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"Dan Ah-yah, where are you?" Sungjin clicks his tongue in frustration, holding out his phone where he had a tracking map connected to his daughter’s watch. He rushes inside the condominium where they live to find a little girl who once again disappeared on him after requesting her favorite blueberry yogurt ice cream.

Sungjin couldn't count how many times this happened already and every time he finds Dan Ah, he'd always find a giant-sized strawberry lollipop in her tiny hand. Sungjin noticed that it's always from the same packaging. Sungjin guesses that it is a new brand, as someone who used to eat so much candy as a child he is a lot familiar of any confectionary, and Dan Ah receives different flavors, however, Dan Ah often gets more strawberry flavor. Dan Ah loves the strawberry flavor the most.

But that doesn't matter right now. Sungjin has taught Dan Ah not to accept anything from a stranger and she always listens to Sungjin, except on this one.

On days Sungjin would scold her for not listening and for almost giving him a heart attack, she'd cry so hard that instead of getting angry, Sungjin would feel apologetic instead that he'd have to compromise to give her whatever she wants.

Call Sungjin a daddy's girl, he doesn't care, because that is true.

Sungjin can almost memorize Dan Ah's routine by the number of times this happened but still, it doesn't stop Sungjin from worrying. The world outside is dangerous and that is his little girl out there, out of his sight.

"Sir, Dan Ah is with the new resident on the reception's couch" The security in his black suit uniform inside the condominium greets after seeing the panting Sungjin going inside the building, not noticing the lollipop on the security’s hand.

This is a routine now. Even the securities are aware of Dan Ah's rebellion. They also know who the man Dan Ah always meets. Everyone has already seen the new resident with Dan Ah but him.

He was told not to worry since it's a resident and they're always on the lookout for his little girl but it still doesn't sit right. He can't understand what's wrong with his parenting. He was always doing his best to be a better parent but when this happens, he feels like there's something wrong with him.

Once he reached his destination, he found Dan Ah with a stranger in a formal corporate attire.

"Dan Ah-yah.. I told you—"

"Hi, you're Park Dan Ah's dad, right?"

Sungjin finally met the man that his daughter probably likes more than him. Sungjin almost squints his eyes but when the man smiled brightly and pushes his hand forward to Sungjin for a handshake, he can't help but be stunned. It looks like the man has been waiting to meet him. The boiling frustration inside Sungjin suddenly steams off, Sungjin no longer has the heart to be upset at the bright-looking face of the man in front of him so he didn't have a choice but to take the hand to his.

"It's nice to meet you, uh.." The man hesitates.

"Sungjin.. I'm Park Sungjin"

"Oh, finally. Sungjin-ssi" He says with so much delight. "Your daughter is always telling me his dad's name is Ddungddin, Ddungddin.. I knew it didn't sound right." He giggles. "I'm Wonpil. Kim-Won-Pil." He emphasizes each syllable. "I'm new here as you can see and your daughter was the first person who welcomed me so I'm really glad to meet the source of her bubbly energy"

Sungjin doesn't really know where Dan Ah's energy came from, he can never keep up so to be called the source of her bubbly energy doesn't seem right, yet, it feels good. Somehow.

"Thanks" Sungjin replies as he watches his daughter holding Wonpil's hand, giggling as she looks up with adoration to the same tall man but a centimeter shorter than Sungjin.

"Oh, it's kinda too late since I've been here for almost three weeks but I would like to invite you, your wife, and your daughter to my house as a tradition, you know"

The expression on Sungjin's face changed at the invitation. Actually, Sungjin doesn't know how to explain it to a stranger. He doesn't know how to explain that he doesn't have a wife.

"Oh. I'm sorry. I might have said something wrong."

"Hmm?"

"Uhmm.. you and Dan Ah are still welcome if you have time."

Ah, it seems like Wonpil caught on too easily. He didn't expect that. Usually, people would point it out and ask again to clarify so he appreciates that Wonpil didn't have the need to ask.

"Let's go Dada! Let's go! Let's go!" Dan Ah squeals, reaching out for Sungjin's pinky finger to convince his dad. And now Dan Ah is holding both Sungjin and Wonpil's hands.

"Yeah.. that would be fine." Sungjin answers, not because Dan Ah convinced him but because he wants to know the man Dan Ah always follows around.

"Yey!!!" Dan Ah cheers that her voice almost echoed in the entire reception area. Sungjin shushes her while Wonpil quickly carried the lightweight little girl in his arms and quietly squealed with her. Matching the energy of his little girl.

Sungjin does want to hold his daughter but his daughter prefers to hold another man's hand. Sungjin still doesn't know how Wonpil stole his little girl's heart like this. As far as he remembers, he was the only man who stole Dan Ah’s heart. Now, it felt like he has a competition and he just lost a daughter.

They walked inside the elevator and found out that they both live on the top floor once the floor button was pressed. Their surprise only lasted for five seconds when Dan Ah quickly stole Wonpil's attention and now the two of them are conversing as if they have their own world. Wonpil squats to match the height of his daughter. Sungjin don't really get what they're talking about but it surely has something to do with the candy in his daughter's hand. Now Wonpil reminds Sungjin of Willy Wonka or maybe kidnappers that lure kids with candy. And Sungjin feels like a little kid right now after Wonpil handed him the same lollipop as his daughter after his and Dan Ah's conversation is over.

"I own a candy shop." Wonpil states as if he can read Sungjin's mind before the sound of the elevator rings, indicating they've arrived at the right floor.

"I see." Sungjin acknowledges as he let Wonpil and Dan Ah walk first. "I'm a freelancer." This time he starts the conversation so Wonpil won't feel that he always has to put an effort into creating a topic in the silence because he's thinking too much. But Sungjin is really overthinking if his face is not too obvious.

"Cool. Is that tough?"

"It depends on the client's demands but most of the time, it's bearable."

"You must be really good." Wonpil states with an impressed look on his face.

Sungjin got that. The condominium where they live at is expensive. Including the location's demand. To live here requires millions of income every month. He and Wonpil are the only people on this floor. So, Sungjin knows, Wonpil's candy shop is not just a small shop but it's a huge business. For sure, he has a name.

"I invest too" Sungjin added, he doesn’t really know why he had to say that. He doesn't want to be seen as a weird man.

"I do too." Wonpil smiles at Sungjin as if he's glad to find a common ground between them.

Wonpil presses his key card on the door of his condo and opens it. The space is just similar to Sungjin's condo with a different design. Sungjin's condo has a woody concept while Wonpil is classy. Sungjin acknowledges the style of Wonpil's home, it just gives the same vibe as Wonpil in his suit right now.

"Is there anyone else here?" Sungjin asked as he look around just in case he greet another person.

"Nope, I live alone" Wonpil confirms.

Dan Ah began to run around the spacious area, she giggled once she found more candies in Wonpil's living room. Sungjin reminded his daughter to be respectful and to be courteous in someone else's house at all times. Dan Ah of course, quickly calmed down at her dad's request and carefully reached out for Wonpil's free hand to ask for the candies. Wonpil agreed without hesitation and she giggled again upon the response then she gave a 90° bow to Wonpil as a thank you before picking the candies on her hands. Wonpil softly chuckled at the action.

His daughter is surely a one sarcastic lady.

"Dan Ah-yah, don't eat too much. You don't want your teeth to hurt." Sungjin carefully tells his daughter as Wonpil ushers him to sit next to his kitchen counter.

"Yes. I won't." She replies as she opens a pack and carefully chews on it.

"So that's courtesy." Wonpil giggles like his little girl. "Your daughter is interesting." He says as he fondly gazes at Dan Ah.

"She's being sarcastic."

"I don't know if it's just the kids themselves or it's your daughter but seeing her smile on a tiring day is therapeutic. You really raised your daughter well. You're so lucky to have her."

"I don't know what to say if you put it that way. I'm not that good at raising a child."

"I'm not a parent but I'm pretty sure no first time is easy."

Sungjin remained silent from Wonpil's warm words.

"It's like business, you'll never know the best method to grow it if you don't give it water and sunshine."

"You mean flowers?"

"Nah, I can't take care of flowers. I'm talking about my business. It's my baby too."

"You're good at flattering words." Sungjin simply acknowledged. He doesn't usually converse with his neighbors, Wonpil was the first to talk apart from 'hi, hello', maybe that's why Dan Ah is excited too but Sungjin is really bad at approaching it, however, he really appreciates Wonpil's kindness. Just knowing that there is someone who acknowledges his parenting when he doesn't know what he's doing makes the weight in his heart a little lighter.

"I'm not only flattering you. This.." Wonpil pulls out a basket filled with chocolates and candies under his kitchen cabinet. ".. is for Dan Ah" Sungjin's jaw almost dropped at the huge basket placed in front of him.

"This.. is a lot" Sungjin breathes out.

"I know.. so I'm giving it to you. Monitor it for her so she doesn't get any toothache. I really hate toothaches.. and dentist" Wonpil shivers at the thought of them.

Sungjin shakes his head. He can't believe he just met someone who’s as goofy as his little girl. "So this is your brand.." He finally recognizes Wonpil's candies. Dan Ah only bring lollipops where the packaging is not too clear for him but now he can see the logo well, it was always eye-catching for kids so he remembers.

"Yep. But you don't have to buy from me. Since I like Dan Ah, she can get free candies in whatever store she goes."

"You can't do that, you won't make business." Sungjin chuckles at Wonpil's idea though he appreciates it if it's true, if not, he will still support Wonpil's brand since his daughter likes them.

"And this is for you." Wonpil pulls out another basket filled with healthy and nutritious food and supplements.

As a tradition, new neighbors would usually give out rice cakes to their neighbors. This is something new.

"I gave everyone the same thing too.. even the receptionists and the security outside"

"Is this your brand too?" Sungjin is also familiar with the brand and he knows that it's popular these days.

"Nah, I own the candies but this is my friend's brand. I'm just supporting her so I purchased this plenty of supplements and gave them out to everyone."

"Dada! Dada!"

Sungjin turned to his daughter and sees a chocolate smug on her face. Sungjin's face lit up at the adorable-looking face despite the mess and quickly wipes them with his thumb before licking the chocolate on his own lips. Sungjin then cleansed his hand with water and asked for a wet tissue to completely wipe off the rest of the chocolate on Dan Ah's face and hands.

"You're already a mess. Don't dirty any of Uncle's things, okay?"

"I have already thrown out the plastic wrap on the trashcan." Dan Ah pointed to the location of the trashcan proudly. Sungjin and Wonpil didn't notice when Dan Ah did that but they were surprised she just figured on her own where the trashcan is located as if she owns the house now.

"Very good, Dan Ah-yah." Sungjin compliments her.

"Dan Ah is good. Can Dan Ah have more chocolates?" Dan Ah sways her little body as she gives a soft gaze to her dad. Sungjin shouldn't really let her eat more chocolate but Sungjin is too weak for his little girl.

Wonpil quietly laughs at the scene unfolding in front of him. Sungjin's outer appearance gives him a cold and detachable aura but Wonpil could tell that Sungjin is kind and kinda a fool for his daughter.

"Thanks for the sweets and supplements." Sungjin says once he and Dan Ah are out front of Wonpil's door.

"Thanks for visiting my house too." Wonpil smiles in appreciation to Sungjin before his nose scrunches as his eyes meet the toothy smiles of Dan Ah.

"Dada! Dada! Can Dan Ah hang out with Uncle Wompil again?" Dan Ah jumps in her tiny little steps, holding her father's hand as she continuously coaxes him.

"It's WON-pil" Sungjin emphasizes.

"Wom.. Wom.. Wompil" Dan Ah tries again, tongue sticking out, knowing she's doing it wrong.

Wonpil can see that Dan Ah is a smart kid. Especially when it comes to communication. The times Wonpil encountered Dan Ah, she can describe everything well in her stories, she's mature, she barely mumbles and talks really smoothly at her age except when it comes to names. Wonpil thought Dan Ah gave his dada a nickname, turned out she's just having a hard time calling Sungjin's name properly which is the only way to remind Wonpil that Dan Ah is actually a real five-year-old child in a small body.

Wonpil giggles at Dan Ah's adorable blabbering. He squats to meet Dan Ah's eyes. "I would really love to have Dan Ah back in my home if Dada will let Dan Ah." Wonpil pouts to Dan Ah before raising his head to Sungjin and Dan Ah following suit, doe eyes blinking and pleading Sungjin. Now they're both like kids who are about to be picked up by their parents because they don't want to be separated from each other after playing in the park.

"You both don't have to look at me like that, of course, you can." Sungjin rolled his eyes.

Both Wonpil and Dan Ah cheered, clapping each other's hand that is echoing in the corridor which doesn't really matter since they're each other's only neighbors. And without warning, Dan Ah jumps into Wonpil's arms. Wonpil catches her with a thud. Sungjin's eyes widen and almost picked Dan Ah apart from Wonpil, worrying that the small body of the man was hurt however, Wonpil just smiled at Sungjin as if he knew Sungjin was concerned before going back to cheering with Dan Ah.

Sungjin thought Wonpil is a peculiar person for being too smart in reading people's minds but then, Wonpil is a businessman, maybe it could be learned throughout the years of meeting people all the time.

Dan Ah's energy is never depleting even after entering their condo. She quickly ran inside her room, forgetting about her favorite blueberry yogurt ice cream that was never bought at all, and ran back to the living room and brought her favorite light brown teddy bear.

This teddy bear had a memory between Sungjin and Dan Ah, it was the first gift Sungjin has given to her sweet little girl, and ever since Dan Ah got a hold of it, she has never let it go. Even when she's asleep or wherever trip they have to go. She would even cry staring at her teddy bear at a spinning washing machine because she knows she won't be able to sleep with it so Sungjin has to comfort her all night and pretend to be her teddy bear for a night. But there are exceptions too, such as the short trips like today or when she's at school because other kids would want to borrow it. Although Sungjin taught her little girl to give and share, it's the only item she's possessive of.

"Gomi-yah! Look! Look! Candies and chocolates, your favorite!"

Gomi is the name of the teddy bear, Dan Ah didn't exactly think about the name as we can see but it still sounds beautiful when Dan Ah says it.

"We will eat all of this!" Dan Ah made a huge gesture with her whole arms stretched as she faces the basket of sweets on top of the living room's smaller table. Sungjin almost choked on the water he was drinking in the kitchen.

"Dan Ah-yah." Sungjin calls out as if warning her that she can't do that.

Dan Ah immediately hugs Gomi and started whispering on it. Whatever she's saying to the bear, Sungjin can already guess that they're making a plan but Sungjin has his own plan too and that's to hide that huge basket somewhere Dan Ah couldn't reach too easily.

"Dada! Dada! Can I play with Uncle Wompil tomorrow?" Dan Ah sways her small body like always to coax her dada.

"Hmmm" Sungjin realized that he don't have Wonpil's phone number or any SNS, he can't really tell how he'll reach out to the guy and he also doesn't want to just knock on his door and disturb the businessman when he's tired although, Sungjin is aware that Wonpil likes kids as what he saw and heard earlier. "I'm not sure about that yet, sweetie. I forgot to ask for his contact info."

"Oh" Dan Ah's bright eyes immediately turned sullen. Her lips shaping into an upside-down U and Sungjin hates to see his daughter's face sad like this.

"But tomorrow is Sunday, we'll go to church." Sungjin tries to cheer her up and Sungjin knew it worked when Dan Ah's face lights up once again.

"Yay! Tomorrow is Sunday! Tomorrow is Sunday!" She jumps on her little feet and hugged Gomi in her little arms. Her hair swayed and messed her face but she didn't seem to mind only thinking about Sunday.

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Littmus, was a poor lonely man who lost his family due to war, however, began to make sweet candies for the world. And, what makes it even more interesting, Littmus made a candy called Littmus Lozenge with the ingredients of strawberry, rootbeer, and sorrow out of the loneliness of losing his family.

Wonpil didn't know about him until he studied confectionaries and once he learned who the man was, he began to see himself in Littmus.

Wonpil walked into his five-story building office, it’s not that big. Not yet. His employees, who love to see their sweet boss yet strict leader, greets him enthusiastically upon noticing his presence. Wonpil responded to them with the same energy as he does every day.

The second he entered his office, he found his best friend, Kim Ji Eun, on his seat like the owner of it, in her dark half-sleeved polo and pencil skirt, waiting for him. Ji Eun quickly turned the seat around once the door creaked open.

"You come here earlier than my employees." Wonpil greets his friend in a low tone. He's too used to seeing her visiting his workplace when she gets bored at work. Yes, at 8 am.

Apparently, her office is just a few blocks away and the daughter of the owner of the company whose not quite interested in her occupation so no one really gets the courage to stop her from doing whatever she wants during work hours except when she gets a call from her boss, her father.

"Yep. How are you feeling today?" She says as she switches from the owner's seat to the sofa of the wide office.

"Tired." Wonpil groans as he drops his briefcase on top of his table.

"Did you take your meds?" Ji Eun asked in concern. Wonpil's been feeling unwell lately, his sore throat and cold worsened because he's been working nonstop even during weekends. "I told you to get your rest today. They don't need you here, you have your assistant."

"And make her job pile up?" Wonpil points at the glass wall behind the curtain where his secretary, Choi Yuna, is seated.

"How will it pile up? It's just a day A. DAY. It won't hurt to take a break sometimes. Besides, you don't get sick 365." She raises her voice, definitely not in a dramatic way when Wonpil is even more dramatic than her.

"I can't, we're releasing a new product." Wonpil clicks his tongue in annoyance. He just wants everything to go well and it's frustrating to be sick at times like this.

"I don't understand why you're so obsessed with candies."

"It's my fucking business. Why are you making supplements?"

"It's my fucking business." Ji Eun retaliates.

They both glared at each other before a hearty laugh at their dumb responses. Although it takes too much of his energy, it's always fun to have Ji Eun around talking about everything.

In the silence, Wonpil suddenly remembered something. "Ji Eun-ah, remember the baby that we met at my new condo?"

The first time Ji Eun went to visit Wonpil's condo was also the first time Wonpil met Dan Ah. They were together when Dan Ah suddenly approached them.

"Uh.. yeah? The pigtail baby?"

Ji Eun sometimes calls her pigtail baby because whenever they come across Dan Ah, they mostly see her wearing pigtails, sometimes it’s a braid or a simple ponytail by her long hair but she’s mostly wearing pigtails.

"Yeah, Park Dan Ah. I finally met her dad last Saturday!" Wonpil exclaims.

"O..kay?" She raises a brow, sensing a strange excitement from her best friend. "Why? Is the dad handsome?" She teases.

Wonpil almost rolled his eyes. She's always like this, always excited when talking about handsome men. Although she's not wrong this time. Sungjin IS handsome especially those eyes that would directly look at him. It's heart fluttering. "Okay, fine. He is but—"

"Wonpil-ah, you can't do that.." Ji Eun immediately withdraws from her teasing tone, suddenly getting serious upon Wonpil's response. "The guy has a child and a wi—" Wonpil almost gaped as she kept talking.

“Yah! It’s not like that! You asked. Why is this suddenly my fault?"

"You live in the same condo, what if you fall in love with him?" Ji Eun crosses her arms.

Wonpil just smirks in disbelief. "Do you really think I'm that easy? I haven't dated for like a year. And besides.. he's a single parent" Wonpil bites his lower lip, getting shy at the thought of Sungjin. Maybe his best friend was right. He's easy.

"Ah, he's a single parent.." She squints her eyes. "What are you thinking Kim Wonpil?"

"Shut up, I'm not thinking." Wonpil shakes his head and frowns but his best friend's face is just too funny that he breaks into a smile. "What I'm saying is.. Sungjin-ssi looks at his daughter like she's his whole world. He's cool, okay? He's cool. I was a little envious."

The sullen look in Wonpil's face then made her realized that it's an important day today, so she grabbed her phone and checked the calendar. "It's today."

"It is. I'll be off a little early today and visit grandma."

The car was parked before Wonpil walked at the familiar columbarium. He brings a posy and sticks it at a niche. His eyes glimmered at the urns next to each other with the picture of a man and a woman wearing a huge smile on their faces as they hold Wonpil's small hands side by side on a carousel at an amusement park. It has been a long time and he barely have a memory of them anymore but every time their anniversary comes, there's always this heaviness that comes to the pit of his stomach even at his age, the longing doesn't disappear.

"Grandma!" Wonpil entered his grandparent's house with a huge gesture. He stretched his arms and pulled his Grandma tightly into an embrace. He loves the sweet scent she gives off and the smoothness of her short and white hair. It's been a month since he moved out because Wonpil had to change the building for his growing business and employees and the condo where he's currently living now is closer to his office.

His grandma pulls out from the hug and squishes Wonpil's cheeks. "My baby."

"I'm no longer a baby.. I’m 29. I've been an adult for a decade now. Where's Grandpa?"

"You know how he is, he is slow as always. He's still changing."

"Your clothes are also ready." A familiar older female voice from behind says. She's been working for the family for a very long time, assisting the family and taking care of the house. She's been serving the family even before Wonpil was born so she naturally just calls her, Auntie.

"Auntie, I bought the soju."

"That's great. I forgot them while buying for the service. I'll prepare them now so you can just change your clothes."

"Thank you, auntie."

Once the preparation was done and Wonpil got to change his clothes into a black suit for the memorial service, Wonpil led the service like always.

It's been a long time since Wonpil lost his parents. He was only five, his memory was vague but he remembered how chaotic the house was when it happened. He was crying and screaming for his mom and dad but no one seems to hear. Later that day, his Grandma found him alone in the living room and pulled him into a tight embrace as she cried herself out. Wonpil didn't understand why his grandparents and Auntie were crying that day but he cried hard just seeing the people he cares about sad. However, once he finally understood that his parents can no longer return to their home, or to his life he began to feel the coldness and loneliness he never experienced before. It felt like he's become alone in this world with no one to hold onto. Although his grandparents and his Auntie were there to love him, he was jealous of everyone who have parents. Maybe he was jealous of Dan Ah too.

Wonpil doesn't have much recollection but to his Grandma's story, they promised that they'll only go on a business trip. That they'll be in Singapore for a business trip and will return after a few days however, the airplane they took the day they'll return, crashed. It was confirmed by the airline that there was no problem with the plane before it flew but Wonpil don't believe it or any of the families, where their loved ones died. They know the airline was only lying to protect their reputation. In the end, the airline blamed the dead pilot for what happened, the families were compensated with money and there was nothing they could do about it. It was the end of the case.

And this is why as he grows old, as he counts the years he is living in this world, he can only notice the hair of his grandparents turning gray each day. He can accept all the scolding and the nagging of his grandparents all his life if that means he can keep them forever. Isn't it nice to always have those people who cares about us? How nice would it be to have them forever in our lives?

Although Wonpil already figured that part out, that he can never keep them forever, that's what makes Wonpil feel lonelier each day. So, Wonpil doesn't only visit his parents when it's their anniversary, he visits from time to time when he feels unwell and lonely in the heart because sometimes a Littmus candy will never be enough. Besides, it was the only time he could express the feelings he could not tell anybody. The reason might be because they won't be able to respond or it must be because they are his parents. Yet Wonpil couldn't help but think about it from time to time, if his parents are still alive, will it be different? Will his life be different? Will he be like those other kids who hate or love their parents? Will he be the rebel or the caring one? No matter what it is, Wonpil wants to experience it. He just wants to hug his parents at least once in his life.

"Uncle Wompil"

From the trance, Wonpil was brought back to the present by the familiar little girl's voice. He looked around and found himself already walking in the corridor of his condo.

He can't remember when he drove and arrived at the building or how he took the elevator, and now he's in the corridor of his condominium. He doesn't know how he got here driving safely with his mind anywhere but in reality.

Wonpil smiles at the presence of Sungjin and Dan Ah. Dan Ah is wearing a ponytail today in her pink nightdress, looking cute and comforting even on the usual days. And Sungjin is wearing a light pink tee and black pajamas.

When Wonpil was awoken from his daydreams, he squats to match Dan Ah's height and once he did, Dan Ah ran in her little steps and quickly jumped into Wonpil's embrace, giggling in his presence. They almost fell down like the last time but Wonpil is getting better at holding down Dan Ah's weight now.

"I missed you." The little girl mumbles.

It felt strangely warm. Comforting. She smells like strawberry. It seems like it's just exactly what Wonpil needed right now after losing his ownself from the deeper thoughts he had earlier. His heart is still heavy, like he wants to cry but it has simmered down.

"Dan Ah-yah, I told you not to jump on Uncle Wonpil. And what did I tell you about hugging other people?" Sungjin points a finger at his little girl.

Dan Ah shifts her movement to look into his Dada's eyes without withdrawing from Wonpil's embrace. Her lips have become an upside-down U. Her gaze is making Wonpil's heart swell, she doesn't know how Sungjin could resist that. He can never be a parent like Sungjin.

"Ask them first if I could hug them." She finally withdrew her arms and brought her hands together, sulking.

"Good. Now ask Uncle Wonpil."

"Uncle Wonpil, can I get a hug?" She timidly asked yet convincing in her sad-looking face and sweet tone.

"Of course, come and hug uncle again." Wonpil opened his arms, hands doing an open and close gesture as he invites Dan Ah in his arms again.

She finally smiled and giggled when Wonpil carried her as he stood up from his position earlier.

"Do you want to come in?" Sungjin offered. "We're watching a movie."

Wonpil didn't notice earlier but there was an ice cream tub in a clear plastic bag on Sungjin's hand. They must've gone out for an ice cream together.

"Uhm.." Wonpil shyly hesitates. Actually, it would be nice to do that but they're just getting know each other, isn't it too fast?

"It's fine. We can watch and eat together next time. No pressure" Sungjin quickly dismissed, Dan Ah only blinks at them.

Sungjin looks like he's embarrassed now and Wonpil suddenly felt guilt for hesitating when his source of energy is here to cheer him up.

"Nope, I just want to change first. I'll follow you"

"Yey!" Dan Ah cheered when Wonpil finally agreed. "Uncle Wompil, today is pink day!" She demands before Sungjin took Dan Ah from Wonpil's arms.

"You don't really have to" Sungjin whispered before they entered their condo making sure Dan Ah doesn't catch him telling Wonpil.

Wonpil knocked on Sungjin's door. He's now wearing his casual sleepwear, a pink tee by Dan Ah's request, and a checkered pajama. Looking at each other, it's like they'll be having a pajama party.

Sungjin opened the door for him. He entered the house for the first time and saw the grayish-colored furniture and woody type of room hinted with a child’s prints everywhere, which is different from his futuristic choice of furniture. He found Dan Ah operating the television, typing away Barbie on the screen and picking Barbie and the Magic Pegasus among the choices. Now Wonpil can guess why it's pink day.

There's a stifling laugh on Sungjin's lips when he sees Wonpil in pink on his door. "I told you, you don't have to"

"Dan Ah wants it. I can fulfill her little wish." Wonpil shows off his pink tee.

“It looks good on you.” Sungjin complimented. Wonpil loves compliments but hearing it from Sungjin’s lips, it’s different. Is he bound to be doomed?

Sungjin showed him inside and led him to the living room where Dan Ah was seriously picking her show. "We only have ice cream right now but if there's anything you want, we can order it. Did you eat?"

"I don't want anything heavy. Is there anything Dan Ah wants?" Wonpil turned to the little girl who just paused the movie she prepared before facing Wonpil.

"Dada said it's unhealthy to eat late at night."

"Dan Ah-yah, tonight is a cheat day, is there anything you want?"

"Pizza!" Dan Ah didn't hesitate.

"How about you, Wonpil-ssi?"

"Hmm.. fries?"

"Okay, pizza and fries"

It didn't cross Wonpil's mind that he'll be enjoying a pajama party tonight. He thought he'll be sleeping on his cold bed on the day he was missing his parents. Luckily, Dan Ah was there to hug him. Thankfully, Sungjin invited him to watch a movie and eat with them and now instead of deeply thinking on his own, he's busy watching Barbie and the horses with wings they call pegasus.

Wonpil was too focused on watching the movie, he was startled when a warm skin touched his shoulder. It was Dan Ah, sleeping soundly with a teddy bear in her arms.

"Sorry about that." Sungjin whispered who was sitting on the opposite side of the sofa. "I'll take her to her room." He moved Dan Ah's head and adjusted her legs so he could carry her.

Wonpil followed them with his eyes until he realized Sungjin has to open a door, he quickly stood up and ran to the door to open it. Sungjin's eyes lit up at the quick action and he mouthed thank you to Wonpil before he laid the little girl to her bed.

Naturally, Wonpil's eyes roamed around Dan Ah's room, curiously looking at the organized books and toys inside. Wonpil expected Dan Ah to love pink due to today's situation but instead, her room is colored in different shades of blue, accented with colors that will fit the shade. There are glowing stars and a moon on her ceiling with hanging planets like it's a planetarium. There's a clean table filled with crayons, pastel colors, and anything related to arts. There's a violin case and keyboard inside. There are too many interesting items inside a child's room, Wonpil thinks he might want to sleep here sometimes and stare at the glowing stars at night with Dan Ah.

"I'll close the door now." Sungjin warns Wonpil after seeing him still looking around. Wonpil got embarrassed by his action and moved from Sungjin's way.

"Sorry about that." Wonpil apologizes after the door is closed.

"No, you're fine" Sungjin assures him. "I'll show you around when she's awake. Do you want a drink?"

"Sure."

Sungjin took out a cold canned beer from the fridge and Wonpil grabbed the leftover pizza and fries from the living room. They both sat down in the dining area face to face when Wonpil started a conversation.

"Your daughter's room is too pretty, I can't take my eyes off of them."

"She loves the night sky, so we had it designed that way."

"That's amazing. She must be really creative, I see she has drawing materials."

"She's been drawing for a long time, I tried to see if she wants it to be developed so I bought her drawing materials. If she likes it, I'll keep buying her the materials she wants but if she stops, then that's fine. She's still young so she can't always make her own decisions but later when she's all grown, I'll let her have her way."

"With that kind of mindset, I'm sure your daughter will grow up filled with love."

"It's not like that.." Sungjin looked shy from the compliment. "I just want her to be happy"

"She's surely happy. I know. I can feel her happiness every time I see her. And she always talks highly of you. Now I finally confirmed that her Dada is cool." Wonpil shows him a thumbs-up.

"Don't say that." Sungjin blushes in embarrassment so he drinks to hide them away.

"Well, you are cool." Wonpil mumbles after Sungjin refuses to acknowledge the compliment.

"Oh, how did you meet Dan Ah?"

"Dan Ah.. uhm.. she bumped on me at the ground floor and handed me a lollipop I dropped. It was the lollipop from my pocket, a sample for our new packaging that I forgot to leave in the office."

"So that's why the lollipop was familiar but I wasn't sure because of the packaging"

"I told her I owned it and told her I'll give her more if we see each other again. I didn't know she was running away from you all the time. I did ask her where her parents are but she won't tell me. She'd tell me everything but her parent's whereabouts. She did tell me one thing about you. Your name, Ddungddin." They both chuckled and Sungjin shakes his head. "Good thing, the securities on the ground floor know Dan Ah well so they're always looking out for her. I didn't have the time to wait for you until then, I was too busy moving in and wrapping up our project"

"Is the project done now?"

"Almost. I got free time now." Wonpil quietly cheers in a small dance.

Sungjin smiles fondly at the animated reaction. "Congratulations."

"Thank you." Wonpil happily says. "Please invite me more to your pajama party, I would really love to see Dan Ah again."

"But Dan Ah slept on us first."

"Then, I'd love to see Sungjin-ssi again." It came out strange than what Wonpil meant. His eyes widen from his own words. It sounded strange. Like he's flirting but he's not. And why is his heart suddenly beating fast? There's no way he's drunk, he only took a sip. Wonpil tried to fake a smile to hide the surprise away. He bet he's obvious but it's the only way to hide his embarrassment, he hopes Sungjin would brush it off.

"Yeah, that sounds fun. We're the only neighbors here. We should do more activities together." Sungjin says in agreement.

Wonpil's eyes almost widen again. Maybe it didn't really sound the way Wonpil thought it should. He was just overthinking. Yes, he is. But he loves that Sungjin finds his company good and does not only see Wonpil as his daughter's playmate. Maybe that's not a good idea to think about.

"Let's share each other's phone numbers or socials." Sungjin grabs his phone and types something. "Looking at your kitchen, I don't think you cook a lot. I'll properly cook for us next time." Sungjin reached his phone to Wonpil to put his phone number.

Immediately, Wonpil took out his phone and opened the screen using his fingerprint. He quickly went to contacts and gave his phone to Sungjin as he take Sungjin's phone from his hand.

"Here you go." Sungjin and Wonpil simultaneously says after putting each other's phone numbers and sharing socials.

Wonpil named Sungjin "neighbor". Wonpil wondered how Sungjin named him. Sungjin doesn't seem to be the kind to put a lot of exaggeration, he must've just put his name on it.

After the long conversation, it was already past midnight. There's still a lot of things to talk about but they need to rest now. They still have a long day tomorrow with their own jobs as it is still a weekday. Though Wonpil loves his job, he wants to curse it right now.

"See you when I see you." Sungjin greets goodbye once they're standing at Sungjin's door.

"Same to you. Good night."

"Hmm.. good night."

After the greeting, Wonpil walked to his door. He can still feel Sungjin looking at him even with his back facing the man, waiting for Wonpil to enter his condo. So for no reason, Wonpil turned to Sungjin. "Sungjin-ssi.. if you don't mind, may I know how old you are?"

"Me?" Sungjin blinked suprise at the sudden question. "I'm 35."

"Ah, I'm 29. Good night." Wonpil says before his door opened and waved goodbye to Sungjin one last time before disappearing to his room.

Wonpil leans on his door after it was closed. He touched his chest with his left hand and felt his heart beating fast. It's been a while since he felt this kind of thrill and that's not good. Sungjin is a good man but a man like him, with a kid. And it's not even about having a kid. But what if he doesn’t sway that way? What if he’s still in love with his ex? Or dead wife? Who knows but something is telling Wonpil that Sungjin is not someone to mess around.

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It could just be another morning to anyone but on any morning, this specific day is her favorite, it's even better than school days. Sunday. Church day.

Dan Ah slid off her bed to fix her bedsheet and navy-blue blanket exactly like before she went to bed. She knocks three times on her Dada's door as an etiquette she developed from her Dada's action, although she is aware it'll always be open for her. Upon noticing silence from inside, she tiptoes to reach the door knob and turned it herself, finding her Dada looking like Sleeping Beauty with his hands on his stomach over his blanket.

With great effort, Dan Ah climbed on her Dada's bed and fell through his Dada's big body to wake him up.

"Wake up Dada, wake up! It's Sunday! It's Sunday!" She repeated like an alarm clock until he groaned. As she got her Dada woken up, she stopped shaking her Dada and adoringly peeked at her Dada for a second before giving him a long kiss on his cheek for the Sleeping Beauty to wake up.

"Dada!" She giggles.

Sungjin smiled at the warmth of his little girl's kiss. "Good morning to you too" He mumbles, eyes still close. Reaching out for his phone to confirm if he missed his alarm or Dan Ah just woke up a little too early. The second guess was correct.

Dan Ah notices her Dada drifting off after putting his phone down so this time she pulls her Dada's right arm to make sure he doesn't go back to sleep.

Her Dada isn't usually like this but when work is in demand, he usually gets deep into his thoughts without noticing the hours slipping away. It was the same last night but how can he refuse his little girl's favorite day? Besides, he's been home for the whole week. The only time he has the opportunity to leave the house is when he needs to send and bring Dan Ah home from school or when he needs to go for groceries, and Sundays. Sundays that Dan Ah loves so much.

"Is Dada tired from work?" Dan Ah's tone is sympathetic. Her lips turning in an upsidedown U. She knows how hard her Dada is working all the time. While other parents work at an office, her Dada works at home to attend her needs. She sees him in the living room, at the dining table, in his office room with his laptop all the time. Dan Ah also wants to take care of her Dada sometimes but she's small and too young to even earn. So all she could do is make sure that she can do the little things. Like cleaning up after playing with her toys and her bed, and cheer her Dada whenever he needs it.

"A little." Sungjin replied.

"Can Dada stand up?"

"Of course, sweetie." Sungjin opens his tired eyes. "Help me up." Dan Ah then again, pulled her dada's arms to sit.

Her strength honestly doesn't pull Sungjin up but the existence of his little girl just gives Sungjin the strength to get up, especially on difficult days like this.

Before Dan Ah, Sungjin never wakes up on an early Sunday. Because Sungjin wasn't really religious. In fact, he didn't have a religion. He didn't believe in God until Dan Ah appeared before her. But Dan Ah loves God. Dan Ah believes in the existence of God, that He created the world for us to live in, and that he loves us equally which is why Sungjin came to her life when she was all alone. Because God gave her Sungjin, her good Dada.

Dan Ah used to pray for a good parent to come into her life. She prayed every night until Sungjin came to her reach. She said God fulfilled her lifelong wish despite of living in the world ten times shorter than Sungjin's age. It wasn't that long ago but Sungjin started to believe in God, that God maybe had a plan for him and that's why a sweet and good kid like Dan Ah chose and came to love him.

"I'll get up now. Go take a bath." Sungjin tells his little girl as he sits up. He gives her a quick kiss, her strawberry-scented hair marked on Sungjin's lips before she leaves to take a bath.

As Sungjin and Dan Ah steps out, they coincidentally finds Wonpil who is still in his pajama, hair that is usually straightened are curled, and the strong scent of fast food in his hand which he probably picked up from a delivery man.

"Oh, are you going somewhere?" Wonpil asked with delight upon seeing the father-daughter.

Dan Ah who can only hold her Dada's thumb greets Wonpil in gratification. As if she's bewitched of the man's beauty whenever she sees him. "Good morning, Uncle Wompil. We're going to church."

"Oh. Church." A speechless response came from Wonpil's mouth which immediately explains that he is not in any religion.

"Are you going to eat?" Sungjin asked the obvious to divert the awkward conversation.

"Yep." Wonpil gives him a small smile as he raises the plastic bag in his hand.

"Uncle Wompil, do you want to come with us?" Dan Ah invites Wonpil in trance. Her eyes sparkled at the gorgeous man in front of her.

This time Wonpil's eyes widen from the invitation. Sungjin was as surprised as he turned to look at his daughter with that stare on Wonpil again. With Wonpil's reaction, he obviously don't like the idea of churches or he probably has never gone to one before. But he understands. If it were the him before Dan Ah, he'd probably be as surprised.

"Dan Ah-yah, not everyone goes to church. You can't just—"

"No, it's okay. I can come with you. How long do you have?" Wonpil cuts him off in a hurry.

Sungjin did not expect that. "Really? Well.. uhmm.." Sungjin checked his wristwatch, the same time Dan Ah checked her smartwatch. Since Dan Ah woke up too early, they still have a lot of time in their hand. If Wonpil wants to eat and take a bath, that would be no problem. Besides, it's a Sunday. There's no traffic. "..an hour and a half." Dan Ah and Sungjin said at the same time.

"Cool. I'll take a quick bath. Come inside and wait for me." Wonpil offers as he quickly leads them to his condo.

"How about your food?" Sungjin asked as he and Dan Ah followed.

"It's fine I can eat it later."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah."

"A service takes 3-4 hours. I think you should eat before we go"

"Four hours?" Wonpil was once again surprised by how long they stay in the church.

Sungjin almost chuckled, he's probably wondering what people do in there. He definitely hasn't been to church.

"It's long right? Go and have your meal."

"Yes, Uncle Wompil, you need to eat. Dan Ah and Dada always eats before we leave for church." Dan Ah says in concern.

"I will." Wonpil replies to the both of them before disappearing in his room to take a bath.

Sungjin and Dan Ah took a sit in the living room for a few minutes before Dan Ah started roaming around carefully per Sungjin's warning. Sungjin looked around as well as he watched Dan Ah. The first time they came here, he only sat on the kitchen counter so he didn't really had the chance to explore Wonpil's home. Compared to the chaotic boxes that were left previously in the living room. Today, everything has been tidied. Picture frames are placed in the corner cabinet compared to their condo that doesn't have photos at all which made him realize, that he needs to take a photo with Dan Ah one day and place it in their living room.

From the close-knit bond photos, he could tell that Wonpil is family-oriented. Most photos he took were with the same people all throughout his life. He seems to have not changed in years, his smile and bubbly energy were all the same in the photos, he wonders if Dan Ah will be as bubbly as she is right now when she grows up too. As he continued to look, he could assume that the two elder couple who were always in Wonpil's photos since he was a kid were his parents but another older photo of Wonpil in his 4th birthday were with a younger couple, and by the look of it, they resemble Wonpil a lot more compare to the elder couple. Sungjin wants to stop assuming but he can't help conclude that Wonpil's parents must be gone. But around those photos, there is a woman in the same age as Wonpil who doesn't resemble their family at all was there in every photo of Wonpil since childhood. Could it be Wonpil's girlfriend?

"I'm done." Wonpil says as he comes out from his bedroom, looking pretty in the white long sleeve that he folded to his elbows, showing his small arms, and a fit inserted into his gray pants. “Is this okay?” He asks shyly.

“Absolutely. You—.”

"Uncle Wompil is pretty." Sungjin was cut off by the sound of claps from Dan Ah's smaller hand. Once again in trance as she admires Wonpil.

"There's still plenty of time, eat now." Sungjin tells Wonpil who is now also overwhelmed by Dan Ah's reaction.

"Hmm.. did you two eat?"

"Dada made Dan Ah's favorite nuggets today." Dan Ah answers as she shyly walked closely to Wonpil.

"Really?” Wonpil gasped. “Guess what I bought too." Wonpil takes the packaging from his fast food bag and excitedly shows off what's inside.

"NUGGETS!!" Dan Ah squeals. "Does Uncle Wompil love nuggets too?" Dan Ah’s eyes sparkled as she lifts her head to look into Wonpil's eyes like she’s falling in love with him and his nuggets.

Sungjin can only shake his head. His daughter is completely smitten by this good-looking and attractive man. He don't even remember Dan Ah looking at him like that when they first met. It feels like his daughter just got stolen from him.

"Of course. Nuggets is one of my favorite food in this world." Wonpil says as he stretches his arms to shape a circle as if to describe the world.

"Dan Ah loves nuggets in this world too." Dan Ah stretches her own hands like Wonpil excitedly, her eyes never taking off Wonpil's face.

"Does Dan Ah want to eat more nuggets?"

"Yes!" Dan Ah nods aggressively.

"You already ate Dan Ah, Uncle Wonpil won't be full if you take his food away." Sungjin refutes.

Dan Ah pouts.

"It's okay, I'm not that hungry. It's still early." Wonpil explains in behalf of Dan Ah as he picks her up to have her seated on the counter which is a long seat that Dan Ah can never reach on her own with her current height. Wonpil also grabbed a plate and put half of his nuggets on Dan Ah's plate without offering anything to Sungjin.

Sungjin sat next to them in a deep breath. Sungjin would really appreciate it if Wonpil would take his side sometimes but he's always coaxing the little girl. Dan Ah might become too spoiled if she's always with the nice and caring Wonpil who'd give her everything.

"You're spoiling her." Sungjin says when Dan Ah dashes to the elevator to hit the "B" button to get to their car which Sungjin will be driving. Dan Ah watched the elevator floor counter going up.

"Kids like Dan Ah are meant to be spoiled." Wonpil scrunches his nose as he looks at Dan Ah before he glances at Sungjin.

"Thank you, for being nice to my Dan Ah." Sungjin looks into Wonpil's eyes to express his appreciation. "Even today, for coming with us." He added.

Sungjin could see Wonpil blushing at the compliment. Sungjin thinks Wonpil could shy a lot just like when they had a pajama party at his place.

"It's Dan Ah, no need to thank me." Wonpil finally responded after a few seconds of silence. Sungjin fondly smiles at him.

They arrived only just in time because Wonpil and Dan Ah took their time eating nuggets. As expected, it wasn't traffic on a Sunday so they were able to speed up a little and arrive on time.

Upon their arrival, Dan Ah says her goodbye to both Wonpil and Sungjin to quickly find her seat at the front where other children who belonged to the choir Dan Ah is a part of. Sungjin was told that at the age of two, Dan Ah already loved to copy people when they sing so they started to put her in the choir which she loved so much. At some point, Sungjin bought Dan Ah a portable microphone at home so she can always turn it on and sing whenever she wants. Strangely, when Sungjin thought that he was always sensitive to noise, his daughter singing like she's on a parade doesn't bother him. In fact, it entertains him a lot especially the words she could not make out.

Wonpil looked embarrassed as he stepped at the unfamiliar environment where people began to pay attention to him as they walked in. Curiously asking for Wonpil's name and how he was brought here. They complimented his looks too which made Wonpil blush. "Sungjin-ssi.." A woman in her mint dress smiled widely at Sungjin as she reached out for a handshake. Sungjin quickly reached out and greeted her. Sungjin introduced Wonpil to the lady and informed her that he is a neighbor. She also responded about how God brought Sungjin to the church to serve and bring his brothers to know God. Sungjin could almost hear Wonpil scoffing but managed to suppress it. Sungjin denied it by informing her that Dan Ah invited Wonpil with them. After hearing that, she placed her hand to her chest, touched by hearing about Dan Ah.

"Dan Ah is truly a blessing." The lady says with her eyes almost teary from the mention of Dan Ah.

"I know." Sungjin replied with sincerity.

As Sungjin observes Wonpil who already looked exhausted just by all the greetings. Wonpil's reaction was exactly like the first time he encountered everyone in here. He could not handle the attention but he slowly understood that it is their tradition and he somehow just adapted from the lively environment. They both took a sit at the back since the seats in front are mostly occupied now so he can only watch Dan Ah from afar. Although, he's not exactly worried since everyone knows Dan Ah in here. They've taken care of her for a long time. Longer than Sungjin.

"Are you okay? You can tell me comfortably." Sungjin whispers to Wonpil's ears.

Wonpil hesitates a bit, holding back yet it seems like he is trying to find the words to say. Looking adorable, with his dark orbs staring at him. "Are they real?"

Sungjin almost laughed at loud. By the amount of time he was thinking, that's the only thing he could ask. He must be really in shock. "I understand. I was like you when I started here. It's like a different world, right?"

Wonpil nods in relief, grateful that Sungjin understands his thoughts.

"They're always like this. Very social and curious about new people. It's difficult at first but please bear with it." Sungjin pat Wonpil's knee to comfort him from all the shock.

"I am fine." Wonpil smiled with ease and that also eased Sungjin.

Once it started, the kids and a few adults began to sing for the service to start. They follow along the lively song with a clap with Wonpil looking lost. Once they got to sit, Wonpil looked relief again as he tried to pay attention to the pastor at the platform with a huge screen behind him, showing a bible verse.

"Let's all open our bibles and read Mark 12:31."

Wonpil subtly glances as the bible was mentioned. Sungjin also don't bring a physical bible but an application on his phone which he is willing to share to Wonpil if he wants to read too.

"And the second is like, namely this, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. There is none other commandment greater than these."

Wonpil seems to be very interested at the verse. Sungjin thought Wonpil was forced to join them due to Dan Ah's request but looking at Wonpil right now, he must be really curious what people do at churches, especially with how he acts like a student, studying what the pastor was trying to say.

But Wonpil's eyes widen at the verse on the big screen. He's never heard of any verses before but he sure understood what that meant, maybe not how the church will interpret it. He glances to Sungjin who's now focused on the preacher. Luckily, Sungjin is focused because he could feel his heart beating fast as it did during the pajama party and he doesn't want Sungjin to know.

God, what is this? Are you giving me your blessing? Is this a sign? Are you warning me? Are you playing with me?

For the first time in Wonpil's life, he is talking to God. He's never had his inner thoughts asked for any miracles from God, not when he lost his parents, not when he felt cold at night. His heart began to stir up. He could hear his fluttering heart when he glances at Sungjin but he is also mad at himself for realizing a feeling he shouldn't have.

Ah, it's a warning. The verse is a warning. The universe is telling him to stop.

There's no doubt now that Sungjin won't sway that way. Sungjin has a kid, which clearly means he had a wife and now, they both go to church. Nothing else can make it more obvious.

Wonpil is here mainly because he can't refuse Dan Ah. Because he loves to be around Dan Ah but these days, he is happy and upset around the father. Dan Ah makes Wonpil happy but Sungjin stirs Wonpil's heart in a way it shouldn't. So, for the first time, Wonpil prayed not to be tempted by the presence of his sweet and caring neighbor because he knows Sungjin will never look at him that way. Wonpil still wants to see Dan Ah. Wonpil still wants to live in his current condominium. And Wonpil still wants to be his neighbor's friend.

After the service ended, there’s still people who would approach Wonpil and Sungjin, wondering who is the handsome young man Sungjin is with today. Dan Ah also said goodbye to the kids. Dan Ah looked sad as she waved goodbye to them but she looked ecstatic again after they got back in the car.

"Uncle Wompil, did you enjoy it? Do you want to come again-?"

"Dan Ah-yah, let's not force Uncle Wonpil, okay?" Sungjin cuts her off.

Wonpil doesn't react and only smiled to himself. He's lucky Sungjin likes to defend Wonpil in every little thing Dan Ah wants to do, it's helpful at times like this.

"Are you okay? You've been quiet since we left. It's not your thing, right?" Sungjin asked as he carefully puts the tray of fast food on their table. Dan Ah is in the indoor playground of the store while waiting for the food so it was easy for Sungjin and Wonpil to spot the little girl.

Sungjin ordered a chicken and a big burger. Wonpil also ordered spaghetti, a big burger, and nuggets while Dan Ah got 3 orders of nuggets.

"No. It was okay." Wonpil's tongue was caught by a lie which immediately made Wonpil guilty. "Well.. honestly it was a culture shock but overall, it was an experience." Wonpil answers as he helps take the food from the tray to put them on the table.

"I know. It was like that for me too. It felt like they were lying in my face." Sungjin softly chuckles as he reminisced. "You don't always have to agree with Dan Ah. She will understand if you say no. She won't be hurt as long as I explain. Don't worry about it." Sungjin must've noticed that Wonpil was bothered by something since they left the church. "Although were in a fast food chain again today. I can't really say no to you two. It's like raising two kids." Sungjin kept going and Wonpil appreciates that Sungjin is trying to put him at ease.

"Sungjin-ssi, do you believe in destiny?" Wonpil asked with his eyes looking from afar, trying to find Dan Ah from the number of kids at the indoor playground.

"Destiny?"

"Hmm.." Wonpil turns his head to Sungjin. "Do you think there's a reason why I met you and Dan Ah?"

"Why'd you ask that?"

"Nothing, the bible verse earlier says love your neighbor, as you love yourself. You and Dan Ah are a really nice neighbor to me." Wonpil thinks positively of the verse.

Sungjin rested his palm on his cheek with his gaze at Wonpil that is making him feel hot. "I do. I believe in destiny." He answers.

"Really?" Wonpil was amused by the positive response while he was distracted by Sungjin's eyes.

"Hmm.. at first it didn't really matter to me. I didn't care about it but after meeting Dan Ah, everything changed in me. I started to believe in destiny."

Wonpil dreamily copies Sungjin's action. It's not an answer he hoped for but that was the sweetest thing a father could say about his child. Dan Ah is really lucky to have Sungjin as her dad. If his parents were only alive, he wanted to love his parents just as much Sungjin loves his daughter. Wonpil just know that his parents will also love his as much.

"I met Dan Ah at an orphanage. The church we went to earlier was the church of the orphanage Dan Ah was from."

The statement caught Wonpil in surprise. Snapping out from his dream and properly sitting up.

"Dan Ah, she's not my legitimate child. Is it surprising?"

"..."

"I was invited as a volunteer for some orphanage. One of them was the orphanage Dan Ah was from. We had activities for them prepared for the whole three days and within those three days, I met Dan Ah. She was only three years old by that time. She was smaller and was still starting to walk but she talks very well like she does right now so it was easy to converse with her. Everyone loved her. She was cheerful and she loved to sing. She gives everyone her attention but she seemed to love following me. I noticed that she's always happy to see me, her teeth were still growing so when she smiled, it was adorable." Sungjin turns to Dan Ah who's still playing with the other kids on the playground. "I think she's a cat with a puppy personality. Usually, people wanted to have their own kid or to adopt one but that had never crossed my mind until Dan Ah. I think Dan Ah chose me to be her father."

"..."

"The little kids at the choir were also either adopted already or were still in the orphanage, they were Dan Ah's friends before I even knew her. That’s why I go to church with her." Sungjin added. "I'll call Dan Ah so we can eat now."

"You don't have to stand up. I'll get her" Wonpil says as he stands first before Sungjin could. "And thank you, for trusting me. For telling me about Dan Ah."

"I wanted to tell you, I can see that you care about her a lot. I hope that was fine."

Wonpil only answers with an appreciative smile and walked in Dan Ah's direction to call her.

Now everything began to make sense, although Sungjin and Dan Ah's actions could be similar, they physically have no similarities at all. He just thought Dan Ah would look more like her mother. Wonpil was still baffled but Wonpil still wants to praise Sungjin. It's not easy to raise a child. You have to give all your time and care for them. Usually, couples would make those decisions but Sungjin didn't need that, he chose to have one because it’s Dan Ah. Wonpil could testify to how wonderful Dan Ah as a kid from the moment they met. And now he can't help but be proud of Sungjin's choices. He must be the coolest person Wonpil has ever met in his entire life.

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Sungjin enters a five-story building and introduces himself to the female in charge of the reception area. The staff welcomed him once they confirmed his name on the list of visitors today, escorting him to the office he was heading. He knocked on the glass door three times before he heard a voice from a male "Come in" to welcome him.

The man he was expecting to meet already had his eyes on the door.

"Oh, Sungjin-ssi?"

Sungjin smiles at the stunned expression of the male at his office table. Sungjin walked in to greet him. "Wonpil-ssi, it's nice to see you."

"How are you here in my office? You're the Park Sungjin who requested an appointment? I thought it's just someone with the same name." Sungjin could hear the delight from his tone albeit the surprise from his face. He reached out for Sungjin's hand to shake which Sungjin accepted happily.

"How about Dan Ah? Ah, she must be at school." Wonpil says after peeking in his wristwatch.

"Your office is huge." Sungjin turns to look at the classy office. The bustling road is in the view but the clear sky of the afternoon was enough to compensate. The classy and futuristic theme of the room is just so Wonpil. It gives the same mood as his condo.

"We just transferred here a few months ago so everything is still new."

Sungjin nods his head in understanding, eyes still roaming around.

"Do you want anything? Coffee? Tea? Chocolate?" Wonpil teases knowing Sungjin won't have any of the chocolates when they've had enough sweets and fast food rendezvous the past weeks but that made Sungjin appreciate Wonpil more because that means Wonpil could remember the details about him.

"Water is fine." Sungjin shakes his head.

Wonpil moved from his office table to sit on the single-seater sofa so he can be face-to-face with Sungjin.

"You know the Kang Group, right?"

"Ah, yeah." There seems to be reluctance in Wonpil's tone however, seeing how Wonpil is listening intently Sungjin thought he was mistaken and so he continued.

"Apparently, they've started a fashion brand overseas and they're planning to launch it here. They are looking for a partnership with a confectionary company to suit their planned limited edition designs so while we were in the conversation, I recommended your brand since it's popular these days. After I mentioned you, they got very interested. One of the Korean client knows your brand too so I would love it if you go ahead and try to take a look at their brand and give them a call. It might become a great opportunity to expand your business." Sungjin shows Wonpil the proposal he wrote on a black leather folder that he researched for the past few days, studying both the Kang Group and Wonpil's Confectionary Business. He discovered that it was once a start-up and he made his sweets popularity from the scratch to what it is now. Wonpil is still very young but he's already this good with business so Sungjin can already guess that Wonpil has many dreams for his business and Sungjin wants to help despite of this approach out of his job description.

Once Sungjin's done explaining, he placed the business card of the ones in-charge in the main office of Kang's Group in South Korea. Wonpil reads the proposal carefully, eyes glimmering with interest. Sungjin leisurely leans on his back as he enjoys the view of the sky against Wonpil's front, waiting for Wonpil's opinion. He is not expecting any answers today but he would really love to see Wonpil’s thoughts about it.

"This is a huge, Sungjin-ssi." Wonpil takes the business card in his hand after reading the plan. There he saw the phone number of the director in-charge of the project. "I didn't know you're involved in this kind of things."

Sungjin pleasantly looks at Wonpil, satisfied of Wonpil's reaction. "Well.. I am not. I was working with them for a different reason. But I was at the meeting when they were talking about it. Since I recommended it they asked me a favor to talk to you"

"You didn't have to come here, we could've talked in our condo."

"I know but I thought this kind of formality would be better for a business discussion like this. What do you say?"

"If my discussion with them will be successful, thanks to you, the popularity of my candies might expand."

Sungjin's lips spread at the positive response.

"How long do you need to stay in your office?"

"Hmm.." Wonpil checks his phone for the time. "Maybe half an hour or so if they don't need me."

"Cool. I'll drive us home together."

"Together?"

"Hmm.. together. Do you have anywhere else to go?" Sungjin was almost taken aback. He should really learn to ask first before offering something, he knows Wonpil is too kind to refuse. He kinda understands Dan Ah now that his behavior is becoming like her.

"No, no.. How about Dan Ah?"

Oh, Sungjin didn't expect it was about his little girl. He should get used to it, Wonpil and Dan Ah are two peas and a pod, always concerned of each other. "Don't worry about her. She also has a nanny when it comes to times like this. It's already late so she should be home by now"

"How about her dinner?" Wonpil's stomach suddenly growls at the talks of dinner. He touched his stomach, cheeks cutely turning red from the embarrassment.

Sungjin stifles a laugh at Wonpil's countless concern when he is hungry himself. Wonpil will surely become a good parent when he decides to have one in the future. "Her nanny makes her food when I'm out. You're the one who's hungry."

"Then.. before we go home, do you want to eat with me?" Wonpil offers. "We might get stuck by traffic, I haven't had my lunch."

Shock was painted on Sungjin's face upon the honest statement. "It's almost evening."

"Yeah, I know. I always forget to eat until I'm hungry."

"That can happen but you should not always skip your meal. I'll buy you a meal tonight."

"No." Wonpil refuses. "You bought me meal the other time. I'll buy it this time besides I offered it."

"Fine, fine. I like free things too." Sungjin cheekily smiles as they walk out of the office together still talking and laughing about anything that comes to mind.

Silence was filled as they stepped out of Wonpil's office room. The whole office floor that was filled with employees when Sungjin entered is now empty. He said they practice a non-toxic environment regarding working hours unless it's launching day of a new product and their presence are needed, besides, they get overtime pay during those days. Wonpil said he's always the last one to leave to make sure there's no problem with work, he's been doing it from the beginning and he's habitually doing it despite of his company's growth that no longer requires his attention when he already hired people to check things for him.

"Ah, wait!" Wonpil stood on his heel with panic in his eyes. They are already standing in front of the elevator.

"What's wrong?"

"I'll be right back. I left something" Wonpil rushes back inside the empty office. Sungjin could see Wonpil timidly running as he turn a left instead of going to his own office.

Wonpil returned gasping for air with a huge red-looking teddy bear that is definitely not an ordinary bear on his arms covered on a clear plastic wrap tied on a red ribbon. Wonpil suspiciously giggles as he look Sungjin in the eye. Sungjin couldn't guess what is in Wonpil's mind until Wonpil turned the wrapped teddy bear to Sungjin's view.

"Oh, this.." It looks like Dan Ah's Gomi.

"I noticed Dan Ah loves to carry her teddy bear all the time so I made one gummy bear in the same size. What do you think?" Wonpil introduces excitedly. "Will Dan Ah like it?"

There was silence for a second. Sungjin was speechless, he doesn't know how to express his appreciation to Wonpil. He knows Wonpil adores Dan Ah but to this extent, Sungjin have no words. All he could do is smile. "I'm sure she'll love it." He says under his breath. Forgetting about the part that it's unhealthy to eat a Gomi size gummy bear. He just feel lucky to know Wonpil, Sungjin is sure whoever Wonpil will love will all be lucky.

"Really? I made a lot of effort making it. I'm making it public, if only Dan Ah likes it." Wonpil's eyes sparkled like a little kid as he excitedly exchange look from the gummy bear and Sungjin. "Oh wait, this looks like you. Now I know why Dan Ah likes it. Aaaaahhhhh.." Wonpil concludes as he enters the elevator.

Whenever Wonpil pressed the elevator button, Sungjin didn't see it. As they stand inside, Wonpil is still busy comparing the gummy bear and Sungjin. He nods as if he's having conversation to himself. Sungjin just shakes his head.

The restaurant Wonpil wanted to visit usually is filled with people but today isn't too crowded probably because it's a weekday. They sit in the corner per Sungjin's preference and a waiter approaches them to write down their orders.

The place gives off a luxurious beauty in its dimmed light concept with a single flower and a candlelight next to it in the middle of each table. It's not crowded but it is still filled with people which is mostly if not in groups, are on a date tonight. Sungjin tilts his head as he familiarizes the restaurant. It's been a while since he last visited a fine dining since he doesn’t really have a lot of meetings outside but most of it are online meetings. Besides, the only place his friends knows are pubs and bars to drink.

"Do you like it?" Wonpil asked once Sungjin took his first bite.

"It's good"

Wonpil looked please at Sungjin's delightful response. "I go here with my best friend all the time and they serve the best and HEALTHIEST food." Wonpil emphasizes.

Sungjin snickers at the exaggeration. He wasn't really serious about his health when he was young but after hitting thirty, his body doesn't function as it used to so he's been taking his exercise and diet seriously, he's been drinking less and even lesser when he had Dan Ah. And since he doesn't work outside, he made a mini gym in one of the empty rooms in his condo when he doesn't feel like going to the workout station of their residence.

"You don't have to emphasize it all the time. You will also be like this when you hit thirty" Sungjin teases.

Wonpil playfully clenches his both hands which are holding a fork and a knife. "I can't imagine myself being conscious of food. I like them all." He quivers in exaggeration.

"You are also stubborn, you need to be punished."

Wonpil scrunches his nose as he laughs. Sungjin finds it adorable how freely Wonpil is with him. This might be the first time Sungjin and Wonpil are hanging out outside their condo and it just feels like meeting an old friend. From the beginning Wonpil has been really nice to them, he's treated them comfortably and maybe it's the reason Dan Ah likes Wonpil's company too. Sungjin's just not fond of Dan Ah liking Wonpil more than him sometimes, if that’s a valid reason.

They returned home via Sungjin's car, it was already 10pm because of the traffic and because they didn't notice the time pass when they were talking to each other. Sungjin doesn't tell Wonpil but he's kind of worried that his little girl might have not slept waiting for him to come home. Although the nanny is there to take care of her, she won't go to bed until he arrives. And just like what Sungjin expected, he sees Dan Ah leaning her head on the living room's small center table as she sits on the carpet. She did not even leave the television on but she's just asleep when Sungjin squats to check on her. Her nanny came forward to explain the reason she's still in the living room although it's the same situation over and over again. Sungjin appreciates the effort of her nanny when Dan Ah is stubborn. After staring a little bit at his adorable daughter, he carefully fixes her position to carry her to bed but a single touch immediately woke Dan Ah up.

"Dada?" She mumbles as she rubs her eyes.

"How many times have Dada said that you don't have to wait when I'm out this long?"

"But Dan Ah wants to see Dada before she sleeps." She pouts.

"Aigoo.." Sungjin kisses Dan Ah's temple with a sympathetic smile on his face. "Uncle Wonpil is here, he's got a surprise for you. Do you wanna—"

"UNCLE WOMPIL!" Sungjin was cut off as she quickly stood up to find Wonpil. Immediately awaken by Wonpil's name. She finds Wonpil near the door and there's a smile on her face that couldn't be wiped off as her little feet runs towards Wonpil's long legs, hugging them tightly.

While Dan Ah is hanging in Wonpil’s leg, Sungjin introduces Dan Ah’s nanny, whom he calls Mrs. Lee.

Wonpil then bows to Mrs. Lee before squatting to meet Dan Ah's height to hug her back before he whispered something suspicious to Dan Ah. Dan Ah detaches herself from the hug to look at Wonpil and finally she sees the gummy bear that Wonpil has been excited to give to Dan Ah.

Dan Ah dramatically gasps at the gummy bear that is almost her size, Sungjin swears he don't know how Dan Ah will be able to eat this huge gummy bear. Dan Ah likes gummy bears and any kind of sweets and Sungjin would let her eat them in a limited amount but after knowing Wonpil, he can no longer limit Dan Ah. He even feels guilty saying no to Wonpil.

"It looks like Gomi and Dada!!" She says in a high pitch tone, eyes glowing, totally excited at the bear in front of her. She then turned to Sungjin and to Mrs. Lee to show it off before she hugged it.

"That's gummy bear, Dan Ah-yah" Wonpil says.

"Gummy bear?" Dan Ah blinks at Wonpil. "Big big delicious gummy bear."

This is the first time in Sungjin's life to ever see someone slicing a gummy bear with a knife. Sungjin grabbed dessert plates and forks for everyone waiting for the huge gummy bear. Dan Ah picked the left ear of the gummy bear so automatically Sungjin gets the right ear, nanny wasn't picky so she gets a part of its head. Wonpil puts the slices on each plate but in the end, no one used the forks and just grabbed it with their hands. Dan Ah uses both of her hands to hold the gummy bear's ear and bites on them. She definitely looked delighted on her first bite, as if fireworks are flashing in her eyes, while Sungjin and Mrs. Lee nods at the taste, the sweetness was just right.

Wonpil looked satisfied as if he was observing how people in all ages enjoys confectionary but, in the end, his eyes were all in Dan Ah. They were enjoying the sweet treat to their hearts content even after both the Mrs. Lee and Sungjin are done. Later, Sungjin had to stop them or else they might finish the whole Dan Ah-size gummy bear.

"Dada, Dada.. nanny has kids too. I want to share my candies to them, can I do that?" Dan Ah tilts her head as if she's trying to be a bit more adorable to Sungjin so he'd let her give her treats to other people. Although Sungjin barely says no to Dan Ah when it comes to sharing her food, Dan Ah is always courteous of Sungjin whenever she makes her decisions.

"Of course."

Dan Ah picked up a paper bag hidden in the kitchen's lower cabinet to look for the basket Wonpil gave Dan Ah filled with sweet treats which Sungjin grabbed from the top cabinet to help his little girl, she seriously picked the sweets she wants to give and handed it to her nanny. Mrs. Lee gives her a long hug to show her appreciation before she finally decided to leave.

"Ah, Wonpil-ssi.. can I ask you a favor?" Sungjin asked.

Wonpil nods right away without knowing what it could be.

"Please stay with Dan Ah, I'll just send Mrs. Lee to the bus stop."

"Okay."

Mrs. Lee thanked Sungjin at the usual gesture as they walk at the corridors.

“Are you sure you don’t want me to take you home?”

“I’ll be fine.”

Sungjin usually takes Mrs. Lee home but there are times like this when she insists taking the bus alone.

“I see that you made a friend. That’s really good to see.”

“What do you mean? I have friends. I even volunteer and make friends everywhere.”

“That’s just socializing. You never take anyone at home.”

For the past two years, since Sungjin got Dan Ah, he’s been relying to Mrs. Lee whenever he has errands he needs to go and no one at home could take care of her. Sungjin met her through one of his friends from the orphanage volunteering team who used to take care of his now grown child. Mrs. Lee is also aware that Dan Ah is his adopted child. Mrs. Lee is actually the only adult Sungjin talks to which now he considers his friend too who knows a lot about him.

“Or is he someone special? Dan Ah seems to like him a lot.” Mrs. Lee kept going.

“What are you imagining? He’s my new neighbor.”

“And? Why can’t I imagine? You’ve been single since forever, my daughter’s ten years younger than you and she’s already married. I beg you to please date someone.”

“No one’s really interesting.”

“That’s because you’re always at home but look.. what if fate chose to knock on your door because you’re too lazy to go out. You should’ve met my daughter before she got married.”

“You’re always saying that.”

“You’re a really good man, Sungjin-ah. I hope you’d also meet a good person”

“I’ll be fine. I have Dan Ah.”

“I know, she’s lovely. But who knows, right? You two look really close.” Mrs. Lee teases.

“Stop it. Your bus is here.”

“I hope you two are dating when I see you next time.”

“I’m busy. Take care.”

As Wonpil and Dan Ah waits for Sungjin to return, Wonpil quietly thinks of the best thing to do now with a kid at this hour when he realized, he should actually not think about anything and just let Dan Ah sleep.

"I think it's time to go to sleep." Wonpil states.

As if it was on cue, Dan Ah began to yawn and rub her eyes. "But first, you need to brush your teeth so Dada will keep letting you eat sweets."

Dan Ah looked too lazy when brushing was mentioned until the word "sweets" was added and she marched quickly to her bedroom and get inside her bathroom to do her duty.

Wonpil follows Dan Ah and let her do what she has to. Wonpil did nothing but watch and be amuse of Dan Ah's independency, once she's done brushing her teeth she picks up a colorful book full of drawings on its cover and her teddy bear that was sitting on a chair next to Dan Ah's bed. Dan Ah passes the book to Wonpil.

"Please read Dan Ah a story." Dan Ah requests as she settles on her bed and move a little on the side to let Wonpil sit beside her. She then put a blanket to Wonpil’s legs. The blanket doesn't even reach Wonpil's knee.

"Can Uncle Wompil not go home and sleep here tonight?" Dan Ah looks up at the taller who just followed the little girl's order.

"Uncle lives next door."

Dan Ah fans his hand as a gesture for Wonpil to lean down for her so she could reach him and when he did, Dan Ah places her hand to Wonpil's ear and whisper. "Uncle Wompil is my third favorite in this world. Don't tell Gomi."

"Okay, uncle will promise. Can you tell uncle who's the other two?"

"God and Dada!"

Oh, God. Of course, although Wonpil wasn't expecting it, it wasn't as surprising after learning about Dan Ah.

"Who's number 1?"

"Hmmm..." Dan Ah thinks with difficulty before responding. "God!"

"Not Dada? Why?"

"I love Dada in this world but God is number one because Dada won't exist without God. He gifted me Dada when I was all alone."

"Is that so?"

"Do you have Dada too Uncle Wompil?"

"Uhmm.. I have a mom and a dad but they both left the world too early." Wonpil answered with honesty but to not make Dan Ah sad, he quickly added. "But my grandpa and grandma are gifted to me when I was all alone."

"Woah, you have two." Dan Ah shows a peace sign, she stares at it with amusement, like she's trying to comprehend the huge amount of numbers.

Wonpil thought Dan Ah would wonder why he doesn't have a mom and dad but Dan Ah's purity only cares about the number of people who loves Wonpil and Wonpil wished adults would be like Dan Ah as well.

"You have two as well." Wonpil copies Dan Ah’s peace sign. Her eyes sparkled at Wonpil's fingers.

"I do?" She innocently wonders.

"Hmm.. your Dada Sungjin and Uncle Wonpil." Wonpil moves each finger to point out who are the two.

Dan Ah was stunned for a second before she speaks. "Uncle Wompil loves Dan Ah too?"

"Yes! Of course. Uncle Wonpil loves Dan Ah in this world too." If there's another thing Wonpil finds amusing with Dan Ah tonight is that, she doesn't know how lovable she is.

Dan Ah stands up on her bed to meet Wonpil's height. Wonpil curiously looks at Dan Ah's movement before her little arms wrapped around Wonpil's neck.

"I love you too Uncle Wompil." She softly says before giving Wonpil a kiss on the cheek. This is the first time Dan Ah has kissed Wonpil that Wonpil feels like his heart is swelling. Mist covers his eyes at the overwhelming love a little girl could share to a stranger like him. He hugs her tightly as his love grows for the Park family.

Later, Dan Ah fell asleep in Wonpil's arms forgetting about the story book so Wonpil had to carefully put the little girl back on her bed. Wonpil closes the door quietly and grabbed his phone to call the valet at the building of his company to bring his car at his condominium building. Wonpil don't usually do this but the situation already happened since Sungjin drove him home.

Once the call was done, he found Sungjin in the kitchen, cleaning up.

"Oh, you're home."

"I've been home for quite some time. You were having a conversation with Dan Ah, I didn't wanna bother you two."

"You were? I didn’t hear you come in.”

"You and Dan Ah are really close."

"Jealous?" Wonpil teases as he sits on the kitchen counter, facing Sungjin.

"Uhmm.. a little." Sungjin shrugs half-heartedly.

"Don't worry, she said I'm her third favorite, you're second. I don't think anyone can replace your spot." Seeing that Sungjin doesn't ask who’s number one, Wonpil can already guess that he knows.

"Do you want a drink? Or how about returning to your room so you can rest?"

Wonpil glances to his watch, he was surprised to see that its already 1am. He didn't know his conversation with Dan Ah would be that long.

“It’s a weekend. I’m fine.”

Sungjin nods and after a few seconds of silence he spoke.

"I'm sorry I heard a bit of your conversation. I didn't mean to eavesdrop."

Wonpil didn't really mind whatever Sungjin heard, he doesn’t have a secret that he’s scared to be caught but he's still curious... "What did you hear?"

"Just.. about your family"

"Everyone close to me knows about my family. Do you want to talk about yours?"

"At this hour?"

"If you don’t want, you don’t have to —"

"I'm fine. I'm just concerned about you. You just got back from work and I had to leave Dan Ah with you while I was away which was too much to ask for a neighbor."

Wonpil’s heart dropped at the word neighbor. It feels like his rank in Sungjin’s life is at the bottom. He thought they’d be closer, considering they hangout most of the time these days.

“Aren’t we friends?” Wonpil tries to bargain, in hopes his rank would at least increase. He’s not asking to be Sungjin’s favorite. He just wants to be somewhere higher than a plain neighbor.

“I’m sorry if that came out strangely, I’m just used to handling everything by myself, it’s weird of me to rely on someone without giving anything in exchange. It’s like I’m a nuisance to them.. to you.”

“You know I’d never feel that way. Sometimes you just have to accept that there are people who truly cares about you without asking for anything. I want to be that kind of person.. a friend to you.”

“Thank you for saying that. It’s really comforting to hear.. and.. you know, I like it when you’re around. And for sure Dan Ah does too. She never sleeps until I get home but just now, she's already asleep even without me. Just.. you're always welcome here.. anytime."

It would be a lie if Wonpil won't say his heart skipped a bit at that. This time, he is not only a neighbor or a friend but he is also someone who is always welcome to Sungjin's home.

If Wonpil has a list of his favorite people like Dan Ah, Sungjin would be in fourth place now. And just like Gomi, Ji Eun should not know that she dropped two places because Dan Ah is the third placer now. "Thank you. You know you are too." Wonpil answers.

Sungjin clears his throat. "So.. coffee or tea?"

"Tea please"

Chapter Text

Existing can only go two ways, Survival or Living. When existing becomes unwanted, it becomes Survival. A person stays alive for the sake of being alive. But when existing is what a person desires, that’s Living. There is a pursuit in staying alive.

And Wonpil learned that Sungjin went through both of them.

Along the deep night, their conversation deepens as well and Wonpil's feelings dived into the unknown ocean level as he spends more time getting to know Sungjin.

At dawn, he lies on his bed, peeling a wrap of Littmus Candy, allowing it to fill his taste buds as he thinks of Sungjin's statement.

"I didn't realize it sooner but when I met Dan Ah, I was no longer surviving. I was living."

It kept ringing in Wonpil's ears.

He's never met anyone like Sungjin. The more he gets to know Park Sungjin and Park Dan Ah, the more he ponders how he is living.

Other people may answer that he lived his life well. That he became an award-winning new entrepreneur and that he succeeded in his business at a young age, however, that’s not everything to Wonpil. Even after achieving his goal, his heart never stopped longing for something more. But being workaholic and expanding his business is the only way he knows to keep his focus away from his loneliness.

And yet, Sungjin found his life. A reason to live. Wonpil is jealous, he wants to feel the same. Wonpil tells himself before he dozed off to sleep.

"You are seriously taking your time off?" Ji Eun asked in disbelief. She’s once again skipping work.

"How many times do I have to repeat myself?" Wonpil rolled his eyes.

"Why?"

"Are you deaf?" Wonpil has already told her the reason. It's not like Ji Eun is her boss that he needs to ask for her permission. Wonpil already told Yuna that he will be away for a few days and Wonpil doesn't know if he was tripping but he surely noticed her happy tone upon hearing the information.

"I just can't believe it. Volunteering? You don’t take your time off, not during important celebrations, with your exes or when you are sick. You always refused these activities since we were in school. You like this Park Sungjin guy, don't you?"

"I don't volunteer but I donate." Wonpil blinks innocently with pride.

As a kid, Wonpil was never interested in physical activities, not sports, and especially not in going to difficult rural areas. He's too lazy for it but he never fails to give when the volunteers are looking for donations. He once even baked cookies and wrapped them on plastic with a green ribbon to be presentable. But this time it's different, he has more resources so he offered to Sungjin that he will be sponsoring the prizes that will be given to the kids.

"You are not answering my question. I am joining this volunteering whatever. I'm going to see the father!" Ji Eun insists, her index finger pointed above, suspicious of his new activity.

It's because Sungjin invited him, he could not resist. Sungjin was cooly drinking tea as they watch a movie in his living room, even his side profile is good-looking, his small lips was irresistible, all about Sungjin was attractive he got lost and answered "yes" to whatever his neighbor was asking.

Wonpil ended up texting Sungjin about Ji Eun and it sounds like Sungjin was happy to hear it. Wonpil began his plan for his sponsorship. He spoke to those in-charge in his factory to provide him the number of boxes he'll need. Ji Eun also spoke to his parents about the volunteering situation and requested her parents to help her out in sponsoring kids’ chewable vitamins which was produced by the assistance of Wonpil, who's the expert of sweet treats to help the kids eat their vitamins with smile on their faces (Wonpil dramatically pitched that).

Sungjin gaped upon seeing the extravagant sponsorship. They didn’t think it’s extravagant. Or is it? As far as Wonpil and Ji Eun knows, Sungjin is also sponsoring the event with school supplies, while other volunteers will be in charge of the rest.

Sungjin didn't invite Wonpil to sponsor.

In fact, Wonpil only accidentally learned about the volunteering event. A friend of volunteers contacted him at the same time they casually were having a slumber party in Wonpil’s room. Wonpil suddenly became curious and so he just naturally invited him to the three-day event.

A white truck appeared with a sticker of Wonpil's brand following their car, Ji Eun must've noticed Sungjin's surprise so she immediately informed Sungjin that the vitamins were also in the same truck. Sungjin didn't bring anything with him except their clothes and necessities because he wasn't the one who prepared the school supplies but those who were in charge of it and he only provided them the budget for it.

Sungjin learned today that Ji Eun and his naughty little girl already met before. Dan Ah keeps calling Ji Eun "auntie Shi Eun" because her tongue keeps getting caught when she says Ji Eun's name. Ji Eun was still excited to see Dan Ah even if she was unable to say her name correctly. What's important for her is that Dan Ah remembers her so she carried the little girl in her arms and indulged herself with Dan Ah's adorable face until they got into the car.

This is the first time Ji Eun meets Sungjin. She doesn’t really have any expectations after all the boys and girls Wonpil dated, except for the first guy he dated in university. That guy was exceptionally handsome. And now Wonpil is interested with this Sungjin guy who completely looks opposite of that university ex. That guy has a sharp visual while Sungjin has that soft and comforting look, someone who seems dependable.

But apart from the visuals, Ji Eun could see that Sungjin is fond of Wonpil just by the way he stares and takes care of Wonpil, he was all smiles when they are talking. They are comfortable even in silence. No wonder Wonpil would give his time off for this guy and his kid.

She doesn’t really want to give too much hope to her best friend when this guy has a kid. He could be divorced from his wife. Straight. And not interested in dating.

“Sungjin-ssi, do you know how to tie a woman’s hair?” Ji Eun took her own attention away.

“Hair? Yeah. I did Dan Ah’s hair today.” Sungjin replies as he drives to their location which both Wonpil and Ji Eun have no idea where is.

Dan Ah looks the prettiest more than anyone in this car. More than Sungjin’s looks that Ji Eun praised earlier. Dan Ah is dazzling, just like every other time she met her at the reception area of her best friend’s condo. She’s always wearing clothes in fashion and her hair always have changing styles, it could be a pony tail today, pig tails tomorrow, braid and more but today, her upper is denim, she’s on skirts and wearing a double hair bun as she sits on the back together with Ji Eun while Wonpil is at the passenger’s seat next to Sungjin. Ji Eun curiously checked back and forth from the rearview mirror to look at Sungjin’s face and Dan Ah, wondering who she looked more like.

Ji Eun concluded that it has to be her mom.

“Really? How did you learn that?” Ji Eun asked with interest.

“I have a sister. She used to make fun of me by teaching me how to braid her hair. I slowly learned how to do it and tried other hairstyles, it was fun.”

“Dada also tied my hair when we first met.” Dan Ah proudly speaks.

“Really?” Ji Eun smiles at the little girl despite the confusion. She probably meant the time she started to recognize her dad. Or her parents didn’t get married and he took responsibility a little late.

“That’s cute.” Wonpil glances at the little girl at the back with affection. “That makes me curious how you two met.”

Ji Eun tilts her head, once again she feels lost in the conversation. As if Sungjin, Wonpil, and Dan Ah have a world of their own. She is becoming curious but it feels like it's not her place to ask. Maybe she can try later.

As they continue the ride, Dan Ah becomes the entertainer of everyone on the plain and boring road, her energy that never seizes made the three adults smile for the rest of the trip.

Once they arrived at the orphanage, they were welcomed by nuns.

It's a Catholic orphanage and there are a lot of kids gathered to greet them at the entrance. Slowly, the other volunteers arrived and they all started preparing for the kids. They took out the food, donations, prizes for the games and the rest that’s required for the whole day program.

Wonpil and Ji Eun don't know exactly what to do, if they receive no instruction they might just stand in the middle of commotion. Even Dan Ah is helping out and knows what to do. Good thing, Sungjin accommodated them and had them follow Dan Ah along with the new volunteers. Although Dan Ah was preparing the toys for the kids, Wonpil and Ji Eun was assigned to take care of the food for later.

Dan Ah soon began to communicate and play with the other kids, Sungjin warned her to be careful but let her enjoy running around with them. Sungjin may look carefree but Wonpil isn't as calm so he had to keep watching Dan Ah from afar despite doing just fine. They know she won't get lost because her smartwatch has a tracking app connected to Sungjin's phone but Wonpil is still concerned. It would be really interesting if Sungjin and Wonpil gets together, Wonpil is becoming so parent-like even at this moment.

Thinking about the first time they met Dan Ah, Wonpil and her was carrying a box of confectionaries when she saw a little girl constantly staring at it. Wonpil accidentally tripped and the candies and chocolates fell over. The little feet came running and helped them put the candies and chocolates back in the box as the other passerby continued to ignore them. By her kindness, Wonpil handed her a swirl rainbow lollipop which became almost daily as Wonpil handed her different flavors.. blueberry, strawberry, chocolate, and more. That small interaction became a full conversation and closeness with the little girl.

Since Wonpil met Dan Ah, he became more inspired taking his confectionaries in a more artistic and unique level rather than treating it as a business that he greedily needs to expand. It’s like maintaining a once black-and-white TV, comfortable with how it is until realizing that switching to colored one is better.

The program began with a little introduction and games. The kids draw, sing and dance. They could see the happiness in the kid's eyes, the fulfillment after people would come to visit them. Some kids loved the interaction with adults, some are embarrassed and afraid to converse. Ji Eun could see how Wonpil's heart broke at the sight of the short conversation with the kids. There are too many kids born in this world with no family.

“Do you think these kids felt like they exist because they have to survive? Or because they enjoy the life that they have?” Wonpil suddenly asked as they took a break, watching other volunteers entertain the kids.

Ji Eun instinctively tightly closed her mouth. The reason Wonpil doesn’t like volunteering is because he doesn’t like to pity anyone or pity himself. In talks of kids, he'd be reminded of his parents. He sees himself like these kids. An orphaned kid who still luckily have grandparents to foster and love him like their own child.

“Even though I only had a little time with my parents, I’m thankful I met them. I will always remember that I was once loved. But these kids.. I wonder what goes on their mind. I hope they're loved too.”

Ji Eun, who is standing next to Wonpil, slips her arms to Wonpil's waist and embraces him to his side as she leans her cheek to his shoulder. Wonpil leans to her head. "Not everyone can afford to have kids." Ji Eun replies.

"They don't deserve these precious and cute kids.”

“You are right, just look how pretty they are.”

"I know, they're pretty." A Wonpil pouted, yet his eyes are all for Dan Ah who looks enjoying the program.

"Wonpil-ah, to me, you are my brother. I love you"

Wonpil softly chuckles at the sudden confession. “I'm not sad." Wonpil brightly turns to her. "You know what, Dan Ah taught me to not count what was lost but to count what we currently have. I still have my grandparents and you.” Wonpil raises his three fingers. “And Dan Ah..” He adds another one. “..she told me she loves me too. I have four people who love me. I’m so lucky.”

Wonpil proudly grins.

The program ended in the afternoon and they began to clean up before it turned dark. Dan Ah doesn't join them as she started feeling irritated due to sleepiness, tired after playing the whole day so she is in the car sleeping with the air condition on.

"How was today's program?" Sungjin asked as he, Wonpil and Ji Eun walked to the car after wrapping up.

Compared this morning, Sungjin walks a distance from the two, a little too anxious of Kim Ji Eun, he knew she is not an ordinary friend from the moment he saw her photos in Wonpil's living room. They were also hugging sweetly during their break. They are too close to be just friends.

"Amazing!" Ji Eun smiles tiredly yet satisfied.

"Ditto." Wonpil replies with a yawn.

They left at dawn so it's not a surprise everyone is already tired and sleepy. Sungjin is just glad that the program went well and Wonpil and Ji Eun enjoyed volunteering.

They all sat on the same seat as they had earlier and buckled up to head to the accommodation close to the next orphanage they would be visiting tomorrow. It is going to be a two-and-a-half ride so as time passed by, Ji Eun has also fallen asleep with Dan Ah on her lap. Meanwhile, Wonpil is quietly staring blankly at the window.

"You can sleep." Sungjin tells Wonpil in the silence.

"I'm fine, I'm not as tired as you all are."

"We do this every year, it’s not really too much."

"Still, I find it cool. I've never done this before. I didn't expect the bliss of sharing happiness with kids. I mean, I like kids.. just not the type to visit orphanage."

"What urged you to join? I know I invited you.. but still you just said you're not the type to visit these kind of places."

"I don’t have any unique answers. It's still you.. because you invited me."

"You can also say no, I won't take it to heart."

"Well, I don't know." Wonpil shrugs. "I can't seem to say no to you. It's not like I regretted ever saying yes to your invitations. I like it. I like what you do. I like the life you are living. I also want to live and feel how you feel."

"Feel how I feel?" Sungjin glances with curiosity.

"Hmm.. you said survival and living meant existence but they're not the same. I don't want to survive, I want to live too."

Sungjin was bewildered at Wonpil's thoughts, he didn't expect his neighbor to think this deeply after their conversation that night. He simply told him about how he felt when he had trouble trusting himself in adopting Dan Ah. If he has the ability to take care of a child and take responsibility for the rest of his life. But he concluded that he wanted to include Dan Ah in his life, that having her next to him makes him feel like he has a purpose in life. "Do you even know what that means?"

Wonpil hums.

"You and Dan Ah.. you two makes my dull life lively. It makes me feel alive. I'm alive" Wonpil kept his eyes to Sungjin's gaze. “Thank you for making me realize that.”

Sungjin must stop the car at this point, those doe and beautiful eyes are cornering him. He wants to keep looking at them. But he could hear a loud pounding on his ear, the pang that feels good yet it hurts. Wonpil should stop staring at him with sincerity and warmth, he keeps wanting it for himself. He wants to have Wonpil for himself.

And that bothered Sungjin for the rest of the ride when Wonpil doesn’t sleep until they arrived at the accommodation.

Once they arrived, Wonpil carefully woke his best friend up as Sungjin carried Dan Ah who was still sleeping soundly.

The accommodation is not luxurious like hotel. It's a bit simpler and traditional. Since it's spring and the weather is still a bit cold, it's important that the rooms are warm.

"For our sleeping arrangement.." Sungjin started while the three of them are gathered and Dan Ah on Sungjin's arms sleeping. "You and Ji Eun-ssi, do you want to sleep together?”

Wonpil almost choked from how it sounded. Good thing Dan Ah is asleep right now. He can't stare at an innocent kid while he is not in the right state of mind.

"We are not like that." Ji Eun awkwardly laughs as she hits Wonpil's arms. It's not like it's the first time someone thought of them that way, even his grandparents and Ji Eun's parents would insist for them to date yet, he's always unbothered but right now, it's awkward when Sungjin is the guy Wonpil is interested in. He doesn't want Sungjin to think that way too.

"Oh, I'm sorry about that.. I mean they have two beds." Sungjin clarifies. Ji Eun and Wonpil glanced at each other in embarrassment, learning that Sungjin wasn't thinking that way. "You can share a room with another female volunteer if that’s okay with you, here’s the key." Sungjin hands over a key to Ji Eun passed by the receptionist.

“How about you Wonpil-ssi, will you be okay to share the same room with me and Dan Ah? Or do you want to share it with other male volunteers? You know, socializing. And two beds.” Sungjin clarifies quickly this time in case it gets misunderstood again.

Wonpil face-palmed in his thoughts.

"No. Dan Ah wants to sleep with Uncle Wompil." Dan Ah who was asleep in Sungjin’s arm mumbles upon hearing the situation.

“As Dan Ah said.” Wonpil shortly replies.

They dispersed and directly went to their rooms. Exhausted with want to quickly rest. They looked for their necessities in silence to freshen up after a long day. Since Dan Ah is totally knocked out, Sungjin had no choice but to wipe Dan Ah's body and face with a wet towel and change Dan Ah's clothes by himself so she'd at least be comfortable after running around all day. Wonpil quietly enjoyed watching the single father work his way on his daughter, it's a bit more interesting to actually see Sungjin putting a lot of effort to not wake his little girl up.

It's only 8PM after they took care of everything needed in their room. The volunteers decided to gather in the main hall to get to know each other. There are new faces in the volunteer group however, Wonpil and Ji Eun are the only ones without experience so they were thrown with plenty of ideas for what they should usually do around the kids. Wonpil understands almost immediately as he loves hanging around kids but Ji Eun doesn't feel it that much, she gets it and she likes looking at kids but taking care of them who is not Dan Ah is out of her mind.

Ji Eun gets to socialize a lot more with other volunteers while Wonpil remained to Sungjin’s side.

"I thought you'd want to socialize. You seem to be extroverted when we are alone." Sungjin says after noticing Wonpil picking his food and staring at his phone.

"I'm not. I don't have a lot of friends but I keep those who are close to me."

"I'm like that too. Well, there's a hot spring around here and a tulip garden, do you wanna check any of them tonight with me?"

The invitation made Wonpil drop his chopsticks. He doesn't want to look excited but could not help it when Sungjin is casually inviting him like this. Sungjin should know the effect he has with Wonpil. "Will the tulip garden be pretty now that it’s spring?”

“I read somewhere that Tulips bloom around April. We can check it together.”

“That would be nice.” He grins.

"Do we invite Ji Eun-ssi?" Sungjin glances to Ji Eun's direction with doubt. The smile from Wonpil's face dropped at the thought of his best friend joining them. But they found her laughing her ass out from another volunteer's joke. Her food almost not touched as she's busy conversing with them.

"I don't think she'll join us but I'll let her know.." Wonpil says as he grabs his phone to text Ji Eun, praying she'd decline.

Wonpil and Sungjin sees her phone ring as it is placed on the table but Ji Eun doesn't seem to notice it until one of the volunteers pointed it out. She looks at the notification and turns to Wonpil’s direction, shaking her head. "Ji Eun prefers hanging out with a lot of people than seeing the nature." Wonpil explains.

A soft chuckle was let out in Sungjin's lips. "Do you like the nature?" He asked.

"I do.. a lot." Wonpil's cheeks heated upon seeing the smile from Sungjin's lips.

"That's good to know. I'll check on Dan Ah first then we'll go see the tulips"

"Let me go with you."

"Yeah, of course."

After visiting the still sleeping little girl, they soon walked to the Tulip Garden. He tells Wonpil that Dan Ah is a heavy sleeper while he is the opposite.

“I’m just like everyone, I sleep when I’m sleepy and get up when I have to. But I’m a night owl.” Wonpil enthusiastically shares. “I’m more energetic at night. Sometimes I also get more ideas at midnight so when I go to work the next day, I look like I have been overworked although I’m the boss.” He giggle.

“Wonpil-ssi..” Wonpil stares at Sungjin’s eyes once his name is called in a really calm and serious tone. “I really like it when you laugh like this.”

The sudden confession made Wonpil’s heart skip a beat. His senses are suddenly losing control as he waits for whatever Sungjin has to say next.

“After watching a movie in your house, it felt like you've been more quiet than usual. Are you okay?”

“Ah.” Wonpil breaks eye contact as he got distracted at the signage to the Tulip Garden. “We’re here.”

Sungjin doesn't press for any answers, instead, they walked around the area where the tulips are full bloom. The weather is a little colder at night but bearable especially when summer is nearing. They walked at one of the pinwheels where there's no crowd.

The stars are brighter and clearer compared to the city, Wonpil really loves the nature and he should’ve brought himself to more places like this but all he did was work even during his rest days and holidays. Wonpil is delighted to come with Sungjin.

"Dan Ah has to see this." Wonpil cheerfully turns to Sungjin before looking up to the dazzling stars. Dan Ah loves the sky, her room is full of stars, she will surely be thrilled once she sees this.

"I know.. that is why I picked this location."

"You chose this?"

"Hmm.. I wanted to take Dan Ah here but I don't have the chance, now we're here but she's asleep."

"We still have a few more days."

"Right.”

"I'll show you something."

Sungjin pulls Wonpil carefully by the wrist as he guides him to the path. They don't usually touch so when they did it feels like Wonpil was electrified, his heart thumped loudly in his chest although he knows nothing in this nature is for him.

"Here.. look." Sungjin shows him a telescope for stargazing. Wonpil gaped at the object and quickly uses it.

"Dan Ah would be amazed once she sees this." Wonpil thumped like a bunny from the thrills of seeing the beauty of the universe. His toothy smiles are out all night after seeing the tulips and the stars. He can't help but think of Dan Ah's reaction once she gets here. She would be extremely happy.

"Come and look." Wonpil urges Sungjin to look at the stars from the telescope. Sungjin has been calm since they got here, he is smiling but calm like a buddha. Dan Ah should've been here instead of him.

"It is really pretty." Sungjin muses once he gets to use the telescope. Once he lifts his head, he smiles brightly to Wonpil as if he just saw a treasure in the sky. His eyes sparkled like stars but more than the stars, Wonpil just found himself a new favorite and that’s Sungjin’s eyes that just became Wonpil's wonder in the world.

Wonpil attempts to snap from his thoughts. "Let's go there." He pointed at the center pinwheel, which is the center of the Tulip Garden.

"Sure. Let me take your pictures." Sungjin suggested. Wonpil almost forgot about that but he delightfully nods and poses the best he can under the beautiful view.

Wonpil also took Sungjin's picture after a little bit of forcing and it was all goofy because Sungjin is apparently camera shy and he doesn't know what to do in front of it. Despite the awkward poses, Wonpil found him even more adorable for trying.

"Wonpil-ssi.." Sungjin approaches Wonpil with a little reluctance in his tone.

That voice just made Wonpil feel bad for not answering earlier. Sungjin must be hesitant now because he ignored one of Sungjin's questions. He doesn't want them to be distant. He wants to be closer to him, in fact. And if it's possible, he wants to be next to him. "Sungjin-ssi.. about earlier.. I was just thinking about the difference between survival and living. That's it. And I already found the answer, thanks to you."

"Okay." Sungjin nods.

"What is it that you want to say again?" Wonpil asked before Sungjin could forget.

"Do you want to take a picture.. together?" Sungjin asks under his breath.

"Together?" Wonpil asked with wonder. Sungjin just said that he doesn’t usually take his own pictures so he doesn’t know how to pose but now Sungjin is suggesting to take a picture together.

"I'd love to." Wonpil replies.

Sungjin seemed to be relieved at the response as if Wonpil can deny him, before he moved closer to Wonpil and let their shoulders touch. He then raised his arms to take the selfie. Wonpil is already dizzy at the contact but he wants to make this photo pretty, for memories.

Just in case time would pass them by and they don't meet again. It will be a reminder that there is a person named Sungjin, with a daughter named, Dan Ah, who came to his life and taught him how to live.

Chapter Text

The sun already rose once Wonpil woke up. The first thing he sees are Sungjin and Dan Ah from the bed next to his. Dan Ah is obediently sitting with her back facing her dad who's doing her hair. He braids her hair like a flower crown which Wonpil doesn't know what's it called before realizing they have already washed up and changed.

As he observes the two, Dan Ah's eyes fixated on him now that she notice Wonpil is awake. Her shoulder lifts, face lighten-up but is unable to move from her position.

Wonpil takes his sit as he watches Sungjin and Dan Ah from his bed.

“Dada, Uncle Wompil.” She cutely stretches her arms towards Wonpil, hands doing an open and close gesture. Lips pouting as if she’s being restrained to move.

Sungjin clicks his tongue. “Fine.” As he let go of Dan Ah’s almost finished braided hair, returning to its original state. Dan Ah immediately jumps on Wonpil's bed and kisses his cheek.

"Good morning, Uncle Wompil!" Dan Ah cheerfully greets. Wonpil hugs her not too tight so her white tee clothes don't get wrinkled.

“Good morning, Wonpil-ssi.”

"Why didn't you wake me up?" Wonpil pouts while Dan Ah is still in his arms. Caressing her smooth and plump cheeks.

But before Sungjin could speak, Dan Ah began to complain.

"I told Dada to wake Uncle Wompil up but Dada won't let me." She glares at her own dad.

"Oh, Dada did?" Wonpil playfully glares at Sungjin, copying Dan Ah’s reaction.

"It's still early." Sungjin plays along, pretending to be upset from getting accused but once Dan Ah laughs at her Dad's reaction, he switched to his usual demeanor and turned to Wonpil. "It's still 6am, the event will be around 10am. You can still sleep in until 8am if you want to."

"Why have you already changed?"

"Dan Ah wants breakfast. You don’t usually like breakfast, do you want to eat with us now?"

Wonpil nods not because of the breakfast, he just wants to go with them. Is he being clingy? He shakes his thoughts and looked for the towel and clothes he prepared last night so he doesn't have to rush in the morning. It was a good decision.

Sungjin started over Dan Ah's braids. Sungjin makes it look easy, he looks very natural as if he's done it a million times. This is the first time he's seeing Sungjin tie Dan Ah's hair. No wonder Dan Ah looks good all the time, her Dad is good at everything, even at making her hair.

“What’s this called?” Wonpil asked as he gets immersed watching Sungjin move his fingers in Dan Ah's hair.

“Dan Ah-yah, what’s this called?” Sungjin repeats Wonpil’s question.

“Double crown braid.” Dan Ah carefully says so he doesn’t mumble.

“This looks difficult.” Wonpil speaks as he inspects the complicated procedure yet pretty look of Dan Ah’s hair that perfectly fits her long hair.

“You’ll get a hang of it once you get used to it.”

“That’s really cool. You are really cool, Sungjin-ssi.”

“Enough with the compliments.”

Dan Ah carefully touches her braid, looking proud once she hears the compliment.

After Sungjin and Wonpil's little rendezvous last night, he had no idea what happened to his best friend. So before they went to breakfast, he knocked and called her phone to wake her up. She always wakes up the latest between the two of them and she doesn't want Sungjin to be left behind because of him and his best friend so he better make sure there'd be no problem.

They figured that Ji Eun actually had hangover last night. He ended up scolding her for drinking when they are volunteering for kids, before Sungjin managed to calm him down. In the end, Sungjin, Wonpil and Dan Ah went to breakfast together.

With the time left before going to the next destination, Sungjin took Dan Ah to the Tulip Garden. Although what Sungjin wanted to show Dan Ah was the night sky, Dan Ah seems to be enjoying the field of flowers around her and this time Ji Eun joined them too and enjoyed the view with the little girl. They later took photos before leaving.

Wonpil ended up staring at the photos he took with Sungjin last night as they drove off to the next location.

The routine was the same as yesterday. But today, it's not an orphanage affiliated to any religions. And Dan Ah, the social butterfly, flies around playing with the friends she made. They drew and colored together. Ji Eun and Wonpil helped in giving the donations just like yesterday and were also introduced to the kids. The people in charge of the orphanage sent their appreciation to the volunteers and soon they left in the afternoon.

They once again sit in the same position in the car. For some reason, everyone has more energy today compared to yesterday probably because they didn't had to wake up too early today. Ji Eun and Dan Ah are enjoying the view at the backseat while Wonpil is playing DJ by picking the songs to play in the car.

"Are you sad to leave your friends?" Ji Eun coos Dan Ah.

Wonpil and Sungjin glanced at the backseat from the rearview mirror.

Dan Ah shakes her head. "My friends will be taken care of their new parents one day, I'm not sad."

Ji Eun’s eyes softened from Dan Ah's response, she caressed Dan Ah's messy hair after playing all day. "Oh, our Dan Ah is right. They will have parents by their side one day."

"Dan Ah will also pray that they'll have a good Dada like mine." Dan Ah looks up to Ji Eun.

"I didn't know our Dan Ah is this nice."

"Dada also saw Dan Ah and took Dan Ah in, they will be happy like Dan Ah." She proudly replies.

This time Ji Eun blinked a few times, confused by the child's statement. Ji Eun stares at him to get an answer but Wonpil turned to Sungjin instead and he stepped in by looking at her in the rearview mirror. "She's my adopted daughter. I thought Wonpil-ssi would tell you."

“Sorry, I thought it wasn’t my position to say it.”

“I understand. You are fine.”

Ji Eun tried not to show her surprise but failed, she's still trying to take in the information that put her to silence.

“Ji Eun-ssi, you are Wonpil-ssi’s friend, that makes us friends too, you can always ask.”

Luckily, the location of the next accommodation was only twenty minutes away so it wasn't too awkward, later Wonpil was pulled to Ji Eun’s room.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Ji Eun says once the door is locked.

"It's not my place." Wonpil sits on the soft mattress.

"Yeah, right. That made sense. But still!! I must've looked stupid earlier."

"I’m sorry. I just— I don’t know how tell you. I don’t want Sungjin to think that he can’t trust me in keeping his privacy or anything.”

“It’s interesting.” Ji Eun sits next to Wonpil as she stares to the distance. “I thought he knocked off some woman and took all the responsibilities or.. or.. he's married, got divorce or his wife died and is the only one now taking care of their daughter. I was imagining all stuffs and because you haven’t told me anything." Ji Eun pushes Wonpil lightly with a laugh.

Wonpil stifles a laugh. He wasn't any different but Ji Eun always takes her imagination to the next level and that’s why she almost became a writer. "He's never married."

“Okay? So what now? Is he not planning to get married that’s why he adopted a child?”

“I haven’t asked him that.”

“Oh my god!” Ji Eun gasped, her mouth covered with her palm. “There’s a chance! Is he interested in you?!” She asked with so much thrill.

“What are you talking about?”

"You know a lot of things about him."

"We're neighbors, of course we know a lot of things about each other."

"You live in a condominium, that's not how it works."

"Yes, it does. I gave him baskets full of sweets and supplements as a new neighbor."

"Okay, fine. But you're still in love with your neighbor." Ji Eun sticks her tongue out just to piss him off.

But Wonpil is not having it and hisses. "Let's not talk about that." Wonpil groans as he throw his back on the bed and rose once he changed his mind.

"No, I want to talk about it. Last night we went to see the tulips and he looked gorgeous. Am I going mad?"

"Nah, you're just in love."

"I hate that you don't fall in love. You don't understand how I feel." Wonpil pushes his back on the bed once again in despair.

"I understand you, I just don't do love." Ji Eun says as she follows Wonpil with her elbows supporting her head leaning on her palm.

"I envy you. I just like to see Dan Ah but her father is too attractive, do you have any suggestions of what to do?"

"Hmm.. stay away from him until your feelings subsides?"

"Do you think I can do that?"

"Obviously, you can't."

"I hate you."

"I hate you too." They both paused and stared at each other until they broke out into laugh.

In silence, Ji Eun spoke again. "Well.. you know.. Dan Ah is an interesting kid. I couldn't stop thinking about what she said earlier. Now that I know that Dan Ah was once an orphan, I feel even sadder for the kids at the orphanage. Should I also start going to the temple more often and start praying?" Ji Eun is a Buddhist.

"Dan Ah is a very special kid. She’s always saying things that you can’t get off your head."

"Not because she's Sungjin-ssi's daughter?" Ji Eun teases.

"I like her first before Sungjin-ssi."

"Liar! Okay, I'm just kidding. It looks like she's growing up happily. She's also bright and smart, I'm sure she will make Sungjin proud when she's all grown."

The word "proud" reminded Wonpil of how amazing Dan Ah is. Wonpil began to brag about the talents Dan Ah have, the instruments she learned and her drawings, the books she reads and her interests. The two best friends didn't know it before but talking about a child that they're both fond of has never been this fun before.

"Wonpil-ssi, what did she say?" Sungjin asked once Wonpil entered their room.

Sungjin is sitting on his bed folding some clothes while Dan Ah is focused playing on her Dad's phone.

"Ji Eun-i?" Wonpil sat next to Sungjin, in between of the folded clothes and moved his head closer to him. "She thought you knocked off some woman, got divorced or had a deceased wife." He whispered so Dan Ah doesn't hear it.

Sungjin shakes his head as if he's seen it coming. "If I were her that's what would probably come to mind." He chuckles.

"That was me.” Wonpil raises a hand as he admits. “I told her you were never married."

"I guess that's enough for her to understand."

"She’s proud of you."

"I thought she would know since you two are close".

"It's not my business. Besides, Dan Ah.. whether by blood or not, she will always be your daughter. I don't think it really matters."

"Thank you for always being kind to us, Wonpil-ssi."

"I should say that to you.."

On the third night, all four of them went to a hot spring. There was not a lot of people because it was an exclusive area rented by the volunteers which was also taken care of Sungjin. The water level was low, enough for them to soak their bodies once seated but for Dan Ah's height it was still tall yet enough for her to walk around. Dan Ah enjoyed the water as if she's just swimming on a normal pool, besides she can swim after all the lessons Dan Ah took. So, Sungjin wasn't worried.

The adults talked while Dan Ah clings to Wonpil. Sungjin just let his little girl hug Wonpil but informs Wonpil to pass Dan Ah to him too once he’s tired. But with Wonpil and Dan Ah’s energy, he don’t think Wonpil will ever give Dan Ah to him, after a few conversations Wonpil was already distracted and is playing with Dan Ah.

Ji Eun is talkative so they had good conversation but with Wonpil Dan Ah screaming, he fell into a bit of distraction, following the two through his peripheral where both play chase.

Wonpil squeals as Dan Ah chases him. Although Wonpil's legs are taller compared to Dan Ah's with small hands flailing under the water, he is still struggling to run. Sungjin's voice echoed once he sees his little girl tripping, leading to failure of chasing Wonpil. It wasn't a fair play that it looked comedic in Sungjin's eyes. The two was unaware of Sungjin watching but Sungjin's contagious laugh had the other two laughing. Ji Eun was completely blank of the situation that Sungjin had to fill her in of what Wonpil and Dan Ah was doing. Sungjin explaining it made Wonpil laugh again.

Sungjin then carried the sleepy Dan Ah later after getting tired of playing in the water. Dan Ah mumbles Wonpil’s name as she slowly drifts off.

"Dada, can I sleep in Uncle Wompil's bed tonight?" Dan Ah was awoken once she was put to bed.

“But Uncle Wonpil must be tired.” Her eyes become teary as she nods in understanding.

"No, come here." Wonpil says, tapping his bed before stretching his arms in Dan Ah's direction, hands doing an open and close action just like Dan Ah.

The little girl cheered as she jumped on Wonpil's arms, nuzzling on Wonpil's neck. Sungjin just shakes his head. A little concern of Dan Ah’s affection to Wonpil as he look into the future where Wonpil might no longer be there.

Once the lights are off, the moonlight peeks in their window. Wonpil and Dan Ah shared a blanket under each other's embrace. Although Dan Ah is already asleep, she mumbles. "Uncle Wompil shouldsleepinourhousetoo. Toys.. Uncle.. give.."

"Sungjin-ssi, are you asleep?" Wonpil asked in the few hours of silence. He must've noticed how he's been turning and tossing around.

"I'm here"

"Hmm.."

"Why?"

"Nothing.. I just want to know"

“Are you unable to sleep because of Dan Ah?” Sungjin sits up to check. The bed is not that small but it could be cramped with another person on it, even if it’s a child and Wonpil has a smaller body compared to his own built. “I’ll take her.”

"You don’t have to. It’s comfortable.. I love it when Dan Ah is clingy so let her sleep here.”

“You love kids a lot.”

“Hmm.. but I like Dan Ah more.”

Wonpil says with affection. Sungjin softly smiles in the dark.

“What are you going to do.. after this?"

"I need to sort out the business with the Kang Group as you recommended."

"Is it going well?"

"You should know better than I do."

“I know. Still.. I wanted to ask you.”

“It is going well, thanks to you.”

"Good to know." Sungjin says before sitting on the warm floor, leaning at his bed frame.

"Sungjin-ssi.. what are you doing?" Wonpil lifts his head to check in the dark.

"Nothing, I can't sleep."

“I thought you’d be sleepy.” Sungjin says after seeing Wonpil carefully standing from his bed to not wake Dan Ah up. He then walked and took a sit next to him. Legs folded to his chest with enough distance next to each other while Sungjin have his own stretched to the floor.

"I am.. but I can't sleep."

Sungjin nods despite the possibility of Wonpil not seeing it in the dark.

"Sungjin-ssi, can you tell me how'd you know that you wanted to be part of Dan Ah's life?"

"Well.. the project we had this year was different from the first time I joined the volunteers. It was three days but it was only in one orphanage and we slept there so we get to see the kids every day. Dan Ah was from that orphanage.."

Before Sungjin met Dan Ah, his life was a complete mess. He could consider it as the darkest time of his life.

Seven years ago, apart from the physical pain that he had to endure spending five months in the hospital, one of his friends from high school got into coma, three of them were severely injured like him and they lost one after a car accident.

The anxiety that once was lost began kicking in after the unfortunate accident. He couldn't help but blame himself for what happened. It was his suggestion to go on a trip after his first successful investment, if only they had not gone to that trip, his friends would've been alive right now. And guilt kept eating him up that his heart raced at an irregular rate until he was short of breath and his hands trembling with tension he could feel in his muscles until he was numb.

Although his high school friends and their families he's known for several years never blamed him after the accident, he could not help but drown to the darkness no matter how he tried to live a normal life.

That’s where he realized, that maybe happiness is not on his side. That, once the universe finds out he is learning how to live, it'll find another way for him to be miserable again.

The four friends who managed to survive went to the funeral service. He diligently comes to visit his friend that was in coma almost everyday. Despite his friends and their families refusing to accept the money for the hospital bill and the funeral Sungjin handed to them, Sungjin needed to do it, at least for his peace of mind.

"I will accept your help. But Sungjin-ah, it was just an unfortunate accident that could not be avoided. I'm thankful that the rest of you are safe." Although he knows that she was only comforting him, his son is now in coma because of him.

Two years after the accident, there was still no progress. And their friendship slowly drifted apart as they slowly moved to different places. All he can do is blame himself. But he didn’t want to leave, he wanted to be there until he wakes up. Until his mother’s friend and sister talked to him, that it was okay for him to move on with his life. Even if they asked him to keep living, when Sungjin moved to Seoul, he still felt like he only existed to survive, waiting for the day until his friend wakes up from coma. And that is how Sungjin lived, he worked hard so he could still send them money to pay the bills at the hospital.

But as time went by, he learned to find hobbies as he met more people which also got him associated with an orphanage volunteering team, which is the team he is with right now. They once described the joy of meeting kids was healing and pleasure of charity. Sungjin didn't have any reason not to give, money was the least of his problems so he joined in without thinking twice, as curiosity filled him of what it felt like visiting orphanage.

But all of those were left unsaid. Sungjin doesn't have to tell Wonpil to gain his sympathy. And he doesn't want to give Wonpil a reason to comfort him. He doesn’t need any of it from anyone, especially not from Wonpil. He only wants Wonpil to see how he is now.

"Among the kids, Dan Ah liked me the most." Sungjin describes.

Wonpil crinkles his nose under the reflection of the moonlight in Sungjin's boastful remark.

"She was really energetic like she is now. She easily made friends with kids and adults. She could remember each of us easily although she can't speak our names well. It's because she likes to meet new people, she is very good at entertaining them but no one really cared enough to at least tie her hair up. So I did. I went looking for scrunchies from one of the female volunteers to tie her hair up. Since that day, she would come looking for me so I could change her hairstyle in a day so I bought her plenty of elastic hair tie. Sometimes I think she’d pretend it comes off but I’m just really happy tying her hair up."

"You're really good at it, you know? As if you've always been ready to be a dad."

"I was trained by my noona."

“Who knew your noona spiting you became a good talent."

"Well, I think she became attached to me after tying her hair. I ended up playing with her most of the time, we ate together and talked a lot even during and after the program. It was funny. What was there to talk with a kid? But there's a lot. She has plenty of stories to tell. I don't get tired of it. That was the moment when I realized that the volunteers were right, kids are healing. And I made the right decision to volunteer. Those three days were fulfilling until we had to leave. Dan Ah cried when she found out we're leaving.. but you know what, it was different. She understood that we we're only there temporarily, she wasn't wailing or asking for us to stay, all she said was that she was crying because she'd miss me and she hoped that we'd be back again. I didn't want to promise her anything but I told her that I might come back. I thought of her a lot of times, I feel bad for telling her I'd come back when I'm not sure about it so I decided to visit her alone. I ended up going to the orphanage every weekend just to see her then six months passed since the event and, the people we saw at the church, they began to ask me about my plans with Dan Ah. That's when I realized that I wanted to be part of her life so I worked on the papers and adopted her."

Wonpil stares from afar, thinking deeply of the long story Sungjin has just told. "Were you always sure?"

"No." Sungjin affirms. "I talked to my parents about it, they were against it at first because they don't want it to affect any possible relationships or marriage in the future. But I.. I don't really have plans in getting married. And I don't really want to let Dan Ah go so I made a lot of research and asked myself a hundred times if it's really what I wanted. I asked for a lot of advise.. everywhere" Sungjin chuckled. "I was confident that I can take care of her education or get her what she wants but I had to make myself sure that this is not only a temporary interest. Remember what I told you? That she made me feel like I am living? That's how I felt that time. When I thought of her, I was no longer living for myself. I was no longer eating or working just to survive day after day and wait for the day I die. I started dreaming for a future, a future with Dan Ah."

Wonpil doesn’t speak after Sungjin’s speech. He must still be digesting the conversation and Sungjin just let Wonpil keep his silence until Wonpil finally opened his mouth. "Can you take me in too?" The mellow atmosphere broke.

Sungjin stifles a laugh as he stares at the sincere look in Wonpil’s eyes, knowing he is teasing him. "Hmm.. should I?" Sungjin asked as if he was actually pondering about it.

Wonpil finally smiles before listing some things. "I know how to take care of Dan Ah. I can't cook but I can learn. I can bake and make candies. I can clean the house or teach math, oh.. or English. What do you need me to do?"

Sungjin kept his gaze to Wonpil who is smiling from ear to ear. He knows, Wonpil is only teasing but for a moment, images came to Sungjin’s mind. Of three of them living together. Waking up, eating and sleeping in one house. With Wonpil next to him like right now.

The thought threw a heavy weight on Sungjin’s chest as if it was restraining him to breathe properly. For the first time in a very long time, Sungjin is feeling these strange emotions again.

Sungjin deeply stares into Wonpil’s eyes and speaks. "You don't need to do anything. You sound just like the perfect person that I need."

He knows it's only a joke but how great would it be if they could be a part of each other’s life.

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The orphanage visit was a success. It was exhausting from the preparation to the events but seeing the children happy and comforted was satisfactory for them to be replenished.

Before ending their final day, the lead volunteers came to thank the new volunteers and hoped to see them again but especially eyed Wonpil and Ji Eun like they are some kind of a god after all the sponsorship. Sungjin had to beg the lead volunteers to stop adding burden to Wonpil and Ji Eun but the best friends only considered it as a compliment and that they want to do it again when they have the time. Sungjin just ended up face-palming in his thoughts while Dan Ah as innocent as she is, only chose to hear the ”We are joining again!” which made her excited.

The volunteers decided to eat out in Seoul to celebrate the success but they decided to skip when Dan Ah is too sleepy and they want to take an early rest as they have to resume work tomorrow.

“Ji Eun-ah, I’ll take you home.” Sungjin informs Ji Eun as he drives to Seoul.

“You don’t have to, Oppa. Wonpilie, will take me home. My parents want to see him and I promised that I’ll take him there after this event so let’s just go to your condo then Wonpil and I will take his car.” Ji Eun explained.

“Right hyung, you probably need a lot of rest. You drove us and took a lot of part during the event.”

Ever wonder how they started speaking informally, thanks to Ji Eun’s initiative it happened as they were wrapping up the final event.

“You know what.. I think we’re close enough to be informal with each other. Why are you two still talking formally like you don’t visit each other’s places every night?” Ji Eun scoffs as the four of them split from the rest of the group of volunteers.

Wonpil and Sungjin blushed at the strange way of Ji Eun’s words. Ji Eun glances at the two, rolling her eyes, controlling her quirking lips at the aggravating view from side to side. Ji Eun takes her attention to Dan Ah’s beautiful face before she can resist from actually hitting the two for acting weirdly.

“Sorry, we don’t keep secrets.” Wonpil explains, eyes shying away from Sungjin.

“So what do you say, Oppa?” Ji Eun tests it out.

Sungjin clears his throat. “You are right, that sounds good.”

“Right, Sungjin hy- hyung?” Wonpil attempts to test it.

“Hmm.. Wonpil-ah..” And so did Sungjin.

Ji Eun once again rolls her eyes at her embarrassed best friend. This is not the first time she saw him like this so she definitely knows where this is going. It's disgusting, she wants to get away from here.

“Great. We’re all friends now.” She says as she compliments herself in her mind for doing a good job for her best friend. What will Wonpil do without her? He better treat her to a meal.

But Sungjin tends to overthink. And he finds Wonpil and Ji Eun’s relationship fascinating but if they’ve been friends for more than a decade and nothing changed, it means nothing will also happen in the future, right? Sungjin could only curse himself for feeling something beyond a neighbor should have. Jealousy is a disease when someone is not even yours to begin with.

Once they arrived home, Dan Ah doesn’t sleep. Instead, she ran around playing with Gomi since she could not take her favorite stuffed toy on the trip, afraid that it'll get dirty and it'll be punished again by going to the washer.

Sungjin sips on his water feeling the envy of being a child. Adult bodies are too fragile and too tired to do a lot of things in a day that he just wants to lie down after taking care of all the clothes and necessities they brought on the trip. He'd do the laundry tomorrow but he cooked a simple meal for the two of them first, ate together, and washed all the dishes.

It's still early in the evening but Sungjin is too tired that he just wants to close his eyes. He walked closer to the little girl that is still playing with her toys and caressed her hair. "Dan Ah-yah.. Dada will sleep. Will you be okay here alone?"

"Yes! Gomi and I will take care of everything here." The little girl confidently says before pulling her Dada's shirt to bend down for her, kissing him on the cheek. "Good night, Dada"

"If you want to sleep in my bed, just come over alright?" Sungjin smiles at the sweetest little girl and kisses her temple in return.

Sungjin can trust Dan Ah in a lot of things. She’s a book smart and street-wise. She has a good memory that she easily remembers what she read and saw. Dan Ah already knew a lot of things, probably because she was forced by the world at a young age. Dan Ah has always been matured in Sungjin's eyes. Someone he could hold a conversation like an adult sometimes. Someone who can give him an opinion when he is having a second thought. So Sungjin let Dan Ah think and speak for herself to grow up as an assertive person compared to his younger self, unless it requires an intervention.

Sungjin could feel himself getting way overprotective of Dan Ah. It feels like his parental instinct was awoken after having her. It was strange at first however, it feels nice to have someone you want to protect. The more he tries to be a good parent, the more he worries that he can't give her everything she needs. He wants her to grow up in a good environment, to have what she wants but not to abuse her privilege as well although Sungjin knows Dan Ah won't be that kind of person. He wants her to always believe in the path she wants to take someday. And Sungjin wishes that Dan Ah would be able to express herself without the fear of being subjected to hold back.

In the midst of a dream, the buzzing phone distracts Sungjin from his good night sleep. Sungjin picks up his phone without checking the caller. His eyes still close while answering the phone.

“Hello?”

“Sungjin-ssi, good evening. This is Shin Yeo Jin from Dan Ah's orphanage. I must have bothered your sleep but can I talk to you for a second?”

The mention of Dan Ah’s orphanage woke Sungjin up. It’s been a while since the orphanage contacted him at an odd hour after his adoption process of Dan Ah was completed. “Ah, yes, Yeo Jin noona. How are you?”

“You were not here last Sunday so I thought I’d give you a call.”

“Oh, we went on a volunteering program.”

“I know, I heard about it. But I really need to relay this to you right now. Dan Ah’s mom reached out to us. Do you have time to visit the orphanage? We need to talk about this.”

“Wh— uhm.. her mom?”

“Yes. I know this is sudden but she came and asked for her. Don't worry, I haven’t given her any details about you or Dan Ah’s whereabouts. You are her legal guardian now so it’s up to you.”

A knock outside of Sungjin’s room distracts him from the phone call. Dan Ah comes to open the door.

“O.. okay. Can I.. think about this?” Sungjin says with his eyes fixated at the little girl in front of him.

“No problem. That’s everything I need to say. I hope you have a good night.”

“You too, noona.”

Sungjin swiftly ends the call, still dumbfounded from the conversation yet, he tries to be composed in front of Dan Ah.

"Uncle Wompil came so I opened the door for him.." Her little pointer pointed at the door. Sungjin followed the direction with his eyes. Wonpil waves at him with curiosity. "Can I sleep at Uncle's house?"

"Wonpil.."

"I was just going to say hi but I thought it would be nice if I could borrow Dan Ah tonight. She really likes the tent in my room." Wonpil exaggeratingly whispers the last sentence.

Sungjin turns to Dan Ah's direction. "Do you want to..?"

"I asked Uncle if we could have a sleepover and he said yes."

Sungjin gets that it was Dan Ah's idea. Time went by so fast and he already trusts Wonpil more than anyone when it comes to Dan Ah that he doesn't hesitate agreeing to their plans. And Dan Ah trusted Wonpil as soon as she met him, will Dan Ah be like this too once she meets her mom? They said blood is thicker than water, will Dan Ah know her too at a glance?

"Okay, just bring your smartwatch with you in case you need Dada." He says.

As Dan Ah's cheers, Wonpil claps his hands in triumphant. "Thank you, Dada." Dan Ah says before pulling Sungjin and leaning in to kiss her Dada's cheek. “Uncle Wompil let me just get my things.” Dan Ah runs to her room to pick up Gomi and some of her stuff that she wants to show Wonpil without forgetting her smartwatch.

“Hyung, are you alright?” Wonpil invited himself to have a seat next to Sungjin once Dan Ah disappeared.

“Hmm?”

“When Dan Ah opened the door, you were uhm.. flustered? In shock? Did anything happen at the phone call?.”

“Oh.. I’m sorry. I don’t really know how to tell you.”

“No, it’s alright. I’m just worried. If you need to talk about it or if I can help, you know I’ll do it.”

“Wonpil-ah, do you know how good of a person you are?”

“Hmm?”

“I already feel so much better just seeing you hanging around. I promise to tell you when I can.”

“You don’t have to.. but okay. I’ll get us drinks when you can.” Wonpil's smile was enough for him to be relieved.

However, Sungjin was unable to go back to sleep after the phone conversation. It’s already midnight and he is still wide awake. His mind began to wander around the thought if Wonpil and Dan Ah are still awake at this hour. His two favorite people are playing together without him, he should’ve barged in and joined them but his mind was too occupied and he is not that good at barging at Wonpil’s condo.

Sungjin checks all of his emails and his ongoing projects instead to pass the time but everything is going smoothly without his assistance since he already gave them all the detailed instructions. He decided to just turn off his laptop and grab a cold beer as he opened the curtain of his window wall to watch the pouring rain to the depths of the night where building lights shone brightly from afar along the busy road despite the odd hour.

Wonpil once told him that he loves the sound and the smell of rain and Dan Ah just loves sitting in front of a window to stare at the movements of all living things and be curious. He used to hate those things before, he was only reminded of the times he gets wet from the heavy rain when he is in a rush or how staring into nothing would drown his mind into the depth of his own darkness.

But it’s different now.

He now got everything he ever wanted. He feels heart-lighted. And that's maybe the problem. Happiness always takes something away from him. And he is anxious, the silence, the feeling that is causing havoc inside him of being alone, is making his mind run a thousand miles. He is frustrated at his thoughts although everything is fine.

He folds his legs and presses it to his chest, cheek leaning on his knee as he keeps his eyes on the window.

Is it possible to keep everything just the way they are?

Wonpil spreads out a blanket on his indoor tent at the corner of his bedroom for Dan Ah which he usually only uses when he reads a book or if the bed feels too big and he wants to be in an enclosed space.

The dim light was left on, the window wall's curtain was closed due to the thunder clapping, and the two with Gomi are lying on the blanket, staring into nothing, talking about what would come to mind until Wonpil's stomach growled.

"Uncle Wompil forgot to eat again." Dan Ah lies on her stomach.

Since they left the accommodation today, refusing the volunteers celebration and only drinking tea at Ji Eun’s house, he forgot to eat.. again. If Sungjin was here, he’ll surely nag him for always forgetting but luckily Dan Ah doesn’t. She is always cute and nice. "You are right. Are you hungry?"

"Hmmm..." Dan Ah thinks with much difficulty before she said yes.

When it comes to meals, Wonpil can’t help but think of Sungjin. Sungjin is so diligent when it comes to Dan Ah and even Wonpil's food after realizing that Wonpil often forgets to eat when he is busy. During the days they don’t see each other, Sungjin would text him to not forget his dinner. And that's what makes their encounter different today, Sungjin was out of his head. Wonpil can’t help but worry.

"What do you want to eat? Uncle will buy it all for you."

"Will Dada be mad if I want a slurpee?"

"If we don't tell Dada, he won't know.." Wonpil playfully whispers to Dan Ah as if Sungjin is just next to them, his pointer finger rests on his lips as a sign to keep their plan a secret. "Shhh.."

"I won't tell.. shhh" Dan Ah mimicked before they both giggled.

Wonpil ended up cooking ramyeon and ordering slurpee for himself as well to match Dan Ah. He doesn’t know if it’s a good combination especially, in the middle of a rainy and cold night but it's not too random for a person like him with a child-like taste bud.

Wonpil carefully brings the hotpot to the tent and eat his ramyeon as they both drink the slurpee. It was a strange combination. A mix of spicy ramyeon on his tongue and a cold sweet-flavored fruity slurpee felt weird but it wasn’t disgusting, it was just right to take the spiciness away for a second.

"Are you tired?" He asked once he sees Dan Ah staring at the glass wall and the never-ending rain, sipping her slurpee silently. It's also almost midnight so the sleepiness might've already kicked in.

"No. Is Uncle Wompil tired?"

"Hmm.. a little. But it's almost midnight, you need to sleep soon."

"May I hug Uncle Wompil to sleep again?" Dan Ah pleads with her beautiful eyes, putting the slurpee away as she waits for Wonpil's response.

Wonpil scrunches his nose upon the adorable request. "Do you like Uncle that much?" Wonpil teases. Since Wonpil met Dan Ah, there was never a day when he don't see her smile in front of him. It's not that long but it's not that short either since they've known each other, yet, the growth of their relationship felt like they've known each other for long years.

"Uncle Wompil is cute."

"Cute?" Wonpil sits straight from the unexpected response. He didn't think a kid would call him cute. "Are you teasing me?" Wonpil playfully crosses his arms, pouting.

"And nice.. and have many lollipops.” Dan Ah spreads her arms to emphasize, eyes twinkling as she dreams of the many sweet treats Wonpil gave him. “..and chocolate and big gummy bear and nuggets and gives Dan Ah lots of hugs."

From the continuous reason, Wonpil untangled his crossed arms and endearingly smiles at Dan Ah, appreciating how the little girl remembers every single gift he received from her.

In the morning, Sungjin texted Wonpil to have breakfast together. He waited for the two and ended up getting hungry when they both woke up a little late. Sungjin was startled at the loud door opening, the two showed up in their pajamas and bedhead, who obviously came running based on their little heaving.

“You guys didn’t have to run.”

“You texted at eight, it’s already ten now. I know you won’t eat without us.”

“Dada, good morning! Sorry, we’re late.” Dan Ah says as she enters the house, sitting at her usual spot on the dining table, waiting for Wonpil to sit on his spot as well.

“Let me just heat it up.” Sungjin turns on the stove. Wonpil stood up to help by putting the utensils at the table.

It's no longer unusual for Wonpil to have his meals at Sungjin's place especially, dinners. Wonpil is a busy businessman who tends to forget his meal so there are days when Sungjin has to remind Wonpil or tell him to visit his place to eat.

As he waits for the food, the two endlessly chatter. Sungjin could not comprehend how they never run out of conversations. But come to think of it, both he and Wonpil don’t run out of conversations either, so he came to conclusion that it has to be Wonpil's effect.

The ringtone on Wonpil's messages rings in the middle of breakfast, Wonpil hesitates to check but still ends up reading them. The longer he stares at his phone, his lips stretch into a wide smile. Sungjin curiously glanced but he doesn't ask and just ate silently, watching over Dan Ah's slow chewing.

"Sungjin-ssi.. I think you need to check your email now."

"Now?"

"Yes.. now." Wonpil nodded, excitement filled his tone. Sungjin blinked and wondered where he left his phone.

Sungjin returned to his seat once he found his phone in his bedroom to check on his emails. As he scrolled, he found an email from the Kang Group which he recommended to Wonpil two months ago, offering him a position for the same project to take on. His business with them related to another branch already ended two weeks ago but because of Wonpil he'll have to continue his business with them.. and it’s a position every company he encountered has offered him only for him to decline each of them. He’ll be managing the planning and the strategy of the Advertising Team. Sungjin isn't supposed to say yes to this kind of invitation but since it’s a business plan he started with Wonpil, he is deemed to finish it together.

Sungjin glances in Wonpil's direction who is anticipating a positive answer. He felt embarrassed at how he'd respond to Wonpil so he placed his phone on the table and picked up his chopstick. "Okay." He answers before taking a bite.

Wonpil kicked his feet and pulled Sungjin into a side hug which surprised Sungjin before he turned to Dan Ah. "Uncle Wonpil is going to work with Dada!" Wonpil tells Dan Ah the news as if she will understand but Dan Ah still cheered and jumped out from her seat to give Wonpil a kiss on his cheek before kissing his cheek as well.

This time Wonpil offered to wash the dishes so Sungjin and Dan Ah can prepare to go to the places they need to. Dan Ah has a music lesson while Sungjin has places to go meanwhile, Wonpil still has a day to enjoy before he returns to the office.

"Are we getting dinner together?" Wonpil asked once Sungjin and Dan Ah were about to leave.

"Can we get chicken?" Dan Ah asked.

Sungjin doesn’t have to answer the question, that was already a confirmation that they'll be getting dinner together.

"I'll get the chicken." Sungjin says instead.

Dan Ah cheers at the response.

"Sungjin-ssi.." Shin Yeo Jin calls on him upon seeing him enter the premises. “You can come to my office..”

“Is she coming today?”

“Supposedly.. but she got stuck at the hospital and can’t come right now. She said she might stay at the hospital longer this time. So, she gave me her phone number and asked me to give it to you. She contacted me too late so I was unable to relay it to you earlier. She is staying at the Metropolitan Hospital so please have a talk with her if it's possible.”

“I'm sorry but what’s really going on in here? Does she want to take Dan Ah back?”

"I cannot answer on her behalf but I don’t think that's the case. Besides, you’re Dan Ah’s legal guardian now so that’s just completely impossible. You have every right to decline but I want to let you know that Dan Ah's mom wants to see her child—"

Sungjin's brows met as Yeo Jin goes on. “I think that’s a problem. Why does she want to meet Dan Ah after abandoning her?”

"She's terminally ill."

"Ha! Exactly." Sungjin exclaimed. He already got the gist once Yeo Jin mentioned the hospital. If she really wants to see her daughter, she will surely come no matter how busy she is but if that's not the case, she's got to be sick. “Isn't that too selfish of her?"

"She's dying, Sungjin-ssi. She won't have the chance to see her daughter again."

"How about Dan Ah? What will she feel about these? Do you want me to see my daughter cry for a mother that once abandoned her, abandon her again?" Sungjin clenches his fist to control the anger he is feeling.

Of course, it’s not Yeo Jin’s fault that this is happening right now, she’s only relaying a message but he can't help it. They're being ridiculous right now.

"Dan Ah's mom doesn’t want to put Dan Ah at the orphanage but she has no relatives to help her out. And she's been fighting with a disease so she doesn't have the resources to take care of her. Her only dying wish is to see her daughter before she leaves. Sungjin-ssi, I understand what you are feeling right now and I wouldn't have agreed to her if she wasn't in a bad position. But her time is being limited right now. I hope you can think about it."

Sungjin doesn’t answer for a while, he was also waiting for himself to calm down. "I don’t know. I'll see what I can do." Sungjin says in defeat.

"Thank you." She gently reaches out to Sungjin's both hands. "Dan Ah is going to be fine, she's smart so she'll understand. Besides, she's got a loving father like you. How blessed."

"I'm sorry. I don't want her to get hurt."

"I know. She's your daughter after all.." She softly smiles.

A bucket of chicken was the dinner. Wonpil and Dan Ah are holding fried chicken in each hand, competing for who will be able to eat more. If it's two kids or a teenager, Sungjin would probably nag but a child and an adult, Sungjin's got nothing to say but laugh at their dynamic. No matter how many times he sees Wonpil and Dan Ah play their childish games, it's always entertaining in Sungjin's eyes.

Years of Sungjin and Dan Ah together has always been calm, it was like a warm breeze on a summer day, a twinkling star in the night sky, and a single flower blooming in an empty field but now the warm breeze comes in all seasons, the stars no longer shines only at the night sky and the flowers filled a whole field with vibrant and colors. Wonpil brought colors in their calm life. Dan Ah laughs more often and Sungjin talks more than he usually does. Wonpil may never know the impact he had in their lives but there are days, especially in the solemnity he is feeling right now, Sungjin wishes it would last.

The endless thoughts ended once Sungjin finished washing dishes. Wonpil is sitting on the couch looking cozy as he watches TV and Dan Ah is in her room asleep. Sungjin quietly sits on Wonpil's side, watching whatever variety show is playing on the TV.

"I was really hoping your trip went well but I don’t think that’s the case." Wonpil says with his eyes only focused on the television screen.

Sungjin peers his gaze to Wonpil.

In silence, Wonpil finally turns to Sungjin who’s still only staring at him. "Everything’s going to be fine. You’ll be fine." He warmly smiles.

Sungjin is still unable to utter a single word. How can he be worried about his daughter while admiring the man next to him. It tastes like a sour gummy strips coated in sugar. He could hear an uncontrollable loud beating in his chest. If only he could tell Wonpil the words in his heart right now, when it feels like bursting out but the timing is wrong and his lips will never let him speak.

Sungjin told Wonpil a lot of stories of himself and that's because they were problems that already passed but when it comes to what he's currently facing, he's not too good at talking about it without worrying that he might become a burden to another person. So Sungjin rested his head on Wonpil's shoulder instead, hoping his appreciation would resonate. "Thanks for accompanying me"

It was once again quiet until Wonpil answered. "Anytime."

And that was enough to Sungjin, for now.

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This is why Sungjin prefers working at home, he loves to take care of Dan Ah first-hand and spend more time with her on summer vacation but now that he temporarily accepted a position given to him by the Kang Group, he might have to ask Mrs. Lee to take care of her full time.

Today is the first day, Sungjin and Wonpil along Wonpil's assistant, Secretary Choi, walked into the Kang Group’s Main Building in Seoul. Sungjin would pass by this huge building sometimes but it's the first time he gets to enter this place. Some employees were already familiar to him after their previous business transaction but it is still the first time meeting them personally. They were warmly greeted as they entered, there were small talks to get to know each other and soon the meeting for the grand project began. Members from the Main Branch of the Fashion Department also joined through a video call and discussed flying soon to South Korea to properly supervise the project themselves. Sungjin will be leading the advertising team so he had to study the concept of the main plan of the clothing design which will mix into the image of Wonpil's confectionary.

It was a long day, both Sungjin and Wonpil's notes were filled with scribbled information. The discussion about the project was nonstop even while traveling home. Wonpil didn't go to his office today to focus on the new project but he had his Secretary return to the office in the afternoon to catch up with the missed paperworks. Once they're back at their condominium, Sungjin invited Wonpil to his home, however, Wonpil only went to see Dan Ah for a moment to get his free hug and return to his condo to continue writing down all the ideas he wants to brainstorm with the whole team tomorrow and to also decide which employees he wants to work with for the project. Sungjin doesn't have much to do for now as it's only starting, so his main purpose is to only observe and take note of the possible ideas for better advertisement and marketing.

But it was late night and Sungjin was walking back and forth in front of Wonpil's door with tea in his hand which he ordered at a local store downstairs. Sungjin is going to press the doorbell, he's just pulling out his courage. Even without communicating, Sungjin knows Wonpil is still awake at this hour. Both of them always stay late but once Sungjin pressed the doorbell, the door was instantly opened. Which startled him for a second as he was faced by the shorter man in his loose purple shirt and shorts, showing his milky skin.

"It took you way too long." Wonpil mischievously grins.

"Did you see me?"

"Yes, peephole. And I can hear your footsteps. You were hovering around my door." He says as his eyes wander, he's surely looking for Dan Ah.

“You miss Dan Ah? It’s only a day.”

“I know but I haven’t played with her today, I feel tired when I don’t see her.” Wonpil complains as Sungjin enters his place.

"I think you two are obsessed with each other. You should have breakfast with us tomorrow.”

By the invitation, Wonpil became brighter. "I will!"

Sungjin walked past the kitchen counter where Wonpil's laptop was open which he quickly closed once Sungjin get inside. "Do you want coffee? Tea? Milk?" He offers.

"You have milk now."

"I bought Dan Ah's favorite milk in case she wants to play here."

"I bought you Chamomile tea. You seemed anxious the whole day, I thought this is good to calm your anxiety."

Wonpil softly smiles at Sungjin. "You always see right through me. Thank you."

He was offered to sit on the sofa to be a little cozier according to Wonpil. "You finally want to talk about it, don't you?"

Only a hum was let out in Sungjin's throat and it was quiet for a moment. Sungjin doesn't only want to tell Wonpil, he also has a favor to ask but it feels like he'll sound like a child if he does it even if he knows that Wonpil won't judge him. He's just really bad at expressing himself.

"You don't have to say it today, you can try again tomorrow. But honestly, you don’t even really have to." Wonpil reassures him.

Sungjin shakes his head. "I don't have much time.." Wonpil tilts his head, looking for clarification. "I found Dan Ah's mom."

Wonpil's brows met upon hearing the news. Unable to speak.

"I was told that she's very sick. I have no idea how sick she is but she's asking for Dan Ah." Sungjin continues to explain.

"Why?"

"I think.. she's dying."

"She's isn't taking Dan Ah, isn't she? Well, she can’t. You are Dan Ah’s legal guardian." Wonpil anxiously asked despite answering his own questions.

"I spoke to the orphanage last Sunday, they said she only wants to see Dan Ah."

Wonpil takes a deep breath before speaking. "I'm sorry to say this. It doesn't make sense that she abandoned Dan Ah and now that she's dying, she wants to see her. Isn't that just the same as hurting her all over again?"

“I’ve been thinking about it. And just like what you said, if I let them meet and she leaves, Dan Ah will only get hurt. But if I don’t, I feel like I am taking her chance to see her mother again. I sound very selfish.”

“No, you're not." Wonpil crosses his arms. "In fact, you are a better person than I am. I could never be as accepting as you. But you know what, I think you already know the answer to your question. You already know what to do."

"What do you mean?" Sungjin curiously stares at the other man.

Wonpil shifted his position to move even more closely to Sungjin before raising his palm and resting it on Sungjin's chest. "You want to take Dan Ah to her mom."

Sungjin looks away from the statement.

“Do you think she wants to see her mom?”

“…”

“She doesn’t look for her mom. She doesn’t even talk about it but I do feel that she longs for her real parents sometimes.”

“We all sometimes long for those people we know once existed in our lives but can no longer meet.. but do you know what’s the most important? It’s those people who are with us right now. Those people who love and care about us at the moment, and maybe Dan Ah is just on similar page. Asking her opinion at her age right now seems to be complicated but I think she will understand. Dan Ah is a good child, she will accept your decision, whatever you choose because you've always chosen the best decisions for her all these times. That is why, you will be okay. I am on your side.”

"I wish you could join me tomorrow when I meet her"

Wonpil's lip slightly opened as he peers his gaze at Sungjin with his dark orbs. "I would love to.. but.. I will be an uninvited guest if I join you two. It's an important meeting between you, as Dan Ah's dad.. and her, as Dan Ah's mom."

"You are right. I'm sorry if I'm dragging you to my own problem."

"You're not. I appreciate that you think my opinion means something to you. At least, I know I'm not just your ordinary neighbor." Wonpil scrunches his nose, the solemn atmosphere soon gone along the warmth of Wonpil's smile.

Sungjin quietly chuckle. "We're already passed that stage." Sungjin thinks of the right term between them. "We're now at the level where we can watch from each other's television without the need to be invited."

"You know what, I have something for Dan Ah but I'll give it to you instead." Wonpil excitedly walked to the kitchen and took out something from the lower cabinet under the sink.

"You always have something to give Dan Ah." Sungjin muses as his eyes follow Wonpil's movement.

"It's yours now." Wonpil carries a pack of unknown goods which Sungjin could guess is another mysterious sweet. After the huge gummy bear, it wasn't the end of it. Dan Ah continuously received more different and unique sweets all the time. One of them was a sipped melted candy which Sungjin already knew was going to give his daughter diabetes. A stone-like chocolate that had Dan Ah crying after seeing Wonpil eat it because it looks so much like a real stone and Dan Ah was scared Wonpil was going to die from it. Another memorable one was the gummy snake that looked like a real snake and was as long as a python that Dan Ah and Wonpil used to almost give Sungjin a heart attack after stepping out of the bathroom.

This time though, Wonpil hands over a pack of normal rainbow-stripped gummy coated in sugar. "This one's a sour gummy." He pointed out, knowing Sungjin is trying to eat less sweets at his age. But little did he know, Sungjin used to love confectionaries as a kid.

After their conversation, Sungjin decided to return to his condo. It's late and both of them need rest especially when the new project is starting and Sungjin has to meet Dan Ah's mom tomorrow. But once Sungjin was at the door and Wonpil walking him out, Wonpil spoke again.

"Sungjin hyung.” Wonpil endearingly calls onto his name like a melted cotton candy in his mouth. “There are gummies, lollies, and chocolates, they are all different varieties but they are still sweets whatever shape and flavor they're made of. What I'm saying, you are Dan Ah's dad no matter what happens."

A small smile appeared on Sungjin’s lips. He can see this is Wonpil's way of cheering him up and whatever superpower Wonpil has, it is working. It is always working. He realized he didn't need anyone to be with him tomorrow, he just needed a little courage and Wonpil helped him with it. He knows nothing bad will happen, he's only anxious when it's Dan Ah's mom they're talking about.

Sungjin didn't know when it happened but his arms were already wrapped around Wonpil's shoulders. They're not at the stage where hugging is a normal thing so Sungjin blushes from his impulse, the embarrassment makes his body hot but his mind is collected and he tells Wonpil, "Thank you for listening to me today."

Wonpil slowly strokes his back and pulls him closer. "Anytime" Wonpil replies in a while.

There is a fruit basket in Sungjin's hand as he enters the hospital building. He only found out yesterday that Shin Soo Yoon, Dan Ah's mom, has been in and out for the past two months in the hospital due to her worsening condition. She only got a chance to feel better when she went to the orphanage once and now, she’s been staying at the hospital again.

He sits in the available chair in the semi-private room next to Soo Yoon who is also sitting on her hospital bed. Her unusual pale skin with some spots visibly shows how sick she is. It can easily be seen that her tired and weak small body is slowly breaking apart, her deep eyes and dark circles show the pain she's experiencing but no matter what's going on to her physical body now, he can see it, with his bare eyes he can clearly see the resemblance between Dan Ah and Soo Yoon. Her monolid makes the shape of her eyes stand out and her thin lips makes her look cute just like Dan Ah. It’s as if he is peeking at the future right in front of his eyes, Dan Ah will probably look just like her mom.

Shin Soo Yoon has Leukemia she found in her first check-up after conceiving Dan Ah. It is a disease that is known to have no cure so she decided to not put an effort to help herself. Soo Yoon doesn't have a family and Dan Ah's father is unfortunately unknown. He met the man in a one-night stand and was never seen again. The world shattered for Soo Yoon once she learned that she was pregnant and on top of that, she had Leukemia. Soo Yoon doesn't know what to do with the child, she doesn't have the means to feed another mouth and most of all, she won't be able to live long. So, she wanted to abort the baby at first but she lost in her own courage and decided to send Dan Ah to the orphanage by leaving a letter with her birthname written on a note before she gets attached to her daughter.

"How is Dan Ah?" She lowly asked, seemingly embarrassed to meet Dan Ah's adoptive father.

"Good. I know you want to see her but I want to check this place first before I bring her here."

"You mean.." Her eyes welled up, tears falling to her cheeks. "..you'll let me see her, right?"

“What will happen when you meet her?”

“Nothing..” She looks down at her clasped hands that are rough with nails that are brittle. “I just want to see what she looks now. I want her to be the last person I'd remember on my deathbed. You don’t have to tell her who I am. I just have to see her.” She begged.

Sungjin blinks away from how her thoughts spiral by accepting the end of her life.

“Dan Ah.. she is a smart child and she can empathize the most. She tends to put herself in someone else’s shoes. She doesn’t usually cry when she’s hurt but she cries for everyone else. She is a very lovely child.”

Soo Yoon listens overwhelmingly as she imagines her amazing daughter.

"Do you know why I named her Dan Ah?"

"That.. no one told me. Dan Ah could mean a lot of things"

"'Dan' means morning 'Ah' means child. It means Morning Child. Even if I didn't want to give birth to her, I named her to what I love the most. The sunrise, that's how she became the 'morning' and I wished every day that whoever will choose my child would give her plenty of love just like how I loved the sunrise."

Sungjin's eyes became watery once she's done explaining. It was an overwhelming feeling for a father to learn the real meaning behind his daughter's name. "It's beautiful. Her personality has always been brighter than the sun." He softly chuckles.

"I couldn't imagine having a child when I sent her to the orphanage but now that I am dying, I often think about her and wish I was a better mother but to be with her is now only a dream so I just want to meet her for the last time while I still can.. before I go"

It was difficult for Sungjin to decide until last night but now he finally met Dan Ah’s mother, he can imagine how hard it must’ve been for her to abandon her child. Some kids have to look for their real parents in hopes to reunite with them but Dan Ah is lucky enough to have a mother who came looking for her instead. "When can you meet her?"

“Tomorrow. I will leave this place tomorrow.”

Sungjin shakes his head. He knows that she can't and he doesn't want to put her in trouble while she's on her dialysis. “I’ll take her here.”

"Thank you." She whispers, tears still welling in her eyes in appreciation.

Sungjin returned home in a daze, looking at his hyperactive daughter running around the living room and dragging Gomi to prepare tea for Sungjin and Wonpil on her tea party.

"So how was it?" Wonpil asked as the two of them are seated on the wooden floor of the living room while Dan Ah is distracted by Gomi being naughty for eating Dan Ah's fake food.

"She doesn't want to introduce herself. She really just wants to see her."

"You mean.. Dan Ah will never know?"

"Yeah.. do you think that'll be fine?"

"Dada! Dan Ah is thirsty. Dan Ah will get her mug." Dan Ah interrupted.

"Okay, be careful." Sungjin acknowledges.

"I don't know. I've never been a parent. But if you think that's good for her, she should be fine, right?" Wonpil continues.

"Honestly, even if I'm Dan Ah's parent this is my first time too.” Sungjin bitterly chuckles. “At this point, I no longer know what is right or wrong for her. Soo Yoon-ssi wanted to keep it a secret and I want to respect her decisions but I also don't want to keep a secret with Dan Ah. You know what I mean?"

"Dan Ah is still young. She's smart, I know.. and she can understand a situation better than most kids but maybe now is not the right time for her."

"You know what.. even with the anxiety that I felt my whole life, the anxiety I am feeling right now can't be compared. I've never felt this much for anyone, I don't want her to hate me for not telling her when she still has time with her mom."

"When my grandparents told me my parents are gone, I didn't understand it at first until days passed and they never returned home. But Dan Ah.. she knows your role in her life. Dan Ah is reasonable. She will understand you and her mom"

Sungjin shifts his body and turned to Wonpil. "Wonpil-ah.. I'm not telling you all these to give me solutions. I'm not gonna do that to you. I'm just letting you know how I feel."

"And I'm not giving you solutions, I’m just telling you how I feel. Even if I'm nothing related to Dan Ah, I love her. Just like you, I also want her to have a happy life." A lopsided confident smile appears on Wonpil's lips and Sungjin could never be thankful enough to have Wonpil by their side. Not only during the days he's experiencing crisis but it includes their quiet and enjoyable days.

"You always know what to say." Sungjin shifts his gaze to the table once Dan Ah returned.

"I'll never go away." He whispers as he takes the plastic teacup of Dan Ah's tea party with his pinky sticking out pretending to be drinking a hot tea.

Sungjin couldn't help but stare at the man next to him. Wonpil must be a mind reader. It could be embarrassing but for someone like him who is not too good at expressing his thoughts, it feels like he is being understood in any circumstance.

"Have some tea." Wonpil elegantly urges Sungjin and he did, putting his pinky out as well with Dan Ah pouring another invisible tea on their teacups once they're done.

The sound of doorbell took Sungjin's attention away as he fixed Dan Ah's clothes in a blue fluff dress with a ribbon on its back and a two-hair bun style so she'd look presentable in her mom's eye so Soo Yoon will always have a beautiful memory of her daughter once they meet. When Sungjin opens the door, Wonpil is already in his suit for work, carrying a briefcase as usual. But the crooked necktie in navy and blue stripe took Sungjin's attention the most.

"I just want to wish you luck." Wonpil grinned at Sungjin once he met the taller's eyes.

"Give me a second." Sungjin reaches out to Wonpil's necktie to align it properly. He smooths out Wonpil's suit to make sure everything is perfect without noticing Wonpil's surprise by the action. "Now, you look perfect." Sungjin compliments once he's satisfied.

"Uncle Wompil!" Dan Ah runs in her cute dress, automatically jumping in Wonpil's arms.

"Dan Ah-yah.. you look so pretty today. Are you getting ready?" He asked once Dan Ah is tightly in his arms with Sungjin going back to his business to clean up the cluttered floor full of different clothes of Dan Ah which Sungjin was choosing from.

"Is Uncle Wompil coming with us?" Dan Ah blinks.

"Nope, not today. Uncle Wonpil just wants to see Dan Ah before going to work."

"Oh, did Uncle Wompil miss Dan Ah?" Dan Ah giggles as she thinks about it.

Wonpil's tone turned dramatically sulky to express his sadness. "You are right, Uncle Wompil missed Dan Ah." He says and brushes his lips to Dan Ah's soft and plump cheeks which turned to another giggle.

"Okay, that's enough. Uncle Wonpil needs to leave for work." Sungjin interrupts as he looks at his watch. Dan Ah always takes Wonpil’s time so he has to make sure he gets to interrupt the two before their endless sweet talk.

"Uncle Wonpil has to go or Dada will be jealous." Wonpil teases as he put Dan Ah down but before, Dan Ah whispered something to Wonpil which Sungjin was unable to hear.

These two are having more and more secrets each day that Sungjin has stopped asking about it.

"Hmm.. I cannot promise but we'll see later, okay? Uncle Wonpil will let you know."

Dan Ah looked excited even with the uncertain response and only nodded before Wonpil finally put the little girl down. As Wonpil leaves, Sungjin receives a message which he thought would be from Soo Yoon but it turns out to be from Wonpil. "Dan Ah wants a sleepover. If everything goes well, let me know if that'll be okay."

Sungjin glances in the elevator's direction but Wonpil is no longer there so he just replied that he'll give him an update about the situation.

Just as promised yesterday, Dan Ah only thinks Sungjin is visiting a sick friend. The little girl held her mother's hand that she might never know of, comforting the adult about being sick and that she'll be praying for her to get well. It is evident in the mother's eyes the longing and regret of giving up her child, nonetheless, the joy and appreciation clearly reflected in the way she gazes at the little girl.

Soo Yoon puts the little girl on her lap while Sungjin was simply sitting on the chair next to the bed. Soo Yoon and Dan Ah had a never-ending conversation, Soo Yoon had a lot of questions to her daughter as Sungjin expected, like her favorite color, food, hobbies or what she learned from school and who her friends are. Dan Ah was never shy to speak to strangers, only during introductions, so this is not really a surprise but Sungjin could somehow feel the connection between the mother and daughter, it wasn't only about getting along with a new person but there's a sense of serenity as if they've known each other for a very long time. It somehow reminded Sungjin the first time he saw Wonpil and Dan Ah together, although their first interaction can never be counted as Sungjin never got the chance to witness it, it was different, he could sense the comfortability between the two and they get along so easily that even Sungjin's anxiousness stopped once he met the person his daughter adores.

As Dan Ah got tired from playing with Soo Yoon, she lulled into sleep in Sungjin’s arms. Sungjin then fed Soo Yoon some information about Dan Ah which he once learned from the orphanage as well. Like, how she hated using baby bottles and started learning how to use a mug even when she only began to sit. Or how Sungjin thinks Dan Ah could be too mature at her age but once her innocence sparks, it makes her adorable for being too pure and too kind for this world. And how she learned how to pray and hold onto a belief that she will meet good people around her.

To Sungjin's amusement, he found out that Soo Yoon is a Buddhist (and so was he before he adopted Dan Ah) but she also got to visit churches and pray for her child. She never exactly had any strong belief in any gods but with a hope that there’s a chance of spiritual existence, she wants to pray for her child to be in good hands and to have a good life even without her by Dan Ah’s side.

Later, Soo Yoon also slowly became tired that she couldn't fight her sleepiness due to her medicine so Sungjin and Dan Ah had to leave for her to rest. Sungjin isn’t sure if this is the first and last time they’ll meet but he and Soo Yoon exchanged phone numbers to contact each other. So he thinks, this might just be the beginning.

As they travel home, they get stuck in traffic so Dan Ah once again sleeps in the car that he has to carefully carry her home. Sungjin soon prepared their dinner as promised to have a meal together. In the midst of preparation, the doorbell rings as Sungjin thinks of Wonpil. A pleasant smile appeared in Sungjin’s lips once it met Wonpil’s doe eyes.

"How was your day?"

"How was the meeting?"

They simultaneously asked, gaining a laughter from the two. Wonpil gestured Sungjin to go first so Sungjin did as they walked inside.

"It went fine.” Sungjin begins as he tries to compose the words he wants to tell Wonpil. Sungjin prepares their dinner as Wonpil locates the utensils. “I think Dan Ah likes her. It reminded me of you. When it comes to strangers, Dan Ah could be nice but not to an extent. You saw her when we went to the orphanage, she only spoke and played with the kids but not with the volunteers we spent the whole three days with, but Dan Ah was comfortable around you and her. You were the first person that she really liked apart from me, I just want you to know.”

“How did this conversation become about me?” Wonpil softly chuckles, his cheeks turning pink as his gaze strays away from Sungjin.

“I don’t know, I was just thinking about you.”

“You can’t just say that. Is Dan Ah sleeping?” Wonpil diverts the conversation as he sits down on the dining chair.

“Hmm.. I guess she was really tired. She got too energetic talking to her mom.” Sungjin answers once he places a bowl of rice in front of Wonpil. “Dan Ah really looks like her in some aspect, though maybe some parts of her are from her father but I could see the resemblance.”

“She must’ve been pretty.”

“Yes, she is.” Sungjin admits because his little girl is really pretty.

However, the atmosphere suddenly felt different. Wonpil stopped talking for a while as he began to stuff his mouth with rice. Wonpil is not a big eater but it’s different today. “I guess you’re really hungry. Was today’s meeting difficult?”

"Uhm..” Wonpil tries to talk while chewing.

“No, you go ahead and eat. We can talk later.” Sungjin puts more dishes in front of Wonpil so he can easily pick them.

But Wonpil shakes his head and once he swallows his food, he answers. “Today wasn’t hard. It was rather fun. I initially chose modeling as my course because I was interested in fashion and I wanted to walk on a runway but halfway, I changed my mind and went to a business course because I wanted to build an empire.”

“That’s very interesting.” Sungjin leans his body on the table, loving the ambitious side he is learning about the man in front of him. He is already done eating so he’s just here to listen to Wonpil until he’s done. Wonpil tends to be a slow eater. “Don't worry, this project is going to be successful and so your empire will grow bigger, I can assure you that."

Wonpil grins at the confidence Sungjin has. "I'm not worried about that. I heard of your reputation. Everyone says, whatever you do is successful. I heard every company wants to have you but you always refuse."

"Nah, that’s an exaggeration. Besides, I don't like going to work. There's traffic and gas is expensive. I’d rather waste my time at home rather than in the traffic, I can also take care of Dan Ah full time."

"I understand that this is out of your usual discretion so thank you for working with me."

"No need to say that, you're an exception. You always will."

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It is going to be busy in the coming days.

After endless meetings and planning, the project has officially come to motion. Sungjin has been tagging along like an official office worker, spending days as if he's working eight hours a day on shift. He’s still getting used to it but he misses Dan Ah when it's her summer vacation and they should've been traveling around. Many of the clothing designs were not only inspired by Wonpil's confectionaries but also contributed to the ideas, who apparently had background knowledge about clothes after a year in a Modeling course, which is going to be shown today. Although the collaboration started with a focus of simply expanding in South Korea, they have come to a conclusion that it's better for the collaboration to be a representation of different ages, gender, and colors just like how the sweets are formed in different types, shapes and colors which somehow reminded Sungjin of Wonpil's words he told him ages ago so Sungjin kind of gotten the gist that the original inspiration surely have something to do with Wonpil.

"Oh, Park Dan Ah.."

"Dan Ah?"

Sungjin turned to the familiar voice who just mentioned the name of his daughter or it could be someone with the same name.

"What do you think, Park Sungjin-ssi? I think Park Dan Ah would really look good in this design." Wonpil’s arms are crossed, looking sharp and attractively smart with his eyeglasses on, as he glances at Sungjin with a slight to no reaction.

Wonpil’s attitude in a professional mode was quite a shock for Sungjin. He is so used to seeing the man smile like sunshine, always foolishly giggling in front of him and Dan Ah that meeting him as a colleague at work, in a serious and calmer mood, Wonpil becomes kinda.. intimidating. In spite his approachable and optimistic take on his co-worker's opinion, his aura is different and that must be the reason why he is a boss of his own company. Sungjin couldn't help but think it's very sexy.

Sungjin walked closer to see the dress where they are all gathered to check the samples. His eyes met a layered sleeveless puff dress in a rainbow color like the first ever swirled lollipop Dan Ah received from Wonpil. Sungjin nods in acknowledgement, Sungjin can also see Dan Ah in the rainbow-colored dress. His daughter’s personality and Wonpil’s love of giving Dan Ah a swirled lollipop at the beginning is almost like a representation of their bond.

"So who's Dan Ah again?" The male representative from the main branch of the fashion department, named Kang Younghyun asked.

"My daughter.." Sungjin replies with his eyes not parting at the beautiful dress.

"Oh, you're married?" Younghyun eagerly asked as if he's very interested in Sungjin's life.

Sungjin and Younghyun worked together on the previous project of Kang Group so they sort of know each other. He is the same age as Wonpil. He used to work at the headquarters before transferring overseas to expand the company and now he is working on expanding the Fashion Brand that started overseas in South Korea. Sungjin did not really expect Younghyun to be very nosy in people's business. This is not the first time that Younghyun asked him a lot of questions. It was kind of strange at first when they were only getting to know each other but now, he's getting used to it. It seems like cares too much about the people around him.

"No, no. I'm.. I'm not"

"Oh, okay. Sorry about that. I didn't know you had a child."

"It's fine. I don't think we've talked about it before." Sungin replies.

"How old is she?"

"Five"

"Oh, that sounds good. Show us her picture. If the team agrees then let's invite your daughter. What do you think?"

"You want her to be the model?”

"Why not? We're still looking for models anyway."

"I know Park Dan Ah will look good in this. You won't be disappointed." Wonpil tells everyone ecstatically, very different from how seriously professional he was just a few seconds ago before he turned back to his usual professional mode but with a little more awkwardness between Wonpil and Younghyun when they are standing next to each other. Wonpil must be flustered for getting too excited talking about Dan Ah. Sungjin can’t help but smile.

"Well, yeah. If Dan Ah don't mind it, it'll be a good experience."

"Okay, show me her pictures." Younghyun requested.

A sudden short meeting with Dan Ah's pictures that were taken by Sungjin on his phone was connected to Bluetooth to appear on the projector of the meeting room for the team to decide. Sungjin used to not take a lot of pictures but after the orphanage visit with Wonpil and Ji Eun, seeing pictures of Dan Ah and Wonpil on his phone made him realize how meaningful it is to keep memories. He wants to cherish it while they’re still at the moment. So Sungjin started taking more pictures of Dan Ah, When he buys her new dress, when she is excited, when she is painting, playing music, and more. It somehow made Sungjin feel nervous now that the focus is on his daughter but it was easy to show them her pictures because she wears a lot of dresses. Dan Ah loves dresses.

"She's very adorable."

"True.."

"I thought Sungjin-ssi is single."

The employees commented as they continued to look at the projector. But Sungjin is used to it. It's the same thing his parents warned him when they were against his adoption plans. He could only care less about what others think about him.

"She also wears a lot of dress."

"Yeah, I enjoy dressing her up since she loves dresses so I'd end up buying a lot for her."

The people gathered in the meeting were in awe at Sungjin's response.

Sungjin kept swiping from his phone screen as they looked at the pictures when it accidentally swiped on one of Wonpil's solo picture, laughing brightly at something with his hand gripping the remote of Sungjin's TV in his favorite purple pajama. It was one of those movie nights and Sungjin was taking pictures of Dan Ah and Wonpil's adorable look. Sungjin was flustered at the photo on the screen he quickly turned his phone off and turned to Wonpil. Everyone in the meeting turned quiet with their going back and forth to both him and Wonpil.

"Sorry." He whispers to Wonpil who is as flustered as he is with his cheeks and the tips of his ears covered in pink shade.

"Yeah, I think.. its.. its Dan Ah." Younghyun stutters to fill the silence and have everyone's focus back on the original purpose of the meeting.

"Yep."

"Yeah, I approve Dan Ah too."

"Me too."

Others chimed in as if nothing happened and moved on.

Younghyun taps Sungjin's back which startled him. "We will discuss the schedule of the children’s fitting so you have to join us."

"O.. okay"

Sungjin took a deep sigh during lunch once he and Wonpil were alone at the small noodle restaurant near the company. They simply had jajjangmyeon and jjampong. He needs the spicy jjampong to get himself together. But Wonpil keeps playing with his food, quiet compared to his usual self as if he's mind was full of concern. "I messed up, didn't I?" Sungjin asked.

"Huh?” Wonpil blinks upon Sungjin's question.

"Did I mess up? Are you thinking about what happened earlier?"

Wonpil tries to think about it. Tapping his chopstick to his lips, eyes on the ceiling as if he’s teasing Sungjin by showing off his neck. “My image might’ve changed now in their perspective. I wanted to pretend cool but now they know how cute I am.” Wonpil scrunches his nose as he mischievously glances at Sungjin.

Sungjin rolls his eyes with a smirk on his lips. "I did notice how different you are when you are at work, I’m still getting used to it."

"I’m always like that outside.. but you and Dan Ah make me comfortable, I can’t help but find a new version of me when I’m with you. Is it weird?"

"No, I’m thankful you find it comfortable when you’re with us. I want you to always feel comfortable."

Wonpil softly smiles. "Don't think about what happened earlier. Instead, I want to congratulate Dan Ah's Dada. Your daughter is getting a job."

"A job.." Sungjin softly chuckles although he could see in the corner of his eyes that there is still something that’s bothering Wonpil.

With Sungjin leading the planning and the strategy of the Advertising team, he had to guide them to his big plans to promote the project. He wants this to be his most successful project among he’s done before. He must've wanted to show off. After all, he’s doing these for Wonpil. But speaking about Wonpil, he thinks he really did something that Wonpil didn’t like. He wanted to ask but it seemed too private to talk about it inside the office building. Wonpil might really hate him for real and that’s something he’d never want to happen.

But he can’t find Wonpil since they finished lunch. He started to ask himself if Wonpil was avoiding him or something very terrible happened beyond Sungjin’s imagination so he started asking the employees his whereabouts until someone was able to point out where he was.

He stepped out of the office room and found the empty meeting room the employee mentioned, however, once he found Wonpil, he saw him enrage, brushing off a hand that was trying to grab him. Sungjin was alarmed at Wonpil's actions that there must be someone harassing him. However, Sungjin hears something before he can even try to enter the room.

“Can we not talk about this anymore? I thought it was clear when you left me.”

Sungjin adjusted his view to see who is Wonpil arguing with and to his surprise, it was the man from the main branch of Kang’s Fashion Department, Kang Younghyun. No wonder Younghyun was interested in his affairs. It wasn't about him. It was Wonpil. Now he knows that Wonpil is into men, and he used to date Kang Younghyun.

“You know that I didn’t leave because I want to.” Younghyun argues.

“Really? I still remember as clear as a day that you wanted to choose your ambition over me. Did I blame you for that? Did I beg you to change your mind and choose me? No. I did not. And I tried so hard to accept that I wasn't good enough. That you love your ambitions more than me. And I was alright with that. I can understand that. But I’m not like you. I won’t abandon anyone that I love.”

“I’m sorry, please..” Younghyun once again tried to grab Wonpil’s hand. But Sungjin had enough, even if he doesn't want to interrupt, he pushed the door open which surprised both Younghyun and Wonpil, even Sungjin himself for doing something he's never done before.

“Don’t touch him.” Sungjin clenches his fist as he quickens his steps to take Wonpil away as far as possible from the bastard. “He said he doesn’t want you.”

“Hyung..” Wonpil says under his breath, letting Sungjin pull him away wherever it is.

They both ended up leaving during office hours which Sungjin honestly didn’t think about for a moment. Both his and Wonpil’s bags were left there, luckily all their valuable items such as phones and wallets were with them so it wasn’t really a big deal. Wonpil ended up calling his Secretary to collect his and Sungjin’s bags and bring them to their condo once office hours is over.

“Are you okay?” Sungjin asked in the silence as they sit in Sungjin's car afar from the company with no place to go.

“Hmm..” Wonpil nods.

“I’m sorry I interrupted. I was looking for you so when I saw you like that, I couldn’t help it. I think I overdid it. Why am I like this today?” Sungjin wants to grab his hair and reflect on his actions today. He could've made a huge mistake when Wonpil is unlike himself today.

Wonpil shakes his head. "Why were you looking for me?"

"Nothing, I was worried about you. You don't look good since we had lunch. I wanted to see you."

“I'm fine. I don’t want to do anything with him anyway so thank you for helping me escape.”

Wonpil gives him a comforting smile however, Sungjin is not convinced at all. “Do you want to eat? Take a walk? Or do something?”

"Hyung, now you know that I like men, are you not disgusted of me?"

"Disgusted? No. Why would you think that?" He asked as if it's the most ridiculous question Wonpil had ever asked him.

"I knew it. You are a very kind person."

"...."

"Flowers.. I want to walk in a garden or something..”

“Okay, I got you.”

Sungjin and Wonpil ended up in a Botanical Garden in Seoul since it’s the closest one. But Sungjin thinks he took Wonpil in the wrong place. There’s no flower in bloom at all, it's more like medicinal plants and trees that Sungjin can’t name at all. Is this why it’s called Botanical? He doesn’t know anything about biology at all. But Wonpil doesn’t say anything so Sungjin decided to just buy them ice cream. Sweets might make him feel better.

They both took a walk as they ate their ice cream. It was quiet and Sungjin's not going to ask anything. He just wanted to accompany Wonpil until he is better.

“Hyung.. did Dan Ah’s mom regretted leaving Dan Ah?” Wonpil finally talked.

“Uhm.. yeah, she did. But she doesn’t really have the means to take care of her at that moment so she never really had a choice.”

“She never really had a choice? Why? How is it that simple? Did she even try?” Wonpil’s eyes welled up with tears, ice cream began to drip on his knuckles.

“Are we still talking about Dan Ah’s mom?”

Wonpil eagerly nods although it’s obvious that this is about Younghyun. A lump was stuck in Sungjin’s throat. He don’t think he can finish his ice cream at all.

“She found out she was sick as she conceived Dan Ah.” Sungjin continues to explain.

“If you get into difficulties, are you going to leave the people you love?”

“What if they just need to get away? To think.”

“It’s different. Dan Ah’s mom can never get Dan Ah back. I won’t allow it.”

Sungjin forces a chuckle at Wonpil’s determination, understanding that none of this conversation is about Soo Yoon or Dan Ah. “I won’t allow it either.” He replies as he takes a handkerchief from his pocket to wipe Wonpil’s hand. “It’s sticky, let's get you to the restroom.”

Wonpil obediently follows Sungjin, letting him pull his wrist like a little kid. Sungjin didn’t let go of Wonpil even after arriving at the quiet restroom. He carefully washes the soft and beautiful hand of the owner that he can never dream of.

“Love is not an easy thing.” Sungjin’s lower voice still echoed in the empty restroom. Wonpil turns to him. “You can either choose to ignore it or be true to yourself and never let it go. When I chose to adopt Dan Ah, I saw a whole future of her as my daughter. Younghyun-ssi probably just couldn’t see his future with you back then but now, he does. In the end, it is still your choice whether to ignore it or to never let it go.”

“....”

“I’m sorry. If I only knew this would happen, I shouldn’t have proposed this project to you.”

“Hyung.. you said you’d help me grow my empire.”

“I did. But not to your heart’s expense.”

“I was responsible in this project too. I did it knowing there's a chance I'd see him again. But I didn't care about that because of you. Besides, I get to work with you.” Sincerity was filled in Wonpil's eyes and it feels like he is drowning in it. He could not look away. He doesn't want to look away.

“I like working with you too.” He replies.

By the end of the day, Sungjin had to quickly stop by. He doesn’t tell Wonpil exactly what it is about but when he returned to his car, he handed Wonpil a bouquet of Pink Tulips. Just like the tulips they saw from Tulip Garden when they visited some Orphanage.

Wonpil takes the bouquet reluctantly. And Sungjin wondered if he went overboard this time. Wonpil might be fond of flowers but not bouquets.

“Who is this for?” He asked in uncertainty.

“For you. You wanted to see flowers but there was nothing in the garden.. I thought a botanical garden would be the same.”

“Thank you. No one’s given me a flower before. Except for celebrations.” Wonpil shuts his eyes as he hugs the bouquet as if it is the most precious thing he received in his life. “Hyung, why are you so nice to me?” He asked without looking at Sungjin.

Sungjin was dumbstruck by the question. He honestly doesn’t know how to answer that. Why is he doing this? Wonpil is good to him so he wants to be good to Wonpil too. They’ve cared for each other to an extent and he wants to take care of him too. They know a lot of things about each other now. Even some secrets that they don’t tell others. He wants to say those things despite knowing the right answer but that's not his place when Wonpil is a mess like this because of another man.

“Because it’s you, Wonpil-ah.”

“Hyung, this is too hard for me.” Wonpil closes his eyes, tears slowly flow from his cheek. And Sungjin feels like he was being stabbed by Wonpil's words, he doesn't want to see Wonpil hurting like this.

So he looks away. He wants to comfort Wonpil but it feels like he is just making things worse. And that feels like a punch in a gut for seeing Wonpil cry for another man. It feels like an old scar has become a wound again.

“Wonpil-ah, it’s not like I know a lot about love but if it were me, I won't give up even if it kills me." Tears welled up from Sungjin with his eyes on the window. "Why don’t you try asking the same question? If you still love him. Don’t let him go with regret.”

Sungjin don't regret what he said. He is not going to take it back. By the end of the day, love is not a competition. If Wonpil chooses Younghyun, that’s because of the feelings he still has for him.

The next day was just the same except Sungjin could feel the tension between Wonpil and Younghyun, maybe it was always there and he only realized it today. So he tries to ignore it. He needs to stop interfering from here on. Their business is not his. Sungjin is just a neighbor and a friend. If he meddles, they will never be able to resolve their problem. So without thoughts in his head, Sungjin kept himself busy at work and later picked up Dan Ah on his own instead of Mrs. Lee usually doing it.

He brought Dan Ah to an arcade after a while and played Tekken with her. Her little fingers that knows where to attack put Sungjin at a lost. There’s no way this little girl knows how to play better than him. Arcade is the only thing he knows as a child and a teenager.

They decided to have dinner at home. Wonpil doesn’t come by like usual. It feels strange because he already got used to it.

Habits are the worst thing to experience because once you start having expectations, it will hurt when it isn’t met.

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“Hyung, this is too hard for me.” Wonpil says as his embrace on the bouquet tightens, he buries his head low so that Sungjin doesn't see how much pain his kindness costs Wonpil.

From the first moment, he had his eyes set on Sungjin. He admired the man's values and vision in life. He thought it was only a simple crush on someone he can admire from afar. But as days go by and as he gets to know the man breathing in the same space as him right now without noticing how much his feelings had grown in the past months they've known each other, he can’t help but fall in love.

His kindness. His caring voice. His affection. He tried not to fall for them, believing it’s only a bad habit of a sweet father treating his own child. Because that's what he is. He's never gone matured. But he can’t help it, no matter how hard he tries to deny his growing feelings, he has fallen in love with Sungjin.

“Hyung, this is too hard for me.” Wonpil choked in tears he's trying to hold back. It’s getting too hard to pretend that he doesn’t love Sungjin. Is this the part he should confess? What if Sungjin doesn't like that there's a man who likes him? Should he just find another place to live and never see Dan Ah again?

He doesn't want to lose them like this.

“Wonpil-ah, it’s not like I know a lot about love but if it were me, I won’t give it up even if it kills me. Why don’t you try asking the same question? If you still love him. Don’t let him go with regret.”

If you still love him. Ah. Sungjin thinks he still loves Younghyun. Younghyun is already an old story of his from the past, there’s nothing left to think about. He no longer loves Younghyun the way he used to.

By the end of the ride, Wonpil was unable to confess. The atmosphere was too heavy between them that it scared him that what he was imagining would happen.

The next few days, it felt like everything had changed. Sungjin was cold. He never felt this cold whenever he was with the taller. Even from the first day they met, Sungjin was awkward but nice and warm. However, Sungjin is completely ignoring him today. And Younghyun is always bugging him with his constant staring with him and Sungjin, it's even more uncomfortable.

It has been weeks since the project began so he sees Younghyun every day, and all day, Younghyun would ask him unnecessary questions just to bother him. Younghyun used to do that when they were still in university but it was different, Wonpil took it as a sign that Younghyun was flirting with him. But now, such gestures from the man he was no longer interested in has become uncomfortable. Sungjin is not like this, Sungjin respects his boundaries. Sungjin constantly cares about him. Sungjin never forgets about their plans. Sungjin remembers everything Wonpil would tell him and most of all, Sungjin always knows how to make him feel better.

But that night was different. He got a bouquet, not because of his achievements or because of celebration but for the first time in his life, he was given something just because he wanted it. Sungjin did not even know that he wants to walk in a garden because he was reminded of the happiness he felt when the taller brought him to the Tulip Garden when they were volunteering> Although those tulips weren’t meant for him, tulips reminds Wonpil of Sungjin and that comforted him the most.

“Are you dating him?” A voice from behind at the parking lot followed him.

Wonpil lazily turns to the voice. “Younghyun-ah, please. I’m tired of your antics. Can’t you just let it go?”

“I don’t want to. I don’t want to let you go like this. I need to know.”

Wonpil sighs at the painful sight. Wonpil can't understand why Younghyun is desperate like this. It has been four years since they broke up and those years can change so many things. Why hasn't Younghyun changed?

After a minute of hesitation, he approaches Younghyun. “Do you want to have dinner with me?”

Younghyun’s eyes glimmered in hope and nodded at the invitation. And Wonpil regretted it. He doesn't want to see Younghyun like this. He needs to end what he could not end four years ago.

Wonpil drove to their favorite restaurant near their university, Restaurant Blues. It has been a very long time since he last stepped in this area. At first, he just hated the memories of Younghyun so he tried to avoid all the places that reminds him of the man but as time went by, he just never had the opportunity and had forgotten about it. Except he still avoids any school reunion because just in case Younghyun does appear in front of him, he might not be able to handle it. However, it's different now, he accepted this project knowing there's a chance of them seeing again and when Wonpil knew that he was completely over with the man, he didn't expect Younghyun to still love him. He always thought that on the day they broke up, Younghyun just stopped loving him and was making up excuses by going abroad.

“Do you remember this place?” Wonpil asked.

“Yeah.” There was an unpleasant tone from Younghyun's tone, memories seems to flash by his thoughts.

“We spent so much time here studying and dating, we also broke up here. It's a good spot.”

"...."

Wonpil ordered their usual pasta and red wine. When they used to date, although Younghyun can't cook, he'd always attempt to make Wonpil Aglio e Olio after discovering that he loved the pasta in the same restaurant and Younghyun used to really love the wine they exclusively sells. “Honestly, I didn’t like the wine here.”

“What? Why didn’t you tell me?”

“Because I liked you. It's always like that when you want to please your partner.”

"It shouldn't be like that."

“It wasn't a big deal so I didn't think much about it but now.. I realized I should've been more honest in how I felt. I should've told you what was on my mind.” Wonpil takes the wine, although it's light on his hand, the weight was indiscribable deep inside. He pulled the bottle cap, pouring a glass to Younghyun and his.

“I thought you don’t like it.”

“I don’t. But the memories we have here tasted like this wine. If I drink this, I might remember all my mistakes and regrets.”

"Then don't drink it." Younghyun pushes the glass closer to his but Wonpil stops him by grabbing his wrist. Younghyun halts from his action as Wonpil emptily stares at him.

"No, I will drink it." He says.

Younghyun let go and watched Wonpil take his first sip of the wine. “When I got there, I thought I’d be fine. Dating was one thing, I’ve dated since I was in middle school and it was just the same. But when we broke up, as time passed, I realized that you were different from everyone that I used to date. I didn't just liked you, I really loved you that I tried to find a way to get back to the headquarters but my mother won’t let me. She wanted me to prove her that I deserve to be at the headquarters, now I’m here but you’re already gone.”

“We dated for a really long time." Wonpil smirks to himself as his thoughts travel to their memories together. "I understand, it was very difficult for me to get over you. I really cried a lot.”

“You should’ve told me not to go. You should’ve stopped me.” Younghyun quietly says with regret filling his tone. And Wonpil understands what he means, maybe Wonpil should've really said something. He should've told Younghyun what he felt but he was young and he was used to being left alone that he thought it was a natural occurence.

“But.. do you remember? When you told me you got an opportunity to work overseas, you were really happy. You were happy that I didn’t want to hold you back. But when I learned that you were not only working overseas for an opportunity but it was for your own company, and it was a huge cooperation.. I didn't even know. I felt terrible. I realized I wasn't important to you. I told you about my family, you met them but I never met yours. We dated for five years but I felt like I don't know who you are. I felt like I wasted so much time on someone who never saw a future with me so I decided to let you go. It was an easy decision for me when you suggested to break up. I was glad we broke up.”

"H-how?" He stutters.

"Kim Ji Eun. I guess it made sense, Ji Eun also doesn't tell anyone her background." The first time Ji Eun and Wonpil met was when his parents was still alive. It was on a visitation of the new company building of Ji Eun's parents, their parents has been at the business for generation and so as Wonpil's family. Ji Eun and Wonpil since then has been close after their parents became friends. They went to the same school until university, where she and Younghyun also met. "KHW & Co., they own that. She saw you on a party and learned about it."

"I.. see. I'm sorry. I made you feel that way. I was blinded by my ambition. I kept trying to prove that I was a good son to my mother that I forgot there is actually someone right next to me who doesn’t need me to prove anything."

"I understand. Don't be sorry. You had your priorities, I knew all that and that was okay. I don't blame you. We were young. I was ambitious too. I don't want to be anything but the best That's why I let you go. All these.." Wonpil paused for a second. "I just really want them to tell you. I have regretted not telling you how I felt, I just want to let it all go now that I have the chance."

"Wonpil-ah.. is it really impossible to start all over again?"

“Yeah, it's impossible." He firmly replies. "I’m not dating anyone but I don’t think we can work it out anymore.”

“I know you like Park Sungjin-ssi.”

Someone knowing he likes Sungjin doesn't surprise him when he knows how obvious he is but it still makes his heart skip a beat at a sudden mention of Sungjin's name. “Hmm.. I like him.”

“Why do you like someone like him? He’s already have a child. Does he want to date you?” Younghyun continually asked as if he's investigating him.

“I'll like him alone. It doesn’t matter whether he got a kid or not, I like him and I will get over it.”

“It will only hurt if you keep liking someone who can't reciprocate your feelings.”

“I know so don't make it difficult for me. Please let me go.”

The answer made Younghyun's eyes tremble. He replies hesitantly. “I.. I don’t know how to do that.”

“You’ll learn it too.” Wonpil quietly says.

Tonight, Wonpil doesn’t come home. He receives a message from Sungjin hoping he did not forget to eat after several days of being ignored. He ordered food at the restaurant with Younghyun earlier but because of their conversation, he lost his appetite and it was left untouched. So, now that Sungjin mentioned food, he suddenly felt hungry. But he is still driving and too sad to find something to eat so he went to find Ji Eun instead and once the door was open, it feels like the frustration that were stuck at the pit of his stomach were released as he sobs in his best friends embrace which surprised the woman. She glances at the staircase, hoping her parents doesn’t hear Wonpil or they will start asking questions.

Wonpil walks inside Ji Eun’s room where she brought him a cup of ramyeon. He cries again once he shoves a huge portion of noodles in his mouth.

“It’s.. its.. it's.. hot.” He says with difficulty, mouth still full like a chipmunk that constantly stuffs his mouth until he is unable. He ate and wailed, wiping his tears away.

“Can you eat later and tell me why are you crying?”

Wonpil shakes his head. He needs to finish his food. Sungjin still cares about him after being so cold.

“Is the work too difficult?” Ji Eun asked in concern, rubbing her best friend's back as she held a glass of water for him.

Wonpil finally finishes the last of his ramyeon and drinks his water. But once he’s done, tears flowed from his eyes like rain once. “Hyung bought me flowers.”

"Which hyung?"

"Sungjin.."

“PARK SUNGJIN?!”

“I almost confessed to him but I didn’t. And he's been cold to me since he gave me flowers. It was really weird. It feels like I’m getting stabbed every time he avoids me. He doesn't even try to meet my eyes. But he suddenly texted me to eat. What is he thinking?!”

“I think you two should talk.”

“Talk? What are we going to talk about? There’s nothing to talk about. What if I misunderstood?”

“You know what, I’m confused here. Can we start why Sungjin oppa is cold— why did you receive a flower from him?”

Wonpil explained the situation from the past few weeks, including Younghyun’s situation. And Ji Eun apparently, still hates Younghyun for leaving Wonpil. She hates him more than Wonpil hated Younghyun.

“Okay, this looks like a misunderstanding. Sungjin oppa probably thinks that he is being a hindrance in your relationship with Younghyun and that’s why he’s being distant. But he could have feelings for you. He’s acting like he’s jealous.”

“Jealous? That’s impossible. He’s always treating me like a child.”

“That could just be part of his affection."

“I don’t know. If I confess to him on some days from today.. can you look for a place I can live?”

“I.. yeah.. okay. But I don’t think you should run awa—”

“Dan Ah-yah!! I will miss Dan Ah if that happens. What will I do without Dan Ah? I’ll be so bored. I won’t get hugs. I will drop from Dan Ah’s ranking.” Wonpil mumbles with tears streaking his cheeks.

Ji Eun doesn’t understand her best friend's language. Wonpil looks like a kid throwing tantrums at every few minutes, rolling in her bed. Love is truly a magical thing. How did it turn his best friend like this?

“Ji Eun-ah.. should I just quit everything and become a monk?” A drunk Wonpil calmly asked, staring at his thirteenth can of beer.

“No. We can’t lose a talented businessman like you.”

“I changed course after a year because I like candies more than modeling, I didn’t know it’ll come to this. Kang Younghyun and now Park Sungjin. Park Sungjin is a really hot guy, he is better than that fucking Kang Younghyun. I miss Sungjin hyung. I want to see Sungjin hyung.”

“Should I call him for you?”

“I don’t want him to see me like this.” He cries again. “You know what.. I think Sungjin hyung loved someone else more than his life before. Who could compete from that?”

“Why do you say so?”

“I won’t give it up even if it kills me, is what he said. It feels like he is referring to someone.”

“It could just be a metaphor since you asked.”

“I know. It could be.” Wonpil pouts as he stares to the nothingness before he everything turned into pitch black.

The photo shoot began and for the past few days, Younghyun has stopped interfering Wonpil so he's been getting his peace except Sungjin’s presence has been distracting him more than usual. Sungjin was still the same, just a little bit distant. He act and talk all the same but it feels different. What if Ji Eun was right?

As he fights a battle against himself, he almost forgets that Dan Ah will be with them today. She’s already in front of the camera, wearing the dress Wonpil pitched in. She looks gorgeous in it as expected. Wonpil’s eyes sparkled just like Dan Ah’s beautiful and colorful dress. From a distant he saw Sungjin looking behind the camera, admiring his little girl before taking his phone out to take pictures from behind the scene. Wonpil suddenly felt proud of his creation just by seeing Sungjin's excitement.

Wonpil decided to approach Sungjin today as if nothing happened. As if they aren’t awkward at all.

“Hyung.. what are you doing?” Wonpil leans closer as Sungjin types away on his phone.

“Texting Soo Yoon-ssi. I’m inviting her to see Dan Ah’s photoshoot.”

Wonpil’s eyes widen. Wonpil is glad that Sungjin is now carefree when talking to Dan Ah’s mother. He’s thrilled too that he will be inviting her. Tomorrow there is another photoshoot so maybe if Soo Yoon can come, it would be great. “We can invite her on the Fashion show too.”

“That’s what I am thinking about. You just read my mind.” Sungjin smiles.

“I’m glad you’re not as worried about Soo Yoon seeing Dan Ah anymore.”

“Someone told me he won’t let anyone take Dan Ah away so I’m not really scared anymore.”

“You’re teasing me, aren’t you?”

“I’m complimenting you.”

There goes Sungjin with his nonchalant remarks again. It’s not like what he said is a big deal but it still makes Wonpil’s heart skip a beat.

Since the day Sungjin invited Soo Yoon, she started to frequently visit Dan Ah. Sungjin and Soo Yoon have been getting along for a while now, Wonpil didn't know when it started but Wonpil was present when the two had decided of creating a setup about Soo Yoon's schedule of meeting Dan Ah. She teared up in her overwhelming gratefulness. But as Sungjin become warmer to Soo Yoon, Soo Yoon has also become weaker in time as she started her dialysis. The awkwardness Wonpil felt with Sungjin after the incident with Younghyun was gradually forgotten when Soo Yoon invites him to join them. He can't deny but Dan Ah do likes it more when he’s there too, it makes him feel important to Dan Ah.

“Can you see it?” Sungjin asked Wonpil as they both stood from afar watching Soo Yoon and Dan Ah at a playground near the condominium. Due to their busy schedules, they can’t really go far for now and Sungjin is too anxious to leave Soo Yoon and Dan Ah alone as her body weakens.

“Hmm.. I can see it.” Wonpil gives a small smile as he keeps his eyes to both Dan Ah and Soo Yoon. “Her yearning for her daughter is so evident.”

“I’m worried Dan Ah will never have a chance to call her mother, mom. I think Soo Yoon would really like it if she gets a chance to have her daughter call her mom. What do you think?”

"Hyung.. what made you change your mind?"

"I kept thinking about it.. about you."

Wonpil glances at Sungjin, interest sparks at the thought of what does this have to do with him. "...."

"You lost your parents at a young age. I know it was hard for you growing up without them." It pierced Wonpil's chest, seeing that someone cares of how he thinks and feels. It felt strange. "And Dan Ah will only have me when she grows up, right now she doesn't seem to be very interested about the thought of her mom but I know later on, it'll cross her mind and I want her to know that her mom was always with her and that.. she didn't abandoned her because she wants to. She didn't had a choice."

"...."

“I’m sorry if I have to remind you of your parents.”

“No, you are right. In the end, people will leave this world and will be forgotten. But children, they never forget their parents. That’s why we should still try to create fond memories with them while we can, our parents don’t live forever. So as a son, I agree. I would do everything to call my mom and dad again and hear them call my name.”

"You are a very sweet person. I'm sure your parents were amazing."

“How about your parents, hyung?”

“I haven’t seen them in five years.”

“Why—? Wait, does this mean they haven’t met Dan Ah”

“You’re right. I haven’t introduced her to them.”

Wonpil silently gasped at the information when they heard Soo Yoon calling their name.

Both Sungjin and Wonpil was unable to notice that they’re done at the playground after getting absorbed at their topic. Dan Ah looked bright as she held Soo Yoon’s hand.

“Can you help fulfill me a wish?”

Sungjin and Wonpil glances at each other as if getting into an agreement.

“We can do that.”

“I know that you’re busy right now but can you take us to the beach sometime?”

Wonpil remember Sungjin telling him how Dan Ah’s name was after the sunrise. He can understand why it is the beach.

“Sounds good." Sungjin agrees.

"It should be an overnight.” Wonpil chimes in.

“Yes. That sounds good. Thank you.” Soo Yoon brightly thanked both of them before kneeling down to Dan Ah to give her a hug who is just as excited as everyone.

Wrap up party of the project happened in a blink of an eye. Everything went too fast and Wonpil’s plan of confessing was forgotten with Soo Yoon in the picture right now. He wants to be helpful to them instead of causing a problem. Dan Ah is a top priority more than anything else. Therefore, he’ll think about it again when the time is right.

The after-party was held at an exclusive convention at a five-star hotel after the success of its release. The response was highly positive and as expected, Sungjin did more than better in his part. This was the first time Wonpil saw Sungjin's work and to say he's impressed is an understatement. In fact, the company offered him a position after the contract was over which he obviously declined.

At first, Sungjin and Wonpil thought that it would be a formal party but it turns out it was a total wreck of a night pool party and everyone was dancing and drinking. It feels like everyone was told to wear sparkling clothes but them. Their suits were too dark for this place. Secretary Choi looked guilty in her red glittered cocktail for not providing a detailed information of how they were supposed to dress up. Younghyun walked over to them in his exaggerated shiny suit with a huge welcoming smile on his face that immediately faded by Wonpil's expression.

"But you still look sexy in your suit, Sir." She attempts to coax her boss with a compliment knowing she won't get through to him but since she worked with Wonpil from the beginning and witnessed the expansion of their company, she knows he'll soon get better.

"That's true. Don't worry about it. You still look perfect for the event." This time it's Sungjin's turn to compliment Wonpil like the concept doesn't bother him.

All of a sudden, Wonpil gets timid, blushing like he already sipped an alcohol. His secretary wasn't expecting him to relax this soon but she absolutely looks thankful for Sungjin's existence.

"Well.. I.. I guess it can't be helped." Wonpil stuttered, fixing his already good suit.

"Let's have a drink.. all of us!" Younghyun raises both of his arms, the scent of alcohol touches his nose as the man approaches them, as if he is trying to brush off the uncomfortable atmosphere as their eyes meet before he stands between Wonpil and Sungjin. Placing his arms on their neck as he drag the two to a seat where he and Secretary Choi was sitting in prior the arrival of the two.

Sungjin and Wonpil couldn’t stop Younghyun from dragging them to a long curved black sofa and a table filled with already empty bottles and cans of drinks before Younghyun left them for a moment to bring a said bottle of champagne.

Everyone was getting drunk, the drinks were making Wonpil high, and all of a sudden Younghyun brought him a bottle of red wine.

“Wonpil-ah, I really like this brand. This should be better than the wine at that cheap restaurant.” Drunk Younghyun shoves the bottle to Wonpil and he takes it with reluctance.

Sungjin, who was dragged by Secretary Choi to meet the head of the Kang Group along with the executives, who are also in the sparkly theme greets him. Sungjin has never seen the president of the company and it turns out she is a beauty, Younghyun looks just like her. It wasn’t difficult to figure out when everyone was talking about the rumors of Younghyun becoming the successor of the company. Even if Younghyun tried to blend in with everyone, the difference would never disappear. And Sungjin suddenly hates himself for comparing himself to someone this successful, it feels more bitter than the taste of the alcohol in his system.

He learned that the president came to personally see him and compliment his strategy on the project. But Sungjin can already guess where this conversation is going. He doesn't really enjoy working on a company. He believes what he has right now is the privilege, he has enough freedom while doing a freelance job that he confidently knows. He is confident that he can take care of Dan Ah this way and he wants to keep it as it is.

If only he could keep it as it is.

Because these days, he keeps thinking of Wonpil and he misses him more than usual. But now Wonpil and Younghyun are sitting next to each other, they look really good together.

"So you two are like good friends, right?" The president asked.

"Ah yes.. it’s been almost a year since we’ve known each other"

"That is good to know. We have to work together again. It has been a pleasure. This has been the smoothest and the most successful expansion we've ever done"

"We'll see about that." Sungjin replies.

Once the conversation was over, Sungjin wanted to go home. He doesn’t really feel like staying late and keeping Mrs. Lee wait for his arrival. Wonpil should be fine since Younghyun is keeping his company and Secretary Choi is with them.

But when Wonpil blinked, he was welcomed by the sun peeking in his room. His head feels like it's about to break. Wonpil turns away from the striking sun to continue his sleep and pretend the headache doesn't exist until he realizes something's wrong. He opened his eyes once again, this is definitely not the layout of his room, the color of the pillows and blanket are different. But everything looks familiar, he knows this place. And this smell.. he knows this scent very well.

Park Sungjin.

Wonpil's eyes widen at the realization. He quickly sits up in shock, his headache worsened from the action. He once again looked into the layout of the room. This is definitely Sungjin's room and it's not even a dream. And.. and his clothes, it has been changed, he is wearing Sungjin's beige shirt and comfortable shorts.. and it smells like Sungjin.. he smells like Sungjin. What did he do last night?

As Wonpil dumbly daydreams of Sungjin's scent, a soft knock on the room took Wonpil's attention and instead of responding he waited for it to open and once it did, a little girl ran up to the bed to give a quick kiss on his cheek. Wonpil thinks this is a dream.

"Good morning, Uncle Wompil!"

"Good morning to the prettiest girl in the world." Wonpil embraces the little girl in adoration.

"Uncle Wompil is pretty too." She shyly leans on Wonpil's chest.

"Then.. am I the prettiest man in the world too?"

"Yes." Dan Ah lifted her head and nodded without hesitation. "Dada made you soup, do you want to eat now?"

"Have you eaten yet?"

Dan Ah shakes his head. "I'm going to eat with Uncle Wompil."

"I have no choice then.. Uncle Wompil must eat." Wonpil replies although deep inside he is hesitant to see Sungjin. He got a feeling that he did something stupid last night before he blacked out. This never happened before.

Dan Ah and Wonpil walked out of the bedroom holding hands with Dan Ah slightly pulling Wonpil to the dining table.

"Are you feeling better?" Sungjin asked as their eyes met.

"Hmm.. what happened? How did I end up in your room? And my clothes.." He asked in an awkward tone he hopes Sungjin doesn't notice.

"You kept drinking last night then you passed out. I don't know the password in your condo and Secretary Choi has your keycard but she already went home so I decided to take you to my room instead. You vomited in your clothes so I had to change them." Sungjin answered all of his questions as he puts a bowl of soup in front of Wonpil.

Wonpil could still remember the part he was drinking. He was mad because Younghyun keeps talking about the wine and he was upset because all he sees was Sungjin despite the number of people enjoying the party. His frustration led him to drink more. He must've been really embarrassing. Sungjin must've carried him and the employees probably saw him pass out and that's totally uncool. He really fucked up. He needs to let these feelings out one of these days so he can finally move out and go far away from Sungjin to stop causing trouble.

"I'm sorry.. for causing you trouble. Do you think the employees saw it?"

"I understand that you're concern of your image but don't worry, everyone was too drunk to bother." Sungjin smiles with an assurance, lifting a little of Wonpil's worries.

"That’s good to know."

"Eat now. If your head is aching, I bought you medicine.. just in case." Sungjin brings the medicine on the table and prepares him water.

Based on Sungjin’s actions, he probably didn’t do anything stupid except for throwing up. But Sungjin still doesn’t meet his eyes, did he say something stupid instead?

So Wonpil couldn’t eat, he is bothered. He wants to remember what he did last night but he can’t and his head is throbbing, it feels like the ache is worsening. "Hyung, did I say anything weird to you last night?"

"Uhm.. let's talk about it later. You have to eat to feel better."

Wonpil doesn't protest. He watched Sungjin finish cleaning up in the kitchen once he was done eating, he tried to help but the man was treating him more as a guest that it feels like time is moving slow. He definitely fucked up.

"Come with me." Sungjin ushers him to his office room in which Wonpil entered for the first time. "Dan Ah-yah, Uncle Wonpil and Dada are going to talk so if you need anything just knock alright?"

"Okay!" Dan Ah replies before she grabs Gomi and made the poor stuff toy fly around the room along with her other stuff toys.

Wonpil felt nervous all of a sudden, it's like getting called on a principal's office after getting caught of doing something illegal in school or like an employee getting privately scolded by his boss in which he never experienced in his entire life before. He was a good student and he was even a better employee before he became his own boss. Wonpil's anxiousness gradually increased in every passing second as he waits to find out what he actually did. Wonpil thinks he can accept any embarrassing story as long as it's not about him confessing his feelings to Sungjin. He needs to confess sober.

"Okay.. well.. I mean I get it, about you and Younghyun—"

"Younghyun?” That was the name Wonpil least expects to hear from Sungjin’s mouth. Or he hope so.

"Yeah."

"No, I mean what about Younghyun?"

"Well.. you and Younghyun were dancing together and you kissed bu—."

“Ki— no way.” Wonpil covered his lips with his hand. Taken aback from what he just heard. “Kang Younghyun, that bastard.” He whispered to himself yet still enough for Sungjin to hear. “And then?” Eyes widen in panic and curiosity.

“I think the president saw it so Younghyun-ssi left to deal with it and..” Sungjin sighs as he think of last night. “..and I don’t want to leave you alone there. So I took you home with me without thinking and forgot about your stuff so here we are. But don't worry, I don't think anyone saw it, everyone else was just as drunk. ”

Wonpil feels like he is going to go insane. Of all embarrassing things to do, he had to kiss Younghyun and Sungjin had to see it. He definitely saw it. If there’s someone Wonpil wanted to kiss, it has to be Sungjin so why does this have to happen? Wonpil brushes his fingers to his hair, he’s losing it. Nothing comes to mind. He doesn’t have any excuses.

“I asked Secretary Choi to bring your things first thing in the morning. Your phone is with her too so just wait for her.”

“Hy—hyung.. uhm..”

“I know you’re worried but I’m pretty sure Younghyun-ssi already handled that.”

“How’d you know that?”

“We spoke on the phone last night. He was looking for you.”

Wonpil looks down on his clasped hand, digging his nails to his fingers before raising his head to look at Sungjin. “How about you?” How do you feel about this?

“Me?”

Wonpil nods eagerly.

“I think you should talk to Younghyun about this. Clear it up and make up. I feel bad for taking you home when he should've been doing it for you.”

Wonpil felt disappointed at the response. His answer doesn’t make sense at all. His question didn't make sense anyway. “You feel.. bad?” He mumbles.

“Yeah.. I don't want him to misunderstood."

“What do we have to make up for? I don’t like him anymore. There is no misunderstanding on that.” Wonpil lowly says before he decided that he should go back to his condo. He is not making any sense right now. They should talk again later.

Wonpil’s mind is in chaos. He just promised to be the person Sungjin could trust but now, his selfish eagerness to confess everything is pushing him. He wants to stop this. He can’t bear it anymore.

"Hyung—"

Wonpil was cut off when a call from Sungjin's phone rings. Sungjin picks up. "Uhm.. Yuna-ssi? Ah yeah. He's awake. I'll let him know. Thank you."

Wonpil looks down. He can already figure out that Yuna arrived.

"Secretary Choi is here."

“I understand, I’ll go back to my condo and wash up.”

“Go ahead. If you’re not feeling well, call me. Ah, no. Forget it. I.. I mean..”

Wonpil began to feel dizzy once again even after taking a medicine as Sungjin's words turned into shambles.

“It's okay. Thank you.”

Wonpil steps out of the room and finds Dan Ah at the living room playing with her toys. He crouched down to her level and stares at her for a moment.

“Uncle.. we haven’t played for a while.. will you have time for Dan Ah in the weekend?”

It’s a day off today because the project just ended and tomorrow is going to be a weekend.

“Sure. Is there anything Dan Ah wants?”

“Nothing. I just want to see you.”

“Okay.” Wonpil reaches out for Dan Ah with a gesture to ask for a hug and Dan Ah as always never declines. She wraps her arms around Wonpil’s neck. “I love you, Dan Ah-yah..”

“Me too, uncle.”

Wonpil returns to his condo and meets Secretary Choi, she gives him the pouch where his wallet, car key and keycard are in, once he gets to check his things, he put it on his bedroom and walked back to the living room where Secretary Choi was waiting.

“Yuna-yah.. what happened to me yesterday?”

“You really can’t remember?” She asked in surprise.

“It was crazy.. people who saw it was whispering how you were dating the son of the Kang— I mean, it was already a rumor that Younghyun-ssi was interested in you but we did not really seen it coming. Are you really dating? I thought you’re into Sungjin-ssi.”

Secretary Choi kept going and going that Wonpil could only roll his eyes. “That’s enough.”

“Sorry.” She sticks out her tongue in embarrassment. “Ji Eun-ssi kept calling since last night, you should call her back.”

“Okay.”

“Do I go now?”

“No, not yet.”

“If you’re going to ask about Sungjin-ssi.. his reaction last night wasn’t really nice. He only had a sip so I’m pretty sure he didn’t like what happened. I’m on Sungjin-ssi’s side so I couldn’t help but notice everything. Younghyun-ssi was rude for leaving after kissing you like that, he’s such a coward. I’m glad Sungjin-ssi decided to take care of you.”

“Thank you for sending my things on your day off.” Wonpil tells Secretary Choi before handing her money for taxi instead of reacting on her assumption. He is too tired to deal with another headache.

Wonpil finds five missed calls from Ji Eun last night and this morning. There’s a few from Younghyun as well but he decided to ignore it for now. Wonpil dialed Ji Eun’s phone number and in just one ring, she quickly answered.

“Why are you calling?” Wonpil starts.

“Yah! I thought—”

“You heard it already?”

“How could I not know? I know plenty of employees in that company.”

“So, what now? Are you two dating again? I thought you like Park Sungjin. You were crying about Park Sungjin and now you’re dating Kang Younghyun again? Are you nuts?!”

“Can you calm down? We’re not restarting. I don’t really like that guy anymore.”

“Are you serious?”

“Yeah. I am serious. In fact, I am confessing today so you better start looking for my new place if I get rejected.”

“You can’t be joking?”

“When will you stop asking?”

“Okay, okay. Fine. Whatever. Then Sungjin oppa should know that there’s nothing between you and Younghyun, right?”

“I told him I don’t like Younghyun anymore but I don’t know if he got what I mean. He understands me most of the time but at times like this, I don’t know.. he’s not.. he could be pretending not to understand. Even Yuna caught me, there's no way Sungjin hyung don't know.”

“Stop assuming. You have to explain, okay? Good luck.”

After the phone call ended, Wonpil decided to get ready to meet Sungjin but when he walked next door and pressed the doorbell, it wasn’t Sungjin at the door but it was Mrs. Lee, Dan Ah’s nanny.

“Oh, hi Mrs. Lee.” Wonpil bows to greet the older woman.

“Wonpil-ssi.. Sungjin got a call so he was meeting up with them. I think it’s about work. Do you want to come in? Dan Ah’s at her room”

“Uhm.. yes.” Wonpil hesitates a bit but Dan Ah’s name made it easier for him to agree.

"Sungjin-ssi, here."

Sungjin entered the coffee shop where he was contacted to meet the annoyingly good looking and fox-shaped eyes guy for god knows what and god knows why.

Sungjin has to admit that this guy is definitely handsome, his sharp jawline gives him a sexy look that can surely attract anyone he flirts with in a second and he, a coward and not even half as good looking as this guy will never be enough to attract the one guy that he could not stop falling into even after the long months they spent together.

"Why did you call me? Is there a problem with the project?"

"Uhm.. no. Everything's going smoothly. Too smooth in fact, I'll soon return overseas."

"Huh? Where?"

"I don't know yet. I'm fine wherever it is."

It doesn't feel right. Although Sungjin knew he should not be interfering, as Wonpil's friend, this doesn't sound right. Are they going to have a long-distance relationship?

"I actually called you here because I personally want to apologize and—"

"Apologize?"

"Am I going overboard?”

“I’m not sure where you’re getting at. You did nothing wrong to me.”

“But I did. Kim Wonpil said you two are dating. No?”

Sungjin raises his brows, not denying or confirming. If Wonpil needed his help, he should’ve told him about it, he will help any time. Now he doesn’t really know how to react but he doesn’t want to embarrass Wonpil so he plays along, hoping he won’t be caught off guard. “No, keep going. What were you saying?”

“I was already drunk so out of jealousy I kissed him. It’s not an excuse, I'm really.. really sorry. If you want to punch me or anything, I'll accept it."

“I’m not going to do that. I understand things did not went well with you and Wonpil when you were dating.”

"I don’t know if he already told you this but we dated for five years. I really liked him back then and I thought those feelings will just fade away after drifting apart but it did not. I honestly regretted leaving so when you proposed the collaboration with Wonpil's company, I thought it was an opportunity for me. But it turns out, I was already too late.”

“…”

“Wonpil.. he's still as princely as ever, just like the first time I saw him. Still sweet. A bit sassy but kind. That's why I did what I did. And I'm telling you all of this because I don't want you to misunderstood. I was drunk and impulsive, I'm very sorry." Younghyun bows his head to express his sincere apology.

Sungjin feels guilty for lying but he doesn’t deny any of it. At least he’s sure now that Wonpil is no longer interested in Younghyun. And for some reason he feels relieved that the kiss wasn’t intended. But he still needs to talk to Wonpil about this. If Wonpil doesn’t remember the kiss, he probably don’t remember lying about their relationship. He wants to clear things up with Wonpil. Turn it back to how they were.

Sungjin never really thought he’d fall in love again after the heartbreak he experienced back then. He was already clear that he’d only have Dan Ah for the rest of his life but here comes Wonpil whom he does not have the heart to get rid of. He likes everything about Wonpil, he likes being next to him.

"You can’t stop apologizing, I get it."

Younghyun nods his head. "I can see that Wonpil really loves you so I hope you can stay with him for a long time. Unlike me, who chose to leave because I was selfish."

"...."

"The way he looks at you, he used to look at me that way so I know.." Younghyun bitterly replies although Sungjin could tell that he’s trying to accept that he can no longer get Wonpil back.

Sungjin doesn't respond. He doesn't want to fully believe Younghyun and make a fool of himself. However, Younghyun's words did gave him courage.. a courage to confess.

But as they finish their coffee and had a little chitchat about the project and Wonpil, Sungjin becomes unsettled.

"Younghyun-ssi.."

They stood outside the coffee shop. Sun staring down at them, warmly touching their skin. Younghyun turns his gaze to Sungjin.

"I didn't mean to deceive you. Wonpil-ssi and I are not dating.. so if you still want to give each other a chance.. I won't interfere."

"What?"

"You see.. just like you, some people in that company mistakes that me and Wonpil are dating but the truth is.. although I like him, I've never really confessed so why don't you give yourself a final shot? Who knows you're the one who's mistaken about Wonpil's feelings."

There was an obvious shock in Younghyun's face as he looks down. Hesitance filled his face until it settles down.

"Wonpil told me he worked really hard to build his company to get here.. that's why I don't see why you're selfish. You are also just trying to achieve something in your life. You know what they say, "right person, wrong time". Maybe, now is the right time."

A little smile covered Younghyun's lips before he shakes his head.

"Thank you for trying to help me out but I know my ex well.. he doesn't love me anymore and no matter how hard I'll try, even if I choose to stay here, I know he won't return to me because.. you.. his heart is already with you so why don't you go ahead and shoot your shot instead? Trust me, it's not hard."

"In that case, you won't have another chance. If he accepts me, I won’t hesitate to punch you if you ever interfere."

Just because he and Younghyun came to understanding doesn't mean Sungjin was okay with the kiss he saw last night. No matter how hard he wants to deny it, he was not okay at all.

"I will never cross the boundaries again." Younghyun says with no hesitation before shifting his look afar to leave.

Sungjin checks his watch, it’s still early in the afternoon. He decided he’ll pick a bouquet for Wonpil, he thinks Wonpil really likes flowers just like how he enjoyed the Tulip Garden they visited when they were volunteering or how he wanted to visit a garden when he was down. He'll ask Wonpil to have a dinner and tell him everything.

There's only 50-50 chance. Either it'll go right or he'll mess up the friendship he and Wonpil had which will clearly affect Wonpil and Dan Ah’s close relationship. Wonpil is Dan Ah’s favorite person apart from him. He doesn't want to ruin anything by this confession.

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“Mrs. Lee, what is it?” Sungjin picks up the call as he picks the kind of flowers he wants to give Wonpil.

“Are you busy?”

“No, you can talk.”

“I might need to go home, my grandson is not feeling well and their parents is still at work.”

“I’m close, I’ll quickly get back. Please wait for me.” Sungjin quickly finished picking the bouquet to quickly go home.

Once Sungjin drops the call, his phone once again rings and his hands was frozen from the caller he least expected. He grips the bouquet tightly as he picks up the phone anxiously. “Jaebum-ah..”

“Hyung.. it’s been a long time.”

“What—”

“I won’t hold you up. You have to come home. He’s awake.”

Sungjin’s anxiousness soon disappeared by the news as if water was splashed on his face. He holds back the tears that is beginning to well up in the middle of the street.

“Uhm.. okay. Thank you, Jaebum-ah.”

“I’m really sorry.” Mrs. Lee says as he enters, preparing herself to leave. Noticing the bouquet in Sungjin’s hand but instead of asking about it, like she usually does whenever Sungjin brings something, she didn’t. She must be really in a hurry today.

“Don’t worry about it. Should I take you home if you’re in a hurry?” Sungjin suggested. He can just bring Dan Ah with them and drive her to her home. They’ve done it several times anyway.

“No, you don’t have to. I think you should go ahead and call Wonpil-ssi. He was here waiting for you but he got a call. His expression isn’t really good, I think something really bad happened. He also left in a hurry.”

“Oh.. okay. I’ll call him right away. Thank you, take care.” Sungjin tells her as she walks away, finding Dan Ah standing in front of her door’s bedroom, staring at Sungjin with worries, Gomi in her arms.

“What’s wrong?” Sungjin squats to meet his daughter in the eye.

“Uncle Wompil was sad.”

“I’ll give him a call, okay?”

Dan Ah nods as she tightly embraces Gomi.

Sungjin quickly dialed Wonpil’s number wondering what’s going on. Sungjin don’t really expect Wonpil to answer if he is on an emergency or if he is busy but after three rings, Wonpil answered.

“Hey, where are you? Are you okay?” Sungjin softly asks him series of questions out of worries.

Wonpil doesn’t answer. Instead, he heaves up and down as if he’s trying not to make a sound. “No.” He finally answers after a minute or so. “Grandma is at the hospital, I’m scared.”

“I’ll be there. Which hospital are you in?”

Once Wonpil tells Sungjin his whereabouts, Sungjin and Dan Ah immediately drove to meet Wonpil. The traffic was heavy as it was already the end of office hours and people are set to go home so it was already dark when they arrived at the hospital. And once they reach their destination, they found Wonpil outside of the operating room, sitting at the corner chair, head down in a messy hair, seemingly exhausted as he waits for the operation to end. With a familiar man Sungjin only spoke to earlier, caressing Wonpil’s back. Kang Younghyun.

The man stood up once their eyes met. Hesitation lingered from his gaze as he takes his own hand away from Wonpil’s back. “Sungjin-ssi..”

Sungjin licks his lips, struggling to move forward. Dan Ah impatiently removed her dad’s hand from her clasped once he paused from his steps and walked to Wonpil.

“Uncle Wompil..” She pats Wonpil’s head in concern and in no time Wonpil lifted his head and met the little girl’s teary eyes.

“Dan Ah-yah..” Wonpil softly called onto the little girl’s name as he pulls her to a hug.

Younghyun stepped forward to meet Sungjin halfway, bitterness filled his tongue from the man’s presence when he could not ask anything. He doesn’t have the right to do so. He is aware that he needs to put his jealousy away at the moment when Wonpil’s grandmother is not well and Wonpil is having a hard time but no matter how hard he wants to condition his mind, he is still full of questions.

How is he here?

“I¬—" Younghyun’s words were cut off by a voice.

“Sungjin hyung..”

With his mind full of thoughts, his attention was taken away by the man who supposedly was the reason he’s here right now. He and Younghyun turned to Wonpil.

“I told you to go home.” Wonpil’s forehead wrinkled as he steps close to them, facing Younghyun.

“I will..” He reluctantly replies in a sigh. “I’ll go now..” He glances to Sungjin, raising a hand as if he’s waving a flag of surrender tonight. But when Sungjin thought everything was already cleared up between him and that guy after today’s conversation, it doesn’t seem like it. It’s more like he is testing Sungjin’s patience.

Timing. He hates how timing is not on his side.

“Hyung..” Wonpil bites his lower lip as if noticing the expression from his face with Dan Ah tightly holding on to Wonpil’s big hand. For the first time, he wishes Wonpil couldn’t read how he feels. He doesn’t want to be part of his concerns when there are bigger problems he is facing right now.

“Are you okay?” Sungjin asked Wonpil, hoping to put the attention away from his.

“Younghyunie knows my family. And today, my auntie contacted him before leaving me alone in here because grandpa’s body can no longer handle staying here for so long. I told her not to bother but she still insisted contacting him.”

As expected from Wonpil, he can read Sungjin too well. And so, without filter, Sungjin decided to pluck the courage to ask. “But didn’t he only came here for the project?”

“He went to see my family a few weeks ago so they know that he’s here right now.”

“I see.. He must be very close to your family.”

Wonpil shakes his head. “They knew about us.”

“Oh..” Hearing that Wonpil’s family knows about their relationship too, he realized Younghyun must be very special. The length of their relationship is enough to confirm that. Even the night they kissed in front of many people, it might’ve been used to be normal to them.

But Sungjin, he doesn’t know much about relationship. The only time he fell in love also didn’t end well, all because timing was never on his side. His chest tightened at the thought. That he once believed happiness will never be on his side. Could his situation right now exactly just like before? He almost ruined his close friendship with Wonpil. Timing not being on his side must have something to tell him. Even if Younghyun didn’t lie to him today, if Wonpil is meant to be with him, it will be him.

Should he just stop the idea of pursuing this beautiful man right in front of him?

“Uhmm.. how about Ji Eun?” He asked.

“I know right. I don’t know about that either. I haven’t told her yet. I don’t want her to worry.”

So Younghyun can worry.

“Why are you eating a candy right now? You should eat a proper meal.” Sungjin softly scolds Wonpil who just unwrapped an unfamiliar candy next to him while Dan Ah is lying her head in Sungjin’s lap, softly snoring.

“It’s a littmus candy. It tastes really good. Do you want some?”

“I didn’t know you like that candy.”

“Now you do. It helps when I’m feeling down.”

“…”

“I was really scared earlier. When I was rushing here, I only had one thought. I can’t imagine a life without my grandparents. They’re the only ones I have.”

“But your grandma, she’ll be fine. Don’t worry.”

Wonpil leaned his head to Sungjin’s broad shoulder and sighs. “I’m glad you’re here.” He says before closing his eyes and at that moment, Sungjin desperately wanted to hold Wonpil’s hand.

And it feels like a compliment. It feels like he is a necessity to someone’s life. And it feels like everything he just thought of earlier after seeing Younghyun next to Wonpil washed away. Affection is a crazy thing, it can hurt you in a second and make you feel better next.

“But you should still get a proper meal. There’re still a few hours before the operation’s over so let’s get you something to eat and come back, okay?”

“You are really firm.” Wonpil lifts his head, endearingly glaring at Sungjin. “Okay.” Wonpil agrees in defeat as he peek at Dan Ah’s peaceful face.

“Don’t worry about her. I’ll take care of her.”

But as Sungjin carries Dan Ah, she soon wakes up from the steps his dad takes and instead of getting irritated from the unexpected wake up call, she smiles instead.

“Uncle Wompil..” She says once her eyes set at the man next to his dad. “Are you okay now?”

“Yes, thanks to you.” He says as he pulls her small hands to his. Letting his skin touch Sungjin.

“Mrs. Lee and Dan Ah was really worried about you.”

“I ran out while we were painting, my baby must’ve been surprised.” Wonpil kisses Dan Ah’s hand. “I’m sorry.”

“I don’t like it when Uncle Wompil is sad.” She pouts as she tightly holds on to Wonpil’s fingers that can only be grasped by her smaller hands.

“I’m not sad anymore, now that you’re here.”

They went to the nearest restaurant from the hospital and Wonpil got a jjamppong, Sungjin got a seollongtang and japchae for Dan Ah. The taste isn’t really that great but it’s enough to fill their stomach at the deepening night.

Once they got back, Wonpil’s auntie is already there waiting for them. Wonpil introduces Sungjin and Dan Ah as his neighbor. He ponders to himself how Wonpil introduced Younghyun to his family the first time they met. Sungjin was soon forced to go home because Dan Ah needs some rest and he doesn’t want her to sleep at the hospital either in this kind of situation.

But once they got home at midnight, Dan Ah wasn’t really sleepy. She’s full of energy as she run inside the house.

“Dada, what is this for?” Actually, Dan Ah saw this earlier but she was just as distracted after Wonpil dashed out of the door.

“I was supposed to give it to Uncle Wonpil.”

“Will you give it tomorrow?”

“I don’t think so. I don’t think it’ll be pretty anymore. I’ll just get him a new one.”

“Uncle Wompil also likes action figures. He’s got a lot of toys inside his room.”

“I don’t know much about action figures. Maybe I can take a look about that.”

Dan Ah nods at her dad. “Dada, can I finish my painting before I go to bed? I want to give it to Uncle tomorrow.”

Sungjin glance at his wristwatch and although it’s already midnight, he doesn’t think it’s a bad idea since it’s a weekend so he made her wash up before letting her sit in front of her unfinished painting, leaving the bouquet at the kitchen counter for now.

As Sungjin watch over Dan Ah to finish painting in her canvas, he realized she’s actually trying to paint Wonpil. Her art style is a caricature, it was a bit exaggerated with Wonpil’s face larger than his body but expressing her fondness to the man with the flower bed around him. And there’s also another unfinished one next to her, it’s a back of a child and a father holding hands on an amusement park. It isn’t the best but it’s something you can easily tell that they learned arts just like every kid at school. “Did you paint this as well?” Sungjin naturally asked Dan Ah.

“Uncle Wompil did that one. I wanted to paint him so he painted us as well.” Dan Ah replies without glancing, focusing at completing her painting. “Uncle Wompil also likes the amusement park.”

“Yeah?”

“Uncle Wompil said, his mama and dada used to take him there when he was at my age.”

“Do you want to go there too?”

“With Uncle Wompil?”

“Sure. If he wants to.”

Dan Ah brightly smiles at the thought of it and Sungjin softly smiles at his daughter’s enthusiasm, thinking about the times his family taking him at the amusement park as a child as well. There’s nothing that’s memorable about it but he just remembers the feeling of spending his time with his parents and his big sister and how nice it was but now that he lives far away, he barely has the time to contact them. In fact, he hasn’t contacted them since he left for Seoul.

“Dan Ah-yah.. are you happy right now?” Sungjin asked as he stares at the details of Wonpil’s painting.

“Yes. Uncle Wompil is not sad anymore. Dada is here with me. Dan Ah is happy.”

“If I.. if Dada likes Uncle Wonpil, is that okay to you too?”

“Hmm?” Dan Ah pauses from stroking her brush and turns to his dad. “Uncle Wompil also asked me the same thing today.”

“Really? What did you say?”

“I’m okay. Dada and Uncle Wompil are the two people I love the most in the world.” She spreads her arms as if to express how big her love is for them. “I want Uncle Wompil and Dada to be happy too.”

Sungjin nods at his little girl, overwhelmed by her pure and innocent answer. “Dan Ah-yah.. dad loves you very much.”

“Me too. Dan Ah loves Dada too.” Sungjin kisses his little girl’s forehead at the response, overwhelmed at her daughter’s response.

He was never a good son to his parents so to be blessed with a good daughter, feels like a miracle to him. He doesn’t know if Dan Ah understands what Sungjin meant but Dan Ah’s answer was clear to him. Happiness that he doubted all his life. It’s something that she wants for both him and Wonpil.

But that’s only something he wish for. Only if Wonpil wants to be with him, he can be happy.

The next day, Sungjin sighs on the bouquet at the kitchen counter, it is starting to wilt and he should really throw it out but putting it in the trash feels like throwing his feelings away, besides, garbage is not today so he decided to put it at the table in his room so it don’t look like it’s cluttered in the kitchen.

Sungjin dialed Soo Yoon’s phone and informed her about his plans for the week. Soo Yoon and Dan Ah has been constantly meeting up with Sungjin around lately so it only felt right to let her know that Sungjin and Dan Ah will be away in two days.

[Sungjin-ssi.. if you don’t mind, is it possible to come to Busan during the weekend?]

“Weekend?”

[Do you remember when I wanted to visit the sea? Can I do that there instead?]

“Well.. I don’t think that’s a problem. But what about your dialysis?”

[I’ll take care of it. Don’t worry.]

“Okay.”

[Wonpil-ssi will be there too, right?]

“I know I promised it with Wonpil but I don’t think that’s possible.”

[I see. Did you two fight?]

“Fight? No. Wonpil and I are only friends, I can’t bother him when he has a company to take care of.”

[Ah, I got it. Sungjin-ssi, thank you again for letting me see Dan Ah.]

“Of course, you’re her mom.”

Sungjin promised Wonpil that he’ll visit again in the morning and so he and Dan Ah drove to the hospital bringing a lunch box, he knows it’s difficult to get something to eat when someone is sick. Especially Wonpil, who tends to forget to eat when there’s a lot in his mind.

Now, that reminded him of Dan Ah’s mom. He knows he should not really get involved in her life and that he first hated the idea of seeing Soo Yoon but now that he’s warmed up and understood her, and how much Dan Ah adored her mother, he can’t help but wonder if there’s anyone who actually cares about the woman.

But once again, Younghyun was there today. If only he knew, he shouldn’t have come. He doesn’t want Wonpil to be concern of his appearance especially when the man hasn’t slept since last night. Wonpil once again introduced him as a neighbor and a friend, and just like last night, that left a bitter taste in Sungjin’s mouth as Younghyun was there watching them. So, he decided not to take too much space in the room and leave once he greets Wonpil’s grandparents and confirm how his grandmother’s doing.

“Hyung, are you leaving already?”

“Hmm.. I just came to visit. I still have to check Dan Ah’s school admission. You know, classes are about to start.”

Wonpil hesitated to speak as if he has something more to say but in the end he decided to give him a simple reply. “Okay. Take care.”

“You too. Bye.” Sungjin shortly answers as he turned to leave with Dan Ah.

Sungjin took a deep breath once he was away from Wonpil’s sight. It feels like there’s a huge lump in his throat and his stomach is being squeezed. That goodbye felt like it’s the last time although they live in the same building.

Wonpil didn’t feel right when Sungjin turned his back against him. It has been like that since last night and no matter how he tries to pretend that nothing’s wrong, the more he believes that the older is hiding something from him.

So, he dragged Younghyun at the emergency exit where no one can possibly hear them.

“Ow, that really hurts.” Younghyun rubs his arm that was tightly grasped by Wonpil’s hand.

“Tell me, what’s going on?”

“What?”

“Why do you keep appearing here? Didn’t I tell you that I don’t want you to come?”

“I did not come for you. I was worried about your grandmother too.”

“You’re lying. That night at the party, you even ran away.”

“Wah, Kim Wonpil.” Younghyun says in disbelief. “You dated me for five years, am I really a coward?”

“…”

“You heard it too, right? My mom saw it. I don’t care who sees us but my mom, she always makes a big deal about everything. We already stopped dating so I wanted to make sure she doesn’t do you any harm. But if you date me again, I’d take you out of this country and marry you.”

“Yah, Kang Younghyun!”

“Why?! I know it was all my fault and I tried to let you go but I can’t. I still love you.”

“What did you tell Sungjin hyung? Why was he anxious?”

“I don’t know. He probably chickened out.”

“What are you talking about?”

“I came to talk to him yesterday, I confirmed that he likes you. Are we done?”

“Kang Younghyun, Younghyun-ah..”

“I apologized to him for kissing you, but what is this? Why do I have to get myself involved like this?”

“I-“

“I said it hurts, let me go.”

When Wonpil returned to his grandmother’s room, Younghyun was no longer there. Wonpil also had to excuse himself using work as a reason when he wants is to find Sungjin. His auntie had to tell him that he didn’t need to come back when he is busy but he still insisted that he will to check on them.

Wonpil pressed the doorbell to Sungjin’s condo to no response. He tried to contact Sungjin to no avail so he ended up sitting outside the condo waiting for the two to return home but due to sleep deprive after last night, everything turned black.

A nudge brought Wonpil to his senses and to his surprise both Dan Ah and Sungjin are staring at her.

Sungjin sighs in relief as he plops down in front of Wonpil. “I thought something happened to you. Are you conscious now?”

“Oh, uhm..” Wonpil’s heart beat irregularly just by Sungjin’s close appearance. “I’m sorry.”

“Uncle Wompil, are you okay?”

“Hmm..”

“Did you left your keycard and forget your home password?” Sungjin asked.

“No. I.. may have lost my wristwatch. Can I come in and look if my watch was in your condo? That watch was a family heirloom given by my grandfather, I can’t afford to lose it.”

“It must be really important.” Sungjin once again sighs as he stood up. “You stayed in my room, it could be there. Let me open the door.”

Wonpil walked in to Sungjin’s room by the taller man’s lead. Dan Ah directly went to her room so she could wash up and change. As he enters, nothing has changed, Sungjin is as neat as always, the only thing that distracts his eyes is the almost wilted bouquet in the the room. Who could it be for? Wonpil blinks away the distracting thoughts inside his head but Sungjin once gave him a bouquet and he thought that made him special, it turns out he wasn’t. Sungjin must’ve been really kind to anyone.

“Oh, that bouquet is now wilted.” Wonpil nonchalantly says as soon as he enters. Immediately, he pretends to bend down and check if the wristwatch could be under the bed. He took his time to pull out his phone to open the flashlight and look once again.

But once Wonpil stood up, he saw the older panicking and holding up the wilted bouquet where some of the petals are cluttered in the floor now.

“Are you.. okay?” Wonpil asked in hesitation.

“Huh? Y-yeah. I’m.. I’m okay. My room’s a mess, I’ll throw it out.” He replied suspiciously.

Sungjin hurries out the room with the bouquet but before he could, Wonpil has already blocked his way. Brows meets in concern. “What’s wrong?”

“N.. nothing?”

“What’s with the bouquet? Who is it for? Do you just give flowers to anyone?”

The series of question pressured Sungjin that he blurted out an answer. “No.” And it doesn’t look like a lie. It feels like he was being honest but that doesn’t answer his question at all.

“Then.. who?” He tried to ask once again. He hoped Sungjin would say his name. And if he does, he will not be shaken ever again.

“No one. I wanted to put a flower vase inside the house but I got too busy and I forgot about it.” He answered way too smoothly that Wonpil didn’t want to believe.

“Are you telling the truth?” He asked once more, hoping Sungjin will change his answer.

That it was for him.

“Yeah.”

“Okay.” Wonpil nodded, finally giving up.

So, Younghyun lied to him again. Sungjin doesn’t like him that way after all.

“Please give me a second.” Wonpil watched Sungjin carefully place the bouquet on the available chair at the corner of his bedroom where he tried to reach out for something at the corner of the floor. But Wonpil doesn’t want to stay here any second, he wants to go home. “Is this what you’re looking for?”

Sungjin stretched his arms to Wonpil and shows him what he got in his hands.

“It’s really here..” He slowly says. One more word to utter and he might break down. But uncontrollable tears slowly spilled in his eyes. It doesn’t hurt that Sungjin doesn’t like him, it just hurts that he expected he had a chance. It’s clear now. Everything’s clear now.

What exactly Younghyun told Sungjin for them to be this anxious?

“Hey, were you that worried to lose it?”

Wonpil nodded as he accepted the wristwatch from Sungjin hand. “Thank you. I’ll make sure to pay you back.”

“You don’t have to.”

“No, I’ll make sure to do that.” Wonpil firmly replies.

Chapter Text

A soft knock from Wonpil's door grabbed his attention as he sits at the kitchen of his condo with his laptop on and a cup of tea next to it. No one usually knocks when a doorbell exists so he tried to look through a peephole of his door, however, the hallway was completely empty and he doesn’t see anyone at the door.

He shivered at the possibility of ghosts, this never happened before. And there’s no rumors about ghost in this building! But it’s already midnight. Do they come out at midnight? He was sure he just heard a knock from- ah! There it goes again. Now he’s sure he wasn’t only hearing things, he’s positive someone’s knocking on his door so he once again checked through the peephole and after verifying that the hallway is clear, he grabbed a frying pan and bravely opened the door only for his eyes to land on a downhearted little girl in her purple nightdress, standing in front of her door with her teddy bear, Gomi, before Wonpil could attempt to swing the frying pan.

Wonpil hastily drops the frying pan away upon meeting the little girl’s eyes and squats to meet her height.

"Uncle Wompil." Dan Ah throws her arms to Wonpil’s neck, tears welling up in her eyes.

"Why? What's wrong? Did Dada scold you?" Wonpil frantically asked as he caress her back.

The little girl shakes her head as she fights back the tears falling from her eyes. "Dan Ah saw Uncle Wompil cry. Did you and Dada fight?”

Before he left Sungjin’s room, he was unable to stop his tears and so he ran away. Dan Ah must’ve seen it.

“Did you come here because you’re worried about me?”

The little girl nodded her head.

“I’m sorry. Uncle was looking for his watch and Dada found it. So, uncle was crying because he was happy.” Wonpil feel bad for gaslighting the kid in front of him but this is the only excuse he could come up. It worked on the father, it could work on the daughter too.

"Does Dada know you're here?" He wipes Dan Ah's tears away.

Dan Ah shakes her head. "Don't tell Dada." She pleads as she tightly embrace Gomi.

"Hmm.. eventually, Dada will know that you’re not home. You don’t want Dada to worry too, right?”

She shakes her head at the thought. Eyes quivered as she hesitates.

“How about we tell Dada and you sleep here tonight?"

"I promised Dada I won't bother you, what if he gets mad?"

"No, he won't. Uncle Wonpil will tell Dada that Dan Ah is not bothering Uncle Wonpil. I promise."

Dan Ah finally agreed and Wonpil took a selfie of the two of them before sending it to Sungjin to let him know where Dan Ah is.

[Hyung, Dan Ah is here.]

[Huh? Dan Ah should be in her bed.]

[I am sorry]

[I didn’t even know she went there.]

[She only runs away when it’s about you]

[No, it’s okay. I’ll take care of her.]

[She’s worried you’d get mad.]

[You’re with her. Tell her I’m not mad.]

[And sorry again for disturbing you.]

[It’s not like that. I like being around Dan Ah.]

[Have a good night.]

[Goodnight.]

Wonpil sets his phone down to the bedside table and turned to Dan Ah who is clinging to Gomi under the blanket, smiling cheerfully once Wonpil was done with his phone.

"Dada's not mad." Wonpil says once he shifts his body to Dan Ah's direction.

"He really said that?"

"Do you not trust, Uncle Wonpil?" Wonpil teases.

"I do. Thank you for keeping your promise, Uncle Wompil." Dan Ah sincerely smiles.

The sweet smile and the pretty eyes of the little girl that has been worried about him for days made Wonpil feel calmer than any days of his chaotic week. "Thank you for coming over too. I am not lonely because of you.”

"I like it when we visited the other kids, I wish I could sleep next to Uncle Wompil and Dada every night." Dan Ah puckers her lips as she stares at the ceiling.

"You can come over any day, I wouldn't mind.”

"But Dada is not here." She sulks this time.

"Right. But when you grow up, you won’t want that anymore."

"Why not?"

"It is how it is."

Wonpil just knows that when Dan Ah grows up, she’ll become an admirable woman. She’ll be able to achieve the goals she’d set for herself. And thinking about it makes Wonpil feel proud of her already. Even if he doesn’t see himself in her future, he hopes that everything would go smoothly in her life and if she has to get hurt, it would only be enough to give her a lesson and allow her to stand up to become better.

"Dan Ah don't want to grow up." Dan Ah squishes Gomi in her arms.

"Why?"

"In Dan Ah's old house, when a kid is not loved, they will live there until they grow old. If Dan Ah grows up, will Uncle Wompil no longer love me too?"

The logic of this little girl really surprises Wonpil, she’s always thinking ahead. But that's completely out of the question. Dan Ah already took his heart away, there's no way he’d stop loving Dan Ah. "You know that Uncle Wonpil will always love you. You're my best friend."

"How about Dada?"

"Dada is forever gonna be your Dada. He will always love you."

Dan Ah leaned closer to Wonpil. "Uncle Wompil and Dada loves Dan Ah but do you not love each other anymore?"

"Why do you think of that?"

"Dada is sad. Uncle Wompil is sad. I don't want you to fight." Dan Ah’s eyes welled once again at the thought.

So Dan Ah is not like her dad after all. She knows.

Wonpil caresses the little girl’s long hair, pushing away the hair strands blinding Wonpil's way to see Dan Ah's face. "We are not fighting. Uncle Wonpil just feels like a kid in your old house right now but it will soon pass and I will be alright."

Dan Ah lifts his head blinking with concern. "Who doesn't love Uncle Wompil? Uncle Wompil is my favorite uncle."

"There is someone. I’m sorry if I made you worry.”

“Dan Ah is okay. I want Uncle Wompil to get better soon. Does Uncle want a hug?”

“Hmm.. I need it.”

Once Dan Ah drifts off to sleep, Wonpil returned to work on his laptop. He still could not sleep even after the long conversation with the little girl so he thought working until sunrise is the best solution like always when his mind is full of thoughts. It’s been a while since he acted like this and it feels like he’s restarting to the way he was before he met Dan Ah and Sungjin. It’s a necessity. He needs to go back to the way he was. Be an ordinary neighbor and keep the friendship he built with the beautiful little girl who trusted him from the beginning and treated him with so much care and love. There is nothing more important than that.

Dan Ah would always wake up early whether it’s school days or summer. Wonpil noticed it as he’s always been in and out of Sungjin’s condo, while Sungjin could be inconsistent in the weekend, he tries to match his daughter’s waking time during weekdays. So Wonpil stayed up and decided to wait for Dan Ah to wake up. He ordered her favorite nuggets and prepared the cereal available in his empty condo.

Usually, Wonpil would just barge in to Sungjin’s condo every morning, eat whatever Sungjin would feed him but today, he won’t do that. He sent off Dan Ah to her door and waited until she gets inside before going back to his condo. Sungjin doesn’t text him about breakfast like usual. He then refreshed himself and prepared for work but once he stepped out of his door, Sungjin was there in his casual clothes before he goes out, waiting for him. And Sungjin never waits for him to open the door, he always presses the doorbell.

They’ve really changed. No. They’ve restarted. They’re back to the beginning

“Hy-“ He got tongue tied before he could say anything. Calling his name casually is not easy anymore. Now that everything about them is not as it used to be, should he go back to calling the man, Sungjin-ssi?

“Wonpil-ah..”

“Yes?” He rashly replied after getting startled while he was lost in his mind. His heart dropped upon hearing his name. It’s warm like always, yet, he doesn’t like the sound of it. It feels like something’s about to go wrong and it’s making him anxious.

“I have been thinking about what you’ve asked me yesterday and after you left I realized.. what you were trying to do. Younghyun-ssi must’ve told you, right? And he was right, I like you. The bouquet you saw yesterday, it was yours.”

Huh? Wonpil’s eyes widen at the sudden confession. It feels like he’s getting constrained to speak. Something is tightening in his chest, he can’t breathe.

“I’ve liked you for a while but I won’t ask you to give me an answer right now.”

“Why?” He breathes out. He wants to say something about this situation. Wonpil don’t understand why Sungjin wouldn’t want an answer. It can’t be like this. What about him?

“I have to go home. To Busan. I will be away for a week so think about it and let me know what you feel after I return.”

“Oh.. okay.” That was it?

“Secretary Choi, why is the CEO doing this to us? Are we going under?”

“Yah, aren’t you an intern? Don’t say something ominous. He’s just not feeling well.”

“Shouldn’t he go home if he’s not well?

“That’s the problem. He works like crazy when he’s sick.”

“I can’t believe you survived doing this job for years.”

“Hell yeah. So, you better get your ass back to your desk or you won’t pass the internship.”

Days goes slow despite Wonpil’s efforts of making his time useful. He went to meetings, created new plans and visited his grandma after his day ends. Making a new routine was terrible. Going back to the way he used to was impossible. Park Sungjin. That man won’t leave his mind alone. Wonpil missed him terribly. After confessing just like that and leaving for a week, how could he just wait? He should’ve stopped him from leaving just like that. He should’ve said something.

“Annoying..” He mumbled.

“Yes, CEO Kim?”

“Huh?” Wonpil lifted his head and saw twelve people staring at him. He just forgot that he is in a meeting room full of his employees to start a new product. “Nothing, keep going.”

This is all Park Sungjin’s fault. He can’t focus at all. And his papers are all scribbled of his name. Wonpil dropped the pen to stop scribbling as he sighs. What the heck is he even doing right now?

“Is there something that you dislike with the report?” The employee who is standing in front with her power point on asked in concern.

“I’m sorry but can we do this again another time? I can’t really focus right now.” Wonpil admits to everyone which everyone inevitably nodded. They can’t really do anything if he can’t continue with the meeting.

Wonpil picked up his phone and stared at Sungjin’s phone number as he lay his head on his office desk. It has been three days. No calls or messages. Wonpil pondered if he should just contact Sungjin first. But he said, it’s one week. But this one week is not working for him. It feels like he’s going to die if he doesn’t see Sungjin and Dan Ah.

The ringtone and vibration from the phone startled Wonpil from his thoughts. Wonpil picks up as soon as he confirmed the contact name.

[Soo Yoon-ssi?]

[Wonpil-ssi.. I was just calling to ask if you’re going to Busan this weekend.]

[Busan?] What a coincidence. Why are everyone going to Busan these days?

[Hmm.. you promised to go to the beach with me and Dan Ah, will you be able to join us?]

[Wait, so you’re telling me you’re going to play in the beach at Busan. This weekend. With Sungjin hyung and Dan Ah?]

[Sungjin-ssi, didn’t tell you? I thought you’d know by now.]

[He told me he is going to Busan.]

[I was right. You guys really had a fight.]

[We did not.] No, seriously. Why are everyone assuming that they had a fight? And if they did, what’s the big deal?

[Whatever you say, Kim Wonpil-ssi.] She says in defeat but it definitely sounds like sarcasm. [So, should we go together?]

But Sungjin said they’re going to talk after his return. Will Sungjin get mad if he just suddenly shows up? He can just pretend Sungjin is not there if their eyes meet. Whatever. He needs to see that guy. [Okay, I’ll drive.]

[Great, see you.]

After the phone call ended another call entered and stared at it for at least a few seconds before picking it up.

[Wonpil-ah..]

[What do you want?]

[Are you really going to greet me that way? I have been reassigned to the European branch. I am leaving tomorrow so can you meet me after work?]

After his fight with Younghyun that he knew ended with a misunderstanding once Sungjin admitted that he indeed spoke to the man, he felt very guilty. He should’ve apologized days ago but he could not bring himself to reach out to the man. Although the past was long forgotten, seeing Younghyun once again felt like there are needles carving his heart out, especially when he can still remember how those eyes would look at him and are still looking at him the same way. It doesn’t shake his thoughts and it doesn’t budge his heart that already loves Sungjin but it does bother him.

Younghyun, whom he thought did not love him enough for years after they had separated has actually kept him in his heart for a long time.

[Fine.]

[I’ll pick you up. See you later.] Younghyun brightly replies before ending the call. Younghyun who doesn’t like to drive.

This time they found a new place to meet. Compared to that old restaurant close their university that Wonpil didn’t like so much, Younghyun brought him to a different place.

“Pet café?”

“Yeah, for a change.”

“It’s cute.”

“I know. They have these cute stuffs too.” Younghyun shows him a small toy that looked like a Poodle puppy with pink ribbon on its neck and a Birman cat. “It’s yours. You can’t keep living things at home but you can have these toys instead.”

“Do you have pets?” Wonpil asked as he playfully pets the small toys in front of him.

“No, I move from place to place so I can’t really keep any living creature with me.

Why did it felt like he was talking about Wonpil?

“So, did you make up with Sungjin-ssi?”

“Why are everyone assuming we had a fight?”

“You did not?”

“No, it was just a misunderstanding.”

“Fine, fine. So, what happened?”

“Did you asked to meet me to ask these stuffs?”

“So, you haven’t made up. I see.” Younghyun smirks to himself.

“You look really happy.” Wonpil crosses his arms from the sight.

“You said you can’t keep any living things but look at you, doting on someone’s daughter. You like him that much?”

“Yah, you make it sound like I’m only trying to earn Dan Ah’s favor for her father.”

“You’re not?”

“Woah, you’re so annoying. Are you done talking? Can I go home now?” Wonpil stands up, picking up his suitcase and phone.

“Okay, sorry. I’m not going to say that again. Now, sit.”

“Am I a dog?”

“Please..”

“Whatever..” Wonpil crosses his legs as he glares at the delighted Kang Younghyun.

“You’re still cute as ever. I want to keep you on my pocket.”

Those compliments used to make Wonpil giggle. It used to make him happy. Younghyun used to support him in whatever he wants. When he changed his course. When he changed his dream. But it no longer felt that way. All he can hear is a joke and Wonpil could only roll his eyes.

“Wonpil-ah.. I’m sorry for what happened at the hospital. Your grandparents were really kind to me when we were together, I can’t help but visit them when I heard about what happened.”

“Don’t apologize, that’s not your fault. I know they like you and you like them too. I should’ve fixed my own problem so it wouldn’t lead to misunderstanding.”

“Did Sungjin-ssi misunderstood?”

“I don’t know. I don’t know what’s on his mind lately. But.. you’re right. He likes me. He confessed to me.”

“He did? Then.. what now? What’s the problem? Why are you so depressed?”

“He is in Busan right now.”

“Okay, so you miss him?”

“No. I mean, yes. But it’s not like that. He told me to give him an answer after a week. Why did he think I’d want to think about it? What’s in there to think about? I’m about to go insane. I feel like I’m the one waiting for him.”

“Why don’t you go see him?”

“I will.”

Younghyun chuckled as if it’s not an answer he was expecting to hear after suggesting. “You’ve really gone crazy.”

“Stop laughing at me. Should I send you off tomorrow?”

“No. What if I can’t leave because of you?”

“Tsch. Since when did you become this annoying?”

“What do you mean? I haven’t change. It’s you who have changed.”

Maybe Younhyun was right. He did change a lot. In the next day, Younghyun left him a message before leaving the country. It felt weird, it feels like getting abandoned again by the same person but it no longer hurts like it used to and unlike before, he doesn’t think of terrible things for Younghyun anymore, instead, he wants to wish for Younghyun’s safe journey in life and he hopes he meets someone better. Someone who can love him as much as he can love someone.

Wonpil prepared his travel bag for the weekend and met Soo Yoon at her apartment. She looked excited as she gets into the car, her hair covered with a shawl scarf due to hair loss but compared to her cheerful face, her skin complexion tells the opposite. Her pale skin is getting more and more discolored patches in her body compared to the last time they met. Her eyes looked more tired than it usually was. And it concerns Wonpil.

“Can you really handle a long trip? It could take 5 hours to get to Busan. Should we just take a plane? The trip should be shorter that way.”

“I was planning to take KTX if you were not going because I wanted to take a longer trip. Let’s just take your car as planned, I haven’t been on a trip for a while.”

“Sure. We can do that. Just let me know if you’re not feeling well, okay?”

“I understand.”

The trip was quiet but it was fine. The silence was comforting by how long they’ve already spent time together with Dan Ah. Although he and Soo Yoon doesn’t have a lot of things in common to talk about, talking about Dan Ah have always been fun for them. Listening to Sungjin talk about Dan Ah’s achievements and ordinary days makes it feel like they were knowing Dan Ah better each day. They went to plenty of places with Sungjin that he thinks he was always almost there. Even today, even if it’s not for Sungjin, Soo Yoon wanted him to be there with them.

They went to a rest stop half way their destination to eat and go to a restroom. They took a sit on an available table at the crowded area that is filled with a mix of foreigners, people on a tour and people just like them

“Soo Yoon-ssi.. is dialysis not going well?” Wonpil asked before taking a bite of the hotdog he bought on a stall.

“I stopped.”

“What?”

“Don’t tell Sungjin-ssi.”

“Why?”

“It hurts. Dialysis makes me tired. If I keep going, I won’t be able to meet Dan Ah anymore. I would be wasting my remaining days in the hospital. I don’t want to do that.”

“Soo Yoon-ssi.. we can always find a way. Don’t do this.”

“I don’t have to live long, I just have to spend the days I am left with Dan Ah. And you just have to be there with us. You will live longer with my Dan Ah so please take care of her. You can do that, right?”

“I..” Wonpil heavily gulps down. The hotdog that tasted good at his first bite now felt like sand in his mouth. What is he to Sungjin and Dan Ah? What does Soo Yoon see in him that he doesn’t? “I love Dan Ah.. I really do.. but I’m not-“

“Wonpil-ssi-“

“You see.. I think you’re mistaken. I may like Sungjin.. but I don’t really know where is our relationship right now. Even after the last time we saw each other, I still don’t know where we stand. As much as I want to be there for Dan Ah, that is not up to me.”

“…”

“The future with Dan Ah, it sounds nice. Seeing her grow up. See her ups and downs in life. I want to be there too. But I can’t promise you anything. So can you please try to live a little longer?”

“I don’t want to be desperate. If I try, I might just want to live more even if it’s impossible.”

“I’m sorry, Soo Yoon-ssi. I’m very sorry.”

Soo Yoon shakes her head. “I’ve always thought it was clear. I thought Sungjin-ssi loves you.”

“Just like how much you want to see Dan Ah, I’m just the same. I don’t have plans. I don’t want to be desperate. But going with you to see them, I don’t really know what I am doing right now.”

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It’s been five years since the last time he stepped in his hometown. Five years since he last saw his family and friends. It felt strange when his mom and dad was waiting for him outside of their house. They used to not care when he enters and leave the house but today, they were staring at his car from afar, expecting for his arrival.

He stopped in front of the house and opened the car door. His parents whose hair has now become gray with their skin becoming wrinkled, felt unfamiliar. He was suffocated to an embrace of his mother once he stepped out of the car yet, it was comforting. His father was calmly standing behind her but the thrill in his eyes can be seen. He was happy to meet his son. His big sister is at the front door, looking from afar. She doesn’t usually make a huge fuss but even so, he can tell that his sister was excited to see him.

“Hold on, my daughter.. she’s inside.” He tells them when he was about to be pulled inside. There was surprise in their eyes despite knowing about it years ago.

Although, he told them about his plans of adopting a child. They have not seen her. Not even her pictures. Dan Ah have heard of her grandparents but she never usually asks about them when Sungjin don’t mention them as much and her curiosity mostly revolves to what she sees.

Sungjin opened the door of the passenger seat. He could see that they were anticipating to see her. They used to be so against of him adopting a child when he can have one for himself. But that’s not it. They may never know but Sungjin never fancied any woman in his life and just by that, he can already see the future. That it’s impossible for him to have a child. But future is something we can never predict. He may don’t have a child with the same DNA but he still had one now. A child that he loves more than his life.

“Is this her?” His mother asked as he close the door of the car where the little girl is now standing right in front of her grandparents.

Dan Ah grabbed her dad’s legs when the strangers were curiously staring at her. His noona impatiently stepped out from the gate to meet his daughter.

“Yes, her name is Dan Ah. Park Dan Ah.” He clearly tells them as if showing that she’s legally his daughter. “Dan Ah-yah, greet your grandparents and auntie.” He gently pushes her to stand in front and greet them.

Dan Ah obediently bows down to them and introduces her name once again.

“She’s cute.” Is the first word his noona said after a few minutes of his arrival.

“Let’s go.” He urges everyone to enter the house. His childhood house.

To his surprise, they were looking forward for his arrival. Feast was in front of them. And Sungjin missed the taste of his mother’s food. Dan Ah enjoyed the meal well as she slowly gets to know her grandparents. She became more enthusiastic talking to them as time goes by, telling everyone about what she and her dad do together, who are her friends and the things that she can and can’t do. Sungjin was not surprised how they are now very much interested of her. Everyone loves Dan Ah. He is fully aware of that. But Dan Ah can only love those who are truly there for her.

Just like Kim Wonpil. He already misses that beautiful man when he saw him just few hours ago. After asking Wonpil to wait for him, he felt even more nervous. He doesn’t know what he was expecting. Younghyun told him that Wonpil likes him but he doesn’t want to believe it until he hears it from the man. So now, he might be waiting for nothing but it’s alright. Having the chance to like someone and tell how he feels already feels like an achievement. Dan Ah once told him, love is a blessing and loving someone among millions of people is a miracle.

But for now, he has to face another reality and face the friends he lost contact for five years and witness a miracle after seven years that he left behind.

“Sungjin-ah.. are you going to the hospital tomorrow?”

It’s a cloudy night and the bulb at the front yard shines brightly under him and his father. His father who has been trying to stay away from liquor in a few years now requested to have a drink in their front yard.

“Yes.”

“Okay, you can just leave Dan Ah with us and have fun.”

“Have fun..” Sungjin mumbles as his mind wander to the thoughts of how it’ll be tomorrow when they all meet again.

“She grew up really well, she got pretty good manners. I didn’t know you’ve always wanted to be a father. You used to tell us you’re not getting married. So, I thought you had no hope. It turns out marriage is only what you hate.”

“I didn’t say I hate marriage.” In fact, he just dislikes the idea that the only people who are allowed to get married in this country are in between male and female. He just don’t fall in the category.

“Are you dating anyone?”

“Just give up. I’m not getting married.”

“I didn’t ask about that. I’m asking if you’re dating anyone.”

“I’m not..”

“Why not? What’s wrong with my son?”

“I don’t know..”

“Is there anyone that you like right now?”

“Is that the only thing you can ask about your son?”

“Come on, this is how I want to catch up with you. Your dad is old and I haven’t seen you for five years. Can’t you just indulge this old man?”

“Don’t say that. I’ll come home from time to time now.”

“Your mother misses you a lot. She’s always talking about you when we are alone.”

“I know. I’m sorry, I wasn’t a good son.”

“No, no. We wanted you to live the way you want. It was our choice.”

“I went to therapy. I volunteer and do plenty of extracurricular. Your son is better now.”

“That’s good to know. I’m glad that even without us, you can live well. I’ve always known you can live a good life even without us.”

Seeing his parents grow old reminds him of Wonpil. He will never have his parents forever, he has to live well and create more fond memories with them. He has to live without regrets. Because everything that he has is something Wonpil yearns. And for the longest time, he forgot to appreciate what he has that others don’t.

“There is someone..”

“Hmm?”

“There is someone that I like..”

“There is?” His noona that he doesn’t know how long was listening, walked on them and brought her own glass to pour herself a drink. “Keep going..” She urges.

“I don’t know if that person like me back.”

“Is ‘she’ pretty?”

Sungjin sighs at the sight of his noona as if she’s teasing him. “Yes, he is.”

“Did you tell ‘her’ you like ‘her’?” His father asked.

Sungjin looked down to his glass that he hasn’t touched in a while. “I did but I asked him to wait for me after I get back. It’s stupid. What if he gets impatient and say no?” Sungjin bitterly chuckles as he thinks of it.

“Sungjin-ah.. love is patient. I waited for your mother to like me too. I’m sure if that person likes you, they will wait.” His father pats his back.

“I really hope you’re right.”

Sungjin walked to the hallway of the familiar hospital. It’s been five years since he last entered this place and there has been a lot of changes since then. For some reason, he is nervous to see everyone. They are all going to be in the same room just like that time seven years ago.

When he knocked and opened the door, he was met by the familiar gaze of friends he used to be so close with. They were already in Busan a day before Sungjin came, he would’ve gotten here sooner if it wasn’t for the turmoil of his feelings for Wonpil and the surgery of Wonpil’s grandmother. He heard that they’ve been visiting from time to time and it was only him who had stop coming but he never stopped sending money in secrecy in hopes to help his friend’s struggling family and so, they don’t give up on him.

“Sungjin-ah..”

“Sungjin hyung..”

He could hear the ecstasy from the tone of his friends once he arrived and he is delighted that everyone’s glad to see him again just as much as he wanted to see them but there’s one particular among them that will always be distinguished. The younger man that he once loved. His first love who is now in his hospital gown, finally looking at him again directly in the eye after seven years.

“Dowoon-ah..” Sungjin’s eyes welled up as he passes by everyone in the room to closely look into the younger man. Miracles truly exists.

The rest of his friends gathered and pulled him to an aggressive hug. They usually don’t do a lot of skinship but the overwhelming happiness of being complete again must be the reason. A hug just feels right.

"Long time no see, hyung."

"I'm glad you're awake."

"I heard about everything. Thank you."

"Thank you too.. for waking up."

The short emotional reunion soon ended by a strike of a palm which caught their attention. "Okay, enough drama. We should be planning ahead our trip."

"Yah, I can't even walk yet." Dowoon complains.

"The doctor said you'll get better in a month. Don't worry about it. You should get ready."

Dowoon rolled his eyes.

After a while, everyone simply started talking about their jobs and the places where they resided. Most of them already started a family and had kids. Sungjin and Dowoon are the only ones left who are single. Later on, the conversation was directed to him when his adoption was raised. News flies really fast when it comes to his family and friends. He did not tell anyone except his parents and sister, it might only be one of them who had spread the information. And they already want to meet her. So, everybody decided to gather again tomorrow in Dowoon’s room to meet his daughter.

Sungjin learned that Dowoon was already aware about the loss of one of them and cried enough for him. For now, he will have to be confined in the hospital until he regains the nutrients his body needs. It was seven years, therefore, Dowoon also have to do some basic exercises and therapy until his body can finally go back to the way it was.

As his friends returned to their homes, he remained to Dowoon's side until his family is back to the hospital.

They had a short conversation until the people Sungjin have been waiting finally arrived. Once their eyes met, the shorter older woman rushes to him and was immediately pulled to an embrace. Just like his parents, the gray on the older woman and the older man's hair was noticeable and the wrinkles on their skin are becoming visible. Time naturally changes people but you can tell that they are more exhausted than anyone. It’s the efforts in taking care of their vegetative state son.

"I'm so glad you're back home." The older man rubs his back.

"Thank you. Thanks to you, I've seen my only son wake up." Dowoon’s mom shed a tear as she looks up to him.

"I haven’t done anything. You're the ones who sacrificed a lot. I can’t even visit. I’m sorry.” Sungjin lowered his head. Regretful from his past actions. He avoided them for too long.

“No, you’ve done the most among everyone here in this room. Don’t discredit yourself, hmm?”

Despite Sungjin’s disbelief, he didn’t argue and only nodded to them. “I understand.”

"You should stay here. We brought food after hearing you’d visit today. Let's eat together." Dowoon’s dad smiles to him as he began to prepare the food on the table.

Sungjin had a hearty meal of Dowoon’s mom’s food. It has been a long time and it still tasted good. He remembers that he became friends with the hoobae of one year during high school because of his mother’s food. Dowoon and Jong Chan were friends. He, Sandeul and Jaebum were the close ones. And after Sungjin’s curiosity by how tasty Dowoon’s lunch was after seeing the pretty presentation, Sungjin and his friends were all taken to a small restaurant that his mother own. Since then, they have been visiting and has gotten closer until they started getting jobs.

The days he spent with his best friends were the happiest moment in his life. But it was also his biggest crisis. In the course of their time together, Sungjin discovered the feelings he never had before. Ah, he thought he just haven’t found the woman that he’d truly like but the more he spends his time with them, one particular person entered his heart and just like that, everything has changed.

The next day, everyone was gathered in Dowoon’s room again. It was loud and chaotic just like yesterday. Excited to meet his daughter although he is aware that they are only fascinated of Sungjin’s choice in life. Adopting has been a common occurrence but to find one among your peers and family is still rare. But he trusts them and so it was comfortable teaching them the difficult and long process.

“Dada, why was your friend in the hospital?” Dan Ah lies on her stomach as she innocently blinks at her father. Tonight, they share a bed together.

“My friend fell asleep for sooooo long and just woke up.”

“Was he very tired?”

“Hmm.. you’re right.”

Thinking about it, it feels like Dan Ah has been frequenting hospitals lately. First, it was Soo Yoon. Then it was Wonpil’s grandma. And now, Dowoon.

Why does his life have to surrounded with so much disaster? When his heart is also in chaos. This year has to be the most eventful year of his life after years. But as long as Dan Ah is healthy.. Wonpil and his family.. he will be alright.

“Dada, grandma showed me your pictures when you were small. You are just like Dan Ah.”

“Was I? I was small too, right?”

“Yes. I’ve also seen Uncle Wompil’s picture when he was small. He showed them to me. He was very cute.”

“I’ve seen them too.”

“Dada, when are we going home? Dan Ah misses Uncle Wompil.”

“It won’t be long.”

Dan Ah’s lips shaped into an upside-down U and buried her small face to Sungjin’s chest. Sungjin hugs the little girl. This is the first time she asked for someone else other than him. Wonpil is really special.

The week wasn’t exactly eventful but seeing Dowoon slowly go back to the way he was makes it eventful enough to watch over him. Sungjin decided to spend more time with Dowoon and his family, doing the heavy work to take care of Dowoon during physical therapy while Dan Ah spent her time getting to know her grandparents by going from places to places. He hopes Dan Ah is distracted enough to enjoy her time in Busan and stop missing Wonpil for a moment, just like him.

“Son.. who is Wompil?” His mother sneaks in to his room after dinner.

“Wom.. it’s Wonpil.. my neighbor. Why?”

“Is that a man or a woman? Your daughter must be very close to them, she keeps talking about them nonstop.”

“Ah.. it’s a man. He takes care of Dan Ah when I’m not around. He’s very good with kids.” Sungjin vaguely replies.

“Is that man rich? Why is his house made of candies? Is he a cartoon character?”

Sungjin suppressed a laugh from the information she learned. It feels like getting fooled by a child.

“No, he’s just a businessman. He owns a candy company.”

“I see. Dan Ah is still very young and she’s already crushing on a man.” His mother clicks her tongue as if she’s worried about what she’ll become in the future.

“Mom, don’t worry about her. It’s not like that.”

“Fine. What do you feed her? Is she eating healthy? I’ll make plenty of side dishes so make sure to bring them all, okay?”

“I cook now so don’t worry about her meals too.”

“My son has really grown up.” She cups his cheeks, those eyes that are just like his dazzles as she scans his face. “I can’t believe you are now responsible of another life. You two only have each other at Seoul so you always have to be healthy but if it’s hard don’t hesitate to call me and your dad, hmm? We’ll go to you.”

“Don’t overreact. We’re okay.”

“Aigoo. You’re still the same. Stubborn.”

“If I’m not stubborn then I’m not your son.”

“Right. This is why I had so much stress raising you and your noona.”

“Mom, I heard that you also visit Dowoon. Thank you for going in my behalf.”

“He’s a good kid and you cherished him a lot, what can I do?”

Right. He did cherish Dowoon a lot. He thought his feelings was obvious despite of suppressing it alone. It made him feel good to take care of the younger without asking for anything in return and he was satisfied with that but for some reason, he found a courage to confess but before he could do that, he was already dating someone. A woman he met at work. He looked too happy that he doesn’t want to spoil his moment. And that was the end of it. His first love.

“The room was very stuffy, it’s nice to be here.” Dowoon gazes at the afternoon sky at the rooftop of the hospital, sitting on a wheelchair. It’s clear and shady that the breeze of summer is warm in his skin.

Sungjin hums as he leans on the wall with his hand on his pocket, watching Dowoon enjoy the sky.

"This feels strange. I can’t believe that you already have a child. When I woke up, everything still felt like it only happened yesterday but to all of you, it was already seven years ago. Your faces slightly changed too. Is this what time traveling feels like?”

"I can’t believe it too actually. I didn’t see it coming.”

“Hyung.. it must’ve been hard on you. I know it was you who insisted on keeping me alive when everyone.. even my family.. already gave up on me.”

“No one gave up on you. It was just hard for everyone.”

“It must’ve cost you so much money. Seven years was too long.”

“…”

“Why haven’t you given up on me?”

“Because I know this day would come.”

“I don’t know how to repay you.”

“Just live well. That’s all I ask.”

“I know you liked me.”

“That’s not the reason why I did all that. I would do the same to any of you if it happened to anyone. You know it was my fault. I wanted to take responsibility.”

“Hyung, it was only an unfortunate accident. You did not even drive that car. Besides, we all wanted to take that trip.” Dowoon tightly held his hand with both of his. “No one was forced to go. No one is blaming you for what happened. So please, can you believe me for once?”

“I’m sorry. I was wrong.. I’m really glad you are here now. I don’t have to worry”

“Hyung.. thank you. Thank you for everything. For saving me.”

No, thanks for staying alive.

[Sungjin-ssi.. I found a beach with a good accommodation. Let me know when I can reach out to you.]

Sungjin stared at the message for a moment as he lies on his bed before he stepped out of his room to find Dan Ah. It turns out she’s with his noona, teaching his little girl how to put makeup and now her face is caked with different products.

“Dan Ah-yah.. tomorrow, we’re going to the beach.”

“Beach!” Dan Ah exclaimed.

“Are we all going?” His noona asked with expectation.

“No. I’ll be meeting up with someone.”

By the response, disappointment was drawn on her face before regaining her expectant look. “Omo! Is this about the girl that you like?!”

“No- I don’t- it’s not like that.” Sungjin sighs in defeat. His situation is not that easy to explain. He can’t tell her that he’s meeting the real mother of his child. It wouldn’t make sense and he is not going to tell them anything.

She glares at his unsatisfactory answer. “Mom! Dad!” She yelled all of a sudden, as she tries to run out of the room, Sungjin quickly pulled her back and covered her mouth. He can already figure out what she’s about to do. They’ve been siblings for too long, he knows she’s going to cause a problem for him.

Dan Ah laughs as she watched and cheered both her father and auntie rolling around like it’s the MMA.

“Stop screaming! Ah!” Sungjin exclaimed in pain after his noona bit his finger. But he can’t give up so he continued to block her way out of the room by grabbing on her ankle.

“Moooooom!!” She screamed once more. And her loud voice surely reached outside, both of their parents came running to the room.

This crazy woman.

“Mom, dad!” She heaves as she crawls to their parents after getting away from Sungjin’s grasp. “Sungjin’s going to meet his girlfriend tomorrow. They’ll go to the beach.” She happily spreads the misinformation.

His parents both gasped in delight upon hearing the news.

“It’s not true!” He tried to defend himself.

“You hesitated!” She argues.

And while they continue to scream at each other’s face, a small voice from behind caught their attention away.

“Is Uncle Wompil coming?” Dan Ah innocently blinks.

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Sungjin regretted it. He should’ve discreetly told Dan Ah last night. He didn’t imagine his family could still be this childish. His Noona has always been arguing with him to tease him as a kid but now, he thinks that it’s because this is how she shows her affection and after years of not seeing each other, who knows that this is also just an excuse to hang out because she misses her little brother.

“That’s the problem. You’re too old and we still haven’t met anyone you dated.” His Noona argued in the front seat of the car, heading to the beach where Soo Yoon would be waiting for them.

If only she knows that he’s never dated before. Although, that’s embarrassing to say in front of his troublesome Noona.

“You’re sister’s right. But it doesn't matter as long as I have my pretty granddaughter.” His mother agrees in the back seat with his father next to her, coddling Dan Ah.

“Mom, I think we’re forgetting that Noona’s also not married.”

Their quiet father suddenly laughs and his sister grits her teeth. “I will get married.”

“Hurry up, we’re not getting any younger.” Their mother replies.

Sungjin turned to the passenger seat and gave his Noona a smug on his face then shifted his head back to the road.

“Will Uncle Wompil be there too?” Dan Ah sulks in her grandmother’s arms in the backseat.

It’s only been a few days since they stayed in Busan. What will he do with his little girl?

“Seriously, you’re always asking for that Uncle.” His Noona turned to the backseat to meet Dan Ah’s eyes. “Do you have a crush on Uncle Wompil?” She wiggles her eyebrows in front of the child.

Sungjin just rolls his eyes at his Noona before glancing at Dan Ah. “Uncle won’t be there, sweetie.”

Sungjin pulls out his phone from his pocket once they arrive to contact Soo Yoon. Of course, Soo Yoon was aware that Sungjin’s family insisted on coming to the beach so she was expecting that she might meet them as well.

As expected, they won’t leave him alone even after paying for the accommodation far away from them. They followed him to the accommodation he reserved where he promised to meet Soo Yoon.

Dan Ah runs to Soo Yoon with excitement once she spots the older woman. Sungjin waves a hand to her as he tries to ignore his family. But as he got closer, he noticed how her condition was getting worse. Her pale skin has been covered by discolored patches. She looks more exhausted than the other days they meet. It has only been a week, however, the changes in her were evident. The travel must’ve been difficult for her. He should’ve not agreed to this setup. He just couldn’t say no knowing that she misses her daughter all the time.

“Soo Yoon-ssi, you don’t look very well. Was traveling difficult?”

“It’s just the dialysis. It’s tiring me out but I’m okay.”

Despite not being convinced by her answer, he doesn’t argue. “By the way, my parents and Noona want to visit the beach too so I’m sorry for the short notice.” Sungjin says before he introduces her to them.

It was difficult to explain how he was meeting a woman without sounding suspicious, so in the car, Sungjin lied about Soo Yoon and simply explained that she was a cancer patient they were helping out in the foundation he was involved in. They're aware of what he does and he cannot tell them that she is Dan Ah’s mother. So, there’s disappointment in their face that he was actually telling the truth. Soo Yoon was already aware of Sungjin’s lie so she got along with it, introduced herself, and thanked his family for having a good son who helps people like her. They might’ve lied but he could sense the sincerity from Soo Yoon’s words and Sungjin could not help but appreciate it.

“I’m really sorry about that, Soo Yoon-ssi. Thanks for helping me out.” Sungjin sighs in relief as he watches his parents and his sister walk away to find their accommodation.

“Sungjin-ssi.. I have something to tell you.”

“What is it?”

“Wonpil-ssi..” That name he just forgot for a moment due to his chaotic family made his heart sorrowful. “He’s here with me.”

“Wonpil?” Sungjin's eyes widen in surprise.

“Uncle Wompil?” Dan Ah made a little jump.

“He’s inside. He doesn’t want to go out because of whatever promise you guys made.” Soo Yoon grins. “I can’t believe Dan Ah is more mature than you two. Can you please tell him to go out? Dan Ah, you stay here with me and wait, okay?” Dan Ah cheerfully nods.

Sungjin bites his lower lip as he glances back and forth between Soo Yoon and the door of the said accommodation. Once he was inside, he tried to knock and open the only two rooms one by one and there it was, he twisted the doorknob and it was locked. Wonpil is surely inside. He tried to knock again however, it was still silent. Wonpil is ignoring him. But he is not leaving until he can see Wonpil's face so he tries once more.

“Wonpil-ah, I know you’re in there. Please open the door.”

“…”

“Let me see your face. Hmm?”

“…”

“I missed you. I kept thinking about you even when I was away. Can you please let me see you?”

This time he heard a click from the inside, the doorknob was twisted and Sungjin stepped backward as he waited for the door to open.

A forced smile met Sungjin, trying to be casual about it but Wonpil's eyes can't lie, he is anxious. “What’s wrong?”

“I couldn’t wait.”

“That’s okay. I’m sorry for asking you to wait. It’s hectic in here.”

His confession must’ve been a burden to Wonpil. If a close friend does that to him, he’d probably feel the same. Now that they’re face to face, he wants to know what’s on Wonpil’s mind and yet, he’s the one who isn’t ready to hear Wonpil’s answer. That is why, his heart is racing and he can hear it pounding in his ear. “Won-“

“Can I..”

“Huh?”

“..hug you?”

Sungjin’s eyes widened and he froze in his place. It seems like an ominous request. Like a rejection is about to come but there’s no way he can decline when it’s Wonpil asking. “Of.. of course. Come here.”

Wonpil carefully closed the gap between them and tightly held the taller man in his embrace, burying his nose in the crook of his neck. “I missed you too. I feel like I was about to go crazy if I didn’t see you.”

A hot liquid absorbs into his shirt touching his skin, easily washing away all the doubts and fears Sungjin had just a moment ago. Sungjin is used to receiving confessions growing up but no one has ever made his heartbeat this fast. It feels like it is running a marathon and it’s about to pop out of his chest. And it hurts, it hurts so good. So, he pulled the shorter even closer as if there was still a gap he wanted to fill between them. All he wants to do is to erase the distance between them, he wants Wonpil to love him. Until his last breath.

“I have something to tell you..” Wonpil gently pulls away from the embrace, his eyes wet and cheeks pink. “I love you.” He confesses. “I might have loved you since the day we met. I love you..” Wonpil huffs, tears falling once more that he aggressively wipes away. “Sorry, I’m not crying because I’m sad. At first, I thought you’d never feel that way for me. So, when you told me you liked me, I couldn’t process it. I only understood what you said after you’re gone. I’ve been wanting to talk to you since you left but I don’t know what to do so I came here. I felt desperate. I’m sorry I couldn’t wait.”

Sungjin shakes his head. “You came right just in time.”

Wonpil smiles in relief, no longer anxious. Now both of their hearts are in sync, Sungjin could hear their heart pounding in their chest from the close approximate. Their eyes which could not look away from each other found each other’s lips. Sungjin pulls in and Wonpil meets him in between.

It wasn’t Sungjin’s first kiss. He kissed anyone in his teenage years and in his twenties in hopes of finding someone he’d want to be with. But they’re nothing like Wonpil. He only realized that a kiss from the person you love could be this sweet. It might be sweeter than the confectionaries Wonpil sells. How did he miss out for so long? Why did he only have to meet Wonpil now?

“I love you.” Sungjin breathed out once they broke the kiss and once again pulled each other into an embrace as if they could no longer live without each other.

It took them a while to calm down and get out of the accommodation but they soon found Soo Yoon and Dan Ah in the ocean, building a sand castle together. Dan Ah looks amused at Soo Yoon’s work while Soo Yoon proudly smiles in satisfaction. The mother and daughter having a good time made Sungjin delighted so he took a photograph of this moment to remember forever.

“Sungjin hyung.. I have something to tell you. It’s important.”

Sungjin learned about Soo Yoon-ssi’s worsening condition. He thought the dialysis was just not working well in her condition but now he knows that Soo Yoon no longer has much time.

“Is there anything that we can do? Our family knows a really good doctor. Should I reach out to them?”

“Wonpil-ah.. I don’t think we have to do that.”

“Why? Don’t you want to help Soo Yoon-ssi?”

“I want to but did you remember? She said this was her final wish. To have us together on the beach to watch the sunrise. How are you here now with Soo Yoon when I didn’t tell anyone that she will be here today?”

Wonpil looks down, realizing what Sungjin meant. Sungjin gently held Wonpil’s hand. “I think she’s tired and ready to go.”

“Are you really letting her go just like this?” He grips Sungjin’s hands tightly as if he’s transmitting his suppressed frustration but Sungjin remains calm.

“If I have a choice, I can continue this setup. You know, Soo Yoon only got serious with her dialysis when we started letting her see Dan Ah but if Dan Ah is no longer enough, we can’t let her keep enduring. There’s nothing we can do about that no matter how we try.”

“Hyung..” Wonpil tears up from the wave of emotion.

Sungjin carefully cups Wonpil’s cheek as if he were the most fragile thing in this world. “Don’t cry.”

“Please promise me, you are not going to get sick. I’ll eat fewer candies and Dan Ah too. We’ll have annual checkups. Let’s also exercise.” Wonpil sticks out his pinky finger to Sungjin.

With Sungjin's glassy eyes, he softly chuckles as he links his pinky finger to Wonpil. “Let’s do whatever you want.”

“Sungin-ah..” A very familiar voice of a female from afar startled Sungjin, he disconnected their pinky immediately.

“Noona, why are you all here again?”

Wonpil nervously glances at Sungjin, realizing that this is the Noona he once told him. It's Sungjin's family in front of him.

“Oh, nothing. We were bored, I thought it would be nice to play with Dan Ah.”

“Who is this?” His mother asked.

“Ah, uhm..” Sungjin stares at Wonpil for a second, hoping the shorter could just read his mind in this situation but his decision was faster than his thoughts and so he says. “This is Wonpil..”

The three people in front of Sungjin and Wonpil delightfully gasped to finally see the handsome man who Dan Ah dotes.

“..my boyfriend.”

“Your what?”

“Huh?”

“…”

“Oh..” Wonpil looked upon Sungjin with a surprised look on his face and his cheek flushed and so as Sungjin when Sungjin grabbed his hands right in front of his family's presence.

An awkward silence began to fill the air. Sungjin’s not out to his family. Some of his friends knew and it only remained with them. It is weird to come out all of a sudden but it also feels good to finally release what he has been hiding for a long time, there is no perfect timing to anything anyway. His confession to Wonpil happened at the wrong time and Wonpil’s reply was also the least he expected to hear today, now, with his lover, in front of his family, he is confessing what he truly is and what he truly has. Nothing shocks him anymore. He already expected his parents won’t have a good reaction when this happens but he is also aware that they at least have an inkling of his sexual orientation.

“Wow, I’m so confused.” Sungjin’s Noona puts her hands on her waist looking like a bully in dramas to ease the tension. “You’re a liar. I thought you’re not dating.”

“I wasn’t.. earlier. I do now.” Sungjin mutters. He’s too shy to explain now and he’s too proud to not tell anyone that he’s finally dating his ultimate crush.

“Hello, my name is Kim Wonpil.” Wonpil nervously bows down to greet them.

“It’s so nice to meet you, Wonpil. We heard of you from Dan Ah, she really likes you.” Sungjin’s mother approaches Wonpil, reaching her hand out to the young man.

Despite the strange air, Wonpil can smile now from the warm greeting of Sungjin’s mother.

“Right, it’s nice to meet you.” Sungjin’s father who has been quiet for a while finally speaks.

And Sungjin found calmness in his father’s words. His father was the least he expected to understand but seeing how he is trying to approach Wonpil with kind words, he almost teared up from the scene right in front of him.

“By the way, where is Dan Ah?” His Noona asked.

“With Soo—"

“Dada!! Dada!!” The scream from the little girl that echoed from afar had Sungjin and Wonpil run to Dan Ah without hesitation.

They could see from afar that Soo Yoon is unconsciously lying on the sand. Dan Ah was trying to shake Soo Yoon to wake her up, worries painted on her face with her eyes completely wet.

“No, no. Soo Yoon-ssi..” Wonpil lifts Soo Yoon’s head to lay it on his legs.

Sungjin busily typed on his phone and contacted the emergency hotline.

Soo Yoon is in a critical condition according to the doctors. That her body can no longer hold out and she may pass soon. Sungjin and Wonpil both sobbed at the news. He never liked the idea of Soo Yoon seeing his daughter in the beginning but now that they’ve come this far and have become closer, it feels like he is also losing a friend that he cherishes. He once lost a friend in the past without preparation and this one, despite the awareness that this day may come, will never not hurt less.

Sungjin’s parents brought Dan Ah home, worried that seeing Soo Yoon fainting earlier might affect her a great deal.

“Hyung.. let me contact our family doctor.”

“Wonpil-ah..” Sungjin watched Wonpil stand up from his seat while they are outside Soo Yoon’s private room.

“I don’t want to stay here and do nothing, we need to do something.” He anxiously paces back and forth. “We haven’t even fulfilled our promise to her. She wants to see the sunrise at the beach. And Dan Ah could not even call her mom, you said you wanted them to properly introduce each other.”

If there’s only something that he could do but there’s nothing that comes to mind. Leukemia is a disease that they cannot fight when the owner of the body already given up on it for a long time. So, Sungjin stands up and catches Wonpil who is unable to stand still and pulls him into an embrace. He pats the smaller back. “I know. I know. I’m sorry.”

“No. I should’ve stopped her when she wanted to take this trip. I knew her body couldn’t handle it anymore. I should’ve done something.”

“Wonpil-ah..” Sungjin pushes Wonpil gently to see his face. “..please listen to me. This is no one’s fault. It’s not Soo Yoon’s fault that she is sick and it’s not your fault that there’s nothing we can do about it. So, let’s go home now and prepare for what may happen tomorrow. Let’s take a rest.”

Since the beach trip had to be suspended, Sungjin had to bring Wonpil to his family's house. It was already midnight when they arrived but his mother and father were still awake and witnessed their hands intertwined as they entered the house.

“Why haven’t you slept yet?”

“We can’t sleep. How is she?” His mother replies.

“Her condition is not good at all. Don’t worry, we’ll take care of it.”

“Are you two okay?” His father asks.

“We’re holding up just fine. Where’s Dan Ah?”

“She’s in your Noona’s room. You two must be tired, you should go to bed.”

“Thank you.” Wonpil answers.

“Mom, Dad, we will have to return to the hospital in a few hours, please take care of our daughter.”

Sungjin and Wonpil sneaked into his Noona’s room and found the two sleeping next to each other where Dan Ah’s arms and legs were clinging to her auntie. After a long day, Wonpil could smile again once his eyes met Dan Ah’s sleeping face. They walked to Sungjin’s old room after. When Sungjin came here the first day, it didn’t feel like he was gone for a long time, his mother had been cleaning up his room and it was always ventilated, his things were left the way it was that it felt like he was only gone for a day. He has a lot of things he wants to show Wonpil in his room but with their mood right now, it’s impossible.

Sungjin was the last to wash up and saw Wonpil sitting on the bed who looked like was waiting for him to come out from the bathroom.

“Why are you not sleeping?”

“I was waiting for you.”

“I know. Thank you.”

Wonpil tilts his head from the response.

“It feels like I’m always making you wait.” Sungjin sits next to Wonpil.

Wonpil shakes his head. “Hyung, earlier.. you said.. ‘our’ daughter.”

“Ah. I’m— Was it weird?”

“No, I like it.” Wonpil closes the gap between them. Their scent blended in together after using Sungjin’s body products in the bathroom. “I’ve always wanted to be included in your life. It feels like I am now.”

“You’ve always been involved in our life.”

“But you know.. it’s different.”

“I get it.” Sungjin gently takes Wonpil’s hand, kissing his knuckles.

“I haven’t had the chance to talk to Dan Ah today.” Wonpil’s lips turn to an inverted U at the thought of Dan Ah.

Sungjin pinches Wonpil’s nose and glances at the wet curls of Wonpil’s hair so he grabs his old hair dryer from a drawer as he says. “Dan Ah misses you too. She kept asking about you.”

“It’s good to be missed. What will happen to the two of you without me?”

“I can’t imagine.” Sungjin softly smiles and taps the warm floor "Come here." He says after plugging the dryer into the socket.

Wonpil folds his legs as his back faces Sungjin. “I didn’t expect your parents to be.. uhm.. okay with me. I mean.. it’s always complicated to be in the minority.”

“I also had the same thoughts.”

“What do you mean? Do they not know about your sexuality?”

“No, I never told them. I had no reason to tell them anyway.”

Wonpil stays silent for a second before opening his mouth once again. “When I told my grandparents that I was dating a man, they could not accept it at first but they slowly came to understand. At first, I thought it was because they had no choice as I’m their only grandson but slowly I’ve seen how genuine they were and warmed up with who I was dating.”

“It was Younghyun. Wasn’t it?”

“Yeah.”

“I’ll work hard to be liked by your grandparents just as much as they liked him.”

“Hyung!” Wonpil glares at Sungjin and Sungjin teasingly urges him to look in the front so he can continue blowing his hair. “It’s just.. everything sucks. They have so many questions that I can’t answer. I used to find it difficult back then but now that I have embraced who I am, I’m happy the way I am. I hope you also feel the same.”

“I have always been in denial when I was younger but when I found someone that I liked, I had this internal struggle but I have slowly accepted that I am different. What can I do, right? It's something beyond my control."

"Hyung, what were you doing here?"

"I came to see a friend." Sungjin answers after a pause. Wonpil must've noticed it.

"My hair's dry. It's your turn."

Wonpil and Sungjin switch from their position. Wonpil then smells Sungjin's hair for a second, satisfied with how they smell the same.

After a minute of silence, Sungjin spoke once again and explained how he got into an accident in the past and the reason he was here was because his friend who was in a coma had finally woken up. Sungjin also confessed that he was the person he used to like and how they had reconciled after seeing each other again. Sungjin's long history that he had never told anyone has been revealed, it's strange but it is comfortable. It feels like Wonpil is someone who will never judge him.

Wonpil finally turns off the blower. "Hyung, thank you for telling me."

"I'm trying."

"You're amazing."

Sungjin turns to Wonpil. "I think you're the impressive one. Telling my parents today and telling my story to someone, you're the only one. You give me courage. Thank you."

Wonpil admiringly blinks at Sungjin before leaning down to give the man a peck on his lips. "Sitting in your bed feels like a dream."

"You'll be lying down on it in a minute."

Sungjin unplugged the hair dryer's cord and put it back in its place. “Oh, how’s your grandmother?”

“She’s very strong. She’ll be discharged tomorrow.”

“That’s good to hear.”

“We should set a date so you can meet again. Last time was really bad, right? I tried so hard to think about what happened when you visited Grandma. I don’t want to make an assumption but you were upset because Younghyun was there, right?”

“I admit that a part of me was jealous but it wasn’t like that. My mind was disoriented. I met him before I heard about what happened to your grandma and I was going to confess to you that day with the bouquet that you saw and take you out but it all didn’t work out and I had to see him with you on the same day. I thought something happened to you two. I was anxious that I couldn’t see what was in front of me. I misunderstood him.”

“I also yelled at him. I thought he told you something to upset you. I already apologized to him but now I feel worse that I heard your side.”

“We can just see him again.”

“We can’t. He already left today. He’ll be assigned to England’s branch.”

“He left so soon. It can’t be helped.”

“I have one more thing to ask. Soo Yoon-ssi.. gave me four envelopes. One for you, for me and Dan Ah but the other one, I have no idea what’s inside or who it is for. She told me to open it when you arrive but— what do you want to do?”

“Let’s get some rest. We’ll open it later.”

“You are right.”

They finally lie down on the bed and stretched the ache on their body from the long day. Wonpil wanted to be the big spoon so Sungjin snuggles in Wonpil’s chest and embraces the thinner man in his waist.

“Wonpil-ah..”

“Hmm?”

“Thank you for coming to see me.”

“It’s all your fault for confessing and running away.”

“It was all worth it.”

“You are right. I’m tired, please kiss me again.” Wonpil demanded and Sungjin closed their gap easily.

It was after sunrise when they returned to the hospital while everyone was still asleep. Soo Yoon is still unconscious but stable. They don’t know how her condition will last but they hope for her to get back to her consciousness.

“I want to open her letter for me. Do you want to read yours?” Wonpil asked.

“Okay.”

Wonpil picked up his bag, selected both of their envelopes in different colors and returned the other two in his bag. Sungjin’s envelope is in pastel purple and Wonpil’s in pastel mint green.

Once it was opened, as they expected, it was letters for each of them but instead of regular appreciation, apology, or expression of thoughts, in Sungjin’s thick envelope, there was a bank book. Soo Yoon has written how she made the bank book after sending Dan Ah for adoption. She opened the account at first to ease the guilt she had but later, it became her hope of reuniting with her daughter before she gets eaten by her disease. It wasn’t much if we simply base it on its worldly value but the effort of a mother who has been in pain and still had to work to get by and transfer every penny she earns to her daughter’s savings account is more than everything in this world. Sungjin tries not to shed a tear as he continues to flip the bank book and sees the print of little money that was transferred if not in a week, in two, or a month.

Wonpil has a key in his envelope. The letter does not confirm what he is supposed to look for but it is the key to Soo Yoon’s rented room and they have to visit to know what they need to find. Wonpil’s letter was filled with appreciation and hopes for Sungjin and his relationship to bloom. Wonpil wants to tell Soo Yoon so badly that his relationship with Sungjin worked out. He wants to brag about it and thank her but she had to be in this state before she could see the sunrise and learn about them. Wonpil could not help but stare at Soo Yoon’s peaceful sleeping face.

“I think she knew that she might not make it.”

Sungjin sighs as he follows Wonpil’s gaze. “You are right.”

The next day came and Soo Yoon was still unconscious so they decided to bring her back to Seoul to be monitored by her appointed doctor with Wonpil requesting for their family doctor to look into her as well.

After three days, the day they brought Dan Ah to the hospital to see her mother, Soo Yoon finally gets to wake up for a moment, like a miracle. Maybe that’s just how it is when you are a parent, your instinct heightens with your child’s presence.

“Auntie..” Dan Ah says which catches Sungjin and Wonpil’s attention and sees Soo Yoon’s tired eyes blink.

She softly smiles upon seeing the people in her room. Her lips are dry when she tries to speak so she tries once more and says weakly.. “Hi.”

“Hi, Auntie. Good morning.” Dan Ah answers.

“You fainted when you were playing with Dan Ah so we brought you to the hospital. You’re now in Seoul.” Sungjin explains just in case she wants to know.

“Too bad, I couldn’t see the sunrise.” Disappointment spills in her mouth. “At least, my sunshine’s here.” Dan Ah smiles at the mention of her name. Soo Yoon wants to touch her little girl but she doesn’t have the energy to do so. “How about you two, have you reconciled?”

Wonpil immediately grabbed Sungjin’s hand and nodded. “I thought I wouldn’t be able to tell you. Thank you.”

Soo Yoon quietly laughs at the two. They’re quite dumb but she’s happy they’re finally together.

“I’m happy for the two of you. Love each other for a long time and protect Dan Ah.”

"I promise, we will." Wonpil says.

“We read your letter.” Sungjin says.

“Did you go to my apartment?”

“No, not yet.”

“Can you do it when I pass?”

“Don’t say that.”

“I know this is a lot to both of you since you two are busy people but I really appreciate what you’re doing for me right now. The world has been unkind to me since I was born but you guys, you cared for me and treated me as your friend, too bad we have to meet like this but if it wasn't for the leukemia, I might not be able to have this much courage to find you. So, thank you for everything, for loving Dan Ah. I will rest in paradise with no worries knowing that you two are together to take care of her.”

“Thank you too, for giving birth to the most precious child in this world.”

Soo Yoon smiles, using the last ounce of her energy. “I guess this is my end. I am tired now and I need to sleep.”

Sungjin and Wonpil tried to suppress the urge to cry so Dan Ah doesn't have to worry but they could not help it. Tears silently flow on their face and Sungjin breathes out. “Okay.”

“Dan Ah-yah.. auntie wants to go to sleep, can you sing her a lullaby?” Sungjin asks Dan Ah.

Dan Ah hums and begins to sing a soft lullaby, her small body sways while she sits in Sungjin’s lap to watch over the sleeping woman. She finishes her song with a smile on her face with Sungjin and Wonpil’s tears pour like rain onto their cheeks.

Sungjin opened the third envelope and gave the last one to Dan Ah. The third envelope was plain white as if it was not made with any preparation compared to the other three envelopes. Sungjin tears the envelope and checks the papers that are in it. Sungjin and Wonpil weren’t surprised once they saw the contents of it but they could not help but tear up once again as they looked at it. Soo Yoon had given them the papers for her cremation and the instructions to where the rest of the files were left. It was also an apology letter for bothering them so much since she doesn't have a family but Sungjin and Wonpil don’t think that way. They want to help Soo Yoon until the end.

Wonpil finally pulls out the key in his pocket. They key Soo Yoon put on his envelope. Once the door was unlocked, a canvas was facing the door. Sungjin and Wonpil walked inside and looked into it. With the usage of oil paint, the sunrise was formed in a shade of yellow and orange on a beach with three people that are drawn in smaller sizes which they can easily recognize as Sungjin, Wonpil, and Dan Ah. It was painted like a professional made it, if she had only been born in a better environment, she could’ve gotten a chance in the art industry and the ache keeps throbbing just thinking about Soo Yoon never mentioning it. They were unaware of Soo Yoon’s amazing skills, Sungjin and Wonpil have now realized where Dan Ah’s talent for painting has come from.

A little later, they picked up the documents they needed for Soo Yoon’s cremation and cleaned the apartment as well. They have requested a mover to help them out with the rest of Soo Yoon’s things that can no longer be used to donate per Soo Yoon’s request. Sungjin found a box full of Dan Ah’s baby clothes, wrapped toys, and pictures which he decided to keep. Sungjin then decided that he wanted an album that shows Dan Ah’s growth so she could see it later in life. And if Dan Ah asks one day who her mother was, she will know who it was. She will know that her Dada and Papa have witnessed how her mother spent the rest of her life loving her. She will know who is her adoptive father and remember the day they met and the years they spent together. She will know who Wonpil is, the tall uncle who loves to give candies, the uncle who loves her and her father, the uncle who is now her Papa and will forever stand by their side. Then, she will understand that she is the sunshine in everyone's life who became flowers that bloomed by her existence. When she grows up, she will shine just as brightly and bloom in the way she wants, and when that time comes, Sungjin and Wonpil will be there to love her and cherish her until the end of time.

- FIN -