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To watch the people you admire from afar is happiness.
Working alongside them is a dream come true.
Getting them to acknowledge you validates your relevance.
But this is beyond words.
I didn’t know when I started setting her apart, but when I realized, I’ve already set her too far.
I grew fond of her presence.
Her voice.
Her every move.
I despised myself for feeling this way.
I blamed side jobs.
I hated off days.
Because that would mean there would be little, to no time of her being a round.
In my head I called her selfish for her reason of absence.
I feared that she’d avoid me if she knew.
So I played it cool.
I hid it well, she had no clue.
What I feared still came true.
In the end, I gave up and held on to this thing I so covet.
“Figure this out with me." I didn’t think she would be this forward. Let alone, I didn’t think this would be her response.
She was known for being brash, that was her game face. A part of her played true to that, but this is a whole different side.
With all bravery, I returned her embrace letting myself melt in to her arms.
The fear? The pain?
Oh. I already forgot.
Because in my eyes, there is only her.