymore unless you’re dating or old. I’m guessing it’s something that was standard manners during your time?” The awkward smile on her face was replaced with a contemplative one, genuine curiosity peeking through those expressive eyes of hers. The knowledge that she’d had other partners before was a tad irritating. He wondered if she’d ever bitten them but now was not the time for such thoughts. They were clearly lacking in many ways from the disinterest Ynna showed when mentioning them.
“Of course. Any man claiming to be a well-raised man should at least know how to properly escort a gal around town. You’d be laughed out of certain circles if you couldn’t show some basic decorum.” And wasn’t that intriguing? It seemed courtship and manners had changed quite a lot between his time and hers. What he saw as proper etiquette, she equated to conduct between couples.
Looking at the woman across from him, she had yet to outright express discomfort at his actions. At most, she gave a polite rejection. A little nudge here and there from him and she always ended up accepting his gestures. Did that mean she accepted what could be a sign of courtship to her? It would surely make swaying her to his side a lot simpler if his usual conduct was all it took to win her over. But no. He knew what adoring, ‘loving’ and lusting gazes looked like. She had yet to direct any such attention to him. More than likely, she was trying to accommodate him and his way of doing things as was her nature to do so.
The waiter returned to take their orders. Black coffee for both and a croque madame for Ynna.
“No cream this time? Or a latte perhaps?”
“It’s a new place. I always try the coffee first. If it’s bad, then I’ll order a latte so I won’t have to taste the coffee as much.” She made a face, a little grimace to emphasize her distaste for awful coffee.
“I seem to recall you taking your milk with a dash of coffee yesterday.” Even he would admit that the hotel coffee was just passable but surely his brew couldn’t have been so terrible that she had to dilute it to make it tolerable. He hadn’t even added anything to it that could make it unappetizing to her.
“Oh. I was a patient. Didn’t want to deal with anything too bitter when I wasn’t feeling well.” She explained the inadvertent insult away with some sheepishness. Seeing that he wasn’t the least bit offended, her face then shifted to a more inquisitive look. Her brow raised and eyes slightly squinted. ‘Judgy’ would be the correct term to describe the look. “Don’t tell me you’re one of those coffee snobs. The ones that say it ain’t coffee if it has anything but coffee in it.”
“Merely stating an observation, darling.” He smiled a small one, teeth put away and relaxed, pleased. Just a few weeks ago, she wouldn’t ever dare to show such a cheeky attitude towards him. Now, she sassed him as she did Angel Dust. That gave him pause.
His pleasure dampened at the thought of being on the same level as that harlot.
There was a break in their conversation as their orders were set down before them. Raising the cup of steaming coffee to his lips, he pretended that it had his attention. From downcast eyes, he observed the woman across from him. First, she smelled wafting scent from her cup and then she took a tentative sip. From the light twitch in her jaw, she was moving her tongue around to better taste it, a motion he’d become awfully familiar with after watching her eat his meals. A small smile graced her lips as she found it satisfactory. It seemed Ynna truly had more than a casual taste for caffeine.
“Acceptable?”
“It’s good.” She took another small sip before picking up her utensils to work on her meal. She cut the first half of the sandwich into little bite-sized pieces, making sure each little one was adorned with a bit of the runny egg yolk. Her knife work was clean as usual. A pity it wasn’t something of his but his imagination could fill in the gaps.
The prongs firmly pierced the stacks of ham, cheese, bread and egg, her hand gently lifting it up to make sure that all pieces wouldn’t fall off the fork. He could imagine that instead of ham, it was a slice from his thigh. It would have to have been prepared much in advance to cure it for consumption. A little salty and a little sweet. She would love it. The agony of waiting would have been worth it to see her so delicately cut through it and prepare her first bite with such reverence for the dish.
Just as the telltale sparks of pleasure began in him, those wide eyes turned to him once more.
“You want a bite?” She offered the first pieces of her meal. A spark popped in his head like a balloon, startling him out of his imaginations. An electric buzz rippled in his chest to his fingertips as she looked at him. She was doing this to him again, caring and friendly and completely unaware of his thoughts. Satisfaction roiled in him that he’d earned this much of her grace in their time together.
“Certainly.” She lifted the fork up to him, waiting for him to take it from her hand. Instead of grabbing the metal, he wrapped his hand around hers, bringing both her and the utensil forward as he took the offered bite. He held her gaze as his teeth scraped off the sandwich piece from her fork, slowly. The action was a little too suggestive even for him but he did want to see how she would react. Could he seduce her with just a bit of implication? Bump him a little higher on the totem pole of her most liked persons?
Aside from a slight widening of her eyes, there was no fluster. It seemed that hadn’t affected her at all. How dull. He immediately let go and let her take her fork back as if nothing happened. She flagged the waiter to ask for another. At least she had the mind to consider hygiene. If she had gone on to use the same fork as he had…a shiver went up his back, both disgusted and…intrigued. He took another sip of coffee to chase that feeling away.
“Another observation, darling. You seem to like feeding people, don’t you? Chicharonnes from last time, sandwiches from this morning…loan sharks to myself.” She stilled from stabbing her new fork into her meal, eyes regarding him with incredulity as he brought up her earlier actions. It had taken until getting to the café for his earlier excitement to wane. What a number she did onto his brain by committing one small act. Even now, he had to tamp down that metaphorical mental switch lest he become a madly grinning fool once more.
“I like to share yummy food with my friends. And..besides, I didn’t like the guy.” It could have almost passed for a matter-of-factly tone had he not been paying attention. The goat let out a small sigh, bothered but not saddened or devastated as she’d been when she killed that deer.
“I didn’t realize dislike would be enough reason for you to be complicit to murder, darling. And you can’t say you just felt like poking his eyes out. I’ve given you impulse control, after all.” Setting his cup down, his head rested on his hands, wanting to hear her thoughts on the matter.
“Just…thought he deserved it so I actually went ahead and did it. Sometimes it just feels like doing the good thing doesn’t feel right…” It was said so lowly yet he could hear the frustration in her voice. “Or maybe I am just a terrible person deep down. Impulse or not, I did choose to do that. I don’t even feel bad that I helped you kill the guy.” The self-deprecating tone shifted her weak poker face, letting him see a glimpse of her shame.
“You don’t?” The admission perked him up. Was this model citizen of his, the caring and sweet and thoughtful and empathetic girl, admitting to a lack of remorse? Granted, the man was a stranger to her but a normal person wouldn’t just commit murder and feel nothing. What changed that she who was so virtuous could sin so casually? Was he starting to be a bad influence on her? The thought was a delicious one.
“No. Valentino’s men can go die and I’d gladly push them off a cliff as long as they landed on him when they splat down.” As soon as the sentence was out of her mouth, she grimaced, cutlery gently calling onto her plate as she sighed defeatedly. “Oh that was a violent thought. Charlie would be so disappointed in me.”
“I’m surprised Charlie’s disappointment is what you’re fretting about. Wouldn’t the damnation of your soul and the increasingly impossible goal of redemption be your first priority?”
“Is it that surprising? I mean, I made that deal with you mainly because I didn’t want to hurt anyone unintentionally. And redemption…while I don’t think it’s impossible, I always thought it was going to be extremely difficult. Because of that, I’d rather prioritize doing well by the people that are being good to me here.” His grin remained firmly neutral as he processed this delicious piece of information. It seemed he’d put too much weight on how much she valued redemption. What truly weighed her heart was something simpler and more tangible. He had no time to think more deeply into that as she turned her distracted gaze to him, her eyes a little sad. A sadness she caused to herself. He could enjoy that. “I guess you’re enjoying all of this, aren’t you?”
“Who wouldn’t be delighted to have their companion join them in their hobbies? Even if you were only dipping your fingers into the murky waters, it still counts as participation. By golly my dear! Why, you’re now an accomplice to murder and I, for one, am not disappointed. Maybe I can bring you along on one of my outings next time. You can pick up any stragglers for me since you’re oh so helpful.” As much as he adored her happiness, a sadistic amusement filled him at the thought of pushing her buttons. By now, he knew that this much teasing would irritate her, make those large eyes water with delicious tears, but wouldn’t damage their relationship. They would joke about it later and he could have his fun.
However, instead of guilty sadness, soft laughter greeted him after a pause.
“Oh. My…Alastor! Haha. You’re ridiculous.”
Ynna’s POV
The ever familiar and crushing fear of failure loomed over you as you thought about what you did. Why did it leave you so scared when it should be a stepping stone for personal growth like everyone says? It was the anxiety, the anxiety of falling ever further from your goals and not knowing where you’ll land. You’d always thought you’d get back up and try again no matter what happened. But it was not knowing how much work you’d have to put in that scared you. Would you fall so much from your goal that even your determination to succeed would succumb to the weight of sacrifices you would have to make to climb back up?
As you watched the shark-man get eaten by Alastor’s grotesque form, the lack of remorse you felt hearing his screams concerned you. Shouldn’t it disturb you that you hand-delivered the man to his death at the hands of the Radio Demon? Was your disdain for his boss really enough justification to do that to him? Morality told you that it was unjustified yet your heart didn’t care. Not one bit. Was something wrong with you? Were you really so callous?
“I guess you’re enjoying all of this, aren’t you?” A bitterness pierced your heart that echoed in your tone. Even though the question had been directed at him, the painful feelings were all for yourself. Alastor was acting as he always did. You were the one doing things you normally wouldn’t do, agreeing with things your morality would reject.
Now, you were faced with the reality that you helped kill a man. But that didn’t concern you so much as your straying even further from redemption. A failure to your own morals, a disappointment to Charlie, a sinner worthy of Hell. If Charlie, if anyone in the hotel, ever found out, would they be disappointed? They all thought you were the nice one, the kind one. The one most likely to go to Heaven. It scared you to think about disappointing them. Or that they’d like you less for not being the perfectly sweet person they thought you were.
“By golly my dear! Why, you’re now an accomplice to murder and I, for one, am not disappointed.” He said with an excited flourish, a cruel smile on his lips. Your depressing thoughts screeched to a halt at his unvoiced laughter. While you knew that Alastor was mocking you for giving into petty urges, his words meant to sink you into despair for his amusement actually did the opposite.
Sat in front of you was Exhibit A(lastor/sshole) of someone who wasn’t turned away by your moral failures. The man delighted in it, practically kicking his feet. He taunted and teased you for your failures that choked your soul in guilt and shame whenever you thought of them. But he also belittled them for in the face of his long list of crimes, they were nothing. It reminded you that by Hell’s standards, your behavior was very mild and maybe…maybe, you could be forgiven for straying from the right path. Maybe the others wouldn’t think less of you for it. Maybe they’d understand.
Relief followed that thought, such a rush that gushed out from your chest in laughter.
“Alastor! Haha. You’re ridiculous.” The stupefied expression on his face as you laughed and laughed further sent you into giggles. He was always so mean, rubbing your mistakes in your face just to make you feel bad. It was funny to see him not get the pay off he was expecting.
“I’m intrigued now. What’s going on in that pretty little head of yours?” You laughed more. He didn’t know how much he’d inadvertently cheered you up when he’d only wanted to push you down.
“I should’ve expected that you’d find me helping you kill a guy fun. Hahaha.” You cut another piece of your croque madame and put it onto the small plate his coffee cup had come with, an offering. A thank you. “I’m just glad there’s at least someone who isn’t disappointed that I’m not as good of a person as I thought I was.”
“If you’re thinking one measly assist is enough to grant you notoriety in the ranks of Hell’s demented denizenry, then you’re quite mistaken. It takes much more than that to be irredeemable scum and you’re still far from capable of even scratching the surface of being evil, darling.” You couldn’t tell if this was supposed to mock you for being ridiculously weak or remind you that you were still way too nice. Either way, it didn’t hurt you at all and you smiled at the perplexed Overlord, getting back into your happier mood from earlier.
“You would know.”
“I would know.”
You smiled. He smirked. Another lovely moment to add to your growing memories with this fascinating yet terrifying man. He leaned forward, slender hands cradling his head atop the table, his smile pleasant and peaceful. You took a sip of your coffee to savor the moment.
“You do have potential, darling. With your unique constitution, think of how much more powerful you could be if you changed your diet a little bit.” His redirection of the conversation had you choking.
“ *cough cough cough (lots of coughing)* ” Spit went down the wrong tube to which the devilish man handed you a napkin, prepared for your reaction.
“I’d rather not think about that.” Eat another demon’s flesh and blood to gain strength? Of all the powers you could have gotten after being dumped into Hell, why did it have to involve eating other people? You would have been happy to just have another set of arms.
“But the possibilities, darling. If you could heal with just a bit of blood, what more could you do if you actually consumed flesh?” With a flourish, his clawed hand moved through the air gesturing to the denizens walking along outside the café property, unaware that the Radio Demon dined just a few feet away. A thin sharp claw sliced through the air, beheading the passersby in his mind. As if you would actually go ahead and kill some random people if you had more power. Well, maybe if they provoked you first. “I’m intrigued enough to volunteer some of mine if you’re so inclined to experiment.”
“Oh no! Hells no. I’m not even going to entertain that. I have no desire to join your cannibal club whatsoever. Especially you, Alastor. Didn’t we already talk about not hurting yourself?” You crossed your arms into an X, all but shoving it in his face.
“But it’s not for you, darling. It’s for me. I find the idea of it so fun. I’ve yet to meet someone in Hell with your specific power.” You continued to scowl at him, completely put off by his amusement at your predicament. “Oh alright. Since you’re so against it. The offer still stands though.” Should you be honored or disturbed by his offer? A being of greater power was offering you some of it. Too bad that it was in such a disgusting way. You couldn’t believe the audacity of this man. Did this guy think he was Jesus? Why was he going around sharing his body and blood!?
“Please stop. I can’t decide if you’re being serious or you’re just saying that to annoy me.”
The grin he gave you didn’t tell you whether it was one or the other. Probably both. You thought you might just go insane. The idea of this maniac chopping off his leg to serve for dinner didn’t seem so unlikely anymore after last night. An image popped into your head. Alastor prettily dressed up on a silver platter, for you to try. Maybe in another context, you would have been flattered…nope. Let’s not think about that. You shooed those inappropriate thoughts away.
The Radio Demon was still watching you with his amused and mischievous eyes. You took note of the way they looked exactly like a few weeks ago. Back then, you’d found the look scary as he popped out of nowhere and pushed you around. Now, you realized this was him finding something fun to mess with you with. You internally groaned, already seeing the man casually bringing up your newly discovered powers in future. He likely wouldn’t stop until he got bored of it.
Thankfully, he didn’t push his new interest anymore and you were able to continue your late lunch without incident. Well, almost without incident. The outdoor radio of the cafe started playing a pop song that mysteriously changed to music similar to the one in Mimzy’s club. Swing music, Alastor called it at some point in between his other chatter.
Once again, it was you and the Radio Demon, enjoying a relatively peaceful time while he forcefully changed the stereo songs to his music.
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“You didn't have to pay for lunch, Al.” Lunch completed, both of you were strolling back home to the hotel. You tried to pay for lunch as you were the one who asked him to join you but the man had insisted. A gentleman should pay for the lady, he said. It was sweet of him but you were already planning to figure out a way to pay next time you two were out and about together. If there was a next time.
“Oh my dear, I didn’t even need to pay. The kind gentleman at the register just wanted us gone. Said it was on the house.” The grin on his face told you that he expected the treatment. Which you should have expected since most sinners feared particularly violent Overlords like Alastor. Your sentiment still stood though. You’d treat him next time for being nice…in his own twisted way.
“Guess they’d rather us dine and dash than dine and slash.”
“Yes. I simply don’t understand how they expect to make a killing with their business model.” His knife-like smile grinned back at you, always delighted to share your play on words.
“I’m sure they’re doing all they can to avoid being in the red .” You quipped back.
A laugh track played in the background as Alastor grabbed your arm to entangle with his. The both of you walked the rest of the way in silence, occasionally broken when the chatterbox thought of something that he just had to share. Like how ugly the Vees’ tower was or how loud and unpleasant cars were. You didn’t think you’d get to ever be interested to learn about transportation in the 1930s but he somehow made it sound exciting. And you were a captive audience on his arm the whole time so you couldn’t even leave when it did get boring.
Just as you reached the gates, he disentangled himself from you. “Finally back, home sweet home. What a lovely day that was, don’t you think so dear?”
“Oh absolutely.” You were already making plans to go out again. Maybe drag the others out dancing with you, or even Al if he was free. At the very least, you would be adding visiting local cafes to your list of hobbies again. You hadn’t done it since dying but the atmosphere today wasn’t any different than it was on Earth. That was promising.
“Fantastic. Would you happen to be free to do lunch again tomorrow?” A happy spark lit within you. You were being invited. To lunch with a friend!
“Yeah!”
Notes:
Hello to all you wonderful people! Here's a little coffee shop chapter with Alastor. I couldn't help but want to write us going out for a cup with him. Please let me know in the comments what you think.
Chapter 14: Break a Leg
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Ynna’s POV
The party was in two days and everyone was bustling to prepare. It was the first big event for the hotel and Charlie wanted it to be absolutely perfect.
To the point of anxiety.
“Oh my gosh. Oh my gosh. There’s still so much to do. There’s the food and the music and what if we don’t have enough chairs? What if more people come than RSVP’d? I just realized that it’s gonna be so chaotic and —“ Several papers were flying around the blonde as she frantically checked everything. Everyone, except the resident Overlord, was busy with something while also watching the princess flitter around in a panic. It was concerning but you honestly didn’t know how to help her out. Luckily, she had a capable girlfriend.
“Hun, relax. Everything’s gonna be okay, yeah? Look. Everyone’s pitching in and we have everything ready to set up. Want to go through your checklist?” Vaggie held the yellow ball of anxious energy still and rearranged her messy papers. Her coaxing seemed to work as the princess actually took a few breaths to calm down and looked over her list of things to do.
“Decorations?”
“We got them.” Vaggie answered.
“Music and Entertainment?”
“Al and I got that.” Mimzy sent a cute card yesterday to remind Al that he promised her the spotlight for the evening. The tone was mildly threatening but Alastor chuckled heartily at the petulance as he showed it to you.
“Food?”
“Confirmed with the catering company.” Vaggie picked up what looked like a receipt and showed it to Charlie.
“Chairs and tables?”
“A couple of fellas from the rental company dropped ‘em off this morning. I showed ‘em where to put it, if ya know what I mean.” Against the wall were said tables and chairs. Angel, with his many arms, was moving them to the planned layout, brows wiggling as he made his usual innuendos.
“What about the sound systems?”
“I believe I’ve got it all sssset up. Jussst have a few more speakers to connect and sound testing. Shouldn’t be any trouble.” The Egg Bois and Sir Pent were comically tangled in wires. The snakeman silently hissed his displeasure at modern technology and its lack of ingenuity to his little eggies.
“Drinks?”
“Stocked up on booze and juice.” Clinking bottles could be heard from behind the bar where Husk was rearranging the new stock.
“See. Everything is going great and on schedule. We’ll have plenty of space for everyone and it’ll be a blast.” The moth lady comforted the frazzled princess.
“Yeah. You’re right.” Charlie looked up from her checklists, eyes less strained than they were before. “You’re right.” Her gaze softened. She welcomed Vaggie’s comfort as the moth led her away to take a much needed break.
“Ooof. Wouldn’t wanna be in her shoes.” Angel casually walked up to you, hands on his hips as he watched Charlie try to fix her over-agitated hair back into a ponytail. You silently agreed with him. Being creative, bold and responsible for other people was intimidating. You could never do that. It was why you admired Charlie so much. Though her confidence faltered on occasion, she still poured her heart out for her goals, leading everyone forward in the face of uncertainty and the judgment of the very people she was working so hard for. You sincerely hoped to be able to help her…despite your Hellish body’s unusual quirk.
“Hey. This is cooking wine. Better bring this to the kitchen.” A heavy clank of a crate emphasized Husk’s find, drawing your attention from the beginnings of another existential depression. Right. There was work to do.
“I got it.” You grabbed the heavy crate with both hands and made for the kitchen. Before you could reach the hallway out of the lobby, Alastor appeared. Speaking of admirable people, there was also this man who oozed confidence and demanded respect even as he was walking casually towards you.
“Ah. There you are, darling.” A small bit of excitement shot through you as he approached your side, his amiable demeanor bringing out a smile from you which he returned with his own knife-like grin. “What do you have there?”
“Sherry.” Soon as you looked up to answer Al’s question, your stomach growled. Sending a sheepish grin to Alastor, he had an amused smile on his face, already used to you and your appetite. “You wouldn’t happen to have any snacks on you by any chance? All this work is making me hungry.”
“Almonds alright?” With a snap of his fingers, a bag appeared in his hands.
“Sure.” Having received your affirmative, you expected him to give you the little snack. Instead, his gloved hands reached into the bag. Seeds in his grasp, that gloved hand bobbed a red-capped knuckle in your direction, a small coaxing smile on his face. You understood his intention. You paused briefly, a little thrown off by the startlingly intimate gesture from the older man, but welcomed it all the same. Opening your mouth, you allowed him to feed you directly. He tossed three almonds in which you gratefully chewed on. You nodded in thanks to your friend. It was nice to have magic. He could summon snacks at will.
He seemed pleased by that, his small smile stretching a bit more at the edges as he placed the little bag into the crate for you to pick up later. You noted this. Over the past few days, he’d become much more comfortable with doing gestures like this one that were too forward for a man with his aversion to caring acts. It was always a little jarring for him to do so but you found yourself liking it. The man genuinely was fond of you, a fondness that was more than just finding you amusing. At least, that was how you interpreted things and it made you happy.
“Oh, daddy. Why don’t you nut in my mouth too?” Angel moaned from behind you after seeing the interaction.
“I’m assuming that means something inappropriate so no.” With the usual quipped smile, he addressed Angel’s half-joke. You debated whether to explain what a nut was in this context but figured Alastor would ask you if he really wanted to know.
“So you were looking for me?”
“Yes. I wanted to let you know that I am unable to attend our lunch plans today. I have some business to take care of in town though you are welcome to join me if you’d like.” Turning away from leering at Angel Dust, he fixed a small smile on his face. The canceling of your plans was a little disappointing. You’d been going out to lunch with him everyday since the first time and had really liked this routine you were forming. But at least he was nice enough to give you a heads up.
“Oh okay. Thanks for letting me know but I’ve still got some stuff to do. Should we skip tomorrow and the day after too? I’m sure the party prepping is going to be a lot busier especially with how anxious Charlie’s been about the whole thing.” Thinking about the hustle of the next few days, you thought it best to stay home and help out. The man seemed to deflate just a little at your suggestion. Aww. So you weren’t the only one dismayed by your busy schedules.
“That might be wise. So say, let’s pick up again after the party?”
“Sounds like a plan.” A thrill shot through you at being invited again, excitement at further developing your friendship with the Overlord sending little happy sparks over your heart. It was lovely to feel that your company was wanted.
As the Overlord vanished away to do whatever business he had, you returned to working. There was undoubtedly a lot to do but having so many hands around sped things up quite a bit. You estimated that most things would already be done by the evening if everyone really felt driven.
“So like, who’d you guys get for the band and performers?” Taking a break, you and Angel sat on some of the chairs the spider had set out.
“Oh. It’s one of Al’s friends, Mimzy.”
“Arggh fuck.” From behind the bar, Husk stood, leaning his upper body onto the counter as he scowled.
“Hm?”
“Let’s just say Mimzy isn’t exactly my favorite person out there. And if she’s coming here, let’s hope she ain’t looking to bring trouble with her. She’s the type that likes to get Alastor to clean up whatever mess she’s gone and gotten herself into.” With that, he poured himself a drink. Been a while since you’d seen Husk particularly unhappy about someone.
“That tracks. Alastor had to fight off some loan sharks for her the day we went to see her.” You noted the unimpressed shrug Husk gave you as if to say, ‘See what I mean?’.
“Wait wait wait. I think you’re skippin’ an important detail here, toots.” Angel swung his long legs off the table he’d been resting them on. “Smiles has friends?”
“I mean, yeah.” You pointed to Niffty and yourself. The little demon was busy stabbing after a roach to notice. At least she and her knife were a safe distance away from everyone else.
“No. I mean, other than you two weirdo bitches.”
“Yeah. Said they knew each other from before Hell.”
“Well shit. Big mystery man just got even more mysterious. Wonder if she’d talk about what he was like up top. Think she was his girlfriend? Fwb? Spill it, bitch. You’ve been hanging out ‘im enough to know this shit by now.” He leaned in close, genuine curiosity biting at him. Too bad for him. You didn’t know much about the two other than what was said at the club.
“Could be. I didn’t think to ask but they did look pretty close.” A frown tugged on Angel’s face as he popped out a little ‘Boringgg~’ complaint at you. Alastor talked about many things, murder and whatever random bits of knowledge he had, but never his personal life. You’d already considered it a win that you’d met one of his other friends. The image of their fantastic dancing flashed through your mind, heart racing as you remembered their pizzazz. “Did y’all know Al could dance? Like dance dance? I think he called it a fox trot.”
“Who, Smiles? I think he did something like that the day we met ‘im.” You had heard about the way he’d come to the hotel from Angel before, all flashy shows and sinking poor Sir Pentious’ ship into the eldritch sphere, showing both sides of his personality in the process.
“Sounds something like this, right?” Husk made a move and turned a few dials behind him. From the radio on the shelf, peppy swing music played.
“Yeah. I think it went like this?” You tried to emulate the steps you saw and danced to at the lounge but the one time experience wasn’t really enough to ingrain the steps into your mind. Not to mention, Alastor proceeded to drag you around until you were too busy trying not to fall over instead of learning the steps. He was a stupid good dancer, at least, so it was fun.
“Haha. Nah, kid. You do it like this.” At Husk’s invitation, you fell into the starting position with him, following his slow lead until the basic steps became familiar to you once more. “Thought you didn’t know it.” He quirked a long eyebrow at your pick up speed.
“I’m a fast learner.” With a little bit of pride, you continued moving to the music with him, his steps much more careful than Alastor’s had been. Definitely easier to follow.
“Isss this a new style of dance that’s in these days?” Seeing that everyone was goofing around now, Sir Pent decided to join in. It looked like he’d delegated the rest of the work to the Egg Bois who were ‘nested’ in many many coiled wires.
“New style? Hell naaaaah. This shit’s classic at this point. Ain’t no one dancing’ like this unless they’re into ballroom.”
“Do you know how, Angel?” While you knew the spider could pole dance and do urban and hip-hop, you didn’t know if he was familiar with ballroom style dances.
“ ‘Course. C’mon, Whiskers. Let’s show ‘em how it’s done.” The cat snorted before an amused smirk took over his face. As soon as Angel’s gloved hand was in his grasp, he spun the spider out, the spider’s long limbs sweeping a clumsy arc that you had to duck under to avoid getting hit. “Ah shit!”
“What’s wrong? Thought you wanted to show ‘em a proper dance.” The teasing lilt of Husk’s voice smoothed into his signature drawl as he smirked up at the surprised spider.
“Oh okay Kitten. Show me what ya got.” A competitive expression spread on both their faces as they started moving in sync. It was a touch more advanced than what Husk showed you earlier, made even more complicated by Angel’s tall stature and Husk’s wings. But they moved with grace and confidence, somehow accommodating their Hellish anatomies. Unlike Alastor’s and Mimzy’s chaotic performance, Angel and Husk moved with slower steps, as if each move was thought out so they could be executed perfectly. A little itch in your brain flared up as you watched them. They looked awfully cute together. Awfully close too.
A light bulb lit up as you caught the glances they shared. Oh. Oh! That would be so cute!
Suppressing a knowing grin, you continued to watch the two of them spin and hold each other. It was pretty and upbeat in a way that drew you in, the desire to join them sprouting in your chest. But you wouldn’t ruin their moment. Turning to the other beginner in the room, you offered him your hand.
“Wanna try learning, Sir Pent?”
“Me? You want to teach me?” The snake pointed a finger at himself, surprised by the invitation.
“Yeah!”
“Well…I suppose I could give it a shot.” The snake timidly brought you both to the starting position. It was only here that you questioned things. How did you instruct someone to dance when the other person didn’t have feet? It seemed both of you had this thought as you both froze for a few seconds, trying to figure it out. It didn’t help that Sir Pentious was supposed to lead but didn’t know how and you only knew the basics.
“Uhhh…we could start with a forward step (slide?) from you?” The snake nodded, following your lead to step back, step back and then to the side. Unlike Alastor’s and Husk’s steady postures, Sir Pent’s torso moved a lot more, his shoulders minutely swaying as his abdomen undulated with each movement. If you weren’t so focused on stepping correctly, you might’ve been hypnotized by the serpentine motions. Instead, you were quite pleased that the initial awkwardness started to fade as you both settled into a steady rhythm. “We’re doing great.” You praised which seemed to perk the man up.
“This is similar to a waltz. So let’s try this…” Gone was the shyness of earlier, replaced by clumsy enthusiasm as he took the lead. Instead of steadily going backwards, you were moved into a box step. Since you didn’t have any feet movements to follow from him, you just tried to move around as best you could, thinking really hard about the few minutes Alastor did spend teaching you properly.
Once the snakeman did get going, his natural drive to do better took over. Of course, neither of you knew the dance so you were making shit up as you went but it was fun. At one point, you tried to spin him, something that you came to immediately regret when you had to jump over his tail.
“Hah! What are you two even doing?” Angel and Husk stopped to watch the whimsical dance you’d gotten yourselves into.
“Whatever. Whoa.” For some reason you and Sir Pent decided to hold hands and turn away. Your held limbs raised atop your heads as you faced away from each other, his slimy tail hitting your calf as you went. Then you kept spinning to the giggles of you and Sir Pent.
“Amateurs.”
“Oooh me too! Me too! I love dancing.” Niffty popped out from the hallway, immediately seeing the spinning silliness and jumping in to join. Crashing her tiny body into your joined hands, she effectively got you two to let go. Little spindly black fingers grabbed each of you, swinging you and Sir Pentious around like dolls.
Somewhere, you’re aware, Angel was taking a video of this spinning mess of three. Eventually, a stray limb (yours? Pen’s?) got tangled where it wasn’t supposed to and sent you three careening off to the side. With a startled grunt, you fell backwards over Sir Pent’s tail as the man ended up at the bottom of your pile. Niffty fell face first into your stomach. Sir Pent had given up on getting back up, sounding just as dizzy as you were, and resigned himself to laying on the floor. The steady, no longer spinning, floor.
“You okay, guys?” The sound of groaning and Niffty’s mumbling into your shirt was all you could hear, a happy high slowly leaving you as you regained your bearings. It was always some kinda chaos with these people, you thought fondly. The little demon at your stomach rose up, a small toothy grin on her face as she looked directly into your soul.
“You’re good cuddle material.” The compliment threw you off with its suddenness and with one last painful squeeze to your middle, the gremlin of a woman hopped away back to do her chores.
“Thanks?”
The slimy tail beneath your legs started moving, a sign that Sir Pent was finally ready to get back up. Accommodating him but still not ready to follow, you shifted to the side, bringing your legs up a bit to allow him to slither free.
“Ok. Up ya come, babe. We still gotta clean that floor.” Chuckling, Angel approached offering a hand for you to bring yourself up. Your eyes met and feeling mischievous, you allowed your pupils to shift shapes, catching the spider with your goat eyes. “Hah! Cute!”
As you prepared for him to pinch your cheeks for using your farm animal charm, there was a faint sound of glass breaking and then sharp piercing pain at your shoulder.
“What the—!?” Heads snapped towards where the front window had broken just in time to see holes appear in the glass, bullets breaking their way in. The hand that meant to pull you up roughly shoved you to the ground as the rapid fire shots traveled through the lobby and everyone ducked for cover.
Just as the barrage stopped, a pounding came at the door. Were they trying to ram it open!? A particularly hard push punched a big enough crack through the sturdy double doors that the voices of the intruders came through.
“Where’s that goat bitch!? Give her ‘ere and no one has to get hurt.”
It brought a sense of déjà vu. The loan sharks? Didn’t Alastor eat them all?
The intruders continued battering against the door. Panic and anger filled you with each push. What the hell were they doing here looking for you? And they were threatening everyone else. Whatever the reason was, you didn’t want to be the reason the others were put in danger.
“Guys, you need to run back. Since they’re looking for me, I’ll go deal with…it?” Behind you, Angel held guns in each of his arms, all six out and deadly. Husk was also in a stance, clearly ready to fight with sharp looking cards in his hands.
“Fuck that. Go run up and get Charlie and Vaggie, toots. We’ll deal with these mutherfuckas.”
Bewildered, you glanced at the two of them. When did they have weapons? Vaggie should’ve confiscated them.
“Egg Bois! Get the ray gun and explosives! It’s about to get messy in this house!”
All around you, everyone got into a battle stance, clearly used to the sudden attacks and fighting back. Meanwhile, your first instinct had been to run and hide. Frustration and shame followed. What more could you do, though? You didn’t know how to fight. The only reason you’ve survived was because you could run away and hide quickly. If only you could do some damage too.
“Ynna! Go get Charlie and Vaggie!” Even Angel knew you wouldn’t be of any use in this fight. But you could get help. It was something. You nodded and sprinted as fast as you could to the office. The hallways passed by in a blur, adrenaline pumping through your heart as you pushed to move faster. Charlie. Vaggie. You called their names in your head like a mantra, single-minded focused on getting to them.
Luckily, the commotion seemed to have gotten their attention as they too were sprinting towards the lobby.
“Ynna! What—“
“People are attacking the hotel. They were looking for me but I don’t know why.”
“Ok. We got it. Go hide!” Vaggie commanded as her spear manifested in her hands.
With that, you were left alone. The warning bells in your head were blaring but they were drowned out by a pit of despair. Was hiding all you could do? Why were you so weak that everyone didn’t expect you to fight with them? Surely, you could try to help even a little, like with Alastor—!
Before you could process that thought fully, you were already sprinting again. This time, it was to a foreign space you’d never been to but it was worth a shot if all you could do was get help.
The song in the elevator sounded too cheerful for the situation you were in. Tension built within you as you waited inside the lift as it brought you up to the top floor.
Down the hall was the fire escape that led up to the rooftop. Your vague memory of this place was thankfully accurate. Across the rooftop entrance was a rickety looking metal walkway connected to the haphazardly added radio tower. Dashing to the door, you thanked the stars that aligned when you found it unlocked. Making your way to the big desk with buttons, you realized that you knew nothing about how studios worked.
“Button. Button. Please tell me there’s a button to turn this thing on.” Thankfully, there was something that looked like a prominent switch on the upper right of the desk by the microphone. Taking a chance, you flipped it. A small red light blinked on one of the machines and a familiar dark surge of electricity, demonic power, flooded the room. Your heart squeezed in fright as it brushed against you, finally truly recognizing this as the Radio Demon’s domain. It conjured images of warped grins and a mouth full of teeth set in a stitched up face, shadows clawing at your sides as you tried not to scream. The already agitated warnings in your head only blared louder, almost paralyzing in their desperate screeching. Was this really a good idea?
The ‘On Air’ sign above the desk turned on.
You gulped, nerves getting to you as you recalled the demon’s ferocity.
“Alastor?” The first tentative call of his name was coated in fear. Only the Radio Demon ever spoke in his broadcast. The other voices were painful tortured screams that haunted many a weaker sinner’s nightmares, including yourself on some occasions. What were you thinking, coming up here and risking pissing Alastor off? But your friends needed help and Alastor was the strongest being you knew.
The image of his red eyes squinted in delight at something you said came to mind, a tickle of reciprocal elation blossoming in your chest as he chuckled. It overthrew his more terrifying form. Right. Alastor. You somehow knew that he wouldn’t hurt you, not after all the time you’d spent together. Even if he got mad at you for trespassing, you were sure the man would forgive you if you cracked a couple of jokes at him.
“Alastor,” You called with more determination. “Can you hear me? Please come back to the hotel. Please come back. We need help. SOS. Alastor! Come back to the hotel. The hotel is being attacked and we need the Radio Demon.” Only silence greeted you after speaking into the mic. You weren’t even sure if it actually worked. For all you knew, it could be impossible to send out radio waves without the demon present to facilitate. You tried to wait a little before speaking again, anxiety and fear gnawing at your insides as the seconds ticked by slowly. In theory, you wouldn’t have to wait long. The man had ways to get here quickly if he heard your call.
A big explosion shook the ground and you screamed in shock. Panic flooded your veins as you thought about your friends.
“Urgh fuck this. Al get over here!” Stupid man without a phone!
You lost patience for calling over the air. It was stupid to even try it when you didn’t know how to use the equipment. That same gnawing desperation to be of help clawed at you to move and go to your friends. Abandoning the radio tower, you went straight for the edge of the rooftop. From this vantage point, you could see several ledges and on instinct, you jumped.
With ease, you landed on the nearest balcony. The next step was easily identified and you continued to jump down, in incremental leaps, much faster than riding the elevator would have been. I’m a goat. I’m a goat. I’m a mountain goat. You chanted in your head to stop yourself from losing focus, a little aware that it was mostly instinct guiding you through each leap that you would’ve never thought to take otherwise.
Whatever you needed to do to get back to them.
Alastor’s POV
Another day, another deal to be made.
He whistled along the street as he walked back to the hotel after securing yet another soul for his collection. No matter how many he owned, the raw power it gave him never failed to send a rush through his being. It was only too bad that he had to miss his lunch date with Ynna in order to seize this opportunity. But as much fun as he was having, Hell was a never ending rat race. He needed to put in the work if he wanted to continue to play. If only he had his full power…
His only consolation was that the woman had been just as disappointed as he, if the sparkle in her gaze when he asked to continue their routine later was anything to go by. Slowly, their relationship was getting to a good point and he was sure that he would be able to ask her seriously to eat something from him soon. A pleasant thrum buzzed in his chest as he thought of how to broach the topic to her. She would be surprised, surely. Taken aback and startled. But then her gaze would turn hostile for a moment as it always did when he said something she found particularly vile. Then, those eyes would soften, her accepting nature coming through. The contrasting sharpness and care always sent little sparks in his chest. That he could relish in both her fondness and displeasure was new to him. He usually enjoyed only the latter from others.
He could hear her voice in his mind, calling him in that exasperated tone of hers.
“Alastor? Alastor?”
Blinking in surprise, he froze in his tracks as the static-ridden voice traveled through the air. Had he heard that correctly? Yes, he did. To his utter astonishment, Ynna’s frantic voice broadcast all over Pentagram City through his radio frequency, a message sending for help in a desperate attempt to reach him. Ignoring the awe and confusion of the crowds at the unfamiliar voice and completely unexpected contents of the broadcast, he immediately sunk into the shadows to get back. Which one was more surprising? That some ignorant and moronic sinners dared to attack his territory or that Ynna had used his broadcasting station to get ahold of him? Perhaps the latter. No one willingly wanted their voices on his radio, let alone his little goat who was known to lack courage when dealing with potentially dangerous things. Like trespassing into his studio, his sanctum, his throne. Despite the violation of his space, he didn’t find himself cross with the goat. In fact, he found it funny. She was just full of surprises.
In the minute it took to travel back, he found the station empty and still On Air. With a smile curling harshly on his face, he connected his microphone to the frequency. Might as well make a show out of this invasion attempt.
He brought himself to the front of the hotel, just in time to see his goat making full use of her form as she quickly pranced down the building, balanced and agile, stopping just at the marquee above the entrance. In front of him, bullets were flying. The intruders seemed to be related to the ones he’d dealt with at Mimzy’s. The leader was yelling to find his goat. So Ynna was their target. But why? Well, it didn’t matter at the moment.
There was action to be caught. The hotel’s band of misfits were actually putting up a good fight, pushing the invaders out and bringing the battle to the front lawn. From her perch, even Ynna was joining the fray. The goat threw rocks and bricks that she’d found on the rooftop with surprising accuracy, hitting almost every shark she set her sights on.
“Ynna!? What the f—!? I told you to go hide!” Angel Dust hollered for a second before taking aim with his guns once more.
“Not happening!” It was funny to watch the goat do what she could, obviously not made for battle as she was. It would have been more comical had she not been so effective in her efforts. She hit her enemies just enough to distract or skew someone’s aim, giving for her allies ample opportunity to finish them. His amusement ended when one of the sharks saw her and immediately shot at her. His aim was messy, wastefully peppering bullets needlessly up the side of the building. The mess of bullets eventually hit her. Despite being so far away, her pained scream echoed through him, shaking his core awake. He’d been enjoying the chaos too much.
With his microphone in hand, he let his power seep through into the yard. It was time from a proper Radio Demon broadcast.
His shadows howled in anticipation as he picked up the first sinner, skewering the man right through the middle, his guts popping out with the tendril sticking through his belly. It was painful. Excruciatingly so. A classic way to begin this segment of the show. The bullets turned to him now, a futile struggle against someone like him but he did appreciate the effort. Their terrified yells as they fought to keep his nightmarish self away were just perfect .
He wanted them to struggle more. Pure unrestrained glee filled him as he brought excessively agonizing punishment to the cretins who trespassed and harmed those in his territory.
Skewering the remaining thugs with eldritch tendrils, he made sure to rip them apart slowly, letting their screams filter into his microphone for all of Pentagram City to hear. Wonderful. Although, the chorus of “Alastor/Al” that came from his merry little gang made the show a touch more heroic than intended but variety was always good. It kept the listeners entertained. He ended that segment of the broadcast to the wet squelch of limbs thumping against grass, the barely there rasping breaths of the dying making fantastic background noise as he made eye contact with the leader who was barely hanging on. Blood oozed from his severed torso, only one arm left as he clawed for life.
“Let this be a reminder. The Hazbin Hotel is under my supervision. Should any invaders or trespassers think they can orchestrate some funny business here, well, your misguided attempts will be happily dealt with accordingly. ” His voice dropped to demonic levels, relishing the fear he could feel from both the man in front of him and the souls involuntarily listening to his performance. Slashing the last vestiges of life from the sinner’s eyes with his claws, he returned back to his usual form. Time for the finale.
Bringing himself up to the ledge where Ynna was gawking at him, he studied the damage done to her. She was bleeding from at least three places, tears and sweat marring her face as she gripped the ledge to keep herself up. Rage filled him at seeing her so weak. He should’ve kept those vermin alive for longer just to prolong their agony. At least he’d made the spectacle as gruesome as can be. He was sure to be covered in shark guts at the moment.
Her lovely eyes looked at him in joy and relief as he approached despite his undoubtedly awful appearance. He could feel blood and bits falling off with each step he took but she only reached out to him, fond and unafraid. His bloodlust and rage were tempered. He had better end his broadcast here before it got too wholesome.
“And for all of you dear listeners out there, our little hotel will be holding an open house in two days’ time. Feel free to stop by and enjoy the accommodations! Food! Dancing! All the restrained chaos the best and only reform facility in Hell can offer! Once again, this is your beloved Radio Demon and surprise guest signing off.” He moved the microphone closer to her. She listened to his shows. She would know what to do.
“Have a happy day in Hell.” They signed off together.
Notes:
Ever just work on a chapter that's wayyyy off into the future and not the one that's supposed to be next??? If the next chapter is late next week, it's probably because I have ideas that I needed to write down.
Thanks for all the support! The comments keep me going! And also to slytoast who made this awesome fanart for Chapter 6: https://www.tumblr.com/slytoast/745171282489999361/from-ch-6-of-scratch-an-itch-by-jurijyuu-on-ao3
I am over the moon!
Also, sharks are cannon fodder at this point. I'm sorry to people that like sharks.
Chapter 15: Hold
Notes:
Hello! New chapter here. I'll be busy the next few weeks so no new chapters for at least 2 weeks.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
Your shoulder and shin flared in burning pain as you laid on the ground after taking a couple bullets to the leg. Tears dripped from your eyes as you stared blankly at the crimson sky, trying to reign in the agony, to hold it together, so you could keep fighting. Piercing screams erupted from the lawn and for a moment, your heart seized, breath caught sharply thinking it was one of your friends.
But then you heard a familiar crackle of static. A flood of relief and joy filled you at the sound, its sharp electronic breaks hammering away at the spikes of anxiety and adrenaline coursing through your veins. Pulling yourself back up to peer over the marquee’s edge, you saw Alastor in his full demon glory, somehow even grander than at Mimzy’s. He skewered and tore apart the sinners with his usual sadistic flair and relish. He wasn’t eating them this time and you were almost thankful for that except…he was taking his sweet time going through the rabble. Urggh. This guy and his sadism. You almost rolled your eyes at the display. It wasn’t until you really focused on him that you noticed his microphone, always close to the next tortured victim. The screams he tore from them were directly aimed at it. Was he…broadcasting!?
Your suspicions were confirmed when the last of the invaders died and he moved to your location. What the fuck was he thinking broadcasting the whole thing? You were flabbergasted by his behavior as this seemed like the most inappropriate time. Then again…this was the Radio Demon that you called back using his broadcast. The man was probably just being efficient.
He dripped gore as he walked towards you, power still buzzing around him as the broadcast continued. He should’ve looked scary. He did, objectively, with his tall silhouette dark against the red sky, the smell of blood thick in the air. His smile remained cheerful but you could just tell that he wasn’t happy. Those red eyes scanned over you and that feeling that the demon in front of you was angry intensified. They focused on your wounds, crinkling at the edges as his grin grew larger. He was…worried, you realized. A warmth pierced through your heart at his concern. How oddly sweet it was that he cared about you so much that he wasn’t high off of his recent kills.
You reached out to him, wanting to reassure your friend that you were okay. Hurt, yes, but okay. He didn’t need to worry.
The gesture seemed to work as the frustration in him eased out. The crinkling in his eyes now conveyed that usual dark amusement he always carried. With a small advertisement for the party in a couple of days (and you wondered what brave soul would come after an ad from his broadcast), he chirped his way over to you, all cheerful and delighted like he wasn’t covered in fresh guts. Or maybe he was delighted because he was a gory mess. You could have laughed at how cutely he was acting. Matching his energy, you signed off on his broadcast at his signal.
“You made it.” A sigh of relief accompanied your greeting.
“How could I not when you went through all that trouble to get me here? Hah! Using my own radio show to call me back. What a brilliant idea, darling. I was almost angry to hear your voice over the channel. How dare you take over the studio as you wish?” His laughter filled the air, looking unhinged with all the carnage dripping off him. For a moment, those red eyes switched to dials once more, a shock of static hitting the air like lightning, shooting fear back into you. But it was immediately washed away as he reached out a bloody gloved hand. With small beckoning gestures for your permission, he pulled you into a princess carry, holding your weight against his bloody self with ease.
Unfortunately, getting moved around did cause your wounds to flare up again. Hissing, you bit your lip trying not to cry out as he moved you back down to where the others were.
“ Ynna/Alastor! ” The group exclaimed as you landed in the lobby. Angel was the most frantic as he approached, singed and cut up in places but moving fine.
“Seriously, toots? It’s been like, less than a week since ya woke up and now you’re all banged up again!” With a scolding glare, he ranted at you. Despite the anger in his voice, his eyes carefully checked you for injuries.
“Ooh Bang-ed! Guns! I get it. Good one Angel.” You teased him, knowing that the spider wouldn’t appreciate your puns. His eyes squinted at you, thrown by your cheery response, as you hoped he would be. Maybe if he cringed too much at your joke, he wouldn’t be as upset and worried as he looked. “I’m fine. I’m not almost dying this time at least. Is everyone else good?”
“You and your dumb shit.” He huffed, lower arms going to his hips as his upper set clenched into fists as if cursing god for your sense of humor. At least he didn’t look as angry. “Everyone’s fine. Well, mostly anyway.” Behind him, everyone else was dusting themselves off or slumped to the ground in exhaustion. Surprisingly, no one looked too beat up despite being in a gun fight, sporting surface wounds at most. “Ya sure got some luck, toots. You weren’t even on the ground and yet you still got shot.”
“Totally worth it. Didn’t I hit that one guy in the huge nose?”
“Hah! Ya mean that one where you managed to lodge a whole ass rock up his nostril?” You two giggled as the tension in his face softened. The others joined in with some funny moments they recalled, making fun of the people they had just fought and even killed, which you felt surprisingly undisturbed by. You even complimented some of the cooler things you saw them do.
As the adrenaline wound down, you were left feeling exhausted, your body signaling to sleep off the pain radiating from your injuries while you regenerated slowly. Looking up at Alastor, you wanted to ask if he could bring you back quickly so you could rest. But the request died on your tongue. Your eyes focused on a dripping red spot on the demon’s otherwise flawless cheek, blood from one of the sinners he’d killed. All at once, your stomach squeezed and your throat felt impossibly dry. An intense pang of hunger crashed through your body, rocking through your core like an earthquake.
It left you reeling and alert, eyes unable to stray from that shiny red spot. It looked so tempting, bringing about an intense craving to lick that droplet of blood from his face and maybe bite into his smooth cheek while you were at it.
Wait. What?
A round of confusion hit your brain like a sledgehammer. Did you just think about eating Alastor!? No. Wait. What!?
You breathed deeply, trying to stem the panic that followed. Why were you feeling like this? It had never happened before so why— Another wash of pain went through you from your wounds. Another wave of hunger followed. Dreadful realization lurched into focus in your head. Was this…was this your body’s way of reminding you that you had other means to recovery?
“You’re staring, darling. I know it’s quite a handsome face to look at but do try to keep your gawking to some degree of moderation.” His staticky voice snapped you back from your revelation, hunger subsiding a little as reason prevailed. Squashing those feelings with an almost manic desperation, you met Alastor’s teasing gaze. Smile. Relax. You couldn’t let the others know just what thoughts crossed your mind.
“I was just thinking it was a good thing you decided to be a radio host. Your face was made for it.” With your best innocent smile, you teased back, self-directed panic and disgust beaten to the back of your mind for later pondering.
“Oh! Cheeky girl. Is that any way to thank the knight in sparking static whose studio you broke into and started a broadcast from without permission?” The way he laughed said that he was convinced by your acting and the relief you felt from it brought back your calm and sanity. With determination, you let your eyes stray back to that bloody droplet and felt reassurance when no urge followed. Thank fuck. The smile on your face turned more teasing and genuine now that your weird episode was over.
“I think you would’ve been so disappointed if you came back and all the fighting was done. I did see you enjoying all that carnage.”
“Oh you know I always do. But you really need to get it into your head not to do that again, darling. I won’t be so forgiving next time you trespass into my studio.” His eyes narrowed slightly but curved, amused. There was no bite behind his words, simply reminding you to respect his space.
“Get a phone so I won’t have to.”
“Nev—“
“Get a room if you two wanna keep flirtin’.”
You turned your head back to look at Angel, trying to come up with something clever to say but the sudden shift jerked your shoulder. You hissed out a curse that put a stop to the lighthearted atmosphere.
“Here. I’ll get her cleaned up.” Charlie stepped up, now seeing the extent of your wounds. Shifting your weight to make moving to Charlie easier, the hands holding you squeezed lightly, halting your movements and keeping you in place against a warm, if bloody, chest. The deer demon shook his head at the princess.
“No no. I’ll handle this, my dear.” You felt your body sway slightly as he turned away from her. “I’ll go ahead and bring Ynna to get treated. The others also need some tending to and I’m sure they’d appreciate your assistance as well, more than mine at least.”
“Alright? Let us know if you need anything.” Alastor’s insistence on taking care of you himself was odd, a thing everyone in the lobby noted. The man wasn’t exactly known for caring for others except on occasion. And as nice as he was to you, he didn’t extend the same fondness to everyone else, an observation that made you feel a little sad for his isolation but also a little happy. When was the last time you were so obviously favored by someone?
Charlie and Angel turned back around, headed towards the bar where Husk was already nursing a drink, looking tired and just done for the day.
After the cold of the shadow land disappeared, you found yourself in an unfamiliar bathroom. It was rather simple and similar to your own except for the black and white checkered tiles and vividly red walls that somehow made it feel more opulent despite having the same fixtures.
“I hope you don’t mind that I brought you to my suite. I’m more familiar with what materials I have here.” As he spoke, a shadow brought a stool from the main room and you were carefully placed on it. The dark form shifted and settled next to the demon and it was then that you realized this was his shadow and not some minion. It cackled silently behind him, not unlike when Alastor enjoyed a particular kill.
The man began to rummage through his supplies, bringing bandages, wipes, scissors and forceps out. It occurred to you that it was strange for someone who didn’t get injured to have them at hand but then again…if he dabbled in blood magic…You weren’t sure you wanted to know why he had so many medical supplies, if only for the benefit of your mental health, but images came into your mind unbidden. Seeing Alastor’s carnage had certainly broadened your imagination, unfortunately.
“It’s fine. Thanks for helping me and you know, thanks for coming when I called. I’m sorry for trespassing into your studio.” The man nonchalantly waved off your apology, still smiling, almost humming as he puttered around to get what he needed.
“Oh that was probably the most unique way anyone’s summoned me in the past fifty or so years. I knew that if you were desperate enough to risk my wrath then it had to have something interesting. And what entertainment it was! Action! Camaraderie! A bit of drama too if we were to count that one sobbing sop crying for his mother. I’m sure my dear listeners just loved the deviation. Variety keeps things fresh, after all. You, my darling, might even receive some fan mail for it.”
The state of his clothing started to bother him as he shook off some bits and pieces of dead sinners. You watched him unbuttoning his overcoat. Alastor tossed his blood-soaked garment into the tub where it landed with a juicy spat, followed by his equally bloody gloves. He rolled up the sleeves of his button down revealing lean blackened forearms that faded to gray before his elbows. His ungloved hands were equally black with shiny red claws that made his already long fingers look even longer.
Leaning against the sink, he washed his hands and face, getting as much gunk off himself like a surgeon preparing for an operation.
“You get fan mail?”
“Oh yes. My tastes for carnage and suffering aren’t unique, just my ability to share it for all of Hell to hear.” A red-clawed hand flippantly gestured as he threw a roguish smirk at you, proud of his accomplishments and notoriety. What a menace, you mentally rolled your eyes at him fondly.
As he combed most of the muck from his head, it occurred to you that you’d never seen the demon show this much skin before. Your eyes roamed over his form. He was definitely like a deer, slender and lithe with a refined bone structure belying his terrifying strength.
With his blackened forearms now clean, you could see a few prominent veins rising beneath the skin over toned muscle. Under the light of the two Tiffany glass sconces, numerous silvery scars glimmered against his dark skin, telling stories of brutality and roughness usually hidden by his sophisticated appearance. Without his coat, you could better see the outline of his shoulders, their broad expanse tapering to a skinny waist, his suspenders forming a nice line for the eye to follow down.
He’d always looked handsome to you but something about how he looked right now made you feel like turning away. How to describe it? Ah, scandalous. It felt a little scandalous seeing him so casual, such a difference from his prim and proper demeanor. His overall impression was just different and you were definitely staring. You should stop. He even has a tail. Wow, that’s cute. Stop!
Unable to bear looking at him without ogling, you focused on what he was doing instead. You idly watched as he prepared, his hands placing all the tools he needed into a neat and organized line before coming to stand in front of you with his scissors.
“I’ll have to cut off your clothing to treat your wounds, darling. Hope you don’t mind.” The way he grinned down at you with those scissors. That was the Al you were used to, all creepy smiles and polite speeches. He really did love his theatrics.
“Okay.” You weakly smiled at him, the throbbing of your wounds constantly draining your energy.
Alastor started with your shoulder, carefully snipping around the wound. You held your breath, bracing yourself against the uncomfortable and possibly painful feeling of the blood-soaked cloth being peeled away. It did sting, a hiss leaving you as the sticky blood glued the fabric to your skin, but Alastor was attentive, making sure not to agitate more than necessary. Shivers ran down your spine as the cool metal faintly brushed against your skin along with Alastor’s claws. You wondered which one was sharper.
As your shirt was cut away leaving you in only your bra, you felt a smidge self-conscious. Just a little though. Since Alastor always acted a gentleman, you felt safe around him despite being exposed. He wouldn’t do something as rude as staring at your body. Which made you feel rather bad for ogling him earlier.
“Seems the bullet traveled clean through and you only need a few stitches.” You could feel his gaze staring pointedly at your wound, shivers sprouting along your back where you thought his eyes might have landed causing you to flinch when they moved back to your injury. Pain…followed by hunger. Oh shit. Was every injury going to be like this now? With your body urging you to eat another demon to replenish your energy? You’re insane, Ynna. You were seriously going insane. You felt like crying on the inside.
Unaware of your turmoil, Alastor moved on to cut off your pant leg from the knee down. He knelt on the ground in front of you, focused and poised as he held your leg steady against the sharp scissors. Mentally, you were fighting the urge to bite his ears. You didn’t think that transgression would end with you just getting tossed out of his suite this time.
As the scrap cloth was tossed into the tub with the other bloody clothes, you were thankfully distracted from hunger pangs by the oozing holes in your legs. The bullets barely missed your shin bone as they embedded into your flesh. Having never been shot before, the wounds were gruesomely novel. Blood dripped in sleek crimson rivulets down your hoofed leg and onto the once pristine bathroom floor. It was pretty, in a tragic way.
Only after a few moments of watching did you realize Alastor was also staring at your leg, just as transfixed by the image. His hands held your calf perfectly still, skin warm in the cool air of the room. What was he thinking about?
Alastor’s POV
He was feeling admittedly heroic, having saved the day and answered a damsel’s call. How awful. Heroism wasn’t his style, not since dropping into Hell, but alas, his goat needed help. What else could he, as her deer friend, do but answer her call? It was a good thing he did otherwise he might have been holding a corpse instead of an injured Ynna.
Despite how he dripped in the blood of those ignorant grunts, she leaned against his chest, not minding how it seeped onto her. A bit poetic, wasn’t it? That she was stained with the blood of those who died because she called upon he who would shed it in the most painful way possible. When viewed in that lense, he supposed this particular brand of heroics did suit his taste. It certainly tickled something in his brain that she was unperturbed by his carnage or her near death experience, settling comfortably against him with a smile on her face like she wasn’t bleeding in three places. She even tried to wave away the worries of their little group despite the painful tears she’d cried earlier from her wounds. For all her physical weaknesses, her mental fortitude was something to be admired.
Speaking of wounds, he wondered if he could offer her another potion or maybe an actual meal to help her boost her energies. How he longed to feel those thrills again as he hadn’t been able to in the past few days. The more their relationship bloomed, the more his conscience weighed on his actions, especially as he’d been able to tease and prod her about her condition and heard from her directly how much she hated the idea of consuming demon flesh. He’d only been able to feed her twice, when his greed had overpowered his reason. Both times, he’d suffered and delighted in his guilty pleasure at her unknowing expense.
But if an opportunity presented itself…
He caught her staring at him, an unreadable look in her eyes, too convoluted with feelings for him to discern anything other than his reflection in them. She looked stupid, as if her brain had stopped working altogether. And yet, her wide eyed stare observed him as if to devour his very being, sending a thrill like lightning through his body. He would’ve frozen under their intensity had he not read a bit of want and admiration in those depths.
And he latched on to those fleeting feelings with voracious eagerness, unwilling to let them disappear from her eyes while they still held his image.
“You’re staring, darling. I know it’s quite a handsome face to look at but do try to keep your gawking to some degree of moderation.” With a smile that he knew sent many others weak in the knees, he delivered his line with just the perfect blend of haughtiness and confidence. Let it stoke those tiny sparks of desire in her gaze into something more. Even just a minuscule little bit more. But he was sorely disappointed. Whatever trance she was under dissipated leaving only her usual friendliness, completely unaffected by him. Vexing little thing.
And she had the gall to tease him. Hah! If he hadn’t found her so amusing, he might have just flung her to the ground for that quip. Fortunately for her, he was fond of her and he was a man that took great care of things he enjoyed.
Though…
When he’d realized that he would need to cut off the woman’s clothing, he felt a little sorry for her. For decency’s sake, maybe he should have let Charlie take over dressing her wounds. While he didn’t care as he’d seen and dismembered countless bodies before, it occurred to him that maybe Ynna wouldn’t feel comfortable showing that much skin to a man. Not that he’d let her leave now. She was nearing her limit and primed to collapse if left untreated.
Bit by bit, her smooth skin was revealed as he cut away at her shirt. Blood coated the expanse of her back as it dripped slowly from the open wound. It looked like the bullet had gone cleanly through. He could stitch her back up in no time though the effort would be moot if he could offer her some flesh or blood after he’d gotten her cleaned up.
He moved her hair away from the injured area, eyes inevitably following where his hand went. Her neck was tilted to the side to grant him better access for his treatment. Except for the occasional shiver, she remained perfectly still, completely trusting him as he moved about her with a blade. The glint of the scissors flashed his eyes.
His senses honed in on the demoness. A low heat in his belly ignited, creeping up his chest in little crackles of warmth. A buzz started in his mind anew. The smell of her blood was heady and enticing now that it was allowed to permeate this smaller secluded space. She let herself be so vulnerable before him. If he so wished it, he could devour her in one gulp and she wouldn’t be any wiser as she laid to rest in his belly, safe and hidden. Beside him, his shadow grinned, making chomping motions as even it found her delightful.
His thoughts were cut off by a sharp quiet hiss as she moved her injured shoulder. Right. Other wounds needed tending to.
Kneeling down in front of her, he carefully placed her injured leg on his thigh. After taking off her shoe and cutting off the pant leg, he was left staring at a hoofed leg dripping blood onto his bathroom tile. Two small holes cried lovely crimson tears down the line of her shin.
For a moment, he thought about following those delicate trails with his tongue, tasting the salt on her skin and the iron in her blood. That flame in his belly grew hungry at the thought. Maybe he could just indulge himself a little. It would be fair. She’d gotten to taste him multiple times now. If he could make it painless for her, would she let him dig those bullets out with his teeth?
“You okay there, Al? You look like you want to take a bite.” She was curiously watching him from her seat, small joking smile on her face. The buzzing in his head grew louder as his eyes strayed to the newly exposed skin of her torso, marred only by bloody splotches, some of them from his victims.
“Oh I’m certainly tempted, dear. You look like you’d make a delectable meal.” He grinned at her, all teeth and teasing. The woman only graced him with a long exhale through her nose, exasperated at his response as her smile turned sarcastic. It was fantastic how she’d gotten used to his casual mentions of cannibalism now. He was almost certain she knew that he was mostly serious.
“Please don’t. I'd like to not have to regrow a whole leg, thank you very much.”
“Just a nibble?”
“I have nothing to spare, Al.” He chuckled as she rolled her eyes at him. Grabbing the remnants of her shirt, he twisted the fabric into a thick rope and handed it to her. “You’ll want to bite down on that as I take the bullets out. It will hurt.”
Doing as instructed, those eyes turned nervous as she anticipated the oncoming pain. Little hands gripped the sides of her chair as she nodded, ready.
Looking back at the task at hand, he pushed down the urge to bite the delicate leg and instead took the cleaned forceps from his counter. Carefully, he dug into the wound, looking for the object lodged within. The leg in his grasp flinched as he found the offending thing and pulled it out as best he could. A strangled gasp and a series of heavy breaths from above told him of how much pain she was in. Poor dear. He continued, trying not to enjoy her pain. That would be rude to his friend.
Once he’d succeeded in pulling the first bullet out, he placed it on the counter.
“There there, darling.” His thumb rubbed light soothing circles on her ankle. “One more and we can wrap this up.”
The second bullet was even more painful for her, having lodged deeper than the first. He took a knife, giving the woman a warning before cutting into the wound to have a better vantage to pull the object out. Her gasps and pained cries carried through the bathroom despite the cloth muffling them. The sound of claws scraping against wood reached his ears causing him to glance at her white-knuckled grip on the stool.
Click
The buzzing in his head grew incessantly distracting, only overshadowed by the delicate cries of the woman in front of him. The smell of blood. The warm flesh in his hand. The pain he was causing. All factors he enjoyed when satiating his bloodlust but at this moment, the nature of his pleasure was of a different kind. The kind only she had ever elicited in him.
Conflicting feelings swirled in him, wanting to soothe and hurt her at the same time. Goosebumps rose on his arms at a particularly loud scream, the sound bouncing off the walls and through his skull. His skin felt sensitive, electricity living just beneath the surface. He moved quickly. If he let himself feel more, he might be tempted to prolong this whole situation. He couldn’t do that to her, wouldn’t let himself do that to her.
Finally, the last bullet was out, falling to the floor as he almost dropped the forceps from the guttural cry the woman in front of him made, the sound ripping through him like he’d been the one suffering instead.
“Darling. Sshhh. It’s okay. I’ve gotten them out.” Still kneeling, he glanced up at her. Now he could offer a bite of himself for her to heal with. She was likely to deny him (and be very angry) but he would risk her displeasure if it would stop her pain.
Whatever he was planning to say was knocked out of him at the sight of her. Tears ran down her face, cheeks flushed from the effort not to flinch or jerk in his hold. Her breathing was labored, heavy as she gulped air through her nose, mouth still biting hard into the cloth as he’d instructed. But the most captivating sight were her eyes, half-lidded with pain but glowing with unyielding trust as they met his.
All at once, those pesky reactions in him soared high until it felt like they would explode his chest open.
Then they quieted down.
What did his mother do again when he got hurt?
“Oh, darling.” Still holding her gaze, he placed a gentle kiss below her knee. Slowly. Unintrusively. A comfort for all she endured. “It’s okay. You did well holding on despite how much it must’ve hurt.” Praise and affirmation, delivered in a soothing manner. A small sob followed and a fresh round of tears spilled from her eyes, running down her already wet cheeks.
So weak. So vulnerable. So pitiful, his darling.
He stood up. Reaching out to her, the woman practically leaned into his touch, seeking anything to alleviate her suffering. He offered it without hesitation. With one hand behind her head, gently tilting it towards him and the other coaxing her to let go of the gag, he placed a gentle peck on her forehead. “You’re alright, dear.”
“…uurgh…I thought I was gonna faint.” Letting go of the tension she held, her head fell to rest her forehead on his shoulder. His hand went to her back, rubbing circles absentmindedly as he waited for her to regain her strength. Her bare skin felt comforting against his palm, soothing his own frazzled state of being with its heat. He could feel a few of her tears seeping through his shirt as her warm breaths puffed against his chest.
All was quiet except for her breathing. Even the buzzing in his head was silent in reverence of this moment.
Just the two of them in a comforting hold.
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It was all so very intimate that his hackles were beginning to rise the more he thought about it. A few more seconds. He’d give them a few more seconds of this…softness or else he might do something silly. Like bite her out of spite.
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Once she managed to get sufficiently cleaned and bandaged up, he brought her to her room. As soon as she settled into her little mountain, she fell asleep, exhaustion taking its toll on her but not before mumbling a small thank you for his services. Sweet creature. Far too sweet.
Returning to his bathroom, he ordered his shadow minions to clean up everything. Already used to cleaning up worse messes than a few blood splattered floors, the dark minions did as they were told with efficiency. Stripping out of his clothing, he moved to the shower to freshen up after the whole ordeal with Ynna. It somehow felt like he’d fought a whole army rather than a small group of hirelings with the mental toll she’d put him through.
Stopping by the counter, the bloody bullets he’d pulled out caught his attention. They sparkled in the dim light, almost as if they were calling to him. Hmmph. Tempting little things.
Without much thought, he gave in and tossed both scraps into his mouth, immediately savoring the metallic tang of blood and bitter gunpowder that spread around his tongue. Delicious.
Notes:
This chapter really strayed from my plans as I never planned to write a ‘caring for the injured party’ scene. Of course, since this is Alastor, it couldn’t all be wholesome but he is getting there, I think.
I hope I conveyed Ynna’s escalating struggle with her body and Alastor’s shelving of his agenda so he can genuinely comfort her (and how he’s not exactly comfortable when he realizes it) properly.
Like always, let me know what you think in the comments.
Chapter 16: Do it for him
Notes:
Hello! Thank you for the continued support! It really makes the hours spent on this worth it to hear back from y'all. Please enjoy this new chapter and let me know what you think in the comments!
Also, life's been super busy and continues to be for the foreseeable future. I hope you all can be patient as I slowly work through this story. I hope to have a new chapter out in 2 weeks!
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Ynna’s POV
The sound of knocking on your bedroom door woke you up from your sleep. You blearily observed the aches and pains of your body, particularly where you’d been shot. A quick glance at your shoulder showed that the wound had stopped bleeding. Unfortunately, you’d been too exhausted and in pain to put on another shirt after Alastor had finished bandaging you up after deftly stitching your wounds closed.
Thinking of the Radio Demon, you blushed as you remembered his gentle comforting after the most painful experience you’d ever felt. The constant shooting pain of having someone dig into your leg to pull out a bullet had somehow been worse than a broken neck. At least, you could faint while you were suffocating but you couldn’t do that while someone was performing minor surgery on you without anesthesia. Not unless you wanted to risk unconsciously reacting to the pain. Then, at the end of that excruciating event, your usually very sadistic friend had gone out of his way to just hold you while you got yourself back together.
Shit. He even kissed your leg and forehead. It was so sweet. How were you supposed to react to that now that you were less pain-addled and drained? You tried to think back on those events to see if you could glean any clue on how to best react to Alastor once you saw him again.
knock knock knock
“Who is it?” In your fluster, you forgot that someone was at the door.
“It’s Angel. Can I come in?”
“Yeah.”
The spider stepped in, looking a little rough despite having cleaned himself up after the fight. His eyes were red and he exuded an exhaustion that rivaled his rougher days after work. He closed the door behind him and just stood there, eyes trailing over your bandages. You recognized that look, guilt, shyness and sadness blending into a stoic expression.
“Hey, can you come over here?” Patting your bedside, you initiated the conversation. The spider moved hesitantly, taking a little bit of coaxing before he sat down next to you but still farther away than you’d have liked. He remained quiet, face blank as he just looked at your body. From this distance, the smell of alcohol wafted from him, mixing with the sweet warm notes of his perfume, like many a sweet and sad night at Husk’s bar. It looked like tonight would be a sad one.
“Are you okay?” / “Fucking shit, Ynna.”
At the same moment you tried to prompt him, he spoke, despair and frustration in his tone, immediately shutting you up in hopes that he would continue.
“Me? You’re askin’ about me when you’re back on bed rest again? Fuckin’ Hell Ynna. Why’d you join the fight? You shoulda hid like I told ya to. Now, look at ya!” With all his arms out, he gestured wildly, voice cracking just a little as he became more upset. Every glance at your wounds embittered the line of his mouth, each sweeping look giving you the urge to cover up to stop his self-torment. But that wouldn’t change the reality of your state so instead, you wanted to soothe his worries.
“You’re right. I ate a little bit more than I could chew trying to help but I couldn’t just let you guys take care of them without doing anything. They were looking for me. It’s my fault y’all ended up in that situation.” With a gentle voice, you went to touch one of his hands but he caught yours instead, abruptly stopping you from going any closer.
“No it’s my fault.” The spider couldn’t truly be thinking that he was the source of all your pain, could he? The way he refused to meet your eyes said it was so.
“What do you mean? They were looking for me?”
“No.” He shook his head, leaning away as he let go. He needed space, his feelings threatening to suffocate him, but the way he shook gave the impression that he thought you’d get hurt just by touching him. “I recognized some of ‘em. They were Valentino’s goons. He probably sent them over to rough ya up after what happened last time.”
“Oh come on. He’s an Overlord. He can’t be that stupid to attack the Princess of Hell’s hotel. Not to mention, Al is also guarding the place. Didn’t he turn tail as soon as Al kicked his ass before?” It would honestly be baffling for an Overlord to overstep so much. As far as you knew, the Radio Demon ranked pretty highly among the current Overlords. At the very least, the notoriety of the Vees needed three of them to match up to one Alastor.
“Valentino’s vicious, toots. He ain’t exactly the smartest guy out there and he’s a violent psychopath. He would totally send his grunts to beat ya up to make a point, to you and…me. I’m surprised he didn’t come himself if he was so mad.” His face crinkled in distaste, remembering some incidents with his boss that backed up his statement. Not that you doubted him. You’d seen the man yourself so you believed his word.
“Well, did you tell Charlie?” Neither you nor the spider could do anything against an Overlord but you thought the princess could. She was sure to already be trying to figure out why someone attacked the hotel.
“I— No.”
“Why not? She’d totally go over there and teach Valentino a lesson.”
“That’s just it, toots. I don’t wanna see any of you get hurt. Charlie can give a mean lecture but she ain’t violent, at least, not in a way that would actually stop Val. Who knows what sorta things he would do to her if she went storming up to his place again? It was bad enough last time when I barely got her to leave before he blew a fuse.”
While Charlie was too sweet for her own good, you really doubted she would let this slide. Unless you had the power structure of Hell wrong, she would definitely be able to take care of one, maybe even all three, of the Vees if she wanted to. “But Angel—“
“NO!” You startled as he yelled, slamming his hands onto your mattress in anger, six eyes opening at the force of his desperation. Desperate for you to understand.
He’d never raised his voice at you before, not in a way meant to cow you into submission like that. Remorse immediately made its way onto his face, a deep sadness reflecting on his eyes that just…broke your heart for him. “Shit—I…I’m sorry. But no. I—I can’t let her go there. He’d rip her to shreds, lay his filthy fuckin’ hands on her and—and” Whatever scenarios he thought of in his head choked him in fear, breaths strangled by self-induced panic.
“Angel. Angel—!” You needed to hold him. It felt like he would shatter into pieces if you didn’t. Reaching for him again, he thankfully didn’t stop you this time. You pulled the spider to you. A pang shook your heart seeing him like this. He was a strong one, always hiding his problems but here he was, looking like his world was collapsing. When he didn’t budge, you tugged on even harder. “Come on. Come here. Please.” Your voice almost cracked with how constricted your throat felt as you tried to stop yourself from crying for him.
“Ynna, it’s killing me to see ya like this. This is all my fault. I can handle Val. I’m used to dealin’ with him but you…” His voice croaked, wet with tears he couldn’t shed as he looked and looked at you, your shoulders, your legs, your still bloody bra that you had yet to change out of. “You shouldn’t have ever gotten hurt. You shouldn’t have ever gotten involved. What if he keeps comin’ after ya? What if next time, it’s when you’re out by yourself? There are worse things he can do to you than kill you, Ynna. I don’t want that to happen to you.” His voice cracked as if he were begging, begging to some higher power that the worst would never happen, hands in prayer as he cupped your face. As if looking into your eyes would help you understand the danger.
“You shouldn’t be friends with me. I can tell Val that you stayed away cuz you learned your lesson and maybe he’ll back off.” Those mismatched eyes strained to let you know his worries. And you did understand that there were dangers you couldn’t even begin to imagine, horrors you couldn’t think of because you lacked the knowledge and experience that the spider had (and oh how you wished he didn’t have them). But how could you ever abandon him, when he was willing to be alone to keep you safe?
“No. Don’t do that Angel. Please. Don’t tell me that I fought this hard and got hurt just to lose my friend to some piece of shit overgrown mothman.” You wouldn’t have it. Absolutely not.
“Ynna—“ With all your strength, you managed to pull the spider. He toppled onto your stomach and oh did it hurt your injuries, tugging on the stitches Alastor had expertly sewed, but you endured. Running your fingers through his hair, you tried to soothe the distressed man. He froze, uncertain as you continued, fingertips gently grazing down his scalp. Eventually, he relaxed. Wrapping two sets of arms carefully around you, he snuggled into your bare stomach.
“I will storm up the Vee’s tower myself if you isolate yourself thinking it’ll help. It won’t.” You tried to turn his face towards you. Stroking your thumb under his left three eyes, you spoke softly. “I’d never stop being your friend, Angel.”
“Shit. Ynna. The things he can do…what if you end up hurt all the time? You’re super squishy, babe. Can’t even throw a punch to save your life.” The fuzz of his fluff tickled your stomach, a giggle making its way passed your lips. Or maybe that was the elation from seeing him come back to himself from the brink of a breakdown.
“Then teach me how. I know we’re working on redemption but who knows how long that’s gonna take? I’m sure Charlie and Vaggie wouldn’t mind if you teach me some ways to defend myself. And…” You hesitated, unsure if and how much you wanted to share with the spider but you felt that it would reassure him some to know. “...I recently found out some powers I have so…I’m not as helpless anymore.”
“Powers? What do you mean powers? Like, did ya get anything more than just being a goat when ya spawned in Hell? What is it?” He perked up at the mention of it, curiosity and interest replacing his prior anguish.
“Uhh…it’s…I’m not really proud of it so I’d rather not say. But it does come in handy if I’m in trouble.” You debated whether to share your…vampirism? Parasitism? You weren’t even sure what to call your brand of cannibalism. Maybe he would understand and not give you a hard time about it. But you didn’t even want to use that power so why burden him with specifics? What if he was like Alastor and just offered you a bite since he was feeling guilty? You didn’t want that.
“Don’t tell me you’re like a succubus or something. If it was, ya know I wouldn’t judge. Heck, I’d even offer to help ya. Girls aren’t my thing but I’ll make an exception for ya, toots. I also know a lot of people if ya have a type.” An impish grin spread on his face. See! What was with your friends offering you such intimate help so casually? Though, you felt blessed to have them. The feeling settled warmly in your chest, reinforcing your need to protect them, even from yourself if needed.
“No. Not that kinda ability. But definitely not conventional. I really don’t like it but it’s…something.” Self-loathing creeped into your voice and you didn’t hold it back. Hell really knew how to fuck with its sinners.
“That bad, huh?” The small mirth in his eyes that came as he tried to guess your abilities faded away at your tone. He understood. There were just some things…you never wanted for yourself but were stuck with. He had those same pains too.
“Yep.” With a popping P, the conservation went into silence, both of you lost in thought. His arms around your middle shifted, reminding you of why he was here. Clearing your throat, the sound brought him out of his musings. With a small smile that you hoped was reassuring, you carded your hand through his hair once more.
“Hey…so, no more saying this is your fault. It’s Valentino’s. He sent them here and one day, we’re gonna get him back for it. You can teach me how to kick ass in the meantime.” The idea of you actually learning how to fight brought giggles to your mouths, a warm atmosphere replacing the tension. It looked pretty ridiculous imagining your softy self throwing a punch.
“Should we let Charlie know they were with Valentino?” As the giggling died down, you decided to ask him.
“Uuurggh. I really don’t want any of ya getting involved with him but he did damage her property and shit so I guess we should.” His breath tickled your belly as he let out a sigh, the arms around you squeezing tighter. “At least, I can get her out of there if she can’t handle him.”
“…If that happens, will he hurt you more?” You had no illusions that any retaliation would effectively end Valentino’s violence. Against you maybe, but Angel would still be vulnerable and this thought quelled your need to punch the pimp.
“Babes, don’t worry about me. I can handle it. And it ain’t my place to stop Charlie from getting her revenge.” A bit of his fake bravado shined through his answer but along with it was a genuine confidence in himself. He would be fine. And if he wasn’t, you and the others would make sure he would be. You cursed Valentino anew in your head as you continued to pet Angel’s hair, eventually falling back to sleep while debating which weapon you should learn and how to convince Vaggie to let you have one.
Alastor’s POV
His shadow reported a surprising find when it returned from investigating the bodies. From the photo in the leader’s wallet, he could guess exactly what had happened and why the sharks had come to the hotel looking for Ynna specifically. Though it was still a theory.
“I recognize these men as Valentino’s. Ynna and I happened to run into some of their friends on the day we went to invite Mimzy to perform.” For now, he shared this tidbit with Charlie. Maybe she would finally let him deal with the moth in the name of the hotel.
“Did anything happen that day? Why would they be after her?” The princess looked up from the line of dead bodies, hands bloodied anew in her cleaning efforts.
“Oh, just a little scuffle that I took care of. Why they were after her, I’m not certain but it wouldn’t be the first time that reprobate hurt her.”
“That slimy shithead motherfucker. As if last time wasn’t enough already, he had to go and send his goon squad here too.” Vaggie manifested her spear, thirsty for the blood of the scoundrel. Perfect. He would maybe let her stab the scum once for agreeing with him.
“We can’t go rushing in there like last time. He might take it out on Angel again. Plus, we still have the party. Should we just cancel it?” Trying to placate her girlfriend, the princess brought up her concerns. A deep exhaustion settled into her fair features, disappointment darkening her bright eyes.
“I think that’s a terrible idea. Think of all the guests you would disappoint and the damage the hotel’s already precarious reputation would take.” His brows drew down in a scowl at the suggestion. She wasn’t wrong in assuming that any retaliation from them would result in increased hardships for the spider but that was the nature of his deal. Her main concern should be keeping their business safe and running, as was her role as proprietress. For his part, the thought that some insignificant scum could cause a change of plans was simply insulting. “Canceling the party would be the same as giving in to the Vee’s terrorism.”
“But the place is wrecked, Al. We’re not gonna be able to fix this up in time.” The princess walked across the rubble of the foyer, the group’s preparations rendered futile with streamers turned to trash and tables and chairs broken. But it was nothing he couldn’t fix.
“If you want it to go on as planned, all you need to do is ask, Charlie, my dear.” Saddling up to her side, he smiled, offering her his most disarming and comforting one. The princess turned her wide hopeful eyes up at him. The party had been something she’d poured her heart and hopes into, something she’d desperately thought would aid her endeavors as her hopes and dreams still hadn’t taken (angelic) wing. Something she might be desperate enough to make a deal over.
“Could you really fix it, Al?” Her sweet voice grew small as if she didn’t dare to hope.
“But of course, my de—“
“If this is one of your attempts to get her to make a deal with you, Alastor, I swear to her grandfather, I will end you.” And the opportunity was gone. It really was such a bother to have the woman around to keep warning Charlie.
“Oh you can certainly try, my dear.” He grinned wider at the moth, not letting go of his gracious air. She bristled, a pathetic snarl on her lips, a Spanish curse at the tip of her tongue.
“Stop it, both of you. And Al, I’d love for the party to go on as scheduled if you’re able to fix up the hotel by that time but if you aren’t, then I’m okay with postponing it or canceling it altogether.” Hands on her girlfriend’s shoulders, Charlie gave her answer. Oh well. He had no intention of letting the event fall through either way, not after he’d taken the time to advertise it.
“Then, I’ll have things ready by that evening. No need to worry. In the meantime, why don’t you look into this incident a bit more? I would like to bring this case over to the perpetrator after we hold our event.”
Once the women left, he summoned his legion of shadows to fix up the place. It would take a little longer than he’d prefer as the minions needed to take more care in making sure everything was back to the way it was but things would be restored as they should be, made even better now that he was taking a more active part in the presentation of the event.
Seeing the line of dead bodies getting in the way, he summoned eldritch flames to eat away at them. The green fires burned through the bodies in an instant, leaving only rancid fumes in their place. Seeing all the holes in the windows and wall, the smell would be gone soon enough. With the repairs underway, there was nothing left for him to do in the lobby so he thought it best to check on his dear darling one last time before retiring for the evening.
He hummed a little melody as he walked the familiar path to her room. It had taken a few hours and a taste of blood and gunpowder for him to settle down after their earlier…sweetness. It was startlingly new to him how he cared for her comfort and well-being, to the point that even his constant scheming had quieted. Well, maybe not new. Unpracticed, more like. Not since his beloved mother had passed on to heavenly arms.
But this was a good thing. How could it not be when he was determined to keep her around in the future? He had worried that keeping her favor would require more attentiveness than he could provide, that the centuries would wear on and the effort to put on a more caring facade would eventually dampen the kick he got from her. But their relationship was evolving into something not just palatable but also, pleasant and easy.
She called him and he answered with a smile. He showed her his more unsavory sides and she shrugged it off with a smile. Not something he could have envisioned weeks ago when this started but the woman he thought was a coward turned out to save all her courage and resilience for those important to her. He would have thought it pathetic had he not been one of those important people. Maybe even the most important given today’s events. He felt pleased that she called him in her hour of need. Though he did need to find a better way for her to contact him in the future.
Sensing the quiet air in her room, he didn’t bother with the door, instead directly shadowing in for a quick look to make sure that she was well before going off to his suite. He expected to see her, still dozing peacefully in her little mountain of pillows and blankets, safe and warm in recovery. And she was, with the addition of one Angel Dust. In her bed.
His entire body froze at the sight, eyes intently taking it in.
Ynna, with one hand on the porn actor’s head, slept peacefully. Her body tilted slightly to make room for the taller demon. Angel Dust slept on her bare stomach, many arms wrapped around his goat as he curled around her, careful to avoid her wounds.
She’d moved to the side to make room for the other man. He’d been welcomed to cuddle next to her.
Static escaped his body causing the lights to flicker on and off.
It didn’t look like anything inappropriate had happened between the two. From the slight redness around the spider’s eyes, it had most likely been just that he had cried to her about something. Likely blaming himself for letting her get hurt like he had before. As if her safety was his responsibility. He scoffed.
It shouldn’t surprise him that the two friends would be in such a position. They were very close and touch was a normality in their friendship. A hug, a nudge, leaning on each other. Nothing was wrong with this scene and yet…
His cheek rested on her warm belly, gloved fingertips brushing lightly against the rarely exposed skin. He had no doubt that the spider would have wrapped himself more around the woman had she not been injured. With the way her fingers delicately curled around pink and white fur, it appeared that she welcomed the contact.
Maybe even encouraged it.
He grit his teeth in an effort to restrain his leaking static. The urge to pluck up the man and fling him out the window to fall three stories down surged inside him, shadows licking the foot of her bed wanting to heed his wishes. There should be limits to how intimately she acted with the spider! Despite his preference for the same sex and incredibly effeminate appearance, he was still a man! Where was their sense of propriety!? Would she do this with any of her friends? Surely this must be an exception given that the porn actor was her closest confidant and companion—!
Click
More static escaped, green electricity shooting dangerously close to the sleeping man before he reigned it in. The shadows around the bed danced with the fluctuating emotions roiling in him, like black flames threatening to engulf the irritating scene like the dead bodies he’d just incinerated in the lobby. Really. Just as he thought he’d become her deerest companion.
What to do? It wouldn’t be a good look to wake them. Should he use his magic to bring the spider back to his own room? Should they question how it had happened, the occasional blackouts in the spider’s memory from his addictions could be blamed. They needn’t know that he’d done it, been witness to this moment and been so agitated by it.
It was decided then. With a snap of his fingers, the spider disappeared into a mass of darkness and was deposited none too gently into his own bed. With him gone, the air finally felt breathable, the constricting feeling of displeasure somewhat soothed as only he and his goat were left in her room. He smoothed non-existent wrinkles in his suit, smoothing his momentarily ruffled feathers with a few flicks of his wrist as he went to her side.
Upon closer inspection, her brows were slightly furrowed, mouth in a thin line. Not quite as peaceful of a sleep as he thought. The hand that had been in Angel Dust’s hair flexed as if searching for the now gone spider. His smile thinned at that. She must just be cold. As he adjusted the blanket around her to cover her more completely, the movement stirred her to consciousness.
“Alas…tor?” Emerging from sleep, she looked at him unfocused, still drowsy and even lolling her head around. He reached to cup her cheek, its softness leaning into his ungloved hand as she had earlier today, guiding her back to the land of the waking.
“Hello, darling. I didn’t mean to wake you from your rest.”
“That’s okay. Have you seen Angel?” Her wide eyes sleepily swept across the room, looking for the spider.
“He was drinking with Husker earlier this evening.” His tone remained even as he moved just a bit closer to her, trying to bring her attention back to him by looming at her side.
“Yeah. He dropped by but I guess he left. What are you doing here?” While asking the question, she pulled the blanket he’d placed on her tighter around her, burying herself in its warmth. Finally her attention was fully on him, a gesture that sent a buzz of delight through him, pulling his smile just a tad wider. He brushed a thumb against her cheek before pulling back.
“Just checking in on you before I retire for the evening.” With a helpful hand, he tucked the sheet carefully around her injured shoulder, a gesture that she gave him a grateful glance for. “Your wounds seem to be okay but it looked like you were having a nightmare.”
“Huh? Oh. It wasn’t anything too bad. I was just thinking about something and I guess it followed me to sleep.”
“Seems like something rather important if it’s followed you to the realm of dreams. Come now, what seems to be troubling you?” As soon as he smelled a bit of information to be gotten, he’d felt giddy. He needed to take this chance to embed himself further into her confidence.
Taking a seat at the edge of her bed, he gave a small smile inviting her to confide her troubles in him. The goat looked at him, torn. Oh whatever could his darling be troubled by? How could he be the one to help her through it? His eyes immediately caught the small peak of her tongue wetting her lips, an innocent motion that sent a thrill through his body.
“I was thinking…of using my powers to heal up. I talked with Angel earlier and I thought…if things like this happened, like right now, I got shot and I can’t even move, I was thinking that I should take advantage of my powers and heal up really quick. That way, you all won’t have to worry about me.” Her talk with the spider had prompted her to think about the advantages of her physique. Did that mean that she’d let the spider know about it? It irritated him to think that the secret that only the two of them knew was now shared with others. However, that irritation was quickly swept away when she continued to ponder and fret.
“But I still can’t get over the thought of eating other demons. Like, there’s no way I’d ever get redeemed if I actually do it, right?” Her face pinched in thought, her mouth mumbling soundlessly as she worked through her conundrum. Was she actually considering cannibalism seriously? It was almost too good to be true. Were his ears working correctly? Her expression remained introspective, clearly trying to make a decision. Not disgusted like she’d always been at the thought of eating demon flesh, but discomforted, uneasy, apprehensive…a plethora of words but NOT outright rejection.
Excitement jolted through him. Like a marquee lighting up for the evening, his body came alive at the thought of her possibly choosing to partake in demon flesh. It was perfect. He had been wanting to offer her something for this recent incident but could not think of the best way to deliver it. But if she asked for it herself…
His heart thudded loudly in his chest, goosebumps rising along his arms. What could he prepare quickly? Blood? Something from his forearm? His leg? Should he even cook or could he invite her to bite him directly?
Shivers traveled down his spine at the prospect of her mouth anywhere near his skin, with the intention of ripping flesh.
“Maybe I shouldn’t. I mean, it’s not an emergency. I mean, if I actually eat someone but if it was out of self-defense, that should still be okay, right?” She spoke at him, eyes unfocused as she debated with herself. Oh no. He had to stir her away from talking herself out of it.
He chuckled, loud enough to catch her attention but not enough that she’d think he was laughing at her. He’d rather bust a gut laughing in glee but that was inappropriate at the moment. “Oh darling, if you truly wished to be heaven bound, you wouldn’t be contemplating sin just to appease your friend’s worries in the first place. That it’s even crossed your mind enough to torment you like this tells me that redemption isn’t your priority, your friends are. And the way you go about caring for them is in a rather…practical manner.”
“Practical?” Those large eyes focused on him, curious about what he meant. A thrumming started in his gut, anticipation coiling. The threads of her reasoning were laid bare to him. He just needed to pull the right string.
“Yes. You’re the type who’s willing to use the tools at your disposal to achieve your goal, even if you suffer a little for it.” He grinned at her, no teeth, just mirth. Still letting her know that he enjoyed her struggle but also trying to give her advice, as a friend with his perspective and tastes would. “So all of this comes down to one question: is your moral suffering worth the guilt and worry that your friends are feeling right now?”
Her focused eyes dimmed a little, their stare turning wary and even slightly hateful. Practical was too polite of a word to describe her. She was reckless, really. Self-sacrificing to a fault. So the slight hate in her eyes as he presented a new scale for her to weigh her decision on was understandable. Because the answer was clear from the start. This people-pleasing woman with a bleeding heart for her friends would do anything for them, even tainting her own soul, so long as they cared for her the same.
The anticipation was cooking him from the inside, shivers running all over his limbs as her eyes looked at him, trying to rebalance that scale that was already tipped to her downfall. With how much she struggled, he wondered if she would change her tune, deciding that a bit of comfort and convenience wasn’t worth the damage it would do to her psyche. If he looked closely enough, he could practically see her soul cry out in dismay. Internally, he scowled at that. She was being too dramatic. The answer was so simple if she just gave in—
“It’s only an option for you, darling. Just because it’s there doesn’t mean you have to use it. If it’s hurting you this much to even consider it, then don’t.” He found himself saying the complete opposite of where he’d hoped for her to go.
All the coiling feelings in him froze as he processed what he’d said. He couldn’t even retract the statement as that tortured gaze cleared up, looking at him more hopeful and at ease as the storm clouds of doubt and despair blew away from her eyes. His tongue caught when she looked at him so sweetly.
“You really think so, Al?”
“Yes. I’m sure you’re familiar with the saying: ‘The road to Hell is paved with good intentions.’ Don’t sacrifice more than what you could bear for others. If they cared for you just as much, they wouldn’t want to see you dredge yourself in sin for their sakes.” What was he saying? He couldn’t believe that he’d let the opportunity go. Why? Just because he cared about her didn’t mean that he could let go of what he desired of her!
“Thanks Alastor.” He watched her gaze gradually shift until they were colored with his favorite emotions of hers, caring and sincere, evoking an image that he’d not thought of in a while.
“Anything.”
Right. He’d almost forgotten, carried away by the bodily thrills he was chasing. What he wanted, in its highest form, was her devotion, free from coercion and soul-shattering torture. Her joy, her pain, her teeth grinding his bones to dust, whatever it was, so long as she gave it freely. Even better if she enjoyed it.
He could pester her, tease her, nudge her in whichever direction as he built their relationship but it would all be for naught if she became a shell of herself if he pushed her too far too quickly.
“No need to thank me, darling. When you do decide to indulge, I’d rather you enjoy it.”
“Why would you want me to enjoy eating other people?”
“Because I wouldn't want my dinner buddy being all sad. It would spoil the meal altogether and that would be such a waste.” He waved his hand as if that was the obvious answer. Good company made for a good dining experience. A foodie like her would also understand.
“Uuurgggh you’re so gross.” She made a gagging face followed by a bit of laughter. The evening ended with an exchange of good night’s. As he walked back to his suite, he couldn’t help but note that she didn’t deny that one day, she would partake.
Chapter 17: Party Pt 1
Notes:
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Chapter Text
Alastor’s POV
The day of the party eventually came and with it, a flurry of useless worrying from Charlie. Really, the dear needed to calm down. He had it all under control with everything not only put back where it was but also improved. He’d told her as such but that did very little to lessen her nerves. Oh well. He was sure that once the people arrived, she would be her usual bright and happy self, wanting to befriend every wayward soul looking to have a good time that evening.
Banners were hung, a classy maroon color draped along the ceiling, highlighting a sparkling chandelier. He’d replaced the boring folding chairs and plastic tables with proper furnishings topped with simple white tablecloths and a small candle centerpiece. Across the bar was the main stage where the performers would play and just below it was a dance floor. Really, he’d put in quite the effort to fix things up after the scuffle two days ago. He was very pleased with the results.
The only thing that wasn’t completely fixed was his goat.
After Ynna expressed her desire to join the party, Charlie had gone out of her way to procure a wheelchair for her. The girls helped her get dressed before leaving for their own preparations and that left him waiting for her to finish getting ready.
“Are you sure you’re feeling up to socializing this evening, darling? While I would miss having you around, it’d take all the fun out of the evening if your condition got worse.”
“Oh I’ll be fine. The wounds are closed up so I just gotta be careful not to reopen them while moving around.” She fiddled with her hair, putting in a bit of effort to look nicer this evening. “It sucks that I can’t dance but at least I’ll still be able to hang around and chat with people. Besides, Charlie even got Razzle and Dazzle to escort me.” Hearing their names, the two minions poked their heads out of Ynna’s pile of pillows that they played in while the woman was dressing.
“If you do wish to dance tonight, I can grant that, you know.” He leaned his back against her vanity casually, a teasing smile on his face as he watched her debate which shade of lipstick to wear. Her eyes flitted up to him briefly before settling back onto the two tubes in her hand. A small shock of electricity sparked through his chest at the fleeting gaze, his smile easing into a more relaxed one at the delightful feeling. He really did adore those eyes of hers. He’d found himself wanting them to turn his way more often since Angel Dust, since another man, had been in her room.
“Are you gonna offer me another potion, Al?” The two tubes were raised in front of him for judgment and he plucked the color he thought suited her the most from her hand. When she reached to take it back from him, he simply wagged his index finger at her. Using the same finger, he tilted her chin up gently, forcing her to look at him and the lipstick he uncapped with his other hand.
Satisfaction buzzed warm and low in his chest when her initial weak resistance turned to acceptance, giving in to his whimsy comfortably as he offered to put it on for her. It wasn’t quite the right shade of red he wanted to see on her lips but her docile gaze up at him left him pleased and satisfied enough.
“You already sound opposed to the idea.” The lipstick brought a little bit more color to her face, giving it a lovely impression. So lovely, in fact, that he couldn’t help but squeeze her cheeks, an action that brought a giggle to her lips.
“You already do so much for me, Alastor.” Her warm gaze softened, a bit of guilt and confusion directing themselves at him, fueling his delight. “But that really is too much. I know you said that the idea of me being a cannibal too was fun for you but I really don’t get why you have to go that far. Why do you keep offering?”
“Well, darling. If the situation was reversed, wouldn’t you do the same for me?” Almost unconsciously, she murmured a ‘yes’, the sound small but truthful. So caring and loyal. He really did just want to eat her up and carry her fragile self with him wherever he went. But He shooed away those delectable thoughts for another time in favor of savoring her attention with a grin. “Then you already understand why, silly girl. It just so happens that I’d get more of a kick out of it than you would.”
Her concerned stare bore deep into his, each second a sweet breeze fanning the warmth he was feeling. Finally, her face settled into a resigned yet happy expression, pulling back to sit properly in her wheelchair and check her face in the mirror.
“It’d make more sense to just take me to Cannibal Town than cut yourself up if what you wanted was to get me to, how did you put it, ‘discover the joys of your unique tastes’.”
“It’s because I understand that my tastes aren’t your cup of tea that I’m offering. I have a theory that it’s more efficient for you to consume from higher ranking sinners with more power flowing through their flesh. More bang per bite, so to say.” They continued casually observing each other with Ynna left to ponder the excuse that he came up with. It was a brilliant theory that would hold some merit to experiment with but…he could hear a breaking of static from within himself. He’d devour all other sinners first before he let her even try.
“Theorizing about my powers?” For once, she navigated the conversation looking completely unbothered, a small joking smile on her lips. She signaled for the two minions to pull her wheelchair around, fully dressed and ready to depart. He beat them to it, grabbing the handles and pushing her along before the fluttering peons could.
“Someone has to, darling. Lucky for you, you have me around to think about all these little things for you since you still aren’t too keen to learn about them yourself. Isn’t it a comfort to know you weren’t spawned in Hell completely helpless, after all?”
“I mean, it can be super useful…but I don’t have to use it at all either, like you said.” She leaned back against her chair as he continued to push her down the hallway, showing a little impish smile on her face. She tilted her head far back to look up at him, the smooth column of her neck exposed just so. “Are you excited?”
She meant the party, of course, trying to change the subject to something lighter. But his eyes were more drawn to the sparkle in her eyes and the line of her throat. “Why, of course! Music, dancing and rubbing elbows with Hell’s lowest ranking scum. What’s not to be excited about?”
“Will people even show up? No offense, but I wouldn’t exactly feel stoked about a party the Radio Demon advertised in one of his broadcasts.”
“That’s because you aren’t desperate enough, darling.” As they arrived at the lounge, the twin lamb minions pushed open the doors, letting the blaring music and loud chatter they blocked through. A packed room of sinners of all shapes and sizes spread in front of them. “Free food and drinks will always get people to come around.”
“Ah. Just like in college.” A snort reached his ears as Ynna observed, eyes trailing over the new faces milling about their usually empty hotel. They made their way over to a table occupied by Niffty, Angel Dust and the snake with his henchmen, immediately getting absorbed in their chatter as they settled themselves in.
Nothing too interesting was happening at the table, the group’s interactions just the same as everyday though their eyes wandered to the new people in the room every now and then.
“Never thought I’d see this joint poppin’. Feels like halfa the Pentagram’s in here.” Angel Dust took a sip of his cocktail, his second judging from the empty glass next to him. “You two need a drink? Husky’s pourin’ til 11.” Ynna, in curiosity, asked for a sip from the spider’s cup which the man gave easily enough. Her lips just avoided where Angel’s had been. For a miniscule moment, he heard a hiss in the dark, his shadow unhappy with the effortless closeness of the two as it had been since that time. He quieted the phantom as usual, unimpressed with its behavior. There really was no need to act so aggressive. He would eventually be the closest to his goat in time.
“Of course! Razzle, Dazzle, could you bring me to the bar?” Ynna cheered, her enthusiasm rising to match the energy of the room, which was to say, she was buzzing with excitement. Seeing her so lively despite being injured was heartening, easing an unknown tension that he had been holding. She would be fine this evening. She would have fun with her friends.
“No need. I can get those for us. What’s your poison, darling?” Seeing an opportunity, he stood and straightened out his coat. It was a good excuse to get away from the rather inane conversations they were having for a moment and he couldn’t possibly trouble the injured woman to get her own drink.
“Husk knows my usual. Thanks Al!” Already used to him doing things his way, his goat just smiled and gave her order. See, she so easily relied on him now for little things when she’d protest politely before.
Throwing her a playful bow, he went to fetch their drinks. Along the way, he spotted more than a few suspicious felons in the crowd, a bustling room their favorite place to hunt. He’ll have to keep an eye out and make sure things didn’t get overtly out of hand. Wouldn’t want his efforts to go to waste because some sinners couldn’t help themselves.
“Husker, my good man!” The cat behind the counter spotted his approach and frowned deeper than his usual scowling mug. Leaning against the bar, he threw an easy smile at Husker. The man should liven up. He thought the drunk would actually be enjoying himself being surrounded by equally inebriated souls he plied with alcohol. “I’ll have my usual if you could be so kind and a cocktail for Ynna. She said you’d know what to make.”
“Coming right up.” With a sigh, the barman got to work on their drinks. Despite his moaning and groaning under breath, he poured expertly, taking great care as he went. Such a good bartender. “Is the kid even good enough to be drinking?” Yellow eyes looked at him in question, a rare show of observable concern peeking through the bored tone he spoke with.
“Why wouldn’t she be? I patched her up myself and I can guarantee that she can at least handle a night of heavy drinking.” He leaned even closer, observing the cat through smiling eyes. Aww. It looked like the gruff man really had developed a soft spot for his goat, not just a superficial friendship. Good. Folding his hands beneath his chin, he called to his employee.
“Say Husker.”
“Oh no. I know that tone. What kinda shit are ya gonna have me do now?” Immediately, black fur bristled, teeth snarled with his guard feebly up as the man whipped his head up from the drinks he was pouring.
“Oh don’t be so apprehensive, Husker. It’s just a simple favor. I’m sure you’re well aware of my budding friendship with Ynna.”
“Yeah? What about it?” As he expected, the mention of the goat simultaneously lowered the cat’s guard and upped his skepticism. It really was funny. It’s not like the cat was in any position to deny him even if he disagreed with what he was about to say. But the cat never did give up showing his discontent with him, sourpuss that he was.
“Well, after this recent incident, I thought it’d be best if you could keep an eye out for her, make sure she isn’t getting into serious trouble.” Another set of eyes watching over his goat wouldn’t hurt, especially one under his employ. And, if the cat made more effort to be around his goat and just so happened to stop Angel Dust and her from being alone together as often, well…he continued to grin happily.
“That’s it? You want me to play babysitter for her? Why? It ain’t like you to actually give a shit even if you two were close.” The barman looked incredulous, doubt filtering over his features at the uncharacteristic request. He’d asked the man to do plenty of things but protecting another was never one of them.
“Not a babysitter, that makes it sound like she’s incapable of caring for herself. Just an extra precaution. She’s not very robust as you can see and unsavory things have happened so soon after another.” Two sets of eyes briefly glanced at the goat in the corner, small in the large wheelchair she sat in. So fragile looking even as she cackled a crass sound at something Niffty said. “And as for why, well, I’m rather fond of her. I’m sure you understand. She’s got such a charming personality, so sweet and sincere. Not something you see around these parts often.” He met the cat’s eyes, some mutual understanding of old souls passing between the two of them. “Hell’s going to ruin her even if she hides in the hotel. So I hope you can be there to make sure she doesn’t get into any unnecessary harm should I be unavailable or absent.”
“Shit. You really…fine. It ain’t like I got anything better to do in this shithole.” With a grunted huff, he placed the finished drinks for him to take but not before a sly smirk inched on his black and white face. “So, the kid got you too, huh? Gotta say, didn’t think you two would click, at all.”
“What can I say, she’s got a way about her.” Taking the drinks, he sent one more smile at the man before dropping a line. “Or should I say, she’s goat a way about her.” The word play wiped that smirk off of his smug face, something he absolutely delighted in.
He sauntered back to the group easily as the crowd parted around him. In his hand, Ynna’s cocktail sparkled prettily, a layer of red strawberry puree atop ice and pale yellow alcoholic lemonade. A sprig of mint tangled around straw delicately. It gave him an urge, the usual one. The boom of the base had nothing on the sound of his heart pounding loudly in his ears. He smiled brightly, savoring the rush of guilty conscience and wicked desire locked in another delicious battle with each step he took.
Ah. Sweet torment.
Ynna’s POV
The music blared through the speaker, a pop song catchy enough for you to unconsciously tap your foot to. After Alastor dropped off your drink, he excused himself to go mingle with a few people, some acquaintances of his, he said. It was a little disappointing seeing his red coat disappear into the crowd but you weren’t about to ask him to stay around. The man had already done so much for you that you felt bad for monopolizing his time. Though, he was the one who volunteered it, popping up and sticking around until you were so used to having him and his chatter being next to you.
And then there were also the pangs of your stomach. It hit in the most unexpected of times around the man, startling you into gritting your teeth. Especially when he offered you another potion. It was a relief that you were able to push away that urge and keep up with your conversation earlier without alerting the man. It was so tempting to just go along with his suggestion, if only so the urges would stop once you were healed completely.
If they ever did stop. Horror filled you at the thought of always feeling that hunger.
It really was becoming a bit of a problem with Alastor. If the man ever found out, you were sure you’d never hear the end of it. But why was it only around him? Maybe it was because you drank his blood before with that potion? Did that mean you’d have the same reaction around Valentino?
“You okay there, toots? Ya look like ya swallowed a bug.” Swallowed a bug’s blood to be exact. A disgusted shiver raked down your spine and you were sure a matching scowl was on your face too as you snapped your attention back to Angel.
“Gross intrusive thought. Washing it away now.” You grabbed the mojito you’d only been sipping and took a few greedy gulps.
“Look at you go, toots. Atta girl. Am I finally gonna get to see ya go a little crazy tonight?” He swirled the last of his drink before throwing it back, a glint of gold in his grin.
“About as crazy as I can be in a wheelchair.”
“Oh you’d be surprised at what you can do if you just roll with it, doll face.”
You snorted at Angel. The man was back to his usual self today except a bit bedazzled and glossed up for tonight’s party. Rhinestones sparkled in his hair, glitter catching the lights just right to give him a luxurious allure. He was totally out to catch a man tonight and you were just happy to see him in a brighter mood.
“So how’s Operation Cherri going? Isn’t she supposed to be here tonight?”
“According to my sources (Angel: That’s me.), Miss Cherri will be attending this gathering thisssss evening. When she arrives, I will endeavor to get a dance with her and then we will go from there.” The snake man patted his chest proudly, shy excitement twinkling in his eyes, especially the one on his hat. The Egg Bois said encouragements beside him, at least, the ones not already drunk from having taken the others' drinks. His enthusiasm was kind of cute, especially when you’d noticed his hiss became more prominent the stronger the emotions he felt were.
Frank was over sharing all the preparations Pent did just for tonight. A new suit, a new cologne, practicing pickup lines in the mirror. You shared a look with Angel to which the porn actor made a shrugging smile. So, Angel thought that Sir Pent could have a chance. Maybe. All the more reason for you to cheer him on then.
“I think I see her by the bar. Hey, Scales. Ready to put that charm o’yours to work?” Squinting in the dim light, Angel stood up to get a better vantage. He was wearing heels too, it seemed.
“I’m sure to sweep Miss Bomb off her feet!” The snake practically hopped out of his seat as his many eyes spotted the redhead. You gave him a pat on the back as he passed by though he seemed too busy hyping himself up to approach his crush to notice.
“See ya in a bit, toots. Gonna go watch out for my girl over there.” Angel followed suit, an extra sway in his hips as he sauntered over to the bar. Several eyes turned to him as he went though he didn’t seem to care for them, too intent to see the juicy scene play out.
If you were able to walk, you would also hover around but you weren’t about to trouble your friends with bringing you around. At least, Al put you in a perfectly good spot to watch what was happening on the stage and dance floor. The crowd wasn’t so impossibly thick that you couldn’t spot Vaggie and Charlie greeting guests or the painfully stiff expression Pent had on his face as he greeted Cherri Bomb. Oh no.
Husk was also in on the gossip, calmly pouring drinks out but you could see his ears leaning towards the spectacle going on. Eventually, he was just leaning next to Angel, the two sharing looks as the scene played out.
Your hand reached over to pick up your drink, eyes trained on the nervous face Sir Pent was making and the totally unimpressed one on Cherri Bomb’s, only to come up empty. You looked over at where your drink should be right in front of you only to find it gone and in the hands of one Niffty and who gigglingly sipped the drink, eye also watching the trainwreck unfold.
“Oh he’s not doing too hot, is he? Wow this is good stuff. What’s it called?” The gurgle of a straw coming short of any liquid followed her question. One large eye blinked at you rapidly and you just realized that you’d never seen the tiny woman drunk. She looked about ready to bounce out of her seat and you were slightly concerned. Eyes trailing over the petite woman, you found no traces of knives or similarly pointy things on her person so maybe it would be okay. You were about eighty percent sure.
“Yeah, it’s good stuff. Do you mind getting me another one since you finished mine? It’s a strawberry lemon mojito. You should probably tell Husk that you drank my drink too.”
“Got it! I’ll get one for me too. Hehehe. Might as well go see what’s going on over there.” Mildly cackling, the gremlin-like woman jumped down and scurried to the bar, struggling to peer over the tall counter to get Husk to notice her. Luckily, Angel did. You figured Husk would know better about whether he should be giving the small woman more alcohol or not. In any case, they, who could freely run around, would be better equipped to handle her anyway if she got…Niffty-er.
“Did they leave you here all alone, darling?” Alastor’s staticky voice drifted towards you, drawing your attention from what looked like Sir Pent resigning himself to failure for the evening. Aww. Poor guy.
A bubble of delight bloomed in you as you heard him, happy to have him back to accompany you despite the low rumble in your stomach at the first flash of his red. Beside Alastor was an equally tall woman dressed in a Victorian era gown, a grandly decorated hat atop her short white bob. She looked elegant yet friendly with a toothy grin on her face that matched Alastor’s. From the way they stood, it was obvious to you that this was one of the deer demon’s friends. You motioned for the two to join you at the table.
“Yeah. They’re over at the bar. Sir Pent’s shooting his shot with Cherri and it looks like it isn’t going well.”
“Hmm.” Came the sound of Alastor’s politely feigned interest, which was expected. He’d never seemed interested in the snake man…at all, now that you thought about it.
The gentleman helped the lady sit, pushing the chair in as she delicately sat down before taking his earlier seat next to you. “Well, shame about that.” More polite disinterest. You almost rolled your eyes at him had he not immediately stirred the conversation his way. “Now, let me introduce you two lovely gals to each other. Rosie, this is Ynna, one of the guests at our hotel and my darling new friend. Ynna, this is Rosie, my dear friend and the most delightful and dangerous Overlord east of the Pentagram.”
“Pleasure to meet you Miss Rosie.” You held out your uninjured hand, wrangling with the apprehension and caution you felt after Alastor mentioned the title the lady in front of you held. The confident air about her and friendly atmosphere around the Radio Demon made sense if she was also a demon of equal power. Suddenly, those teeth looked a little too sharp for comfort. But since Al was introducing her, he must think she would be safe to be around.
“Oh just call me Rosie, sweetie. It’s a pleasure to meet you. Alastor’s mentioned he made a new friend these days and I’ve been dying to see the little lady who’s had the gumption to be buddies with him. But I’ve been so busy.” Her hand was warm and dainty as she shook yours. Somehow her bottomless eyes exuded a warmth and friendliness that eased your instinctive caution against the powerful woman. That toothy smile of hers turned into a small conspiratorial smirk. “This guy barely makes any friends, you know. All that charm to fill a room yet he still keeps a small circle.”
“I’m just very picky with whom I associate with.”
“Well, at least you have good taste.” She giggled behind a dainty hand, her manners impeccable yet somehow casual. “And I can tell from the way this place is arranged, I bet you had a hand in it, didn’t you Mister? The decor doesn’t match the music choice at all.”
“More than a hand. I had to fix this place up after a little incident a couple of days ago.”
“Ah. Is it the one where someone was calling you for help over the radio? I had to shut up everyone in the shop thinking that I was hearing things. I hoped whoever did that survived after you signed off.”
“Ah, that would be me.” Heat rose to your face at the reminder that all of Pentagram City (maybe even all of Pride Ring) heard your broadcast. It was so embarrassing to hear someone outside of the hotel mention it.
“Really? Oh sweetie you’ve got more moxie than I thought. This guy gets so touchy about his things I thought for sure that call for help would end up gruesome for the caller. I see you’re mostly doing fine but I just hope those injuries weren’t Alastor’s doing.” You blushed harder at the recognition of the potentially stupid move you’d made. It felt like facing your grandmother who was both proud of your shenanigans but also deeply concerned. She was very nice about it.
“He took care of the guys that did it. Though he really does have a temper. I felt so bad for trespassing in his tower and I was ready to get throttled for it too.” You said almost jokingly, feeling rather casual about it now that the incident had come to pass. Beside you, the Radio Demon tensed at your nonchalant admission.
“Darling, I can’t believe you ever thought that I’d hurt you. Have I not been a perfect gentleman ever since we made up?” His eyes looked rather hurt by your admission though he remained ever smiling. You immediately rushed to clarify.
“You have and I was about 95% sure I’d be safe with you. You’ve only ever been wonderful, Al.” If you could have patted his hand, you would have but since the man didn’t like to be touched, you settled on maintaining eye contact with him to show your sincerity. “But I also know that it’s your private space that I trespassed on, publicly broadcast it too, and you have all the right to get mad at me for it, especially if I ended up breaking something in there.”
A faint crackle of static popped through the air as he sighed, mirth filling those red eyes of his. “This is why I adore you, darling. How could I think to punish you when you say such adorably respectful things?” A red clawed hand reached to pinch your cheek and you let it, welcoming the affection as it reassured you that he took no offense to your earlier statement more than his words did.
“You’re such a sweetheart, Ynna. No wonder ol’ Alastor here’s so soft with you. From my understanding, it sounded like the whole thing was an emergency situation but here you are ready to make amends anyway. See what I mean by him having good taste?” Rosie giggled, patting Alastor in the shoulder like she was congratulating him on doing a good job.
“She really is a sweetheart, probably the sweetest soul in all of Pride Ring.”
“Aww thanks Al. You don’t have to flatter me like that.” A grin tugged at your lips, enjoying his praise but also trying to laugh it off. It wouldn’t do to take his words too seriously in case he was just paying you some lip service.
“Just take the compliment, darling. I speak only the truth.” He rolled his eyes at your polite denial, never one to like too much humility in a person. You blushed at that and felt touched that he really did think that of you.
The lady smiled from across the table, watching you two. “How are your injuries holding up if you don’t mind me asking?”
“I’m healing up fine. It was actually Al who stitched me up after.” The earlier fear you had of her slipped away at her friendly demeanor. She was so very expressive. Black pit eyes crinkled merrily as she switched from smile to smirk to grin and back the entire time. “Did you know that he can sew?”
“He can?” Now her face was mildly shocked.
“I did pick up a bit of basic tailoring back up top. I did some of the mending for my own outfits back in the day. I just could not find a decent tailor in Hell for years and then you introduced me to Seamee. Ah. That’s the name of the tailor I frequent in Cannibal Town, darling.” Alastor’s drink materialized in his hand, about half as full as when he’d gotten it. He leisurely took a sip, remembering the old days.
“She’s happy for the business, absolutely loves it when you drop by. And Ynna, if you’re ever in Cannibal Town, let me know. I can tell you all the best places to go for whatever you need, and where to avoid since some of the folks over there can get a bit nippy, if you know what I mean. I’m sure Alastor can show you around too.” Her hands moved as she talked, gesturing to you and Al.
“You’re familiar with Cannibal Town, Rosie?”
“Oh silly me. I forgot to mention. It’s my territory.” She grinned, all teeth, before settling into a smaller polite smile. The mention of the place had you a little tense, your earlier thoughts coming to mind. Pretty convenient to meet the ruler of Cannibal Town. You should have expected they would be friends with Alastor.
“Yes. Rosie here is the leader of Cannibal Town. All the ravenous flesh-ripping gentlemen and women look up to her for guidance and stability. It’s the best run sector of Pentagram City.” Alastor sent you a look that you could have sworn was laughing at how you tensed at the mention of that area. Why did the conversation always end up going back to cannibalism nowadays? You blamed Alastor for that.
“Oh stop it you charmer.” A proud smile settled on her face as she looked at you, excited to be talking about her territory. “I also run a little shop, Rosie’s Emporium. Feel free to drop by. It’s full of people most days but I’ll squeeze you right in. I’ll give you a good deal on any goods I can offer too.”
“I’ll be sure to make a trip there one of these days then.” You found yourself saying in response to her super sweet invitation though the thought of visiting the cannibal district made you a bit queasy.
“Fantastic! Speaking of goods, how did that tip turn out for you?” Delighted by your answer, she now turned to Alastor.
“Wonderfully. Finished up just as Ynna called that day, actually. I really do thank you for sharing, dear.”
“My pleasure, Alastor. What’s a couple of favors between friends?”
The two chuckled and continued their lighthearted conversation. It was fascinating to watch. Both of them were picturesque in their elegant attire and postures. They looked like they could be having a tea party in a queen’s garden instead of sharing gossip in the middle of a slightly classier drinking party.
Rosie was bright and confident yet maturely elegant. Alastor was charming and poised and witty. They made for a lovely pair, like two peas in a pod.
A small pit started to form in your stomach. You were starting to feel out of place. It was strange. The topics were fine, some even funny to listen to. The two were very skilled conversationalists, never forgetting to include you when talking about something only they knew about. You had the impression that Rosie liked you and Alastor was enjoying himself yet…the more you looked at them, the more insecure you felt. You weren’t sure why.
Thankfully, you spotted Angel coming back with some drinks in hands. Seeing him approach with Sir Pent, Niffty and Cherri Bomb behind him eased some of that heavy feeling though it didn’t really go away.
Notes:
Hello lovely readers!
Here's the first part of the party. Feeling a little lost on how to do this night as I originally had Ynna all a-okay by now in my notes so she and Al can be dancing the night away but I also like Al just pushing her around in a little wheelchair. Rosie was also a surprise this chapter. She was also not in the notes but I thought Al would at least invite her to the party and she'd love to meet Al's love? obsession? so here she is. I love her so much.
Basically EVERYTHING in this chapter was not in my notes but we're gonna roll with it (cuz Ynna's in a wheelchair, get it?). That said, I hope you liked this chapter! Stay tuned til next time though I've given up on having a posting schedule as life keeps happening and I find my free time dwindling Q_Q
Love you all!
Chapter 18: Party Pt 2
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
“One mojito refill, comin’ your way toots.” You took the drink with a wide grin of thanks, more happy to have the spider back and able to distract you more than having another drink. Almost too eagerly, you motioned for him to take the seat on your other side, hoping to mask your over-enthusiasm by acting more excited in general. He slid into the seat, putting down his own drink as he settled in with Cherri Bomb with Sir Pent following behind.
“Oh oh! Hi Rosie!” Instead of taking a seat, Niffty bounded over to the Overlord, a spring in her step as she greeted her. It looked like they were friends too.
“Niffty, darling. Long time, no see. I heard Alastor’s got you working in the princess’ hotel. Having fun?” Rosie’s eyes widened, they would have brightened, you thought, if they hadn’t been pits of darkness, as she fondly regarded the little gremlin of a woman.
“Oh it’s been great. Lots of bugs to kill, ehehe.” On cue, a knife appeared in the demoness’ hand as she grinned sinisterly. You started to wonder if that was magic or just Niffty’s ability. Either way, Rosie seemed used to it, matching her grin with a dainty raised brow.
“I’m sure you’re doing a fantastic job.”
“Oh I’m getting there.” The little demon climbed onto the chair next to Rosie, her own drink set down along with the knife. Looked like Husk approved giving her more alcohol.
“Are you gonna introduce us or what, Niff?” Angel prompted, curious about the classy lady sitting across next to Alastor.
“I’ll handle that. This fine lady here is the one and only Rosie, Overlord ruler of Cannibal Town and a long time friend of mine. She’s been gracious enough to delight us with her presence this evening despite her busy schedule so I hope you all can show her some respect this evening. Then, we can all have a good time.” For the first time since the broadcast, you felt a hint of malice emitting from the demon next to you. It brushed against your senses so lightly that you had to really observe the ever smiling demon to confirm what you felt.
He sat poised, even cheerful. If not for the slight narrowing of his eyes and instinctive alertness nagging at your brain, you wouldn't have noticed his intimidation. Nobody else seemed to notice the threat in his words, everyone assuming that he meant to be cautious of another Overlord in their presence, but really, they should be afraid of what he would do if they disrespected his guest. It was a sign of how highly he thought of her. A twinge shifted in your chest at that.
A round of introductions to your friends and Cherri happened, each individual subtly wary of the undoubtedly powerful lady and were willing to obey Alastor’s thinly veiled warning in front of her.
For her part, she just smiled innocently, sometimes patting Alastor in the arm to chide him for a rather snide comment he made while introducing the men. The lady also seemed familiar with that bad habit of his just as he was with her good natured scolding. It was surreal to watch the interaction and it took a bit for you to understand why, piecing together everything you’d watched them do this evening. This was the first time you’d seen him with someone he considered his equal. She could make jabs at him without receiving an even more scathing comment back. She touched Alastor and the man did not reject it or overreact. An air of mutual respect and fondness surrounded them, a wall that labeled them as a unit to anyone with eyes.
A lightbulb lit up in your mind. This was why you felt uncomfortable with them. You felt like a third wheel to their elegant presence. The feeling felt even stranger, having gotten used to being the one closest to the Radio Demon in the hotel. Given the time you spent together, you thought that maybe you were special, even amongst his friends. But that was just your ego getting a big head from his attention. Clearly, there were other more fitting people around him and the thought made you sad despite yourself.
“Splendid.” Seeing everyone acquiesce to his request and introductions finished, Alastor turned to you. A bit of hurt and embarrassment sprouted in your chest, still reeling from your self-awareness as you met his expectant gaze. “Now, where were we, darling?”
Gathering yourself up, you tried to act normal.
“Jazz night at the Emporium?” The earlier conversation had somehow gotten to some of the other parties Alastor had thrown in the past and one of them was an event he managed to convince Rosie to throw.
“Ah right! You really should get him to play the piano for you some time, Ynna. He’s got that flare that’ll knock your socks off, I tell ya.” The lady sent a wink your way, her friendly gesture tasting a bit bittersweet in the midst of your internal evaluation. “All the cannabettes and even some cannibals swoon whenever he plays.”
Beside you, Alastor sipped his whiskey slowly, subtly basking in the praise. You had the impression that he was used to the lady gushing about his talents yet still enjoyed hearing it every single time. The demon thanked Rosie for the endorsement, the two sharing a look before Alastor turned back to you with a promise to play for you some time. He even said he’d put on his favorite tracks while you two were doing chores so you could pick what he’d play.
It was a sweet offer (that he’d let you choose when he usually did as he pleased) but you were too stuck on how easily they matched each other to appreciate it. Too envious of their closeness and whoa. That wasn’t right. There was no reason to be envious. It would be very immature of you to do so and doubly vexing to feel insecure about your friendship because you were stupid enough to compare it with others. You were more mature than that. You told yourself that but it was hard to keep up a cheerful face next to them.
With perfect timing, Angel came to the rescue again by distracting you. It was almost like he could sense your distress though you were sure that it wasn’t apparent. He asked for a sip of your drink for which you automatically asked for a sip of his in exchange. It was pink and coconut flavored, just a little too sweet. The cloying sugary drinks and how it matched Angel’s aesthetic took your mind and eyes off of Alastor and Rosie for a second and you were grateful for the reprieve. Not that it lasted long.
“So Rosie…” The spider smacked his lips, shimmery with gloss still despite drinking so much. He leaned forward to address the lady in question. “…you wouldn’t happen to be Smiles’ hidden girlfriend by any chance? Man hardly talks about himself, let alone introduces us to one of his friends. You two also give that kinda vibe.” You tensed, equal parts scared for Angel and his audacity to ask such a forward question (and just after Al warned them all to mind their manners!) and also curious about the answer. It was a fair question. Rosie and Alastor gave the same impressions of being nice and polite. They matched each other very well from style to attitude. It wouldn’t be a surprise if the two were involved. In fact, you now really wanted to know the answer.
“Me and him? Hah, no!” The question seemed to have caught her off-guard as instead of the lady-like giggles you’d seen her give all evening, she laughed loudly, patting her chest like she was struggling to breathe. She glanced at Alastor, then at you and back to Angel, still stifling her laughter as she continued. “Though we do get that a lot, don’t we? My last husband thought that too. Couldn’t convince him that nothing was going on even though we insisted. And not to offend you dear, you know I adore you to bits but you’re just not my type.”
“The feeling’s mutual. That’s why we get along. I did tell you he wasn’t ready to handle a woman like you. Too closed minded for gal with power and connections to match.” In a sassy gesture, Alastor flicked his wrist down, just as dismissive of the question as Rosie had been.
“Well I opened his mind right up at the end, now didn’t I? Tasted awful though.” Both Overlords chuckled, sharing a knowing smirk at each other as they did before going into full-blown laughter. Everyone else around the table, save for Niffty who was also laughing, eyed the two cannibals. While murdering your spouse was common news in Hell, eating them afterwards was a Cannibal Town exclusive.
“That’s one way to get rid of a body.” From across the table, Cherri Bomb laughed, trying to break the awkwardness.
“That’s one way to eat out your ex!” Beside you, Angel cackled, picking up the mood again with Cherri’s cue after the two Overlords had effectively creeped everyone else out. His crassness shocked you enough that you elbowed him, reminding him to mind his manners though a smile tugged at your lips as you did. For someone who didn’t like it when you dropped puns, he was cranking them out tonight. Seeing your chiding, the spider flashed you a grin, one of his lower arms holding onto your elbow to stop you from jabbing him. “Oh come on, toots. That was a good one.”
“Yes but—“ Turning to Rosie, you apologized on the spider’s behalf. “Pardon Angel, Rosie. He’s got a raunchy sense of humor. Comes with the job.”
“I come ON the job, sweetheart. Multiple times, usually.”
“How much have you had to drink already!?” You rounded on him swiftly. Behind your incredulity at his lack of caution around the unfamiliar Overlord, a startled peal of laughter followed. He only responded with a laidback shrug, eyes going to Cherri Bomb for a second where the cyclops was grinning toothily.
“Enough, with plenty of room for more and you’re matching me shot for shot tonight, toots.” His other arms went around you and your chair, pulling you a bit closer to his side. Some time after he left with Sir Pent but before they came back, the alcohol he’d consumed kicked in. Between the underlying smell of vodka beneath his perfume and the very slight slur in his words, you could tell that he was having a good time. While you worried that he was being a bit careless and too crass, his loose behavior did trigger something in you as you began to relax again.
“I’ll try. A lcohol it quits when I want.” Reaching over, you patted the hand still holding onto your elbow as you laughed. There was a crackle of static behind you, a bit of it snapping just enough to raise the hairs on the back of your neck. It felt like the Radio Demon was getting annoyed with Angel’s antics.
Again, an uncomfortable feeling surged at Al’s protectiveness of his friend along with a bit of that infernal hunger. You tamped down both feelings desperately, your own annoyance starting to surface.
“You always find such fun people to be around, Alastor.” Rosie giggled from her seat. With a wave of her hand, a glass of wine materialized, stem perfectly held in her fingers. “And no worries, sweetie. We’re here to have a good time. Letting loose every now and then is good for the soul and I like myself a gal that can hold his liquor.” Raising her glass in a toast, she winked at you both, eyes emitting laughter.
“Cheers to that!” On Angel’s cue, everyone raised their glasses to toast and drink and be merry. A light atmosphere engulfed the group as they felt less tense around the Overlords. Rosie shared a couple of stories, with Al filling in some details every now and then. It shamed you to admit that looking at the two Overlords together was a bit unbearable.
Sat at your chair, watching and listening to everyone, you started to get tipsy after finishing your drink. It was a conscious effort to engage and have fun as you battled with yourself, finding a few moments of reprieve when Angel or Cherri took the lead. A part of you almost wanted to blame Alastor’s presence for igniting these stupid feelings that were spoiling your evening. Not that he was doing it on purpose; the man was oblivious to the way your stomach roiled in envy and hunger. Still, you couldn’t help but want to avoid looking at him. If you happened to focus more on Angel and your other friends though during the conversation, well, you could blame the alcohol. Besides, the Overlords kept themselves pretty entertained anyway.
Alastor’s POV
“Jealousy isn’t a good look on a man.” Rosie spoke out of nowhere as they twirled around the dance floor.
He and the lady had excused themselves from the group to go dance as soon as Mimzy’s performers started to play. It was a slower song, a good piece for the band to warm up with before they really got the party started. This was more Rosie’s style so they took the chance to dance together.
“I completely agree but why are you bringing it up?” Rosie gave him a knowing look which confused him further. He spun them around slowly, the dance floor clearing away a path for them.
“Oh, darling. Did you think I wouldn’t notice? We may be dancing here but you left your shadow with Ynna. I get it though. An adorable thing like her. I wouldn’t be able to leave her alone either.” Her laughter punctuated her speech, steps faltering a little as she went but skillfully keeping up regardless. While he was pleased that she liked his goat, absolutely delighted that the two women seemed to get along, he really wasn’t sure that he liked what his dear friend was implying.
“Just a bit of protection. Can never be too careful in a room full of overindulgent sinners. She’s not fully healed yet, after all.” He did leave his phantom to guard the injured woman while he was away. The rowdier the room got, the more likely it was that some idiot would think she was an easy target. But it seemed like his caution was being perceived in a strange way by the lady.
“Ah, so your shadow slowly inching either her or that spider sinner away from each other is just ‘a bit of protection’ then? Hah! I can tell they’re close but not in any way that you should be worried about, Alastor.” As she said so, Ynna leaned in to whisper something to the spider causing the man to slap his knee with laughter. His goat looked at the spider with an impish expression, satisfied with the reaction she got. This was normal behavior for the two, something he’d seen countless times since she’d moved in. His static still broke, loud enough for his dance partner to hear, when the spider patted her head. They spied a very distinct shape snarling beneath them, nudging Ynna’s wheelchair back ever so slightly. Rosie laughed even more. “Do I need to point out how ridiculous you’re being? Leave the girl and her friends alone before she catches on and you get in trouble for it.”
While it was true that he was being a bit too…affected by their closeness, he felt more embarrassed by the shameful actions his shadow was taking. He’d sent the thing over there to watch, nothing more. Sending a command to the semi-sentient creature, it willfully ignored him, complaining about the two being too close. It was making him look like an insecure buffoon in front of his friend, giving her ideas that couldn’t be further from the truth.
“I’m not jealous, dear. Jealousy implies what I have can be taken away. And you know I don’t work like that.” He swung them so that the lady no longer faced that table’s direction. She was unimpressed by his motions, smoothly taking the lead for herself. Tapping away in her heels, she swung out in the group’s direction before pulling him in towards her. Gliding across the floor, he found his place by her side again, hands at the small of the lady’s back as she dipped herself, their faces both facing the table when they looked up from the pose.
Ynna’s eyes glimmered in the dim light. Eyes looking at both of them, strangely intense (though that could just be the rare self-consciousness he was feeling under Rosie’s chastising), as she smiled dully…then turned back to the others. His eye twitched, feeling as if she’d done this too many times that evening.
“Exactly. So tell your shadow to quit it.” He did so, promptly, pulling the shadow back to himself forcefully. The shade unhappily returned to him, demanding blood and someone’s pain to sate its annoyance. Really, only Rosie could ever catch him out of sorts like this. It was a very rare occasion when he and the shade weren’t in sync. As much as he trusted the woman to never tell a soul, it was still embarrassing to be witnessed being unable to control such a crucial part of him. It was a piece of his soul! He huffed in annoyance, feigning nonchalance in front of his friend.
“Happy now?” Pulling her back up to an upright position, the lady finally let him lead her away from the group.
“Much. You know I’m only trying to give you some good advice? Can’t have you screwing up the first time you’ve ever gone after a girl.” She took the lead from him again, setting a much calmer pace as they swayed side to side, too focused on the conversation to do much else aside from a few twirls.
“I’m not so hopeless, old friend. I’ll have you know, we’re quite close. Not only does she take my advice, she also trusts me with her life. We spend quite a lot of time together and I believe our bond is quite strong despite our differences.”
“Is that so? Have you told her about the stuff you fed her? Bet that’ll test whether that bond of yours is strong enough.” His smile almost dropped at that. His mind formed the scene in his head, a vision of Ynna’s sweet smiling face dropping into horror and disgust. The trust in her eyes disappeared into hate and oh…his footsteps stopped as his brain froze, unwilling to complete that image. Quickly, he recovered, moving back into the beat as if he hadn’t paused at all. But Rosie noticed. Of course she did. Still, the perceptive lady didn’t mention it.
“She doesn’t need to know all the sordid details. That’ll only upset her. Besides, I’ve weaned off of that. It’s been ridiculously tempting to keep up the shameful behavior but it’ll only sabotage my progress if I do.” The song was coming to an end and with one last twist out and back, the final notes of the dance sang their tune and finished. “As long as neither of us tell her, she’ll never find out.”
“I don’t know Alastor. Truth will out. Best she hears it from you than find out some other way.” Wisdom as old as time. He sighed to himself. Had he had more foresight into the delightful turn their relationship would head into, he wouldn’t have done what he did. He would have bided his time as he had been, waiting for Ynna’s fondness to tilt her morality just enough to indulge him instead of taking his pleasure and entertainment so hastily. Now, he had an additional risk he needed to bury deep and away.
“I’ll keep that in mind.”
“So, how did you like my presentation? Tried to put in a good word for you to dazzle her with.” Reassured that he was being careful, the lady tangled her arm around his. It looked like he was escorting her but in truth, she was the one leading him to the exit through the crowd.
“I appreciate it. I can’t believe I’ve forgotten to show her my musical talents. I’ve been so caught up with other things and our conversations that it’s slipped my mind.” A slip up that he would remedy soon, a sense of giddiness already sprouting in his chest awaiting the goat’s praise.
“Well isn’t that a good sign? Just talking to her is enough. Hmmm. I can see why you’d get all possessive of her if that’s the case. Just be careful not to overdo it. There’s a fine line between what’s acceptable and what isn’t.” She tutted, a teasing smile on her face as they reached the door.
“You really are having fun with all of this relationship advisory you’ve taken to doing for me, aren’t you?”
“It’s a hoot! You’re always giving me judgment and advice on my love life. It’s nice being on the other side for once.” Her smile morphed into a grin, a bit of sadistic delight at his plight mixed in with genuine joy. “When are you planning to properly court her? As far as I can see, you two are just friends.”
“I don’t think I’d ever go that far, dear. I’m quite happy with where we are and things are going where I want them to. I don’t see anything gained from pursuing romance.” Ynna was already reconsidering her stance on absolutely not eating demon meat. What more could he ask for other than that she maintain an appropriate distance with her friends?
“Hmm. You say that now but mark my words. You’ll get why you’d want that eventually.” She reached over to hug him before bidding adieu. “Well, I’m off for the evening. Enjoy the rest of your night and give Ynna my love, dear.”
“I’ll see you next time.” He waved her off and did a round of surveillance in the room. A perfectly controlled chaos was ensuing, bodies moving on the dance floor as the music picked up in tempo, dancing girls dazzling on the stage with their glittering dresses and delicate feathers. Seeing that everything was going well, he checked in with Charlie, the princess absolutely bouncing animatedly between sinners, talking about the pros of the hotel and preaching the greatness of redemption to a crowd that obviously only wanted to enjoy the party. Her determination and focus was impressive. He had half a mind to ask Vaggie how many times the princess had sung her sales pitch but the answer would be as many times as she could fit since the party had begun.
He made his way to where the group had been sitting only to find the table occupied by a different party. A quick scan found his goat at the bar, sitting quite happily as the others spoke. A slight flush glowed on her cheeks, the first evidence of her inebriation.
“Al!” Her voice, higher and more chipper now that she was drunk, called almost shrilly when she found him in the crowd as he approached. Her eyes scanned around him. “Where’s Rosie?”
“She’s left. Busy schedules and all that.” He occupied the barstool next to her, conveniently vacated when the demon sitting there saw him approach and eye that seat. He ordered another drink to the gruff complaining of Husker who was starting to get sloppy in his service. The swigs the cat had been taking all evening finally started to get to him, it seemed.
“Aww that’s too bad. I liked her. She was nice.” The woman threw him a small grin, eyes sparkling in the dim light.
“She was very serious about that visit. I’m sure she’d be delighted if you dropped by her shop.” Like earlier, she gave a polite affirmative though he could tell that she wasn’t enthusiastic about actually going. Too bad. He was already planning an outing to Cannibal Town with her some time. Husker handed him his drink and reached over the bar to give Ynna one as well. Because of the bar height, Ynna, in her wheelchair, only reached just below the bar top. She took an enthusiastic gulp of her cocktail, drinking half the glass before stopping with a happy smile on her face.
“Hehe. Hmm.” She swayed a bit in her seat, quiet but perfectly satisfied, eyes half lidded as she observed her friends, absently listening to them talk. So she was a happy drunk. That was good to know.
“So..so I was saying—“ Angel stopped his story briefly when a head leaned on his thigh, one of his hands going straight to stroking their hair when he realized it was Ynna. “—why can’t Val let me handle some of his money shit? I was in the mob once. I know how to get that shit done, probably better than those rookies he’s got running the business. Fuckin amateurs.” He watched the spider’s hand absently pet his goat’s head as she looked aimlessly into the crowd, perfectly content. He could hear a hissing in his mind, a couple of clicks sounding too and his hackles rose watching the harmonious display.
“Hey, is she alright? Baby looks like she’s about to pass out.” Cherri Bomb made a very good point. If Ynna was too tired, he could bring her back to her room. She didn’t have to endure socializing by leaning on Angel Dust.
“Eh. She’s fine, just lightweight. Gets all cuddly and happy when she’s drunk.” The spider waved off his friend’s concern before addressing the goat in question. “Ain’t ya, tootsie roll?”
“Hm? Yeah. Were you in the mob before or after death? I was thinking about when Tommy Guns were a thing. Probably the 50s?”
“See? She’ll sit there lookin’ all goofy but she’s payin’ attention. And it was the 40’s, sweetheart.” The two went back to what they were doing, Angel talking while Ynna sat contentedly sipping her drink as she rested on him. They were a picture of companionable harmony and the bar he needed to reach to become her closest companion reached a new height. Even though he was speaking to her just before, she decided to lean on the spider. She felt more comfortable with the effeminate man than him.
They all sat there like that, talking, joking, getting more drunk as the night went on. His eyes would stray onto his goat, finding some delight in her happily dull expression. He just had to ignore the annoyance he felt when she shifted, only to continue leaning on the spider.
The spider and his cyclops friend eventually left to dance and find some unfortunate souls to show a good time to, leaving only him and Ynna at the bar with Husker. He thought that with the woman’s need for contact while drunk (a cuddly drunk, as the spider helpfully noted), she’d ask to lean on him next now that her other friends were unavailable but no. She chose to lean her heavy head against the bar, those sparkling yet sluggish eyes smiling dumbly at him as they chatted about party etiquette from his time compared to now.
Stupid, vexing woman. Why was there such an obvious distinction between him and her other friends? He finished his seventh glass of liquor in displeasure.
Notes:
Hello!
Coming in with a new chapter. I was honestly not sure if this was gonna get written any time soon but then the full moon happened on Wednesday and I was possessed by the fanfic gods.
Hope y'all enjoyed Ynna being jealous and not sure why and Alastor just being in denial. He really is hopeless. I imagine the conversation after Angel asked about Rosie and Al's relationship was more Al and Rosie trying to subtly talk about how great Al is but instead of being impressed, Ynna was just uncomfortable. Oops.
As always, let me know what you think in the comments! OH! And please send me your best dad jokes! I am collecting them.
Chapter 19: Party Pt 3
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
You lost track of how much you’ve drunk and wait, no. It was maybe four drinks and a couple shots? You were still sipping on the one drink Husk gave you when Alastor rejoined the group. Now, everyone left to do their own thing, leaving you at the bar with Alastor and Husk. It wasn’t so bad, though you did lament not being able to dance. Mimzy’s group was really killing it with the music, entertaining the crowd with electric swing and a faint show of skin from the sparklingly-dressed dancing girls.
Everything would have been perfect actually, if only your stomach didn’t feel so upset. You tried to blame it on the alcohol, but you knew it was because of a certain demon sitting next to you. It was honestly all so very irritating. Earlier, you were feeling unreasonably insecure about your friendship with the man, even a little sad that he had left to go entertain his best friend Overlord lady. Now that he was back, you couldn’t even fully enjoy your deer friend’s presence because it triggered that incredibly vile hunger.
You drank the last of your cocktail, hoping the liquid would help fill that void in your gut a bit so you could concentrate the wavering bits of your focus onto your friend. What has he been going on about?
“—and we used to have to make our own booze back in the day or find some underground dealer willing to part with their limited stock.” Right, more tales from his time alive.
“What a time you lived in. A World War, the Great Depression AND the Prohibition?” If you had the timeline correct, the man would have lived through some of the toughest times in the 1900s– would’ve lived through the second World War had he survived that long.
“When you put it that way, sweetheart, it does sound like a dreary time to have been alive.” Crossing his hands under his chin, he leaned on them, a teasing twinkle in his eye.
“But you’re gonna tell me it was the best, aren’t you Mr. Big Ol’ Radio Star?” A lazy smile tugged at your lips as you directed the prompt to the mildly narcissistic man, and as expected, his voice dropped down to a bit of a gravel as he dragged the last syllable of his answer with a lilt.
“Oh, but it was~”
“And why was it?”
“Because I was alive, sweetheart. I was in fact, a very Big Mr. Radio Star. I was gracing the waves and wowing the crowds.” Hand to his chest like he was preaching gospel or about to belt out a loud chorus, he swung his arm grandly, as if the world had been made better by just his presence. He’d gone without gloves this evening, his pretty hands fluttering about as he talked. You snorted at his theatrics, admittedly very fond of his boasting when he did it so performatively.
“Terrorizing the streets of Louisiana, more like.” His half-lidded gaze crinkled in amusement at your jab, the grin on his face unwavering. A warm feeling fluttered in your chest at seeing him so very entertained. That was, until a very loud growl sounded from your stomach, so embarrassingly loud that it could be heard above the noise in the room. Your heart froze in dread, teeth aching to sink into something.
“Hungry, sweetheart?” Without missing a beat, a bowl of strawberries manifested on the bar top with a snap of Al’s fingers. You were about to ask him to pass them to you when you felt a ghostly presence wrap around you and lift you up and onto an empty bar stool that Al manifested next to him. On the flat surface of the bar top that you could now see over, a cackling vaguely Alastor-shaped shadow waved before disappearing into the dark corners. You absently waved back to it, finding the shade just as funny and charming as its owner.
“How do you always have so many snacks?” Giggling, you turned back to Al, the demon absently picking up a strawberry and offering it to you. Plucking the fruit from his hand, its flesh gave way easily as you nibbled on it. The crisp taste of it soothed your hunger immediately.
“Had to start carrying them when I found myself being more and more in the company of an absolute glutton.” A red-clawed finger booped your nose, and you playfully threatened to do the same, finger stopping just in front of his pointy nose but never touching. Al’s eyes grew so wide at the action that you had to laugh. He really was a bit more open now that he’d had a few drinks in him, letting you see that surprised look on his face so easily. It was adorable. Was that appropriate? Should you be describing the big bad Radio Demon as adorable? He remained with that deer in headlights look, and you decided yes, your friend was adorable.
“Need another refill, kid or are ya good?”
“I can go for more. Ya got hmmm maybe something with Irish liqueur?” Husk, the best barman ever, gave you an amused look as you tried to think of a drink.
“You’re looking for coffee, aren’t ya?” The cat knew you well enough to know exactly what you were craving this late in the evening. He blew a huff out of his nose with a smirk as he read your mind correctly.
“That too much to ask?”
“I can spike some hot chocolate for ya and that's the best I got.”
“Sweet. You’re the best! Thanks Husk!” You made a little heart shape with your hands which got the man to snort at your drunken silliness. What was the use of being drunk if you couldn’t be silly and make your friends laugh? That said, being drunk on a backless bar stool was difficult when two of your four limbs couldn’t support you properly. You had to resort to leaning most of your torso against the counter, the edge of it digging into your ribs but at least, you weren’t going to teeter off to the side…yet. Maybe if you got drunk enough.
With your good hand you picked up a strawberry, munching on the slightly sour fruit as Husk made your drink. Alastor sat quietly beside you. When you turned, he seemed tipsy? Buzzed? Definitely not sober. His signature grin was toned down to a mellow smile as he also watched Husk work. Remembering your manners, you nudged the fruit bowl to him. He turned his half lidded gaze to you, eyes crinkling into that way you knew meant he was delighted. His pleased reaction brought you some joy, your eyes also crinkling to match his expression.
Ever so perceptive, he picked up on your happiness and became even more delighted which in turn made you happier and etcetera, etcetera. This joy loop bounced between you two, silly merriment eventually drawing out giggles as you two ate your strawberries, legs swinging with lighthearted cheer. It was all so silly and fun. This was what you had hoped the evening would be like. No need to eat your best friend. No weird feelings of jealousy. Just drunken foolishness that had Husk rolling his eyes and sending you and Alastor into more giggles.
“There you are! Been looking all over this joint for ya. Hey Alastor, sweetie.” Mimzy pushed her way through the crowd and onto the seat at Alastor’s other side.
“Mimzy! Stunning performance up there as usual, doll. Glad you could join us.” The demon turned to address his other friend.
“Are ya? Didn’t see ya on the dance floor except for when Rosie was here. Normally, you’d be ripping up those floorboards with me.” A hint of annoyance could be found in the woman’s voice though Alastor seemed to shrug it off without a care, a bit more alert and composed compared to just seconds ago.
“You’re always spectacular, Mimzy. But I thought I’d keep Ynna company tonight.” Peeking over your friend’s shoulder, you waved tinily to the demoness. She sent a smirk back.
“Oh! Didn’t see ya there, sweet cheeks. I know you like to shake it too so why’re you over here? Are you feelin’ shy?”
“Nah. Just can’t tonight.” Pulling the collar of your shirt a little, you let her see a small peek of the bandages underneath. There was a flash of understanding before she shrugged it off.
“Well, suit yourself. You don’t mind me borrowing ol’ Alastor here for a couple songs, now, do ya?”
“Why’re you asking me? He’s right here.”
“Isn’t he your date tonight?”
“He’s not…?” The answer came out sounding a bit more like a question with how confused you were. Did it look like you were Al’s date for the evening? You looked to the unusually quiet demon, signaling for him to answer his friend. The man in question didn’t so much as twitch as he watched the exchange, his lazy gaze showing a bit of intensity as he waited to see your response. That or he was so drunk that he was starting to zone out. He had a very good poker face so you weren’t too sure.
“Oh if that’s the case, come on, twinkle toes. You owe me a dance.” Mimzy didn’t wait for a response, grabbing the man’s arm and pulling him away. For a second, you felt a hint of annoyance buzz from him, a very light crackle in static snapping as they left to dance. Why was he upset?
“Here ya go, kid.” The clack of glass against the bar top brought your attention back to Husk who had conveniently disappeared when the smaller demoness showed up.
“So…ducking down behind the bar to hide from Mimzy?”
“Ain’t in the mood to serve that bitch.”
“Ouch. What’d she do to you? She seems nice enough?”
“Seems nice enough until she’s writing your name down for all the loans she’s taking out. If Alastor didn’t tell her to quit it, we’d have more of those sharks houndin’ us everyday.” He took a swig from his bottle. “Selfish little mooch is what she is.”
You blinked twice, slowly, taking in this bit of information. You made a mental note to be careful with the woman from now on. It was for the best that she was only superficially friendly with you if she was one to drag her friends down with her like that.
It was a wonder then that Alastor seemed fond of her. Come to think of it, you didn’t seem to mind their closeness compared to Rosie. Maybe it was because the two didn’t seem to share that same frequency that the Overlords did, that matching aura. The image of Rosie and Alastor on the dance floor had been beautiful, something straight out of a painting. It was like watching a tornado from a distance, awe inspiring and untouchable unless you wanted to get hurt. It led you to wonder: what kind of impression did you and Alastor give when in each other’s company? There was a wish that you at least didn’t look out of place next to him, powerless and plain as you were.
Alastor’s company…You sipped your hot chocolate, the taste of rum cutting through its sweetness just right. If you felt like waxing poetry, you would liken his company to your drink. Sweet, with a hidden edge to it. The alcoholic bite would have thrown you off not too long ago but now, you welcomed it in tolerable amounts. Or maybe he was more like coffee. Dark with hints of roasted and smoky sweetness. Just the right mix of everything that you kept coming back to enjoy that bitter brew.
…You really needed to not associate the man with food or drink.
“You in there, kid?” A gruff voice with a light slur to it brought you back to the present.
“Hm? Yeah. What’s up?”
“So Angel uh…is he okay? He wasn’t doin too hot after the hotel got attacked and I know he went lookin for ya after.” The bartender’s eyes shifted a bit, uncertain before he pushed through his question.
“Worried about him?” The cat blushed, as if being worried about someone was something to be embarrassed about. Taking a sip, you assessed how well your friend was doing. He’d been a bit clingier since but otherwise, normal. “He’s okay, I think. Just needs to know we got his back. Did he tell you?”
“About who those guys were workin for? Yeah.”
“Yeah. So, you already know that he was blaming himself for it. Told him that was bullshit but…” Logic and reassurances were sometimes never enough to combat the whispers of the mind, the parts that loved to torture you. Anger rushed to the forefront of your hazy mind, anger at Valentino and those sharks. If you had the power to rip them apart…
“‘Bout the best you can do for him, kid. He’s got a self-destructive streak but he’ll pull through. Not a bug you can squash that easy.” Husk understood your concerns, eyes scanning the crowd in the general direction Angel had sauntered off to. A trace of admiration danced on at the tip of his smile before it disappeared behind a swig of his bottle.
It was rare to see him openly concerned and you melted a little at knowing there was at least one more person in Angel’s corner. “Who needs a therapist when he’s got you, eh, Husk?”
“Yeah? Well my rates ain’t cheap.” You were starting to better understand the cat, you thought. Despite his gruffness at personal talk, he really did care. At least, he cared for the people in the hotel a bit more now.
“Would a hug be good enough payment?” You didn’t wait for the barman to confirm, already reaching out to him. Used to your need to give physical affection, his paw just landed on your face, pushing you back.
“How about you stay on your side of the bar and try not to fall over?” He sounded annoyed, but the gentle push he gave said that he took no offense to your offer. Oh well. Maybe you could go give Charlie and Vaggie a hug when you saw them.
The world swayed a bit as you sat back down, absently watching the lights bounce off the alcohol display behind Husk, mind a bit fuzzy. Actually, everything was swaying a bit too much, and you found yourself tilting over, a sharp pain going through your leg and shoulder as you instinctively tried to hold onto the counter and stool as you fell. That paw that had pushed you back was suddenly lunging to catch you but it would be too late…
“Careful there, sweetheart. Didn’t you say you’d do your best not to reopen your wounds tonight?” Hands steadied you mid fall. A sense of relief washed over you at hearing that static-laced drawl and you added ‘comforting’ to the mental list of adjectives you’d associated with Alastor’s company. Your arm hurt and so did your leg and with their pain came that needling hunger. Your mood immediately plummeting at its return, contemplation forgotten.
“Geez, sweet cheeks. Don’t drink so much if you can’t hold your liquor.” A prickle of irritation bloomed in your mind at Mimzy’s admonishing tone. If you hadn’t been injured, this much alcohol wouldn’t have been a problem at all.
“I’m fine. Thanks Al. Just had a bit of trouble catching myself for a second.” Shrugging off your friend’s hands, you sat upright in the chair. You needed to get rid of that sourness in your stomach and his presence wasn’t helping. Shoving a strawberry in your mouth, you were sorely disappointed when the fruit did not stave off that hunger like it did earlier. Your irritation grew. Couldn’t you just enjoy this evening in peace? The up and down waves of your mood this evening were tiring you out and you almost wanted to call it a night. Your annoyance must’ve been obvious as Mimzy sat beside you, her round face cradled on one hand as she regarded you, amused.
“I take it Alastor here was a tad too late saving you from those loan sharks, huh?”
“How’d you know about that?”
“How? Honey! Who doesn’t know about that? You broadcasted that SOS for all of Pentagram City to hear! Takes a lot of guts to go on this guy’s broadcast like that. I gotta say I’m impressed.” The woman laughed a bit shrilly, genuinely impressed by what you’d done but something nagged at the back of your mind so the compliment slid right over you.
“No. Not that part. How’d you know it was loan sharks attacking? I don’t think we ever mentioned who it was.”
“Oh. That. Well. Haha.” Three pairs of eyes looked in Mimzy’s direction, the woman looking sheepish under the scrutiny. “So you remember those sharks y’all took out for me last time? Well, more of them came back. The one leading the gang wanted to know where his brother was and well…”
“Well?” You prompted, mind immediately jumping to many conclusions but holding back your reaction until she finished.
“I told him the truth. You pushed the guy and got Alastor to kill him. A couple of days later, I heard the broadcast and figured that those goons went lookin’ for ya when Alastor wasn’t around. But he sorted it all out, didn’t he? I knew he could.” She cooed, making an innocent face as she tried to giggle off the incredulous look you were probably giving.
“Wait, so you sent them our way and you didn’t even bother to warn us?” Things made sense now. Why else would anyone be looking for you?
That irritation that simmered in you all evening boiled over into full on rage with every twinge of pain and hunger you were currently feeling. All of this, the ruined party efforts, putting your lives in danger, getting shot and feeling like shit was all because this bitch couldn’t bother to give you a heads up that some gang was looking for you? Angel’s guilt, the pain you’d been enduring—They could have been avoided if she’d just been assed to let you know.
“I mean, ya got Alastor, The Radio Demon . How was I supposed to know that they’d be dumb enough to go after ya? Sides, y’all made it out okay.” With a flippant tone, she eyed you up and down. “More or less.”
“More or less? Bitch, we almost fucking died! I got shot! You sent them this way and didn’t warn us!?” How could she be so callous!?
“Hey! It was your fault that guy’s brother died. I wasn’t the one who threw him down the balcony.” You were mad enough when she tried to laugh off the whole thing but pushing the sole blame on you? The audacity of this woman!
“I was saving your sorry ass !” Anger, irritation, pain, hunger, shock. It was dizzying to be hit by all of those feelings at once. They clawed for a way to be expressed, an outlet, and Mimzy’s face looked like the best one.
Alastor’s POV
Dancing with Mimzy was, well, not boring. The woman danced like her feet were on fire, but his mind barely paid her any attention. Just enough that he was properly dancing as she’d asked.
He hadn’t been able to outright refuse her invitation when he’d been the one to invite the petite woman to perform for them this evening. That would have been rude to his old friend. Instead, he had hoped Ynna would refuse in his place, but the goat was no mind reader and she had no reason to speak on his behalf. The woman just let him go…like they hadn’t been having the most pleasant time they’d had all evening.
No matter. It was just one dance. He could go back to his quiet corner with his goat once it was over. He was sure the little darling was already missing his riveting company after being left alone like that. Just to check, his eyes strayed from Mimzy to where Ynna sat, just in time to witness her NOT missing him at all.
The woman laughed at Husker, the grump scowling as they spoke. What could they possibly be talking about that even that sour face wasn’t deterring Ynna’s friendliness? He stopped dancing, an excuse made to his friend as he walked back. She even attempted to hug the cat. His steps got quicker. He could tolerate her cuddling Angel Dust, barely. But Husker? When he’d been beside her all that time but she still hadn’t bothered to ask him .
It was just in time too that he returned, catching her as she teetered off her seat.
Now, the aura of sinner energy burned where his hands hovered over Ynna’s back. In her rage, her other eyes opened and teeth sharpened to threaten Mimzy. It was a sight that had his heart racing. She looked ready to tear the stout woman apart. Such passion! Such heightened emotion! Such drama! And all from the woman who had been giggling like a little fool just moments ago. While a fight would certainly liven this party up, he unfortunately couldn’t let the goat start one. She would regret it when Charlie admonished her for it later. Oh but he would have loved to see it!
Feeling his goat pull away to lunge at her target, he grabbed her, one arm around her waist and the other over her mouth to stop the growling shout that she aimed at Mimzy. In angered reflex, her mouth snapped shut, teeth sinking into his fingers where he’d put them a little too close.
Time froze. He hadn’t intended that.
A fuse blew in his mind as he felt Ynna’s fangs pierce through his skin, blood immediately pooling to the surface. He wasn’t prepared for the pricks of pain that traveled up his arm, a ball of pure static shooting through his body. It was delightful. Better than he could have imagined.
The goat froze his grasp, that burning energy of hers fizzling out like an extinguished candle in her shock. Her small hands came up to pull his bitten fingers away and his muscles tightened before he could think. Not yet. He couldn’t let go of that wondrous feeling yet. His arms enclosed around her even tighter, her back hitting his chest as he pulled. Under the guise of keeping her from attacking Mimzy, he kept his injured hand over her mouth, a gasp almost eking past his lips at the burning touch of her lips.
She was so small and warm and absolutely unhappy, struggling in his hold like a snake trying to wriggle free. She even licked his palm, thinking that would disgust him enough to let go. It only made him want to cage her in his grasp even more as he shuddered at the warm brush of her tongue. It took a long concentrated breath for him to regain his bearings. Swiftly, he pulled his mask back on, a feat made difficult by the buzz of the alcohol and the frantic buzzing in his chest but he succeeded, years of practice giving him that advantage. But only just.
Keeping his angry goat restrained, he turned to Mimzy who watched the interaction with shock.
His earlier chagrin at being taken away to dance returned as he’d now confirmed his theory. The sharks had come for revenge but only because Mimzy had pointed their guns in Ynna’s direction. Naughty little thing. If she’d told those goons that he had killed their friends, they wouldn’t have come and instead, taken their revenge on Mimzy and her lounge. By giving them Ynna’s name, they had a new victim to extract their pound of flesh from. It was expected behavior from his old friend but one he could not tolerate as it had put Ynna and his project in danger.
“Mimzy, dear. I know I always help you when you get yourself in trouble but I don’t appreciate you involving Ynna or the hotel in your problems.” Both women froze and he used all his restraint to keep the buzzing in his chest to a minimum as Ynna moved in his hold to look up at him. Sparks were flying under his skin as her breath warmed his palm, a glimpse of her confused and furious gaze hammering away at his composure. ‘Let me at her!’ Those eyes whispered.
“Oh come on, Alastor. It’s just a couple of scrapes. And it’s not like I was lying, that last punk did die cuz the little sweetie pie here let you know he was still alive.” True as it was, and he relished that memory, he would not tolerate harm befalling his goat. It was best to nip any of his old friend’s notions about pulling a similar stunt in the future in the bud.
“I think you should leave, dear.”
“You can’t be serious. I’m the fucking headliner for tonight!” The stout woman stomped her foot, voice pitching shrilly in her fit. That seemed to spark some more fight in his goat as she tried to jerk forward in his hold. Now, he was actually holding her back from a fight. Who knew she had it in her to brawl? He minutely tightened his hold on her waist, a thrill shooting up his spine when she tried to speak against his hand, teeth and lips brushing against his bleeding fingers.
“And this party was for our guests to enjoy themselves but as you can see…” Ynna struggled against his hold, madly whacking at his arm to get him to let her go. “...you’re causing our dear guest here a lot of distress. So I’m afraid I’ll have to ask you to take your band and get out of here.” He was sure that his restraint of her was causing her more distress than Mimzy’s presence was at the moment but he didn’t want to risk her going into a drunken brawl with the demoness. He didn’t think he could spare his dear friend if Ynna bit her in a desperate move. Not with the way his mind was whirring trying to keep calm when all he wanted to do was shove his bleeding fingers into his goat’s mouth, to feel the glide of her tongue against the cuts she’d made. A delicious shiver ran down his spine to his tail. He even toyed with the idea of enraging her more if only she’d bite him again…and he really was a bit too drunk, playing with such a dangerous idea.
He let some of the manic energy he was feeling leak through, just enough to let his old friend know that he was serious. The pudgy woman threw curses at him as she got the message. He couldn’t care less for her anger. She was bound to come crawling back when she needed help anyway. As she stomped away, violently brushing through the crowd to call her performers down, he tried to find a solution to their lack of entertainment. The woman in his arms didn’t make thinking straight any easier.
“Husker. Go tell that snake to put on some of the earlier music. I’ll inform Charlie about the changes in tonight’s program.” The cat, who’d always had a bone to pick with Mimzy, was all too happy to oblige, jumping over the bar to find the snake sinner.
He had only a few seconds to savor this moment alone with his goat before Ynna went slack, leaning her full dead weight on him just enough to lightly topple their balance and loosen his grip on her. With great reluctance on his part, the goat was set free. His hands immediately went behind his back, a conscious effort not to pull back her little warmth as she pulled away from him. He even manifested his microphone just to have something to hold.
“What the fuck Alastor?”Annoyed eyes turned to him, put off and annoyed but no longer angry. A small growl trailed her question, the sound rumbling through his already buzzing chest. Her lipstick smeared over her frowning mouth along with his blood, the red hue all the more beautiful on her sweet face. Sparks danced in his mind (or they could just be the flashing lights), suddenly feeling energized and refreshed compared to the lull that the whiskey had put him in. Awakened and focused. He had a show to run and a woman to appease.
“Sorry about that, sweetheart. Couldn’t have you jumping little ol’ Mimzy. You’d lose that fight.”
“Fine. I get that, but you didn’t have to hold me down like that.” A hand came up to wipe at her mouth, his red rubbing off onto her palm. Seeing the stain, her annoyance softened to that ever so dear sweetness of hers. “Shit. I bit you. I’m sorry.”
“It’s alright.” It was more than alright. He felt electric at the sight of her, the twinge of pain on his fingers still hot from her breath. “I thought you’d get carried away after getting so drunk.” A red handkerchief was immediately conjured and offered to her to wipe her mouth with. She’d tried to offer it to his injury first but he’d stopped her sweet fussing before it could even start. He was still savoring that bite.
“Right. Sorry. I got really wound up and mad but that’s still not a good excuse to start a fight. It was a good thing you stopped me. I was ready to kill her.” Oh be still his beating heart. Alcohol makes one honest, they say. Ynna was already very honest but this was something else.
“A few rounds of drinks makes you amenable to murder? I’ll keep that in mind, sweetheart.” He quirked a brow at her, his grin widening in mirth. The goat only huffed, still wiping her mouth clean.
“People that put my friends in danger make me amenable to murder. No drinks necessary, though they do help.” Maybe he did drink too much this evening. He was hearing his goat talk about murder so easily. And she wasn’t frazzled by the blood he knew she’d consumed, tiny amount though it was. Did Husker spike his drink by any chance or had he fallen asleep at the bar and started dreaming?
“Al! Ynna! What happened? Why’d the band leave?” Charlie pushed through the crowd with Vaggie in tow, confusion and worry etched on her white face.
He explained the situation in brief, how the attack at the hotel was brought on by Mimzy and how Mimzy had done it because he and Ynna had helped clean up after her prior.
“But why were they after Ynna?”
“Something about one of the sharks having a brother. Mimzy told them I killed the guy.” Ynna stepped up to answer, a bit of guilt weighing on her face as she answered Charlie.
“Ya killed a guy, toots?” Angel Dust appeared, having made his way back after seeing the commotion.
“I pushed him off a balcony and Al ate him.”
“Pfft. And here I thought you stabbed somebody.” With a little more sway in his step than usual, the spider wrapped two arms around his goat’s head and ruffled her hair. “Don’t think that matters too much, tootsie roll.” His irritation spiked at the scene, that distress on Ynna’s face melting away at the spider’s nonchalance. “So Char. What’re we gonna do about the entertainment? We got like, another hour or something.”
“Can’t we just keep using Pent’s playlist?” Vaggie answered though her eyes remained troubled at their new predicament.
“That ain’t gonna cut it. It’s the hotel’s first big event. We gotta make it memorable.” That rare tidbit of insight from the spider had everyone contemplating before he puffed up his chest and fully leaned his gangly limbs on Ynna. “Here’s an idea, why don’t me and my girl Cherri perform up on stage? Give us, like, 10 minutes and we can make something up?”
“Are you okay with that?” Though she was asking about the spider’s comfort, the princess looked too hopeful. The spider wouldn’t have been able to backtrack with that sparkly gaze aimed at him.
“Sure! You have one of the most well known actors in your hotel. It’d be a shame not to use this asset while ya got me. Been tellin ya that I’d be okay with it and no, ya ain’t exploitin me, Charlie.”
He and Ynna’s eyes met for a moment, and while a zap of delight passed through him, a subtle understanding that the spider was just drunk and wanted to show off was shared between them. The frown that had been on her face lifted into an amused smile as she glanced up at the spider still using her head to lean his weight on.
“That’s an excellent idea. For once, I agree with him. It won’t be the most unique experience but I’m sure it'll suffice in making tonight’s events memorable.” He threw in his encouragement. The plan itself was what he would have suggested and the sooner the spider left to go onstage, the less he’d have to watch him hang off of his goat like a used dish rag. As it was, he approached the two friends and offered Ynna his arm in support, noticing how she subtly tried not to put pressure on her injured leg as she stood. The electric wave of satisfaction that passed through him as she gratefully accepted felt like victory when she pulled away from the spider to lean on him instead.
The group agreed on a course of action for the evening’s program: Angel would perform a few songs with Cherri Bomb followed by a closing performance by him.
“What’re you planning to do?” As they reseated themselves at the bar, Ynna asked. Once again, she tried to lean against the counter, rather than use him for support. But he was having none of that any longer. With a pull from his shadow, her bar stool was moved as close as it could be to his. The goat yelped a bit at being moved but the phantom ensured she wouldn’t fall as she settled into her seat, having no choice but to lean against him. She looked up at him, confused but got the hint when he nudged her silly head with his shoulder. The feeling of victory tasted almost as sweet as the warmth she exuded, settling into his side.
With a snap of his fingers a new bottle of bourbon and a couple glasses appeared in front of them.
“Wouldn’t want to spoil the surprise, sweetheart. You’re just going to have to wait.”
Ynna’s POV
You went through a couple glasses of bourbon rather quickly and only after you did, did Al bother to tell you that you should be sipping the liquor a lot more slowly than you had. Jerk. Whatever. It was really good stuff for something so strong. You were happily buzzed again and glad to have the man to lean on. Your head rested on his shoulder, a low hum reaching your ear from his chest. It wasn’t his static. It was something else, like the hum of a refrigerator, maybe? Whatever it was, it was soothing, a white noise that let you drown out the party and just enjoy a long moment of drunken serenity.
On your friend’s part, he’d quieted down after his first glass, sitting in that same drunken haze that matched yours. Every now and then, when one of you shifted, his hand would come over to steady you. A touch to your hip, a push on your back. Always making sure that you didn’t slip off as you let yourselves sink into alcoholic oblivion in your little corner. Come to think of it, how come no one had approached the bar at all? Surely someone would help themselves to the free liquor even if Husk was off duty for the evening.
Or maybe, even when he was being sweet and quiet as a lamb, Alastor still scared the shit out of the other sinners. He had that effect on people.
“And now for my last song of the night. I’m gonna try something a little different.” The electric pop music that had been playing as Angel and Cherri performed mellowed out and a slow soft tune started to Angel’s sweet humming. The crowd hushed, awaiting whatever song he was about to sing, its beginning a stark contrast to the energized beats he’d just performed.
Finally, a new side of me
Turned a new leaf underneath my tree
A slow song. You sometimes heard him hum it, at times when he’d let a bit of his melancholy through the mask that was Angel Dust. With effort, you turned in your seat to better view your friend as he sang a heartfelt piece.
I now see life's a beautiful dream
Gives me strength, gives me ease, all in a year
Of disease, I have thrived
Lucky me
The lyrics rang true for you. It had been a tough year. From dying to landing in Hell. The despair. The fear. But now you sat here among demons and deviants, friends and sinners alike, feeling more at home than you’d ever remembered being.
Kiss me, hold me, that feeling is holy
Nobody's loved me like you
Onstage, Angel looked forward, eyes on a certain bartender who’s tail swished back and forth. Why were all your friends so cute? You wondered when the two would get together. The song came to an end followed by applause from the crowd. You almost tipped forward trying to clap as loudly as you could but a certain shadow caught you, its owner giving a more muted applause to your friend’s song.
“I feel like I underestimated our dear Angel’s talent. I didn’t think a song like that would be his style.” Of course the man wouldn’t. He had this prejudice against men that you’d only noticed after being around him for so long. You thought that he and Angel could get along more if your spider friend would stop with the inappropriate jokes long enough.
“You’re up next. Think you can top that performance?” Your support stood up from his seat, your comfortable perch about to leave for the stage. He at least put you back into your wheelchair so you weren’t at risk of toppling over again.
“I’m sure Angel has another person in mind for topping him.” You snorted. Scratch that. Angel just needed to stop coming onto Al and the two would be best friends. The man straightened his appearance, looking right and proper. You could barely tell he was drunk, just barely, and only because you’d sat next to him all evening watching him consume glass after glass of whiskey and bourbon. “But I’m sure you’ll enjoy my performance.”
With a wink, he shadowed over onto the stage, commanding everyone’s attention by bringing all the spotlights to him. Angel and Husk found their way back to the bar, settling in with you to watch the show. Your new perch took Alastor’s abandoned seat, lower pair of arms steadying you as you rested against him. Angel thought it was funny that you were a cuddly drunk but the man didn’t want to admit that he was also snuggly after he’d reached a certain point.
“Did Smiles tell you what he had planned?”
“Nope.” You turned to Husk who was glancing at the stage with a frown, brows furrowing deeper the more he looked. “Husk?”
“I got a bad feeling…”
“Good evening everyone and thank you for attending our little shindig. That was a marvelous performance from our dear guest, Angel Dust. Can we get another round of applause?” At his prompting, the crowd cheered much to the enjoyment of your friend who puff led his chest fluff in pride. “Now, to finish off the evening, why don’t we get some laughter in the house?”
“Oh no.” Husk groaned, head thumping on the bar. He proceeded to chug the closest liquor bottle in a bid to pass out quickly. If he was being this dramatic then…
“What’s a cow’s favorite place of entertainment?” Red eyes scanned hopefully at the stunned crowd. “The moo-vie theater! Haha. No good? How about this next one? Why shouldn’t you wear glasses when you play football?” Very few people found the jokes funny and you were one of them, a grin splitting your face as you realized this would be his set.
“I don’t know, Al. Why shouldn’t you?” Ever a supporter of dad jokes, you played along. Your deer friend was thrilled by your participation. “Because it’s a contact sport!” Canned laughter echoed from his radio chest, supplementing the lack of laughter from the crowd. You had no qualms about joking the prerecorded chuckles.
“You know, they call me the fabric version of King Midas. They say everything I touch becomes felt.” Walking along the stage, he made use of the space and you just enjoyed his theatrics and his puns. Tears were starting to stream from your eyes.
“What’s the difference between a piano, a tuna and glue?” Oh. You knew this one. “You can tuna piano but you can’t piano a tuna!” The crowd groaned though no one had the guts to heckle the Radio Demon.
“What the heck does glue have to do with anything?” Except maybe Angel who was complaining next to you as you laughed, delighted that someone else set that up nicely for the comedian.
“I’m glad you asked. Everyone gets stuck on that one.” Your insides hurt from laughing, at the joke, at the crowd’s annoyance, at Alastor’s shameless delivery, at Angel’s disgusted face. Oh, it was excellent.
“Why did Norway start putting barcodes on their ships?” And he just kept on going. “So they can Scandinavian.”
“What’s made of leather and sounds like a sneeze? A shoe!”
At this point, people started leaving. Not one to be put out by a tough crowd, Alastor just kept going, waving to the departing sinners as they went. “I see. We have reached that point in the evening as it’s gotten late. Do be careful of the stairs on your way out. They’re always up to something.”
You would have happily died a second death from laughter.
Notes:
Phew! Last chapter of the party. This was the longest one I've written.
Congrats Al. You managed to cuddle Ynna and got to perform dad jokes for the evening. In case any of y'all haven't seen it, here's a fun little animation: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=me0XrTTM_3s&ab_channel=AnimatedMau
Also, have y'all heard New Side of Me by Blake Roman? That's the song Angel sings.
Let me know what y'all think of this chapter in the comments~
Chapter 20: Warm by the Fire
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Alastor’s POV
Bitter. The taste lingered on his tongue when the toffee notes of his bourbon subsided. Combined with the delightful twinge from the open cuts on his fingers, it was exquisite . The night had ended wonderfully, well beyond what he had anticipated. Not only had he gotten a chance to introduce Ynna to Rosie, he’d also managed to keep the goat’s company the rest of the evening. As their little hotel group gathered for a few ‘last’ rounds of drinks, she happily spent that time tucked against his side.
Yes, an excellent evening. He hummed with satisfaction, a buzz of contentment sparking in his mind to the tune of his pulse. Ever so slightly, he pressed the cuts on his fingers, feeling their sting alight anew. If only he could stop them from healing.
“Here’s…here’s one: why do doctors hit your knee with a h-hammer?” His gaze turned down to the woman sitting across her wheelchair, hooves dangling off one armrest while she rested her back on the other. An awkward posture given the lack of support the wheelchair had but she did it, all so she could look at him while he pushed her down the long red hallways back to her room.
“Hmm. Because they kneed to?” Her raucous laughter washed over him, an absolute joy to hear and—.
He stopped himself. Joy. Was he feeling joy for getting such happy laughter from his goat? He’d only ever felt it around a select few without someone’s suffering involved. Yet here was proof that beyond his desire, Ynna also brought him joy. It was such a pure emotion, he almost physically recoiled.
“No! Haha! It’s because they get a kick out of it!” Almost before she could finish the punchline, she already started to devolve into giggles, little hooves kicking merrily as she did. When was the last time someone enjoyed his company so simply, without him needing to perform or be on guard? He supposed there was Rosie but this was different somehow. It was different with Ynna.
His eyes trailed over the still happily drunk goat. Apparently, after a certain amount of alcohol, Ynna’s drunken state moved from cuddly and quiet to babbling spontaneously. She spoke her thoughts as if she’d bottled them up all evening and waited for the perfect time to let them loose. When she ran out of words to say, she filled the gaps with humming, bits and pieces of songs he recognized and hummed along to. With drunken tunes spilling from both of them as they went, they made quite a pair.
His chest thrummed warmly. He supposed it was a bit of sentimentality brought on by copious amounts of alcohol but he liked the idea of being that with her, ‘a pair.’
Only when their silly parade had gone on for a while did her eyes turn back up to him, a sparkle alight within their depths despite the lackluster lighting. “You’re so quiet when you're drunk, Alastor. It’s so strange to barely hear you talking.”
“And you’ve caught a bit of the gab it seems.”
“Hehe. I can’t help it. I’m feeling sooooo happy right now. I still have the giggles from all your jokes.” Said giggles spilled out of her as she threw her head back until she was draped precariously over the armrest and ready to fall. Still, she had enough awareness to pull herself back into the seat before she did.
“I think that’s just the alcohol, sweetheart.” This careless her was a delight to watch, languid yet abuzz with unused energy, teetering between uncoordinated and aware. A kind of chaos she would be too timid to show at a normal occasion but now, he bore witness to. He felt only a tad smug that she was like this now, with him alone, and not with their little group earlier. It showed a level of trust and comfort that he’d earned through their companionship.
“No no no. I’m sure I’m happy. Everyone had fun, you were super funny and even without a band—and did you see how happy Charlie was? This was a success! Everything…this was to cheer Angel and I up from the Valentino incident, right? You all did such a good job even with all the hiccups.” A serene expression took over her face, lightly flush from her mirthful laughter.
“I’m glad you enjoyed it.” It had been the right move to suggest a celebration and he patted himself on the back for his quick thinking at the time. And when the time came, he’d make sure to pay that moth back for his transgressions. Maybe Ynna could join in the retaliation by then too.
The idea of seeing her actually fight an Overlord properly was exciting. He was sure that with the proper support, training and utilization of her talents, she could rise in the ranks quickly enough to pose a proper threat. Though, he doubted he could convince the woman to take on souls to contract. She was too kind for that. That didn’t mean he couldn’t convince some sinners to pledge their souls to her…
His eyes turned down to her to find her big eyes holding his reflection sharply, expression otherwise blank. In the dim light, her features took on a grim hue, a true sinner instead of an innocent lamb. His breath caught at her sudden intensity. Why was she looking at him like that? Did he accidentally voice out his gruesome ponderings just now? Surely not. Even when drunk, he wasn’t that sloppy. This had to be caused by something that went through her mind. He waited for her brain to process whatever it was that had her looking so serious.
She was a bit unpredictable now that she was drunk. It was part of why it was so entertaining. What little thoughts were about to spill from her liquor-loosened lips? Something shook in his chest when he’d chanced a glance at her mouth, the stinging of his fingers flaring tantalizingly.
Before his mind could feed him some inappropriate ideas, a smile bloomed on her sweet blank face, teeth peeking behind soft lips. Her eyes crinkled at the corners, that piercing gaze that shot bolts of uncertainty into his chest unraveling to envelope him like a soft blanket instead. Everything went silent in his head as he focused, waiting.
“You are fantastic, Alastor.” The words left her mouth with breathy awe in each syllable, the sincerity in them palpable. Those eyes shined just a bit more. “Truly.”
Click
All at once, his mind lit up in alert. Her words were spoken like she believed them a truth of the universe, undeniable and unchangeable. They had an impact, her sincerity so palpable, it was like he’d been attacked, a direct hit to his already buzzing chest. He pointedly ignored the way his heart stuttered, choosing the whispers of logic in his mind.
There was something far more important at play here: her compliment signaled a shift. Somewhere in his goat’s mind, her perception of him had shifted and he needed to grasp this moment and guide it.
He almost cursed himself for drinking so much this evening. Why else would he be so disoriented by such simple words of praise? His sluggish mind couldn’t fathom what the best response should be. Should he feign humility? No. He wanted to encourage this behavior. Then, maybe returning the favor would be best. A myriad of compliments flew through his mind, all true words to describe his goat but he just knew; any words he could say would not reach her with the same intensity. He was left mentally floundering.
And the perpetrator of all this…Just as quickly as she’d delivered her heartfelt compliment did she turn away, curling back into that uncomfortable posture she’d adopted to sit in. Her smile remained just as small and content as she let out a giggle before humming one of the pop songs that had played that evening. So content was she that she didn’t even realize that he’d stopped pushing.
Meanwhile, his mind whirred, static crackling like a lost signal. He should have felt even more aggrieved for being left so dumbfounded but instead, he felt elated. Joyous. What to do? How could he pay her back for this wonderful wretched feeling? A hand went up to his mouth, feeling drool ease out from the hyper-wide smile his grin had contorted itself into.
Whispers from the shadows goaded him. This woman kept raising a desire to devour her. To open his mouth and chuck her into the pits of his being so he could hear her chirp those words again and again to him for the rest of his afterlife while she looked at him so blatantly sweet and trusting.
It was insane. To want something so badly like this was insanity.
Yet he was already reaching for her, claws stopping just short of the loose strands of her hair.
“Al? You okay? You got a little something there.” A small hand reached up to point at where his drool was slipping, stopping itself just short of actually touching his face. Trusting. Respectful. Adoring. The way she looked at him was evidence of her sincerity and it spurred him into action. Very rarely did he lack for words but when he did, actions would do.
“Wait! Al-!” With quick steps, he rounded the wheelchair and scooped up the little darling, taking great delight in the immediate way her arms wrapped around his shoulders to keep herself steady. “What are you doing?”
“Didn’t you say that you wanted to dance this evening?”
“Well, yes but-”
“Splendid! I was also hoping to dance with you so why not do it now? Just leave everything to me, my dear.” With one hand to support her back and the other carrying her weight, he started his dance. It wasn’t too different from when he’d dragged her across the dance floor of Mimzy’s lounge. In fact, it was easier this way. She wouldn’t be able to step away from him this time.
I’m sitting on top of the world
I’m rolling along, yes, rolling along
And I’m quitting the blues of the world
I’m sing a song, yes, singing a song
Al Johnson’s voice accompanied their impromptu dance. He stepped forward, shimmying as he went with his poor captive goat being swayed left and right. He didn’t feel sorry for her though. Not when every giggle or squeal of delight she made sparked joy to his very bones. But just music and movement wouldn’t do. It would never be complete without the proper atmosphere. With a little bit of concentration, the hallways lights brightened and dimmed as they passed, shining an ever moving spotlight over them.
Don't want any millions
I'm getting my share
I've only got one suit, just one
That's all I can wear
A bundle of money
Don't make me feel gay
A sweet little honey is making me say
When he spun on his heel, the little thing in his arms actually threw her head back, arms extended and keeping her hold on his shoulders by the tips of her fingers. Trusting only his hold on her to keep her from flying, she let out a loud whoop as they spun like a top under the only light in the hall. It was dizzying. It was manic but so was the thrumming in his chest from emotions she carelessly, unknowingly, stoked.
He ended the spin by throwing her up into the air and catching her, one arm supporting her waist and the other behind her head. He was careful not to let her fall.
“Well, sweetheart?” The question was unnecessary given the low chuckles coming from the goat between her little pants for air. With a grin, she took one deep breath and bellowed.
“I’m sitting on top, top of the world~!” A drunken garble of a tune but it was lovely all the same. Her arms wound themselves around his shoulders and that was all the prompting he needed to pick back up again.
Ynna’s POV
Alastor continued this wacky but sweet dance of carrying you down the hall with an occasional spin and toss. Not that much different from your last dance with the man and still just as fun, even more so without an audience to see your silly display. It warmed your heart greatly to see him so silly.
He deserved to be this merry. For all the planning and effort he put into the party. For protecting everyone. For turning away one of his oldest friends for causing problems. He truly was a wonderful friend and your heart was bursting with affection.
“Alastor?” The man didn’t pause his stride but did stop his swaying to give you enough stability to talk. His red eyes seemed more focused on you than usual but the easy grin on his face softened their stare. “Can I hug you?” You asked timidly.
“Aren’t you already hugging me, sweetheart?” True. Your arms were already around his shoulders, the easiest way to keep yourself from being flung off the Radio Demon as he danced, but that was different from what you wanted.
“No. I’m holding on to you. That’s different. I want to hug you, like the affectionate kind.” It was a desire that had been plaguing you for a while now, ever since you’d gotten comfortable around your friend, but one you didn’t think you should ask. However, in this moment, a song playing from his chest, a pep to his step and a smile that lacked his usual sinister mischief, you couldn’t help but want to smother him in affection the only way you knew how.
The man’s eyes crinkled and that mischievous glint in them returned. He leaned down until his face was close to yours. Probably to make you uncomfortable. Too bad for him, you were used to his casual invasion of your space at this point. You waited patiently, not backing away and letting him do as he wished. He found your lack of intimidation amusing, as evidenced by how he snorted before quickly bringing his head back.
“Well if you’re so desperate to show me some affection, I suppose I could let you. But only because I’ve become so fond of you, sweetheart.” He looked down at you from his forward facing angle, a teasing smile on his lips as he made himself sound pompous. “You don’t have to ask next time, you know. I’ll give you special permission to touch me if that is your desire.”
“It sounds so weird when you word it like that. I just wanna give you a hug.”
“I’m saying go ahead, sweetheart.”
Your heart skipped a beat in excitement. Carefully, you angled yourself in his arms to be able to give him a proper hug. The man didn’t flinch from the contact. His breath in your ear as he chuckled lowly and the warmth of his chest against yours were lovely. A tightly curled ball of anxiety that you hadn’t known had always been in your chest melted away.
You basked in the feeling of his acceptance until you both finally arrived at your room. The gentle rocking motions of his stride and his warmth had lulled you to a drowsy state. Navigating the darkness of your room, the man gently set you down on your bed and you shivered at the loss of contact.
“Cold, sweetheart?” Clawed hands rubbed at your shoulders as if to put some warmth back into them. You were too shy to admit that you missed hugging him already.
“Just a bit.”
With a snap of his fingers, a fireplace appeared in your room, its light casting gentle shadows into the otherwise dark space. You thanked the man and bid him good night. For half a second, he seemed to hesitate, a little daze coming over him before he bid his farewell. Fair enough. He was bound to be tired after everything that happened today.
Turning to the fireplace, you began throwing your pillows into the space in front of it, careful to not throw too hard and accidentally send a cushion into the flames. When your effort was done, you tried to move off your bed to hobble over to the little nest you made, the idea of a comfy fireside sleep pulling at your tiring body. A pair of arms scooped you up causing you to squeak in surprise. Turning to their owner, you were surprised to find that Alastor hadn’t left yet.
Alastor laid you down on the pile of pillows gently, tutting about how you could have just asked for his assistance in the first place. As if to emphasize how much easier it was with his assistance, he even brought your blankets over to tuck you in.
All at once, you felt exhausted, today’s event finally catching up to you. With heavy eyes, you thanked him again, agreeing with him but also letting him know that you weren’t so incapable that you couldn’t do this much by yourself. You vaguely heard him say something about making life more difficult than it needed to be.
The heat of the fire and the plush cushions called you into slumber. You couldn’t even bid him good night with your eyes open. Today had been great, for all the strange feelings it brought with it. You were thankful.
From your side, you heard a subtle rustling and a presence that did not leave as you had expected it to. With will power born through curiosity, you opened your eyes and took in the man casually lounging beside you. Alastor laid on his stomach, legs casually swaying behind him as he found one of your pillows to lay on. He made himself comfortable, looking lazily at you.
“Not going back yet?”
“I thought I’d enjoy this little set up you’ve made for a moment.”
“Feel free.” You turned your head to look at your companion. The fire cast a gentle glow over him, their warmth flickering over the shiny strands of his red hair. Having your permission, he even took off his monocle, settling into his position as if he would stay all evening. You honestly wouldn’t mind. When he was quiet and pleased like this, he was a comfort to have around. Well, even when he was an absolute demon wreaking havoc on offending sinners, he was also a comfort. Always protective and a showman at heart. Your creepy, whimsical, creative and fun companion.
A flitting urge to touch him itched at your fingers. He said you were free to show him affection in your way so maybe he wouldn’t mind. You raised a hand, slow to approach so he had plenty of time to move away, and moved a couple strands of his bangs from his face. His red eyes followed your movements but made no motion to move. In fact, he seemed pleased by the action, even when your fingers brushed against his brow. It shouldn’t have felt so magical to fix your friend’s fringe but it did.
“You would have throttled me for touching your face like this a month ago.”
“Hmm. Things change so unpredictably, no? You used to bite your tongue and hide like a rat when I entered the room. I was quite disappointed to see the new resident be such a coward.”
“Which was fair since like I said, you are violent, with specific triggers.”
“Oh, sweetheart. If my dear mother heard that, she’d be so very cross. Her dear son being violent with a woman. Tsk tsk. It would break her heart.” He feigned wiping a tear from his eye, ever theatrical.
“Ha! And you being a serial killer didn’t?” A chilling pause struck the both of you almost instantly, sucking the playfulness of your banter and leaving a frightening void. You thought that you may have actually hurt him with that quip even if his smile didn’t so much as twitch. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said that.”
There was a moment where he looked at you, half a second of uncertainty where your relationship hung in a careful balance. It was enough to fill you with dread that you may have touched a nerve and ruined the whole evening for you both.
“...She didn’t know before she passed away. I’m sure she’s learned of my history since. At least, after so many decades have passed and I never appeared up there.” Nothing in his tone or expression changed but you could just tell, he was a bit solemn. “As much as it pains me to disappoint her, I wouldn’t have changed a thing.”
“No regrets?” It occurred to you that maybe you should have stopped probing but…the Radio Demon did not seem to mind sharing this evening. When he chattered, it wasn’t quite so personal so you couldn’t stop yourself from asking more when he so rarely seemed inclined to share.
“Not one. I even hunted down those very souls I killed up there when I got here. It was a lovely way to get acquainted with the afterlife. I was allowed to enjoy it a whole lot more than I did the first time.” Clawed fingers hovered in the air, flexing as if grasping something, a physical representation of a life being snuffed out. He grinned. A chill crawled up your spine at the raw sadism he showed, his red eyes sharply watching you. “Scared, my dear?”
Were you scared of him? You kept eye contact, staring as needles started to replace his pupils and his grin turned sharper with each breath you stayed silent. Cold tendrils of his shadows snaked up against the light of the fire, crawling over your form in that same suffocating way they did that night you angered him. But it was different. You knew he wasn’t angry. No warning bells heralding danger sounded in your head. You felt safe. You felt calm.
He…cared about what you thought of him, it seemed. He never used to care, even going out of his way to be a menace at times for the fun of seeing you blanch. And you were okay with feeding into his need to create chaos. But if he wanted to know whether he, the way he was, frightened you…
“No.” You were probably more scared of how you weren’t bothered by him, a pinnacle of demonic being, at all.
All at once, he retracted that menacing appearance until he looked no different than a cat lounging luxuriously in front of the hearth. No words needed to be said. He was pleased with your answer.
A warm silence stretched on from there and you watched each other. Well, looked at each other’s directions in a slightly drunken daze. He really was very pretty, all graceful lines even when you could tell he’d had too much to drink. No one would think he was a sadistic Overlord if they ever saw him like this, head on his hands as he laid on his belly, eyes drooping every now and then. You remembered how many scars he had littering his forearms and wondered if he had them before he died or received them after. And of scars…Even though his fingers were blackened, you could still spy your teeth marks marring their otherwise graceful shape.
“Hey Al?”
“What is it, sweetheart?” The demon murmured, seeming to enjoy spacing out just as much as you were.
“Sorry, again, for biting you.” The apology came out a bit hesitant. He’d gotten caught in the crossfire when you wanted to fight Mimzy, a burning anger clawing at you from your alcohol addled mind. You had wanted to punch her faux-sweet little face. She had so little regard for the damage she brought and you were so angry…angry enough to think that if you had to eat someone, you wouldn’t mind taking a bite out of her face. Instead, Alastor had gotten injured trying to stop you from doing harm. He’d even sent his old friend away for your sake.
“Oh you silly little thing. Are you worried that I’d be upset by such a small cut?” He chuckled low and filled with lazy amusement, eyes slightly mocking as they regarded you. “Haven’t I been offering you a bite all this time? I’d say this was a fortunate accident.” With the tip of a red claw, he poked where your shoulder had been shot. “You’d be all better by tomorrow if you’d drawn more blood.” Of course he’d bring up your little quirk.
You swallowed unconsciously at the reminder. Demon blood didn’t taste any different than regular blood. It had been like licking a deep paper cut. At least, that’s how you tried to visualize it in your head.
Feeling guilty still, you motioned for his injured hand, his curious red gaze sparking as he gave you the appendage. Up close, it was already almost fully healed. Only the surface tears remained. At least, he healed quickly. You traced the agitated skin, heart aching at the sight of them. On impulse, you brought the clawed fingertips to your lips, planting a light kiss on them where you had bitten him earlier, pouring all your sorry feelings into the gesture. “Still. Sorry for hurting you and thanks for stopping me earlier, Alastor.”
The man remained silent. It only caught up to your brain then that maybe that had been a touch too far. He had only just given you permission to touch him, after all. It had just felt right. You really appreciated the lengths he was willing to go to keep you out of trouble and seeing even this little bit of hurt on the unscratchable him spurred an urge to soothe it. Not that he needed it. It was your own desire. You waited for him to react, ready to accept whatever he did in response.
“If you’re so worried about offending me…” His voice dipped into that tone that meant he was about to say something he knew you would dislike. “...then how about we make it fair, hm? I can bite your hand then we’ll call it even between us.”
“Sure.” You didn’t even have to think about it. You knew he was half-joking, poking fun at your need to appease and apologize, but so what? He was still half-serious and you were willing to indulge him. If he wanted to bite, then you were ready to feel that razor sharp smile on your skin.
“Here.” Raising your hand, you offered the appendage to the stunned man. It was amusing to see him so surprised. He was rarely ever flustered. He seemed to hesitate, eyes flitting from your hand to your face as if you’d lost your mind. And maybe you had. It had to say something about your psyche when you were willing to offer a cannibal a chance to sink his teeth into you.
But with the way he glowed a soft hue in the firelight, reds sparkling with warm embers, no mischief or meanness about him, left you feeling soft for him. He really was too pretty. It was almost flattering that he wanted to bite you. He was always picky with his food.
You mentally snorted. That sounded deranged.
“You are a wonder, sweetheart. You always manage to surprise me.” Slowly, his hand wrapped around your offered one, just as careful as you were with him earlier. Silly man. He asked for this so why was he feeling so shy now? Yet the care he took with you only solidified that growing space you had for him in your heart.
His eyes never left yours, a constant need to reaffirm your consent even as his razor sharp teeth sank into the pads on your fingers. It hurt but you continued smiling at him in encouragement. When the blood finally hit his tongue, his eyes closed to savor every drop.
If you were being honest, you had expected him to maul your hand, vindictive kind of man that he was. But no. A light suction engulfed your fingertips as he took them into the heat of his mouth. His tongue swept gentle strokes over the cuts and his teeth did not dare to do more damage.
You watched him in a daze, feeling the motions as the demon took his due. For a second, you imagined running your thumb over his thin lips, pushing them away to see just how far he’d sunk his teeth into you. A quiet gasp escaped your lips as a soft swirl of heat flooded your chest.
You hoped you’d pushed those thoughts quickly enough away that the man holding your hand in his teeth couldn’t feel the way your pulse quickened.
When he let go, one last lick to close the matching wounds he made, a fond smile stretched across his face, expression a touch softer than normal. Like a balm to your frantic heartbeat, the show of his fondness calmed you. Right. Friend. Alastor was a friend and you shouldn’t be thinking about how pretty he looked gently nibbling at your fingertips.
“Are we even, now?” You asked, exhausted but trying to appear nonplussed. His brows knitted for a moment, the answer looking to be a ‘no’ before he brightened again. He left a small peck at your stinging fingers, sending heat from where they landed.
“Now, we are, sweetheart.”
“Pfft. Alright.” You ignored the twinge of your heart as he winked at you, glee apparent on his face as if he’d heard the best joke in the world. A yawn escaped you and you gave in to the call of sleep. Maybe you’d be more sane come morning. “Good night, Al.” The last thing you saw before sleep finally took over was his manic smile and sleepy eyes.
Alastor’s POV
She didn’t take her hand back from him.
Notes:
Hello lovely readers!
I hope you enjoyed this chapter. I had this all written in my head but the words took a while to get there. Due to that, I’m going to be taking a small break to recharge and do some things.
Thank you all for your support! I appreciate the comments. I go feral for them.
Chapter 21: Shopping for Hearts
Notes:
And I have returned! (Sort of)
I've decided to stick to whatever posting schedule feels natural to me and not pressure myself into posting a chapter a week. Still, I hope this improves my writing.
Let me know what you think of this chapter in the comments! :3
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Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
It had been a month since the party with no more big incidents following. Well, aside from the occasional well-meaning but unfortunately poorly executed redemption exercises Charlie put together for everyone. The trust falls were alright, going about as expected when you ask a room of people to be vulnerable to each other. The turf war was dicey, Angel’s knife and gun lessons just barely keeping you alive. At least, Vaggie was less against you learning self-defense after seeing that poor performance.
“Hey, how about this one, babe?” Turning from the clothes rack in front of you, a white frilly dress shirt met your eyes. In the little department store you and Angel found yourselves in, the blouse stood out, looking soft and airy in contrast to the sleeker fashions. It was cute but wasn’t your style.
“Hmm…maybe less poofy.”
“Ok. How about this? It’s your color.” The spider held up another shirt, this one immediately sparking interest in the back of your mind. You smiled, thrilled. You knew you could rely on the man to help you with shopping.
“Ooohhhhhh!” You picked up the blouse with enthusiasm. It matched your wardrobe color and style perfectly. The fabric glided on your skin smoothly and the stitches seemed well made. This was exactly what you had been looking for to replace the one you lost due to the hotel attack.
A little tag stuck out and you immediately investigated the price. “Noooooo.” You blanched. “Damn. It’s a little too expensive. I need to buy pants too.” With the budget you had, there was no way to afford two decently made items at that price. Still, you eyed the blouse longingly. It was perfect, but put it back on the rack anyway. Out of curiosity, Angel looked at the tag too.
“Babe, it’s not even that bad. And whatd’ya mean ya ain’t got the cash for it? Didn’t ya just drop a couple hundred on that gift for Smiles?” With two hands on his hips while the other two laid across his chest, the spider frowned at you, a bit confused.
“Well…” Your mind immediately went to the little box nestled safely in your bag, a gift for Alastor as Angel said. While window shopping earlier, it had caught your eye and you immediately thought of the chatty demon and just had to buy it. Admittedly, it was the most expensive thing you’d bought since coming down to Hell but you rarely bought things anyway.
“Oh geez. Don’t tell me you spent most of your budget on a gift for him?” Exactly right. A blush rose to your face, feeling like the first time your parents scolded you for overspending. Angel huffed at you, rolling his eyes dramatically as he rifled through the other clothes available for something else for you. He didn’t stop chastising you, though. “Kid…I know y'all are going out and shit but he’s the Overlord here. He should be the one showering ya with gifts and other expensive junk. Make him the sugar daddy. He’s bound to be good for it.”
“We’re not going out.” You immediately corrected him. For the umpteenth time. For some reason, everyone seemed to have this idea that you and Alastor were secretly dating. Angel, in particular, had latched onto it even more after the party when he’d caught Alastor leaving your room that morning. No amount of explanations seemed to get through to your gossipy friend, much to the frustration of you and Alastor. At some point, the deer demon had just given up, taking the stance that if he ignored it, the spider would drop the subject eventually.
“You really aren’t, toots? Y’now you can tell me. I’ll even promise to keep it a secret.” He bent at the waist, leaning close and conspiratorial, eyes almost sincere except you caught a glimpse of mischief in them. Liar. You knew he had a bet going on with Husk about you and Alastor. Niffty had mentioned it offhand to you one afternoon when even she came to ask if you and the Radio Demon were an item. You prayed for patience.
“For the 100th time, we really aren’t. We’re close, sure. I’d even call him my best friend. But we aren’t an item. I mean, does he seem like the dating type to you?” Palms flat out and eyebrows raised, you asked Angel for an answer. You both knew that the deer demon never expressed any interest in romance, going so far as to yawn when everyone was gossiping. And the man loved gossip! He just didn't care for anything related to love lives.
The spider huffed, seeing your point. “So what, you’re just blowing all your money on him just cause?”
“It’s not just cause. It’s an appreciation gift. He’s done so much for me and I thought I should get him something. I mean, I got you one too.”
“It was a charm for Fat Nugg’s collar. Not exactly bank-breaking.” He deadpanned. For a moment, your heart clenched, remembering the gift that Angel cooed so much about after you’d presented it to him. Did he think it was too cheap?
“T-that…D-did you not like my gift?”
“What? No, that’s not what I meant!” The spider was practically a white blur as he moved, quick to hug you when he’d realized how awfully shallow he sounded. You were a little hurt by the statement but the way his arms rubbed up and down your back reassured you that he was sorry. “I mean, I literally watched ya spend almost an hour picking that gift out and then now ya tell me, ya used all your money on it and can’t afford to buy yourself something nice.” He pulled away to look into your eyes. “And this whole shopping trip was for ya to get something nice for yourself. That’s why you were saving up, right?”
“I—he deserves it though? He’s always helping me out, especially when I was injured. And he’s been a terrific friend. I always have so much fun when we hang out and not only that, he cooks for us too.” It wasn’t difficult to find reasons to justify your purchase, memories of lunch dates, jokes and nights spent doing chores to the sound of the radio playing through your mind. Your heart pounded to each image, its beating stamping the word precious over each memory. Walking arm in arm around town or even just down the hallways. On flights of whimsy, you’d invite each other to dance for just a few seconds.
Living in Hell was so easy with him. How could you not want to give him even a small token of appreciation?
“Uh-huh. Tell me again that you don’t like him, toots.”
“I really don–” Your tongue twisted on itself as you tried to utter your usual response, your thoughts still running with images of Alastor, laughing, smirking, teasing, singing…humming quietly to himself or sitting idly next to you. You choked on your own denial.
“Yeah. Yeah. You two are just friends, yadda yadda. Hey, how about this one…? Yn’s?”
The world seemed to crash around you and piece itself back together as a new feeling took root in your heart, strong and overwhelming. Your face felt hot, a mixture of happiness and understanding and deep anxiety flooding your system. Oh no. Oh no.
“Oh no.”
“Oh no?” Angel parroted, confused. Your eyes darted to meet his as your hands immediately took hold of his upper arms, needing something to steady yourself against the onslaught of fearful realization.
“Oh no. Angel! I-I like him.” You almost croaked over the three syllables, disbelief still vaguely floating in your mind. When did you fall for the Radio Demon? How?
“Finally! Took ya long enough to get it, toots. Guess you two can finally move on to…why do you look like that?”
“I-I’m scared.” In front of him, you trembled, panic settling in.
“Why?” His lower arms slid your arms to your shoulders, comfortingly trying to ground you as your eyes started to sting.
“He doesn’t like me. Not like that, at least.”
“Whatd’ya mean? Bitch! You're like his favorite person. He’s practically glued to your side all the fucking time. I think everyone and their blind dog sees how much he likes ya.”
“No. No. You don’t get it Angel. He’s…” You tried to grasp for words to express what you’d come to know from your…friend. (Crush? No. A crush seemed too childish for how at home you felt around him.) “He’s never shown any interest in romance. Once, I asked him if he’d ever dated and he said it wasn’t his style. And…and while I’m his favorite at the hotel, isn’t that just because his other friends don’t live nearby? I’m sure he’d hang out with them just as much if they lived in the same place as he did.”
“Hey hey. None of that self-deprecating bullshit. If Smiles wanted to hang with his other friends, he’d find a way, don’t ya think? So don’t sell yourself short on that end at least.” His mismatched eyes stared pointedly at you, always quick to stop you from thinking less of yourself.
“Fine. But I still don’t think he likes me. He’s old fashioned, insists on being a gentleman. If he liked me that way…he’d have made a move by now. Chivalry and all that. So…he probably doesn’t.” The fear of your feelings settled, leaving a pit where your heart had been squeezing with excitement and dread just seconds ago. You realized why you were afraid of this revelation. What was the use of falling in love with him when the man didn’t love you back?
Your bag suddenly felt heavy. Taking out the culprit of the sudden weight, you held a small box, just slightly bigger than your palm. The owner had been kind enough to tie a crimson ribbon around the cardboard shell, shiny satin smoothed over a dark purple exterior. The gift you had meant to give Alastor as a token of your friendship.
“I need to return this.” What was just an hour ago, an object that filled you with fluffy delight now felt ominous. It felt too heavy in your hand, bearing feelings the man, your friend, wouldn’t be able to, shouldn’t have to, bear.
Bitterness creeped up your throat at imagining him feeling awkward around you if he came to know about your feelings. He valued a sense of propriety, lines he was willing to cross with his friends but you weren’t sure how he’d feel if the other party was interested in him romantically. He might distance himself, no longer comfortable showing his fondness in case it was perceived as anything but platonic. Even worse, he could end your friendship entirely and you’d lose your most treasured companion. Your eyes felt hot, stinging as you pre-processed a heartbreak before it could be served to you.
He wouldn’t be able to return your feelings. You just knew it. And you weren’t willing to risk losing what you already had with him by holding on to those emotions.
“Whoa. Hold on there, Yn’s. No need to go that far. Let’s take it back a couple a steps, yeah?” Angel, having watched the rapid shifts in your demeanor, put his hands on your shoulders, keeping you grounded as your mind flew. His eyes bored into yours, vying for your focus which you readily gave if only so you could stop the stinging creeping up your nose.
“So you love Alastor.”
You nodded, heart fluttering again at the acknowledgment of your feelings.
“And you’re sure he doesn’t like you back or at least, isn’t interested in a relationship.”
You nodded again, the dip of your chin as heavy as the sudden dip in your feelings. Fuck. This was too much. How easily a few words sent you into a downward spiral. Your throat hurt and your eyes were starting to get blurry. Were you seriously about to cry in the middle of a department store on a Tuesday?
“Are you planning to tell him? Do you even want a relationship with him?” His hands gently cupped your face, as if readying himself to start wiping away your tears but his words put a stop to them immediately.
“I…” It was like a break was pulled, slowing the wild tumbling of your emotions until it gave you pause. Your silly mind provided one of Alastor’s record scratches to emphasize the halt in your train of thought.
What did you want out of your newfound feelings for the Radio Demon?
“I honestly don’t know.” Came your answer as you tried to ponder that question.
“Well, think about it for a sec before you go all panicky like that. Ya might do something you’ll regret.”
Taking your friend’s advice, you stepped away from the racks to find a spot to sit. You eventually found a bench, a metal one with holes punched throughout, by the changing rooms. You plopped yourself down with little regard for grace. There was too much on your mind right now to care that you’d sat yourself down too quickly and hurt your butt in the process.
So you loved the Radio Demon, with his charming smiles and his sinister mischief…Did you like his sinister side? The monster he was beneath the dapper shell, eating sinners and enjoying their misery and torture. A shiver ran up your spine at the memory of when he’d turned that nightmarish appearance on you in what felt like so long ago. But in the same vein, his demonic self had saved you twice and it no longer brought about the same choking fear that it did just over a month ago.
Caution. Not fear. Even his most terrifying side only brought about a healthy dose of caution from you, accompanied by admiration for his abilities and how he wielded them. He was fearsome and awe-inspiring even when he was covered in guts and viscera. Fuck. Wasn’t that a kicker too? That you could like him even when he was an absolute terror let loose upon the Pentagram.
Your feelings ran much deeper than you thought.
With an exasperated sigh, you ran a hand down your face, the motion loosening your frown and furrowed brows just a tad. With your feelings the way they were, what did you want to do with them? The immediate thought was to confess but was that really the way to go about it? What would confessing bring you?
The man you knew was adverse to romance and while he treated you as a very close companion, you’d never sensed any other intentions there. Other than him hoping you’d one day try your powers using him. But you chalked that up to him being a cannibal and enjoying the misery of bringing a non-cannibal into his ‘culture’. His sense of humor had always been twisted like that.
Other than that…
“It’s not everyday I find someone capable of being my friend.”
He’d told you that day he gave you that blood potion. Cut himself up to make something to heal you with after you almost experienced a second death at the hands of Valentino. Then from that day on, he was by your side with his jokes and snide cheer, giving you peace and laughter. He dressed your wounds and kissed your forehead when you cried. Trusted you enough to see him disheveled and relaxed. Did you want more from him than that?
No. Not really.
“What more could I want from him?” You muttered out loud, as if the answer would come to you by speaking your query into the world.
“I don’t know. Sex?”
“Angel…” The world answered in the form of your friend. You didn’t realize that he’d followed you.
“What? Ya asked. You two practically do everything together so I figured the horizontal tango is the only thing you haven’t done.” He shrugged, leaning against the dressing room wall next to you. For once, he didn’t have a sleazy grin on his face while talking about sex.
“I don’t think he’s even interested in sex. Like, at all.”
“Whatd’ya mean he ain’t?”
“Other than romance, it’s the only other topic where his eyes just gloss over like he’d rather be anywhere else. Complained about how vulgar it was and how fixested everyone was on it when I asked him.” Thinking back on all the times anyone had ever brought up sex, which was surprisingly often, the man had all but blanched behind his plastered smile. On more than a few occasions, you saw his shadow looking ready to strangle Angel for one sex joke too many. When you’d broached the topic to him, wanting to know why he seemed so averse, he just thought it distasteful. Didn’t want it for himself with all its messiness.
That, you could understand. From your few experiences, it had barely been worth the clean up after.
“No way. Smiles actually told you that?” He sat down next to you, leaning in like you were lying to him. You booped his nose, pushing him back gently.
“Yep. So no. Even if he did like me back, I think sex would be off the table.”
“Well, ya never know.” The spider shrugged, still not completely convinced. You thought that even if Alastor told him directly, he’d never truly believe it.
“And I don’t think I’ll ever know.” You leaned back, enjoying the cool feel of the wall behind you before you felt the bumps and heard muffled grunting. Of course, someone would think to have sex in there. You grimaced before standing up to move away. “I don’t plan to tell him.”
“Well, love’s not all that anyway.” The spider followed, sashaying as he said so. From him, it sounded more like saying they printed on a banner or coffee mug. Cheesy but you had to agree in this situation.
“Yeah. We have a good thing going here. What more could I get from confessing?” Each step you took eased away your sadness and apprehension, gradually feeling lighter as you focused on the good things. Like how blessed you were to have Angel and Alastor as your friends.
“You can call him yours. Stake a claim and shit. Bet you’d look real cute all possessive over your boyfriend.”
“Pfft.”
Eyeing the box still in your hand, you tried to channel the feelings you’d felt when you’d laid eyes on it and decided to get it for your friend. Your friend. It was all about appreciating him and letting him know he mattered to you, that his friendship was a blessing you never thought you’d find after first waking up in Hell.
The feelings this little present carried…they were never romantic and didn’t ever have to be.
Pink gloved fingers closed your hand around your gift, as if asking you to hold on. “Just give it to him, Yn’s. I think you’d be happier if ya got to say how much you appreciate him than if ya shied away cuz feelings got involved.”
“You’re right.” You let out a long sigh, relief and exhaustion leaking out of you after working through the sudden roller coaster of your feelings. “I got ahead of myself there. I never had to tell him about my feelings.”
Like a cool balm on a stinging wound, the pained throbbing of your prematurely broken heart settled with those words. It was so new for you to fall in love first that you’d let yourself get carried away by the flood of your newly revealed feelings. Why did you immediately think of confessing to the man? Why did you immediately think that your relationship could only be as lovers or nothing at all? It was terribly inflexible. Like a bad romantic skit that denied that people could just be companions.
“I mean, you still could, in the future. If you change your mind.”
“Yeah. But this…I’m fine with this. Us.” So caught up in your emotions, you forgot that you didn’t need to act upon them at all. Nothing needed to change just because your feelings had a new name. Things could remain as they were and you could love Alastor still, quietly, in the privacy of your heart. You needn’t get swept away by romantic notions.
“Well good, now come on. Wasted half an hour on that drama and we still haven’t gotten you a new wardrobe.” He snapped his fingers, brusk in a way that told you he was taking this chance to steer you away from sad truth bombs. “I’m buying you shit, by the way.”
“What? No. I have my allowance.”
“Uh-tut-tut. I’m getting ya new digs. Now, hush.”
He pressed a finger to your nose and the crisis in your heart was completely averted.
Notes:
So the break was nice though it wasn't as stress-free as I would have hoped. Some personal stuff cropped up which really put a damper on things, and still does at times, but I am okay! Though, I did wonder for a time if the AO3 curse was real or if it's just life going about its way and I just happen to be writing while it happens. The comments y'all leave and the friends I've made along the way have really been helpful. I am very grateful to everyone who found me in my tiny dot on the Internet.
I've been dabbling in other creative stuff during my break. I'm currently working on drawing my OC (not Ynna) with Alastor and will post on tumblr when I'm done. Hazbin Hotel has really inspired me to flex my imagination and practice art skills I've given up on years ago.
That said, I am so stoked because there was one night where I decided to rewrite the plans for the ending and I am so much happier with it. Phew. I was like a woman possessed as I kept typing. I hope to deliver on those plans and serve y'all some delicious food!
Chapter 22: Sweet Treats
Notes:
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Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
“I’m almost sad I missed it.” Alastor walked beside you as you strolled to the new cafe you would try today.
He'd taken to teleporting you both a little ways from your destination so you could stroll around the city for a bit. You were happy to go along with his whims, noticing how you both enjoyed walking and observing people when you were out. Under the glow of the pentagram, the crowded streets were actually quite peaceful despite the number of sinners out and about.
“It was mildly traumatic and I almost died, twice.” You recounted the turf war with dramatic whining.
“Only mildly traumatic? Guess there wasn’t much to miss after all.” A chuckle and laugh track sound through his chest, a bemused and mildly snide thin-lipped smile on his face. The man had gone off to a meeting or something and skipped that particular exercise.
From the corner of your eye, you noticed a sinner busy staring at their phone about to walk right into Alastor. Putting your hand on his pin-striped arm, you stirred your friend out of the path of collision. He side-stepped with you, your twin paces not faltering with the adjustment.
The snide crook of the man's smile softened after seeing what you did, his own hand coming to rest lightly atop your hand on his arm, almost like he wanted for you to keep it there. Warmth bloomed in your chest as his arm adjusted to fully loop around yours and you continued weaving around sinners. It was like a dance, the way he guided you both in rhythm and sway through the inattentive crowd. Your heart chirped a pesky coo of love at each step and you tried not to linger on its song, just focused on enjoying this easy friendship.
“Meh. I guess you wouldn’t have liked it. It was tough for me but that kind of battle would be easy for you.” There had been bombs thrown and guns out. For an exercise to build trust, it had been deadly for someone as weak and inexperienced as you.
At the acknowledgement of his strength, Alastor’s eyes narrowed slightly, the buzz of static groaning louder for a second. It was his way of very subtly enjoying a compliment gracefully. To complete his act, he even looked away, seeming uninterested, but you knew better.
“I did stab a guy, though.” Grinning internally, you threw that tidbit of your experience out there, knowing how much amusement your friend found in seeing you get violent. As expected, his ears perked up slightly after hearing you admit to assault. His elbow squeezed, the small tightening of his arm around yours a signal for you to elaborate. The way his eyes shined ever so slightly made you almost proud of what you did. Almost. The reality, however, was that the event left a bit of a shadow in you.
“It was in self-defense and I ran away before seeing if he actually died from it…” It was still clear in your mind, the masked dog sinner about to whack you with a spiked bat. The panic, the need for survival. The scent of smoke in the air and the pools of blood on the ground. A very true sense of kill or be killed blaring in your mind.
“...but yeah, putting those knife skills to use.” Your narration lacked enthusiasm as you remembered the sensation of your knife plunging into flesh. It had been necessary at the time and you hadn’t hesitated. Looking back on it now, it felt surreal that you were able to commit such brutality. Did it count as a sin if you killed someone in self-defense? The things that you become accustomed to after falling into Hell…
“Congratulations on taking a stab at something new, I suppose.” Sensing the disturbance in your demeanor, the man threw his usual pun. It took you a moment to snap out of it but it seemed a moment too long for him. His free hand was already pinching your cheek before you could react, trying to force a smile on your face. The pinch was gentle. “Oh come now, sweetheart. No frowning on a lovely day like this. Continue your story. What else were the others doing while all of this was happening?”
“Well…” You continued recounting the turf war fiasco which ended wholesome enough with battle stories and bandages exchanged between everyone. All through your tale, Alastor hemmed and hawed like a good audience member. And like a good escort, even when the crowd thinned, his arm remained intertwined with yours, offering support both physically...and emotionally. You sighed for your heart that felt just a smidge heavier. Friendship. Friendship. Friendship.
Just as you were about to reach your destination, Alastor stopped in his tracks, something catching his eye. Before you could follow his gaze, his arm turned you slightly, pushing at the small of your back to urge you along to the cafe’s direction.
“Al?”
“I just remembered a little errand I needed to run. I’ll go do that real quick.” He talked with a chipper cadence, whatever caught his eye seeming to excite him.
“Want me to come along? I don’t mind a detour.” Knowing him, there were equal odds of it being actual fun or misery. Either way, this was your daily outing in which you usually did stuff together and you were loathed to part with him.
“That won’t be necessary. It’s just at that little shop over there.” He pointed to a mildly decrepit looking store front with ‘Old Crap’ written on the sign. An old radio sat in front of the window and you wondered if that’s what your friend wanted. Maybe that would have been a better gift than the one that still sat at your desk back at the hotel. “Why don’t you go ahead and grab us a table and order, sweetheart?”
“Okay. See ya in a bit.” Seeing no reason to insist on staying, you waved as you walked away to the cafe. White cursive script decorated the front window with a red and pink awning providing shade over the front entrance. Just like the Yelp page said, the place was low key yet clean. A thin sinner with crab head (a full on king crab for a head) dressed in a white button up, black slacks and matching bow tie led you to a table and took your order. You barely took note of how his beady eyes seemed to curve and sneer as he walked away with a business smile on his face. Some people just looked mean, especially with Hell's weird anatomy choices.
Not long after, two coffees and a plate of fresh beignets covered in powdered sugar were placed on your table. Delight filled you at seeing the rare treat. Freshly fried puffs of choux dough generously dusted with finely powdered sugar. You’d come to this cafe specifically to try them as this was the only cafe on this side of town that sold the confection.
“Oh my, are those beignets, sweetheart?” Alastor manifested through the shadows in the seat opposite yours, the timber of his filtered voice almost cooing. His eyes gleamed with interest at seeing your dessert choice.
“Yes!” You cheered with a toothy grin. “Back when I was alive, I used to get these from a shop by the train station after work. On Wednesdays, there was a farmer’s market and I got fresh fruit to go with my beignets.”
“I’m not a big fan of them myself but it does bring back fond memories. Mother used to bring us out to get them on special occasions.” A blur of emotion passed through your friend’s eyes, true and genuine. Soft. A rare sight on the crafty demon but one you recognized and appreciated seeing. It tempted you to ask more about his childhood but you knew better than to pry. It was more fun to collect and weave together these little pieces he dropped every now and then anyway.
“Good memories.” The two of you shared a smile, basking in the warm feelings of days long gone. A new warmth enveloped you as the moment passed and you were thankful for the now, being able to share a fond memory with your friend despite being in a hellish afterlife. You’d like to think that Alastor shared the same sentiments, as his eyes lowered and you recognized the signs of him starting to relax.
Grabbing your utensils, you transferred the powdery treat onto your plate and took a big enthusiastic bite…only to cough something ugly a second later.
"*COUGH COUGH COUGH gasp COUGH*" A puff of dust and unchewed dough flew from your mouth as you coughed, choking. That wasn’t powdered sugar.
“Ynna!” Immediately, a mug of steaming coffee was given to you, the same one he just drank from. There was no room to care about burning yourself, not when some dry powder coated your throat, making it hard to breathe. Grabbing the drink, you violently gargled the bitter coffee, trying to get rid of whatever it was that was in your mouth. Tears formed in your eyes from the mild burn and asphyxiation.
With no regard for how you looked, you spit it back out into your cup, immediately grabbing for a napkin to scrape the residue from your tongue. It clung everywhere. To the back of your throat, the roof of your mouth. It even felt like it was climbing up your nose.
A gentle hand firmly patted your back as you coughed and spluttered, passing you a cup of water this time. Your lungs and throat burned from trying to get whatever that was out of your system. It was dry, bitter and nasty. What the heck was that!?
“Is everything…a-alright?” As your sputtering calmed down to a desperate wheeze, the commotion brought the attention of your waiter, the same snide-looking crab from earlier. The sharpness of his tone took a nosedive as he noticed the demon who was rubbing small circles on your back.
Your tongue felt so rough and your throat worked against you to bring air into your lungs. Tears brimmed your eyes, hanging on your lashes as you focused on your breathing. You did however, point to the powder on your beignets, hoping Alastor would understand.
A red tipped index finger dipped itself into the treat, studying the powder before a long black tongue licked it. Immediately, you heard a sharp crack in his static and a whimper from the waiter as your friend turned to him.
“Is everything alright, you asked? Why, I don’t see how anything would be alright if your establishment is in the business of blatantly adultering your goods.” You could feel the tension rise next to you as the Radio Demon’s energy started leaking out. Alastor’s shadow snaked its way onto the table. It cackled madly with a frown on its jagged mouth as it glared the waiter’s way.
“I—I’m sorry, Sir. I don’t quite understand what you mean. W-We only s-s-serve food with the best ingredients.”
“Is that so? Well I’d love for you to tell me how your establishment thinks serving sugar-laced chalk dust is a hallmark of culinary masterclass, hm?” The ominous buzz of radio static was louder now, constant and encroaching, blurring his words in obvious contempt. Shadows danced in the corners, a menacing sign of death close at hand that the other patrons heeded, running as far away as they could.
You watched this shift in your friend, the Radio Demon displaying his power, and a tingle shot through your spine. It felt like if you didn’t do something, that sinner was going to die.
A green crackle of electricity danced at your feet. Oh, Alastor was definitely going to kill him.
On one hand, irritation and anger brewed hot at the audacity of these people to serve you something like that. On the other, did that really warrant them being killed or maimed by your friend? No. It really didn’t. So you acted, pulling on the Radio Demon’s sleeve to get his attention. His head snapped with an audible crunch in your direction, wrenching a flinch from you and any bystanders who hadn’t run away yet. Radio dial pupils flared red hot in pitch black scleras, teeth almost needle-like as they lined his overly wide-stretched mouth. Absolute horror fuel. But you still tugged on his sleeve.
“W—“ You coughed a bit, throat screaming for lubrication. “Water..” In a crackle of green magick, he summoned a pitcher and poured you a fresh glass. As you drank, forcing slower sips, his gaze stayed on you, waiting impatiently. When he looked about ready to turn back onto the poor waiter, you wrapped a hand around his arm, tugging his attention back to you. “Wait…just…”
You needed some time to recover. The water was helping soothe your irritated mouth and the gritty dryness of what you now knew to be chalk dust was starting to become bearable. Meanwhile, Alastor was getting testy, his grin narrowing just slightly as he waited for you. In a wordless effort to ask him to calm down, your thumb started rubbing circles on his arm, firmly pressing against the thick wool of his coat to convey your plea.
One thin brow ticked up at the gesture but you just continued swishing water in your mouth until your tongue no longer felt like sandpaper. Finally, after what felt like half an hour but was most likely only a couple of minutes, you looked him in his radio dial eyes.
“Let’s just go, Al.”
“Leave? I don’t think so. Not without—“ You put your hand up in a stop gesture, halting his faltering-filter speech. A bolt of cold static traveled up your arm holding him, warning of his annoyance.
“I know.” Staring into his menacing eyes, you reassured him. While you didn’t want the sinner to die, it’s not like you intended to just leave without complaining. “Let me handle this.” You turned to the scared sinner.
He hadn’t dared to scoot away from the imminent danger in front of him, either through sheer terror or force of will. He was sweating through his red shell, glancing between you and the Radio Demon who still looked a lot sharper and deadlier than he had when he’d first sat down.
“Hey you, does the owner know you serve shit like this?”
“I-I’m the owner.”
“Oh, even worse.” A grumble of annoyance coated your tone. Leveling a glare at the man, you took the plate of beignets from the table and shoved it into the owner’s face. He looked at you confused though less afraid than he was a moment ago. Seeing as how he was dealing with you now, he seemed to get back some of his bluster though the stiffness in his spine belied how terrified he was of the Radio Demon. With conviction, you demanded coolly. “Eat it.”
“Miss, I don’t see why that’s necessary. If there’s something wrong with the food, we can have the kitchen remake it for you.” The owner almost sneered through his faux-sweet condescending tone, still aware of the demon behind you but also seeing how you held him back. It fueled your irritation some more. He really didn’t think much of you even when you were the only thing keeping him from getting ripped to shreds.
“I don’t want to eat whatever your kitchen will make next and I want you to know the reason why. Eat. It.” The man looked ready to fight you until a crackle and snap of static reminded him of your companion. The room seemed to glow an eerie green and hackles rose on your back. You gave Alastor’s arm another firm squeeze, going back to rubbing circles on the smooth warm wool. It seemed to work in abating the danger, the glow of his power dimming a bit.
You focused your glare at the owner, urging him to eat his shit. You only felt so much compassion and any more of his bullshit would have you letting Alastor deal with him. The crab demon finally seemed to realize that.
With a shaky hand, the owner picked up one of the abominable treats and took a bite. Almost immediately, he started choking, trying very hard to suppress his coughing as a large puff of dust shot from his nostrils. Gross.
“Exactly. Choke on that crap that came out from your kitchen. We are not paying for any of this. What the hell did you think would happen when you served me beignets with chalk dust? It’s absolutely idiotic.” You whipped out your phone and took a quick picture to use for a scathing review on Yelp later.
The owner looked just about ready to die as he reached for the pitcher of water Alastor had conjured for you earlier. Just as he was about to take a gulp, the water turned into swamp muck, courtesy of the Radio Demon. His shadow even tripped the man as he attempted to step over to another table for water, noiselessly cackling along the way and even urging you to laugh with it.
It was mildly funny to watch the guy suffer as you did but you thought that was enough. Before he thought of some other tricks to pull on the shady businessman, you tugged on Alastor’s arm, the Radio Demon surprisingly allowing himself to get dragged out of the cafe.
Only when you were a good distance from the shop did you stop walking, hand letting go of him who reverted back to his usual self.
“You’re simply too kind, Ynna. You should’ve let me handle that situation and let those cretins running that shoddy low class joint they call a business get what’s coming to them.” Alastor straightened out his coat, casting you a critical eye as he admonished your generosity. You threw a fond glare at him, knowing that if he truly wanted to punish the cafe owner, he would’ve done so regardless of what you thought. He held back for you. Because you’d taken the lead in that situation.
“I don’t think killing him was the way to go. I’m actually pretty happy to see him choking on that thing they served. Urgggh. It was nasty.” You stuck out your tongue, scraping it with your front teeth in hopes of getting that flavor out of your mouth. It had been mildly sweet beneath the bitterness of the chalk. They most likely mixed chalk dust into their powdered sugar to skimp on sugar expenses. You may have just been the unlucky victim that received more dust than sugar, given that the cafe was highly reviewed.
“Besides, it’s not the first time that’s happened. Since you were here, I was actually able to get some payback so I’m pretty satisfied with how that went.” You smiled in a placating manner at your friend. Before coming to the hotel, you’d stumbled into some cheap places to eat in order to save money. Of course, those places cut corners everywhere and you’d been victim to many adultered foods. At the time, you couldn’t really fight back as a lone weak sinner.
But now you had him. You had him. Your heart whispered.
You immediately put a stop to it.
“At least you knew to stick up for yourself since you had me as back up.” The demon huffed, not liking your answer one bit. If he was the type to frown, you thought he’d be giving you a very heavy one. As it was, a tight-lipped smile and unamused half-lidded eyes were turned to you and you blushed from the pressure.
“Yes. Thanks for being there with me and backing me up and not killing them.” You felt shy under his gaze, sending him a small sincere smile in hopes that he’d drop the whole thing. There was a chance he’d go back and wreak havoc on the cafe but you at least hoped he wouldn’t do it now. You turned around and hoped that he would follow. “Come on. We still have a little bit of time. Maybe we can find a different place to eat at.”
“Just a moment.”
“Hm?”
A clawed hand took hold of your shoulder, gently turning you back to face him. Your breath caught in your throat as your nose almost brushed against his chest. He stood unnecessarily close. So close you could smell the light scent of musk and smoky spices that you’d come to associate with him and your pesky heart stuttered at the sudden proximity.
Soft warm leather brushed under your chin, his finger lightly tilting your face up to look at him. He leaned down, coming so close that you reflexively tried to back up but the hand holding your chin kept you in place. You had no choice but to stare at him as a soft cloth touched the sides of your mouth, dabbing away with gentle strokes. Red eyes stared intensely at your face, mainly at your lips as he cleaned away whatever dirt he’d found offensive enough that he had to remove it himself.
“There. Now give us a smile, sweetheart.” On reflex, the sides of your mouth curled up as he’d asked. From this close, you could see the faint wrinkles around his eyes as his smile stretched back into his usual grin. They made him look softer somehow. A lump formed in your throat and you could only blink in flustered confusion before he stepped away.
“Since this was a bust, shall we head over to the place I suggested?” His arm already wove around yours, a dark portal appearing even as he asked for confirmation.
“Sure.” Willing your rapidly beating heart to calm, you agreed. You weren’t in a state to think about where to go anyway.
Alastor’s POV
The clattering of utensils mixed with the loud chatter at the dinner table. He sat at the head of the table, subtly watching everyone but mostly Ynna.
After the whole fiasco during lunch, she’d seemed a little down, a moroseness clinging to her usually content disposition. Had she not snapped out of it by the end of their lunch hour, he would have marched them back to that shop and ripped the sham’s guts out. She would be horrified but at least she wouldn’t be sad.
His thoughts drifted back to earlier, the way her eyes held a soft gleam as she told of her time alive. Just like him, the woman rarely spoke of what her personal life had been before dropping into the fiery pits. So it was a treat to hear her softly share her fond memories. And the moment was immediately ruined by sly business practices.
His shadow hissed in the darkness, unseen. What a wasted opportunity, though he did learn something else about the goat demon.
As an Overlord, he didn’t have to deal with petty tricks from those kinds of lowly sinners. They wouldn’t even be worthy of his broadcast by the time he was through with them. But Ynna, on the other hand, lived a very different experience in her brief time before joining their little hotel group. Weak and alone, Hell would’ve shown to her the worst humanity had to offer. She seemed used to it, but not beaten by it. She was even a little vindictive.
A low buzz pleasantly rumbled in his chest as he chewed, remembering the stern fierceness she showed. Ah, what a thrill it was! What once was a cowardly little welp of a woman, she now had the audacity to hold him back when he was threatening someone. While he was mildly transformed at that. Hah! The gall of her.
From her seat at the table, she glanced his way, sharing a bit of a smile before she turned back to her meal.
The spot where she had held onto his arm tingled, soft little waves rising up from where her thumb had begged for his patience. Coupled with the steely gaze she leveled at the waiter, he could only relent as she acted. Decisively. All her mirth and gentleness gone save for those tiny gentle strokes. It was a truly entertaining sight.
“Eat. It.”
He muffled the sudden crackle in his static with a spoonful of jambalaya, savoring the spice in the dish and the sharpness in her voice.
His goat had become so fierce, so emboldened and empowered by his presence; unafraid of everything, including him. She should always be like that, fearless and unwilling to be disrespected. It was only natural as she was his people.
His eyes scanned over her again, noting the almost non-existent glow of her energy. She was such a weak little sinner, yet she brought him so much delight, such pure entertainment in the littlest of her actions.
An excited grin stretched across his face as he swallowed the last of his meal. He just had to reward his sweetheart for her fantastic showing today.
“Now everyone! I have a little treat for us this evening.” With a sharp clap, shadows manifested to clear the table, much to Husker’s chagrin and everyone else’s curiosity. At the snap of his fingers, plates of cut fruit and bottles of various jams and honey appeared at the table and at the center of it all…
“Beignets!” Ynna’s voice pitched higher in pleasant surprise, her eyes immediately darting to him practically screaming gratitude in their sparkle. A matching spark fizzed in his brain.
“I thought you didn’t know how to make sweets, Al?” Charlie beamed from her seat, wiggling in delight at the new treat.
“I usually don’t but I do have a few recipes up my sleeve, though I almost forgot that I knew how to make this one. Now dig in! These are best when they’re fresh.”
Everyone plated their treats. It was a messy affair as few were used to eating them. Powdered sugar, jam and everything got everywhere, eventually ending when Niffty and Angel Dust fought for the last piece. The adult actor had to relent when the knives came out.
All the while, Ynna glanced his way multiple times, her eyes conveying gratitude and ‘look at how funny these guys are’ throughout dessert. He was never fond of sweets though he patted himself on the back for taking the time to learn a few recipes from his mother.
At one point, she had reached out to him, lightly laying her fingers on the hand he rested in the table. With his attention on her, the woman beamed a childish grin, face covered in sugar. He snorted at her silent thanks and handed her a napkin. The contact was warm and comfortable though she did leave sugar fingerprints on his glove. No matter. He discreetly licked them clean. A bit of sweetness every now and then wasn’t bad.
———
“Have I ever told you that you’re the best?” Between the songs playing from his chest, Ynna piped up. She was humming loudly as she washed the dishes, a testament to her good mood after having consumed as much sugar as it would have taken to give three human men diabetes.
“Hm. Not enough times, I’m afraid.”
“Aha. Well, you’re the best. The absolute most fantastic friend and beignet-maker a girl could ask for.” Ynna smiled as she continued washing, happily indulging his ego. He couldn’t help but listen to the little sounds of her pleasure. He would be sure to learn a few more dessert recipes to make for her in the future. Maybe something with coffee in it.
With a quiet clatter of glass against wood, the last of the spices went back into place, finishing his portion of the post-dinner clean up. From the counter across the room, he observed her; the straightness in her posture and the ease in which she moved. She swayed lightly to the soft trumpet melody playing from his chest. Her hands moved methodically as she worked. Her feet tapped to the rhythm and her shoulders sometimes followed. A happy woman. His chest thrummed at the pleasantness of it all. A quiet evening to end an entertaining day.
Basking in her contentment, he moved to her side, leaning against the kitchen counter as they continued to chat.
“I think you handled that waiter well.”
“Hm? Didn’t you say I was too kind?” Curiously, she looked at him, lips pouting in confusion.
“Oh, definitely. A show of strength is the best way to ensure others aren’t tempted to mess with you in the future.” Clenching a gloved fist, he flared a bit of his power for emphasis. His and her shadows pulsed at the call of his power, ready to obey his command.
“That only works when you actually have the power to keep them away. And unlike a certain someone, I’m not an Overlord.” She barely batted a lash. Even when he’d purposely let his shadow project itself onto the sink, a silhouette of his partially transformed state looming over her, the woman merely tapped it, asking the phantom to move away so she could grab another plate.
The shade near instantly deflated, silently laughing as it helped with the last of the dishes.
“Well isn’t it fortunate that you have an Overlord in your circle of friends, then? One you can call anytime you have a problem.” From his breast pocket, he pulled out a small velvet pouch containing a little artifact that he’d been working on. He dangled it in front of her, bumping the little pouch against her nose until she took it from his hands.
“What’s this?” With a curious face, she opened the pouch and pulled out a necklace. Its red oval pendant gleamed a rich crimson as it dangled from a bright silver chain.
“A way to call upon me should you ever find yourself in a spot of trouble.” He plucked the accessory from her hands and motioned for her to turn around so he could put it on for her. As he locked the fishhook clasp, a tiny zing of satisfaction sizzled at his fingertips, an unexpected bout of possessiveness passing through him. “I enchanted this stone so that you may summon me. With only a drop of blood, I’ll know you need help and be able to find you.”
It had been an adventure to make his gift, having to learn new aspects of magick that allowed a summoning like this. There was never any reason to go to someone who needed his help unless his deal with them demanded it. Even then, he’d already gotten rid of those pesky souls that had such clauses in their contracts a long time ago. He found it simply too bothersome to answer those calls when there were plenty of wretches to replenish his numbers.
But Ynna being in danger when he wasn’t present to protect her, his goat put out of commission at the hands of some petty sinner, her blood spilled for anything other than his doing, that was offensive. It angered him just to think about the two times she had suffered, though both incidents had only brought them closer to each other.
He brushed his thumb on the back of her neck where the chain gleamed brightly against her warm skin. If she wished to spend her afterlife as a weakling then he would ensure he was able to be there to protect her. Because she was his people. His.
She flinched under his touch and that snapped him out of that train of thought. He brought his hand back down and waited for her reaction to his gift. Any moment now, she would present a lovely grateful expression, one that would send him mind whirring in delight as pay off for his efforts. Unfortunately, something else seemed to be on the woman’s mind as her head snapped up from examining the jewelry, worry etched on her face.
“Isn’t this…your brooch?”
“I’m surprised you recognized it. I’ve never had to make an artifact like this before and by gods did it send me into a tizzy trying to find the proper spells to put on it. It stated that the best medium to connect to was one that’s been exposed to me and my power for a long time. I hope you don’t mind that it’s of an older style.” Seeing the gratitude and awe leak onto her expression, a smirk made its way to his lips. As if he didn’t already know that she preferred less gaudy jewelry. It was only proper that a gentleman knew a lady’s tastes before gifting her something and he paid attention to these details, especially when they related to her as of late.
He admired the pendant as it sat on Ynna’s chest. It had been one of his more meticulous projects as of late. Even the chain it hung from was something he only found during today’s outing, an old piece he’d fairly traded for as it suited what he had envisioned for her. And he had been correct in thinking his brooch would suit her, he thought rather smugly.
“I—wait here, I’ll be right back.” Something seemed to light up in her mind and she was out the kitchen doors before he could stop her, leaving him disappointed. Did she not like it after all?
Less than 10 minutes later, she returned, panting from running as fast as she could. In her hand, a small gift box.
“Here. I have a present for you too.” She beamed at him, all sweet and sincere. A shade of pink steadily bloomed on her cheeks as she presented the object to him. It gave her face a touch of shyness that his brain latched onto and wanted to pick apart. It delighted him to see it and he wanted to know how to bring it about again in the future. He was sure to have fun experimenting.
He picked up the proffered box, taking a bit of pleasure from the building anticipation within her gaze. Whatever it was she’d gotten him seemed to excite her and he couldn’t help but wonder what gift she thought to bring to an Overlord. Oh, the possibilities. Food? A trinket? Something bizarre but useful? Whatever it was, a greedy voice in his mind rumbled in delight as he opened it.
Nestled within shredded wrapping tissue was a blood red oval brooch. The stone looked to be a ruby with two carefully carved black antlers on the facet. The gem was framed in smooth black metal giving it a sophisticated finish.
“I noticed you weren’t wearing your brooch and thought that maybe you lost it or something so ta-dah.” A small hand went to the new accessory she wore, holding the piece delicately between her fingers. “Turns out, you used it for a gift for me. What a coincidence, I guess.” Shy nervous half-laughs left her punctuated her speech as she waited for his reaction.
Electricity crackled in his chest, static snapping in his mind. Apparently, she also paid attention to him and his tastes. His smirk stretched into a full on grin.
“Well, don’t just stand there, sweetheart. Aren’t you going to put it on for me?”
“You want me to?”
“Did I stutter, dear?” He presented the gem to her, leaning down so that she would have an easier time with her task.
“Guess not.” Her lips pressed into a fond line as she moved to pin the accessory to his bow tie. As he was wont to do, he moved his face even closer to her, invading her space and delighting when she remained unmoving.
Staring down at her as her fingers worked on the clasp, careful not to prick him, he observed the blush on her cheeks darken ever so slightly, his satisfaction deepening with it.
When she finished, her eyes looked up at him and for a breath, they stared at each other, neither making a move.
Curiosity, innocence and a hint of affection were reflected in her eyes, her fondness for him plain to see. His mind buzzed with it, a near constant feeling of lightness turned on with each brush of her gaze. Just a bit closer and he was sure to feel her breath on him.
He inhaled slowly. A mistake. The desire to feel her teeth on his skin was rekindled with the air that carried traces of her scent.
It had been a month since it had last happened, since anything of his had touched her lips. He’d restrained himself from feeding her, in the name of their relationship and out of his fondness and respect for her. But the desire was always there, simmering in the back of his mind, its fangs at times snapping at his sanity when it became too much.
Like now, when she looked at him with this expression.
“So, I take that you like my gift?” Tentatively, the words left her mouth, equal parts bashful and proud. That greedy voice in his mind crooned. He would have accepted anything she gave him. Anything.
“It was very thoughtful of you, sweetheart. I’m very happy with it.” Each word was delivered clearly, unobstructed by his radio filter, with his voice lowered, as if declaring his satisfaction any louder would lessen the truth behind his words. His delivery had the desired effect as the blush that had begun to recede from her face bloomed anew.
So she liked his voice. He tucked away that piece of information.
“Oh. That’s great. Haha…” Flustered by him for once, she backed away, laughing nervously at the end. He straightened his back and laughed internally. It was good to finally pay her back for how utterly off guard she’d caught him with her words of praise after the party. He reveled in seeing her flustered though the tension did eventually ease, sadly. Oh well. He would have more opportunities in the future.
When she regained her composure, her hands went to her new pendant, a small grin on her face and she lifted it up. “I actually feel like I owe you two things now since you gave me two gifts today. Beignets and this. I’ll figure something out.”
“You can always try a little nibble of me if you’re wanting for an idea.” He threw out there as he began to walk away to do a final check of the kitchen before calling it an evening.
“Maybe I should. You’re always going on about it.” She shrugged. He almost whipped his head around in shock. Did she just—? His heart pounded in his chest, a rare nervousness filling him at recognizing an opportunity when it presented itself. THE opportunity.
“Oh please. I’m not always on about it.” Feigning nonchalance as he turned back to her, an innocent smile played on his lips.
“You’ve only been mentioning it almost every other day for over a month now, Alastor.”
“Well, it is my most entertaining fixation at the moment.”
“You need better fixations, my friend.” She leaned against the counter as she tutted at him. He thought that would have been the end of the conversation but shadows covered her downturned face in momentary gloom. “Hey Al?”
”Yes?”
”…Is that really what you want from me though? To eat some of you?”
It felt like the first time he’d pulled a trigger, the first stab of his knife. As she looked at him asking only his honest answer, he knew his next actions would change the course of their relationship. For better or for worse, it was for her to decide. So he answered honestly, with the same low voice and lack of filter.
“Yes. As my most treasured friend and companion with a power that would greatly benefit from it, I would love for you to partake of me.”
“…Alright.”
Notes:
Ahhh Ynna, my baby. You’re so down bad.
Here’s the next chapter! I’ve been busy with life stuffs and also going on a Yandere binge so I haven’t written as much as I would have liked.
Things are starting to ramp up though :3
As always, let me know what y’all think in the comments. It always warms my heart to see them.
Chapter 23: Bon Appétit
Notes:
Happy 4th of July y'all! Be careful of the fireworks~
I say as I'm about to light a few up in this chapter.
Thank you kewpikayo for the fanart of Ynna. Reader is in so much distress but still so pretty (Q-Q)/<3
https://www.tumblr.com/kewpikayo/755661610709860353/this-is-my-version-of-ynna-from-jurijyuus-fanfic?source=share
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Ynna’s POV
What did you agree to?
The question floated around your head over and over along with Alastor’s cheeky grin. You couldn’t have said no to him, the way he looked so happy, genuinely happy and content with your gift. When you’d said yes, for a brief moment, you saw something intense flash red in his eyes before he quickly hid it away. It was proof that he was seriously fixated on the idea of you eating him more than his nonchalant responses would have you believe. Dammit. Why did serving you something so sick mean so much to the man? You were almost tempted to contact Rosie to ask about cannibal culture. Did you really even want to know? It felt like a necessity now that you were so close to Alastor.
Pain sprouted in your chest where your heart lay at the thought of disappointing him. Your hand went to grasp your necklace, running your thumb over the smooth stone that used to be Alastor’s brooch. Why did you agree?
“… I realized that I’ve become quite fond of you. Enough to forgive you for eating a part of me.”
Not long ago, he had flipped out at the idea of you eating him, barely eking out his forgiveness as you planted the seeds of your friendship.
“As my most treasured friend and companion…I would love for you to partake of me.”
And a few nights ago, he declared you his most treasured companion. Most treasured.
Your heart beat faster just remembering it. The timbre of his unfiltered voice, the smoldering intensity you could just peek behind the calm facade. Alastor asked this of you sincerely for once. Not with casual jibes and mentions that you could brush off as whimsical stabs at your power, but with a plain unmasked voice, he let you know his wish.
And by gods did you want to fulfill it! You could have done anything for him if he asked you with that voice like the rumbling of the earth and the rustling of a forest. Low and a little gruff, it was a weapon of pure sin! The man could already easily get his way with his handsome face, elegant demeanor and charming personality. But with that God-crafted voice, it was overkill for your poor shaken heart. If he was even half of that package when he was alive, you understood now how he got away with so many murders.
“Is everything okay, Ynna?” You flinched before looking towards Charlie. The princess was crouched down in front of a newly dug flowerbed. With her blazer discarded and sleeves rolled up, she looked at home between the bags of dirt and freshly dug flowerbeds. Beside her, Vaggie depotted newly purchased flowers from their nursery planters.
“I’m fine. Just spaced out, is all.”
“Oh. Well, what do you think of this garden? I thought you’d like it since you have so many plants in your room.” They had allotted a small plot of land behind the hotel for a little garden with the hopes that caring for something from seed to blossom would teach kindness and compassion to the weary cruel soul. It could work in theory, though you doubted Angel, Sir Pentious or you would benefit from the lesson. All three of you already had something to care for in Fat Nuggets, the Egg Bois and your own indoor plants. Still, you thought it was a good idea for future guests and it seemed to ease Charlie a bit to keep finding different avenues to work through her goal.
“Yeah. I love it.” At your feet were seeds and pots of red and yellow carnations and zinnias, hellish in their form with eyes and sharp leaves. They blinked at you in an oddly cute fashion, morbid yet completely at home in Hell’s landscape…just like turning into a momentary cannibal would be, in the name of friendship (and your stupidly deep affection for the Radio Demon).
You groaned internally at the thought, struggling to keep a cheerful face in front of the princess as several things bombarded your mind at the same time, as they had been since you woke up this morning.
One, you agreed to eat some cannibal cuisine made by Alastor with meat from Alastor.
Two, despite the gut-flipping revulsion your mind echoed at you, you could not bring yourself to backtrack from that demented promise.
Three, and probably the worst of it, you would re-damn your soul for this decision and disappoint your first benefactor, the one who gave you the opportunity to better your life in this eternal cesspit.
Your trowel stabbed harshly into the ground in front of you, the force of all three realizations coming out in that subtle show of your distress. You dug deeper than necessary, as if the act could uncover a path for you to reconcile the upset in your emotions.
The dirt covering your hands felt therapeutic in a way, but not enough to stop the choking grasp of guilt that gripped you as the princess smiled proudly at your affirmation.
“Great! That’s perfect. I know that our last trust exercise didn’t go so well for you so I was hoping we could find something tamer. I’m so happy we thought of this.” Charlie looked sheepishly at the ground. Under the midday glow of the Pentagram, you spied the telltale signs of exhaustion tracing her usually cheerful face. “Any day now. I can feel it, Ynna. I’m sure Heaven will open up and take you with them. It’ll be so exciting and we’ll have proof that this, all of this, could work!”
You gulped against the lump slowly building in your throat. How could you tell her you were about to commit a sin and destroy all your progress towards redemption tonight? That you would destroy what she believed would be the key to her success?
“Easy, hun. Don’t put pressure on her.” Vaggie chided lovingly from the side. Even she looked gentle and content at this moment and more dread filled your heart when she glanced at you. It became harder to swallow, guilt and shame and acidic bile making itself at home in the back of your throat.
“Oh right. Sorry, Ynna. I’m just…I really think you have the best shot at this. You’re kind and sweet. Not to mention disciplined. I’m sure you’re excited to see a better afterlife than this after all the work you put into redemption.”
“Not too excited.” The words that reflected your shifting views of redemption came out unbidden, to the surprise of both women in front of you.
“What do you mean?”
Slowly, you pieced together what you wanted to say, though the urge to confess your sins in front of her was building. A halo of pentagram light shined on her soft golden hair, the image so holy you felt too dirty in her presence. With all your sincerity, you looked into her eyes, the shining hope and kindness in them burning your eyes just a little as they stung with tears.
“You’ve built a good thing here, Charlie. You gave me a home when I was drowning trying to adapt to Hell. I love living here with everyone and sometimes, I think that this is probably as close to Heaven as I’ll ever get. So…I’m not too excited to ascend.” You’d made so many friends over the months, each of them precious. “And if I don’t ever cross those pearly gates, I’m already thankful that you showed me that I can live just fine down here. Not just live, but be happy. Thank you for that, Charlie.”
“Ynna…” With a wet and wobbly call of your name, Charlie reached out both arms for a hug. Tears threatened to spill from her eyes, her cheeks and nose flushed red from stinging reassurance.
“Sweetie.” Beside her, Vaggie also reached out, a gentle smile on her lips and gratitude for your words etched into her expression.
Two sets of arms wrapped around you and you toppled over at the weight of both women. As you three landed amidst the reds and yellows, they let you know that they appreciated your friendship too. That your presence in and support of the hotel made it easier for these two lovely women to work towards their noble cause even when the rest of Hell (and even their Hotelier) laughed at them.
Feeling their love, you let yourself cry, both in happiness at their appreciation and despair at disappointing them should they find out about your dinner tonight. Fuck.
You dug too deep and found no answers to your problems, just a heart both heavier and lighter in the face of your friendships.
Alastor’s POV
There was a very subtle limp to his gait, his magick working tirelessly to repair the damage he’d inflicted on himself to prepare for tonight’s dinner. It had to be perfect.
He leaned against the kitchen counter of his home. He’d chosen to prepare everything in his bayou cabin today partly out of comfort but mostly to avoid running into anyone too nosey. Unlike the ordeal with the chicharrones, the damage to his body this time was more apparent, the pain almost unbearable even to one such as he.
But it would be worth it. It always was when it came to Ynna.
He sat at a dining chair and went about cleaning his knives. The familiar weight of them gave him something to focus on as he tried not to let his excitement overtake him. It was proving difficult as another shock of magick electricity escaped him causing the lights to flicker. He sighed. He needed to focus on something less…exhilarating. Less on her teeth and the gentle way her eyes looked at him as she agreed to his request.
Bzzzt.
The ball of energy that had plagued him all evening snapped, the replay of that image not losing its potency despite how many times he’d thought about it since that evening.
“Tsk.” His sweetheart really did love to test his self-control and patience. A most delightful challenge and one he would conquer, as he always did. Closing his eyes, a slow breath came out through his nose. Think of something else…how about what she was likely feeling right now? He was no fool. He was sure she had agreed only because she had been carried away by the moment. She left the kitchen that evening in a daze. Even as he walked beside her to escort her to her room, she remained mildly distracted, hand wrapped around her new pendant, fidgeting. That was a good sign, that she liked his gift and found comfort in the newly-acquired trinket that held a bit of his energy.
But its effect on her psyche was minimal as she slowly lost herself into her thoughts, falling into a bit of distress that she barely hid when he bid her Good Night. Not even the brush of his lips against her fingertips seemed to lift her spirits, the pointed show of affection causing her to tense rather than be soothed.
He was sorry for her distress. A part of him wanted to comfort her, to eliminate the source of her worries, but he would not. The opportunity was finally here, to see her eat of him and know exactly what it was that she ate. To do it by her own will, out of her precious foolishness and devotion. Another shiver racked his spine, the fire of excitement burning in desire and blasted arousal. He growled as he shifted his legs to make room for the disgusting reactions his body exhibited, the grip on his knife tighter. A breath. Two breaths. The clicking in his head quieted, distaste for the heat pooled in his belly cooling his head.
Damned woman and the things she did to him.
His grinning reflection on the gleaming knife’s edge smiled wider as he thought of her. He would make this meal as perfect as he could. From presentation to taste, he would ensure that the only thing to disturb her would be what demons plagued her mind. Nevermind that he was probably the most prominent of those demons. No. Even better if he was.
Ynna’s POV
Because of your dinner plans with Alastor, the demon had announced that tonight would be a fend-for-yourself kind of evening. Angel had asked if you were interested in eating out but given how you barely had any appetite all day, he easily accepted when you declined.
Not even an hour later, you were arm in arm with Alastor as he brought you to his suite. A woman’s voice crooned softly from his chest which you were thankful for. You needed the distraction as your companion was being unusually quiet. Maybe he noticed the tension you held and opted not to say anything. Or maybe the nerves were making you paranoid.
The arm escorting you was warm and firm. Every few steps, your side would brush against his and when you tried to give him space, your arm was tugged, his way of letting you know to stay. From this close, you could feel him and maybe it wasn’t paranoia after all. There was a very subtle oddness about him. The glide in his stride that never faltered even with you on his arm was almost mechanical. For a man who flowed smoothly like a melody, he was slightly off beat.
“Al? Are you…okay?” His steps were too rigid, his back too straight. And though the smile on his face was genuine, it was still slightly strained, like he was in pain and oh…Your jaw clenched tightly. “Did you hurt yourself that badly for this?”
How much did he hurt himself? How did it not hit you sooner that he would have to hurt himself for this?
The question caught him off guard, the gears in his head turning to find the best way to answer you without further worrying you. Stupid man. Now that you knew, how could you not worry? Your eyes roamed over his form, trying to find where he was hurt but the man was too good at covering it up and pretending. Determined to find the source of his pain, your palms gently roamed over the silk and wool on his chest before being caught by one of his own.
“Ah, your concern for me is so very charming, sweetheart but I can reassure you, this was my wish.” He kept your hands on his bosom so that you were forced to really look into his eyes as he reassured you. The strain in his smile eased for you before mirth crept into his red gaze. “Don’t you fret about me.”
“But—“ He halted your protest with a firm squeeze of your hands before he brought them back to the crook of his arm.
“Hush.” The man shrugged, a small smile on his face. “It wasn’t like I entirely disliked the pain anyway.” The wink in his tone wasn’t lost on you even though his face remained respectively calm. You almost sputtered in shock.
“How can you say that?” How were you supposed to take that? He almost sounded like Angel just then, a little flirty and plenty mischievous. Alastor, of all people! Flirting? You were going insane. You were absolutely going insane.
Exasperated, you let him lead you again as he only chuckled at you. Your heart rate might have gone up at the sound and maybe he would be too focused on pretending to be alright to hear it.
You both eventually reached his room, the man opening the door for you as he invited you in. It was the same as you remembered, a red bedroom and a magical bayou wonderland in the back.
The cool atmosphere of the swamp reminded you of the last time you set foot in the Radio Demon’s domain. How funny it was that that evening had ended with you eating a bit of Alastor and passing out, crying. You were almost sure that the same thing would happen tonight, minus being kicked out and having the Overlord pissed at you. Though who knows.
The dining set near the edge of the two dimensions was decorated. A white cloth was draped over the table with a little vase of flowers blinking their little eyes. The cutest ones were bell-shaped with five simple petals coming out of a trumpet-like stalk. Their red and purple blooms dangled out from between honeysuckle and scarlet fuchsias. There was even a nicely folded napkin with utensils laid out on what you presumed was your side of the table. Did that mean he wasn’t eating with you?
If you weren’t such a nervous wreck, you might have thought the setting romantic. No, maybe sweet, but not romantic. Definitely messed up though. Alastor was making a big occasion out of serving you some special meal made of his flesh. Didn’t that just highlight how much it mattered to him? But still, it was his flesh! Your jaw clenched trying to stop a wave of nausea from washing over you.
He hurt himself for this! Get over it, Ynna!
Walking ahead of you, Alastor pulled out your seat, ever the gentleman as he waited patiently for you to sit. The slightly plush crunch of grass and dead leaves beneath your feet weighed your steps down, slower than you would have liked as you closed the distance. The mental slap you gave yourself did nothing to quell the constant war between wanting to run away and staying playing in your head.
He had to have noticed how uncomfortable you were. When you reached him, his hand hovered at your back, guiding you to sit as he usually did, except he was careful not to touch you. He was treating you like the frightened animal that you were, putting up a brave front that did not fool the predator behind you one bit. Part of you wished he’d end all of this and forget you’d ever agreed to try his cannibal cuisine. Another part observed the demon, trying to gauge his reactions as you sat, resisting the urge to grab the napkin for something to fidget with.
The usually comforting presence of the man did nothing to lessen your nervousness. No. The way he stood, just on the taut side of poised, didn’t escape you. It wasn’t due to his injury.
This tension wasn’t solely on you, try as he might to hide it.
“Thank you for not running away, sweetheart. I do so appreciate that you could make it to try my special dish this evening.” Your eyes met as he spoke, his tone a low lilt carrying only the slightest hint of his earlier cheer. Careful. Thoughtful. Regarding you in that sly but intently studying way. A hint of softness and hesitation dusted the lines of his face, in his red eyes, a message delivered more effectively than his words could at this moment: you need only ask and he would take his disappointment and wasted efforts and pretend this never happened.
You swallowed against the sudden dryness of your throat. He was willing to do that for you. So how could you not be willing to indulge his fucked up fixation just this once? You calmed your gaze and gave the best smile you could.
“I said I’d do it. Wouldn’t back out now and disappoint you, Al.”
“Brave girl.” The man had the audacity to wink at you as he dropped the worry from his eyes. With a flourish of his arm, a cloche-covered platter appeared in his hand. Like an experienced server, his free hand unraveled the rose-folded napkin and set it on your lap. It tickled you to see him so grandiose but any laughter was strangled by your nerves. He laid the mystery dish down in front of you neatly, the lightest of aromas seeping through the cover.
“This evening’s dish is venison steak with a red wine reduction.” He took off the cloche with a graceful arc, the metal lightly ringing as he did. Unveiled was a dish that could be served at any high class restaurant. Five thinly cut slices of perfectly medium rare meat were arranged neatly like a flower on a round white plate. Lightly drizzled on top was a dark red sauce that smelled sweet, a hint of garlic and rosemary tickling your nose.
Seeing the meal, your stomach rumbled at you, having not eaten much all day because of your anxiety. It was a testament to his cooking skills that your appetite came back even though your mind was screeching at you that the thing in front of you was not as innocent as it appeared.
The man sat opposite to you, legs crossed and patient as you processed your emotions.
You really were going to do this, weren’t you? Take the plunge, taint your already wretched soul further as a little favor for your dear friend. It wasn’t even that you were punting yourself farther from Heavenly grace. It was that you would have to live with the knowledge that you did this, consented to cannibalizing him.
Maybe it would have happened anyway down the line, with Hell as dangerous as it was and your only innate advantage was your demented power. Or maybe you might have gone to Heaven by then. Or maybe Alastor would always be there to protect you and you would never have to worry.
Grasping at your necklace, you looked at your companion, the crisis in your mind a constant blare of your own voice arguing with yourself. It yelled about your stupidity, about Charlie’s disappointment in you, about how morally wrong this all was, to look and notice the anticipation in your friend’s eyes even when he was trying to hide it, to think about Heaven, to think think think think think this through!
To fulfill his wish…and how you stood to lose so much of yourself from doing it.
“Alastor.” Your voice came out in a quiet squeak, each syllable weighing heavy on your tongue.
“Yes, sweetheart?”
“…I’ll be honest with you. This looks amazing. I can tell you really busted your ass trying to make it.”
“It was my thigh but do go on.” He leaned forward, cradling his pointy chin on his hands, a devious smile on his lips when he saw your face go from concentrated neutrality to mild annoyance.
“…I didn’t need to know that. Urgh.” He could be a real asshole sometimes, with his sick humor. Despite knowing how stressed you were, he still had it in him to make light of the situation. You were glad and annoyed that it was working because you too could appreciate his sense of humor even if you felt like hitting him at times for it.
“Al, I feel like I’m about to lose my mind. I was talking to Charlie this morning and doing this, eating this, is going to shun me out of Heaven for sure. I feel like there will be no going back.” The moment you said those words aloud felt like a mallet coming down on your judgment. Sinner! It branded you. Irredeemable wretch! Ungrateful soul! You flinched at the accusations of your own mind, locking away those voices with what little determination you could mine from Alastor’s gaze. You took a deep breath.
“You never seemed to believe too much in redemption. Would it really be such a loss?”
“It’s not about Heaven, it’s…Charlie. I don’t want to break her heart.” But not enough to pull away from all of this , a voice in your mind whispered darkly. Not enough to say no to Alastor.
“I still owe you a favor for our deal, right? Can this be it? I’ll eat you like you asked me to as the favor I owe you for our deal.” You grasped for something, something to help push you that final step over the ledge, to make the fall from minor disgrace hurt a little less. If this wasn’t just something you wanted to do for him, but something that you had to do…
“I hadn’t even thought about our deal in so long. Hah. I’m not against cashing that in now for this. Though I did hope you would take this meal as a sign of my appreciation for you.” Your proposal seemed to startle the man, his eyes widening just a bit and a crackle of static flitting through the air.
“Oh fuck. When you put it like that—“
“I know. You’d feel obligated to do it.” His voice dropped low, the gravity of understanding your stress pulling it down. “You already feel obligated to do this now as it stands. You’re nervous…” Something seemed to shutter behind his red gaze and the excitement behind them vanished. A panic in you rose, not for your safety, but for having offended or possibly hurt him. “You don’t have to do this anymore, sweetheart. It was awfully callous of me to have asked it knowing how morally against you are about my tastes.”
His voice was gentle even as his smile lost its cheer. Fuck.
Your hand was on your fork and knife before you had a second to reconsider. Cutting into a piece of steak, you brought the piece, dripping in sauce, into your mouth. The rich flavors spread over your tongue and the infernal urge to devour rose from your gut causing your hands to shake in fright at its appearance. But that didn’t matter now. Alastor did. Pointedly making eye contact with the demon, you chewed. Shut your brain down except for chewing and swallowing and spewing your words to stem the hurt you’d caused him.
“It’s not about obligation, Al. I want to do this for you. It’s just that I’m losing so much…lost so much. Charlie is going to flip if she ever finds out. Heaven will know, God sees everything or whatever. Moral sacrifice. Mental. It’s just a lot. And I was struggling because I still wanted to do this for you.” You cut another bite sized piece, trying to push the screams of oh god oh god oh god playing a mental breakdown track in the back of your mind.
“I just thought I could get something out of it and that was stupid of me. I said I would do this for you and I shouldn’t have tried to get an advantage out of it.” You kept looking at him as you tried to apologize for letting him misunderstand. If it was just to indulge his fixation, you were already willing to do it. But if this was some weird cannibal way of showing trust and affection…as fucked up as that was. You were willing to accept because why the hell wouldn’t you want to when you loved him so much as it was?
“…”
“Al?” He remained silent at your apology and dread started to creep into your veins, the taste of venison in your mouth reminding you that not only did you just eat sinner flesh but you might have fucked it up and gone through all this insanity just to have the man you did it for be upset with you as a result.
“Give me a moment, sweetheart.” He leaned back in his chair, eyes closed as he thought. Each second ticked passed like the crumbling edges of a cliff as a chill creeped into your bones. When would he speak again? Or would you fall over before that?
Tick. A breath.
Tock. A tightening of your grip on your fork.
A fidget of your leg.
A concentrated effort to wait for him.
When he opened his eyes again, they looked at you intensely, a red glow in them so captivating that you felt trapped in their depths. He reached over and stroked your cheek, coming away with your tears caught on his fingertips. You hadn’t even realized you’d started crying. “Oh sweetheart, dearest, don’t cry. You’re right that this is a lot to ask of someone.” For just the slightest bit, the filter in his voice dropped and the blood that had started freezing in your veins started to pump fast again.
“If it’ll help you feel a little better then, alright. This is the favor that I ask of you in exchange for taking away that curse on your impulsivity. It fits my criteria anyway as this is something only you can do for me.”
“You don’t have to–”
“It’s done. I’ve already decided on it so don’t worry about it anymore, dearest. I personally don’t find offense in you trying to bargain. It’s about time you wisened up to one of the ways sinners live in Hell. I’m actually quite proud.” He pretended to wipe a tear from his eye before flicking it away. A droplet actually fell from his finger and you realized that it was your tears that he’d wiped away earlier. “Go ahead. If you have any other stipulations, I might just entertain you.”
“Really?”
“Of course. You have to be specific about how your deal should work. Ultimately though, it’s a negotiation between parties so there is a chance that your terms will not be accepted. So go on. Try to think about your deal with me and what conditions would benefit you.”
That he even offered to change the terms surprised you. You observed him as his eyes glowed and he moved with more of a flourish. He was excited. Happy. Very happy. Did your proposition really please him that much? Or was it that you ate his demented dish and apologized? Likely, a combination of both. A lump formed in your throat, difficult to swallow as you took him in.
He crossed his legs as he waited for your answer, a wide grin on his face. Fiendish. Fascinating. Full of anticipation and encouragement, his fondness plain to see. He was so beautiful like this. And you wanted to keep indulging his wickedness.
“Then how about we keep this a secret between us. The deal. Eating you. All of it stays between us. Make it so neither of us can tell anyone.” Childishly, you offered your pinky finger, asking for a promise from the devil. Amusement cocked his grin but his own gloved-pinky wrapped around yours without derision.
“Alright but is that it? You really want this to be a secret?”
“Yes. I can’t think of any other clauses to add and…I don’t want Charlie to find out. EVER.” It would break the princess’ heart. Absolutely destroy her. If it took you a long time to be redeemed from this then that was fine. No one really knew how to get to Heaven anyway. But if you weren’t ever redeemed and the princess found out about your deal with Alastor…That you sabotaged yourself. Your throat constricted just thinking about it.
Alastor’s POV
The terms of the deal were finalized again and he had only a moment to admire her for trying to benefit from the situation she was in. Oh how his dearest goat had grown a spine under his influence. Her little act had him giddy by itself but what she was doing now lit his mind with pleasure.
She continued to dig into the meal, cutlery splitting the meat into pieces in that charming way of hers. As she chewed, she tried to converse with him but more and more, the words petered out as they both were lost to their minds. Her worry for him had passed so all that was left was worry for herself. He could see it in the way she dazedly moved, commanding her hands to work even as her eyes were unfocused. Quite alike when an impulse overtook her only this time, she willingly let go of control.
It was just as well that she lost herself. His composure only hung by the barest of threads too. The moment she put that first piece in her mouth, chewing and swallowing quickly so she could explain herself and apologize, had been the end of his complete coherency. Only part of him paid attention to her words as each syllable exploded bits and pieces of his sanity away.
Yesss… The voices in his head hissed. The sounds of dials clicked madly in his mind.
“It’s not out of obligation. I want to do this for you.” He’d wanted to grab her right then and demand that she say it again. Say it again and take another piece of him, directly from his throat this time. To have her closer as she said those words to him, sound her devotion against his skin until it was all he would hear for the rest of his afterlife.
His shadow rose behind her, antlers grown and limbs elongated to reflect the manic glee that rushed through him and he couldn’t show her. Her form stood out against the darkness that salivated behind her, twisted delight coursing through him as she remained unaware of just what she was doing to him. That she would do this for him despite the obvious toll it took on her made his blood sing.
It was the compulsion of the deal that pulled him out of near hysteria and when he’d gathered himself, he could only admire her guts. The favor that he had almost forgotten was used and she even made sure that the consequences should someone find out would never happen. Clever girl. His clever girl.
Another piece made its way into her mouth, tongue licking the sauce that had not fully gotten through her lips. His claws dug into his hands, trying to stem the urge to wipe her mouth for her. They were both in delicate states of mind right now and the balance was a hair’s width away from tipping.
Ynna swallowed the last bit, coming out of her self-imposed daze. She stared at the empty plate with a complicated face before her eyes finally focused themselves on him. Hesitation. Disbelief. Extreme Discomfort. They danced in her eyes behind unshed tears but she coughed and put up a calm front. Sweet but also afraid.
“Thank you for the meal, Al. I think I’ll turn in now.” His eyes only followed her as she got up to leave, not trusting himself to contain the static already fizzling in the corners of the room. But then she turned around and uttered those damned words, her voice cracking as she pushed through the barbs in her throat.
“It was delicious.”
Click.
He was moving before he could think. His mouth descended on hers, swallowing whatever she had to say. All he could think about was the need to taste, to know what he tasted like on her tongue. Was it truly as she said or was she politely spewing bullshit? Either way, she said it for his sake.
She froze under his touch and jerked her head away.
“AL! WH–” Too far gone to listen, he followed her lips, finally catching them open. He could smell the spices he used as seasoning on her breath, remnants of him still lingering in her pretty mouth. When she tried to move away again, he chased her, excitement and eagerness spurring his pursuit. At the brush of her tongue, sparks lit up in his mind with such force that his knees gave out, pushing both of them to the wall behind her. This was good. She couldn’t move away from him anymore.
Blood. He could taste blood on her. His teeth had bitten her in their fall and he eagerly suckled on her punctured lip, the thought of tasting her sending a manic clicking in his mind. She tasted sweet. Sweet and metallic, bitter and salty and absolutely perfect. He closed his eyes to savor her taste, his mind a thunderstorm, clouded with lightning striking through his body. The lights flickered around them as the energy he had been restraining was set free.
This felt good. This felt so deliriously good. Bolts and shivers racked his body as he held her precious face still. Adjusting his angle, he delved further into her mouth, mapping each of her teeth, now sharpened in distress. He could imagine them biting his tongue off, it would be painful but he would give it to her if she wanted.
His hand found her waist, pulling her flush against him, wanting to feel the soft warmth of her. Could she feel how he was shaking? How intensely his feelings were surging? He could feel her heart fluttering wildly in her chest, his own echoing its frantic rhythm. Music was playing from somewhere. Was it from him? He didn’t know. He could only focus on the woman before him.
Her hands held the lapels of his coat, not pulling but also not pushing. For a brief moment, he could feel her kissing back, soft and unsure. The small movement of her blessed mouth on him a sweet fluttering as he plundered. Something burst in his chest. This was what he wanted. Her acceptance of him, of his depravity. Her willingness to indulge him even though it went against her morals. Because she cared for him. Because she cared for me .
Pushing his full weight onto her, she groaned into his mouth, the vibrations happily received by his awaiting tongue. He could feel himself grow harder as he pressed against her. Even this disgusting reaction felt incredibly good. Closer. He needed her closer.
He felt her small body freeze as he pushed himself against the softness of her thigh. Her hands let go of him and she squeaked in distress. It was just enough of a pause in their unconscious rhythm that he realized what he had done.
Pulling away, he rested his forehead against hers. His breath came in short gasps, air filling his lungs as he only just realized he’d forgotten to breathe. He felt soft and tired, all the energy seeming to leave him all at once. That was amazing.
“Al…?” The girl in his arms was flushed, lip split, staring at him with wide confused eyes. Tears were streaming down her face, into the hand that still held her. Her breaths were as labored, each gasp brushing against his lips, stimulating him in such a delicious way that he could feel his tiredness be replaced by a want for more. She was frightened and he was eager.
He gave one chaste kiss, feeling electricity at the contact before pulling away just enough for her to leave.
“I think...you should go.” He wouldn’t be able to stop himself if she stayed in his grasp any longer. Already, a fire was building in the pit of his stomach, hungry for her in every way possible.
Ynna’s POV
Your heart was hammering in your chest, both in fear and confusion. As he pulled away from the kiss, he looked shocked and in a daze. His pupils were blown so wide, his red eyes had turned black, his skin flushed peach in exertion. He looked so soft, as if he was beholding the most precious thing in the world as he looked at you and it made your heart jump. Who knew he could look like this?
Just as sudden as his kiss, that softness started to evaporate. Those blown out radio dial eyes focused, your teary reflection clear in their depths. His antlers grew larger, horrifically sharp atop his head. His stretching grin showed more teeth as it split his face. This vision was familiar. A chilling brush of shadows against your limbs sent terror spiking down your sides.
“...you should go.” You barely heard him whisper. That was a good idea. You needed to leave before…you didn’t know what it was you dreaded but it was enough for you to move out from between him and the wall. On shaky legs, you dashed out from his room, a faint “Thank you, Ynna.” following behind you as you ran.
You ran. You ran. You ran all the way to the lobby, the neon lights of the bar catching your dazed mind.
“Kid, what happened with you!?” You threw yourself on the stool, catching Husk off guard. You must’ve looked a mess but all you could think about was that you didn’t want to think right now.
“I need a drink. The strongest you have.”
“That’s not a good idea when you look like you’re about to have a panic attack.”
“I just might, Husk so please! Just get me a drink. I need to not think right now. I…I’m not ready to think right now.” You tried to block yourself from remembering. Not right now. Not while you’re sober and liable to start screaming and crying. You can do that when you’re drunk and can blame the hysteria on the alcohol.
Something in your desperation must’ve gotten through to the guy as he started pouring your drink. You downed it, not even tasting the thing as it burned down your throat. “Another. Please.” It was like this for at least eight drinks before Husk stopped you.
“Wait for it. You’ve already had more than enough.”
Tears were spilling down your face and you let them loose as the blur of the alcohol started to kick in. Something started screaming. You weren’t sure if it was you. Not yet. You didn’t want to talk about it yet.
Chapter 24: Lovers on the Bayou
Notes:
Hello! Back with a short chapter this time.
When I was writing this, I imagined it was human Alastor in the scene but that doesn't really matter, just a tidbit I'd like to share in case anyone felt like re-imagining it with both Al's.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Husk’s POV
Ynna passed out where she sat sobbing at the bar. He couldn’t for the afterlife of him figure out what caused her to be like this. As he reached over to try to wake her up and at least get her to go to her room for a proper rest, screams started coming from the radio in the lobby. It was that fucker’s broadcast.
His Boss was a piece of work, broadcasting the tortured screams of whatever poor soul crossed him. This was expected. The motherfucker picked random nights to terrorize people with his insane station and made sure that at least the radios near him would always be on from the broadcast. Asshole. He moved to turn off the radio, unable to stand having to hear the screams until more joined it. He paused. Within a few minutes, more and more tortured screams joined the broadcast. Dozens of souls, No. More. Terror clawed its way up his throat as the number of voices continued to rise dramatically until it turned into a crescendo worthy of any mortal’s imagination of Hell. The Radio Demon hasn’t had that many voices in his broadcast in almost a decade, especially after he’d joined the hotel.
He thought the shitty psycho had actually mellowed out in the last few months. He was actually doing his job as a Facility Manager, doing Charlie’s bidding when asked. Heck, he even made friends with the kid–
Glancing at the girl who looked like she’d seen her absolute nightmares come to life, he suddenly had a thought. Could Alastor have done this to her?
Alastor’s POV
Back in his cabin in the bayou, the nostalgic noises of croaking frogs, chirping critters and calling birds mixed with the sound of Chaplin.
He was dressed simply in just his shirt and trousers, suspenders dangling from his hips casually. Walking around barefoot through his cabin, he picked up some of the essentials. His favorite knife, a ready to go first aid kit and some towels to clean up after. There was a spring to his step as he approached his destination, the front porch.
Sitting at the edge, feet dangling in the water, Ynna hummed along the radio’s tune. She wore a sleeveless dress to combat the muggy heat of Louisiana June. Sensing his approach, she turned to look at him. Rays of sunlight shone in her hair, illuminating her face in sweet summer glow.
He took a moment to take it all in, the music and her in his home. It was a perfect day.
“I wouldn’t do that if I were you, my dearest. There’s dangerous things in the water, gators and snakes and many other critters.” The smile she had morphed into panic, quickly pulling her feet up and out of the water. She looked at him incredulous and upset.
“You said it was safe!” Accusation tinted her tone as she pouted her pretty lips.
“I believe my words were, ‘You’re safe here with me.’” He went to sit beside her, setting down his instruments as he crossed his legs. “The ‘with me’ is the key part.” Casting a glance in the water, several forms swam away at his stare. She must’ve noticed them too as her face paled at the immediate danger his presence repelled.
“Right. Got it. I’ll stay with Al.”
“Exactly right. Stay with me.” Always. Forever.
The sound of the radio and the bayou filled the space of their silence, encasing them in the tranquility of his home—their home. What once was his solitary refuge, now a paradise for two.
He basked in the atmosphere, feeling blessed to have the chance to experience this moment. For a while, Ynna was the same. She leaned back into her arms, letting what little breeze there was cool off the sweat dripping down her neck and to her chest. He lifted his eyes away. There would be plenty of time to stare disrespectfully later, if she obliged.
“You really want me to do this?” Lost in a peaceful trance, he missed when his beloved knife had ended up in his dearest’s hand. The knife’s edge sparkled in the sunshine, well cared for and ready to shed blood. In contrast, Ynna looked to him for confirmation, already set to do as he wished even as she sat timidly before him. He knew that she had her own reservations but still, she sweetly accepted his request. His darling. His adorable dear.
“I’m surprised you’re not tired of it all.”
“What? The blood? I’m getting used it after all the—“
“Of running through my mind.”
“HAH! What was that!?” Her laughter sounded in short gasping peals, sweeter than the sound of a hundred tormented souls but he would never dare broadcast it to the world. No. This was only for him to hear.
“I’m serious.” He brought her hand to his lips, brushing a soft kiss on her knuckles, staring at her as he continued without his voice filter. “All day, all night. Whether I’m awake or unaware, I’m always looking forward to you, whatever you can give me, whatever your precious soul can spare.”
Under his gaze, she blushed. She was always so weak to his little displays of sincerity which made him want to do it more. Whatever it was that could enamor her to him, silly words of love, charming flirtations when she least expected. Whatever he could do to keep her next to him.
“Oh Al… Can I touch you?”
“You’re always allowed to.”
Delicate hands gently reached for his chest, traveling up to where they could unclasp the buttons. The first to go was his bow tie, the brooch she gifted him carefully put to the side. Then, the buttons. Gingerly, she unclasped them, as if he wore tissue paper instead of cotton. Shivers racked through him under her light touches. Her eyes followed the path as his skin was slowly exposed to the elements, beholding his form, reverence shining.
With uncharacteristic strength, he was pushed onto his back, his heart thudding loudly as she watched him. He expected her to mount him, as couples would but instead she remained where she sat, eyes asking for permission, putting his comfort on the forefront even as her desire was starting to take hold. His heart swelled with adoration. How lovely she was.
Grabbing her wrist, he pulled her onto him. His arms encircled her, squeezing as if he could force their bodies to meld. Her shortened breaths fanned the flames in his heart, the glint of the knife in her hand shooting electricity through his being. One hand on his chest to push herself up, she locked eyes with him once more, an ounce of hesitation coloring her expression.
“You can’t back away now.” He didn’t know what he would do if she stopped now. Rain hellfire on the Pentagram probably. Or bite her out of spite. Two very tempting ideas.
“Wasn’t thinking of it, deer-est.” Lies said to assure themselves both but she would follow through. She always followed through for him.
With determination, she brought the blade to his skin, right over his heart, applying just enough pressure to draw blood. His eyes observed hers, noting the fascination in her gaze as she split his skin. He relished in the fiery sting as she dragged it in a line before lifting the blade and creating another.
“Taking this chance to showcase your artistic talent?” The softness of her waist cushioned his fingers as they dug into her, not out of pain, but of the need to keep her right there where the sun cast a halo upon the crown of her head and her heartbeat fluttered just within his reach. Where she could intoxicate him with just the shallowest cuts.
“X marks the spot.” Before he could think of a quip, she descended onto the mark, lapping at the cuts to coat her tongue with his blood.
He sucked in a breath at her ministrations. One moment, she looked as if she would run away and then next, she was tending to him with no reservations. Desire swirled like a hurricane in his chest, blowing away everything and flooding his senses with her, her actions raising goosebumps on his heavy limbs.
His eyes watched her in a half-lidded daze, captive audience to her performance. Soon, she’d taken all the wounds would give. But if he could convince her to cut him more, bleed him dry, take all he had to give. But she refused to hurt him to that extent. Still, his heart felt full, body alight with feelings only she could draw from him. That she would do this much was already enough.
But his dearest liked to surprise him.
With one more lick, her whole mouth latched onto his skin to suckle what was left. When it yielded nothing, she sank her fangs into him and bit down into muscle.
White pleasure exploded in his mind, the world expanding and narrowing down to the flicks of her tongue on his skin, teeth threatening to tear his muscle with every movement. It hurt. Of course it did. He wanted to scream and thrash but even more, even more than that, his body wanted to hold on to the feeling. He hadn’t asked her to do that, knowing all too well how she hated the idea of causing pain in the first place. Yet she’d done it of her own volition. For him.
How could such ecstasy exist? How blind must Heaven be to create this being of delight and joy and cast her a sinner. He held onto her in rapture. He’d never let them change their minds. HE’D NEVER LET HER GO.
“Hahaha!”
“HA!”
“HAHAHAHAHA!”
Laughter. Loud raucous laughter. It flowed from his lungs and out into the world. Laughter for the irony of finding his perfect Heaven in Hell. Laughter for the victory bursting in his body. Laughter because JUST BECAUSE!
“Al?” She looked up at him with worried doe eyes, reflecting his manic face back at him. She would have been the picture of innocence had it not been for her bloody mouth. The gore on her lips sparkled more beautifully than freshly strung innards and he could not help but reach for it.
“I’ll devour you, my dearest.” He brought his mouth to her, wanting to lay his praises on her blessed lips. “I’ll devour all of you.” A kiss. “Keep you in my belly.” A nibble. “Until there’s nothing left.”
Ravenous and unable to think of anything else, he bit and nibbled at her mouth. Her neck. Her cheek. Wherever he could reach. Never breaking skin but imaging he could, that she’d let him.
“Al…” She gasped the sweetest sound in the world.
“Do it.”
He awoke, tranquil and refreshed. Everything was right in his world, a dream he wanted to make prophecy fresh in his mind.
Until it was not.
“What do you mean she’s not in the hotel?”
Notes:
So, about 90% of this was written before I even finished chapter 4, back when this whole fic was supposed to be 10 chapters long. Pfft. Look where we are now.
Chapter 25: It's complicated.
Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
Cold air whipped around your body. Figures barely had time to have their forms registered in your mind as they passed by you. Or maybe it was you passing by them? Right. That sounded in line with the thirst in your lungs and the pulsing energy in your legs. You were running, fast and far with no destination in mind. Every step and every turn was decided on the spot with only one goal, to get away.
Warped mocking laughter played background music to the barely held chaos in your mind, each chuckle and cackle filled with frightening madness. You had to run. Keep running.
You did it.
A true sinner.
Irredeemable. Ungrateful.
The voices whispered, always a step behind no matter how fast you went. Their claws snagged at your arms and legs, pushed and pulled at your body but you were always too quick for their grasp.
Tears streamed down your face, getting lost in the void of colors you passed by. What would your mother think if she knew she raised a would-be cannibal? That you sold your slim chances of appealing your afterlife sentence to Heaven just to make some man happy? It was pathetic. You were pathetic.
So why were you also happy?
“Alastor…” His name was lost to the wind, the red hues of Hell surrounding you like the curtain of his hair when he’d caged you in his arms.
Dearest.
He kissed you. Brutal and ravenous, he took your face in his hands and refused to let go until he’d tasted his fill of your mouth. He robbed you of your breath and it was the best and most frightening thing you’d ever experienced. All the buzzing anxiety in your head quieted for just those few moments when his actions didn’t make sense but the way he held you felt so good. You were willing to get swept away in the moment even when your lip stung and and your lungs and your world were set ablaze.
But he stopped. And you realized who you were kissing without a clear reason why.
It frightened you, how easily the brush of his lips halted the rattling guilt. Charlie’s disappointment, the battering of your morals. All of it ceased to exist within the space of the breaths the two of you shared.
…and that was when you knew, you and your soul were utterly fucked.
“Ynna!?”
A call came from somewhere, drowned by the blood pounding in your ears. It didn’t matter. You didn’t matter.
Pathetic lovesick fool.
Something hooked the back of your shirt and it tore from the opposing forces of your trajectory and their capture. The clash caused you to stumble, the momentum pushing you forward as you violently rolled into a heap on the floor.
Gravel, glass and other pointy little things dug into you as you rolled into a stop on the filth-splattered pavement. Blood oozed from a newly formed gash on your hand. It dripped a pretty red, the same red that smudged his lips and stained his tongue. You shivered. Don’t think about him. Don’t want him like that.
A wash of cool heat consumed your body. The bleeding stopped and the small aches went away. Your power, recently fueled. It was sickly fascinating to see it work. You laughed a manic little sound, grin an impression of the man you were trying so hard not to think about.
“Oh my stars, I’m so sorry, dear. I didn’t mean for that to happen. A—Are you alright?” Someone pushed you onto your back. The world spun, the blurry colors that had comprised your vision since the last drink Husk let you chug finally coming to a halt.
“Rrrosiee?” One of those damning whispers called to the figure worrying above you. A lace-gloved hand smoothed against your cheek, the delicate patterns turning red as she took in your wrecked appearance.
“Lucifer’s stars, what happened to you?” On wobbly limbs, you tried to push yourself up but now that you’d stopped running, your body also stopped listening. It was all you could do to blink up at the woman to let her know you heard her.
“I’ll get Alastor.” A ball of dark and light manifested in her hands, her magick soundlessly blooming atop her delicate palm. At the mention of his name, you immediately made a grab for it, tumbling forward and into the lady’s arms as you did.
“Noooo.” Your hands captured hers, snuffing the orb with a clap while Rosie did her best to catch and steady you.
“What? Why?”
“Not him…not..right now. Don’t want…to see h..im.” There were still things screaming in the back of your mind, things that told you that you weren’t ready to see him yet. Not until you’d sorted them out. But you were too tired and there were too many and you were too drunk to process anything but your immediate misery.
“Then, should I bring you back to the hotel?”
You shook your head, dizziness returning. A sob escaped your lips, tears streaming down your face. Not yet. Not yet.
Rosie held a complicated look on her face as she assessed you but the lady was merciful and heeded your plea. Gentle arms dug beneath you until they had enough leverage to pull you up. With surprising strength, she lifted you off the ground and you found your head guided to rest on her shoulder.
“If not the hotel, then how about my house? We’ll get you cleaned up and into something warm and then maybe you can tell me how you got like this, alright sweetie?” Her soft voice caressed your ears, less worried and more coercive than before. The scent of roses and iron wafted from her. Alastor had that same metallic scent of blood. It was oddly comforting. That smell shouldn’t be comforting.
The Overlord carried you, careful the whole time as she walked. Motherly and firm in her grip, she soothed the buzzing voices in your head, letting exhaustion creep in yet more tears flowed from your eyes. She was so nice. So nice and so safe. You were so tired. So very tired.
“Rosie…he kissed me.”
The older woman stopped walking as she heard your whispered admission. The air around her was quiet but not intimidating. It was inviting, the first true taste of calmness you’d had since you agreed to do the damn thing.
“Alastor did?”
“Yeah…I might love him too much and *yawn* I don’t knowww what to… do.”
“…it’s not as simple as getting together with him, is it?”
“…it isn’t.” Your eyes finally betrayed you, unable to keep awake as your body shut down to recuperate from the abuse you dealt it. The smell of roses and blood surrounded you and guided you to slumber.
—
Pain pulsed throughout your body, particularly in your head and legs like punches peppering your poor form. Last night’s events slowly came back to you, the meal, Alastor, the kiss and your desperate attempt to invoke amnesia as too many emotions floated in your head and too much hunger (for Alastor) attacked your senses.
His steak tasted good, his kiss even better. You wanted more.
You curled in on yourself with a groan, hoping to go back into the sweet arms of sleep-invoked oblivion and ignore that hellish part of you. But the comforter covering you was too rough, the mattress beneath too soft. With eyes still stubbornly closed, you tried to dig in and find that right position to get back to sleep but it was futile.
It took a bit but you eventually realized this wasn’t your bed. You sat up quickly, alerted by the wrongness of the setting. The room you were in was decorated in muted pinks, reds and whites. Lace trimmed the canopy of the bed you occupied and the stiff linen of the comforter you laid under. This place wasn’t any room in the hotel, or any hotel for that matter. Had you left the hotel in your drunken stupor? If so, where were you?
There were little knickknacks and items around the room that showed the personal touches of its owner. Pictures here and there, hats of many shapes on a hat rack. All of them seemed feminine.
You were off the bed in a second, ignoring the pain in your head as you tried to get your bearings. Whoever took care of you after the alcohol had worked its magic had put you up in a nice room. From your shoes neatly placed at the end of the bed with your jacket, they seemed like a nice person. Still, you couldn’t help but be alert.
Checking your jacket pocket, you took relief in finding your knife still there. Good. You at least had a weapon to defend yourself with. Nice of them to take care of you but this was Hell and there was usually a catch for kindness.
Bright daylight streamed in through the small window across the room. Upon closer inspection, the street below looked clean but unfamiliar. Fuck. Where did your drunk self take you?
Just as you tried to formulate a plan to get out of here, the door opened. Whipping around, you hand immediately went to your pocket, ready to take the knife out in case the arrival wasn’t as friendly as you were hoping they would be.
“Oh my. Good morning, sweetheart. Glad to see you up and rearing to go after the night you had.” A familiar face chirped a greeting at you as she entered the room with a glide on her step.
“Rosie.” Tension left you as you saw the Overlord. In her hands was a tray, food piled onto it.
“Come sit! I brought you breakfast.”
“Where am I? How did I get here?” A wave of anxiety swept through your stomach, or maybe that was just nausea. The post of the canopied bed became your support as you came back from the window. With no imminent danger in sight, you could take in the state of your body. Tired. Hungover. Still a little scratched up. Did your power not work to heal you? You vaguely remembered that it did. So was there a limit? Or did you just exhaust it all?
“Well, I was going out for a night stroll around town when I happened to see you running like a maniac down the street. Had to chase you down for a few blocks before I finally caught up to you. Never saw anyone run so fast and I do a fair bit of chasing, mind you.” Finding an even spot on the bed, she placed the tray down, a giggle in her gentle smile and a furrow in her brows as she kept recounting last night. “You didn’t want to go home so I brought you with me instead.”
“Shit. Sorry for intruding and thank you for putting me up for the night.” Your right eye twitched as the headache persisted along with a bit of shame at having been caught by an acquaintance in the state you were in. It was a testament to how shitty your night had been that drunken oblivion hadn’t been enough. You’d actually sought an escape from the place that held all your worries.
Running away from your problems like a coward, again.
Careful of the tray, you found a spot to sit and lean against the column of the canopy, feeling the mental and physical exhaustion still deep in your bones. Rosie watched you with a pitying gaze though she was polite enough to busy herself with setting up the breakfast she brought in. It was so sweet of her but food was one of the things you didn’t want to think about right now.
“So, want to tell me how you ended up on the complete opposite side of town from the hotel, alone in the middle of the night? It’s not exactly safe given how drunk you were.” She offered you a glass of orange juice, her void black eyes reminding you so much of your mother, a bit of concern and judgment leering at you. Though it was more likely more of concern and the judgment you saw was your own looking back at you through her.
“I…that..” The drink was cool against your fingers and you were tempted to press it against your burning cheeks. Where did you even begin to describe last night’s mind fuckery? You stared into the juice, your thoughts lost in the orange swish of the cup.
“Is it Alastor?”
“How did you know?” Your free hand immediately went to your pendant, the sudden spike of anxiety at Rosie’s keen prompting mildly comforted by the smooth stone.
“Well…as I was bringing you with me, you told me that he kissed you and you don’t know what to do even though you like him too.” Sensing your distress, the woman backed off a tad, hands up and open-palmed like she was calming an injured animal. Which wasn’t all that inaccurate. You were injured, mentally and emotionally. Thoughts and feelings swirled like a hurricane in your chest, too fast to hold and too strong to contain and from Rosie’s point of view, an outsider’s point of view, you must have looked like a disaster.
You took a sip of your juice, face burning in embarrassment. The run from last night came back to you, the pieces that were clear enough anyway. After drinking more than your personal record, anxious energy churned like ants in your limbs, urging you to get away until you just had to escape…and ended up in an acquaintance’s home. Thankfully. With how blurry things had been, you could have ended up somewhere worse. “Right. Yes.”
“If you like him back, is it not as simple as telling him? He’s clearly interested if he kissed you.” She leveled an inquiring yet patient gaze at you, finding her own spot to sit in. You regarded her then, weighing your trust in her and basic politeness as you pondered what to say. As an acquaintance, it didn’t seem right to explain the mess that got you here. Maybe you were too trusting or too desperate but as someone mostly detached from you and yet very familiar with the man who flipped your mental health upside down in the span of 24 hours…she may be able to understand and help.
Fuck it. She asked anyway.
“It’s not just that, Rosie. It’s…I tried—“ Words about the meal and how it was made out of Alastor were caught in your throat, the terms of your deal flashing through your mind as a warning. Right. You couldn’t share that with anyone. It took a moment to rearrange what you had wanted to say, having to forgo some of the issues in favor of other ones.
“I mean, I only realized I loved him just a little while ago. At the time, I didn’t think he was interested in me that way so I wasn’t planning to make a move.”
“But he’s interested in you now, isn’t he?” Was he though? Alastor had looked equal parts manic and satisfied when you parted. But it also wasn’t too far off from how he looked after dealing some torment.
“Yes? No? I don’t know for sure? He didn’t say and I don’t just want to assume?” It was all so confusing. Aside from the kiss, nothing in his actions prior had ever been romantic. Maybe the meal was (in its insane cannibalistic nature) but if so, why didn’t he say so from the start? Alastor wasn’t one to beat around the bush like that.
To distract yourself from the memory of his lips, you drank your juice in slow gulps. But eventually even that ran out too quickly and you were still thinking of him. At the very end, he had shifted, his body growing into that nightmarish form, teeth sharp, drool threatening to spill from a grin too sweet to belong on that demonic face. If he hadn’t let you go….
A wave of heat flushed through you as your stomach rumbled. It was want, desire. To kiss that mouth filled with razor sharp teeth, to be covered by a body too big for you to hold. To sink your teeth into him and feel the power it gave you.
The last thought choked the breath in your throat. It came out of nowhere, sudden and powerful. Oh no. That despicable urge was back and with it, the memory of last night’s rush. Running through the city with a body so light it felt like flying. Cool heat coursing through your veins leaving you unstoppable in the moment, powerful. It could have only been possible because you ate Alastor’s flesh, the power it brought manifesting in ways other than healing.
Was that really your power? To absorb it from other sinners by consuming their flesh? Was there more to it? What could you achieve if you ate more? Did you want to try to find out? WHY WERE YOU CONTEMPLATING FINDING OUT?
“Ynna? Ynna!” Two hands firmly planted themselves on your shoulders as Rosie stared down at you with a concerned face. When had she moved to your side? When had breathing become so difficult? “Ynna, sweetie…”
“Rosie, I think I’m broken.” You couldn’t keep the tears from your voice.
Rosie’s POV
Leave it to Alastor to not make his intentions clear before kissing a gal. Really, she ought to have a word with that man. To suddenly find out that your friend was interested in you by being kissed could really mess with someone, especially in Ynna’s case with how close she and Alastor were.
Rosie observed the troubled young woman as she sipped her juice. Her brows were furrowed as she stared forward at nothing in particular. Though tired, she was much calmer than how she’d found her last evening. It had been a sight: the timid-looking goat running manically through the streets, partially demonic. She laughed and cried in equal measures and it was because of those tears that she decided to catch the girl. If she had exhausted herself in less forgiving arms, Alastor would have many many more souls to add to his broadcast.
A careful once over told her that the infernal energy she sensed from the girl last evening was gone. It was a curious thing. Alastor mentioned that the girl was weak so it was a surprise that she had to put in effort to catch her. Was Ynna hiding her power? If so, she was much more formidable than she thought.
Might be a better match for Alastor if she was and that thought comforted her. It wasn’t that she thought her friend had it in him to hurt someone he clearly cared for, but having the strength to defend herself would serve Ynna well if she did end up with Alastor. Which looked a little unlikely right now, given how shaken Ynna was by his kiss. It couldn’t have been that bad, though, even if Alastor had no prior experience. And a bad kiss wouldn’t be enough for someone to drink themselves into a blind like that, let alone look like they were being mentally tortured. Her impression of the goat didn’t lead her to think of her as the dramatic type so what else could have happened?
A gasp brought her attention back to her guest.
Rapid and shallow breaths came from her in soft sharp wheezes. Panic painted her face, eyes strained wide, pupils dilated and unseeing, lips quirked in a frightened snarl as they tried desperately to get more air in.
She was by her side in an instant. Ynna’s fingers held the empty glass tightly, threatening to break it with the force and she was quick to take it from her before it shattered. Her calls to the girl were unheard as she looked ready to bolt at any second during her panic.
“Ynna? Ynna!” She called. If this didn’t work, she might have to slap the girl. But it didn’t come to that, thankfully.
With one final desperate gasp for air, as if her body finally remembered how to breathe properly, her tear-drowned eyes finally came to focus.
“Rosie, I think I’m broken.” The shoulders beneath her palms trembled, the goat looking more like a bunny cornered by whatever demon had chased it. Just what did Alastor do to this girl!? Surely, a kiss wouldn’t have been that bad unless…
“Oh. Oh sweetie. Come here. Let Rosie hold you.” She drew the frightened girl into her bosom, letting her tears soak her dress so she could listen to her heartbeat. She hoped its calm rhythm would help soothe the girl as she wrapped her arms around her. At first, she was tense but the goat eventually accepted the comfort she offered.
The trembling increased to full on shaking and her unvoiced sobs turned to muffled whines. All she could do was hold her, providing something grounded for the girl to lean on while she felt so lost in all the emotions she was going through. Poor dear. The first taste of flesh on a moral tongue was always the most foul.
She’ll have to close the shop to keep an eye on her and make sure she got through it. There were a few things she needed to move around her schedule but Ynna was more important. She needed the support. Her mind made up, she made a note to scold Alastor for pushing his wishes onto her too fast because look at this mess! Silly stubborn selfish man!
Mentally grumbling about her dear friend’s bumbling advances, she vaguely noticed how easily the sobs settled. The girl in her arms breathed deep and measured, pulling away after only a few minutes of letting her emotions out. Tears still spilled from her sad eyes but they were the only indication that she was still on the border of hysterical grief. She offered her a handkerchief to wipe them away.
“So Alastor finally got you to eat him, huh?”
“…hah…figures he’d talk to the Cannibal Town Overlord about it.” There was a pause before a defeated smile momentarily graced the crying girl’s face. Her small shoulders sagged in relief, as if a weight had been lifted off of her.
“We do like to chat about our interests and all that over tea sometimes. He was definitely very keen on the idea.”
“Yeah. He was. Is.” Ynna went from dabbing her tears to covering her mouth, a tremble on her lip as she turned slightly green. “I did eat him. He made a dish…after cutting meat from his thigh, cooked it and served it like a 5 Star Michelin feast and watched me eat it.”
Those tragic eyes met hers with grim tears wetting her lashes and a pathetic frown on her lips. “It was probably the most delicious thing he’s ever served me. And I feel disgusted with myself for even thinking that.”
She sounded so bitter, the muddy revulsion staining her tone. Of course, she’d feel dirty. To like something so unholy when she was a guest at a place offering to redeem one’s soul. While she didn’t know much about the girl, she did notice that she was one of those sinners, the ones just one sin shy of Heaven. It must have pained her to find herself falling deeper into the clutches of the inferno, out of affection for a proud sinner. She stroked the girl’s hair in sympathy.
“Hah *gasp* ha. Rosie, I love him. I love him so much I’m going insane because I just ate him. And then kissed him after. It’s so fucked up. I’m so fucked up.”
She laid a careful hand on the girl’s head, bringing her back to the crook of her shoulder as if she could hide her away from her problems. “Shush. It’s okay. You aren’t fucked up, sweetie. Not by my standards, at least.”
“Right…right. Stupid then. I’m stupid for doing something I’m morally against because I couldn’t say no to some guy just because he smiled really pretty.” The tiny warm thing in her arms blew wry chuckles into her shoulder, derision and pity aimed at herself.
“Yeah, that’s definitely stupid but, you wouldn’t be the only one who’s ever done something stupid for someone they loved.” She offered her consolation, the words coming from her own experience. In Ynna, she saw a spark of something from long ago. In her tears, in her madness. Melancholy engulfed them as they sat there, two women nestled around one another.
“I don’t think anyone would casually try cannibalism for someone.” When Ynna’s tension eased, tired, defeated and resigned, she broke the silence.
“You’d be surprised. I did it. And that was back when I was still alive too.” She couldn’t help but snort. Ynna was still a little naive. It was apparent that she hadn’t experienced too much of Hell yet.
“Seriously?” Ynna turned her face to look up at her, eyes wide and mildly disturbed though she tried to sound more polite. Ah. Such a darling little thing. She gave the incredulous girl a grin.
“Yes. So you’re in the right company, sweetie.”
“Damn. Ha.” The girl cracked a troubled smile and for the first time since she picked her up off the street, the spark of life in her eyes peeked out from the storm of turmoil. A bit of curiosity too though it was shy. “I guess I can ask you, how did you deal with it? The moral dilemma? The sick feeling after? I honestly feel hysterical right now.” A stray tear slipped past her eye to join the other others soaked into the lace of her shoulder.
Tragic and fragile. How could someone so normal be the one who captured her dear friend’s interest? Still, she understood it a little, a well of protectiveness forming as that curiosity in the girl continued to solidify. It was fascinating to watch the cracks in her mental state already healing before her eyes. The girl wasn’t as fragile as she looked.
“I did it for love, dear. That was all that mattered at the time. Even when I wanted to throw up, I salted that meat with my tears and kept eating.” The memory of it was still so vivid, the trauma she faced at the time, the despair. It had taken her far longer after the act to even speak to another let alone discuss the actual act itself.
“Haha. Yeah. For love. Fuck. Rosie. It just feels…so unlike who I thought I was? Or maybe it is who I’ve always been? I always said I’d do anything for the people I loved but this was never what I thought it’d get to. I don’t even know if he cares about me the same way but I would do it for him again even if he doesn’t.”
“He kissed you.” She pulled back away from the girl so we could get a good look at her. Was she serious? Alastor ‘Don’t Touch Me’ the Radio Demon kissed her. Of course, he felt something for her.
“People fuck and that doesn’t mean they love each other. Ah sorry. That was rude.” The goat snapped coolly at her before apologizing. She really was so much fun. The way her face warped from unimpressed to placating was sweet and entertaining.
“Pssh. You got a point there. But listen, I don’t know of any man who would cut and fry up his skin to serve it to a gal as an apology gift if he didn’t like her. And Alastor! Hah! The last time someone tried to plant one on that guy, he permanently scarred the man. So believe me, him kissing you is a big deal.” She traced a finger up Ynna’s face and up higher to indicate how big the damage Alastor inflicted on the offender was. That seemed to get through to the girl who was no doubt familiar with her best friend’s sadism (to a degree).
“Okay. But that still doesn’t change the fact that I’m scared of what I’d do for him. I already damned my soul again.” Something flashed in her eyes, dark and greedy. It was only for a fraction of a second but she felt it from the girl, a touch of depravity. Ynna seemed to be aware of it, the way she shivered and looked away in shame as if she wanted to hide it.
A stray thought wandered into her mind then. What if this was too much for her? As much as she hoped Ynna could accept her actions and maybe adapt them, and in doing so be able to start a relationship with Alastor, there was a chance that it wouldn’t work. That each time Alastor requested something from her, a bit of her soul broke and withered away. Love could only get you so far.
She looked at Ynna then. Really looked at her. Sad. Tired. The goat looked one push away from falling off the deep end yet no tremors shook her body and that lively gleam swam in the teary edges of her eyes. Gloomy, a bit desperate and mind whirring with so many many thoughts but she already showed all the signs of recovery, much faster than even she did all those years ago.
Alastor and his obsession be damned.
“Who you are will always change, sweetie. It’s just the way things are. Think about it this way, you’re already dead so do what makes you happy. You wanna get to Heaven, do that. You want to be a cannibal? I’ll have a place for you in my town.” She gave the girl’s shoulder an encouraging squeeze. “Do what feels right for you even if it means not accepting Alastor or telling him to fuck off if he asks you to eat him again.”
“What? Aren’t you his best friend? Shouldn’t you be encouraging me to get together with him if he loves me like you said?” Confused, the goat sat further back. It was her turn to be studied and oops, she guessed that the girl was aware of her bias towards Alastor. Ah. She’ll do just fine with him, she was sure of it now.
“As his best friend, I’m looking out for his happiness. And that’ll only happen if you’re happy being with him too, with all of his…uniqueness. He’s not a good man, morals-wise and if that’s not something you can accept, then I think it’s best you turn him down.” She stood up and went to tidy up the food that had been ignored. Hopefully, Ynna didn’t see the fingers next to the plate of eggs. Now wouldn’t be the best time for that.
“…you’re a good person, Rosie. Well, as far as people I’ve met in Hell.” As if sensing that looking into the tray would be bad for her, Ynna looked pointedly at her face, a small smile on her lips. She really was such a sweet girl. Almost too sweet for her good ol’ friend.
“I’m one of the best, I can tell you that much. Now, what do you plan to do?” She winked at her and brought the tray away from where she could see it.
“I…would like to take a nap, if that’s okay with you? I’d like to think a bit more because…it made him happy…and that made me happy. I’m not sure if that’s enough to try being something more with Alastor, but maybe it is. I at least want to know what I want before I ask him what he feels.” Oh she really needed to stop being so polite. It only made her want to go and tuck the poor darling into bed herself. Still, she nodded at Ynna and gave her a sympathetic smile.
“It's complicated.”
“Yeah.” The two of them shared a moment of silence, sympathy for the other’s unvoiced frustrations with relationships traveling between them. Urggh. Men.
“Take your time. I’ll be downstairs in the shop if you need me. Do you want me to let Alastor know that you’re here?” The sounds of tapping reached her ears then before Ynna looked at her with a bright expression, face lit with a determination that didn’t match the many thoughts going through her mind. At least the girl was thinking about her advice in a positive light compared to the whirlpool of distress she’d found herself drowning in earlier.
“I just sent a text to my friends. They’ll let him know I’m okay.” She showed a quick flash of the messaging screen. Even from the door, she noticed the tight grip she held on the device.
A new message popped onto the screen which caught both women’s attention. The thumbnail showed one Radio Demon, gigantic in form, in the middle of town. His antlers were fully grown to match his towering stature, teeth like a million needles coming out of an emaciated face. Truly horrible to look at. Though Alastor was huge, his visage blurred out in a familiar fashion. The man never let the cameras catch him properly. Ynna pressed the video link and for the next few minutes, a news report about an Overlord’s rampage filled the air.
“The Radio Demon is currently in the middle of the Doomsday District. Viewers are advised to stay away as he’s collecting souls for his broadcast! Jim! Why are you backing away! Jim! Get your ass back over here and Ahhhh!!!—“
The video ended with a giant hand picking up the poor reporter and vanishing him into the shadows. Comments beneath the video swooned or were terrified, asking why the man thought to up his scream count to the hundreds that evening. It was like the man was celebrating.
She once again wanted to slap her dear friend. The girl just barely calmed down and was thinking seriously about whether or not to pursue a relationship with him and he shows this appearance! Alastor! You damned fool!
She looked at Ynna’s reaction. Her face was schooled into a carefully blank expression, the only movement being the reflection of the video in the eyes as she paused and relayed it again. Pause. Replay.
“He really does like to hurt other people, doesn’t he? I mean, this was from last night! That could’ve been me getting skewered by his claws.” Terror came back onto the girl's face. Dammit.
“No, dear. I don’t think so.” She soothed a stray hair away from the distressed girl’s face. “You know, this might just be him getting a little worked up. As far as I know, he’s only ever gotten excited about murder and jazz so maybe he’s feeling a little crazy too after kissing you.”
Now that she thought about it, the way Alastor spoke so excitedly about Ynna eating him, the red in his eyes glowing just a little while he recounted every morsel he fed her, the way he unconsciously clung to her at the party. Alastor was always a tad dramatic and theatrical. It’s what made him so fun to be around. If he’d gotten a taste of his obsession last night and a kiss out of it too, then him going on a little rampage made sense even if it was over the top.
The face she could barely make out from the video didn’t at all look like an angry demon.
“Scratch that, dear. He’s definitely worked up after you ate and kissed him.” Ynna blanched at her teasing but she couldn’t help it. This was so funny. Alastor rarely ever lost control of himself and yet here he was, raining terror on the Pentagram.
“Rosie that’s just…”
“If this isn’t proof that he likes you, that you do something to him that drives him wild, then I don’t know what is.” She took the screen, following what Ynna did to replay that video. More screams and just slightly, she could hear a love song in the background. What a sap. And here he was saying he wasn’t in love. Turning to Ynna again, the girl worried her lip, more terrified that he was angry than she was of his murder spree. “Oh dear, He wouldn’t hurt you. Trust me.”
“He’s really not angry?”
“No.” She tapped her fingers on Ynna’s lip to stop the girl from biting it. Those frightened eyes calmed down, the girl deciding to follow her instructions and allow herself to be soothed. “If anything, you should ask him for an apology. He was way out of line for kissing you especially in the state you were in. He’s smart enough to know that and he shouldn’t let himself lose control on you no matter how much he’s feeling.”
“Should I? He can get a little dramatic with his apologies sometimes. Like when—“ A glint flashed in the girl's eyes and her brows furrowed. “Hey Rosie, what did you mean earlier by ‘a man who would cut up and fry his skin as an apology gift?’ You meant Alastor, didn’t you?”
“Yes. That chichi-something he made. Didn’t he tell you… oh .”
“What didn’t he tell me?”
Chapter 26: Secret's Out
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Alastor’s POV
Had the morning ever shined so sweetly in his room? He’d made sure to enchant the bayou connecting to it to always be in that eerily calm gloom of a hunt, never this bright almost sunny day. Whatever unconscious magick he summoned to relive that wonderful dream for just a few moments longer into his waking could only be a reflection on his deepest desires.
Closing his eyes, he sighed as he relived last night again. He could still taste her, the few precious drops of her blood mingling with the sparks they lit as their mouths connected. The faint caress of her hands and warmth of her body had never been more welcome, more wanted, than in that moment when he craved for her to take more of him.
Static sparked at the thought of if that kiss had gone on longer. It was for the best that he’d let her go. Her personal sacrifice for him had already overloaded his mind, that kiss tipping him beyond any gentlemanly reservations. Even now, a low burn of desire reawakened in his veins, wanting to brush praises on her brows, her cheeks, her lips.
Getting out of bed before he fell into the temptation of falling back into that dream, he set about getting ready for the day. He pulled on his coat and fixed his bow tie in front of the mirror.
His reflection stood back at him, proud and sharp with the gleam in his eye even sharper. From the dresser drawer by his bedside, he pulled out a little box. Sitting on its cushion was the brooch Ynna had given him. The weight of it as he pinned it onto his bow tie reminded him of the pink dusting across her cheeks as she presented it to him, eyes brimming.
Affection. Devotion. Sincerity. Care.
His reflection rippled into the woman he was thinking of, her eyes radiating those emotions at him. A small upwards crook of her mouth and a crinkle in her eyes, she looked so cheerful and…precious. He shuddered, dials turning in his head once more, an incessant clicking ensuing as he replayed her words from last night.
It’s not about obligation, Al. I want to do this for you.
I want to do this for you.
He held the edges of the mirror as her image spoke to him those darling words she’d softly pierced into his chest. For a moment, she forgot her morals, her reservations, her inherent disgust for eating another, all so she could pacify him. His claws dug into the old ornate wood frame of the mirror but careful not to put a scratch onto the glass, not to harm even just her image.
After all these years, he finally understood it. What a fool he was to disdain romance. Why did people need to commit to one another, to make ridiculous displays out of their love, if not but to live out their days in bliss by keeping the person who brought it by their side? It was only his misfortune that it took almost a century to find anyone he would be willing to admit such saccharine sentiments for.
As such, for matters of the heart, he was unfortunately a novice. From her tears last night, he was sure to have made a grave error. He would need to remedy that.
Starting right now. First order of business was breakfast. With admittedly little patience, he used the shadows to bring him to the kitchen. Taking stock of what was available, he tried to think of the perfect offering. With how shaken she was, he doubted she would be consuming anything savory. Perhaps tea? Toast? Oatmeal?
He prepared all of the above on a tray with a red carnation in a vase. If he were quick enough, he might be able to persuade her to take breakfast in her room so they could perhaps discuss last night’s events over their shared meal. He brewed a pot of coffee for the rest of the hotel folk but made sure to prepare two cups using the method she preferred. She’ll have her choice of whatever she wanted to fill her stomach with (including him if she felt inclined).
Anticipation nipped like dogs at his heels. It was like a hunt, planning what to say, what to do, how to secure his dearest after startling her. A wrong move could be disastrous but he wasn’t afraid of the challenge. Not when the prize was this joy that thrummed in his veins just at the thought of her, an excitement that made him want to stab someone (or be stabbed by her).
Once preparations were completed and food made for the other horde, he shadowed to her door, knocking as soon as he materialized and knocking again when no response came back to him.
Hm. It was only very occasionally that she would sleep in, being an early-riser herself. But after last night, it made sense if she was tired. His ears strained to hear the telltale signs of her breathing but even with all his concentration poured into it, he heard nothing.
Manifesting onto the door, his shadow immediately slunk through the cracks of the doorway when he gave the signal. When it returned, it confirmed his suspicion that she wasn’t in her room. Odd. He set the tray in a little pocket dimension to keep it fresh as he went looking for her.
Not in the hall. Not in the foyer. They didn’t seem to miss each other if she had gone to the kitchen. He stood in the lobby trying to think through where she might be. As loathed as he was to imagine it, she may have slept over in Angel Dust’s room, seeking comfort from her other trusted companion. His shadow was already slinking to the effeminate man’s room to check, a small hiss on its silent snarl, when the door burst open, a tired looking cat dragging himself into the hotel.
“You!” The gruff man pointed as soon as his strained reddened landed on him.
“Good day to you too, my good man. What brings you darkening our doors this early in the morning?”
“What did you do to the kid? Why was she all freaked out last night?” The accusatory tone in the cat’s voice struck a nerve but he remained mockingly passive.
“Did Ynna tell you I did something? Where is she anyway? I’ve been looking for her all morning.”
“What? You saying that wasn’t you? Fucking Christ.” The haggard man scrubbed at his face, giving him a withering glare, deciding if he was playing one of his games or not. His smile remained neutral, a brow raised in question. The cat sighed in frustration when he couldn’t gather anything from his face. “She’s not in the hotel. Ran off last night after getting drunk and I haven’t been able to find her.”
Tension sprung up his back, a tight coil winding itself in his gut, sharpening him.
“What do you mean she’s not in the hotel?”
Ynna’s POV
Rosie’s face shut off for just a split second before she smiled lightly, grim but polite. You hated that smile. It was almost business-like. Placating. The smile that someone gives when they don’t want to give you bad news.
“What didn’t he tell me?” Your voice cracked a bit as you tried to politely demand an answer again. She couldn’t possibly be implying that…no. But if she already knew about Alastor wanting you to eat him, knew about the cannibalism enough that the restraints on your deal didn’t apply to her, it could only mean that Alastor told her about it before…and that he was sure that he liked the idea of you eating him when he told her.
When did he even decide that? He was furious the day you ate his velvet, gave you shit for it the day after too. And then you made up and he gave you… fried skin.
“Breathe, dear. Slowly. Slowly.” Rosie’s hands were back on your shoulders, firmly bringing you back from the memories of that day. Your eyes focused and locked into her concerned ones.
Cannibal
Your hands slapped hers away on instinct, the negativity that one word brought making you flinch before you thought it through. Her void-black eyes flashed a spark of hurt white before she moved away, hands folded demurely on her lap.
“Sorry. I—I’m not…”
“It’s okay, dear. I understand.”
The two of you shared a brief stare, cut short as you felt bile rise up in your throat the more you looked at her. Looking at your hands, they shook. It couldn’t be true, right? Alastor couldn’t have fed you parts of him before, right? He always asked but he never pushed, never forced you even when you owed him a favor per your deal.
He gave you that blood potion, unprompted.
A voice, snide and cold, whispered his prior offense. If his poker face had been better at the time, if you hadn’t caught him by surprise, would he have told you what it was?
But that didn’t matter though. He did it to heal you, to give your body the power it needed to mend itself at his expense. THERE WAS A GOOD REASON.
Then what about the chicharron?
.
.
.
Cold. The warmth drained from your chest slowly like your heart had stopped pumping blood. Everything seemed to freeze as you thought the worst and prayed desperately that it wasn’t true.
“This is something you should talk to him about, Ynna.” A saddened voice prompted and a glance back up at its owner caused fear to spike in you even higher. With just a look, she confirmed that your suspicions weren’t unfounded. But she wouldn’t be the one to tell you anything more.
Alastor’s POV
The coil in his gut grew tight and impatient as he sat watching everyone else eat. Ynna had been nowhere to be found. No one had seen her since before they went to his suite, except for Husker. From what he’d gathered from the cat, she’d come crying and begging to get drunk out of her mind before she vanished.
This was…not what he’d expected. Yes, he had anticipated that she would be upset, but to disappear in a drunken escapade? It was too reckless of her. What more, he couldn’t reach her, the necklace he’d given her only going one way because he hadn’t anticipated her going somewhere he wouldn’t be able to find her immediately.
He tempered his annoyance lest static crackle uncontrollably in response to the roiling in his gut. Surely, she wasn’t hurt. If she were, she had a way to summon him to save her. Stupid little woman.
“Hey Alastor?”
Reckless child. Where would he even begin to search?
“Al?”
He’ll have to add another enchantment on that pendant when he finds her. There was clearly a need to be able to track her if getting her emotions in a twist caused her to do something so brash.
“Hey ALASTOR!” A fist slammed at the table, jarring him out of his contemplative spiral. The woman seethed. Was she upset that he’d been too distracted to notice the princess calling him?
“What was that? I was a little distracted there, my dear?” He gave her a nonchalant smile, one that annoyed her as she understood how it meant he just deigned to give her his attention. Who could blame him though? He wasn’t in a very good mood despite the calm appearance he showed.
The women had tried to reach his dearest’s phone and had been unsuccessful yet they didn’t want to sound the alarm until at least a little more time had passed. Ynna was a grown adult, they said. She was free to roam around and they shouldn’t get too worried unless she failed to respond by midday. What lax attitudes.
“We’ve been calling you for a while now. Do you have anything to say for yourself?” The moth woman sneered as she passed her phone to him, a video playing on the tiny screen. It was of him, rampaging through some unfortunate area, doing a rather high body count broadcast. The reporter mentioned that it had happened last night?
Why didn’t he recall that? Wait. He vaguely did, comparing her laughter to the sound of tortured souls. A brow raised in curiosity. So he hadn’t just been waxing poetry. Did he go on a rampage while he was asleep?
He almost laughed at how funny that was. A lovely dream and the Pentagram’s nightmare. Talk about multitasking. To think he’d been that affected by her. His dearest just kept unearthing new things about him.
“What about it? It’s clearly one of my broadcasts, though I must admit that I was feeling particularly inspired that evening.” He watched the blurry image of himself string entrails along one of the coned rooftop like tinsel, the bodies they belonged to becoming mangled ornaments where they were still attached.
“What about—? Alastor! How the hell are we supposed to get more guests to come here if you’re out there showing half the city how to decorate the streets with the other half!? Do you know how hard it already was to get people to take this place seriously? How can they do that if one of the business partners is out there massacring people on a whim?!” Vaggie’s spear was out and actually thrust towards his face before her girlfriend pulled her back.
The pure frustration and loathing on the moth’s face as she tried to still get him while the princess pacified her caused him to smirk. A few more inches forward and he would have had a good reason to throttle her. Oh well.
Eventually, the blonde did turn to him, fear and distaste on her clownish features as she tried to put on a scolding expression.
“She’s right, Al. That wasn’t very cool. I know we agreed that you could keep doing your broadcasts but that was overboard. I know you have a reputation to maintain as an Overlord but still, we can’t have that much carnage associated with the hotel.” It appeased his mood somewhat to see the two women’s frustration at him. If only he could keep riling them up but alas, it would be unproductive.
“Charlie, Charlie.” The princess preferred a more mentor-like approach when being spoken to so he called her with a tone that sounded like she’d missed the point. “My dear, what do you think drives sinners to seek redemption? When souls who weren’t able to restrain themselves from doing something wretched to wind up down here are given a place where they can roam free from repercussions amongst peers, why would anyone want to leave?”
The princess seemed to ponder, confused about what he was getting at. He paused for dramatic effect, hand tucked under his chin as his other reached for his coffee mug. “It’s simple. When living in Hell isn’t worth the freedom they have to do what they want, that’s when they come crawling on their knees for salvation.” The way of the wretched always relied on the pros and cons of each action.
“So what? Are you saying that you went on a killing spree to get more people to join the hotel?” Vaggie snarked from where she stood behind the princess.
“Of course not! Hah! That would be funny and proactive. No no. I’m just saying to look at the bright side. Sometimes it takes a little fear for people to try to find the light. Besides, all of Hell knows that while I find everyone else fair game, this hotel and its inhabitants are under my protection. I’m sure it won’t deter anyone who wants redemption to come here. Maybe it’ll even bring more people in.” He grinned at the princess. Unless one was at the lowest rung, why would they want to leave a place that accepted and even celebrated the darkness that lurked in their souls? He certainly didn’t see the appeal of Heavenly order and all that claptrap. “Just look at Ynna for example. Didn’t she join us to find sanctuary?”
“Yes but that still doesn’t make it okay.”
“Oh hey, looks like tootsie roll is headed back.” All heads turned to Angel Dust who groggily made his way over to his seat with a yawn. He flashed the message on his phone.
As he mentioned it, a couple of beeps and buzzes sounded from the princess and her girlfriend’s phones, presumably, Ynna’s texts coming through to respond to their earlier calls.
Seeing the princess type on her tiny screen and have it ring after a few moments caused that coil in his gut to clench even tighter. Was it really that easy to communicate with his dearest? If not for his distaste for those overly embellished devices, he might be tempted to get one for that reason.
“See, Al. It looks like she just had a night out. She says she’s okay and will be back soon.” Confirming that one of her beloved guests was alright, the princess breathed a sigh of relief before turning to him again. He gave her a smile and she huffed in defeat. “Just tone it down a bit with the broadcasts, please? Your usual stuff…is barely okay as it is.”
“Oh you’re no fun, Charlie. But alright. No massive killings in the near future.”
“Thank you.” Breakfast returned to normal, everyone doing their own thing as he sat in coiled anticipation.
How was his dearest feeling? How long did he have to wait?
Ynna’s POV
The long trek back to the hotel calmed your nerves a bit. Really, it had given you time to go through the five stages of grief preemptively. So what if Alastor fed you his skin? It wouldn’t be the first time you’d eaten him given the whole velvet incident. And you already ate steaks from his thigh last night so…
So…
Your nose felt spicy and bile threatened to gurgle up your throat. Why? Why would he do that? Was it some sick joke? Curiosity? Some weird way for him to make friends? You honestly didn’t know and Rosie wouldn’t answer any of your questions. You were left to swirl around in your thoughts in the hour it took you to get home.
It was barely 10 am and you felt so very exhausted. Feelings and upon feelings battered you all morning and just when you thought you had space to breathe, a frightening revelation came down on you.
But you still weren’t sure. Not until you asked Alastor. You would…hold out hope until then.
The lobby felt like the last lap of a long relay, just one more push before you could collapse at the end. The moment the doors opened, Husk raised his head from the bar. You were a little embarrassed seeing him, having been witnessed descending into a drunken spiral by the barman.
“You look like shit.” His eyes carefully scanned you over before minutely relaxing. He must’ve been worried about you.
“Not looking too spiffy yourself.” The cat looked as exhausted as you felt, eyes straining against the light, a heavier slouch than usual.
“Well, I went looking for ya all night after you disappeared on me.”
“Fuck. Sorry about that and thanks.”
“Are ya feeling better now? Want to talk about what happened?” You were surprised to hear his concern, the man not really one to openly reach out like this. Even tired and gruff, he was trying to look out for you.
“I’m fine. Have you seen Alastor?” You had to swallow to soothe the burn in your throat as you said his name. Hopefully, the barman didn’t catch too much of your distress and if he did, you prayed he’d keep it to himself. Husk probably would.
He blinked tired yet focused eyes at you before leaning back on his bar top with a yawn. “I think he’s in his office.”
You nodded a thanks to him and made your way there. Apprehension and nervousness set your feet on fire as you hurried to find him without actually running. You needed to know. You needed to be sure. Blood pounded in your ears as you curved around each hallway corner and almost screamed when you ran into a solid chest and arms practically lifted you up when you were about to fall.
“Ynna.”
There he stood, in his red clad glory, not a smidge different from his usual fine grooming. Meanwhile, you looked the part of a 3 am bar crawl and it showed in the way his brows furrowed and his hold on you became just a bit more gentle than it already was. “Let’s get you to your room, hm? You look like you need another round of sleep.” His arms readjusted you easily until he carried you cradled against his chest.
Despite your earlier worries, the familiar feel of him and the concern he showed soothed you. It was almost like you could forget last night ever happened, that things were normal and nothing in you had shifted. His calm face betrayed nothing, like nothing in him had shifted. Were…were you the only one affected?
Curiously, he didn’t speak, opting instead to hum as he let some music play from his chest. He was being very delicate with you, sweet. You remembered how he held onto you last night and felt your face warm. It became even more important that you find out what he was keeping from you. Even if you were the only one whose feelings were swirling, you still needed to know. It was the only way you could eventually settle down.
When you arrived in your room, he let you down by your bedside. He plucked pillows and blankets out of the way until he made a spot for you to tuck into. It was too familiar of an act coming from him. Too intimate despite how close you two were. Was this the result of last night? Would you have appreciated it if your conversation with Rosie had ended earlier than it did?
“Aren’t you getting in, dearest? You should take a rest for the day.”
“Alastor, I need to talk to you.”
Alastor’s POV
Her sullen face showed determination as she implored him to converse. Was it about last night? Good. He’d felt eager all morning as he awaited her return. He’d hoped to see her more cheerful but that was a fool’s hope. Of course, she’d be as torn up about everything as she was. He had been a beast to steal a kiss from her when she’d done him a huge favor by indulging his wishes. Though he did wonder why it seemed the meal she ate hadn’t been enough to completely do away with the slight bags under her eyes and the light scratches he could now see on her knees.
He motioned for her to sit as he told her to speak her mind. It would be best to let her take the lead in this, given how vulnerable she must feel at the moment. She needn’t worry. He was sure that their relationship would only be stronger after last night and he would be sure to take full responsibility. Her sacrifices would not be wasted on him.
Warm thrumming engulfed his chest as he thought of ways to ease her. Sleep came first. And then maybe he’d take her to a proper dinner to make up for yesterday.
“Alastor,” His back straightened as she used his full name. Should he apologize for kissing her? Or declare proudly that he wanted to try a more proper one this time? “...the chicharonnes from before, was it made from your skin?”
…What?
The question caught him off guard as steel slipped into her eyes and her jaw clenched.
She knew.
How? No. That wasn’t important at the moment. The flint in her gaze was. It wasn’t a question out of curiosity; she was looking for confirmation. For a dreadful yet brief moment he contemplated his options, the gears in his head turning, madly clicking as all the incidents from the past flashed through his mind. Each memory evoked a potent mix of desire and guilt that had him digging his foot into the plush carpet to stem any other reactions.
What to do? He couldn’t lie to her and deny it completely. He supposed he could play some word game to make her think it was anything but what she thought it was. No. That wouldn’t do. He had to think of the final outcome he desired.
Ynna, at her core, was a trusting woman. Sweet and sincere. To find out what he did would hurt her but to lie to her face when she knew the truth would damn him from her graces severely. If he wanted to start courting her properly, honesty would be his best option here. Even if it hurt her.
Damn his reckless past self.
His eager grin dimmed as the decision was made. Lips pressed in a thin line, face devoid of his previous cheer, he delivered the damning truth. “Yes. It was.”
He watched her face crumble as whatever hope she might’ve held for his innocence faded away. Her mouth opened and closed, words escaping her as she processed the blow he dealt her. Her fingers grasped the bed, digging into the cushion as if to ground her to reality as her mind raced.
“Was…was that the only time you fed me some body part of yours?” Her face shuttered close, emotions being withheld as question after question flitted through her mind.
“No.”
“What else did you feed me?” The question came as a whisper, as if she was afraid to voice it out, afraid of the answer. If she was so afraid, then why put them through this interrogation?
“Do you really want to know?” He didn’t move from his position, didn’t try to exert pressure. In this moment, he was determined to tell her the truth, but only if she was brave enough to ask it of him. She trembled, realizing what he was offering. He sat still, watching her. A challenge. Her dear friend the Radio Demon, the one she had foolishly sinned for. Did she really want to know what he’d done against her? To completely shatter her perception of him and ruin their friendship, her sacrifices, in her eyes?
No. That wasn’t right. He’d doomed them to ruin from the very start of it all. She found out too early, too soon in the midst of other uncertainties she was experiencing. He just hoped he’d burrowed himself into her affections deeply enough for her to forgive him.
“Tell me everything.”
“Alright.” Brave girl. He should have expected it.
As he listed each meal he’d served with a little part of him as gently as he could, she watched him with widened eyes. Like a deer in headlights, each dish, each act of betrayal crashed into her and she sat still through it all. Not a peep escaped her until he reached the end.
“All of that? You…did all of that? Why?” Her watery voice sounded alarms in his head as she stood and stepped away from him, eyeing him a monster the whole way.
“At the time, I hadn’t known that you were someone I could grow so close to, just another soul wandering in torment for eternity. I thought I could have my fun until I grew bored and you would be none the wiser.” He followed her, the nerves in his body wanting to reach for her and cradle her against him as she cried.
“I was working on redemption!”
“We both know Charlie’s methods aren’t guaranteed.”
“I was TRYING!” Her scream shook him more violently than if she had held onto his arms and manhandled him as best she could. He would have preferred that actually. At least, she wouldn’t keep backing away from him.
“I…wanted to believe in Heaven. I—I wanted to get away from here! Where people fight! THEY TAKE ADVANTAGE!” Her eyes looked at him intently, holding him captive. “They lie.”
“No. No, dearest.” He reached for her as she ran out of space to move back, hand outstretched to steady her as she used the wall to hold her unsteady form.
“Don’t touch me!” She hissed, teeth bared and a second set of eyes opened. Anger radiated from their glow, burning him in their flames. His static buzzed in alarm at being hit. Alarm, surprise and wonder. Her anger truly was a sight to behold, tickling little clicks in his brain with the urge to see how far she could go. How much more agitated did she have to be before she sank her teeth into her opponent? Would that appease her anger then?
The twisted parts of him thrummed at the thought but now was not the time. He still had to reach her, at least let his words get through to her before she completely pulled herself away from him.
“Ynna.” He called her name softly, the filter in his voice gone. “I’ve never told you an untrue word. Not once. Ever.”
“Liar.”
“It’s the truth. I’ve only ever told you the truth.” He moved closer to her still, smaller steps that she watched cautiously. “That I’m fond of you.” Step. “That I wanted you to try eating me.” Step. “That you are my most treasured friend.” One final step brought him face to face with her, far enough that she didn’t entirely run from him but so close that his visage was the only thing she could see. “You are my dearest one. Our relationship may have started out with impure motives on my end but I want to wipe it all clean and be honest with you going forward.”
One breath. Two.
Neither of them spoke as he let those words sink in. Could she see the effort he was putting in? Could she feel how sincere he was in all this? It was an exercise in unfiltered honesty that he just was not used to, hadn’t been since he was a child who confided all his fears and worries to his mother. But it was her sincere and lovely devotion he craved so for once, he would give it back.
“I want to make amends to you properly. I’ll do whatever it is you ask of me until your ire goes away. Until you can find it in yourself to forgive me. I’m truly sorry for disrespecting you like I did. You’ve become so dear to me, Ynna. So very dear. I truly regret hurting you.”
His throat began to sting, feeling raw and bloody from putting all his feelings out there. For her to judge. For him to hope that the sweet forgiveness she always offered him could extend this far. But alas, he was full of foolish hopes today.
“…I don’t believe you.” She stood tall as her emotions shut close on her face, anger washed away to leave a cold slate where he’d hoped to see her warm chagrin. Only her tears remained, flowing freely to show the immense sadness that plagued her. Because of him.
“Ynna, please listen—“
“I can’t. I need time to think. There’s so much…I thought we were friends.”
“We are.” And they could be more. He wanted them to be more. She’d already given him so much. Clearly, he wasn’t the only one who felt deeply for the other.
“Please just leave me alone.” Her whispered plea arrested his tongue. Any more words he could have said to apologize died in his throat. It wouldn’t do him any good in this situation. It was clear with how she moved past him, no longer fearing or flinching even as their shoulders brushed, she was in no state to receive anything he could do or say.
An ache so foul clawed at his chest at her rejection. It suffocated him and put his teeth on edge. The greedier parts of him urged him to hold her still and force her to listen. To drink her tears as he soothed her with his melodies. That she wouldn’t be able to overpower him or escape his arms, not unless she ate through them and even then, he would have found joy in it, in her anger, in her fight. Anything other than this…dismissal.
Before she could move farther away from him, he caught her hand. Holding firm onto the small palm that tried to shake him off, their gazes met, both determined. Even as she glared, teeth sharpening again in snarl, he did not let go. From her arm’s length away, he brought just her fingertips to his lips, pouring all his feelings into the lightest touch. He hoped she could read the severity of his feelings through his eyes, his wants and desires, how precious he thought of her. Anything at all to rekindle even a little of her emotions for him.
There, beneath the flinty coldness, was just the tiniest waver of uncertainty. That was enough.
“Alright. Rest well, my dearest. I’ll wait until you’re ready to talk to me again.”
Notes:
Double post this week! And I'm also going on another break. Life things are happening and I haven't been able to write despite having the motivation to. I will hopefully be back after a month? Maybe sooner? Maybe later?
As always, I thank you all for sticking around and enjoying these two goofballs with me. I will see you in the next chapter! Take care until then!
Also, yes. Alastor has technically never lied to her.
Chapter 27: Fool Me Once
Notes:
Hello lovelies! I am back from my break!
I meant to be back sooner but right after my vacation trip, I caught COVID. It was miserable. I managed to dodge it all these years but it finally got me and it got me good. I'm still slightly brain-foggy but I needed to get a new chapter out. Had to scratch that itch, ya know? Anyway, stay safe out there and I hope you enjoy this new chapter!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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Ynna’s POV
Two days. You hadn’t left your room in two days. Hunger, both regular and infernal, gnawed at your insides as you sat curled in a ball by your window. While Charlie and Angel brought you food, you ignored their concerned urging. This was punishment, after all. Punishment for your foolishness, for trusting so freely, for taking Alastor’s sudden interest in you for granted in the beginning.
For still wishing you could hear his soft old timey music and humming white noise right now.
God, you’re pathetic.
You should have known when he struck that deal that he didn’t view you as any exception to his tricks. No. You knew. You just chose to ignore it. Alastor had always been a psychopath, willing to undermine and torture others for the sake of entertainment. Beneath the seemingly effortless charm lay a monster and just because he moved with grace and breathtaking elegance, considerate and attentive care with you, it didn’t mean that he couldn’t turn his monstrosity against you still.
You should have known when he gave you that blood potion, created from self-harm just so he could lessen your pain. What it symbolized, a selflessness within that sociopathic mind, allowed you to accept his twisted nature so long as he sincerely cared about you. But he never cared, did he? Not truly. Not enough to put the sanctity of your body over his ever hungry craving for something to stimulate his sick mind.
You understood all this now, in the calm after all your tears had been cried. While most of the fault lay with the one who conspired against you, it was also fair to share some of the blame for being too naive and trusting. However, understanding all of this didn’t stop the deep-seated anger and sadness that he cut into your heart with each dish he admitted to tampering. In fact, it only made it worse.
A laughing smile and a wink as he delivered the punchline. A light nudge to make sure you didn’t step on shit. The unforgiving curve of his back as sharp eyes smirked at you.
Pathetic.
Leaning against the cool window pane, your faint reflection mimicked your sighs. Maybe if you sat under the windowsill, you could grow roots and survive the rest of eternity on water and photosynthesis. That seemed fitting since it was your stupid mouth that got you into this mess.
Alastor’s POV
It was only the second day of Ynna’s self-imposed isolation but he already ran out of excuses to pass by her doorway just to see if this time, he could chance upon her emerging. Only a little over 48 hours and his promise to wait for her already seemed a bite too big for him to chew. And yes, he had meant to use a food-related saying. Food and dining were all he could think of when it became clear that Ynna was not only rejecting everyone’s company, but she was also rejecting her meals.
As an individual who shared his love of food, starving herself was too drastic of a move. Even when it made her queasy, the goat would still eat because her appetite wasn’t one to be ignored. It was one of the things he adored about her. Was she rejecting her meals because he was the one who cooked them? The thought stung more than it should have though her lack of trust in his entrees and snacks was understandable.
He tried not to fret, not to appear to be fretting. Not in front of the princess and her worried questions or Vaggie and her angry accusations. He had no desire to share details of their quarrel to anyone. It was just that he heavily disapproved of this act of self-harm.
He stared at the closed door for another moment, seeing the shadows subtly move in the crack under the doorway. She was still in there, moving about, pacing, it seemed. There was that, at least. She hadn’t thought to run away or get drunk out of her mind again. She still seemed healthy enough from what little he could gather without crossing anymore of her boundaries. It would be so easy to send his shadow to watch her but that would be another invasion upon her that he couldn’t afford.
Perhaps, tomorrow; tomorrow he could see his dearest.
Ynna’s POV
Why were you in the kitchen? Everything seemed to be covered in a hazy glow giving the cold tile and metals a warm hue. Faint wordless music played from somewhere, surrounding you from a far distance.
“I’m surprised you noticed that I haven’t been wearing one.” You blinked and a red figure smiling at you appeared by your side. You turned to him fully, heart drumming faster at seeing mischief and delight beam from his vibrant eyes. You patted the brooch sitting neatly on his bow tie. The accessory fit him so well. The admiring caress of one of his long fingers on the stone showed that the man thought so too, his smile becoming gentler as his eyes turned predatory when he lifted them back up to meet yours. “Would you like a reward for such a thoughtful gift?”
“Oh you don’t need to get me anything back. But a little treat wouldn’t hurt.” The beignets were so good. You hoped that he had some other treats he could make. The man was a talented cook so you were sure he could whip up something as equally, if not more, mouthwatering than all the other dishes he’d served you prior. Still, the brooch was a gift, you didn’t need anything in return other than that Alastor knew how much you appreciated him.
You were about to tell him that the treat request was a joke when his elegant hand went up to his neck and tugged loose his bow tie, eyes still in that voracious stare. “What are you doing?”
“Didn’t you say you wanted a treat? I’ve thought of the perfect one for you.” He took a step forward, suddenly making you conscious of the shortening gap between you. Elegant hands plucked open the buttons of his shirt one by one with a suggestive pace matching your suddenly increasing heart rate. “Noticing such a small detail, isn’t that because you’ve been staring at my neck all this time, dearest? Isn’t it because you wanted a bite?”
“What? No! Of course not!” What the fuck was he talking about!? The insinuation that he knew about the urging hunger that sprang in his presence sometimes had you panicked, almost jumping away to get more distance between you two.
“Really?” His other hand grasped your chin firmly keeping you in place as he continued to close the gap between your bodies. “Your eyes tell me otherwise, my dearest.” The gentle grin on his face didn’t match the impish red gleam in his eyes. Predatory and enchanting, they held your attention like a serpent slowly coiling around its prey.
He came closer, his body almost touching yours, an arm snaking around your waist. Closer, until his breath ghosted over your lips. Closer still, moving past your face to whisper directly in your ear with a voice so clear, he whispered directly into your soul.
“Go ahead and take a bite.”
Staring into the dark ceiling, it took you a moment to realize that it had been a dream. Your hands flew to your mouth as you stared blankly ahead, Alastor’s red eyes and wicked smile burned into your retinas as if you’d actually seen it happen instead of conjuring it all up in your head.
It was so vivid. The caress of his body heat, the gentle waft of smoke and spices and iron coming from his skin. You swallowed the pool of saliva gathering in your tongue. His smooth voice whispering temptation in your ear, his neck bared so close to your mouth, the urge had surged with such a soul-shattering hit that your entire being shook awake lest you drowned in infernal flames. Even now, the hunger burned in your stomach, teeth still sharpened and wanting to sink into what he offered.
It frightened you. Tears streamed from your eyes, wetting your pillow as your breath escaped in watery panic. Was that really what you wanted? Was this really what you’d become after eating so much of him? Or were you always like this, a foodie who would’ve eventually moved on to other forbidden delicacies?
No. No.
NONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONO!!!
—
“Ynna? Wha—?” Sleep-laced mismatched eyes blinked twice before the spider registered that it was you outside his door at 2:37 in the morning.
“Can…can I stay the night with you?”
“Yeah. Sure. Come in.” You could tell that the tall man had a lot of questions but held himself back as he let you into his room. In the dim light of pink neon, you timidly walked to the center, not quite sure where to go. There had been a desperate need to get away from being alone so you ran here without a second thought. Now that you’d been brought in, you felt shy for invading his space.
On the other hand, Angel didn’t feel that same awkwardness, patting the empty space next to him in bed. He even made Fat Nuggets move to accommodate you which did not annoy the pig, appearing to understand its owner’s intention. It was only when the residual warmth left in the sheets surrounded you, did the tight panic in your chest ease. A wet snout snuffled in your hair, a snort moving the strands before Fat Nugget’s weight pressed against your back as you faced Angel.
“Have a nightmare?”
“Yeah.”
You prepared to answer Angel’s questions, having to think of a way to describe your problem without mentioning the deal or eating Alastor. But it wasn’t necessary. For all his casual and even boorish ways, the man was discerning when it counted. His bare hand patted your head, white-fluffed fingers lightly carding over your scalp, reminiscent of how you’d done the same for him on the rare occasions he’d had a withdrawal attack and he’d been comfortable (desperate) enough to seek your help.
“I can sing ya a lullaby if ya want.”
“I’d like that, please.” You felt so small under his caring look, touched with seriousness that was rare on the happy-go-lucky actor. But there was no judgment, no insistence. Just a careful assessment and even more careful comfort.
Words in a language you didn’t know but recognized as Italian, floated softly from your friend, much to your wonder. It sounded beautiful with his voice. As if telling you a precious secret, he whispered lilting syllables until the gentle touch on your head and the warmth surrounding you finally put you into a dreamless sleep.
Alastor’s POV
His feet had already brought him before Ynna’s door again in the early morning hour. Before he could even think of breakfast, think of the day’s tasks, there was a need that he had to fulfill. He stood still, listening for a sound that would ease the static that had played too loudly in the back of his mind since that day.
.
.
.
Nothing.
.
.
.
His breath hitched as he found complete silence where small barely audible breaths should be. Where was she? His heart drummed loudly, unable to imagine where she could have gone. Did she run away again? Did she decide to leave after spending all that time thinking about his betrayal? But he was still waiting! They needed to talk. They needed to clear everything between them so they could move forward together on this. She couldn’t just leave without saying anything to him when he’d done as she’d asked and given her space!
The morning-brightened hallway flooded with shadows as anger and anxiety crashed in waves within his chest. He would just have to find her and have that proper talk, like adults. The city was big but she shouldn’t have much strength to get too far since she hadn’t eaten anything in the last few days. If she was lucky, she wouldn’t have encountered any lowlifes. Would she be wearing the necklace to call for his help to save her life if needed? Or was she too disgusted with him at the moment that she would abandon that lifeline out of spite? The hallway only turned darker at that.
“Alastor.”
Ynna’s POV
Despite your fitful sleep, you still woke up bright and early the next morning. Maybe it was remembering that the world didn’t revolve around your first love turned first major heartbreak, but there was a sense of calm and numbness that you had hoped to feel much sooner when you realized Alastor’s betrayal. It was the kind that brought a sense of clarity you needed to really think about what you wanted for the future. You smiled for the first time in days. This was a good start.
Unfortunately, no amount of careful and quiet maneuvering stopped you from accidentally waking up Angel and Fat Nuggets. Both owner and pet grumbled at being woken up again before Angel suddenly shot up, his brain latching onto the idea of waffles and chicken nuggets like a toddler insisting they only wanted cheese. How random of him.
“If you’re doing this to cheer me up…” It was enough that the spider had let you stay with him when things had gotten too much and not asked questions you couldn’t give a straight answer to.
“Whatcha talkin’ about, babe? You owe me after last night and I want waffles and nuggies!” Angel looked up from his floor pile of clothes in his closet, picking an outfit and changing right in front of you. You turned to Fat Nuggets, petting the pig who snuggled into the warm spot Angel had slept in. Guess he wasn’t interested in joining you two in this impromptu outing.
It didn’t sound like a bad idea actually. With your newly uplifted mood, starting the day off with something different seemed like a good step forward. And if, just if, you still felt slightly apprehensive of seeing the Radio Demon right now, well, being out of the hotel certainly lowered the chances of an encounter.
“Come on! There’s this place near the corner of 13th and Screams but we gotta hurry cuz they always have a long ass fucking line.” You got a few more pets in on Fat Nuggets before four arms swooped you from the bed and marched you down to your room to get changed. The whimsical rush and Angel talking this place up lifted your heavy heart. Even though he sounded self-centered the whole time, you could feel the way he was looking out for you. It was the kind of support you needed now, honestly.
Of course, the fun time didn’t last long as the hallway turned dark as you neared your room. A familiar oppressive pressure came down upon your shoulders, raising hackles to alertness. Venturing closer to your door, you found the source of that dreadful presence.
Surrounded by waving shadows, Alastor stood glaring at your door. Why was he here and so pissed? It was only 7 am! Was he possibly mad that it’d been a few days and you still hadn’t talked to him? Or maybe it was something else? Like how he hadn’t been able to feed you anything since you weren’t eating. Your teeth grit at the thought, tension filling the spaces Angel’s chatter had just settled.
You shook yourself out of that depressive state. No. Fuck him. No matter his reason, you didn’t like seeing him literally darkening your doorstep when you were the one who had all the reasons to be mad. Putting on a neutral face, you called him.
“Alastor.”
It took a second but the heavy oppression in the hallway suddenly retracted like nothing had happened. The shadows retreated and the air warmed. The man’s head quickly pivoted to the side, a sickly sharp crack filling the silence as it did. Your eye twitched at the sound.
Red eyes immediately scanned over you and Angel before his smile stretched wide.
“Ynna! And Angel Dust too. Good morning. I was just looking for you, dearest. I thought maybe today you’d feel like joining us for breakfast. I must say, I didn’t expect to see you two together so early.” His body turned to face both of you, jovial in his greeting as if his eyes weren’t threatening daggers at your door just seconds before. The sudden shift in demeanor kept your hackles raised. What the fuck was his problem?
“Yeah. I can’t say we were expecting to see you either.” Heart rate jumping, you became acutely aware of his gaze, eyes flicking between you and Angel, eyeing the blanket around your shoulders and pillow in your arms. You unconsciously held it up as a shield.
By unfortunate impulse, his neck caught your attention, the brooch you gave him nestled on his bow tie just as in your dream. Your stomach growled loudly, mortification shooting up your spine at the rumble. Those ruby eyes widened. You could’ve sworn a spark flashed within them, a keen interest he had enough sense to suppress given the…situation.
“Ho ho. Feeling peckish this morning, I see. Would you like me to make—“
“Angel and I are going out for breakfast. You don’t have to make us anything.” Pain, fear and resentment pressed thorns into your lungs at the mention of him preparing food. How dare he? It was too soon. Way too fucking soon. Grabbing Angel’s hand and pulling him into your room quickly, you didn’t spare the Radio Demon more than those words before slamming the door behind you.
Leaning against the wood, each breath was a conscious effort to calm the many feelings he’d evoked in that one unfinished sentence. Sweat gathered and dripped down your neck, cold in the wake of heated anger and petty hunger.
“Yn’s. Ya good?” Worried eyes watched you. The spider had to have connected by now that your strangeness of the last few days was because of Alastor, given the uncharacteristically clipped way you’d spoken to him just now.
“Yeah.” You swallowed the saliva that pooled in your mouth. Another hungry grumble filled the silence. Maybe starving yourself in self-punishment hadn’t been the best idea when part of your problem was connected with a newly acquired taste for venison. You closed your eyes to hide from the embarrassment and the questions you could feel he wanted to ask. Alastor was still outside the door. You could feel that slight hum of electric magic that he exuded at your back. You wouldn’t entertain even answering any of Angel’s questions when he was so near.
“Yeah. I’m good. Let me get changed and let’s head out.” By some mutual understanding, the spider didn’t press you and played along for now though his mismatched eyes narrowed in a ‘you’re spilling the tea later, sis.’ kind of warning.
The smile you gave him was strained but genuine. That he was accommodating your strange behavior over the last few days without prying was enough.
Thank Satan that you had him in the chaos of all this.
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Billy and Stu’s was a regular looking diner. From the outside, the theme was a little retro with chrome-lined counters and linoleum floors. The staff dressed in black grim-reaper cloaks that had to be a hazard to work in. It seemed pretty ordinary, if you were being honest. But ordinary was good in a generally chaotic neighborhood. Even serial killers can’t say no to a good meal with a decent price. And, it seemed even serial killers liked to idolize porn stars as some folks let you cut the line when Angel Dust had batted his eyes at the long queue.
Sat in one of the booths, you perused the all American diner menu, having a laugh at the horror themed names. The mood was lighter now that you’d had both time and distance from your latest encounter with Alastor.
“I’ll have the Halloweenies with a side of eggs, sunny-side.” Angel ordered to the masked waiter. The service staff was definitely sticking to the restaurant theme, writing with a knife-shaped pen in red ink.
“And can I get the Omen-lette and coffee, please.” The quirkiness of the place really suited you, a giggle sitting on your lips as you read through the menu once again. “God, this place is amazing.” Amazingly punny. A small cackle punctuated your comment.
“Che. I figured this place would be right up yer alley.”
“How’d you even find out about this place?”
“Sinstagram.” The spider shrugged before he tapped away at his phone. “Speaking of, toots. This you by any chance?” He flipped the phone to show you a video. On loop was some sinner posing in front of a club when someone else came barreling quickly through and ruining their shot. The camera followed the figure for a bit before it zoomed away.
Of course, you recognized yourself in that reel. It was quick and even pausing the video only gave blurry images of the running sinner but you knew that shape too well to not know that it was you. Taking the phone from Angel’s hand, you watched the loop again. You only vaguely remembered running around the city and had attributed the blurry memories to the alcohol. But maybe everything was a blur because you had been going incredibly fast. Seeing yourself from that night this way, you could only wonder how much effort Rosie must have put into catching you. It was incredible how much of a boost you’d gotten from those few pieces of Alastor that you ate. It also explained how you still had scratches afterwards. Between super speed and super healing, what you ingested hadn't been enough. What a morbid thought.
“Yeah. That’s me.”
“So, ya gonna tell me what that was about? I mean, I get wanting to have a wild night out in town, go knock yourself out, toots, but ya locked yourself up after. Did something happen to ya?” Angel took his phone back, a serious expression falling over his face. Did he think that whatever had you depressed happened after you got drunk? You supposed that would be a good theory.
“No. It’s Alastor.”
“Oh? What did Smiles do? Wait, don’t tell me. Did you confess to him? Did he reject ya? Is that why you’ve been down?”
“No.”
“Then what gives?”
“…Remember how you kept asking me how Alastor and I ended up being friends? Why I thought it’d be a good idea to get so close to him and all that? Well, you were right. It was a terrible idea. I—I was naive. He…he only got close to me to mess with me…because it would be fun for him.” A familiar burn creeped up your throat as the words came out. As much as it hurt to acknowledge your naivety and Alastor’s true intentions in your mind, uttering the story out loud truly hammered in the reality of it all.
A truth that you couldn’t change or take back. It weighed heavily on your chest yet there was also relief in it. Like you’d finally truly accepted everything.
“…why that son of a bitch.” The pinched expression on the spider’s face was something you’d never seen on him before. Indignation and anger of a hissing sort oozed from the porn actor. A sad little smile quirked at the corner of your lips at his sympathy.
“Urggh. I just feel so stupid for falling for his charming gentleman act.” With your hand cradling your chin, you leaned onto the table. The chromed edge sent a momentary chill up your arm, a further reminder that you’d woken to this really shitty situation. “What really bothers me is that he said he was sorry for it. That he wants to actually be friends.” And possibly more, if the kiss and his gentle pleading was anything to go by.
“Ynna. Sweet cutie patootie. Ima be real with you for a sec, okay?” You nodded at exasperated warning. You didn’t think you could actually stop the man from saying what he wanted. “Cool. So…” He took a deep breath in, top pair of hands clasping for patience and resolve while the bottom pair braced against the table. “Ain’t nothing wrong with you wanting to be buddies with creepy face, okay? Charlie loves that shit. That you got hurt is his fault for being a dick.”
You could only nod when he paused to make sure his message got across. But was he right? It’s not like you hadn’t been aware of the possibility of Alastor being duplicitous. You just…never thought he’d have anything to gain from that. At least, nothing he couldn’t have forced using the deal he bartered. Why go through the long con?
“Still, I’m kinda surprised, to be honest. Even Huskie says he ain’t ever seen the guy be so nice, even when he was actively swindling someone. Even I think he liked ya a lot. Definitely a helluva lot more than the rest of us bums, at least.” Just as he said so, your orders arrived. You expected a semi-pornographic display from your friend as he skewered the sausage and took a bite. Something about phallic-shaped objects getting close to his face seemed to trigger his reflexes some. Hazards of being in his line of work for so long and just his overall goofiness.
“You think so? I don’t know if I want to believe him when he said he was sorry. I mean, what if he’s just saying that because he got caught?” A pair of very serious red eyes flashed in your mind, your fingertips tingling in remembrance of his lips. A whisper of doubt. “What if he means it?”
You played around with the omelet on your plate. The red and green sauces stirred and mixed into an unappetizing shade yet your stomachs still demanded to be fed. Taking a small bit onto your fork, you depressedly took a bite.
“Listen, Yn’s. I don’t know all about if Smiles is being genuine now or not, that’s something only he would know.” He took a stab at his eggs, letting the runny yolk cover his sausage before he gave the wiener a lick, catching the eyes of some of the patrons. “But what I do know, is overlord types. Ya ain’t been around long enough to know ‘em but people like Smiles? They don’t get to be an Overlord by being nice. They’ll rope any soul they want in with whatever that person wants…and then they’ll own them for however the fuck long it takes for them to get bored.”
There was a gravity in his tone, a weight you could see in the slump of his shoulders as he reflected on his own contract. But it only lasted for a moment before he was back to that serious almost motherly scolding sass, taking an aggressive chomp at the sausage on his fork. There were a couple gasps and hisses in the background.
“I’m not saying he can’t be honest and all, he’s still just a guy, but I wouldn’t bet on it. At least, I wouldn’t trust him as much from now on.”
For a beat or two, you took in Angel. The experience he’s had, the things that Alastor did, the gut feelings (emotional and physical) that roused within you and you came to a conclusion. For all the longing and yearning you had, self-preservation had always been your best tool.
“You’re right. Fool me once..” You snorted in derision. “...I shouldn’t let him fool me twice.”
Notes:
So! I spent way too much time thinking of a menu for this fictional restaurant only to use 2 items from it. Nevertheless, here's what me and my friends came up with:
The Breakfastsist
The Omen-lette
Halloweenies and Eggs
The Onion Ring
Hellrise and shiners
Final Eggs and Bacon
Fryday the 13th
Children of the Cornbread
Texas Breakfast Massacre (lots of meat)
Five Nights at Breadies
I-Scream 2
The Fudge
Wrong Apple Turnovers
Chapter 28: All I Can Give
Chapter Text
Alastor’s POV
Looking out from the rooftop patio with a coffee mug in his hand, he watched Angel Dust and Ynna leave for their breakfast outing. To anyone watching, he might have looked nonplussed, exuding his usual nonchalance but no. He was watching the two disappear into the streets like a hawk.
He hadn’t had a clear picture of what to expect for the first time he would see his dearest since his schadenfreude was revealed. Not complete acceptance, no. That would be too gracious. Immediate forgiveness was something he could only hope for but knew that even Ynna, with her forgiving and understanding attitude towards her friends, wouldn’t be able to accept such an offense against herself.
Hackles raised along his spine, the grip on his mug tight. While he had expected Ynna to eventually seek counsel and comfort from her other friends, seeing her standing next to Angel Dust, still rumpled and soft from having just woken, was a sight so offensive that it had punched the prior agitation he felt and planted another seed of anxious energy within his chest.
“Good morning, Sir!” A tiny voice called from his side. Body still angled on the lookout, he turned to the small woman who stood by his patio chair with a bright smile.
“Good morning, Niffty.” Placing a bright smile on his face to hide the low rumbling annoyance circulating in his veins, he mentally shook himself. It wouldn’t do to let even a smidge of his feelings slip through. It wasn’t very gentleman-like and only invited curious noses to come sniffing about.
“Are you going to eat breakfast up here by yourself? Can I join you?” The little darling gremlin of a woman blinked her huge eye at him, the dots at the corner of her mouth making her smile seem smaller and cute, like a little kitten. He had half a mind to tell her to go away but the little woman was at least a distraction, one that was welcome right now.
“Why, of course little dear. Go get your plate and let’s enjoy this lovely weather we’re having, hm.” No sooner had his invitation been given did she utter a happy ‘eep’ and went skittering away. She didn’t get very far before something caught her eye and her needle came out. Typical Niffty. If not for her easily distracted attitude, he might have suspected that she was privy to his predicament.
He shrugged to himself. The inner workings of that little gremlin’s mind were a mystery.
Ynna’s POV
You never thought there would come a day when being outside the hotel, amongst the rowdy crowds of sinners, would be preferable to the safety of home. After breakfast, you’d managed to convince Angel to window shop with you. He’d been a very animated companion until his phone started ringing non-stop and he was pulled into work a little after lunch.
The concerned side eye you threw at him when the beeping of his phone became more and more erratic and demanding was met with a pair of gloved hands covering your eyes.
“No. You are NOT coming to my work place. EVER. Got it, toots?” You didn’t even have to utter a word. Angel knew all too well just how much you disliked his boss. The numerous times you’d expressed your hate for the moth and how he treated your friend were practically seared into his ears.
“But it’s just—“
“Hapapapa! No.” Another hand went to stop your words. “How about instead of trying to threaten my boss, you go on back to the hotel and fix your shit with Smiles. I guarantee, that’ll be a lot easier than gettin’ involved with the likes of Val, kay?”
“I just hate how you’re practically a slave to the guy. You’re making him so much money; he could at least treat you better.” When the spider finally relented and took his hands back, you could only pout. It was true that you couldn’t do anything for Angel but that didn’t stop you from wanting to. You’d risk another threat of respawning if it got that asshat’s grubby hands off of your friend.
In the end, you could only watch him grab a cab and go with a pout that did not work on him. Sometimes, when he was uncomfortable, Angel would say just the thing to distract you from his problems. His words about dealing with your situation with Alastor did some of that, shaking your chest despite the casual, almost joking, way he said it.
He was right. You should go deal with that. A sigh escaped your lips as you weaved around the many sinners walking. Since you’d resolved to distance yourself from him, you had to think about how to do just that. Living under the same roof made avoiding him difficult and no doubt, Charlie would question the break up.
Oh, what were you going to do if the princess insisted that you two should make up? If she knew why this was happening then maybe she’d understand your decision but you couldn’t even utter the words about the shit he fed you because it related to eating him and your deal forbade you from disclosing anything related to it to anyone who didn’t already know. Not that having Charlie know the specifics sounded good. You didn’t want to know if her seemingly boundless forgiveness had a limit and you certainly didn’t want to know if Alastor or Charlie was stronger.
At least you had Angel and he knew how to be discreet.
“What a mess.” Scrubbing a hand down your face, you gave in to a bit of dramatics. A small sinner brushed past you, your shoulders brushing close enough that you had a whiff of the guy. Your nose wrinkled at the notes of sweat, slime and body odor.
“Watch it, bitch.”
“I’m walking here, asshole.” The interaction took you out of your head for a minute, having to face the guy and assess whether he was going to look for a fight. He was small, with fishy features and also a bit furry. Despite how he smelled, he was clean-looking in a dark purple hoodie and mustard yellow baggy pants. The sinner only sneered but kept on walking.
It was only when the five second interaction ended did you notice the ache in your mouth. Teeth sharpened to points, you realized…that you were ready to rip into the guy if worse came to worst.
What?
Looking into yourself, you observed your body. You were expecting that hunger, greedy for the flesh of a sinner to serve you power. A rumbling in your stomach that was infernal and cursed.
Yet there was none.
That was strange. You were clearly ready to sink your teeth into the man yet the urge to feed off him wasn’t there. Could it be that you needed to be injured to feel that hunger? When you were injured around Alastor, the urge to bite him had been strong, even when your wounds had been treated and your pain was minimal. But that wasn’t completely true, was it?
You weren’t injured last night when you woke up to that dream, not even remotely weak even though you hadn’t eaten. The urge had been there and so frighteningly strong that it almost made sense to bite the deer, to give in to wicked want and take what he would no doubt offer.
Like the whole thing wasn’t a sin.
Please don’t tell me that Alastor is the only one I want to eat.
Alastor’s POV
The day went by slowly, so very slowly. His shadow had hissed at him all throughout, wanting to be let free to go find wherever Angel Dust and Ynna had gone but he’d commanded it to cease. She needed this time away from him to settle herself. To intrude, even if only from the shadows, would break the spirit of his promise to her. Of course, those sentiments didn’t stop the roiling in his gut that the hotel’s hustle and bustle couldn’t distract him from.
The dragging hours only gave him time to ponder on those feelings. Jealousy. Anxiety. A black ball that weighed heavily in his chest liable to lash out had he been less capable of restraint. Tsk . Such petty emotions. They spoke of helplessness in the face of circumstantial change, a powerlessness that wasn’t befitting of him. And he certainly wasn’t powerless. There was always a way to secure all the things he desired. It just required a bit of elbow grease and patience.
His self-reassurance was a thin balm over those feelings that had been plaguing him since this fall out. Thin, but strong enough to grasp onto. He couldn’t make any misstep in winning back Ynna’s favor. So even if he had to swallow his pride and strangle the threads of his patience, he would wait for the woman to come to him.
The lightest of touches on his fingertips which she allowed him to return with his teeth. Her eyes still looked at him fondly, warmer than the fire shedding its gentle glow.
The corners of his mouth tugged into a true smile. Yes. He would wait. Because he could afford to. Even Angel Dust could never share the kind of bond he had with her. She wouldn’t forsake him when she already paid such a steep price to remain by his side and show her devotion and loyalty.
That’s right. She wouldn’t forsake him.
With calm steps, he walked the hallways to the foyer, thinking to find further distraction in needling Husker. Now that would be a good distraction though he doubted thoughts of Ynna would be far from his mind. Regardless, it was certainly better than letting his composure slip into something unpleasant. If only Ynna would return sooner. The itching feeling to talk to her, to just see her, would be abated even if she had yet to resolve her feelings towards him and his actions.
As luck would have it, his dearest goat also entered the room just as he’d arrived in the foyer. Their eyes met and for a brief moment, they remained locked in mild surprise. It appeared neither of them quite expected to encounter the other so soon. The midday light cast a glow behind her as she stepped through the doors bathing the room in a warm halo that was far too gentle for the likes of Hell. In her cozy wool sweater and shorts, she looked well, as if the last two days hadn’t been a time of heartache and anger for her. Perhaps, they weren’t. He didn’t know how to feel about that.
“Hey y’all.” Her greeting started hesitantly but ended with a soft smile. A show of normalcy for the benefit of the others who had been worried for her. How sweet. A voice hissed in delight in his mind that she wasn’t as composed as she seemed.
A gruff greeting came from the bar, Husker subtly watching her before feigning disinterest. Nosy cat. He could feel the attention he paid to the two of them. Maybe if the feline was a bit more drunk, then his act would be a bit more convincing. Ynna’s eyes returned to him, a shock going through his chest at the attention. A determination glittered in them, sending sparks that energized his mind and focused his attention.
“Hey Alastor, can we talk in your office?”
“Of course, my dearest! If I may?” He offered his arm to her in an attempt to gauge her discomfort towards him and had a shred of delight and relief pass through him as she slipped her small hand into the crook of his elbow without fuss. See? She wouldn’t forsake him, after all. They fell into step soon enough, their paces accustomed to each other like a well-practiced dance.
“How has your day been, dearest?”
“It’s been alright.” The woman didn’t elaborate further, choosing to look ahead rather than address him directly. Hmm. Her mood seemed more severe than he’d initially thought. No matter. He would accommodate her.
Through the halls, they walked. A somber calm trailed them, the silence broken only by their muffled steps on the hallway carpet and the occasional crackle of static.
The princess and her girlfriend were thankfully out when they arrived at the office. As they stepped through the doorway and the door closed, her hand dropped away from him, his arm feeling quite lonely without her touch. He smiled. What a silly notion. The woman immediately walked to one of the chairs in front of his desk.
He raised a brow at her seating choice. Did she mean to sit there and talk to him like they were about to discuss some plumbing issue? Dials clicked solemnly in his mind.
But this wasn’t a hotel issue.
The formality she tried to impose felt completely wrong in this situation and he refused to let her stir it that way. Walking between the two meeting chairs in front of his desk, he made a point to lightly brush against her knee as he passed. He found a comfortable spot to lightly lean on his desk, keeping a short distance between them. It was a polite distance but still more intimate than what she had planned. His eyes caught a minute flinch that attributed to whatever tension she held for whatever she wished to discuss. That wasn’t a good sign.
“How are you feeling, Ynna? I admit you had me worried there when you started starving yourself.” He leaned his staff along on his desk, hands taking on some of his weight as he tried to seem relaxed and casual in hopes of having a similar effect on her.
“I’m fine.” Ynna sat tense for a moment, likely not expecting that he wouldn’t give her the benefit of having a desk between the two of them, before she leaned back into the chair with forced relaxation. Her eyes tracked over him, studying him. He kept a composed face, a small inviting smile though his spine tingled as she tracked over his form with a serious gaze. It was adorable despite the tension in the air. She sighed a tired sound, eyes turning sad and accusing, disappointed.
Fair enough. She had a lot to be disappointed in him for and he felt a responding twist in his chest.
“Alastor…Why did…why was it eating you? Of all things you could have fixated on, why pick the most grotesque option?”
“It wasn’t something I chose. I was quite surprised by the fascination with it myself.” Did she think he was depraved enough to choose that kind of fixation? Now, that was insulting. While he liked hurting others, reveled in their pain, hurting himself was an entirely different thing altogether. It was only fun if she was involved somehow.
“What I don’t understand is how you can get off doing that to me? You present yourself as some kind of gentleman, pretending to be my friend, yet you go around behind my back and screw me over for what? Some journey of self-discovery?” Near the end of her speech, her voice started to rise and just barely caught herself before forcing her frustration back down. “Just…if you were going to do it anyway, why bother with being my friend? Why hide it? Or was making it hurt also part of your game?”
Her eyes looked at him, big and shimmery with suppressed emotions, begging for some reassurance that the friendship he’d offered her had been sincere. It hurt him to see her so sad just as his pride purred at her desire to find proof that their bond was true. She needn’t worry. He wouldn’t feel the need to be candid, even to his own detriment, if she didn’t matter. He smiled to let her know that.
“Before all of this, I did find your company pleasant enough. Had I never discovered my fascination for feeding you, I still believe that we would have been friends, eventually.” Her pretty eyes widened but she remained focused on his words. His head nodded, as if to further assure her that he meant what he said. “That is to say, while befriending you was a way to find more opportunities to explore my…interests, it wasn’t just that. I certainly didn’t approach you with the intention of hurting your feelings. I’m sure you know how little respect I have for most people in general.”
“You hide it so well every now and then.” She clicked her tongue at his blunt admission. He chuckled at her sass before switching back to a more apologetic tone.
“And that unfortunately, included you.” How he regretted his ignorance in the beginning.
“*sigh* And here I thought I was special. What did you say, ‘my most treasured friend?’”
“And that you are.” Leaning in, he reveled in the fact that she didn’t move away, letting her anger and annoyance be known in the tight lines in her face as he drew closer. “From day one, you’ve shown me how fun you are to be around, how well we click together. There’s no batter way to say it, dearest. You’re sweeter than powdered sugar on a beignet and three times as delightful. Befriending you, getting to know you, has been the most fun I’ve had since dying and I regret that my hubris caused you pain. By the time I realized how badly I’d made a mess of things, I couldn’t really do anything to make it up to you other than to stop.”
“Stop…but still ask me outright to eat you.”
“Well, I’ve always wanted to see you eat me since that fateful day with my velvet. I wasn’t lying when I said that the idea of you turning into a cannibal appealed to me and if you were willing to indulge me then…” He let his eyes drop to her lips, making sure she felt the heat it inspired within him through his gaze. The blush that adorned her cheeks pulled his lips into a smirk. “I’m sure you remember what happened that night.”
“Oh, um, haha….yeah. I can’t believe you get off to that shit. ” The last part was said with a hasty tone under her breath that he pretended not to hear. It wasn’t like he didn’t agree with the sentiment. He just accepted that new fact about himself. He closed the distance between them some more, taking her lack of discomfort as a sign to drive him point home.
“I am very sorry, Ynna. If there’s anything I can do at all to make it up to you, just say the word.” A hand cupped her cheek, feeling the soft warmth of it. He looked into those precious eyes and found hope in the torrential waves crashing within them. She could dig through his insides if that was what it took for her to find what she needed to understand how much he valued her. All she had to do was say the word.
“…But there’s no way for you to make it up to me though.” All of a sudden, the summer storms in her eyes turned to ice, chilling and still and so very clear in their rejection. A cold rush swept through him at the change. “You can’t take back what you’ve fed me already or do you have some magic up your sleeve that can reverse that?”
Still laying in the palm of his hand, she looked at him unflinching, almost marble-like in her stillness and just as serene. For a moment, they could only look at each other, her bitterness and anger washing off her in waves that didn’t fit the blank expression she wore.
“But if I could, I would, dearest.”
“And would you still want me to eat you?”
The chill froze him then, clicks going through his head as he sensed a turn in this conversation that wasn’t just Ynna expressing her emotions. This was more than anger. This was a judgment being made.
His mind whirred. The right answer would have been to tell her, no. To assure her that he wouldn’t press those desires onto her person once again. But the words were arrested on his tongue causing a bitter smile to crack onto the stoic visage she’d held this whole time.
Turning her head, eyes still holding his, her breath warmed his palm. It no longer cupped her cheek, instead, it cradled her lips, the heat of them penetrating through his gloves and defrosting him with the electricity rattling through his chest and jumpstarting his heart. Within the span of what would’ve been two regular heartbeats but twenty for him, she held his gaze and opened her mouth. Time slowed as her blunt teeth pressed into the meat of his hand, the gentle nibble causing his mind to stutter and sputter in shock.
It left him breathless, the way her gaze held clear, looking directly into his eyes as she unabashedly grazed her teeth against fine leather. His glove felt like a second skin in how it did very little to dull the sensation. Or was it that his palm had become sensitive under her teeth, nerves raising themselves up to feel the brush of their god.
“Alastor, could you honestly say to me that you wouldn’t ever want me to do this, that you would never be tempted to ask this of me ever again?” She pulled away, one of her hands on his wrist, moving the lightly bitten appendage just an inch from her face, close enough that he could grasp her again. Far enough that he felt deprived.
He knew what he had to say. Knew what she wanted to hear. But in the space of his silence, they both knew he could never utter it for it would be a lie.
With a resigned huff, she let his hand drop to his side, creating a distance between them once more as she straightened up in her seat.
“Alastor.” His name never felt like a hammer hitting his eardrums until she’d said it so soft yet firmly. “I forgive you. I understand wanting something so badly and doing what you can to get it. It’s…like you said. I wouldn’t have liked it so you chose a method where I wouldn’t have found out if it hadn't been for an accident. It’s…pragmatic. And you’re…you.” There was no venom in her tone, just resigned acceptance. Her eyes flicked to the ground as if looking at him hurt but just as quickly, she found her resolve to continue her train of thought.
“But I think forgiveness is all I can give you. I don’t have the stomach for the things you want from me so I don’t think we can continue being friends.” Her brow crinkled at the word ‘friends’ as if she also found it inadequate to describe what they were to each other. But if they were more than that, how could she so easily say that she’d sever that relationship? She even stood, letting go of his hand without much care. There was no spite in the motion. No anger. No sentiment. Nothing in those eyes that should’ve shone with gentle light. “…I’ll see you around.”
“Wait.” His quick mind couldn’t quite catch up to what happened. They were having an honest conversation. This was the part where she’d try very hard to understand his perspective and forgive him as she always did when he crossed her. Instead, she was walking away? “…Wait.”
Ynna thankfully did stop, the coldness of just a few seconds ago turning to polite indifference, as if she was addressing a passerby on the street rather than her close companion. It rattled something fierce within him, angry and upset. He straightened his spine. He couldn’t lose his composure here. “…Thank you for being so gracious, dearest. It’s more than I deserve.”
“Hah. Maybe Charlie’s lessons are effective. I really don’t think I could have forgiven you otherwise.” There was a bite to her tone, slight but still there, stabbing him right in the gut. He would have preferred an actual knife if it meant she wouldn’t be walking away from him now, would have preferred it to the screaming blackness in his chest that had been but roiling void just moments ago.
“I’ll have to give her unorthodox methods credit then.” He chuckled humoringly. “It might be too much to ask but I hope that we can still get along.” Picking up his staff, he twirled it along before holding it behind him. Casual. Cheerful. Friendly. Composed.
“I can’t be your friend but I can be friendly, if that’s what you mean.”
“That’ll be enough.”
She nodded, face shuttering to passiveness as if the slate had been wiped clean and was now too boring to catch her eye. As his goat turned to leave, a manic voice screamed at him to hold her back, to subdue her by any means necessary. His shadow was already racing towards her and it was only by his quick presence of mind that he’d managed to halt the shade from inflicting more damage onto her impression of him.
In the end, she didn’t look back. Long after the door closed and his shadow continued to hiss obscenities into his mind, his jilted ego finally righted itself. He slammed the butt of his cane to the ground with finality, silencing the shade. Walking to the small hanging mirror by the door, he righted his bow tie and fixed his smile. Ah. There. Much better. His reflection’s dial eyes slowly lost their fierce glow.
“It’s not over yet, old pal. We can catch our dearest still.” He told the shade. Yes. There was still a chance. So long as she wasn’t hostile to him, he could find a way to ingratiate himself into her favor once again. She was too soft-hearted, offering him forgiveness and a civil relationship despite his offense. He would take advantage of that. His charm worked on her before, he was sure he could do it again now that he was more determined than ever. He could do it.
Chapter 29: Desperate Measures
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Chapter 29: Desperate Measures
Alastor’s POV
“It’s been two weeks and nothing’s worked.” A fortnight’s worth of wracking his brains for anything that could ensure Ynna’s comfort around him, that would slowly build back the relationship that toppled from the faulty foundations it had been built upon. He was a patient man. The goat was worth that much effort and more but for the last two weeks, he’d failed to find any signs of her heart wavering even slightly towards him! He resisted the urge to grab his hair in frustration. He was in polite company, after all.
“I’m sure that’s not true. Ynna’s a sweet woman by nature so she’s definitely noticing how genuine you are, dear.” Rosie sat in a lounge chair, watching him pace in her living room. The tea she’d poured had long gone cold and she thought it futile to refill his cup when he’d barely touched it, spending every second since coming here ranting his troubles out to her.
“One would think so but she’s proving quite stubborn. Must be why she was reborn as a goat in the afterlife.” With a frustrated huff, he paced even faster, his steps tense and precise like when the prey he’d been stalking had become alerted to his presence. It was appropriate given that’s what he was doing at the moment, chasing his dearest goat down as she continued to pull away from him.
His body thrummed with anxiety, every bit of him on alert as he tried to talk through this set back in his plans.
It was maddening how aloof she’d become. How different things were! In the past, he only had to make a simple joke and she’d smile at him. He only had to enter a room and they’d gravitate towards each other without fail. When her eyes brushed over him, they contained traces of her affection in even the briefest of moments.
He had always thought that winning her favor had been delightfully easy. Despite their differing natures, they blended seamlessly together. Naturally, earning her complete forgiveness shouldn’t yield too hard of a challenge.
He hadn’t thought to account for the fact that she might have let herself be open to being swayed back then. Every gesture, every word, every offense was treated with more leniency due to her own wish to foster a bond with him. Now that she’d resolved to pin distrust and apprehension to every effort he’d pulled to soften her to him once again, he was experiencing what she was truly like to strangers.
He stopped pacing for a moment, arrested by that word. Stranger. Was that what he was in her eyes now? No better than one of those cretins in the street, undeserving of a second glance unless it was one of caution.
“Invitations to spend time together or with a group are rejected. Gifts are returned. She’s only bothered to respond to me in polite but clipped words. We haven’t had a single conversation this whole time. There’s just nothing. Nothing!” A hissed sigh punctuated his frustration. How was he supposed to improve things between them when she treated him with such indifference?
She promised to be friendly. Where was it? Was this so called friendliness in the room with us?
What was worse was that he knew her attitude was isolated to him. For the others, she went about as she always had. The only time he’d ever see her smile nowadays was when she was directing it to someone else. All the time she used to spend with him, she now spent in the company of others which wasn’t surprising in itself. However! Even when Angel Dust had been called to work more and the others found themselves busier due to the princess’s new plans and activities, when the only option was him or an afternoon alone, she decided to spend it with Pentious! Pentious of all people!
The two of them weren’t particularly close yet he watched her spend a whole afternoon giving the snake love counseling and complimenting him on his meager baking skills! Bah! If she wanted to bake cookies, he could have done that with her. Sweets weren’t his forte but he could have certainly done a better job and been a more entertaining companion than Pentious !
Oh, when that snake started babbling about the need for precision in baking versus cooking, her eyes crinkled with a bit of fondness and amusement. The urge to shove that slimy reptile into the oven so he could snatch away those pretty eyes of hers had been utterly enticing. If he hadn’t needed to be on his best behavior, there was no telling what would have happened to the damned reptile where Ynna wouldn’t see him be so petty.
Afterwards, the poor walls had needed repairing after his claws dug scratch after scratch, deep divots he wished he could have inflicted on trespassing flesh instead of drywall and tacky wallpaper. Charlie had chided him for showing violence against inanimate objects. He’d kindly reminded her that he was footing the bill to get things fixed anyway. Magick didn’t come cheap and the alternative to an impromptu renovation was homicide. The princess knew which option to choose.
Needless to say, this whole debacle was driving him insane. As he walked to one of the windows, a restless itch continued to buzz within his veins. Below the bay windows, the cannibals went about their miserable day, hunting and mingling, ripping their pounds of flesh from regular sinners and other cannibals alike. A happy well-run town with its happy miserable denizens. He glared at them in distaste. Peons.
“Oh Alastor.” He could feel the pity in his old friend’s voice like pie getting thrown in his face. How he hated it. He didn’t need pity. He needed a solution. His smaller efforts made no progress and because Ynna wasn’t one for grand and eye-catching displays, he couldn’t woo her with his other talents though he was sorely tempted to try them now. “I’m so sorry. If only I hadn’t slipped up.” Rosie knew better than to touch him while he was in a mood but she might as well have hovered with each sentence laced with guilty mourning she gave.
“Yes. If only.” The moment he’d walked into her shop, Rosie had the courtesy to let him know what had happened. At first, there had been anger, the kind of vitriolic flame he would have unleashed upon a lesser being. But doing so wouldn’t have helped his situation any as only Rosie would have any advice worth listening to. In penance for her blunder, she’d offered details on what Ynna had shared with her, things she’d observed. It was important information though it served no purpose at the moment. Afterall, what use was knowing that Ynna valued his happiness when she was adamant about keeping her distance now?
Clearly, she didn’t place much stock in his happiness any longer. Otherwise, they would be having coffee at her favorite cafe right now. She would roll her eyes when the radio station changed and he would pretend that her pop song requests weren’t terrible even as he granted a few of them. Things would be peaceful. Things would be right they they should be!
He took a deep breath, held it and slowly let it out slowly. Composure. He was a gentleman. A gentleman.
“The fault lies on me in the end. I should have taken your advice and told her beforehand.” If Ynna had found out about his original intent in an environment he controlled, during a time when their relationship hadn’t been in the midst of a shift, when her feelings were more stable, when she hadn’t just sacrificed her morals for him. Then, maybe there would have been more good will in her heart to forgive him. Maybe earning her trust back wouldn’t feel like pulling teeth with a pair of scissors.
“…would it be so bad to leave her alone?” Demurely, Rosie asked.
His head snapped towards the other Overlord then in question. “What do you mean?”
“Well, if Ynna really isn’t receptive then maybe…it’s a lost cause. Relationships are complicated and no matter how much sincerity and effort you pour into it, if the other person isn’t willing to accept them, then things aren’t going to go anywhere. There’s also a possibility of things getting worse if you keep pushing.” The lady stood and went to him. Her grim pitying eyes told him all he needed to know about whether this new advice was coming from experience or something she’d heard in her lifetime. “Wouldn’t it be better to stop now? At least, she doesn’t hate you. You could still work on things later on, when the feelings aren’t so raw.”
He stared at her then. Could he do that? Could he let her go? She was right in that Ynna still treated him with respect and courtesy. While there wasn’t any warmth in how she regarded him, there was also no hostility. Things could be repaired, when time had worn down the hurt he’d caused her but…
Reading books side by side on the sofa while Ruth Etting crooned her songs in the background. Eyes that looked at him with open affection. A sweet unobtrusive presence that kept him company when even the radio had played all its songs for the day and comfortable silence wrapped around them like a freshly dried blanket.
“That’s impossible, Rosie.”
To go from all of that to strangers. If he let her go now, would there even be any feelings for him to try and stoke again in the future? Dials rattled in his head, static screeching in high pitched crashes so loudly he’d feared it’d damage his ears if the sound weren’t all in his head. They couldn’t catch a frequency, a train of thought, where Ynna wasn’t by his side in any capacity in the future.
Husk’s POV
Now, he wouldn’t say he was a petty man but the last two weeks made him rethink his personality after all.
Eh, who the fuck was he kidding? He was petty as Hell. He poured himself some gin and took a sip. Ahh. The afterlife was going good right now. Leaning against the bar top, he watched his Boss try another attempt at buttering up the kid.
Not too far from the bar, Alastor stopped Ynna from her chat with Angel of the foyer lounge chairs. He just came back from his lunch break and made a discreet beeline for the goat as soon as he saw her. The bastard brought coffee this time. How sweet.
Having been kicked out of the conversation, Angel walked over to him, taking a seat at the bar as they openly watched the two interact.
“Geez. It’s still going on, huh? You’d think the guy would give up by now.” The spider commented, leaning his chin on his lower hand across the bar top.
“He’s a persistent one, that guy.” For some reason, the two had some falling out. The kid didn’t share any details with him other than he’d been right about his Boss’ nasty tendencies. He almost felt sorry for her, seeing her usually peaceful self all wrapped up in gloom when she thought no one was looking. Almost. What could he say other than ‘you live and you learn’? He did make sure not to give her more alcohol than she could take.
“Oh oh! Am I finally seeing some progress here?”
Across from them, Ynna accepted the black and red to-go cup and the fucker’s smile lit up like Christmas. What? Was the kid finally giving in?
Nah. That girl just liked her coffee.
Ynna thanked Alastor for the drink, a neutral expression on her face, before she excused herself to go work on some other chores she decided to pick up recently as a way to kill time. The way that fucker’s face froze when he realized he hadn’t scored the win. Hah! He took another sip to hide his smile. Served him right for messing with her.
“Would you like some help? I’m sure having a few shadows around can help weed out the peskier tasks.” He tried not to bite his tongue. Shitty jokes aside, was he seriously seeing this shit? He’d known the Radio Demon a good couple of decades now and in all that time, the charismatic fucker never had to try too hard to be the center of attention. But right now, he sounded desperate. The kind of jaw-clenching eagerness that practically begged the kid for some scrap of a chance. Well, as far as the fucker could beg. The man had too much pride to get down on his knees and this scene in front of him was probably the closest he’d ever get to seeing it from the guy.
It was amazing. All the kid was doing was icing him out yet the man looked like he was burning in Hell.
“No thanks. I actually like gardening. Anyway, thanks for the coffee.” The kid went ahead and ignored what the guy had to say, walking to the back garden without another word. Too bad the other party was Alastor. The guy had no intentions of taking the hint. He saddled up to her side with that slimy swindler smile of his.
“I’m headed this way too.” Pathetic. Bastard was trying way too hard to get her attention. Ynna, to her credit, said nothing and only nodded. Even he couldn’t get a read on the poker face she wore. He had to give her credit for not giving in. He’d seen way too many sinners fall for the suave old-timey charm that the demon had yet Ynna was holding on like a champ. What the fuck did he do to her that he was all but dead to her?
“Damn. I thought the two would finally make up.” After the couple were out of earshot, Angel sighed.
“What? You actually want to see those two get all buddy-buddy again?”
“Yeah. Is that surprising?”
“I didn’t think you approved of them being so close.”
“Who she wants to be friends with is for her to decide. ‘Sides, they were cute together with the whole not-couple-but-might-as-well-be schtick they had goin.” The spider's hands gestured, wrists waving back and forth like he was stating the obvious. He begged to disagree. Anything involving Alastor was not cute.
“So you thinkin’ the kid should just give him a pass just cuz they were cute together?” That was something. Angel loved Ynna like a sister. If anyone messed with her, the man wouldn’t hesitate to make them eat lead.
“What? Oh, Hell nah. He’s got to grovel some more. That’ll teach him a lesson about messin’ with my girl.” Ah. That made more sense. He didn’t think Angel would be the type to let grudges go that easy.
The spider snorted, reaching over the counter to grab a glass. He obliged and poured him a Negroni which the spider didn’t even take the time to appreciate. Just fuckin’ downed the whole thing like orange juice. “But! I also don’t like seeing tootsie roll so down. I mean, you’ve seen this shit. Those two are a mess, as much as they pretend not to be.”
“I know.” Of course he knew. It wasn’t hard to notice the calming breaths both took to try not to explode at each other, the way the kid turned cold when the Radio Demon was around, the tightening of the man’s grip on his staff whenever he was ignored. He took another sip of his gin, setting the glass down with a clack on the polished veneer. “But that ain’t none of my business. I’m just watching this shit go down.”
“Oh come on. Don’t give me that, Whiskers. I know you’re findin’ this shit hilarious but Ynna’s suffering over here.” Angel looked at him exasperated and he just knew the actor felt like meddling. The kid’s blank face came into mind. He sighed. Christ. He could already feel a hangover coming. He refilled his glass.
“What do you want me to do about it?”
“Go talk to Smiles. Tell him back off some. Yn’s is mad right now and him hovering around her ain’t helping her calm down and it ain’t helping his case either. It’s just making her more depressed and annoyed.” His hand paused in the middle of bringing his glass up for a sip. The man wanted him to…give Alastor relationship advice? Was he crazy?
“Why me? Couldn’t you ask like Charlie or something? She lives for this kinda shit.”
“Yeah but you’ve known him the longest and he might actually listen to ya. Sure, Charlie’s got good advice and they’re business partners but would he actually listen to her if she started singin’ about sorries?”
“He might. He likes singing and all that jazz.”
“And he’s pissy right now. I doubt he’d like to be told what to do through a musical number.” He snorted wryly as the spider brushed off his comment. That fucker didn’t like being told what to do, period. “Come on, Whiskers. Do it for me? For Ynna? Ya gotta admit that they’ve been bringin’ down the mood with how awkward they are with each other. Please. I’ll suck your dick real good if you do.”
“Please don’t.” He had to look away as the spider batted his long lashes at him. He did not like being bribed with blowjobs…for something like this. He didn’t like meddling, period. There was too much risk in getting involved in people’s drama and he wanted none of that. “Urggh. Look. The way I see it, the kid’s better off without the guy. Whatever he did to her now probably isn’t the worst thing he could’ve done. The less she associates with him, the safer she’ll be.”
“Orrrrr…they could be good for each other.” The counter argument gave him pause which the spider took as his cue to continue. “Y’know, for all the talk about how bad Smiles is, he ain’t actually done nothin’ but be creepy. Sure, he’s killed a few people here and there but most of ‘em had nothing to do with us and the ones that did were tryin’ to kill us. In fact, he's actually been nice to be around, especially when Ynna’s in the room.”
Angel spun his seat before leaning forward and into his face. His breath brushed against his cheek as he shared his observation. Too close. But he couldn’t bring himself to move away. “The way I see it, Smiles is soft on Ynna. He’s down bad for her and Ynna feels the same. The sooner those two make up, the happier everyone will be.”
Looking into those mismatched eyes, he tried to think about what the other man said. It was true. Compared to seven years ago, his Boss was definitely a lot mellower, most of the time. Being around the kid made the man happy in a way that had him checking whether another Overlord had gone missing. And with the kid, she definitely shined more before all this crap. She looked like a kicked dog to anyone smart enough to see through the forced cheer and return to normality. Fuck. There went his heart going all gooey just thinking about the poor brokenhearted girl.
He groaned. “Fine. I’ll do it. He’s been less of a dick since she’s been around anyway.”
“Thanks sweet cheeks. I knew I could count on ya.”
“Yeah. Yeah. Ain’t no guarantees that fucker will listen.” He grumbled under his breath, waving the spider off as he went to find his Boss.
It didn’t take too long. Since Ynna was headed to the garden, that creep was bound to be hovering around nearby, looking for a chance to show off to her. Where did he learn to get a girl? From some high schooler or some shit? Like he predicted, he found the man reading a book on a patio chair, far enough from the garden that he wasn’t intruding on Ynna but still within shouting distance. If he’d been like this everyday, he could see why Angel was concerned. This kind of hovering would drive anyone crazy, even polite little goats.
Approaching the demon, he noticed his ears flick in acknowledgment of him but nothing more. Asshole didn’t even bother to look up. Prick.
“Hey Boss, can I talk to you for a minute?”
“Why of course Husker! What can I do for you old pal?”
“Mind if we go inside? It’s a private thing.”
“Hmm?” Humming in curiosity, the man led the way to a more secluded hallway, just a couple of turns from where the garden was. In the privacy of the space, he could feel more of that tense irritation that had been hanging around the Radio Demon despite his relaxed posture. His hackles rose in alertness when those cold red eyes and taunting smile were directed at him. “So what is it?”
Alastor’s POV
The cat scratched the back of his head before giving a resigned sigh. For some reason, the bartender seemed a lot more irritable. He didn’t know what he had to be irritated for. He was fully aware of how the cat was enjoying watching him trying to pursue Ynna.
“I know that you and the kid have been on the outs the past couple of weeks. I’m just thinking, if you wanna make up with her eventually, you should probably let the kid go and cool off some more. Whatever you did to her really pissed her off and it takes a lot for that kid to stay mad for this long.”
“My my. Really leaning into your bartender role this evening, aren’t you?” Well this was unexpected. Advice from this drunk grump? Hah! What a joke. The nerve of this man, having fun at his expense and now butting his nose into his business. Angel Dust must’ve put him up to it. The cat held too much distaste for him to willingly offer relationship advice.
He had half a mind to tell him to shut it but instead, he humored the cat, thinking he might actually drop a few good nuggets of wisdom. “Go on then. What other sage advice does our dear cat in a hat have to offer?” That earned him an amusing growl from the bartender which the cat suppressed in order to concentrate on his goal.
“Hovering around her ain’t gonna help you get on her good side. It’s only making the kid more uncomfortable.” The more words came from his furry mouth, the more determined he seemed. How noble. “The kid doesn’t get mad often. You’d have to have really fucked up to get on her bad side but maybe, if you give some time, some space, she’ll feel better and can move on from whatever you did. She’s actually a sweet girl. I don’t think she’s the type to hold a grudge for too long.” Yellow eyes softened as he spoke of the goat, softened in a way that irritated him. Like the cat knew her better than he did.
Stupid man. He knew all of this already. It looked like the cat didn’t have any good advice after all. What a waste of his time. “Is that all? Well, thank you for the advice I suppose. How cute of you to think about sharing your insightful counsel. But I’ve got it from here.” He patted the cat’s head, wiping that holier than thou look the cat had as he said his piece off that smug little face. The responding hiss he received eased some of the annoyance he felt for the wasted time and audacious showing.
“Grrr. Fucking stop it with that condescending shit!” Two paws came up and threw his hand away from his furry head. “No wonder she’s mad. With your arrogant trash personality, you probably crossed a line with her. Serves you right that she’s staying away from you now.”
Click.
“Watch what you say while I’m still being generous, Husker.” He warned. Not only was the man butting into his business but he was now also openly insulting him. Drunk or not, he could only let so much go and he let the cat know that exactly, flashing his a warning glare. “And my relationship with Ynna really is none of your business. I treat her quite well and she seemed to enjoy my company well enough even if I do have a ‘trash’ personality.”
“Oh yeah? Is that why she’s been clinging to everyone else so much? Heh. Fine. Do what you want, see if I care.” The cat huffed and he turned away lest he lash out.
How dare the man come to him with some half-assed advice about how to win her over. As if the cat knew how deeply their problems ran. How could he possibly know the kind of desperation he was feeling? The kind of gnawing anxiety with each day that passed where Ynna refused to bestow even a smidge of her warmth. Giving her space to help her emotional wounds heal? Hah! If he did that, then how was he to heal the emptiness that craved her presence? How was he supposed to feel better when he’s never felt more like a wretch when her eyes weren’t on him?
“She’s too good for you anyways.”
Ynna’s POV
The pentagram shone hot rays down onto the city that day but you still wanted to be anywhere but inside. Amongst the unruly flowers, you sat, pretending to putter away when your mind was actually wandering.
Sitting on your haunches, you watched the flowers, their little eyes watching you back. You wondered if they could actually see you or if they were just some creepy decoration from Hell’s twisted evolution. The red petals were two shades brighter than his coat, you absently observed.
You sighed.
Yep. Yet another thought surrounded by the Radio Demon. Choosing to stop your friendship with Alastor had been easy. Logic told you that it was the right choice. He used you for his own wicked amusement and you couldn’t trust him not to do it again. Simple. But relationships were rarely defined by such straightforward thinking. Alastor was a fantastic example.
It wasn’t like it was the first time you’d ever cut people from your life. There were your exes and a few toxic friendships over the years. It wasn’t even the first time when someone you’d distanced yourself from tried to win you over again.
It was just the first time where you found it hard to stick to your decision. You picked up the black coffee cup, finding some delight in how your claws scraped over the paper shell. Why did you accept this? You’d rejected everything else he’d given. Chocolates. Other sweets. Flowers. Gardening tools. Things that easily made you happy. You could try to delude yourself and say that it was because you loved this coffee shop and thought throwing it away was a waste but that wasn’t true.
Taking a sip of the pleasantly warm americano, the bitter taste spread over your tongue followed by notes of caramel and chocolate. It was lovely….and really, so was he.
“Arrrgghhhhh.”, you let out in frustration.
In truth, the last two weeks had been torture. You could become an actor with how well you kept your poker face on every time Alastor showed up with a thoughtful gift or gesture. He made it so difficult to move on. Every time he came around, eyes hopeful, your heart ached a bit to fulfill that hope. Everything he did reminded you of his attentiveness, the way he cared for you in a way that made you feel special because he didn’t do the same with anybody else. The way he made you feel at home…while going behind your back and feeding you his meat.
And even though he promised to never do it again, you were 95% sure that he would do something just as deplorable, even if by accident. Alastor, the Radio Demon, just didn’t care enough to really consider your feelings when he had his own agenda. The friendship you offered him, the willingness to overlook his more sociopathic tendencies, he enjoyed it all…and took it for granted.
But Alastor…your friend Alastor, not the Radio Demon…
He held you when you cried, called you weak but never made you feel like you couldn’t ever become strong. Nowadays, he looked at you with longing that just didn’t suit his arrogant and proud face. He looked at you…and you ached to be by his side, sharing in laughter, sharing in silence.
The coffee swished in the cup as you swirled and swirled it like your thoughts and feelings. You weren’t happy. He wasn’t either. But you both could be, if you gave him another chance.
5%…The likelihood that he would keep his promise was only about 5%, maybe even less. Could you gamble another heartache on such low odds? Could you stand to invest more of yourself in him at the risk of even greater pain?
His eyes flashed in your mind. Please , they spoke, begging you in their shine in place of his words.
I miss you. Come back. Don’t reject me again. Please.
He said that he’d never lied to you yet you always thought that his eyes were more honest than his words. So if that’s what they wanted…
You drank the coffee in greedy gulps, letting the slightly too hot warmth burn on the way down. Your heart pounded with excitement and the extra caffeine.
5%
You were willing to gamble your heart on those odds…for him.
Turning, you were surprised to see the patio chair he was at empty. Maybe he went inside? Before your sudden courage waned, you ran into the halls in search of him. Before you talked yourself out of a bad bet, you needed to tell him that you wanted to try again. That you wanted to believe that he wouldn’t ever try to hurt you again. That you would try to believe in him and the sincerity he promised you.
My deer-est. You laughed to yourself. He’d love that nickname. Heart pounding, a grin broke on your face. Maybe when things have settled more, you could talk about starting an actual relationship. You didn’t want to rush into it in case the kiss was only because you ate him. Whatever your relationship ended up being, it didn’t matter. Right now, you just missed him.
Your ears caught the faint murmur of voices and you followed the sound, eventually recognizing the voices as Alastor and Husk. Not wanting to intrude but also not wanting to be too far in case your heart caved in from the pressure, you stayed around the corner and thought of things to distract you from their conversation.
You can’t hear it. La La La. Was Husk giving him advice? Oops. No no no. You weren’t going to eavesdrop. La La La.
Husk’s tone turned nasty in response to something Alastor said and the next thing you knew, shadows swallowed the hall, wrapping everything in suffocating darkness. Chilling static penetrated your bones, sending horrified shivers up your spine.
“You seem to be forgetting your place, old pal. So let me remind you.” An eerie green light shone and you rounded the corner just in time to watch a heavy manacled collar wrap itself around Husk’s neck before the cat was roughly pulled to the ground…by the Radio Demon.
“Perhaps I’ve been too kind lately but just because you’re a bartender, it doesn’t mean you can stick your mangy wet nose into my business. The next time you even think about judging my relationship with Ynna, I’ll make sure you’ll have plenty of other things to think about on my broadcast along with the other wretched insignificant souls that dare to disrespect me.” With each word, he grew in size, his demonic form taking over as he yanked on the chain and made sure Husk choked on it.
“Am I clear?”
But Husk was too fearful at the sudden turn to respond, shaking on the ground. Husk was fucking shaking!
“I said, am I—“
“Stop it!” You ran, heart racing in fear and incredulity as you jumped in front of Husk to shield him from the demon’s view. “Alastor what the fuck are you doing!?”
Both men froze in shock before all signs of Alastor’s magic vanished into thin air. But you took that time to help Husk get up, the cat looking at you with shaky eyes as he glanced back and forth between you and Alastor in fear. You’d never seen him so scared.
“Go.” You urged him with a soft whisper. The sooner he was out of the demon’s vicinity, the safer he was bound to feel. “Go. I’ll handle him.” Husk looked at you as if he wanted to say something but a glance at Alastor had him shutting his mouth and turning.
Once you were sure Husk was out of earshot and away from Alastor, you looked back to the Radio Demon. It took your mind a little while to process everything. You’d just been determined to reconcile and you walked into that…that kind of cruelty you’d never seen on him before. The kind that you didn’t think he could show to someone he cared about, even a little.
“Have you always treated him like that?” It wasn’t really a question. You saw it all happen. No doubt it had happened more than once given how terrible Alastor was to all the other sinners who’d crossed him. Friends weren’t an exception.
Friends weren’t a fucking exception.
A chill ran through your body at the realization of where the demon’s bottom line stood. Would he treat you the same way eventually? You mentally shook yourself. It didn’t matter. Not as much as knowing your friend was being fucking abused by him this harshly.
“Ynna—“
“No. You don’t have to answer that. Of course you have. You’re you. Hah.” A defeated laugh punctuated your disappointment. Revulsion and rage simmered in your chest bringing tears up to your eyes. You held them back, not wanting to show this demon the hurt you felt by his actions. The disappointment. The shame. With your best level gaze, you stared into those lovely red eyes, hoping to convey the shittiness you felt for this man. “Don’t talk to me ever again. I didn’t think my opinion of you could get any lower.” You loved him too much to find too much fault in him. But you couldn’t love him if he was like this.
“You’re a piece of shit and I wish I never tried to get close to you.” At your words laced with venom, the man in front of you stood still, his damned smile freezing before he seemed to find some bit of audacity to try to weasel his way out of what you just saw him do. With two long strides, he closed the distance between you.
“Hush. Surely you don’t mean that, dearest. We’ve gotten along so well before this and you’re the one I care for the most in this whole run down establishment. You told me you appreciated me and enjoyed my company.” Clawed hands held your shoulders, keeping you firmly in place when you tried to step back from him. Thumbs rubbed gentle circles near your clavicle as Alastor held your gaze, small smile and careful voice in place. He was trying to coax you, pupils shaking within a gaze that he thought was calm and persuasive. Your heart squeezed at his manic gaze. “Things may be bad right now but you said you’d forgive me. Didn’t that mean that you’d give me a chance to redeem myself?”
“No. Absolutely not! When did I ever say that!?” Choosing anger to lead you, your hands grabbed hold of his in an effort to push them away. “You don’t care about anyone but yourself and I was dumb enough to believe that maybe you could…but not anymore!” Your throat felt sore as emotions bubbled within you. His hands remained unmoving, clenching on your shoulders just shy of being painful. “Let go!”
“All of this just because I refused to let Husker spout his mouth and stick his nose where it doesn’t belong?” His eyes scowled, smile wide yet undoubtedly frustrated that you wouldn’t cooperate with him. “While I’m sorry you had to see that, how I treat the souls in my possession is my business alone. I must keep them on a tight leash lest they forget their place.”
“Do you even hear yourself? This is Husk we’re talking about! Not some random unhappy sinner you suckered into shaking your hand. Even if you two weren’t close, I at least thought you treated him well enough.” Maybe it was naive of you to think that even if Alastor was tormenting a million other souls, he wouldn’t hurt Husk the same way. The cat must’ve been special for Alastor to bring him to the hotel. Or at least, the Radio Demon cared about him in some way that he would’ve been exempt from the extremes of his behavior. But that was where you were wrong. Alastor just didn’t give a shit even if the other person was someone he was fond of.
“But I guess you just can’t help hurting the people around you.” Frustration and resignation coated your words as you tried to once again get the bastard’s hands off of you. The tips of his claws threatened to dig into you but that didn’t make you nearly as uncomfortable as his clinginess. You’d rather he ripped you apart than hold onto you like this. It made you hope that you were special to him. That he was truly honestly being sorry when you knew that all his apologies paled in comparison to his pride and greed. “Let go of me, Alastor.”
“Not until you’ve calmed down and thought this through. You’ve always understood that I have my harsh tendencies and overlooked them. I thought you accepted that as part of who I am.”
“That was before I found out you treated my other friend like shit. I might have been willing to forgive you for what you did to me but not Husk! Not for the other people I care about in this shithole of an afterlife. You’re selfish. You’re cruel and you have absolutely no respect for anyone in this place.” It was becoming difficult to speak, the tightness of your throat suffocating you with the knowledge of all that you’d overlooked and were willing to overlook for this man.
“Including me, your oh so dearest ‘friend’.” You reminded yourself again. No matter how much he claimed to care about you, this was his true nature. He would never change. You lost your gamble before you could even place your bet. That was probably for the best given how utterly ripped apart your heart felt. Like the tiny hope you’d had for only a few minutes.
“Go find someone else to chew on your sorry ass because I refuse. I give up on you and I hate your fucking guts.” With a daring you didn’t know you possessed, you brought your leg up between you two and kicked him squarely in the chest. The force sent you both toppling down away from each other. While the landing did hurt, you took a little pleasure from seeing Alastor’s surprised face. You’d never hurt any of your friends. But he wasn’t one of yours any longer.
“I fucking hate you.” For hurting Husk. For hurting you. For being the kind of man you could love but also the kind that you could hate at the same time.
With a sneer, you got up and started to walk away. This was over. Everything…was over.
You could feel the salty tears in the bitter sting in your eyes, the heartache and heartburn as you felt like retching in a corner for the smallest hint of hunger you felt at his presence. Despicable. Cursed.
The crackling of static behind your back signaled a change in the still air that was left between you after your parting words. There was a charge of power that flowed through the hallway, its force casting shadows in the lights until all that was left was dim encompassing darkness, broken by the green glow of Alastor’s magic once again.
It was silent for a moment and goosebumps jumped up your back. Pronounced footsteps broke the strangled air, moving slowly and steadily towards you.
“Have you ever tried blood pudding before, my dearest?
“What—?”
“I think I’ll make some for dinner tomorrow. I’d love for you to try that special dish for me.”
“What makes you think I’ll eat anything you give me after all of this!? I’d rather fucking’ starve.” Whipping back around face to Alastor, rage engulfed you. What did this fucker think he was doing, trying to act like the last few minutes didn’t happen? You paused as you finally got a good look at him. Despite the overwhelming aura of his power, he remained in his gentlemanly form, a small serene smile on his lips with only the dial shapes of his pupils giving away his anger.
“I’m confident that you’ll give it a try. You don’t have a choice. ” In an imitation of Husk’s earlier predicament, a chain formed around your neck, the end of it leading towards Alastor. “I’m calling in that favor again. ‘Eat me.’”
“What the!?” Your hands pulled at the chain, thinner than Husk’s but just as solid. The weight of it around your neck was solid, sending dread down your spine. Dread and another heavy dose of betrayal. “But I already did you that favor!”
“Tsk tsk, sweetheart. You must remember the terms of our deal. Think about it.” That gave you pause, apprehension shrouding your heart as you thought about that day. Seeing your doubt, his dial eyes returned to normal, their half-lidded gaze waiting patiently for you to understand.
“I owed you a favor that didn’t involve hurting or killing anyone. That was it.”
“To be precise:” He started as he stepped towards you again, a dark dealer of chaos, incarnate. The chain rattled as you moved back, not stopping you but keeping you connected to him. “‘ One favor that I can call upon anytime that I want. ’ Those were my terms.” You eventually hit a wall, unable to move back any farther as Alastor closed the distance to look over you. “This is my one favor that I’ll call upon you to do, anytime that I please. As many times as I please.”
“But that should’ve meant only one time!” You rose up to your full height, trying to get in his face if only to startle him from coming closer. But he remained steady, face merely inches from yours.
“Semantics, darling.” Looking down on you, his shadows darkened the surroundings until all you could see were his glowing eyes and wicked smile. “You should’ve been more specific when making a deal.”
Notes:
There is it folks! The end of Act 2! I can't believe I finally made it here. I bet y'all can't believe what happened but is it really so surprising? Our male lead is an arrogant, narcissistic and prideful man. I don't think he likes the choice he made either but with Ynna saying she hated him, did he really have a choice?
(The answer is yes. He always has a choice to do good. Too bad he doesn't have the emotional experience to process heartbreak properly.)
Anyways, let me know what y'all think. It'll be a rough ride from here.
Chapter 30: Tinnitus
Notes:
Woo! I'm floored by last chapter's reception. My goodness. I'm glad I'm not the only one who wants angst. I promise that the tags don't lie. I want my babies to be happy together too.
As always, thank you so much for the support. The serotonin y'all give me with the comments make my day.
TW: Self-harm/Implied Self-Harm
Chapter Text
Alastor’s POV
Heated anger burned in her eyes as she gripped onto the chain around her neck. They watched him with boiling venom, betrayal, disbelief and a sense of displacement swimming in the once affectionate pools. How hideously they glittered, tainted in the green of his magick. He smiled like they were the most amusing things in the world.
“Well then, I’ll see you at dinner tomorrow. Bring your appetite, dearest. I’ll make sure to make it delicious.” With a single clap to end this unpleasant encounter, the chains disappeared and he walked away from the scene. The dull thud of knees hitting the ground was distressing but he resisted the urge to turn back. He would at least give Ynna the decency to process this new grievance he’d dealt her in private.
So he walked. And walked faster. Hah. Why was he walking? Why waste so much time? Haha. How silly of him when he had magick at his fingertips. Shadows embraced him with cold tendrils that whispered things his mind couldn’t grasp, too distracted by a distant screeching in his ear. At his command, they brought him to his home, his true home in the bayou, the one that was supposed to bring him the most peace. Yet as he tread across the old creaking floorboards, everything felt muffled and hazy. Amidst the blur of the familiar, he felt displaced. Everything, from the ringing in his ears to the dust floating in the unmoving air, felt wrong.
So very wrong.
Everything had gone so incredibly wrong.
He threw himself onto the old worn out couch, its fraying threads and worn leather catching him as he splayed upon it in a daze.
I hate your fucking guts.
I hate your fucking guts.
I FUCKING HATE YOU.
The words tore through his ears and his chest with the ferocity of a chainsaw, lethal, painful and leaving a mess of a man in their wake. How could she say that to him? After all they’ve been through? After all he’d done to win her back? The finality in her tone paired with the vitriol she spat so easily in his face had been devastating in a way he’d only felt once before, when he’d been told to prepare his mother’s funeral.
Something snapped in his mind. A line had been cut.
This was the end. All of the carefully, preciously fostered affection between them, thrown away within the span of a few careless moments. Each step she took from him, another nail in the coffin of the first love he’d ever found, a bond he never even thought possible. This wretched realization clogged his mind and choked his lungs. It was over. It was over. Screams. Something was screaming bloody murder in his ears. Painful and tortured, an anguished cry but it sounded nothing like the serenade of a hateful wretch’s demise at the tip of his knife.
Shut up. Shut up. Shut up!
She was walking away from him and he needed to think of something. Something! Anything to keep her. He couldn’t be without her. He couldn’t lose someone precious again. Why wasn’t she turning around?
Stop. Stop. Stop!
Click.
The magick manifested quickly enough, born of hasty reflex, made heinous by ravenous desperation. By the time his mind caught up with his actions, the damage had been done.
Heated anger burned in her eyes as she gripped onto the chain around her neck. They watched him with boiling venom, betrayal, disbelief and a sense of displacement swimming in the once affectionate pools. How hideously they glittered. How much they loathed him. But she couldn’t walk away from him anymore.
A grin split his face, a wretched ugly thing.
Ynna’s POV
You couldn’t breathe despite the loose fit of the enchanted (cursed) collar. As the reality of the situation sunk in, with it drowned your will to be in this moment. How lovely it would be if you could just die right now. Maybe by the time you respawned, another type of Hell would welcome you. Not this one. Not the one where red eyes reflected your frightened face, twisted like a cornered animal as the butcher called for its slaughter. Not the one where you made the mistake of falling for the butcher, rendering yourself cattle when you’d only wanted to be a friend.
How could he go so low?
A smile full of teeth bloomed on his face, smug and mirthful, as if he wanted to laugh at his victory. But his eyes were dead. Maybe you weren’t the only one who felt like dying right now.
Your knees gave in as soon as he left, crashing painfully into the carpeted floors as you sat there, processing. The deal. The terms. The one who held your chains.
…Your heart that was shredded twice in a handful of minutes. It felt like a miracle that it was still beating when you didn’t think you’d breathed since that man…that demon made his point.
Tears gathered in your eyes. That wasn’t the miracle you needed right now.
“Kid? Kid? Are you okay?” A hand lightly touched your shoulder and you jerked back in surprise.
“Husk?” He wasn’t supposed to be here. Didn’t you tell him to run away? What if Alastor came back? “What are you doing back here?” Dazed and still unable to catch up to the present, you asked him. You saw how he was manhandled, dragged through the ground with his life threatened. This wasn’t a good place for him to be in.
You gasped, your senses switching back on after Alastor had just firmly stomped it down with his bespoke leather shoes.
“Husk! Are you okay!?” Trying to stand, your legs refused to listen. Though your mind had snapped back into place, the rest of you was still reeling. Nevertheless, concern still managed to bubble forth from your emotionally-drowned heart.
“I’ve had worse. How about you? You look like you’d lost your soul back there.” Aside from his slightly askew bow tie, the cat looked no worse for wear. Instead, his brows were furrowed, eyes looking over you before pinpointing a spot just past your face. As if he couldn’t bear to make eye contact. “Did…did you actually lose it?”
“Lose it?”
“I saw what happened.” His lips pulled into a tight frown, unable to look you in the eye as he admitted to seeing what was probably the lowest point in your whole existence.
“Oh…wait. Then you should know—“ The words caught in your throat in the familiar way that secrecy clause worked. How could you still not discuss your deal when Husk saw it all happen? “How…how much did you hear?”
“Nothing. The chain appeared and as soon as he started talking, his shadow thing popped up and chased me out. I ran back here when I saw him walking away.”
Oh…so Husk hadn’t seen everything. For a split second, you felt contempt. Of course it would work that way. The secrecy clause rendered you mute if you so much as thought about mentioning eating Alastor but the ass got to run his mouth because he had his magic and shadows to defend him. More and more, you were realizing how stupidly one-sided the deal you bartered was. How much control he had over the situation.
You sighed, feeling deflated. At least Husk wasn’t as hurt as you’d thought. With little energy left, you decided to lean against the wall behind you, eyes closed as you rested. There was a swish of a tail and a weight that settled not too far beside you.
“You didn't answer my question. Did you sell your soul for a deal with him?” He looked angry, brows drawn down to match his frown, nose scrunched in distaste. Yet there was also tiredness, a bone-deep exhaustion. A fitting image for someone who was a slave to the Radio Demon.
Words came to your head yet none left your mouth. Fuck. You couldn’t even talk about the parts that didn’t involve eating him. Fuck. Fuck! A fresh wave of tears stung your eyes as your frustration renewed. Why the fuck did you think a secrecy clause was a good idea? Fucking stupid. You were so fucking stupid! You fell for everything, and walked into Alastor’s hands with the naivety of a toddler. Now look where it got you? You should’ve been more cautious! You should’ve listened when they told you not to trust him.
You were so stupid! So so dumb. The biggest idiot in the world!
A well of self-loathing and anger sprang along with your tears. The drops rolled down your scrunched up face. You wanted to hit something. You wanted to scream. Turning to Husk yet unable to say a word to answer his question, you uttered the next thing that came to mind.
“Why didn’t you tell me he was this bad!?” It was petulant, you know. But you’d been slowly drowning in misery since that night you discovered that the friendship you treasured was built on deceit. Right now, it was too much. You couldn’t hate yourself anymore than you already did so you tried to find someone else to blame.
“Hey, I warned you. I told you not to trust him cuz he’s only got so much nice in him.”
“But you could have warned me a bit more. Something like ‘hey Yanna, just so you know, that guy’s a literal slave owner. If you make a deal with him, you’re giving him a way to fucking way to abuse you!’” You felt hysterical. You didn’t think things could have gotten any worse with Alastor but now you couldn’t even get away from him and his sick! Fucking! Fetish!
“Hey!” Husk’s gravelly voice snapped at you, scolding. It shut your mouth real quick how much he sounded like an angry grandfather just then. And you felt just as chided by the disappointment and anger in that single syllable. “It’s not my fault you ignored all the signs. Angel warned you. I warned you. You’re the one who insisted on getting close to him.” Despite the admonishment, his voice remained low, never rising to make you feel small, but only to point out your flaws. It was kind of him. Yet you still shrank into yourself with each point made. “How are you so surprised that he’s like this? His radio ‘show’ wasn’t enough to clue you in that he’s one sadistic motherfucker?’
“I just—I just—“ Your hands went to cover your face in shame. “Sorry. I didn’t…I shouldn’t have tried to blame you. I just—“ What else were you supposed to do, filled with helplessness and self-hate as you were at the moment? “I didn’t think he could do that to you, that he’s been like that to you this whole time and we’ve just been letting it happen. I didn’t think he could do it to me. I mean, why would anyone want to hurt the people they liked?”
Husk looked at you, his face easing into his normal look or bored apathy. If he’d had a drink nearby, no doubt he would be taking a swig. You could honestly use one too. “I get you but what makes you think that fucker likes me?”
“I don’t know. He has a thing about thinking all men are dumb but he jokes with you. I see you two talk at the bar sometimes, just two old men reminiscing about the past. I thought you two were kinda friends but the whole him owning your soul thing made it awkward.” There had to be some fondness between them that out of all the souls Alastor owned, Husk was the one he brought along to the hotel. At least, that was what you thought. Now it seemed just as likely that he brought Husk along because the man was his favorite punching bag.
A gruff long-winded sigh of too many years dragged on floated beside you. With beseeching eyes, you looked at him even though he was far away in thought. “It’s not like you were wrong, kid. We were friends, once. Ran around the same circles back in the day when I was an Overlord. Didn’t trust him much then but he knew how to have fun. Just two Overlords steamrolling over any fucker with the guts to challenge us.” The sad smile on the man’s face wasn’t new. It was just now that you got to share the reason behind it. Well, one of the reasons. “But when my luck ran out, he was the first to pounce on me like a hyena.”
“Not surprised that he’s always been an opportunist.”
He snorted. “I didn’t warn you completely off him because it wasn’t like I didn’t know what it was like to be his friend. The parties, the favors, the witty banter. There’s a reason people are drawn to him.” He smiled then, an awkward shrug at the words of praise he probably never thought he’d ever utter out loud since a chain was put on his neck. “Just because things turned to shit for me, doesn’t mean it would’ve been the same for you. Look at Niffty. She and Alastor get along and they don’t have a deal as far as I know. And Niffty ain’t the only one he gets along with just because so best I could tell you was to watch out.”
Your mind flitted then, to Niffty, to Rosie, to Mimzy, all fond of the dapper man and he of them.
It was an oddly fair assessment coming from a man who hated Alastor. You couldn’t help but wonder how long it took for him to get to that point of not pushing his feelings towards Alastor onto you. It was admirable, the fruit of his wisened years. You still wished he’d just told you straight up from the very beginning. You both looked away, your own spots to look at as you contemplated your misery.
“So what deal did you make with him?” Still curious, the cat asked. You didn’t even bother to think much, hoping your silence would be a good enough answer. You wiped away your tears instead.
“I can tell the princess, you know? She might be able to talk him into ending the contract.” Either he figured out about the secrecy clause or accepted that you wouldn’t tell him a thing. Whichever it was, Husk still offered an idea, one you didn’t think was possible. And from the look of Husk’s face, he didn’t have much hope in it either.
“Why haven’t you told her about yours?”
He sighed and looked you dead in the eye, bitter and defeated. “Because if she can’t talk him out of it, the only other way would be to kill him.”
“Kill him!? T-that’s…” The image of Alastor dying by Charlie’s hand came into your mind with a jarring clarity. Blood on the ground over an unmoving body, the once pristine clothes torn, not a shred of elegance left as the soul completely disappeared from its body. Charlie stood there, a cold cruel monarch. A beaten Alastor. An unfeeling Charlie. Both things shook your heart with how much you wished to never see that image come into existence.
“I doubt the princess would do it.” Exactly! Charlie was too good to do something so drastic. Killing one of her people, if she even had the power to do it, just…went against everything the young woman stood for and dreamed so vehemently of.
“So what would be the point in telling Charlie? I doubt she’d be able to tell him to break the contract.” It would only cause a fight between the two business partners and as desperately as you wanted to get out of your deal, Alastor was a huge help to Charlie. If she found out, the princess would surely kick him out, even if it meant she had to shoulder the burden of the hotel all by herself again. You didn’t want to be a set back to her dream…more than you already were.
“But there’s your only option, kid. Either he breaks the deal himself or he dies permanently. No other way around a deal unless he breaks his half but the man’s an expert. Ain’t no way he’ll even accidentally go back on his half.”
So it was futile. You let out a bitter laugh. You didn’t think there would be a chance. Alastor had already explained the intricacies of souls and deals to you before. At the time, you had been thankful, thinking that your bargain was so simple because it was a favor for a favor, that you still owned your soul.
“How did we even get to this point?” You whispered into the aether, hoping it could call back to those days when thinking of a new dad joke was your only worry.
“Come on. You look like you could use a drink.” Husk stood, pulling you up along with him when your legs still refused to budge.
“I feel like shit.”
“Welcome to the club, kid.”
Alastor’s POV
Drip. Drip. Drip.
Drip. Drip. Drip.
“Hnnngh.”
Bitter gray smoke tendriled into the open air as night shrouded the Pentagram City. It was a lovely evening, Heaven’s distant glow illuminating the cursed forest beyond his home in a veil of peace even as predators stalked fearful prey beneath the indifferent light. A bird cawed in the distance. The wind lightly rustled the trees. Then, utter silence. The evening’s hunt had begun.
He observed all of this from the comfort of his front porch. Sat on a chair with his legs propped up on the railing, he was the picture of unkempt. Hair tousled by the wind. The sleeves of his unbuttoned shirt rolled up past his elbows. His accessories and coat discarded on some shelf. It had been a long time since he’d allowed himself to look so sloppy. But what use was looking presentable when rampaging through the forest, uprooting trees and terrorizing critters, had been how he’d passed the hours since Ynna?
When her spiteful words had driven him nearly insane, the bloodlust had surged to fill the hungry pit she’d left in him. In place of the sparks she set alight with just a brush of her fond gaze, blood, pain and despair were the only things that brought him the same high that could fill that void. So he went, a giant spearing flesh and bark upon the points of his antlers, his claws scarring the dirt, leaving deliberate destruction in his wake.
He would have preferred to torture some sinner or another but he had promised the princess no murder sprees in the near future. It had been two weeks since then but the princess would still view it as too soon.
The old wooden chair beneath him creaked as he shifted in the seat. Its weathered limbs threatened to collapse under his rather insignificant weight but it held, sturdy and reliable. Steadfast. Unlike her affection for him.
He brought the half-spent cigarette to his lips, filling his lungs with tar as he drew a smoky breath. He held it in. And then let the smoke out. To think he’d take up old habits again but his dearest had a way of stirring his emotions and drawing out the worst in him. He took another drag, savoring the quiet crackle as the faint embers consumed paper and tobacco into ashes.
Drip. Drip. Drip.
Behind him, a doe hung from the beams, throat slit to allow its blood to collect into the clean basin below. The ruby pool lay solemn, catching Heaven’s light like a macabre blessing. When the initial frustration had passed, he’d regained enough presence of mind to catch something for supper. Everything that he’d shaken from his antlers had been unsalvageable. The meat would go a long way and he could use its small intestines for tomorrow night’s dish.
Drip. Drip. Bzzt.
The crackling static brought his attention to his other hand. Dangling over the chair, a large gash on the greydient skin of his forearm dripped blood into a jar. The recipe required a cup of fresh blood and his shadow had been in charge of monitoring the draw while he enjoyed his cigarette. The shade hissed a low static screech to let him know that the task was finished.
“That should do it.” He blew the smoke into its dark face, a large grin breaking green light into its features as it eagerly inhaled the fumes. “Set it in the fridge for me, will you?” He watched the shade disappear with a languid gaze.
He’ll have his hands full making sausages tomorrow but he was no stranger to hard work. In fact, a little elbow grease in the kitchen would do wonders for his mood. He’d always enjoyed making something special for his dearest goat to eat. And now, she was well and truly his captive audience.
A shudder climbed up his spine, a curious mix of that ever delightful anticipation creeping through his system at the thought of her consumption. But with it, apprehension. Oh she would no doubt have to eat it. The deal, as unscrupulous as his twisting of it was, would compel her to. He’d serve it to her, with vague allusions to what he’d added to it, and she would know…that he’d damned her once again.
And she would hate it. Absolutely hate it and him.
The last of the ashes fell onto the porch, the gash on his arm already sealed but for a faint line. He stood and stubbed the embers onto a metal plate on the rail. Summoning his shadow puppets, he gave them instructions on how to handle the doe’s blood and carcass before he went to prepare for bed.
Ynna’s contorted face followed his thoughts. And then it was her sad one. Her frustrated one. Her scornful one. Her blank one. Which would she show him tomorrow? He’d commemorate the occasion of this new turn into their eternal companionship by treasuring the memory of whichever one it was.
He smiled to himself, more self-assured than he’d been all day, all week. He should have done this from the moment he’d realized she’d become a soul he couldn’t bear to lose. What of her consent? What of her free will? He’d given her those and he’d almost lost the most interesting thing that had ever appeared before him.
He sighed. People did say that love made one blind. And he’d been so willfully deluded into taking unnecessary risks. Deals and contracts, the binding of a soul. Since she already thought him so low for using Husker’s contract as he should, might as well show her just how much lower he stoop.
———
Come the next day, he swaggered into the halls with the elegance and chipper outlook of a man with no worries. And he had nothing to worry about. He’d secured his dearest to his side and finished the ingredient preparations in time. He was getting away with it too. Ynna’s own stipulations would bind her tongue and he had nothing to worry about when it came to a certain cat whom his shadow reported to have seen some of yesterday’s clash. What could that sad grump of a man do without jeopardizing his own soul and power in the process?
As expected, things were tense with the busybodies but said busybodies knew how collars worked. They wouldn’t provoke him without even the vaguest knowledge of what it would mean for Ynna if they tried to interfere. Angel and Husk could only glare his way but that was of no consequence to him.
“Hey Al! Are you feeling better today?” Charlie greeted him as he exited the foyer.
“Never better, dear. I just needed a day off, it turns out. Nothing a good rest couldn’t fix.”
“That’s great! I was so worried when you said you weren’t feeling alright. You know you can take days off if you need them. I don’t want you burning yourself out from helping me manage the hotel.” Ah. It really was such a lovely thing to have someone with such a positive mentality around. They could be so blind to the tensions in the room. It made getting things moving along so much easier.
“I’m actually feeling so well that I thought of doing something different tonight. Breakfast for dinner, what do you think? Quite whimsical, if I may say so?” The suggestion of something fun always brightens the already megawatt gal. Her eager endorsement only entertained him more for how could she know what he had in store for her ‘most promisingly redeemable’ sinner?
And on and on the day went without so much as a peep from his dearest. Likely sulking in her room again but this time, he knew when he’d see her. Another perk of this new arrangement.
And she appeared before him on time, his lovely muse, his dearest darling, his great bane that he’ll keep closely tucked into his side from now on, pouty…and a lot less depressed than he’d expected.
Ynna entered the room with an annoyed expression on her face, brows furrowed and lips pursed into an adorable pout. And when their eyes met for the first time since they’d torn all affections to shreds, lightning scorched bitter hot tracks through his chest.
Disdain. Contempt. Eyes that looked at him like he was beneath her, their rage burning behind a cold hard stare. They didn’t falter even as she took her seat by his left. His heart raced. Ha. Ha. Oh, she was lovely. He couldn’t help but glare back with a beaming smile.
“Now for tonight’s dish, I thought I’d go with something more international. Ta-da!” With a snap of his fingers, everyone’s plate was filled. “A full English Breakfast!”
There was nothing too foreign on the plate. Baked beans in a sweet tangy sauce. A side of back bacon and sunny-side up eggs. Mushrooms and breakfast sausages pan-fried until smokey and browned. The tomatoes seared to add just a touch of roastiness to the fresh and tangy slices. Toast, crisp and buttered. Everything perfectly cooked and seasoned.
“What’s this black stuff?” Angel poked the most unusual ingredient in the dish.
“This, my dear friends, is called black pudding. A sausage made of pig blood—“ He glanced at Ynna then, like he was trying to frighten her when really, he was making sure she understood which deer’s blood would be in hers. “—and grains. I did some hunting yesterday so I thought I'd give it a try. This one is made from a doe I caught.”
“Blood!?”
“Eww nah gross!”
“I don’t see what’s the problem? This issss excellent Mr. Alastor!”
“Wait Boss, are you sure we can eat that?”
“You’re an egg eating eggs. Why is blood where you draw the line?”
“Pentious, you like this?”
The round of disgust around the table amused him. People were so quick to dismiss cuisine just because of unusual ingredients. They were truly missing out on a plethora of flavorful foods. Another world to explore but missed because of an initial ‘ick.’ Good thing there was at least one foodie around though he doubted she’d share her usual curiosity.
Introduction completed, he could look at his dearest fully. She stared at the dish, eyes flitting from one item to another, trying to gauge which was contaminated with something of his. Was it just the black pudding as he’d told her or did his greedy soul decide to slip some more in? The way her face pinched just slightly sent a spark through his mind. Even unhappy, she was adorable.
“Are you also feeling apprehensive about having blood in your food, dearest?” He couldn’t help but tease her. It was almost defiant how slowly she lifted her eyes to acknowledge his question, eyes cold and lips tucked into a small frown.
“I’ve had pig blood dishes before.” With feigned boredom that didn’t match her chilling gaze, she poked the suspect pudding. He wasn’t sure if she was being truthful or if she was calling him a pig.
“Oh? Then dig in, dearest! I thought of this dish especially for you.” To spur everyone into eating, he grabbed his own cutlery to dine. Cutting into the black pudding, he savored the iron taste. Deep and savory, slightly grainy but soft with a little bit of a crisp on the fried areas. He’d done well despite only having had this particular dish only a handful of times. It was delicious, as he’d promised.
Now, would she think the same?
With furtive eyes, he watched her with a rising anticipation that near-eclipsed his apprehension. She knew what it was at the tip of her knife, a secret only they were privy to in the midst of the rowdy dinner table. No more games. No more holding back in fear of driving her away. Just Ynna…and her inability to deny him.
Goosebumps rose along his skin, his suit too tight to contain the unconscious rise of his fur as the familiar blessed electric sensations started their course through his body. Oh, his dearest looked mildly distraught as she bit her toast spread with beans. How cute. No matter how she stalled, he would still get to see her partake in a piece of him. And she’d be damned forever in this Hell by his side where he could keep feeling this…this intoxicating rush only she could give him.
Chaining her…had been the right call.
When she’d nearly cleared everything else on her plate, she turned to the lone black disk made of his blood and loving spite. He’d hoped that the next time he would see her consume his flesh would have been a happier occasion…but those days were far and long in their future for now.
Her silverware glinted with each precise and delicate cut. The woman always moved a bit on the awkward side, still getting used to her hooves and claws, body, instincts and memory going out of sync between her former and current body, but there was a time when she was mindful to the point of grace. When she ate, it was reverent. It set his mind whirring. How lovely she looked, lifting that piece of him into her mouth. Sparks alighted, flickering bursts of joy and pooling desire.
Her eyes glanced up at him as she chewed. His breath hitched. Her eyes sparkled…with unshed tears.
All his pleasure disappeared into a single distant screech.
Chapter 31: The New Way of Things
Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
His usual smiling face should have been expected along with the pain of knowing what was to come. After a night of drinking and ranting as much as you could to Husk and Angel, you waited for that terrorist to intrude upon you like he had been over the last two weeks, only now, you weren’t sure if you could stop him.
Tick. Tock.
The clock on the wall of your room scowled at you after feeling your eyes linger on it too many times. But who could blame you? Minutes and then hours went by but not a peep from the Radio Demon, Mr. Sadistic Fucker at heart with a chatterbox mouth. He hadn’t left you alone before this and now, he was nowhere to be found. Eventually, your apprehension outgrew your patience and you asked the others where he was. Charlie informed everyone that he was too unwell to cook dinner the night before and was likely still feeling sick today since she hadn’t heard from him.
Unwell? When has that man ever been unwell? He was too powerful to ever get hurt. Yet you remembered that time in his en suite. He had a private stash of medical supplies in his room, well stocked and used with expertise. Did he patch himself up every time he sliced something off to feed you? Did he imagine you deliciously eating as he stitched and cleaned the parts of his body that he’d cut? Did he enjoy hurting himself for some strange fixation?
Was he preparing his next fucked up entree right now with sadistic glee?
Disgusting.
Finding joy in deceiving you, using your ignorance for his bliss. Had he ever actually cared about you or was it just his obsession with feeding you? He’d probably lied to you; there was never any real fondness, just an asshole laughing behind his ever-present smile as he led you to the abyss, waiting patiently for you to jump in all on your own. But why had he looked so dead, with a threat on his lips and a collar of your own creation in his hand, when he’d won? For as long as the contract held, you had no choice but to consume him so why…wasn’t he here to gloat and terrorize you?
You didn’t hear from him at all and you wondered if you should just head to his room tonight to get this deal over with. He hadn’t given you any instructions unlike last time so how was he planning to serve his…No way. Was he going to feed you his cursed cuisine at the dinner table!? That—that’s…As the hours ticked on to dinner time and the light tug on your soul pulled, there was no mistaking what stage Alastor set for this new torture.
When his serenely smiling face came into view at the head of the dinner table, your stomach dropped. The fucker really was going to make you do this right under everyone’s noses and he would enjoy your misery the whole while. It was only then that you’d realized, you somehow still believed he was better than this. Even as you’d lowered your expectations of him, scum that he was, the man could still limbo under that bar easily. You clenched your jaw, biting your tongue in restraint.
“Are you also feeling apprehensive about having blood in your food, dearest?” A low casual voice with filtered distortion crooned beside you. Conversational and even excited, not a hint of remorse could be seen on his face. For a moment, it was the usual cheerful Alastor beside you, an easy smile on his lips, eyes curved in mischief, without the underlying caution and guilt that had lingered beneath the facade ever since you dropped his friendship. For a moment, it was just him, the fantastically wonderful him that you’d adored.
A cold vine twisted in your chest. This overly smiling face that you’d found comfort in, the one you thought of as his true gentle side, was actually just the beautifully cunning guise of the Radio Demon.
“I’ve had pig blood dishes before.” Setting the evil little sausage disk to the side, you shrugged. You’d made a promise to try different foods at least once so this wouldn’t be the first time your meal had a little more iron in it than usual. But given some of the dishes he’d served you in the past, you hoped he understood the barb you threw.
“Oh? Then dig in, dearest! I thought of this dish especially for you.” A spark of spite ignited in you, rebellious and outraged at his ‘invitation’ to dine. If you weren’t so sure that he’d enjoy it, you might have bitten his face off for his audacity. As it was, you wished that the knife in your hand could stab him instead. At least those eyes glittering in mischief squinted. He understood what you meant. Hah!
You started on everything else on your plate. Small bites, cutting everything into tiny portions and being mindful to go slow. A small chat with the others between even smaller breaks in the conversation to eat, everything you could do to make him wait without arousing too much suspicion. Yet, from the corner of your eye, he remained nonplussed, even humming as he ate. It made your throat sting with indignation.
For once, you longed for your impulse control to break (if you wanted it back, would he even listen and break the deal?). That way, you’d have an excuse for the sudden violence you would wrought onto the asshole, even if it meant getting torn apart by him. But Charlie was there, happy at the intrigue around the table. Justified as you were to start an all out brawl, the princess wouldn’t be happy to see the bloodshed. You didn’t have the heart to drag her into it either.
You sighed. Time to eat shit.
The sausage was an unappetizing looking morsel, reddish-black in color with flecks of white oats and barley. The crispiest parts were almost as dark as charcoal, with an oily sheen. Your stomach rumbled and your chest tightened. Bile crept up your throat agonizingly slowly. With trepidation and a carefully blank face, you cut into it and prayed that you wouldn’t throw it up with all the rage, disappointment and despair that Alastor had already made you choke through this evening.
You put it in your mouth, this vessel for Alastor’s contempt. For all his words about companionship and affection, his actions only spoke of possessiveness and obsession. Your feelings didn’t matter to him. Neither did your morals. This dinner wasn’t just a way for him to get his fix; it was a declaration of all the power you’d given him over you.
Your eyes fogged with tears you refused to shed.
The blood pudding was delicious and a satisfied warmth filled your belly. You used to think it was the delight of a yummy home-cooked meal…but the energy running through you was familiar. The hum of your inner demon purring as it was fed, subtle without a need to expend the new energy and falsely lulling in its satisfaction. Damn him and his cooking skills. Damn him for damning you. The burning in your throat belied how much you wanted to scream.
With a bitter heart you met his eyes. You hoped that he could feel the torment you were under and would have no delusions about you enjoying this whatsoever. The man was already looking at you, eyes watching the show he was making you perform for him. You expected to see mirth, a sadistic sparkle but instead, he looked shaken. Within those ruby red eyes, something died.
How dare he look forlorn when you were the one choking down this suffering!? A fire burst from the anger that lay smoldering in your chest.
“This is…” He perked up at the first words you’d said to him unprompted, a little bit of light coming into that momentarily pained stare. “Complaints to the chef. I know you can do better than that, Alastor. Because you said it was special, I had high expectations. I’m pretty disappointed.” If he was going to pout, you wanted to make sure it hurt. “It tastes bad.”
You set down your utensils and pushed the plate away. Nothing in the contract said anything about finishing the meal. Between him and the half-eaten dish, you stared at both like they were pebbles in your shoe. Annoying and inconvenient. Something you wanted to toss out so you could get on with your life.
“That’s surprising. I thought it was well-made.” From down the table, Pentious spoke up, a look of confusion adorning his face, oblivious to the static surrounding the Radio Demon growing a little louder as you’d touched a nerve. Alastor was anything but a shitty cook but…
“Hmm. Maybe I just had a shitty batch. It’s okay Alastor. It happens sometimes.” Serenely, you smiled, a snide crook to your lips as you eyed the man whose face had frozen at your blatant provocation. Eyes wide and smile toothless and straining at the edges, that deadened gaze vanished but not before you caught the last traces of something compelling and hungry flash away.
“Well you should adjust your expectations or get a better sense of taste, my dear. I’ll be trying out new recipes in the future that I’m sure you’ll just love. ” He gathered your plate nonchalantly, as if your insults were just a passing breeze. Just as serenely, he regarded you but his eyes narrowed in warning, spelling your future out with a fork to your already bleeding heart.
“I’m sure it’ll taste like shit as long as it’s coming from you.” You stood then, abrupt and nearly knocking your chair back. Throwing your napkin onto the table, you addressed the rest of the group. They all stared between the two of you, likely surprised by your open hostility. A sadness washed over you at having them witness this and not being to explain the root of your animosity. You didn't like being so open about your personal drama but there was no bone in your body that felt a need to show your tormentor even a spec of politeness. “I’m gonna head to bed. Good night everyone.”
Static snapped at the nape of your neck but you ignored it with a sweet smile to all the friends you had left. Charlie was the first to snap out of her shocked stupor, awkwardly waving good night as you walked out with as much dignity as you could muster.
The door slammed behind you as you entered your room, your back to it as you collapsed against the hardwood. The tears that you’d held back in the dining hall finally freed themselves from the confines of your stubbornness.
The food tasted good but the barbs you threw at him tasted better. They made no difference in your situation. If anything, Alastor was likely to retaliate but it didn’t matter. None of it mattered anymore. Green and red foliage caught your attention and the burning heat of your disappointment and hurt faded just a bit. Picking up your watering can, you allowed yourself a blank mind as you carefully watered your potted plants.
Unlike you, they were thriving. You were like them once, doing well in Hell because a certain demon had been by your side, giving you enough attention that eternal damnation had started to feel alright.
Would everything ever feel alright again?
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At around midnight, a low murmur broke the peaceful silence in your room. Your eyes throbbed, still raw from crying when a familiar voice started announcing his guests on tonight’s radio. He introduced a new segment, calling on his lovely listeners to write to him about their favorite recipes, followed by a short song break. You walked to your desk where a small plastic radio sat, innocently playing a sweet jazzy tune. It was a welcoming gift from the demon when you’d joined the hotel. Small and cheap, probably his least favorite of the radios he’d collected over the years but it made the perfect gift for a new sinner who didn’t know of him yet.
At the time, you didn’t own much and the little radio became one of the first luxuries you’d owned in the afterlife. You were grateful enough that you listened to his radio show no matter how distasteful some segments were. With a tired hand, you hovered over the On/Off button, a small impulse halting you as the melody kept playing.
Drained emotionally, the lovely voice drifting from the small device soothed the raw edges of your consciousness. Soft piano notes danced with a trumpeter's serenade as it lulled you. At least, he wasn’t playing the classic screams into the night. Just one song. Then you would turn it off.
The singer crooned her sweet song, the old timey pace and sound of her voice scratching just the right parts of your brain. Unbidden, memories flowed into your mind. A phantom weight settled on your arm where he would be, walking you down the halls without a need for conversation. When these songs would play and it was enough for you both.
Static crackled and a tenor took over.
After you've gone and left me cryin'
After you've gone there's no denyin'
You'll feel blue, you'll feel sad
You'll miss the dearest pal you've ever had
You stared as song continued with just its instrumental, growing slower and distorted with each second before returning to that casual melody. What a dramatic asshole.
“Good night, my dear.” The voice from the radio bid you directly in your ear.
You sighed. He couldn’t let you enjoy even one thing. You chucked the offending little radio out the window.
Alastor’s POV
It wasn’t anger that led him up into the tower. No. It felt more complex, churning in his chest with a suffocating way as he spent the rest of the evening cleaning up after dinner. Another evening where his usual helper was absent and all that was left to him were dirty dishes and an empty kitchen.
He studied that feeling, having noted its start when her despair had been apparent. The phantom sensations of her teeth on his skin as she chewed had been divine up until the moment he met those eyes. Painted only in sadness and hurt and not an ounce of emotion that was directed at him, his own mind became tainted with the colors of her despair.
The electricity dancing in his veins, the soft heat pooling in his gut, the shivers as he imagined those lips on his wrist were washed away by her unshed tears. He’d wanted to lick those pesky droplets, to kiss the corners of her eyes and drink her despair until she had no more to give and he could only take her pain away through her mouth. But then those eyes sparked with a fire and her lips delivered barbs.
The delicate woman in front of him turned petulant, sarcastic and defiant, and the sparks returned to his mind.
“I’m sure it’ll taste like shit as long as it’s coming from you.” Her eyes rolled as she stood roughly and his hands itched to grab her then. So she wasn’t afraid to openly disrespect him now was she? His eyes twitched in repressed annoyance but he preferred this. Weak and unable to fight him, she still tried in her own way. Desire and delight at her challenge sent him smiling. Adorable little thing. He couldn’t help but want to taste her venom directly from her tongue.
Unfortunately, before he could sass her back, she already turned away, a soft smile on her lips as she turned to everyone else. His eyes locked onto that gentle curve and that resonating sadness of hers washed through him again, dousing those sparks before they could turn aflame. She beamed her affection at them, and he remained in its shadow. She didn’t even bother to acknowledge him as she left.
He leaned into his leather chair, microphone in hand as he chattered away to his scattered audience. Though he’d secured her by his side, guaranteed her consumption of his dishes for eternity, it did not bring him joy. Hahaha. His dearest never made things simple for him. No matter. Bitter as the experience was this evening, there had been an unmistakable sweetness in her fire.
And that sweetness, small and fragile, was all the more precious now that her affection was no longer his to bask in. He caught the signal from her radio, the little device broadcasting his show and still turned on almost ten minutes in. With just a bit of concentration, the little bit of magick he channeled into the device resonated with his own within her.
Thump.
She was listening.
The corners of his mouth stretched upwards, a zing rushing through him. Oh, his poor little dearest. Hate him as she must but she could never escape him. A little song by Ruth Etting came to mind. He sang to her, a final reminder of the consequences of her abandonment. Almost immediately, he lost the signal of the little device.
When the broadcast ended, he let himself into her room. Standing at her bedside, the woman slept softly and unguarded.
“Anything.” He desired anything she would give him. Her affection, her hate. Her joy and her pain. He wanted it all.
She shifted slightly, falling deeper into slumber. His eyes traced over her features, a weight lifted from his chest when the lightest tugged of his magick lit the connecting chains between them. That long ago dream had offered this woman to him and he craved it with a depravity that surprised even himself. To think he’d have to force a woman to be by his side.
He squashed the rising self-contempt. He’d never been a good man. This was just another side of himself, one more facet that only she has ever brought about. It was only right that she took responsibility for it.
His shadow materialized by his side, a little radio in its hands. The shell was cracked and several parts were now in the palm of the shade’s hands. How cruel of her to throw out his gift. With a wave of his finger, the little object was repaired. Couldn’t have her missing his broadcasts now, could he?
He smiled and placed it on the bedside table for her to see when she woke. He watched her peaceful breaths for a moment longer.
Ynna’s POV
“So how’s the job hunt goin’?”
“It’s going.” Today’s lunch was at Billy and Stu’s, your new favorite place to meet up with Angel in the last few days. Though busy with his own work, the actor still took the time to text you about meeting up. He and Husk seemed to have decided to keep a closer eye on you these days. At least, until you found a new routine to fit what your afterlife’s turned into.
After that evening, you couldn’t stomach being in the same room as Alastor. Seeing his face made you irrationally angry, the kind that would have put Charlie’s interview with Katie Killjoy to shame. For his part, he smiled like nothing was wrong, finding your restrained irritation amusing. It was infuriating how smug he was but more than anger, there was dread. He hadn’t asked you to partake in another plate à la piece of shit but he could. At any time he wanted to, he could tug at your soul to do it. For some reason, he just hadn’t yet.
You weren’t sure if he had to verbally ask it of you, it was also possible that he just needed to think it and you’d be compelled, but that didn’t stop you from avoiding the words anyway. It was why you were out looking for a job now. The less time spent at the hotel, at anywhere near the demon’s vicinity, the lower your blood pressure would be.
“Y’know…I wouldn’t totally recommend it, but there are jobs with the other Vees you could take. It would piss Creepy Face off if ya worked for his rivals.”
“I would be storming into that porn studio the moment you started shooting and that’d get us both in trouble.” You flatly told him. The only one you could hate more than Alastor was Valentino. It was visceral, the way a fire ignited in your chest at the mention of Angel’s boss. And unlike the hate you felt for your former friend, the disdain you felt for the moth wasn’t dampened by self-deprecation.
“Yeah. And I doubt Vox or Velvet are any better than Val. You’re right. That was a dumb idea.” Angel played with the complimentary mint and toothpicks at the table, playing hockey with the tiny set as he tried not to sigh in defeat.
“Why is every place shit?” Whether it was working conditions, compensation or available hours, everything sucked. You could smell the sexual harassment, workplace drama and near-slave labor conditions as soon as you started talking with the hiring manager. It wasn’t even that you expected to find employment that didn’t have those things attached, this was Hell after all; it was that you valued your safety and all of these places would end up killing you in one way or another within your first month. You could just feel it.
“Are you sure this is the only way you can avoid Creepy Face?”
“Um..”
“It’s not like I can tell just him to fuck off. it doesn’t work and Charlie already tried. He wouldn’t listen to her either.” The man had shrugged off the princess’ pleas to stay away from you saying it was rude. As a resident within the hotel, asking him to accommodate your new ‘sensitivity’ around him would hinder him doing his job, according to the man. As bullshit as that was, Charlie did expect him to observe, if not participate, in her betterment exercises and running around the hotel to put out fires was his duty. Unless you wanted to remain locked in your room all the time, finding reasons to be out and about was your only option. It was already nice of her to tolerate your feud with the man despite how awkward she must have felt witnessing it day in and day out.
“You’ve been trying all the desk job stuff. How ‘bout a service job? You like coffee, right? You can try being a barista or something.”
“Excuse me—“
“Hm. To be honest, I didn’t want to deal with rude customers.” Taking a sip of the half-drank coffee in the weighty diner mug served as a good treat. It was so rare to find diners and fast food places that had a decent brew. Another reason why you kept coming back to this restaurant, other than the food and ambiance.
“Why do ya even need a job? It’s not like you’re hurting for cash.”
“I need something to do and spending Charlie’s money makes me feel guilty.” It wasn’t just that you needed a reason to be out and away from Alastor. You needed a distraction. This whole situation has taken up the forefront of your mind and you needed something else in there. Something that would stave off the suffocation you felt when left alone with your thoughts for too long.
You picked up the mug again only to find that you’d already drained it. Only then did you look up from where you’d slouched against the booth in your contemplative mood to flag a waiter for a refill. You barely turned to your side when a big screaming mask appeared up close to your face.
“Excuse me!” Came a small squeaky voice loudly from the person. They were probably the smallest staff there, just a foot taller than the table height. The black cloak they wore as a uniform dwarfed them even further, making for a cute yet awfully small ghostface. The little thing perked up at being noticed. Even yelling, and you assumed that was their yelling voice, was small. “I finally got your attention.”
“Yes! I’m sorry. Have you been there awhile?” You were mortified as the small masked server nodded. Weren’t you just talking about not wanting to deal with rude customers? Yet here you were being a bit rude even if you weren’t completely at fault for not noticing them earlier.
“Would you like to refill your coffee?” Small hands covered by the sleeves of their cloak held up a steaming coffee pot.
“Yes please. Thank you.” To make up for not noticing them, you tried to be extra polite and grateful. The server paused, their tense posture relaxing just a bit. They seemed pleased by your attitude but you couldn’t be sure since their face was covered.
“Thank you again. The coffee here is really good.”
“Oh you’re very welcome anytime.” The little ghostface waved off your gratitude shyly. “Actually, I hope you don’t mind but I overheard your conversation. We’re hiring more servers right now if you’re interested. The owners didn’t think the restaurant would get so popular so we’re a little understaffed.” Their soft whispery voice spoke from behind the mask. “But it’s okay if you don’t! I know this job’s not for everyone but you seem really nice so I thought it could work for you and I’ve seen you here a few times now so I'm sure you like this place and…”
The little ghostface kept talking in their sweet little voice, rambling more and more as they got flustered. It was ridiculously adorable. You caught Angel’s eye and the man didn’t look at all inclined to stop the poor thing. He thought it was cute too.
“…and the pay is pretty nice too. So I hope you’ll apply if that interests you.” They finally seemed to run out of steam and you could somehow imagine the pale screaming mask blushing at you just from their tone.
“Thanks. Do I ask for an application form from the manager?” By the end of their cute ramble, the little ghostface had already captured your heart. Even if you hadn’t been interested in the job, you would have applied anyway just to support them. It was obvious that they weren’t the most extroverted of people yet they were trying very hard to talk to you.
“Oh! I can get that for you.” And off the little server went, weaving through passing taller demons' legs in their pitch black cloak.
“Well that was fuckin’ cute. Don’t think I’ve seen someone that sweet ever.”
“Aww and here I thought I was the sweetest thing you’ve ever met in Hell.”
“Looks like you’ve got competition.” Angel’s eyes followed where the little ghostface went, seeing them scurry back with a form in hand. You watched them weave and dodge and excuse themselves with the smallest of voices.
“I happily accept defeat.” The corners of your mouth lifted up.
“Do you need a pen?” The flushed little masked server chirped when they returned to your table and you couldn’t help but chuckle.
Chapter 32: Extra: The First Sleepover
Summary:
Takes place after the events of chapter 20. A little snippet of the morning after the party and the shift in their dynamic.
Notes:
Posting this to celebrate reaching 100K hits!
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Chapter Text
Alastor’s POV
She didn’t take her hand back from him.
As her breathing evened out and her pulse quieted to a steady rhythm, her hand remained held by his own. The marks where he’d bitten her stood out against her skin. He turned those fingers gently, using the light of the fire to reaffirm his work.
A part of him still could not believe that she’d allowed him a nibble. Another part of him reveled in it. Foolish little one, offering penance for a non-offense. And oh how she offered it! Freely and unafraid. He didn’t expect her to agree when he’d jokingly asked for it but how she proved him wrong.
Fire danced in his veins as he replayed the last few moments.
She’d held his gaze, reassuring and unflinching, a spark of curiosity briefly dancing in those entrancing depths at the first prickles of his teeth. He had wanted to continue watching her, to see her reactions. Would she be pained? Disgusted? Would she regret it? Would it be possible that she felt the same desire she’d awakened in him now that she watched him partake of her?
But her stare remained sincere, soft and caring, just like his dream. He closed his eyes, not wanting to break that image. It brought about heightened familiar sensations and he didn’t want her to see the things that screamed in the back of his gaze.
He’d gotten everything from her this evening. Her company, her bite, her laughter and her delight. Now, she even offered her flesh for him to chew on. What else could he ask for? His heart hammered in his chest as the first copper drops hit his tongue. It took everything in him not to make a sound when all the nerves in his body rang with joy and dark delight. They rippled and sang, urging him to take on his demonic form and run wild. To devour and be devoured. He’d eaten countless sinners before yet none of them could compare to the few drops of her life’s essence, freely given.
His mind felt foggy, overtaken with a need to savor the moment and bask in its proximity to his ideal. Proximity, yes. Even though fire and electric delight rushed in his veins, something howled in the back of his mind that it wasn’t enough. Not yet.
He wanted more. So much more. To feel her breath against his skin again, to feel her warmth as she threatened to tear through him. For her to know exactly what she did to him, how she fed this insanity that had bloomed in the wake of her carelessness, and for her to keep doing it. For him. He had half a mind to show her exactly that, to take her under him and let her feel ALL that she did to him. Let her take responsibility for it. But the pulse fluttering from where his fingers lightly held her wrist, tempered his half-delirious state.
Patience. He needed patience. He took as much as he could from the cuts he made, reminding himself of all the mental exercises she’d put him through to hide this frightening desire from her. It was a blessing that she’d given in this much already. He should be thankful and satisfied, for now.
And the reward for keeping up a calm facade?
She didn’t take her hand back from him.
It was as much permission as he needed to stay beside her this evening. Even as his insides buzzed violently in victory, he didn’t need to chant his way into the dream realm this time.
Ynna’s POV
The bright rays of the Pentagram streamed from your window, hitting at just the right angle to irritate your eyes. A minor headache attacked your foggy brain before everything cleared up and you fully awoke. The memory of last night returned to you. Out of curiosity, you turned to the spot next to you, wondering if the Radio Demon had decided to leave some time after you fell asleep.
What greeted you was a black swirling mass, tendrils of smoke and shadow wisps rising at least two feet tall and spreading across your bedroom floor. They swirled over and around you like a dark fog. They felt like nothing and if you hadn’t opened your eyes, you wouldn’t have even known they were there.
Were you still asleep? What kind of unconscious thoughts floated in your head to give you such a strange dream? As you tried to sit up, a slight pull weighed tugged at your arm. One of your hands disappeared into that black mass, tendrils creeping up to your elbow. For a moment, you were mesmerized by the soft curling motions.
You followed the numb line of your arm to see two harshly glowing red dials floating in the darkness. The moment you saw them, static screeched high and the tendrils shot up to your face quickly. You screamed.
“Ahhh fucking shit!!”
Scrambling backwards, you yanked your hand back. Your elbows scraped against the carpet as you tumbled around the pillow mountain you’d been sleeping on. The slight burn was enough for you to think that this might not be a dream after all which meant you were in danger. A velvety pillow with lots of buttons was immediately grabbed to use as a weapon or shield against that monster.
At your scream, the mass shifted, first getting bigger as if to engulf the room before it retreated into the figure of a person, Alastor. The redhead groaned as he came to consciousness, a snarl of a smile on his face as his eyes adjusted to the lighting and he tried to understand what was going on.
“What are you doing?” He hissed, eyes back to normal as they narrowed against the light.
“Me? What about you? Why were you covered in shadows? What was that thing?” You stared at him in disbelief, slowly trying to piece together an explanation for what you saw. Cautiously, you crawled closer to him, unsure of whether this truly was your friend and not a mimic or something. When he looked at you like he was about to suffocate you with the pillow you held, you elaborated on the shadow mass that had been occupying his space just seconds ago.
“Ah. That.” He scrubbed a hand down his face, a look of utter pain and misery evident in the way his eyes glared at nothing in particular. “That’s just how I sleep. The shadows offer protection when I’m unconscious.”
“Oh.” It made sense. Someone like him would have had more defenses given he was so powerful. The shadow mass had been ominous and big enough to devour you into its pitch black nothingness. Anyone who happened upon it would have thought twice about approaching.
Even now, safe in the knowledge that it was just your friend, your heart still pounded, mind on alert for danger. Still, a giggle bubbled up your throat before bursting out. What a relief and what a stupidly creepy thing to turn into in your sleep. Alastor was such a freaky man.
“What’s so funny?”
“Nothing. I just learned something new about you today.” Now that the danger was sorted out, you got a chance to see the usually elegant man look pouty and disgruntled. His eyes stayed narrowed and his hair stuck out in places. There were visible wrinkles in his suit and a slump to his posture. It was so different from his polished appearance yet still so very him.
“Well, go learn it a little more quietly. I have a terrible headache.” He scoffed before grabbing your pillow shield, plopping back down on your floor and laying on his side away from you. He shimmied out of his coat and made himself comfortable, grunting and scoffing as he dealt with what must have been a huge hangover, you realized. It was terribly bratty behavior, acting like he owned the spot where he curled up.
You had to bite your tongue to stop yourself from laughing some more. It was cute of him. And who ever thought you’d associate cute with Alastor of all people? But there he was, about as graceful as a toddler threatening to throw a plushie at you. In your mind, you cooed at him. Poor little radio deer, having to deal with the consequences of alcohol consumption.
“I can hear you laughing.” He snarled, voice rough, and you couldn’t help the grin that broke out on your face.
“I swear I’m over here just breathing.” He turned on his side to face you, still scowling. You were aware that your face betrayed how amusing you thought he looked and he certainly did not like it. Of course, you felt like rubbing it in.
You laid down to rest on your stomach until you were face to face with his scowling too-early-in-the-morning-for-this countenance. Come to think of it, wasn’t this just a reversal of how you both lounged about last night? Alastor on his stomach while you laid there looking at him.
The only difference was that only one of you was having a good time right now.
“How are you so chipper?”
“I get drunk fast which means I don’t drink nearly enough to leave me hungover.” It was a lovely perk of being lightweight. Never overspend on alcohol and you rarely, if ever, had a hangover. You felt pretty cheeky, seeing his ears pull back. It was cute even though it was a sign of annoyance. Still, teasing a cranky Alastor too much sounded like a recipe for disaster.
Standing up with your legs that you just noticed no longer stung, you stretched until all the funny tension left you. Looking down at the unimpressed demon, still squinting in the morning light, you couldn’t help but think that it was nice to have sleepovers like this. If only to be able to see him so petulant and carefree.
“I’m going to make breakfast. Do you want me to bring you some?” With a whispery voice, you offered.
“Urghh. That reminds me. I need to make food.” Sluggishly, he sat up, face twisted in his smiling version of a snarl. He looked ready to murder somebody.
“I doubt anyone else is awake so I think it’ll be fine if you skip cooking today. I can take over too if needed.”
“…you can cook?”
“You thought I couldn’t? I’m a full grown adult, you know? Anyway, did you want food? Or coffee?”
“Caffeine sounds excellent, right now. Allow me to escort you.” His long legs started to curl under him, taking much more effort to stand than it should have. It was sad and funny. You stopped him.
Even as in pain as he was, little pieces of his usual proper exterior were already shifting back into place. His posture slightly straightened and he made an effort to soften his scowl. You felt it a pity that the loose and unrefined him only lasted a few short minutes. You placed a hand on his shoulder, telling him not to get up.
It took only a light press for him to obediently pause and you couldn’t help but capture some of his fringe in your fingertips. You played with the smooth ends before carding your fingers through them, fixing a fly away strand back into place. He didn’t flinch nor fling you off as you did so and it caused a surge of last night’s adoration for him to return to you.
“No. It’s fine. I can go by myself and bring up some for you. Are you going back to your suite? You can feel free to stay here till you feel better too.” He stared at you for a little bit, static crunching loudly like white noise. You imagined a little beeping screech to go with it. It made his irritated blank look even funnier to compare him to a dial up router trying to connect to the Internet.
He must’ve noticed that you were mentally making fun of him because his eye twitched. Playfully, he snapped at your hand which you immediately took out of range of his teeth. You personally knew how sharp they were now and weren’t interested in knowing how it would hurt if the man actually wanted to weaponize them.
But he was acting loose again and he clutched one of your pillows to his chest with a huff. Guess he was staying.
You smiled at that and took it as your cue to leave. As you stepped out the door, you turned back to him who was just squinting crankily at the spot where you had stood. Oh this poor guy. For someone who drank so much, he was really bad with hangovers.
“Feel free to move to the bed if you wanna go back to sleep.” With that, you closed the door and went to go get breakfast.
Alastor’s POV
How aggravating. The light in the room was too bright as Ynna kept her windows open to let pentagram light in for her plants. It stung his eyes and contributed greatly to the blasted headache behind them. And then there was the goat herself, chipper and happy first thing in the morning. And it was morning. The little clock on the wall said it was a little passed 8.
She was too happy while he sat here in misery.
While he knew that he had consumed more alcohol than usual, he hadn’t thought it was to this extent. He must’ve presented quite a sorry appearance since Ynna, for all her efforts to stifle her amusement, was actually not putting in that much effort in doing so. The little brat.
His ears picked up everything, senses hightened just to torture him some more. Her soft breaths as she faced him, the crunch of her hooves against the carpet. He had half a mind to pin her down with his shadows so she would stop moving and he could go back to sleep but then she offered to make coffee. With her sweet eyes watching him, she brushed his hair with her fingers. Some of his irritation melted away with those fleeting touches and he wondered why he’d taken so long to permit her this casual contact. Clearly, they both enjoyed it.
When she asked if he wished to stay, his sensibilities told him it was inappropriate to do so. But he was neither in the mood to care about decorum nor inclined to leave the perfectly comfortable space they inhabited together. The choice seemed obvious.
As she left, his mind finally processed her parting words. He eyed her bed, noting the other blankets and pillows still on it. Since she offered anyway…
He shadowed under the covers, digging his head under the small plush pile of cushions to block out the light. In the comfortable darkness, her scent surrounded him. It massaged that constant pulsing ache behind his eyes and he found himself starting to drift off to sleep again.
She really was too unassuming, too open to sharing her space with her friends. But at least she opened that space to him…and he was all too happy to take advantage as he dug into the knitted blankets and linen sheets, letting his eyes rest.
The next time he opened his eyes, it was half an hour later and Ynna had brought in a tray of food. Toast, scrambled eggs, bacon and strawberries were neatly arranged on two plates. A carafe of coffee and their mugs right next to it. He eyed her mug. They’d bought it during one of their lunches. She had laughed when she saw the design saying ‘I wet my plants’ and instantly bought the thing.
They ate breakfast that morning sat in her bed and true to her word, he stayed and enjoyed the comfort of her room until he was ready to leave hours later.
Coffee that morning had been delicious.
Notes:
Giving them the ship name SoundBites
Chapter 33: Interventions
Notes:
ohhh I'm trying to keep on top of this but things have been getting busier with work as we near the end of the year. RIP my free time and stress-free mind. Thank you again everyone for loving this story!
Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
Your arms hurt. Your feet did too. Really, most of your body hurt. After a decent interview, you landed a waitressing role at Billy and Stu’s. A little over a week at your new job and you were finally settling in. That didn’t mean your body could keep up with the workload just yet but you were getting there. After learning the menu, the hiring manager, Monica, quickly pushed you to work. It was exhausting. Not only were you constantly walking back and forth, taking orders while juggling plates of food, but you were also made to do everything while wearing the uniform, a screaming mask and flowing black cloak.
Both articles were hazardous to your job and when you brought it up to Monica, the manager was all too happy to explain ways to customize the outfit for mobility while still maintaining the cartoonish appeal. You might have admired her for taking your concerns so seriously if you hadn’t realized that her passion for tailoring stemmed from having a keen eye for practical outfits for murder. The whole conversation took a tangent when she started discussing whether skirts would be a good alternative to the floor length cloak versus a baggy pair of pants. Both would be good to hide weapons nicely but which one had better style? (Well, it was still admirable though you were a little more wary of her for it.)
Your other coworkers weren’t much different, all of them romanticizing murder (the act of it, the drama) or serial killers to a big extent. Though it took a few days, you caught on to their mostly harmless natures. It seemed Billy and Stu’s had attracted and hired a bunch of horror movie enthusiasts and people with adjacent interests. It was all fun so long as no one tried to sink their ‘prop’ knives into you.
With a tired stretch, you entered the hotel lobby with your backpack containing your uniform slung loosely over one shoulder. It was pretty late into the evening, with everyone meandering about before going to bed. You’d missed dinner and that was by design.
“I’m back.” You waved to Charlie. After you’d gotten your job and your shift made you come home late at night, the princess took up a new routine, reading or working on the little lounge at the foyer while she waited for you to come home. It was sweet, how she worried about your safety. She’d even offered Razzle and Dazzle to drive you around though you politely turned her down. The two little goats seemed uncomfortable with the idea of being too far away from their ward and a waitress getting driven around would invite trouble.
Of course, Angel had to quip about her blatant favoritism to which the princess rushed to explain herself. She’d wait for Angel too but the man didn’t really tell her when he was supposed to be home and she didn’t want him to feel like he had to tell her…though it would be nice. She worried about him a lot too. Faced with Charlie’s concern, the spider visibly softened, his teasing turning into an awkward fluster which ended with a non-committal promise to check in more often. The blush on his face only disappeared when you elbowed him gently in support.
The princess looked up from the papers scattered along the coffee table and waved at you too. Her enthusiastic smile and cheer would have been infectious had it not been for the demon sitting next to her. Alastor sat primly by her side, the crayon in his hand doing nothing to dampen the picturesque image he presented.
“Welcome back, my dear. We missed you at dinner again.” His smiling expression didn’t shift at all as he greeted you and that’s how you knew he was pouting. With your new job and avid avoidance, your interactions with the man dwindled to just a few passing glances or scenarios where the two of you had to be in the same room together. By some miracle, the man didn’t cling to you as heavily as before though he did try to be around. Passing by you in the hallways, deliberately starting conversations or just making targeted commentary about you, he made sure that even on your busiest days, you wouldn’t forget he existed. And though he remained smiling and cheerful, he never failed to signal his disapproval of your antics every chance he got. Well tough shit. You weren’t willing to be around him any more than was necessary.
“Can’t help it. This was the only shift available.” Of course, that was a lie but they didn’t need to know that. With your interest in being in this room sapped to zero, you shrugged and went your way to your room. “Good night, Charlie.”
Charlie’s POV
Things at the hotel were tense lately and the cause of it all was Alastor and Ynna. Something big happened between them as they went from being the closest of friends to Ynna being upset to…whatever this was.
She watched the goat walk away, pointedly ignoring the hotelier who sat calmly as if he hadn’t been snubbed. If not for the small flicks of his ears as Ynna passed by, she wouldn’t have caught onto his irritation. Lifting a piece of paper to study her proposed plans, he cut an elegant yet oddly threatening figure. Not exactly new given how detached he was from most things but ever since this spat between the two, she couldn’t help but think that within that natural grace was a hint of loneliness, one the man hid very well.
She wished it was just a case of Ynna giving Alastor the cold shoulder but this was more than that. The young woman spent less time at the hotel and went from being her sweet and relaxed self to being prickly and broody whenever Alastor was in the same room. At least she wasn’t being as openly hostile towards him anymore. She wouldn’t know how to stop an all out fight between the two without someone getting hurt. And wasn’t that surprising? Ynna was the calmest of the group yet she was hurting enough now to lash out.
“Hey Alastor, what happened between you two? Why is she so mad at you?” She was almost sure that whatever happened was mostly the demon’s fault but she still wanted to check. While Alastor wasn’t exactly the nicest guy, Ynna was very gracious about his crueler side. Despite insults, jabs or even the occasional sadistic shows he put on, the goat remained fond of the guy. They made the cutest pair. So what could have happened for her to turn so completely against him? Maybe she could do something to help them make up.
She waited. She didn’t really expect the man to tell her anything. He kept his secrets so close to his chest, just a monolith of mystery that offered his services to her hotel out of boredom. Ynna was probably the only one in the hotel he would have confided anything in, if at all, but with the way they were now…They used to be so close that it hurt to watch them at each other’s throats.
Red eyes turned to her, a subtle quirk in his brows as if he just remembered that she was there at all. Though his expression didn’t change, the aura around him did. As if the shadows and light bent under his will, they cast a grave atmosphere around the lounging demon.
“I’m afraid that’s a problem between me and her and I’d rather keep it that way.” Contrary to what she expected, the Radio Demon didn’t wave off her concerns as he usually did. Nothing about how this was just a temporary thing. Nothing to diminish the scale of the situation. He wasn’t even pretending that it didn’t affect him. Instead, he looked at her, plainly stating his boundaries.
“But—“ Her heart constricted at his rejection. She really wanted to help but he stopped her with a small hop to his feet, smoothing out the wrinkles in his slacks and coat.
“I think it’s time for me to retire as well, dear. Have a good rest of your evening and do try to get some rest. You’re starting to overthink things.” And there was that usual cheer. As if that moment of his straightforward response hadn’t occurred at all, he twirled his staff and dismissed her. And yes. Even though he was the one walking away, the way his eyes looked at her and then looked away left her feeling like a nuisance. Like a child with silly ideas.
Well. He was wrong about that. With a renewed determination, she sent a text out.
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“Okay everyone. Thanks for coming here even though it’s a bit late.” In one of the unused meeting rooms, she gathered everyone but Ynna and Alastor.
“So what’s this about Tootsie Roll and Smiles?” Angel leaned against the heavy wooden conference table, his long limbs casually holding his weight.
“So, I’m sure everyone’s noticed the tension between those two.”
“Yes. It’s been rather awkward. It feels incredibly strange seeing Ms. Ynna insult Mr. Alastor.” Pentious, dressed in a sleeping shirt and nightcap, hissed from a sofa across the room. His Egg Bois sat in various states of consciousness beside him. Everyone agreed with his statement.
“It’s been pretty weird not seeing her in the hotel. Alastor’s been in a bad mood a lot too.” Niffty pointed out, spiny legs crossed beneath her nightie and a thoughtful pout on her face.
“Exactly. Ynna hasn’t been around as much and when she is, she’s upset or a bit depressed. And like Niffty said, Alastor may act like nothing’s wrong but I’m starting to sense that he’s been in a bad mood too. I’m not sure what went on between the two of them but I’m hoping we, as their friends, can help them fix it.”
“Hold on now, princess. You can’t possibly mean—“ Husk perked up from his side of the table, a frown on his face when he caught on to what she was suggesting.
“That’s right! I think it’s time for an intervention.” From the small stack of papers next to her, she pulled out the little doodles she made. One of them was of Ynna and Alastor holding hands. “We all know how close those two were and clearly, whatever fight they’re having is hurting the both of them. But people don’t want to talk things out when they’re upset so I think we should try to make an environment where the two of them can get their feelings out and work on their problems together.”
“You don’t even know why they’re fighting.” Crossing his arms, Husk pointed out one of the flaws of her plan. “For all you know, it might not be something they can just talk their way out of.”
“I know that. I tried to ask them both but they didn’t want to share.” It saddened her. From Alastor’s plain rejection to Ynna’s solemn quietness, neither party seemed inclined to say what they were feeling. But it was clear to her that neither of them liked the situation but were too stubborn to fix it. “Do you guys know anything?”
“Listen, princess. Alastor aside, don’t you think the kid would tell you if she wanted help? She ain’t shy about asking and she clearly isn’t scared of Alastor.” With a sigh, Husk tried to talk her out of it. There was a slight impatience in his voice that he held back for her sake.
“I gotta agree with Whiskers here, Charlie. Ynna’s good with her emotions and stuff. She’s mature like that. I’m sure, if she wants to make up with Smiles, she can figure out how to do it or ask for help.” Even Angel vetoed her suggestion.
“I just…it’s so hard to watch them fight like this.”
“We know.” Angel slinked around to the side of the table closest to her and sat. His usual sarcasm was absent in the downturn of his lips and helpless narrowing of his eyes. It seemed he’d already tried to talk to Ynna and that hadn’t worked either. If even Angel couldn’t help, should they just give up? No. They couldn’t. The somber mood in the room showed everyone’s concern for the two. Even the happy-go-lucky Egg Bois were listening in and miming how a confrontation would go between Ynna and Alastor. In their scenario, the two would make up. Isn’t that what everyone wanted to see?
“Then how about just getting them to talk to each other? It doesn’t have to be about their fight but maybe we can get them to be less…angry? Maybe then they can eventually broach the topic.” They had to try something. Even baby steps to get the two to make up would be fine. She felt a tugging in her heart that needed to see the twosome happy again or better than the quiet anger and staunch avoidance.
“You can try to do that. But don’t try to force the two to make up, princess. It’ll be a bad time for everyone if it goes wrong.” Husk looked away and bid everyone good night. The little hope in her heart for his approval deflated. He wanted no part in her plans. And Angel, while giving her a helpless smile and shrug, followed suit.
At best, the others gave lackluster support, not really confident that they could do anything to make Alastor cooperate and even less certain about how to handle Ynna as they’d never ever seen the quiet goat upset. The room eventually emptied, leaving just her and Vaggie.
She sighed. Okay. She didn’t expect their full on support but she did think that they would be more open to the idea of it. Instead, all she received were precautions.
A small hand wrapped around her waist and her petite girlfriend nestled into her side. She looked at her and found the woman gently coaxing her with a questioning gaze.
“Do you think it’s a bad idea too, Vaggie?” The petite woman slipped her hand into hers and gave it a gentle squeeze.
“I think your intentions are in the right place. But Husk is right. It’s hard to predict what would happen since we don’t know why they’re like this.” Ever the rock solid support that she was, Vaggie looped an arm around her waist, holding her close so she didn’t feel Like she was facing this problem with her friends alone.
“I honestly think they just need to talk. I mean, we do that when we fight.” She hugged her back, appreciating the comfort now that she’d been rejected multiple times today. The light scent of lavender filled her lungs and calmed the distress she felt.
“And we’re a couple.” Vaggie pulled back to look into her eyes, face so close that she was tempted by her breath tickling against her nose. She was so unbelievably sweet as she tried to explain. She was trying to talk her out of it too. Was she really so wrong? Looking into her pink and yellow eye, she only found love and warmth in them, her own face reflecting back that same sentiment to her lover. It was a familiar treasured stare.
“But they look at each other like I look at you.” She’d seen the many glances and looks those two held for each other, a matching fondness and appreciation for the other expressed in the minute flicks of eyes and quirks of lips. She’d even caught a few times Ynna pulled on Alastor’s sleeve and the man only moved closer to her, welcoming and heading the goat’s call.
“I’m not sure if they were going out but I definitely saw that they care about each other a lot. I mean, Ynna insulted Alastor to his face and she’s still just stewing and mad at him. If it were anyone else, he would have probably tried to scare the shit out of them or worse. And Ynna might be avoiding him but I’ve seen the way she just looks so sad sometimes like she misses him. As long as they care about each other, how could they not try to fix their relationship?” She held her girlfriend’s hand, trying to imagine ever being so upset with her that she’d stay away like Ynna was. She didn’t think it was possible.
“It’s not that easy, hun.” Vaggie trailed a hand over her cheek, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear. “But maybe they just need a little push in the right direction.”
“You think so?”
“I do. We just have to be mindful not to push them too hard, okay?”
“Okay. Thanks honey.”
Alastor’s POV
Bored and slightly irritated eyes looked up at him and away. His own traced over her unhappy features. How long had it been since they’d been in such close proximity to each other? Not since the silly little goat found herself a job and made a point to stay out late, at least. It was just as well as he was finding the few moments they happened to be in the same room quite irritating. Every time she looked at him with tempered contempt, gaze lacking the warmth that once shined so prettily in her eyes, he’d wanted to grab her and shake some sense into her. They were stuck together for all of eternity so why must she make this so difficult? If she would only retract her hatred and offer her devotion to him once again, they could return to how things were.
Yes. He knew that was an impossibility caused by his own hand but that didn’t stop him from seeking even just a sliver of reluctance from her. Just a small sign that showed that there was a possibility of their relationship recovering in the future, even if it was decades from now. And when he found none of that, the bottomless pit within him wanted to just swallow her whole, to bind her to him more completely.
This ongoing pattern of rising irritation and ravenous disappointment wore at his patience yet he still craved the zing that rushed through his body whenever their eyes met, still searched for something that would not be there. Still searching for it now though he kept his own furtive gaze on the goat pleasantly unenthused.
“Charlie, can I get a new partner for this?” Ynna requested, chagrin thinly lining her voice as to not whine but clearly show her disapproval of the current arrangement. Did she not notice the not-so-subtle way the princess deliberately paired them together? It seemed her royal highness had finally deemed it appropriate to mediate the friction between them.
Another nosy speck. Irritation crawled up his spine, thoughts gnashing at the memory of the last time someone tried to intervene uninvited. Yet, as Ynna’s eyes flicked up to him again after being denied a different partner, that irritation ebbed away into a wistful drawl. Since the opportunity presented itself, he would savor her forced company, a light thrumming filling his chest.
“Oh come now, my dear, surely you can be patient enough for dear Charlie’s little exercise.” That seemed to placate the woman. Always so helpless when faced with the matter of disappointing Charlie. How loathsome to see the stark difference in her regard for him and the princess.
She didn’t even bother to acknowledge him, instead looking to Charlie to explain what this new activity would be about. The backbone she’d grown was both a great annoyance and a great treat.
“Thank you for cooperating. So today’s exercise is all about building appreciation. By finding things we like about each other, we can come to appreciate each other more and help us understand what we see in each other. For this exercise, why don’t you turn to your partner and tell them three good things about them. For example…” The princess turned to Vaggie, looking into her girlfriend’s eyes. “Vaggie, you’re very strong and supportive. I really love how you’re always there to have my back.”
The moth seemed to melt under the praise, a light blush on her sharp face. How boring. The sound of a clicking tongue drew his attention back down to his partner who watched the girls’ display with an odd mix of delighted glee and consternation.
“Why don’t you all give it a try?” Charlie cheerfully encouraged, wide eyes trying not to be so obvious in their anticipation as she glanced over in their direction. So this was her play. Trying to soften their attitudes through flattery? Hm. He doubted the woman in front of him had any good words for him. That didn’t stop the hungry whispers in his mind, eager to hear whatever she had to say. It was painfully pathetic, how starved he was for her attention.
“Ladies first, my dear.” He turned to face her fully, a calm smile on his lips.
She didn’t like that. Didn’t like this situation at all. Brows drawn down in displeasure, lips pressed into an unwilling line, Ynna looked straight ahead at his chest. As the seconds ticked by, she had yet to say anything.
“Oh come now, my darling. I can’t be all bad.”
“Red is a good color on you. The old timey aesthetic is a great choice and your face really was made for radio.” In rapid succession, she stated her compliments with a bored face, satisfied with her answers and uninterested in hearing what he had to say. Hah! Her words sounded so positive yet he could feel the disinterest bordering on insults laced in her meaning. Clever.
“Hey, Ynna. That was a good start! Being complimented on your looks is a nice feeling but I was hoping we could try saying something nice about each other’s personality.” Before he could try to deliver some equally non-committal words, Charlie stepped in. How kind of her to insist on anything but shallow observations.
The corners of his mouth lifted. Now, this was going to be interesting. He too thought this would be an easily dodged task but it seemed Charlie was determined to see some reconciliation between them, even if Ynna was unwilling. Glee sprouted in his mind. What would she say this time? Would it be something truly nice or would she spew her true thoughts out loud in her annoyance?
Ynna threw Charlie a helpless withering look only to receive an eager and sparkling one back. The goat’s lips pouted and he felt the urge to bite into the plump flesh. The thrumming in his chest revved into thrilling anticipation.
“Fine. Fine.” Under her breath, she tried to think of what to say.
Patiently, he waited, watching emotions flicker through her face. Sadness. Annoyance. Bitterness. Resolution. They danced in the tiny twitches of her eyes and lips. An entrancing display, capturing his attention as he cataloged everything. In his mind, he could picture things if they had gone the way he thought they would, if the only feeling she held for him was deep fondness. She would be pondering carefully, her next words sincere in whatever they expressed as his most admirable quality.
Would she have talked about his jokes? His cooking? Maybe about how wonderful of a companion he was, so wonderful that she could forgive his transgressions.
He mentally sighed. He was prone to silly daydreams now.
“I have to say, I didn’t think it would take this long for you to think of something nice to say to me, my darling. How about I help?” She must’ve forgotten him in the small span that he waited for her answer, seemingly shocked that he’d said anything. He took the opportunity to take her hand, the same one she’d offered him before. His fingers swept over her knuckles, lamenting the lack of teeth marks on them. It would be so easy to take a bite.
“Didn’t you say I was fantastic once? Why don’t you elaborate on that?” The prompt wouldn’t warrant anything less than scorn but if by any chance, it did trigger some fond feelings, wouldn’t it be lovely to see even a sliver of that emotion on her face? He smirked, watching her face with impish delight.
Those eyes widened and narrowed, a wash of hurt and anger and humiliation stirring the fire in them anew. Amidst it all was a flash of softness turned so sharp he was surprised it didn’t have teeth with how they pierced his heart and sent shocks through his mind. “I was just thinking, you’re really good at getting on people’s nerves. Must be nice having zero respect and empathy for other people. You must sleep so well at night.” With force, her hand flicked his away, even going so far as to wipe it against her shirt.
Her anger was infuriating, so far from what he wanted yet the sparks it wrenched from his chest were undeniably delicious. That she could face a demon so much more powerful than her with impudence, so foolish yet so lovely. He couldn’t help but respond in kind, spite and yearning intertwined through his veins as he looked her in the eye. “And you, my dear little darling…You’re so friendly that people just can’t help but want to help you even though you don’t have much to offer in return.”
No money. No property. A weakling unwilling to reach her potential. She only had her meager existence to offer in exchange. His eyes narrowed. Yet that small presence was something that must be with him for the rest of his afterlife.
Ynna looked unimpressed by his barb. “Friends don’t need to pay each other back for things.”
“And yet you ask to do things for others in return all the time.” Wasn’t that what started this whole debacle? She’d agreed to eat him and events unfortunately avalanched. That heated gaze shook as she understood what he meant, a shock of static traveling from him to her as he smiled toothily at her.
Ynna’s POV
He really was enjoying this, throwing your mistakes and insecurities in your face over and over again.
“That’s because I wanted to at the time.” With a tight frown, you admitted to it. That you wanted to return his favor even if it was in the form of a grotesque request. That you valued your friendship enough to put unspeakable effort in. Your relationship with him was precious and you’d always wanted to feel like you were equals even with what little you could give him in return. You did your best but you should have known he would never see you as an equal.
“You’re adaptable, my dear. You’re free to change your mind anytime.”
“I doubt I will.” Bile rose in your throat. Not for him. Not for this demon. There would never be a time when you would want to offer anything to him ever again.
“You might not have a choice.” His eyes narrowed, the sly smile turning sharper and more static buzzed around you. You could almost feel the chains around your neck and it still felt frustratingly surreal. Being reminded of how things were, how could he reduce your friendship to this?
“If you just —“ stop with all this forcing me to eat you! Respect what I want! Break this deal and maybe we can actually talk about all of this! So many words yet none of them came out as the others tried not to be too obvious as they watched you fight.
“Urggh!” Your hands went to your face, claws resisting the urge to drag them down in frustration. Breathe. Breathe. You couldn’t break down here.
Thankfully, Charlie stepped in before Alastor could say something more infuriating. “Haha…uh guys.” Awkwardly, she interjected, moving slightly in between you two as if to block you from jumping him in your anger. She tried to look at you both in that placating manner of hers, so sweet yet so naive. “We’re supposed to be saying nice things about each other. Uh. Or maybe we can change it to a nice talking session? Get our feelings out in the open?”
She perked up and you knew then that she wanted to push you and Alastor to make up. Too bad you didn’t think you could. With controlled force, you exhaled some of your frustration out. Calm. The more you fought, the harder Charlie would push for you to reconcile. It was already a surprise that she only jumped in today given how long things have simmered between you and the Radio Demon.
“No. It’s fine Charlie.” Tempering the bleeding ache of your feelings and the urge to throw the chair next to you at him, you looked at Alastor. A compliment. Something sincere to get Charlie off your back.
….It should have taken you a lot longer to come up with something.
“You’re incredibly charming, Alastor. You’re witty and talented enough to light up the room when you’re around.” From somewhere buried under your recent resentment, the words that had always circled within your mind came quickly. He was so charming that he really had you fooled for the longest time. So charming that you couldn’t afford to think about it lest you drown in the bittersweet taste of a broken heart. He was easily your favorite person…before he turned into your nightmare.
Something shifted as he looked at you, red eyes softening from their malicious squint. A trace of shame crept up your throat. Did he pick up on that longing you couldn’t quite keep out in your admission?
He leaned back a bit, back straight and respectful as he looked at you without that sinister undertone for the first time this evening. Illuminated by the chandelier and sconces, backdropped in luxurious red wallpaper, he stood there, with all that enchanting gentlemanly charm that drew you to him in the first place. Unbidden, your heart skipped at his beauty.
“Darling, you are thoughtful and responsible. I find great pleasure in being your friend.” That he’d like to continue to be is left unsaid. A thorn pierced your chest and you tried not to flinch in disgust and hurt. He couldn’t long for friendship when he owned a part of your soul.
Charlie seemed satisfied as she turned away. You could just barely see how she vibrated with joy and was holding back on asking your both to say more. As she walked away, you couldn’t help but take a parting shot under your breath. “It was a pleasure.”
The words were meant only for Alastor and you caught the way his body tensed and you added another item to the list of how you would disappoint Charlie.
This friendship can never go back to how it was.
Chapter 34: Out of Control
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Rosie’s POV
Twice. If anyone had asked how many times she’d ever seen her dear friend frazzled, she would have said twice with both instances involving his crashing love life which he narrated through tea time.
He paced round and round her living room, a silent man in thought after he’d detailed the shit show since he’d last seen her. His face was carefully blank except for a thin smile, the grip on his cane loose but precise as he twirled it absently in thought. All in all, he looked quite normal, put together and tastefully dressed. But she wasn’t his closest friend for nothing. The slight twitch in the corners of his mouth, the light sheen of sweat at the back of his neck, the slight flicks of his ears. None of these escaped her notice.
Frazzled was putting it lightly. The man was Stressed.
“Well, you’ve really fucked that up, haven’t you darling?” If the situation didn’t involve her friend, she honestly would have found it hilarious. How could someone fuck up so badly? The dry tone of her voice caused his head to swivel from where he stood, a seething glare in his eyes warning her to watch her words. As if that would actually stop her. “Oh don’t give me that look. You’re the one who dug yourself into this mess and from what I can see, you keep digging yourself deeper into it.”
“I am very aware. Why do you think I’m here? I need advice. Things have gotten out of hand and I’m not sure how to fix it. I’ve secured her to my side for as good as all eternity. All that’s left is for her to accept everything and give in. Given how indestructible this link is, she should have adapted and tried to make her situation better. She should have come and offered to settle things and perhaps fix them. That’s what she is. Forgiving and kind even if it’s only due to her own sense of pragmatism…yet she seems to get farther and farther away from me.” A hiss accompanied by broken static colored his tirade.
Behind him, his shadow writhed and snarled along the wall, scratching and clawing in the air in manic frustration. An angry little thing far more indicative of her friend’s true state of mind compared to his outward facade. It was honestly sad to see the thing so agitated. She’d only known it to be adorably mischievous and brilliantly sinister.
Sad, but also infuriatingly stupid.
“You want my advice? Didn’t I already tell you to give her space? But what did you do? Instead, you tied her up, bound her soul in the most ridiculous way you could have and you’ve been antagonizing her the whole time out of spite. After doing all that damage, now you want my advice?” She loved Alastor, truly. His smiling face and taste for chaos matched perfectly with hers. The years they’d known each other flitted by so quickly and she was ever so grateful for his charming company. But even all that fondness couldn’t stop the derision that she tried to keep from her voice.
If there was one thing she did not approve of, it was forcing oneself on another (unless it was murder). And she thought Alastor shared the same opinion. She expected that he would have gone about wooing his beloved in a smarter way, kinder and more respectful given how much he valued their relationship. The man had been so keen to point out all of her suitors’ flaws to her so why couldn’t he seem to fix his own?
Alastor also seemed to think he would have done better too. But they'd both underestimated how all-consuming (hah) his desire for Ynna’s affection was.
“You don’t understand, Rosie. Ynna isn’t one to anger or hate easily. If I had let her go, what chance would I have had to get her back?”
“If that’s the case, why are you doing your best to stay on her bad side?” From what she’d gathered, the girl put a lot of thought into her feelings, trying very hard to keep a logical mind so she wouldn’t regret her decisions. Given that, Alastor was correct in feeling apprehensive about her hatred. She could well and truly be lost to him. But wouldn’t that same principle apply to her love for the man?
Did he even know how much Ynna loved him? She supposed not. He hadn’t been there when the little goat had all but resolved herself to make him happy even at the cost of her eternal damnation. He hadn’t seen her internal struggle between her morals and her adoration for him. When this all happened, he had probably never heard her express her feelings for him, only seeing her devotion to their friendship and the subsequent crumbling of it when his past feedings were found out. He’d only seen her anger and why wouldn’t she be angry? She’d resolved to sacrifice so much just to be near him, not even asking that he feel the same, to simply enjoy his bittersweet company for as long as he’d have her around. But all she was left with were ashes in her mouth.
If he knew how much Ynna was willing to sacrifice for him, would he be able to give her space to breathe something other than his suffocating obsession?
“She loves you, you know.” She stated it as fact, in a tone that denoted all her seriousness in the matter.
“Hah. If she loved me then it shouldn’t have been so easy for her to break our relationship. She wouldn’t have pushed me away when I was still offering her my apologies like a pathetic little dog.” But the pompous man all but spat out his own opinion, letting the truth slip by him without so much as a passing consideration.
She sighed. His mind was too clouded by the idea of her hate, anxious to return to how things were but unwilling to have faith that the bond he so cherished was strong enough to get there without him manhandling it into submission. Was there even a chance at this point? With the way things were going, she wasn’t sure. But she could at least help him minimize the damage.
Picking up her teacup, she took a sip to wet her parched throat. Still looking quite unimpressed with him, she decided on a new approach. If she couldn’t get to him through what little empathy he had, then she would get him through the only other thing he valued. Harnessing her many years of etiquette, she stood poised and noble, letting the silence between them hang cold. Icy.
“You know, Alastor, I honestly didn’t think I’d ever get to see you like this.” With a slight change in her tone, almost dismissive and sarcastic, she caught his attention. His sharp eyes looked at her impassively yet she knew he hung onto her every word. Getting to her feet, she lightly brushed her skirt into place, letting the fabric lightly sway as she walked over in dainty steps to where he stood at the edge of the area rug.
“Your shirt is a bit wrinkled, dear. Let me fix that for you.” With deft fingers, she patted the one wrinkle in his appearance back into place. “Oh, your bowtie’s a little crooked too.” A little wiggling fixed the bow, not that it was actually askew in the first place but she was making a show of things. She patted some lint off his shoulders and smoothed a stray hair. Little things. Imperceptible imperfections. But static crackled at her fingertips and a hint of ozone replaced his usual scent as each correction to his appearance was made.
She leaned into his ear. “You’re becoming awfully sloppy, dear.” The shoulders beneath her fingertips tensed and she backed away from his space before he could react more than that.
“You’re impatient and out of control. The Alastor I know wouldn’t have made such silly mistakes. He would have known not to corner his prey and instead would have let them tap dance them into his trap. Patiently and with finesse. But here you are, in a mess of your own making and unable to think clearly when the answer is so simple.” Walking back to her tea table, she leaned against the heavy wood. Arms crossed and looking at the stunned man in all seriousness, she made sure he was still listening before she continued. “Like you said, getting her affection at this point is a lost cause so I think you should just leave the girl alone. You’re not gonna get much from her except more disappointment and grief. More important than that, I think you should get your shit together.”
Picking up her tea cup, she took another sip. “You’ve let yourself dwell on this one thing for too long. Your feelings are getting yanked around like a little toy. Not only is it pathetic but it’s unbecoming of an Overlord, of you, my darling.”
“I—“
“When was the last time you struck a deal?” She cut him off with a sharp tone. Whatever quibble he would give was probably some useless delusion of the true state he was in. Some stupid lie he’s been telling himself to justify how he was crossing his own moral bounds in his cruel binding of the girl.
The man stood there and stared at her, his expression closing into a thin smile as he had no retort. Just as she thought. He was too busy pining to keep up with Hell’s powers as he should. Good. She could press him on that.
“You want my advice? Get yourself back in control of your emotions. You’re capable enough Alastor. When you stop letting your feelings get in the way of things, you’ll be able to solve your problems with Ynna just fine.”
Alastor remained silent, contemplating her criticism. She hoped he would bite. Entertainment and power were his only vices and fun things would always come in second to being the one pulling the strings. Maybe in this way, she could get him to back off from Ynna by distracting him with something else.
For a long while, she waited for him to think things through. In the end, his sharp sparkle returned, a truly calm, albeit blank, expression on his face. She almost sighed out loud in relief.
“This is why I always come to you, old friend. A fount of wisdom as always. ‘I’ve lost control.’ Hah! What a thing to say.” He readjusted the things she fixed himself, wanting to present his usually immaculate image even as the room still lightly smelled of ozone and the light crackling of static still sounded in her ear. “But perhaps you’re right. I’ve let myself get too invested and let my other priorities go to the wayside for petty affection.”
Petty?! She almost hit him then. Arggh. This stupid man. What he felt for Ynna was anything but insignificant yet he was so quick to downplay its value when his ego was poked. She was beginning to see the other problem here. Not only was he too anxious for affection, he was also too prideful to compromise for it.
Patience. Patience. She reminded herself. This was okay. This was better. At least, she gave him something else to consider that might be enough to stop him from pushing himself onto Ynna. She didn’t want to know what else he would be capable of doing to the girl if he spiraled even deeper into that cesspit of despair and desperation he’d placed himself into.
“Always glad to help.”
Alastor’s POV
That talk with Rosie had been…well. It felt like a cold bucket of water had been splashed onto his face, the distant but ever present screeching in his mind coming to a halt as her words rippled through him. Out of control. Ridiculous. Him? Since when had he been some fool unable to take charge and wrangle events and souls until he achieved the outcome he’d wanted?
A huff of air came as he exhaled from his nose. Walking down the streets, the distinct tap of his heels on the pavement made for a rhythmic atmosphere as sinners scrambled to hide themselves from his eyes. All in all, a peaceful little walk. The usual walk. The same dirty streets and frightened or calculating eyes that colored his world over the decades since his passing.
But maybe he needed new shoes. Each step he took felt off balanced, like he was leaning onto one side a bit more than he should. He corrected his posture, the shift so minute yet so distinct in his perception.
Out of control.
His reflection in the polished glass window of what looked to be a cosmetic store caught his eye and stopped him in his tracks. Shimmering tubes and sparkling powders glittered on their display shelves. A red tube stood out to him. Waxy lipstick molded into a delicate bullet of color tripped the senses of his mind. The rich red would look lovely on Ynna.
Ynna. Ynna. Ynna.
Static screeched wildly in his head, the screaming pitch shaking his teeth in fury. His thoughts always unwittingly came back to her. The warmth of her gaze. The lovely curve of her smile. The missing weight of her arm in his that made walking these familiar streets feel alien!
Bloodlust and pitch black hunger consumed him as Rosie was proven right. Even without Ynna there, she controlled him with his longing for her presence. And wasn’t that just ridiculous? Yes, he needed to have her. But did that mean he would allow her to dictate his actions? No. Absolutely not!
He reigned in the demented aura he leaked as his bloodlust peaked and ebbed. Even this sadistic need at the moment came because of her and he wouldn’t allow himself to fall into it. No.
He breathed. Careful and calculated until a true calmness enveloped his mind. He had to think. His feet started moving away from the shop window, picking the cleanest streets as he went. Rosie was correct. What was done was done. He’d made Ynna miserable in retaliation for his own misery and it would be foolish of him to expect anything more from her but her hatred.
It would be prudent to cut his losses and turn his attention elsewhere. Better yet, he could cut the deal as it didn’t serve any more purpose when he found her misery while eating him off-putting.
Bzzt. Snap!
Furious tendrils sprouted in his chest, attacking his cultivated calm until he’d had to stop in his steps and mediate those feelings away. Dammit. Fine. He couldn’t sever that last connection, couldn’t bear the screeching that got louder at the thought of it.
But he could regulate his feelings. As he should have from the very beginning.
Ynna’s POV
“Oh man. That lunch rush was something else. Why did it feel like every sinner within a five mile radius just decided today was the day they were gonna try out the diner?” In the locker room, a small figure took off their mask, placing it in a cubby along with their cloak. Translucent jelly-like hair floated in a halo around her head as two ribbon-like antennas dotted with eyes flowed down from where her uniform’s cowl usually kept them smushed.
“It was definitely killer .” You pulled off your own uniform and placed it in your cubby, making sure to wipe off the mask of any sweat that had gotten on it. “Here I was thinking today would be a knife day.”
“Hush you!” Goss, the little ghostface who’d given you the application form and was now your shift-mate and coworker wagged her antenna at you. Her small hands went to her hips as the jellyfish sinner tutted. She liked you a lot but man did your puns get old fast.
Goss was a little woman, just a few inches taller than Niffty. She had a weightless appearance to her with a thin paperwhite body and long flowy appendages. In contrast to her willowy figure, she was bubbly and excitable, wanting to be helpful or just to talk. You liked her, though it took a while to get used to her eyes being on her antennae even though her face had a smooth surface where one would have expected eye sockets to be.
“Let me have my fun. I had to deal with Tenner’s table today so let me get my dumb jokes in while I can.” A tired smile pulled on your tired face. One of the regulars just liked to get handsy with the waitresses. It didn’t matter that you all were covered head to toe in draping black fabric, the man couldn’t keep his paws to himself and his goons liked to egg him on. The creep only stopped when your manager threatened to stab him in the eye and you mentally thanked Monica for having your back. Now, if only she would let you threaten the customers like that too. Unfortunately, this was a business and the woman liked to be the only one dealing out threats of bodily harm to people.
The both of you walked out through the back door and made your way to the nearby deli for a sandwich. It was only three hours into your shift but the unexpected rush prompted Monica to give everyone an early break. After dealing with both tables and to-go orders, placating impatient customers and just generally not having enough staff to deal with all these crazy people, you thought your manager just really needed a breather herself before she actually did end up stabbing someone. It also helped that one of the other waiters already passed out, having had to deal with both the morning and lunch rushes during his shift.
After ordering, you both sat in the little plastic chairs outside. It was a lovely day. Breathing in the outside air slowly washed away the built up stress from work. Normally, Goss would be chatting away about some interest or another but even she was too tired so you both opted to keep to yourselves for a bit, sitting in silence with only the sound of a dumpster fire and impatient car crashes in the distance to set the ambiance. Was it sad that you were getting used to the chaos of Hell again? A little. But you’d rather smell the dumpster fire smoke than endure the heartburn of seeing Alastor around.
It was nice having a friend at work. She didn’t know about the situation at home. Didn’t subtly hint at you like Angel did or watch over you in concern like Husk. Things weren’t awkward and it was a much needed balm to your wounded soul. Every encounter with Alastor scraped at your insides and you were just so over it. You would much rather focus your energy on something else, something less heartache-inducing than thinking about him or dreading seeing him.
The man was a menace. Passive-aggressive at times and upsetting all the way. He knew how to drive your blood pressure up and you were starting to get really good at ignoring it. But sometimes….sometimes you caught a warm glint in those calculating eyes. A little softening in his razor smile. Or the sound of your favorite tunes playing in the background as you passed by. Little signs that made you believe for just a tiny moment that he meant what he said. That he did care. That he’d made a mistake. That as cruel as he was, you were an exception and maybe…he could be better than the man you saw threatening your friend and things could go back to before all of this. But maybe that was just the fatigue catching up to you. Giving up your protests against him would just encourage his madness.
A little noise came from beside you and you looked down in time to catch Goss about to shove her phone into your face.
“Look at this!” Her sweet tiny voice squeaked as she played a new dance trend on VeeTok. Yeah. This was nice. A peaceful pocket in your plagued reality. Her tiny nub of a finger flicked to the next video and you two giggled. Her feed had lots of cute little dances with the occasional food videos. It was all very sweet.
Until a swipe up brought you to a familiar logo.
“Urggh. I hate that place.” The pink and white font of that beignet shop still made your mouth feel rough from just the sight of it.
“They’ve been trending recently. Apparently, the Radio Demon was spotted there a few weeks ago and he was pissed but he spared the owner after he promised to do better. Can you imagine? Isn’t that like, the same as an endorsement by the Radio Demon? The man’s practically a legend with how reclusive he is compared to the other Overlords but cannibal segment aside, he’s never been wrong about places to go to in the city.” The jellyfish typed the shop’s name in the search bar and scrolled through the recent videos showing happy and sometimes begrudgingly happy customers eating stacks of sugary pancakes and beignets. “This looks amazing.”
You couldn’t believe how twisted the story of what happened had become. Okay. Maybe you could. Opportunistic assholes like that shop owner would spread false rumors like that after what happened. Everything had been hectic since that day and you’d completely forgotten about the man. You didn’t even post the video you took. But that didn’t catch your attention as much as Goss’ words about a certain man did. “Are you a fan of the Radio Demon?”
“A bit. I try to be informed of the ‘powers that be’ around the city. Makes it easy to avoid trouble. But aside from his broadcast, we don’t really get to see much of the Radio Demon. Like, did you see that video of him tearing through the Doomsday District? That was one of the few times a video of the man has ever gotten out and even then, he was so blurry.” If the woman had eyebrows, she may have furrowed them but the only hint of her curiosity was the slight squinting of her many eyes. “I forget that you haven’t been here long. You should really get to know the Overlords more. It’ll save your life if you ever happen to cross paths with them.”
“You’re probably right.” And the advice had come a little too late. You’d already met three and two of them had already made you choke on blood.
You hadn’t really thought about how mysterious Alastor was to the general public. Everyone seemed so aware of him when you were out and about. But you supposed, without photographic or video evidence, knowledge about him only spread from word of mouth or whatever he let the public know through the radio. No one would know about how his eyes turned squinty when he’d just woken up or despite his love for screams and radio, he was just as content to sit quietly and lounge for hours with a good book. Would anyone think that the demon of terror was more like an reclusive old man in his off time?
You could see it so clearly in your head. The warm glow from his reading lamp casting its soft light on his svelte form, his foot tapping leisurely on plush carpet. A mother chair was strategically placed beside him where you would sit so you could join him. Then his eyes would turn up to you, crackling and cold, smile snide and breaking that peaceful appearance. Ah. There goes your blood pressure again.
“Wait a sec—oh! Oh! Ynna! Look at this! I can’t believe there’s another video of him!” Breaking you out of that trance, the jellyfish squealed as she hit the play button. The setting was still the shop but instead of another influencer review, she was showing you snuff. Your eyes widened. You watched in horror as shadow tendrils wrapped around and around the manager, slipping their pointed tips into the seam of his mouth. With horrendous strength, they pried the crab sinners shell open, yellow innards and red blood spurting out in a gory fountain. The man didn’t even have time to scream. “Oh my gooooooosh nooo ewww nooo!” Goss screeched but couldn’t turn away as you watched Alastor tear apart the sinner.
“Hmm. Now you’re making me want a crawfish boil, Mr. Manager.” Alastor’s warped voice filtered through the screams from terrified and thrilled onlookers. “How’s that for an endorsement? I’m sure my fellow connoisseurs would just love to try some seafood. I might have to phone Rosie and let her know.”
At that point, the manager was dead. His limbs twitched in dying signs of life as shadowed claws cracked through his hard shell like it was peanuts. It was brutal to watch though nothing you hadn’t seen Alastor do before. The lack of thrown limbs, the meticulous way he cut bits off of the man was more horrific than the sashimi displays he’d done before. In fact, he was talking his audience through how to properly get the meat out of a crab like it was an educational video! Almost calm in a horrifying sense.
And despite his talk of shellfish craving, not a single part of that sinner even came near his mouth. There was a certain coldness about him. As if this kill wasn’t just a normal day’s work of sadism. As if it was personal. Why?
“Ynna? You okay? You look kinda mad. Was that guy someone you knew?”
“No. It’s just…wasn’t that kind of too much? What did the guy even do to him?” Your fingers gently pushed the phone away, no longer interested in watching it go on.
“Let’s see. The comments say that the manager apparently made shit up about the Radio Demon liking his cafe. The Radio Demon heard about it and came to teach him a lesson. What? So the endorsement thing was fake news? Huh. Figures. But isn’t he kinda stupid for using the Radio Demon for clout? I mean. Come on! It’s the Radio Demon.” The little jellyfish’s hair bobbed up and down for emphasis as she rewound the video until Alastor’s voice came through again in all its distorted glory.
“Isn’t he so cool? I wish I could do something like that.” The astonishment in the little woman’s voice threw you off.
“Rip people apart? Make everyone fear you?” If you hadn't known what she was watching, you would have thought she was watching anything other than murder.
“Yeah! Wouldn’t it be great if people were scared of me? I wouldn’t get bossed around as much and shitheads like Tenner wouldn’t even try coming near me.” Annoyance and longing crept into her sweet voice, the rims of her eyes glowing red and you understood then. Having to deal with sinners wasn’t exactly easy even if most of them were tamer in the restaurant than they were in the streets.
“You gotta be an Overlord first if you want that kind of power.”
“I would but I can’t imagine commanding that many souls. Sounds like such a pain. You gotta make a deal with them, do your part and then, even if you own them, you still have to make sure they follow your rules and not try to overthrow you.” The red glow vanished from her eyes as she gave a lazy shrug, a little giggle in her smile as she kept on scrolling.
“You can overthrow someone who owns your soul?”
“People try.” The surprise in your voice brought her full attention back to you. Giving it a bit of thought, she tried her best to explain it to you who didn’t seem to know much about Overlords or deals and the like. Which was true in a sense. You were very intimately familiar with both those things yet so clueless at the same time.
“It’s hell having to do things you don’t want to. There are some twisted fucks out there and they drive people insane with the shit they make them do. Makes them desperate. Overthrowing the owner of your soul isn’t uncommon but it is rarer when the one who owns it is one of those at the top. Also, it doesn’t usually work out for the poor souls who try killing their owners but every now and then, if you’re smart enough or stronger enough or get just a little bit of an upper hand somewhere, you can do it and get your freedom back.”
“Is that the only way to free your soul? To kill the person who owns it?”
“The permanent kind of dead, yeah. As far as I know. That, or you get someone to trade for it.” She shrugged again, rolling her tiny shoulders and she pointed to Alastor’s blurry image and the wide berth around him. “It’s why Overlords are on top of the food chain. You gotta be strong enough to make a deal and you have to be even stronger to keep it in place.”
Another video played the scene of Alastor killing the man from a different angle though the distortion on his body barely made him recognizable. Except for his smile, yellowed sharp teeth beaming wickedly as he cut through flesh, a sadistic twist at the corners of his eyes. He looked just about the same as he did that day you’d both been at that store. This was probably what would have happened had you not held him back that day and the thought of it had bile creeping up your throat.
“It’s pretty different down here, isn’t it? I thought we’d get tortured by little red demons with pitchforks for our mortal fuckups but instead, we’re the ones torturing each other. And we gotta do that just to make sure someone else doesn’t get us first.” Desolation and bitter wistfulness described the situation you were in. You all were in. You’d forgotten it for a bit after living in peace at the hotel but the world was pretty cutthroat out here and it made your own despair simmer and boil before acceptance cooled the bubbling pool. A small hand reached out to poke at your thigh. “I remember how frightening it was to learn about all of this stuff. I’m surprised Angel Dust didn’t tell you more.”
“He’s not into politics.” And the man hadn’t been comfortable telling you anything about deals other than to stay away from them.
“Hey, don’t you live at the hotel? Doesn’t that mean you live with the Radio Demon? What’s he like in person?” Goss’ question caught you by surprise, the sudden innocent curiosity throwing the slightly somber mood into a halt. For a second, you looked at her and breathed a sigh of relief when you’d found only idle interest. You didn’t spare a thought about why you were worried about her.
“A bit of a loner but as terrifying as you’d expect.”
Notes:
Bit of a longer chapter than I'd intended and not in the way I originally planned too.
We finally get Rosie trying to talk some sense into our boy and Ynna made a friend!
As always, I look forward to hearing from y'all~
Take care til next chapter!
Chapter 35: Heartbreak is one thing, my Ego’s another
Notes:
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Chapter Text
Alastor’s POV
He didn’t need her.
Bzzzt.
Her quick comebacks to his puns, her hesitant chuckles at his cruelty. Those things didn’t matter.
Click. Click.
Obsessed. Obsessed. Obsessed! How far did he let himself fall? And for what? The imaginary scrapes of her teeth? The warm brush of her shoulders when she leaned against him? Was he really so tempted by anything she would deem to give him? Hah! Hahaha! He was the Radio Demon for Hell’s sake! To let himself want? To let himself ache so pathetically for a smidge of attention? It was all so beneath him and maybe he could give himself a pass. Nothing had ever been so fun as the pursuit of something that made his mind tingle alight. Wasn’t that why he was down here instead of up there? When all that surrounded him was mediocrity and villainy, who could fault him for pursuing his few interests.
But where he was with Ynna, the pining, pathetic, weak, disorganized. Out of control. That was no longer interesting. A waste of time he could be using to further his influence.
He didn’t need her.
Click. POP!
Static crackled in his veins, angry and denied. A mass of whispers beckoned him for revenge, retribution, blood spilt from hapless sinners. For soft eyes filled with boundless affection. Fuck!
The power that rose with his bloodlust dissipated, as his mind unhelpfully provided reason after reason for why the goat could never leave his side. And he loathed it. Out of control, indeed.
“Hey chat, so many of you have been telling me to try this place out and man, looks like we got a long ass line. Fucking lameee. Chat, is this gonna be worth it?” An obnoxiously loud voice broke him out of the pit where his mind dwelled. A male sinner with a sharp voice spoke into a lapel microphone as he watched his phone. He had no regard for the others around him who inched away from his camera, rolling their eyes at the overly loud prattle.
It was only then that he’d noticed the change in scenery, the evidence of his distraction adding more to his exasperation. No longer was he on a quiet road, void of all those who’d been too fearful of his presence, but rather, he found himself on a bustling street corner staring at a queue for a shop. Oh? Now what could that be? A quick scan through the crowd observed the line composed of mostly, what did Rosie call them again? Influencers. Yes. That’s the word. Their little sticks and tripods held phones and cameras recording some inane and uninspired commentary on what appeared to be—Oh? His brow raised in curiosity. The line was for the cafe with the rotten beignets.
“Radio Demon recommended? Ooohh are y’all for real? Skitzle, where’d you hear that from? Oh scootpoot43 thanks for the subs! Yeah? Happy birthday, I guess.” The clueless buffoon chattered on and on.
Recommended? A snort, undignified but befitting his current mood, made its way out of him. Since when had he thought this dump deserved any recognition other than to have it burned to the ground? Not to mention that there hadn’t been time to do a proper broadcast since, well…Brows drawn, his head swayed in an effort to shake those thoughts away. Really. Just how much of his recent memory did that woman occupy? When every corner and every street held the image of them in friendlier times. Even his last broadcast had been because of her. Agitation of a self-deprecating nature soared in his chest. He had to get a hold of himself, to remind his obsessive nature that there was more to his existence than whatever the goat could bear to swallow and keep.
Flitting his attention between sinners, he discreetly tried to catch some of their babble. It became clear that the cretin who’d been so graciously spared from his claws by his goat mistook their mercy for encouragement. He mentally sighed. This was why sinners needed to be put in their place. The ones who made it down here were usually of the scheming sort. Or stupid and violent. But using his name to gain recognition? Did that poor excuse for a manager take him so lightly or was he just that desperate to earn a profit? Either way, the disrespect would not be tolerated.
A few of those screen-obsessed eyes finally noticed the Overlord in their presence and their immediate screams of desperation to scram brought the rest of the oblivious herd to panic, clearing the queue in a matter of seconds. Ah. Something bubbled in the depths of his chest that brushed aside his ire, a familiar sense of sadistic glee that energized his nerves. It was always a pleasure to see the roaches scramble.
Right. This was who he was, a terror not to be trifled with, an absolute power within this wretched city. The mere sight of him inspired fear and awe. Long before any of this nonsense of being eaten, the obsession for her companionship, the maddening whispers plaguing his chest when she’d not even bothered to glance his way. Long before any of that, he was the Radio Demon. Power thrummed within his veins, strumming giddy sensations within his body. Innocent bloodlust, untainted by his goat. This had nothing to do with her and it made the call for retribution that much more enticing. Yes. This had absolutely nothing to do with her.
Some braver souls kept recording though unfortunately for them, only blurred and glitching pixels would be their foolish reward.
The bell above the door chimed with the clack of his shoes punctuating his arrival. His grin widened as the red-shelled face paled at his entrance. For using his name without permission, he gladly thought to set the record straight.
Ynna’s POV
By the time you’d clocked out, you’d already been thinking about the video, about Alastor, for hours. He lingered in the back of your mind, whether you were taking orders or rushing through cleaning tables. You couldn’t help but wonder why he’d gone back to that cafe. The man wasn’t one to purposefully look for a fight. Why waste time on insignificant specs of dust, after all? Perhaps he’d heard about the rumors?
What did it even matter to you? It wasn’t like you particularly cared about the cafe manager and whatever craziness the Radio Demon decided to do was his business. It didn’t affect you at all.
Or did it? From what Goss managed to gather, the whole thing with the manager was pretty recent and mostly spread online. You knew for a fact that Alastor didn’t give two shits about social media so unless someone told him about it, he wouldn’t have known. A small voice in your head whispered a possibility. What if Alastor went to that cafe again to settle the score from last time? What if he went there just to spite you by harming the guy you spared? What if someone minding their own business died because of you?
That thought lingered in your mind, much as you tried to push it away. Even if his recent penchant for annoying you had become the new staple of whatever act he was pulling you along to, it was still conceited to think that the man would go so far out of his way to bother you despite his busy schedule. But what if you weren’t wrong? Cold sharp eyes flashed in your mind, their red hue seeming lifeless despite the bright red of their glow. Unhappy and heartbroken, if you were generous enough to believe he had a heart. And you’d gotten into this whole mess because you’d been too easy to give him the benefit of a doubt, his charm and care feeling so warm and genuine at the time.
You sighed. Maybe it was your own sense of pride, thinking that you understood the man quite well even if he’d managed to hide his true intentions for so long, but a part of you didn’t want to think that Alastor would hurt someone for no reason other than their connection to you. Sadist that he was, the man wasn’t that petty. Plus, he already had you chained to him. What other grief could he possibly dole when eating his flesh had torn apart a bit of your soul and a lot of your heart already?
The trip home was thankfully uneventful, with your thoughts swirling around and around Alastor even as you remained vigilant of the shady eyes hiding in the dark corners of the streets. More than a few times, you’d tense, ready to bring out your knife when a body ventured a little too close for comfort. Seeing the doors of the hotel brought some relief and safety, even if it meant having to see Alastor’s handsomely smug face. You prepared your heart for the inevitable jabs at your avoidance of him, or the apprehension from silently anticipating the next time he’d feed you something. It was almost routine at this point. You opened the doors, bathing you in the warm light of the chandelier.
As your eyes adjusted to the brightness, you almost stilled. The sight of Charlie waiting for you in the foyer was jarring. It was only Charlie. Alone. Your eyes roamed around for any signs of Alastor’s particular shade of red and arrogance and found none. The man who’d been wreaking havoc on your mind was nowhere to be found. Doubt flickered in your chest, your apprehension rising even more with a stuffiness that could only be described as being bothered. Bothered? Why?
You shook off the illogical feeling, greeting Charlie with hellos and good nights springing from the warmth that bubbled as you remembered that she cared about you and worried for your safety. That there was someone who did.
However, the cheerful smile she gave did little to dull the strange edge that appeared in your chest. What was it? Were you expecting him to be there? To be right there to set your blood to boiling and your heart to aching? To brag about his latest show of brutality, done with that signature flair of his?
Just!—just! You mentally strangled your thoughts. This was stupid. You’d spent too much time thinking about him when the whole point of being away was to purge him from your thoughts, your life, as much as possible. Sleep sounded like a good idea. Sleep that would hopefully clear your mind and reset your strange feelings. You left the foyer and dragged your body, sluggish and a bit worn from today’s busy shift, to the elevator. Thank god for modern innovations.
The clanging of metals as the lift came and closed around you punctuated that unease that clung on, wriggling unpleasantly and foreboding around your chest until the elevator walls felt too small and too suffocating to stand. When the door opened with the elevator’s pleasant ding, your feet moved quick as that strange anxiety turned to energy, egging you to move or it would consume you for the evening. You walked past your door and down the hall, moving without a thought for direction.
It had been a while since you’d meandered about like this. The familiar halls of the hotel switched between the light of dim sconces and the occasional Heavenly glow from the windows. It was eerie. It was quiet. It was calming as each step expended that anxious energy leaving only one truth in your mind at the end.
Alastor still affected you greatly, far greater than anyone ever had.
Stopping at a window, you stared up at Heaven. The blue-white light glowed within a dark red sky. Below twinkled neon lights upon a dark city. Once upon a time, you’d looked out at this same view and thought of all the horrors that lay in that seemingly quiet distance and begged God to see your efforts in this hotel so that you could taste just a little bit of mercy, a little bit of salvation. Now, going to Heaven felt just like dreaming of going to the moon. Difficult but not impossible. A feat meant to be achieved by someone else, someone more deserving, someone who wanted it more. Because you didn’t want it enough. Not anymore. Not since you found a place here. Not since you fell for Alastor. Not since you saw the possibility of happiness and comfort down in these depths, when careful hands carried your bloody and broken body and slaughtered in your defense with the most charming smile a psychopath could have.
Was he still slaughtering in your defense today?
With the lightest touch, you traced the dot of Heaven on the window, careful not to leave too big a smudge though Niffty would be thrilled to clean it. “Can I still be happy here?” The question left your lips into the void of this silent hallway. What would it take to get back that comfort and ease that made even Heaven seem trivial in comparison? Was your only option truly to kill Alastor?
“Happiness is so subjective. It means so many different things but whether you ever achieve it or not, well, isn’t that all just up to you?” You didn’t expect the void to answer back in a filtered voice and chipper tone. Your heart skipped a beat.
Your eyes focused on the vague reflection in the window shifting ever so slightly as a new shape took its place in the glass. The translucent image of you soon had a companion in the form of the man who’d plagued your everything. With his hands behind his back, the muted image on the window smiled, looking rather relaxed, lacking the smugness that often thinly lined his visage these days. Calm. Cordial. No undertone of wicked intentions that stoked your animosity for him and his cruelty. Or maybe you were just too tired.
The faint static that always surrounded him filled the silence with white noise that you found comforting in its familiarity even if its source was this deceitful man. With you two standing side by side without distaste so blatant on your face, the window faintly reflected an echo of that which had been, the translucent image eclipsing the neon city and tranquil Heaven outside. You wondered if you should start a fight for bitterness’ sake or to let a moment of peace settle.
“I can do everything in my power to achieve it but it all means nothing if there are people blocking my way.” In a way, your response was a bit of both. A protest against the force he used upon you delivered in a matter-of-fact tone.
“Sounds to me like you just need more power then.” Picking up on your strange mood, the demon answered, a tease in his words befitting a man who could watch the world burn with a smile as he sipped a cup of coffee.
“Would I get more power if I sold my soul?” Despite yourself, a wry curl tugged at one corner of your mouth. He’d never hidden his approbation for the way power ebbed and flowed within Hell’s selfish landscape. More than a few times, he’d encouraged you to try your hand at it though, now that you thought of it, he never did ask you to sell him your soul.
“Power and more, it really just depends on your conditions. Haha. Why so curious, my dear? Feel like striking another deal? Hm?” Something shifted in the air, the minute of peace fading away as his nonchalant voice failed to hide his piqued interest. Slivers of disappointment floated in your chest. So it wasn’t that he’d never been interested in owning your soul. Maybe he’d just been having too much fun messing with you to think about it.
“You’d like that wouldn’t you? You’ve been so hellbent on keeping me around to eat your meat, after all.” And with that, your peace was completely gone, bitterness and sarcasm making its way into your bored answer.
“I wouldn’t call it ‘hellbent’. That makes it sound rather deranged. I’ve simply found a rare piece of entertainment. Could you blame me for wanting to keep it around?” Even without a twitch in his face, you could feel the frown in his voice, the disapproval hiding behind a veil of pleasantry. ‘Entertainment’ was what he called you, called the thing you’d been willing to do for him even though it broke something in your mind to do it, the very same act that he used to chain you to him when you wanted to cut off his toxic ass from your life.
“It is deranged, forcing people to do something so—“ Heartbreaking? Demeaning? The appropriate word would have been ‘Disgusting’ but physically, the food had been the best you’d ever had. Mentally, you would have rather he just killed you if fun was all he was after. “Urggh.”
“As eloquent as always.” He hummed, stepping back and around you until he edged into your peripheral, coming around more until your eyes finally turned away from your reflections and onto the real thing. He carelessly waved his hand in a dismissive manner. “But I suppose I don’t really need full custody of your soul. I already have most of what I can get from you with our current arrangement.”
He really did have the nerve to belittle whatever worth you had for him, huh? Wasn’t he the one spouting all that crap about how he treasured your friendship and how he wanted to make things better between you? Now that his mask was off, was he trying to say that eating him and being a funny sort of companion to keep around was all you had been good for?
“You make me sound so insignificant but aren’t you the one going around trying to settle old grudges for me?” You called his bullshit with a cold chuckle.
“What could you possibly mean?” Tension rose, his static going mute in the background. Hah!
“That cafe doesn’t serve anything you would have bothered to go eat so, why were you there, Alastor?” You turned your back and leaned on the windowsill, your shadow stretching long and over half of his face as he stood back to watch you in a smiling wariness.
Alastor was always so poised and elegant. Even when he was mad and ripping into people, there was a grace to him. Charming in both conventional and unconventional ways even when he was fit to haunt your nightmares. It was funny to see his anger rise behind that careful visage. He looked too much like he did in your fondest memories and you wanted to break that image before your stupid heart could get any ideas.
“Even if you kill every single person I hated in this world, I will never forgive you for treating me and Husk like shit. I hope you won’t go around trying to kill people in my name. It’s kinda disgusting.” His eyes narrowed and you returned his stare with a bored glare. Pushing yourself from the window, you started to walk towards the direction of the elevator. “That’s all.”
It hurt a little to find your value dismissed like that. It meant that all this anguish you’d harbored, choked down and tried to find a way to live with, was just a slight inconvenience, a little chip in his fun.
As you’d expected, dismissing him so blatantly had irked him enough as green chains manifested in the air and around your neck, the greatest reminder that you couldn’t find happiness. Not like this. You turned to him, watching the eerie glow overpower even the light of Heaven coming from outside. The clinking of metal filled the tension between you as he wrapped the length of cold enchanted iron around and around his thin wrist and palm. You stood in place and with each rotation, he stepped forward, closing the distance until you were forced to look up at him, and he looked down at you.
“Abusive piece of shit.”
“Ha! You call it abuse, I call it keeping my possessions in line.” The green light cast a wicked hue on his face that smiled in derision and irritation before he schooled it into a more sarcastic tilt. “You really do surprise me, my dear. Where is your usual humility? Just because I find you entertaining doesn’t mean that all my actions revolve around you. Don’t think too highly of yourself or I might think you actually take pride in this new accessory.” His thumb caressed the enchanted links wrapped around his palm before giving them a small tug, just enough for you to feel their restriction. But unlike last time, it didn’t suffocate you in surprise or panic. Unlike last time, you could look him more calmly in the eye.
“I’m just trying to remind a morally-depraved asshole that killing a guy that was mean to me doesn’t change the fact that he took my trust and squashed it and now he’s treating me like a pet. He talks about being a gentleman but he treats his friends like toys for his amusement.”
“Again, potato po-tah-to, my dear. I'm only exercising my right otherwise clever little things like you might get some very stupid ideas. And those ideas will hurt you more than they will hurt me, I can promise you that.” Red eyes narrowed with a sick green flicker but you found them more decorative than intimidating. You’d already come to this, he couldn’t hurt you any more than he already did.
Or so you thought.
A gloved hand cupped your cheek, the sharp claw of his thumb threatening to poke your lower lip but you resisted the lurch in your chest at the sudden contact, resisted the urge to flinch. His eyes narrowed at your challenge, voice dropping in volume as if his words were meant for your ears only.
“Power is the currency of Hell with Deals between souls facilitating its transfer. You haven’t had the need to consider owning a soul, clawing your way up the ranks to secure your own safety and comfort by any means necessary. You were lucky enough to land yourself into the hands of people who would care for you and even then, weren’t there conditions?”
“Charlie’s different—“
“Ah ah ah.” That thumb pressed onto your lips, sealing them as you instinctively shut your mouth in case he decided to just shove that digit in. His eyes flicked down to your lips before coming back to grab your attention.
“Room and board in exchange for your best attempt at redemption. Your little impulse problem going away for a favor that you defined. But here you are, unable to get to Heaven and complaining about the terms you set upon yourself like a child. What does that make you, my dear?” Pressure surrounded you, dimming the edges of your vision and making your heartbeat faster in trepidation. His eyes, sharp and clear and red as the sky when you’d first opened your eyes and realized your damnation, stared into your soul.
“A helpless stupid little sinner that should be happy she had me and all her friends to take care of her, when she can’t even fulfill her side of the bargain correctly. A parasite. And just an ungrateful little plaything. So don’t think so highly of yourself, Ynna. You belong down here the same as the rest of us.” His expression pinched in a way you’d be ever seen before, eyes wide and intense yet his smile remained thin though incredibly strained.
“Bite.” He pushed his thumb down into the seam of your mouth and a flair of indignation mixed with that sudden brutal hole he punched into your heart. You glared up in protest though the words to deny him died on your tongue as the chain glowed with his command.
You loosened your jaw, heeding the command with a lurch in your stomach, and were surprised when his thumb remained pressed onto your lower lip, awaiting your action. Sick fuck.
“You’re right.” Something drowned in the pit of your heart, a pride that you’d earned with your place in this hotel and even in this man’s esteem.
A plaything. A parasite.
“But I guess I was right about you too. You really never did care about me.” You bit his thumb, the bitter blood washing away the last of that pride.
Notes:
Hello Hello~
Been a minute since I last posted. I hope everyone is doing well! I've been drowning work stress with drawing and playing Dead by Daylight. It's such a bummer that October turned out to be such a busy time at my work place. I was hoping to have more Halloween cheer but who has time to worry about serial killers and ghouls? The real horror was the bills we have to pay all along.
Ooof that was morbid. Anyway, hope y'all enjoyed this chapter. Take care always~
Chapter 36: Putting Distance
Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
The incident in the hall lingered. In the words that rang painfully similar sentiments to your own. In the disappointment that followed when yet another encounter with Alastor led to even more bitterness between you two. In the subtle warmth that flowed through your body, in the aftertaste of his blood. Strangely, rather than an inferno of anger and rage at that man’s fucking audacity, only a wary sort of gloominess came about. Dragging along behind you like tangled strings, wrapping around your limbs with just enough pull that moving felt too troublesome, this gloom lingered, anchoring you to your bed.
Sleep came and went and while your body was rested, that gloomy string had unfurled through the dreamless night and strung thoughts and words and all your many insecurities into a banner you could now understand in the sober light of morning.
You needed to leave. This wasn’t your place any longer.
Months ago, the thought of leaving the hotel would have terrified you, the memories of your first months in Hell fearsome enough to send your heart racing in panic. After knowing that there were such kind people down here, you would have groveled on the ground to stay if Charlie had asked it of you, though the princess of Hell would never ask. She welcomed you with open arms and gave you hope. And it was because of that generosity that you had courage now.
With somber resolution and a smile that felt more freeing than any you’ve let out in the last few weeks, you marched to the dining hall. The sight of all your friends clenched at your heart a little bit. You would have to say goodbye to them a lot sooner than you’d thought. You could only hope that they would understand and that the distance between you all wouldn’t change anything in your relationship with them.
Cheery good mornings and a lot of cereal became today’s breakfast. It was a simple affair. It was markedly missing a certain red-suited demon. You wondered where he could have been, that gloom coming back to knock on your senses as you glanced over to the empty seat at the head of the table. You probably shouldn’t care.
After breakfast, you took Charlie aside, asking to meet with the woman in private to discuss your plans. Vaggie, sensing something in your mood, obliged and went to go hunt down the absent facility manager, leaving you and Charlie alone in the shared office.
You glanced around. Even this place held some stark memories of you and Alastor. No. Don’t think about him.
“So, what’s on your mind?” Charlie, ever cheerful, offered you one of the chairs in front of her desk. She took its matching set, sitting next to you instead of across. For a second, you imagined that cheerful smile turned sour, turned angry, turned all sorts of disappointed and it hurt your heart. Fear and apprehension crawled through your rib cage, grasping at your throat in an effort to stop you from saying anything that could invoke that kind of reaction. But weren’t you just saying you weren’t a coward anymore? Steadying yourself, you thought to be straightforward. Rip the bandaid and hope for the best.
“Charlie, I’m checking out of the hotel.”
A few seconds of silence followed. Two sets of eyes stared at each other unblinking, one in uncomfortable surprise and the other in just plain discomfort.
“Ynna, is everything okay? Why would you want to check out?” The princess’ frozen expression quickly turned into soft concern in the way that Charlie, with all her sincere wishes for the happiness of her people, could not help but show. It was so sweet. She was so sweet. Which made your decision feel all the more like the right one. You took one of her pale hands and sandwiched it gently between your own, hoping to give her a bit of comfort and yourself a bit of strength as you answered.
“The truth is, it’s been a while since I’ve truly wanted to go to Heaven. When I first got here, I was just following that commercial, trying to find some way out because even after a few months in Hell, I still couldn’t find the hope to live here. I was scared of everything and fell for every trick. It was miserable. And I was alone.” A crack bubbled up your stinging throat, threatening to break the determination you mined your words with. Despite how often you’d thought of this, it was still difficult to truly express what you felt. “I thought that if I could just get to Heaven, I’ll finally feel like I could live. But then you welcomed me in, gave me a home. I made friends and learned so many things. I even got a job now. It’s been a while since I’ve been scared.” Not even the threat of your soul being torn apart by an Overlord could shake you.
“I feel like…I feel like I could be happy down here.” For a moment, you paused, wondering if some feeling of doubt and even self-mockery at that thought would come but you only felt that it was true. The previous wish for Heavenly Grace had long been eclipsed by a wish to stay with the loved ones you made down here. And even with your current situation, your heart didn’t feel too discouraged. It still hoped for a better afterlife. That was more than you had when you first stepped foot in the hotel. “With my feelings like that, I thought it wouldn’t be good for me to stay here. I can’t take advantage of your kindness when all I want is to build my life down here.”
Slowly, Charlie’s expression shuttered to muted distraught and helplessness. Her red eyes dulled only to sparkle with unshed tears. “I’m sorry to disappoint you.” You couldn’t help but apologize. You never thought you’d ever feel differently about redemption.
“Oh Ynna, don’t be sorry. I—“ She took her hand back, grabbing you into a hug so tightly it felt like a sweet small punishment for daring to apologize. “I’m honestly happy that you feel that you can be happy in Hell. That's all I want for my people. You’re one of the nicest people I’ve ever met and if you want to stay down here then I think Hell would be all the better for it but…this isn’t about Alastor is it? I know you two haven’t been on good terms for a while. Do you feel like you need to leave because of him?” She pulled away just enough to look into your eyes and you wondered if in those honest depths, which person she would support if the truth of how badly things have become ever came to light. But you wouldn’t make her choose.
“Nah. I wouldn’t leave this place just because I don’t get along with him. If that were the case, I would have left a long time ago.” As suffocating as things have been, it never crossed your mind to move out whenever you bumped into Alastor. Blocked from redemption by the fact of your acts of cannibalism, that sin was yours to bear. Forced as you were now, it didn’t change the fact that you willingly did it once.
Maybe you’d abandoned Heaven a long time ago after all. “But I’m not gonna lie and say that he’s not a part of the reason but he’s only a little part of it. I really admire your dreams and the effort you put into it everyday. Seeing all of it, I can't help but feel like I’m mooching off of you. So I decided that if I can’t get into Heaven, I can at least not be a burden. No! Even better, I can try to find more people who would be a good fit and send them your way.”
“You’ve never been a burden! Not even once. You respect my dream and that’s enough. And yes, I’m disappointed that you’re leaving. But I—I!” With shaking arms she shook you as if to rid you of those thoughts. When you smiled at her, happy to hear your worth from her own mouth, she returned it with a watery one of her own. Really, she was trying to be so strong but you could see the cracks, the dreamer hiding her wounds to play the role of a friend. The stinging in your throat felt all the more fiery for it.
“I’m sorry.” You whispered what you could before your own tears clouded your vision.
“I just want everyone to be happy. If—if you think you’ll be happy out there then I won’t stop you from leaving even though I’ll be sad and—and…”
“Th—thank you, Charlie.”
Alastor’s POV
She looked at him so defiantly, haughty and impudent in her anger. How dare she? He hadn’t even thought about earning her favor at all when he’d taken that crab for the roughest beating of his afterlife. Had she approached him with this sort of accusation before today, he would have delighted in poking her, teasing her for so arrogantly (and correctly) thinking that he would do such a thing for her sake. That she thought of him while her presence was sprinkled in each and everyone of his actions, that he lingered in her mind so much that she speculated on his motives. That he occupied her mind with even just a fraction as she did his, he would have been thrilled. But not now. Not today. Seeing her insert herself into his narrative only made him seethe as he’d just barely taken her out of it.
The stupid git didn’t even recoil as he held her face. So deliciously and maddeningly brave. He couldn’t help but brush his thumb upon her lip, a flicker of desire coursing through him like an arrow pointing straight to his folly and his salvation. But no. He couldn’t let her hold such a position over him. He wouldn’t let her. Peering into her lovely eyes, he sowed poisoned words laced with a firm but gentle touch.
“A helpless stupid little sinner that should be happy she had me and all her friends to take care of her, when she can’t even fulfill her side of the bargain correctly. A parasite. And just an ungrateful little plaything. So don’t think so highly of yourself, Ynna. You belong down here the same as the rest of us.” He spoke and the wind flew out of her sails. Ah, that should put her in her place. His smile would have stretched in mockery but the satisfaction he felt as her defiance cracked in its corners didn’t even last the span of a breath.
You really do have such a glib tongue. Unfortunately, I have no use for liars.
Like a whip, that venomous voice cracked through his glee the moment the words had left his lips, spiking dread through his body.
Never utter a lie, little fawn.
CRACK
It started in his chest, like shattered glass being poured into his lungs to scratch his insides with every little breath he took. And then heat. The chains wrapped around his wrist, keeping his connection to her apparent to both of them, burned against his palm. The magick that helped keep the links corporeal staggered and thrashed against his control. All of this, in the few seconds right after he’d said those things to demean her, to her and himself.
It was then that he’d realized that even he didn’t believe his own bullshit. Now, he paid the price for his arrogance with razors coursing through his veins and a voice he was loathed to hear whispering in his mind. He grinned in an effort to mask the pain.
“Bite.” He needed to complete the favor and dispel the connection before she noticed. But the stupid girl always had to have the last word.
With sadness in her eyes, she did as he commanded. Delicate lashes solemnly fluttered close as his thumb entered the heat of her mouth. His breath caught. Her teeth sunk in.
For a moment, the backlash of magick stilled, as if it were just as in awe of the sight before him. Without tears, without resistance, with only a single breath in preparation, the action was almost sacred. At least, that was how it looked through his eyes. Bathed in green magick, standing proud yet obedient, her teeth drawing blood and tugging at skin as if too scared to cut bone but so tempted to, she painted an image that made his mind stutter and his heart explode.
“Done.” The moment she opened her eyes, he was greeted with a chilling gaze. And all Hell broke loose in his body.
The chains disintegrated at the completion of the task and the goat took not a moment longer to take her leave. She hadn’t even reached a few steps out before his own shadow spirited him away to his suite. Along the crimson walls, shadows danced in the green light, taunting him. Insolent little things. He called his staff and shot a wave to cut through them. It had managed to slice only one before a snap of electricity jolted painfully up his arm. The microphone dropped as sparks of green and crimson swirled in the air, the magick he’d just unleashed growing beyond his control. A green lash of magick struck out and across his face. Falling to the floor, a bloody gash appears on his face. Stitches and scars glowed as his power unraveled.
His shadow tried to hold him and bring him to the bed but it proved difficult as rays of uncontrolled power lashed out wildly, leaving large gashes on the walls and tearing through his flesh where they whipped him for his insolence.
Never utter a lie, little fawn.
That damned voice! It taunted and tutted at him as if he were a child. One day. One day! He’ll get his revenge on that voice’s owner. When he figured out how to keep his power without these damned restraints!
Another surge of cutting pain, like thousands of needles poking out of his skin, cut off his train of thought. Tears flowed from the corners of his eyes. Another lash, this time a tentacle of shadows caught his left wrist and pulled hard enough to strain his shoulder. He could feel the skin burn, see the smoke as his fur sizzled against the magick that punished him.
He tasted blood, felt it dribble out of his mouth in black iron rivulets as another wave of magick sought to unravel him from the inside until the stitches that held him together gave way. It hurt. It hurt so much. It was like…it was like he was back in that forest. Writhing, screaming in the mud as the last of his breaths were stolen away under the jaws of mutts, being treated no better than small game when he had been burying that evening’s hunt. Claws and fangs ripped into his body, letting his blood seep and become lost in the bayou where he laid his victims. An inglorious death.
Anger surged within him at the indignity of that memory. With what little of his own power he still commanded he let his body sharpen. At the next lash of a shadowed tentacle, dagger-like teeth caught the flay, tearing through the shade with his claws and spitting it out with vigor. Just as soon as he thought he could fight against the backlash, heavy manacles pulled him down, his face crushed to the thick carpet with enough force to crack his cheekbone. He snarled at being put down like a dog.
He would not cede control! Not for his own power!
But it was never truly his own power, was it? It could have been, had he the sense to start his rise to power slowly.
As if reading his thoughts, phantom laughter and the snickering of a fiend surrounded him, an awfully familiar sound. A knife stabbed into his back, blinding hot pain ripping a silent scream from his bloody lungs before he was unceremoniously flipped over. Red eyes trailed up to where the kick had come from and he laughed.
“Hah! You’ve got to be joking.” Stood before him was a phantom, body made of shadow yet each feature stood out like a carefully carved statue. Tall and thin yet he knew just how strong those lithe arms were, just how many dead bodies it could carry around the swamp and mud and still have room leftover to dig and bury the parts even the gators wouldn’t stomach. He could picture it so vividly with a different coloring. Tanned skin and brown hair curled just slightly. In place of those glowing green eyes would be the amber he’d inherited from his mother. But what stood before him wasn’t a reflection, it was just a ghost of who he was.
Restrained by the chain of his own contract, the phantom was able to sit on his stomach without struggle. How crude and hasty he was back then, not taking the time to taunt an already incapacitated foe. He would’ve sauntered and bragged, gotten a few more kicks in, broken ribs. Though, he did have the restriction of time so he gave this youngster a pass.
A sneer carved on its face, disgust and belittlement clear in its expression. So familiar yet so foreign. He knew the feelings that accompanied that face, looking down at the filth that dared to dirty his beloved Nola. The squealing pigs that begged for life as they clawed in the gutters where their blood quenched the rats’ thirst after he was done. How troublesome it was to take out the trash but the thrill of the hunt had been intoxicating, the give of flesh beneath his blade divine. It had been almost a century since he’d seen a frown on his face. It raised its knife, aiming to strike at him again.
“Go ahead, greenhorn. Do try your best.” His elongated claws couldn’t reach the phantom. Neither could his teeth. But that was alright. Let this pathetic excuse of a punishment have a go at the demon he’d become.
The stab hurt as he’d expected, cutting down his sternum roughly as the being pretended it had only the strength of a human and so had to repeatedly stab and drag its blade so it would cut through demonic flesh. Gutting him like a deer? So original.
“Is this all you’ve got!? How weak! How utterly mortal and pathetic!” Blood dribbled from his mouth, fiery pain stinging his eyes but he laughed and he laughed in place of the screams that wanted to claw their way out of his already bloodied throat. For what could be more ridiculous than to let him show even an ounce of pain to this version of himself? The human would’ve been ripped apart had he been unrestrained. An insult was what it was.
In response to prevalent bemusement, a wave of power engulfed the shade, its sneer turning into a grin similar to the one he’d worn the day he’d woken up in Hell. Its shape warped to the one he wore now in the afterlife, complete with stitches sewn into the corners of its mouth. The next stab went through his guts and into the floorboard. It dragged the knife out, cutting his innards on the way.
“Still so…dull? I truly wasn’t much when I fell.” He had been more than the average sinner yet too weak to make a name still. And the phantom echoed that time, warping into his demon form. It was enough for lessers to be wary yet so pitifully small within ranks of Hell’s hierarchy. With what little strength he could muster, more from pride than actual power, he lengthened his claws and grew his form.
“Where’s your vigor? Where’s your flare? You’ve turned into a demon yet you’ve nothing but your human tricks to use!” Now, he truly knew his master thought so low of him. Why else would this form be in front of him? Unable to transform even though he’d been capable of it since the day he died, this shade was a husk of what he had been, an even more pathetic sinner than when he’d begun. “I’ve long surpassed you. And one day…I’ll kill your master. You won’t be able to mock me like this ever again.” He hissed as the phantom slashed at his throat, gurgled taunts the best he could and held back tears as it tore through his body. So what of pain? It was just a measly punishment. He could take it. He could take it!
His blood seeped and pooled, never ending as the same power that tortured him and restrained him, healed him only to butcher him again. And when his throat finally reconnected with his lungs, he laughed and laughed, madness creeping in where only pride and stubbornness kept it at bay. He lent his mind to insanity if only to continue flaunting the strength he’d grown over the decades, what reaches of his soul this contract could not control. That certainly angered his master. At one point, he was blinded, his own antlers cut off his head and shoved into his eyeballs. It was then that he thought that he’d fainted, unable to withstand the onslaught anymore. Or maybe the torture had stopped. He hadn’t been sure. If that bothered his master at all, then the wretch would have revived him again anyway.
When his eyes healed, the brightness of the room, no longer shrouded in shadows and wicked green light, made him regret opening them. His body ached but only in soreness. The backlash must have finished. Always so dramatic, wanting to ensure he’d never make the mistake of breaking one of the terms ever again. Truly worthy of being the one to own his soul, the one he would one day topple and return this blood price in kind.
The bones in his back cracked as he stretched, the tatters of his clothes barely holding onto his body. Tsk. He would have to get a new coat. He called his shadow back, the shade fretting about him as the barrier keeping that excruciating episode within the confines of these walls dropped.
Yet as he moved to get up from where he’d been on the floor for hours, heavy chains kept him in place.
His master wasn’t done with him yet.
His eyes snapped up, only just noticing a still corner of the room where swamp gave way to polished floorboards. Confusion then understanding dawned on him as two figures stood in front of him. The phantom of himself…and the phantom of her…with a knife poking through her belly as his image stabbed her from behind.
The shadowy figure of the goat sputtered, coughing red blood as her mouth formed only one word, one syllable, Al , before falling onto the floor with a heart wrenching thump. The figure of him pulled out the knife, threw it carelessly to the side and vanished, leaving a lonely heap on the floor.
It shouldn’t have held his gaze as it did. It wasn’t her. Not even close. It didn’t have the color of her hair or the warmth she exuded. Logically, he shouldn’t feel anything for that doll, that sick imitation. Yet, bathed half in the light of his lamps and the eerie moonless bayou, the shadow of his goat silenced everything in his head, leaving bitter defeat and that cruel voice of his master.
Never utter a lie, little fawn.
A parasite. She was not. An ungrateful plaything. He was sorry.
—
“Alastor! Where have you been?!” Vaggie’s low voice still screeched against his strained ears. The moment he’d had the strength to open his door, the petite woman yelled at him.
“I believe I was lying indisposed for a bit. Surely, that’s something you could excuse.” After the backlash, his magick slowly repaired against the damage, his mind flitting in and out of dreams that contained a single knife and a single sound. In short, it had been a restless time and his already worn patience grew thinner with her shouting. But he smiled. That always irritated her. And her irritation soothed him.
“You were sick?”
“Yes, that’s what I said.” Leaning casually against the doorframe, he hid the mess that his room currently was with his body.
“Oh well. Are you okay now? You’ve been out for three days. We couldn’t get ahold of you and your shadow just kept keeping us out.”
“Oh Vaggie, showing concern for little old me? Haha. How quaint. I’m quite fine, my dear. Everyone has a few off days every now and then but don’t we all bounce back better than ever?” He raised his pitch just a tad, forcing a chipper tone just to see her concerned frown crease. What better way to signal his health than by being the same kind of irritating creature she thought he was?
“Yeah, sure. I’m glad you’re okay.” She brushed him off, the usual twitch in her eye returning at his exuberant show. It only made him grin wider. She sighed. “Anyway, I’ll let Charlie know why you were out.” It was considerate of her not to ask though he wouldn’t have given her an answer anyway. But that was what he could admire about Vaggie. The woman understood that he enjoyed annoying too much that even this little check up of hers was used to amuse him.
“By the way, Ynna checked out of the hotel yesterday.” It was an almost nonchalant drop of knowledge, a dagger seemingly thrown casually with the intention to strike lethally. She said it so simply that he could only respond with a laid-back grin or she would know what kind of alarms started running through his head.
“Oh? What ever could have made her leave?”
“…maybe if someone didn’t argue with her all the time, she wouldn’t have.”
“Maybe. Maybe not. Did she say it was because of me?”
“No.” What? But Vaggie didn’t elaborate, continuing back to her girlfriend with only a doubtful side eye at him in parting.
Ynna left and she hadn’t placed all the blame for that decision on him? She left…and he wondered if she even looked for him. Likely not, given their relationship.
“Hah. After all I’ve done, it took only a couple of insults for you to leave?” It was almost too ridiculous. She stood against his tyranny over her with that blastedly defiant glare, that tempting sneer. She didn’t bow to a chain around her neck, didn’t beg against the sin he fed her. But to be considered a plaything? A parasite? That was what drove her away?
Haha. He closed the door and went about readying himself for the day. It made sense. Her friends have always been her priority. To be called a burden to them would not sit with her. But if that were the case, shouldn’t she be waving the bonds she built with the others in his face? Prove their strength by having Charlie stand up for her? Or Angel? Or Husk?
Or did the princess not ask her to stay? His teeth gnashed. Did no one ask her to stay? To sway her mind, comfort her against whatever nonsense he’d managed to make her believe?
Or was she just that determined to leave?
He didn’t know. Couldn’t know. Not when for the rest of the day, only solemn quiet wrapped its disgusting claws around the hotel’s rambunctious bunch. The easily baited residents kept mum, feeling the heavy weight of one less soul dwelling in their halls. He was almost tempted to blast music just to rid them of this moroseness. He found himself missing the small tapping sounds of her claws in the oppressive atmosphere.
By midnight, there had been no signs of the goat. She would have usually come home by now but with the lack of her presence and the lack of alarm from any of the residents, the fact of her moving out only seemed to truly sink in. Standing from the lounge chair where he waited, he shadowed to her door, finding it unlocked. This late, she would have secured it, a precaution he told her to do some time ago.
Entering the familiar space, he could only note the changes with a slow eye. The bedding was stripped of its mountain of cushions and various blankets. The pots by the window were gone, leaving only water-stains where they had been. The corkboard by the desk was bare, the many photographs that decorated its surface probably tucked away somewhere until Ynna could hang them up once again. Wherever she was. A thorn stuck in his throat.
The once cozy room laid barren in the dark of the night. Lifeless. Empty.
No. Not completely barren. He squinted. A small shape on the desk caught his eye, gleaming a pale blue on its shiny red surface in what light Heavenly light peeked through the window.
After months in the hotel, the only things she left behind were a small plastic radio, a photograph of them together and cold ashes in the fireplace.
His heart turned heavier, feeling even more impossibly suffocated than it had been since Vaggie gave the news. The shadows in his mind hissed in outrage as reality sunk in, as the loss finally settled onto his frayed nerves. He hadn’t even noticed their tension. Electricity rose with madness. He had to find her. He had to bring her back. He had to apologize. He hadn’t meant it. He didn’t mean any of it!
Bzzt.
With a snap of static, the thoughts quieted. Breathe. Breathe, Alastor. This was for the best. She’d made a good decision, pained as he was to admit it.
He straightened his back. With a wave of his fingers, little shadows sprang from the darkness, devouring every inch of the room and leaving it pristine when the lights hit them again. Not a speck of dust in the air or soot in the fireplace. Not a trace of the woman ever having been there in sight. Even the little radio was placed into his collection in his room. Only a small bit remained. He picked up the abandoned photograph, the only untouched item, and carefully tucked it into his coat pocket.
This was for the best.
Notes:
Yay~ Ynna finally left and Alastor isn't chasing after her for once!
I thought I'd take a spin here and put my headcanon that Alastor's deal is what stops him from lying. Though I think he personally isn't a fan of lying all the time, he does think there's a time and place for it when trying to manipulate someone. I also think it would bother him more that he has to police himself rather or face punishment rather than just not be able to do it at all.
In other news, spooky season is upon us and I'm just chilling, enjoying fall. Hope you lovely reader are too!
Let me know what you think of the chapter in the comments~
Chapter 37: A Day Out
Notes:
Hello Hello~
I hope everyone's been good. This chapter was a struggle as it wasn't in my original plan for this part of the story but I thought it was needed. I hope y'all enjoy and let me know what y'all think.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Ynna's POV
Your first day off came after a little over a month of working, around three weeks since you moved out of the Hazbin Hotel. The moment you packed your bags to leave, everything had been a whirlwind, with Angel asking, multiple times, whether you were sure about making it on your own out here and then doing his best to find you a place to settle. Surprisingly enough, finding a new home hadn’t been difficult.
With the combined knowledge and experience of the residents, you were able to find an apartment on the opposite side of town, in an area that wasn’t too dangerous, semi-weekly explosions from one of the buildings down the street aside. It was a small place, just slightly bigger than your room had been while also cramming a small kitchenette. Too small to host a party for all your friends but big enough and most importantly, within your budget.
You glanced around the peeling yellowed wallpaper and the suspicious looking black stains on the ceiling. Then your eyes roamed to the potted plants decorating the small space and the pile of blankets and pillows on the floor that served as your bed, the only belongings you owned along with some trinkets and gifts you’d received from your friends. Compared to when you were alive, it wasn’t much. But still, a smile tugged at your lips. This was more than you’d had those months before you made it to the hotel.
A quick glance outside told you that the weather was still good today. You emptied your favorite mug of this morning’s coffee with a few determined gulps. The ceramic mug with its cheesy ‘I wet my plants’ design still gave you a conflicted feeling. It was one of the few things you received from your ex-friend that you didn’t let go of. It was just too much to your taste that even the sadness it evoked couldn’t make you leave it behind. It gave you too much joy in return.
Cleaning up after your little breakfast, you put on your nice clothes. Since today was a day off, you decided to take yourself out on a little adventure as a treat. You grabbed your essentials, wallet, phone, keys and pocket knife, and locked up.
It was a bright day, something akin to spring if you had to describe it. A slightly cool breeze passed through the city and though the Pentagram shone brightly, it didn’t feel too hot. All in all, it gave you a good feeling for today. Public transport was unfortunately shit in Hell, for what few modes of transport even existed down here. The buses were usually full and with a high risk of getting groped, robbed and stabbed all at the same time. Trains were a little better though they mainly transported people only between cities and rings. They were only a little better in that several groups had a vested interest in keeping trains going either because they liked trains or were transporting products in them.
It also meant people targeted trains for whatever was on them. Like right now. You boarded one train to take you to the outskirts of the city. Within the first ten minutes of the twenty-minute train ride, a group of imps rushed through the middle of the train, shooting guns at another group. They yelled something about things being stolen and one sorry motherfucker should eat shit blah blah blah. It wasn’t anything you hadn’t seen on the streets before. Ducking down and making yourself as small as you could on the floor, you hoped no stray bullets found you before those imps moved on.
By the time you’d reached your station, a couple of sinners and a Hellhound ended up as casualties to the impromptu train chase. Luckily, you only had to sweep off a bit of broken glass from a lightbulb that got shot and sprinkled on you. You commended the engineer for thinking of using tempered glass. They didn’t go cheap on the design so you didn’t have to worry about getting cut.
It was another seventeen minutes of walking to get to your destination but you didn’t mind. It wasn’t often that you got to explore a different part of town. This part of town seemed older, less neon lighting and more classical in their decoration. Lots of gargoyles on the roofs, arching rails with sharp iron spikes. It kind of reminded you of Cannibal Town, now that you thought about it. You wondered if this district housed some of the oldest souls around. It sure felt like it. Unlike the hustling sinners of Downtown, many of the people around walked in capes or cloaks and tended to keep to themselves, even the ones who dressed to impress as they walked down the cobbled streets.
Eventually, you reached your destination, the Bella Madonna Gardens. It was an expansive mansion fenced by black iron gates. A tall blue-roofed Victorian mansion served as the main building and entrance, its overlooking shadow spreading across the land. How eerie. How exquisite. A bubble of excitement tickled through you.
Hell had so many interesting places. Just Pentagram City alone was home to thousands of magnificent buildings both old and new, sites of history and creativity. But most of them weren’t open to the public.
“Anything’s open to the public so long as you know a few tricks. Sounds like a skill issue.” Goss told you when you lamented the lack of access. Not too many museums in Hell, after all. The answer had you trying to figure out if that view of things came before or after she landed down here. It wasn’t like she was wrong either.
You paid the entry fee to an old imp-fox hybrid who kindly, if very slowly, offered you some pamphlets with a small shaky voice. You gladly accepted and made your way through the mansion. According to the glossy papers, a couple of centuries ago, the mansion itself used to belong to one of the Goetia who lost a bet with an Overlord and had to open their mansion up to the public. The Goetia found it so appalling that they abandoned the property altogether and the Overlord took it and turned it into what it was today. Now, you questioned why someone as powerful as a Goetia didn’t just kill the sinner and forget the bet ever happened. Until a little line at the bottom of the text answered. They shook on it, both parties arrogant enough to make their bet official and stamped by the powers of Hell.
Huh? You didn’t think deals could work like that too. Can anything be made into a deal?
You found yourself engrossed in every word, taking in the history of the site as you walked through its splendor. Rich tapestries, stained glass, polished wood, shining crystals. Decadence with taste, luxury afforded through decades, maybe centuries, of accumulated wealth and power. You thought the owner of this place smartly left out which Overlord they were because most people would be wary of pissing off an unknown big shot. Though you were sure there were those dumb enough to try.
You were just happy to be able to take a tour and see the pretty things. It was enough to make you almost skip with every step but you refrained. You had to at least pretend you weren’t feeling like an elementary school kid on a field trip, an unsupervised one at that.
Three grand floors, two gorgeously decorated hallways each, lined with paintings, sculptures and trophies from battles. Later, you’d read your way through every single one and added another impression of the owner to your mind. This person sure liked to boast for someone keeping themselves anonymous. Every piece either bragged about how expensive it was, how difficult it was to acquire or what big-name person they killed/stole/were gifted it from. Your favorite had been a huge portrait that spanned the whole of a wall from floor to ceiling, depicting the fall of Lucifer and the creation of Hell. Classical like those paintings you’d seen when you were alive. Thinking about it still made you laugh.
The description read:
Viovre’s take on the fall of the Morningstar.
The artist wanted to show the King of Hell how humans depicted him in classical literature. Thinking it an opportune time to also educate the royal on the quirks of mankind, I drew a penis somewhere on the painting. Viovre never did find it. I believe His Majesty did.
—
After a quick break for some afternoon coffee, you started the tour of the garden, the real reason you wanted to visit this place. On the expansive estate, at least four acres were allotted to the gardens. Two glass greenhouses sat on the property, one hedge maze and a huge terraced plaza overlooking the edge of the Pride Ring. You made your way to the drop off first.
From the top step, the land sloped downwards, with three main flat areas staggered until the very bottom of the property. Each flat area was decorated in flowering bushes with a fountain and benches to rest on. From where you stood, you could see the very edge of the Pride Ring, a bottomless-looking cliff giving the impression that the ring itself was a floating island, connected to the distant rings below it through trains and elevators a sinner like you could never take. Beyond the cliff, where neither the light of the Pentagram nor Heaven reached was inky blackness with the occasional impression on eyes blinking in the pitch black sky. They appeared and disappeared in the far distance, a mockery of twinkling stars. The eyes of Hell? Or maybe a reminder of God’s omniscience, his eternal presence watchful as his creations rotted in the chaos of their own-making. Who’s to say if the eyes you saw all over the town weren’t both?
You took the sight in, feeling the abyss stare back at you and truly, you hadn’t felt the weight of your sins quite as heavily as when you looked outward. With nothing to do, in a space with no worries, with only a vastness baring down at you from a distance, the form you took melted away from your consciousness, leaving only the feeling of your soul writhing with the shell that housed it for eternity. Horns, hooves, fur. Long twitching ears and a tail. It hadn’t taken you long to get used to them, hadn’t thought about how different they felt from your previous body once you’d stopped tripping over your new feet and learned how to accommodate a tail when you sat.
But under those judgemental eyes, it felt like…for a moment, a great discomfort, the stillness inviting doubt and shame as your soul remembered everything. Your limbs felt too long and the new additions to your body like leeches attached to your skin. Your claws twitched with a need to carve the excess only to feel at a loss for the fact that you even had fingertips sharp enough to cut through human bone. Your stomach flipped, feeling your body as if it were someone else’s and you were just a passenger with inadequate control of the ride. An eternal itch that you could never scratch.
And…
You blinked and looked away. Maybe that was why sinners tended to the chaos of the city or lost themselves in the mindfuck of drugs and alcohol. Too much communing with the environment seemed to invite reminders for how much you fucked up in life to end up down here.
As you turned to head to the direction of the greenhouse, you saw a couple of other sinners stare out into the abyss with the same lost gaze you felt earlier.
—
The glass greenhouse was home to plants non-native to the Pride Ring. According to the Sinternet, flora in the Pride Ring tended to resemble Earth more, a fact credited to the King and Queen of Hell who designed the ring after memories of the Garden. But other rings sprouted wilder varieties. Plants that were a cross of flora and fauna. Beetle-shiny stems and teeth that weren’t for show.
You were staring at one right now. It looked like the Piranha Plants from Mario, a red-orange bulb-shape with white stripes across its ‘petals’. According to Voogle, it ate meat and needed a full day of direct light.
“Fascinating.”
“Oh, aren’t they just?”
You turned your head away from the plants to find a tall bird demon behind you. Maybe an owl sinner?
“I wouldn’t stand too close. It’s bound to attack if it hasn’t been fed recently.”
“It says here that a recently-fed tiger tulip tends to have a darkened petal base. This one looks like it fits that description.” You pointed to the discoloration you noticed, keeping your attention on the plant in case it did decide to snag a bite at your finger.
The owl sinner leaned in closer to inspect. His four red eyes narrowed and relaxed, an excited hoot coming from his mouth as he acknowledged what you pointed out. “Judging from the color, it shouldn’t need to feed for another day or two though it will get peckish in a few hours.”
“Are you a gardener here, by any chance?” The question was out of your mouth before you had a chance to process his fancy-looking clothes. He seemed to startle, amused.
“Me? Oh, that’s funny. Just an enthusiast though I do keep a few varieties in my own personal garden at home. Nothing as vast as this but maybe someday.” He had an accent, giving a very formal, you’d even go so far as to say regal, air that was only cut by the gentle observing gaze he looked at the plants with.
Neither of you said another word and you continued to peruse the different flowers in front of you. The painted wooden plaque above mentioned Wrath Ring Carnivores. A quick search on your phone mentioned a few things about the ring, mainly that it was the agricultural center of Hell. You typed in the name of the plant you were currently looking at, a tall stalk of about 5 feet, covered in dewy purple spines.
“Lavender Stewdrops, the purple seepage is highly acidic.” The stranger’s voice came from next to you and you wondered if he was going to stick around while you walked. A quick once over the man gave you the impression that he was harmless, for the most part. More interested in observing plants than you. Since that was the case and he didn’t seem too bad so far, you thought you wouldn’t mind the company. You could always ditch him if he tripped your stranger-danger senses.
“It says here that they inhabit arid regions of the Wrath Ring like Double Devils Canyon. The acid must be a way to attract prey looking for water but how does it not dry up in those locations?”
“Hmm I don’t think the plant itself is inherently magical so it could be something in its components.” The man took out his own phone, searching through the dredges of the Sinternet for an answer.
Your afternoon went like that, calmly walking through the greenhouse with the owl demon. At some point, you’d exhausted your own need to look up the plants, wanting to just look at them. But that didn’t discourage your companion at all, taking your indulgent silence and attention for enthusiasm as he spat out facts with a confident giddiness that he sometimes tries to temper. It was cute.
Of course, at the end of every tour was a gift shop near the exit. The owl and you walked through the aisles, glancing at pins and t-shirts until a brightly lit corner caught your attention. You beelined for it and violá. The nursery!
“Hm hm hm~” The little tune floated through your head and hummed out as you looked at all the tiny potted plants you could take home. They looked at you, metaphorically and some with actual eyes, in pretty shades of red, purple and green.
A baby piranha plant, no, tiger tulip immediately stuck out among the rest, in a three-inch terracotta pot. “Oh my goodness~ aren’t you adorable?” It was in your grip within a second. It swayed in its pot slightly, toothy petals closed as you noticed the darkened based signaling it was recently fed. The sticker price also stood out and you gasped, sadly putting it back. It was too far out of your fun-money range right now. Damn.
“Well? Aren’t you going to get it?” The smooth voice above you made you jump in surprise. The owl demon was still there. You’d thought you’d left the man at the plushie section.
“It’s out of my budget right now.”
“Oh? Then why don’t I get it for you?” Without looking at your reaction, he picked up the little pot.
“What—no. No thank you.”
“Oh I insist. It’s not even that expensive.”
“Excuse you sir but that's like, two dinners.”
“So not that much.”
“Not that—“ So the guy was rich. So what? It didn’t feel right to accept a gift from a stranger. “Sir, not that I want to ruffle any feathers , but I really don’t want to take a gift from someone I just met.” You hoped the pun would annoy him enough to drop it. It worked with Husk most of the time.
“Oh, you’re a hoot .” For a moment, a flicker of Alastor’s face, a tickled line of a smile of his grinning lips, overlapped the pale mask-like one of the owl in front of you but the image was gone just as suddenly as it had appeared. “Just take the thing, little one. Consider it a token of my gratitude. You wouldn’t believe how hard it is to find someone to talk to about plants with.” He handed you the plant, gently pushing the cold pot into your chest until you were forced to hold it.
“But—“
The shrill ring of his cellphone cut you off. With a long finger, he told you to hold on for a moment as he took his call.
“ Blitzy~ ” His formal voice melted into a croon as he walked a distance away for some privacy. Meanwhile, the little plant in your hand swayed in the breezeless shop. The bright orange petals called to you and you were incredibly convinced to take your companion’s offer. But really you shouldn’t. But he’s insisting…Greed was such a difficult thing to battle.
“Little one! Yoo-hoo!” A minute later and the owl’s voice called you from the cash register. The internal battle about whether to get the plant or not was won by the temptation of free stuff. He paid for it with barely a glance at how much he was actually giving the cashier, if the double-take the little imp behind the counter did was any indication. “I have a date to go to but I had so much fun today. I do hope you enjoy the rest of yours.”
“I did too. Thanks for your time and the tiger tulip. I hope your evening goes well.”
“Ohhoho. It will~” A blush rose on his pale feathered cheeks as he waved goodbye, walking quickly away on long legs with a sway in his step.
You looked at your little souvenir.
“You won’t turn into an Audrey 2 situation right?” But the little plant just kept swaying slowly, not giving you an answer. You smiled. At least it was cute. Today was a good day.
Alastor’s POV
The pleasant chime of the emporium’s door signaled Rosie’s tea break for the day. Accustomed to the shop’s routine, the many clientele knew to bustle out of the store when he stepped in at around this time of day. The familiar faces of Rosie’s wards passed him with simple greetings, some missing limbs so they couldn’t wave or tongues so they couldn’t speak. But what was a true cannibal town greeting if not a smile filled with too many sharpened teeth?
He returned their grins with a closed-lipped smile of his own in passing before making his way to the hostess. Today, Rosie donned a purple dress, something he remembered her buying over a decade ago when Seamee had been a bit inspired. The tight-fitting sleeves cinched around her elbows where they opened to delicately draping lace, matching the narrow trailing bottom of her skirt.
“There you are, darling. I thought you forgot our appointment today. I almost sent out a carrier crow to come find you.” Despite her apparent concern, she already had the usual set of tea prepared and a pour-over drip carafe brewing.
“Charlie’s little exercise today ran a bit later than usual.” Excuses given, he made himself useful by tucking away his microphone and helping her bring out today’s snacks, pickled ears served with cheese and crackers. It seemed his old friend’s appetite for fermented food had returned. He made a note to check his recipe book so he could bring something for the next time he visited the old girl.
“It’s a good thing anyway. You wouldn’t believe the bushwa Margaret just asked for today.” She put her hands on her hips as if just recalling the whole story rekindled the shock and spite of the first time she’d heard it.
“Oh, do tell.” He sat in his usual chair, hands folded, already gleeful for the story she was about to tell him. He could almost taste the petty schemes floating in his dear friend’s mind.
“Ah. Ah. What’s the new word for it these days?” The lady tutted, a prompting slant to her mouth as she waved a slim finger at him before taking a nibble of the yellowed digit. It looked freshly chopped off.
He groaned internally. Why did this woman place so much importance on learning all this silly jargon? It was almost nonsense in some areas. But he could only sigh when she remained adamant about seeing him practice modern language. What was he if not a good friend? A classy man needed to keep up to date on the latest trends and know when to adapt. He breathed in and casually asked. “Spill the tea, if you would, Rosie.”
“Still too formal but you’re getting there. Anyway, Margaret’s husband…” Rosie chatted away all the tidbits of information she felt appropriate to share about the souls that wandered into her shop seeking advice and a heavy hand to deal heavier blows. This particular story seemed to rile her up which made it all the more entertaining.
“…and that’s me right now.”
“Scandalous. I’m sure you’ll enjoy sorting that out.” The absurdity of the request certainly required some creativity. There were only so many ways to kill someone that allowed them to respawn quickly. The lady was also deep in thought but he just knew how her mind worked, already putting away a nice list of little ‘accidents’ to torture the poor lug of a sinner who happened to displease his wife. Rosie did tend to get more invested in marital disputes compared to other issues her townsfolk brought up.
“Oh, you bet. Surprised me how she still wants the guy back after wanting to put him through the ringer but I’ve got time to play their games with them.”
“You always love playing a wicked cupid.”
“It’s my specialty.” She popped a sour ear into her mouth, all her daintiness momentarily abandoned as she chewed on softened cartilage. She was positively beaming at the challenge ahead of her and he smiled at her in kind. Who didn’t like to shake things up now and then? When she finished chewing, she took a little sip of her tea, bringing back a calmer poise and her void-black eyes turned half-lidded and her toothy grin turned into a small, quirked lip. “And how about you, darling?”
“Nothing unusual as of late. Afraid to say that it’s been quite mundane. For having such a cast of characters, Charlie’s Hotel doesn’t provide much in terms of variety.” From Husker to Angel to the princess, herself, they all reacted quite predictably. Though their routines did work to his advantage. He could schedule a few meetings in between Charlie’s activities and be back in time for dinner.
He leaned back into his seat, adjusting his crossed legs. A smirk tugged at his lips. “Though they do have their merits.” Now and then, the princess did manage to think up something fun, something more meaningful than empty words of affirmation. Like today’s activity, a second attempt at sharing something about each other. Unlike her previous attempts, it seemed people were more open to giving a bit of information about themselves. A sign of the growing camaraderie and fondness that brewed between people forced to stay within each other’s vicinity for so long.
…Though proximity couldn’t always breed that sort of comfortable familiarity.
He could feel the moment he slipped, thoughts going to someone who’d been gone for a while now. The glow of Heaven’s light in an empty room still fresh in his mind. He hid the change in his demeanor through a sip of coffee. By the time he’d swallowed, a smile lounged on his face as if not a thought of his goat had passed.
“Seems like investing your time with the princess wasn’t such a silly idea after all.”
“You thought it was silly?”
“A waste of time but a fun one, at least.” The lady smiled teasingly, not hiding her mockery of the princess’ efforts in that polite way of hers. Leave it to Rosie, an Overlord so close to his own mind, to be on the same wavelength of weighing the opportunities the princess’ venture presented versus the effort needed to cater to her silly dreams. He snorted in affirmation.
Rosie’s smile dropped for a moment, their joint derision cut short by a meaningful glance his way. In that same polite voice, her demeanor changed, lacing a bit of seriousness into her tone. Exasperation too, but only just the tiniest bit. “But you know that’s not what I’m asking about.”
“Must we speak of this again?” Here he was just barely stopping himself from going down this particular rabbit hole. He’d put in quite a bit of effort not to think about Ynna for at least the better part of a day but it seemed Rosie didn’t appreciate that effort all that much.
“Suit yourself if you don’t want to.” He almost glared at her then. Why bring it up only to put it down so lightly? Though, he breathed, he could understand what the lady’s intent was in bringing it up. She wanted to play love counsel, as he had for her many times now. Or maybe she wanted to try being a therapist.
“You shouldn’t be working during your break hour, old gal.”
“What can I say? I like to pry.” She shrugged, not budging in his own polite attempt to dissuade her from the subject. Oh well. It was worth a shot.
He thought about it then, looking at her ashy-pale face and its expectant tilt, and hesitated. If it was just gossip she was looking for, he would have fed it to her then. Would have told the story with some pizzazz, and kept his audience hooked on the narrative. And he had, in the past, shared the things that happened in his afterlife because most of them were trifles. Nothing she could use against him. Nothing he couldn’t handle or maybe things he did need her assistance with. Like repairing his relationship with Ynna and how she’d left after their last argument.
But his thoughts on everything after, the times he’d looked out the window and wondered where she was, the stewing brew in his chest that craved her attention, and how he resisted the urge to feed it. The feelings that lingered. The worry. The self-contempt. All of these things were too touchy, and too soft to share with anyone.
But Rosie was a rarity. Powerful enough to command her own legion of hellions, yet just as unassuming as any lady with class and a sword hidden within her parasol could be. They were so similar, Rosie and he, charmingly devious in nature both. Too similar at times like now, when he hesitated to share his troubles. She could just as well mock him and lead him to destruction in the guise of friendship. That’s what he would do if he were any less fond of her.
But Rosie continued her soft gaze, not once pushing nor pulling back. Just sitting there. Waiting for him to decide to trust her with his thoughts and feelings, to let himself look weak in front of her if only to receive some comfort back.
The mug of coffee in his hand weighed heavily on his fingertips. One careless powerless slip and it would come crashing down and make a mess on the floor of his dear friend’s parlor. He took a sip of the cooling bitter brew and looked at Rosie. He could trust her with this.
“I admit that you were correct in that I’d let myself slip. I’m not as angry now as I had been.” Though the memory of his disappointment and her abandonment still writhed furious whispers in his ears. But not as much now. Not in the face of…well, the lack of Ynna’s face in his life. When everything else was going so smoothly, he’d had plenty of time to reflect.
“After I’d had some time to think…it all feels so…” Red claws swirled the air, trying to pluck the right word from the vocabulary in his mind. “…inevitable. Ynna sparked my interest and I’m not known for forming healthy relationships, unfortunately. This was all bound to happen.”
Yes, it was almost a certainty that a normal person like her was bound to get hurt trying to cater to his whims. That was why he’d chosen to commit his sins in secret. He’d never intended for her to find out. He’d never intended to find her so personable that he wanted to keep her for more than a passing flight of entertainment.
“Well, I’m glad you can at least admit that flaw to yourself.”
“I can also admit that I’d approached her wrongly to begin with. I did already find her agreeable before this all started. I should have at least acknowledged and respected that before diving right in on the brand-new shiny fun she presented when she ate my velvet. But it's too little too late to understand that now.” And even knowing that he’d given in to temptation too quickly didn’t change the fact that just thinking about her, the warmth in her eyes when she offered him a bite of her meal, the determination and despair that swam in her tear-stained eyes as she chewed on his flesh, had madness coming back in the form warmth flushing through his body and electricity teasing through his mind.
A month of the same routines as always, of gathering souls and making his name known to all the brand new wretches joining them in eternal damnation. A month spent back in his usual form of drawing power and entertainment from the many colorful sinners of Hell. A gallivanting terror, frolicking in this world of the damned. It was fantastic.
Yet her memory still danced at the cliff of his sanity, daring him to indulge in the way they made him shiver, teasing him to plot and scheme her return to him. To forget his restraint and fall back into the patterns that brought them here today. It must be what addicts feel. How he loathed that he could sympathize with Angel Dust even a little.
“You miss her.” It wasn’t a question but an observation. He could tell from her gaze that she questioned what he planned to do about it, a man of action that he was.
“And the world still moves round and round as always.” Nothing, was the answer. More precisely, if he even entertained the idea of finding the young woman, he wasn’t sure he could stop himself from making more mistakes. It was best not to go. Things were going well now and he didn’t want to hurt her even more.
He smiled small then, a weight settling comfortably within his chest. How unnerving it was to let someone know about his pathetic little feelings. But how liberating too.
The lady didn’t say anything more, popping another ear into her mouth as they enjoyed the rest of tea time on other lighter subjects.
“Oh look at the time! I need to get this cleaned up before opening.” Eventually, the pleasant break came to an end and Rosie had to get back to work while he also needed to prepare for tonight’s broadcast.
“Let me.” With a snap, small shadow puppets sprang from dark corners and cleaned up their table. Meanwhile, the lady escorted him to the door.
“Ah, I suggest you tune in to tonight’s broadcast. I found a guest who might need your help with her little venture.” Just before he left, he extended the invite to her. The lady quirked a thin brow in curiosity.
“And what did she give to get a coveted seat at the Radio Demon’s show?” Oh, how he adored that she knew him so well. She grinned at him knowing full well how favors worked with him.
“Just some of her time in exchange for an ad spot on the show. You can try getting the rest of it when I send her your way. The little cannabette hasn’t been affiliated with the town. I think she’ll like it here. Well, her main clientele would likely be this area.”
“Haha. Oh darling. People would hate you less if you warned them about what they’re agreeing to.” Despite her gentle suggestion, she grinned toothily, finding the whole deal funny while still rubbing him for doing the same thing to Ynna before.
“Nothing screams ‘Welcome to Hell’ quite like unknowingly signing part of your time to the devil, dear. I’m just being a courteous neighbor.” Winking, he tried not to think about the bridges he’d burned before they were ever fully built by creating these kinds of deals. In the same vein, because of these loosely worded contracts, his goat was still anchored to him, a connection that only a final death or miracle could sever. And that was enough. In the end, power and control were king.
“You fiend! Don’t forget to send the new gal my way then. I’ll get her settled into town in a jiffy. Bye now!” They both chuckled as she waved him out the door but not before a warm hand patted his back, a small tenderness that quickly faded as the chattering of the afternoon crowd greeted them outside the door.
He gave Rosie a knowing grin and bid the lady adieu. An upbeat jig filtered through his chest as he thought of the script for tonight’s interview. All in all, today was a good day.
Notes:
I thought it would be nice to show how these two are functioning now that they're apart. I wanted to show Ynna's character growth, how she's almost comfortable traversing Hell by herself and even has fun in it. As for Alastor, a little bit of vulnerability and introspection. All in all, I just wanted a chapter where these two are just chillin and vibin.
Also, if it's not obvious, Ynna ran into Stolas in the satanical botanical garden she visited. My plan was for Alastor to conduct an interview with Martha (also from Helluva Boss) but I couldn't think of the scene at all so I just left it as some poor new soul Alastor swindled. I was honestly so stuck on his POV. I wrote and finished Ynna's POV the day after I posted the last chapter but Alastor's part needed time to cook.
I hope y'all enjoyed it.
Chapter 38: Meeting Again
Chapter Text
Alastor’s POV
Another perfectly chaotic day on the Pentagram. In the sky, the red star shone a warm bright glow, bathing the cement and asphalt streets in an orange tinge, a mockery of a summer day though most sinners found it just as pleasant. He could spot at least five plumes of dumpster fire smoke in the distance. What a relatively peaceful day in this part of the city.
Fortunately, today’s schedule had to be adjusted at the last minute. Angel Dust was pulled to work and the princess didn’t want to exclude him from today’s teamwork redemption exercise of baking. He still wasn’t convinced that a bit of culinary practice would help cleanse one’s soul and he’d pointed that out to Charlie. If cooking and baking could lead to redemption, then shouldn’t he be the holiest of the crew by now?
A smirk tugged at his lips at his own wit and the princess’s creative reasoning. “It’s all about intention.”, she’d said. Hah! He could only imagine how many good intentions would go into those baked goods once Husker burned a batch and Niffty placed into the batter some of the chopped bugs she kept in a little jar. It would be so incredibly entertaining to watch.
With nothing planned for this morning, he’d taken the free time to check on a few of his contractors and review his peskier contracts. Even after all of that, it was still mid-afternoon and he was left to ponder what to do next. Bespoke leather shoes clacked against chipped cement as he sauntered through the city for something to catch his eye.
Just as well, a small bustling sound caught his attention from a small crowd dining at a local restaurant. The outside was lined in aluminum and red neon and from the faces stuffing themselves by the windows, it looked like a decent joint. His stomach chose just then to remind him that he hadn’t had lunch yet. Why take a break when he’d been enjoying his morning, now early afternoon? Of course, that thinking led to his now empty belly.
The light jingle of the shop bell signaled the abrupt halt of chatter as the more aware diners realized just who stepped into the place. Several seats were immediately vacated, the news of his last rampage at a cafe still fresh on wiser sinners minds. Unfortunately for the staff, they couldn’t leave, though a few went straight to the back before his eyes landed on them.
Several figures stood out within the diner, cloaked in black and wearing cartoonish screaming-faced masks, with little modifications for each individual. Something in the back of his mind itched at seeing them though he paid it little attention. Dark cloaks weren’t uncommon in the hellscape, neither were paper-white masks.
A small cloaked figure came up to him, their stature barely reaching above his waist.
“Welcome to Billy and Stu’s. Table for one?” They had a feminine voice, almost squeaky. He eyed the area and found a table by the corner, only recently vacated if the half-eaten plate of food was anything to go by.
“Yes. I’d like that corner table, if it’s available.”
“It is now. Let me get that cleaned up for you, sir!” The pipsqueak piped up and ran her little legs to the table, scooping up the abandoned lunch and hastily thrown dollar bills with such swiftness that she was done in less than a minute. With a gesture of her hand, she offered him the seat and placed a menu for him. “I’ll bring your server here in a bit.”
He watched the little one disappear into the back. She was very professional, showing no sign of fear in his presence. He bit back a chuckle as her head looked like it floated on the tables given how short she was.
Picking up the menu, he looked through the spread. The items had strange names he was sure were references to things that were lost to him. At least they had the mind to write descriptions.
A few minutes later, a taller cloaked figure approached his table and that itching in his mind started to spark a truly bright Edison moment. It started with a scent, so faint beneath sweat and diner grease but achingly familiar. And then it was a voice, muffled by the mask but one he knew very well.
“Welcome to Billy and Stu's. Can I start you off with a drink?”
He swallowed thickly behind a carefree smile. Well, this was unexpected, to say the least. What were the odds that he’d run into her here after so long without seeing her? Much more, she sounded pleasant.
He could almost trick himself into thinking her customer service voice held genuine warmth and friendliness. Each syllable spoken in a polite manner that shook his core with the force of a sledgehammer.
“How would you say the coffee is here?” He was quick to hide his surprise, slipping into cordial conversation even as his ears strained to pick up any changes in her tone.
The black-mesh of the mask’s eye holes were too thick to see through. It did a fantastic job of concealing whatever face she was making as he prompted her. No doubt, she wasn’t as happy to see him as her voice made her sound.
“It’s the best diner coffee I’ve had both before and after I died. Not too acidic and we just brewed a new pot so I can get you a fresh cup.” A familiar ache of crumpled static and violent shocks sparked in his chest. He hadn’t heard her regard him so nicely in so long. The corners of his mouth tugged wider, wondering if she was feeling any irritation upon seeing it. Could her professionalism be stronger than her hate for him? If it was, then it wasn’t beneath him to take advantage and see how long she could bear to keep up her professional mask.
“Excellent. Get me a cup. I’ll need a few more minutes to look through the menu.”
“You got it. Let me know if you have any questions.”
A thrill shot through him, sharp and sweet. Nothing changed in how she addressed him, almost happy, almost chipper, like a good little waitress. If he recalled correctly, whenever she pitched her voice like that, the corners of her mouth tugged up, the motion crunching her eyes a little into a rather adorable smile.
He could envision it so clearly in his head, she must be anything but delighted to see him. Her eyes wouldn’t be that gentle sparkle she showed him once she’d taken him into her circle. Rather, they would look at him coldly, a silent anger in them.
A cold gaze and a pretty smile. A shiver raced down his back unexpectedly, his heel digging harder into the white tile under the table in his startle. The image was certainly better than the frowns and sneers she’d sent him. And it had been a while since he’d felt a rush from something so simple as a person’s smile, imaginary as it was.
Reaching into her cloak, he realized that the bottom half was an apron that blended well with the black uniform. From the many pockets he could now recognize, a rolled napkin and silverware were placed on his table before she sauntered away to get his drink, her pace calm and unbothered.
Unbothered by him?
He just about laughed out loud. Good. This was brilliant. Why hadn’t he thought of entering her place of work before? With how much fun he was suddenly having, he had to the inside of his lip to remain poised. This was…an unexpected treat, one that still shined despite the month he’d spent forgetting about it.
Rosie’s voice screamed at him in his mind, “Leave her alone!”
He could see his dear old friend in his mind wilting with disappointment as his kind was made up. He mentally apologized. Surely, this much indulgence would be fine? Just a little. He wouldn’t do more than be her customer.
Ynna’s POV
Life stabilized after a while. Things were going great, perils of Hell and its inhabitants aside. Your friendship with Goss was a delight to have. You were doing well in your job. Slowly but surely, the picture of what your life would be like many years into the future took shape. Though there was the occasional bout of boredom. You couldn’t afford to do much with your current wages and nothing free in Hell ever meant anything good. Well, except Charlie’s Hotel.
You checked your phone and responded to a text from Angel asking to hang out sometime. He was finally getting time off after his boss gave him a grueling schedule.
‘Meet at the club in a couple a’ days?’ You pondered the spider’s invite, weighing whether you’d have enough energy to go but ultimately, wanting to see his lovable flat butt won out.
‘You’re buying. See ya then :).’
The spider sent you a ‘making it rain dollars’ gif and you tucked your phone into your pocket and securely under your cloak. It was only then that you realized that it was quiet.
…The diner was never quiet.
Popping your head out of the break room, you glanced around in question only to find half the diners gone and the other staff not-so-discreetly hiding in the kitchen. One of the other waiters just entered the kitchen double doors.
“Lun. Did something happen? Why is it suddenly a ghost town out there?” The other waiter turned to you, hands in the air in shock.
“Oh ya wouldn’t believe it, honey! The—“
“It’s the Radio Demon!” Goss crashed through the double doors with half-eaten plates of food in hand, all but hyperventilating as she gasped out.
You froze in disbelief. What?
“I sat him in your area.” The little waitress said as she dumped the dirty dishes out. Double what!?
“Why my area?”
“He asked for a corner seat and that was the closest one open.”
You weren't really listening to her reasoning, already headed to the round window to take a peek at the only corner seating in your area. Lo and behold, the red-suited man sat there, long fingers clutching the plastic-covered menu loosely.
No. No way. A million thoughts seemed to flit through your mind. Why was he here? For you? But how did he know you worked here? You’d begged Angel not to let anyone know where you worked and made sure to keep mum about it when the others asked. But this was an Overlord. It wouldn’t take much for him to find your location if he really wanted to know.
The question really was, why was he here? To torment you again after giving you a break? Was he here to cash in his favor again? To mock you? He’d ignored you ever since you moved out. Had he gotten bored since and wanted to mess with his little ‘plaything’?
A low hiss escaped your mouth, apprehension and anger beginning to swirl as you speculated on his purpose. A part of you wanted to storm out and demand an explanation for his sudden appearance, to get whatever stupid ideas he had in his head over with so you could move on with your day. But another, calmer part of you watched him, noting his nonchalant air, lacking any anticipation or giddiness that would indicate any premeditated havoc he was planning.
You took a breath to steel yourself. Jumping to conclusions on your own was a terrible idea. For all you knew, the man just walked into the most interesting place he found and here you were agitating yourself before he’d done anything.
“Did you not wanna take his order? I thought it’d be fine since you lived in that hotel he was running with the princess?” Goss noticed your hesitation and it bothered you. Look at how easily you let yourself get out of sorts over him. You couldn’t let it happen. Not when you were working so hard to get your afterlife together, to live and thrive in Hell like the millions of other sinners out there. And that included dealing with him, at least while your contract with him was still active.
“Just wasn’t expecting to see him.” Nodding to her, you quickly stepped out onto the floor and towards the man hoped you wouldn’t see for a while longer.
You greeted him as you did all diners, steeling yourself for this interaction because Heaven knew you needed the patience to deal with whatever bullshit he had in store.
Red eyes glanced at you and an animated smile graced his face. For a moment, you expected mockery, some sarcastic jab veiled behind a jolly filtered voice.
“How would you say the coffee is here?” The question came as a jolt of lightning delivered by a polite tone and calm sharp eyes. It was only by the grace of how many times you’d been asked the same question before that you were able to answer him naturally.
“Excellent. Get me a cup. I’ll need a few more minutes to look through the menu.”
A thin glaze seemed to cloud his eyes, a rare sign of boredom that you’d come to recognize on his face. When the man started retreating into his own head when things were no longer interesting nor his full attention necessary. And it was a shock.
Did he not recognize you? Even with the cloak and mask, he was sharp enough to at least recognize your voice, even if slightly muffled by your mask.
Regardless, you did your job, body on autopilot as you tried to figure out what his game was. Or was there even a game here? You grabbed a heavy diner mug with a cartoon knife logo printed on it and filled it with coffee. All the while, the hairs on your neck stood on end.
This couldn’t be a safe scenario, right? It couldn’t just be a coincidence that the guy who’d insisted that you eat him and took pleasure in your frustration appeared in your workplace, right?
But as you placed down the cup of coffee, he only asked to clarify the specials for the day and your opinion of the items he was interested in. Nothing out of the ordinary. Red-tipped gloves tapped on the menu casually before he placed his order.
“One Texas Breakfast Massacre and a side of grits, coming right up.” The order made you double down on your doubt, your apprehension going up again when he ordered the sausage variety dish. Was he trying to remind you of the last meal he had you choke down? But then, he turned to look outside the window, profile bored yet elegant against the midday light streaming through.
And it was like that the whole time. For about an hour, he sat there, enjoying his meal when it finally came, sipping his coffee while being quiet. One could have mistaken him for some random sinner to the point where even new diners coming in only went bug-eyed at noticing him before they were able to decide that it was safe to stay and eat. You would have almost forgotten he was there when the floor suddenly turned busy and you were waiting on parties of six or finicky couples trying to get their meals refunded for one bullshit reason or another. If not for the music suddenly turning into jazz.
At half-passed two in the afternoon, the tension left your shoulders as he eventually left, paying for his meal and then sauntering off with a twirl of his microphone. The whole time, he hadn’t made any indication that he knew you were there. Not even a raised brow.
You wondered, looking at his back as it disappeared into a shadowy portal, if he’d let go of his weird fixation. Gotten bored of it and subsequently forgotten you in the process now that you weren’t there to entertain him. That was…a strange feeling crept up in your chest, like fog rolling over the strange mountainous topography of the many emotions you’d gone through in the last hour. Too calm for anger, for disappointment, for confusion.
At the thought that he’d forgotten you so quickly, you felt that everything you’d been through with him…was futile. You weren’t sure if you wanted to laugh or throw a fit.
Alastor’s POV
How funny things were. Wasn’t he just telling Rosie that he’d moved on? Returned to his old routines and firmly reestablishing his prestige? He even succeeded in suppressing his curiosity, his need to find out where his goat had gone and how she was living her life. Everything was fine.
Yet that small interaction, not even three minutes in total, had reminded him why even though he thrived in Hell, had everything he needed and was enjoying his afterlife, he wanted her companionship back.
Just watching her flit from one customer to another, the lilt of her voice drifting through the chaotic diner, was entertaining. A unique mix of calm and giddiness buzzed constantly in time with his pulse as he watched her through furtive eyes. He’d almost forgotten this peace after so long of feeling only the agitation, the distress, the greed for her company exacerbated at the prospect of losing her.
Anything.
He swallowed the last bite of his meal, taking a slow thoughtful sip from the coffee she refilled for him. From warm eyes radiating trust and concern, to shy teeth sinking the gentlest rips into his flesh, to just her presence, walking past in a place he knew. After a month of thriving, he still wanted it, Anything .
Everything.
Al.
Dangerous. He smiled wryly into his cup, taking small punishment when the too hot drink burned his tongue. Ynna returned to him with the check, unassuming and peppy as she had been in what felt like ages ago.
A low murmuring of something satisfied within him thrummed, like a languid cat finding the perfect place to nap. A thought came to him, a notion settling gently over that heavy feeling he’d carried since that morning he woke to find her room empty. A small chuckle bubbled from his throat, spreading his lips in a wide smile as he settled the bill with a tip for her service.
This, him pretending not to know who was beneath that mask, her pretending she wasn’t talking to one of her most hated people, them existing in a space together peacefully. This was enough.
Ynna’s POV
He kept coming back. Every two or three days, the Radio Demon would walk through the doors, casually scaring the shit out of everyone, grab a corner seat and have his lunch break in their little diner. Whenever he was around, that initial burst of fear spiked everyone’s blood pressure. Last time he was here was peaceful but who’s to say today would be the same?
Monica was particularly annoyed by this as several guests would just fly away at the first sight of the man, most of the time forgetting to pay their bill. The staff didn’t care about the mess they had to clean up for every careless spill from a frantic scramble to get to safety but could people at least remember to slap a few bills down before they left? It was bad for business!
As for you, you kept a close watch on him, wondering when he would inevitably do something other than quietly sit there having his lunch.
But he never showed any indication of some nefarious plan. In fact, he never showed any signs of recognizing you at all and for a while you wondered if the mask was really that good or he really just didn’t care enough to comment on it. Or maybe he’d lost interest in his little ‘plaything’ and now you were as good as strangers. That futile feeling rose like acidic bile up your throat and coating your tongue. All your suffering ended in nothing. But for the sake of a future thriving here in Hell, you could only accept it.
The initial restlessness brought by his presence eventually dissipated into healthy caution and even that was more to do with making sure no one pissed off the Overlord and caused a scene in the diner. Monica made sure to hammer it into all the staff that as long as he came in, you had to make sure nothing set him off. She didn’t want to have to scramble to fill in your shifts while your bodies took their sweet time respawning.
So you gritted your teeth and did your damned best at waitressing even though seeing his pointy face made you irrationally upset at times. At least he was civil. It made serving him easier when you could convince yourself that you had to reason to be pissed at him right at this moment because he was a good customer. Not fussy, jolly in conversation and he even paid. He tipped too!
It wasn’t like he would turn down a free meal when Monica tremblingly offered it to him at the times she happened to be on shift but it was just strange seeing him so mundane. The man wasn’t going out of his way to throw even a mildly threatening glance at anybody. He was just there. Sipping his coffee.
His presence became so expected that other regular diners started coming back, recognizing him as a non-threatening figure when he came in during the last straggling hour of the lunch rush. News even started to trend amongst diners and netizens alike that if Billy and Stu’s ever started playing jazz or some old timey songs, then the Radio Demon was taking his lunch break there. This new fact actually attracted some customers, older folk from around the same decade as him, maybe older. There were even some fans which was strange to see. But honestly, it made sense. People would stan anyone.
In effect, his presence completely changed the modern spooky vibes of the restaurant for at least an hour on those days.
And it became your normal. The customers that said some funny sayings, idioms long dead. The jazz playing on the radio. Your eyes always straying to that corner of the diner and relaxing when they see him reading a paper or people watching quietly.
At times you caught a soft tremor in your heart. When the light hit him just right, a quiet smile on his face oozing sophistication and the admirable weight of an old soul, feelings you thought were dead murmured from the grave he threw them in. And then you killed them again with memories of blood pudding and green chains. Don’t be stupid, Ynna.
“So what do ya say, sweet cheeks? How’s bout you and me take a little tour out back? You’ve been working so hard you deserve a little break, don’t ya think?” A slimy voice floated through the air and speared through your thoughts with the delicacy of two cheese graters grinding vigorously.
From across the room, you spotted Goss, dwarfed at the outer edge of the table by none other than Tenner, the diner’s infamous problem customer. He was sexually harassing her again. The raccoon sinner, with his slicked back hair with too much gel and gaudy amounts of gold and silver jewelry, leered down at Goss, his grubby paws already holding the long end of her sleeve, preventing the little woman from backing away.
Just great. Monica wasn’t here to threaten Tenner into backing off and the assistant manager disappeared into the back somewhere like he usually did. Not that he’d even bother to help in this situation.
You glanced at Alastor in his corner, sipping at the coffee you just topped up. The assistant manager shouldn’t mind if you dealt with the situation on your own. You could always use needing to keep a peaceful environment around the Radio Demon as your excuse for why you would offend a customer.
“Excuse me, sir. Is our staff bothering you?” With your most simpering professional voice, you approached the group. Tenner and two other fellows simultaneously looked your way. The raccoon’s eyes roamed sluggishly over your body, stopping at your hip and it made you internally vomit. What was there to see? You were covered in a cloak!
“We were just having a chat. I was just asking our waitress here for a little bit more service. ” Tenner’s eyes went back to Goss who tried to very subtly yet strongly yank her sleeve back from him.
“Of course! What do you need, sir?”
“I need her to suck my dick.” Bright toxic yellow eyes roamed up and down your body before throwing a conspiratorial look to his tablemates. “And maybe while we’re at it, you can suck my friends over here too.”
“There’s a few hookers just down the block. You can get your rocks off from them. Their service will be much more professional, I promise.” Still using your professional voice, you tried to grab Goss’s other hand only for the customer to pull her towards.
“Too hungry to walk that far plus, I got a couple great asses right here.” He clicked his tongue, glaring in your direction for trying to rescue Goss. He didn’t like the way you talked to him either. “Come on! You’ve been walking around in those tight pants, teasing me and my buddies here for weeks. This isn’t even your section so I know you’re just doing that to get our attention. So now you have it, baby.”
His logic baffled you. Of course you had to pass by this area. The entrance to the back of the counter was a few yards from this table. And while your pants were on the tighter fitting side, your apron and cloak covered almost everything to your knees.
“This isn’t that kind of place.”
“Then let’s make it that kind of place.” The man yanked on Goss’s sleeve as he strode out and the small woman stumbled behind him. You gritted your teeth, cursing this ass for being such a fucking creep and went to stop him only for a big hand to wrap around your forearm, pulling you back into a big chest. One of Tenner’s friends leered at you, his mouth covered by a dirty surgical mask.
“Let go!”
“Come with…pretty…baby.” He spoke with a gravelly gasping voice, a putrid stench wafting down at you from where even that mask couldn’t stop it from reaching you. His other hand went down and took a handful of your asscheeks and THAT WAS ENOUGH!
You grabbed your knife from your apron and slashed the offending hand at the wrist. The brute screamed, taking his hand away in surprise at the pain. Two more screams of pain followed and your head whipped up to see Goss, one of her tentacles in Tenner’s hands. Poisoned microscopic barbs and electric current must be traveling through the connection but Goss had to be in pain since he was crushing one of her eyes in his pained grasp.
You focused on your assailant again, throwing a kick at him that made him stumble back a couple of steps before going over to help Goss.
But you forgot that they had another guy.
A fist slammed into the side of your head so hard that you crashed into the counter, the high stools digging into your side and knocking the wind out of you from impact. Pain exploded from the side of your head as a momentary dizziness followed. The blow was enough to skew your cowl, the mask falling off as you slumped over the barstool you landed on. So that’s what it felt like to get punched. You tried to get your head together just in time to feel a hand weave through your hair and yank you up.
Fuck this. Where the hell were your coworkers!?
The knife was still miraculously in your hand and you slashed blindly at the guy behind you only for a rough clawed palm to grip your arm and squeeze tight.
You screamed.
An instinct seeped into you then, recognizing a losing battle as the roots of your hair were pulled mercilessly, some strands snapping from your scalp as your body was hauled up. Your arm was useless against someone of far greater strength than you. You were too weak. You needed energy. Power. And you had a way to get power.
The urge to bite into your foe rose up from among the many flighty thoughts of how to fight as you waited for back up. Just a bit of skin, a taste of blood and you could not only do damage but recover some as well.
The thought made you grimace even harder. No! No! You refused to use that tactic to win.
A thick log of an arm circled your middle, pulling you up off the ground like one would a small dog, tucking you under a sweaty arm as the hand in your hair continued its punishing grip. From the corner of your eye, the cooks finally noticed the plight and Jigger, the head chef, had his meat mallet and cleaver in hand as he burst through the doors.
“Get yer hand off of those—“
“Now where do you think you’re going with my waitress?”
Chapter 39: Don’t You Go and Get It Twisted
Notes:
Phew! What's up guys? Sorry this chapter took so long. It just never seemed to end. It was only when I finished the draft that I realized how long it was. It's almost twice as long as my usual chapters. Anywho~
I hope everyone is doing okay! Thank you for all the support as always ❤️❤️❤️
Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
“Now where do you think you’re going with my waitress?”
Though spoken as if in passing, the question, floating in the air with a distinct buzz of static filter cut through the chaos like a click of a dial turned off.
All eyes watching you get manhandled turned to the speaker, breaths held for a second, before a collective shuffle and scrape of chairs filled the diner. Someone tried to break a window to get out but found them bullet proof.
Bzzt! Creerrrrr—aaaauuuzzzztttt!
A loud screech pierced through the ensuing panic, freezing everyone in place as they covered their ears against the overwhelming sound. Alastor huffed, flicking his microphone to his other hand, drawing all eyes to him when the static died down.
“Well? Cat got your tongue, good fellow?” His eyes closed to a relaxed half-lidded stare and his smile quirked on one side as he regarded you all.
The man holding you like a clutch froze, unsure how to respond. They must’ve assumed the Radio Demon, an infamous connoisseur of chaos and suffering, would have ignored the harassment, or watched in silent amusement as you and Goss got dragged out back to get raped and dumped in some sad alley. They couldn’t have thought that an Overlord would feel like stepping in on a commonplace assault like this. The heavy arm’s hold on you tightened as its owner stared wide-eyed at the smaller gentleman-like threat before him.
A chance! Pulling back your elbow, you managed an ineffective whack against the man’s ribs; he only let out a surprised gasp, giving a painful squeeze around your middle in retaliation. Fuck. You couldn’t get out even when he was distracted. What else could you do? Try to kick him? Yell? At least the hand pulling your hair retreated; the third man slowly placed you and his friend in between him and the Overlord. Coward.
There weren’t a lot of choices left to you with your left eye starting to swell closed. You looked up from where you dangled ungracefully like a tote bag and briefly met a red-eyed glance. A flash of toxic green fizzled at the edges of your vision, lightning quick as it skittered across the tile. Alastor’s smile remained poised, lips pulled into a polite pointedly bored expression—a friendly face briefly doused in sinister illumination.
Thump. Thump. Thump.
The green disappeared, returning the room back to the bright LEDs and late afternoon light. Alastor stepped forward, gliding across the floor with casual elegance. His eyes roamed between you and your captor before eventually settling on you.
Thump. Thump.
Something flickered in those sharp red eyes—steel and laughter—quick to pass but familiar.
Thump.
A wash of cool relief came through you faster than the span of a sigh, numbing the pain in your head and calming your racing heartbeat.
Alastor stood there, not even three yards away, leveling the man holding you with a mocking stare as if daring him to give a stupid answer. With the way he was staring at Alastor, you thought the mouth-breather would be stupid enough to say something. He was unsure but not cowed by the smaller man, jaw clenching and unclenching as he tried to come up with a good response. What a big idiot. Can’t he see that this was his cue to drop you and leave? There was no winning if you provoked an Overlord.
Unfortunately for him, his friend Tenner was dumber.
“Just taking these gals out for a break, Mr. Radio Demon, sir. They’ve been doing some great service so y’know, we wanna give ‘em a good tip . If y’know what I mean.” Tenner winked at Alastor from where he stood, hand clenched tightly around Goss’ antenna like he would rip it out if she dared shock him again. He looked like he would have given Alastor a couple of elbow nudges too if he didn’t have at least a small amount of fear of the man. You, Alastor, the two goons holding you, Goss, the cook who still held his meat mallet and cleaver by the door—everyone looked at the raccoon in mixed states. Some incredulous at his boldness, some amused.
“Everyone here’s invited, by the way.” Emboldened by the attention, Tenner smirked at the crowd. Oh, he was even dumber than he looked. Clearly, he didn’t have enough fear—if not of Alastor, then of your coworkers who were slowly trickling out onto the diner floor with their usually hidden weapons out and ready.
“Haha. That’s quite the offer but it looks like the ladies aren’t on board with your plans.” Static snapped around the corners of the room before thin tentacles shot out of portals on the floor, spearing through the shoulder of the one holding you and through Tenner’s wrist. Both men let go, shocked at the split second attack, causing you and Goss to drop onto the floor. “I suggest you unhand them at once.”
Suggest? He didn’t even let the two men hear it before he punched holes into them with his freaky eldritch shadow master powers. They screamed, a quick chant of ‘What the fuck!?’s trailing off into panicked breaths as they tried to fight against the appendages. The masked one even grabbed your knife, futilely sliding through magical slime. A snort squeezed its way out your nose, sounding vaguely like a laugh but there was a ringing in your ear so you weren’t too sure. You winced, holding your injured cheek. Served these assholes right for being dicks.
Those thin tentacles, made of shadows and magic, glowed in toxic green and inky darkness. They pulsed like some organ with a heartbeat, curling deeper and around the flesh they’d torn through, smearing blood all over Tenner and the other guy as both screamed bloody murder for Alastor to stop.
As if the Radio Demon would listen. Another snort made it past your guard and you wondered when you’d started being okay with showing this much derision to someone being tortured. Was it when you hit your head or have you always been like this?
“Ok! Ok! We got it! They’re fucking free! Stop! What the fuck—no what the fu—ARGGHH!” Wet with blood, the tentacles shined, each pulse causing them to slowly grow and expand, each second of it tearing more and more bone and flesh apart in slow agonizing stretches.
You watched it all from the floor with a vague sense of internal struggle, knowing you should have found it repulsive but couldn’t find a single fuck to give them. A hand, careful and steady, went under your arm, pulling you up and away just as the shoulder of the man next to you split open in a shower of crimson gore and small tentacles digging unforgivingly into the mutilated flesh. It wasn’t fast enough to get you out of the splash zone, a squirt of a burst vein hitting your cheek in a warm iron rush.
In your daze, your tongue darted out, licking the few drops rolling down your cheek and onto your parched lips. The tang of metal jolted you back into yourself, the unpleasant taste raising hunger and rabid disgust within you as your brain registered what you did. Ew.
Alastor’s POV
His attention had been on the ruckus the moment it started. He supposed it was too much to ask for the vermin around to keep their sinning to a minimum, especially since they’d gotten comfortable being in his presence in the last couple of weeks. The raccoon sinner captured that poor smaller waitress, the one that sat him the first time he came to this diner. He’d even brazenly pulled off her mask and hood, revealing a gelatinous sheet of hair on a small white head.
It wasn’t really any of his concern. There were plenty of other staff here to help the poor dear out; it was just that he’d forgotten that one of those unfortunate employees was his goat.
His eyes and ears snapped to attention the moment she stepped up to stop the harassment. Was she really stepping up for another when she wasn’t that strong in the first place? Wasn’t that how Valentino nearly snuffed her out last time? Irritation spiked with a ticking of veins in his jaw as he recalled the scene, Ynna badly bruised and her teeth tearing for any shred of dignity she could muster against the degenerate.
He shooed away that unpleasant memory and focused more on the goat as she talked in sweet sarcasm at the idiots in front of her, to no avail. They didn’t look the least bit intimidated by her even if the costume she wore made her seem bigger than she really was. In fact, he could see their ugly little peas for eyes slithering up and down her body blatantly yet Ynna kept pushing despite their lack of regard.
He sighed. One would think the girl would learn. But perhaps he was underestimating her—the resilient little thing that she was. It had been a long time since they’d met. Plenty of time for one to gather new skills and power. Take him, for example. It hadn’t taken too long before he’d taken Hell by storm back in the day. Who was to say that she hadn’t done the same?
Still, his eyes tracked her, a silent tension building in every fiber of his body with each passing moment. Surely, she could handle herself. She didn’t need him; she’d made that abundantly clear with how their interactions boiled down to just a few exchanges of ‘What can I get you?’ and ‘How’re the specials today?’ Despite the numerous times that he’d come here to dine, they’d not spoken more than what was appropriate between a customer and a server. She didn’t spare him more than a glance or a glare—not even some polite banter between staff and their regulars.
Gloved fingers clenched, the sound of stretched leather creaking from the friction.
This was the closest they could ever be without sniping words and risking exposing the fetid festering wound of what used to be their friendship. He took a deep breath, furtively watching. If he stepped in now, wouldn’t it ruin their charade?
The glint of a knife—silver light glittering white and then red for the briefest of seconds—caught his eye and his grin stretched as a blade cut through the offending hands that tried to paw at his dear goat. Pride and relief sprouted as she raised her arm to take another stab. See? The girl was tougher than she appeared and he was righ—
A fist collided in a meaty crackle against her head, her body flying until she splattered like a rag against the counter. Amidst the gasps of awe, shock and fear, he was on his feet and behind the brute in a wisp of shadow, arms braced behind his back and the same sarcastically polite tone she’d used playing from his tongue as he addressed her assailants.
“Now where do you think you’re going with my waitress?”
Bzzt
Eyes—her eyes—wide and pained and confused, turned to him. A color he knew he still desired to see but it hadn’t quite registered in his mind how much he’d missed it. Not until that mask was knocked off and he beheld her face for the first time since their last fight.
It was the ugliest he’d ever seen her.
Sparks, wild and untethered to any rational thought, raged in his mind, snapping in loud screeches of static.
Purple and red bloomed under her skin. Burst veins painted the already aching swell of her cheek. A grimace of pointed teeth caught in a hiss while one eye squinted in pain. Mildly nauseous, fully aggrieved. Absolutely pathetic in the hands of a sinner weaker than the last one who’d brought her so low.
He held her gaze, watching her awe dull away as the tension left her body. His grip on his microphone loosened then, as did the unconscious clenching of his jaw. She was relieved to see him, somehow.
He barely registered the audacious offer that slimy flea-ridden piece of garbage had uttered. When it did, he had the urge to throw his gloves in the fleabag’s face. Since when did he, a respectable gentleman, ever give the impression that he would be interested in something as disgusting as a gangbang? As if harassing Ynna wasn’t enough, this raccoon had the audacity to insult him with such an offer! He didn’t know whether to be amused or enraged but he didn’t stop his body from conjuring shadows.
In an instant, tentacles pierced flesh, muscles and sinew tore from hands and shoulders, both rats screaming and begging for mercy. His grin widened just as each protruding tentacle grew, the pitch of his victims rising as the holes he tore widened. Their cries grew stale so quickly though. Tsk. Such terrible quality vermin. They couldn’t even entertain him.
Meanwhile, Ynna sat in a strange daze, eyes fixed on the scene. One would think they would be glassy, unable to focus from the shock and injury but that wasn’t the case at all. They were sharp, taking in the scene of savagery in front of her with vengeful satisfaction until she winced, eyes finally filling with pain. Only then did she stare ahead, blankly observing. The fellow next to her soon reached his breaking point, shoulder splitting from his body in an impressive spray.
Without thinking, he had her arm within his grasp, tugging her firmly up and away from the gore, though he wasn’t able to spare her from it completely. Red drops speckled across her swollen cheek, streaking bloody lines that followed their soft curve down until they reached her lips. A pink tongue darted out to wipe the liquid pooling at the corner of her mouth.
He froze in shock. And so did she. The jolt of her arm traveled up his own as she came back from her daze in surprised disgust.
“Eww.” Did she lick the blood out of reflex? Or was it some strange urge brought on by her power? Either way, he wasn’t sure how to feel at seeing her slightly wretch at her own actions. Proud that she’d never made that face at the taste of him? Unhappy that she was stupid enough to even unconsciously try another?
Taking a handkerchief from his coat pocket, he wiped the offending blood from her face, careful not to aggravate her injury with each stroke of his finger.
“I apologize that I didn’t get you out of there quick enough, darling. I was a little too focused on bleeding those disgusting fellows dry. How dare they even think I’d accept that kind of debased offer? Did they really think that I’d just go with the flow?”
“You always did know how to make a splash .” The answer rolled off her tongue in a slow dreamy sort of way, a sign that her focus was still scattered by the blow to her head. After the last word left her lips, she turned those pained eyes to him. They widened, only just registering who he was and that he was the one holding her upright—one hand steadying her arm and the other dabbing away at her cheek until it was spotless.
“Your sense of humor is still intact. Looks like those scumbags didn’t even have enough to scramble that noggin of yours.” Or maybe they did. Despite the recognition in her eyes, she didn’t move away, merely watching and trying to piece his presence next to her like a puzzle that she couldn’t solve. Was she really that surprised that he’d come help her? Or was it that she already thought the worst of him for it?
A piece of his mind wilted with the slight tremble in her gaze. Their charade would be over from now on. That funny ceasefire couldn’t hold now that their eyes could meet without black mesh barring him from seeing how they trembled—blazes lit beneath ashes, fading in and out of murky pain and confusion. But maybe there was still a way to salvage it.
Ynna did not flinch away nor did she reject his grasp despite the conflict flitting on her face. If she had enough goodwill towards him that she didn’t move away as soon as she recognized him, then there may be at least one more civil conversation in their future before her ire inevitably peaked. As long as he didn’t push her patience too quickly.
With patient reluctance, his fingers slipped from her arm. He made sure she was able to stand on her own feet before pressing his bloody handkerchief into her hand—the last of his aid he could give her today.
Ynna’s POV
You and Goss were swept into the back of the kitchen when the assistant manager finally realized what happened. Alastor gave you one last look, one you were too disoriented to understand but your gut feeling told you wasn’t malicious in nature. Far from it. There was a blaze in those red eyes, murderous and unrepentant, truly terrifying even though he remained a man in form. But for some reason—maybe memories your concussed brain couldn’t bring up at the moment—that bloodlust only made you giddy.
Yep. Yep. That was a sign of brain damage right there.
“Ynna, what the fuck were you thinking trying to handle Tenner and his shitheads?” The head chef sat you down on one of the nearby stools, his cleaver and meat mallet still in hand as he glared down at you through his sunglasses.
“Didn’t expect it to be a two versus three situation for very long. Where was everyone? Why’d it take so long before any of you showed up?”
“Company policy is we don’t throw the first punch. Everyone tries to stop the situation on their own and everyone else can join in when it’s obvious you need backup.” Lun, one of the other servers, came back with a first aid kit and a bag of frozen peas.
“That’s a stupid rule.” The cool burn of the peas caused you to hiss as you held it to your swollen cheek.
“That’s how we get paid to kick ass on company time. Don’t tell me you wouldn’t have felt good about stabbing that face mask guy until he was double dead. Cool shit by the way—totally approve.” Lun rolled the sleeves of his cloak up so he could start treating your face. You shook your head and gestured for him to help Goss first. Tenner might’ve ruptured her eyeball.
“Yeah. We ain’t about to steal your chance to practice your knife skills. Think of it like those uhhh—what do these young folk call it—Ah! Work-life balance things. Work out your frustrations by beating the life out of your shittiest customers! Haha!” Jigger laughed, gravelly chuckles ending in coughs. The older sinner beat his chest a bit as if trying to dislodge whatever was irritating his lungs. “Just too bad the Radio Demon beat us to the punch. But man. He does not kid around. Didn’t even have to lift a finger to take care of those guys.”
“Oi! Stop congregating and get back to work. It doesn’t take 10 people to take care of two injuries. Lun and Chasly, go clean up the blood. And you two, explain where you’re injured.” The assistant manager burst from the front, probably just finished taking care of the commotion that was left behind. You wondered if he spoke to Alastor. Did the demon say anything to him or did he just leave?
“Got punched in the face.”
“Tenner crushed one of my eyes—don’t touch the tentacles!” Goss gently slapped Lun’s hand away, the latter putting the gauze he was holding back into the medicine box when the assistant manager told him what to do. He and the other waiters left to go clean up and chase down customers before they tried to dine and dash because of the ruckus that just happened. It didn’t stop the cooks from listening in on the conversation though.
“Will you two be able to go back on shift or do you need the day off?” The assistant manager handed Goss the gauze and stood over you two with an irritated glare. He was not happy to have to explain this to Monica.
“Why does that feel like a trick question?”
“Course it is! You won’t get paid for fucking off the rest of the day just cuz you can’t handle a couple of limp-dick fuckheads but I can’t have you passing out or tracking blood on the floor. That’ll give customers something else to complain about.”
“I’ll be fine! Just need to bandage my eye and I should be good as new.” At the threat of losing her paycheck, Goss immediately waved her hands, already grabbing the gauze Lun left behind to treat her injuries herself.
“I might need a minute. He knocked me on the head pretty good.” You were slightly worried that you’d received a concussion and weren’t sure if it'd be alright to go back to work. Not that you had much of a choice. It sucked but your bank account couldn’t afford you taking the rest of the day off. Besides, aside from your cheek, the headache and ringing in your ears were already going away.
You adjusted your hold on the frozen pack of peas to your face. Could they not afford to have a cold compress? Still, it helped numb the pain.
“Take your thirty minute break now. If I see you two slacking later, I’m sending you home.” He snapped the first aid kit shut before either you or Goss could grab anymore ointment. He left you and Goss to process all that just happened while he went and ordered everyone around. There were bodies to get rid of and it didn’t look like any of the cooks were keen on doing a more canon-compliant Texas Breakfast Massacre.
In the corner of the busy kitchen, you two watched on silently.
“Thanks for coming to help me. That…it would have been bad.” Goss took her injured tentacle. The three uninjured eyes on it blinked shut as she gingerly felt along the bandaged eye. They didn’t tremble as much as her tiny voice did.
“Anytime. Though I ended up not doing much anyway.”
“It was plenty. For a while there, I thought no one was gonna help. The customers just watched and everyone else was just moving along.”
Your manager Monica was usually there to mediate customer disputes so you’d expected someone to step in. Though, this was the first time you’d encountered an extremely aggressive customer. “At least now we know to just ask for help as soon as possible.”
“It was really cool to see the Radio Demon like that. Wasn’t it amazing, getting saved by him?” Her breath came out in shy wonder, her translucent face sporting a light blush. “Though it was scary, watching him. I’ve never seen someone with that kind of poker face before.”
“He never drops the smile.”
“I’ll have to thank him.” Goss fiddled with her mask, trying to find a way to wear it while tucking back her injured eye. You watched her struggle for a bit before helping her fold the injury neatly against her hood.
“Just be careful not to make deals or something.”
“Pfft. I didn’t die yesterday, Ynna. I’ve made it this long without selling my soul.”
“I’m just saying. He’s pretty charming when he wants to be. Better be careful he doesn’t trick you into anything.”
“I bet he is. It was nice of him to clean up your face a bit. Are you sure you two aren’t friends? I think he only really stepped in after you got punched.”
“Clean up? Oh.” It was only then you noticed your hand still clenched around warm fabric. The white handkerchief that Alastor left you was stained red with blood. Your mind flashed back to when he was cleaning your face, a mildly amused raise of his brow accompanying his chipper yapping.
It only hit you then that he hadn’t looked surprised at all. Not when your mask slipped. Not when he was carefully tutting at you, pulling you along with the gentle familiarity like he had many times before.
How long had he known it was you serving him?
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Alastor was gone by the time you felt confident that you wouldn’t fall over. A conflicted feeling followed you since. He’d clearly known it was you under the cowl and mask so why hadn’t he said anything? From how he acted, it didn’t seem like he had any plans to say anything to you about it at all. He seemed content to pretend not to know. If not for Tenner and his friends.
What was his angle? Or did he simply find it funny to watch you wait on him? But that didn’t fit him. The man was straightforward, finding amusement in everyone else’s chagrin. While it had bothered you in the beginning, his frequent visits without causing trouble became routine, sometimes even pleasant. He was a great customer. So there was no way he could be thinking that you were suffering under all of that. Especially when you didn’t show it to him.
You couldn’t believe it was for anything other than his own sick amusement, right?
“ I am very sorry, Ynna. If there’s anything I can do at all to make it up to you, just say the word. ”
A soft voice and a gentle palm on your cheek floated in your mind. The day your friendship fell apart. How sorry he was in the moment. Eyes that pleaded. Words that soothed. It had all felt genuine.
But then you remembered the chains. And how he glared down at you, ‘his little plaything.’
His affection for you, had it ever been genuine? Or was he just genuinely fond of his little toy? It didn’t matter though, did it? His game wasn’t affecting your work and he’d even saved you and Goss.
You would thank him the next time you saw him.
Which was a week later.
The bell chimed to signal a new customer at 2:30 in the afternoon. You were greeted by a yellow smile that acted as if nothing had changed. And if you hadn’t noticed how his ears flattened against his head for a second when you greeted him, it would have been just another day. But recognition was there, in the slightly too deep wrinkle beneath his eye and the small twitching of his ears.
The jig was up. You just weren’t sure how your reaction would affect whatever he’d been planning.
“Welcome to Billy and Stu’s. Are you getting the usual today or are we feeling adventurous?” He watched you with a calm face as you gave your usual greeting. A tension rose in the air and you could practically see the gears turning in his head. Then he let out an elegant smile, sharp teeth out in display.
“I’m feeling something different today. Let me have a moment to look at the menu.”
“Alright.” You guided him to his usual seat in the corner and gave him the plastic-covered sheet before leaving. At the waitress’s station, you grabbed a coffee mug and filled it before taking a sip. It soothed your suddenly parched throat. Hmm. It was clear that something shifted now that there was an awareness between you two. And he was being watchful, trying to read what he could from you. You just weren’t sure what he was looking for specifically. Not a confrontation, unless he was just biding his time.
Well, you wouldn’t give him that. Not if he kept up this polite customer face of his.
You peeked into the kitchen window to catch the head chef’s attention for an order.
“Chef Jiggy. Can I have a lava cake?”
“Coming right up.” The man didn’t even look away from his station, getting one of the other cooks to heat up a lava cake for you.
You went to the register to ring up the cake as you waited.
“Whatcha doing over there?” Seeing your wallet out, Monica sidled up next to you, curious about why you were paying out of your own money for something.
“The Radio Demon’s here. I wanted to give him something for helping out last week.”
“Oh! Oh! You know I can just comp his meal, right? Why don’t I do that?”
“Sure. I’ll call you when I need to ring it up. But this is from me.” You made a point of putting your money into the till and gently closing it with a smile. She seemed to grasp your wishes and brightened even more.
“Ok. Ok. That’s good. Ahh. I hope he’s not too pissed about last time. Tim really should’ve handled the whole thing better.” She chewed the assistant manager out after she found out about the incident. You felt no sympathy for the man as it was his job to stop things from escalating to that point. But he hadn’t been paying attention to the CCTV monitors and had only come out when Alastor’s static messed with the feed.
“He seemed fine when I greeted him. Gotta go.”
The bell dinged at the order window and you saw your lava cake. You made another cup of coffee, bringing both it and the cake to Alastor’s table as you internally prepared yourself. You weren’t sure what to expect from him but you weren’t going to be ungrateful for what he did for you.
Setting the snacks down, the man looked at you in curiosity. “I don’t believe I ordered anything yet.”
“This is on me.” With one last deep breath, you lifted up your mask and moved it to the side so you could speak with his face to face. The minute widening of his eyes made you feel awkward but you pushed through. “I wanted to say thank you for saving me and Goss the other day.” Your throat clenched a little, some anxiety spiking up in you as you interacted with him as yourself for the first time in a long while. For the first peaceful time in a long while. “You didn’t have to do it but I’m grateful that you did.”
“Oh ho. What makes you think I didn’t do it just because those meatheads annoyed me?” Typical. He just loved to dance around topics. You somehow doubted that was the main reason. It would be too beneath him to make that big of a scene for a small annoyance like Tenner.
“Whatever your reason, you still helped us so, thanks.” With careful hands, you slid your offering directly in front of him. A steaming cup of black coffee and a bittersweet lava cake—the only sweet you’d seen him order before. Whether he accepted it or not was up to him. That should be enough.
“Would you give me a bit of your time then?” But he was always a surprise.
“Excuse me?”
“As a token of your gratitude, how’s about sparing me some of your time? It’s been a while and I think there’s more to talk about between us than just me saving you and your friend.” His eyes crinkled slightly, mischief dancing in the corners of his smile. He sat straight in his chair, legs crossing as he made himself comfortable.
“What makes you think I’d want to spend time with you?”
“That’s why I posed it as a question, dear. You’re free to decline and I can just take it that you and your friend’s dignity is worth just this one cup of coffee and piece of cake.” He picked up the fork you brought for his dessert, waving the prongs over the cake with dainty nonchalance. He poked it lightly, watching the sponge cushion the metal without breaking, before setting the fork down with an underwhelmed air and a cheeky smile on his face. Like an imp.
“You—“ The image of Goss, bandages still wrapped about her tentacle and the way she still flinched when someone went too close to it, flashed through your mind. There was no guarantee that things would have wrapped up so quickly if it were just the staff dealing with it. It could have ended with more injuries without Alastor. You sighed, feeling yourself give in. The nerve of him to guilt trip you! And just how much of a sucker were you to fall for it? Well, you were curious about some things too.
“Half an hour. I can give you just half an hour. Is that enough?”
“Sure. Do we have a deal then?”
“Yes. I’ll give you my half hour lunch break today to talk and we’ll call it even for you saving me and Goss.”
“So specific.”
“I’m a highly educated gal. Deal then?” You huffed, finding a little satisfaction in his comment. Did that mean you’d managed to dodge some stupid technicality in his phrasing? Probably. Dick. Would it kill him to not pull tricks all the time?
“Deal.” Alastor smiled in satisfaction and your little victory didn’t seem to matter. You wondered then if his mind was just wired to look for opportunities all the time. He seemed like the overthinking type and you knew he was very calculating.
You let Monica know that you would be taking your break early. The woman practically pushed you back out to Alastor’s when you informed her why, her eyes always looking for ways to keep the Overlord appeased. Tucking your mask into your apron, you made your way back to Alastor with your own cup of coffee in hand.
Sliding into the booth, an awkward freeze seized your chest. It had been a long time since you’d been this civil with him. It was strange, foreign and familiar all at once. Though, it was surprisingly easy to tamp down your initial dislike of the situation. Across from you, Alastor smiled, taking a bite out of his dessert and a sip of his coffee—your offerings of gratitude accepted.
There were a lot of things that seemed to spring up in you as you looked at him—memories both good and bad. Prickling anger. Wariness. A weird sense of blankness, like facing a stranger. Maybe that last feeling was for the better. No use starting a fight in your workplace even if he took advantage of this agreement to piss you off. You took a sip of your own drink, waiting with a blank mind.
He was very pretty as he sat taking an elegant bite of flowing dark chocolate.
You sighed internally. Okay. Maybe, not keep a completely blank mind.
A dark shadow passed by your table, followed by a gruff voice you’d never heard take orders before. Your eyes turned to Tim, checking in with your other tables though he sounded a bit put out. Huh. So Monica had him actually working.
“What’s got his undies in a twist?” Alastor noticed the man as well and regarded him with a raised eyebrow.
“Monica, my manager, heard about what happened. Looks like she’s got him bussing tables while I’m here talking to you. She practically demanded I sit down when I told her what’s up.” You sipped your coffee, finding it almost meditative, like slipping into an old routine.
“Is your boss forcing you to talk to me?” His head looked back to you, a hint of surprise gracing his fine features.
“No. I’d say she ‘highly encouraged it’ when I told her. You know how much she sucks up to you just to make sure this place doesn’t get trashed.”
“I’ll have to let her know that won’t be necessary then.”
“What does it matter anyway? You weren’t exactly subtle when comparing the value of us getting assaulted and a chocolate lava cake, now were you?” You were curious. The disapproval in his tone caught you.
“A bit of emotional arm wrestling is one thing. In the end, it’s still your choice which you value and whether the words I throw at you have any meaning. I wasn’t aiming to give you financial consequences for saying no.”
“Then you shouldn’t have done this at my work place.” You leveled him an unhappy stare. It was ridiculous to hear that when his intentions and his actions didn’t line up.
“I’m sorry for that. I’ll talk to her.” But he was quick to apologize. Despite the smile on his face, there was no cheer in the atmosphere, only what appeared to be honesty and self-reflection. It…was unexpected. Even when he would apologize in the past, it was definitely layered with a bit of mirth. Maybe a smirk. Maybe an attempt at a joke. It was never so quick to make his seriousness clear because he was never seriously apologetic.
…except for that one time. And then now.
“…No need. I agreed to this so it’s not like she made any difference.”
His seriousness just as quickly vanished when you dismissed his concern. With his usual mischief-brightened eyes, Alastor flagged down Tim, the snarkiness of the man just barely hidden beneath the shroud and mask of the company uniform. “What can I get you?”
“What’s the soup of the day?”
“Scream of Mushroom.”
“I’ll take a cup and some cornbread. Would you like anything, dear?” Alastor’s question was quick and a little surprising.
“…A BLT.” You weren’t really hungry since it was a little too early for your usual lunch break but it was probably the only chance you would get to eat this shift.
“Coming right up.” It was very subtle but the growl under his breath was all too familiar after working with him for so long. How he managed to get to assistant manager when he didn’t want to work so much was beyond you. Though you guessed that without Monica around, he slacked off a lot more in the name of doing accounting in his small office.
“You know he’s gonna bitch later about having to serve me when I’m on the clock still?” You watched the guy give the orders to the kitchen window, finding it funny how he moved since he kept the classic Ghostface costume.
“I think you’re more than capable enough of handling him, at least. Or does he actually have power behind that little assistant manager name tag of his?”
“Monica runs the show.” You turned back to him, feeling a little less apprehensive after that apology. “So what did you want to talk about? It can’t just be details about my work relationships.”
“I was wondering how you were fairing since you moved out. But it seems to me like you’re doing well, last week’s incident aside.”
“Was that why you suddenly showed up here? To check on me? How did you even find out that this was where I worked?” For weeks, the question weaved in and out of your head and especially in the last few days after you confirmed that he knew it was you this whole time.
“Would you believe me if I said I had no clue until you served me that first time? I just happened to feel peckish when I passed this place and moseyed on in because it looked interesting.” He lifted one eyebrow in that challenging way of his, already knowing where your theories went.
“I’m finding it hard to believe that it was all coincidence.” His sudden appearance back in your life had been jarring. Just at the time when you’d finally gotten your shit together, his unhumble presence disrupted your routine and made him a part of it. Again. You swirled your coffee. “But you also like trying out new places so it’s not that out of the question. Fine. So why’d you come back? Why’d you hide that you knew it was me? Do you know how…” Apprehensive. Angry. Confused.
“…it wasn’t easy having to wait on you.”
“Oh I imagined it wasn’t.” He smiled into his next sip, words trailing off into his cup.
“Dick.”
“You know, dear, while you still view me poorly—“
“For good reason.”
“—Yes. For very good reason.” He pulled away from his cup with a fond smirk at you, eyes meeting yours with amusement to your sass. Arrogant jerk. “I still think fondly of you. I had no other plans but to simply watch and see how you were going on.”
“Stalking me at my workplace doesn’t exactly scream ‘harmless.’ Especially coming from Mr. I-scheme-in-my-sleep.”
“And stalking is too harsh. I’m out in the open. Besides, the only difference than if it was say, Angel, who was sitting here right now is that you don’t like me so I make you uncomfortable. But otherwise, I think I’ve been on my best behavior, no?”
“I’d really rather you don’t show up here, if it’s all the same.” If he knew it made you uncomfortable, then he was even more of an ass for doing it. This wasn’t the only good diner in town so his intentions were never innocent from the second time he came.
“Here’s your coffee and sandwich. And here’s the soup and cornbread.” Tim cut in, placing your food down. His shadow looked over the table, every bit the terrifying serial killer that he cosplayed as. He somehow carried a tense air about all by himself, enough to engulf the tense air between you two and suffocate the beginnings of your blood boiling.
You and Alastor watched Tim walk away, still feeling the grouchy man’s presence even as he went to serve another guest.
“And you’ll get to miss that rare occasion when your coworker actually does his job. Wouldn’t that be a pity?” Riding the sudden lull in your conversation, Alastor picked up his spoon, stirring the steaming soup in his bowl languidly as he joked.
“ You don’t have to see his face everyday.” You let go of your earlier irritation. There was no point since Alastor wouldn’t listen to you anyway. Your BLT had a little toothpick holding the stack together. Carefully aiming, you took a bite while avoiding the pointy stick.
“I don’t get to see his face in general. Why does your work require a mask? Seems like a bother when you’re running around.” Seeing how you dug into your meal, he followed suit, dipping his bread into his soup. Did people dip cornbread into soup? It seemed wrong and right at the same time and Alastor made it seem classy with his long fingers mindful of crumbs.
“The cloak’s more of a pain but they want it for the theme. You know? The horror movie theme this place is going for?” Waving a hand, you gestured to the diner in its entirety. Beyond the chrome and red plastic, the neon and tile, there were posters hung up on the walls. Movie memorabilia lined high shelves. You even had a wall with Polaroid pictures of guests posing with the staff, some posed like they were being killed.
But all of that seemed to have slipped the Radio Demon, his head tilting in question. “Horror movie?”
“…Did you not know—of course you don’t. You don’t watch TV.” You recalled that the man only knew movies Rosie had managed to force him into watching and even then, he had some gripes about anything too modern. “Horror movies. Films depicting scary scenarios like getting lost in a forest and hunted by cannibals. Frankenstein. Nosferatu. Ghosts. Haunted houses. People getting killed.”
“That’s the theme? I thought it was some strange ghost thing your diner was going for. Or maybe some Halloween gimmick.”
“The menu’s named after iconic horror movies. I thought you would appreciate that since you like puns too.”
“Never heard of them so I couldn’t picture it.”
“Well that killed my expectations of you.” The pun came out so easily enough that you almost choked on your sandwich when you caught it. On the other side, Alastor’s eyes widened a tad, crinkling at the edges for a moment before his grin mellowed out.
Did you actually get brain damage? The half-second you noticed his word choice, a retort was already at the tip of your tongue. Like a reflex to be silly, to be fun. And that was usually fine. Your wit was a treasure to be enjoyed at the expense of other people’s cringing. But Alastor would enjoy it and you hadn’t meant for that at all. This conversation shouldn’t be even remotely enjoyable at all.
…wait. Enjoyable?
Leaning onto his palms and resting his chin on the leather, his brow raised in insufferable amusement. Shit.
“You still had expectations of me, darling?”
After over a month without it, the strange charm of his superficial cordiality and polite snark worked on you like some extremely potent magic. You swallowed, incredulous and a little worried. You still had fifteen minutes with him and his Cheshire Cat grin.
Chapter 40: Un Poco Loco
Notes:
Hello everyone! Sorry for taking so long to post. It's been a crazy month between work and the holidays. Plus, I had so many things I wanted to cram into this chapter. And then the first Alastor POV also turned into a very long and unplanned scene. This one definitely took me a lot longer do think through.
I hope y'all enjoy it!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Alastor’s POV
Face to face with Ynna. Who would have thought?
It was certain that the next time he’d come to the diner, there wouldn’t be a cheerful voice, muffled by a plastic mask, to welcome him to what was quickly becoming his favorite restaurant in all of Hell. Once she got her wits about her after the blow to her head, he could picture her storming from the kitchens and demanding that he leave. His heroics be damned in the face of her hatred of him.
So he left before she could say anything. It was best to leave things as they were, if only to preserve this peace between them for a moment longer. A day longer.
A week.
A silent, dull, average week.
The grandfather clock in the hotel’s foyer was stopped at 4:16. It would need some winding. As he sat in one of the empty bar stools, he set his shadow to do it. The phantom shape hissed displeased static at being made to do such a menial task. Hmph. That was what it got for scratching at his mind to go check on Ynna, to see if she was alright—to see what their next encounter would bring, even if it was just another glare of smoldering rancor. Impatient unruly thing. Didn’t it understand that it was best to let things settle? Let time move forward and carry away some of her ire? Not that he was afraid to face her stony face. It was quite adorable in its loathsome way. It just…wasn’t the appropriate time yet. Yes. Not the right time yet.
The extension of his soul rolled its eyes at his mental scolding. It opened the clock face to wind it, restarting the gears with a twist of the key. At the same time, its ghostly fingers moved the clock’s hands round and round.
It hadn’t been too long since he’d started this new routine of polite back and forths and forced detachment with Ynna. Yet he could already feel his week amiss for the lack of those couple of hours where she fluttered in the background. He sighed. The winding of the clock’s springs ground against his ears. They flicked in subtle irritation.
“Looking a little down there, boss. Things not going okay for you?” Behind the counter, Husker raised an absurdly long eyebrow as he eyed him with bored intrigue. As the only other soul with an empty schedule this afternoon, the cat had the pleasure of bearing his presence. So far, the old man had been quiet and content to ignore him. But you know what they said about cats and curiosity.
He perked up and fully faced the other man whose brow twitched at the attention. The bartender huffed a small exhale through his nose before placing a cleaned glass in front of him. He didn’t even have to tell the man which spirit to pour to fill his own rather low ones.
The clack of the heavy-bottomed glass against wood reverberated in his ears. Echoing loudly like a whip through the hollow of his chest. And that was the problem, wasn’t it? Seeing Husker flinch as his grin sharpened didn’t hold quite the same bit of fun as the rehearsed cheer of his favorite waitress. Where a simple comment on the weather had sparked a thrum of satisfaction or temptation for mischief, now layed a quiet that he found too uncomfortable. His thriving afterlife felt too silent.
“I don’t suppose you have a light on you, old fellow?” Picking up the glass Husker just filled, he raised it in thanks and threw in another request for good measure. Whiskey sloshed into an amber wave in the clear glass, liquid flames he was dying to consume if only to stave off this empty feeling.
“Smoking? Didn’t think you’d pick up that habit again. Must be something real bad.” The cat’s brows raised in boredom. He would have looked perfectly uninterested if not for the slight swishing of his tail behind him. Not an obvious tell, but he didn’t beat the cat at his own game on just luck alone.
He leaned onto his elbow, swirling whiskey as he watched the hooded anticipation of his old friend.
Tick. Tock. Ah. The grandfather clock was working again.
Just as the old grump was about to give up on waiting for his response, he casually threw out one of his ‘worries.’
“I haven’t found new souls to add to my books. It’s been a rather slow week altogether. Gets one a little testy to find something fun to do in this joint.” He sipped his drink, the bitter glide of spice and vanilla filling his mouth. The taste of temptation and regrets.
Ah! An idea came to him then. He flicked his tongue against his teeth, showing a bright grin that gave the bartender a bad feeling.
“Oh, brother. Whatever you’re thinking—Leave me out of it.” Before he could utter a word, Husker rolled his eyes and picked up another glass to clean.
“But that’s where all the fun is, dear Husker. Wouldn’t you like to see how many sorry souls you can get to gamble away their freedoms? Even if you don’t win, it’s not like you have much to lose.” His fingers danced across the bar top, skittering tiny footsteps falling off the polished edge and into his palm.
“Fuck no. We are not doing that again.” The man’s refusal was adamant. Stubborn old thing.
A smirk played on his lips as he chose his next words carefully, measuring just what he could offer by the flickers of anger and indignation in the other man’s eyes, the hint of eagerness for risk deeply rooted in his old soul.
He twirled his microphone idly before setting it down on the counter. “Not even if I say we can split the rewards?” The lilt in his voice caught the older man, his black and white face scrunching at the nose. “One soul for every ten?”
“Are you for real?” Disbelief flew out in a graveled whisper as the glass in Husker’s hands almost slipped. The flames of his anger extinguished with just ten words.
“You wound me, old pal. Have I ever made an offer I wouldn’t follow through on?” Hand against his heart, he gasped in mock scandal. Laughter bit at his jaw but he kept an easy smile on his face, not showing too much amusement though the other could read it clearly in the creases of his eyes.
The other man looked away from him, cursing under his breath as he tried to decipher his game. The dice in the furball’s head were rolling, weighing the odds of what he could stand to gain if he took him up on his offer. Or what he could lose. It was funny to witness such conflict held in the widening of his eyes. “So what do you say? It’s quite a good deal for you, isn’t it?”
“Wait. You’ll just let me own a soul, let me make my own deals? Get back some actual power?”
“It would be leagues away from where you were before you gambled it all on a crap shot at redeeming your arrogant self-centered penniless self, but yes. I don’t see why not.”
“That’s…” Husker stared at him, yellow eyes going over his features with the faintest spark of hope, of thrill. A gamble lay before him and the addict’s hands were itching to play. But just as quickly, that spark died and his lips turned into a mean curve. “That’s a bad joke, boss. Fucking had me there for a second.”
“Hahaha!” Delight tickled through him. How strange that the man didn’t take him up on his offer. Was being in the hotel actually having an influence on him? He wiped a tear from his eye, biting his lip as he glanced up at the cat’s unamused expression.
Should he say that Husk had grown wiser, weighing his odds more critically than just blindly trusting Lady Luck to throw him a bone? Or did he turn the man into a coward, too scared to take the opportunity he presented?
The clack of heels muffled by worn carpet echoed in the otherwise empty foyer. A tall figure saddled up to the stool next to him, leaning onto the bar with the full length of his torso. “What’s so funny?”
“Nothing,” came Husker’s gruff mutter. And then followed by a softer tone. “Hey Angel.”
“Hey Whiskers. Ya got something strong for me today?” The spider smiled, tooth glinting gold in the light. “So what’s the deal?”
“Just having a bit of fun poking the old cat around. There’s surprisingly not much to do today.” Answering the spider, he spied Husker pouting in that gruff old man way of his as he laughed at the man’s expense.
“You could always do me, red. My schedule’s not the only thing I can open up for ya.” Angel winked.
His smile thinned immediately. What a charming offer. He could read the unseriousness behind the invitation, and that was the only reason he gave the spider a polite smile.
“Not going to happen. Don’t try again.” He downed his finger of whiskey and stood. Dusting off any wrinkles in his suit, he bid the two men adieu before Angel could try another pick up line. He didn’t quite have the patience for it today. And neither did Husker; the old cat huffed loudly from his nose, a bit of a growl mixed in the hot air.
“Aww what’s got your feathers in bunch, kitty? The big bad Alastor poke fun at you too much today?”
“Shut up.”
From the corner of his still laughing eyes, he spied the slight easing of the cat’s stubborn frown, practiced hands moving to prepare the spider’s drink expertly. Angel laughed, continuing to tease the man.
Tick. Tock.
Maybe it wasn’t wisdom or cowardice at all. Just a little change of heart. How ridiculous of the old fool. How delicious.
He paused just shy of the hallway, the pair’s whispered insults to each other carrying through the foyer.
Neither wisdom nor cowardice.
His shadow returned to him then, petulant, but silent.
Tick. Tock.
His eyes turned downcast, down the long empty stretch of the hallway. A loud guffaw of gravelly laughter burst from behind him followed by a smug wheeze and another horrible pick up line. The sound phased through his chest. The crook of his elbow felt too light.
Fine.
——
The outside of the diner remained as busy as always. Sinners bustled, cretins schemed. The diners sitting by the front window paused in their meal as they noticed his appearance. The regulars among them waved. He took a deep breath. He may never get to enjoy this place as much as he did before after today. But the hollow in his chest and the screeching in his head had grated his patience thin.
He walked through the glass double doors with all the elegant whimsy he could muster, smiling widely as he saw his favorite waitress approaching though his chest constricted (in excitement? Trepidation?) with the shortening distance.
In the muffled medley of chatter and clanging dinnerware, a sweet chipper voice welcomed him, and that hollowness seemed to fill right up. The shocking sting of energizing zing sparked and it was tempting enough that he might just come back here again after today, even if it meant being glared at and cursed by her. That would certainly be more entertaining than Husker.
His eyes trailed across the scenery, trying not to stare at Ynna in her black cowl and mask as she led him to a table. His usual seat was vacant and cleaned by the time Ynna sat him down.
Curiously, nothing seemed amiss from her usual demeanor, still making small talk and doing her job as if they didn’t know each other. He sent her a meaningful stare, the black mesh of her mask giving the impression that his pointed attention slid right off of that calm professional exterior.
From the bottom of his spine to the tips of his ears, a shiver ran up and down. Small bolts of awareness raised goosebumps.
What was she doing, biting her tongue in the face of well…him? Could it possibly be an invitation to ignore the elephant in the room? Or patience born of professionalism?
As she turned to return to her station, he caressed the plastic edges of the menu. Static filled his ears, filtering out the rustling and bustling around him. It screamed loudly in his mind, images of teary eyes and poisonous glares solidifying his doubt of this normal moment. She was too indifferent.
Was it that she was holding back? Or did he no longer have a place in her care, that she couldn’t be bothered to spare him even a little of her anger? His teeth dug into the flesh of his bottom lip.
Fantastic. All of two sentences from her and his mind flew to many places. He breathed, slowly and steadily. Static danced in his veins despite the unpleasant thought of her lack of care. Silly him. With one more exhale through his nose, he let those petty worries go.
A thrumming started in his chest, curious anticipation replacing where buzzing static had made his jaw clench. This encounter went a different direction than he’d thought—as was the case with all his encounters with her.
He sat in the booth, waiting for her return, letting the clamor of the restaurant wash through him. Fixing his bow tie, his finger adjusted his brooch with care. From here, he could see her speak into the kitchen window with only a glance in his direction to indicate that she was aware of him.
His smile widened. What was she planning? Or was she going to ignore that they knew each other and keep this routine going? That would be preferable. He could keep seeing her and he wouldn’t have to deal with the hollowness of this past week. But though he thought so, a small part of him couldn’t help but be disappointed.
However, that disappointment didn’t last long, as Ynna returned with a plate and cup in her hands. Sitting innocently on a cheap white plate was a lava cake. “I don’t believe I ordered anything yet.”
“This is on me.” A gloved hand reached up to pull back her cowl, lifting her mask up to reveal her solemn face. Nervous but determined, she met his eyes as if to speak to his soul–No. To capture it. “I wanted to say thank you for saving me and Goss the other day. You didn’t have to do it but I’m grateful that you did.”
Of all things he could have expected, a show of gratitude was far down the list, below a withering glare and silent and resolute hatred. The cheerful layers of her customer-service tone shed to her regular lilt, tepid and calm but genuine. And cautiously detached.
A laugh crept up his throat but he choked it down. She looked so skittish. Ah! Sweet sweet girl!
Despite her own feelings against him, that morality of hers, a compunction for politeness that her time in Hell hadn’t yet worn away, shined through. And it was like a breath of fresh air, the first signs of geniality that she initiated all on her own. It was so unexpected that he could only lean on and see how far her patience would go. And in that light teasing, probing for what little gentleness she was willing to show, did he gain something he hadn’t even thought to hope for.
Ynna sat in front of him, tucking her mask away, a hint of uncertainty and confusion graveling her side profile before it smoothed into indifference. Well, as indifferent as a cautious little goat could be. Her lips pursed and frowned but…she spoke to him. In clipped disbelief, tempered irritation and miraculously, ease.
He had to consciously pull his lips into a smile—disguising a gasp of wonder with a low chuckle, breathing through his teeth to hide the discomfort as goosebumps travelled up his arms.
As the conversation flowed—and it flowed; a few degrees cooler than even their dullest conversations in the past, but still—the thrumming in his chest rose steady, latching onto her every word and expression to coax just a bit more out of her every time. This was a chance and he wasn’t going to spoil it by being careless.
An apology, a light jab there, a fine balance between awkwardness and resentment.
“Well that killed my expectations of you.” Ynna rolled her eyes, the gesture almost too fond with how those eyes flashed with mirth in the afternoon light. His own mind buzzed. He liked the look of her like this. Even though she was more detached, she stayed where she was, unafraid and cool. But anything was better than her hurling insults to his face.
“You still had expectations of me, darling?” He leaned forward, basking in the moment. This felt like their old routines, her funny jokes aligning with his own so well. He tried not to regard her too softly for it. This was her gesture of thanks, not an olive branch of forgiveness.
Some lines must have been tripped for her, or maybe they’d acted too familiar for her liking, for that neutral curve of her mouth titled down permanently for the rest of their half-hour deal. Her responses became more clipped and he knew better than to push what boundaries she’d laid down in her mind for how their impromptu lunch would turn out.
No matter. This was better than he’d thought it would be.
Ynna’s POV
The rest of your lunch period crawled by achingly slowly, the fifteen minutes of being bombarded with Alastor’s charisma wearing thin on your determination to keep things neutral. It was hard to stay upset with someone who knew how to wriggle their way into your good graces, especially when you were determined to keep things peaceful. And he was all too happy to play along.
When the time was up, you almost wished he had been a tyrannical scheming sneak, asking more of your time, or demanding it. But instead, he’d let you go. A man of his word.
Tsk. If only you could trust that his words had no knives hidden within them.
“Since when have you and the Radio Demon been so close?” Monica asked you the moment you stepped into the back. Her magenta eyes looked at you from where she’d pushed her mask up. “I thought you were about to get suckered into a deal but the atmosphere was actually pretty nice.”
“We—“
“Ynna used to live at the hotel. The one the Radio Demon and princess are running.” Goss squeaked by next to you, a tray in hand where she was balancing a couple of cups of sodas.
“That dump? What? Ynna, were you homeless or something?Is that why you went to that place?” Monica raised a brow and a couple of the gossipy chefs chimed in laughter. They’d seen the ads and weren’t too impressed. To be fair, none of Hell were.
“Yeah but the princess was nice enough to take me in. The place is clean and all she had us do was some exercises equivalent to therapy. Nothing too bad in exchange for room and board.”
“Well, if it was such a good deal, why aren’t you living there now?” Monica asked.
“Maybe Ynna’s not so nice. A bitch worse than Angel Dust if the princess kicked her out.” Tim chimed in from the kitchen window.
“Uncalled for, Tim. Dom’t be an ass. I just realized redemption wasn’t for me and I felt bad freeloading.” You threw Tim a stink eye and the man glared at you right back.
“Well, whatever. If you and him are friendly, why don’t you take your breaks when he’s around?” With a grin, Monica loomed over you.
“This was a one-time deal. We're not even close.”
“Pfft. I saw the security cams. The man was all fuzzy pixels but even I could tell he was nice to you during the last incident. Even if you’re not close, he seems to like you so why not?”
“Maybe I don’t like him.”
“Sure. Sure. But I’m saying if you wanna hang out with him during your break time, I’m all for it. Just get Tim to cover you.”
“I doubt it’ll happen again.”
Monica just waved dismissively at you before you both went back into the floor.
And you wished Monica hadn’t been right. The next time you saw Alastor at the diner, the man had asked if you would join him for another chat. You declined but that didn’t stop him from acting familiar with you.
Since the incident, he’d acted less polite, talking much more casually and commenting on things. He whispered conspiratorially or dropped tidbits about the hotel and your friends in conversation. Never quite enough to be infuriating but then he’d be gone for a few days when he did strike a nerve.
You weren’t quite sure how it started. One sentence turned into two, two turned into comments on your day. Those comments turned into conversation and you eventually found yourself sitting with him during your lunch break, talking about the hotel, your friends and your gripes about living in the afterlife. The first time it happened, you saw some money change hands from Monica and the head chef before the former shooed you away.
The next time you asked for permission, Tim rolled his eyes. Afterwards, they just expected it.
It was strange how easily he slipped right back in. So long as you avoided certain topics, it was easy to forget that the man you hung out with was heartless and cruel. He easily apologized if you chided him and was just pleasant to be around.
It made you think hard on when he would suddenly flip back to the asshole he had been. How long was he going to play nice before he was shoving deer meat in your face?
But then he’d show a goofiness that just did not match his dapper appearance and you’d have to bite back a smile. If only he wasn’t such an ass underneath all of his red clad glory.
—
The clock couldn’t seem to go any faster today.
The sky was lit up a bright, cheerful red and the overall atmosphere of your little corner of Hell was rather good. You’d only gotten your favorite regulars today and Chef Jiggy gave the staff some samples of new menu items he wanted to present to the owners. Overall, it was a perfect day—as perfect as any wage slave’s day could get. If only the throbbing behind your eyes would stop.
No sooner had the bell rung and shiny leather shoes stepped onto the recently mopped tiles, did Alastor open his damned mouth to make a comment. “Well you look a bit—“ His staticky voice felt just a bit more grating today as his grin stretched with intrigue.
The hand you held up to his face silenced him immediately.
“Please don’t. I know.” You didn’t even bother with the usual customer greetings as you took your mask off and headed for his table that you’d already set for his arrival.
“Is something the matter, darling?” Right behind you, the man thankfully lost that arrogant cheer he’d entered with. Even his steps became more polite somehow, sweeping through the diner instead of having that slight hop to his step. For a moment, you felt a little bad for being so abrupt with him and you swept a hand through your, now free, hair.
“Just tired. Been working more shifts to save up money.” Sliding into the seat, you leaned on the table with a regretful sigh, an apology in your breath that he was perceptive enough to notice.
“Normally, you’d be the first advocate of taking care of yourself.”
“I mean, sure. Yeah. Know your limits, right?” When instead of some quip, he remained silent, waiting for you to speak, a dam just seemed to burst within you. A couple of week’s worth of stress pouring out into the distance between you.
“I had this schedule all planned out. It was gonna be tough but as long as I was disciplined, I would get enough rest and make it through. But I’ve had to take detours walking home because some punk-ass clowns were camping out on the street I usually pass by a couple blocks from home. Some of the servers called in sick and I was pulled in to fill in because I told my boss I wanted to work more but that totally ruined my schedule. And then I guess my neighbor got a new boyfriend or something because I’m suddenly VERY FUCKING AWARE of how thin the walls are.” A sigh escaped your lips, curling almost like a cry at the end as you felt the press of sleepless night against your eyelids.
“I’ve just not been sleeping much but that's the grind. Can’t do much about it. How about you? Oh, are you getting your usual today?” Realizing how rude it was to just dump out your frustrations, you tried to play it off by asking Alastor about his day.
“You know what, I think I’m suddenly not that hungry.” With an abrupt snap of plastic, he flipped the menu closed and stood up and out of the booth.
“Oh. Sorry.” You bit your lip in embarrassment. Part apologetic, part irked, you leveled him a tired frown. You didn’t want to admit that you had been slightly looking forward to listening to his sarcasm as you spewed your mundane woes at him, but you did. And here he was, suddenly not interested after all his attempts to grab your attention these days. Temperamental man. You sighed and grabbed the menu from him. “Didn’t mean to rant at you like that. I’ll walk you out.”
“So eager to get rid of me as always, I see.”
“It’s only because I find your company oh, so pleasant.” You batted your eyelashes at him with a huff as you moved back to the entrance with him. “Seriously though. Did you not just hear me talk about how busy I’ve been?” If he wasn’t going to take up your time then you planned to take a nice little nap on the benches outside. The creaking in your bones was enough to convince you to take your chances out there if it meant a little bit of your aching tiredness would go away.
“Haha. Oh, I heard you loud and clear, dearest. Which is why I have an idea.”
“How scary. I’ll see you next time then.” If you were quick, you could snag a sandwich too. A full belly and nap. The idea already had you smiling until you noticed how Alastor stood holding open the door as if waiting. “What?”
“Well, don’t just stand there. You don’t have much time.”
“Exactly. So why don’t you go now?”
“Oh, dearest.” He tutted, stepping back into the diner. “I’d like you to come with me.” He stretched out an open palm as an invitation. It gave you pause.
“Why? What’s your idea?”
“Something to help with that stress of yours.” With an unimpressed stare, you watched his bright self-satisfied smile. Whatever his idea was, he was confident that it would help you. And there was one thing you knew would work. Physically, at least. Your mental health was another thing altogether.
“It’s not the favor, is it?” The question came out in soft roughness, apprehension and distaste scratching it as it tumbled out. The man picked up on the shift in your demeanor immediately, chuckling to himself as he shook his head.
“I’d have already said if it was. But it is on the table if you need a quick pick-me-up.” That last part was a half-joke meant to reassure you, you were sure but you only felt the knot in your chest start to pull your brows down.
“Oh, you’d get so many wrinkles if we aged at all down here.” Another joke from him. You bit back a retort, seeing the slight softening of his grin. Less confident and more self-aware of himself as you just looked at him, trying to scream with your eyes the frustrations and betrayals that you ground your molars against. Because you could tolerate suffering him this much.
These last few weeks of passing exchanges, shared lunches and terrible jokes between demanding customers, were infinitely better than drowning in your loathing and self-pity at the thought of him. It was nice; you could admit that much. When he didn’t try to push your buttons, you could envision that eternity tied to him wouldn’t be as shitty as it likely would be. And while you would like to keep the peace, there was no way you would freely trust. Not like you once did.
“You do know I don’t have to go anywhere with you, right?” You crossed your arms, shifting your weight to one leg in an attempt to calm yourself—to hear him out.
“Which is why I’m asking you to come with me.”
“You asked?”
“Wasn’t it obvious?”
“Semantics.”
Thump
It was funny how one word, spoken with a sarcastic bite, could pierce through two people like a gunshot. Mocking his word choices, remarking on his cruelty, making light of the quirks that gave his charm its cutting edges—it was like a habit. Sometimes done with actual scorn. Sometimes just a light chiding. An easy exchange between you two.
But this one word hung for two seconds—three seconds. A stark invisible line drawn between tempered caution and righteous dislike.
He was the first to break the pause. Crossing the threshold of the entryway to offer his hand again, slowly raising the flat palm up in a soft arch.
“Will you allow me to bring you somewhere else during your lunch break?” His eyes lost a little of their edge, the mirthful wrinkles of his crow’s feet easing to more formal curves. The invitation felt more than just an offer to go out. But not more than you were willing to accept in the name of this fragile truce.
“…Sure. But I need to be back on time.” You didn’t take his offered hand, brushing past it as you stepped forward, untying and folding your apron away.
“Of course.” You could hear the quirk of a smile in his voice as he let his hand fall to his side and turned, beckoning your exit.
You were momentarily blinded by the bright glow of the afternoon light as you stepped outside. Beside you, Alastor waved his fingers, the silent thrum of his static brushing against your ears with the call of his magic. You bit the inside of your cheek. Hopefully, you didn’t regret this. You were tired enough as it was.
A portal opened below you and your heart leapt into your throat, thinking of the eldritch sphere and how the whole area failed basic physics. It took a lot for you not to grab onto Alastor as you fell.
It opened to a lush forest, trees swaying to a light breeze as you landed in a small clearing. Why’d he bring you here?
“How about a little walk through the forest? Or perhaps a nap? Nothing but us and the critters around here so you don’t have to worry about any disturbances.”
The change in scenery and the offer took you back for a second, processing the unexpected kindness.
“That’s your idea?”
“Would you have preferred anywhere else?”
“…No. This is great, actually.” Your eyes strayed to the rustling leaves, speckled in bright star-like dots of peeking afternoon light. You almost missed Alastor turning away and starting walking. “Hey? Wait up.” You went to follow him but he stopped you.
“Take your time and enjoy the scenery. I’ll be back when your lunch hour is done.”
“You’re just gonna leave me here?”
“Would you like me to stay instead?” His face was a blank canvas of polite smiles, innocent. You weren’t too sure how to feel, still surprised by the gesture he presented. And he was even offering to leave you alone? The few seconds of silence it took you to answer seemed to be enough for him though as the man chuckled. “Thought so.”
Alastor’s POV
He wandered around the forest, watching critters hide from him in their dens and burrows almost as silent as he.
His mind wandered back to Ynna, her surprise and stubbornness melting away just as he left the clearing. It had been a spur of the moment offer, seeing exhaustion pull down on his goat to the point where even her thin politeness eroded. This forest and its natural serenity had been the only place he could think of to bring her peace. And while he had been tempted to stay and keep her company, he had thought it best to leave her be.
Leave her be. That had been Rosie’s advice before. Husker’s too. It had proven effective, when he’d faced the reality that her resentment only flared more brightly when he was there to fan the flames of her anger. That he couldn’t help but try to dig at the old wounds of their friendship in hopes to rekindle some of her affection, no matter how futile his attempts had been.
But the moment he’d taken the advice, watched their paths diverge and had contented himself with having only the contract to bind them, their paths crossed again and eventually led them to this.
It took him far too long to realize that his dearest little goat wasn’t nearly as stubborn as she seemed. Time and distance softened her temper. And a bit of humility from his part cooled her ire.
He passed by a tree stripped of bark and carved with aggression, slashed so deep that sap oozed like blood over the wounds. A zing of electricity shot through him, an echo of a buzz long passed as his eyes traced each break in the wood.
Wasn’t this…
Warmth flared briefly through him at the memory. The crackling of skin on innocent lips, the frantic buzz in his veins that he carved into wood. When he’d barely scratched the surface of sensations Ynna could pull from within him, corners even he didn’t know existed in his dimensions.
He passed a claw, tearing a thin line across the largest gash. When he’d wanted so much of her, the lightning in his blood, the lust, the graze of her lip. He still wanted it. Just the memory of it igniting desires he’d not thought of since her tears caused a screeching of guilt in the back of his mind. How could he think of her bite when he’d been desperately seeking her forgiveness?
He took his hand away, flicking off the dirt that gathered under his claw. These thoughts and desires served no purpose now but a temptation to overstep the fragile truce they cobbled. Maybe someday. But not today.
Half an hour later, he found himself at the edges of the clearing, slowly making his way back to Ynna with deliberately noisy crunches of twigs and dirt to alert her of his presence. He played a small tune, letting the notes flow towards where he left her so she wouldn’t think he was some predator stalking in the woods. Well, not a predator she would need to worry about anyway. He shrugged.
Bright eyes flicked up at him when he stepped past the treeline. Already, he could see the weariness had drained from her face, appearing brighter after a small rest. Before he could greet her, her face softened, lips tugging up though only slightly.
“Thank you, Alastor.”
She looked him in the eye, a weight of emotions swimming in those tired depths. He’d never seen her smile since their reunion. Her face was always hidden by a mask when waiting on customers, only bare when she sat and ate with him. Even then, she didn’t smile. Her lips usually pulled in expressions that were sarcastic, sad, or serious. Sometimes self-pitying, other times, snide. Always with her smirks or sneers. Serene. Solemn. But never sweet or sincere. Not when it was just him and Ynna, their customer and waitress charade cast away.
So when she looked at him, lips pulled into a thin pout but eyes in a big stare, broadcasting all the depth of color they could hold, the sincerity in them stopped all his senses. All the witty remarks, unconscious observation, even the breath leaving his lungs, and that awful incessant screech in the back of his mind that howled when he’d made her cry and truly broke her trust. They all fell quiet to witness her.
“You’re welcome, Ynna.”
A thrumming crooned low in his chest, pushing warmth and feeling—sparks of something so close to life, so close to mortality—into the very tips of his hooves. Still no smile. Still cloaked in wariness. Still so far from how she used to look at him. Yet her sincerity, solemn but true, carried a sweetness of its own.
He offered his arm to take her back, and this time, she didn’t reject it. The aching, howling screech in his mind finally fell silent.
Ynna’s POV
Lying in your apartment, you stared at the plants serving as the only decoration in your room. On the floor, Goss and Angel were painting their nails. It had been a few days since Alastor took you to the forest, showing a thoughtfulness that was outlined with selflessness.
Something had shifted in you since then and that was the subject that you’d subjected your friends to on this day off. “Sometimes, I see him and I just want to—”
“Run into his arms and cry?” Goss had heard this rant multiple times now, enough to be aware that you’d been close to Alastor once, fallen in love with him, and then come to hate him. Though she was convinced that the recent developments showed that Alastor probably felt the same. And that you were still in love with him.
…And you were afraid that she wasn’t wrong.
“…No. I want to smash his prissy in the cash register.” To give him a reason to hurt you so you could fight him and let the flames of hurt and anger, ignited by his betrayal, burn. Burn hot and engulfing. Burn so bright you’d never forget it. Burn…until it was nothing but embers, glowing warm and melancholy with the charred remains of your affection.
“I don’t think I can keep doing this.” You sighed.
“Doing what?”
“This—talking to Alastor. He’s…hnnngh.”
“I don’t see what’s so bad about it. He seems to be really sweet on you. Like, I used to think Overlords were scary. Super mean but amazing people. But then I see you and him and he’s just a guy, a little creepy but still kinda normal.”
“Hey, them high rulers can be charming too, half-pint. How do ya think they get so many souls? One minute, they’re promising ya the world and the next, you’re sucking twenty dicks in a back parking lot for four hours straight.” Angel piped up from checking his nails. His lower set of arms screwing close the bottle of sparkling pink polish.
“I’m surprised y’all didn’t call a doctor for an erection lasting more than four hours.” You commented, feeling an edge to his voice that made you hurt for him and hate his boss even more. If only you could muster up the same vehement anger for Alastor right now.
“Val’s smoke thing tops them up. But anyway, so what? Are you guys good again because it sounds like you are but you don’t want to be.”
“I’m…okay with us getting along, a friendly acquaintances kinda deal. It’s helped my stress levels not wanting to punch his pretty face in every time he decides to be sarcastic.”
“But you think his face is pretty.” Goss sang with a tease, swaying in her seat with a giggle. Her fingers typed onto her phone. She better not make some blog post asking the net for advice for your drama.
“And that’s the problem here, half-pint. Tootsy roll here’s crushing on the guy that owns her soul again. Toxic shit.” Angel stretched, long legs lithely posed as he slouched on the floor, long legs filling in the small space available. The light smirk on his face and joking tone could only do so much to cover up the hint of judgment and concern in his mismatched eyes.
“He—” Your tongue seized, unable to even clarify. He didn’t own your soul. Not really. He couldn’t compel you to do anything unless it involved eating him. “He’s just… if he wasn’t such a dick, this wouldn’t be a problem.”
Or maybe the problem was that he wasn’t enough of one.
How else could you explain these feelings? How warmth still crept into your heart when the bell chimed at two in the afternoon, announcing his thin figure at the door. How your mind raced to come up with puns just to see him snort ungracefully into his coffee. How being near him wasn’t grating anymore—no sting of anxiety, no burn of hate.
And how, even in the aftermath of his betrayal, his selfish cruelty, you could still look at him and linger, when every part of you knew you should walk away.
You thought these feelings were dead—cold ashes to choke on and eventually wash away. Not embers, smoldering, ready to burn down your house of rationality and self-preservation. Because it would be crazy to love him again. To want him again. To push aside his offenses, just because being near him made the crashes and cries of Hell sound like a symphony you could endure for eternity.
Two months of pretending you could thrive without him, only to realize that thriving wasn’t enough. Not without his old-timey speech, his background static.
“Hah.” You laughed bitterly. “Hell really knows how to fuck with its sinners.”
“It ain’t true, babe.” Angel quipped, a bitterness lingering in the edges of his voice. “Sinners know how to fuck with sinners.”
Alastor’s POV
He hummed as he inspected the hotel. Nothing of note happened today, unfortunately. The princess’s lecture on anger management had fallen on deaf ears given even her girlfriend preferred threats of violence when slighted. Oh, her face when Niffty had mentioned what was the equivalent of her sanity snapping one day. Her poor dear husband had ended on their walls and Niffty was down here not long after.
Charlie hadn’t been able to tell the little dear that her anger had been unjustified. Or call her actions over the top. It was difficult to preach forgiveness and calm when even a stranger could sympathize.
Since there was nothing else to do, he sauntered over to the bar to bother Husker. Might as well end his day with a drink.
“You’re looking happy today. Kill anyone?” Husker’s gravelly voice crooned from across the counter where he had been slumped asleep right before he sat down.
“Oh, can’t a man be happy without the need for violence?”
“Yes. But you’re being particularly creepy about it.”
“Just having a good day, my old friend.” Pointing his finger to the old radio on the shelf, he played a jig on it before summoning a glass of whiskey on the rocks.
“Something good happened to you?”
“Well! Since you’ve asked. It’s just that things are finally lining up in my favor.”
“Ynna finally talking to you again?”
“What makes you think she’s involved?” He raised a brow at Husker’s question. He was too perceptive at times but that was why he had the cat at his employ.
“What makes you think it isn’t written on your face that she is?” The cat raised a brow back. Touché. He was feeling rather light given the recent events.
“Well, alright. She is a part of it. It was such a shame when we had our little spat.” Those tired eyes passed through his mind again and the delighted thrumming in his chest returned.
“Pfft. Little . You terrorized the kid. Whatever you did to her, you absolutely deserved the sassing she gave back.” The look of disapproval on the cat’s face said it all and he wondered just what brought the man’s guard down that he thought his judgement would be tolerated. Thought perhaps he could let it slide for now.
“I suppose you aren’t wrong. I’ll admit to that much. But things are looking up. I’m sure that I can get her to forgive me eventually and things will return to how they were before.”
“You’re breaking the deal with her then?”
“There’s no need to! That’s the lovely part. It wasn’t like our little arrangement was the cause of this fighting between us.” He chuckled as he swirled his drink. The clinking of ice reminded him of bells, light and airy.
“But it sure as Hell won’t be doing you any favors with winning her over.” With exasperation, the cat glared at him, leveling a fatherly stare that matched the man’s old age. He was tempted to poke his eyes out for daring to treat him like some unruly child. “Listen, and I’m saying this for her sake, just treat her right. The kid’s got a heart of gold if she’s willing to talk to your sorry ass. Maybe cut her some slack and not give her a reason to rethink it.”
“You worry too much, old pal. We’re doing just fine now. Everything will be back to how it was before we know it.” He drank the last of his whiskey and chucked it back with a grin. Thinking of the progress they’d made, he now knew how to handle her. Patience and care. With time, she may smile at him again, let her affection for him show on her face. And maybe, she would even be willing to do the favor for him once more. But he wouldn’t get ahead of himself. Things were fine as they were.
“If you say so.”
Just then, Angel barged in through the door, phone wedged in his neck and shoulder as he marched through the door with too many shopping bags in his hands.
“Babe. Toots. Ya don’t gotta overthink it. The blue dress is fine. No, it ain’t too fancy. Listen—. No, listen. He’d probably rather see if off of ya than on anyway. Wha— No! I’m just kiddin. He’s a decent guy. Come on. Would I ever introduce you to a douche? Trust me, Toots. You’ll like him. Uh-huh… Yeah. Yes. Well, the green dress would look good too…” The spider didn’t even glance their way as he kept arguing with whoever was on the phone.
Though it didn’t take a genius to understand who and what the conversation was about.
“Hah. Looks like everything will be back to normal alright.” Husker laughed before slinking away for good measure, leaving him at the bar.
The lights flickered as static fuzzed in his mind.
Notes:
Extra (example of one of their lunches that happened before the forest day):
“So how did you find your steak, sir?” Tim sidled up to the table, seeing the conversation die down.
Alastor perked up at his arrival, mischief flashing in his eyes as warm as the midday light and your stomach dropped, bracing yourself for a laugh when you’d just decided not to indulge him. Damn your love of good humor.
“Oh, it was simple. I just looked under the parsley.” He flipped his wrist nonchalantly, the laughter in his voice hidden behind an innocent face. Tim paused and you were willing to bet that he was staring dumbfounded at the Overlord for making such a stupid joke. Did super-powered hellions make dad jokes, of all things?
You sympathized with him. Alastor’s sense of humor caught you by surprise too once upon a time. You tried to chide the deer demon, biting back a snicker for your poor coworker’s sake.
“Oh my goodness. Seriously, Alastor? A steak pun?”
“I know. I know. It’s a rare medium.” Quick as a cat, Alastor slid in another pun, mirthful eyes turning to you and you just broke.
“Pfft. Well done.” You bit your lip, scolding yourself for going along with his word play. It felt frustratingly easy nowadays and you had to remind yourself of whom and why you shouldn’t feel so relaxed. But one joke couldn’t hurt. You had to find some silver lining in Alastor’s constant presence in your life.
“Oh fucking kill me already.” Tim muttered too loudly.
“Don’t encourage him.”
“No encouragement needed. Just a little handshake and we could get your head rolling, good man.”
A huffed chuckle, sounding almost choked came from the booth behind you—some poor diner trying hard not to laugh after listening to this conversation. A quick glance showed one of your regulars, a smartly dressed older sinner. You remembered he was one of the ones who started coming because Alastor liked to hijack the radios during his lunch.
You two shared a polite nod and continued on as Alastor mildly sold death to Tim who was starting to sweat under the Radio Demon’s attention.
The other customers didn’t pay attention to the Overlord’s teasing, his low laughter blending into the cacophony. Some saxophone-heavy song played on the radio. Lun bussed the table across the way. Goss was upselling today’s fish special to an Angler Fish sinner. It was peaceful. Strange.
It was just another lunch at Billy and Stu’s at this point. Just another day, with the man who held a chain on your soul. You swallowed a big bite of your sandwich and tried not to be too comfortable when Alastor ordered you dessert.
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Chapter 41: I’ve Got You Under My Skin Pt 1
Notes:
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Chapter Text
Alastor’s POV
Tonight was the night , his shadow unhelpfully reminded him. As if he himself wasn’t painfully aware. Ever since he’d overheard Angel’s conversation, the shade had been in a tizzy, going so far as to stalk the spider to get all the information it could about Ynna’s date. Which unfortunately meant that he was privy to all the details. That Angel had arranged the whole thing. Just what kind of man she would be meeting.
Walking through the familiar paths of the forest, he batted away the shade as it hissed pitchy static at him. Go to her , it said. Stop this nonsense she had planned!
“Will you shut up! Need I remind you that what she does in her spare time is none of our business?” That was the mantra he’d been repeating since finding out. A surge of ravenous anger had flooded him that night. Husker was smart to slink away or he would have been reduced to splinters, just as the bar top had been by the time some of his sanity had returned.
It had bothered him, in the end. She was his companion. His dearest. His—He waved his claws at a loss for words, the ones coming to mind too sentimental. They didn’t fit the current state of their affairs, the fine line between contempt and fondness that they straddled. At best, he would call them friendly acquaintances, maybe even friends but no more than that. And he was quite satisfied with things as they were.
You lie to yourself. The shadow loomed tall, spreading its ghostly darkness along tree branch claws and spindly gnarled roots. A seething wretch of a monster who’s green eyes cast toxic light around it. It only served to frighten away any prey. Tsk. At this rate, this evening’s hunt would be for naught.
“I simply know that as her friend , and I want to remain that way, it is not my place to tell her what to do. She may be growing soft on me but not enough that she’d take kindly to any advice I would give with regards to her finding a lover.”
She doesn’t need a lover when she has us!
“A lover serves different purposes than the kind of affection I’m looking for.”
The kind of affection we’re looking for is about to be given to someone else!
He scoffed as the thing roared, static unintelligible to anyone but himself. He pushed past the treeline, wading through shrub and shade. He had no intention of listening to the thing’s emotional nonsense. It clearly couldn’t see the importance of the lines he’d drawn. He stalked on, ears keeping track of every sound to see if any unfortunate critter would come his way.
By early evening, he walked into his cabin, brushing as much dirt and mud off at the door before making his way to the kitchen. In the end, he’d only caught a plump rabbit. His shadow’s screeching had been enough to clear out the area of any prey, much to his annoyance. Even the deer had escaped him. That or they’d migrated given his more recent splurging on their blood. This whole excursion had been to help settle the thing and the anxious energy it charged through him in its persistent need to stake a claim on Ynna.
As he laid the dead critter in the sink to wash, he noticed his shadow staying still by the doorway. Not looming or drawn, a perfect silhouette of himself. Before he could say anything to it, its green mouth split into a sneer.
Only a fool would let what’s his disappear from his grasp.
“Good thing I’m not a fool to drive her away one more time when we’ve finally made some peace with her.”
Green eyes narrowed and lost their glow, fading into wisps and smoke. With one last hiss, it darted out the kitchen window, telepathing its intention to go watch over Ynna and ignoring his commands to return.
“Stupid thing.” He hissed under his breath. Impulsive as his shadow was, he’d never known it to be a complete imbecile. It wouldn’t risk things with Ynna, not when it was so desperate to keep her. So he let that stupid thing be.
Returning to the sink, he continued on with his quarry. He hadn’t been too precise when he’d snatched the thing up in shadowy claws so the pelt would unfortunately go to waste. Though maybe he could use it to lure some other animals to play.
Methodically, he butchered the rodent, mentally checking off lists as he went. Perhaps he would roast the legs and make a stew of the rest of the carcass. Roasted carrots would go well. What sauce to use?
He busied himself with such thoughts, trying to expend the buzzing energy in his chest through clean cuts of a sharpened cleaver. But he was unfortunately blessed with the ability to ponder on many things at once. And the thought of Ynna looking for a romantic partner for herself stubbornly remained front and center in his mind despite his best efforts to ignore it.
What did it matter if she had a lover? Things wouldn’t change. Friendship was all they needed. Yes. Too many messy feelings led them to where they were today. Hasty surging emotions and saccharine sentiments that fueled disappointment and clouded his judgement. Things had been going in a favorable direction prior to his unsavory intentions being found. She’d offered to partake of him of her own volition and things were easier to control before he’d thought to pursue her in any capacity other than to be her companion. Sometimes he couldn’t decide if he regretted letting go that day.
He breathed in deeply, his mouth faintly tasting of softness, ghostly teasing over his flesh. That night…He swallowed, shocks tingling from his lips through the rest of his body. Heat followed in a wash of sensation and memories. A small body beneath his, pliant, even as he plundered from her. The taste of victory and rust, bitter sweetness and blood, and thunder and lightning pouring from her lips.
The cleaver fell hard with his hand, hacking through bone and wood and even then, he needed to slam his palms into the sturdy counter to ground himself.
Hah….
He sighed, slow and steady, like the breath in his lungs would turn to flames if he breathed in haste. Like the fire in his chest would engulf everything, his soul, his home, his sanity, if he didn’t choke it back. It wasn’t that he didn’t understand his shadow—the thing was a part of him, after all. He understood it perfectly. The hunger. The need. The void that could only be filled when he saw his image reflected in her warm eyes. He could ravage Pentagram City in a blood high and it would be made better if she would tut at him for not cleaning up properly.
It was a rush he’d only felt from her, a zing so intoxicating that he found himself in need of caution from it. The agitation running through him was evidence that only a companionship of a platonic sort would be best. That he would be able to enjoy Ynna’s presence and affection without crossing boundaries, without asking for more than she could offer him. Because she wouldn’t be able to give him anything , not when he’d stumbled too recklessly and trampled her goodwill in trying to seize it.
But right now, maybe he could have something—a quiet lunch, a sarcastic roll of her eyes, a spot prepared for him in her time—and maybe more if he played his cards right. He just had to play his cards right.
Even if she found a lover. Even if her lips graced another. Even if someone else was crowned her dearest. So long as she would grace him with a little of her affection.
He picked up the cleaver and continued to dismember his dinner.
All the while, his mind whispered patience and vengeance, two sides of the same ravenous coin.
Ynna’s POV
At a quarter to eight in the evening, you stood outside a set of glass double doors. From where you stood, you could see the dim lighting of the Italian restaurant Angel had set you up for tonight. You could just see a peek of crystal softly sparkling beyond the glass. You were sure to take a good look when your date got here.
Stepping to the side, you took out a compact mirror to check your appearance one last time. You put on a bolder look this evening with purple eyeshadow that hinted glitter under the lights. You opted for a dark green off the shoulder long sleeved cocktail dress with a slightly flared skirt that ended mid-thigh. Paired with some black heeled boots, you couldn’t help but admire yourself. It had been a while since you dressed up, not since the party at the hotel.
A night of laughter and warmth. And so many dad jokes. Your red-painted lips quirked at the memories, a certain redhead spotted in almost every one of them…and in the fondest of them. You shook your head in exasperation. This was exactly the reason you were on a date tonight. Some time since leaving the hotel, your heart had softened against Alastor. It was like you’d forgotten just how much of a bastard he was. How he used you for entertainment, how he abused Husk in the background.
A needle-like pain pierced your heart. No. You didn’t forget. It was just that you knew him now, the way he truly thought and felt. Yet somehow, that made each of his gestures of thoughtfulness seem that much more meaningful than they ever did before. Because he had no reason to act as a friend, not when he had you on a leash. You scoffed. It was probably just a game to him.
He was having fun playing a sassy arrogant companion.
And you were falling for it again—hook, line and sinking heart.
“Hey! Are you Ynna?” A smooth masculine voice called out. Approaching from across the street was a rabbit sinner, judging by the long ears standing high on his head. Big electric blue eyes stood out from lavender fur on his anthropomorphic face. There was a white patch of fur around his left eye.
“Jax?”
“That’s the one. Nice to meet you, miss.” He smiled and you noticed a hint of gold on his canine. It was just on the right side of fashionable. You offered your hand to shake his but he only chuckled, taking your hand up to hover a kiss over your fingers. The gesture caught you off guard but the lack of tension in his shoulders and the slight hunch of his back eased you. It was a casual greeting.
“Same. Should we go in?”
“After you.”
When you both walked into the restaurant, the hostess greeted you both and led you to a corner table, tucked cozily in an almost private nook. A wooden partition of delicately carved wood separated the area from the rest of the tables. You noticed a few other seats set up like it, all of them occupied by sinners in suits and long dresses. Above you, the crystal chandelier you’d spied from the outside sparkled gently, beams of light glinting off the surface like stars. You wondered what string Angel had to pull to get this reservation. It was a lot fancier than you thought.
Your date for the night didn’t seem as awed as you were. He waited at your designated table with your chair pulled out. Thanking him, you sat, trying to be a bit dainty as you did.
“So, have you been here before?”
“No, actually. Angel kinda arranged the whole thing. Said I didn’t need to worry about a thing.”
“Do you mind if I order then? I’ve been here a couple of times.”
“Sure.”
“No allergies?”
“Nope. I can eat just about anything.”
“Great. I like that. Foodie?”
“A bit.” The waitress came by and Jax ordered for the both of you after you gave your drink order. He focused back on you once the waitress left.
“So I guess I should introduce myself, huh? Unless Angel’s told you all about me, in which case, I’m surprised you’re still up to grab dinner.”
“He’s only told me that you work with him at the studio as an actor. He says he can vouch for you in that department, at least.”
“And that doesn’t bother you? Or is that part of the appeal?”
“It’s your job so…” You shrugged your shoulders. It had taken a second for you to think about it but in the end, it hadn’t really bothered you. A job was a job and you suspected he was another soul bound to Valentino, just like Angel.
“Well, aside from my filmography, I am also a blogger. Trying to be Sinternet famous on my socials. Maybe you’ve heard of me?”
You internally winced at his hopeful expression and something in your face must’ve given it away that you hadn’t heard of him at all. You expected him to be saddened, maybe even defensive but he just brushed it off, keeping an easy smile on his face as he pulled out his phone to show you his Sinstagram. You politely accepted it and perused his profile.
He was a lifestyle blogger, based on his posts. Lavish restaurants, parties, tastefully shot thirst traps at the gym or pool. He had over a million followers. But no wonder you hadn’t known about him. That type of luxury content wasn’t your thing. You preferred cooking videos and cute and funny posts.
You felt it only polite to share too so you did a quick search and pulled up your profile. There wasn’t a lot to see except some pictures from the hotel, your plants and your friends.
“You’re a gardener?”
“Yep. I’ve got seven plant babies at home right now. Well, I had ten but the newest one I got doesn’t like the competition.” You pulled up a photo of your tiger tulip that you’d lovingly named Tua Lipa. It was sitting in the sunniest spot in your small apartment, noticeably far from your other plants. You hadn’t really expected to come home to two shredded stems and broken pottery when you’d decided to rearrange all your babies together. Sadly, Tua Lipa was thorough.
“That’s wicked. Didn’t take you for a carnivorous plant kinda girl.” His smile widened, showing off his gold tooth again before it petered out into a silent chuckle accompanied by smirking eyes.
“But being a gardener isn’t a surprise?”
“Well, you are a goat.” His tone was only semi-careful and a bit teasing. His right ear flopped up and down a bit.
“And I guess your day job fits you too then.”
“I get that a lot.” He shrugged and chuckled lowly. How nice. Your lips curled, satisfied. You were starting to like his temper. “What else do you do?”
“I’m a waitress at Billy and Stu’s Diner. And I like to roam around the city in my free time. I’d really rather be hiking but the forests are pretty far.”
“I’m not really an outdoors guy. I’m a city boy through and through. I didn’t like the idea of meeting wildlife back when I was up top. Can’t imagine they’d be any friendlier down here.”
“That’s fair. I like it for the quiet though. It gets tiring being around all the busy energy all the time.”
“Really? I’m the opposite. Can’t stand when things are too quiet. It feels like I’m going crazy.”
“Don’t you think it’s too much sometimes? I feel like it’s crazier down here than anything else I’ve seen before.”
“Nah. It’s never too much. I like the energy, seeing people doing their own things. Since we’re dead anyway, I figured I’d make a party of the afterlife when I can.”
“Meh. I never feel safe enough for that. I got trampled on by a stampede of tech shoppers when I first got here. After that, it’s been one thing after another. I think I kinda just want something stable and peaceful. Though the occasional party does sound like fun.” The glinting of neon lights and chaotic drum beats reverberated in your ear from a far off memory. A filtered laugh drifted through your mind and you batted it away.
“Do you like dancing?” The question made you hopeful. So far, it seemed your interests hadn’t aligned at all but maybe since he liked to party, he’d be interested in going to dancing clubs.
“Hmm I can do a bit of urban, maybe some VoxTok stuff.” In his seat, he made an impressive effort to do the wave from one arm to another. It was rather awkward but his face and confidence made it cute. Still, you couldn’t help but be disappointed.
Your food arrived then, brought to you by a waiter with a silver cart. Your spine straightened unconsciously in an effort to mind your manners. Jax seemed to take it in stride, starting to dine with that same relaxed air he carried. Sneaking glances at him, you tried to study his manner. Maybe incorporate a bit of it into yours as you ate.
He was very pretty. Thin but muscular. He carried a boyish charm that shifted into something manly every now and then. He was clean as he ate. His elbows jutted out a bit too wide though.
You blinked, seeing a different figure seated in front of you for a second, back perfectly straight as he held glinting utensils with the same expertise that he held a kitchen knife. All the while sounding almost like he was singing with the cadence of his yapping.
Jax’s voice drifted to you, snapping you out of the vision. Really now. Why did that demon keep popping up in your head?
At least Jax was nice. The dinner went on in the same tone as you both exchanged details about each other. He was talkative and despite his slightly flashy exterior, mild-mannered. Angel was right to suggest him.
The socialite in him shined. It was obvious that neither of you shared much in common but he somehow kept the light atmosphere going, telling tales of his parties, gossip, a crude joke or two. He laughed politely when you tried to throw a pun at him though you could tell he didn’t find it nearly as cute as Angel did even when he didn’t find it funny. You almost felt bad and wondered if he was having fun.
Things took a bit of a turn though when the cocktails came.
“So Val’s got this thing, he’s in some kind of on-again off-again thing with a bunch of people. Man’s a sex maniac. One minute, he’s making out with Vox and the next, he’s got one of the stage hands sucking his dick. And it’s so on brand. Like, the guy’s built to seduce but come on! Can’t we keep it a bit more professional on set?” Jax downed the last of his second cocktail of evening, some fruity drink called Purple Haze that nicely matched his fur.
“Oh. I heard. Angel talks about the drama all the time. You’d think that after he literally shackled people into sex slavery, they wouldn’t be so into him.” You nodded dazedly as you drank your own second drink, a tangy tequila cocktail. Flamingo Lime? Pink flamingo? You glanced at the drinks menu. Ah. Flamingo Paradise.
“So many of the others wanna hop on his dick! The cat fighting off the clock fucking sucks. Always gotta watch out for who’s pissy with whom whenever I go out or I become collateral damage in someone else’s drama.”
“Mehhh. Stepping into someone’s shit would be worth it if it’s for a friend.”
“I mean, yeah. Duh. But those bitches don’t have my back. I could count like 1, 2, 3..6 people. I have six people I can count on and I’ve been dead for over a decade now. Isn’t that sad? And it’s all cuz I can’t escape this fucking deal. But I guess I’m just glad I’m not one of Val’s favorites. I still get to run my private life a lot better than some. I know Angel’s got it rough.” Jax flagged the waitress and ordered another drink. You took the chance to get another one too. Just a mule this time.
“Overlords suck.” You muttered into the rim of your glass. The conversation had started with a couple of jokes about work and at some point, Jax’s smile had waned and waned and you’d mentioned you hated Valentino—no offense but his boss sucked—and that had seemed to open the flood gates. Well, that and a good wash of vodka.
“What can you do? Us little guys are easy pickings. That’s why I wanna blow up. Maybe I can get some people under me or meet the right person that can get me out of my deal.” He tutted.
You commiserated with him, his woes hitting close to home. Being in a position without power sucked. And while you also thought his coworkers were dumb, weren’t you also here because you happened to still have a sweet spot for your own asshole Overlord? Fuck.
“Hey. Speaking of, I’ve been wanting to ask but this is you, right?” With slightly clumsy fingers, he typed on his phone. A minute later, he presented you with a still from a video. It was the diner and Alastor was holding you up. Ah. So someone did manage to get footage of that and send it off into the web. Great.
“Yep!” You popped the P as you stared at the screen. Even blurry, Alastor’s hands looked gentle even as they were the only things keeping you upright as you looked at the dismembering of Tenner and his friend in the background. You hated it. But you also commended yourself. Alastor deserved the thanks you gave him that day. Too bad that opened you up to him wriggling his stupid pretty face into your life again.
“Ahh. Condolences on being the Radio Demon’s favorite. Can’t imagine what that’s like. Or more like, don’t wanna imagine.”
“To be honest, it’s a shitty situation! He’s just so… frustrating—showing up whenever he likes, doing whatever he wants, messing with everyone! And he’s super good at being polite so I feel like an asshole if I try to start a fight with him. I’d like him to just go away but does he listen? No! As long as he’s having fun, what do my feelings matter?” It was like a fire was lit in you, being told you were Alastor’s favorite. At one time, you took pride in that. You were his favorite at the hotel! Someone he was close to and genuinely enjoyed! He was your favorite too! He was…
The waitress flinched as she approached your table. Without meaning to, you’d all but snatched your drink from her well-manicured hands before taking a gulp to quench your sudden thirst. It burned sweet and bitter and smooth.
Across the table, Jax looked at you sympathetically, a thin glaze of inebriation falling over his eyes. It mildly ticked you off. They were too soft. You wanted someone to rage with. To get your frustrations out with. To… To–!
To distract you from Alastor.
The rabbit sipped his drink calmly as he waited patiently for you to continue. In the dim mood lighting of the restaurant, he seemed to blend right in. Shadows and sparkles. Glamor and flashy colors. A bejeweled veil of social interest over underlying detachment.
If Alastor were here, he would have looked at you with mischief. Like he was always planning something and it would involve you. And it would be chaos.
Jax wasn’t doing a good job and something itched in you both sad and angry. You weren’t sure which you felt more. But it wasn’t your date’s fault.
“Sorry. I get a little heated when I think about my situation.”
“Don’t we all?” Jax cracked a smile, clinking his glass against yours before taking a sip. “So I guess he’s the guy you’re trying to get over.”
“Angel told you that? And you actually wanted to try to be a rebound? Isn’t that kinda beneath you? You’re way too nice and pretty to be a rebound.” That was surprising and you looked at him to convey just how curious you found him to be. He seemed kind but not the kind to jump into someone’s pity party.
“Aww thanks. But don’t make it sound so bad. I thought it would be interesting to see who Angel was trying to set me up with. They’d at least be hot.” His blue eyes crinkled, leaning on one elbow as he drank his cocktail. Slow and deliberate, those electric blue roamed over you. For a second, your heart raced, self-consciousness and self-confidence commingling with a spark of hope that this evening wouldn’t be a big let down.
“Well, what do you think?” Puffing your chest, you looked at him too, lightly tracing his features with your eyes just to catch his smirk.
“Very pretty.” With one last sip, he placed his glass on the table, sliding it along the linen and away from him so that nothing was between the two of you but your own drink and a dying tealight. “I wanted to see if this blind date would be more than just a one time kinda deal but I’m getting the feeling that it’s too complicated for that.”
He looked at you meaningfully and your heart twinged, almost like you could hear Alastor’s mocking laughter. That sounded like a rejection, if you’d ever heard one so politely. “I hope I at least made for good company.” You smiled back at him. He stood then and walked to your side, sliding a hand behind your chair, just shy of touching you.
“A lovely one, I promise. That’s why I was thinking, if you’re looking for a distraction from temperamental psychos, I would love to be that for you. Just for a night, since we’re here and both very pretty.” With a low voice, he gently offered.
Your heart skipped a beat. What? He was offering? Did you trust him? Sure, Angel vouched for him. Did you find him attractive enough for that? Maybe.
But was this what you wanted? He wasn’t offering something more substantial, not even a second date. You looked at him, illuminated but the chandelier and soft candlelight. He was pretty by the usual standards and experienced, so you wouldn’t exactly lose out. While he painted a striking picture, you couldn’t help but find him too shiny, too casual. Not at all like Alastor who wouldn’t ever even bother to suggest sex. The man wouldn’t wear a loop-sided grin with eyes holding half-hearted promises.q
And maybe that was what you needed. You swallowed back your hesitation, that faint whisper in your mind telling you this would be a futile effort. But it wouldn’t be a completely wasted one…you hoped.
“I could be persuaded. Do you think you’ll be a good distraction?” You sat forward, meeting his lowered head half-way, intention lacing your tone with the bite of ginger on your breath.
Jax leaned down towards you, face getting closer in an almost teasingly slow pace. “Let’s go and find out…shall we?” With eyes half-lidded, you let him come closer, the scent of his cologne drifting over you from the few centimeters between you. He was so close.
His lips touched yours. Soft but nothing else. Pleasant enough that you could get lost in it for a night.
It was only a light brush before a loud clanging of metal—trays and silverware on tile—jarred you from whatever daze you’d put yourself in. Jax and you jumped at the sound.
“I am so sorry, Miss. Sir.” A frantic waiter apologized as one of his colleagues immediately came to help. He’d crashed his serving cart into your table, enough to knock off the smaller items on the cart.
“That’s okay.” Jax said, trying to calm the waiter as the hostess came.
They apologized for the disturbance, even offering a free dessert for the trouble. You and Jax happened to be easy guests. Aside from some knocked down glasses, there was no harm done though you didn’t say no to a free dessert.
When the commotion died and left only the two of you, you’d realized that the moment had also died and neither of you seemed too eager to pick it back up.
Dinner ended on that awkward note, a silence falling over both of you only broken by desserts and the photos Jax insisted on taking of them. When the cold air of the outside hit you, a sinking feeling filled your chest.
You were supposed to find a spontaneous new love but instead, you’d spent a good chunk of tonight thinking of a man you were supposed to forget. Fuck. Fuck.
“Want me to take you home?” Jax adjusted his jacket over his shoulders.
“I think I’ll go for a walk. Clear my head a bit.” Guilt tugged at you, your mind restless in other thoughts and that was unfair to this perfectly nice guy. You couldn’t even offer him genuine interest in a one night stand.
“Alright. Thanks for dinner. And take care, okay?” The look in Jax’s eyes held more than just general regard. He was honestly wishing you the best, as a fellow overlord sufferer. Yeah. He was too nice. You couldn’t help but smile, a little tired now that the date was over.
“You too.”
A few steps away from the restaurant found you engulfed in the restless evening of Pentagram City. Sinners ran amok. A car crashed somewhere a couple of streets away. People walked along in an endless stream, a flowing vision of hellish eternity.
In the billions of souls down here, how did you end up so entangled to one?
The sounds of the city came in fuzzy murmurs, that third cocktail hitting your bloodstream. It felt nice. Like nothing else mattered and the world would stop until you could the shit in your head out.
That dinner with Jax; he was attractive, nice, sociable. The man Angel presented you with was leagues better than most people you’d seen and met. Yet he was disappointingly not for you. If it had just been that you were incompatible, it wouldn’t have bothered you so much. But the whole time with him, another guy kept popping into your head, a man somehow infuriatingly worse and better than your date.
It didn’t bode well for your dating prospects if an impressive guy couldn’t measure up to Alastor in your head. Even if you know better, that Alastor only saw you as a means to entertain him in his endless meandering in Hell. That one day, you’d be like Husk, someone he’d been so fond of that he’d drag them around forever for what little value he could ring from them. That he’d eventually tire of you. You weren’t sure what would be left of you then when a bit of quiet and patience was enough to pull you to him. That at one point, you would have swallowed any shit he gave you because the sweetness of his presence smoothed the edges he’d shaved off of your morality.
You couldn’t fall for it. You couldn’t fall for him again.
You wished he’d give you a reason to remember your hate, your fury, your disgust. When your recent memories only had a gentle hand pushing you to laughter, to sarcasm, to thinking of what unhinged silly thing his mind tinkered with, your heart warmed.
You hated this. You gritted your teeth and walked on, mildly noting the sway in your step as your balance tittered. Why couldn’t he just be a bad guy? Why did he sometimes treat you like the most precious little thing when that same treatment depended on your entertainment value?
It made you think that he had meant it, when he said…that you were his dearest one. That maybe he hadn’t lied. That maybe if you’d just believed him that day, you two could have been dancing in Mimzy’s bar this evening. Maybe he wouldn’t have lashed out at Husk, who was only trying to reason with him on your behalf. Maybe you wouldn’t have minded wearing his collar if you knew that he’d never drag you down with it.
But you didn’t know. And he played the dashing devil so well.
Notes:
Sorry for taking so long. I was hoping to write a long chapter but didn't think it would be this long so I decided to split this chapter in half.
I've also been made aware that I may have accidentally manifested Jax from The Amazing Digital Circus in this but I swear, that was all coincidence xD When I envisioned who Ynna would go on a date with when I thought of this plot last year, I originally thought of the purple goat from Poison. And then so Angel could talk up his bed skills, make him a rabbit. As for the name, one of my friends suggested it. Whoops.
Anyway, hope to have the next chapter completed next week! Enjoy til then!
Chapter 42: I’ve Got You Under My Skin Pt. 2
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Alastor’s POV
There wasn’t much more to do this evening, was there?
He sat on his couch, the old leather softly cradling him as he languidly sprawled over the tufted upholstery. In his hand was a finger of scotch, one of his more prized vintages usually saved for a more decadent eve, which this one certainly was. It was already his fourth of the night, a little treat after finishing making dinner turning into indulgence.
Well, it would have been a treat, if this evening had been any other less problematic. He took another sip of the smoky vanilla tang, running his tongue over his teeth as he sucked in air slowly. In truth, he’d needed the drink, something to ease the ever growing chaos in the back of his mind. To silence thoughts of stubborn goats and her foolish endeavors so he could concentrate on the delicious give of flesh beneath his blade, blood creeping through wood grain. These familiar motions meant to occupy his mind and his hands but needed the extra help of liquid muddling.
A male voice crooned in the background, the rhythmic sounds of trumpets accompanying his voice loud enough to fill the room. But it still played as background music to the thoughts buzzing through his head now that he’d run out of things to occupy him.
The thoughts ran slowly, tauntingly.
Some unfortunate fool was wining and dining his goat and she was all for it, if how anxiously she turned to Angel for fashion advice was any indicator. On the off chance the spider did manage to find a good match for her, she’d have an extra busy body hanging around. Taking up her time. Making her laugh. Basking in her affection. Her thoughtless little touches. Her simple company. Blending into her routine because her fondness would draw them closer.
Hah. He swallowed the last of his scotch and refilled his glass. Something cracked. Maybe in his mind? His glass?
This development was unpleasant. They’d just begun to mend their relationship and she was now plunging into some new form of distraction. Though he supposed it was alright.
It had to be alright.
The amber liquid sparkled prettily in the glass’ refraction as it swirled in a slow vortex in his lazy hand.
It would be alright. As long as she was happy. As long as she would deign to shed a bit of her joy in his direction once again, face him with contentment instead of reluctance. Share with him trust and care and warmth like before so that he could savor the energy alighting in his veins around her without the sting of her rejection.
Patience was the key. Patience…even if she found herself devoted to another.
The shattering of glass pierced through the turbulent flow of his thoughts, followed by the protesting lick of flames. His eyes turned to the fireplace, suddenly finding a stark stain in the back wall and his hand empty.
Hah! Here he was preaching patience yet his frustration was clear and barely tamed. They did say a drunk man was an honest one. And honestly, he hated it.
All of the things he’d told himself about accepting Ynna finding a partner—someone else to shower in her crackling laughter and warm gaze—he hated it. But he hated the idea of creating distance between them even more.
What a fool he’d become.
A fool’s right! It was a good thing I went or she’d have gone to bed with some random noodle from the damned moth’s roster of whores! Roaring static burst through the window, a demonic shade flowing in with dramatic air.
A vein ticked in his head. “What did you do?” His filter dropped as his anger rose within him, low and dangerous. His shadow couldn’t have been foolish enough to ruin things for him? Could it?
The shade paused, sensing the state of his irritation.
.… I watched. I watched her flirt. Share stories. Giggle. Share her woes. It sauntered over, mimicking his posture like the perfect silhouette coming to confront him with poisoned words and messy static. Did you know she met this man to get over you? That even though she spends some of her time with you, seems to have found some peace with you, you’re still the source of her greatest frustrations?
It stepped closer and closer, his vision darkening as it approached. Leaning into his ear, the phantom spoke directly into his mind. She was willing to throw herself into the arms of another…because of you.
Crack . Something definitely shattered in the back of his mind as those words registered. The unhelpful phantom played back a sliver of what it saw. Ynna smiling invitingly at a purple rabbit sinner. The man coming close to her. Their lips softly brushing. His shadow tripping a passing waiter and dragging the cart to disturb the scene.
The rage and jealousy it felt–the very same emotion it ignited in him as he saw through its eyes how easily some stranger had gotten to taste her lips, how she kissed back. Static crackled in his brain. Fire burned in his lungs. His blood screamed to rip flesh from bone, to tear out those blue eyes that dared to look at his dearest so covetously. But then he saw her smile sadly and the atmosphere between the two would-be lovers died.
His shadow had managed to stop things with only one small interruption. The air rushed back into his body. Haha! Hahahaha! Patience! Patience! Ahhhhh. His breaths came slow and measured as he tried to reign in the seething hunger for blood. He severely overestimated his own ability to hold back. Pathetic. But he couldn’t be more thankful that the evening ended there.
“I suppose I should thank you for doing a good job though I would have rather not known or taken any part of this.”
You would have let her get away?
“I would have been a better friend to her.”
We both know that wouldn’t ever be enough.
He smirked. “No.” It never would be. The reason he insisted on that blasted title of friendship was the same as the one that led him back to her side after just a random glimpse of her—he couldn’t control himself. No number of good days or shackled souls could compare to the brush of her hand on his sleeve. Even the most boring days seemed peaceful in her company. While he could traverse the bowels of Hell for all eternity without her, every part of him wanted her there with him. With only him.
What a greedy wretched creature he was.
“But let’s pretend nothing happened. It’s best she doesn’t know about your little act. If she was that determined to bed the man, it wouldn’t have stopped her. It’s best that she went home for the evening.” He positioned himself on the sofa, trying to find that comfortable spot to settle in.
But she didn’t.
What? He turned to the shadow then, its hissed response floating through his mind.
“What do you mean she’s walking around the city drunk and alone!?”
Ynna’s POV
That third cocktail turned out to be an incredibly stupid idea. You found yourself leaning against a random brick wall, holding onto the contents of your stomach for dear life as the world spun. The street you were in wasn’t familiar and you wondered if you’d made a wrong turn somewhere. But that could wait. You could use your maps app to find your way home eventually. Right now, you needed to get your shit together and stop moping.
This was all Alastor’s fault. If he wasn’t such a jerk, you would have never gone on a date in the first place. Wouldn’t have gotten so drunk. Wouldn’t be pathetically swaying against a wall while some bug-eyed sinners walked past. You sniffled.
It was all his fault for being so nice. If he was an ass to his core, why the fuck was he being so fucking thoughtful and sweet (even if he was a smug ass about it)? Taking you to a restful lunch. Bitching about Tim with you. Listening to you explain the horror movies he’s missed out on because of his stupid aversion to technology. Reminding you of why…of why you fell in love with him in the first place.
Asshole. Jerk. Son of bitch. Mother fucking #!?!<#$&
Why was it so hard to just live!? Why was it that the first time you’d ever really fallen in love—really wanted to dedicate your heart to someone—why was it to someone who only wanted you to play with like a toy!? Why couldn’t he just let you hate him? Let you be miserable without the additional baggage of hoping that you were more than just his favorite plaything. More than a passing entertainment. More than…more than just a means for his fetish.
Tears pricked your eyes and vomit tickled your throat. You turned to the side, spewing your dinner onto the dirty bricks. Urggh. Disgusting. The comment could have been about the vomit or yourself.
“Looks like you’ve had quite the evening.” Like a curse, that filtered voice came down on you with the soft echo of laughter, stabbing into all your drunken anguish. No. No. What was he doing here?
“Al…Alastor?” The aftertaste of vomit in your mouth was about as pleasant as seeing his red-clad figure beside you, back gentlemanly straight and a bottle of water already extended out towards you like it was the most natural thing to do.
“Fancy meeting you out here this evening. Though you don’t seem to be in good shape.” His tone was polite, smile teasing but without its usual edge. You could almost call it soft.
No.
His smile was definitely soft. Beautifully. Handsomely. Soft. A pit of dread formed in your now empty stomach weighing you down as your heart fluttered. No. Your breath caught. No. Your cheeks heated. Abso-fucking-lutely Not!
“Why the fuck are you here!?” The shriek came out of you from the depths of all the despair you’d swallowed this whole time. His betrayal. His cruelty. The ever present love that you thought had died!
The man froze, taken aback by your scream.
“I…saw you and you looked too vulnerable to be out and about on your own.” His brows scrunched up in confusion as he handed over the water bottle to you in a gentle offer. You ignored it. “You’re quite drunk, my dearest. Why don’t I escort you home?”
My Dearest. That damned nickname. He never used it on anyone else and was that supposed to mean anything? Or was it just a part of his game? Why? Why? And why did he look so worried?
“No. I don’t need you here! I don’t want you here! Just leave me alone!” You pushed past him, shoving him as much as you could as you ran away on unsteady feet. You didn’t get far, a red-clawed hand wrapping around your arm and pulling you back. It was probably the force of your own momentum but you’d like to think that he had yanked you, as delusional as that felt.
“I don’t understand why you’re being so volatile, my dearest, but you’re causing quite a concern. How am I supposed to leave you alone when you’re in this state?” Red eyes glared down at you, scolding and smoldering. They burned and you wanted to spit at them.
“Hah. You sound worried Alastor. What is it? Worried your little plaything is gonna get scratched up? That I might get so injured I end up eating some other poor fucker?” Bringing your face close to his always startled him. You took the chance, closing the distance until only a few inches were left between you and you could smell the liquor on his breath. You hoped he could smell the stomach acid in yours.
When he froze, as you expected, you yanked your arm back.
“What is wrong with you?” He looked at you confused and irate. The curve of his smile crooked and strained like he couldn’t understand. Like he didn’t understand how much being around him fucked with your head. Like he wasn’t doing it on purpose. And maybe he wasn’t but it would hurt you to believe that. That he was worried for your safety. That he was here solely because he saw you needed help, not because it was another ploy to mess with you.
“You.”
That one syllable echoed within your being. Him. Alastor.
“Everything that’s wrong with me started with you. Every time I think I’m free to live my afterlife, pursue my own thing, you come in and wreck everything.” You walked back but never took your eyes off of him. “I have never regretted meeting anyone. I’ve never regretted trying to be close to someone…as much as I regret you.” You hated how confused he looked. How hurt. And how much your heart ached even as you ran through all of his transgressions in your head.
Alastor’s POV
“If I had it my way, I’d never see your pompous, selfish, self-centered ass ever again!” She yelled with conviction, tears hanging in the corners of her eyes as they flared bright with what little demonic energy she could summon.
He couldn’t breathe for a moment. What had he done to deserve this scorn? Nothing. Absolutely nothing since they’d started talking once more. In fact, he’d done what he could to treat her sincerely, carefully, just to rebuild what he could from the rubbles of their relationship. He even came rushing here just to make sure she would be alright as she stupidly walked around Hell drunk and obviously emotional.
And after only one evening spent in another’s company, he was suddenly unwelcome to her once again. Why?
Why? Why? WHY? When he’d given her space and freedom—WHY WAS SHE SO DETERMINED TO LEAVE HIM WHEN HE ONLY WANTED TO BE BY HER SIDE!?
Flames burned in his chest from where they’d brewed all evening. They ate away at his breath, leaving only enough air to utter a few words laced with his disdain. But not for her—for himself. Because she truly made choosing to do better so difficult when she backed away from him, all spitfire and fury.
“Unfortunately…” His fingers snapped, a poignant sound so crisp it cut the air. “A deal’s a deal, my dearest. You should come home with me.” Chains flashed briefly, the ghostly links strung from his microphone to her neck.
In the same moment the words had come out of his mouth, the fight left her. Her stunned face flickered with too many emotions before settling into a sardonic smile.
“So it all comes back to this in the end. I should’ve known you weren’t being nice to me all of a sudden without some ulterior motive.”
The voices within him raged at the accusation. He was here for her. To escort her home. To be the gentleman her date was not. Yet for some reason, she all but clawed at him when he approached her. Pushing him away. Yelling at him.
But even worse was that she wasn’t wrong. It may not have been his intention this evening, but he had hoped that she would someday partake of him again. Care for him once more.
The chains melted away, the green dispersing into nothingness like the remnants of any goodwill she may have had for him. It took away any hope for her affection with it. And the greedy pit in him thrashed in despair. She really was so determined to leave him. She always would be. And this deal was the only thing tethering them together. How utterly disgusting that he found comfort in that.
No matter. This was for her own good.
“Yes. Yes. I am the big bad guy who’s forcing you to do things you don’t like for my enjoyment. Now, come along.” He offered her the water bottle once more, pleased and irritated when she took it with a defeated glare. As she sipped its contents, he tried to soothe himself, calming down the blood pounding in his ears at the daggers she threw at him.
“Where is your home?” He tried to prod when she finished rinsing her mouth of bile.
“Why would I tell you?”
“How else am I to take you there?”
“Then maybe just don’t.” Sarcasm laced her tone as she stared at him unimpressed.
“Ynna.” Stubborn woman. She had the gall to glare back as he admonished her immature behavior.
“Not telling you and that’s final.”
“If you must be stubborn, then let’s go to my home.” Maybe she would relent at the threat of being in his territory. But unfortunately, that didn’t work either.
“Whatever.” She positioned herself next to him, awaiting his commands like a stubborn dog. Perhaps he’d mistaken her sudden immaturity. She looked more resigned, unhappy and unwilling but dutifully following through their little deal. The inferno in him burned at her defiance.
He couldn’t even do something nice for her without having to become the villain! And how he ached for the first time, being the bad guy in someone’s story. Damn this evening.
Ynna’s POV
The mixture of disappointment and relief flowing through you choked the frustrated fire in your gut. So he wasn’t just here to make sure you were safe. What a relief. What a…relief.
With pursed lips, you tried to remain passive as you walked through the shadowy realm, passing shades that seemed even more avoidant of Alastor than usual. Though a smile was plastered on his face, even the eyeless beings could see the anger rolling off of him.
When the chain appeared, shackling your neck to his bidding, clarity hit you. You’d goaded him. Gathered all your anger and self-disgust and aimed it at him for being the trigger of all these feelings. What was your aim? To be a brat? To frustrate him enough that he’d leave? If there was one thing you knew about the man, it was that he was as stubborn as you and ten times as prideful. Spewing hate at him who enjoyed the game of friendship with you was guaranteed to get a negative reaction.
And it did. And it was a relief to find proof that loving him was a folly. That for all his supposed kindness and thoughtfulness, he’d use whatever leverage to get what he wanted. Even if it hurt you. Even if it warped whatever this bittersweet confusing thing between you was. He was too selfish.
So why were you also disappointed? And why was he so upset?
The portal at the end of the warped world’s road brought you to a dark forest. The only light you could see was from what looked like a log cabin. The area around it was cleaned of brush and debris, carefully fenced off in places yet open to the wilderness in others. It looked old yet well-kept. It also lacked any distinctively hellish features. For a second, you thought he’d brought you to Earth.
Without speaking, and he’d been quiet this whole time, Alastor walked to the entrance, opening the door and letting the light shine on you.
“After you, my dearest.” The hiss at the end of his welcome stopped abruptly as a bit of pride entered his voice. Only then did you realize—this was Alastor’s home.
Curiosity briefly replaced your ire, caution thrown to the wind as you entered the place. What would it look like, the space where the Radio Demon lived?
The answer was just like his room in the hotel. Surprisingly clean, with bits of luxury—golden bobbles, crystal glass, polished silver and brass—interspersed on beautifully carved wooden furniture. The fireplace glowed a soft orange bathing the room with a peaceful evening air. But for all the pretty things in there, much like the outside, things were worn—lived-in. There was an indent in the brownish-red leather couch where he must’ve liked to sit. The ashtray on the coffee table had a couple of cigarettes stubbed out in it.
Upon closer look, there were scuffs and nicks here and there. A testament of the years the man had lived here and how comfortable he was that he saw no need to fix these little imperfections. It was a lovely home, cozier than you’d have imagined from him.
“Are you just going to stand by the door gawking?” His voice drifted into your ear from where he leaned down right behind you to taunt. Shivers ran up your spine at the sudden closeness and you walked right in to get away.
You turned to him and saw him get comfortable, closing the door behind him with an effortless push as his other hand placed his microphone into an umbrella stand by the door. He even casually shrugged off his coat, hanging the garment on a hanger on the coat rack. All of this done without a second thought.
“Don’t get too settled in. You still need to take me back after I eat your food.”
“Can’t a man get comfortable in his own home?” He rolled his shoulders then as if bringing you here had been a chore and a half.
So it was his house–no, home. The revelation only made you even more curious and his irritating smile added a bit of rebellion to your flare. You only shrugged and turned around, wandering further into the old abode. Following your eyes, you wandered into the open entryway past the fireplace and into the kitchen. Like the rest of the home, everything was old. The stove looked made of cast iron, the table of sturdy and heavy wood. The chairs had carvings of leaves and antlers in them.
On the table was a pot and a table set for one. From the entryway you could smell it. Some kind of stew, cooked to perfection with Alastor’s expertise. That must be it.
Had he planned to feed you something this evening? Why tonight of all nights? The timing was just too perfect and a sneaking suspicion wandered into your mind. Did he know about your date? Your stomach churned at the thought that he’d known and showed up right after as if to mock you.
You wanted out of here.
Going up to the table, you opened the lid, getting a faceful of steam and the most delicious aroma that had your mouth watering. You grabbed the ladle by the pot and scooped a bit into the bowl. A shiny browned meat laid tenderly in clean spiced broth. There wasn’t an excessive amount of fat in the soup though it glistened temptingly. The bits of carrots and potatoes you fished out had small bits of char on them, looking crispy and smoky despite being in a soup.
You gulped, tasting the spice in the air. Despite being nauseous earlier, your appetite was back, an inkling of a darker hunger rumbling sickeningly in your belly. Even knowing what that meat was didn’t seem to deter you as much as it should have.
You felt a presence by the entryway, finally deigning to follow you in as if it was just natural to let you wander around his home unsupervised. Fuck it. You picked up the spoon, turned to Alastor and slowly and deliberately, brought a spoonful of meat into your mouth. His eyes widened at your display and you almost forgot to take some triumph in that.
Your spoon cut through the tender flesh so easily and it practically melted in your mouth with a burst of savory richness. Oh, that was delicious. And you tried not to show what you thought on your face, swallowing the bite as quickly as you could. That was Alastor. This was cannibalism. Even if it was the best stew you’d ever tried, it was a sin to enjoy it.
You felt dirty thinking of that reality.
“There. I ate it. Take me back home.”
Alastor stood there, dumbfounded that you’d just gone ahead and made yourself at home in his kitchen. His eyes glanced between you and the bowl and the pot. “…That’s not…It’s rabbit.” A cough tickled out of his throat, looking at you in an almost sheepish way, like he hadn’t expected you to just eat whatever was on his table. “Not me.”
“Rabbit…wow.” His words registered slowly. So you weren’t clear of the deal yet. And this was just something he whipped up this evening. And it was rabbit meat.
This filthy stalking asshole! “WOW. Is all this because of my date? Were you spying on me!?” It couldn’t be a coincidence. Was this some kind of sick joke?
Facing your sudden anger, the man froze, looking both confused, dismayed and guilty all at once. Outrage boiled in you, your mind coming up with implications. Was this some kind of threat to your date? Was he trying to tell you that he’d hurt Jax? For what? For trying to play with his toy? Was that it?
The things this could mean were all fucked up and you didn’t quite understand why he would do that.
“This is a misunderstanding. While I was aware that you had plans this evening, I had no intention to interfere.”
“Oh, really? And you expect me to believe that not only did you happen to see me after my date but you also brought me here, with rabbit on the menu for dinner, and none of that was intentional?” You called bullshit.
“Absolutely. I went hunting today but it just so happened that this was the only thing I caught.” His eyebrows creased, a look of frustration passing on his face as he continued to defend his lie.
“I don’t believe you. You’re a good enough hunter that if you really wanted, you’d have more than this in half an hour.” There was no way he couldn’t do better. Not only did he have his hunting skills, but he’d lived in this forest for probably decades now. With that much knowledge, even without magic, he could get maybe a squirrel or a bird. Something not implying a subtle threat to your date. “Besides! You prefer venison.”
“Well, I’ve said the truth. Take it as you will.” His eyes narrowed and his lips thinned, annoyed and upset but holding back his ire. Trying to be the bigger man in this situation.
For a moment, doubted yourself, weighing the odds of everything being a coincidence and finding that it wasn’t completely impossible, just unlikely. Fuck. Were you honestly going to believe that he wasn’t threatening bodily harm on someone? That didn’t sound like him at all.
“Fine. Well, where’s the dish with you in it then? Let me have it so I can leave.” You changed the subject, eyes roaming around the kitchen for any other dish you may have missed but finding none. Everything was clean and put away except for what was on the table.
“I…I haven't gotten to making it just yet. How about you settle for stew in the meantime?”
“You can’t be serious?” But he was. He hadn’t prepared anything. You’d wondered then if he just wanted you to bite him. You’d done it before so it would technically fulfill the deal. But Alastor didn’t offer, instead, waiting for your next move with a placating smile. Well, if he wanted you to bite him, he’d have to offer it. You weren’t asking.
You took your bowl and sat down, facing him as you ate the damned fucking delicious stew.
The tension on his shoulders seemed to relax when he saw you sit without another word. He went to grab another set of plates and spoons. He also came back with a half-full bottle of wine and a couple of glasses. He placed one in front of you and served himself a bowl and a glass.
Now sat across from you, you couldn’t help but feel strange with the scene. You'd eaten with him plenty of times but this was only the second time you’d had dinner together alone. No. It might be the first where he actually ate with you. And with the wine and the delicious meal, the very quiet atmosphere with only the soft crackle of fire from the living room, it was like a date.
“Is the stew good, at least? You seem to be going through it rather quickly?” He sat there, the irritation from earlier easing into familiar amusement. It was the same face he made all the time during lunch. But you were suddenly very aware that this was his house you were in.
Heat brushed up your cheeks and you stubbornly wanted to tamp it down. This was ridiculous. He’d all but forced you to come here, admitted to spying on your date and now he wouldn’t even let you do your part of the deal so you could leave. The food suddenly didn’t taste as good.
“Ynna.” He called. The lack of response from you seemed to irk him a little, the pleasantness he was trying to inject into the situation not working when you didn’t play along.
You contemplated then, to play along or not. On one hand, maybe you could anger him enough that he would kick you out (doubtful). On the other hand, the sooner he had his fun, the faster you could go home.
Your stomach growled and the heat in your cheeks turned into a full on glow. Your earlier self-consciousness was replaced by embarrassment as a chuckle was tossed at you from across the table.
“I’ll take that as a yes. Do dig in. There’s plenty. I assume you’re hungry after vomiting your guts out earlier.”
“You….you're not wrong.” And it pained you to admit that but you decided that you’d had enough shouting this evening. It wouldn’t make a difference since Alastor could overpower you anyway. You grabbed the wine glass and filled it about a quarter of the way up. “Wanna watch me do it again?”
“You’ll have to clean it up if you do but why not? Who am I to turn down a generous show from you? Haha.”
Jerk. You at least had the mind to just sip on the wine instead of wanting to drown out his laughter in blissful drunken stupor.
After dinner, Alastor still refused to serve you anything. Not a drop of blood or nibble on his finger. The man said to wait as he shooed you out of the kitchen while he cleaned up.
It frustrated you how he dismissed your wish to leave but you breathed. In and out. In and out. He would get bored eventually and may or may not leave you to fend for yourself in the forest. You better save your strength if he was an ass enough to do that.
With nothing else to do, you decided to snoop around. Since he brought you here, it was his fault if you wanted to touch everything. And he had some many fascinating things.
Mainly in the form of old stuff. There were a few radios around the living room, each beautifully crafted in wood and metal, the kind of craftsmanship you never saw in modern sleek designs. You touched a dial, twisting the knob and was mildly disappointed when nothing happened.
You moved on to the other curious thing. There was a record player with the fancy horn type thing to project sound. Maybe this was a gramophone? It seemed to be plugged into something though you didn’t see an outlet in this house. Did he even have electricity or was this place running on magic?
On the spinning part of the player, there was already a record on, spinning idly long after it ended. Oh! You recognized the name on the label. Carefully, you lifted the needle of the player, guiding it to the outer ring of the record and gently placing it down. The sound skipped for a second before the needle started reading the grooves.
Frank Sinatra! Your father used to sing his songs all the time. The voice singing from the record made you forget where you were for a second, your mind traveling back to the not so distant yet still too far past when your father had only one song he could sing for karaoke but he sang it with all his heart.
You swayed in place, letting your slightly drunk self just feel the music. Did your parents ever dance to this? Maybe your grandparents? It made you smile just imagining it, people you’d hopefully never see again (at least down here) enjoying themselves in an old time way. Voices that would eventually fade away from your memory.
Before you knew it, a calloused hand slid into yours carefully spinning you until your face landed into a firm chest.
“Alastor?” You looked up at amused slightly dazed eyes.
“Care to dance?”
“No.” He only grinned at your curt response, his other hand curling around your back as he lifted you into the proper posture.
“But I insist!”
You rolled your eyes and braced yourself but instead of something fast and complicated, he only spun around the living room. One step. Two steps. Little circles to match the slow song. After the initial awkwardness, the choked-back need to protest, it actually was pleasant. When was the last time you danced with him?
You looked at him to find the man dancing with his eyes closed, enjoying the moment as you studied him. His hair swayed slightly with each step, curling over his face gently. From here, he looked almost angelic, making it seem too easy to guide you without needing to pay attention.
Why was he doing this, looking like he was genuinely quite content in this choppy dance? Why did he keep showing you the pretty sides of him just to break your heart again and again?
“Is there something on my face?”
“This song’s a little modern for you, isn’t it?”
“In what way?”
“Even I know this one.”
“I see. It’s all about taste, dearest. While I may disdain modern technology and music, there was a point in time where things were innovative and charming, true artistry that spoke to the soul.”
“You’re such an old man.” You rolled your eyes at him. What a back-in-my-day response.
“Age is but a number when it comes to eternity.”
“Yeah. Well, doesn’t stop me from associating you with every old man and grandpa who only know how to sing Sinatra.” He only snorted, not denying anything as the song continued. Each rotation of your body cast shadow and light on his face, looking gentle but impish the whole time.
The song ended with a pause in the track and you took it as your cue to step back. But clawed hands refused to let you go when you tried to pull away. The one holding your left hand tightened ever so slightly, more of a squeeze than a pull. Meeting his eyes with a question, the devil only smiled. “How about another song?”
“No. I’m getting dizzy from all the spinning.”
“Oh, come now.” The hand on your waist refused to budge as longer legs proceeded to guide you into another dance. “How’s that any different from your usual dancing?”
“I don’t want to dance with you this time.”
“Hmmm. You’d rather sit bored in a corner all evening then?”
“If you’d let me eat you then I could go home already.”
“Guess you’ll just have to wait a bit then.” He shrugged as the music started.
“How long do you plan to keep me here?”
“Haven’t decided yet.”
“Urgggh. You’re so annoying.” The bastard only grinned at you, taking amusement at your pouting. The firelight curled around his face, sharpening his features in a soft glow of tender light that cut through even the fog of alcohol. You looked away, leaning your head against his chest in a bid to stop the urge to stare even more. You’d done enough of that this evening. It wasn’t good for your heart.
He took your silence as acquiescence, gently swaying both of you to the beat of another Sinatra song. You weren’t being dramatic when you said you felt dizzy. The room seemed to spin faster than the two of you were and a headache was beginning to form behind your eyes. You closed them, trying to concentrate on keeping steady and not losing your footing.
In the absence of sight, your other senses picked up everything else. The light dips where the record was just a bit imperfect. The snaps in the fireplace. Shoes brushing over weathered carpet. A heartbeat drumming lazily in your ear. Heat seeping through smooth silk. The faintest buzz of static, soothing in its familiarity, as was the scent of smoke and paper filling your nose as you followed Alastor’s slow steps in silence.
Don’t you know little fool, you never can win
Use your mentality, wake up to reality
But each time that I do, just the thought of you
Makes me stop before I begin
‘Cause I’ve got you under my skin
“It was a coincidence, you know.” Softly, almost shyly, his voice tapped against your senses, reaching to pull you out from where Sinatra was admonishing you.
“What was?” You pulled away slightly, finding your curiosity enough to chance another look at his face, softer now as he looked at you with the smallest of smiles.
“The rabbit. It wasn’t meant to be a threat. And I certainly never planned to bring you here this evening. Though I doubt you’d ever believe me.”
“I know. I figured it out.”
Alastor looked at you in curious surprise. His gentle tone, almost like an apology, sounded sincere. It coaxed a similar truthful response from you.
“There was only one place setting at the table, the one facing the door. You like to sit where you can see the exit and windows. I figured that dinner was for you.” Once you’d calmed down, the observation had come to you. That, and how Alastor sometimes seemed to need to turn in his seat, as if he wasn’t quite used to that chair. “But that doesn’t explain how you knew about my date or why you were in the city to pick me up.”
“Angel wasn’t quiet when he was making plans with you over the phone. And…my shadow informed me of what happened.” He said the last part with some hesitation and from the corner of your eyes, you saw a shape vanish into the surrounding shadows.
“So you were spying on me, you creep. Why can’t you just mind your own business?” You admonished him, a frown on your lips though there was no heat in it. Maybe annoyance and disappointment. It was like a shackle to find the man you were trying to get over offering you a helping hand.
“I was planning to until I found out you were stupidly walking around the sin city drunk and alone, looking for all the world like an easy target. You may not like it but I won’t see you become a victim.”
“I’d just respawn again if they kill me anyway.” You softened your tone, finding it a little hard to be completely upset when you took his reasoning into account.
“Well, it’s your misfortune that I’d rather not wait a full moon to see you again. As I clearly enjoy your company.” To emphasize his meaning, he spun you around with more force, still graceful even if there was a slight wobble in his grip.
“My teeth, you mean.”
“Those too. And I suppose your two left feet as well.”
“I can totally dance. I’m just too drunk to bother.”
“Excuses. Excuses.”
“You’re such an ass.”
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Chapter 43: I’ve Got You Under My Skin Pt. 3
Notes:
CW: Blood, Blood drinking, Biting, Smut
Happy Anniversary to this fic
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Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
The record eventually ended and instead of letting you eat something of his, he offered his prettily sparkling carafe of scotch, the one he was probably drinking from before he came to you.
You took one glass, and sipped it as he rambled on and on, the minutes flowing into hours. It was almost like he forgot why you were here, going from one conversation to the next until the words slowed down as the evening and the alcohol took their toll and left you both just talking husks, each sprawled on his couch watching the flames dance in the fireplace. It never seemed to go out or need more tinder to keep doing.
Truthfully, you would have loved this, the truce and dullness good food and good drink could bring. But more and more it itched at you that this little block of peace wasn’t something initiated by either of you in good faith. There was a pressure around your neck, the currently invisible link reminding you of how you ended up here and how you didn’t get a chance to choose to stay. Trapped as you by your deal with him, you were almost tempted to say he defaulted by not even offering you anything but words telling you to wait. And more words tried to fill in the time until that melancholy fact soured this little bit of peace.
“I don’t understand why you insist on holding a grudge. I own countless souls and you never seemed to care when I ordered them around to do my bidding.” The huff from the man next you was directed at air, the statement sounding like a complaint rather than a question but you answered him anyway.
“I don’t have the capacity to care for every random soul out there, not when I have my own shit to worry about. But Husk is a friend, someone I do care about. Didn’t he piss you off because he was trying to tell you to give me space? He wasn’t wrong. I needed it but you kept on pushing.”
“He stuck his nose where it didn’t belong and I only reminded him to butt out. I never asked for his advice and am perfectly capable of asking for it if I wanted to hear his opinions on my relationship with you.”
“But he was only trying to help.”
“Unwanted help can be just as detrimental as sabotage. What if his advice had been incorrect? What if he had gone to you instead and asked you to forgive me despite your reservations? I’ve told you before that not all good intentions lead to good results.” You vaguely heard him grumble something under his breath before his statement plunged you into thoughtful silence.
What if Husk had gone to you that day, asked that you forgive Alastor for his scheming, for approaching you with impure intentions. When the wound of his betrayal was still fresh and the hurt of having been seen only as a passing amusement when you’d offered him your genuine affection still scratched deeply into your chest. You might’ve slapped Husk if he’d said the wrong thing or insisted he was right.
Or you could have told him to butt out and leave. Your own hurt didn’t have to translate to violence.
“You overreacted.” You chided Alastor, remembering the downright abuse as he pulled Husk to the floor, had the cat quivering at his threats. Bile rose in your throat for how quickly he turned on a supposed friend.
“I’ve done worse to the souls I own for far less.”
“So what, you’re saying this is your way of showing some kind of special treatment? It’s still fucked up that you treat him like that.”
“Hn.”
A non-answer followed by a big gulp of scotch.
Anger simmered quietly in you. More like frustration. You’d lost the will to be angry with him. When was it? When he saved you from Tenner? Showed up occasionally at the diner bringing more fun than pain? Pathetic, really. To think that all your anger towards him would cool off in just a couple months. And now your anger could only be at yourself for falling.
Long fingers fumbled to loosen his bow tie. It took a few passes before his fingers hooked onto it, pulling at the knot to free his neck from its stuffy constraints, leaving the loose ends dangling. This would be the second time you’d ever seen him so drunk, so lazily sprawled out, posture forgotten as he laid on his side of the couch. Even slumped like that, he cut an elegant beautiful figure, the bastard.
Silence wrapped the two of you with only the crackling of the fireplace to fill the tension. A parody of that night months ago where warmth and trust was shared between the two of you, a bond so sweet that you’d thanked God for dropping you in Hell. Now, only doubt and resentment laid, as if to mock that sweet and treasured memory. Even worse, just like that night, you were still coming to the realization that this man was…someone you liked. Someone you wanted. Someone you cherished. Despite all the shit he’s shown you and put you through.
A bitterness crept up your throat, sawing raw emotions into the burning trails the liquor had left as you gulped another swallow from your glass.
A small tune started to warble from the drunken demon’s chest, one of your favorites, not that you'd told him. Another reminder of better days between the two of you, your drunken mind coming up with the lyrics and the sound of clattering dishes and swishing tailcoats. You ached for that peaceful time, your current situation mirroring those precious moments but lacking any semblance of the joy they brought. He’d tainted those memories with deceit. You didn’t want to taint them with your own drunken bitterness any further.
You stood, making for the door, each step a concentrated effort not to fall onto the wooden floorboards.
“Where are you going?” The creak of the old couch signaled Alastor’s movement.
“Home. I’m done for tonight.” You tried to move forward only to hold still. A glance at your shadow on the wall showed it being held by his own, the phantom showing a frown in the gaps where light passed through it. “Urggh…Alastor, I want to go home. I’m too drunk to argue with you.” Too much had already happened and you’d rather risk getting attacked by a bear than hate yourself even more for the thoughts freely floating in your head.
“You…still haven’t eaten a dish from me tonight.” With a pull on your shadow, your body followed, landing back on the couch. In his drunken state, Alastor had pulled a little too hard and you ended up leaning against his chest, face close enough to smell his musk and the vanilla notes of the copious amounts of wine and scotch he drank. Jostled, you were disoriented enough to stay there. Not that you’d admit to liking how he smelled, all too familiar and warm.
“Well, serve it so I can go.”
“Too drunk to make something right now. Wait a bit.” An arm came around your back, holding you in place when you tried to get up again. Both of you were too many sheets to the wind for either to sober up anytime soon. If you had to wait for him to get his shit together, you’d be late for your afternoon shift tomorrow. You growled at him, anger bubbling up at his stupid command.
“Just summon me tomorrow then. I’ll even tell you where I live so just send me back already. Fuckin’…don’t wanna stay with you. I won’t even nag you for wasting my time.” Pushing against him was frustratingly futile. Why were his scrawny arms so strong? The music stopped with a record scratch. All at once, your leash materialized, pulling you neck-first into his chest. “Oh fuck you!” You dug your claws into his chest in spite.
“Hn. I said you’d wait, so wait for your meal, dearest. Stay put.” Red eyes gleamed down at you as you glared up at him, the orange glow of the fire and the green magic around your neck giving them a sinister hue. Stern but not malicious. He was just naturally creepy. Seeing you glare but helpless, he tilted his head onto the back rest, face to the ceiling intending to rest.
His command echoed in your head, the words pounding over and over with the alcohol hastened beat of your heart. There he went again! Treating you like an object, like a pet! So what of his sincerity? So what of his kindness? When he didn’t get his way, he’d force it. Fucking asshole! You cursed in your mind as he left you staring up at his exposed neck while he nonchalantly tried to doze off knowing you couldn’t leave with that damned leash still in place.
Anger surged and boiled and bubbled along with that damnable infernal hunger. Fuck it! You wanted away from this guy and to go home, so you would give him what he wanted. With your hands on his chest as leverage, you threw your leg over him until you straddled his thighs, firmly seated in his lap.
“What...are you doing?” The movement brought him back out of whatever sluggish alcohol-induced daze he’d managed to get into when he thought he had you cowed. He looked slightly disturbed as he tried to process what you were about to do, hands already at your hips to push you off of him.
“What I’m here for.”
“I have no idea how this position—“
His voice was beautiful even when drunk. So fucking annoying. Pulling at his shirt until some of the buttons gave in to your drunken strength, you went to bite the exposed skin of his collar but he was all too wary of your sudden movement, dodging to the side though unable to fully escape. Your teeth ended up on his shoulder. That worked for you. You bit down hard, channeling all the frustration and heartache and already fading anger you’ve felt for the man into the points of your teeth ripping into his silk shirt and piercing into the meat below. Fuck you, Alastor.
Fuck you and these stupid feelings.
His hands tightened on your hips, a scream coming out of his stupid mouth. Good. You hoped it hurt him a whole lot more than it felt good. Kinky bastard.
He stiffened beneath you in surprise and you drew back from his shoulder to the actual prize. The salty sweaty skin of his neck gave in easily under your teeth, blood gushing from the wound into your mouth and down his chest. It was raw and metallic, the light brush of fur immediately soaked beneath your tongue. In the back of your mind, a voice screamed bloody murder, telling you to stop and think about the savagery you were performing. It could have been your sanity. It could have been the man you were assaulting. Neither mattered as the damned hunger took over and you let it.
You savored the rawness of him with muted inhibitions, running your tongue along the skin in your mouth, catching the distinct taste of him in the light dusting of fur. Above you, he gasped, a sound not tortured enough for how unhappy you were with him so you bit down harder. Harder until his blood gushed too quickly for you to gulp down and his claws dug into your hips and ass as he hefted you closer, squeezing your smaller body against his lanky frame.
Hands against his chest, you pushed, wanting to create a little space between your bodies, a sudden heat rising to your head. The effort only slid you against him, the friction drawing a gasp from both of you as he roughly kept you in place, unwilling to let go. From the pits of your stomach, a fire ignited, as if the greedy swallows of his blood had poured gasoline over dying embers. Your body felt hot, heart hammering in your ears. Your hands wedged between you, finding fistfuls of red silk and fur though you weren’t sure if you were trying to push him away or tug him closer for more access. The two of you fought, his strength keeping your body flushed against him while you wriggled for any relief from the heat, only succeeding in creating friction that had you both groaning.
His voice lost that signature filter as the sounds he made became more guttural, rumbling from his chest into yours. Shit. His voice had a lovely pitch that had your ears ringing and straining to hear more. Why was everything about him so fucking attractive? It would have been easier to hate him if he hadn’t swindled his way into your heart in the first place. You wouldn’t have found his greedy hands on your hips so delightful or the little bit of his exposed chest so erotic.
Fuck him. Fuck him. You wanted to cry. You wanted to scream. You wanted to make him regret turning you into this, this pathetic thing that longed for someone who would never take her seriously. Teeth still in him, you tugged. It would hurt, the threat of the muscle tearing sending burning pain through him but you weren’t ready to actually take a chunk out of him yet. The idea was tempting though, his breathy gasps teasing at even more satisfying sounds if you were just a bit crueler.
“Y—Ynna!” There. He screamed your name in agony, a bit of delirium creeping into his voice as it cracked. That was all you wanted. To cause him pain over something he had been obsessing over. Letting go of his neck, you ran your tongue languidly over the gaping tears in his skin. Salty and metallic. Rich in a way that was both disgusting and addicting. Blood pooled up from the wounds, jewel red in the firelight and sweeter than wine as your mind started to slip, focused on the heat, the taste, the sounds! The prickles of his claws barely held back by the fabric of your dress! The sweat dripping down your back and between your breasts! There was a song coming from his chest, played between the cracks of his static and the groans escaping from his mouth.
You continued wiggling your body, knees finally free from the trappings of his long arms to join your efforts to move against him. His blood ran freely down his chest, soaking through your shirt and onto the skin beneath. So warm and luscious, you thought you’d taken another gulp of his alcohol. The pads of your fingers soaked in blood and sweat slipped across the scars on his chest as his shirt came apart more in the struggle. Fluff. There was fur beneath that immaculately pressed silk. Now streaked in his own blood like a macabre finger painting, mixing red across silvery scars, a violent red ocean of soaked fur following where your hands roamed. The image of your claws adding more scratches to that collection had you clenching your thighs tighter around him, nails digging in to do as you pictured. Something hard poked your crotch and you immediately pressed against it.
He gasped. You shuddered. You did it again.
A voice in the back of your head, the only one not carried away by this twisted act and alcohol, told you that things were getting out of hand. In a moment of clarity, you let go of his neck and kept still, a keen sound almost like a whine coming from your victim as you did so. It was such an uncharacteristic sound coming from the demon, so small and delicate that you wondered if he was also getting carried away by the moment. Neither of you were sober after all.
Your head managed to pull away enough to look at him, his face tilting to meet your gaze, and your drunken suspicions were confirmed. A flush covered his cheeks, sweat causing a few strands of his hair to cling to them wetly. His eyes were dark, a small ring of red glowing between his black scleras and blown out pupils. A trail of blood dripped down the side of his mouth where his teeth had sunk into his lip in an effort to cover the sounds he had been making.
He looked utterly debauched, the sight leaving you stunned and breathless.
His eyes scanned your face, a static snap crackling the air around you as he fully realized that you’d stopped moving.
“There. Bit you. Drank your blood. I’m—going home.” Between heavy pants, you declared. The alcohol ran rampant in your body, being pumped by the rapid breathing of your heart. Still, that tiny voice in your mind screamed and you did your best to listen against the other voices singing their longing to touch that flushed face, make it burn redder and sweeter.
A snap of electricity shocked the air as your words seemed to register in Alastor’s jumbled mind. The blown out orbs of his pupils constricted in an instant. The body beneath you—!
With a snarl, he lunged forward, worried lips capturing your bloody mouth as he pushed you down. The old couch creaked beneath the weight of you two as his hands kept your body in place, pressing down on your shoulders as if to mold you into the tattered upholstery.
His breath fanned across your face as he licked up the gore covering your mouth, brushing fevered kisses against your unyielding lips. Your eyes locked again—a spark flashed. A kind of overwhelming desperation echoing between your gazes. Between the span of a second or an alcohol-induced infinity, you both stilled and shared a breath.
Firelight danced in the frantic swirls of his red eyes. Soft somehow. Manic. Utterly beautiful and wretched—cloyingly sweet. They threatened to burn your very soul in their greed. And yet…And yet—!
You reached forward and kissed him back.
A throaty hum of approval vibrated through your chest. Whether it was from him or yourself, you weren’t too sure, so lost in the surprisingly soft lips greedily pushing against yours. His tongue clumsily thrashed in your mouth, fleeting this way and that, unsure of what it was doing but determined to taste everything you had to offer. Its enthusiasm was welcome, its rough sweeps compensated by the vanilla scent of scotch lingering on his breath. You could feel his smile against your lips as he shuddered. You ate it with relish.
His hands moved down to your thighs, reverent palms passing over the skin revealed as your skirt rode up, taking enjoyment with each handful they caressed. With the same urgent sweep of his kisses, he hooked your legs around his waist so he could bring back that delicious friction as he ground his erection against your core. The satisfying grind of fabric against your slit sent a jolt traveling up your spine, that pesky voice warning you again that this wasn’t what you had been aiming for earlier.
But what were you aiming for earlier? The buzz of alcohol and this beautiful man ravaging you seemed to be the only thing you could remember at all from this evening.
He thrust forward again, your head hitting the arm rest as you were pushed back. He groaned a throaty sound, all elegance lost as he clumsily pushed against you, the front of his bloodstained pants getting steadily stained with your juices, mixing into a filthy mess that should not have been as hot as it was. Your head kept hitting the arm rest as he went, eyes starting to spin more with each bump and grind. Your hands went into his hair, looking for purchase as a sensation of vertigo hit you, pulling at the strands. He liked that, that lovely keening sound escaping his hungry mouth and into yours as his hips stuttered.
You were lost in the sensation of hips against hips, hands clumsily groping where they could between sweat soaked bodies and clinging clothes. The heat. The urgency. The raw want and need were driving you both to the edge. At some point, your mouth went back to bite at his neck, the keening sounds he made as you nipped at him going straight to the roiling fire in your belly. His mouth found your neck too, whispering incoherently of goodness, delight and dearest, dear and your name in prayers between kisses and nibbles. The points of his teeth against your skin teased little ripples that traveled to your hooves.
When they sunk into your flesh with a throaty groan, the painful shock of it took you over, orgasm seizing your muscles as you clung onto him with everything you had, teeth, claws and legs. Above you, he shuddered, hips stuttering as he found his completion with you, the sound of static distorting his voice as he groaned through the flesh still held in his teeth. It hurt. It hurt so good.
You both collapsed, heaving messes, tired, drunk and utterly blissed. The pull of his teeth stung as he drew back, rolling over to trap you between the sofa and his body, still stubbornly preventing you from leaving as he threw one of his long legs over yours. Not that you had the will nor energy to move. Your head felt heavy and you let it rest to the side, eyes stealing one last glance at the demon. He was so beautiful. You were so fucked.
Before you fell asleep, you vaguely registered his dazed expression, eyes dark in their red glow, and mouth laxed into a neutral line.
Notes:
Hello my lovely readers!
Bet y'all weren't expecting that
Today marks one year since I started this fanfic and wow was I not prepared to make it this long. I remember writing chapter 1 and thinking "This'll be maybe 3 chapters at most." but here we are, 43 chapters in with so much more room for these two to fix their relationship. It didn't even cross my mind to add smut to it until I was 10 chapters in and rethinking the whole storyline.
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Chapter 44: despair (jazz version)
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Chapter Text
Alastor’s POV
He’d been electrocuted a few times. Having a persistent enemy with powers related to electricity increased the odds of being hit by an astounding force of electrons wreaking havoc on every nerve ending. The pure energy of it could blind him for a few seconds, jumble his thoughts until pure instinct took over to win the battle.
Today he learned that an orgasm gave the exact same feeling, but instead of frustrating pain that had his teeth on edge, it was the sensation of the perfect melody vibrating in his bones. For a moment, every fiber of his body sang sweet and fiery and bloody. All he could hear, taste, feel and see was Ynna.
And he’d never wanted to let that go, even as his tensed muscles relaxed and sleep beckoned him from the warmth of the body nestled against his chest.
It was sweet, the grudging pierce of her claws into his skin, tugging at his fur and cutting across his scars.
It was hot. He’d never liked too much bodily contact from another person. But even when he thought his head would melt from the heat of their bodies moving against each other, the thought of separating for air was too wasteful to entertain. So delicious was that heat that when it was over, the unthinking parts of him still moved to keep her close, as close as he could while his mind still reeled.
And that was where he found himself.
Ynna’s warm breath fanned across his face, her weary body giving into blissful oblivion while he could only stare at her.
What had they just done? Had they truly gotten so lost in the alcohol that they gave into lust? From himself, he could understand how it came to this. Her teeth had always elicited a sense of physical desire and her company had slowly eroded his aversion to touch. As much as he found those desires distasteful for a gentleman like himself, the moment when her teeth sank in and her body caged him into place, he’d forgotten any sense of that impropriety.
In the face of that cutting sensation, the dream-like bliss that followed, he found himself just a man easily succumbing to pleasure and desire.
His claws punctured through his palm, the pain shooting up his arm to fight against the sting of the rough tears in his neck but the it died against the little pleasures those savage cuts tingled down his chest. His mind unhelpfully supplied the image of her determination to devour him, spiteful and stubborn with firelight in her gaze wanting to burn him alive. Like she believed she could hurt him. In her assertiveness, he wanted her to.
His limbs tightened around the woman in his arms, the weight of her anchored his thoughts as they flew downwards, that heat beginning to pool once again. She let out a little groan at the disturbance, burying deeper into his chest as he guided her there. The rise and fall of her breath was the calmest melody, lulling his senses even as tiny sparks danced from where his skin touched hers.
How plebeian. How quickly his body responded after a taste of lust fulfilled, when he’d spent a lifetime not even batting an eye for those needs. Yet, the thought of placing incessant kisses upon her bloody lips until she stirred awake to stare at him with those lovely sincere eyes tempted him maddeningly, as if he were some beast starved for affection, craving her intimacy. A dirty mongrel in heat while the object of his desire slumbered defenseless in his embrace. He could so easily devour her. She was so weak compared to him.
But he was always a heathen anyway. He gave into temptation and placed a simple kiss upon her brow, biting his lip to stop himself from placing another. Because drunk as he was on alcohol, on lust, on blissful completion and the image of her eyes dark with the same ravenous feelings that clawed and scraped at his innards, he knew she was out of her mind this evening. They both were. Why else did he not let her go? Why’d he kiss her when she’d only wanted to leave?
He stared at the woman in his arms and for the first time, he felt fear. She’ll have scathing words tomorrow. The damage of their tenuous relationship would be irreparable. She would be sober when she declares this night a mistake and drew the line between them ever starker.
Even still, a voice in his mind whispered, could he even dare to call her a friend when his mind still conjured the sensation of her lips on his neck?
He held her tighter, her heartbeat soothing the buzzing in him. Possessiveness. Desire. Despair. Madness.
Almost a hundred years since his death, a dreadful thought twisted in his mind, settling into place with the click of a dial. In front of this woman, in front of anything from her, Hell’s Notorious Radio Demon…was unfortunately just a man.
Ynna’s POV
It started slowly, the way your consciousness returned to you. Little pieces of yourself slotting together to form the you of right now, the you who remembered the rich taste of blood and the explosive shock of release reached with one Radio Demon. Alastor…
With a gasp, you opened your eyes and found yourself alone in his living room. The cool leather of the couch was a sign that Alastor had left a while ago. Lifting your body up, the comfort that filtered through every muscle almost surprised you. You could feel it, that extra boost in energy, that slightly brighter glow in your chest. You told yourself it was from the blood you took from him last night, and not the events that followed.
Heat rushed to your cheeks as your jaws clenched. Fuck! Fuck! What the hell did you do? Why? How? And he—?
So many questions flitted through your mind. Disbelief and embarrassment made your heart thud wildly in your chest. It had all happened so quickly. One moment, you were biting him out of spite and the next, you were fucking him in a blur. What was even more surprising was that he let you. Not only had he pulled you close, but he kissed you when you tried to put a stop to everything.
It reminded you of that first meal in his room, the same searing kiss that threatened to devour you. He’d done the same last night, that smiling mouth laying claim to wherever it could reach. Their hungry press still lingered. But most of all, you remembered his eyes. Manic and high and ravenous…and pleading.
Red red eyes that looked ready to collapse if you dared to deny him. That did it. That devastatingly unusual look of his definitely fucked with whatever was left of your common sense that night as you found no will to stop.
You could still picture it so clearly among all flashing memories of last night. Fuck.
You nearly slapped yourself for being so irresponsible. You got up with a soft groan.
Searching with your eyes, you tried to figure out where the other culprit of last night’s embarrassing affair was. Your ears listened, taking in the silence, no buzz of static to be found. He wasn’t here.
A sigh of relief left you as you realized you were completely alone. You needed time to process everything and think about what to say. What happened now? How would Alastor react?
You fished around for your phone, finding it on the floor beneath where you sat while drinking. It was still fairly early in the morning, just a little past eight AM. There were a couple of messages from Angel asking about last night and checking in on you after your date. And when you’d failed to respond, he’d sent eggplant emojis and peaches. Lovely. You grimaced. You’ll have to recap your date to him later. For now, the most pressing issue was Alastor.
Since the owner of the home wasn’t here and you still had no clue how to get back to the city, you decided to wander around. The bathroom was only a couple of doors down the hallway with the one across from it looking like the main bedroom. You listened in for a second but still didn’t hear any static. So he wasn’t in his room either.
Shrugging, you went into the bathroom and almost screamed at the sight of yourself in the mirror. You looked horrid. Blood stained down the front of your dress in chaotic smears. There were bloody handprints on your hips and a few tears around your waist where Alastor’s claws had held on too tightly. Your hair was ruffled way past the bed head stage and last night’s make up had been rubbed off, probably all over Alastor’s vintage leather couch.
You’d have looked like you’d barely escaped being murdered if not for the glow in your skin and the lack of any wounds.
“Dammit.” Cursing under your breath, you went about trying to look halfway decent, scrubbing off as much blood as you could and straightening yourself out. All the while, each stain and tear brought back memories of last night, bringing with them both heat and dread.
You couldn’t believe it happened. You’d been pissed enough to bite him, for one. Who knew you’d have the guts to just sink your teeth into anyone? And then…and then…
A twinge startled through your chest, painful and pitiful and full of regret. Last night had been all about forgetting Alastor and the feelings you still stupidly had for him. You were supposed to move on or at least find something distracting enough. But not only had speaking with Jax highlighted the stubborn grip your heart had for a certain deer demon, but it had also plunged you into despair. Last night, Alastor had dragged you here, leveraged the deal over your feelings once again. Like none of them mattered, only his decisions did.
And still, you loved him, didn’t you? You absolute idiot.
You stared at your reflection in the mirror. Your eyes were too bright and clear for all the sluggish turmoil sifting through your chest. Thoughts flickered in your head of green chains and cruel eyes, hungry lips, greedy hands and a question unspoken but broadcasted all the same from vivid red eyes illuminated by the firelight.
Something in the way he looked last night was different but familiar. Like the way he looked at you just before everything fell apart, when he was still apologizing for his cruel intentions, declaring your friendship something too precious for him to let collapse. A stare that was too sincere for someone so proud. The way he looked at you for that one second last night had been like that but condensed into a warm bright red that sucked you in and you lost yourself. You’d only wanted to hold that gaze for as long as you could.
Because he’d looked at you like you were more than just a toy. He looked at you like you were everything.
A broken chuckle echoed through the room like the snap of a ruler pulling your attention back to the present. Oh, that sound came from you.
That couldn’t be, right? He couldn’t possibly…like you too, right?
A strangled laugh forced its way through your lips.
Yeah. Alastor couldn’t possibly love you, bastard that he was. He knew what he wanted and took it because he was powerful enough, smart enough and charming enough to do so. The words to knock someone off their feet came easily for him. Manipulation was his tool of choice.
He wasn’t completely oblivious either. He’d sang love songs from his radio, gossiped and judged people’s relationships like he was a pro. Surely, if he cared about you, possibly loved you, he would have known better than to treat you like this. He wouldn’t make you feel so pathetic.
You drank water from the sink as you steadied yourself. Right. Whatever he wanted from you, it couldn’t have been love. He just wanted to toy with you and maybe last night, he’d been just a man, as horny as you were and just as drunk and out of it. He’d never have engaged you otherwise. He was too unhappy to be touched to do that.
“Last night was a mistake.” You were sure he thought the same and you were going to make that clear to him.
But where was he?
Mind and feelings finally calm for the first time in hours, you decided to wander around. If he was going to leave you unsupervised, then you would take that as an invitation to look around.
The cabin wasn’t too large. There was only one bedroom, a bathroom and what looked like a study at the end of the hall. The study was filled with books and all sorts of radios, even tools. He looked like he had a hobby of fixing old radios if the spare parts and gutted device lying on the desk were anything to go by. The room followed the same style as the rest of the home, vintage and tasteful. What really caught your eye was the piano. A sleek grand piano stood in the corner by a large window. Rosie had told you that he played. You’d just never had the chance to hear him.
Turning around, you explored the last door. It was probably a small guest room judging by how it was placed between the kitchen and the bathroom. Or maybe a closet? You opened the door with idle curiosity and gasped, finding yourself looking at wooden stairs that led up to a hatch. The space was only as wide as the doorway with the thick metal hatch at the end.
Alastor couldn’t possibly be storing dead bodies in there for later, right? Maybe it was an attic?
You’d watched enough horror movies to know not to check the attic in old homes. But it looked too normal, if you were being honest. Compared to the rest of the house, it looked brand new. The steps hadn’t been worn and the hatch still gleamed with a polish. It…it couldn’t hurt to take a peek. And if it pissed Alastor just a little bit, a petty part of you pushed to do it even more.
You listened again, finding the house as silent as it had been all morning. Alastor still hadn’t come back.
Climbing up the steps, you twisted the lever keeping the hatch shut. It was surprisingly easy for how heavy the door looked. With a push, the hatch opened, letting light shine through. Poking your head to look through the opening, you found yourself looking at a desk. Huh?
There was a large dark wood desk, some broadcasting equipment and…was that the sky through the window? Something about the place looked incredibly familiar to you, pushing yourself to fully go up and through the hatch. Little by little you took in the place surrounding you—the equipment, the sky, the antler coat rack behind a plush leather chair.
This was the radio tower!
Looking back down the hatch, you still saw the same slightly darkened hall of the cabin while standing on new carpet and metal. It took a moment for you to understand but all answers pointed to magic. You couldn’t believe that Alastor had a portal connecting the two areas that were miles and miles apart from each other. Maybe a safety precaution in case his other modes of teleportation didn’t work? He was a precocious one, after all.
Still, you saw the opportunity. From here, you at least knew how to get home.
You only hesitated for a moment, recognizing a need to talk with the missing Radio Demon regarding last night. You also weren’t very keen to find out what his reaction would be to find you gone but…
You checked your phone again. It was only a few hours before the start of your shift and you couldn’t afford to wait for the prick to show up, let alone if he forced you to stay.
Getting out of the tower was a lot simpler than you thought. Alastor actually locked the door this time, probably a precaution given how easily you got in before, but since you were leaving, you easily popped the button lock and set it again as you closed the door behind you. A gust of wind blew past, sending you shivering as the vast expanse of the rooftop greeted you.
You debated going down the stairs or the elevator. You weren’t really keen on the idea of seeing anyone right now, especially looking the way you did. There’d be questions you didn’t want to answer and a very concerned Charlie.
Jumping down sounded better and better the more you thought about running into anyone. You finally got a taste of what a walk of shame felt like and you grimaced.
Yeah. Best to leave quietly.
“Here we go again.” You found a good spot at the edge of the roof and looked down to plan your route before taking the first jump, hoping to land on the balcony below as smoothly as you had before, only without the adrenaline pumping through you to cushion the fall. Your hooves hit the jutted concrete, signaling the first of many safe jumps downwards. You found yourself wondering why you didn’t take advantage of this little perk your new form came with more often. You wondered if you could climb just as easily as mountain goats did. The idea brought a smile to your face as you made the next leap.
On and on, slow and steady, you leapt from one window sill to the next balcony. It was actually kinda fun. You aimed and landed squarely on another balcony when movement caught the corner of your eye. And a surpised scream followed.
“YNNA WHAT THE FUCK!?” Angel screeched from where he was standing pulling on a pair of shorts. You were just as wide-eyed, only now realizing that this was the balcony to Angel’s room.
“Uh…hi?” Was all you could muster, averting your eyes at seeing the spider half-naked.
With a round of shuffling, he eventually opened the door to you, letting you in while his eyes took in your messy appearance.
“Where the heck did ya come from, toots? And why do ya look like ya should be in a true crime documentary?”
“Long story. And yeah. Uh, I look like shit.” A blush made its way to your face as you grimaced. A pair of spindly hands clasped your shoulders, pulling you further into his room as another pair touched and prodded the tears in your dress and blood stains.
The more rips he found, the tighter his grip became. It didn’t look like he would let you leave anytime soon. And your frown deepened. You wanted to avoid exactly this. But at least it was Angel. He could be furtive when needed.
You carefully moved his hands from your shoulders, feeling his fingers grip yours in worry. A ripple of comfort pricked through you at his concern. “Angel, do you mind if I…use your bathroom and shower?”
“Sure. But ya gotta tell me what happened, toots. Did Jax do this to ya?” Mismatched eyes roamed over you again, making you bashful. “Or did ya do something to him?”
“I’ll let you know in a bit. Bathroom?”
“Go ahead.” He pushed you towards the direction of his bathroom.
Ignoring the many vials and tubs of beauty products and the newly washed toys drying on the counter, you stripped off your bloody dress and hopped into the tub. Turning on the shower, the warm water poured over you like a blessing, washing away the layer of blood that still clung to you in pink sin the drain.
The door opened and Angel popped in. “You can use this shirt when you’re done.”
“Thanks.”
You tried not to linger in the shower too long, a mix of shame and embarrassment creeping through you as you scrubbed away the last remnants of last night.
When you were done, you examined your body in the mirror. It was in perfect condition, no scratches or bruises despite how hard Alastor’s fingers had gripped onto you. The benefits of your power, you guessed. You slipped into an oversized shirt and stretchy shorts that your friend left on the counter.
Stepping out of the steamy bathroom, Angel was sitting with his legs crossed (im)patiently waiting for you.
“So what happened last night? How’d your date go and why did you end up looking like shit and jumping down from the roof?”
“Well, the date. Jax was great. We had fun at dinner but…”
“But…? No good?” Seeing the way your eyes wandered looking for a gentle way to describe your date, Angel beat you to the punch. His sharp eyes softened in disappointment with you.
“No good. He was a good guy but he’s just not…what I’m looking for.” You shook your head and sighed, remembering the hopeless suffocation of realizing that each word out of the rabbit had reminded you of a transatlantic accent with a fuzz of static. You sat next to Angel and leaned into his side, his taller figure making it difficult to bury your head on his shoulder. He curved a little, making room for you.
“We ended up just talking. We were thinking of taking things a little further but ultimately, the mood just wasn’t right.”
“Ain’t nothing ya can do if he ain’t your type.”
“Yeah. I was so fucking disappointed. The whole time I just kept thinking about…Anyway, we split up but I drank a couple more drinks than I should have and was stumbling about town trying to get home.”
“Holy shit, toots. Ya coulda called or something. Ain’t nothing good gonna come out of a bitch walking around town drunk.”
“Yeah, I know. Alastor told me at least three times how dangerous that was.”
“What’s Smiles got to do with this?”
“He found me somehow, after the date. Maybe he was keeping watch or something but he showed up and offered to take me home.”
“Really now?”
“Yup. And because I’m an idiot and my night wasn’t going how I’d hoped it would go, I got mad that he was being nice.” You buried your face in his fluff, taking comfort to soothe your brewing feelings. “I get the wrong idea when he does that.”
“He ended up having to take me to his place because I didn’t want him to know where I live. I should’ve just told him.” You muttered.
“If ya were here all night, you could’ve just knocked on my door. I’m sure Charlie’s still got your room set up but I wouldn’t have minded you coming over.”
“No. Not his room here at the hotel. His house. The place where he lived before this.”
He flinched, a hand going to his mouth in surprise. “Oh my gosh. What the fuck?”
“I know. Anyway, a bunch of stuff happened and I eventually found my way to the roof from a portal he had in his house.”
“I have a feeling you’re leaving a shit ton of stuff out of your story.”
“I wouldn’t want you to get caught up in our drama. Alastor’s nasty when he gets mad.”
“Did he hurt you?”
“What?” Now, it was your turn to flinch, the question catching you off guard as Angel moved back just enough to look you in the eye.
“You came in here covered in blood. Did Alastor hurt you?”
“Ah…” The severe tilt of his eyes alarmed you, like he was ready to go fight on your behalf if you’d said the wrong thing. “No. He didn’t hurt me. Err. Well, a little? It was mutual. I probably hurt him more to be honest. It was his blood.”
“Christ, toots. How bad’s it been between you two that you of all people are trying t’kill him?”
You looked at him, his concerned eyes boring deep into you. Those mismatched eyes beckoned you to share those tidbits you held back. The deal. The cannibal power. The embarrassing mistake of last evening. But you couldn’t tell him those things. Not only because some of it was restricted by your deal but also you were afraid of how he’d look at you. If he knew you could eat people for power, would he still think of you as his harmless friend? Would he ever wonder if you’d ever thought of putting him on the menu? Would he be scared? Disgusted?
How would he react to knowing you’ve eaten Alastor more times than you were aware of? Your lips trembled with those unspoken words, the weight of chains, your fears and your longing to confide the shit your afterlife’s turned into testing their integrity. Yet you could only tell him about your love problems, a newly added weight crushing your chest after last night.
“It’s bad. It’s really bad, Angel.” You laid down on his bed, restless and tired. Without a moment of hesitation, he joined you, still imploring with his eyes for you to share your obvious burden.
“To be honest, I think he’s trying to be nice in his own way but I just can’t stand it. Why bother with jokes and dancing and spending time with me when he doesn’t actually care in the end? It’s all just a game. It’s all just a game.” You closed your eyes. Pain itched at your throat as your voice cracked with heartbreak. “And somehow, I can’t fully hate him. Angel, I still…fucking care about him.”
Alcohol couldn’t erase or even blur from your mind the satisfaction of feeling him beneath you and trembling. It couldn’t excuse how your heart lurched at the pure want in his gaze. No matter how far the heat of the moment had gone, there had been moments of clarity, feelings of denial and desire that ultimately led to the result. It had felt glorious to hold him, to feel so wanted by the man who’d tormented your heart for his twisted gains.
It was all a mistake but your only regret was knowing how much you still wanted him. And he’d left you like a used coat on his couch right after.
Slender arms reached around your body, cocooning you as they drew you into a warm fluffy chest. “Shh. Don’t cry, baby.” You hadn’t even noticed that tears had started falling. “Maybe, Smiles does care about ya. In his own freaky way. He just doesn’t seem like the type to say that out loud.”
“If he did, then how can he treat me like I’m some puppet he can pull around?” Your breath hitched with a crack as the emotions you’d been holding back flowed freely now that there was some to catch you in your heartache.
“A guy like him isn’t good, babe. He’d never be an Overlord if he were. But he ain’t the worst out there. I’ve watched you two enough to at least see, he likes you more than anyone else. Doesn’t excuse him being a toxic fucker but…don’t sell yourself short and think he ain’t sticking around you for more than just a past time.”
“So you agree that he’s a piece of shit.”
“Never said he wasn’t.”
“But I still like him. I still like him even though he’s one toxic asshole.”
“Been there, done that, toots. At least ya ain’t sold your soul to him yet.”
“The one smart thing I’ve done in this whole fucked up relationship.”
“See, already doing better than me.”
You peeked up at him and found his eyes solemn though a gentle smile tugged at his face. He didn’t say anything else, but ran a hand through your hair as another gently stroked your back. Like soothing a baby. You were grateful.
You laid there cuddling until your tears stopped. He understood your foolishness and it felt like you could live with your stupidity a bit easier for it.
Alastor’s POV
The gloom of the swamp brightened, the light signaling morning to his unconscious senses. The ceiling of his room in the hotel steadily lit up. As with every morning, he sat up and stretched only to feel pain shooting from his shoulder and shocking him back into his senses.
A hand went to inspect the damage, finding the tears already healed, though a little tender to the touch.
He could only stand to hold Ynna for so long as his thoughts swayed back and forth between sleeping and ravaging her. She’d made it too tempting, falling asleep so soundly, and he couldn’t stand the thought of how beastly he’d become. When the greedier part of him urged him to claim her without regard for anything else, he’d left.
That thought was too dangerous. Too unlike him yet…He’d always been swayed by his very few desires. Striving to achieve fame, gather power, sate his bloodlust through sneaky murder both in life and death. Then Ynna came along and stoked a new flame within, just as potent as any vice he’d indulged in. He’d disdained men who’d turn into animals for a quick fuck yet it didn’t stop the thought from coming up in his mind, knowing how much Ynna hated him. It made him sick.
Now, hours away from her presence, his mind still lingered on her. In his haste, he’d left her in his home. He’d have to bring her back. She’d be livid at possibly missing her work on top of last night’s episode. He could already feel the grating claw of her disdain rake through him.
He groaned, the sound rougher with agitated static. On the bright side, his temper had cooled, as if last night’s madness had drained out of his system.
He stood to prepare for the day, mind thinking up how to ease the new unforgiving spike in their relationship. At least, his goat was more level-headed than most. If he appealed to her sense of maturity, excused his behavior as part alcohol, part heightened emotions, she may at least listen to him. If he spoke carefully, maybe invoked some mutual embarrassment, she may have it in her to be fair and dismiss the whole thing for the mistake that it was.
He opened the dresser’s drawer only to find his bow tie, the one pinned with Ynna’s brooch, missing. Strange. Where could it have gone? Perhaps he’d left it in his home. He sighed. This wasn’t a good sign for seizing the day.
He supposed he’d pick it up when he went to get the goat. Maybe he should go to her favorite cafe and bring coffee as a peace offering. Or more likely, she’d throw it in his face if she was angry enough. Perhaps she’d be less inclined to revulsion if he acted more aloof?
He sighed again. How did adults get through these stupid situations? This was why he’d been thankful that lust was never his sin.
As he left his room, the walk down the halls gave him time to assess his strategy. Though it did make him laugh. All this confusion and effort, this worrying, months of bending over himself (though he was admittedly inflexible) to regain affection, of all things. He never could’ve imagined he’d be this pathetic. Yet his mind was still going over and over the possibilities, unwilling to think about abandoning this whole endeavor. It would be like vowing to be a saint, abandoning homicide. He couldn't do it. He simply could not. Her affection and companionship were too precious to abandon even if he would never receive them again.
And everyday that past, he was beginning to accept that as an impossibility. His teeth ground at the admission. No matter. He still had the deal, so they wouldn’t be rid of each other completely. That fact was both comforting and despicable.
He tugged his smile brighter, choosing to leave that thought behind. The immediate worry was in how to handle meeting Ynna again. He twirled his microphone idly as he walked, forcefully injecting enthusiasm in his step to induce some confidence in his choices.
He’d almost achieved it when the murmuring of voices down the hall stopped him. He turned a corner and saw them.
“Thanks, Angel. I really needed that.” Crystal clear, Ynna’s voice traveled to his ears. The goat looked up at the much taller spider. Her arms reached up effortlessly and the man leaned down to let her wrap her arms around him in a hug.
“Anytime, toots.” Uncharacteristically soft, he looked down at her and placed a brief kiss on her head, one that the goat leaned into, basking in his affection.
“Aww. Now, you’re making me blush.”
“Then watch me sweep you off your feet next.” The spider’s second pair of arms came out and wrapped the shorter demon up, her hands trapped around his neck as she was left dangling when he stood up to his full height.
With a delighted squeal, Ynna laughed, a sweet carefree sound he hadn’t heard in a long time. The spider let her dangle off of him a few steps down the hall before he dropped her with a complaint that she was heavy. She snorted as they made their merry way.
It was a miracle that the pair hadn’t noticed him as he was sure that some form of infernal sound left him. While they pranced away oblivious, all he could hear was the sound of wretched bloody screaming.
Notes:
Hello lovely readers! I have returned to deliver a new chapter. Thank you all so much for the amazing reception of last chapter. I was sweating bullets when I posted it.
I've been quite busy lately so I haven't been able to write a lot :( Lots of new changes coming into my life that just take up all my time and energy, unfortunately.
However!! I promise this fic will be completed this year. So stay tuned everyone~
Chapter 45: Awkward Days After
Notes:
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Chapter Text
Alastor’s POV
The sound of his own footsteps couldn’t be heard over the screeching in his ear. Though he supposed it was because he’d melted into the shadows to avoid clawing at the walls as he followed the two friends to the hotel lobby. They laughed and joked, rubbed elbows and threw insults at each other. It was all so natural for the two and he loathed it. When was the last time he’d received such easy attention from Ynna? More importantly, how could she bear to be so close to another man despite what happened between them last night? Shouldn’t she feel a little awkward? Shouldn't she show even a little aversion to another’s touch?
He swallowed nettle-like anger, prickling its way down his throat. She had shown quite a bit of aversion to him last night, up until the fight and booze left her sullen but amiable. It hadn’t erased the reluctance that practically oozed out of her annoyed gaze but it had softened, fading almost into familiar warmth though that could have only been an illusion of the fire. Now, she easily fell into the spider as they walked, making a mockery of the spite he had to endure for even the slightest of her attention.
A chipper voice joined the babbling twosome, cutting their grating friendliness short.
“Ynna!” The princess couldn’t help herself, enveloping the mildly startled goat in a hug that the woman returned after a second of hesitation. “How are you? What are you doing here?”
“Charlie!” The goat called back with a wobbly sort of emotion on her lips, returning the princess’s hug without reluctance. She was silent for a moment, seeming to breathe in the contact of a long missed friend. “I…uh… I was in the area last night and got a little too drunk so I asked Angel if I could stay over.”
“That’s great! Well, not the getting drunk part but asking friends for help and offering kindness when needed! Great job, Angel!” The spider looked at the princess with fond exasperation. All of them had gotten used to her praise for almost any good they could do. As she parted from her embrace with Ynna, she made sure to look into the goat’s eyes with a friendly smile. “And you’re always welcome here if you need help. We’d love to have you around.”
“Haha. Thanks, Charlie. You’re always so sweet.”
“I hope everything’s okay though. You shouldn’t over-indulge in alcohol.”
“Oh, it’s fine. You know I’m a lightweight. I had just a teensy bit too much to drink.” Ynna chuckled shyly, a cue that the spider took, leaning his arms and head on the goat’s. Why did he need to have so much contact with her?
“Aw, ain’t ya gonna tell’er why, toots?”
“Angel!”
“It’s just girl talk!” He smirked as Ynna’s face flushed, feeling a bit of satisfaction in seeing her flustered. They certainly had done things deserving of that expression. Now, if only she’d turn that self-awareness towards the spider still nestling himself in her hair and swat the man away.
“Toots went out on a date last night and things got a little heated.” Oh? He moved closer to listen in. Was it possible that Ynna shared with the spider? She always did seem to turn to him for advice, though he doubted the mess of a man could have much wisdom to give.
How…annoying. Still, he found himself intrigued about how much the other man had heard from her.
“They did not!”
“Babe, didn’t you say you guys kissed? And things could’ve gone a bit farther?” Fluffy white eyebrows waggled at the goat whose face scrunched into an embarrassed frown.
“I mean…it was just one. He was nice.”
“Told’ya. But tsk tsk, toots. I know he was hot but not anything worth drinking yourself into a mess over.”
“Hushhhhh.” Ynna's ears flapped as she tried to shake off both the embarrassment and the spider’s teasing. Her face continued its lovely hue as she recalled…her failed date.
This was about that man? Not him?
It couldn’t be that she’d been so inebriated that she forgot about him? No. She would’ve at least wondered why she woke up in his house and she was smart enough to realize that it was his home when she used the hatch. It led directly to his tower and was the only way someone with no magick like her could have gotten to the hotel.
Yet they only spoke of the damned rabbit who wasn’t even a man enough to walk her to a safe location! Static tumbled in his chest. He knew the details of that date—his shadow had shown him. Yet surely, that wasn’t the only thing she’d shared. Surely, their little escapade was more important to ask for advice from her confidant.
But neither the goat nor the spider elaborated more on Ynna’s evening. They instead swatted at each other like children. His presence that evening wasn’t even mentioned.
“Sounds like it went well. Oh my gosh. That’s so cute. So are you guys going on a second date? I mean you don’t have to tell me but eek!” The princess bounced at the prospect of love coming for one of her friends.
“Well, I…” His breath paused as he listened to his dearest, watching each twitch of her face as she thought of her answer. His heart froze with her bated breath and he found her pause was a half beat suffocatingly too long. He materialized out of the shadows, suddenly thinking she might blurt out a very stupid answer.
“Ynna! How lovely to see you here. Might you be coming back to check into our humble establishment once again?” Both the spider and the goat lightly flinched at his arrival.
His eyes took in the slight panic on the goat’s face before her expression turned neutral with only the lightest quirk of a smile, enough to placate the princess next to her. Beside her, Angel moved an inch forward as if to shield her from him.
Ah, so she did remember and she did mention him to Angel after all. That prickling static calmed within him, easing the tilt of his smile into a more natural curve.
He noted Angel’s almost protective stance. The spider’s caution made him wonder just what exactly his dearest goat had told him. Surely, not too much. She didn’t strike him as a gal to kiss and tell though they did do more than kiss.
Heat curled in his gut at that slightest thought and his eyes couldn’t help but take in the woman before him. Belatedly, he realized that she’d changed clothes. Angel’s most likely, given the short proportion and slightly too tight fit. It wasn’t too revealing by Hell’s standards but it did show a bit more than her usual fashion.
His eyes couldn’t help but trace the curve of her hip where a slight peak of fur could be seen where the shirt was too short. He remembered the feel of them in his hands, how easily they fit into his palms until his claws couldn’t help but sink into the welcoming flesh. He swallowed, feeling that heat intensify and his hands itched to fit themselves onto those curves and pull her closer.
Dammit. He mentally slapped himself. It was unbecoming of him to feel like this. Somehow, it was more sinful than fantasizing about ways to dismember his victims yet just as enticing of a thought. To pull her closer and see for himself whether his claw marks remained or were they erased by her power. Immediately, his eyes sharpened, reading her aura. Red mingled with her green and the sight of it fed that growing heat.
His presence was within her. His power feeding hers. The thought made his fur prickle beneath his clothes, sensitized, ravenous.
“—and I was just thinking it’d be nice if you visited once in a while. I’d love to know how you’re doing out there and well…we do miss you, Ynna.” Charlie’s voice drifted through the haze he’d fallen under. The princess must have been talking during the time that he stared. And how boorish of him to have lost track of the conversation, distracted by a show of skin of all things.
He stubbornly flicked his eyes up to her face, uncertain what degree of new found lust he could handle before he made an even bigger fool of himself. Stubbornly he pushed the heat back down and to the back of his mind even though his body burned to drape itself over his goat, to feel her teeth again, to see those eyes welcoming and filled with…
He met her gaze and froze.
Why did she look scared?
Ynna’s POV
Alastor’s appearance should have been expected. Where else would he be if he wasn’t at his home or his radio tower? But your soul practically jumped out of your body the moment he materialized in front of you and greeted you with his cheery transatlantic voice. The racing of your heart became concerning for a second before you reigned it in. It was just Alastor. Creepy, stupid Alastor.
The same Radio Demon you needed to have a serious conversation with. You breathed in that determined reminder with the old dust of the hotel filling your lungs in familiar comfort.
Him showing up now could be a good time to have it. It was just a shame that you’d have to cut your reunion with Charlie short to discuss last night with him. You tried to gauge how to bring it up, eyes looking to Alastor to see where his mood was at the best you could. Rejections were a delicate kind of conversation, after all. And you didn’t want to add another reason for anger between the two of you if possible. There was only so much drama with the man you could take on top of your feelings and his stubborn dickishness.
But instead of gauging the small tells on his face, your eyes locked onto something strange about him. He seemed too…loose?
His eyes were bright and half-lidded, a condescending smile stretched onto his face. That was usual. His suit was impeccable. His posture was straight as usual, even leaning onto his staff. But what…?
Your eyes went to his neck, finding it bare of the usual bow tie. Oh, that’s what it was. He was missing his tie, leaving his outfit incomplete, too casual and underdressed for him, even with everything else on. Mystery solved, you tried to go back to finding a good time to take the man aside. But your eyes kept straying back up to his neck.
Without the bow tie, only the top button of his shirt kept his modesty. Your fingers twitched. It would be so easy to loop around that button, popping it free from his shirt to reveal the furred skin beneath. Would your teeth marks still be there, marring the juncture between shoulder and neck like a macabre tattoo? Was he sick enough to leave it to heal over time when he had the power to pour into stitching each muscle fiber together?
Your mouth felt dry, jaw suddenly aching for something. Something to wipe that stupid smile off his face. To make him whine—
You caught that train of thought just as it left the station and crashed into your consciousness. What the fuck were you just thinking about? Were you seriously thinking of biting him again? Of hearing him make that pitifully nice sound as you dug into him—
There you went again!
Shit! Shit! Shit! You were imagining fucking up Alastor in a way that would definitely lead to fucking Alastor!
You grimaced, mortified by your thoughts. How easily you fantasized about tearing the man apart until he was putty in your hands and how your mind didn’t even feel guilty because you know he’d love it. It was almost like…you’d like to do it.
A whimper caught in your throat as horror filled you. Just in time, your eyes met with his, the red of his gaze intense and searching and so easily replaced by your treacherous mind with a look of rabid obsession and desire and static and whines too soft for a man so arrogant—-
“—and I was just thinking it’d be nice if you visited once in a while. I’d love to know how you’re doing out there and well…we do miss you, Ynna.”
“Yeah. Yeah, Charlie!” You latched onto the princess’s voice like it was the last lifeline before your sanity jumped from the building. Your hand found Angel’s wrist. “Oh shoot. I have work soon but yeah. I miss you guys too.” You pulled Angel away, using his tall body to block the view of Alastor you had as you signaled with your body that you were going. You needed to leave and get your shit together.
“Are you leaving already? How about breakfast?”
“No! I can’t stay. But I’ll visit! I promise.” Angel, bless his sweet ass, didn’t complain as you dragged him away, compliantly shielding you from Alastor even though he was startled by your sudden urgency. “I’ll come back when I have a day off!” You practically ran, shouting back as you disappeared down the hallway.
You could still hear static in your ears along with the blood rushing to your face.
—————
It was a week since then. After you’d run out with Angel, the spider had frantically asked if you were okay and you couldn’t tell him that you were thinking of chewing on Alastor. And that the thought of doing so was met with a repulsively small amount of moral barriers.
In your silent but frantic panic, Angel assumed that other than some turmoil of the heart, Alastor did do something unthinkable. He even threatened to shoot the man despite what Alastor might do to him in return. You’d almost caved but how exactly do you share that you’d almost fucked your tormentor in a drunken stupor that maybe wasn’t as completely uncontrollable as you’d like to believe?
He was easy to placate though. A few reassurances that you were okay and that it was just that you’d been overwhelmed seeing Alastor so suddenly that you’d panicked was all it took. That, and free breakfast at the diner. But it was worth it to get away from the hotel, from him, a lot sooner. It had given you time to process your thoughts and ready yourself for the next time you saw him.
And it looked like Alastor may have been thinking the same thing. For the next few days, the Radio Demon didn’t drop by, giving you more than enough time to gather yourself and recover from that fucking sharp turn your thoughts veered into at the mere sight of his collar.
More than a few times, you’d fought with yourself because of how ridiculous this all was. Wasn’t it obvious that whatever investment Alastor had in you was all for his amusement? That he didn’t care enough about your feelings for you to still feel this way?
Yet here you were, remembering the blaze of pleading eyes and having to smack yourself when your teeth ached to bite into something. After a few days, you’d finally felt those feelings fade, a sense of self-preservation finally demolishing them. You already had plenty to be hurt and indignant about; having your romantic feelings get used against you by a man too cruel to spare any advantage he could find would just be too much.
So his absence over the week was a blessing. The quiet week after was a miracle. But the third week without any news of him? Again? That brought a sense of unease.
“When are you going to play some actual good music again?” The lilting raspy voice of the old sinner you were serving complained. She was one of many new regulars you’d had since the Radio Demon started coming. He brought a certain vibe to the place that some old sinners found nostalgic. But without Alastor around, no one felt any need to change the playlist to something more old-timey to suit these customers. And they noticed.
“I can put in a word with our manager. Do you have any song requests in mind?” The old lady sneered, purposely flapping her lips to have drops of spittle fly towards you as she listed a few songs. Petty woman. She was speaking just fine earlier.
In the back office, you found Monica, working on the inventory order for next week. She furiously typed, not even glancing at the mouse next to her and you wondered what kind of work she’d done before to know so much about how to use a spreadsheet.
“Knock. Knock.” You called, forgoing actually tapping on the door.
“Oh, hey. What’s up?” Her pupils swirled in concentration, the spirals dizzying the more one looked into them. She’d told you once that it actually meant that she was in the zone.
“I’ve got a couple of complaints about the music again.”
“Urggh. Not another one. We can’t actually change the playlist, you know? The owners set what we play.”
“And I’ve told them I’d do what I can so…” You shrugged. It hadn’t been the first time someone had griped about the music being too modern. At this point, letting Monica know had been simultaneously a show to placate the grumpy patrons and take a quick breather.
“Where is he, by the way? Haven’t seen or heard about the Radio Demon in a while.” That seemed to snap Monica’s eyes back to regular round pupils. She raised a curious eyebrow at you.
Again, you shrugged. You’d wondered the same thing more than a few times, often dismissing your curiosity as a blessing. He wasn’t there to bother you. But then, some creeping thought in the back of your mind bitterly whispered that he’d grown bored, maybe even repulsed, by the clandestine turn things took that night. You’d punched those thoughts back into your head. If he got bored, all the better. If he stayed away, you’d throw a party.
Monica stared at you for a beat before she sighed and turned back to her computer. “What? Did you two have a fight or something?”
“Why do you think that? Can’t he just be too busy to show up? Or maybe he’s tired of the diner food.”
“You’re like those dogs that get hungry when they hear a bell, always flinching and turning to the door. It’s like you’re waiting for him like a puppy.”
“I didn’t—“
“Frankly, I don’t care if you’re pining. At least, you still get your work done. But if you two had a falling out and he comes looking to use you as a punching bag, could you at least take it outside? It’ll be a bitch to clean up after and we don’t want any casualties, even if some of the customers would love the show.”
“Wow, I feel so protected by my supervisor.”
“I’d support you against any turd walking in here to pick a fight but even if the whole restaurant jumped in, we wouldn’t have the firepower to even scratch an overlord. In the end, we’ve got a business to run.”
“Well, I don’t think he’s going to show up anytime soon so you don’t have to worry about that. The man gets bored of things really quick.” The last sounded a little bitter and you bit your tongue in punishment. Monica quietly started typing again and you turned away at the casual dismissal.
Annoyance and then gloom settled over your mood before you masked it with a professional cheer as you went back to your customers. Like the customer’s music complaints, this also wasn’t the first time someone had brought up Alastor's absence. Though some of the more gossipy workers had laughed a bit more at how you’d been abandoned and wouldn’t have your lunch privileges anymore. Tim was particularly smug about that.
Monica was the first to point out the potential danger it could mean. It wasn’t like you didn’t get her point. The Radio Demon wasn’t known for his magnanimous personality and they’d always viewed you as someone he favored. Naturally, once that favor was gone, bad things were bound to happen. In a way, it was almost like a warning to be careful.
It’s just, it never even crossed your mind that he’d hurt you, at least, physically. You still didn’t think he would. It was always more emotional and psychological the way he tormented you and you’d tried to respond in kind in your own way. Which was why the worst you’d ever thought of was that he had abandoned you, discarded like a dirty sock without a match.
You swallowed thickly behind your customer service smile as you placed a plate of pancakes in front of a beetle-like sinner.
Yeah. Used, abused and abandoned sounded closer to how he’d deal with a toy that was no longer fun. And were you no longer fun? Why? Was it because your retaliation led to something sexual? He’d never been interested in that so maybe he now found you disgusting for touching him that way.
But then why had he looked like he’d wanted more every time you tried to pull away? Wasn’t it his fault that things escalated? He was the one that kissed you!
“Hey waitress lady! I need another cuppa.”
“You got it!”
All of this was his fault anyway. If he’d just left you alone. If he’d just respected your space. If he hadn’t put a damn collar on you. You knew that. You’d treated him with a sincere wish in your heart for his friendship, for the comfort of connection he brought and he’d spit it right back at your face and had the audacity to be mad you wouldn’t forgive him. It was all his fault.
So why were you the one who felt so dirty?
You wiped a recently bussed table and placed utensils down before calling over the next customer. It was an elderly couple. They bickered as they ordered.
When you woke up that morning…
“Of course, coffee and tea and grits. Would you like any cream or sugar?”
The couple eventually nodded, after more banter and bickering and fond sneers. It almost sounded familiar. Was that how you looked like to people when you had your reluctant lunches with Alastor?
Maybe. You wouldn't be able to check since he’d ghosted you since that night.
When you woke up that morning, you’d wanted to set expectations straight. The things you did were a mistake. The kissing and everything was just two horny people in the heat of the moment. It couldn’t happen again, for your sanity’s sake.
You had wanted to clear that up because it would be awkward to see him again without clarifying where you stood in relation to him.
…because you’d expected to see him again. That after what happened, he’d still be an ass, haunting you when all you’d wanted to do was forget that part of you that enjoyed having him around. That you’d have to tolerate his existence that popped up whenever he pleased and dragged you into his games willy-nilly for the rest of time.
But he wasn’t here now. And you didn’t know when he would be. Despite everything, his toxic green cruelty, his selfish calculation, you’d grown used to him. Fond of him. To love and hate him.
Yet, he could so easily leave you behind.
You swallowed again, choking on emotions you couldn’t let loose until your break—no, not even until after that—when you were home.
A thought came to you then, and you tested the words to your deal on your tongue, finding it bound the same as before. The collar still remained. It was just time to let this doll gather dust in a corner until he once again had use of her.
Acid and rust gurgled in your throat and you smiled at the next customer that came in. What else could you do?
—————
Rain wasn’t common in Hell, surprisingly. The heavy pour of slightly acidic precipitation dampened the liveliness of the chaotic streets, threatening to wash away what sins were spilled on downtrodden floors. It was just your luck that on your one day off, the sky split open with the cool sting of heavy raindrops. You were only just lucky to have been close enough to the hotel doors to get only a light sprinkling but it was uncomfortable enough. What furry creature liked being damp?
“Ynna!” The immediate cheer at the door and pair of red-arms gently pulling you in brought a grin to your face. Charlie’s blushed face greeted you with excitement that warmed any chill left by the sudden weather.
“Told you I’d stop by on my day off.”
“Come in! It’s so great to see you. We have so much to catch up on.”
“Yeah. Sorry about not stopping by more. I’ve been busy.”
“Hey, don’t sweat it. It’s tough out there but you’re doing good. I remember how you came here in tears the first day. But you’re holding up well, it looks like.” Vaggie took her turn to hug you, coming out from behind the princess.
“Is that your way of saying I got fat?” You teased as you pulled away from her. Her one eye crinkled as her lips curled in a lazy smirk. Two small hands cupped your cheeks and squeezed.
“Well, these are filling out my hand more.”
“Oh, harsh. It’s the extra waffles at the diner’s fault.” You giggled at her. “So what’s the plan today?”
“Well, we were going to go out to do a little shopping trip with everyone but the weather’s not too great. How about a movie night? We can each take turns picking a movie to watch?” Charlie stepped away and you followed her lead down the dearly missed halls. It had been a while since you’d left yet a weight seemed to fall off your bones as the familiar scents of the first home you’d ever had filled you and wrapped you in comfort and warmth.
It was almost enough to forget why you left—and why you were here.
“I’ll go round everyone up and you can go pick a movie.”
“Shouldn’t we wait for everyone to vote on what to watch?”
“Nah. You’re our guest. You should get first pick.”
Charlie and Vaggie went to fetch everyone, leaving you in the living room by yourself with a massive DVD case of old and new movies. Seriously, who still had DVD in this day and age?
Your fingers glossed over the many titles, already giving up actually choosing because there were so many choices. You randomly plucked a cover and read through the synopsis before putting it back. You weren’t in the mood for period romances.
As your eyes absently scanned title after title, your mind drifted off to what actually brought you to set foot in here today. Partly, it had been to visit everyone as you’d promised. But really, what had your feet moving faster was a need—the need to end that anxiety that sprouted in the weeks without Alastor.
It was almost a month now and it was still radio silence. You hadn’t even caught his show on air even though you purposely waited by the diner’s radio on a few late night shifts. There was just nothing.
When you remembered that you promised to visit the princess on your next day off, the first thing that had come to mind was that Alastor was likely to be there. At first, the thought of seeing him had made you flinch. Nothing was ever easy with him and he would likely somehow find a way to push your buttons when you were supposed to have a pleasant time with your friends. Or he could simply ignore you, pretend you didn’t exist, for what was the point of acknowledging when you served no purpose? Not even engaging enough to warrant even a jab to ruin your day like he normally would.
The thought of his silence kindled your courage, fueled by spite and a need to put a stop to the pathetic mess your emotions took as you over thought of his absence. If he got bored of you, so what? If he was grossed out because you two had kinda sex, so what? If he just forgot about you because he was distracted by some other exciting thing, so what? That was his choice, his feelings.
You only needed to tend to yours and right now, you needed finality. Some kind of closure to a pretty significant event that happened between you and one of the people who greatly affected your afterlife (damn him for it).
You’d find Alastor, tell him what a mistake things had been, get your closure and finally let go of feeling used and discarded. Whatever he felt afterwards, well, that was for him to deal with. You could run to Charlie for backup if needed.
Alastor’s POV
Quite a dreary day it was turning out to be. Though the garden he could spot just below his window could certainly use the extra push. There had been few attempts to keep it in shape since Ynna’s departure. Though somehow, the yellow carnations were still blooming despite the neglect. How appropriate.
And once again, his mind had wandered to a certain goat. Always, always, how long has it been since she started straying into his thoughts at an almost constant rate? It almost felt like it had been so since the very beginning and especially now.
We should go see her.
“No.”
No. No. No. No. No. Must you be so difficult? You know you want to see her.
“What I want isn’t as important as making sure we don’t blunder anymore than we already have. Or are you in a rush to see her cower again?” His shadow didn’t have a response, slinking back into his mind where it drummed pathetic whine to see the object of its obsession.
Fear. It had been in her eyes the last time he’d seen her and it rattled him. She hadn’t given him such a look since she’d opened up her affections to him and it had never crept back even as he had to chain her to him after their spat.
It was that one look that made him question whether he’d gone too far. No. He knew he had. Intimate acts should be shared with your loved ones and most trusted and he wasn’t any of those. Not anymore.
Yet he’d clung to her like an animal, desperate to feel her, clawing to keep her with him. No better than those pigs he’d slaughtered all too happily once upon a time.
He glanced at the garden once more before turning away. It was as close to seeing his dearest as he’d allow himself. Maybe if he were a stronger man, he’d have gone to her the moment he’d sensed another irreparable crack between them. But he wasn’t.
Even now, weeks and much guilt and self-disgust later, he still wanted her. Viciously. He tried not to linger on that feeling, as he had all the other times it had risen. Like the many days since, he would not give in to his shadow’s whining to see her. He didn’t want to test his limits.
He wasn’t feeling quite up to the usual search for another tortured soul to add to his collection today. Perhaps, it would be a stay-in kind of day. If he was lucky, the residents at the hotel would provide something worthwhile to pass the time. For now, he curled up in a leather armchair with an old book he’d been meaning to read, the occasional slosh of water from the other half of the room filling in the silence in between each flip of the page.
But that serenity didn’t last too long. A knock rattled his door, the light tapping on the hollow wood unmistakably from his business partner .
Getting up from his chair, he set the book back into his shelf and greeted the blonde woman at the door. “Charlie! What brings you to my door this lovely afternoon?” She smiled quite excitedly. What contrived way of soul cleansing had she concocted behind those too wide eyes of hers?
“We’re having a movie night and I wanted to see if you’d be interested.”
Ah. Spending time gawking at a screen. How boring.
“I thought that instead of me picking it out, we can have the guests choose this time. We have all genres available from romance to sci-fi. We can even do horror movies if anyone’s up for it.” She blabbered on and on with her idea pitch.
A polite refusal lay waiting on the tip of his tongue when the mention of horror films halted the rejection. Ynna, with a curious face of disbelief in her black hood and discarded plastic mask, flashed through his mind. With the slightest hint of lost interest in her eyes, he’d almost felt like one of the uneducated masses though he’d shrugged the notion off. He didn’t see how films could enrich his afterlife any more than watching the everyday drama of the mindlessly wandering denizens could.
But maybe now was an opportunity to see what the fuss was about.
“What a charming idea. I think I’ll join you all this evening then.” Charlie’s eyes sparkled as he stepped out of his room. They would look absolutely lovely on top of some liver pudding.
As the princess corralled her wayward bunch, their chatter filled the once silent hallways. The suggested movies, from what he’d gathered, were a revenge plot of a scorned woman from Niffty, a few episodes of a show called Game of Thrones from Angel and a spy movie from Husk. All rather interesting plots, surprisingly enough. Now, would any of them have substance?
As the chatter approached the living room, a new sound fluttered into his ears followed by a snuffed laughter that sounded all too familiar, and for a moment, frightening.
He stopped at the doorway, his eyes bearing witness to what his ears had tried to warn him of and what his mind had conjured many times in his sleepless nights.
“Ynna!” The surprised call of her name from Angel’s mouth crashed through him, along with a torrent of emotions that buzzed electric thrills through his chest. He held his breath, counted in his mind and allowed his cheeks to relax into his smile. It was no time to lose his composure, just because of her sudden appearance.
“What’cha doing here, toots?” The others greeted her quite naturally as she mentioned having a rare rest day from work. He followed them to her, keeping just to the back of the group as he studied her.
“And I missed you guys.” Eyes wide with affection and excitement, she went as far as to hug any who’d take the offer. Just that? She was willing to brave his presence for some time with these scoundrels? Couldn’t they have arranged for something without him around? Wouldn’t she have preferred that or had Charlie guilted her into it?
“Ah, Ms. Ynna. Such a pleasure to see you in good health.” The serpent, ever looking starved for affection, was the last to accept her friendly embrace, his eggs following suit with a tap or wrap of thin arms around her legs.
As they pulled apart, the last barrier that distracted Ynna from seeing him fell away. Those big innocent eyes of her roaming over the crowd to ensure she didn’t dare miss any of her precious friends only to finally land on him.
As their eyes met, she paused. He swallowed. Anxiety and fear crept over the warmth she’d radiated, barely staved off by the force of the polite pull of her smile. She was still frightened of him, of the actions he’d done as he let lust rule his better judgement. Even the weeks he’d stayed away to give her space to find her anger, and to give him time to squash the very same desires that caused her to fear him, had been futile. For both of them.
See? She had no guts to even tolerate his presence now.
The scream returned. A shrill aching punishment of his mind’s torment over his own follies. He exhaled the breath he’d held. Be calm. Let the frightened woman control the situation. That was the proper way to assuage her apprehension. He waited. Yet, it was evident that she was too stilled by fear. Should he break the ice, then? A bit of chatter was preferable to this silent tension. It was a good thing that was where his talents lay.
“Hello there, dear.”
“…”
“…”
His smile plastered stonily on his face.
Dammit it all!
At this crucial moment, his silver tongue could only produce a clipped greeting, paralyzed by the different shocks of electric emotions swirling in his blood. The more he looked at those uncertain eyes, the more guilt flooded through him. And with that guilt, the same aching itch to hold her in his arms, pull her closer and feel her warmth seep into him soared with ravenous rebellion.
Still lustful. Ever longing. Eager to sink his teeth into her until her own hot blood pushed her to devour him in return. Even if she didn’t want it. But he was no beast. He was no beast.
“Alastor.” Thankfully, she found her voice. Testing. Hesitant. So small and vulnerable even in a room with all her allies. His shadow whispered how right she was, how with only a snap of his fingers, he could make it so it was only the two of them.
He grimaced at the shade’s implications and remained silent. Words refused to come out as he feared he’d utter something even hinting at the thoughts running through his mind. How soft she looked in her sweater. It made him want to run his hands over her shoulders, comb her hair until he found her ears.
“Weeeell then.” Charlie broke through the prolonged silence with a clap of her hands. “What movie are we watching? Did you choose yet, Ynna?” She turned her hopeful eyes at the goat, thinking to diffuse what she thought might be the start of another argument between them.
His dearest turned to the princess then, an apologetic smile on her lips. “Haven’t. Got choice paralysis.”
“Then I say we watch the Godfather!” Angel piped, swinging his long legs over the back of the couch to land squarely in the middle of the plush sofa.
“I vote for the Terminator. Who’sssss with me?” The snake hissed and his little egg bois each raised their hands.
“Hey, no fair. They aren’t impartial.”
“My little eggs reserve the right of individual choice. Hence, their votes count. Right, boys?”
“Yes, boss.”
“Aye-aye.”
“We had rights?”
“How about a heist movie? Ocean’s Eleven.” Husker voiced his suggestion.
Meanwhile, Niffty and Ynna turned their attention to the large collection of films. He watched the utter chaos of clashing opinions, remaining impartial. His interest no longer involved whatever screenplay they chose to fill this evening’s time with. Not when he battled with gritted teeth against the need to speak with Ynna and clarify that he meant her no more harm. That he was a man in control of his baser urges. That she had nothing to fear that he’d force himself on her again.
He breathed, slow and steady. He could do this. Yes. A Hedonistic creature that he was, he was still a man of principle. He would never dare to hurt a woman that way, let alone the only one he’d ever wanted. He steeled himself, tamping down on swirling desires with his leather shoe and approached the two women by the shelf.
Ynna stiffened, sensing him. He battled the roiling guilt in his gut with a wider smile.
“What seems to be the problem with choosing something to watch? I thought you’d be teeming with ideas.”
Ynna watched him with a wary side glance, keeping her eyes on the titles on the shelf. “Too many choices and I’m realizing I didn’t know everyone’s preferences before. It makes it hard to choose.”
In truth, he hadn’t expected her to respond, her tone neutral as she picked up a cartridge. Gentle fingers held the case as she read through the synopsis of the movie.
In the corner of his eye, he noticed the shadows beneath him stretch to reach her. Claws of shade greedy to touch as his shadow rejoiced seeing her.
He stomped on the dreadful thing with his heel. This exact impulsive need to touch was exactly why he hadn’t gone to see her. A part of him yearned too much to relive that evening, knowing that wasn’t likely to happen unless he’d practically drugged Ynna out of her mind before she’d give a semblance of consent.
He cursed the shadow just as it screeched at him in his mind.
“Well, do choose soon. Else, we’ll be spending the evening watching those guys argue instead.” With those words, he left without another glance. It was evident that he still needed time to tame himself.
Eventually, the crowd settled on a movie about a military jet pilot. Action for the boys, and eye candy, also for the boys, as Angel put it.
The movie was interesting with all the technology humans had built around flying and warfare being the most fascinating topic for him. This was a part of life that hadn’t made its way into Hell.
However, his eyes would occasionally stray over to his goat who’d chosen to sit on the far end of the couch from him, with Angel, Niffty and one of the eggs between them. She seemed tense though at times found herself immersed in the film before that tension came back. Could it be that even with this distance, his presence still bothered her?
Frustrated nausea gurgled in his stomach. What if he'd done more than he remembered to chase that lustful high? What if the desire he’d seen from her had been a delusion? It would explain her nervousness.
Or what if she’d felt slighted that he hadn’t taken responsibility for violating her in such a way because he’d all but disappeared after? Was he even more of a scum in her eyes now?
Or maybe she feared he’d leverage their deal for another evening like that?
More and more, the thoughts that had plagued him since that morning he saw fear in her swirled and bubbled bitter vomit in his veins. Of all the trespasses he’d committed against her, any of the above made him want to set himself on fire.
As the movie came to an end, the princess called a break. Everyone had wanted to watch another film but a quick toilet break was in order and refreshments needed to be restocked. As quickly as he could, without arousing suspicion, he slipped away down the hall to put as much distance between him and the person who stoked all sorts of fires wrecking his mind.
Perhaps, that was enough for one evening. Charlie would be satisfied that he’d participated in this little activity at all. It was best for his sanity, and Ynna’s, if he made himself scarce until he would be able to have a proper conversation with her without causing her fright or even more grievance.
Yes. That was probably the best course of action and—
“Alastor.”
He stopped walking as the slight breathless voice called him. Desires. Guilt. Frustration. Anxiety. All those pesky things froze with her call like a shot fired into the dead of night before they rose again with the beat of fleeting animal wings.
“Yes. What can I do for our dear guest?” He turned, plastering his best smile on his face.
Ynna stood there, catching her breath. In her eyes, apprehension and determination shone.
“I was hoping to talk to you. About what happened between us that night.” Slowly, she got the words out, cold steel creeping into her spine and giving strength to her voice with each word.
“Ah, yes. I had hoped to speak with you about that as well.” He could hear his heart speed up as he recognized that look—that same scolding but understanding look as she battled for words to remain civil and respectful in a situation where she didn’t need to be. What?
“Really?” She looked surprised and puzzled, momentarily thrown off as he tried his best to calmly receive her. “That’s good then. I haven’t seen you in a while so it’s been bothering me that something like that happened and we just never addressed it. It was…a lot.” Her face scrunched in frustration as she fought for words to express herself.
What was this? He’d thought she’d be more upset. Furious. Disgusted. Teary and afraid. Too much of any of those things to even try to hold a conversation with him and yet, here she was, sounding like she was brokering a truce.
All at once, that screaming guilt quieted to listen to its herald. There was relief in that. Perhaps, things weren’t as he’d thought and things could be repaired between them and settled. She wouldn’t bother with civility if she were hateful. Perhaps, the space he’d given her had actually helped him calm her some once again? Regardless, this was better than he could have hoped.
Hope?
His smile stretched as he tasted a bit of hope. Like forgiveness was on the horizon, or that that evening was something she’d wanted to be put in the past.
To forget it.
Click.
“I’ve actually wanted to apologize, Ynna. What happened that night, it was all my fault.” With a sweep of his arms, he bowed down a bit. Words tumbled past his lips before he could process the sudden chill that speared through his mind and froze everything in his chest.
To forget about it? All of it?
He suddenly didn’t want to hear anymore. Not if whatever she was going to say would still be some form of rejection, no matter how much he deserved it.
Notes:
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Sorry for the long wait. I didn't think it'd take this long to get a new chapter out but alas, I underestimated pregnancy brain fog~~~
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Chapter 46: Tired Souls
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Ynna’s POV
The moment you saw Alastor that evening, a chill threatened to crush the little stubborn courage you’d raised. He seemed kinda aloof, detached. His gaze shifted to a steely blank hue as his eyes passed over you. It almost made you miss the amused, if somewhat mocking, way he’d look most of the time.
The man hadn’t even seemed surprised to see you. Or maybe it just didn’t matter to him whether you showed up within his general vicinity or not. You imagined it wouldn’t be a big deal if he didn’t have a reason to care.
And it really was starting to feel like that. Your fingers clenched until your claws prickled your palms but you tried to smile just as usual.
Alastor seemed to notice your nervousness but instead of a snide too wide grin, he offered a short greeting. Clipped and polite compared to his usual theatrical delivery of even the most meaningless of things he’d say, as if to hammer in his disinterest in you.
You swallowed the prickles that rose on your tongue, grating every nerve on the way down as your stupid thoughts were confirmed. Because of what happened, his interest had shifted away from you.
Some part of you should have been relieved. He wouldn’t darken your door with cheery smiles filled with sharp teeth and words with even sharper barbs. Maybe he wouldn’t even care to have you bite him again–seeing you almost tear his throat out might have finally dislodged that sick obsession he’d had with the act.
Instead, you felt colder than when you’d stepped out of the rain. Colder and dirtier. Like all the suffering of the last few months had been for nothing.
“Alastor.” With a calm voice, you called just his name. An acknowledgment of his existence but without any ounce of sentiment, good or bad peeking through the syllables. For all the sweeping emotions in your chest, you were proud that you could take his lack of regard and return it in kind. A bitter victory, though small one you happily swallowed.
Charlie broke the tension that built between you two and you allowed yourself a moment of distraction as you retreated back to Charlie’s overly stuffed bookshelf with Niffty. You doubted you’d be able to pick something out with how tuned in you were to the red man you’d come today to talk to, but a moment away to gather yourself was what you needed.
It was stupid to feel hurt over someone who’d done worse by you. But feelings were like that, sometimes they made sense, other times, you hurt for all the dumb reasons. You sighed, fingers absently plucking a title off the shelf.
“What seems to be the problem with choosing something to watch? I thought you’d be teeming with ideas.” Alastor sauntered from behind, the clacking of his shoes dulled by carpet, but not enough for you not to hear every step. You internally grimaced at the casual tone of his voice, just a little too normal, lacking enthusiasm. Or maybe you were just imagining it.
You gave a short reply, not even really thinking about anything other than trying to calm the nipping bursts in your chest that flickered when he walked away. He just left like that, no further prompting needed. Like he didn’t care much.
Damn. You wanted to hit your chest. Dammit.
Throughout the movie, your mind flickered between action scenes and cliche plots to the man who’s static buzzed in the background. He seemed terribly bored, a distracted look in his eyes throughout the runtime. Likely, he’d leave after this one, having indulged Charlie’s whims enough for the day. You’d have your chance to speak with him then.
The movie seemed to stretch longer now that you waited for it to end, only the occasional interruptions of your friends drawing you back into enjoyment. But behind it all, you tried to think about what would happen. Alastor didn’t take kindly to being told off, brushed off or any sort of reprimand or denial. Would he be mad if you asked to write off that evening as a mistake? Even if he didn’t care much for it, would it sting his pride that you were the one to bring it up?
Well, too fucking bad. He’d stayed away too long and didn’t care enough to talk about it so you were going to. Because even if he could brush aside the kisses and touches and strange longing of that evening, you couldn’t. You wouldn’t let it hang and rot on the chains that still connected you to him. This one thing, you’d get some finality. Just this one thing.
Once the movie ended, you waited to see where he’d go, excusing yourself to chase after him as he skulked to one of the secluded hallways to elevators.
“Alastor.” You called, breathless and anxious as you noticed the signs of shadows engulfing his feet about to take him away. He tensed for half a second.
The man turned, stick-straight posture and unnervingly wide smile in place as he regarded you with curious eyes. “Yes. What can I do for our dear guest?”
“I was hoping to talk to you. About what happened between us that night.” Your tongue felt sluggish as your throat itched in apprehension for what was to come. Yeah. You really hated hard talks.
There was a glossiness to his gaze, the emotions in them hidden in the dim light. For a second, you remembered those days of looking at him and thinking only of how this Overlord could so easily crush you like a baked bean in his fingers. Yet now, you were more apprehensive of whatever his slick tongue would lash out. Emotional damage would just disappear here in Hell.
“Ah, yes. I had hoped to speak with you about that as well.” Unexpectedly, the sinister curve of his lips dipped and softened, eyes coming into the light as he leaned just a little closer until you could see him. Just a small tilt of his smile, and he resembled himself more than he had all evening.
“Really?” You swallowed in wonder.
“That’s good then. I haven’t seen you in a while so it’s been bothering me that something like that happened and we just never addressed it. It was…a lot.” Words couldn’t begin to describe how you felt about that evening. The terribly blatant desire that coursed through you as a sign of feelings you couldn’t suppress, the pain of your twisted relationship with him, the humiliation and anxiety that followed.
How do you even begin to breach the subject? You’d come here to get closure but of what sort? To know why things went the way they did? For the abandonment he treated you to after? They all seemed too minor when the real issue here was that you loved him and he would be cruel enough to use it against you.
Just that evening then. Straighten out the expectations between you going forward. That night, you swallowed thickly at the blush that tried to creep onto your cheeks, couldn’t happen again.
Lost in your thoughts, a broad sweeping gesture of his arm as he bowed brought your gaze back up to him from where it drifted over his shoulders.
“I’ve actually wanted to apologize, Ynna. What happened that night, it was all my fault.”
A ringing started in your ears, tingling surprise through your jottered body. Wait. Was he being serious? What?
“I’m apologizing, dearest. I’m saying that all that transpired was a result of my own inability to stop myself.”
Oh? Did your wonder at his gesture actually pass the guard of your lips? But you were still a bit stunned as you looked at him.
The solemn contour of shadows around him softened as the crease on his brows eased. Even the constantly arrogant curve of his lips smoothed respectfully, transforming the creature in front of you into something humble.
Humble? You never thought you’d ever see it on him. Even his apologies carried a backbone that barely bent down to admit his wrongs but now, he was even bowing like he’d committed a crime too heavy for his unflappable shoulders to carry.
“I’m afraid I’m not following?” While you did blame him for bringing you along to his cabin, he’d hardly touched you at all before you provoked him. In fact, his gaze never held the kind of sticky lick of someone too interested in another’s body. Well, unless it involved you eating him. And you went ahead and sat on his lap and bit him. So really, it was at least, partially your fault.
For half a second, his bottom lip jutted out, seemingly put out by your confusion before he schooled his expression back to serious. “There are a plethora of atrocities I’m more than happy to introduce any of the lowlife denizens of Hell to but forcing someone into such an intimate act, it’s not something I’ve ever condoned in life or in death.” His eyes narrowed severely as distaste colored his words before he bent at the waist, eyes downcast in humility. “So I deeply regret denying your pleas to stop that night. I acted as lowly as all the animals out there, letting lust cloud my mind from doing right by you.”
You don’t think you’d ever seen the top of his head before like this, with his antlers small and the dim light of hallway haloed demurely on his crown.
That thought floated through your head as his apology finally settled in your mind for what it was, genuine remorse. It doused the anxious flame in your chest that had lit your feet back to the hotel.
“Ah…Alastor.” Slowly, you called his name, like you’d destroy the scene in front of you if you were too hasty.
Red eyes met yours from beneath red lashes and you swallowed in their sharp sparkle. He was waiting patiently for you to accept his apology, or to agree that he’d indeed done you wrong.
Too bad, you couldn’t stand to lie to his face when he finally treated you with some sincerity, even if it was only because he’d crossed his own convoluted boundaries. “Yes, you did kinda ignore me when I said no, the whole evening to be honest, with you bringing me to your house and all that, but…” You looked into his eyes, finding steadiness in their focus. In that steadiness, you found ground. “…at the very end there, I’d be lying if I said I didn’t feel the same. It felt good, the kissing and uh... and I didn’t want to stop.” You hated the curl of heat that flickered briefly in your belly, the truth of it just as damning as ever. But you persisted, looking into his eyes with soft determination. “So it wasn’t all your fault. I’m also to blame since I went ahead and bit you. I’m sorry for that.”
“I’m the one who invoked the deal. And while what happened was a pleasure…mutually, it doesn’t justify how I acted. By my mother’s teachings, I should have stopped the moment you told me to.” His eyes widened, your apology knocking him back to standing straight as he looked mildly horrified at you. Like, he couldn’t imagine a girl could jump a guy. It had to be the man’s fault. Silly old timey man.
“It’s not like you’ve listened to me for all the other things.” Injecting a laugh into your voice, you let a smile tug at one corner of your lip to emphasize the irony of it all. That of all the things he’s done, this was where he drew the line.
Somehow, it was a comforting thought, like how you didn’t think he’d ever maim you, to know that he did have a line he wouldn’t cross. It shouldn’t have been a surprise. ‘A gentleman has to have standards.’ You mocked his voice in your head. That got you to genuinely smirk.
“Heh. True. Though I’d remind you that some of those ‘things’ are what you signed up for, and others, well, you know me, dearest.” Sharp eyes easily picking up your mood, he wryly threw this jab out there with just the usual level of sarcastic meanness.
“Yeah. Yeah. The great Radio Demon gets his way, whatever. Fuck you. My point is, the mistake was mutual and I’d prefer if we just forget that it happened. We were both feeling a certain way and things got out of hand.”
“Is that all? I’d thought you’d bite my head off for being so…” He waved a gloved hand trying to choose his words carefully. “…crass.”
“Biting you was what got us into this mess in the first place. And yes, I’m mad but I’m mature enough to own up to my partial fault in it. I should’ve known…” That biting was some kind of kink for him. You knew he was strangely fixated on you eating him so how much more had he felt when you went ahead and just threatened to rip a chunk out of him? Add your stupid feelings on top of all of that and it was bound to be a bloody disaster.
“Anyway, let’s just forget it happened and move on, please.” There was pride in keeping your eager desperation out of your plea, riding the lighter atmosphere.
You half expected Alastor to chuckle, his smile always so wide and mocking but instead his eyes remained steadfastly sharp but focused. Solemnly aglow atop the handsome curve of his lips. “If that is what you wish. I’ll respect that request.”
Awe pooled on your tongue at his consistent humility, finding it disarming—unnervingly charming and damn if your heart threatened to skip a beat. You swallowed and cleared the way to jibe a complaint filled with equal parts resentment and resignation. You couldn’t let yourself get pulled in by him. “We could have saved ourselves this conversation if you just respected my wishes to be left alone that night.” You rolled your eyes, turning a little sideways to signal your retreat.
For a second he seemed to hesitate before his smile stretched and a gleam brightened his eyes. He took a step forward. You took a step around. And soon you were matched in stride. “It’s precisely because you were more prone to reckless behavior that I did what I did. Imagine if some other wicked soul found you that evening?”
“…Fine. There may have been a chance of me getting jumped and it was my fault for not cooperating when you offered to take me to my place. In my defense, you were the last person I wanted to see.”
“I don’t think I’ve done anything recently that warrants that kind of sentiment.”
“You’re the one that’s done the most against me recently to warrant that sentiment.”
“I do know how to make an impact.” A slam of his staff on the carpet lit the sconces along the walls just a little brighter. Show off. “But for the sake of all the mistakes of that evening, I do apologize that things went as they did. You should know that I was merely concerned.”
“I understand. I overreacted too.”
Pretty soon you both returned to the living room. Belatedly, you realized that he’d returned with you. Wasn’t he about to shadow portal away, possibly not coming back for another round of movies?
His tall figure passed you, going back to where he previously sat, eyeing the bowl of popcorn Husk brought with him. The cat’s brows raised and his frown deepened and whatever they had to snark at each other about was drowned out by Charlie pulling you to choose the next movie.
With that, it was like a weight was lifted off your chest, the anxiety of weeks doused by familiar static and tandem footsteps. The way he talked, his humility. Maybe Alastor just didn’t know how to handle that night like you did so he was waiting for the right time to say something? Or maybe he was waiting for you to bring it up since he actually felt guilty?
Either way, he came back to watch another movie with you when he was about to leave. A smile curled tightly up the corner only your lips.
Your eyes drifted again to Alastor who was gently placing Niffty onto the arm on his side of the couch, her little legs kicking as her eye twitched. Someone had given her more sugar and you were willing to bet Alastor let her next to him because he’d be the least likely to stop her if she decided to pull out a knife. He’d find it funny if it happened.
A conversation from long ago floated through your head. Speaking of knives…
“So what’re we watching next?” Angel lounged, stretching his lengthy body over the sofa just barely invading Alastor’s personal bubble, the Radio Demon’s hand twitching to throw the mini menace next to him at the spider.
“Scream. Cuz some of us haven’t heard of horror movies.” You snorted, side eyeing a certain red clad man who crossed his legs primly like he didn’t hear you. The slightly narrowed squint and smirk he gave you flowed like a breeze right through your lungs, taking away the last of your exhaustion and replacing it with serenity.
You should have talked to him sooner.
——
As the film ended, your eyes couldn’t help but stray towards the other end of the couch, curiosity bubbling in you.
This happened to be one of your favorite movies, finding the in-universe trope mocking funny.
But Alastor seemed unimpressed, eyes drooped in boredom before he patted his lap and stood up.
“How about I make jambalaya this evening? Something to warm us up given the weather.” On cue, a clap of thunder reverberated through the sky.
That was it? No reaction? You almost pouted.
“How could you not enjoy it?” You asked just to stop him from leaving.
“It doesn’t take a detective to figure out who the killers were. They hardly made an effort to hide it.” With a twirl of his hand, you could imagine he’d roll his eyes if that weren’t too impolite.
“No way you figured out there were two killers. At best, Stu looked like the character that makes too many murder jokes and dies in tragic irony.” Fred agreed with you, mocking Alastor’s stance from where the Egg Boi stood up.
“As I said, predictable and therefore, not worth the paper it was advertised on.”
“Sir, I take offense.” You said in mock scandal. You honestly thought he’d at least find it funny to watch two teens stage a mystery killing spree, maybe even feel a sense of representation in film. “I thought you’d appreciate their flare for dramatics.”
“It was all they had going for them. Otherwise, they’re just juvenile attention seekers too sloppy to last long enough to actually hone their craft. They would have gotten away with it if they’d remembered to check for pulses. Rookie mistake.”
“Smiles has got a point there, toots. Any professional killer knows to keep their mouths shut until after the cement shoes are dry. Those two dumb fucks started stabbing each other without even getting at least one good hit on the girl.” Angel spoke from between you two, back straight like he was giving a lecture.
“And you would think that first girl would know how to use a kitchen knife, at least.” Niffty sniffed from where she’d popped out from behind the sofa.
“Okay, but realism isn’t the point here. It’s about suspense. The draw of a horror movie is trying to see who survives and how.” Now, you were baffled. Was everyone seriously too engrossed in judging the characters?
“Nah nah nah. It’s about how good the killer is, toots. Your suspense ain’t gonna sell if you know how the killer’s gonna fail. And those two, well, I like the costume and killing the school principal, but they couldn’t deliver. If their targets were a little smarter, they wouldn’t have gotten away with that rookie shit.”
“Precisely.”
“In fairness, seen worse knife work than that down here.” Even Husk chimed in.
“Regular Joe Schmoe down the street and would stab anything for a five and a quick hand job. Doesn’t mean they’d do a good job of it. These two looked like they planned this shit out but still tripped at the finish line.”
“Okay, you know what? We’re watching Silent Hill next. There’s a killer you can't judge.”
“Is that the one with the monster with a big sword?” Before you could nod, Angel manspread along the sofa with waggling eyebrows. “Cuz you know I got a thing for Big. Swords.”
Fondly, your eyes rolled as the chatter continued. While you’d intended to share one of your favorite movies with the group, you should have expected the silly discussion coming from a group who’ve probably killed more people than have died in the many movies you’d seen.
But watching them all talk, though the topic now moved on to suggestions for ‘realistic’ killer movies, a lull crawled through your system, massaging chuckles and careless laughter from you.
“All this watching has been a novelty but who’s up for dinner?”
“Oh me me me!”
“I am feeling rather peckish.”
“Sounds like a great idea, Alastor.”
“And what does our guest think?” Amidst the ascent of all present, Alastor’s red eyes found yours, his sudden pointed address stilling you for a second. The carefree softness of his eyes was deceptively pretty. If not for the ever present sharp glint of focus that carefully observed your every move, you’d have forgotten that this was today, not many months ago. His attentiveness was tinged with caution.
It struck the same chord as his humility did. A peace offering, for the evening that was going so well. For the continued peace after a heartfelt exchange.
Maybe you were also too tired, this calm intoxicatingly sweet. You offered him an exasperated smile in exchange, not wanting to seem too eager. “Just don’t make it too spicy this time.” For the first time in a while, you’d accept his invitation without struggle.
——-
And of course, because when has Alastor ever listened to you about how he prepares his meals, the hit of spice tingled on your tongue in viscous sinus-clearing heat.
“Damn that’s hot!” Even Husk, whose tastebuds were numbed from years of alcoholic oblivion exclaimed from down the table.
Niffty and Pentious turned red and dove for their water glasses. Charlie smiled with teary determined eyes while the Egg Bois had mini explosions from where they sat. It seemed only you, who barely hung on for dear life, Vaggie and Angel weren’t instantly KO’ed by tonight's jambalaya.
“I told you not to make it too spicy!” You couldn’t help but chastise as you breathed deeply. “It’s hotter than how you usually make it.”
“But that’s where all the flavor is and it’s so rare to see you nowadays. Why wouldn’t I pull out all the stops?”
“I taste lava!!!” Niffty screeched before shoving another spoonful in her mouth. Right. You only thought she had a sadistic side. You forgot that she liked pain.
Charlie was sweating while Vaggie calmly chewed. Angel took out his phone to take photos as red started to peek from under Husk’s fur. Niffty was still screaming between mouthfuls and chugs of water. All the while, Alastor sat elegantly watching the masochists try to shove down his food, his long fingers holding the spoon with a conductor’s touch.
The cheerful dinner sounds surrounded you and you took another bite with a smile masking a mild grimace. It had been a while since this place felt like home.
Alastor’s POV
It was a thing to marvel at. The first few words he spoke, while true, had been laced with an impulse to avoid hearing any words of rejection from her. But the moment they were out, shock replaced the apprehension in her eyes, making way for cautious relief and oh, how he’d never expected the way she’d let her guard down right after.
The way she looked at him, without contempt.
It was as if a switch had flipped in his mind, all manners he’d ever accumulated in his mother’s tutelage taking over his words, weaving fragility and sincerity into each muscle twitch like his life depended on it.
Maybe it had. Who knew what the result of tonight would have been had that selfish impulse not given way to sincere apologies? Another crack in the rubble of their relationship, a permanent rift that even he couldn’t fill with arrogant pressure and hopeful notions.
Bowing his head had been heavy on his pride but the resulting ease with which she addressed him had been worth it. Hearing her say that she’d enjoyed their activities, astounding. The playful way she’d suggested their next film, lightning through his veins threatening ideas and rekindling want in the pits of his stomach.
His shadow whispered the possibilities. If he would continue to lower her guard, show her more humility, sincerity. It didn’t matter if the next time wasn’t quite as heartfelt as this. If bowing his head made her soft and accepting, then maybe, they could possibly enjoy more things together.
He swallowed and stomped that thought out. No. He couldn’t risk it. Not anymore. If sincerity was the way to bypass the wall she had built against him, then he would wield it. But only in its truest form. No half truths. No agendas.
As the gaggle stood to turn in for the evening, small hands found Ynna, insisting she stay for the evening. Angel, hearing Niffty’s idea, proceeded to wrap his spindly arms around the goat, all but dragging her into his web of enticing gossip and fond company to get her agreement.
His shadow growled and griped at the many hands touching his goat only to be pushed into the back of his mind. It was still a wonder that not a word of insult had passed in the many hours since they’d spoken.
Ynna eventually agreed, three puppy eyes too strong for her to deny. Though she hadn’t looked too reluctant to stay. She was so comfortable. Had she truly let go of her grudge for the evening?
“Good night, Ynna.” He called to the group headed out, testing once again if her temper had returned.
Wide eyes turned to him one more time, cautious but soft. “Good night, Alastor.”
Simple. Soft. Polite with no other meaning if not for the valley of unsettled things between them. He couldn’t help but stretch his smile wide in response.
It was only as the reflective surface of the stainless steel table in the kitchen greeted him that he saw the expression on his face. A smile cracked widely at the edges. Gleeful, bordering on manic.
Haha.
Hahahhahaha!
Laughter echoed in static frequencies through his head. Through the kitchen. Rattling his chest until he could only hold himself upright by the same stainless steel reflecting his ugly relief back at him.
Relief? Yes, he was relieved. For weeks, for months, for so long it had felt like eternity, he thought he’d fucked it all up. But if he only bowed, actually begged for forgiveness like a sinner before God, then she would grace him with tenderness like before. Because she was, always was, such a sincere and naive little fool.
It was laughable. It was pathetic. He was pathetic.
If he could let go of his pride…but would he be able to do that? Every time he inevitably crossed a boundary that even her tolerance couldn’t handle? When just this much of a truce between them made him so ecstatic? When greedy thoughts rattled in the back of his mind, dark claws itching to carve themselves into sweet flesh so long as she was willing?
Water rippled through the silent echoes of his laughter, snapping him out of his haze. Right, he’d turned on the tap to wash the dishes before his tension had broken. Quickly, he shut off the water, snapping shadow puppets to clean up the mess.
Breathe in. Out. Bring back the composure that slipped in the strange turn of today’s events.
Right.
She gave an inch and he already pictured taking everything once again. Truly a beast in dapper clothing. He sighed, shaking the last of the jitters from his body.
This was enough. He could finally see a light at the end of the tunnel. She was showing grace to him after so long.
But for how long?
It would be inevitable that he’d tumble once again and she’d hate him all the same. At some point, even groveling would lose its effect, if he could even bring himself to grovel when anger and hurt were just as likely a reaction to her spite and ire.
Like ice, like a bucket of nails raining from the sky, his analysis killed off any delusion caused by his momentary lapse in composure.
For the kind of man that he was, she’d never feel the same desire for him that he felt for her. There was too much for her to hate in him for that. Too much that she’d turn away from if she could.
…but at least he still had the deal. No matter what happened, they would always be connected in some way. She was his, even if not in the way he’d wanted her to be. Was that enough?
A crack of porcelain pierced the air. The plate in his hand split into two pieces. One piece cut a slice across his finger. Without thinking, he brought the injured digit to his mouth, licking the cut until it healed, the image of her lips on the same finger burning him.
It would have to be enough.
Notes:
Finally! They talk! Well, kinda. Not everything's been settled but the most recent shock has been at least.
Hope you all are doing well! As always, I love to hear from you.
Chapter 47: Who Really Holds The Chain?
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
The lull of the evening was followed by a warmth, cloudy and fuzzy, drowsy with the rain. It was Charlie that tossed you a pair of pajamas, doing her best to support Niffty and Angel in keeping you in the hotel for just a few hours more. You honestly didn’t think they’d missed you so much.
Hugging your knees to your chest, you sat on the plush carpet of Angel’s room, watching Charlie debate curling her hair with Niffty while Vaggie meticulously painted Angel’s nails. The girls had gathered in Angel’s room, enjoying the last few hours of the day before sleep inevitably came. Pentious wanted to join in but he immediately lost interest the moment Angel suggested painting his scales since he didn’t have feet to give pedicures to.
If only Goss could join in. She’d love the buzz of the girls in their cute pajamas but the jellyfish was still skeptical about the hotel.
“This is nice.” With a tired breath, you smiled as you watched your friends.
“This whole day has been great!” Charlie exclaimed, escaping Niffty’s deft hands as she plopped down on the floor next to you. “I’m so glad you visited.”
“Me too. It’s been a while since I’ve been around friends.”
“Oh? Is everything okay? I thought you were doing really well out there?”
“I am! I mean, it’s just different. You guys, this place, it was the first time I’d felt at home after dying. So it’s got a special place in my heart, you know?”
“You’re always welcome to come back. We do miss you. Sometimes, I think even Alastor misses you.”
The mention of the man from Charlie drew your curious attention. Now that was new. “What do you mean?”
“Well, I can’t quite put my finger on it but he’s been a bit more…or I guess, less involved with the hotel. He still helps out a lot but it doesn’t feel like he’s enjoying it as much.” In response to her description, you threw in a raised eyebrow. You couldn’t imagine Alastor not being ‘professional’ enough to keep his poker face on. His smile was practically sewn into his cheeks making it hard for anyone to really understand what he was thinking. It was why it took you so long to understand that his interest in you was more because he found a fun toy and not because he thought you as a person were worth spending time with.
“I find it hard to believe that he missed me, if that’s what you’re implying.” Besides, you saw him fairly frequently aside from the last few weeks. He didn’t seem any different from his usual annoying self.
“I didn’t really see it either until tonight. I thought it was just because you two had a fight and you eventually left so of course, he was feeling a bit awkward since you two were pretty close. But he just looked happier cooking and hanging out with us tonight than he has been. And I think it’s because you were here.” The red dots in her cheek rose up on her face as she smiled wide. “I’m glad you two made up.”
“Whoa. Hold on there. First, we haven’t made up. We just had a little talk and came to a truce, for now. He’s still a dick and I’m still mad at him. Second, he hardly looks bothered about whether I’m here or not. Didn't you see how he kinda ignored me earlier?”
“I did. What’s been with you two anyway? I know you left because of him but why? Not that I want to pry if you don’t want to share but you…you don’t hold grudges and it’s been so long and you still say you’re mad at him. I can’t help but worry about what he did.”
“I—“ For a moment, you wanted to bring up the deal, how he lorded it over you when you refused to let his past manipulations go. But that was a futile endeavor. Your tongue was still tied. Then, you thought about how he treated Husk. Maybe you should tell Charlie about the abuse he endured under Alastor but the cat’s grumpy face floated in your head, a reminder to mind your own business unless you wanted Husk in trouble and to put the princess in a bind. You glanced at Charlie again, feeling helpless.
“It’s because she’s in love with him but Alastor’s a bad boy who hasn’t been whipped into shape yet.”
All heads turned to Niffty and you noted that Vaggie and Angel had been paying attention to the conversation too, even if they were pretending to be engrossed in nail polish. Your eyes widened in incredulity, briefly glancing over to Angel because there was no way anyone but he could know that about you. The spider shook his head quickly, denying letting your secret out which only confused the both of you more.
In another show of her observation skills, Niffty put her hands to her hips and rolled her big eye. “What? Like it was hard to figure out? I’ve been around him for a long time now so I’ve seen many people who’ve gone goo-goo eyed over him. What I don’t understand is why you two aren’t together. He clearly likes you too.”
“What the hell, Niff?” Angel said and you couldn’t help but agree. Had you been underestimating her this whole time just because she was small and childlike? You seriously needed to reevaluate your viewpoint of her.
Still, one thing she said struck out to you more than her revealing your heart to everyone in the room. “What makes you think he likes me? Is it because he and I hung out a lot before because I can tell you now, he just thought it was fun and you know how he is about his ‘entertainment.’”
“There’s that, obviously. But like I said, I’ve known him practically since I dropped down here. He likes to make big moves for shock value. He’s smart and plans things. What he doesn’t do is go on random killing sprees in the middle of the night and he definitely doesn’t let himself get caught on camera. But he did it that one time when someone bullied you. Isn’t that romantic?”
“He…” You were about to argue that he was just being a good friend, defending you and all that, but wouldn’t that mean he actually treated you as a friend? You shook your head. No. He…he probably wanted to be on your good side and he wouldn’t pass up a chance to make someone feel pain. Right?
“I’m also willing to bet that that really big radio broadcast he did was because of you somehow.”
“Hey, I didn’t tell him to do any of that. We weren’t even fighting then so that was all on him.”
“But I do remember you and him skipping dinner that night and you came home in the morning. So what were you up to all night if not something that made that bad boy do something bad? ”
“Niffty!” You couldn’t help but shout at her insinuation, your face heating up at remembering exactly what happened that night. The eating, the deal, the kiss—!
“Hey, hey. Easy now. She’s just teasing.” Charlie grabbed your shoulders and lightly massaged the growing tension in them. You hadn’t even realized just how tense you’d gotten in just the past few seconds.
“If you don’t want to share what’s going on with you two, then that’s alright. Sorry for prying. But I really do hope that you two can resolve it. So you both could be uh…happy.” The hesitation in her last word carried the hint that she agreed with Niffty’s observations while also bringing in her signature sweetness and caring.
“It’s fine. I was just shocked.” You managed to say, drawing back your surprise and even the little bit of anger that rose up on being exposed like that. You breathed and let it out, looking back up into Charlie’s eyes to reassure the princess that she didn’t overstep your confidence. However, apologetic as she was, her eyes still sparkled with a thirst for gossip, much to your chagrin.
You sighed. “But yeah, I did like Alastor, it's just, he doesn’t like me back, that way.”
“Are you sure?” A voice that was laced with something like accusation finally chimed in. Vaggie looked at you with a critical eye which surprised you. If anything, you thought she’d be the one most likely to agree that whatever fondness Alastor had shown you, it wouldn’t be the romantic kind.
“What else could it be?” Vaggie’s question raised your hackles.
It was bad enough that he was a cruel Overlord, trampling even Husk under his bespoke leather shoes, but he also trampled on your wishes time and again to be left alone, always insisting on his way. He manipulated your wish for friendship to feed his weird obsession with you eating him. He’d insulted you—called you a plaything straight to your face! How was that love?
Calling it love was just as baffling as still having feelings for the man after all of that!
Your turmoil must’ve shown on your face because in the next moment, Vaggie looked at you. The serious focus on her face as she shared her thoughts gave the impression that she’d pondered this for a very long time. “I’ve never known an Overlord to let someone insult them and not fire back. I thought for sure he’d do something when you left the hotel. Maybe not him, but he’s got his ways to get revenge.”
“So what? He hasn’t maimed me so that must mean he likes me?”
“I don’t know. But my gut says you’re something different to him.”
“He’s over a hundred years old, Vaggie. If he did have feelings like that, you would think he’d know how to approach romance. He’s a dramatic theatrical menace, for fuck’s sake! And I’m not exactly a complicated person to woo either.”
“Maybe he doesn’t. Who really knows what kind of guy he is?”
“I do! I…I—“ But did you really know? Could you really claim to understand why he did things the way he did?
A silence enveloped the group, all eyes watching you as your thoughts rattled this way and that.
“Okay!” With a loud clap, Angel burst the tense bubble. “Onto a different topic. Ynna clearly has feelings and she’s not sharing and it’s none of our business. Yeah? So Charlie, when are you and Vaggie gonna tie the knot? Haven’t you been together for a while now?”
“Angel! You can’t just ask people that kinda question! That’s rude and intrusive.” The abrupt and audacious question snapped you out of your thoughts momentarily to reprimand the spider.
“What? Every old lady I know asks this kinda shit all the time. Just because you won’t ask it doesn’t mean ya ain’t curious about the answer either.”
“Yeah. I don’t see the problem. How will it work? Will you both wear a dress or will one of you wear a tux? Can I be the flower girl?” Niffty chimed in, making a dive for Charlie’s lap to ingratiate herself to the princess.
Charlie and Vaggie laughed awkwardly and answered the two gossip queens as vaguely as possible. You inwardly grimaced for them before they found another topic to talk about.
As the attention shifted from you, your mind wandered, their words still echoing in your head.
You always explained Alastor’s actions as his selfish desire to have fun and stave off the boredom of the years passing by. You were just a novelty, something new. For someone as powerful as him, there was probably no one in Hell who could say they’ve eaten him. So maybe, he thought it was funny.
And maybe it turned him on, if what happened the other night was any indication. But…but say he did like you because of lust? He’s not stupid enough to not know how to woo a girl. He’s bitchy enough to comment on how men fail all the fucking time to read a woman’s wants and look down on them for it. Surely, he looked down on them from a place of superiority? Right? Right?
And he had his ways to force you to do stuff if that was really all he wanted from you…
…but he’d never force you to do something sexual against your will, would he? It was his bottom line he couldn’t bear to cross.
Grasping for understanding, you tried to recall everything, all the instances after your fall out, the fighting, the deal, being around each other, and one thing became clear—he’d only ever used the deal on you when you pissed him off enough. And the first time it happened…was when you said you hated him and never wanted to see him again.
A cold realization crept through your mind, like a clear sheet of ice over the lake of your memories, allowing you to view them without bathing in the emotions they usually drowned you in.
That you are my most treasured friend.
You are my dearest one.
I worry about you.
One by one, the pieces of the Alastor you knew before, your dearest friend and the one you fell in love with, slotted together with the him of now, tyrant and heart-wrenching menace. Both halves arrogant, observant, attentive and…eager to be next to you. Even when you were angry. Matching your energy.
What if he really didn’t know how to treat you better after everything? What if he didn’t know how to fix things? What if he still stuck around you despite how difficult you were being…because…
The pounding of your heart grew loud to your ears, echoing and echoing all through the late hours.
What was a peaceful night soon turned into a chaotic mental reset.
As topics moved around and chatter died down due to drowsiness, the pounding of your heart refused to cease drumming in your ears. While the others retired, either to their own rooms or on Angel’s floor, you stayed awake in agonizing thought.
If he loved you…
If he loved you…
The idea of him loving you taunted, making you reexamine each and every interaction in a new light and while everything still made sense if explained away as Alastor’s selfishness, it also looked just as plausible if one assumed that in all his years as a bachelor, Alastor turned out to be a romantic dumbass. Maybe it was both—that Alastor was a selfish bastard and a romantic dumbass.
Your ears buzzed in revelation, static clearing the more things started making sense. The man just seemed to know how to handle every situation to his advantage. His wit sharp, his movements flowing with power and grace. By all accounts, he just had the presence of someone who knew what to do. But it didn’t make his ignorance impossible. No. If you thought about his tendencies, the psychopathic nature beneath the suave elegance, it made sense if he floundered on genuine feelings.
And you, unable to sleep as you thought of all this, came to a realization. The pounding beat of your heart refusing to be unheard, wasn’t in fear of being mistaken about him. No. It was in excitement .
You glanced around you, noting the fast asleep Niffty, tucked next to Fat Nuggets in a pile while Angel dozed in his plush blanket. No one was awake to bounce your ridiculous thoughts off of. No one there to validate how utterly stupid it sounded, feeling excited that a psychopath might love you.
Feeling hope.
“Hnggh.” A helpless squeak sounded from your lips as you looked at Angel.
This wasn’t right. There were so many reasons not to feel this way. So why did a few words from your friends shake your view of Alastor to its core so easily?
You got up quietly, feeling suffocated by the comfortable slumber of your friends who’d thrown you into this thought pit. Maybe some fresh air would help. It probably wouldn’t clear things up but if it could calm you down so you could sleep on these thoughts, then you would take it.
This late in the evening, every creak of the old hotel seemed to grate painfully on your ears. You tried to tiptoe through your walk, afraid of waking anyone up. Dim hallways and dusty corners passed by you as you drifted through, unable to note them as your mind churned and churned through all the reasons you had for Alastor. Why you loved him. Why you hated him. What you wanted from all of this.
Well, you knew what you wanted. It just didn’t seem like a good idea.
Eventually you passed by the empty bar, making your way to the balcony on the second floor of the lobby. Before you could see your destination, a cool breeze swept past you. Surprisingly, the balcony door was open.
Cautiously, you walk up to it, your eyes taking a moment to adjust as the warm light of the hotel faded back against pitch black and Heaven’s ethereal glow with a lone figure staring stark against their background.
“Husk?”
The rains had stopped, giving way to a clear night sky. Under the white moon-like light of far off Heaven, Husk stood leaning against the railing, a glass of whiskey in hand and a cigarette.
“Kid.” Voice rough with languid tiredness, he tossed you a glance before looking back out over the balcony.
You walked up to the old man until you stood next to him. From here, you looked out onto Pentagram City, its neon lights dimmer now as some areas had closed for the evening. From this distance, the bustling sounds of nightlife that you’d grown familiar with didn’t reach you, giving a sense of peace that was the exact opposite of what was happening over there.
Or maybe the constant chaos was Hell’s version of peace.
The two of you stood, silently overlooking the city.
“Am I disturbing your quiet time?”
“Nah. Unless you suddenly want to start a party up here or something.”
“No. I just needed some fresh air.” He didn’t respond to you, taking your answer as a request for silence.
A cool breeze swept past again, ruffling your hair and cooling your head somewhat though it didn’t stop the churning thoughts. Your eyes flicked over to the silent man next to you as he took a puff from his cigarette. You tried not to scrunch your nose as the smoke wafted your direction. He seemed nonchalant, at peace, drinking for pleasure rather than trying to drown out his woes.
How could he be so easy when he carried a heavier collar than you? How many years of gritting his teeth had he done that living under the same roof as his former friend and now owner didn’t make him want to commit murder? How would he feel, being the only one who knew your troubles, if he found out what you were thinking of?
Guilt and shame bubbled up in your chest, true spears that stabbed down any hopeful notions in your heart. Here stood one of the biggest reasons why you shouldn’t fall for Alastor. Your friend stuck in a miserable situation. Proof of the Radio Demon’s cruel nature even if he’d initially shown favor.
The air suddenly felt like ice shards in your lungs.
“What’s on your mind, Kid? You’re making a funny face over there.” His rough voice tinged with alcohol brought your eyes back to him from where they’d unconsciously strayed to the brick floors below.
“I don’t know if I should answer you honestly.” You offered, hinting at the shame that ate at the corner of your heart.
“Is it about him?”
“What gave it away?” Always quick to the point. A wry chuckle curled on your lips.
“He was smiling.” A similar curve slanted on Husk’s face as he sipped his drink though the slight haze of relaxation in his gaze had lifted as he watched you.
“He’s always smiling.” You rolled your eyes.
Husk didn’t say anything though his eyes implied that you knew what he meant. You contemplated playing dumb, not wanting to say something that could possibly offend the older man. Especially when he was like this, a good friend offering his mind and time just because he noticed something was off about you.
But in that same vein, you couldn’t quite bring yourself to hide from him. He’d see right through you, he was quick like that. and that felt worse than just coming out and saying something unthinkable to him. You sighed, bracing yourself for his judgement and maybe losing him as a friend.
“Would you mind if I ask a stupid question? I won’t if you’re not in the mood to deal with my emotional shit.”
“How bad is it?”
“Pretty bad.”
“Hit me with what you’ve got.”
“I’m in love with Alastor.” You watched him warily, trying to read his expression but found only an excellent poker face in place. “And I think he might feel the same.” Still nothing. You swallowed the last of your fear and plowed on.
“And after all he’s put me through, even though I’m still mad, I still want him. Aren’t I stupid?”
Husk’s yellow eyes remained impassive, staring right back at you as if waiting for more. But there wasn't any more. You’d already given him the signal to berate you for what amounted as a betrayal to him, your fellow in misery over Alastor.
He turned from you and looked back out onto the horizon, inhaling another puff of smoke and watched it drift to your face. You’d have thought it was some small punishment for what you just confessed but his eyes remained the impassive unreadable gleam.
Finally, he spoke, words as smooth as whiskey and smoke. “The thing about emotions, Kid, is that no matter how old you get or how smart you are, you can’t control them. Best you can do is control how you react to them. Keep a straight face and play your hand.”
You could practically hear the ticking of a clock in your head as you tried to understand what he meant. It couldn’t be that he just told you to do whatever, right? To react however way suited your goals. That…wasn’t that way too selfish?
“Would you be mad if I went after him, then?” It was almost challenging how the question came out, like you were daring the man to get mad at you, be disappointed in some way, give some word of wisdom. Instead, he offered you a wry smile and you had to swallow back your doubts to convey the guilt you felt.
“…Why’re you asking me?”
“Because you’re my friend. I know how he treats you so I don’t want to betray you by going to him.”
“Listen, Kid. You can’t solve my problems so the least you could do is not make them your own. And I get why you’re asking me. I do. But I don’t want to be the excuse you use when you make a decision and regret it.”
“Aren’t you gonna tell me not to do it? That it’s a bad idea and I’ll definitely regret falling for him?”
His smile turned to a chuckle weighed down by years of experience. “You know why I like gambling, Kid?”
“Cuz it’s a thrill?”
“Exactly. And the reason it’s a thrill is because there are stakes. You win and you lose and you never really know what that means until you’re done. Maybe if we were up top, I’d say be careful. You only got one life and all that. But down here? Heh. So what if you make one mistake? I can guarantee it won’t be the worst you’ll make when you’ve got an eternity ahead of you.”
“That’s bleak. It’s like you’re telling me I’ll only ever make the wrong choices.”
“And you’ll never really know if those wrongs end up bringing you to the right place.” For a moment, the deep set of his tired eyes softened, looking beyond you, before he looked into yours again, still serious but gentle.
“The best advice I can give you is that you do what you want. Everything will try to bring you down in our neighborhood so you can at least be happy, even if you regret it later. And if I have a problem with what you do, I’ll let you know if it matters enough.” Meaning he’d keep it to himself if he thought it wouldn’t bring any good, or if he gave up on you anyway.
In the end, it wasn’t really the answer you were looking for from him. But it was honest advice. A tiredness seemed to seep into your bones then.
“You’ve given me a lot to think about. But somehow…” You breathed out, surprised by the calm settling into your chest. “I actually feel a lot better. Thanks, Husk.”
As the words left your lips, something clicked into place—like the noise of all your doubts had finally quieted, leaving behind only clarity.
“Need a drink for that?”
“No.” You smiled, standing in the eye of the storm of your feelings. The wind had stopped howling. The lightning had gone quiet. “I’m good.”
You inhaled deeply, letting the crisp night air fill your lungs.
——
For how late you ended up going to sleep after your talk with Husk, you were also the first one awake. The three other occupants of Angel’s room snoozed, happily snuggled together in their own spots. At some point in the evening, Fat Nuggets had migrated to your side. Feeling your movement, beady black eyes opened and you gave him a gentle pat on the head to prompt him to go back to sleep.
Last night’s revelation and decision occupied your mind but unlike the near panic you had in the beginning, only a cool determination set down.
You loved him and you wanted him. If he wanted you too, if he could treat you better, then it wasn’t wrong to pursue that happiness.
But you needed two things for that to work. First, he needed to love you back. Which, you were about eighty percent sure about. At the very least, you mattered more than he’d care to state. Second, you couldn’t be with him with the current situation you were under. What you wanted wasn’t just mere lust but his affection, his attentiveness, the feeling of being able to trust him like you did so long ago. You couldn’t have that while the deal was still in place.
You got up and gathered your clothes, making your way to the bathroom to quickly freshen up.
Love and trust. That was what you wanted. A secure place by his side where you both were happy. You thought it could work. If anything, you’d previously been okay with indulging his weird fixation on being eaten. You could be okay with it now too.
You spat out after brushing your teeth. Hmm. After all the instances where you’d bitten him, and knowing that you’d eaten him more often than you’d thought, the idea wasn’t nearly as revolting as it was in the beginning. Especially once you remembered how worked up he got when you bit him. Blood flooded to your cheeks and a familiar ache covered your teeth.
Yeah. Biting him and eating him wasn’t so bad.
God, you’d really turned away from the light, haven’t you?
You smiled wryly at your reflection in the bathroom mirror before leaving to go hunt down your deer. He was probably down in the kitchen making breakfast.
To speed up your trip, you decided to take the elevator even though it was only one floor down. Tapping your foot, you wondered if Charlie ever fixed the elevator music to something more modern. The aesthetic of the hotel was already pretty old and the default elevator music made using the thing just a little bit more suffocating.
A sweet ding later and the doors opened…to a mildly surprised deer demon. Wow. That was quick.
“Good morning, Alastor.” You tried your best to give a cheerful but not too enthusiastic greeting, feeling just as surprised as the man seemed to be to see you first thing in the morning.
“Good morning. Going down, my dearest?”
If you buy me a drink first. You bit your tongue as the quip popped up, surprising yourself with how quickly you’d changed from caution and hatred to flirting. “Yes.”
“Then would you like to accompany me on a short walk there?” Though he talked with his usual confidence, there was just a slight hint of tentative apprehension mixed in there. Too small for anyone to notice but you were paying more attention to him now as you tried not to blurt out your feelings to him.
Given how messy things were between you, it would take some finesse to smooth things over.
“Sure.”
As usual, he offered his arm and for once, you took it. The light flinch of muscle beneath the fabric of his coat showed how he hadn’t expected that. You wondered if you were being too forward since it was only yesterday that you two started some kind of truce.
As you moved to take your arm back, his hand gently tapped it back into place before tugging you forward to begin your walk. It wouldn’t take too long to get to the kitchen from here—five minutes at most without the elevator.
Those five minutes started awkwardly, both of you too unused to the contact after so long at war. It was kind of amazing that it was happening at all, really. It was just that the chatterbox man remained quiet that you felt it was too awkward. You glanced up at him, finding his face blankly nonchalant unlike you who had nervousness bubbling in your belly. Looking ahead you tried to focus on the positives. Alastor offered his arm. He greeted you good morning. Everything was going well so far and you wondered if it could have been this way had you accepted his offers of politeness more often in the last few months.
Well, your resentment at the time wouldn’t have let you do it.
You decided humming a tune would be a good way to pass the silence. It would sweep away your nervousness at least.
It wasn’t too long until your steps synchronized, each one loosening just a little bit of the tension between you two until you fell into a familiar rhythm. His strides weren’t as long and you didn’t walk as fast. There was a clicking of dials before a soft tune started playing from his staff, filling in the last of the unwanted silence. It had the bonus of shooing away the last of your tension, and his too, as his smoother strides suggested.
The hallways were lightly lit by the breaching morning light and you were transported back to better days. Walking side by side, an easiness in your companionship that felt natural. Soft music and the light tapping of heels on carpet. A light atmosphere unsuited for Hell.
A satisfied smile curled on your lips and you chanced a glance back up at Alastor, finding his own grin curled higher, a sign that he too was enjoying this short walk.
“It’s been a while since I’ve been here. Makes me feel a bit nostalgic.”
“Yes. It was quite unexpected that you’d stay away for so long. I thought you’d at least want to check in with Charlie. The dear girl was just so devastated that you’d left.” His voice tinged with light mocking, just a gentle jab at you for running away from your problems with him but it was a precise jab to be sure. Ouch. You knew you’d neglected your friendships here while trying to build your life out there but damn. He didn’t have to point it out.
“…Don’t be mean. It’s not like it was my fault I had to leave.” You pouted and sighed. You knew his mouth couldn’t help but mention something irritating. “Man. Here I was trying to start a nice conversation and then you went ahead and ruined it.”
Your honest reprimand seemed to startle him and his smug face morphed into something apologetic. Well, as apologetic as he could get with a not-guilty smile on his face. “Do forgive me, my dearest. I’m just teasing you a little. It’s quite surprising that you seem to be a little ray of sunshine today. I’m almost not used to it.”
“Tease a little less and maybe I can be a bright and happy little sinner more often. I was actually enjoying this morning, you know.”
“And it is so strange. You are actually smiling.” You stopped walking for a second, catching the shift in his tone, suspicious and confused, as if he’d been bracing for your snark despite how quiet last night had been.
“I just didn’t feel like fighting you today. A ceasefire is nice once in a while.” You answered him truthfully. There was little will in you to irk him when all you wanted was to move your relationship to something different and happy.
“How about I show you something nice to make up for it, hm?” Sensing the sincerity in your voice, and maybe feeling a little awkward for ruining a nice moment, he offered a concession.
“What do you have in mind?”
The arm supporting you tightened its grip slightly and the familiar plunge of shadowy darkness engulfed you both for a second, only to be replaced by a clear red sky and dots of red and yellow and green. Your breath caught for a moment, seeing your garden for the first time in so long.
Your arm fell away from his as you walked forward to inspect everything. It wasn’t in the best condition—some of the plants look under-watered with browning tips and droopy eyes. Some critter dug a hole under one of the planter boxes.
But there were surprisingly no weeds, just your flowers growing wildly in place, sprinkled and sparkling with dew drops and last night’s rain. The dead carnation buds withered under fresh new blooms and some of those new eyes blinked back at you as you brushed a finger over their red petals. Despite how long you’d been gone, they seemed to be doing alright. About as well as you’d expect them to be under amateur hands.
“I must admit, the puppets don’t really know how to garden but I’ve had them come through and make sure everything stayed alive, at least.”
“You’ve been taking care of them?”
“Me? Oh, no. They would wither if I so much as touched them. I just sent a few of my minions to do some maintenance. They are part of the hotel grounds, after all. Though neglected since you left.”
You turned a critical eye at the blooms. With the recent rain, these would be alright for a while. The soil quality seemed good and aside from that one critter hole, the plants were secure in their places. He’d done about as well of a job with the upkeep as he could given he didn’t take any interest in gardening whatsoever.
It touched a part of your heart. This wasn’t something you’d expected from him. In fact, you wouldn’t have been surprised if all your little beauties were left to wither and rot since no one in the hotel took interest in them like you did. But Alastor took the time, small effort that it was to him and it was just another reason that strengthened your resolve.
“Haha. Well, I hardly expect you to do the dirty work. It would muddy up your oh so busy Overlord schedule.” There was a hint of gratitude in your tone as you spoke, looking back to find the man standing there watching you with an unreadable expression. It softened ever so slightly as he caught your words, as quick as always.
“Just think of it as me branch ing out.” A chuckle escaped your lips as you approached him and offered your arm this time, a gesture he took after a curious moment, bringing him along back into the hotel and down the halls to the kitchen.
“I’m grateful. I was a little sad thinking about how they could die not long after I just planted them. Would have been a waste.”
“I suppose I’m glad I took the time to look after this patch in your absence, then. Does this make up for being a little rude earlier?”
“It’s doing a lot to stem my irritation, that’s for sure.”
“What a re- leaf .”
You both chuckled at the silly exchange. How refreshing it was to be able to fully enjoy throwing puns at him. To be able to walk around without the burden of resentment weighing on your heart whenever his charm tried to lighten it. To be here, listening to the old-timey music and finding your corner of peace once again. And even Alastor seemed just as at ease, his hand on your arm settled comfortably as he took to humming to his music.
It would fill your heart to the brim to spend your days like this with him.
“Hey Alastor,” You whispered, voice as light as your heart felt at the moment. “What do I have to do for you to end the deal?”
The music stopped with a harsh scratch, the man next to you going stock still.
Fuck.
Before you could turn to clarify your meaning, you were pulled into a doorway, one of the unused rooms in the hotel. The door slammed shut behind you and you found yourself face to face with a smiling Alastor. Though it was a smile filled with malice, brows furrowed and teeth glinting in the shadows on his face.
The temperature seemed to drop a couple of degrees, caging you where you stood though the angered entity stood a few yards away.
“Al—“ A flash interrupted you as glowing green manifested in the scant meters between you, connecting your neck to his fist. Well, you shouldn’t have expected this conversation to be easy.
In front of his menacing intimidation, you kept your expression neutral, not letting irritation seep into your brow no matter how much his reaction stirred it.
“I was wondering what was with you this morning. Is this why you’re suddenly so cordial, my dear? Come to sweetly beg to be let out from a contract you so foolishly signed?” Tauntingly sweet, politely insulting but beneath all that was something that roiled. He was angry. The kind of irritation that bordered on rage but kept in check only because his smile radiating its flame was far scarier than if he’d started shouting.
To ask to break the deal seemed to have really hit a nerve with the man. Given how quickly he’d reacted from calm and pleasant to this. So much for finesse.
Despite the sudden turn in mood, his reaction further spurred your confidence that he’d become attached to you, to the point of wanting to keep you attached to him as well.
God. How stupid have you both been?
“I think we should end a contract that’s causing you and I grief.” With a level voice, you tried to explain. “Listen, Alastor. I’m not mad at you anymore. I understand that from your perspective as an Overlord, control over the souls you own is the only way you stay on top. I don’t like it, especially with how you treated Husk, but I get it.” Because that had been the last straw hadn’t it? When you thought he could treat you with the same cruelty as any other poor soul he owned, no matter what favor he showed. That you didn’t matter enough to be above that in his eyes.
But that wasn’t the case, was it?
“So what makes you think this contract of ours is causing me grief?” The corner of his mouth raised in a sneer, eyes going half-lidded like he thought you’d said the most foolish thing. “Or that I care about receiving your forgiveness for that matter?”
“Because you care about me.” Confidence bloomed in your chest the more upset he got. Your hand reached for the chain that bound you to him, fingers curling around the thick links, holding them tightly. They felt surprisingly light to you.
“Tsk. Again with thinking too highly of yourself.” He scoffed.
“But am I wrong?”
Your eyes met his briefly, challenging him to deny you as you tugged on the chain, pulling as hard as you could.
The man in front of you never anticipated it, becoming unbalanced at the sudden force, his own hands wrapped in the chain pulling him down to you. He managed to catch himself just before his body crashed into yours, leaving only a few inches between you.
His eyes widened, startled into dropping his menace.
“You wouldn’t be holding onto the other end so tightly if you didn’t care about me getting away.” He was so close that his body heat faintly reached you. Or maybe you were feeling a little flustered at the proximity. Still, you smiled on, feeling triumphant at bringing him to your level.
He tried to pull back but your other hand gripped onto his lapel, bringing him even closer so that you could hear his breath hitch. “You wouldn’t let me touch you so casually if you didn’t like me.”
You looked into his eyes, and they were ever so pretty as they shook under your pressure. The sharpness of his smile turned wobbly and his horns grew in agitation but he stood still, breathing the same air as you though he had the strength to pull away. You’ve never been so sure now about how he felt about you.
“And you’ve never lied to me before, have you?” Though you still weren’t inclined to believe that he had always been truthful, you did know that he was a man of contradictions. A gentleman and a killer. A man with principles but a tyrant. So many, in fact, that it really wouldn’t be so surprising if he had been honest, never stating anything false, but not necessarily innocent. A bad man like him would’ve wrapped his words around themselves to suit his agenda. You smiled at him—innocent and taunting, with a hint of fond exasperation as you finally understood what his version of honesty was.
Your fingers nudged themselves into the gaps between his, still holding onto the chain. Somehow bringing you closer even if the meager distance between hadn’t diminished. You smiled wider. He still didn’t pull away.
Above you, his face remained frozen, eyes still wide and caught between a gasp and a shout, like you’d dug your nails into his ribs. Like you’d pulled the honest truth out of the depths it was buried in and he could only watch in wonder.
He licked his lips, brain seeming to reboot under your onslaught and you resisted the urge to watch it, keeping your eyes on his so he could see your sincerity as you patiently waited for his answer. Would he deny everything? Would he pull back?
Instead he breathed slow, his breath ghosting over your cheeks just enough for you to realize he’d leaned in closer. In a low voice, whisper-soft as if to cushion the blow of his words, he confessed. “Never outright lies, except once.”
Your next breath held a hint of his, filling your heart as the truth in his words registered. You were right. He may have danced around the truth but never truly lied. Except once.
“When?” You whispered just as softly, matching his volume, coaxing him gently so as not to startle. The fingers tightly gripping your chain loosened, fastening around your own with a delicate shiver. Was he afraid to say it? You would have comforted him if so, and reassured him.
But his gaze deepened the more he stared, determination and something real darkening the red of his irises to wispy black smoke.
“You aren’t just a plaything or a parasite. You never were.” In the buzz of his static and gentle caress of his voice, regret and repentance echoed. Not just for the insult. But for the betrayal. For the heartaches. For all the things he did. You could hear the unspoken apology and feel the warmth sprouting freely in your heart. Over the ashes of grudges and the cracks left by doubts.
“I forgive you.”
And then that warmth became all encompassing.
Your lips met somewhere in the middle though you couldn’t remember how it started. Dry and feverish but soft, so very soft. The press of his lips felt so precious, too delicate for more than a firm but gentle push of your own. Your hands found his chest feeling the subtle thudding in his ribcage that matched your own, racing faster with each beat. Gloved hands cradled your face.
Neither of you moved, just breathing in the moment. Heat passed from one body to another, echoing in comfortable resonance. The first breath you took as you both pulled away still carried the notes of his scent, coffee and paper and something from so long ago worth keeping no matter how old.
Everything seemed filled with a haze, fuzzy around the edges but focused on a half-lidded red gaze. The blacks in those eyes smoldered low and soft, bewitched by a brush of lips and many regrets that crumbled in the haze. He too, looked like he would crumble, burn away into ash if he held on any longer.
And the warmth in your heart felt like it would eat you too if you missed the moment—if you missed him. Your claws itched to hold onto him tighter, but it was too early to ruin his suit. Though the way he was looking at you didn’t seem like he’d begrudge it.
“Our relationship may have started out with your impure motives and you’ve hurt me a lot since. But I don’t want to fight with you anymore. I want to wipe it all clean and have an honest relationship with you going forward.” If you could have stepped closer, held onto him tighter, anything to convey the desire in your heart all the more, you would have shown it. But your hands could only hold onto him so much when you could feel him tremble beneath your touch.
“Let’s start over, Al. End the contract.” A plea for a future just as precious as this moment. You hoped he could see that too, in the way his pupils shook and the way his hands seemed to want to hold on.
But he let go, agony in his eyes even as his face turned cold.
“I can’t bear to, my dearest.” His figure melted into shadows that slipped through your fingers.
Notes:
Yay! I can't believe I managed to get this out so quickly. It was almost 8K words! But I've been so excited for this scene that I even drew it. Finally! Moving in another direction for both of them! Ynna wants her deer boy! But Alastor is running away! WHY!?!
As always, I wish all my lovely readers a safe and healthy time. I'd love to here what you all think of this new development.
Chapter 48: Game On!
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Alastor’s POV
It burned.
Something seething and ravenous, groaning medleys that swirled too fuzzed in static for him to understand. The smoke filled his lungs—suffocating and compelling him to gasp for air.
In the sanctuary of the kitchen, he breathed, feeling the faintest sparks ignite on the tip of his tongue from the lingering scent of his beloved on his lips.
Insanity is what it was. Utter recklessness that she mistook in her naive calculation.
Breathe in. Breathe out.
Over and over again until he could no longer taste her in the air. Until the immaculately cleaned stainless steels and wood of the kitchen was all he could sense, dousing the many many emotions coiling in his head.
Finally, he slumped against the kitchen sink, reigning in the upset of this morning to view with a clearer mind. It had started off quite optimistic, the mood of last evening carrying over as evidenced by the almost friendly demeanor she sported in front of him. A miracle by all means. It had been so long since he’d seen her genuinely calm when addressing him.
And that calmness of hers seemed like a paved road that he walked on, following her lead to cater to whatever friendly whims had taken her. Calm. Peace. Not cloudy a mimicry of times long gone between them but an actual experience that ignited a thrumming of warmth and excitement.
True progress. He thought he’d finally made it and all it took was for him to bow his head. Costly, for sure. There were so few in Hell he’d afford that grace for and the weakest of them—the most precious—was showing him the greatest payoff. He was tempted to do it again if it sweetened her demeanor so.
Yes, immersed in the rhythm of their footsteps, the thrumming pleasantly warming his chest, and the sweet slightly off tune humming beside him, he’d felt at peace.
Only for that moment to prove illusionary.
He breathed again, removing his gloves to catch the long cooled warmth of her lips on his fingertips. Static crackled at the touch causing him to pull away.
Sweet. Indulging. Oh, so wide-eyedly sincere. She looked up at him with her plea, and all at once, he’d lost himself.
She had been so close, so confident and unafraid even as the chains glowed green on her neck. He’d been caught in her damning gaze, as lovely as his fleeting dreams and lost reality had been, and his senses were filled with her scent and warmth. How quickly he’d been disarmed, softened by her whispers into falling for her pace.
And then she’d had the gall to extend him forgiveness, the words sounding too sweet in his ears that he’d needed to taste them from her mouth; and she’d offered it—practically raised herself for him to drink that cloying scent of deceit from her lips.
He wouldn’t admit how his knees felt like buckling in her gentle assault, that moment feeding a void that had long gnawed at his insides, since his presence became the bane of her existence. Since he’d stopped receiving her fond smiles and effortless affection. How it had starved and ravaged his insides and mind! That he’d fall for such blatant temptation!
Yet, he couldn’t bring himself to shatter the kiss with more than a tentative press of lips, feeling electric sparks shoot through his veins over and over until they snapped embers into flames and he’d realized, this couldn’t be happening.
She’d asked him again to let their deal crumble into dust. And though there was rage boiling in his head at her audacious request, he couldn’t bring himself to spit snide remarks when she’d looked so sincerely at him.
“Hah. Hah! Since when was she so cunning?” He moved then, eyes scanning over his station to grab instruments to work with.
A menacing presence made itself known beside him, pitch black save for the sharp outline of eyes and even sharper teeth. His shadow spat out in fury, hissing its desire to grab the woman by her neck and truly indulge in this ‘forgiveness’ and ‘fresh start’ she offered. To take full advantage of her trickery so she’d regret trying this tactic on him, of all people!
They both sneered. Even the thing, in its simplistic desires, couldn’t believe an ounce of that saccharine sincerity.
It was too lovely. Too tempting. And therefore, “Too good to be true.” The words dragged out of his mouth with a mocking laugh.
“If sincere apologies and a show of humility were enough to gain her forgiveness, I wouldn’t have even thought to use our deal so drastically. It was she who wouldn’t accept our apologies. It was her that said time and again that she hated us!”
No matter our patience. No matter our grace. Always driving us to the edge until we inevitably fulfill her low expectations of us.
His eyes followed the minor manifestation of his soul. The shadow swirled around him, an eerie trail of tendrils akin to the muddy whirlpool in his stomach.
“She has no reason to forgive us. No reason to truly want anything from us. The only thing we have is the deal.”
The only solid connection that would never fail him in keeping her—her scowls and spite, her pitiful beautiful anger—by his side. The cruelest contract she’d probably ever signed: to be chained to him because…he couldn’t bear to let her go. Even in her meanest, most hateful tongue, he found a semblance of comfort that trumped decades of decadence. That feeble connection was too important to break for a sliver of a chance at redemption. He couldn’t risk it.
But still, his insides churned. How dare she lie to him? How had she known to tempt him so? Hadn’t they just established keeping a more clean relationship after their heated fiasco? Or was it that she read into it, finding the clues of his desire and obsession that he’d tried to hide behind grotesque whimsy, dubious propriety and resigned tyranny?
It was laughable, and his harsh chuckles echoed in the empty kitchen in harmony with the screeching static in his chest. How cruel of her, if that were the case. How…hellish.
“If she wants to play the way demons do…” He smiled, hand reaching for a knife and digging it into the grey flesh of his arm without hesitation. The pain shot flares of fire that ate away at the static. The kind of toe-curling, scream-enducing pain he’d gladly cleaved in another soul that crossed him now ripping through his own body, but the thought of her eyes dulled his senses. His shadow brought over a plate, angling it to catch the bloody chunk of flesh his knife carved out in obsessively neat cuts. His teeth didn’t even chatter as the last fiber was severed, blood spurting from a nicked artery onto the once pristine kitchen floors.
“…let’s see if our dearest can choke down what she’s bitten off.”
Ynna’s POV
Hindsight really had a way of mocking you. You thought you had it, had him, when he’d gently cradled you in a kiss, only for him to leave you high and dry in this unused hotel room with barely an excuse.
What an asshole.
Still, you couldn’t mistake the smile curling into your cheeks as you slid down onto the floor, leaning against the door.
You saw it. You fucking saw it!
The great and mighty Radio Demon, pupils flared and shaking; those eyes wanting to grab you just as much as they wanted to throttle you. That in those red irises burned that same ravenous desperation that knocked your common sense out the window to pursue your desire to experience him in pleasure. And then he ran away.
That was upsetting.
Just one word. One that, even if hesitant and unsure, would have jump-started a new path for the both of you out of the dreary, strained and crumbling remnants of what used to be a lovely companionship.
You had the urge to chase after him even though you didn’t know where he’d run off to, just an impulse to catch your runaway dear. But one of his gifts to you was better impulse control, one that cost you a lot of trust in him.
You blew a strand of hair out of your face, breathing in the stale air of this room that really needed to have its windows opened every now and then.
In hindsight, you could have done that better, found a better time and fully laid down the foundation to bridge the broken relationship you had with the man. Likely, he didn’t believe you. Heck, you couldn’t believe yourself how quickly you went from screaming hatred at him to kissing him.
It was too quick and he…he…well, it was still hard to believe it but with the way he acted, he looked afraid. Afraid of what? Of losing you? But you told him you would stay. Maybe a kiss wasn’t enough reassurance.
“Damn, bastard and his control issues.” You murmured into the quiet room.
Not that you blamed him. There was too much history in the little time since the two of you met. Too many things said in anger and hurt, done in the need to keep and get away from. It had only been a few months yet it felt like you met someone worth a lifetime.
Maybe it was the same for him, and that was why he was afraid that once the deal was gone, one argument, one wrong word, and you would leave. And he’d have to be a bigger bastard to force you to stay—if he wanted you in the intense way his eyes seemed to hint at. In a way, he was protecting his feelings and grey morality at your expense. Stupid paranoid Overlord.
Pulling your knees to your chest, cradling what little of his warmth was left to you as close to your heart as you could, you tried to think of his face. His reactions. And found reassurance that though hasty, this was the right choice. You both wanted this too much for it to be too easy to grasp.
What to do now, though? He doubted your feelings but was obsessively holding on to you. While you could push for a relationship anyway—the deal hadn’t been an issue until his scheming was uncovered—it just…wasn’t right. He wasn’t the only one holding onto distrust; you loved him but it didn’t give him the leeway to hurt you.
On the chance that things went south, he could keep you bound to him just to be your own personal devil in Hell.
“I need to convince him, somehow.” Your heart stuttered and started hammering, an excitement brewing at the prospect of fixing things and feeling his gentle touch again.
Alastor’s POV
Preparations for breakfast were completed and now that he’d gotten into the groove of routine, he lamented his earlier hastiness. It had taken a good chunk of concentration to stop the bleeding of his arm and regain enough control of the torn muscles to actually get the job done. Still, an hour was barely enough for it to fully regenerate and he was left to grit his teeth as his left arm ached in protest with each movement.
He mentally commanded his shadow to put on the finishing touches to his feast as he found the first aid kit. A roll of gauze was a luxury but he wrapped it generously and tight around the dip he’d gauged into his arm. The cotton would provide enough support and stop any accidental bleeding until it healed.
Behind him, his shade hissed happily, cradling in its spindly palms his newest treat that he hoped would remind his dearest just why they were in this current status of relations. Both he and the shadow flexed the fingers on their left hands in sync, consternation lacing the otherwise mischievous smiles they sported.
The thought of serving his dearest more of himself always was exciting, though the context of this dish soured the experience some–but not by much.
He swallowed thickly, a lick of heat beginning in his belly as it always did. A song beginning in a thrum of anticipation from his chest until it reverberated on his skin. It had been a while since he’d had to get creative in ways to feed himself to her. That same intoxicating thrill still got to him, if only a little.
She’ll love it. She’ll hate it. It’ll be absolutely despicable. His shadow hissed, torn between delight and pettiness. The rumbling echo in its static reverberating within his own own frequency.
Alright, maybe reenacting his old ways got to him a lot, he thought as he watched the shade flicker and stretch as the finishing touches were added to the dish. A sprinkle of parsley. How unnecessarily intricate. Even the shade paid attention to detail when it came to Ynna and her teeth.
Outside, he could already hear the shuffling as the first risers finally dragged themselves in to fill their stomachs. With a snap, shadow poppets emerged to place his breakfast feast out to the crowd. His shadow stayed behind to guard the special dish as he strolled out of the double doors to face the ladies who seemed surprised at the spread.
Ynna was among them and he caught the pointed look Angel Dust gave her though his dearest wasn’t paying attention to the spider. Her eyes were only on him. His static crackled in his head.
“Alastor! You didn’t tell me you were planning on making breakfast today.” Charlie, with her hair slightly curled, clasped her hands in surprise.
“Well, I thought that since we’re hosting a rare guest, it was only appropriate that we treat her with our finest hospitality.” Finest indeed. Though he’d had to think up a recipe on the spot, he’d spared no effort in making it perfect. He figured the lovely poison would make Ynna regret her earlier hubris all the more.
“Oh, that’s so sweet!” Charlie practically bounced, her eyes going to Ynna. In fact, all eyes seemed to go to her as if her reaction to his gesture was worth observing. A curious thing. He’d ponder what it meant later.
He approached the still staring goat and placed an arm over her shoulder to bring her to her place. “Don’t just stand there. The food will get cold. Come, sit.”
The contact burned, not just because he’d strained his left arm to do it, but her presence served to fuel his anticipation all the more. She still had the guts to face him after that performance. Hah! Her audacity knew no bounds.
Obediently, Ynna sat in her seat at the left of the head of the table. He quickly retracted his arm, unable to stand that heat she was causing within him.
She hadn’t said a word yet his attention was already firmly fixed on her curious stare. Did she think he’d be foolish enough to lash out in an obvious manner? He preferred watching torment layered with the need to hide one’s humiliation so, with the princess and her friends as audience, he couldn’t think of a better way to teach his dearest a lesson.
The gang dug into his feast, three omelets with different fillings, rolled and sliced for easy portioning. Some sausages. Toast cut into a neat row of triangles. Coffee and juice. Fruit and side salad in bowls. If he’d had more time and forethought, there’d be more but he’d been a little blindsided by his dearest. How unfortunate. He’d truly planned to make something nice this morning for her but she had to go and ruin everything.
He smirked at her and she seemed to find what she was looking for. Ah. So she was anticipating some kind of reaction from him. Even better then.
“For you, my dearest, I prepared something special.” She was a clever one. He expected to see the realization make her go pale or green or red with anger.
“Oh, would you look at that? Something special, eh?” From beside Ynna, Angel poked. The goat seemed unfazed by his subtle taunt. Still curious, though she did spare a moment to give the spider a scolding side-eye.
Both her lack of reaction to him and attention to Angel grated on his nerves. With a flourish, he summoned the treat he’d made. Placing a hand to the back of her chair, he loomed over her. Only she would feel his invasive presence as the others viewed his actions as his usual exaggeration. Still, she watched him unfazed, not even flinching in her seat.
He placed his dish almost meticulously precisely on her plate, the clack of the ramekin against flat ceramic a gentle shock in the air.
“Here you go, my dearest. A cheddar quiche with pan-fried venison. I even went through the extra trouble of making a crust out of hash browns.” The smile on his face almost strained him with how wide it grew as finally recognition brightened her wide eyes. “I know how much you like my cooking. I hope you enjoy it.”
On the other side of the table, the women watching smiled while Angel complained at the special treatment Ynna received. Still, the behavior wasn’t new. They were used to seeing him bring out something different for Ynna. They likely thought it was because of their shared love of food. Well, it was for the best they didn’t know just how much his and the goat’s culinary tastes overlapped. Charlie might not approve.
The anticipation curdled under his skin, sparks buzzing with each twitch of an eyelid or flutter of lashes on his goat’s otherwise curious face. Any moment now, he would see her despair clearly written in her eyes. Feel her disdain and disgust and hatred against his skin as the phantom sensations rose with each bite. Like bracing himself for the bitter pleasure of seeing her crumble with the reminder of his cruelty, his blood buzzed beneath his skin.
And then she smiled.
SHE FUCKING SMILED!
“Thanks, Alastor. You’re always so thoughtful.” Without preamble, she took her fork and dug into the perfectly browned top, blowing cool a bit of steaming egg and meat before eating it.
No scrunch on her nose. No furrow of her brow. No hint of disgust or disdain or even…rejection.
“Yummy.”
Ynna’s POV
To say that Alastor would resort to such an extreme tactic was a surprise would be stupid. He was calculating and meticulous but you rattled him this morning so while him trying to scare you off with an Alastor special wasn’t exactly expected, but it wasn’t a surprise.
The smooth taste of egg, almost crumbly in texture, blended well with the salty crisp meat. The hash brown crust cracked deliciously against your teeth and you resisted the urge to sigh in delight. Delicious as always. It unfolded in a mix of sharp cheddar and garlic on your tongue with something slightly spicy? Tangy? Carrying through the smoothness of cream. Did he add mustard to this?
“Yummy.” Was all you could say before you took your eyes off the dish to look at Alastor’s face.
Oh, it was a picture. His smile was frozen in place, eyes narrowed into pinpricks. To goad him on, you took another bite, still looking at him with the most innocent expression you could muster. It took a lot out of you to do so. God, it was hilarious. He probably wasn’t expecting this, that you’d just eat it and be happy like it wasn’t some fucked up dish he concocted with masochistic fixation.
True, maybe if you were still mad, still filled with hate, this dish would taste like dust in your mouth. But this—this crispy, smooth, surprisingly light despite the sheen of oil over everything dish—was a symbol. Of all the things that went wrong between you. Of crooked beginnings and shattering days. Of what you meant to him—the pain he must go through because there was pleasure in watching you consume him.
You took another bite. This was a symbol. That you accepted all of that—his deceit and cruel obsession after—and relished it for what it was. Behind his skewed intentions, was an attention to detail and a need for your own enjoyment that he valued more than the humiliation that must have come from your rejection.
He wouldn’t try so hard to make this, and all the other dishes prior, so delicious and to your taste, if he hadn’t wished for you to savor the moment as much as he did.
And was he savoring the moment now? You couldn't really tell. He looked too shocked as you kept on and you finally gave him some relief by turning to Angel and asking about his plans for the day.
Eating him wouldn’t be enough to turn you away anymore.
Alastor’s POV
He could hear the crackle of fried meat and potatoes on her teeth against his bones. Rattling and prickling tiny delicate shocks through his limbs. A shudder raced up and down his spine and his blood grew hot and his lungs felt suffocated by the heat.
But all of that took a backseat because his brain had flatlined at the sight of her smile. Easy and unbothered, she ate like she had no clue what she was putting into her mouth. Did she really not know? He wanted to scream at her that that was him! His arm! Freshly cut and served with the most gruesome gourmet delight he could muster while still feeling burned by her lies!
How could she not want to spit it out!?
Just as he made to make a comment to ensure her knowledge, she looked at him again, eyes clear, sparked with mischief. She knew. And she savored every bite with that same indulgent respect of a gourmet that he shared with her.
Her gaze would have felt mocking if it hadn’t been so honestly fond.
His blood rushed to his ears, heightening his senses to watch her with rapt attention. All the strain to find even a hint that this calmness was just another layer of deceit. That she couldn’t possibly be surrendering her ire to his spiteful whim.
But there was none. All throughout breakfast, she remained calm, laughing with friends, taking thoughtful bites until not a crumb was left. With every gesture, his body grew taut, buzzing in her apparent delight and threatening to burst out of his skin.
She licked her lips to catch the last taste of her breakfast and his gut clenched tight. He stood and all but ran for the kitchen lest he pounced on her. That little bit of oil on her lips was a damned temptation he wanted to taste.
He almost collapsed against the wooden table she liked to tap her claws on when he cooked.
What did she mean? His lungs couldn’t seem to get enough air.
Why didn’t she look disgusted? It was too warm within the confines of his coat.
Why was she just sitting there like he’d never done her wrong—No! Why did she stay there, happy and unafraid, with the knowledge of what he’d done? Like she didn’t mind. Like it was something she expected of him, something to roll her eyes at fondly.
Like she’d truly forgiven him.
He shot straight up, power coursing through him to will himself back into control even as he felt his face burn and pale between doubt and realization. It couldn’t be true. Her forgiveness wasn’t something he deserved.
But if it was, what now? Would he have to let her go to fully mend everything? And if things could truly be repaired, would they stay that way?
Was it something he could risk if she was taking this step forward, extending her hand with nary a shake or sign of discomfort towards him who just threatened to drag on her leash to make her submit?
Was she fucking stupid!?
The double doors opened and closed quickly and he whirled around to find the offender who’d dared to enter this space where he had free access to knives and cleavers. Now was not the time! His skin prickled with goose flesh and he burned with a need to let out the heat that clawed through him in want and despair. If it was someone easy enough, he would make them regret whatever silly thought made them follow him here and—
“Hey.”
His thoughts stopped along with his breath.
His dearest, the audacious and foolish woman, walked over to him who practically radiated violence, stopping just short of arms reach. She had that indulgent but careful look on her face, always mindful of how he might react.
The heat in his belly travelled further down south though his limbs grew cold as she neared.
“I just wanted to say, I know I pushed a little too much this morning. But please, do think about what I asked. I meant it.” Shyly, she smiled, the first strains of awkwardness on her face as she took in the aura he was projecting. It was undoubtedly hostile. He couldn’t decide if he wanted to shred her to pieces or tamp down the buzzing under his skin with her touch.
“About the dish…I liked it, even knowing what you put in it. I hope it didn’t hurt too much.” She swallowed a nervous laugh that turned into a careless giggle. It sounded about as unhinged as he felt though it looked demure coming from her mouth. “In fact, I thought it was so eggs-cellent that I wanted to ask if I could quiche you as thanks.”
Crack.
Before he could move, she was already backing away. “But I think you’ve had enough of me today and I need to go to work anyway! I’ll see you around! Feel free to drop by the diner! Bye!” With a flash, she was out the door. Traces of power filled the air. Power from his meal she converted into a quick getaway after throwing him a bone.
Damned woman!
Notes:
I would like to say that it took a concentrated effort not to write: "Power from his meal she converted into a quick getaway after throwing him a boner." instead.
What do y'all think?
Chapter 49: A Lot of If Only’s
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Alastor’s POV
“Good morning.” A chipper voice softly called in the already warming morning air. To say his heart stuttered wouldn’t be inaccurate, though it was more out of chagrined surprise than a pleasant flutter.
Why was she here? It had been two days since he’d last seen her, during which he'd not bothered to visit the diner. He had no plans to. With the way she’d left him—his mind and blood racing in unhappy chaos—to see her would have been a disaster for him. A complete and utter destruction of any sense of stability he’d managed to wrap around himself after his heart rate had calmed and he’d further reassured himself that her peculiar actions could only be an attempt at manipulation.
A very good attempt, he conceded. It matched his tastes all too accurately, as if she’d suddenly pried his mind open and found all the little secrets that kept his blood pumping. Quite a fearsome feat for someone so unassuming.
And now she sat in one of the chairs on the balcony, warm daybreak at her back and a fresh pot of coffee and a plate of muffins neatly arranged at the table. Just like the times before. All that was missing was a well-chosen record playing in the background. The anticipation in her eyes shone as innocent as sin, and he would’ve been a magpie for their sparkle, if he didn’t already know her intention.
“It was .” Displeasure crept into his voice as apprehension pricked up the back of his neck. After last time, he wasn’t sure he was ready for whatever antics this tiny woman would pull. It had taken far too long to calm the rapid boiling rush in his veins.
Immediately, his tone registered with her, the smile she wore faltering stiffly. He bit his teeth for causing it.
“Sorry to barge in on your morning routine but I made coffee from the roaster you liked. I don’t exactly have magic to keep it warm so I rushed over here to deliver it. I thought…maybe we could talk over breakfast?” A shyness tugged at her lips, managing an embarrassed grin though her composure hadn’t changed despite the apologetic tone. There was no regret in her spine.
A low buzz rumbled in his chest at her confident yet enticingly gentle demeanor. There were many nights that he’d missed it, longed and meticulously schemed to re-earn it. There was a time he’d commend her for choosing the correct face to show to tug at her opponent’s heartstring. He’d even laugh and be delighted that she’d attempt it with him—be a little scheming darling.
But now, he couldn’t even fake a laugh. He wanted to rip that smile off her face with his teeth.
“Tsk, tsk. I never took you to be quite thoughtless, my dearest. What if I wasn’t around? Then you’d have wasted all this effort for nothing.”
“I kinda hoped you’d be here. And looks like I was right.” Hopeful, she moved to stand, an invitation in her smile that intensified the buzzing reverberating through him, and sent a knot between his brows.
“But it’s still a wasted effort.” His lips tugged up insincerely and indulgent. “I think I’ll have my breakfast elsewhere. Do enjoy your visit.”
“Alastor, wait—“
The shadows took him away quickly, but not so quick that he missed the disappointment on her face. It tickled something vindictive in him. Hah! Let her see that it would take more than coffee and muffins to break their deal!
As he walked back to the sanctuary of his room, he hoped she’d take the hint and be wiser than to push her ridiculous agenda in the future. It would save them both the trouble. He hummed and twirled his microphone with that thought dampening the buzz in his chest.
Unfortunately, his dearest walked a stubborn path with the finesse of a purebred show dog.
“Hey Alastor!”
“Good Morning!”
“How are you?”
It was a head spinning turn. From months of annoyed aloofness, she’d seemingly found a deep fount of patience for his company!
Sweetly, patiently, she appeared before him, always in the mornings with a cup of coffee and a friendly face. Whether it was in the lobby, the kitchen—she’d even tried knocking on his door!—the woman found him. It had gotten to the point where he’d outright expressed his distaste for her attempts. How her persistence infuriated him to no end. How she ground at the fraying strands of his steeled nerves. Her every appearance always radiated so bright, so hopeful…so sincere yet so so full of deceit!
“I’m afraid I have other arrangements.” He’d told her during another invitation.
“Yes, good morning.” He said as he used his shadows to dash away when his chest thudded at the way her fringe emphasized her eyes.
How was he? Should he say that he wanted to claw those damned eyes out for daring to watch him so carefully? To wrap his hands around her throat so she could feel the breathless shock her unannounced appearances tore from his lungs? To bite her tongue out so he wouldn’t have to hear her call his name in a voice filled with respect and affection? To devour her screams so she’d know just how dangerous a game she played…
“The weather is quite lovely. I’ll be busy collecting some deals so I won’t have time to chat about ours.”
Yes. He’d responded to her approaches with gritted teeth and all the venom he could muster—
“…Alastor.” Rosie’s voice dipped low in incredulity, a half-full tea cup balancing precariously from where her long fingers loosely held its handle. “If you’re gonna reject the girl, you gotta give it to her straight. You’re not fooling anyone into thinking you hate seeing her if the worst you can do is ‘I’m busy right now.’ and then running away from her.”
—which was, apparently, not much.
His lips tightened against his teeth, the closest thing to a grimace his always smiling face could conjure. As he recalled all those incidents, he had only one thing to say: who could blame him for holding back his spite when presented with a gentle and—dare he say—affectionate woman?
As he said, her efforts wound the dials in his head to just the right frequency.
“I’ve already let her know where I stand. I am absolutely never going to let go of our deal. I’ve even fed myself to her again just to remind her of how we ended up in this situation in the first place.”
“What? Did you shove it in her mouth until she choked?” Bottomless eyes stared blandly at him and her straightforward description had his own narrowing. Sitting at the chaise near the shop window, the Overlord had been listening to his tirade with dwindling patience. The bemusement in her doll-like face reminded him of the times his mother had thought he’d done something stupid. He held back the urge to click his tongue at her.
“Nothing so barbaric, old friend. Just the usual. I thought it would send the point across if I reminded her just how many times I’d served her cannibal fare in the most appetizing little dishes.” He resumed his pacing across her rug. It seemed she’d changed it since the last time it felt his abuse.
“And she’s still going for you?” Now, that bemusement wove its way through her tone and if she weren’t such a lady, he thought she’d had some harsher words to say. “Why don’t you think she’s serious about starting over? The girl is tolerating everything you’ve thrown at her and you’ve already hit her with the big guns first.”
“Wouldn’t you tolerate at least this much for freedom?” He’d thought of it as well, after Ynna had complimented his cooking, even going so far as to say she wanted to kiss him once again. She’d reacted in the complete opposite of her usual despair and ire. If she’d not known what it was, maybe he would have believed that reaction. But she knew . The understanding between them as he served her had never been more absolute.
So he could only conclude that she’d become desperate. That she’d somehow known that despite his attempts to foster propriety between them, desire would always find its way. Creeping into his veins, setting blazes only her touch could quench. It would only take a heated moment, sparked with rising tempers, before he’d enrage her to tear into him in her despair and he’d take pleasure when she only wanted his penance.
And maybe one day, his greed would go too far. She must’ve feared his descent into further depravity at her expense. That could only be it. Because he feared it too.
“I’d tolerate more in pursuit of someone I love.”
Lost in his thoughts, the clink of china—a soft crisp clack that somehow reverberated louder than his heels practically stomping holes into her brand new rug—pulled his attention back until his ears rang with what the lady just said.
His eyes whipped towards the other Overlord. Her posture straightened as she regarded him, her legs crossed at the ankles, sitting as judge and final jury in her dusty rose lace and sleek satin black gloves. Her bottomless black eyes blinked slowly, testing his attention through his patience. “She’s not an Overlord, darling. Not even much of a sinner. And you…” Her brow raised as if to point at his being. “…are too clever. She knows this. So why would she waste her time, her effort and her sanity trying to court you with a lie?”
“I don’t know.”
“Do you really not?”
Ynna’s POV
“Did he really not like the radio?” Angel played with your hair as a way to help you relieve stress as you laid on his lap, focusing on breathing to take in this time with your friends. Little by little, the pain built up in the back of your head eased as his fingers occasionally rubbed soothing lines along your temples. Sometimes, you really wished you had four hands, they’d make handling the bullshit at work easier too.
“I spent so fucking long looking for something beautiful and quality and he really rejected it!?” Jelly-like hair swished in your own lap as Goss typed madly on her phone. The tiny woman looked uncharacteristically pissed, sending tiny jolts of electricity through the tentacle strands of her hair. Or maybe that was venom? Weren’t jellyfish venomous and eels electric? Either way, it wasn’t so much of a bother as you ran your fingers over her tentacles absently.
Your eyes strayed to the vintage radio sitting neatly on your kitchen table. It had taken you and Goss almost a week to not only think of a great gift for Alastor but to also find and buy it. You huffed a lot of dust sifting through seedy antique shops before Goss finally spotted an ad for a missing sinner’s property that happened to have a RCA Model 128 Shouldered Tombstone radio and thankfully, it hadn’t cost much more than time and effort.
You proudly chanted the make and model in your head over and over just so you could present it to the dapper demon without twisting your tongue. Recited every word while you cleaned up the outside—leaving the inside for Alastor to happily pick apart and fix. Whispered it in your heart as you wrapped up the gift, only to have him reject you as politely as he had been for the last few weeks.
Scathing looks, polite words. You got to him, but not in the way you’d been trying to.
“Yeah. That was such a let down.”
“Ya know, there’s probably easier ways to get the guy’s attention.” Angel’s fingers undid a braid he’d just made, tugging lightly at the strands. In response, you tilted your head to look up at him. He’d worn some make up today, blushy pink eyeshadow and bold exaggerated eyeliner.
“Yeah? What’s your idea? I’ve gotten him food, gifts. I tried being nice. I tried asking him to just talk to me!” So many days spent running around with whatever free time you had for him. So much unwanted coffee that you’d ended up chugging cold on the way to another exhausting shift. Every time, it felt like it would be the time he’d finally at least give you a chance to talk. That he’d crumble just a little bit.
But his eyes would narrow and he’d walk away after a few words, and that would mark that day’s attempt to woo the man. Another sour failure.
“You could suck his dick.”
The look you gave him could be flatter than your irises. “He wouldn’t like that.”
“Even from you, toots? Ya sure he wouldn’t like it?”
“I’m sure.” With a deadpan voice, you rolled your eyes and Angel’s waggling eyebrows.
“You could sell your soul to him? Don’t Overlords like that? Your soul for a date?”
“We’re trying to get into a healthy relationship here.”
“Isn’t it healthy enough that he isn’t throwing you out? Sure, he’s rejecting you but the Radio Demon can do worse if he was really mad.”
“Nah, Charlie would chew him out if he hurt toots in the hotel.”
“But Ynna isn’t always in the hotel. I’m sure he’s got his ways. I looked up more of his lore and he literally made other Overlords disappear during his rise to power. No one even knew it was him til he blasted their screams all over town. It’s scary shit.”
A tentacle absently curled around your finger and one of Goss’ antennae raised up to make eye contact with you. Four eyes with their feathery lashes blinked inquisitively.
“I don’t think I’m in danger from him at least.” And that was really all you were clinging to at this point. For all the meanness that creeped into the sharp lines of his face every time you showed up in front of him, there was a moment of hesitation, so small it was barely the width of a breath. And the harsh spiteful words you knew he could dish out wouldn’t come. Instead, he’d be clipped, polite, maybe a little snide, but overall, not bad, not hateful.
In all the time you’d known him, he’d never had a reason to hold back even the smallest of irritations he felt. Even the little things would get a spar with his sharp tongue, let alone an actual irritation. Since he wasn’t lashing out, didn’t that mean that he wasn’t as against your courtship as he made it seem?
“Are ya sure ya can’t just hop on his dick and get it over with?”
“Think of other ideas.”
Alastor’s POV
His visit to Rosie hadn’t been as helpful as he’d hoped. The lady was convinced his goat liked him—no, loved him—enough to actually be sincere. As if it was just that easy to be forgiven.
Then again, his dear old friend always liked to point out the existence of his own feelings for the woman long before he’d understood their extent, and she hadn’t been wrong. No. In fact, he kept going to her because she’d given good advice before and he’d just been too stubborn to listen.
What if she was right once again?
The pentagram had already dimmed and a chill started creeping through the air during his time contemplating back on the hotel’s balcony. It was somehow already dark out. So much time had passed yet he’d not done much but think. Leaning on the black iron railing, a swirl of smoke lazily coiled around him and he breathed in another drag from his cigarette. The smoke swelled his lungs before he let it out in a long sigh.
…What if she was wrong?
He’d hurt his dearest far too much already. Made so many mistakes in wanting to keep her. Her request to break the deal was both reasonable and something he owed to her to make up for all the grief. To deny her would be another folly in the long line up of grievances.
But somewhere deep in his bones he knew, losing her completely would be the biggest mistake of all.
Embers from the end of his cigarette floated down as he lifted the stick to his mouth for another drag. His eyes followed the dying flame, its inevitable demise to the wind akin to the little whispers in his head. Ones of greed, of hope. Eye catching but fleeting, blown out by the natural cynicism he’d been born with.
He tried to catch that twinkling warmth in his hands but no matter how carefully he did so, it turned to cold dust in his palm.
The wind picked up and fed the little flame on his cigarette, carrying some ashes with it that his eyes couldn’t help but follow for lack of anything else to catch his attention. Well, that was until something caught his attention.
Faintly in the distance, a shadow entered through the gates. The little speck shuttling up the path to the hotel, closer and closer until its figure could be made out. The smoke nearly choked his lungs as his breath stuttered. She was here again.
A sigh greyed with ash and tamped down trepidation filled the air. Persistent thing. He thought she’d taken a break by not appearing this morning.
Leisurely, he stubbed out the half burnt stick on the black crystal ashtray where the remains of two others lay cold.
Should he bother with greeting her? It wasn’t like he’d change his mind no matter what gift or sweetness she presented to him. Still, his hands straightened the lapels of his coat and he found himself walking down the stairs and across the foyer, timing it perfectly so that his last step brought him to the front door just as a knock reverberated through the old wood.
His hand was already on the doorknob when he’d caught himself and counted. 1…2…3……10.
The creak of the door reminded him to make a note of getting one of his puppets to oil the ancient hinges. It was far too ghastly a sound to welcome a guest.
Or maybe not?
Standing before him was Ynna. The iconic black cloak of her uniform was disguised as a hoodie with a long skirt hiding the flowy bottom of the cloak. Her sleeves were rolled to her elbows in an attempt to look more put together. It might have worked had her eyes not drooped in fatigue and her fringe not carried an indent from where her mask laid on her face for hours. Even with the distance between them, he could pick up the smell of sweat and kitchen grease. She was apparently fresh off her shift.
“Quite a late stop you’re putting in there, my dearest. Eager to try another offering so soon?” There was just the tiniest calculated condescension in his voice that would irritate a less haggard sinner and he was rewarded with a long exhale of waning patience from the goat. His hand held the door firmly so as not to go and fix her fringe.
“Hi. I just…uh..” She licked her lips, as if the action could loosen the words that wouldn’t come. Unlike her previous attempts, she didn’t seem quite as prepared. His eyes went to her hands. Hmm, empty. Though that could also mean she’d come with a small enough trinket to fit in her pockets.
“I don’t have all evening, darling.” A creeping bit of curiosity tickled the back of his mind, almost eager to see what she’d come up with. He could only beat that notion back down. Best to get this dismissal over with as soon as possible.
“…No.. I…” Now, she was fidgeting. Really, why was she so uncertain?
Finally, a sigh of defeat left her lips before her tired eyes relaxed on his face. Unbidden in anticipation, his breath paused to make way for her words.
“How are you, Alastor?”
What? He blinked once. Twice.
“Really, sweetheart? Did you come all the way here just to ask me that?”
“Well, not really…I just…I just wanted to see you. That’s all.”
“That’s all? No bribes? No attempts to curry favor or to talk about the deal? Just some small talk so you can see me?” He looked at her again, confused. Her quest today seemed remarkably cumbersome, trekking almost half-way across the city just to catch him.
“Yeah.” But her face didn’t show a hint of grievance, just a bit of embarrassment that sweetly dusted across her cheeks.
His chest shuddered, spooked. What kind of new tactic was this? He’d understood the gifts and attempts to communicate. Bribery and negotiation were the basics in any respectable Overlord’s arsenal. Flattery too, though Ynna used that sparingly. A mix of all these in the right hands could secure the world on a platter.
On the other hand, admitting to coming to him in the middle of the night, taking his time without bringing anything? That was rude and selfish, and absolutely thoughtless compared to the parade of well-meaning and tailored attempts to show her ‘affection’ for him. Static crackled in his head as he thought it through before he relaxed into his heels, face dropping into a look of boredom.
“Well, I’m doing just fine.” He answered her question simply, still wondering what this devious miss had planned.
“Okay.” A tired sweetly curved on her lips, a bit of a shine coming back into her exhausted gaze. Something shuddered in his chest like it had been tickled. “Good night, Alastor.” And then she turned away to walk back down the path she’d come.
…That really was it. She’d come all the way here for an interaction that lasted barely two minutes, and yet she was satisfied with that.
Perhaps her goal had been to put herself in his sights to consistently remind him of her presence. As if she didn’t already occupy his mind more than he would have liked. Still, wasn’t today’s interaction quite pathetic? If he hadn’t known how far away the diner was, he would have thought it a spur of the moment drop in. But she’d had plenty of time to think about what she’d say or even talk herself out of presenting herself so lamely. His eyes remained on her small figure that was slowly being engulfed into the night’s shadows, growing smaller with the distance.
“You don’t seem to be doing so well yourself.”
The words came out of his mouth, loud enough to reach her and that small figure stilled. A momentum seized his movements as he found himself closing the distance between them until he’d reached her side. It was her turn to wear a baffled expression. He’d paused just enough to catch her and then he walked forward to lead, not that she understood what he was doing. He wasn’t quite as sure either.
“Had a rough day at work?” He called, taking control of this situation he walked himself into.
“Wha—? Yeah. Yeah. One of those days.” Still confused, she went to jog to catch up to him, coming just close enough to speak from a polite distance by his side. There was a caution to her step as if getting too close would spook him. She wasn’t entirely wrong to do so, though with every step they took together, his own precaution lessened. From the corner of his eyes, he could see that content shine turn into a sparkle. He tried not to watch it greedily.
The cobblestone steps turned to cement sidewalks as they left the hotel proper though it would be a ways before any other soul would cross their path. A part of him revelled in their isolation, their effortlessly matching steps, the peace that tethered him to her.
Ah, maybe this was it, the reason why his feet brought him forward. Perhaps, just this once, he could reward her for not pressing her agenda.
“Oooh? I thought you quite liked your job even if it made you wear some questionable fashion.”
Again, he could practically feel the energized gaze she glanced at him with, her hopeful excitement bitten back to not shatter this moment he granted her. “I do. I think I have a knack for it but I can’t choose the customers, sadly.”
When only a hum of acknowledgement left him in response, a lightly teasing tone crept into her voice, her comfortable and familiar sass lightening the mood even more. “And you’re not seriously still questioning the cloak. I told you, it’s a vibe .”
“It’s impractical. Too much fabric to not only get snagged but also leave as evidence in a scene. A steep enough slope and you’d be running after your victim with a skirt in your hands instead of a knife.” At his quip, a snort and giggle quietly followed from her, quickly aborted as a group of sinners brushed past. The streets turned busier. Her steps unconsciously moved closer to his but the sarcastic roll of her eyes abated his urge to keep their distance.
“Fair but it does a great job at making sure you don’t leave behind DNA evidence at least. Besides, if you’re complaining about mobility issues, running around in a tailored suit isn’t exactly comfortable either.”
“But it does help one blend in with a crowd back in the day.”
“A bright red suit would not blend in.”
“It does down here.” The smirk on his face came naturally as her eyes derisively looked him up and down.
“Everything is red down here.”
“Hides the bloodstains better.”
“I think black would work better for that.”
“Black should be worn for formal occasions, like a gala or a funeral.”
“Then shouldn’t you be wearing black since you make killing people a party?”
“That’s just a regular Tuesday, my dearest. You haven’t seen a real party.”
There was a pause in their exchange for a few seconds before they turned to each other, wide eyes meeting half-lidded ones, and they shared a chuckle.
It was only then he’d noticed the quiet within him, the silence where angry static crackled just earlier. It had only been a few minutes, yet the troubles he’d spent days agonizing over, the frustration he’d felt with her had melted into a footnote in the back of his mind. A warning label that did little to stop him from drinking in the swishing of her skirt in time with the clacking of his heels. The sound of their peace washed away the day’s stress with warmth.
If only this companionship she offered was genuine. If only she’d been satisfied with this. If only he’d been satisfied with it.
They walked in silence, the city lights caressing colors over their skins as they traveled through the crowd that dispersed at his presence. A breeze swept through, ruffling his hair and making Ynna pull her hood over her head.
“So…where are we going?” After a few more steps, she asked.
“Wouldn’t you know?”
“How would I know?”
“I’m taking you home, my dearest.” She paused and he turned to look down at her curious and baffled expression. He’d surprised her. To be fair, he hadn’t expected the evening to unfold like this as well but something about seeing her walk away had pulled him in. Feigning ignorance, he tossed his microphone into his other hand absently. “What? Is there a problem with that?”
“…No. I’m just surprised. You’ve been avoiding me so…I actually thought you were mad.” Sheepishness was added into her questioning gaze and for it, he gave a sigh before shrugging and placing a bored smile on his face.
“Oh, I do find you frustrating. Your attempts to get me to acquiesce to your ‘simple’ request to break the deal are very vexing. For someone who’s spent quite a long time complaining about my pushy nature, you certainly don’t have any reservations on doing the same.”
“That’s…I mean, I learned from the worst, obviously.” They shared a light smirk as her eyes pointedly sharpened at his person before softening again. “But if you’re so mad then why are you here?”
“Because you’re doing a stupid thing, walking around the city so late at night.”
“I do that all the time.”
“Yes. But since you’ve appeared before me, as a…” What were they now? They’d long passed the point of friendship and their companionship was…questionable at the moment.
You could be lovers.
Like lightning, the hissed words of his shadow struck the desires he’d tried to wither into submission, reawakening them and igniting something fierce in his gut. Memories of lips and hands and the far too intoxicating pierce of teeth tingled like phantoms on his skin. Just one word and the desire he’d suppressed in chagrin and paranoia sped through his veins like the liquor, beckoning stupid ideas. Like drawing dangerously closer to the wide-eyed woman.
No. Absolutely not. Whatever they were, he couldn’t afford to fall into desire. It clouded his judgement, making him weigh what he’d give to hold his goat against him. What he’d take if pushed to the brink.
“…a gentleman, I should escort you home.” He opted for a lesser truth.
Her big eyes blinked at him, a shy light brightening their gaze. “You’re worried about me.”
“Putting words into my mouth again, dearest.”
“That's not a no.” A giggle tumbled out of her mouth as her smile widened. That heat in his belly crackled at her appreciation.
Gritting his teeth, he tried to push on back to that peace he had been enjoying and away from the silly number his shadow had done on his brain. “So where is your home? Or are you going to be stubborn and yell at me again for trying to make sure you arrive home unscathed?”
“Not this time.” She pulled out her cellphone, pulling up a map to show the cross streets of where she lived. “It’s actually here.”
His eyes squinted at the mobile pointed at his face—he’d never liked these overly bright screens—but he recognized the location, a little farther away than the diner. “It’s good that you saw some sense this time. I thought I’d have to be told how much you hate me a few times before I would have to wring it out of you.”
“I was drunk and emotional that night. Can you blame me?”
He certainly could. She shouldn’t have gone on a date that evening and they’d have avoided all the drama that followed. But he didn’t say that so much as let his poker face smile speak for itself. He offered her his hand. “Shall we, then?”
She tried very hard not to pout as her smaller palm laid lightly atop his. Still cautious not to overstep what closeness he offered. He closed his fingers firmly around her small hand.
In barely a blink, they arrived in front of an old rusty door. The metal block seemed to be both crippled yet sturdy where it stood within an old brick building. Not exactly luxury but not as desolate as he thought it would be.
“That was fast. Why didn’t we have to walk with the shadows?” Beside him, she blinked, taking in this new method of teleportation.
“There’re plenty of ways to get around. I thought that given your tiring day, you’d appreciate the instantaneous travel.”
“Thank you, Al.” Her gratitude came out softly and he’d made the mistake of looking at her. Sincere sweet eyes looked back up at him and another wave of lightning traveled down his bones all the way to his fingertips.
Only then did he notice his hand still holding hers. He let go before his fingers decided to tighten their hold.
He swallowed to coat his suddenly parched throat, calling back his composure and the feelings he’d had earlier. It loosened the knot in his belly that tensed in hunger for her, letting his next words carry authority and negotiation despite the softness with which he delivered them.
“As long as you stop insisting we end the deal, I think we could continue like this, you know? I would also like it if things between us weren’t so messy. We could go back to being friends.”
“Just friends?”
A beat passed with her sincere eyes studying him, patiently waiting. His chest began to ache as he tried to suffocate the warmth that tried to bloom in it.
Friendship, platonic and proper, would be the best way to avoid crossing lines between them that would sour everything once again. It was the optimal solution. He believed it so. And yet…
“Would you agree to more given our circumstances?” He looked into her eyes to find her answer. Reflected in their clear gaze was his face peering at her with a faint red glow in his eyes, a small curve of a smile and a challenge given, an olive branch offered.
If only she’d agree…
The sincerity in her gaze never faltered though her breath came slow and careful in the face of his question. “…wait here. Just a minute. I’ll be right back.” Pleading, she ran into the building, racing up the stairs and having to pick up her draping cloak to avoid tripping. He tried to focus on the door though he’d had the urge to see which window’s lights would turn on and find out which room was hers.
He didn’t need to know. He needed to keep steady.
Not a minute later, the woman ran down, stopping just at the doorway, catching her breath in greedy gulps that she tried to make demure. “I got these tickets…” She started, bringing the slips of paper in her hand to his attention even as she couldn’t seem to get enough air to deliver her message. “…to the Rouge Bodega.”
In and out. She breathed deep and straightened to fix her pathetic presentation.
“Given our circumstances, it’s hard for me to put faith in our relationship and I know you feel the same. So I want you to see that I mean it when I say I want us to be more. I want to show you that and maybe you could put your faith in me. So Alastor, would you go with me as my date?”
Her eyes gazed up at him in sweet determination that pulled at his blood, making him hunger for a taste. But more than that, a deep disappointment spread like black ink over the promises he’d just made to her in his heart. Ruined and soaked, the words seeped dispersed into the void slowly taking up his chest.
“Don’t ask so much of me, my dearest.” It was a wonder, watching that void he felt growing in him be reflected in her dimming eyes but he swallowed the bitterness of losing that precious gaze. He’d hurt her again.
She seemed to shrink into herself for a moment and his hand had reached across the distance as if to catch her. Carefully, he allowed his claws to fix her fringe. A comfort and apology for them both. “Have a good rest of your evening.”
“Oh…okay.” Her voice crack with a hint of salt from the tears that she stubbornly choked back. With a smile, she withdrew back into the rusted doorway, the dim hallway light casting her sadness in shadows. “Good night, Al.”
Notes:
Woooo. Gosh this chapter took so much more brainpower than I have right now. But here we are. Sorry for taking a while but fighting through the brain fog is tough.
The tentative titles for this chapter were Seduction of the Goat and Taming of the Buck but then Alastor is such a bitter baby in this that I had to call out all of his If Only's. Idk man. If only you listened to Rosie from the very beginning, maybe you wouldn't be in this mess?
Unfortunately, his dearest walked a stubborn path with the finesse of a purebred show dog.
Not this guy calling her a bitch for trying to communicate. Tsk tsk. She ain't the only stubborn one here.Anyway, I hope y'all are having a great time. I'd love to hear what y'all think.
Chapter 50: Great Balls of Fire
Notes:
Hello lovely readers!
I know it's been a while. I've had pretty low energy and brain power so this took forever to write. Not only that, but it ended up being a longer chapter than I thought! I'd like to thank everyone for their continued support. It's been a rough time for me but I continue to persist because I want to finish this story just as much as y'all wanna see how this ends.
I really love you all very much!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
There was something magical about having a greenhouse in Hell. Not the Disney kind of magic, but the horror story kind. Rosie’s garden was found inside a glass and iron structure connected to the back of her shop. It was a simple one story building with walls of shelves and rows of pottery lining the edges, all lit with the sky barely visible through dust-frosted glass. In the center near the back was a lovely patio with a decorative iron table and matching iron chairs.
The Overlord guided you here when you’d showed up at her shop to ask for advice about your beloved pain in the ass demon. While you sat in an iron chair decorated with subtle leaves, you watched the female Overlord gently prune the rose vines along the opposite wall. Grey hands precisely maneuvered between thick braids of vines as shiny as black beetles and with wicked spikes of thorns that snagged onto skin like claws. Hell’s roses were particularly dangerous compared to the other plants you’d seen in conventional gardening. Well, as conventional as gardening ever got in the pit of the world.
Rosie took a small bit of chopped ‘mystery’ meat and dangled it above a closed rose bud. Dark red petals enchantingly unfurled, each demurely presenting itself to curious eyes, before the innermost petals snapped forward viper-quick to engulf the tiny chunk of meat in black shiny teeth-like thorns.
Rosie cooed at the little carnivorous bud.
“After all of that, he still said no. I’m…not sure what to do anymore, Rosie.” Glancing away, you looked at the already cut flowers in front of you that Rosie intended to decorate her shop with. They were the same roses, looking more ordinary and innocent now that they’d been cut and had their thorns removed. Out of listlessness you picked up a bloom, twirling it around and fighting the urge to pluck away at its petals. “Am I even doing the right thing by pursuing him like this? It just feels like we’re getting worse when things could finally be settling.”
“We both know he’s just being stubborn because he can’t wrap his head around being in a relationship. He’s this old but still single for a reason, and that’s because he’s never wanted anyone—until you.”
“I’m giving him a chance, now. After all of his shit! I’m practically throwing myself at him so why won’t he take it?”
The snipping of scissors peppered the air as more thorns and leaves littered the greenhouse floor. Rosie hummed before turning her lithe figure to you. “You know why I’m friends with him? It’s because he’s more self-aware than most men I’ve met. He knows he doesn’t deserve you generously overlooking all that he’s put you through.”
“Okay but I’m not ignoring what he did, Rosie. I’m forgiving him, for all of it. I won’t hold a grudge. I don’t even feel as bad remembering all the things he did.” How terrifying he tried to be, insistent and disrespectful. A downright menace that triggered heartache after headache. Your head curled into your crossed arms as if the weight of your thoughts was too heavy. “I just don’t want him to have the power to put me down again when we could just work things out like people that care about each other should. Why doesn’t he get that?”
Silence followed this time, contemplative and somber. Rosie turned her back to her roses, the blooms curling around her in tempting and threatening tangles. One tried to nibble at her hair. A quick snap of her scissors had it thinking twice though her doll-like face sporting a frown could have also served as warning. “We, Overlords, want a sure thing. Well, the smart ones do. It keeps the illusion of power and control going. Not just for ourselves but for anyone who thinks they can challenge us.”
She turned back to her roses, inspecting a small bud before deeming it too small and cutting it off. “The higher we are, the more we hold onto those reigns, eating every pleasure and regret of every choice without looking back.”
“Especially when it’s something that could make or break us.” Her back draped in cotton and lace didn’t have a single wrinkle even as she continued to snip and touch her carnivorous plants. It was dauntingly proper.
“So should I just accept things the way they are? He won’t even try to be around me if I’m trying to be romantic. He only wants me around on his terms. That isn’t a healthy dynamic, for either of us.” To be stuck in this limbo of too many ties binding you together, and not one of them fulfilling in any way? That sounded like Hell.
“No. What he’s doing isn’t fair to you, sweetheart. But I’ll be honest, love rarely is. One side will always give more than the other.” She found another weak bloom, cutting it off to make sure the best ones would get all the nutrition. Then she grabbed some wire and bound the wandering vines into shape, moving buds and blooms alike and even cutting off a couple of older blossoms to make way for new ones. “But which side gives more will always change over time. That’s how a relationship is. You compensate for each other as things shift and change with every new thing you two go through. It’s the balance that makes you two partners.” The end result was a sculpted and healthy beauty of a plant.
She put the shears down and dusted off her hands.
“So my advice is that you decide how much you’re willing to give him and at what point would you say enough is enough. If he really loves you, he’ll make the change to make it worth your while when he’s ready.”
“What if he never does?”
“You drop him and move on, sweetheart. Save your love for someone that’ll meet you where you need to be.” She waved in a matter of fact manner before her gaze turned a tad cold. “And if you find that you can’t let him go, then just sell your soul to him now. What’s the point of harping about your freedom to choose when you let him disrespect you anyway?”
You flinched, having nothing to say to that because she was right. It was the same advice you’d give any of your friends in the same situation.
“Ah—hissss.” A sharp sting caught you off guard as you looked down at your hand that had been fidgeting with the rose. The bloom wasn’t as dead as you’d thought. Sharp thorny teeth latched onto your finger managing to take a small chunk of skin off. “Damn.”
Rosie was immediately at your side, plucking the offending rose away and picking your injured hand up to study. “Oops. Sorry. I should have warned you that these girls put up a fight even when they’re dying.”
You were quick to dismiss the lady’s worries. “I was being dumb. I know carnivorous plants down here are no joke even when you cut them. It’s fine. I’ve lost a couple finger tips from my lily at home.” Blood oozed from the open flesh and you cupped the digit in your other hand to not get any blood over Rosie’s table. Before you could excuse yourself to the restroom to wash it off, the curious look on the Overlord’s face caught your attention. “What?”
“Oh, it’s nothing much. You know me and my diet, darling. I was just curious about how you’d taste for a second.” She said with a dainty wink and giggle.
“Uh-huh.”
“Nothing beats them fresh, you know?”
“What? You fancy a nibble then?” You wiggled your fingers, seeing the blood pool and drip from your injured one.
“Only if you’re offering.” She smiled unabashed. The sort of way old women got when they’d forgotten what shame was and were being cute about it.
“…Sure.” You had said it half-jokingly but really, you should’ve known better than to say that to a cannibal. Still, Rosie did take the time to hear your complaints about her friend. “It’ll be my thanks for seeing me and giving advice.”
“Deal.” Black lips lined sharp teeth in a demure grin that had doubts racing up your spine. Was she always so tall?
“Am I gonna lose my finger?”
“Haha. Not this time. Though I wouldn’t guarantee it next time.” Wait. Would there be a next time?
With a dainty pinch on your palm, she brought the injured finger up to her mouth, wrapping her black lips around the wound. Her black eyes fluttered into a sharp crinkle, piercing despite being unfathomable black pits. Predatory and haunting, wrapped in the loveliest lashes. The warm sensation of a tongue brushing over the raw skin stung and you had a passing thought of regretting even offering.
The Overlord looked just as dangerous as Alastor did despite trying to minimize how scary she came off as. You were suddenly keenly aware that unlike with the Radio Demon, you didn’t have the confidence that Rosie wouldn’t hurt you at all. At most, her mercy only lasted as much as she respected Alastor, and as fondly as she thought of you.
Err, well, scratch that. Rosie was fond of all her cannibals in her territory. It didn’t change the fact that they were still on the menu when the opportunity presented itself.
Thankfully, she let go of your hand soon after and you breathed out a sigh of relief. Only to have it catch in your throat as her face came incredibly close to yours in an instant. Her porcelain-like cheek brushed coolly against yours with her voice whispering directly in your ear.
“By the way, I didn’t know he was the jealous type until you came along.”
Heat rushed up to your cheeks, unsure of what the heck was going on. Like Alastor, Rosie was genial but proper. Suddenly invading your space meant mischief or trouble.
Rosie pulled back, her usual cheerfully teasing smile on her face as she looked at your flustered appearance. “Well, if he doesn’t want to go on a date with you, darling, how about going with me? Who needs men anyway?”
“I—“
“That won’t be necessary, old friend.” A familiar filtered voice came up behind you as a hand tugged at your shirt to pull you a couple of feet back from the female Overlord. A solid heat radiated at your back, growing hotter as a clawed hand clasped your shoulder. You looked up behind you. “I was going to look for Ynna later to let her know that I thought it over.”
The pointed stare Alastor threw Rosie turned to you, growing softer even though his grin remained calculatedly small. He was upset, even if his face was as relaxed as can be. “It was hasty of me to turn you down. I hope you’re still open to going on that date with me, my dearest.”
“Really? I mean—Of course. I wanted to go with you, Al.”
“Splendid.” There was a hiss to his voice beneath the filter though you filed that tidbit away as you caught the smile on Rosie’s face from the corner of your eye. It registered to you then, along with the crackle of static, that Alastor was jealous…of Rosie.
Your heart skipped a beat even as caution had you watching the man’s reactions like a hawk. His small smile smoothed over into something more nonchalant as he caught your stare.
“Charlie’s latest exercise ended early so I thought I’d drop by for tea time a little sooner. I wasn't expecting to see you here, my dearest. Complaining to dear Rosie about me?” There was a singsong lilt in his voice, teasing and warning at the same time. But you found it not a bit intimidating as you shrugged into the hand on your shoulder.
“Just a little.” You smiled demurely.
“Now I’m curious about what you said.” His eyes narrowed as his grin widened. You weren’t too sure if he found your answer amusing or vexing. All that was certain was that his hand had enough force to turn you around and gently walk you to the entrance of the greenhouse. “But we can talk about that on our date. Shall I pick you up tonight, say seven? Unless you have work this evening?”
The insistent pushing at your shoulder made you want to laugh. It was all you could do to keep it together as you caught the grin on Rosie’s face reflected on a glass panel. You almost missed Alastor’s question.
“No!—“ You flinched at the sound of your overeager denial. “No. I don’t. Seven works.” Your mind immediately churned. You could probably call Goss to take over your shift or call in sick. This wasn’t a chance you’d miss and give him a reason to change his mind.
The moment you set foot outside the greenhouse, the hand in your shoulder disappeared. Alastor’s tall figure blocked the entrance, as if he were trying to bear down on you without coming too close. There was a tenseness about him that one would have assumed was just his usual posture. In response, you smiled up at him. “I’ll see you then.”
“Splendid. Now, run along. I’ve got some catching up to do with my dear old friend.”
“Right. Okay.” For a moment, he softened. And then you ducked to the largest opening on his left side to wave at the woman still standing in place, watching you two with an all too innocent expression. “Bye, Rosie!”
“Careful with the townsfolk out there.”
You didn’t stick around to see what kind of face he made as you ran out the door to make plans and get ready.
———
“Thank you, thank you, thank you, Goss. I really appreciate you so much.” Your voice traveled across your small apartment as you played with your hair, trying out different styles until you found one that matched your dress. From your phone resting on your bed, Goss’ voice spoke through the speaker.
“Just get your shit together already. I won’t accept you not snagging him after all the work we did.”
“I’m sure I can get him to take the radio, eventually. I won’t let your effort go to waste. Besides, even if he doesn’t, the old timey vibes it has are kinda growing on me.”
“I just think you have a thing for old things and people in general. Not that I judge your kink or whatever.”
“He’s not that old.”
“He doesn’t know how to use a cellphone. That’s ancient enough to me.”
You could only laugh before finally going to drop the call. Despite Alastor’s surprise appearance earlier and even more surprising change of plans this evening, things were falling into place. You’d managed to punt your shift to Goss in exchange for buying her credits on a phone game she was currently addicted to. You managed to find a dress to wear at the back of your closet. Even your hair was behaving.
You twirled in front of the small round mirror you had. The dress was one of the things Angel bought for you when you’d gone shopping with him a while back. It was supposed to be what you wore the next time you went dancing with Alastor but you’d never had a chance to try it out. Things fell apart before you could plan anything.
But it was finally making its debut now. It just needed one more detail.
You opened a cardboard box that sat unpacked in the corner of your apartment. There were various little knickknacks in it that just didn’t have a place to be displayed in. And among those things was a small box. Inside was a red pendant on a glittering silver chain.
In your anger, you’d left behind most of the gifts Alastor had given you, the ones that held little value or were too painful to keep. But this one, this one you hadn’t been able to leave behind despite how it burned a hole in your chest to know of its presence. You’d rationalized it before. That it was proof that he cared—genuinely—and reciprocated your fond feelings even if just a little at one point. That it hadn’t all been deceit.
You should have known that in keeping it, you’d still held hope for Alastor, even amidst the pain and hatred.
You wound the long chain twice around your neck, wearing the necklace as a choker. The red pendant gleamed with an enchanting aura even in the harsh fluorescents of your apartment. You touched the cold stone, feeling your heart beat faster.
Here’s to hoping this night went well.
Not a moment after you said that silent prayer, the doorbell rang. The digital numbers on your phone showed it was seven o’eight. He was fashionably late. It didn’t matter. You put on your kitten-heeled shoes and raced out to the hall, barely remembering to bring your clutch.
At the door, you found your date. At first glance, he didn’t seem to have put effort into dressing for your night out. He wore the same suit as always, pressed and unstressed.
That was until you looked closely. The color of his coat was a deeper shade of red, the white pinstripes standing out just a little bit more. His shoes were freshly shined and he wore cufflinks. His inner shirt was black.
Small details, but you felt a heat spread through your chest. He’d made an effort. He was interested in the date even if Rosie had to gawd him into it.
You must’ve looked like a fool the way you felt your cheeks spread wide in delight.
Alastor’s POV
Rosie had played him. He’d realized it as soon as his hand touched his goat’s shoulder.
It happened so quickly. He’d sought out the company of his dear old friend to once again vent out his frustrations with Ynna. How he’d felt a pit in his chest despite how he believed rejecting her had been the correct course that evening. But then he found the devious Overlord licking his goat’s wound and whispering intimately into her droopy ear and he’d been lost in the deafening roar of a flat line in his ears.
The words were out of his mouth, his hand already laying claim to his beloved before he’d caught onto Rosie’s impish smile. He’d had some choice words to say to his dear friend after.
Yet, none of the words he’d said to Ynna were false. Somehow, before he’d even stepped foot in Rosie’s shop, he’d subconsciously already decided to keep Ynna company. And it seemed like the lady had known it the moment she’d sensed his presence at her door. In less than ten seconds, the clever Overlord managed to answer his torrential thoughts before he’d even shared them with her. Was he really so predictable?
How vexing.
Still, as impulsive as he’d been to stake his claim on his goat, the way she looked at him now wasn’t something he regretted. Bathed in the early evening glow, she was lovely in her knee-length dress. All dolled up with makeup and even a hint of perfume.
For him.
Something thrummed in his mind like a purr, itching to catch more of her scent and bathe in the attention she bestowed. The tempting notes teasing his senses were breadcrumbs to a dangerous path for his thoughts, awakening a familiar heat in his belly. With a statuesque smile, he pointedly watched her face instead.
Her eyes subtly traced over his frame, an appreciative glimmer brightening their gentle glow. How lucky that he’d given into the nagging of his shadow to at least present himself properly in more suitable threads. He’d even chosen the coat with the completely intact lining.
His shadow preened in the recesses of his mind, watching the young woman with greedy yet distrustful eyes. Neither of them could deny the thrumming pride that grew with the sprinkle of her gaze. The only thing brighter than her eyes was the glaringly shocking glimmer on her neck. Subtle, but still breathtakingly dazzling before his unsuspecting eyes.
All his thoughts froze for a moment, drawn to the silver chain.
She’d kept the pendant.
That prideful heated thrumming in his chest gasped a silent breath, a faint hollow rumble that roared into a lightening.
Didn’t she throw it away?
After all this time?
It suddenly felt difficult to find the motivation to breathe. Not if filling his lungs with air would somehow prove this a hallucination—that he wasn’t seeing that token of his affection comfortably nestled against the hollow of her delicate throat.
Click.
Click.
Pins and needles threaded down his hand, itching to grasp the pendant to see if it was real—to see if she’d let him pull her by her neck because why else would she wrap the delicate chains so close to her skin? His fingertips longed to feel her warmth seeped into the metal, too delicate to mold the silver but leaving it branded with her essence all the same.
Had she been just as unable to let go of him—
That thought stuttered with a forceful halt. Slowly, he breathed, only just now noticing the burning in his lungs mingling with the static in his chest.
Speculating on what value that object meant to her—whether she’d kept it out of spite or future usefulness or some sentiment—would only further wreck his resolve.
Right.
Right. He’d come here with a different purpose.
To convince his beloved of a different kind of relationship.
Propriety. Companionship. A precious connection that did not go too far so he wouldn’t risk hurting her in his greed.
He stood straight and offered his arm out to the little woman, still haloed by the hallway light and looking at him with relief and appreciation.
“Well, don’t you look good all cleaned up. Ready to hit the road?” Those eyes crinkled a little more brightly and he had to harden his resolve with the anvil of his stubbornness and the slight hammering of his heartbeat.
This date was impulsive but it was an opportunity to show her that they needn’t be more than they already were.
He couldn’t be swayed to err by a pretty girl wearing his mark.
The little woman took his offered arm and he used his quickest shadows to bring them to their destination.
An exquisite building with arched doorways and windows stood proud against the setting purple-black sky. Blood red terracotta tiles gleamed like scales in the evening light, the highlight atop rusty maroon walls with exposed woodwork wrapped in wrought iron elegance. Unlike the blinding neon of the city surroundings, warm yellow lights twinkled from the windows, the crystal ornaments they bounced off of just as beguiling as the flashiest LEDs. It reminded him of back in the day.
They were let in the moment they presented their tickets. The Rouge Bodega was a marvelous little club. Not nearly as expansive as Mimzy’s but it was twice as exclusive. As they passed a few tables, he could already see the difference. A small moan flittered into their ears, tiny and alluring. Even the debauchery rampant in the air held a hint of elegance.
Though he couldn’t see the difference between stray hands hiding their mischief beneath satin tablecloths and a quick rut in a back alley. It was all the same borish stunts to him, even if one smelled of sandalwood and rose oils and the other of cheap vodka and cocaine.
While lights dazzled and shined on the tables on the first floor, shadows obscured the faces seated on the second floor. Only the glittering eyes illuminated by mystic candlelights showed how the occupants of the private seats above watched the stage with languid wine-dazzled eyes.
The seats Ynna had procured were on the first floor, a little ways away from the main stage. Though every seat was filled, the perk of this exclusive club was that every table was able to view the stage without difficulty. A lone singer was performing the opening act, singing a sad little melody to welcome her guests.
They sat across from each other and he was pleased to note that the table was just wide enough. Any closer and it would have felt too intimate. Well, the way she was looking at him expectantly already felt too intimate.
It was like the first time he’d brought her to Mimzy’s. Ynna’s eyes were wide and glittering as she took the surroundings in. Unlike the restless energy she had back then, she matched the more subdued atmosphere. Her eyes roamed around twice at most before she finally settled that excited gaze on him.
The sparks in them charged through his veins.
“So what have you got planned for us tonight? Not exactly the shindig I imagined you’d bring us to, if I’ll be honest.”
“Have you been here before?”
“A few times.”
“Darn. I was hoping you’d be new here.”
Hah. He cradled his head on a palm as he leaned on the table. “There are very few joints like this where I haven’t been—barring what passes for a dance club in modern day. I’m more surprised you’d splurge on a table here. Not exactly something someone on a waitress’ salary would be thinking of.”
“I wanted to take you somewhere nice. This is technically our first date, after all.” Even the jab at her job didn’t phase her, calm and unashamed being that she was. More importantly, it seemed that grin on her face was powered by her own notions for what this evening was about.
For a moment, he hesitated to speak but bursting her bubble now would be better than raising her hopes and slashing them down.
“Now there’s something I want to clarify.” Straightening in his seat, he tried not to seem displeased while also remaining stern. It was a delicate balance to get the right face, smiling but not joking, serious but not dreadfully so. He wanted this evening to be a success and that hinged on not doing too much damage to their already delicate situation. “I’m not too keen to assume any romantic relations, Ynna.”
That excited grin dimmed into a frosted arch, perfectly polite though showing her obvious concern. “Then why’d you agree to go out with me tonight? I was clear about my intentions when I asked.”
“I want to counter your offer.”
Ynna’s POV
“I don’t believe we need to be more than we are. I think we need only to work on mending some of the ills in our relationship and we could be perfectly content, like we were before.”
He wasn’t serious, was he? This was the second time he’d asked to remain friends, to sow a purposeful distance even though he was the one who couldn’t bear to end the deal. Wasn’t he jealous just this morning?
So to ask to be friends and be perfectly happy seemed like absolute bullshit. You wondered again if he was lying to you, or maybe to himself. But there was a softness in his eyes that usually glowed with mirth and condescension. This was a sincere offer, regardless of what his feelings were.
“With all that’s happened, how could you possibly think going back to before would make us happy?” It rasped out of your voice, failing to remain neutral and unoffended even though you knew to keep your temper in check if you wanted to have an actual conversation with the man. The disbelief tasted like vomit in your throat.
But whether the man didn’t sense your reaction to his bullshit or just chose to ignore it, he stood up smoothly, a clawed hand capturing your absently bewildered one, pulling you up just as trumpets roared and the dance floor opened up.
“How about I show you?”
“Wai—“ Gloved hands lead you to the dance floor, smoothly following the Radio Demon as he opened up a quaint space within the crowd just by his presence.
There was no time to feel conscious of the eyes on both of you, an Overlord and his date, as he turned you to face him, one hand leading yours while the other rested on your back, respectfully.
The lights flashed above you, so brilliantly that you could only just register the cocky smile on his face. The trumpets started the intro on the tick of his smile.
The flashiness, the pushiness, the cockiness of this man! It signaled that he well and truly believed he could convince you to settle for a relationship less than what you desired. As if he was generously guiding you to the right path. As if he wasn’t setting everything purely on his terms!
That smirk of a smile tried to be persuasive but on him, it looked like victory.
The trumpets roared. You knew this song.
A petty vein throbbed in your head making you plaster a smile just as indulgent as his. He thought dancing would be fun, huh? Innocent fun? Pfft. Well, you could show him otherwise.
When marimba rhythm starts to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Michael Bublé’s smooth voice moved your feet. With Alastor’s lead, you both swayed. His foot moved back, prompting you to follow. He was starting out surprisingly slow, as if to ensure your comfort and familiarity with the rhythm and your partner.
Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
But he really didn’t need to do that. You weren’t a novice at this anymore. Not after the other times he’d taken you to Mimzy’s to burn holes in your shoes. You gracefully followed his lead, adding a bit of flair here and there, bending your waist back to be caught by his hand. The demon grinned, enjoying your cooperation with fascinated triumph.
My deer, it’s only the second verse.
Following the long line of his arm, you twirled out until just your fingertips touched.
When we dance, you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me
At the snare, you grabbed his hand, wrapping it around yourself as you used it as a guide to bring you chest to chest. Your hand laid a suggestive splay on the black silk of his shirt.
The suddenly closed gap and the impish smile of your face instantly dashed whatever notions of cooperation Alastor had. His grin froze and he was quick to grab your intrusive palm, twirling you back into the starting position.
“Don’t do that.” He scolded lightly.
“I’m just moving as the song suggests.” It was hard not to sing a guilty innocent response. But you weren’t done yet.
Other dancers may be on the floor
“Dear, but my eyes will see only you.” You sang lightly for his eyes, staring right into his eyes to watch them sparkle with stage lights and blaze with that desire he tried to keep hidden.
Stubbornly and to keep you at a distance, he moved you both into a fox trot. But the lyrics came easily. Just as easily as you melted into his palm, with him being too much of a gentleman to let you fall even if he was stubbornly trying to only hover over your skin.
“Only you have that magic technique.” The tips of your fingers traveled up his arm, finding purchase just at the joint of his neck and shoulder. The place you’d bitten. The right spot that made anger and desire flair in his red eyes. You grabbed him tight and used your body weight to force him to bend down and swing you in an arch.
All the while, you crooned. “When we sway, I go weak.”
The lights splayed a purple halo on his hair and though his lips stayed in an arch, he let out a dog-like rumble unbefitting the debonair figure. You almost giggled, wanting to ruffle his hair. It was fun to see him frustrated and mad. But you didn’t want to push him further than this.
The whole point was to show that there was no way he’d be completely happy with something platonic.
You were about to straighten and follow his lead again without any flirting, much, when one large hand grabbed both of yours into a forceful swirl.
It was frighteningly deliberate in how your body spun with enough force that had he not been coordinated enough, not fast enough to catch you before you lost your balance, it would have hurt. But even more frightening was the pinched look dappling the corners of his features. Unamusement and a deep irritation stitched the edges of his eyes and mouth into unhappy lines.
For a second, you saw the demon he transformed to, voracious and the stuff of nightmares, and you froze.
You’d crossed a line.
An apology rose from your throat, knowing that as stupid as you thought his proposal was, he’d been sincere and your petty response could be interpreted as disrespectful. But before you could try to express that, a shiny black and red leather shoe darted behind your ankle, sweeping it forward and knocking your balance, leaving your body to the mercy of Alastor’s firm grip.
Your eyes darted to Alastor’s to glean his intent. You didn’t want to fight with him and maybe your teasing had instigated just that.
But surprisingly, his face was already schooled back down to his usual smile. No, you squinted. There was a challenge in them, a burning that dared you to try that again.
That scolding flame in those red eyes sparked your nerve, an itch to rise up to his nonsense and spit it right back out to him coursing through.
At the next snare, firm hands guided your body across the dance floor. A step to match his, a sway added when he pulled you into a circle. All the while, you watched his face with intent. One more twitch, one slightest hint of letting his guard down and aha—!
The irritation on his face lessened just a bit as you let yourself be led by him. You took that chance to try to sneak in your own moves, maybe a deliberate touch on his shoulder, an arm snuck around his waist. If you could free your hands for just a moment, you could step a little closer into his space.
Unfortunately, just as you could read him, he’d become just as adept at reading you. Before you could improvise, his hands were holding you at arms length, both your palms engulfed by his larger ones.
His right hand spun you out and he’d dodged your attempt to spin back into his chest. Instead, he captured both your hands again and used the length of your own arm as a shield from any of your advances.
It was baffling how easily he’d done it. Sure, it looked awkward. There was no way anyone watching you two would think this was a romantic date. It looked like Alastor was messing with you or forced to interact with the distance he kept even as the dance continued.
Finally, the big pause in the song came and he’d somehow managed to stop you from coming close again by turning you around, keeping your arms pinned straight down your back. You caught your reflections in the window for that brief moment.
In those two seconds of silence, a moment meant for dancing partners to catch their breath and maybe each other's eyes, but there you were, kept at a distance by the very man you’d wanted to spend a romantic evening with. Barely two minutes into this dance you were already powerless to do much more than follow his lead.
Follow what he wanted. Unable to make your own moves.
Unable to sway him.
The crashing realization turned your body rigid, too rigid for Alastor to bring you back into the embrace of trumpets.
The moment those gloved hands tried to readjust their hold, you forcefully withdrew, turning back around to look into his face, seeing the confusion clouding over the self-confident smile that had taken over. He’d been having fun, dancing you. Not realizing, or maybe not caring, that he wasn’t dancing with you.
“Stop. I can’t do this.”
This was a rejection again. In the form of your favorite pass time together. Bitterly, you moved away, his touch scratching like needles against your skin.
The bar to the side was easy to reach, the other guests cognizant enough to make enough space to let you move out without disrupting their own much more enjoyable dances. You sat at the bar and ordered two shots.
He’d tried to show you a good time and you’d tried to show him your version of it. Even if it was spurred by a bit of pettiness at Alastor for trying to simplify your relationship, you were still pretty genuinely enthusiastic. Wanting to let him see your playfulness, your desire. But instead of a back and forth, he’d shut down any attempts on your end. He kept everything nice and tidy. Not a hint of desire or innuendo. So forcefully proper, he’d forgotten to show fondness or just a smidge of consideration for what you wanted to bring to the table.
Alastor’s lanky frame occupied the seat beside you. He was silent, observing. Good. He knew that he’d pushed you a tad too far, even if you’d accidentally done the same to him on the dance floor.
You turned to him, leaning on the bar with your frustration clear on your face. “I don’t get you. When I tried to go away, you kept on showing back up in my life, wanting to keep in touch, saving me…kissing me. And now that I’m telling you I want to try us a little differently, you keep pushing me away.”
His mouth squeezed into a thin line but you held up a finger to ask for his continued silence. “I can tell you want me, Al. So why? What do you really want from me?”
There was a flash in his eyes, a brief spark crashing through them. The corners of his mouth twitched but in the end, they settled, calm and resolute. “Your companionship, my dearest.” The tone suggested this was the whole truth, not a secondary answer or a half answer.
And that doused the frustration and ache building in your belly. If he’d said something that felt like a lie, something too happy or proud or carrying that nonchalant air, you would’ve called bullshit but this felt like the real answer. “Is that really all? Us hanging out every now and then, I eat you sometimes, and then we go about our afterlives like nothing ever happened? Is that really all you want?”
“…” He turned fully to you, leaning on the bar top with his back straight as he thought of your question. And he just kept thinking, silently looking at you and why was he taking so long? It felt like you were pleading with him, begging, and the pathetic mess of it stung.
Someone told you before that you shouldn’t have to beg for love and it made you wonder if this was that line Rosie talked about. What you were willing to give and when you would need to give up on him.
If he was really hellbent on keeping you at a distance, wouldn’t that mean you’d have to respect his decision? What would that future look like? You think you could remember what it was, your expectations for your friendship with the Radio Demon. Before you fell in love with him. Before he kissed you like he’d wanted to devour you.
Two shots were put in front of you and the bartender knew better than to stick around and listen in. You smiled at him gratefully, feeling a fizz of static as you mouthed a thank you for his professionalism.
The light threat of electricity raised the hair on your hooves and your smile pinched. Why the fuck was he getting irritated? You turned your still gaze to him, noting how small his smile was now. “Would you be okay if I fall in love with someone else, as long as I make time for you?”
He crossed one ankle over the other. “Jumping into what ifs about hypothetical lovers doesn’t seem like a relevant item to discuss when we’re talking about our relationship, no?”
“It is, actually. Because I know you want something more from me but ever since that night, you’ve backed off. If you’re scared of intimacy, I can respect that. If you really truly don’t want more, then I can back off. But if you’re asking to be my friend—to really be my friend—then I want to know that you’ll respect my decisions and won’t cross boundaries. You won’t try to insert yourself into my life too intimately.”
Alastor’s POV
There was a determination in her eyes as she looked at him, a cool glaze obscuring the respect and affection she’d held for him. Or it would be more appropriate to say that those feelings propped up her resolve. She meant every word. A truce and a compromise so long as he could promise that he’d butt his nose out of her business where friends wouldn’t be appropriate.
“Would you really be satisfied with us being just friends?” She asked with her bright eyes lancing straight into his soul.
Affirmation laid ready on the tip of his tongue, arrested by a sharp twist, a warning tingle, and he knew he couldn’t give the answer he’d wanted to say. It wouldn’t be the whole truth and it seemed being honest got him a lot farther with her than his attempt at dancing the problem away had.
“No, but it would be the easiest.” There wouldn’t be the temptation to let a hand linger longer than it should. To expect those eyes to hold only him. To show her the kind of monster she awakened in him, the kind that would eat her whole even if she cried. “It certainly would be less likely to cause any heartbreak.”
“Yet here we are.” Lament dripped pitifully from her tongue. Her eyes softened before they shone with more determination and affection. His brain lit up at their intensity, at what they conveyed. His chest stilled. In fear? In anticipation?
“Alastor, I lo—“ His finger found her lips, stopping the words from being breathed to life.
“Don’t say words you don’t fully mean, dearest.” He would be so tempted to believe them when she looked this pathetic, soft and sad. Resolute and sincere.
“Don’t assume you know how I feel when you’re trying so hard not to believe me.” Indignity traveled across her face but her gaze held the same affection laced with irritation.
“You’re the one who wants to drop the deal, Ynna. Can you really speak of love when you can’t even trust me?” His straightforward words caused a crack to appear in her determination.
“…It’s not like you trust me either.”
“Precisely. Even so, would you still insist on being more than we are right now?”
Slowly, the exhausted sadness that she held when she left the dance floor came back. And it squeezed his insides to see it set in her lovely face.
In a way, he understood that she may have been sincere. Perhaps, she did hold feelings for him, deep enough to tolerate his eccentricity. And she wished to express that affection freely, without the weight of his chains threatening to pull her down should the love she gave not be enough to satisfy the greedy pit within him.
He understood that. But he couldn’t bear the thought of her walking away should he set her free. An ache raged in him at the thought, several voices in his head clawing to bring her back though she hadn’t been left.
“What if we miss the timing for us?”
“How can there be a matter of timing if we’re bound together forever?”
“We’re bound together so long as your whims dictate. And maybe one day you’ll get tired of me and I’ll just be another sad soul in your collection.” Bitterly, she pointed out the precariousness of her situation.
The thought never even occurred to him that he’d ever tire of her. Not when her presence gave him peace. Not when he’d missed her even when things went swimmingly well in his days. Even this conversation fraught with irritating emotions was something he’d rather have with her than spend a quiet evening in his radio tower.
But it was this same sentiment that he feared. She was too precious to lose but keeping her too close stirred pitch black thoughts within him.
He scratched the back of his ear in frustration. She wasn’t wrong but he couldn’t give her what she wanted either.
“I think that’s enough for tonight. I didn’t spend my savings just to come here and be miserable. If you really don’t want to make this be romantic, then fine.” With an exasperated breath, Ynna lightly slammed her hand on the table. A little bit angry, a little bit sad, but mostly tired.
Apprehension quickly rose within him at seeing her give up. By all means, he should have felt relief that she was willing to drop the topic but the frown set in her face and the bitterness she regarded the shot glasses in front of her didn’t bring such comfort.
“I do apologize, you know. I know what your intentions were in bringing us here and I’ve completely ruined your plans.” He asked for forgiveness, knowing she’d put in plenty of effort for tonight. Most demons of her caliber had to scrimp and save for just a night in this club and he knew she chose it because of him. She must’ve had grand ambitions of flittering the night away together on drinks and music, other romantic notions aside.
“It’s fine. In the end, I did just want to go on a date with you so I’ve got that, in a way.” Ever a tolerant woman. She pouted but offered him the other shot which he took both as an acceptance of her forgiveness and also recompense for how this evening started.
They clinked the tiny glasses and drank quickly. The alcohol burned smoothly down, a sign of quality that he expected of such a posh place. Ynna shared this sentiment as she let out a delighted giggle.
Both of them glanced at each other and ordered one more shot each to soothe the last burns of their prior conversation.
“I’ll tell you one thing though,” Once they finished the drinks, a pleasant swoon started to lull his earlier apprehensiveness. Not enough to even be tipsy but maybe more courageous than he’d felt earlier. “We don't have to be lovers to enjoy each other’s company.”
He stood, back straight as he slightly bowed to the lady who regarded him with a raised brow. “Care to join me back on the floor, doll?”
He was determined to ignore the heat that being near her stoked within him if it meant salvaging the rest of their evening together. He just hoped that she would be onboard and not take things too far as well.
She blinked her eyes at him, the gears turning in her head before she made her decision. Once again, a bright smile adorned her face and she placed her hand in his.
“Heck yeah!” In step, they sauntered back onto the dance floor, feeling much lighter than they had all evening.
Drums and the piano started the next song, the beat fast.
You shake my nerves and you rattle my brain
Too much love drives a man insane
You broke my will but what a thrill
Goodness gracious, great balls of fire!
It…wasn’t a song he was used to and Ynna seemed to sense his hesitation. Her hand found his arm, using him for balance as she stepped to the fast notes of the piano. The impish smile on her face held a challenge.
Hah. As if this was enough to stop him.
Quickly, he brought her into a swing dance, finding the lively rhythm to his liking. The laugh she let out as she was spun in a wide arch reminded him of the first time they danced together and he suddenly felt inspired. Two hands grabbed her waist and he threw her in the air.
However, instead of being startled, she landed perfectly into him, not an ounce of doubt that he’d catch her. The moment her feet touched the floor, she was stepping back and fast, shaking to the music while watching him match her.
She kicked to the side and he did the same, almost completely in sync as he read her moves. He grabbed her hand and pulled her forward and a giggle reached his ears and she used her momentum to force him into a spin.
Delight passed through him, seeing the last vestiges of the earlier gloom completely vanish. This was what he wanted to do earlier. To remind her of all the fun they had before any notion of intimacy and romance barged into the picture. That their companionship was easy, so ridiculously easy. They needn’t over complicate things when they could be enjoying eternal damnation with some good music and booze.
He reached for her again.
Her eyes sparkled under the lights, pupils turning into slits as she followed his pull but instead of just stepping into his chest, the bold little woman used her momentum to slide between his legs, one arm hooking on his left calf and the other finding his right hand to bring herself back up.
“Whoo! I finally got to use that move!” She laughed as they faced each other again.
“Oh? Been practicing, my dearest?” He had wondered if she’d continued going out to dance on her own after she’d left. She enjoyed it so much when they went and it felt like she’d gotten better and bolder. An itch of jealousy crept into his pleasant mood at the thought that she’d danced with other people, showing this joyful face when another person caused it.
“I sometimes see things on the internet and try them at home. I’ve been so busy with work that I haven’t gotten to test them out on the dance floor but that was fun! Let me do it again.” With barely any time to consent, she used his arm as leverage to swing herself, curling around his long limbs as he provided just enough support that she didn’t fall flat on her face even when she didn’t use enough force to pull her through the entire move.
All the while, his chest buzzed. He too hadn’t gone dancing since their first fight.
He pulled her up and laughed with her as they continued to shimmy on the dance floor.
You’re fine, so kind
Got to tell this world that you’re mine, mine, mine, mine
Ynna’s POV
Hours passed just like that with you two dancing just like before. He was right. When you forgot all about the other crap in your relationship, things were easy. As if you were starting over again. He laughed without a care, filter crackling at the force of it every now and then. And you did too, between shocking gasps and breathlessness in trying to keep up with the demon. Just enjoying his company and letting things rest for now. You could afford one evening to remind yourself why this man was so important.
Eventually, it was time to go home and it was almost such a shame too. But your hooves were starting to hurt and you definitely got a workout because Alastor was nothing if not a show off. He pushed your skills to the limit. And while you had gotten so much better, you were still so far behind the man in experience.
Still, you left the bodega laughing. Arm in arm, giggling like school children on your way out between tipsy bodies and elegant double doors.
“You really need to be careful. I can’t believe you almost threw me into the butterfly lady.”
“You would think that even when I’m in polite company, sinners would know to keep a wide berth.”
“Oh? I thought you’d say something like ‘Well, they should have known to dodge faster.’ Or some other condescending nonsense.” You waved at him in teasing for being a tad soft on the insults today.
He took it in stride, and by that, you meant, he used his full walking length to walk just fast enough that you almost stumbled with your arm trapped in the crook of his. Damn him and his mile long legs.
“I already did the condescending nonsense to that clown man. The one that tried to take over our spot on the dance floor with his hideous shoes.”
“Okay, but if a sinner was reincarnated as a clown, who’s to say whether those were his feet or not?” The memory of the ridiculously large shoes almost tripping you made you more curious than mad. On the other hand, Alastor had literally danced you both in circles around the man, threatening to step on his toes until the sinner decided to migrate to another spot.
“Then all the more shame that he was able to dodge.”
“You menace to society!”
“Check the crowd, sweetheart. You’re surrounded by them. At least you’re in the company of the best of them.” A quiet laugh track played from his microphone to accompany his exaggerated chuckle. The sound of it, his arrogance and confidence endearingly funny, pulled a fond eye roll from yourself.
“—!” With a gasp, you fell forward, the tip of your shoe catching against the lightly raised sidewalk. You braised yourself for the impact but instead you were suspended in a familiar pose.
A pinstriped arm wrapped around your waist while the other cradled your shoulder, bringing you just close enough to find your balance against his frame. The cool night air carried his scent, a slight musk from the sweat you’d worked up on the dance floor adding a deep note to coffee and paper. It tickled your senses in warmth and something else.
Above you, he sported an amused smirk, half-lidded eyes mocking with the shine of a nearby neon sign.
“Dearest, I thought we already talked about this. It’s not a good idea to fall for me.” His tone carried lightly, still wrapped in the fuzz of merriment though the press of his fingertips where they held you felt like they dug deeper into your flesh than they did on the dance floor.
But that could just be your imagination. He made it clear that he wanted nothing more than this.
This.
Illuminated by the neon evening. In a bubble of warmth shared between you against the cool evening air. A familiar stance. An easy intimacy.
You felt heat ignite in your chest but strangely, your heart felt calm.
Your arms looped around his neck, bringing yourself up and close to his face. Stopping just a breath away, you waited a second to see how he’d react. But you’d been closer than this all evening, and it’d been so long since he truly despised contact with you.
You leaned in to kiss the corner of his grin, light as a feather, a whisper of the fire blossoming in your chest. And then pulled away from his hold, letting an easy joking smile replace what could have been a too fond curve on your lips.
“Well, too late for that, deerest. ”
You meant to lead the way back to your place, half expecting to be abandoned in the street for daring to take such liberties with him.
But instead, there was a tug and you found your balance dependent on his lanky frame...and the press of his lips tipping your vision.
Alastor’s POV
For all the touches, brushes of skin, rough tugs to spin and catches and throws, the hours spent in close contact as they danced the night away…
Yet the softest touch of her lips on his skin had flipped all the switches to dim in his head. All the voices of doubt, of self-preservation. His own inner voice of restraint. They all stopped mattering when she grinned, teeth hinting at nonchalance, acceptance…a sincere fondness that was both heavy and enlightening.
He wanted to taste that happiness, see if it tingled delicately on his skin like that feathery kiss she’d been bold to give.
So he did. Taking from her again as he was wont to do.
He silently cursed himself for it, for his greed, but the thudding in his chest pumped his blood faster than the drumbeats hours earlier. Trumpets sang in triumph as her breath hitched, lips shaking against his increasingly widened grin. He should feel guilty for indulging in the impulse.
But Ynna, sweet little woman, leaned into him, pressing just enough to reciprocate, leaving enough room to respect his plans. And he wished he had plans. He wished he knew what to do, now that he’d crossed his own hard drawn line with just a little temptation from the little devil in his arms.
Damn her and her sweetness!
He pressed further, crushing her lips with his until they pulled back to crash with his teeth. And just like the dedicated dance partner that she was, she matched him, her mouth opening for him to devour her taste. Lightly sucking her lower lip between razor teeth. A croon echoed from his throat to his chest as a stray tang of iron mixed with the sweetness. But instead of pulling away, her hands moved up to his shoulders, grabbing shyly, their feeble strength too afraid to assert that same audaciousness that gave her the courage to bring him to this state. But still bold enough to grasp at him, her desire, her reciprocal heat made known with each fingertip trying to dig into the wool of his coat.
And that heat was scorching, blazing trails down his spine while her lips enchanted his tongue. She moved against him, letting him lead as he took and took. Pressed further, cut a little more to feed off of her eagerness. A new voice sprang in his head, hissing in delight each time her hands tried to hold back from holding onto him. All the while, she let him lift her off the ground, his body the only stability she could find lest she fell onto the dirt and filth of the streets of Pride.
He knew it would be like this. If he ever let himself believe her. He’d take everything she had to offer, maybe more than she was actually willing to give. All because his brain and body lit up in chaotic voltages when his senses were filled with her. He would take and take and take.
Because she’s mine, mine, mine.
His tongue scared against her teeth and the minx actually nipped at him. It sent a jolt straight to his brain and he gasped, disconnecting them save for a silvery thread of spittle.
Dangerous. She’d done so little yet he was burning.
Even worse, the dim light of the evening couldn’t hide the warm flush on her face. The neon lights couldn’t outshine the sharp sparkle in her eyes. Gravity itself couldn’t pull further from him, her claws digging holes into his coat, her lips just a twitch away. Her breath fanned across his spit coated lips in cool temptation. As if she was offering herself. Determined and dazed.
He really shouldn’t. But the decision was ultimately out of his hands and she closed the distance and he was lost in her again.
Nothing mattered other than that he could have his fill of her. Feel the dress she wore give into his hands. The curve of her smile pressed against his grin. Somewhere, the air shifted, and the neon lights were replaced by fire glow and white heaven beams.
Ynna seemed to sense the change, detaching herself from him to look around them. But his senses couldn’t feel any danger other than the unpleasant hiss in his head in the seconds she was away from him.
It growled and insisted to bring her inside his home, keep her there like she belonged. And he obliged, tunnel vision centered on feeling her against him again.
Even his shadow, as doubtful as it was of her feelings and intentions, opened the door as he pulled his woman to his den. Not even minding her little gasp as he turned her around to kiss once more.
The force of him pushed her back and back, her steps faltering a little, making gaps between their lip lock like she was beckoning him to chase her. The telltale hunt heated his already electrified blood to stifling degrees.
His coat had to go, the wool no longer keeping the night chill out but instead becoming a barrier between her and his warmth. Next were his shoes, shrugged off without a care because if she ran he could chase her faster without them.
And Ynna was overwhelmed by his aggressive approach for all of two seconds before she played her part, finding amusement in his eagerness, stepping back farther and with surer steps. That was, until the back of her knees hit his bed and she toppled down onto his mattress with a squeak of surprise.
How lovely she looked, hair splayed over his red sheets, a flush on her face and adoration clear in her gaze. Incredibly vulnerable.
He loosened his collar, dropping his bow tie as he closed the few steps between them. She watched him in fascination. The predator in him delighted at the little creature in his bed.
“What did I say about falling for me?” His voice was husky from desire. He placed a knee on the bed, slowly caging her in with his arms as he watched emotions flicker in her eyes. They held his image in their glassy gaze.
Breathless, she said, “That it’s not a good idea.”
With her trapped beneath him, not quite touching but so very close, he lowered his head, a toothy grin spread across his face as he neared her. “Good girl.” His eyes beheld the shiver that raced from her head downwards though she kept an unwavering gaze at him.
“Alastor?” A whisper of his name.
“Yes, dearest?”
Her eyes shook with a new emotion as he answered her with a voice as delicate as her call. He relished this distance, chest thrumming with warmth and heat and excitement. The scent of his home wrapping around them both, egging on the voice in his head making claims on his beloved. He wanted another kiss. And another. And another. He almost forgot why he’d denied himself this when she lay so compliant beneath him.
“Alastor…”
“Yes?”
Her delicate hands reached up as if to pull him to her, and then her touch turned forceful and he found his world turning quickly. Ynna swung a leg around his waist and used her momentum to turn their positions until she pinned him down beneath her.
“…why don’t you fall for me instead?” With her hips on his waist and her hands on his chest, the last thing he saw was her glowing eyes and impish smirk before she captured his lips in a ravenous kiss.
He had no time to process everything as he felt her teeth scrape along his bottom lip, nipping and tugging for entrance that he granted all too happily as his hands roamed up beneath the straps of her dress.
One of her hands combed into his hair, pulling lightly to change their angle so she could bring her tongue to explore him more. She licked and prodded, savoring him. Her other hand kept her balance, splayed atop where his heartbeat drummed against her palm.
She could feel him, she could taste him. She roamed above him with tongue and teeth, her earlier shyness seeming like a facade in the face of the occasional glimpses of hungry glowing eyes bearing down on him. And her hunger sent shivers through him.
In a move completely of his own undoing, he pushed her hips down to meet where his desire started to pool. All at once, his innards clenched as her heat brushed over his need.
“Hah—!” There was a pop somewhere, like a bulb exploding, as his faltering static registered in his ringing ears. He’d tried so hard to forget how good it felt, the pleasure of it when their hips ground together in their own chaotic dance. How maddeningly debauched it was to feel the sticky wetness start to dampen his pants as he rutted like an animal.
How wretched he’d felt for giving into his baser needs. How he’d forgotten to give a fuck when Ynna, in her divine stupidity rutted back, indulging them both in pleasure he could never share with anyone else.
Above him, she sighed, breath fanning across his face as she moved on her own, her underwear already damp enough that he could feel it through his trousers. The whine that left his throat was something to be ashamed of; it hadn't gotten the woman to do that again.
“And—and here I thought you didn’t like it.” The stutter in her breath could only be endearing with the amusement on her face.
“Why would I have?” In truth, he’d completely lost himself. Between her teeth marking his neck and the pressure of his cock between her legs, he hadn’t been able to think straight. It was a sensation he’d never felt, a hunger that couldn’t compare to even the occasional itch he’d had back when he was younger.
“You left me. And stayed away after.” There was a hurt in her voice, beneath the lust, that gave him pause.
Of course he’d left. In the clarity after, his mind kept replaying everything. The heat of their bodies, the smell of blood, Ynna’s scent mixing with his home. It was all too irresistible. Pulling and nagging, clawing at his insides even when he’d tried to forget.
“If I were a lesser man, you’d have never been able to leave this house again after what happened.” He grabbed her hips again, grinding his aching member against her for relief, as well as to prove a point. To stifle the groan coming out of his chest, he reached up to bite her lip, distracting one pleasure for another. And another as her hand gripping his hair tightened ever so slightly as she shivered.
“And I was under the impression you’d regret it. Might have ruined things even worse between us.” He admitted between kisses and licking the wound he made on her lip.
“I would have been mad…I was.” In retaliation, Ynna bit his lip, puncturing it so blood freely flowed. The sting was painfully delightful as she latched her sweet tongue over the wound. The flash in her eyes was a satisfied sheen that drew a groan from him. “But you know, there’s something satisfying in seeing you like this.”
She continued her assault, drawing more blood that she kissed away and her hips swayed in rhythm. A fog rolled into his brain as pleasure took root. Sweetly, she tasted him, blood and saliva mixing in lascivious emulsion. With each rut of their hips, her skirt rode up until he wondered what was the use of the thing if not to tease him with only glimpses of forbidden skin.
Yet, what sweet torture. Her fingers tangled further in his hair, alternating between gentle strokes and demanding tugs.
Each movement fed the fire in his chest, burning from lack of oxygen as she stole his every breath in groans and gasps with her wicked mouth. The heat of their hips demanded all his attention as the pressure in his belly coiled closer and closer to the apex. Just a bit more. Just—
He tried to guide her, pull her core just where he wanted but her other hand held one of his wrists, pinning it by his hip as she set their rhythm. Faster but not quite enough. Teasing him closer and closer to the edge.
She lifted from him in laughter, a pure sound of delight as she continued to torture his clothed cock.
She was there. In his bedroom. Wrapped in candlelight and the glow from his radios. Joy on her face. Lips bruised from his kiss and redder from his blood. A confidence in her movements as she watched him. Watched as he writhed in her attention. Beautiful and proud. As if she owned him.
And maybe she did own him. He couldn’t find the strength to wrestle her for control. To stop her demented teasing.
To stop her from taking…
A cold shard hit his burning chest twice over. The first, a manic screech that couldn’t fathom her stopping, not when she was enjoying this, not when they were in such bliss. He’d never let her. He’d bind her. He’d force her. He’d break her if it meant she’d never stop being with him.
And the second, even colder, shattering the heat within him almost completely. He’d give her anything. Anything at all. As long as she never stopped being with him.
If she asked to break the deal now….
A sob bubbled from his throat. Pleasured and pathetic.
Ynna’s POV
His smile shook at the edges with each pant, smeared with your lipstick and shiny from your shared saliva. God, he was beautiful.
Right there, beneath you with his hair fanned across his pillow in a dark coral halo. You could have him now, for the night. Sink your teeth into him and he was yours until the high wore off into a blissfully tired creak in your bones.
The noises he made fueled your desire, wanting to take this as far as you could go. Because you wanted him. God, you wanted him. Even the taste of his blood which should have been demented was savory sweet on your tongue. Electric and bitter and everything that was Alastor.
The hand on your hips said he’d let you, that he wanted you just as much as you ached for him.
But it trembled, little shakes as if the weight of you was too much to behold and yet too precious to let go. His eyes spoke the same, blown with desire and staring at you like he was committing every detail to memory. In their flaring depths, was something else. His pupils shook.
He was…afraid. Caught up in his desire but still so unsure.
You leaned your weight onto your waist, finding your center of gravity where your hips met in aching heat. A strangled groan vibrated from his throat, his hips moving to grind into your core like he was encouraging you to take him. And damn it. Damn it! How your insides clenched and your thighs shook to restrain themselves from wrapping completely around him, from burying him between his sheets and your body.
Instead, you focused on his eyes. Your hands found their way to his cheeks, thumbs brushing along beneath his lower lashes with a soft touch. You felt the moment his breath hitched, neck straining for your lips to meet him again in a kiss but his eyes! His damned eyes took a watery shine as if it broke something in him to ask for more.
Suddenly, you could breathe again. The air still felt warm and a fire still blazed in your body but you didn’t need to fill your lungs with his shared breath. Because it wouldn’t taste nearly as sweet now that you saw that fear in him.
Hands cradling his head, you gently laid a kiss on his forehead. The action was light but it seemed to stop him from straining to hold you closer, from trembling with the effort to do so.
“Al.” You whispered to him softly, slowly, letting his name calmly ride the short distance of a breath between you as you looked into his eyes. You gazed at him with a look that you hoped showed your desire but more than just that, that you were watching him and you cared for him.
His wide eyes watched you back in confusion, pupils still blown and trembling even more as he realized you were stopping. Fuck. He was afraid to continue and just as afraid for you to pull away. Why the fuck was he so silly? So fucking precious? Your heart ached at his unmasked emotions.
You kissed him again, on his cheek this time, and called his name. When he remained frozen, you did it again. Each time, a soft kiss on his face followed by an even softer call of his name. Each time, his eyes trembled less. His breath came slower. You went on and on like a ritual—a mantra—watching his gaze relax with each call.
Over and over until the heat turned to warmth and his hands on your hips mimicked your caress on his face. With one last kiss, the lightest peck on his lips, you finally found what you wanted in his eyes.
He looked at you, not with fearful desire but with soft fondness and wonder. Half-lidded and tired but still focused and curious. Still letting you do as you liked, offering himself with a serene acceptance.
You smiled down at him, taking in the sincere emotions on his face in silence. He did the same until the desire cooled.
His palm traveled up your back in sweet caress. When it reached your hair, he moved a strand away from your face and you leaned into his touch like a cat.
“Why did you stop?” His pure voice, unfiltered, whispered in a breathless timbre. It floated through your head and scratched delicious shivers down the back of your neck. You smile wider at him.
“Because,” With a little effort you let your body drop away from him and laid yourself down beside him, not breaking eye contact. “I don’t want to ask too much of you, my deerest.”
His eyes shook again but only for a split second before his entire body relaxed. For a moment, he looked quite torn, eyes flicking down to your lips before coming back to meet yours but instead of asking for another kiss, they softened in gratitude that was left unvoiced.
His body turned to face you and you let his arms wrap around your waist to pull you closer. You took your consolation, breathing in the warmth of his presence and letting it lull you further. One of his hoofed legs wrapped over yours and you moved your own into his space.
All the while, you savored the silence of his bedroom, the quiet buzz of his static and his gaze that never left you even as the lamp light faded into darkness.
Notes:
Little life update about me:
Baby is almost here. Been busy prepping documents and instructions for whoever will replace me at work. Thankfully, I remain healthy, even though my capacity to do things has been greatly reduced. Some days, it's all I can do to just exist and get through my obligations.
But I am excited. New family member coming. This story is coming to a close soon. New Hazbin Hotel Season has been announced. Patrick Stump is making me think I'll simp for Abel. Just so many good things.
I hope y'all are also hanging in there, if not doing fabulously.
Take care always!
Chapter 51: Seeing Red
Notes:
TW: Cannibalism, Attempted-Rape, Murder
Chapter Text
Ynna’s POV
Things shifted after that night.
First of all, Alastor stopped avoiding you. The first time he showed up at the diner since that night, you, and some of your coworkers and newer patrons, were shocked. He strutted in there like nothing had happened, all elegant swagger and a snide tilt in his eyes when any unfortunate sinner happened to look at him for more than two seconds.
The poor sap who was dining at Alastor’s usual table was immediately booted out of his place. The man didn’t know what was going on when several black-hooded waitstaff yanked him out of the booth and cleaned his table faster than a racer’s pit crew could refuel and change tires. You thought it was a world record. Blindsided crew busting their butts bussing. They’d had the table ready by the time you’d finished greeting Al and walking him over.
Alastor, prick that he was, thought nothing of their effort, of course. Instead, he pulled out a handkerchief from the inner pocket of his coat, wiping non-existent crumbs from the seat before delicately scootching into the booth and crossing his prissy long legs. You rolled your eyes beneath your screaming mask and rang up your usual orders, already seeing your boss rearrange everyone to fit in your early unplanned lunch.
For how long it had been since he darkened the diner’s door, the staff at Billy and Stu’s knew better than to forget to accommodate their local Overlord’s whims. Such was the influence of the Radio Demon. Monica all but sat you down across from the man himself.
A flicker of anticipation crept its way into your spine as the draping fabric of your uniform cloak squeaked against the pleather seats. It had been two days since you woke up cuddled next to him in bed. Two days since the slightly tense morning only eased by Alastor’s well-practiced morning routine that you tried your best to follow. Well, you didn’t really have to try.
As with everything calm and normal about the man, it was easy for you to follow through. It was a lovely morning; a quiet breakfast with an old record skipping a note every now and then.
In the end, neither of you addressed what had happened the night before, though his smiling eyes carried a certain gleam when you last saw him. That same gleam looked back at you now, studying your expression as you lay your mask to the side—daring you to place words about your mutual desire of that evening, what happened now, what your words had meant that night when you pulled away from him so sweetly.
A smile crept its way onto your lips as you watched his expression. The slightly narrowing of his eyes. The faintest hint of a blush on his cheeks. His back, always straight, was particularly stiff, ears on alert even as he tried to smile casually, invitingly.
Oh, now he wanted to talk.
Too bad. You did promise him not to ask too much of him and after that night, after seeing his hesitation lodged deep and flashing in his red eyes, you resolved to wait for him to come to you.
So you smiled in welcome, a bit of mischief, a hint of fondness. You made it clear on your face that your offer for something more with him still stood, but you wouldn’t broach the topic until he did—until he wanted it more than he feared the possibility of your betrayal.
Instead, you leaned in across the table, your hand covering the side of your mouth. He met you halfway, the straight line of his back making even the uncomfortable posture look elegant. You took a moment to look at that gleam in his eyes, flashing anticipatory and something darker. Expectant yet somehow braced for impact. An aborted snort tickled your throat at having to disappoint him.
“So you remember Old Man Jenkins…” You whispered, and that tension in his smile froze, his sharp eyes studying yours and finding that same soft reassurance you’d leveled him that night. His pupils shook for just half a second and then the tension in his smile eased wide in gossip and his back arched just a little in delight.
The two of you didn’t bring up kisses or relationships, unless it was about other people you could talk about.
———
“So still nothing, huh? You’d think an Overlord wouldn’t have trouble snatching up whatever he wanted.” Your shift for the day lulled between the lunch and evening rush so Goss and you bussed the tables and prepped utensils. She clicked her tongue and the tiniest little zap of static coursed through her tentacles in judgement.
“It’s not like wooing an Overlord would be an easy job.” Especially one as averse to romance as Alastor was.
After lunch, you’d walked him outside, full from a tuna melt and his scathing overview of the latest news around cannibal town he’d gotten from Rosie. You stopped just a couple of feet out the door, ready to wave him goodbye as he strutted away like usual. But instead, he lingered beside you, looking out at the bustling street
One second.
Two.
He cast a side glance at you, still waiting, but he only found the screened black fabric of your mask staring back in question. If he were feeling petulant, he might have huffed. Instead, he walked away, humming only when he was almost out of earshot. Almost. You still heard him before he vanished into shadow.
Those few seconds filled your chest with glee, the awkward pause just enough to show how open he was to hearing you out—possibly even reconsidering his stance on your relationship. If only he’d start the conversation, let you know how he felt. But that was probably too much to ask at this point.
When it came to feelings so genuine they left one so vulnerable, it wasn’t difficult to understand how a careless psycho like him could feel uncomfortable reaching out.
For now, you could wait. It would be worth it to finally have something steady and healthy with the one you loved. The fond tilt of your smile came easily as you found hope for a better future for your relationship with the man.
“Breaking News Tonight! The Princess of Hell has just come back from a meeting with Heaven. As of two minutes ago, the countdown for the next extermination has dropped to thirty days. Gee, I wonder how that little royal brat managed to fuck up that the angels are coming back early.”
Heads whipped to face the TV hanging on the corner as Katie Killjoy snapped her neck in obvious irritation. Live footage of the clock tower showed the number had gone from one hundred and eighty four days to just thirty, much to the horrified and confused stares of everyone watching.
The next extermination is gonna happen a month from now.
“What the fuck?” Tim came out of his office cave, being the first voice to break the silence.
A plate came whirling right past your head and screams followed.
“Oh my fucking gawd! Pick up! Pick up!” Next to you, Goss was frantically dialing a number on her phone. A few sinners stood up, barely managing to slap bills onto the tables before they hurried off. The rest screamed, frantically panicking, some even combusting on the spot. There were conversations, some loud and getting louder to get over the increasing volume around you. People were asking about shelters, double checking if they had places to hide so soon after the last extermination. Others cried. Some were outraged. Some were treating it like a joke. Tom and Katie were crapping on Charlie as the broadcast continued.
In just a few seconds, everything seemed to turn upside down and you weren’t sure what to do.
“ENOUGH!”
A loud rough voice roared demonic power loud enough to scare the shit out of everyone and stop the panic.
Monica, whose hands had slammed the counter, turned burning eyes and bristled hair to give customers and staff a once over.
“This is a diner, if you’re not gonna eat, then pay up and go have your mental breakdown outside! You! You! You!” Her bristled hair grew long and tangled, snaking through the air at a few of the more frantic screamers. They shuddered. “You’re not leaving until you pay for all the dishes you broke cuz you couldn’t keep your shit together!” Her growled voice scratched deep into the ears of everyone in the vicinity, scaring most.
One by one, she called out orders, threatening to strangle people for losing their composure over the announcement and trashing her diner in the process. You couldn’t say you’d ever even seen an inkling that she could do any of that. She was strict, a bit violent, but never this demonic. It made sense now how she ended up being a manager of a diner in one of the busier parts of Pentagram City. Her threats eventually got everyone back into order.
——
The first five or so minutes after the announcement was filled with panic but afterwards, everyone seemed to get their collective shits together and went back to whatever they were doing, with the added curiosity hanging over their heads.
Even the evening rush seemed heavy with speculation. Your regulars came asking if you’d heard the news, some seeming unbothered while others were already trying to ramp up ways to secure their next safe space.
That’s what Goss was doing now. As you changed out of your cloak and mask in the backrooms, the jellyfish woman’s fingers blazed text onto her screen. “Fuck. I was hoping to get more money outta these Pokémon cards before the year ends.”
“What do you need the money for?” You couldn’t help but ask.
“How else am I gonna save a spot? I know a guy. He's got a bunker up in the old town. But the greedy fucker keeps raising his price every year. It's gonna be tight but I think I’ll be able to get a spot before the month ends. How about you? What's your plan for extermination day? Well, I guess you can stay with the Radio Demon so you should be fine. Say, you think he’d let me crash too?” Even as she spoke to you, she didn’t once take her eyes and fingers off her phone. The faint buzzing of alerts vibrated in her hands.
“I…I’m not sure?” The thought of the next extermination hadn’t even occurred to you. It was what? Five months ago? You thought you’d be Heaven-bound by now, or at least safe in the hotel when the next extermination happened. But since everything…you kinda just forgot to think about it.
“Right…you guys are still in a situationship. Well, let me know if you need a place to crash. My guy might be able to save you a spot if you can pay.” She threw out a number and your eyes widened. Yeah. You wouldn’t be able to afford that after the date you took Alastor on. “What’d you do last time?”
“I’d rather not talk about it.” A black patch of memories and disgust surged in your chest before you tamped it back down. The things you did to survive last time were best left in the past. “I’ll figure something out. Probably.”
“Well, you better figure something out fast.” Finally, she lifted her eight eyes to look at you, a bit of concern crinkling them before she turned back to her phone which now showed a bank account.
“Good night, Goss.” You called as you slung your bag over your shoulder.
The night air greeted you with refreshing coolness, a shocking relief against the tension you’d been dunked in since late afternoon. Between orders and bussing tables and prepping, thoughts of how to hide during the next extermination ran rampant in your mind. Would it be too thick-skinned of you to ask Charlie for shelter? Would asking Alastor for protection set back the progress you’d made in building something good with him?
Did you have any other choices besides hoping your tiny little apartment wouldn’t get broken in by a murderous heaven-ordained nightmare?
To get killed by an angel would be the final end. No more regeneration. No lower Hell to fall into.
Despite the chill in the air that crept up your spine, your ears picked up the heated atmosphere of the Pride Ring. The announcement shook everyone and those with a desperate enough desire for survival were scrambling to secure it on such short notice. Those that didn’t give a fuck or stopped giving a fuck we’re partying louder than usual, probably living up their last month before the blades came raining down.
Funny how Hell could still be louder and more dumpster-fiery than usual despite the rampant crime and chaos that made up a typical Tuesday night.
You counted at least three burning trash bins and four broken shop windows in just the five minutes you’d walked. Alarms blared shrill on the streets competing with screeching tires of people driving fast or giving chase or going for a joy ride. It seemed like more people were out and about, skittering by, starting fights, drunk and zonked out of their minds or just strutting like peacocks.
You silently wished you had Monica’s power to just yell at these people to calm the fuck down but who were you to judge when your mind was still running scenarios and plans just as quick as those tired burning rubber on the streets.
In the hubbub of everything, you didn’t notice the shadows coming up on you until a hand roughly shoved you sideways, pushing you into a narrow alley. You fell next to some empty bottles and a suspicious puddle that had your nose wrinkling. First, irritation shot through you, your hand instinctively going for your knife only for your eyes to finally track your attacker.
There were three of them standing at the entrance of the alley, moving quickly to you with their own weapons drawn. The tallest looked like a skinny mash up between a goat and a clock, looking cartoonish in a leather jacket with spiked shoulder pads. The two others weren’t much different style-wise; they wore all black and looked punk-ish in leathers and denim. They looked young, maybe they died in their teens to early twenties. It was hard to tell with the morphed physiques everyone had in Hell but…sometimes you did wonder if people were stuck in their mental ages at the time they died. These three exuded the aura of juveniles even if the shortest of them was taller than you.
“Give us the bag and no one gets hurt, lady.” The goat said, an aluminum baseball bat in his hand.
Your eyes flickered between them and the opening of the alley. There wasn’t much room to maneuver around them for an escape. A quick glance behind you showed a dark dead end. Well, fuck.
“Haha. Come on. Are you guys seriously doing this? I don’t have much. You’d be better off mugging someone who isn’t broke.” Plastering a scared but negotiating face, you tried to appeal to some sense of camaraderie between the lower tiers of sinners. It was a slim shot and unfortunately, it didn’t work.
“We’ll be the judge of that. Pinky, get the bag.”
‘Pinky’ turned out to be a rat with bristly dark grey fur streaked with teal from his nose to across his face. He had just enough hair to sweep back into a small pompadour with a white and teal stripe leading from his temples to behind him. He was the shortest of the three.
Knowing you were outnumbered, you let him grab your bag. Unceremoniously, your bag was tipped over, letting your things fall to the ground. Your wallet (mostly empty), keys, a pen and a pad of sticky notes and some leftover BLT you were intending to have for dinner. There was some loose change that peppered the ground. Pinky picked up your wallet and found all of $6, a bakery coupon and a stamp card for a café.
You were so poor, you didn’t even bother with a credit card. He did take out your bank card though. Not like you had much in there when you weren’t getting paid til the end of the week.
“The fuck is this? Bitch doesn’t even have enough to get tacos.” The rat frowned, still taking your card and cash with him.
“Told you I was broke.” You deadpanned at them, hoping that they’d leave you alone now that they took all that you could give.
“Great. Fucking fantastic start for the night.” The goat clicked his tongue and spat on the ground in frustration. “Of all the fucking assholes, we ended up with this bum bitch…” He continued to spit curses, seemingly losing what composure he had when he’d pushed you into the alley. The last guy behind him, a broad-shouldered bull wearing only two leather straps crossing over his thick chest and some really tight pants, placed a huge hand on his friend’s shoulder.
“Aight. Aight. I’m cool. I’m cool!” The goat breathed in and calmed himself at his friend’s signal. He swept an agitated hand to his head, slicking back some hair that had fallen forward in his rant only to stop short when his horns got in the way.
He approached you, towering over you by at least a couple of feet, and leaned down in intimidation, flashing golden eyes and a mean slanted grimace. He studied you for a bit, eyes growing angrier the more he saw. Maybe that was why his fur was red. The goat clearly had anger issues.
“Che! You wasted our time. How are you gonna compensate us for this, huh? Extermination’s around the corner. We ain’t got time for some chump-change bitch coming into our territory with nothing to offer.”
“Hey, you’re the ones who couldn’t pick a target. What about a greasy, ragged server did you think had money?” Anger coiled in your gut and you’d have stabbed the guy if he didn’t have back up nearby. Like he said, with the extermination so close, you couldn’t afford to lose time regenerating when you had to find shelter.
But you were right to think he had a temper, as that slight provocation was enough to have his hands on your collar, lifting you from the ground by your hoodie. “Listen here you little bitch. In this area, if we pick you to mug, then you better have something to give or else, things get nasty.”
“I’m broke.” He almost spat in your face but you only responded with a deadpanned glare. Even if he and his buddies followed you to your apartment, they wouldn’t be able to find much. There was literally nothing you could give and his punk harassment and threats wouldn’t be able to make money suddenly appear in your pockets any sooner.
More than that, he was whining about wasting his time yet here he was, wasting even more of it. Dumbass.
Pinky squeaked next to you which caught the angry goat’s attention. Something like understanding flashed between them and that ugly scowl on his face morphed into a cruel smirk. A shiver raced down your spine. That look was trouble, worse than getting murdered in an alley.
“You’re right. I’m getting too hung up on this. Hey, now that I’m looking at you, you are pretty cute. How’s about we turn this bad start into something good, yeah?” His tone became friendly for only a second before one of his hands holding your collar harshly pulled on the fabric. The hoodie you wore ripped down half-way. Fuck!
Alarms rang shrill in your head and you started to kick, seeing that compliance wouldn’t get these fuckers to go away. You managed to kick him hard in the thigh but he quickly retaliated with a punch to your gut, hard enough to send you a few feet back. Pain and bile rushed up as your breath was knocked out of you.
He was strong for how skinny he was. Before you could recover, a clawed foot kicked your rib cage sending you sprawling back into the dirty puddle. Farther into the darkness of the alley. No. No!
A scream wailed loudly in your head, commanding you to fight back. There were so many things that could happen to you. They could have gutted you and sold your organs, used your body as a rag doll to take out their invalid anger, but you didn’t want to know what it would feel like to be pinned to the ground and raped in a damp and filthy alley.
You screamed something that vaguely sounded like you were asking for help but your voice was too raw with the pain in your abdomen and the adrenaline starting to kick in. It came out too desperate, almost sounding like a bleat.
But this was Hell. And even though the alley wasn’t deep, no one would come to save you.
“Aww, did that much already hurt you? If you’re good and do as I say, we can have fun, yeah?”
As he approached, you reached into your pocket, pretending to hug your injured rib, only to swipe at him the moment he was close. The blade grazed his skin through his shirt creating a shallow wound. A victory that had him clenching his teeth and grabbing your hand before you could go for another slice. With anger fueling him, he slammed your wrist into the rough decaying pavement.
A gasp escaped you as loose rocks dug into your wrist only for him to do it again when you refused to let go of your knife. But it was out of sheer desperation that you refused to let go of your only weapon so he slammed your fragile wrist again and again onto the unforgiving ground, turning smooth skin to puckered gashes, driving tiny rocks further in. Tears blurred your vision, only flowing as you concentrated all your mental power into not losing your weapon.
Then, there was a blow to your gut that had you emptying your lungs, not even able to scream from the sudden pain. The bull had come, stomping a heavy hoof, steel shoe and all, down where his friend had kicked you. Something definitely snapped and a firebolt shot through your side from your toes to your brain.
The coppery taste of blood misted the back of your throat as you the pain left you gasping for air, for some reprieve from the pain that left you too shocked to think. Another harsh kick had you on your back before a weight settled onto your abused belly. It was hard to breathe, with loose gravel jabbing your back and your attackers placing pressure on your abused torso. Tears freely flowed down your eyes.
“Y’know, I take it back. This night keeps getting better and better. I thought this was gonna be a boring mugging that we didn’t even get anything out of but now—“ From above you, the goat leered, a crazed look on his face— a cruel grin and even colder eyes. “—I’m gonna rape you. And then I’m gonna chop you up bit by bit. You’ll be begging those angels to get rid of you when I’m done. And then after, haha, after—“ The ideas popping into his head had him laughing, as if the sight of you, ragged and in pain stirred something hysterical in him that he couldn’t help it. “—how’s about we head to the pub, boys?”
With a lazy turn of his head, he addressed his friends, before turning back to you, eyes aglow with sadism in full force. He drove your knife into your shoulder without another word, letting you rip out a shrill scream as the blade dug deep.
It hurt. It hurt. ITHURTITHURITHURTITHURT
EVERYTHING FUCKING HURTS
It was as if everything moved too fast and too slow. The pain in your broken ribs felt like it would last forever yet your mind registered the jingling of belts and zippers, the quick release of the blade from your flesh and the subsequent way it cut the rest of the way down your front, skin and clothes giving way between its sharpness and your assailant’s uncaring strength.
“Oh hoho. Nice necklace you got there. Maybe we’ll do this like that movie with the boat.”
“Titanic?”
“That’s the one. Fucking hot piece of ass that red head was…”
There was blood, lots of it. It bubbled up with each painful breath in the back of your throat. The air was filled with its metallic scent, mixing with the stench of filth and the cheap cologne of your attacker. It pounded in your ears, as if trying to block out the sounds of your impending doom even as it sharpened your hearing in panic, in a raw instinct to enhance any senses so that you could find a way to escape.
Your knife was in his hands. Someone was stepping on your already battered wrist. Another was trying to situate himself by your head. The already sparse light of the alley was further eclipsed by their greedy shadows. There was nothing you could do. You wouldn’t be able to overpower them. You were a weak sinner. No power. Nothing. Nothing.
There was nothing you could do—!
The goat, seeing your desperation and fear leaned down, his nose twitching and pupils sharpening as he picked up on everything that you were feeling.
“We’re gonna have so much fun tonight, sweetheart.”
Snap
He came close. Too close…
… Close enough.
The first instinct you had, the moment his smug face leaned in to savor your terror, was to bite.
Your teeth sunk into a cheek, fangs grazing cheekbones and piercing them in uncontrolled desperation. Your jaws clamped shut and for the first time in the last few minutes, you weren’t the one screaming.
Copper flooded your mouth and you swallowed, bile rising to the surface only to be pushed down as you lunged for another mouthful. This time, you got his arm, the one he’d raised to hold onto the new hole in his face.
ITHURTSITHURTSITHURTS
BUT THEY HAVE TO HURT MORE
The mantra repeated in your head as the pained daze cleared. Your eyes darted to find the next best spot to bite but the goat, what was left of his face contorted with horror, leapt off of you. It didn’t matter. The moment he no longer pinned you down, your other hand shot over to the hoof still stepping on your other arm. Your mouth followed, latching onto bone and tendon and dusty leather and ripping up and away, ripping a long strip of calf. As your jaw clenched shut, you chewed and swallowed what made it into your mouth, the rest dropping on to the piss and mud and now bloody pavement.
With each bite, you felt bolder, the pain numbing and your strength returning to you.
A fiery pain slashed at your back and you turned quickly and lunged at your attacker, now free to move as the other two screamed and cursed.
“She’s a cannibal!”
No duh.
Your teeth clenched onto a furry throat and you had the urge to hurl as the hair bristled against your tongue with the unpleasant taste of sweat but you couldn’t lose momentum now. With determination, you channeled all your strength into ripping into that throat over and over, drinking blood and flesh as fast as you could to feed a well that sprung within you, hungry and furious. Your claws extended to dig and dig into the rat’s chest. His leather top gave way easily and soon, you were pulling guts, bones and offal out of the cavity as if there would be treasure somewhere within his stinking piece of shit body.
The sharp sound of aluminum bounced off your skull, knocking you off the corpse you’d just made, but not over.
Blood dripped from your maw and your vision swam red but beyond all that, you saw the faces of the remaining two, ready to fight…but also afraid. Afraid? Of you?
Hah!
Maybe it was the flesh in your belly, fueling that fucked up hunger. Or maybe it was the way the two of them hesitated now, when they hadn’t cared to leave you alone even when you gave them all your money. Who was having a fun night now?
Their fear tasted wonderful, a soothing balm to the pains you suffered in their hands.
Someone laughed. It was probably you.
The goat didn’t have time to gasp before you were in front of him, dragging your claws down to dig a deeper line where your knife had barely cut him. You jumped up to tear off a chunk of his neck and watched him fall down in a gargle of blood and feeble flubbing as he drowned in his own blood and spit.
Spikes dug into your side as a powerful punch knocked into you, tearing holes into your flesh and sending you to the floor. Metal glinted beside you and on instinct, you grabbed a familiar handle.
Before you, the bull got into a boxing stance, knuckles armed with inch-wide spikes.
You suddenly had a thought…that beef belly might be better than a BLT tonight.
With the grace of a cat, you launched yourself into the big guy’s stomach, teeth sinking into his belly while your claws and knife found sank into his muscled back and side for your stability. He screamed, a mixture of angry mooing and anguish.
Those spiked knuckles of his tried to punch you off but you remained latched on, mauling his belly, his chest, his ribs. Anywhere you could reach, you bit and chewed and swallowed. All the damage he did to you stopped as you became numb to it, a warmth settling in your veins that you knew all too well.
What you ate gave you power. So he could keep hitting you, and you would keep eating him. And you’d eventually win.
He fell down by the time you reached deep enough to his guts, his punches losing power. Still, you kept tearing into him, not stopping until not a bit of pain remained in your body.
Your eyes didn’t catch so much as a twitch by the time you got up from him. There was blood everywhere. His wide chest was covered in teeth marks, blotched and punctured. Whole pieces missing. While his innards still remained inside him, you could see where your claws and knife dug in deep enough to see them bleed. Bones peeked out in places, gleaming a shocking white in the dark alley.
His face twisted, terrified and panicked, no trace of the aloofness he had earlier. None of the silent derision and cruelty. Just terror. And pain.
And it was all because of you.
Three.
You killed three men.
You ate three men.
Blood was everywhere. Seeping into your fur. Coating your teeth and tongue, throat and stomach. Cooling on your fingertips. Dripping down your maw, down your chin.
Flowing down with your tears.
What…what have you done?
A shift, a small crunch of pebbles cracked behind you and before you could arrest the instinct that drove you to brutal murder, your body and knife were already a blur in the air, striking true into your would-be attacker’s chest—into red wool and pinstripes.
“Ynna, it’s me.”
Chapter 52: Innocence Lost (Ynna)
Notes:
Hello everyone! So happy to finally be able to post a chapter. It's been a while, hasn't it. I've been very busy. I gave birth a few days after posting the last chapter and my life has predictably been altered forever. Thank you for still tuning in! With that, on with the show!
PS: I changed my username
TW: Cannibalism
Chapter Text
Alastor’s POV
Calm. Confused. Flustered. Relieved. Disappointed. This swirl of emotions he’d been left with after that night. They lingered and simmered beneath his skin as phantom remnants of peppered kisses. Time didn’t offer any relief, neither did the distractions of the hotel. They remained crawling and clawing where he couldn’t reach them. More than once, he’d caught himself fiddling with his bow tie. Fiddling of all things! Fidgeting like a nervous child. It was like he was waiting for something. No. He was waiting for something, someone, in fact.
A certain someone that neither appeared before him nor let her presence be known in other ways. If he were in a better mood, he’d have joked about how she’d disappeared after sharing his bed. Have a little chuckle at the ridiculousness of it and move on with his day. But instead, he huffed. As the cement streets clicked beneath his heel, he still wasn’t sure if his disappointment was because they hadn’t shared a bed the proper way or that he hadn’t heard from her since.
The glowing pentagram above beat down a comfortably warm day. There was news of another batch of sinners falling through. Americans and their mass shootings. All those unhappy souls with unfulfilled dreams. Ripe for a deal making if only he’d had the patience to care at the moment. Unfortunately, his patience had already gone to those fickle little emotions. Tsk.
Walking into the familiar diner, he’d been prepared to see her eyes spark mischievous passion in another attempt to broker a relationship in exchange for her freedom. Had braced himself to simmer in both her attention and the irritation that the idea of any form of separation brought. Prideful denials were poised to strike on his tongue should he find it tangled with hers. Tangled…!
It was all a mixed bag of expectations, and yet Ynna was once again a master at fulfilling none of them.
Much to his chagrin, the little goat in her cowl and cartoonish costume neither spoke of any steps to define what they were nor addressed the aftermath of their little rendezvous. Instead, she offered her lunch hour with her easy and uncomplicated conversation.
“I’ll see ya around.” Came her muffled voice, simple and warm as she escorted him out after.
“Do take care until then, my dearest.” Stepping away from her, he’d had the most hilarious thought—how fun it would be to rip that cheap mask off her face and pepper frustrations he could not voice on her cheeks until her expression mirrored his emotional swirl. At the very least, he could call it even for how she’d left him both soothed yet wanting that night.
He sighed, breath coming out in a catchy tune. He could practically see the vexingly calm smile on her face beneath the white plastic. His teeth itched to bite her cheek. How he’d wished she’d shut up about breaking their deal. But now that she didn’t speak of it, he found himself missing staring at the edge of her professed desire.
To be wanted by his beloved freely. What would it feel like to be secure in that knowledge that she’d never leave him, to see her shackle herself to him by her own will?
For now, it seemed they’d reached a stalemate; neither of them fully satisfied but content to exist together regardless.
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He watched Charlie’s mildly amusing panic at the extermination announcement from the second floor of the lobby. A few ideas cooked within his mind as Hell’s Princess tried not to sob as she became desperate enough to call her father. Hah. It was always charming to watch someone have to confront their daddy issues.
His ears strained to catch the King of Hell’s voice through the princess’s mobile. Given the girl’s panic over the Devil, he thought the king would be crueler, colder or even demeaning towards his kind-hearted spawn. But no. Even from here, he could hear the man’s awkwardness towards her. It seemed it would take a bit of work to get Charlie to rely solely on him if her father was available to lend a hand.
He hummed in boredom. Well, he shouldn’t have expected swaying her to be simple. Very few things in Hell ever were so uncomplicated.
Bzzt.
A tingle ran up his arms, tracing down his shoulders and back. Would it be too forward to have dinner at the diner?
Come to think of it, how was she planning to take shelter during the extermination? He’d have to check in with her next time they met. Maybe he could convince her to stay in his cabin instead of the hotel? He’d have to think of a good reason because he was sure the princess wouldn’t turn her away if she asked.
The corners of his mouth lifted higher in contemplation. There was plenty of time until he saw her again tomorrow afternoon.
…
Was what he thought.
Not even an hour after he had to suffer through that clown-faced shell of a man and his loving display of paternal support, a pull on his magick tugged so strong he’d been brought away immediately to one of the putrid nondescript alleys in the middle of the city.
Just as he got his bearings, he was left staring wide eyed at a she-demon tearing her way through a terrified sinner’s chest.
In the sparse light of the city filtering from the alleyway’s entrance, Ynna stood a beastly figure, horns extended, elongated claws sharp as blades. Her black hoodie was torn revealing her chest soaked in crimson splatter. Most striking of all, her mouth, teeth jagged and glittering red-streaked white, had the corners tilted up as she sank into a bull sinner’s belly.
Infernal. Ravenous.
Ba-thump
Blood rushed to his ears, to his limbs, to everywhere, as he took in the smell of freshly spilt blood, the screams and gurgles of finality, the low growl of the woman who had not an ounce of the cowardly demure.
It roared enough to drown the everyday din as his eyes feasted on the scene with pride. Her unflinching attacks, unbothered even as her victim gauged holes into her side, continued to consume the pitiful bull, every tear and rend merciless. Her tenacity only bred more panic into the quickly fading sinner. While her teeth and claws dug their way through the man’s front, her knife merrily stabbed his back and sides with barely any strategy, just careless aim for pain.
It was a gruesome scene to behold but the smile on her face showed her potential. Imagine if she could harness more power than what these measly runts could give. She’d be unstoppable, a true powerhouse even without the benefits of owning a few dozen souls. She just needed to consume, discard pride for gluttony—morality for power.
And yet, his fingers itched to pry her off that man. His tailored gloves felt tight as he watched with slow measured breaths. How would it feel to see a hunter’s gaze in place of her wide sincerity? To feel those eyes roam over him in calculation of where the best spot to do damage would be? His fur rose as if he could already feel those infernal pupils travel across his body.
One of her hands pulled back in a flourish of tattered skin and ribbons of blood, palms up like an invitation, serving mania to her so-far-ignored audience.The grip he had on his microphone tightened, hooves already braced to step forward but no! No. No. He needed to hold back. This was Ynna’s first true kill, her first leap into independent cannibalistic murder. He couldn’t interrupt her moment of glory just because his blood rushed to places watching her work. But oh, how his skin prickled to taste that hand.
It took only a minute before she felled her foe that was more than twice her size, the man missing almost all the skin of his front by the end. She sat atop his warm dead body, breathing ragged in exertion, in exhilaration, in adrenaline. Completely oblivious to everything around her. Perhaps now was a good time to grab her attention. His fingers twitched to soothe the tension in her muscles, to feel the warmth of fresh blood on her skin and the ill-begotten power coursing beneath. He let out a slow breath to calm the clicking in his mind.
Loose asphalt rumbled under his shoes as he tried to approach.
And then, the pain of a knife slicing through his breast pocket and the lightest brush of power.
Lightning burst in his chest, spitting demented sparks that willed him to retaliate at the attack and buzzing waves of delight at feeling the decisive strike. From this close, he could see the constellation of blood splattered all over her face, sparkling wickedly in her hair. How messy. How divine. Rubies lost their shine by comparison.
A laugh was already bubbling thickly in his throat. He could just lick the gore clean off of her and taste dessert on her curled lips. Static creaked blurs in the edges of his vision, only her in glorious ruin in focus. He needed to congratulate his dearest. What a splendid show. She hadn’t even needed his help despite summoning him. She deserved a reward. Maybe he’d let her get more than this stab in, let her sink her teeth into something more substantial. Surely, this wouldn’t be enough to ride the high of bloodlust. What he would give to let her rush continue. What…what?
His breath caught, both at the sting of her knife and also from finally meeting her eyes. They glowed in the dark alley with sinister light, softened only by the streaks of tears running down the side of her face.
His hands were already wiping the rivulets and blood before he even registered how quickly the rushing heat within him froze over.
“Ynna, it’s me.”
A moment. Taking a cautious breath before that haunting fiendish glow immediately vanished from her eyes, replaced by horrified awareness.
“Alastor? What…how?” She blinked a few times, as if to shake off the last of her bloodlust. Patiently, his thumbs brushed the edges of her still slitted pupils, watching their vertical pins widen to circles and then flatten horizontal. All the while, her ragged breaths rushed between them, evening as her senses returned.
Slowly, her herbivore eyes wandered. From the dead bodies on the ground and finally, to her hand still gripping the knife in place on his chest.
“Oh my G—!” He didn’t flinch as her hand too quickly let go of the hilt, jostling the blade just a little deeper into him. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry.” Her panicked apologies came as whispered chants, her bloody hands hovering where they hesitated to pull the blade out. His mouth twitched. Silly woman. It seemed that in her shock, she’d forgotten that he wasn’t some weakling who’d die from something so simple as a stab wound.
“No need for apologies, my dearest.” Taking it upon himself to take the knife out, he chuckled to lighten the atmosphere. It wouldn’t do to agitate her further when she was already starting to quiver where she stood. “I must say, I wasn’t expecting to see such a bold display of demonic prowess this evening.”
Making a show of it, he swept his gaze over the bodies littering the alley. “You’ve done a marvelous job fending these hooligans off. Whatever did they do to earn your wrath, my dearest? Do we need to repay these fine folk a visit once they’ve recombobulated? Maybe invite Rosie along? I’m sure she’d love a picnic.” He tried to tease though he was serious in his offer.
The knife came out of his chest easily enough with a careful maneuver of his wrist. He had half a mind to slow down the healing, maybe wear the scar as a reminder of this day when his goat finally used her powers properly.
His eyes went back to her, showing how her attack was practically harmless on his body. Only he was greeted with her silence.
“…”
“My dearest?” Her tears hadn’t stopped.
“…”
“Ynna?”
His hands found her still shoulders, feeling her steady breaths rise and fall. Looking into her eyes, he found himself frozen again. In the seconds that he’d taken to casually smooth over the act of murder, the demoness before him completely shut down.
Glassy and unseeing, there was not a hint of sparkle or consciousness in those wide eyes of hers. His fingers unconsciously tightened upon her shoulders as if he could ground her soul from completely leaving that moment. It worked, just enough that her blank pupils found his.
“Please…get me out of here.” A whisper laced with copper and salt.
His coat was over her shoulders and her body lifted into his arms within seconds. “Of course. Whatever you need.”
Shadows engulfed them and brought them to his home quickly as he admonished himself. Tsk. Obviously, committing such a savage assault would be a mental strain on the poor girl. He should have thought of that instead of being enthralled like a gawking idiot. Carefully, he carried her fragile weight to his bathroom, his shadow going ahead of them to prepare a bath.
He felt her weight upon him. It was so rare to hold her like this. Usually, she’d be laughing, a lively little thing trying to be as unobtrusive as she could even if her giggles and chagrin jostled her plenty. But now she was still in his arms–a deadweight–yet she somehow felt lighter and smaller, dwarfed even more by the fabric of his coat.
He set her on the toilet as his shadow filled the tub with warm water and gathered towels and his first aid kit. Only now did he get a proper look at her. Without the monstrous quality of her demonic form, she looked a pitiful mess. Hair mussed and gelled by blood and gore, sticking out in places and matted where it already dried. Even worse, he’d found the answer to his earlier question about what could have brought on such carnage—her hoodie was sliced open. Right down the middle. The copious amount of blood she’d spilled was the only thing covering her dignity, his pendant dangling to her sternum the only thing intact. It gleamed enchanted silver and doused in gore. It must have been an accident that it had summoned him when it came into contact with her victims’ blood in her attempt to escape their assault.
Fury ran hot coal in his veins. Scum. Scum. SCUM! The world would never be rid of these wretched vermin and that was true Hell right there! What rot of a God let creatures like that exist yet with that same hand cast down those that would eliminate that blight.
Breathe. He needed to breathe and calm down. Dammit.
“Let’s get you cleaned up. May I?” Carefully, he took off his gloves, rolled up his sleeves and got ready to assist in bathing her. The little woman neither flinched nor consented, just staring into an unknown point. If it would save her some discomfort, he’d have his shadows be the ones to help yet he loathed to leave this delicate task to mere minions.
Left with no choice but to proceed, he carefully took off her ruined clothes, looking for any sign of protest from her the whole time. His shadow wrapped a towel to cover her modesty and he lifted her up to place her into the steaming water of the tub. The water immediately turned pink, growing into a crimson pool before he immediately had his shadow drain and replace the water. If she felt the water too hot, it didn’t show on her face. Nothing did.
He bit his tongue back. Where had his goat gone that she’d left this bloodied husk in her place? When she should be reveling in her victory, her strength and survival, or even just seeking comfort and reassurance after her ordeal?
With a wet wash cloth, he carefully scrubbed her of the dirt and gore stuck to her fur. He started with her arms, the easiest and least offensive place to reach. There was a faint bruise on one of her wrists, power lingering beneath the mottled surface to mend the traumatized flesh.
“You fought well, my dearest. You thoroughly overwhelmed your opponents. That’s not something I thought you’d be able to do quite yet.” Tentatively, he let go of his filter, bearing his voice deep and soothing. Perhaps the sound would jostle her.
Only the trickling of water and the brush of cotton against fur and skin answered him. Even her breath came quiet and small. With a pitcher, his shadow poured warm water over her shoulders, letting the stream slowly wash away the stains on her chest. He worked on her neck and back next, finding her almost doll-like in his grasp as she easily moved this way and that to allow him better access.
He swallowed back a curse. They were only a few murders. Was it truly so traumatizing that she’d let herself fall into his hands so easily? Did she trust him so completely with herself or did she just not care anymore?
“You did make quite a mess though. You looked so fierce. If anyone else had seen you, they’d know not to approach you lightly in the future.”
Still nothing. It was frustrating to see her so weak and small that not even his words could seem to build her back up. But still he persisted, unable to stand this silence.
“I’ll have to wipe your chest, is that alright?” Just like before, there was nothing. “Pardon me then.”
He cleaned her with clinical yet gentle hands, babbling away in hopes that something would spark a reaction, nudge her soul back into her body. But his dearest remained far away. Even when he cradled her face in his hands, gently washing the remnants of tears and blood, the only reaction he received was a butterfly’s flutter of her lashes against a blank stare. His lip caught between his teeth to stop any more words he might have said.
“Oh, my darling.” He whispered in helplessness.
With a final rinse with clean water, his shadow and he quickly dried her and dressed her in one of his shirts. He carried her to his bed and tucked her in beneath the covers. Only then did he see some fragile light return to her eyes. His hand combed through her hair, tucking it away from her face.
“Al…”
“Shh. Rest for now, my dearest. You’ve been through it. We’ll talk all about it when your head’s clear, alright?” He offered her his kindest smile and she returned it with a stare that tapered off into exhausted slumber. As soon as her breathing evened, he stepped out to give her peace.
In the empty hall, the events of the evening flitted through his mind. It nagged at him, the ferocious quality of her that seemed to enjoy the suffering she imposed on her would-be rapists and this shell-shocked state after. It just didn’t seem like a reaction he could expect from her, because if the goat was one thing, she was adaptable. Sturdy in mind if not in body. She’d survived her first year in Hell with her moral compass intact. She’d navigated his manipulation and the cannibalism he’d forced upon her quickly and with indignant fury. He’d even found her indifferent and even vengeful on the suffering of those that would hurt her or those she considered her people.
So why, in this circumstance where she’d drawn upon her hellish nature in self-defense, did it seem to break her?
Click. Click.
As he pondered this, he absently cleaned up, idly watching the last traces of blood run down the drain as he left his bathroom spotless.
Was it that he’d overestimated her gumption? When push came to shove, his goat couldn’t handle true cruelty bred through the animalistic instinct to survive?
The image of her demonic glory flashed in his mind, the feral beauty of it still igniting desire and admiration in his chest but in his contemplation, he saw it in another light.
An animal backed into its last corner, leaving nothing left of itself in an act of survival. And when the final blood spray clotted cold on the corpses it left behind, only silence followed as reality came reckoning.
His throat clenched. Though she’d experienced a lot since her death, in many ways, Ynna was still an innocent. Those thugs may not have been the first lives she’d taken, but they may have been the first that truly cemented her place as a demon in Hell.
They’d be back in a few weeks, souls pulling torn flesh together or recreating it anew from damnation and miasma. But Ynna, would she be over the bloodlust? The momentary lapse of sanity as animal instinct took over? When the demon within lashed teeth and claws fully staining her soul and burdening her conscience.
He could still feel her trembling in his hands, so small as she shrunk into herself. Yet her eyes remained wide, staring, straining, perhaps reliving each moment hoping to find salvation but only fueling her anguish. It didn’t matter that those heathens deserved what they got. It was a burden to be their executioner. A soul-crushing weight upon one so unready.
…He’d been the same, once upon a time, hadn’t he?
Click. Click.
What had his mama done, that day she found him with a shotgun and his father’s body spilling blood on the old rug she tried to keep so pristine?
He remembered her face, pale with horror, softened by the way he must have looked, a child turned monster in her living room. But his mama was an angel, all the more when she picked him up and lied to the police about what happened.
His feet took him to the other room, to the sleek piano that sat beckoning in its corner.
When they’d been allowed back into their home, his father’s murder declared a suicide and the remnants of him reduced to a dark stain on the hardwood, his mama had wrapped him in a blanket and sat on her piano bench with her back straight and strong for the first time in a long while. Her fingers slid on the keys and pressed them with steady gentleness.
And here he sat, reenacting that far away memory.
The first note tiptoed through the silence, a presence that he hoped would reach beyond his bedroom door and the dark cloud that hung over his dearest’s head. Though he wouldn’t begrudge her missing this if it meant she’d found some rest in slumber.
His fingers moved across the keys, creating a soothing solemn melody. It was something his mother made, though he was sure he’d forgotten some of the notes. So he made parts up on the spot—his own rendition of the comfort his mother had given him once upon a time.
He wished there was more he could do for her, aside from repeatedly murdering those bastards for the rest of their afterlives. That was a given.
But there was only so much he could do when the real work depended on her will and inner strength. In such circumstances, leaving her alone was his best move. Still, like all the times he’d been advised to do so, the need to stick by her side to evoke a reaction urged heavily in his veins, clicked incessantly in his mind.
Notes passed through the air, plucked from his memory with sincere intent. One song led to another and another, yet the unrest within his heart neither dwindled nor was soothed. Her face covered in blood, broken and feral and blank of all that made her shine spurred him on and on into the night.
Eventually, the sound of creaking hinges broke the ongoing solo. The soft tack of hooves on wooden floorboards approached slowly, closer and closer. Through the darkness, Ynna stepped into the meager blue-white light of Heaven coming through the window.
“Did I wake you?”
“No. I couldn’t sleep.” She walked to him then, his eyes finally catching sight of her.
Clad in only his shirt, the red cotton garment hung loosely on her form, looking more of a dress as the hem brushed the top of her knees with only the meticulously secured buttons protecting her modesty. Her hair was tussled, mussed from failing to find an angle to sleep in.
Under the pale light of Heaven’s midnight glow, she approached, looking oh so small and hopelessly drawn.
“I—“ She started, mouth closing as she second-guessed herself. He had an inkling of what she wanted, with the way her eyes glanced up at him and then away. The way her shoulders sagged and she leaned just a little forward. But he wouldn’t assume it for her.
“What do you need, my dearest?” Soft so as not to pressure her, he asked. His shoulders loosened, a minute stance to show his welcome to whatever request for comfort she needed.
“I…” With hesitation etched on her features, she looked down to his hands still lingering on the piano before coming back to meet his patient gaze. “Can you hold me…please?”
He’d heard her tired and resigned voice, her anger and indignity. But the broken vulnerability she called out as she pleaded boiled his hatred of those scum another few degrees higher. Still, a gentle wash of relief soothed his nerves to see her return to herself, even in this uncertain state. His arms moved to invite her in.
Her eyes widened slightly—hopefully. He tried not to waver in his invitation.
Without hesitation, she took her place in his lap, burrowing her tired weariness into his arms as he balanced them on the bench. Neither of them said anything as Ynna breathed in deep to soothe herself, her small hands gently grasping his shirt like a lifeline. He held her closer when she let out a trembling sigh.
Her warm weight against him made him realize how unpracticed he was in the simple act of a comforting embrace. As his limbs encircled her, he restrained himself to only offering the barest brush against her back, leaving her to take as much contact from him as she pleased. “Is this alright?”
“Yeah.” With a sigh, she burrowed deeper into him.
He kept her tucked into his chest at her whisper. Finding one arm free, he idly played slow comforting notes on the piano, a lullaby in harmony with their breaths in the silence.
Eventually, her weight fully settled and her heartbeat came at a steady rhythm. He would have thought she’d fallen asleep, debated how to and whether he should risk her waking to move her somewhere more comfortable, but in that same tired whisper, she spoke.
“They tasted terrible, you know?”
Fingers tightened in his shirt. “The sweat, the dirt, the blood. They smelled like alcohol and rotten fruit. I thought I’d throw up.”
“But instead, it was so easy…to eat them. Ripping out chunks of them. Not stopping.” The body in his arms tensed, the strain of the memory flooding trauma back into her who’d just relaxed. His arms curled around her to keep her steady, to hold her in place as she looked about to withdraw back to the safety of her mind. Her stuttered breath prickled against his neck, wet with unshed tears.
“He screamed so much. At least, until I ripped into his throat. He begged me to let him go. Cried and prayed and screamed and screamed for his friends to save him. But I didn’t listen. I kept going. Biting. Swallowing.”
“It was so easy…when I stopped thinking about it, it was just…too easy.” Her head tilted up and he looked down to meet her flashing tearful eyes, fearful wonder widening her glassy gaze as if presenting her soul for him to judge.
A sprout of jealousy rose in his chest as he recalled the bloody scene he’d teleported into. The majesty of her within the madness and brutality. But it was quelled as he felt more of her weight shift into him, asking like a child to be coddled.
“Is it guilt you feel, having killed them?”
“No. If I didn’t do it, they would have killed me. Would have done it in the worst way.” That fearful gaze cracked a bit and a familiar indignity pressed on her frown.
“Then what’s bothering you, dearest? Or is it just that today’s events have shaken you too much?” At his question, her frowned smoothed contemplative.
“…The man I killed on accident…and the one I helped you kill. They were quick, probably a second of pain and then nothing. But today…it must’ve been agony for them. I can still hear their screams. And I didn’t care at the time…I still don’t. No. I wanted them to get hurt. I wanted them to regret messing with me. What scares me is I felt like I could have kept on going forever. And I would have enjoyed it.”
In those wide eyes, a flash of power called forth, a hint of mercilessness that was foreign in that usually sympathetic gaze. Her lips pursed, as if she had seen what he’d seen just then. Maybe she’d felt it in her body, in her soul, that exact demonic flash. And her sadness returned. She no longer saw him, looking farther away as her mind retreated into itself.
“I don’t like it.” Her claws that had been on the verge of ripping holes into his shirt let go and she looked down at them.
“Al, am I still me or have I always been a demon?” Her glassy eyes saw only blood on her clean hands, only sin. As if she saw in her little fingers only daggers in her claws and wretchedness in the lines of her palms.
He covered her trembling fingers with his own, taking each hand in one of his, breaking the solemn spell she was under.
It took no more than a gentle tug for her to obediently stand before him, letting him guide her between the piano and bench so they could look at each other fully. So fragile and willing to find something to hold onto. The perfect victim for him to pick up and mold. Those would have been his thoughts so many months ago. But now, a dim spark in his chest ached for her, this broken thing. Power lay just below the surface of her skin, bold and alive yet her eyes dimmed with shadows that swallowed the sparkle he adored in them.
Carefully, his hands cupped her cheek. His thumbs found the delicate skin around her eyes, wiping at them with reverence as if the praiseful touch could clean away those haunted shadows. Even his betrayal and her damnation through him hadn’t been able to staunch her spark. He’d be damned if some faceless riffraff could do it.
“Angel would love to hear about how you gutted those scum like fishes. Wasn’t he the one who gave you that knife?” He started, a gentle chuckle behind his words.
“Rosie would be thrilled to welcome you into her town if you wanted. Oh, she’ll have a ball when she hears about how you went for the jugular. Quite efficient, even if you did get punched in the process.”
Horror and indignation waded through those darkened pools, disappointment mixing in with her despair as he recounted her achievements that only seemed like crimes in her mind. But that wasn’t what he was looking for. Cupping her face, he didn’t allow her an inch back as he stared deeply into her eyes. There. In the slug of her misery, just a tiny bit of affection and acknowledgment that he was right.
“There it is.”
“What?”
“My dearest. Your eyes never fail to warm up when you think about your friends.” Those big eyes blinked confused but more settled, the darkness in them chased away until he could see the red of his eyes reflected in them. “That’s who you are, my dearest. You couldn’t care less for unforgivable scum. What would they matter when your friends would celebrate you whether you chased away those would-be rapists or killed them? No, actually. Everyone would be happy you did it. Even Charlie would be furious if she found out what happened to you. She’d storm over and give those bastards a good talking to.”
“I enjoyed it, Alastor. Some part of me was so thrilled that–that...that I could do it again. That’s—that’s fucked up.”
“Oh, it is.” He grinned with teeth, watching her blanch before he continued to stroke her cheeks. “And I could honestly say, if your friends loved you as much as you loved them, they’d rather you were stringing up those assholes like piñatas than lying dead in an alley somewhere.”
Sense seemed to come back to her, his words getting through to whatever misshapen form of herself she envisioned in her mind and finding it not as distasteful in this light. Friends and loved ones mattered to her the most, her own damnation second.
“Am I wrong to think that?” He challenged.
It took a moment, a bitten lip and eyes flitting between him and some far off point, but eventually the goat sighed in acceptance. Defeated but also relieved. “No.”
He withdrew his teeth then, smiling wide without as much mischief and menace. It was good that she’d admitted it, words spoken out loud between souls carried weight like a spell. It would cement her own belief. He just needed to hammer the point home.
He stood then. Ynna stepped back but collided with the forgotten piano keys in a startling mix of notes. She startled. Between his full height and the sparse distance between them, he leaned down, closing in with intimidation. Her eyes regarded him wide and curious, but blessedly unafraid.
“And don’t go thinking you’re the most fucked up thing your friends have ever seen.” With a wink, he snatched her waist, pulling them back to sit on the bench. “They know me, after all.”
She gasped, her hands landing on his chest again to brace herself at his sudden movement. At his quip, her shocked solemnity turned into exasperated giggles. Whatever cloud of insecurity darkened her mind was reduced to shadowy wisps mingling within the returned sparks in her wide eyes.
“You’re so full of it.” She breathed, relaxed finally.
The gnawing unease in his chest mellowed with her sigh and the sparse notes his idle hand started playing once again for them. Surprisingly, she stayed seated on his thigh, her head swaying along as her eyes watched his fingers move over the ivory keys. It was the first moment of peace he’d felt since…well, it had been a while. There was always some worry or apprehension, nonstop thoughts always flitting in his head about day to day and his complicated relationship with the woman he held.
Now, the storm had passed and they were plunged in serenity. He was loathed to break it, even as he could feel the static start creeping into his mind. More thoughts. More things his brain needed him to notice.
But another surprise came; it wasn’t he who broke their peace.
“Hey Al, can I bite you?”
Bzzt—SNAP
“What now?”
His neck creaked as he looked down at Ynna. Did he hear that right? Surely—surely his mind was playing tricks on him because there was no way in Hell that his dearest who’d just gotten over her cannibalistic episode was asking him to—
“Can I take a bite out of you?” Oh. Oh, there it was again.
Ynna wasn’t even looking at him as she made her request. Her face turned to the side and away, too shy to face him even as she had the gall to drop such shattering words at him. Why all of a sudden? Was it a test of some sort? A cruel little trick? An ill-intentioned whim her weary mind let pass through her lips? Lips that were parted lightly, just enough that he could see a sliver of her tongue pass over blunt teeth inquisitively…as if she truly meant it.
His breath stiffened within his chest in an attempt to constrict the sudden intense beating of his heart. Not that it did him any good as heat flooded his face, tingling joyous little sparks to the tips of his ears and sending his mind into a tizzy. The rest of him stilled, approaching this bizarre moment with caution lest it pop like a bubble he was too eager to grasp.
“Why would you want that so suddenly?” Calm. Good. That was good. Not even hinting at the way his insides curled, now finding her weight on his lap too close, too…tempting.
Her tongue made another quick lap of her teeth, the corners of her lips pulling into a frown. “Like I said, they tasted terrible and…” Within the fluffed mess of her hair, her ears twitched back. His eyes tracked the very slight flush creeping up her neck, starting from where the collar of his shirt dwarfed the already delicate skin, making it seem even more tender to his eyes.
In the smallest voice filled with shame, she shamelessly continued. “…I want to override it with your flavor.”
The lump in his throat was hard to swallow, blocked with incredulity and possibly nervous laughter because what madness was this evening coming to? Twice now he was bearing witness to an anomaly his depraved mind dared to only conjure in his dreaming moments. Still, he choked it down, keeping as calm a demeanor as he could to not frighten her into changing her mind. Though he wasn’t sure whether she’d picked up on his fervor with her hands still on his chest. Could she feel how his heart raced at her carelessness?
“I’m surprised, truly.”
“If you don’t want—“ His arm on her waist tightened as he felt the goat try to slide away.
“Ah. Ah. I’m just saying you’ve caught me off guard by such a bold request but I’m not against it.” He’d be insane to deny this opportunity. The voices in his head were already calling to feel her teeth on his skin. He brought his free hand to her chin, turning her face to look at him. Her conflicted embarrassed expression sent a shock of lightning, adding more fire to the growing heat in his veins. He swallowed heavily in a futile attempt to douse the flames back.
“Would you prefer to take a bite directly or should I fix you up one of my special recipes?”
Wide and sincere eyes looked back at him, first in hesitation, scanning his features. Back in the beginning, that stare would’ve been one of fear, looking for signs of his anger beneath the smile. But now, she was looking for his own reluctance. Any twitch that may have indicated that this was too much, too intimate, crossing the boundaries he’d set.
…
Was it?
Between want and the utter shock of all of this evening, he’d forgotten the staunch line he’d drawn between them. And this, this request that was sure to ignite his kink, as she called it, was definitely crossing the line of friends–too intimate for companions.
Yet somehow, he couldn’t find it in himself to care. Was his desire just that strong? Too addicted to the rush the mere thought of her consumption aroused? Possibly but…but there was more to it.
Click. Click. Snap!
More…those thoughts he’d tried to keep at bay so as not to disturb their peace finally trickled in. The vulnerability of her after consuming others. The way it seemed to shatter her soul to find enjoyment in it. And yet, hadn’t she enjoyed feeding on him before? Found his fucked up cuisine delicious? Accepted his proclivity with a smile because…
She loved him.
Suddenly, he faced the lack of resistance within him with clarity. Either he’d already accepted whatever affection she’d give him even if it was all a ploy, just to feel the warmth of it, or he’d known—some part of him hadn’t hoped but already knew with certainty—that his dearest was sincere in her feelings.
The grasp of his hand on her waist tightened and he pulled her closer to him until he was sure the thundering in his chest would reverberate against her own. A different storm rattled within him now, untethered and unwilling to let those eyes, still looking at him with care he didn’t deserve, down.
“Whatever you need, darling. Feel free to take it from me.” Those words came out though he wasn’t sure if his flesh was the only thing he was offering. Still, in that moment, he owed it to her for doubting all that she’d laid bare. Even if he had his reasons. Even if she may not have been sure of those feelings herself.
He’d known what he wanted. And it was always her.
“Oh. Okay. Just a bite then. If you’re sure it’s okay?”
In the swirl of emotions his revelation begot, her timid voice cut through, bringing him back to the task at hand. His back straightened, preening really, at the prospect of her teeth. “What did I say?” He teased.
“Okay. Okay.” The last of her hesitation dissolved and a calm and patient determination took its place. Her hands on his chest pushed to make space between them again. “Where you should I…?”
“You seemed to like my neck last time.”
“That was—! That…” He laughed as the flush of her face practically glowed even in the Heaven-lit darkness of the room. His free hand undid his tie, opening the buttons to reveal where he’d intended to receive her. “You know I could just bite your hand or something. It doesn’t have to be somewhere so uhh intimate.”
Oh, this sweet little woman. Still giving him an out even as he invited their mutual indulgence. Really, how could he have not believed her when she’d always been like this?
“Dearest, I’d prefer it.”
“Prefer…” The word was repeated under her breath, a sense of wonder leaving its trail. It seemed she was finally catching on that he truly didn’t mind, that he maybe wanted that closeness, that intimacy. That step across the line that she’d offered.
Even if it meant…he’d have to grant her freedom.
The fire in him seized and sizzled, unsure of the thought of letting her go even if she promised to return it with passion. But if she asked…if she bartered for it. He could try. He could…he…he wasn’t sure.
The bold little woman, with her wide watching eyes stared at him in confirmation and he mustered all the will and desire he had to confidently stare back. At least he knew, he definitely wanted her to eat him. This was always true.
Seeing his confirmation, she inched closer, closer until her breath warmed his fur. Her scent dusted against his nose. Her warmth turned searing against the fire ignited beneath his skin. And through it all, he remained still, letting her approach at her leisure.
It started slow, a tentative grazing of fangs along the meat of his shoulder. A hitch in her breath made him wonder if she would back out, the gravity of her request finally sinking in. And maybe it did, along with her teeth.
“…!” He would have liked to say that he’d been perfectly still, the picture of calm so Ynna wouldn’t be bothered at all. But the moment needle-like points turned to violent gnash, his hands tightened around the precious weight leaning on him, the pain of each tear shooting down his arms and up into his head.
And Ynna, that small hesitant woman, showed no sign of her usual mercy. As if the moment his blood touched her tongue, she'd thrown caution to the wind. Her jaw clamped down, teeth cutting through muscle cleanly. Each fiber giving way to her bite popped like fireworks in his ears, loud, bright, a danger and wonder all on their own and he struggled to marvel at them without bucking (into) the woman off of him with each shock.
It was unlike all the other times she’d bit him. Not a simple sinking of teeth. Not just blood and marks left to scar on flesh. This was her taking a piece of him. Actually consuming instead of tasting. And she did so cleanly. Her little mouth sucked the freed blood of the wound, not a drop escaping though he wouldn’t have noticed. The whole area was ablaze with sensations dancing with the pressure of her lips, the dip of her tongue where there was now a missing piece.
She’d done it. She’d actually done it!
SNAP!
He couldn’t breathe. Couldn’t think. Between the fire in his shoulder and lightning in his veins, he was torn between squeezing the blessed bundle in his arms until she melded into him or ripping into her the same unholy rend of flesh that she may feel even a hint of the sparks flashing behind his eyes. And it was unholy. How else could he describe it? Something that felt so good couldn’t be the work of God. Maybe the Devil. His little devil.
With a final lick, tongue slotting perfectly into the open wound, Ynna pulled away. Her face was a mask of plainness, as if he’d read her the morning paper and not had a chunk of his shoulder taken off. She looked so unbothered as she looked at him. As if it were ordinary, expected, everyday.
As if her partaking of him was an expectation for her and not an act frowned upon by her morals the way eating those fiends earlier had been.
To consume him so naturally…
The smile on his face couldn’t have gotten any wider.
“Done now? Was it to your taste, my dearest?” The distance she made between them as she leaned back was both a blessing and an annoyance but the popping sparks each little twinge on his shoulder gave was pleasant enough. Fuck did it burn so good.
In response, she raised one finger up in a gesture asking for a moment of patience and her other hand going over to demurely cover her mouth as she turned slightly away.
She…needed a minute to chew. And chew she did. All the while not knowing how each motion of her jaw left him entranced. The tiniest purse of her lips teased between the gaps of her fingers. The shy swish of her eyes, determined to look away in ingrained politeness. How stupid he thought her demure was as he grinned through the urge to bite that waiting finger and turn her face to look at him.
Look at him and let him see each crinkle in her face. Let him witness whether his flavor was to her liking. That he was better than any other sinner she’s had the unfortunate fate of eating. That he was a comfort, an exception, to what was rightfully a horrifying act despite his own taste for it—the way his mind swam by her partaking of it. Because how bad could it be to fill her belly with the one she…loved.
His hands stayed put where they held her steady so she wouldn’t fall off him. But just barely. And then Ynna swallowed. Her eyes met his. Her mouth lifted in shy apologetic corners, a hint of red tinting soft lips.
Fuck.
“Thank you, Al—!”
Discordant notes sprang around them as he stood, hands hooked beneath her weight as he lunged forward and was stopped only by the heavy weight of the piano in front of him. The notes weren’t unlike the chaos ringing in his head as his eyes focused on that mouth. Barely—just barely—he’d stopped inches from her face. She whimpered in surprise and the hard edge of the piano digging into her lower back. A hint of iron and something savory sweet wafted from her breath. He shivered.
“Can I—“ Her eyes shook as she looked at him but he couldn’t focus on anything else but her lips. “Can I kiss you?” It took all of him to ask when the greed in his veins wanted to take.
But bless this sweet innocent woman, her momentary surprise quickly replaced with a determination he was too distracted to take in because in the next moment, she consented, “Yes.”
Iron and sweetness mottled in sparks of heated static where his lips touched hers.
Pleasure rumbled from his throat when they parted.
The blue-white light of Heaven’s eerie glow shone a lone spotlight over her through the window. In the stage of his arms, she lay flushed and content, eyes bright and warm holding his silhouette in their stare with care. He suddenly felt so silly, seeing those familiar emotions watching him. How could he have ever doubted her?
It was never about leaving him, was it?
“Al?” A single syllable held a gentle note and his throat suddenly felt parched. He quenched his thirst on the column of her neck, nosing away the collar of his shirt to access more of her skin. She gasped as his lips stamped firm and hot against the delicate skin. The tiny sound of her pleasure both eased his burning and ignited it anew. If only he could hear it again.
“…!”
He couldn’t figure out which was louder, her gasp as his arms brought her up to sit on the piano top or his as her legs unconsciously wrapped around his hips to find balance. It was all so muddy with the sound of his blood rushing in his ears as her heated core drew close to his pelvis.
Beneath his cotton shirt, she wore nothing.

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