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I stare at the needle hovering above my thigh, a weird type of raw fear burning my throat.
I groan, putting the needle back pn my desk and resting my forehead on the edge.
Why is this so difficult?
I stare at the empty spot on my thigh, pinching the skin between my nails. It'd barely hurt, considering what i've been through, but this was different. It was new.
I lift my head off the desk and sigh, picking up my sketchbook. If I was going to procrastinate I might as well be productive doing it.
After a little I feel a small draft coming from my wimdow and when I turn, Gwen is smiling at me, taking of her shoes and placing them on the window ledge.
I grin, leaning forward and giving her a peck on the mouth.
¨To what do I owe the honours, Spider-Woman?¨
I smirk, placing my sketchbook down. She shrugs, leaning against my desk and carefully eyeing the needle on my desk.
¨Am I not allowed to visit my adorable boyfriend?¨ She teases back, ruffling my hair.
¨Hey, you planning on doing that anytime soon orrrrr...?¨ She nods at the injection infront of me and I huff, shrugging.
¨I will just...ugh! It's weird... I was so excited to get it and now I cant bring myself to do it. I know it wont hurt but it just... I can't seem to do it,¨
Gwen nods slowly, not interrupting me once.
¨Does it get easier?¨ I ask her, going to look her in the eyes but failing out of embarrassment and gazing at the floor.
She shrugs. ¨I... I guess?¨ She runs a hand through her hair. ¨I dont take injections to be fair, Miles. And i've been on 'Feminems' -as you call them- for a while,¨
I snicker, though it feels half hearted and heavy.
¨...Did you clean it?¨
She asks, tilting her head at my thigh and when I nod she picks up the testosterone, looking at me with a questioning glance.
¨Can I?¨
She questions and again, I nod, my tongue feeling dry and unable to form words.
A second later I feel a small pinch, and a cold chill run through my leg.
¨Done?¨ I ask her when she stands up straight again.
She rubs a hand over my forehead before kissing me on the cheek, smiling.
¨Done,¨
She confirms.
I let out a breath I didnt know I was holding and lean against her.
It got easier after that.
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