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Watching Gin cry hurt me more than I could explain. She sat down beside me after she finished her speech. It was my turn... I was scared, I loved him too much, this is goodbye and I have to accept that. I held Gin's hand to reassure her that it's gonna be okay. I gave her a hug and wiped my tears. I stood up and walked to the microphone. I looked at it for a brief second before speaking.
"This speech is dedicated to the Akutagawa's". I looked around the room as people gave me a confused look at the mention of them both. "To Gin, you're an amazing sister, don't feel terrible that he's gone. It's not your fault. I know it can be tough to loose family and I couldn't possibly imagine how you feel. You're so strong and Akutagawa was very proud of you, even if he never told you. He loved you more than words could explain. Even though he never told anybody he loved them, he did." I looked Gin in the eyes the entire time I said that as if there was nobody else in the room. I was crying but I didn't care. She deserved to hear this.
"And to Akutagawa."
I stuttered. "He was an amazing person and I fell honored to have been his body guard. All though I do feel like a failure to not have been there to protect him on that tragic day. I know that it should have been me instead of him that died and not him but unfortunately I was forbade to escort him on his mission. For his friends and his family, I understand if you're disappointed in me for not saving his life. Mr. Akutagawa was a wonderful man and I loved him deeply and I hope he knew that. I can't be bothered to go to his office and drop off my reports. Please know I am very ashamed of myself for not saving him. I think my time is up, thank you for listening to me." I walked back to my seat and sat down next to Gin and held her hand once more. "I'm sorry"...