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It was months after the first date when hanging out at my house with Thua I realized I never asked him why he was so mad at Aom. I couldn't tell if he was jealous of her, or something else. I want to talk to him about it, but I am scared to see what will happen. So, I ignored it even unconsciously til now as I looked at Thua in his element while looking over his notes. This was supposed to be a study date, but it's like ever since I took these feelings that I have for him as real, I have a hard time concentrating even when he is just in the room with me. He could be doing nothing except breathing and I would start falling for him again, I guess that is what being in love is like. Seeming to feel my stare finally he looks up to give me a curious smile, probably wondering what I am thinking. I smile back and wonder out loud, "You are gorgeous and I always feel like I am falling for you more and more even though I have already fallen." I watch as he blushes and smiles at me back.
I think to myself, okay this is the time , and just ask what has been bugging me, "I know we have had a lot of dates since, and maybe you forgot, but why were you so mad at Aom on our first date?" He seems to look away from me as I sigh and try to catch his eye once more, but he keeps avoiding eye contact which worries me.
Finally, he sighs and responds, "Kan, first off I just want to make sure you know that I don't blame you for this. You can sometimes see the good in people, even when the good is not real. Though Aom is not a good person, I knew that she was an ex of yours before we went on that date. Well more like she was one of many girls you pretended to date so you could try to get over your feelings for me. However, back when you dated her, she sought me out saying that I could never get you. I remember being sad at the time, but then I talked to Prae, the only ex of yours that I knew personally, and knew that after you two stopped dating she realized that she liked girls. Anyway, she told me that Aom probably reacted like that out of jealousy because on those dates you always talked about me mostly, even subconsciously. This made me feel bad for her, she probably felt insecure, but it became too much back then because she kept coming at me. Though it stopped and I guess as I saw her on our date, I wanted to scream at her because she made my life hell back then out of jealousy. So, it wasn't jealousy, it was hurt and anger, especially since you two seemed to be okay with each other."
I reach out to him to give him comfort, and he just stands up. I grow worried that he is going to leave, but then he sits back down on the couch with me. Not just sits down, but he lays down on my lap and waits patiently for me to respond. I lift his head slightly to put a pillow there for him to lie on and he sighs happily when he rests his head again, especially as I massage my fingers through his hair. I sigh again and stop my movements which earns me a whine from him and I smile at that, but just lean down to kiss his forehead. I see as he shuts his eyes briefly and then opens them and smiles softly. I sigh as I sit him back up, "You can rest there in a second, but I think we need to talk about this fully first," he sighs but nods.
I take a deep breath and then explain, "Okay so aside from Prae, Aom was the only girl that ended amicably. She even made me realize that I liked you, and wanted to be with you, though at the time I didn't want to believe it. She also realized that she was bi and had a crush on her best friend who she is now in a relationship with, at least that is what I saw all over social media." I take a second to take out my phone to show it to him and I pull up her profile. I show him the profile picture with Aom and a very beautiful girl with fair skin, green eyes, and her hair in two buns. In the picture, they are making silly faces at the camera. I show Thua that picture and then the post that went with it, just the picture and a quick description:
This is to my most important person, thank you for the past year of being my heart and love. I am so happy to have you as my long-time best friend and now I love that you are my girlfriend. Love you so much 💗 💜 💙!!
I look over at his reaction and he seems to smile and then sigh with relief, "I am sorry for the reaction, I didn't know. I just knew her back then so I apologize for the reaction and if it hurt our date."
I shake my head, "No, it didn't, how about this I call her and we can go on a double date?" He nods enthusiastically and I know he is already working out date ideas for us and I smile.