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This is normal,, right?
Sitting on your best friend’s couch, after your boyfriend breaks up with you because you didn’t want to drink alone.
It’s also very normal to be staring at said best friend’s legs… Right?
I mean it’s not his fault that Eddie wasn’t waring any pants when he showed up.
Then again, Why was he not wearing pants?
Okay that doesn’t matter. What matters is that Buck can’t deal with all of this right now.
At least not sober.
So, before he knows it, he’s chugging his first bottle before opening his second while Eddie leans back next to him. Comfortable and smiling.
Buck can’t see Eddie’s face but he can feel the happiness radiating off of him. His smile how comfortable he is, it’s not hard to tell that the man is happy. And yes of course this is a good thing, Eddie has been sad ever since Chris left. But a part of him longs to know why he’s so happy. Longs to, selfishly, take some happiness from him and give it to himself.
At one point Eddie must think that they’ve settled enough because he stands up to turn down the music so they can speek without having to scream to hear each other.
And while his back is turned to him, Buck allows himself to look. Just for a small moment.
Buck has sneaked some glances at eddie in the locker room. But they were never long enough to allow him to really take in what he saw. Not like this.
Right now Buck has time to look at every stretch of muscle on Eddie’s calves, the curve of his thighs and that damn mole that seems to capture all of his attention.
Right before Eddie turns around, Buck faces forward again. Staring straight ahead using every bit of strength in him not to look down at eddie’s legs again.
“Buck. are you okay?” Eddies words are careful. Obviously he had noticed the look on his face when he showed up at his front door. (For once, he thinks, both of them are glad Buck didn’t use his key. Not the point.)
Buck sighs. turning to look Eddie in the eyes. they’re brighter than they were before, a brightness Buck hasn’t seen in months.
A brightness Buck welcomes back with open arms.
“Tommy broke up with me.” Buck holds eye contact as he speaks before lifting the beer back up to his lips and taking a long sip.
Eddie’s face twists in confusion at Buck’s words. “what? why? i thought you guys were doing good??”
Buck looks away from Eddie’s face. His eyes immediately falling to the bare tan skin and muscles next to him. He panics and decides to look at the bottle in his hands, focusing on that instead.
“We were. Actually, i asked him to move in with me and he told me that he couldn’t because i would eventually break his heart if some shit.”
“Why would he say that?” Eddie is trying to make eye contact with him. Buck can feel it, but he refuses.
“I- I don’t know. Because i’m new to dating guys or something? Honestly i don’t know why this happend. Somehow i did something to mess things up. again.”
Eddie shakes his head immediately at his words. Quickly swallowing his last sip of beer before he turns to buck. “No you didn’t Buck. He jusy got scared so he fled. I mean.. Were you really happy with him?”
It’s a weird question. Of course he was happy. Yeah there were some things he didn’t find ideal but no one is perfect.
And yes, those less ideal parts were quite big things. Like, he refused to take interest in buck’s interests (or at the very least he refused to pretend he cared), he never listened to any of his rambles, he always just dismissed him, he didn’t remember his allergies, he called him childish on multiple occasions and he sometimes made buck generally feel bad about himself.
Not that he would ever really admit that last one, but still.
“I- I mean yes of course i was happy. Earlier, Josh asked me if i could see a future with him and if i cared for him and all of that-“
Somehow it made me think of you
“-and i realized i did and then i asked him to move in and then he broke up with me and now im not so sure i ever really did care for him like that.”
Eddie’s face twists in confusion. before he can ask, Buck is already talking again.
Maybe it’s the beer.
“I mean i’m not as upset as i should be. I- i’m not as sad as i’ve been before when other relationships ended and i- i- i can’t figure out why not.”
“I mean, he was kind of an asshole.” Eddie takes a sip of his beer while Buck looks at him with some shock on his face.
“He didn’t make you as happy as you deserve to be. He only have you temporary happiness when you were with him.” Eddie takes another sip. “You were never happy when i asked about him, or just the day after a date you didn’t have that lasting happiness.”
And yeah, Eddie might be right, he often is when it comes to buck.
“Lasting happiness after a date.. Is that what’s got you so happy and smiling?”
Buck’s stomach twisted when he asked that question, knowing he might not like the answer.
“A date?” Eddie asks, Buck nods his his head. Eddie lets out a breathy giggle. “No i’m just.. happy”
“Okay, you know im gonna need more than that!”
Buck twists on the couch to face Eddie. He shifts his bottle to the hand that is closest to Eddie’s legs to he can say that’s what he’s looking at if he gets caught staring at the tan skin and strong muscles beside it.
“There’s no more to it.” His smile is bright, the same kind of brightness he has in his eyes. Buck has really missed it, maybe more than he realised.
“Show me your ways, wizard Diaz” Buck is smiling now too. Like the happiness is radiating off of Eddie and soaking into his own body.
Eddie raises his brow. Almost as if he’s challenging him. Buck smiles back before takings mother sip from the bottle in his his hand.
He leans the bottom of it back on the couch right before Eddie gets back up. Making Buck’s fingers brush against the very soft skin on Eddie’s leg.
It sends goosebumps up his arm and this time he can’t look away from the exposed skin and muscles on time.
“Eyes up here bud” Eddie says when he turns the music up and twists back around.
He reaches his hand out to help Buck get up and this time it’s Buck’s turn to raise his brow.
“Come on, let’s dance!” Eddie’s smile seems to only widen over time.
Buck takes his hand, because he has never been able to tell eddie no.
As soon as he’s up, Eddie starts dancing. he’s jumping around and turning the sound up even louder before switching the song and turning back to Buck who is still frozen in place.
(and definitely not distracted)
Buck recognises the song that’s playing, of course he does it’s a classic.
Eddie sings along to the lyrics. Taking small steps closer.
“ Oh don’t you dare look back, just keep your eyes on me.”
Buck sighs. “Do i have to do thi-“
Eddie jumps, singing the next lyrics and taking one of Buck’s arms trying to get him to jump with him.
“SHUT UP! and dance with me”
And he’s smiling at him with that bright smile. And buck has always had a weakness for anything as long as Eddie was the one asking him to do it.
So, he starts slowly moving his hips and bobbing his head. Eddie seems to be pleased but he pulls on his arm and drags him around the room jumping and turning flawlessly.
Seeing Eddie smiling as he dances and jumps around makes something ache in his heart. Something he doesn’t want to face right now.
So, he dances.
He sings along with Eddie and he jumps around and he runs around the living room and he laughs and he feels light and happy.
Every single time they lock eyes Buck can feel his stomach drop a bit further and his heart get a little bigger.
He has always thought Eddie was beautiful, ever since the first time he saw him.
I mean, look at the man, he’s really handsome.
No wonder Buck ended up falling for him.
wait
Buck looks to Eddie as he’s dancing like there is not a care in the world. (Like his son isn’t gone.) And all he feels is love.
His stomach drops further and his heart grows bigger.
I love him
He smiles and he keeps dancing acting like he didn’t just have one of the biggest realisations of maybe his whole life.
“So, why exactly were you doing this in your underwear?” Buck shouts over the music while Eddie jumps onto the couch. Tan skin and and muscles ever so distracting if not more than before.
Very smooth Buckely
“Makes it more fun i guess.” Eddie keeps dancing. He looks so gorgeous. Dim light hitting the soft skin of his tan legs. Buck wants to reach out and touch, touch, touch.
Buck kicks off his shoes and gets up on the coffee table. He looks to the side and locks eyes with Eddie.
“deep in her eyes, i think i see the future.”
“I realized this is my last chance.”
“she took my arm-” E ddie reaches out his hand across the space between the couch and the table. Buck takes his hand in his and Eddie leaps over the space and joins him on the coffee table. The table is smaller than he had probably though it was.
They end up standing chest to chest. Both of them frozen and scared that if one of them moves, the other gets pushed off the table.
But their eyes are still locked. That is until Buck sees Eddie’s eyes shift down for just a split second.
His breath catches in his throat and before he knows it, he’s leaning closer to Eddie. His own eyes shifting between Eddie’s eyes and his lips.
The weirdest part of all of this, is that Eddie isn’t pushing him away. He’s frozen. But his brown eyes are glued to Buck’s lips.
Buck stills, he opens his mouth to speak to him but he can’t get any words out before Eddie surges forward and closes the last bit of space between them.
he’s kissing him.
eddie is kissing him.
Buck just stands there, but not for long because as soon as he realises what is happening, he places his hands on Eddie’s hips and pulls him closer.
Later they’ll probably blame it on the alcohol, or maybe even the high emotions. But right now Buck feels what might be pure happiness.
The kiss starts slow, almost careful, but quickly both of their breath’s quicken as they get comfortable. Lips slotting together like pieces of a puzzle that were always meant to end up together.
Eddie sighs into the kiss and places his own hands at the back of Buck’s neck before one of his hand makes its way up into Buck’s hair, settling there like it has been living there for years.
At the feeling of the hand in his hair, buck parts his lips. He gives a careful bite to Eddie’s lip which immediately grants a reaction.
The shorter man lets out a low groan as he parts his lips and his hand twists in buck’s hair and he tugs on it. Making buck suppress a moan while his hands roam Eddie’s body.
One of his hands slips under his loose button up with ease, tracing the soft skin of Eddie’s back and he digs his fingers into the skin when Eddie gives another, harder pull on his hair.
He moans into Eddie’s mouth and drags his nails over the skin on his back. Eddie’s moan gets swallowed into Buck’s mouth.
Eddie’s kisses go from sweet and tender to hot and intense and Buck thinks he might have never felt this certain about anything before.
And he can’t help himself when his hands lower back to eddie’s waist. they go lower, giving a quick squeeze to his ass before sliding over the soft soft skin on his thighs.
Buck couches down slightly, squeezing Eddie’s thighs before parting them and lifting him up. Eddie’s legs quickly wrap around Buck’s waist.
Their lips part and Eddie is looking down at him, his pupils are blown and his lips are swollen from kissing him and Buck thinks that, somehow, this is the most gorgeous that he has ever looked.
Before he’s even stepped them off the coffee table, Eddie’s hand at the back of Buck’s neck pulls him back in.
Somehow, this time it’s even more passionate.
It’s almost messy. Tongues slipping past each other fast and desperate and teeth are accidentally knocking together as Buck takes them towards the hallway to Eddie’s bedroom.
Buck’s hands are on Eddie’s ass. He’s not shy of using them. Squeezing and pinching and he hears how Eddie’s breath quickens as he does so. So he keeps doing it.
Then Eddie leans his head back parting their lips after Buck takes his lower lip between his teeth. Pulling on it when eddie lets the sweetest moan slip past his lips.
The sound catches Buck off guard and Eddie almost slips from his arms so Buck repositions his hands and decides to back them against the wall of the hallway.
He’s pressing Eddie against the wall kissing him before Eddie breaks it again leaning his head back. Buck takes the hint and places one of his hands on the wall besides Eddie before he starts kissing down his jawline with slow kisses. Parting his lips more and more the further down he goes.
He places a kiss on a sensitive space between Eddie’s neck and his collarbone, granting him with a breathy moan and another tug to his hair.
He decides it is ‘out of view and easy enough to cover up’ before sucking on the skin and rolling it between his teeth. Making sure the mark is there to stay for at least a day or two.
And if he places another mark slightly above it in the hopes it will peek out above the collar on his work shirts. That’s for Buck to know and for Eddie to find out later.
Both of eddie’s hands are in his hair as he does this and Buck can feel the vibration of his moans under his lips. It’s a feeling he never wants to miss.
He places more open mouth kisses back up his neck and his jawline before capturing the man’s lips back between his.
The passion from before is still there, but the kiss is slower, less messy.
Buck can feel his pants getting tighter so he keeps squeezing Eddie’s thighs before tapping against them.
Eddie takes the hint, tightening his legs round buck’s waist again so he can lift him off the wall.
Buck walks them the last few steps down the hall and backs them into Eddie’s room. He kicks the door closed behind him before he lowers Eddie to the bed.
Their lips part for only a few seconds as Buck lifts his shirt over his head and drops it behind him on the floor. Eddie’s eyes scan his body before Buck is kissing him again. Hands going to u do the buttons of the blouse Eddie is wearing.
As more buttons come loose Buck follows them down with his lips. Kissing each patch of skin that becomes exposed.
Buck holds back from placing marks all over his chest. As bad as he wants to he knows he will be hated for it.
So instead, when all the buttons are undone he scoots down even lower.
He’s pressing kisses to Eddie’s stomach and hips before he gets to his thighs.
He starts with soft kisses. Eddie’s breaths get heavy and quick, and buck can’t stop himself from sinking his teeth just to the skin under him and sucking it leaving dark marks on the inside of his thigh. Only for the two of them to know they’re there.
Both of them know they might have crossed a line that they will never come back from. But neither of them care as their bodies meet and their hands explore the skin.
Leaving marks in places where only the two of them will know of their existence. Reminding them that this happend.
They’ll talk about when they wake up tomorrow. But for now they’ll be happy being where they are.
Happy together.