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Connor hadn't stop thinking since he received Kevins message. He wasn't sure if agreeing to the meetup had been the best idea. He still had a huge crush on Kevin and knew that he wasn't going to be able to handle the same thing that had happened last time. In the 3 weeks that had followed the incident, Connors dreams were haunted by the miserable face of Kevin and his words from their last meeting. 'I'm not gay.' The sentence still echoed in his mind.
But Connor knew that it was necessarily to talk to him if he wanted to have peace with himself. Mentally he was prepared for the talk that was about to come. Kevin would tell him that the friendship was a mistake and that he didn't like Connor in that way. But he was okay with that, it wasn't meant to be. And even if it broke his heart he wouldn't be able to do anything about it.
But once he was walking over to their arranged spot he felt his eyes prickle with tears.Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck don't cry Connor you can do this. He repeated in his mind.
Kevin was already sitting on the bench. His right leg keep bouncing up and down and he looked like he was about to have a nervous breakdown. Like he had somehow sensed Connor walking he looked up and smiled. Even though the smile looked perfect Connor knew that it was forced. He sat down next to Kevin.
“Hi.” he shyly said. “Hi” Kevin responded in the same tone. Both of them sat in silence for a few minutes, the only sound being the surrounding trees and the repeated bouncing of Kevins leg. Out of reflex, Connor put his hand on Kevins leg. It was a way of calming him down but the moment the pale hand touched the dark blue fabric of Kevins jeans, he flinched. Connor quickly withdrew his hand and placed it on his own leg instead. “Sorry.” he apologized.
“No. You shouldn't be sorry. I should” Kevin started and before Connor could open his mouth he kept talking. “I was being an ass. I'm so sorry for what I said to you that night. I was lying. Not only to you but to myself. And Connor. I'm- I am gay. And I really like you. You are amazing and wonderful and cute and actually really really hot.” Connor giggled. “Don't laugh. I'm serious. I love it when you talk about the musicals you like and when you blush and try to act like I won't notice. It's so cute when you sleep because you drool a bit and I really really love your curls. They are so amazing and I would just love to run my fingers through them. What I'm trying to say Connor is that I really like. And god am I gay and i'm so sick of the church telling me what I can and can not be. You probably hate me know after everything that has happened and I would totally understand if you never want to talk to me again but let us please be friends at least. Because I need you in my life Connor McKinley and I just needed to say this.” He finished.
Connor was silenced. His mouth was wide open and he was staring at Kevin like he had seen a ghost. He couldn't comprehend what was happening right now. Kevin actually liked him. HE ACTUALLY LIKED HIM.
“Connor please say something I just basically confessed my undying love for you and you are just sitting there saying absolutely not-” Kevin was starting another rant but he getting cut out because he was being pulled in by his collar into a passionate kiss.
They stayed like that for a minute before Kevin pulled back. His usually tan face now red and his eyes sparkling. “So I guess you like me too?” he asked. “Yes. A thousand times yes.” the redhead responded before kissing the brunette again.
After kissing for a while their faces were red and wet from tears who had started to form on Kevins face. “What's wrong?” Connor asked in a concerned tone. “It is going to be hard you know? Being with me? I don't know if I can come out yet. Like Arnold knows and I don't have a problem with the others knowing. But I can't possibly tell my parents yet. They are paying my tuition for Christ sake. If someone back home knows about me I'm going to be cut off in every way. And I love my family and I'm not ready to loose them yet. I will come out eventually you have to know that. And here in new York we can be semi public. Like maybe not fully make out in Central Park like we are doing right now hahah. And I completely understand if you don't want to be with me anymore. I don't want to force you back into the closet.” Kevin explained. “Look. I'm totally fine with that Kevin I understand that its going to be hard but I lik- fuck it. I love you Kevin and I'm going to be here for you in every step of your journey. Helping you overcome every problem. And the others are going to be there too okay? Lets go back to mine and we can watch a movie? And tomorrow we can meet up with the others? At the end of the day its gonna be Friday and you missed the last three meet ups so its time you came back.” Kevin nodded. “Thank you Con. I love you too.”
They stood up and slowly walked back to Connors place.
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N Year TwU:
Heyy guys we were thinking about meeting up tomorrow again? As a whole group? Same time same place.
Kevin: Yeah we thought it could be nice because we haven't met up in such a long time:D
Naba: wait
wait
WAIT
WAIT
WE?
James: CONNOR MCKINLEY WHAT DOES WE MEAN?
Chris: KEVIN PRICE? CONNOR?
James: Guys please answer Chris is literally about to go into cardiac arrest next to me and I would prefer not to have a dead boyfriend.
Naba: WE?!
Well ehmm...
Kevin: We ehm yeah kinda dating
well not kinda. Kevin asked me out. We are dating:D
Naba: OMG IM GOING TO CRY FINALLY
James: I think Chris just collapsed next to me. Someone call an ambulance.
Arnold: GOOD JOB BUDDY I KNEW YOU COULD DO THIS. I'M SO PROUD OF YOU AND WE ALL SUPPORT YOU!!
James: Yes of course omg sorry I totally ignored the fact that you just came out Kevin T-T welcome to the club!!
Chris: neufnuwbndjurhewjnrgjhjeikjghurijewf
Naba: This is literally so perfect!! You guys are so perfect for each other.
Kevin: Awww thank you so much everyone that is literally so sweet. Connor also says thank you btw (he is totally blushing right now)
I AM NOT BLUSHING
James: you probably are Connor.
Kevin: You totally are
You totally love it.
Kevin: I do :)
Chris: Omg ew stop flirting in the group chat.
Also Kevin: if you hurt him I will literally kill you
CHRIS STOP PLEASE THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING.
Kevin: I wont hurt him Chris. I promise you.
Chris: Just making sure. I'm still happy for you guys.
James: I'm just glad that now me and Chris don't have to listen to the endless daydreaming about Kevin anymore. It was getting annoying.
JAMES STOPPP.
Arnold: YEAH KEVIN DID THAT TOO IT WAS SWEET THOUGH.
Kevin: Arnold please T-T
Naba: No but genuinely we are so happy for you guys. Also James owes me 50 bucks.
PLEASE STOP BETTING ON MY LOVE LIFE. James you are paying for the drinks tomorrow.
James: Okay T-T
Kevin: Then we will see you guys tomorrow. I'm excited:D
Yeah:D
Naba: Of course!!
Chris: James says he's down and I'm too. See you love birds tomorrow.
Arnold: WAIT KEVIN YOU ARE NOT COMING BACK HOME TONIGHT??
Kevin: Actually no sorry I'm staying with Connor today. See you tomorrow though buddy:)
Chris: Then I will definitely not come home today.
CHRIS STOP T-T
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They stayed up for hours. Watching movies and talking before falling asleep in each others arms like they had done weeks before but this time it was different. They loved each other and they weren't scared to say it. I guess it wasn't just a hallway crush.