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Yesterday I tried to overdose so I could die. But I wanted to give my mom one last hug before I did it.
She woke up, we talked.
She stopped me. She didn't hit me or yelled at me.
She just hugged me and said it's okay.
Nothing is okay but they want me to live.
I texted my best friend saying I didn't do it.
I survived.
When I woke up today, I didn't have the energy to get up from bed. I'm still shaking while I write this. Sorry for any typos or mistakes.
I honestly didn't wanted to do anything, I feel numb but also scared.
But I feel like you guys deserve to atleast know that I'm alive. I literally dropped a suicide note here yesterday.
So what will I do now? What happens to this fanfic?
I still wanna continue this. I haven't abandon it yet and I don't wanna.
I might write a chapter and post it later.
I'll probably remove these chapters when I do.
I actually saw all the comments you guys wrote on my suicide note and I felt like crying. I'll try to respond to them maybe later?
For this fanfic, I will probably have it on hiatus and irregular updates until I feel better.
I still wanna move out from here.
So I'll try writing books for amazon kdp to get some money later.
For now I'll try to focus on myself.