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“Abyss, are you alright? You shouldn't have taken that bullet for me.”
Abel carried his friend back into their dorm room after the fight with Cell War.
Abyss was still bleeding a little bit, but the wound had almost closed on it's own.
His face was pale though and he was still shaking a little bit when Able carefully placed him on his bed.

“I would do it again. I will always do my best to protect you, Lord Abel. I would give my useless life for you in a heartbeat . No one would miss me anyways and then at least I served a purpose ….”
Abyss said, looking up at the one person that didn't abandon him.
The one person who saw any use in him and told him he didn't have to hide his appearance from him.

Abyss had been ready to die for Abel then and there in the moment he threw himself in front of his friend. He was happy he had survived, so he was able to spend more time with his Lord. Serve him longer and be useful to him.

“Don't say that, Abyss. I will miss you. I was so scared you would die in my arms. Please don't do that ever again.”
Abel shook his head. This boy.
He was too loyal to him for his own good.
Able didn't even deserve all of his dedicated loyalty of his friend. All he had done was not be shitty to him. That was the bare minimum. But for Abyss, it meant the world.
That hurt to see.

“But …. But it's the only way I can be useful to you, Lord Abel You took me in as your tool, didn't you? If I can't be that for you, then what is my purpose? Why am I here if you don't use me to protect you, to serve your purpose ? I have no right to be next to you if I ….”
Abyss said in a distressed, almost desperate voice until Abel put a finger on his mouth, ordering him to be silent. And Abyss did as he was told.

“No! Don't say that about yourself! Yes, I initially took you in as my tool, but that's not what this is between us anymore, Abyss. I like you, you are my friend. I want to have you around me for who you are, not only for your abilities. So I don't want you to throw yourself so carelessly in front of me, Abyss. Because I would miss you. I would miss a person that's dear to me.”
Abel had no idea how Abyss couldn't see himself as a human, but just like a thing that was used by someone else only for the power he held with his eye. It was so sad what Abyss must have been through to get to this point of absolute self hatred and the deep conviction that no one would like him or want him for only himself.

Abel swore himself that he would show Abyss how it felt to be cared about. And liked. Because Able liked him. Very much so. Maybe even more than someone should like a platonic friend.

He heard how the blue haired boy took in a sharp breath and Abel retreated his finger from his mouth.
They both just looked at each other for a while, Abyss not knowing what he should say to that.
No one ever told him that. That he was liked. He didn't know how he should handle that.
So he wasn't only Abel's tool? But he didn't know how not to see himself as this. For the past year, that was his purpose. To serve him as a weapon.
What would Able expect of him now?
Should he behave differently?

“Lord Abel, I… “

“Please, it's just Abel. I am not better than you.”
He interrupted him, not wanting to hear this title out of Abyss mouth ever again.
Abyss had just started calling him that after their first meeting when Able made him his tool on his own. Abel never asked for Abyss to do so. It was the first sign that his friend put him on a podest where he didn't belong, obeying his every word like he really saw Abel as his Lord. His Leader. Someone he would give his life for out of pure loyalty and blind trust.

Abyss' eyes blew wide and his face went even paler.
“I… I can't do that. You are better than me, Lord Abel. Just look at me. You are perfect, you are beautiful, you are so powerful and kind. You accepted me, you were the first person who told me that I am allowed to look at you. You weren't afraid and disgusted of me because of my disfigured face. So, of course you are better than me.”
Abyss insisted, shaking his head in protest at Abels request and looking at him pleadingly.

This was the first time that Abyss refused something Abel asked of him. And so vehemently as well.

Abel lifted his hand to Abyss face again, cupping his right cheek and placing his thumb directly beneath his friends ‘evil eye’. To Abel it wasn't ugly or scary, he wasn't afraid to look right into it. He thought it rather pretty, it made Abyss unique.
The blue haired boy gasped when he felt Abels hand so close to his eye, the reason why everyone hated him and his own parents tried to kill him.
He instinctively closed his eye, not wanting his Lord to have to look at his flaw too much, afraid he would change his mind about him and throw him out of his life after all.

“Open.”
Abel said the single word, his voice soft but commanding, leaving Abyss no room to disobey him.

And of course, the boy with the long blue hair did what he said without needing to be told twice.

Abel hummed in satisfaction when he saw that red and yellow eye again, caressing the skin close to it with his thumb.

“You aren't disfigured, Abyss. You are beautiful, pretty even. Your eye doesn't do your beauty any harm. I think it even makes you more handsome, if you ask me. This is what makes you, you. And I like you the way you are. You don't need to hide from me, don't ever do that. I would never be disgusted with you, and I want you to try to have a little bit more confidence in yourself. I will help you with that. Please trust me, Abyss. You may think so highly of me, but you should think more highly of yourself too.”

He smiled softly at him when he saw how a tear spilled over his evil eye and rolled down his temple.
Why was Abel telling him such nice words ? He didn't deserve it. He had only done his job, protecting the man who meant everything to him.
He was too weak to fight cell war, but at least he could throw himself between him and Able back then. It was the least he could do for his Lord.

Abel thought he was pretty ? Never. That had to be a lie. He didn't think Abel would ever be untruthful to him, but Abyss just couldn't believe him either. It was just impossible for someone to think that he was pretty when everything he ever heard was the complete opposite.

Abel carefully pulled Abyss robe and Shirt off of his slender body, wanting to take another look at the wound and washing his body. Abyss was covered in grime and dust and that shouldn't get into his wound, otherwise it could still get infected and Able didn't want to risk that.

“M-My Lord…. What are you doing?”
Abyss let Abel do what he wanted to do, but he got nervous as the other boy touched his body and pulled his clothes off.
The blue haired boy was only used to physical touch that had the purpose to hurt him. He often got beatings as a child, from his parents as well as other students in his former school, people on the streets that saw his evil eye and thought Abyss had used it on them, or wanted to.

So he was a bit scared when Abel ripped his Shirt off his body and flinched away when he felt his warm hands touching his ivory skin. On one hand he knew that Abel wouldn't hurt him, he never did until now.
On the other hand he was so used to it that he waited for the pain to come whenever someone else laid hands on him. It always hurt, he always cried after and felt horrible. Like nothing, the dirt under their shoes, like trash thrown carelessly out of the window. Abyss really didn't want to be reminded of that.

As soon as Abel noticed how Abyss flinched at his touch and his whole body beneath his hand grew tense, he pulled his hand away again.
“Did I hurt you? I'm sorry. Tell me where it hurts, so I can avoid those areas. I just want to wash you so that your wound doesn't get infected.”

Abel explained, hoping that Abyss would understand and allow him to care for him. Abyss was still too weak to do this on his own and Able was scared he would hurt himself if he refused his help.

Abyss eyes grew wide and he was blushing a little.
He was ashamed he made Abel feel bad because of his own trauma. Abel never hurt him before and it wasn't right of Abyss to be scared of his touch and react so sensitive to it, and he was such an asshole for flinching away and worrying the one person that wanted to put up with him.
He averted his eyes and shook his head.

“N-No, you didn't hurt me, my Lord. I'm sorry for reacting this way, I was just surprised. That was my fault. I will never do it again, I promise.”
Abyss quickly tried to reassure Abel that he had done nothing wrong and that he didn't need to feel bad.
The last thing he wanted was pushing Abel away.
He liked the silver haired boy so much, he adored him and would go to the end of the world for him.
Abel was the best person he had ever met in his life and he was the only one that Abyss would follow. There was no one else for him but Abel.

Abel took a deep, slow breath. No. No, that couldn't be everything. Abyss wasn't just surprised by his touch.
The fear in his eyes and his inability to look at him after, there was more to it. This was a reaction of someone being a victim of abuse. He had grown so tense beneath his hands like he was preparing for an impact to come, as if he was waiting for pain to follow his touch.

Abel realized that he really didn't know so much about Abyss. He knew he was mistreated in his past and that that was the reason why he followed him in his fight for innocent zero and became his tool. But Abyss never told any details, and Able hadn't asked. Until now.
Maybe it was time for a serious talk between them.
Abel wanted to know more about him, it would make him able to understand his friend better. Why he always talked so negatively about himself, the root of his self hatred and why he put Abel on such a high podest.

“Have you been abused in your past, Abyss? Be honest with me, please.”
Abel asked the question that burned in his mind. He needed to know, and he couldn't wait for an answer. He wanted to know now. So that he could help and understand Abyss properly.

Abyss' whole face fell when he heard that question and he tried to sit up on the bed. He couldn't walk out on Abel to avoid the conversation, which he would prefer to do right now, but he needed to do something. Shit. His stomach hurt when he moved.

Why did he ask him that ?
Abyss had always avoided talking about his past.
He didn't want Abel to see how weak he had been.
What a pitiful victim and pathetic loser he was.
He should be dead. He shouldn't even be here right now if his mother only had managed to kill him.

“I ….. I …”
Abyss choked out, not noticing how tears started to run down his face and trickle onto his exposed chest. A big lump had formed in his throat that made it hard to speak and bring out the words he didn't really want to say.

“Oh god, I knew it. Come here, Abyss. It's okay.”
Abel immediately picked up on Abyss' physical reaction to his simple question. Well, not simple. Not for Abyss.
Abel helped him into a more comfortable position and hugged him softly, to not put pressure on any of his injuries.
He didn't want to hurt him further, but also give him the comfort he so desperately needed.

Abyss had always been a rather cold person and distanced himself from everyone, which probably was caused by everyone avoiding him as well. Able never really gave it much thought. But now….
There was a different light shining on that.

“I… I’m sorry for being so weak, Lord Abel."
Abyss sniffled, trying to hold back his tears as hard as he could, but failed miserably at that. He had no idea what's wrong with him, normally he always had full control of his emotions and rarely showed them.
But this one question and the worry in Abels voice when he asked it, it hit Abyss hard and broke down his otherwise stoic mask.

“You are not weak, Abyss. Stop saying such things. Just please, tell me a little of what you went through, so that I can understand you. You don't have to tell me everything, I don't want to make you uncomfortable. But please, let me into your world. Only a little.”
Abel almost begged his friend for answers, but that was okay. He didn't care. He only wanted to know how it looked inside of him.

More tears left Abyss' eyes and all those memories from his past came up. Painful memories. But if that was what Abel wanted, who was he to deny his Lord? His…. friend? At least that's what Able called him.. But friends were equals, right? And how could he ever be equal to this perfect human being that was Abel Walker?

“I … I .. was despised by everyone, all my life. I think that's no newsflash to you.
I was thrown stones at, people followed me with lit torches and wanted to burn my hair, I was called every kind of ugly name, had bruises in every place of my body.

Because everyone treated me like that because of my eye, I was so happy that you were different. You accepted me for who I am, and I will always be thankful for that and be indebted to you. You showed me that I can be useful, despite me losing all hope.”
Abyss took a deep breath before he could speak further. The worst part was only about to come.
As if it wasn't enough to be hated by all the people around him. It was good they were still hugging, not having to look at Abel made it easier for him to talk and open up.

“It wasn't just the people in my school or around me that hated me for my eye. The people who were disgusted with me the most … were my parents.
When my eye started to show around the age of five, they locked me in the basement. No one should ever see my face again. I was a shame to my family. They occasionally brought me food every few days to keep me alive and I was freezing down there, just staring into the darkness, hoping it would all end soo. Doesn't matter how. I just wanted it to stop. I was cold, I had to sleep on the hard stone floor and I….I couldn't even shower or do anything. It was torture. Then, one day, my mother came down to the basement. I thought she wanted to bring me up into my room again, I thought it was finally all over…..
But instead, she crawled on top of me and….
And she grabbed my throat and, and squeezed… “

Abyss' voice broke and he couldn't speak further. But he didn't need to tell any more.
Abel understood.
His own mother tried to kill him that night. But she failed.
And Abel was glad about that. Without her failing, he wouldn't hold this precious person in his arms right now.

“I'm glad she failed. I'm so terribly sorry that you had to go through all of that. You didn't deserve this horrible childhood. All those people were so wrong about you and deserve to rot in hell for what they did to you.
But I'm so glad that she failed. Because otherwise I wouldn't hold you in my arms right now. I couldn't tell you how important you are to me. And that everything is gonna be alright. I will make up for everyone who mistreated you, I promise.”

Abel whispered to Abyss, meaning every word. He would show him how precious he was, how important and worthy. It would be a lot of work and it would take a lot of time, but Able didn't mind. Abyss was worth every second of it.

“I …. I don't know what to say, Lord Abel. I'm not used to this kind of treatment. I don't know how to respond to kindness and care. It… it scares me. I don't want to disappoint you….
I hope you don't see me differently now. Please let me keep being your tool, it's the only purpose that I have in this hopeless life that was given to me.”
Abyss stuttered, completely overwhelmed by the nice words of Abel.
Abel had been nothing but nice to him since he was wounded, and so warm and caring.
It's not that he hadn't been like this before, but right now after all what happened during the last few hours, it was different. More intense. It really brought Abyss in a tough spot where he had to face himself and his emotions that he tried to deeply bury inside of him. So no one could hurt him ever again.

“Abyss, as I already told you. You are more than my tool. If it's so important to you, then yes. You can still be my tool. But please know that you are more than that. You are not only a tool. You are a whole human, a person, that I like and is worthy of so much more than just being used by me. It's okay when you are overwhelmed right now. I can't imagine how it must be to have such a past as you. But please know that I want to make you happy from now on. I want to show you how it is to be treated nice and with the respect that you deserve. Will you allow me to do that, Abyss?”

Abel didn't want to force himself on the blue haired boy. If he needed some time alone to think everything over, to sort his life out and focus on making himself happy and process everything, that would be absolutely alright. Able would understand.

But deep down he hoped that Abyss would want him around and let him show him how nice life could be. That there were good people around who liked him for who he was.
Abel had always treated Abyss kindly, of course. He always saw him as a sort of friend and invited him to share a room because the room they gave to Abyss was absolutely unacceptable. But he could have done more. He could have been nicer. He could have paid more attention, maybe he would have noticed sooner just how deeply Abyss had been hurt.

That would change now. Abel promised to himself. He would be the change for him. If he wanted to.

Abyss retreated from the hug they still were in and pulled back, rubbing his face with his hands to make all the tears go away. He was sure he was looking so ugly right now. So not worthy of Able and his attention and kindness that he was showering him in. Abyss still didn't know what was going on, this was too good to be true. But if Abel offered this himself, how could he say no? Abyss would never deny him anything.

“If you want to, Lord Abel. I don't feel worthy of it, and I don't understand where this is coming from. But it sounds nice.”
Abyss smiled at the boy with the silver hair that was purple at the tips. Abyss always thought that Abels hair was particularly beautiful and he wanted to touch it so badly. But of course he never dared to. He would never touch someone without their consent.

“I asked you if you wanted that, Abyss. I want to know what you think. Of course you are worthy. And I want to show you just how worthy you are. Don't think about those assholes in your past anymore, they were wrong about you. And maybe with time, you will understand then. But I want that you want it. Not because of your loyalty to me, but because you want to spend time with me and let me be closer to you.”

Abel looked at Abyss with a serious expression on his face, however his eyes were soft and betrayed this seriousness. He just wanted him to do something for himself. Because he felt good about it. Because it was his own decision. Not because he felt like he had to agree for the approval of another person. Abyss needed to live for himself again.
And Abel would be by his side to show and guide him through it, be his lifeline, his friend. And maybe someday, when he is ready, even more.

“A-Alright, I understand. I do want to spend time with you, Lord Abel. I like you, you are so good to me. I can't imagine myself without you. You pulled me out of a really dark place and you were my light in life. I don't know where I would be when you didn't come up to me that day and gave me a purpose….”
Abyss swallowed thickly.
He didn't want to cry again, he wanted the tears to stop welling up in his eyes.
He was so pathetic, he didn't even have his own body under control.
Yet, whenever he looked at Abel and saw that soft and compassionate look in his eyes, he couldn't keep himself from tearing up.
How was he so lucky that such a powerful, capable man as Abel chose him?

“Its okay. I'm happy I ran into you that day, it made my life better as well. You are a good person deep inside, you just have been hurt too much. But we can heal you from that inner pain and make your life better again. Do you trust me?”

Abel offered his hand to Abyss, reaching out to him, to the person he was and could be if he was just shown that he wasn't the Monster the other people made him. Abyss was a sweet, soft boy that wanted to see the good in people, just as Abel, but was corrupted by the cruelty that was inflicted on him by others.

Able wanted to bring that sweet and innocent boy back again that luckily survived the day his own mother tried to kill him.

“Y-Yes, I trust you, Lord Abel. I know if there is only one person who can help me heal, it's you.”
Abyss looked at the silver haired boy with the three black marks in his face and smiled shyly at him.

He had already put his life in Abels hands so many times and had never been disappointed. Abyss trusted him blindly.

“Alright, then from now on, I will make sure you are happy every single second of the day. I promise to take good care of you and show you that there are good people out there. You deserve the world, Abyss.”

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Chapter 2

Six months have gone by since that day.
That day Cell War came into their school and Abyss threw himself in front of Abel.
Six months since Abel promised the world to Abyss.

Much has changed.
Abyss' wound was healed fully now, at least the wound that Cell War had given him. The only thing what's left was a light scar across his stomach.

The scars on his inside however…. They were working on that.

“Hey, Abyss. Wake up. We have to go to class.”
Abel caressed the cheek of his still sleeping room mate.
Abyss wasn't a morning person. Abel had learned that over the last few months that they shared a room. So he made it his mission to wake him up every morning so he wouldn't run late for classes.

At first Abel hadn't dared to touch Abyss when he woke him up. Not after what he had told him that night. About the abuse he was forced to endure.
But after he had tried it with everything else, loud talking, a very loud alarm clock and even pulling away his covers without any reaction from Abyss, he didn't have another chance.

Abel carefully combed his beautiful and thick strands of blue hair in his sleep and softly caressed his cheeks, hoping that would wake him up without scaring him.
And to his surprise, Abyss did wake up rather quickly from his touch.
“L-... Lord Abel?”
Abyss blinked his eyes slowly open, his voice dreamy and heavy with sleep.
But he didn't flinch away from him, he even leaned into his touch, asking for more. Without even having his eyes really open, he immediately recognized that he was Abel, and he knew he could trust him.

Ever since then, it was their morning ritual. Abel stood up and went to the bathroom to get himself ready, and then he would wake up Abyss on his bed across from him, caressing his cheek and playing delicately with his hair.
Abyss would always smile in his sleep before he fully woke up and called Abel by his name, thanking him for waking him up.
Abel would never forget how peaceful and calm Abyss looked in his sleep, so differently to when he was in their classroom or Cafeteria, surrounded by people that looked at him weird and disgusted.

Abyss told Abel over and over again to stay away from him during their school day, so people wouldn't avoid him because he was with Abyss. Abyss didn't want Abel to be outcasted as well for being seen with him. Abel was great and powerful and intelligent, he deserved to have friends like any other person and have a normal life, meet up with others and have fun, socialize. What teenagers at their age normally did.
Abyss only wanted what's best for Abel. And that was not being with him.

But Abel always stuck by his side and never left him. He sat with him at a table for lunch and in the classes they had together he always sat next to him, sharing a book with him if he left his in their room or even shielded him from dirty looks.
Abel always told him : “But I want to be with you. I don't need anyone else. I won't leave your side, and please stop telling me to. I'm happy with how things are, I am where I belong.”

It made Abyss almost tear up every time he heard it, but it was still hard to believe, no matter how many times Abel told him. Abyss always thought that for Able to be with him wasn't a good idea. Able was destined to do great things, he had three black marks, more than most wizards had. He shouldn't be stuck here with someone like Abyss and waste his precious time. He could even strive to become a god seer.

And so, Abyss was happy that Abel wanted to spend time with him, but he also felt a little guilty. He didn't want such a capable person with a promising future like Abel to ruin his life because he felt pity for a loser like Abyss. Because that's what the reason had to be why he stuck around at his side. Pity.
Or also guilt, because Abyss saved his life that night with cell war.

When they went back into their room after an exhausting day of lessons after lessons in potions and fighting, Abyss sat down on his bed, looking at Able who sat across from him.

“Lord Abel. Are you sticking by my side because you pity me? Because you don't have to do that. I'm fine on my own, I always was. I know that I only bring bad things upon the people around me… “

Abyss fumbled nervously with his fingers when he asked the question that had been on his mind for a long while now. He liked the company of Abel, he wanted to be with him all the time. It was comforting and he felt protected and safe with him. He felt better than ever in his whole life.

But he also thought that he didn't deserve this. Abel was too good for him. He should see other people than him and enjoy his life to the fullest, train hard to become the most powerful wizard in the country or even the whole world. He had the potential. And Abyss didn't want him to waste it for someone like him.

“Abyss, please. Don't say such things. I already told you so many times. And I tell you as often as you need to hear it.”
Abel sighed with a small smile on his lips and walked across the room to where Abyss was sitting on his bed to kneel down onto the floor in front of him.

“Lord Abel…..”
Abyss gasped, but Abel only shook his head and took Abyss hands into his own.

“No, Abyss. It's Abel. Just Abel. Like you are just Abyss. And I don't pity you. I am here with you because I like you. I really like you, Abyss. If you can believe it or not. I want to be by your side all the time, I want to do every silly little thing with you like eating lunch or doing our homework. You didn't bring a single bad thing upon me. With you, everything I do is fun and I enjoy it to the fullest. I chose to be by your side on my own, because I don't want to be anywhere else.”

Abel said, looking up to Abyss and into his eyes.
He wanted the message to come over, he wanted to see in Abyss eyes that he understood what Abel said. He wanted to see how it sunk in. He would say it over and over and over again without getting mad at his friend, because he knew Abyss' past and knew how it could be confusing and hard to believe how Abel felt about him.

Even after six months that had gone by since he told Abyss for the first time that he liked him, and Abyss still having a hard time believing him, he would say it as often as he needed to hear it. Maybe someday, he would understand on what a deep level Abel really liked him.
He would slowly get him to the point, he would find a way to convince him.

Abyss looked at him as well, finding it completely wrong to look down on Able. This wasn't how it should be. It should be the other way around.
But his words soothed him a little.
He heard the words Abel spoke, and he knew what they meant. But he couldn't believe they were directed at him. Even after hearing it countless times over the last months, Abyss still couldn't believe that this was real. That Abel really liked him, him.
Someone so many people had wished the worst things upon.

“Lord Abel… thank you for being so patient with me. I can't express how lucky I feel to be someone that you have such feelings for….
And I’m sorry for struggling with accepting that.
I just worry about you, how you are looked at and about your future when you are with me.”
Abyss admitted, feeling the warmth of Abels hand around his own cold ones. It was nice, being so close to him and hearing the reassurance and sincerity in his words.

Abel shook his head, his purple tips swinging with his movements.
“I don't care about the other people. I don't care what anyone says. I only care about you.
Because you mean so much to me.
Do you …. Do you want me to show you how I feel about you? Maybe you will understand better when I I prove my words.”

Abel offered, slowly pulling his hands free and inching closer between Abyss legs.
He reached up with his fingers to the others crotch and carefully opened the fly of his pants.

“You can always tell me No. I won't be mad. Just tell me when you don't want anything or when I hurt you.”
Abel had a serious voice and waited with any further actions until Abyss nodded to his words, signalling that he had understood.

Then he opened Abyss pants and pulled them down to his ankles, staring at the already growing bulge in his pants.
“I’m sorry…. Lord Abel… you shouldn't see that.”
Abyss flushed bright red and held a hand in front of his mouth, looking away from the man kneeling in front of him.

“What shouldn't I see? That you are excited for me? I think that's pretty cute.”
Abel smiled teasingly at him and grabbed onto the waistband of Abyss tight black underwear at his hips, slowly peeling them down his ass.

Abyss obediently lifted his hips for him, helping his Lord to free his already hard cock.
The boy with the long blue hair was extremely flustered, not able to look at the other.
He had never done something like this, something so intimate. And being on the receiving end of the pleasure and letting the person he adored so much do the work was very strange to him.

He felt like he should do that. Like he should make Abel feel good and worship his body like he worshiped him as a person.
But instead it was the other way around.

“It's okay, you don't have to feel ashamed, Abyss. You are beautiful, everything on you is beautiful. I will prove it to you.”
Abel whispered to him when he looked up and saw how embarrassed and flustered Abyss looked.
It was so cute how shy he was, how innocent.

Abel would show him that he didn't have to be.

When his underwear was hanging around his ankles as well, Abel spread Abyss legs even wider to make more room for himself.
He kissed the insides of Abyss ivory skin, surprised at how soft it was beneath his lips.
As if he was really entirely untouched there.
It turned Abel on incredibly, knowing he was the first one to do this.

Abyss moaned and whimpered as his hot lips and tongue touche such a delicate place on his body. He had never felt something like this before. Being kissed was entirely new to him. And at such an intimate place as well.

The boy with the long blue hair had his eyes closed, only focusing on the sensations Abel gave to him. He couldn't bear to look down and seeing his fully erected cock standing proud between his wide open legs. It was so obscene and dirty, Abyss couldn't believe that this was happening.
And with Lord Abel of all people.
Abyss wouldn't want to do something like this with anyone else but him, but he also didn't feel worthy of being serviced and touched like this by him.

Abyss was the tool. Abyss was the one who should get used by the other.

“L-Lord Abel…. “
Abyss stuttered, the close Abels kisses wandered towards his erection, the more he felt like this wasn't right. It should be him kneeling in front of Abel.

“Shhh …. Everything is alright. Just relax and let me make you feel good. I want you to understand how much I like you. How I feel about you. I want you to feel it through my actions, rather than my words. So please, Abyss. Let me do this for you.”
Abel tried to calm Abyss down, tried to clear his mind from all those thoughts that he had in his head about being unworthy of him.

Abyss was silent after that, letting his Lord continue with his kisses and little licks above his sensitive skin.

When Abels mouth had reached Abyss cock, he looked at it for the first time properly.
Abyss was smaller than him, bright pink and already drooling in excitement for him. He had a thick, pulsing vein covering his hard shaft that was also not as girthy as Abels.
Abyss was more delicate and slender than Abel in his physique, which Abel liked very much.
He couldn't wait to cover his whole body in kisses and bite marks, burying him beneath his own, stronger body.

Fuck. Abel was growing hard himself when he thought about all the things that he wanted to do with Abyss.

Abel opened his mouth and stuck out his tongue, starting to lick Abyss' wet tip.
Abyss moaned when Abels hot tongue touched his sensitive head and licked away the drop of pre cum that spilled out of his slit.

It was a sensation he had no comparison to, but it immediately took over his whole body.
Abel did it again to hear Abyss sweet voice anew, licking over the whole underside of his shaft, paying extra attention to his frenulum.

It sent shivers down Abyss spine and he lost all control over his body, falling down with his back intro the mattress.
“L-Lord Abel…..I …. Too much…”

Abyss whimpered, throwing his hands over his face when he felt heat rising up again in his cheeks.
He didn't know it would be this intense.

“If you don't like it, I will stop. But I think you like this very much. Am I wrong?”
Abel teased the blue haired boy, watching how his thighs trembled beneath his mouth and his cock throbbed on his tongue.

Abyss shook his head vehemently in response.
“N-No, you.. are not wrong. It's ….. it's just intense.”

Abel hummed, satisfied with his answer and glad Abyss didn't want to stop. Because Abel didn't want to either.

He liked seeing him coming undone beneath him.
Abel parted his lips again and took the whole tip in his mouth, sucking softly on the delicate skin.
Abyss shuddered and his hips twitched upwards when he felt Abels hot mouth completely eclipsing him.

The long haired boy moaned again, it was so much more intense now that he could feel him everywhere and not just the underside.
Abel worked his way slowly down his shaft and towards his crotch, swallowing Abyss inch by inch.
He took his time, enjoying every moment between the others' legs. It was amazing to feel the weight of his dick on his tongue, it was heavy and warm and throbbing, pre cum dribbling still from his slit. It tasted bitter and salty, and Abel wanted more.

When he nudged with his nose against Abyss lower stomach, having his whole length in his mouth, he waited a few seconds before he started to move again. His mouth was completely filled out, but luckily he wasn't choking. Abyss had the perfect size for him. Abel could still breathe through his nose to get air into his lungs and with his hands he caressed Abyss thighs that were next to his head.

Abyss was still extremely overwhelmed by Lord Abel doing this and how good it felt. It was so good, Abyss couldn't think straight. His head was spinning and he couldn't form a coherent thought. The only thing on his mind was warm and wet and how soft that tongue was that swirled around his lenght. It was really amazing.

After a few moments just staying like this, Abel carefully pulled back, protecting his teeth with his lips to not hurt Abyss.
Abel started to bob his head back and forth on Abyss length, sucking on his tip and taking him deep inside his throat.

Abyss smelled and tasted delicious, Abel never wanted to come up from his place between his legs. He loved to listen to his needy little sounds and whimpers full of pleasure. If Abyss enjoyed what he did to him, it was the greatest joy for Abel. Making him feel good and showing him that he was ready to do everything for him, that he liked him and there was nothing that he wouldn't do…. Abel hoped Abyss would pick up on all the emotions that he poured in every kiss and every touch.

“L-Lord Abel….. I… I feel something…. I think… I think you should .. get away from there …”
Abyss moaned as he felt a tight pull in his stomach and his cock throbbing heavily. He never felt something like this before, he had no idea what was happening to his body.
Abyss surely didn't want this to stop, what Abel did to him was incredible and his head was so quiet and empty and all that he felt was pure, blissful pleasure.

Abel knew that Abyss was close. It was easy to tell. He was such a cute virgin and his body told him everything he needed to know. His hips started to stutter and thrust back into his mouth whenever Abel swallowed him whole, his thighs trembled and his breath picked up pace and came quick and heavy.

So no, of course Abel didn't pull back. He wanted to swallow everything that Abyss gave him. He wanted to see his face and hear his voice when he tipped over the edge.
Abel picked up his pace a bit and sucked harder on his tip whenever he pulled back, teasing Abyss and begging for his cum to spill inside his mouth.

Abyss moaned again and trashed his head to the other side, hiding his face with his hands. Fuck. Why did this feel so good?
But why didn't Abel listen to him? It was really really urgent now.

“P-Please, Lord Abel…. I.. I… can't hold it.”
Abyss tried again, but Abel still continued working his mouth up and down his shaft. He didn't stop what he was doing, teasing Abyss cock even more.

And only a few seconds after his last warning, Abyss came. Rope after rope of cum shot out of his slit and inside Abels mouth, the silver haired boy swallowing everything down eagerly. Abyss' body tensed for the first few seconds and his lower back lifted up from the mattress with this overwhelming feeling that came upon him with his first ever orgasm.

Abel looked up from where he kneeled between Abyss legs and saw how Abyss covered his face with his hands, his mouth wide open from the sweet sounds he made and his pink tongue peeking out. He was visibly exhausted and completely overwhelmed, which was very cute.
When Abyss was spent and his cock slowly softened again, Abel licked one last time over his slit to make sure he was clean, and then crawled up to him on the bed.

He laid down next to him and carefully put his hands away from his face to look at him.
“Hey, how do you feel?”
He whispered softly, noticing his still bright red blush, but his breathing had calmed down a bit already.

Abel couldn't get over the fact how cute he had been the whole time. It made him fall for him even more. He had waited all those months to come closer to Abyss, and finally the time had come. He had tasted him, showed him a whole new world of pleasure and intimacy to build trust and prove his true feelings for him.
Abel hoped that Abyss understood now.

“I… I feel great. That was incredible. I had no idea it would feel so intense.”
Abyss answered, his voice a little rough from all the moaning. He slowly opened his eyes to see Abel laying right next to him, looking at him curiously with a small smile on his face.

“That's great, Abyss. I'm happy you enjoyed it. That's everything I want. I enjoyed it too.”
Abyss' chest warmed at Abels words.
He was so nice. And what he had done to him had really felt like Abel wanted it too, and hadn't done it only for Abyss. He hadn't pulled back when Abyss told him too, he had taken his time and showered him with kisses beforehand, easing Abyss into it.
Never in his life had Abyss felt so cherished and loved before.

Wait, Love?

No, never. Abel didn't love him. He had just been nice to him, that's all. Make him feel good. And Abyss had felt good. There was nothing more to it. Abyss needed to stop reading things into every little thing his Lord did.

“Abyss, what are you thinking ? I see your eyes, they are absent. What is going on in your head?”
Abel asked softly, caressing the cheek of the boy with the long blue hair. His face was still hot from his blush, but he didn't flinch away from his touch. It made Abel proud. They had come so far in 6 months, even though they had also a long way ahead of them. Healing was a journey with ups and downs like everything in life, there was no rush.
But it was nice to see how Abyss wasn't afraid of physical contact anymore.

“I.. uh… I..”
Abyss had no idea what to say. Or better, how to say it. It was embarrassing and Abel would surely laugh at him for Abyss thinking that he would have feelings for him such as love. Abel may see him as something like a friend, he had told him over and over again. For even that was still hard to believe for Abyss. And now he was so delusional and thought about his Lord having even deeper feelings for him than that? Love? How ridiculous.
He knew that himself. So he couldn't speak that twisted fantasy out loud.

His love for his Lord would always stay one sided, and that was okay. Abyss had made peace with it. It was enough for him to be allowed in his presence. They shared a room and Abel woke him up every morning in such a lovely way and shared every meal with each other. Abyss was blessed with how things were between them. He could love his Lord by protecting him and giving his life for him if needed, that was more than enough.

But he didn't want to lie to him either. So he had to speak the truth in answer to his question.
Abyss took a deep breath and bit on his lower lip, hoping to not make himself a total clown with his words. He somehow hoped that what he felt from Abels touch was true, however he didn't dare to let that thought in. It would only destroy him.

“I .. I thought about how you made me feel .. not only the pleasure. You did this to show me how you felt about me, that's what you said in the beginning. And so I focused on that..
And even though I know it's stupid and not true, I felt… It felt like you …”

Abyss just couldn't bring himself to say it. He was too scared of it.
Abel smiled and turned Abyss' head towards him gently, so they looked at each other. He cupped his face with one of his hands, and with his other hand he grabbed Abyss' hands.
Abyss looked so lost, confused and overwhelmed and Abel just wanted to kiss him. Kiss all of those worries away.

And so, he just did that. It would mean more than any words he could say right now.
He leaned forward, clutching their entwined hands against his chest and pressed his lips directly onto Abyss’. He kept his other hand on Abyss cheek, burying his fingers into his long hair, letting him feel that he was there, that this was real.
Abyss was frozen in shock and didn't move an inch, Abel was sure he didn't breathe either. And that was okay, it was supposed to be a surprise. He didn't expect him to return the kiss right away.
It was the meaning behind it that was important.

“Like I love you?”

Abel whispered against Abels lips when he pulled back only a little, just so that he could look up into Abyss' wide open eyes.
Abyss looked shocked and surprised, like he never thought that this would happen in a million years.
He was so adorable, Abel thought and smiled.

“I do, Abyss. I love you.”

Abel repeated himself, because he was sure Abyss wouldn't be able to believe him otherwise. He would have to tell this beautiful broken boy a million times before it would sink in, but that was okay. Abel was ready to tell him how much he loved him at any given moment.

Abyss still just stared at Abel, blushing furiously and tears welling up in his pretty eyes. He was at a loss for words.
How…. How could this ever be true ?
He was dreaming, Abyss knew it.

But then Abel leaned in again, pressing another soft kiss onto his lips and Abyss melted under his warm mouth that met his.
Tears started to flow freely, making this kiss a little salty, but this time, this time Abyss dared to kiss back.

If this was a dream, then fuck it.
In his dreams Abyss was allowed to claim this perfect man for himself. Here he was free and his eye wasn't evil, it was a normal eye. He was a normal teenager. He was allowed to be greedy and get the man that he wanted.
If not in his dreams, what other chance did he have?

“I love you too, Lord Abel.”
He whispered back when he needed to part again from Abels lips to take a breath.

And Able nodded, hearing what he said but not ready to break apart yet. He followed Abyss, smashing their lips back together. He had waited for this for so long, he needed to make up for the last six months now.

Abyss welcomed him and now answered his kiss readily, parting his lips for Ables tongue. Their kiss was messy and wet from Abyss tears, but no one gave a fuck. They kissed until their lungs were out of air and they needed to breathe, but always found their way back to each other.

Abel was surprised but also very pleased about Abyss eagerness to kiss him back, so much that he didn't want this to ever end. They fitted together perfectly and Abel wiped Abyss' cheeks dry with his hand, glad that he stopped crying at some point, Abel had already worried about him.
He made those sweet sounds whenever their lips met, like a low purr and was always chasing his tongue and licking over his lips to be allowed to enter Abels mouth as well that Abel really didn't want to end their kiss. Abyss had never been this forward and Able enjoyed this little change within him.

But after god knows how long, they had to break apart from each other to take a breath and wipe their faces of all the spit that covered their lips.
“You liked this, Abyss?”

Abel asked teasingly when both of them caught their breaths.

“Of course, Lord Abel. How could I not like kissing you? At least in my dreams I'm allowed to want the things that I can't have in my real life, aren't I ?”
Abyss smiled back at him, seeming much more open and relaxed.

Wait.
Abyss thought he was dreaming?
Oh, this poor boy. How adorable but also sad at the same time.

Abel huffed and shook his head.
“You are not dreaming, silly head. This is all real. And even in reality you are allowed to want the things that you desire. And you can have them as well.”
Abel ruffled his beautiful blue hair and leaned in to give him a kiss on the forehead.

Abyss eyes widened anew.
“I am not dreaming ? But you told me that…..that you love me. And we kissed. That has to be a dream. That is what always happens in my dreams.”
Abyss was at a loss of words, his head was spinning and he could use a hole in the ground to just disappear into.
This was so embarrassing.
What had he done?
He was so forward and… and didn't want to let Abel go. He had stuck his tongue in his mouth and didn't let him breathe for a second.
He had been so rude to him, but only because he thought this wasn't real anyways.

“I'm so sorry, Lord Abel. I would never have been so demanding…”
Abyss started immediately to apologize, but Abel shut him down with yet another small kiss.

“Never apologize for the things you want, Abyss. You are allowed to want things, like everyone else. And if you want me, then take everything from me that you desire. I liked what you did there, I liked how you took what you wanted. You can do that again every time.”

Abel explained with a serious but loving tone, so Abyss knew he meant what he said and believed him. Hopefully.

Abyss nodded, swallowing thickly. He still felt bad for believing that this was a dream. But how could he not ? Lord Abel had kissed him. And confessed that he loved him. How was this even real?

“So… you really… really… love me ?”
Abyss asked, feeling so stupid for asking this but he needed to hear it again when he knew this was real, and not thinking it was a dream. A dream he had every night.

If Abel said yes, this was his dream come true.

Abel chuckled, squeezing Abyss hand he still held on his own, lifting it up to his lips and kissing his knuckles.
“Yes, Abyss. I love you. And don't worry, I won't stop telling you that, because I know it's hard for you to believe. But I still hold onto my promise I gave you half a year ago. I will work with you to have more confidence in yourself, I will help you believe me when I tell you that I love you. I will make sure that you know that you deserve the world. You are such a good person, Abyss. How could I not love you?”

Abel kissed Abyss hand again, looking into his colorful eyes.
Abyss smiled when he saw the dedication that Abel had in his expression and listened to his kind words.

His heart fluttered when he heard the words he had told Abel in his dreams every night, and now they were directed at him.
His silly fantasy of them as a loving couple really came true.

He would still need time to realize it, but he was really happy that Abel had the confidence to kiss him to show him how he felt about him. Abel was amazing. If it weren't for his confidence, maybe they would be pining after each other for all eternity.

“Do you wanna go out for a date tonight ?”
Abel asked him, pulling him from his thoughts as always.

“A date?”
Abyss gasped, shaking his head in no.

“Yes, a date. You haven't been out for so long, I'm sure you have no idea how the world outside these gray school walls looks like. So I will treat you to dinner tonight as our first date as a couple.”

Abel smiled brightly, standing up from the bed to go pick out clothes for them.

“But Lord Abel… my eye…. They won't even let me inside a restaurant.”

Abel turned around again to the beautiful boy with the blue hair, pulling him up from the bed as well.
“I am going to take care of that. I won't let anyone disrespect you, trust me. You will be fine.”
Abel promised, giving Abyss another kiss on his lips.

He meant it. He would protect Abyss from any harm, just like he did for him. Together, they could rule the world.