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“In the depths of humility, there lies a strength that makes us whole again.”
– Saint Augustine
Tsukushi stood at the edge of the field, lungs burning. His shirt clung to him, soaked with sweat and smeared with mud, the collar stretched from where he’d tugged it during the final minutes of the game. The sharp tang of iron hung in the air—blood from a scraped knee or maybe just the wet earth torn up by cleats. His chest rose and fell like a stuttering drumbeat. The missed pass looped in his mind, again and again, tighter each time.
His cleats dug into the turf as he turned to face them.
His teammates.
Kazama. Usui. Misuki.
All of them.
They were still catching their breath too, some with hands on hips, others wiping sweat from their brows. But their eyes… their eyes were on him.
Because of me.
Tsukushi’s voice came out strained, a trembling thread pulled too tight. “Sorry, guys!” he blurted, his throat raw from shouting during the match. “That was on me—I’ll stay after and practice the pass. I swear. I’ll get it right next time!”
He forced a smile, but it wobbled at the edges. A sick twist of guilt coiled in his stomach like he’d swallowed something sharp. He kept talking because silence was worse.
“I—I just didn’t see the angle, and I know it was right there, and if I hadn’t—”
But the silence held.
No one moved.
The only sound was the wind brushing through the trees at the edge of the pitch, rustling like a whispered judgment. His heartbeat drummed in his ears, loud and lonely.
They were looking at him—not with anger, not with ridicule—but something quieter. Something heavier. Like they were seeing something he hadn’t meant to show.
Kazama was the first to speak.
“You ever say sorry again for trying your hardest,” he said flatly, “and I’m carrying you off the field.”
Tsukushi blinked.
Kazama’s words weren’t sharp, but they struck like a slap of cold water. The set of his jaw was serious, but behind his narrowed eyes was something else. Something like... hurt. No—defense. Not against Tsukushi. For him.
Usui stepped in, arms crossed, hair damp and plastered to his forehead. “We will start a fight,” he said, his voice calm in the way that made it more dangerous. “Say sorry again. Try me.”
There was a faint curve to his lips, but it wasn’t a smile of amusement. It was too quiet. Too pointed.
Tsukushi opened his mouth, unsure whether to laugh or cry, but the words caught somewhere behind his teeth.
Then Misuki stepped forward. He didn’t say anything at first—just reached out with those long, careful fingers and dropped a towel over Tsukushi’s head. The sudden warmth of it made Tsukushi flinch.
The terrycloth was soft, frayed at the edges. It smelled like the locker room: clean soap and grass and sweat and something grounding—home. He didn’t move to take it off.
“You did good, kid,” Misuki murmured.
The words were low, just above the breeze. But they hit deeper than any lecture could.
Tsukushi’s shoulders sagged, like someone had finally pressed pause on the ache wound up in his spine. The towel slipped a little, catching on his ear, and he pressed it tighter around his face—not just for the sweat, but for the sting in his eyes.
“I…”
His voice cracked.
He tried again.
“…Thanks.”
He couldn’t look at them. Not yet. The heat blooming in his chest was too raw. Too much. It hurt—but not in the way he expected. It was the kind of ache that came with being seen, truly seen, and not being pushed away. Not this time.
The wind shifted, cool and damp, brushing gently over his flushed skin. Somewhere behind him, a whistle blew, signaling the end of another match. But for Tsukushi, something else was beginning.
The towel stayed on his head like a crown he hadn’t earned—but they’d placed it there anyway.
And maybe… just maybe… he wasn’t carrying this alone anymore.