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The staff lounge was quieter than usual — the kind of soft, late-afternoon quiet that made the fluorescent lights hum loud enough to notice. The sun was dipping low through the half-frosted windows, slanting in those long orange stripes that made everything look a little warmer than it actually was. Old chairs, mismatched mugs left on the counter, the whir of the vending machine humming like background static — it was one of the few places in the school where In-ho could breathe.
He sat at the far end of the long table, the seat that nobody ever fought him for, back to the wall, laptop open in front of him. His lunch — or what counted as lunch at four in the afternoon — sat half-finished beside him: a turkey sandwich on plain bread, one corner bitten off, the crust a little dry. He wasn’t even really tasting it. Mostly he was chewing mechanically, eyes flicking between the laptop screen and the pile of grading beside it.
The screen showed an email he’d already read three times: a reminder about submitting sub plans for the next week. He’d drafted his earlier but hadn’t sent them yet. Something in him always hesitated, even with simple things. What if he missed something? What if the sub didn’t follow the notes? What if his kids acted out? His fingers hovered over the trackpad, scrolling, re-reading, double-checking.
He took another slow bite of the sandwich and set it down neatly on the napkin. His movements were precise — not delicate, just controlled, like he didn’t want to accidentally disturb the quiet around him.
Across the room, the microwave blinked 0:00 every few seconds. The air smelled faintly of someone’s burnt popcorn from earlier. His pen rested perfectly parallel to the edge of his notebook. The orderliness helped him think.
He was just starting to settle — sinking into the calm, letting his shoulders drop, adjusting the brightness on his laptop — when the hallway outside erupted in noise.
Laughter.
Footsteps.
Voices overlapping, loud, bright.
And then—
“—NO, Sang-woo, listen! I’m not being dramatic, I’m being realistic—”
“You’re always dramatic.”
“Okay, but this time I’m dramatic AND realistic—”
The door swung open with a burst of cold hallway air and a half-stumble because, of course, Gi-hun pushed the door too hard and almost tripped over his own feet.
The peace in the room shattered instantly.
In-ho’s jaw tightened. He didn’t move, didn’t look up right away — but he felt the shift, like the temperature itself rose ten degrees.
Gi-hun came in first, juggling a folder stuffed so full of papers that one permission slip fluttered free and spiraled to the floor behind him. He didn’t notice. His hair was slightly wind-tossed, tie crooked in a way that looked natural on him and sloppy on anyone else. His backpack strap was hanging off one shoulder, and he carried a half-empty cup of iced coffee even though it was cold outside.
Park Jung-bae followed him, laughing at something that probably wasn’t even funny, slapping Sang-woo’s shoulder as he entered. Sang-woo trailed behind them both, holding his own stack of worksheets with the resigned expression of someone who was used to being dragged into Gi-hun’s chaos on a daily basis.
And the volume—
God.
The volume.
Their voices weren’t loud in a mean way. Just big. Warm. Alive. Too alive for the late-afternoon stillness In-ho had been savoring.
He kept his eyes focused on his laptop screen, but he could feel the energy in the room shift toward their orbit, whether he wanted it to or not.
Gi-hun didn’t see him right away. He was too busy tossing his folder onto the counter, muttering to himself as he dug through it.
“Where is that form…? I swear it was right here— I just had it— oh my god, why do I have seventeen copies of the same list—”
Sang-woo sighed deeply.
Jung-bae shook his head. “Dude, your organization system is a hate crime.”
“I don’t need this negativity,” Gi-hun said, pointing at him with a pencil that wasn’t sharpened. “What I need is a chaperone before I lose my mind.”
In-ho swallowed a sigh and took another small, quiet bite of his sandwich.
He knew exactly where this was going.
And he knew, instinctively, that somehow — somehow — this chaos was about to land squarely in his lap.
The staff lounge door thudded shut behind them, sealing the noise like someone had dropped a lid over a boiling pot. From his seat at the far end of the table, In-ho could feel the vibration travel faintly through the floor.
He tried to pretend he wasn’t listening.
Laptop open.
Half a sandwich wrapped in foil.
Cursor blinking on a half-finished email.
But Gi-hun’s voice had a way of filling every available space.
“—it was in this folder, I swear it was in THIS folder, why do I keep losing things—”
Then a groan of pure despair.
“Ahhh, why is my bag like this? It’s like the Bermuda Triangle but with sheet music—”
Jung-bae cruised past the table with a protein bar. Sang-woo dropped a stack of papers like he wanted gravity to do him bodily harm.
And then Gi-hun’s head snapped up.
His eyes landed on In-ho.
His whole face lit up.
“Oh! You’re still here!”
In-ho looked away before that brightness could hit too directly. “I eat in here.”
“He haunts this place,” Jung-bae added from the microwave. “Like an academic ghost.”
In-ho ignored him.
Gi-hun, however, stepped closer — all warmth, all motion, a little too alive for someone who’d just finished wrangling 120 teenagers with instruments.
“Hey,” he said, leaning his elbow on the table, tone softer now that he was actually speaking to him. “How’d everything go? And— uh— is your printer still working?”
That caught him off guard.
He blinked. “What?”
“Your printer,” Gi-hun repeated with a little gesture, like he was pointing at an invisible box. “The one I fixed. Or… tried to fix. Is it still behaving? It didn’t, like— explode or start smoking or file a restraining order on you?”
Despite himself, the corner of In-ho’s mouth twitched.
“It’s working,” he admitted. “For now.”
Gi-hun lit up even more, like someone had plugged him into an outlet.
“Yes! Good! Okay! See, I told you it wasn’t dead. It just needed a little tough love.”
“You loosened the roller mechanism and re-seated the tray,” In-ho said. “There was no ‘tough love’ involved.”
“I spoke sternly to it,” Gi-hun insisted.
“I remember. You threatened it.”
“Motivated it,” Gi-hun corrected, smiling wide enough that In-ho had to look back down at his laptop before his face did something stupid. “I take printer care very seriously.”
“That is… very evident.”
There was a moment — warm, oddly gentle — where they just looked at each other, an easy silence folding over the table between them.
Then Gi-hun inhaled sharply like reality had drop-kicked him in the spine.
“Okay— speaking of taking things seriously— I’m actually here because I’m in crisis.”
Sang-woo didn’t even look up. “You live in crisis.”
“No, this one’s real,” Gi-hun said, rounding the table so he could talk with his whole body. “The trip is next week, we’re going out of state, and I am down— wait for it— four chaperones.”
“Four?” Jung-bae echoed.
“FOUR,” Gi-hun repeated, voice cracking under the strain. “Two called in sick, one has a family thing, and the last one— she literally saw me in the hallway and turned around and walked the other direction. I’m pretty sure she quit.”
“That sounds reasonable,” Sang-woo said.
Gi-hun made a noise like a dying accordion and slapped a stack of permission slips onto the nearest counter.
“So. I’m begging. I’m asking everyone. I asked the custodian earlier.”
“What did he say?” Jung-bae asked.
“He laughed,” Gi-hun whispered, haunted. “Like… from the diaphragm.”
In-ho felt the smile threaten again. He pushed it down.
“And now—” Gi-hun pointed around the room, then down at the table like an attorney presenting evidence—
“I’m begging all of you. Please. Someone. Anyone. Come on this trip with me. Before I’m left alone with 73 teenagers who think sleep is optional and volume is a suggestion.”
“No,” Sang-woo said before the sentence even finished.
“I have… allergies,” Jung-bae lied, squinting at nothing.
“To what?” Sang-woo asked flatly.
“Trips.”
Gi-hun gave a tragic little groan.
And then his eyes drifted— slow, careful— back to In-ho.
His entire posture softened, like something clicked into place.
“I haven’t asked you yet,” he said quietly.
The room didn’t go silent, but it felt like it did.
Even the lights seemed to hum more softly.
In-ho set down his sandwich with deliberate, measured care.
This was it.
The moment he knew would corner him the second they walked in.
And yet…
Something in him was already leaning forward.
Something that had nothing to do with wanting to help, and everything to do with the hopeful look on Gi-hun’s face.
The pause stretched out, thin and taut, like a string pulled between them.
Gi-hun didn’t move closer, but something about him felt closer—his attention fully, entirely fixed on In-ho. Not frantic now. Not chaotic. Just… hopeful. Uncomfortably hopeful.
“So,” he began, and his voice had gone soft in a way that made the whole room tilt, “would you maybe… possibly… consider chaperoning? Just for this trip?”
Sang-woo snorted into his grading.
Jung-bae froze mid–protein bar bite, eyebrows raised, waiting.
But Gi-hun… Gi-hun looked at him like the answer actually mattered.
Not in a manipulative way.
Not in a guilt-tripping way.
Just—
like he genuinely believed In-ho saying yes could save his entire week.
Which was stupid.
Nonsensical.
And far, far too effective.
In-ho cleared his throat, buying time he absolutely didn’t have. “I don’t usually do overnight trips.”
“Oh, it’s not—”
Gi-hun began too fast, then stopped, winced, and corrected himself.
“It is overnight. Technically. Three nights. But! But!” He held up two fingers like they were tiny flags of surrender. “Hotels! Not bunks. The kids room with each other, not us. And I promise, I swear on my life, you won’t have to, like, run laps or supervise warm-ups or anything athletic. You can just… exist. Be an adult presence.”
“An adult presence,” Sang-woo repeated dryly. “He’s exceptional at that.”
Gi-hun shot him a betrayed look, then returned to In-ho with this nervous little grin that was almost apologetic.
“You wouldn’t even have to ride the bus if you don’t want to,” he added, hands fidgeting. “You can drive separately. You can stay on your laptop the whole time. You can pretend you don’t know me.”
For some reason, that last line—delivered like a joke—hit too sharply.
Like Gi-hun genuinely believed he was easy to ignore.
In-ho’s chest tightened before he could stop it.
“That’s not what I would—” he began.
But Gi-hun waved both hands quickly. “No, no! Just offering options! I’m not— it’s not— I just…” He took a breath. Rolled his shoulders like he was grounding himself. “I could really use your help.”
There it was.
Simple.
Real.
Not a performance.
Not chaos.
Just raw honesty.
And that… did something to him.
In-ho felt the answer forming before he even consciously decided it.
Still, he hesitated—because that was what he did.
He weighed things.
Overthought.
Braced for disaster.
Sang-woo watched him like it was entertainment.
Jung-bae watched him like he was watching a puppy decide between left and right.
And Gi-hun—
Gi-hun watched him like the world tilted on a hinge.
He swallowed.
“I…”
The word stuck.
He tried again.
“I don’t know if I’m the best person for—”
“You are,” Gi-hun said immediately, too earnestly, too sincerely. “You’re dependable. You think ahead. You listen. You don’t… yell.” He scratched the back of his neck. “Some teachers yell. You don’t.”
In-ho blinked at that. “You’ve never had a class next to me during finals week.”
Gi-hun laughed—warm, surprised, honest.
And somehow, that laugh knocked over whatever barrier was left.
In-ho exhaled, long and slow, and before he could talk himself out of it—
“…Fine,” he said quietly. “I’ll go.”
Silence.
Not real silence—Sang-woo’s pen scratched, the lights hummed—but the kind of silence that comes when three people freeze at once.
Jung-bae’s jaw dropped before he remembered he was chewing.
Sang-woo stared like he had just witnessed a plot twist. “You said yes?”
Gi-hun—
Gi-hun lit up like someone had turned on the sun.
“You— really? Really? You’ll come?”
In-ho looked down at his laptop before that glow could swallow him whole. “Yes. For this one trip.”
“THIS TRIP!” Gi-hun shouted, punching the air like he’d won a raffle. “I won’t ask you for another one—unless you want to, but I won’t assume—oh my god thank you—”
He stopped himself abruptly, hands halfway in the air.
Then he laughed through his nose, ran a hand through his hair, and tried to pretend he wasn’t beaming like a teenager with a crush.
“Okay,” he said breathlessly. “Okay. I, uh— I should text you the schedule. And the packing list. And the… a lot of things, actually.”
He awkwardly patted his pockets.
“No clue where my phone is—”
“It’s in your hand,” Sang-woo said.
“Oh! Right!”
He held it up triumphantly, then turned back to In-ho with a look that could melt metal.
“Can I get your number?”
The room went still again.
Not dramatic-still.
Not romantic-still.
Just… thick. Charged. Expectant.
In-ho felt heat crawl up the back of his neck.
“Yes,” he said, very calmly, like the word wasn’t doing somersaults in his ribcage. “Here.”
He held out his hand for the phone.
Gi-hun placed it into his palm like it was something delicate.
Their fingers brushed.
Tiny.
Brief.
Barely even contact.
But it sent a strange little shock up In-ho’s wrist.
He didn’t react outwardly—he never did—but Gi-hun’s eyes flickered, just for a second, like maybe he felt it too.
In-ho typed in his number, hit save, and handed it back.
Gi-hun glanced at the screen, brightened instantly.
“You put your full name,” he said, delighted. “Fancy.”
“What else would I put?”
Gi-hun grinned mischievously.
“Oh, nothing. I just— I usually get saved in people’s phones as ‘Choir Guy’ or ‘Music Dude’ or ‘Guy With The Better Printer.’”
“You do not have the better printer,” In-ho muttered.
“My printer is thriving,” Gi-hun said proudly.
“You talk to it.”
“And it LISTENS.”
In-ho almost—almost—smiled.
The shift in Gi-hun was so immediate it was almost physical—like watching a balloon slowly deflate into something softer, quieter, more himself.
The frantic edge melted.
His shoulders dropped a full inch.
His breath evened out.
It wasn’t calm, not exactly—Gi-hun never truly stilled—but it was the closest thing to settled he ever got.
He sank into the chair across from In-ho, elbows on the table, phone still clutched to his chest like a life raft.
“I’m serious,” he said, voice low now, almost sheepish. “You have no idea how much this helps.”
“You were spiraling,” Sang-woo observed, flipping a page.
“I was managing stress,” Gi-hun corrected, though he didn’t sound convinced.
“No, you were spiraling,” Jung-bae added, tossing his protein bar wrapper into the trash with a triumphant arc.
Gi-hun made a face. “Okay. Maybe a little. But, like— productively?”
“There’s no such thing,” Sang-woo said.
“Yes there is!” Gi-hun defended himself. “If you spiral but also get stuff done, that counts as coping.”
“That’s not coping,” In-ho said quietly.
Gi-hun froze mid-gesture and looked at him.
Something gentle passed between them—not quite understanding, not quite challenge, but recognition. Like he could feel In-ho saw more than he let on.
“…Okay,” Gi-hun murmured. “Maybe it’s… half coping.”
“Half is generous,” Jung-bae muttered.
Gi-hun flipped him off without looking away from In-ho.
Then—because Gi-hun could never sit still for long—he started fiddling with the edge of the table, tapping his fingers in a little rhythm that didn’t match the lounge’s quiet hum.
It wasn’t aimless tapping.
It had a pattern.
A loop.
Something he repeated as if it soothed him.
Band director habits, Jung-bae had once called them.
But this was something else.
A self-stim, maybe.
Small. Calibrated.
Like he needed it to smooth himself out.
The room settled into an easy warmth—teachers decompressing after the long day, no urgent emails, no bells screaming overhead.
Sae-byeok came in briefly to grab her water bottle.
Ali poked his head in, laughed at something Jung-bae said, left again.
The door opened and closed, letting in fragments of hallway chatter, then quiet.
Through it all, Gi-hun stayed at the table.
Every so often he’d glance at his phone, reread the contact name Hwang In-ho, and his mouth would curve—small, unguarded, like he didn’t even know he was doing it.
“So,” Jung-bae finally said, leaning back in his chair. “In-ho. What made you say yes?”
A loaded question.
Too loaded.
In-ho didn’t look up from his laptop. “He asked.”
“That’s it?” Sang-woo prodded.
“The question was straightforward,” In-ho said. “He needed help. I was available.”
Gi-hun’s cheeks warmed a little at that—he looked down, tapping faster for a moment before slowing again.
“That’s very…” Jung-bae waved his hands, searching for a word. “Clinical.”
“It’s accurate,” In-ho replied.
Gi-hun peeked up at him through his fringe, watching him in a way that was… soft. And too open. And oddly grateful.
“I really thought you’d say no,” he admitted, voice dropping so only the table heard him.
In-ho paused.
“Why?”
“I don’t know,” Gi-hun said honestly. “You just seem like someone with boundaries.”
“…I do have boundaries.”
“Yeah, but like— strong ones. Mini-fortress-type. Mine are more like, uh—” He squinted. “Flimsy garden fencing? If you push on me even a little I just fall over.”
“You don’t… fall over,” Sang-woo said without looking up. “You care too much and overcommit.”
“Those are synonyms,” Gi-hun argued.
“They are not.”
“Yes they are.”
“No.”
In-ho watched them bicker for exactly three seconds before deciding the conversation had gone entirely off the rails.
But Gi-hun turned back to him again, small smile forming.
“Seriously… thank you. I mean it.”
There it was again.
The sincerity that made saying no feel impossible.
In-ho cleared his throat. “You’re welcome.”
Gi-hun’s foot tapped faster under the table, like he needed to release energy from somewhere.
“So what do you do on trips?” Jung-bae asked, leaning in. “Like—chaperone duties. What’s the gig?”
Gi-hun perked up immediately, slipping into teacher-autopilot. “Mostly keeping kids alive. Making sure nobody sneaks into anyone else’s room. Keeping them fed. Making sure they’re at rehearsals and competitions on time. Taking attendance constantly so I don’t lose one. Very basic.”
“That sounds—”
“—horrible,” Sang-woo and Jung-bae finished together.
Gi-hun rolled his eyes. “It’s not horrible! It’s fun. They’re good kids.”
“That’s what every teacher says before a scandal,” Jung-bae whispered.
“Oh my god,” Gi-hun groaned.
“And he’s taking seventy-plus of them,” Sang-woo added. “Out of state. Overnight. For days.”
“Hey! They’re— okay, yes, when you say it like that it sounds bad, but we’re very organized!”
“You lost your schedule half an hour ago,” Sang-woo said.
“I FOUND IT.”
“Only after dumping your bag upside down,” Jung-bae corrected.
“It was a necessary excavation!”
In-ho listened quietly, letting their voices blur into something warm and familiar.
Not quite friendship—he wasn’t close enough for that.
But… included.
At the table.
Part of the circle instead of lingering at the edge.
Gi-hun eventually leaned back in his chair, finally—finally—relaxed.
His fingers slowed.
His voice softened.
The relief that had hit him earlier hadn’t faded—it had settled deep, making him look younger, brighter, almost serene in the way someone looks after escaping a crisis they were sure would crush them.
And the entire time…
His gaze kept drifting back to In-ho.
Not constantly.
Not blatantly.
Just enough.
Like he couldn’t help checking—
You’re still here, right?
You haven’t changed your mind?
And every time In-ho met his eyes, even accidentally, Gi-hun’s shoulders eased a little more.
The staff lounge eases into a softer atmosphere once the initial chaos burns itself out. The after-school hush settles around them: the hum of the vending machine, the faint clatter of someone locking a distant classroom, the muted gold of late afternoon leaking through the narrow window.
No one says anything for a moment.
They’re all just… breathing.
Gi-hun is still riding the leftover adrenaline, but the frantic edge is gone. His knee bounces fast under the table—almost vibrating—until it naturally slows into a gentle, repetitive tap. He keeps fiddling with the plastic on his water bottle, twisting it open and shut, open and shut, a motion that calms him down without him realizing it.
Sang-woo drops into the chair beside him, stretching with an exhausted groan.
“You look like you just sprinted across campus.”
“I basically did,” Gi-hun mutters, slumping dramatically. “Do you know how many people told me no today? No, wait—don’t answer that. I lost count.”
Jung-bae grins, leaning back until his chair creaks.
“You almost begged Mrs. Kang in the copy room. I heard it.”
“I did not beg her,” Gi-hun protests immediately—too immediately.
Then he sighs, deflating. “Okay. I begged a little.”
Sang-woo raises an eyebrow. “You begged a lot.”
Gi-hun lets his head thump lightly against the table. “Whatever. It worked. I have Sang-woo… and I have…”
His eyes flick, almost shyly, toward In-ho.
“…you.”
In-ho pretends to be focused on packing up his laptop, even though it’s already closed.
“You needed help,” he says simply.
There’s something in the way he says it—quiet but sincere—that makes Gi-hun’s shoulders drop another level, like the tension unwinds by a few more coils.
The four of them drift into a lazy, unstructured conversation: grading nightmares, students who turned in blank worksheets, rumors about a microwave explosion in the science wing. It’s nothing important, but it’s comforting in the way after-school talk only is when everyone’s too tired to pretend.
At some point, Gi-hun starts rambling—warm, unfiltered, soft around the edges—about the trip, about the band, about how proud he is of the kids. It’s not loud or manic like earlier. It’s calm, steady, rhythmic. His words fall into a pattern, almost like he’s grounding himself by talking through something familiar.
And In-ho listens.
Really listens.
He sits with one knee pulled up slightly, arms loosely crossed, eyes fixed on the table like he’s pretending he isn’t observing Gi-hun’s every shift in expression. But he is.
Whenever Gi-hun gets excited about a detail—how the percussion section finally stayed in tempo today, how one of the freshmen memorized his music early—his hands move, animated and earnest. And whenever his chair tilts back too far, he lightly bumps into In-ho’s. Each time, there’s a little freeze—tiny, barely there—before both of them casually readjust.
Time slides without anyone noticing.
The sun dips lower, painting the room with a tired orange.
Someone’s stomach growls (probably Sang-woo’s, based on his scowl).
Jung-bae stretches again, slow and dramatic.
“What time is it?” he mutters.
Sang-woo checks his phone. “…Five-forty.”
Gi-hun blinks.
“Wait. We’ve been in here that long?”
“Talking for an hour,” Jung-bae says, smirking. “Congrats. You survived your crisis and didn’t combust.”
Gi-hun nudges him with his elbow but smiles—soft and sheepish, the weight completely drained from his posture now.
He looks lighter than he did when he walked in.
And In-ho notices.
Of course he does.
The room feels safe in a way that makes it hard to stand up, hard to break the moment, but eventually the reality of papers and dinner and responsibilities creeps back in.
Sang-woo starts gathering his things. Jung-bae follows.
And slowly—reluctantly—Gi-hun does too, his movements slower now that he’s not stuck in his own head.
“Alright,” Jung-bae said, finally gathering himself. “Time to get out of here.”
Gi-hun hesitates for a moment, then takes a small, deliberate step toward In-ho. His hands were tucked in the pockets of his jacket, but his shoulders shifted in a way that made him seem slightly smaller, careful.
“Hey…” he murmured, voice low enough for only In-ho to hear.
In-ho looked up, instinctively.
Before he could say anything, Gi-hun leaned in and gave him a quick, light side hug, one arm around his shoulders, the contact brief but warm. The kind of hug that says thank you, I needed you, and I’m glad you’re here all at once.
In-ho froze for half a second, stiff in the chest, then relaxed slightly. Not out of habit, not completely—but enough to let it land.
“Thank you,” Gi-hun said softly, pulling back just enough to meet his eyes. “For today.”
In-ho nodded, quiet, steady, but his heart was hammering in ways he couldn’t quite admit.
Jung-bae cleared his throat, subtly motioning for Gi-hun to wrap things up.
Sang-woo rolled his eyes, muttering something about chaos, but Gi-hun didn’t care. He was too absorbed in the small, fleeting connection.
They lingered a beat longer than necessary, and then the group finally started heading out, the after-school stillness stretching behind them. But for In-ho, the warmth of that brief touch stayed—unspoken, heavy with something he couldn’t quite name.
And that was enough.