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Regret and Mistakes is what got Thanos in this position.Nodding as some bullshit list of rules where spilled out at him.He wasn't listening, he regrets everything already... Hes not ill.He doesn't belong here
"Subong?Are you listening?" A doctor taps his pen against the table hopping to get the others attention
Thanos shoots daggers bitting the inside of his cheek "its fucking Thanos"
"Yes right my apologies"The doctor clears his throat trying to not cause an outburst from the younger male "anyway as I was saying before we take you down to your room, security will need to go through your bags"
Thanos clicks his tongue and huff "whatever" the sooner he cooperates, the sooner he can get out.He doesn't belong here with these freaks.He's not ill.
Just as Thanos stands up and is about to leave the door opens "Ah Ali on time I see"The doctor looks up smiling "Could please take care of this young man then send him to the ward for one of the nurses to care for"
Ali nods, pausing first then to look at Thanos "Yes Sangwoo, anything else?"
The doctor, Sangwoo shakes his head
And with that Thanos was escorted out of the room
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Security check felt like Thanos was watching himself through a window, nothing was registering, he didn't even attempt to see what items where taken away from him.He'd get them back at some point
He was ushered into a room to change, a hospital gown.Im not ill repeating in his head as tears start to fall down his checks 'I don't belong her' he whispers to himself, the fabric feeling like a weight in his hands.'I don't belong here' he whispers again as he put it on
Ali was sat patiently holding his bags for him, smiling as he came out "You really?"
Thanos nods.He didn't want to
He was escorted to his ward, nurces bombarding him with questions, welcoming him, showing him basics.He just nods.This isn't real.Its not real
Once they reached his room, the nurce jesterd for him to sit on his bed, plopping his stuff on the side, once he'd sat she starts again "So Su- Thanos , right now we will have track your progress for a couple of weeks,then if you improve we can work on getting you released"
He nods.Progress.Progress to escape a place he doesn't belong in the first place. He looks up slowly pointing to the other beds in the room "Why are there other beds"
"Those are your roommates bed"
"My room mates?"
"Well right now you only have one so don't worry you'll have time to adjust"
Right.. "Right"he looks around, his head feeling heavy"can I go sleep"
"Do you want any food or anything?"
"No"
"Oh ok,well sleep well" and with that she leaves Thanos alone..
He sighs rubbing his eyes... The words eccoing through his head as he lays down.. progress.progress.'ill give em fucking progress,make them wonder why they locked me up in this hell hole' he runs his hands through his hair, feeling naked without his rings. He breaths in, and just with that Choi Subong has decided tomorrow he going to act like nothing happened at all.
He driffs of to sleep.Smile on his face
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"Excuse me?"
"Fuck off" Thanos groans reaching for something to cover his face with
"Oh I just wanted to introduce myself"
Introduce yourself?oh.. it wasn't some lame ass dream
Thanos huffs sitting up slowly making eye contact with this myself man in hi- there room
He leans against the wall , making a huff "what"
"Im Gyeongsu! I can't believe Ive finally got a room mate"
To fucking energetic my god "cool kid"
Gyeongsu stare at him with a smile on his face.. oh yeah right "Thanos"
"Thats so cool"
"I guess"
"I like your tattoos"
Thanos nods
"You want me to show you around?"
Thanos hesitates, why the fuck would he want to be shown around? But still those words play on his minds... Just go out and act like nothings ever happened to you.. "Sure but its pointless, I won't be here for long because I'm not ill"
Gyeongsu steps away letting the other stand up,he furrows his brows at the comments but he chooses not to reply , heading out to give a tour
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Thanos learnt two things from this tour
1. Gyeongsu is way to happy
2.Everything here fucking sucks
He continues to follow Gyeongsu through the empty corridors when he spots a woman, all black outfit with an equipment belt, it contained keys and a flashlight.Was she a night guard?Wait what time even was it?Thanos hadn't payed attention to much on this tour,especially the outside.Wait... this could be his chance to prove he's normal!
"Excuse me Señorita!"He calls out to her "Whats a beautiful lady like you doing working here?"
Gyeongsu looks up wide eyed "You shouldn't flirt with staff!"
"Shush boy"
"Exuse you?" She looks up from whatever she was doing
"What's your name miss?"
"Mina,Kang Mina"
"Beautiful name for a beautiful lady" he winks
Gyeongsu comes over, trying to pull Thanos away to stop him.Thanos shoves him off "Gyeongsu don't fucking touch me!"
Gyeongsu stumbles back, hurt in his eyes "You can't flirt with staff"
"Id only have to follow that rule if I was ill like you boy"
"But you are ill like me thats why your here!"
Thanos turns to face him.His finger nails digging into his palm"What the actual FUCK did you just say ?" He breaths out stepping closer pointing his finger at the shorter boy getting ready to hit him "IM NOT FUCKING ILL I DON'T BELONG HERE" he pushes Gyeongsu over and just as he was about to kick him he feels an arm grab him
"Room now" Mina looks up at him
Thanos groans shoving her off "Your lucky your hot " then he walks back to his room
He throws himself in his bed, staring up at his celling, Stupid fucking roommate, stupid fucking place.Who does Gyeongsu think he is ruining his chances??
He could have been out if here by now could have been, out, out by now could have been out by now .He starts scratching at his skin.Could have been out.Could have been out.out.
Liquid seeps at his fingertips,old cuts open.Thanos looks down and laughs to himself,the sting bringing him joy.He brings the bloody wrist up to his eyes to get a better look, it had actually started to go dark outside but he could see the clear patterns of nail marks in his skin
His door flung open "look Im so so so- ARE YOU OK?"
Thanos turns to the door, pathetically trying to hide his wrist, Gyeongsu standing in horror at the door, watching him.The silence felt heavy, but Thanos could hear footsteps in the back and knew what was about to come.
Gyeongsu was removed from the room, nurses crowded him.Treated like a fucking child as the bandages where wrapped around his wrist
They where speaking to him as he was escorted somewhere, all he caught where 'room' and 'attention' then the next thing he knew he was sat in a waiting room.God when did his vision get so blurry?
Time felt like forever
He didn't notice when someone had sat into the space next to him, watching him, until the said somone poked at his cheek bringing him back to reality
"Fuck you doing" Thanos snaps turning
The other boy flinches and bows his head "Great warrior I do not wish to battle!I couldn't help but notice you have just had one, was it with a gobblen or perhaps even a dragon!?" The other man gasps.The taller studies him for a good second, he has long hair that looks like its not been brushed for a good while, pale skin and heavy eye bags..
Thanos pulls a face though , dragons?What was this guy on about.
He jesters down to his wrists "May I see?"
Oh "uh sure whatever" he lifts his wrists up slightly so the other could see, it's not a big deal
The other male slightly ghosts the bandages , muttering something about not wanting to touch them because of possible poison or something. "What beast did you slay to get these battle scars?"
Battle scars? Thanos's head tingles ever so slightly.. Huh-. What did he say again? "Uh a dragon yeah"
The other Man bows his head immediately "You have my respect great warrior"
He knows its bad but Thanos nods..he shouldn't be feeding into his crazy delusions or whatever "Yeah Thanks no need to bow it was easy"
"Easy!?"
Fuck "Well I mean it was hard!I just-" Thanos waves his hands around
"Ah I see a great warrior can not reveal his secrets"
Why is he paying into this "Yeah- sorry" fuck he seriously whishes he was high
"Thats ok great warrior-?"
"Subong the doctors ready!" A nurse yells from across the waiting room
"Great warrior Subong, what a fitting name!"
"NO"Thanos yells, immediately regretting it when he sees the other male flinch "I mean uh" excuses... "I mean thats my secret name, I have a group of angry.. Goblins? after me, yeah goblins so I have to stay hidden!You should call me Thanos or else they'll find me"
The other male went wide eyed, smacking his mouth with his hand "Im so sorry!"
"Its ok uh-"
"Mage Namgyu"
"Ok well Mage Namgyu Ill see you later..I gotta go."
Namgyu smiles at him as he walks away to the doctor's office.What a strange individual
But yet Thanos felt strange as he plopped down on the chair Infront on a doctor
They sat in silence for a good minute, the only sound being typing on the keyboard when Thanos finally got fed up "Im fine"
The doctor looks up finally, adjusting his glasses and clearing his throat "My colleagues and your wrists says otherwise"
"Lying cunts"
The doctor sighs turning back to the screen "Have they put you on any medication yet?"
"No"He doesn't need any, he's not ill
"Lets see why you where placed here then"
Thanos tenses, sensation under the bandages starts tingling
"Eating disorder, Self harm, drug abuse and"The doctor pauses "attempted suicide"
Thanos wasn't sure when he started crying again till he felt a tear splash against his hand "Bullshit"
The doctor nods typing something up
Thanos hated the silence again
"Im going to prescribe you some medication but we can't be sure it will work as we aren't sure of triggers yet"
Medication is for ill people"I don't need medication"
"You don't need it but it will help "The doctor corrects
Some dumb trick to manipulate him , Thanos sighs "whatever".He just needs to prove he's normal without Gyeongsu getting in the way
He can do it.He will do it.