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OCTOBER 08, 2025
Sieun jumped to his bed, wiping his sweat after he cleaned the apartment. His right hand slipped to his right pocket as he took his phone.
He opens his phone and clicks the X App, he was then met with a news of Ahn Suho and Baek Su-jeong breaking up .
This news was posted by the company Sieun worked in, apparently it was the company where Suho and Su-jeong met before they transferred to another company together.
Sieun just looked at his phone blankly, and that expression remained for a few seconds. He just turned off his phone and didn’t think much of it.
Maybe he might have already lost his chance, maybe their love wasn’t enough to fight for.
That was what Sieun thought.
…
December 23rd, 2025
Sieun was at Juntae’s, along with Baku and Gotak. They were celebrating early Christmas Eve together since they’d be spending Christmas with their families.
Sieun was heavily drunk by the time they were done and it was around 1:30AM and there wasn’t any uber around, neither was there a bus.
Baku didn’t realized that he had actually called Suho to come to Gotak’s house while he was drunk.
And so when Sieun went outside, Suho had just arrived. Sieun’s face lit up, he was suddenly smiling and shouting to Suho.
“Suho-yaaa~ I’ve missed you” Sieun shouted, Gotak behind him.
“Suho? What are you doing here” Gotak asked, his eyebrows raised.
“Baku called me here saying it was urgent? Did something happen?” Suho explained, his voice was like a gentle music to Sieun’s ears, he haven’t heard that voice for years.
“Oh? Baku already went home” Gotak acknowledged, “but since you’re already here, can you like… Drive Sieun home? I’m still drunk, I can’t drive him home and there’s no uber these hours.” he added.
“home…” Sieun mumbled, making Suho look away because of adoration.
“I’ll… Do that” Suho says, “I’ll drive him home.”
Gotak smiled, “thanks Suho!” he chuckled
Suho placed the helmet on Sieun’s head and then smiled at him.
They get into Suho’s motorbike and waved off goodbye to Gotak.
Suho and Sieun was silent the whole time way home, but during a red light, Sieun slipped his hands into Suho’s waist and leaned his head to Suho’s back.
Sieun didn’t notice it but Suho’s cheeks were as red as a tomato.
5 minutes later, they arrived at Sieun’s apartment. Suho had to piggyback Sieun to his apartment room since Sieun was still drunk.
Sieun told Suho the passcode for the door since Sieun changed it instead of using door keys.
“Do you want to tell me the passcode or you want to do it yourself?” Suho asked
“0-9-0-4”
“what?”
“0-9-0-4, that’s the passcode.” Sieun stated
Suho’s eyes widened slightly when he realized the passcode, September 4.
That was their anniversary.
Suho clicked the 4 numbers and it opened. He went in and directly went to Sieun’s room, it had also been years since the last time he went inside. The apartment’s scent was Lavender, it was also Suho’s favorite scents.
Suho puts Sieun to his bed and adjusted his position, his voice then began, “do you want to change?” he asks.
“No… No. I’m fine.” Sieun answered.
“I should go now, sleep tight.” Suho smiled
But then, Sieun held Suho’s hands, “stay…”
“Please stay.” Sieun repeated
“I can’t, Sieun.” Suho says
Sieun pouted, crossed his arms and turned around. Suho smiled and leaned in, he landed a small peck kiss on Sieun’s forehead.
“Sorry Sieunnie but I have to go now.” Suho sighed and then closed the door slowly to make less noise. He extra checked that the apartment door was locked and went.
….
Sieun woke up, now hangover, he rubbed his eyes and searched for his phone, finding it in the small table drawer beside his bed.
He clicked the power button and the screen opened.
December 24th, 2025
09:12 AM
Sieun didn’t remember anything from last night except that he was drinking with Baku and Hyeontak, Juntae didn’t drink.
He wondered how he got home, he knew he went home late and that there was no taxis and buses, Gotak was also very drunk so he can’t just drive his car.
He unlocked his phone and clicked the message app.
BAKU AND THE DRUNKARDS
Sieun: good morning, how did I get home last night?
Gotak: Suho went to drive you home since I was drunk.
Sieun: What are you talking about?
Gotak: How do I explain this…
Suho told me that Baku called him saying it was urgent. Baku already went home and you were on your way home so I just told him to drive you home.
Sieun: oh… Alright
Gotak: you aren’t mad?
Sieun: why should I be?
Gotak: no reason…
Sieun turned his phone off and decided to go to the kitchen, he was surprised when he saw the fridge, Suho had left kimchis and tteokbokkis, made by Suho’s grandmother.
Sieun then began eating, he missed this taste, and he longed for it for so long.
It was the first time he was eating so much in his apartment, in the whole year even.
…
10:20 AM
Sieun finished taking a bath and had changed to his work’s uniform.
He closed his apartment door and reached down to the first floor of the apartment complex, when he saw Suho.
“Sieun-ahh!” Suho calls out, oh the way he says his name, Sieun could melt anytime. He missed that voice so much, even if he hates to admit it.
Maybe this is how Suho plays his game, but it’s all good. Sieun could let Suho use him all he wants. Because that’s just what Sieun wants.
Because he have never known anybody like Suho. Because Sieun had never dreamed of someone else other than Suho.
“What are you doing here?” Sieun asks
“Picking you up? And drive you to work?”
“Why?”
“Because I want to” Suho’s voice sent chills to Sieun’s spine. That voice makes Sieun feel so warm and comfortable.
“You don’t have to” Sieun says
“I have to”
“Why? because you want to get back together with me?” Sieun’s words made Suho stop to his tracks. Maybe it was that, but it would be so selfish of him to just get back inside Sieun’s life that easily after what he did.
They stayed silent for a while.
But before anything could get uncomfortable, Suho decides to speak.
“I’m sorry for breaking us…”
As much as Sieun wants to get back with Suho, it still hurts that Suho broke up with him.
But he knew that it was also his fault too, for agreeing to go to Singapore, that far. He knew they wouldn’t work out anyway.
“It’s fine, who thought that it would’ve happened?” Sieun says casually, no one would see that Sieun was actually crumbling inside. The casual words Sieun said made Suho looked down to the ground, not able to look directly at Sieun’s eyes. The eyes that were so full of emotions, the eyes Suho so cherished and loved—left now with emptiness.
“What do you want from me?” Sieun questioned, the seriousness in his voice made even Suho feel more guilty of what he did. He knew he was being dramatic when he broke up with Sieun just because he thought they wouldn’t be able to work it out. Especially since they were going to be away from each other for so long. But Suho pushed all that negativity aside and tried to be optimistic, wanting to take advantage of the moment since he knew this was gonna be the last one.
“I wanna regain your trust, your love, I love you more than my life. I don’t care how long it’s gonna take to get you back inside my life but I’m willing to wait for an eternity, just to have you by my side again.” Suho confessed, from other’s perspective, they would see Suho being confident with his words. But Sieun could see right through him, he knew Suho was really nervous despite the confident tone in his voice.
Sieun’s eyes softened, he knew this would take a long time. But if Suho was willing to go for it, to prove that he could be sure to protect Sieun again.
Sieun walked towards Suho, took his helmet and slide it into his head.
“Come on now, I’ll be late. Pick me up later after work at 8:30PM. We’ll talk it all out later.”
Suho looked at Sieun with confusion, but he listened either way. He got into the motorbike and drove Sieun to work.
…
8:35 PM
Sieun walks out from his company’s building, Suho was already waiting outside. He was using his car that he bought two years ago.
Sieun gets in and that familiar scent meets Sieun, Suho’s scent. He never changed his perfume.
Suho was wearing a gray hoodie, he looked good, his hair was in curls.
“Where do you wanna talk?” Suho asks, looking at Sieun, his hands in the steering wheel.
“It’d be okay here” Sieun replies, opening his water bottle and drinking it.
Suho just nodded and drove the car off.
They were silent for a while, it wasn’t uncomfortable nor awkward. The atmosphere was warm.
A few minutes later during a red light, Suho’s voice began, “I’m sorry for leaving you… I know I was overacted about the long distance relationship stuff, I was scared because I thought it might not work out. It might also end up hurting you if we broke up in message,” Suho explains, “I thought it’d be too hard for us to not see each other for years. But I realized that love is too strong for it to break just because you didn’t meet for a mere few years. I didn’t fight for us before, I was a coward and immature. But I wanna make up for it, to show you that I am willing to take whatever risks comes in our way.” Suho added, his voice breaking as he began to tear up.
Suho stopped the car for a while beside a pavement to stop his emotions overtake him.
“I’m sorry, Sieun-ah..” Suho says while wiping his tears
Sieun took a tissue from his bag and began wiping Suho’s tears, “if you’re really willing to take risks to make us work again, then I have no reason to stop you.” A small curve appears in Sieun’s mouth, he placed the tissues inside his bag. Suho still looking at him.
Sieun looked back, “what? you don’t want to? I’m just gonna take it back” Sieun teases
“N-no no! I… I’m just shocked.. Are you sure?” Suho didn’t believe it.
“Unless you don’t want to”
“No! I want to” Suho exclaimed, smiling brightly
Sieun looked at him with adoration in his eyes.
“Start driving or I’ll get out” Sieun threatened teasingly, getting a chuckle from Suho.
“Alright alright”
They drove off to Suho’s grandmother’s restaurant and ate there. Suho’s grandmother hugged Sieun tightly for minutes before letting him free, she missed having him around and it had been years. She did scold Suho for leaving Sieun.
Suho’s grandmother gave Sieun a lot of foods to eat, she knew he wasn’t eating very well. She can see just from his body, he was as thin as before.
A moment later, they said goodbye to Suho’s grandmother and went their way to Suho’s house.
10:30 PM, they arrived at Suho’s house, it was big, Suho was doing well because of his work
They went inside and Suho gave Sieun a pajama and one of his hoodies. Sieun still looked so little in Suho’s clothes even after years.
Suho insisted Sieun to stay for the night, and spend Christmas together. Sieun gladly accepted since its not like he wants to spend his Christmas with his parents anyway.
They were still no better than before, nothing ever changed to Sieun’s parents. Maybe his parents wasn’t familiar to changes, Sieun thought.
…
“Suho-ya” Sieun calls out
“Mhm?”
“Can I ask something?”
“Sure” Suho replies
“How can you move on so fast from Su-jeong?” Sieun asks, while sitting on Suho’s bed, while wearing Suho’s hoodie.
“We were never in love with each other, the whole relationship with her was fake. It was just to make her ex jealous. And she got what she wanted.” Suho elaborated while he was cleaning up the mess he made, he spilled orange juice all over the table.
“We were just close friends in private, notice how we never posted pictures of us kissing? It was just weird to even think about.” Suho added, making his way to Sieun.
“Oh.. Well, that’s unexpected.” Sieun says, looking away
“It sure is” Suho says
…
08:00 AM, December 25th, 2025
Sieun woke up and made his way outside the bedroom, he saw Suho cooking him breakfast.
“Good morning love, Merry Christmas!” Suho greeted, hugging Sieun tightly
“Merry Christmas too” Sieun greeted back.
“Where do you want to go for later?” Suho asks
“Anywhere”
Suho looked at him smiling.
“Maybe, just maybe, it would be us for eternity.”