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(I don't know who loves me
And I don't care, it's a waste anyway
I'm a little scared of this romantic feeling)
The break up was certainly something for… a lot of reasons. They really thought they could last forever but fate had its own plans for what would happen with them.
“Them” being Ushijima Wakatoshi and Tendou Satori.
They were happy at first—then arguments started breaking out. They were small, minor details until they started becoming more personal with each day. At one point Goshiki had to step in before things would get bad.
And two years later… here was Tendou. Studying at a culinary college before going to France next year. He was far away from Miyagi as much as possible, which was both a good thing and a bad thing coming from him.
Tendou never believed in love after that, and particularly he didn’t care if anyone was showing affection towards him—If it was going to end then why bother with being in a relationship anyway?
At least… that’s what his thought was.
Or maybe he was just… scared.
(Sweet and slightly bitter chocolate
The aftertaste of it is always the same
Like saddest movies
There are only tears around my eyes)
If Tendou were to describe his relationship with Ushijima (if anyone asked anyway... only two people asked him), he would probably say it was like eating a bunch of chocolates from a random box—there were sweet moments, there were bitter moments. Often times it’d be both in one chocolate bar and no one would even notice.
However, if Tendou was going to describe in full detail of everything, he’ll say that the relationship was like a slow-burn, melodrama that took too long before finally reaching an ending which would leave the viewers speechless.
(I know that sweet love song
The words we said through our oath
If I turn around, eventually
They'll just end up being an unfamiliar someone)
It was probably safe to say that Tendou had is fair share of a post break-up. It took him a couple of months for him just to ignore Ushijima if they ever saw each other on campus—at least those days were over now. He didn’t have to deal with those late nights of crying in the dorms every now and then, wondering what went wrong with the relationship. Though sometimes Tendou would still remember the sweet moments they had would have together—one of them being Ushijima calling out his name, and Tendou would turn around seeing his smile.
Now whenever someone would call him by his first name it was just someone else, either someone he knew or a random stranger.
(Sorry I'm an anti-romantic
I want to run away, far away
My heart is already chasing after you
And burning with small embers)
It was… painful. Up to now it is.
After the break-up he really, really wanted to just go away and forget about everything. Unfortunately there wasn’t a ray in where if you shoot yourself you’d instantly forget all the bad memories. No, it was reality and Tendou was facing it.
“Guess you’re still not used to it?”
Tendou looks up, seeing Semi giving a concerned look at him—huh. He didn’t know that he was visiting for the day. “When did you get here?”
“Your roomate let me in.” Semi answered as he sat down, just a few feet away from him. “You OK?”
Well…
“I’m fine!” Tendou exclaims, giving his usual bright smile. “What makes you think I’m not used to it?”
Again, this was reality. And Tendou was facing it.
He wasn’t used to it, even after two years.
That’s the reality he was facing at the moment. Even though he says he’s fine, the reality was that he wasn’t.
There was still hope in him. Hope that maybe Ushijima would take him back and everything would be fine.
(Sorry I'm an anti-romantic
I don't believe anymore in being romantic
As my entire heart burns
I'm afraid that only black ashes will remain)
The next day was a regular day—for him, at least.
He just needed to attend classes, buy some groceries and pay a few bills. Tendou had everything planned out for the day and by the end of it… it was nothing.
Tendou finished his classes early and hurried on to the nearest grocery store.
“And there’s Ushijima Wakatoshi scoring another point for the Adlers!”
Tendou stopped momentarily to see the television, and there was Ushijima Wakatoshi on the screen. Underneath the spotlight with a smile on his face.
The same smile he always had whenever he would call his name.
Tendou gave a small smile for a minute—only for a minute before he looks away and continues to walk on the sidewalk.
Pain. That was the usual emotion he felt whenever he would see Ushijima in any shape or form—Tendou was used to this by now.
“But this is something that was too difficult to get over.” Tendou sighs, putting his hands in his pockets as he ventures on to the grocery store.
It was inevitable, really. Tendou missed him—he missed Ushijima and every moment that he had with him. The relationship was fine. It really was.
Tendou wondered why it just… broke.
But in the end… it was just that. It was just a high school relationship that wasn’t mean to last. Just a relationship that was meant by two people who tried to make it work for eight months.
But it never did.