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Sunoo felt helpless and lost. He wished all of this was a nightmare, and he'll wake up soon.
He kept crying and crying until he fell asleep in the practice room. When he woke up, he was greeted by a familiar ceiling.
Somehow, he slept on the sofa in their company's floor resting area. Jay was sleeping while sitting up beside him, so he assumed that he was the one who brought him there.
Jake walked into the room with a coffee cup in his hand. He tried to close the door as quietly as possible to avoid waking the sleeping boy.
When he turned around after closing the door, he noticed someone staring at him with swollen eyes and a red nose.
"Did I woke you up?" He asked him in whispers as he put the drink in front of the younger.
Sunoo shakes his head and sniffles. Jake passed him a tissue box, and Sunoo took some to blow his nose.
Jay, being the deep sleeper he was, didn't even stir from the sounds of Sunoo blowing his nose loudly. Only God knows what will wake him up.
"So what happened with Sunghoon?" Jake wants to avoid making the younger uncomfortable, but he needs to know what is happening between them.
Sunoo keeps his mouth shut, not knowing what to tell Jake. All he could remember from their fight was him telling Sunghoon to leave him alone. So he said to him that.
"I told him to leave me alone."
There was no reply coming from the guy sitting beside him. Sunoo lifts his head to look at him.
Jake was staring, his eyes were opened wide, and his mouth was gaping like a fish out of water.
"That is, that is great." That was all Jake could utter. He couldn't believe that Sunoo, the most forgiving and selfless person he had ever met, could say that to anyone.
He was planning to step in if the situation got out of control. It seems like Sunghoon had pushed the boy to his limit, and he blew up.
"How is that great?" Jake turned his head, his eyes blinking while looking at the boy beside him.
"Of course, it's a great thing. You'll be able to talk with others without feeling scared. Sunghoon wouldn't be able to hurt you anymore." Jake's mouth felt dry, and his head was full of unspoken words.
"Jake Hyung, I'm the only one who is hurting other people. He cried in front of me." Sunoo can feel his eyes tearing up again.
"But Sunoo, what he did to you isn't right."
Sunoo shakes his head, shaking hands brought to hide his face. "That's because he's scared."
Jake is confused. Why did Sunoo keep defending Sunghoon after all things he's been put through?
"Scared of what?"
"Of me leaving him."
This gives him more questions than answers. Did the relationship between the two go over the boundary of friends?
"So he hurt you to ensure you won't leave him." How does that even make any sense? He wants to keep Sunoo beside him but wouldn't stop hurting him. Making him stop talking to others wouldn't help him stay at all.
"He didn't hurt me!" Sunoo doesn't know what made him say those words. Hearing Jake saying Sunghoon hurt him didn't feel right to him.
Jake is speechless. Did he heard him right? Did the younger say Sunghoon never hurt him, or is he hallucinating?
Then forcing him to shower just because Jay hugged him, isn't Sunghoon hurting him? Or the abusive words he heard Sunghoon uttered in front of the vending machine that made him cry didn't hurt him at all?
Do they need to visit a psychologist? Their company need to have a personal psychologist ready for them.
"Then why did you cry?"
Jake looked at where the voice was coming from. Jay sits with his brows furrowed, looking straight at Sunoo and lifting his left eyebrow.
"If he's not hurting you, then why did you cry?" The sounds of rain knocking on the window filled the room. Sunoo wants to say he didn't cry, but that would be a lie.
He stood up. His heart starts to beat loudly inside his chest. He felt suffocated; his chest was rising, but he couldn't feel the air filling his lungs. Sweats begin to pool on his forehead.
"Sunoo?" Jake said. The boy was fidgeting, and his feet were shifting around. He stilled when Jake called him, lost eyes meeting worried ones.
"I need some fresh air." Sunoo didn't wait for their reply before bolting out of the lobby, away from his friends.
"But it's raining outside," Jake was standing on his feet, hand reaching out in the air to stop the younger one from running away.
Looks were exchanged between the two guys in the room. Jay shakes his head, his hand reaching for the drink on the table, and Jake plops down on the seat.
"What should we do?" Jake said. Hands clasped on his lap.
Jay didn't answer him. He sips on the coffee Jake had brought and watches the rain flowing down the window.