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McCoy knows when someone’s trying to get under his skin. It’s a survival instinct by now—years of captains, admirals, and overeager ensigns all thinking they can charm the grumpy old doctor into softening up. Usually, he can spot it a mile away and shut it down before it starts.
This time, though, it’s different.
Because it’s them.
Jim and Spock.
They don’t make a plan—hell, McCoy’s sure they don’t need one. Jim’s all warmth and invitation, Spock’s silence and precision. Together they move around him like a slow orbit, drawing him in without ever touching. He notices it everywhere: the way Jim’s eyes find him in a crowd, the way Spock pauses before leaving Sickbay, like he’s waiting for something McCoy can’t give.
He tells himself it’s in his head. Then Jim starts showing up for no reason.
Tonight, the captain’s in his office with his boots on the desk and two glasses of bourbon between them. The hum of the ship is low and steady, a heartbeat under the quiet.
“You’ve been avoiding us,” Jim says lightly, like he’s commenting on the weather.
McCoy doesn’t look up from his PADD. “Maybe I’ve been busy. Some of us have actual jobs on this boat.”
Jim laughs under his breath, and it’s soft enough to feel dangerous. “You’re a terrible liar, Bones.”
Spock’s voice comes from the doorway. “Indeed. The doctor’s vital signs indicate tension, not preoccupation.”
McCoy looks up and nearly spills his drink. Spock’s standing in the low light, hands clasped behind his back, shadows cutting sharp across his face. It shouldn’t feel intimate, but it does.
He glares at them both. “You two rehearsing this or something?”
Jim doesn’t answer. He just smiles in that way that makes McCoy’s pulse misbehave, then leans back and says, “We were talking about how… incomplete things feel lately.”
“Incomplete?”
Spock steps closer. “Captain Kirk and I have developed a compatible dynamic—both professionally and personally. Yet there remains an imbalance.”
McCoy snorts. “So you’re here for a medical consultation?”
Spock meets his eyes, calm and steady. “In a manner of speaking.”
Jim’s watching him too, but not with that easy charm this time. It’s quieter, more careful. McCoy suddenly feels like he’s standing too close to an open flame.
“Don’t,” he says quietly. “Don’t turn this into a game.”
“Never a game,” Jim says. “Just… something honest.”
The air feels thick. McCoy pushes back his chair and stands, needing space, motion—anything. He walks to the cabinet, pretends to check something that doesn’t need checking.
He feels Spock’s presence before hearing him move. Vulcans have a way of filling a room without a sound. “You assume you are the only one uncertain,” Spock says.
McCoy turns. “I’m not uncertain. I’m unwilling.”
“That is not accurate,” Spock replies, soft but firm. “You are afraid.”
The words land sharp and too close. McCoy opens his mouth to argue, but Jim’s already up, standing between them, eyes flicking from one to the other.
“He’s right,” Jim says. “You act like letting anyone care about you is a goddamn liability.”
McCoy’s voice drops. “It usually is.”
Something shifts then—small but undeniable. Jim steps closer, and Spock doesn’t stop him. McCoy could move. He doesn’t.
Jim’s hand finds his arm, fingers tracing the cuff of his sleeve. The touch is barely there, but it sends a spark straight through him. “You don’t have to want this,” Jim murmurs. “But if you do… you don’t have to run from it, either.”
McCoy doesn’t answer. He can’t. The silence stretches, filled with the sound of his own heartbeat. Spock stands behind Jim, eyes dark and unreadable, and for a moment McCoy feels caught between gravity wells, pulled from both sides.
When he finally speaks, his voice sounds rough. “I’m not… built like you two. I don’t do this easy.”
Spock’s head tilts slightly. “Nor do we. It only appears so because we have each other to counterbalance the weight.”
Jim’s thumb brushes his wrist again, steady, grounding. “You balance us too, Bones. You always have. You just never let yourself believe it.”
McCoy exhales, a long, shaky breath. He wants to laugh, to curse, to break the tension, but all that comes out is, “You’re both damn fools.”
Jim grins, small and genuine. “Maybe. But we’re your fools.”
The doctor closes his eyes, shaking his head. His defenses are a mess, his pulse uncooperative, his breath unsteady. When he opens them again, Spock is closer, a silent step that brings him within reach.
“Leonard,” Spock says quietly, and the way his name sounds—unclipped, human, careful—undoes something in him.
For a long time, none of them move. Then McCoy does the only thing that makes sense—he lets his hand rest against Spock’s chest, feeling the slow, measured beat beneath his palm. Jim’s hand stays on his arm. Three heartbeats in the same narrow space.
No declarations, no promises. Just the quiet thrum of something beginning.
McCoy finally lets out a soft, broken laugh. “If this ends in disaster, I’m blamin’ both of you.”
Jim’s grin widens, but his voice stays gentle. “That’s fair.”
Spock’s lips curve, almost imperceptibly. “A shared responsibility, then.”
McCoy looks at them both, warmth pooling where fear used to live. The ship hums around them, the stars sliding by unseen. For the first time in years, he doesn’t feel like he’s standing alone on the edge of something.
He steps closer, into the gravity they’ve created, and lets himself stay.