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Till woke up still drunk looking at his junior. He saw him staring at his painting. He stood up and stumbled a bit. Ivan looked back at him surprised. “Till you should sit back down.” He quickly said worried.
Till pouted. “Only if you sit with me. I don't want you to leave just yet.” He said. His eyes seemed like he was glaring at Ivan. When in truth he was just trying to stop seeing three Ivan's. He started getting dizzy by standing. He was trying to will himself not to puke. It'd be embarrassing.
Ivan rushed over and guided Till to sit down. “Let's go to my room.” He slurred out. Ivan's heart was racing so fast he couldn't take it. His face was covered in red. He couldn't do anything and was convincing himself Till's words were just because he was drunk.
Ivan had to eventually relent in letting Till guide him to his room. The taller male ended up carrying Till again. He set the older male on the bed about to leave to grab him some water. He didn't make it far when a loose grip was on his wrist.
He panicked for a second until he was pulled into a gentle and warm hug. He let it happen as his universe might have put up a small fight and he didn't want to have a panic attack. His face was in Till's chest. “I say don't leave and you try to leave me alone. Stay.” The silver haired male muttered, running a hand through Ivan's dark hair. His full attention on Ivan.
This side of Till was extremely not good for the younger's heart. He wanted to melt into the soft touch but also needed to take care of his senior. “Till just let go of me for a minute. You need to drink some water. I promise I'll come right back.” He tried coaxing the other to let go of him.
Till pouted again and wrapped his arms around Ivan pulling him closer. The dark haired male was so red he was able to hear the other's heart beat perfectly. “No. Don't leave. I don't wanna be alone.” He whined in response.
Ivan felt dizzy from the blood that rushed to his face. “Let me get the water and I won't leave you again tonight ok?” He tried his best to persuade his senior. He looked up from his position to a glare from the green eyes he loved so much. He hoped Till wouldn't remember this in the morning.
Till finally released him. “You have to come right back.” He slurred. Ivan rushed to grab some water for Till. He also went to his car real quick to grab his emergency aspirin so Till had something to take in the morning. He had to hype himself up to re-enter the other's room.
He walked in to see Till trying to stand back up. He frowned. “You were taking too long.” He slurred out with a frown. He looked away from Ivan. The junior walked over getting Till back in bed and some water in him. He was going to try putting the other to bed but was pulled into it again.
Ivan now had one arm wrapped around his shoulder and the other hand running through his hair. He couldn't dare himself to look up and see the other's expression. Would it be disgusted? Would he see the face of his obsessive stalker? He couldn't for his own sake.
He was snapped out of his thoughts by his universe's voice. “What happened to you Ivan? You used to be super clingy. Now it feels like you're scared to get too close to me.” The speech was a bit slurred. Finally he looked up from his position and saw a sad expression. It broke his heart.
“Somethings happened a while ago. I don't like physical touch very much because of it.” He answered being as vague as possible. He was fine with Till's touch but that may be due to the fact the other would never love him in the same way.
He watched green eyes go wide with panic. “Wait, so is me doing this bad?” He asked as his heart pounded loudly in Ivan's ears. He shook his head no. “You're fine. I trust you with all of my heart.” his voice is soft as can be to answer. He surprised himself and even leaned into Till's touch.
Admittedly, him leaning into the touch was a bit more hesitant than he'd wished. The green eyes he loved still staring at him. He watched the two arms move and hold him gently. This was really not good for his heart. Ivan didn't realize it but he started crying subconsciously. The touch was so gentle he wasn't used to it.
The fan was always so rough and aggressive. He felt like he was a rag doll. While here in Till's arms listening to the other's rhythmic heartbeat he felt so fragile. Like he was precious and would break at the slightest wrong touch. His face was a dark red.
“Let it out.” Till encouraged his junior rubbing soothing circles on his back. He'd check if Ivan was alright every couple of minutes. Before either of the two realized it they fell asleep like that. Till felt Ivan's weight on top of him was perfect to relax him entirely.
While Ivan exhausted himself crying, Till's attention that he always craved was overwhelming. Not to mention the circles the other made on his back or the way he ran his hands through Ivan's hair he couldn't have kept his eyes open if he tried.
When morning came Till woke up first. He blinked a couple of times due to a pounding headache. He realized there was a weight on top of him and he wasn't listening to his Playlist. He nearly screamed when he realized it was Ivan on top of him hugging his waist. He brain quickly scrambled to remember the events of last night. He groaned realizing how drunk he was.
He hoped he didn't say anything weird. He always let's his guard down and drinks too much when in good company. He figured Hyuna would've taken him home. He remembered times in the past where he woke up with her in his bed. He cursed himself for being a clingy drunk.
He quickly checked the time and wanted to go back to sleep. It was far too early for him to be up. However his headache prevented him from returning to sleep. He couldn't get up and get some medicine in fear of waking Ivan up. He glanced at his night stand and saw a glass of water and some aspirin. He felt himself smile. Ivan must've prepared that.
He carefully reached over and took some. He glanced down at the taller boy clinging to his waist and saw his eyes were red and puffy. He also noticed wet marks on his shirt. He chose to try gently waking Ivan up to make sure he was okay. He hoped he didn't cause it.
He also noticed things he never did before. The other had long eyelashes. The way his little tooth poked out. He looked very peaceful sleeping. Till felt bad about needed to wake him up. He gently shook Ivan and called his name.
Ivan woke up in a blind panic when he felt something shaking him. He shot up and jumped back which made him land on the floor. He was trembling with his eyes wide, quickly checking his surroundings. Nothing was familiar. His brain didn't register he was safe and with Till for several moments. His breaths were short and staggered. He felt it was so hard to breathe.
Ivan's mind was muddled and he was trying to reclaim his composure. He couldn't remember much of last night other than taking Till home. He didn't remember leaving. He started looking around and his dark black eyes met with bright green ones. Just seeing the other calmed him a bit to hear things again.
“Ivan, can you hear me?” Till quickly asked. He was extremely worried. He noticed Ivan wasn't calming down at all. “Hey listen to me follow my breathing. Take a deep breath in and then out. Just focus on your breathing.” The older male refrained from touching Ivan. He kept repeating the in and out phrase until the other followed his breathing. He didn't want to make things worse.
After a few minutes Ivan calmed down. He kept his head down feeling ashamed and embarrassed. He couldn't believe that happened in front of Till. “Are you alright?” He asked. Ivan just looked away again which irritated the older male. He heard the older male click his tongue in annoyance.
“You don't have to be ashamed. I probably clung to you while drunk which is my bad. Sorry about that. However it looked like you've been crying and I'm like super concerned right now. Sorry for waking you up like that, I didn't mean to cause a panic. Do you need anything?” Till's rambling helped Ivan regain all of his composure he lost.
He glanced at the other and saw those green eyes focused on him. He started feeling guilty for his reaction. He watched the other move off of his bed. Till leaned down to make sure Ivan wasn't injured at all. He gave a sigh of relief when he seemed fine.
“Can I ask what that was all about?” He asked in a soft voice. He seemed unsure about what he was doing. Ivan curled up hugging his knees close. He sat there for a minute unsure before he gave a sigh he already worried the other enough.
“I panicked because I thought my stalker managed to succeed in kidnapping me. The stalker being the fan you got me away from during the meet and greet. Sorry.” Ivan looked at the ground not able to meet Till's gaze.
“It's stupid that I reacted that way. They tended to create unwanted touches towards me. It made me wary of anyone touching me for a while. I hated the thought of what they were trying to do. They forced themselves on me and whenever I pushed away they got more violent. The gentle shake while my guard was down freaked me out and I reacted without thought. You didn't do anything wrong Till. Sorry again.” He gave more details ready to hear he's pathetic. He looked away from Till.
“Yeah I'm getting round six changed a bit. It's too much and I don't want to be the cause of a second panic attack. I don't know if you're fully comfortable with it. I doubt you'll tell me the truth.” Till gave Ivan a look in the middle of speaking. After all he said the scene was okay but it was far too aggressive. He dealt with a fan getting too comfortable with unwanted touches.
“I'm not comfortable with it all, especially hearing all that. It needs to be toned down. Now are you alright?” He got a bit pissed off finding out why Ivan isn't as touchy as before. He kind of wished he hit the fan way harder. They deserved it. Sure Ivan was a bit weird at times but from what Till could tell it was a bit more than the younger male let on.
“I'm fine, sorry.” Ivan muttered. Till frowned looking at him. “Stop apologizing, you didn't do anything wrong. Now you didn't get hurt when you fell off the bed right?” He watched as dark eyes looked at him shocked.
Ivan's face became a dark red. This is why he's had a several year crush on the other. Then it hit him that he slept in the same bed as the other. His face became even more red. “I-I'm fine.” He managed to stutter out. Then he felt a cool hand on his face and saw Till's worried look.
“I'm going to call your sister, you don't look good. Not to mention you're burning up.” Till said with a frown. He was extremely worried Ivan had gotten sick while taking care of his drunk ass. While Ivan was dying from the fact his senior just placed a hand on his head.
Till quickly grabbed his phone and called Sua. He hoped she'd be awake this early. He was relieved when his call was answered. “Till what are you doing up?” She shouted. The silver haired boy held his phone away. It was far too loud with his pounding headache.
“Don't yell, I'm still a bit hungover. Also your brother stayed the night and I think he's super sick. Do you know if his schedule can be changed?” Till answered while holding the phone a bit away from himself. He glanced over at Ivan who was just sitting there staring at his wall.
He walked out of the room to go get some cold medicine. “He's sick, how? What did you do to my brother last night Till?” He cringed at how loud her voice got. “Quiet!” He hissed at the girl. “I also didn't do much to him. I was being my typical clingy drunk self. We just slept in the same bed. He's probably not been taking care of himself.”
Till made his way back to his room with the medicine and some water. “Anyways would it be possible to contact his manager to empty his schedule or make it a bit lighter?” He asked. He kneeled down near Ivan and held out the medicine and water to the other.
Ivan wasn't aware of what was going on around him until Till handed him some cold medicine and water. He looked confused for a second but took them nonetheless. He wasn't sure who Till was talking with but he got bits of the conversation. He realized the older male thought he was sick.
Then he noticed the heat on his face didn't disappear. He was a little dizzy. Maybe he was sick. He felt fine until now. Ivan wondered if it was due to not getting much sleep. He also cried more than he would to admit because Till was so gentle when holding him last night. Ivan wondered if he was broken.
He stared at the medicine and water for a few moments. He saw Till appear in front of him again. “Sua and I managed to get you a day off to rest. Can I take your temperature? Also sorry for putting my hand to your head earlier, your face was really red and warm.” He asked, kneeling down beside him.
Ivan was looking at Till bewildered. Why was his senior putting forth so much effort? “I should be fine. You didn't need to call Sua.” He said about to stand up. He saw green eyes glare at him unconvinced. “Don't stand, you look extremely pale. Keep saying you're fine and I'm calling Hyun-woo and Hyuna to let them take care of you.” He said, staring at those dark eyes.
Ivan frowned and gave a pout. He was made at Till for not believing him. Note he didn't believe he was fine himself but he didn't want to show Till that side. “I'm worried about you driving home so stay here for a bit. I'll take care of you. Not like I had much planned anyways. My schedule is clear today as well.” Till said with a sigh.
Ivan's frown grew more. He was troubling Till. He would have to make up for it later. Till gave another sigh at how Ivan wasn't even moving to take the medicine. He started going through his clothes to find the stuff he bought for when Hyuna and her brother stayed over. They should fit Ivan right?
He pulled them out and then placed them by Ivan. “Take that medicine and get changed. We both smell like alcohol from the karaoke bar. I am going to make a quick call to my manager. To arrange things for a meeting with whom I need to speak with for Alien Stage.” He said getting up to leave the room.
Ivan grabbed his phone and saw several messages from his sister. He grimaced at the amount of missed calls from his manager. He gave a sigh quickly following the instructions Till gave him. He finished changing as Till got back. “Alright I'm going to take you to the guest room so you can sleep some more.” He said helping the taller male up.
He was worried at how heavy Ivan was with his shoulder injury. He didn't seem to have to worry much at all and just had to help the other with balance. He figured it was thanks to the taller male not wanting to crush him. He managed to get the other into the guest room and walked to his room. He noticed Ivan's shirt he was wearing was pink. There was no way it was getting washed with his white shirt. He picked the clothes up and tossed them in the washer.
He put a hand to his face praying he didn't say anything about his feelings to Ivan. He pulled out his phone with a red face. Then he quickly pulled up Hyuna's contact. He looked at their previous messages.
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‘So I definitely have a crush on the person I was telling you about.
That person currently in my house sick.
Help.
I don't know how to really take care of a sick person.’
‘Wow Till you moved fast. Give me a few minutes help is on the way!
I'm going to bring over some food that are good for colds.
Make sure to keep their fever down and have them take medicine and drink lots of water.’
‘IT WASNT INTENTIONAL TO HAVE THEM OVERNIGHT WITH ME.
………..
I owe you one Hyuna.’
‘WAIT WHO IS IT!?!?’
‘If I tell you promise not to tell anyone else.’
‘I promise now details!’
‘Ivan. I ended up waking up to him on top of me.
I really need to stop drinking.
I get too clingy.
The amount of times already I've woken up to you and your brother on top of me is far too many.’
‘Omg you two would be so cute together. I'm going to interrogate his sister to see if he's into guys.
Also no you can't stop.
The cuddles you give when drunk are too nice.
Hyun-Woo would agree with me!
Hang in for a few hours and I'll be there to help. I have a few photo shoots for promos to do
Also go back to sleep yourself it's like 6 am Till!!’
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Till felt his face heat up due to her response. He was going to swear off drinking today. He'll see how long that lasts. Last time he made it a year and a half. He can't handle hearing stories about how he clung to one of his friend. He hoped he didn't do anything weird to Ivan