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For Chay, Mark is perfect, attentive, romantic,lovable, a big support…
That was at first.
After just a little he began to see some weird changes on him, he was rather possessive, not jealous but possessive, it was hard to explain for Chay
For example, Mark would never mind Chay hanging out with Macau, his classmate when they had a group project no matter how late, or sleeping in Ohm´s house, but when Chay would innocently ask him how he was not affected at all, Mark would only smile and tell him “ it's because i got my eyes on you”, Chay didn't understand it, not at a that moment of course
Also Chay noticed he was hot tempered, even when Mark was trying so hard not to show it, Chay was raised by Porsche, he knows what a hot blooded person looks like also they were moments were Mark would split from his controlled persona ,like the time he was so mad over some teacher and he wanted to get out of the campus, so he asked Chay to go with him , but just the second Chay said no he dragged him harshly from his wrist out of the campus.
Even if Mark spent the next 3 days apologizing , Chay in fact forgave but did not forget
But today he was hanging out with Kim so there is no use o be overthinking what Mark would do or feel, he is always okay with the younger going around, so he won't say anything, even tho he did some weird expression yesterday when he was on the phone call…
Whatever
Chay dismissed that thought and simply went on getting ready to head to the meeting place, he had to take the bus so he sped up, but when he get out of his house he saw him, standing, pressing on his disgustingly expensive sport car, Kim.
“P´ what are you doing here?”
“Guessed you would like a lift better than the bus”
´I mean.. he is not wrong..´
“So?...You going?”
Chay beamed at that and ran to the vehicle, not before closing his house correctly
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They arrived at the mall and Chay was personally surprised because Kim seemed to have prepared the whole day ahead
´Why do i feel like this is some kind of date?...´ the younger kept thinking the whole times
They went to a coffee shop, and Kim bought him his fav drink and donuts
´Aw he actually remembers, he is so good….Wait what?´
Then they went to the music shops and the atmosphere between the pair was so good and natural , KIM LAUGHED WITH HIM. Even in Chay`s deepest fantasies he never thought he would ever see such an image, it was refreshing
´Wait i shouldn't think that way, focus Chay´ Little one kept telling himself ´It's because he is handsome, that's it, that's the reason yup, gosh why am i a sucker for good faces´
But he had a reason to be so confused, Kim was never like this with him, never so open, so free, so….Kim.
Chay wasn't stupid, maybe naive in some aspects, but while tutoring he saw how was Kim with him, reluctant , distant and cold, maybe thats why he was admiring a little bit more this Kim. Wait, admiring? As a senior Chay, A senior. A respectable, handsome, talented,kind senior
It wasn't only Chay who was having this crisis, since Kim is more open, Chay took the liberty to do the same, and that was just ruining Kim on a whole another level.
They were looking for a movie to watch to end the beautiful day they had
´Gosh, has his eyes always carried galaxies like this? Look and those lips, pouting in concentration, this angelic face, i wonder how good he would look under me- KIMHANT SHUT THE FUCK UP´ So yes, kim was FIGHTING in that mind of his
He was so pleased of knowing this beautiful side of Chay, free, talkative , shiny, kind….He really needed him, wanted him and he WILL get him at the end.
They were on their way home, it was midnight and of course Kim was taking him home, heck he will let his angel walk alone at this time. When they arrived Chay was gonna open the door before Kim stopped him
“Can I message you often?”
“You want to talk to me P´?”
“Of course and hang out more, i really had fun, i….i loved being with you”
Somehow those words made Chay´s heart skip a beat
“Oh, well….i also really liked it and yes, of course you can message me and i´d love hanging out more with you P´”
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After that evening everything went smoothly with Kim, and without alert he was actually crushing on him, but he knew his place so he never showed more than what he should as a taken person, but the problem was not everything was going smoothly with Mark
Mark would suddenly appear out of nowhere demanding Chay to go with him, and everytime without Chay telling him where he was
Everytime he was getting worse and he wouldn't let him go out with his guy friends and when going out he would limit his time demanding him to come at 11 pm the latest
That of course was getting Chay more and more fed up to the point where everything went down one evening
Chay was preparing to go to a birthday party in the house of his classmate and since it was near Mark´s house he went there to spend the evening then change to go out at 11pm since the party begin at 12, Macau and Ohm were fetching him from there
Mark was videogaming with his friends online while Chay began changing, even tho it was night the bunch of people and the hot weather of bangkok at anytime of the day reflected on his choice of clothes. He went for black leather shorts with some boots with a little bit of heels on them and a black bluse , he had a slight eyeliner and straight down hair, and a couple of accesorries
“P´Mark i will get going have fun with your friends” Chay said while looking at himself in the living room mirror, that when Mark took his eyes off the tv for a second then everything in him was lost
“Hey guys talk to you tomorrow” and without waiting for answers he closed the game and shut off the tv
Chay while checking himself felt some kind of creepy air that's when Mark spoke
“Chay if you think you are stepping one foot out of that door looking like THAT, then you are so wrong”
“Excuse me? what do you mean like THAT? What do I look like to you?”
“Chay, go change”
“yeah well forget it” Chay said while going to the door, and before he could open it Mark stood up and snached Chay´s wrist so hard he thought it broke or something
“ Hey Hey Hey , What the fuck are you doing, let go!” Chay said hissing from pain, but Mark only made it worse
“If you really think about going out looking like a slut i will make you rethink your choices” he said in a low voice while taking Chay other wrist equally hard
At this point being scared was an understatement, he was horrified, he never saw this level of crazy on Mark and that in fact made him wake up
“TAKE YOUR FUCKING HANDS OFF ME! Chay screamed while trying to free his arms, he managed somehow but as he was turning Mark took again his wrist and pushed him toward the wall so hard Chay was left coughing from the impact, he was sure there was gonna marks on his back
Mark wasn't saying anything at this point and was approaching Chay, and before he knew Chay kicked him in the balls leaving him on the floor, he took his purse and bag and shouted
“ME AND YOU ARE OVER ASSHOLE” and slammed the door running out of the apartment
Macau and Ohm were outside waiting, they were going to call Chay where they saw the young one running in such a state
“DUDE WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO YOU?” Macau low screamed in english
Chay was breathing harshly, a button of his bluse was nowhere to be found and he had his stuff badly put on his open bag, everything while looking down with trembling hands
somehow with the street light Ohm saw the wrist marks that were clearly showing in a red color on his skin
“Chay…did he try? did he?” Ohm couldn't finish the question as the expression on Chay´s face said everything
“Motherfucker, i will kill him” Macau said stepping forward but Chay stopped him with a hand on his chest
“Macau, please, just forget it, we are over i promise”
Macau wasn't gonna listen but Chay´s pleads did their work, so they hopped up the car and got out of there
“Guys can you please take me to my house, i'm not in the mood to party..” Chay asked
“Sure, do you want us to stay with you..” Ohm answered and Macau took his eyes off the road of a second to give Chay the insurance that it wouldn't be a problem
“Oh no no no no it´s okay guys i just need some time alone “
Just like that Chay was in his house after a hot bath he sat in the sofa , and as everything was downing in him he began crying
Out of horror , regret and relieve as he got himself out of whatever was that
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The next morning Chay felt like a truck run on him, his wrist, that were dark red turning to dark purple were swollen and hurting him but the worst was his back, from the mirror he could see the red skin from near his neck with a pain that was way worse more down
After thinking for a little bit he decided to just chill and take time to himself and get himself together, and it was 2 pm when he got Kim´s call
“Hey Chay”
“Hi P´Kim…”
“What´s wrong with your voice Chay ? are you okay?”
“ Yes P´ just a long day”
Kim let a small chuckle that Chay didn't know he needed to relax
“Okay , Okay actually… i´m in front of your house with some food in hand, i hope u didnt have lunch…i…i didn't want to eat alone if i could eat with you”
Chay was down, REAL DOWN
Without answering he went running toward the gate to open the door
Making Kim almost lose it as he saw the most beautiful smile given to him
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They were eating when Kim began
“I´m really lucky i was betting you were with Mark…”
“ Oh emmm…” Chay gave him a really awkward chuckle that made Kim look up his plate
“ Actually…P´…me and Mark… we are done ahaha we.. broke up yup “
“oh….im sorry….did something happen?” Kim asked but he was met with silence and a sad smile
“Sorry i didnt mean to pry” he said
“ Oh P´ no no no its okay i swear” Chay said while waving both his hands. Thats when Kim saw it.
Kim´s features hardened and that took Chay back
“Porchay, show me your wrist”
“W-What do you- what?”
“Porschay i saw it so show me, now” Kim low and forward while looking straight in Chays eyes
“Porschay, please” Kim added knowing that he will never be harsh to his angel
Chay took his hands and gave them to Kim while looking away. He was ashamed? scared? he couldn't describe but he knew he was safe somehow, and more when Kim took his hands as the most precious thing on earth, fragile and threatening to break but at the same time giving him the autonomy to take them back anytime
Kim was angry, no, HELL NAH , KIM? WAS RAGING. He knew handmarks when he saw them, and he knew the difference between violent one and love making ones and this was an abuser´s work
Kim lifted his eyes to look at Chay, the younger wasn't able to face him, and as his face was turned to the left, Kim saw his exposed neck
Kim tried to control his tone
“ And your back” He asked
“I´m okay, and we are over” was all he got from the younger
“i understand, but if he touches you again i'm killing him” was all Kim said before going back to his food
Chay smiled with affection…..someone would kill for him, someone worries for him so much…Chay was down bad bad
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Kim had a clear schedule for the next month, he finished the album , the photoshoots, all the arrangement, now the socials was up to the company
The first week was almost spent with Chay and Chay only , they began hanging out more and knowing each other more and they were falling for each other more and more
The second week same as the first, it was saturday night when he decided not to think about nothing and go with the flow, taking up every consequences that it took when it came to their relationship
He rang the bell and Chay came out surprised since he didn't get any message from Kim
“P´Kim come inside” Chay offered
As they were going inside Kim felt like throwing up
“What got you here P´?” Chay asked
“P-Porschay…i, okay…i need to talk you and please let me finish then you can even kick me out “
Chay saw that serious expression so he sat straight waiting for Kim
The older one took a deep breath and..
“I´ m mafia´s son. My family is one of the most important out there on the world, we are- I am a bad person. I´ve killed, tortured , stealed every single bad thing you could imagine.
Meeting you was coincidence a really coincidence but then Porsche came to view”
Chay shifted with the mentions of his Hia
“Porsche is my brother's head bodyguard and when i looked it up on him since he was suspiciously hired, with no necessary background and experience as the others i saw your picture and remembered you so i decided to tutor you to find more about your brother”
Kim paused, not able to look at Chay´s face
“It actually took me just a day to know that you didn't know a thing but somehow i couldn't get away from you, it was as simple as get my info and disappear from view. But Chay, you- i couldn't do that, you are the first thing that was reminding me of myself Chay you-....”
“Then i misunderstood you and thought you like me, then that made me fall, but when you told me you had a partner, i just broke, then i tried , i tried so SO hard to distance myself but i couldn't then i decided to approach you and have you in my life, at that point i really didn't care how and title i just needed you in my life. Then you said you were single again and gave me hope, but when i saw what that motherfucker did to you i was ready to put a hole in his head, but it was gonna suspicious so i decided on focusing on you, and this past weeks made me realize that Porschay Pichaya Kittisawadt i love you, you don't understand how much you make me feel and as new and as scary that it is to me you make me feel alive, so yes i wanted to come clean, i'm sorry and i love you.
Kim couldn't face Chay and yes tears were going down his cheeks , but he didnt notice
He was waiting to be hit, kicked out ,cursed….but none of them came
Suddenly he felt warm hands on his cheeks wiping his tears, he lifted his eyes as they were wide open in shock and what he saw was a warm smile from Chay and a soft gaze looking at him
“ You do realize that we are gonna have a long talk about the mafia thing on a more detailed level right? And what the heck is my brother there? wooow….?”
“Chay…” was all Kim could say
“Now i can sleep in peace that everytime i imagined us going on a date it was in fact us going on a date” The younger said while giggling
“Don't you hate me?”
“ Mmmm hate is a strong word Kimhan, kinda disappointed? a little mad? but you came clean to me, of course you are gonna prove yourself to me, and we are gonna talk about this but for now let's cuddle on the sofa, and talk tomorrow” Chay said while moving
“T-Them tomorrow ar-” Kim got interrupted
“I'M NOT REJECTING YOU YOU DUMMY!! Now move please i really wanna cuddle you big baby”
Kim was dreaming, yes, either that or he is dead, that's how he felt and of course he wasn't gonna say anything in case he was waking up, and like that they slept on the sofa
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The next morning Kim was on cloud nine, this is not a dream, he has Chay in his arms , gosh how much he wanted to cry, shout and shoot
“Good morning big baby” his thought were interrupted by Chay
“Hi my angel”
“Awwww i knew you were a romantic one”
“For you always angel”
“wuh corny, breakfast and chat?” Chay asked
“Ugh not ready to talk but yes please “
“C´mon old man be responsible “
“Hey !!! im not old!!”
“hahahahahahahaha okay okay , fried eggs and rice?”
“anything u make baby”
Chay got up with a very flushed cheeks while Kim layed there missing Chays warmth already
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Chay placed Kim a plate with rice and egg on top and a smiley face with ketchup
“Cute” Kim said while looking at it
“Well kim theerapayakul rea-” Chay´s words were stopped as the bell rang
“Wait, coming right back”
Kim took his phone and took a pic to the plate and put the phone back on his pockets ready to dive i when he heard
“KIM HELP!”
Panic run thru his veins and he stood up running
He moved fast, taking down anyone he saw, his angel needed to be safe, he was outnumbered but he was doing it till he felt a stingy pain on his lower back and he fall, the last image being Chay´s unconscious body that was surely hunting him for life
After a while he woke up but did not know what was going on, he took his phone and dialed a number, took a deep breath to calm his nerves and all those emotions
“Kinn, what the hell happened back at the house?”