Chapter Text
Daichi’s POV
I groaned in frustration as I tangled my hands in my hair, letting the pencil I was holding drop to the floor.
“Well gee Daichi, really having that much trouble over some math homework?” I heard Suga laugh from beside me.
“Yes, because it’s stupid! When am I ever gonna need to know this in the future?” I whined, my hands dropping to my lap, my head falling to the table.
“I could always help you, if you’d like, captain! I’ve always been pretty good at this stuff,” Yachi offered, “Not to be braggy or anything, or imply that you’re not good at it, I just figured I’d offer some help-” she began to panic-ramble. I placed a hand on her shoulder, making her stop and look up at me.
“That’d be very nice, Yachi, thank you,” I let out a small chuckle. She left out a small laugh, rubbing the back of her neck.
“Hey captain, can I borrow a pencil? I think I forgot mine…” I heard Hinata ask. I turned to face him, rolling my eyes.
“You know, you’ve really got to start being more responsible with your things, Hinata, one of these days it’s gonna end up getting you in trouble. There should be a couple in my bag’s side pocket, you can use one for now,” I sighed, watching him to make sure he didn’t take anything else as he went to go look through my bag.
“Thanks, captain!” He began to dig through the bag, and pulled something out, though it wasn’t a pencil. It was a yellow sticky note. That’s weird, I dont remember having those, I thought to myself, not thinking much of it until he began to read it out loud.
“D, Meet me outside near the lake tonight, once everyone’s gone to sleep. Say, 10-ish? Be discreet- wouldn’t want to get caught, now. X, Tetsu,” He read the entire note, my face turning a bright red as my eyes widened.
“Wait, who’s Tetsu and why do you have a note from them in your bag?” Noya questioned.
“Wait, do you mean Tetsu as in Tetsurou Kuro-“ Suga slapped Tsukishima on the arm before he could finish his sentence.
“Come on, guys, give him a little space, Jeez,” Suga said, as more and more people began to ask questions.
“Wait, so are you actually dating Kuroo-San?” Kageyama asked.
“Wait until I tell Kenma! He’ll be so shocked!” Hinata buzzed.
I felt my cheeks begin to burn, my palms growing sweaty. “I-“
“So, you like guys? And Kuroo from Nekoma does too?” Noya added.
“Wait, how long has this been going on for, Daichi?” Asahi asked.
“Yeah, why didn’t you tell us?” Ennoshita added.
“Enough!” I finally shouted, slamming my fist down in the table. All eyes went to me, and the room fell silent. “Uh, it’s just that… it’s…” for one of the first times in my life, and especially as captain, I had no idea what to say. “It’s nothing, ok? Just leave me alone…”
I got up and ran out of the club room, slamming it behind me, hot tears burning the back of my eyes.
I turned the corner, running only a few more yards before my legs gave out, and I collapsed against the wall, burying my face in my hands as tears streamed down my face. I never meant for any of this to happen, it shouldn’t have happened. I never meant for anyone to find out.
What did this mean for the team? For my spot as captain? Would the boys view me differently, like some sort of freak? What if they told Coach, and he kicked me off? I couldn’t live without them, or volleyball in general.
And what about Kuroo? Oh fix, he’s gonna be pissed, isn’t be? We both agreed that we weren’t ready to tell people yet, and now the entire team knows. With Hinatas big mouth, he’ll probably tell Kenma, then Kuroo will definitely hear about it. Shit, shit, shit!
What seemed like 1,000 more questions raced through my head as I slowly slid down the wall, burying my head in my knees as I sobbed like there was no tomorrow. I knew someone from the team was gonna come looking for me eventually, but I didn’t care. I was a terrible boyfriend, terrible captain, and terrible friend. Who was I kidding, they probably all hated me now. I’m a monster, a freak. How could they possibly accept me as their captain now that they know I’m gay?
I sat there for a few more minutes before I eventually calmed down, wiping my face with the back of my hand. I knew I needed to go back eventually, face the boys, but I just wasn’t ready yet.
I opened my phone, maybe I could play a game or something, and saw I had a text notification from Kenma. So, words out already. Great. Sighing, I opened the message.
Kenma, 16:21
hey, Hinata told me what happened…
you alright?
You, 16:25
I mean, not really, but whatever
What did Tetsurou say? He’s pissed, right?
Kenma, 16:27
what? oh, I didn’t tell him. why?
You, 16:26
Oh, I guess I just assumed you’d tell him as soon as you heard
Kenma 16:28
no, of course not
You, 16:29
Oh, well that’s a relief lol
We both sort of agreed we weren’t ready to tell people yet, and now that the teams knows I’m scared that he’ll be furious
Kenma, 16:31
honestly, I dont think he will be
You, 16:32
Really? What makes you say that?
Kenma, 16:34
well yeah, he’ll definitely be mad, but not at you
after all, Hinata was the one who told everybody. It wasn’t your fault, you shouldn’t feel bad
You, 16:39
Yeah, I guess you’re right… thanks, Kenma
Kenma, 16:42
yeah, no problem
look, I know we’re not really like that close or anything, but you clearly make Kuroo happy, which makes me happy. I won’t tell him until you’re ready, ok? and if you ever need to talk, well… I’m here
You, 16:45
Aww, that’s really sweet, Kenma!
Kenma, 16:47
yeah, whatever. ttyl
I closed my phone, laughing out loud to myself. Blunt as always, Kenma, I thought to myself. I stood up from the ground, I dusted myself off, sighing.
Walking back down the hallway, I hesitated going back into the club room, my hand gripping the handle. I know, I was gonna have to face them eventually, but was now the right time? I did kind of flip out back there. But, my stuff was still there, and I was gonna need to get it even if I did plan on leaving.
Taking a deep breath, I turned the doorknob and stepped into the room. I looked up to see that almost everyone had left, it was only Suga and Asahi left.
“He, I’m really sorry about earlie- oh!” I let out a noise of surprise as I felt two pairs of arms throw themselves around me in a hug. “I- uh, what is this?”
“We’re so sorry, Daichi!” Suga said.
“Yeah, we feel terrible!” Asahi added.
“Guys, it’s ok, I’m not mad…” I let my voice trail off, still just kind of standing there awkwardly as they hugged me.
“Yeah, but still. Hinata shouldn’t have read that note and outed you and Kuroo like that, since you guys obviously weren’t ready to tell anyone yet,” Suga explained, and I felt him and Asahi pull away from the hug, looking up (or, down for Asahi, I guess) to face me.
“Yeah, that seriously wasn’t ok for him to do,” Asahi added, a hand still on my shoulder. “You don’t have to talk about it if you’re not ready, but we just want you to know we’re here for you, ok?”
“Yeah, and we accept and fully support you, no matter what, ok?” Suga said.
“Guys, I…” I felt myself begin to well up again, “I have no idea what to say… I… thank you,” I laughed a bit, not sure if it was relief or shock.
“Of course, man,” Asahi said.
“Yeah, like I said. No matter what,” Suga said.
Despite my greatest efforts, I felt tears begin to stream down my face. I dont think I’ve ever cried this much in one day, but here we are.
“Oh, Daichi…” Asahi said. They both hugged me again, and I hugged them back this time, crying into one of their shoulders.
Well, I guess I got my answer, then. I’m not a monster, I’m not a freak, I’m just me.
And that’s all that I need to be.