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Living with Ford has been… difficult.
I mean he’s been my good friend since college! Living with him is okay but… he’s been acting so strange, he’s been keeping secrets, and I feel like he’s hiding something from me.
I miss my wife, I miss my son. I know I signed up for this, I agreed to stay here and help with the research but… I want to go home. I don’t want to do this anymore.
I have this… this terrible gut feeling that this is a bad idea, that this portal to the other side is going to destroy the world. Ford is… stubborn though, he’s very stuck on this portal idea.
But how does opening a portal to a dimension where all these cursed monsters are coming from sound like a good idea at all? Am I a bad person if I go through with this?? Am I a bad friend if I ditch him?
Maybe we’re just going through a rough spot right now. I’m married, and I understand the ups and downs a relationship can have. What kind of friend would I be if I just ditched him because of a little rough spot in our friendship?
The worst part is that I don’t think he understands that this portal isn’t my life goal, it’s his. I have other responsibilities, I have a family. My wife and my son need me just as much as Ford needs my help.
Research shouldn’t be his entire life either, he hasn’t slept in days and keeps encouraging me to do the same. We both need a break, we’re going to get burnt out. As much as I love doing this with him… I think it’s time for me to go home.
But, he needs me. Is he even gonna stay sane without me here? He behaves so strangely at night, when he does sleep I always find him sleepwalking and… just saying plain gruesome things. His eyes appear yellow and glowing. I think he’s losing it, am I in danger? Is Stanford dangerous?
I think Stanford is dangerous, I don’t think I should stay with him any longer. But what if I leave and he hurts himself? Would I be responsible?
I don’t feel like I should continue research with him.