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“I am not made of stone, Elizabeth. How could I be blind to the tenants’ suffering? Yet if we lose principle, benevolence becomes indulgence, and good deeds themselves the seedbed of injustice. What would all our efforts mean then?” said Darcy with grave earnestness.
A sudden stir of emotion rose in Elizabeth. So he had never been indifferent; he had simply feared to repeat past mistakes. In a flash she understood that the severity she had once thought almost unfeeling sprang from the same stubborn devotion that made him worry excessively for her and the child. Both were but two faces of one deep, protective love. Understanding, gratitude, and a sharp pang of remorse surged through her together.
“My dear,” she said, closing the notebook gently and turning to face him, “things are different now.” She met his eyes with solemn resolve. “Now you have me—a willing partner. All we need do is let principle be our guide, so that every act of benevolence falls exactly where it is needed.” She went on, thinking aloud. “We can examine each family’s true circumstances, guard against abuse, and give help only to the honest and industrious, enough to set them on their feet again. We might even invite a few of the oldest, most respected tenants to serve as judges of need. We could…”
Darcy gazed at her as though watching a path he had walked alone for years suddenly open wide before them both. He drew a long breath; the heavy shadow of his father’s failure, which had hung over him for so long, at last admitted the first true ray of sunlight.
“It sounds an excellent plan.”He brushed a light kiss across her forehead, then perched on the edge of the desk, one hand lightly drumming the wood and went on to tell her that he had lately instructed the bailiff to try hardier crops, and that he meant to employ some of the hungry men in clearing the river and repairing the cottages—so that they might keep their independence through their own labour.
Elizabeth’s eyes brightened; she inclined her head in warm approval. This was exactly the way she had hoped things might be done.
Darcy saw it and continued. At the late meeting of gentlemen he had urged greater leniency toward tenants, trying to prevent harsh measures that might drive men to desperation. He was also seeking to combine the parish charities with their own resources for more effective relief—though some already accused him of “breaking rules” and “spoiling the poor” by raising false hopes.
Elizabeth listened in silent admiration. He had been doing far more, far more quietly, than she had ever guessed.
“The money itself…” Darcy paused, his eyes resting on her. “I have decided it must be given as loans, with clear terms of repayment. They will return it little by little from future labour. Thus the fund revolves and helps more families, while those who receive it keep their pride through their own honest work.”
Elizabeth nodded with solemn respect. His rigorous, practical wisdom never failed to command her admiration.
Darcy corssed his arms and sank into a brief contemplation, his regard returning to the old notebook—as though looking both at his father’s unfinished road and at the new one he and Elizabeth would walk together.
“As for this draft,” he said at last, “we shall perfect it together. The extra profit from Bingley’s wool purchase shall be its first capital.”
“And part of my dowry,” Elizabeth added at once, “as my own particular pledge.”
This time Darcy did not refuse. He took the hand she had rested on the desk, cradling it gently between his own, and said in a low voice, “But Lizzy, I have one condition.”
“What is it?”
“Wherever you go in future, you must let me know.” He paused, searching for words, then chose the one argument she could never counter. “I have seen you suffer before… and I cannot endure such anxiety a second time.”
With little Anne her pregnancy had been so serene that for months he had scarcely noticed any change; the baby’s quiet gentleness had been a constant comfort. This time, however, he had watched her grow pale and worn under weeks of unrelieved sickness, powerless to ease a single moment of it, unable even to blame the tiny creature who caused her pain, and had known nothing but silent, burning alarm.
“Well, well! I accept your terms,” said Elizabeth with playful surrender, one hand drifting to her waist and a mischievous smile lighting her face. “This child certainly seems livelier than Anne; the first months have been something of a trial. But believe me, I am perfectly well now—so full of spirits I could walk from Longbourn to Netherfield without stopping!” She fell silent a moment, thoughtful. “What manner of child will this be, I wonder…”
Darcy gave a helpless laugh and shook his head. From the day he had first known Miss Elizabeth Bennet, it seemed he had been condemned to perpetual worry: first that he was falling irretrievably in love; then the clear-eyed certainty that her family’s behaviour would be an insuperable obstacle; then, when he had resolved to risk everything and propose, the dread that she would refuse him again; and when at last she had become Mrs. Darcy, new fears had taken the place of the old—fear for her adventurous spirit, fear for her first confinement, fear for their child, and now for the second…
“At least when Georgiana is married,” he said, a genuine smile at last breaking through, “one of my anxieties will be laid to rest.” The smile faded into a soft sigh. “But if this child proves as ‘lively’ as its mother, I suspect my cares will not diminish—they will only increase by one more. My heart, it seems, is never to know peace.”
Elizabeth laughed aloud, eyes dancing with wicked anticipation. “If that is the case, then the next time I set out on an ‘adventure’, I shall no longer go alone. I shall take the very best little accomplice with me!”