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12/8/2017
You have found a match
Chat?
Strongman has sent a message
Strongman: Hey
Strongman: You might be wondering why I’ve sent you a message, after like a year of ignoring you
Strongman: But I’ve spent a lot of time reflecting on myself
Strongman: And you know, you left Ikebukuru so long ago
Strongman: So I guess I’m just
Strongman: Lonely
Strongman: I know that you probably won’t read this, in fact, you probably forgot this account existed or got rid of whatever burner phone you used to message me on. But, I want you to know that I’m sorry.
Strongman: for hurting you.
Strongman: and making you think that you needed to pretend to be some stranger in order to talk to me.
Strongman: over the last couple months, I’ve reread our messages and tried to understand why you would chat with me like we were friends
Strongman: and I realized, a little while ago, that you never said anything malicious
Strongman: you could’ve been playing me for information or to just mess with my head, I know that
Strongman: but I don’t think you were
Strongman: and I haven’t seen you in almost a year, okay?
Strongman: I miss chasing you through the streets
Strongman: and I miss talking to ‘kanra’ over chat
Strongman: I just miss
Strongman: you
Strongman: so, yeah
Strongman: fuck this is pathetic, I’m kind of glad you probably trashed your old phone.
Strongman: it'd be embarrassing if you saw this
Strongman: but I think you’re just as lame
Strongman: because you didn’t try to contact me again after I left that chat
Strongman: you should’ve tried to call
Strongman: or show up unannounced on my doorstep
Strongman: because I really wanted you too
Strongman: you were supposed to apologize and try to win me back, so why didn’t you?
Strongman: I was so angry when you didnt bother
Strongman. I even punched Tom because of you
Strongman: On accident of course- I was just really pissed and aimed for the wall, but ended up hitting his forearm.
Strongman: he got the cast off last week
Strongman: you know what though?
Strongman: I think you’re a million times lamer than anyone else in the world for running away
Strongman: the flea I know wouldn’t put his tail between his legs and run off to somewhere I can never find
Strongman: he’d run just a few feet in front of me, goading me after him and teasing me when I slowed down, just so we never lost the thrill of the chase
Strongman: even all those times where you’d slip away into the dark, I knew you’d show up a week or month after that
Strongman: so where the fuck are you
Strongman: I didn’t kill you right
Strongman: I think I’d die if you weren’t around anymore
Strongman: because I have feelings for you
Strongman: don’t tell Shinra that tho
Strongman: he’d gloat
Strongman: he told me in high school that he thought I had a crush on you and I punched him in the throat
Strongman: that bastard can never know that he was right
Strongman: Do you wanna know what I did today?
Strongman: I went to the park and fed the birds some bread
Strongman: and then i got coffee with my brother
Strongman: he’s gonna get married this spring
Strongman: isn't that exciting? He asked me to be his best man
Strongman: I said no at first obviously- i wouldn't be able to handle that
Strongman: but his fiance convinced me
Strongman: I don’t really know how she did that, but one second I was shaking my head and the next I was in charge of planning a bachelor’s party
Strongman: anyways, after that I went home and just sat around
Strongman: you usually took up most of my attention on the weekends so I don’t really know what to do anymore
Strongman: so then i thought-
Strongman: I should apologize
Strongman: or at least explain what i’ve been feeling since you left
Strongman: celty said should i start going to therapy, but this is kind of better
Strongman: fuck I hope you aren’t really reading this
Strongman: Izaya
Strongman: i am sorry for what I did to you
Strongman: But i want an apology too
Strongman: I want to talk to you
Strongman: fuck, i wanna fight you
Strongman: I wanna punch you through a wall and I want you to stab me in the leg
Strongman: and i wanna destroy a city block in my attempts to chase you
Strongman: but i cant do that if you never come back
Strongman: god whatever this was so stupid
Strongman: I hope
Strongman: wherever you are, you're alive and you're scheming and ruining someone else’s life
Strongman: and I hope you learn to let people care about you
Strongman: so to summarize; fuck you
Strongman: but please come back
Strongman: Ikebukuro needs you
Strongman: I need you
12/9/2017
Kanra has joined the conversation
Kanra has changed their username to Izaya
Izaya: you shouldnt give birds bread, shizu-chan, it can make them sick