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“That’s so cool!!”
I let out a breath I didn’t even know I was holding. That was probably the best reaction I could’ve gotten, letting me know that she at least accepts trans people. The new problem was how I approach her about this, since I don’t really want to steal Simon’s thunder by coming out right after him. I’ll wait for a better time, probably
Simon looked just as relieved. He pulled out his vape, which I could now see was a dark red with a light for who knows what, and took another puff. I’m no expert, but that’s probably not healthy for any of us.
He offered it to us. “You want a hit?” I just shook my head while Emily spoke.
“No thanks, it’s not really my thing- thanks for the offer, though…?”
As he slid it back into his pocket, I flipped the page and wrote down, “Does this make us friends now?” I wasn’t really sure if it did, to be honest, but he seemed cool. He probably didn’t have any friends either.
“I mean, sure, if you wanna be. Please don’t tell anyone at school about uh, what we, spoke about…”
“No problem!” Emily spoke for both of us. “If you want, I can give you my number, we could make a GC or something-“
I wanted to say it was a great idea, but my wrists were starting to get tired at this point. I watched as they exchanged numbers, Emily gave him my number, and soon I got the notification of “You were added to Untitled Group Chat.” When I checked my phone, I was instantly uplifted by a notification from Amazon that I hadn’t noticed earlier:
“Delivered: Your Amazon package has arrived at 3:44 PM today. More info at http://a.co/……”
My eyes lit up, apparently pretty noticeably, because both Simon and Emily looked at me.
“Are you…okay?” Simon spoke. “What happened?”
I hastily wrote down, “My package arrived a day early!” I mean, it wasn’t a lie exactly, but it was just enough truth to not out me.
Emily was the next to comment. “Oh, nice. What’d you get?”
Uhhh, now I gotta lie, shit. What do I say it was, though? It has to be something believable, like, a plush or something. But why would I lie about a plush?
“It’s a poster,” I wrote. “I have to go home now, bye!”
…Not my best lie, but I made it through the day successfully and got home. I’ve never really liked needles, so I managed to get my estrogen in a beautiful little gummy pill form, tiny and red. The bottle said to only take one a day, and while I normally like to take my meds in the morning, I decided to pop one into my mouth that night. It didn’t taste the best since it’s still medicine at the end of the day, but it FINALLY felt so good, to take those little magic gummies that turn me into a real girl. I knew it was probably in my head, but I just felt more feminine, more like myself. For that night anyways, everything seemed better than it was before - colors felt more vibrant, dinner tasted better, my blankets felt softer, everything was better. It was like I was living under a rock and finally seeing the sun for the first time. Like I was stuck inside of a flower that had finally begun to bloom.
I swear I’ve never slept better than that night.