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ok so basically this is inspired of this tiktok video: https://vt.tiktok.com/ZSLTfDwgB/
Mingyu kisses him back, Wonwoo’s mind creates a whirlwind of emotions, he knows that he started this ordeal with the sudden confession and he is dealing with the consequences. It all goes fast, Mingyu crashes their lips together. He is a little bit inexperienced with this so he lets the younger male lead. The kiss is so passionate and endearing, making him fall head over heels with the Mingyu again and with their close proximity his head spins.
He can’t believe he is sharing his first kiss with someone he truly likes.
Mingyu places his hands to his hips pulling him closer. With the sudden action, Wonwoo immediately stops him, slightly pushing the taller male with his hands on top of the latter's shoulder.
He is still a little groggy and he knows he is stopping himself from leading this kiss to something else, they both know they are not ready for this or maybe he is not ready for this if this will lead somewhere other than them just making out.
However, Mingyu was fast enough to hold his waist, stopping the older male from pushing away from him. He closes the gap between them and kisses him more. He tilts his head to the side, caressing the older male’s nape as he plants kisses on it.
Mingyu goes back to kissing him in the lips again, he doesn't seem so awkward with this as he bites Wonwoo's lower lip earning a groan from the older, gaining access to his mouth. Wonwoo is in a state of panic, he is sure this is going to lead somewhere else if he won’t stop Mingyu from dominating him. He needs it to stop before everything goes haywire.
He knows Mingyu is just probably is in a sudden heat wave of emotions right now. Wonwoo refuses to believe that this happened because they are in love. The thought saddens him.
Wonwoo is somewhat concerned. What if after all of this, when Mingyu goes back to his senses, he will not talk to him anymore and will think of him as a maniacal psycho. He doesn’t want to lose their friendship just because of his stupid actions.
“Mingyu... “ Wonwoo manages to say in between breaths.
Mingyu immediately stops, but it is more like stopping himself from going any further from kissing as he sees the tense male in front of him.
Wonwoo slightly trembles at Mingyu’s gaze. There is really something about the taller male’s soft gaze that makes his stomach do somersaults.
"Can—Can I?"
Wonwoo panics of course if his decision comes upfront, then of course Mingyu can, however, he also tries to process what is happening as this is getting a little faster than he thinks and he might collapse any minute and his weak body and his brain is not even helping him think properly.
Mingyu is on top of him now, He awkwardly levels himself to the older male's frame he places both of his hands on either side of Wonwoo’s head.
"Please tell me to stop Won-ah. One word and I'll stop. If you're not ready, just tell me." Mingyu states, more like, pleads to the older male to make him stop because he can't do it himself. He tries to control himself from being reckless. God knows how fucking happy he is being Wonwoo’s first, but at the same time he respects the older male for consent.
Wonwoo nods telling Mingyu to stop because he is not ready yet. Mingyu is hesitant. He stares at the smaller male eyes, he smiles an ‘okay’ and lowers his body slowly until he collapses beside Wonwoo, trying to catch his breath.
"I’m sorry" Wonwoo states, turning his head for Mingyu to see. He knows he didn't do anything wrong, but it makes him sad how this turned out.
"I—I don’t think I’m ready for this yet, Mingyu. I—I" He adds. He tries not to cry. Mingyu cups his hands to Wonwoo’s face, kissing him lightly on the forehead.
"No. It’s okay Won—I’m sorry I couldn’t control myself. We’re going to do this, once you’re ready. Okay?"
Mingyu stares at the smaller male. He hugs Wonwoo closer to his chest and kisses his forehead.
"Thank you for letting me kiss you today."
He knows that at that very moment. Everything will change between them and Wonwoo wouldn't even trade this moment for the world.
Mingyu woke up by the knock on the door. It was already morning, the sun rays hitting their faces a sign that it is probably 8am.
"Mingyu-yah! Did you see Wonwoo?"
"Why?"
"His parents called." Mingyu panics just realizing what was happening. Shit, shit, shit. Wonwoo is here with him. Mingyu stares at the latter who is peacefully sleeping on his bed. Dammit. They can't let his parents know that he is with him the whole night.
"Ah. No."
"Oh. Okay, his mom said his door is locked and is not answering. She’s kind of worried, can you go and check or maybe call him?
"Ah. Sure."
When Mingyu hears his mom's footsteps fading away he goes and wakes up the sleeping male.
"Wonwoo. Won-ah." Mingyu shakes the sleeping male gently, Wonwoo groans and moves his body instead on the right side of the bed.
"Come on. Let's go, your mom is looking for you."
"Ok. Tell them I'm going down stairs."
"You're at my house, babe."
"What?" Wonwoo sat up almost immediately, not even bothering to react to the endearment Mingyu gave him.
Oh god. His mom’s going to kill him. Damn it.
“Oh my god. Why didn’t you tell me? I need to go.”
“Hey, wait. Are you able to go up to your room?” The younger male asks, worried visible to his eyes as he helps Wonwoo put on his cardigan.
“Kinda”. Wonwoo lies, it is still early in the morning and his adrenaline is not yet released to do physical activities. His weak body is still overpowering him, but he needs to go back to their house or his mom is going to kill him for sneaking out.
“You sure?” Mingyu was seriously worried. “I will stall your mom.”
Mingyu stares at the older male. Damn, why is he this beautiful so early in the morning? He stares at his eyes then down to his lips. He wants to stop his tracks and kiss him right there and then. Wonwoo's lips are mesmerizing and addictive and Mingyu certainly can't help but to kiss him at every chance that he has.
He thoughts were halted when he sees Wonwoo fast enough to leave his room, not even taking into account that the older male is now trying to go down his window.
“Wait, wait...wait.” Mingyu shouts quietly. “I’ll help you go down—”
“No, I can do this myself.”
“Why are you so stubborn?” Mingyu hisses, he quickly went downstairs and ran to their backyard to help the struggling male down. After Wonwoo successfully went down, he carries Wonwoo to his shoulders to help him reach their window sill.
Mingyu tries his best to stall Wonwoo’s mom, and talk to him about the current exam that they’ll be taking in Pledis University.
“Yeah. Maybe he's probably sleeping. He is all worked up for the upcoming exam in Pledis. How about you? Are you ready? Wonwoo really wanted you two to be together in one school.” Mingyu laughs, how cute. Their conversation died down, when Wonwoo caught their attention.
“Mom?”
“Oh, here he is.”
“Thank you Mingyu-yah.”
“No worries.” Mingyu states, peeking and smiling at him, waving his hands goodbye. Wonwoo smiles back as a way of thanking him. The younger male returns with a wink and Wonwoo rolls his eyes at him.
“Mingyu is such a good kid, you should be more like him.” Wonwoo scoffs at the statement.
”Are you hungry? Go eat. I'll be going in a few minutes. Your father and I will have another business trip and will not be home for a week or two. Don't go out anywhere, and never talk to strangers!” She added.
“Mom, I'm not even going out of my room.” Wonwoo whines, eating a bowl of cereal.
“I know. Okay, be a good boy.” Wonwoo groans, making his mom laugh, walking out the door. Wonwoo hears the sound of the engine starting indicating his mom driving away.
He puts the spoon down, and he heaves his breath. He's practically not in his mind right now, not after that incident last night. He vaguely remembers but he knows what happened and how they were making out on Mingyu's bed. He blushes at the thought as he touches his lips. Mingyu was his first kiss.
His thoughts were interrupted when his phone vibrated.
It's from Mingyu.
Are you ok? How did it go?
His heart beats so fast he has to calm himself down. What does he mean? I mean if he’s talking about his conversation with his mom then he is perfectly fine, but if he’s talking about their kiss last night then ‘yes it went great can we do it one more time’? Wonwoo erases the thought quickly.
But of course, Wonwoo is a weakling so he replies a yes to Mingyu with a smiley. He just hopes there will be no awkwardness at all. Hopefully.
"What is it now, Wonwoo hyung?" Seungkwan groans still in his pajamas. Wonwoo decided to have a facetime with his two best friends, to let his feelings out which of course the two reluctantly agreed.
"I need advice."
“I swear to god, if you want to have a group study, I’m telling you hyung I am not the perso—"
“No. I—I.. It’s actually about…”
“What the hell is it?”
“I-I made out with someone yesterday.” Seungkwan and Jeonghan suddenly became interested scooting closer to the camera, asking a series of ‘whys’ and ‘hows’ and ‘does he even know’ and Wonwoo questions why he is best friends with them.
“Is he hot?”
“Hm. Kind of? I guess”
“Oh my god, did you two have sex?!.”
“No! We touched. We just kissed or made out, I guess I don’t know.”
“Who is the un-lucky guy?”
“Shut up! It’s Mingyu”
“Oh my god. You lucky bitch! You made out with your crush, the man of your dreams, the cock that you’ve always dreamed of—” Seungkwan puts his hand on his mouth, acting very surprised.
“Can you be quiet?”
“Does he even know you kissed him? You're probably dreaming. He seems straight as a ruler.”
"Wait. Is this Seungcheol's friend?" Jeonghan interrupts.
Wonwoo ignored Seungkwan's remarks. "Yes. How do you know?" He diverts his attention to Jeonghan, who suddenly kept his silence.
"Be careful with him, Won-ah."
"Why?" Seungkwan and Wonwoo asked in unison.
"I don't know. I heard things about them. Like they're getting kicked out or something."
Surprise is an understatement for Wonwoo, because he is indeed appalled by what he heard from Jeonghan’s mouth. Wait, what? Getting kicked out? How is he hearing this just now? No. No. My Mingyu..Mingyu doesn't seem like that kind of person though. Or so he thinks."So basically, they were previously students of Hybe academy before, but they got into trouble so they got kicked out."
"What kind of trouble?" Wonwoo asked, very interested.
"I don't know, maybe drugs or sneaking out in their classes? They were minors that time so..."
"How do you know about this?"
"I know Seungcheol."
"We just kissed yesterday and this makes me sad."
"These are just rumors, Won." Jeonghan states seeing a pouty Wonwoo from the screen. Wonwoo bids goodbye telling them he has something to do.
Wonwoo receives another text from Mingyu.
Hey.
He didn't reply so he received another text from him again. He tries not to think about what Jeonghan said because that is far far from how he knows Mingyu. He’s just not like that, he is so different. But still, Wonwoo has some what ifs. What if Mingyu is just playing along with him? What if Mingyu thinks he is just another toy to play with? No wonder he feels experienced when he was kissing him.
Another text vibrates through his phone.Hey, can I come over? I see your parents are not around.
Wonwoo tries to think another alibi. He feels bad avoiding Mingyu but he’s not ready yet to see him not after what he just learned.
I'm sorry. I'm currently running errands rn
He knows he is being a mean bitch for treating Mingyu like this all of a sudden, but he is trying to save his self from getting hurt. Why does he convinced his self that what Jeonghan said was true without even giving Mingyu the benefit of the doubt?
From: MingyuHey are u ok
Can i come over
How can Mingyu be so calm about this? He'll probably can’t even sleep thinking about what happened last night. He doesn’t really want to overthink, but what if Mingyu kissed him out of pity? Wonwoo closes his eyes and tries to catch his breath.No. im studying rn. He replies.
From Mingyu:Oh ok. Tell me when you're done.
Mingyu stares at Wonwoo's house. He knows his parents are not there. Why is Wonwoo suddenly acting so cold with him? Did he do or said something wrong? He distracts himself from playing basketball. He dribbles and shoots the ball, constantly hitting his face with the ball as he space out waiting for the older male to come out of the door.
From: Mingyu
Hey? Come with me outside?
It's cold, Mingyu.Can I come over, then?
I have an important thing to do.
Mingyu is worried and confused. Wonwoo is not talking to him apparently after what happened He climbs the window and slips out as he was out of balance making a loud noise for Wonwoo to hear.
Shit.Wonwoo looks outside, curious to what was the ruckus all about.
“Mingyu. What are you doing?”
“Oh sorry, there was a cat uh…and a dog…—Anyways, do you want to go with me? Let's eat ramyun.”
“I’m sorry, I’m busy studying with the upcoming exams Gyu.”“Okay. I’ll still get you one.”
The next day Wonwoo avoids Mingyu like a plague. This goes on for a few days, and Wonwoo feels bad about himself at this point. Mingyu is still trying to communicate with him and he casually responds to him with one-word messages.It’s been quite a hell of a week for Wonwoo. His parents are coming back in a couple of hours and the house is a complete mess. He scans the area and sees the boxes of pizzas and take outs scattered on the floor. He’ll get scolded for sure, he takes the trash and puts it inside the black bag.
He was about to take the garbage out but then he had a glimpse of Mingyu and his friends playing basketball outside. Okay, great! Thank you, universe! He can’t hide like this forever, he needs to take out the trash or he will be the one who’s going to be taken out if his parents see how messy the house is.
He heaves his breath, Wonwoo goes out hoping Mingyu doesn’t see him. He tries to walk as fast as he can but of course he has to stumble to a wood lying loose on the ground making the tall male easily spot him. Damn, Wonwoo run! You can’t afford to have a conversation with him just yet.
“Wonwoo!” Mingyu yelled, running towards him.
Wonwoo stops, smiling awkwardly at the taller male, whose expression is now a little frustrated and stoic. Wonwoo can't really fathom."Oh. Hi! Didn’t see you the—"
"Okay let’s stop this chasing game."
"What are you talking about—"
"Come with me." Mingyu grabs the older male’s hand, however, Wonwoo pulls away.
"Uh... I don't really want to disturb you and your friends—"
"Don’t make this hard on me, Wonwoo" Mingyu said, voice deep, this is the first time Wonwoo is hearing this. His voice is so authoritative it makes him shiver. He takes the smaller male's hand, takes off his jersey shirt and puts on a black shirt. Wonwoo gapes at the sculpted body although he already had a sneak peak of it from that last night it still gives Wonwoo the entire zoo in his stomach
“Mingyu. I told yo—"
“I know I heard you.” Mingyu takes his hand and lead him to god knows where.
“Yah Mingyu! We are leading by 3 points already. Come on!” His friends shout, frustration evident in their voices for suddenly ditching them during the game.
“I'll catch up with you guys later.” Mingyu shouts back running with Wonwoo in his hand earning a series of ‘boos’ and ‘what a whipped boyfriend’ he is.
They arrive at the park, the awkward silence and the cold atmosphere engulfing the scene. Dried leaves crumpling and the breeze is heard. They were quiet for a with Mingyu constantly kicking the leaves on the way.
“Won-ah.” He starts. He is still holding Wonwoo’s hand, constantly rubbing his thumb on the smaller male’s hands.
“Hm?”
"Have you been avoiding me? This is the quietest you have been."Wonwoo was surprised but had anticipated this. “What? I’m naturally quiet.” He tries to joke around, hoping it will make the mood lighter
“Are you avoiding me?”
“What?” He retorts. “No, I'm just busy—"
“Look...” Mingyu starts. “What happened between us that night, let's forget it.”
Wonwoo looks up at the taller male confused, Mingyu avoids his gaze.
“If it means you, not talking to me then, okay let's forget about it.”
“Even if it will hurt me so bad.” He adds.
Wonwoo stops, he wanted to retort but he is the reason why they are like this, he was the one who started this and he can't even finish it. “No, I mean. I don’t know what to do. I mean how are you so calm about this?”“How am I so calm? You’re literally on my mind 24/7! And I’m trying to figure out why you started avoiding me, did I do something wrong? I don’t know what to do too, Won but I’d rather forget that night than you avoiding me like I’m sort of a disease.”
“Mingyu.”
“Fuck. I love you too Won-ah. I’ve always been and that night you can’t just avoid me and act like it was nothing. We kissed! You let me kiss and touch you!”
This is the first time Wonwoo is seeing how frustrated Mingyu is. He stares at the younger male, almost like ripping his hair out.
“And I’ll go crazy if you will not talk to me for another day again.”
They both went quiet, trying to process what was happening. Wonwoo wanted to ask and get answers from Mingyu about what Jeonghan had said.
“D-do you really love me?”
Love is a strong word and Wonwoo is not prepared for this, he thinks he is too young and too naive for this kind of feeling. Is he really in love or is this just an infatuation? Does Mingyu really love him? He doesn’t know what to believe in.
“If it means almost breaking into your house just to see you then yes, I love you.”
“You’re just saying that to not make me look less pathetic than I already am.” He blurted out it was too late his intrusive thoughts got the best of him.
“I know you’re going to say this.” Mingyu took Wonwoo's hands and before the latter could say anything, Mingyu beat him to it.
“I know this is happening too fast and I know you are not ready for a commitment yet but I love you as much as you do, maybe much much more… And I’m willing to wait for you and take everything slow. I love you, Won-ah from the day you went to our house with the cat paint—"
“Okay, let’s stop here.” Wonwoo retorts, laughing nervously. Mingyu is such an ass in confessing like can he confess without embarrassing him?
“—But from that day I don’t know. You made me feel so happy and everytime I see you and touch you I feel like there is some electricity lingering in my body.” Wonwoo always likes how eloquent Mingyu pictures things out and how detailed he portrays his emotions.
“And..I was scared because I might lose you.. as my best friend or as my lover. And seeing you drifting away from me, I feel like I’m slowly losing my best friend already. I was about to confess soon but you just beat me to it so I’m just happy you kissed me that day
They kept mum for a while. “And that day.. It will always be my favorite memory of us, Gyu.”
“What?” Mingyu asks, teasing evident in his voice.
Wonwoo rolls his eyes. “Are you deaf?”
“Come on! Say it again.”
“I don't want to!” Wonwoo playfully responds running towards the swing and Mingyu laughs at how cute and adorable the older male is.
Wonwoo tries to forget about all of the things Jeonghan said but he is hoping Mingyu is sincere about his feelings and feels the same way too. He is scared that maybe he only did that because he knows that he is in love with him and is just taking advantage of his feelings.
They arrive at Wonwoo’s house as his parents are already home. Mingyu looks at him with eyes so loving.“Thank you for today.” The older male said, smiling.
“You don’t know how happy I am Won-ah.” Mingyu stares at him, Wonwoo knows Mingyu is staring at his lips and he eyes the younger male whose eyes are asking for permission if he can kiss him. He bends down and cups Wonwoo’s face to his hands, rubbing the soft spot of the older male’s cheeks.
“Can I?” Wonwoo nods. He kisses Wonwoo, it was a quick kiss but they both feel the intimacy.“Ugh. I’m so glad I have the rights to do this.”
“Shush. My parents may see us.”
“They'll know eventually.”
“Yes, but not right now.” He grits his teeth.
“Okay, okay.” Mingyu laughs. He hugs Wonwoo and whispers an ‘I love you’.
Is this the beginning of their relationship? Wonwoo let it slip for a moment. He feels at ease and secure in Mingyu's embrace, he just hopes they can stay like this forever.