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When Satan watched you leave with Barbatos, a silence had fell amongst all of them in the common room. Like an instant she was gone and they stood there a little dumbfounded.
“..Well, that was major awkward..” Levi was the first one to speak up, everyone looked at him and he just shrugged and stuttered.
“I-I mean.. it w-w-was awkward..!”
and he wouldn’t admit it, but he was right in this scenario. Satan had noticed how the wrath inside of you started to form and it was growing quickly, he was actually kind of glad that Barbatos was there to take you away. When the rest of them started bickering, it was that Satan texted Simeon.
Satan:
19:12 “Hey Simeon. I know I don’t text you often, but this might be an important matter. Check in on the new exchange student if you will. She was just here and they had a small talk about the war with the rest of my brothers. It left them kind of speechless how she switched up and instantly left. I’m guessing there is more to it then we know.”
Simeon:
19:21 “Oh? Well hey Satan, and of course I’ll check in on her. Was it bad?”
Satan:
19:23 “It was a brief conversation, not much was said, she left just before she could burst out I think. I felt her anger rise quickly so it was perfect timing from Barbatos.”
Simeon
19:24 “Ah, noted. Well thanks for telling me. I’ll have a conversation with her about it.”
It was that Satan had looked up, and a few of them were in demon form which he hadn’t even noticed. Levi was ready to summon Lotan again before he cleared his throat, making the rest of his brothers look at him.
“You’re all acting like kids. Yes, that conversation was awkward and I wonder why! You haven't seen each other in what, hundreds of years? No shit it was awkward! Of course emotions were bound to rise, now get over yourselves and fucking, I don't know, stop pulling at each other's hair and look at yourself for a second, no one is right and no one is wrong. Now if you'll excuse me I'll leave this place before you continue to argue and Levi summons Lotan.” He said in a stern tone.
As Satan walked out of the room, he sighed and held his book close, but just as he was barely in ear reach, he stopped in his tracks and quickly walked back as his own wrath began to form.
“Who compared me to Lucifer!?” and he saw the way Mammon’s face fell “Why you-!” from that moment on, Satan was more also in his demon form and the whole situation had escalated.
The next morning, you woke up with a groan, a big headache from all the crying yesterday. Wait, when had you fallen asleep? You sighed, not bothering to think about it, all that matters is that you did get some sleep. You really had to thank Simeon for that one. As you slowly pulled yourself out of bed, you looked at the clock and your eyes widened. Immediately you heard a knock on your door and you’ve never jumped out of bed this fast. How could you oversleep on your first day of RAD!?
As you opened the door, it was Simeon that was standing in front of the door, you smiled sheepish at him and honestly, he looked tired as well. You let him inside and he sighed when he saw you were still in your pj’s
“I can’t blame that you just woke up, but I am a tad bit disappointed.” You groaned as you flew across the room to grab your outfit together. “Don’t know which one is worse, you being disappointed or me oversleeping on the first day. Am I really later?”
Simeon laughed softly and shook his head, turning around so you could change in the uniform which you did. “Luckily no, I came by a little earlier to check if you were awake. We can grab breakfast to go if you finish getting ready.”
You laughed softly and when you had your uniform on, you quickly got ready for your first day at RAD. Simeon waiting for you to finish.
“Wow.. Has it always been this big?” You awed, and Simeon just laughed.
It was honestly very impressive that the school was this huge, it felt like 4 mansions were combined! Simeon let you take it in before Luke excitedly interrupted your thought. "It's pretty amazing what it looks like in real life , Right?" Simeon laughed as you kept looking in awe and nodded.
"So you agree the demons can make something pretty amazing?" Simeon taunted with a slightly funny tone. Luke blushed and shook his head slightly. You laughed softly at the little banter.
"That's not what I meant!" Luke pouted and you smiled at him. As Simeon walked you through the school, he stopped in front of a door.
"This is where your first class will be for the day. Lucky for you, today you only have magic classes which will take place here. I'll pick you up here so we can go to the cafeteria." You turned back to see students had already taken place in the classroom. You sighed softly, anxiety settling in. Simeon put a hand on your shoulder, a small smile on his face. "You'll do just fine. We'll see you at lunch." You nodded and said goodbye before walking in the classroom.
When you had sat down on the only empty bench, you looked around as all the other students started to whisper and look at you. You looked down at your desk as you started to fidget with your hands. They were talking about you while you were literally right there, it made you sigh and didn’t even notice when someone sat next to you.
“Didn’t know we’d have the same class together. Do you mind if I sit next to you?”
You looked up to see Satan sit next to you, thank the lord above that it wasn’t any other brother. You shrugged lightly and smiled a little. “Can’t say no if you’ve already put your stuff here, can I?” it made Satan chuckle softly before opening his textbook, leaning back in his chair a little.
“You could, I’m not difficult to move if you’re not comfortable with it.” You waved your hand lightly and smiled, looking at which page he had opened and did the same to your book which you got from Simeon.
“It’s okay, I’d rather have to deal with you then some random demons that whisper about me in my presence.” Satan smiled lightly at that before paying attention to the teacher after they walked into the classroom, you doing the same.
After a bit in the class, it was time for the practical parts of this class. You had to work in pairs of two, making you go with Satan as he was sitting next to you which made it easy to choose your lab partner. “I’ll just be honest, after the lesson I’m more confused about magic so I hope you’re somewhat smart enough to help me.” You spoke as you stood up and went to the practical part of the classroom.
Satan chuckled softly as he started to grab some ingredients already. “Luckily for you I am. You’d rather be stuck with me than with Mammon or Beel. Mammon doesn’t pay enough attention to know what to do and with Beel, he’d just eat the ingredients before getting to actually make a potion.” You chuckled softly but still felt a weird tingle after hearing their names. It made your face cringe lightly and Satan had noticed how your face changed after mentioning them.
“I guess you’re not in the mood to talk about them or to them, I’m assuming.” You looked back up at him and you sighed softly, shrugging your shoulders a little. “It’s just weird and still surreal to me. Simeon was the one to help me sleep at all tonight.. But it’s not something I’d like to discuss in class, it’s a pretty private matter.” You said, and Satan hummed in acknowledgement, looking at the book while holding the ingredients.
“If you want, we could talk about this with the two of us sometime, maybe later today? Since we also don’t know each other it could be nice to get things off your chest and get to know each other if you’d like that?” it took you by a light surprise that he’d ask that while mixing in the ingredients, but it did make you smile and helped him with it.
“I’d like that, yes.”
After the day went by, having lunch with Simeon, Luke and having Satan joining, you had decided to meet Satan in front of RAD to go somewhere together. Your classes had ended before his so you decided to wait out in front. After a few minutes had passed you heard a small mewl coming from your left. Your head turned towards the sound to see a cat coming from the bushes. You smiled, kneeling down and putting your hand out for the cat to sniff
"Hey little fellow, what are you doing here?" You said as the cat approached you, sniffing your hand at first and butting its head against it afterwards. You smiled and petted the head of the calico cat. It began to purr as you started to pet it more. Honestly what a lovely surprise that there were cats wondering at RAD.
"Y- you like cats..? "
You heard from your right, looking in that direction was Satan with a faint blush on his face. You snickered softly, still petting the cat as it kept begging for attention. "Of course I do, cats are one of my favorite animals." Satan felt like he was about to explode. You were petting one of his favorite cats on school grounds that was normally so shy with such ease! He couldn't believe it! Satan's blush grew even more as he looked away from you, trying to hide it. "Let's go already, or else we're going to be here for hours." You chuckled softly, petting the cat once more before standing up and walking towards him. He walked away faster than ever and you had to quickly catch up to him.
"Are you not a fan of cats?"
You asked, prying for a reaction out of him. He gave a little ‘tsk’ while shaking his head.
"I have a deep love and understanding for cats. I know we'd be there for hours because I've been in that situation before."
You laughed softly at that, looking around you as he brought you to some park. “ Well it's nice to know there's another cat lover in the school. We should go cat hunting together, I bet you know the best spots to find cats, don't you?" And the lack of a vocal reaction gave you the answer you were expecting. After a short walk through the park, Satan motioned for you to sit down on the bench. “ No one rarely comes by this spot, so we can talk all we want."
"That's nice, I'd like a bit of privacy." Satan nodded and sat down beside you. You were captivated by how beautiful the park was, all the flowers that were blooming beautiful colors, even though it was almost a constant darkness in the devildom, it illuminated the beauty of the flowers, it had such a different light from the celestial realm and it was unreal to you. Satan let you look around before you let out a sigh, remembering why you were actually here with him.
“I find it a little funny and ironic that I know your brothers from the celestial realm only, and you know them from the devildom only. Simeon has told me a few things here and there about you, but of course talking to the person and having heard stories about them are different.” You had begun, Satan having his full attention towards you as you continued.
“But, I’m very conflicted. I have no idea how to feel. Even though Simeon has told me it’s okay to feel the way I do, I can’t help but feel guilty for it but also angry. Angry that things happened the way they did and leaving me with nothing, but guilty that I feel this way because it was also out of their hands..” You said with a heavy sigh and a heavy tone in your voice. You felt yourself become emotional again.
“..Lilith was my best friend. In the whole realm, she was the one person I could say everything to.. eventually, she introduced me to her brothers. And they accepted me as if I was family to them as well because Lilith and I were as close as family. I felt like nothing could ever hurt us, ever. But after Lilith went to the human world and fell in love with a human, it just went bad. I’m guessing you already know this story..” You said while looking at him and he nodded, still giving you the space to talk.
“So, after they fell, the whole celestial realm just went silent. I.. I fought in the war too, but because I kept loyal to Michael, I could stay. I was just afraid to what would happen if I had also followed Lucifer. After Lilith had passed away and they were gone, I’ve never felt so depressed. But I didn’t have time to confront my feelings because I had to take the role Lucifer originally had before becoming Michael’s servant. I’ve ignored it for so long, because what use did it have? I never talked about it with anyone, even though Simeon could read through my façade.“ You felt your eyes starting to water, taking a deep breath and looking at the ground.
“So coming here, I’m confronted with all those feelings I spent hundreds of years hiding away. I can’t face them. I didn’t know how to feel when I saw them, and I still don’t know. …wow that was a dump, I’m sorry..” You said as you realized you were the only one talking, and with a pretty much stranger to say the least. Satan smiled and shook his head.
“Its okay, I can totally understand where you’re coming from. It gives me a clearer image on who you are. But for me, being born from Lucifer’s wrath, it wasn’t easy too. Especially at the start, I was angry at everything and I couldn’t contain my wrath. Especially to Lucifer. ..even though I would never say it to his pride sucking face, but.. I hate that I’m saying this but I’m grateful for him. In my own way that is. And I can tell you that all of my brothers have some sort of guilt too of how things happened. I have some vivid memories from behind Lucifer’s eyes before I was born, and when I look at you I can kind of feel his happiness if that makes sense.”
You felt your heart ache at that, you haven’t talked to them at all and yet you could feel their emotions through Satan’s words. Before you could say something to his words, Satan continued.
" My brothers did miss you deeply. Especially in the beginning, even though the talks about you faded ever so lightly over the times, they kept small talks about the most fun memories they had with you. It made me even more mad than I already was, because I couldn’t understand their feelings.” He spoke, and you saw his face saddening a little, you smiled at that and put a hand on his shoulder
“I guess we’re both just trying to figure it out huh?” He looked up at you, a light chuckle leaving his lips. “I guess we are. ..You should really come talk to my brothers, though.” He said, you rolling your eyes a little.
“Trust me, I really want to. I guess I’m not ready to have a conversation like that yet. I know I’m going to flip out at them and I just can’t..” you sighed, your hand dropping from his shoulder but he grabbed that hand with both of his hands.
“I get it. When you visited us, I could feel it. I felt your raw emotions of wrath. Just keep it in mind that the longer you wait, the faster they’ll come to you. For now they're keeping it at a low but you don’t want to know how much they want to talk to you. Knowing them, Mammon will be the first to break the silence..” He spoke, and you pouted at it. He was right, they were only keeping quiet to let you adjust a little before eventually the silence was going to be broken. You nodded at Satan, giving him a nod of confirmation.
“I’ll try to do it as soon as possible. Just, a little more time, okay?” you pleaded slightly, earning a small laugh from him. “I’ll tell them, but again I can't promise you anything. For now, let’s go back. It’s getting late so I’ll drop you by the purgatory hall.” You nodded with a smile, getting up and dusting yourself off before following him.
During the walk back, you had a slight chatter together. About how classes went today and that the magic lessons are going to get harder and harder, which you were kind of scared of. The language alone was already a big question mark for you, how were you supposed to keep up? Anyway, problem for later, you thought.
When you had arrived with him in front of the Purgatory hall, you turned to look at him and he was already looking at you with a smile before he put a hand on your shoulder. “Go inside, relax, and take this.” He said after giving a book with his free hand. You looked confused at it before taking it from him.
“The book is about learning the language to use magic. And you know, curse words.” You snickered softly and rolled your eyes at him. He dropped both arms and you looked at him again, a smile painting your face.
“Thanks again for this. The talk, the book. I really needed a distraction or someone else to talk to.” Satan smiled at the words you gave him and he shrugged a little, putting his hands in his pockets. “If you need someone to talk to besides my idiot brothers, I’m here. I’ll be going now, I’ll see you in class tomorrow. Study some spells so we can get the class on the road tomorrow!” He exclaimed before nodding and walking away. You waved at him as he walked away and you walked inside of the Purgatory hall.
Coming inside you heard chatter coming from the common room, before going to your room you decided it wouldn’t hurt to visit them in the common room.
“Oh you..! Filthy, filthy sorcerer!” You heard Simeon half yell, you raised an eyebrow and peeked from the doorway to see a boardgame sitting on top of the table, a lot of ‘coins’ in Solomon’s possession, the other half to Luke and Simeon with.. barely anything left. Solomon let out what was a demonic laughter for a human before he possessed another land that Simeon had previously owned. “Just admit it Simeon, I’m finally beating you at this game. After all these days, this was something to be seen in the future.” Solomon pointed out
“I see you’re having a fun evening together.” You spoke up.
They all looked up to where you were standing and Luke looked as if he was even more happy to see you, but Solomon spoke up before Luke or Simeon did.
“So, how was it with Satan?” He sat back from the game and fully put his focus towards you. It made you smile and you walked towards them, taking a seat next to Solomon before letting out a sigh.
“I don’t think I’ve ever opened up to a total stranger like that. But, he did as well.. It felt nice.” You smiled and Solomon put a shoulder around you which made you chuckle softly, leaning against him lightly.
“That’s good to hear, glad you were able to talk to him about it.” Said Simeon who was sitting across from you. You nodded and let yourself go from Solomon to stretch out your muscles before you relaxed back against the couch, talking about what you and Satan had talked about. They were all listening to you in silence but a few affirming hums were heard. Luke looked like he was going to cry hearing the emotions coming from your words, but he had put on his tough face and he was sitting there like another adult. Well, in his mind he looked like an adult listening to you, but for you it looked like he was holding back everything he had and his eyes were glistening. It was kind of cute and it made you smile, knowing they all had your back. Even Luke, he was listening to you intently, it made you feel comfortable here in this little place they called the devildom. You were surrounded by the people you loved, cared about.
You suddenly felt a finger brush your cheek, you looked at Solomon and you wiped your other cheek to see your finger stained with water. You sighed and wiped your tears away with your shirt quickly.
“Sorry, I hadn’t even realized.” You said, looking up again. “It’s because I’m just so grateful to you all. Even though I have my own issues I could never feel more loved by you guys.” And that’s the moment Luke broke down, stood up and gave you the biggest hug. You laughed as you hugged him back and you saw Simeon smiling at the both of you.
“We love you too. Issues or no issues, you’re one of us. Don’t forget that.”
You smiled at Simeon and nodded at him and he nodded back. It was a promise. A promise that even through the hard days, you’d come out there together. Even though he meant it in the general way with Luke and Solomon, it felt different coming from him. He had a certain look in his eyes that he meant it for himself. That whatever you went through, he would go through with it with you. But the look was gone in a second, and yet you heard everything he meant with that look.
Luke had pulled back and went to his original place again, but you got up after he sat down. You exclaimed that you were going to head to bed, they agreed they were going to clean up after one more round so they wouldn’t make as much noise anymore. You thanked them before saying goodnight and going to your room.
The second you were in your room alone, you let out a deep sigh, taking off everything so you were only in your underwear. You let out your two feathery wings and let out a groan, noticing they were super stiff and painful having to lock them up in your other form. You turned around to look at the back of your wings, seeing there were new feathers coming out of the base of your skin which was very much irritated. You groaned and rolled your back, this was going to be a painful problem for later, you thought. Simeon could help you with unsheathing the feathers, because doing this alone was an impossible task.
As you sat down on your bed after you had gotten ready to sleep, you though back of the times in the Celestial Realm. How did you do it there?
“Lucifer!” You exclaimed, having the papers for Michael in your hands as you walked up to Lucifer. He turned around with an irritated face, but that disappeared after he saw you. You stopped in front of him and raised an eyebrow at him.
“What did you look so annoyed for? I didn’t even say anything yet.” You teased at him, he chuckled softly but he instantly groaned in pain. A worry came up inside of you but he held out a hand in front as he had bent over lightly.
“It’s just my wings.. There are new feathers that are coming through and they hurt because they’re overlapping each other. Asmodeus is out of town to do something, I haven’t kept up with what he had to do specifically, but I don’t have anyone to unsheathe them for me.” He explained. You looked at him with a frown. That must sound painful, not being able to do it in time so they come out without any pain.
You took a quick glance at your own small wings, normally Asmodeus would do it for you as well, but you were always on time before it could hurt like this. You looked back at Lucifer before you cleared your throat.
“I could help you.”
Lucifer looked at you with a bit of a confused face, you knew it all too well what he was saying in his head. Before he could get it out, you silenced him and held up your hand.
“I indeed don’t know how to do it, but Asmo did it a few times to me as well. I have feathers too, so maybe I could just see and help you with it. At least, if you want to.” You exclaimed with a smile and you saw Lucifer look away from you.
“Fine.. trying wouldn’t hurt like it already does. Come to my room later tonight, okay?”
“Roger that! But before I come to your room, here are some papers you need to check, thanks!” You said, giving them to him before walking past him with a small giggle. Lucifer let out a very audible sigh, making you turn around. “I promise to help you extra tonight! I’ll bring the oil!” You yelled.
“OIL!? Fer what!?” You heard Mammon yell at Lucifer which made you laugh even louder as Lucifer’s annoyance was top tier at this moment. His wings, the papers and Mammon wanting to know every detail of what they were going to do with oil later tonight.
And from that moment on, it was you who did Lucifer’s wings, and he did yours. A mutual massage every now and then.
You laid down on the bed, looking at the ceiling as the memory went through your head. It made you smile lightly, it was a funny memory. You rolled on your side and let out a hiss of pain from the movement, closing your eyes and letting out the breath of air when you felt like you could stay in that position.
Not for Simeon, but after Lucifer fell it was Simeon that helped you with your wings. The worst downgrade ever. You loved Simeon, but it was just not his thing he was good at. So having to ask him again for that it was.. let’s say you were dreading it. You closed your eyes and thought about all of your options, it wasn’t that you could-
You could..
..ask Lucifer.
Your eyes shot open as you thought about it, you had to talk with the brothers one day or another and starting with Lucifer.. and doing something you used to do with him for the last decades..
In an instant you had sat up and grabbed your D.D.D. with Lucifer’s chat open. There was nothing that was said there. It was kind of painful to look at a chat with him to be completely empty. You gulped lightly, it was late at night but whatever, you were in pain. You built up the courage and started typing a message.
'Hey! Could you-' no..
'Hi, is it possib-' also no..
You groaned and held the phone against your face, what in the lords above were you going to say to him? After walking out on all of them, talking with Satan about your feelings about them all? You were thinking of all the possible outcomes this could have, what if he-
“Hello?” came from your phone. You let out a little bit of a peep.
You CALLED HIM!? You were freaking out, could you hang up? Talk? What should you-
“..Did you call on accident..?” Lucifer spoke up again, you looked at the timer and saw the call was already going on for almost a minute. Had he picked up the second you called him? You cleared your throat before you spoke up.
“Uh.. I did yeah.. I was going to text you, but I didn’t know how to ask something.. I guess my forehead called you, sorry for disturbing you.” Idiot. You stupid, stupid angel.
“Oh, what was your question? If, it makes it easier.” He said, genuinely curious what you had to ask.
“Uh..” You stumbled a bit over your words, was it this easy..? “My wings, I mean, feathers.. I uh.. need help unsheathing them..” You said softly, a little embarrassed to be asking him this after centuries. The other line of the phone fell quiet which made you worry, but not too soon-
“Tomorrow?” “Huh?” you had said immediately, Lucifer let out a huff of a small laugh. You smiled lightly.
“Is tomorrow okay? Knowing it hurts wearing the uniform my advice is that we do it as soon as possible. So, tomorrow after school?”
You smiled even more behind the phone, forgetting the feelings you had this late afternoon with Satan for a little bit.
“Yeah, tomorrow is fine. Thanks. I was dreading to ask Simeon for help since it always hurts more whenever he does it.” You said with a small chuckle, and Lucifer instantly had a reply.
“I think everyone would be painful after me and Asmodeus. No worrying for you and your wings. I’ll help you tomorrow. Try to get some sleep, I’ll have to finish this paperwork now so I’ll have to go.”
“Oh, sure.. See you tomorrow Lucifer.”
You hung up on him and you stared at the phone with still a bit of shock, you didn’t even have to worry about it in the end. Lucifer was super chill about it which made you feel at ease.
You let out a sigh of relief with a smile, knowing your wings were in extra good care tomorrow.
But the other issue, seeing Lucifer eye to eye.. well, that was another problem for tomorrow.
Now, it was time to get some well deserved sleep.