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After helping Lilith with small tasks around the site Amity decided to head home. At least that was the plan as she suddenly found herself sitting under the grom tree, the only light coming from the high moon and stars. At this point she had no clue on what she was going. She wished for some sort of sign, any would do-
“Hey”
Oh.
It took Amity by surprise when she turned around to see Willow standing there, she seemed hesitant. Probably because of the was Amity had been acting all day.
“Luz said you might be here”
“…Then…why isn’t she here…? I guess I’m just sort of confused on why you’re here instead of her- not that I’m saying I don’t enjoy your company! I do! I totally do! It’s just..” Blurted out Amity, she felt like facepalming. Still, she was confused. Why was Willow here instead of Luz?
Willow looked worried, “She thought…maybe you didn’t want to see her?”
Have I really been that distant? To the point Luz thinks I’m trying to ignore her?
“I- I haven’t! I wouldn’t-“Amity tried to find the right words but for some reason they weren’t there.
“Amity.” Said Willow sternly, Oh, she was serious. “What’s going on? You can tell me, it’s not like I say anything to anyone if that what you’re worried about”
Amity sprung up from where she was sitting from, “No, no! It’s not that, it’s just…” She opend her mouth but still no words left her mouth,
Ugh Why is this so difficult??!!?!?
“Do you wanna talk- “
“I don’t think I’m in the mood to talk about it right now.”
No, just like, y’know…in general, do you want to talk?”
Right. They basically grew up together so Willow knew how to make her feel better. Especially with a mother like Odalia, Amity had to be cheered up by Willow multiple times as kids.
Amity nodded her head and sat back down. Willow sat next to her making Amity’s heart race a little.
They both sat there in comfortable silence in what seemed like forever until Willow said something. “The moon looks nice”
“…Yeah, it is, isn’t it?” She decided to clear up the earlier speculations “I’m not mad at Luz, it has nothing to do with Luz…at least I don’t think it does..?” Amity didn’t know how to explain the problem, especially to the person this was mainly about.
Amity started to fidget with her hands and Willow noticed this
“You know what I like to do when I’m anxious?”
Amity shook her head
” I like to distract myself; I sometimes do that by naming think I like”
She thought for a moment and shifted herself to look at Willow “Can we try that?”
Willow gave her a soft smile and nodded, “Would you prefer to go first or…”
“I’d prefer you go first if that’s ok”
“I’m fine with that,” Willow thought for a second and hummed “Well, I like plants…”
I like you.
“I like photography...”
I like you.
“Oh! I like Flyer Derby”
I like you.
Then Willow giggled, “And of course I like you guys”
I like you- Wait no…
“I’m in love with you”
Willow’s eyes widened “What?”
“Wait- shit” Amity hadn’t realized she said that out loud “I- I no, I didn’t mean to say that, not out loud, not- “Amity tried to come up with some way to cover up what she just said. She gave a breathy laugh “If you’d let me explain, there a perfectly good explanation” She sounded defensive, scared, all the emotions you would feel of you after just confessing to being in love with your friend when the two of you are in relationships respectably.
Willow just looked at her without saying a word. She looked shocked, maybe even mortified.
I fucked up.
After that night, it’s best to say Willow avoided hanging out with Amity when it was just them two. She never told anyone what happened that night, I mean, what was there to say about it? Even without saying it, they both knew it was best not to talk about it ever again.
Amity had many regrets in her life, but that…that might have been her biggest regret.