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Mavuika finished the remaining few puzzles stacked on her desk, after a bunch of paperwork was completed. A few people would raise a brow at the fact that she worked her brain in order to wind down, even Xilonen found it humorous. However, Mavuika thought it necessary for herself, given how effective it was. It’s no different to her than reading a book before bed.
Though her brain was occasionally drifting to the thought of hearing Xilonen’s message, and now that she was preparing for bed, she could finally hear it. Just picturing the smile on her girlfriends face put one on hers.
She sat on the edge of her bed, with the message box in hand. Her night clothes on, and body partially covered with her comforter. Her fingers searched for the button on the device, before she felt it and lightly tapped it.
She waited a second….a second more.
Till finally:
“Ooh kay…we should be good now. Good morning!!! Um or good evening depending on when you finally have time to listen to this…….uhm tsk..this is a bit strange for me so bare with me ok? This is straight from my head, I didn’t even write anything down so I apologize if what I’m going to say sounds disorganized. I know you'll point it out if it does….Anyways,…I know it doesn’t seem super clear, at least as plain as it should, but I’ve enjoyed being with you so far. You’re sweet and warm ... .like a nice boiled cup of xocolatl~. I’ve never been in a relationship where my partner treated me like I was special. I dated someone in the past, but..it never felt like this I guess. She also just didn’t like..that I wasn’t super affectionate towards her, not like she was, and that I seemed a bit too distant compared to her. It sucked hearing her say that, but it’s not like I’m not used to it so it didn’t bother me as much. It’s not like I didn’t care about her, she simply was more expressive. And, you sort of remind me of her in that right, which is why sometimes I try to be more…expressive with how I feel towards you. I try to be as affectionate as you, because…..ah, this is really corny. I love you too much to make you feel like that’s not true. It’s just..I can’t describe it, it’s all just different. Hmhm..it’s kinda funny we even got to this point with how it looked prior. You know? It’s not like I didn’t have feelings for you, think you know that, I’m moreso talking about me avoiding you to avoid commissions work from you…I guess that kept me from telling you how I felt about you, because apart from thinking you wouldn’t feel the same, I thought I was being off in feeling the way I did. I thought it would’ve been awkward, and during the time I first felt something for you, I was still sort of figuring that out. When you would come to me with ideas, and I’d see you smile at me and look at me with those bright eyes I’d feel a mix of ..I don’t know what. One of the feelings was definitely dread, but it was never dread of seeing you or being around you, more like just me not really being in the mood to bring whatever weird idea you cooked up to life. Especially if I was backed up already. It was just so frustrating sometimes. But, something in my heart or in my face warmed up each time I’d see your enthusiasm, even if it worried me a little. You have a very bright smile that always feels hotter than the fire in a forge oven. And sometimes, I wasn’t careful, and I’d burn myself and give in……also I like to be challenged sometimes hehe. Then I started thinking about you more and more and it just became a battle inside of myself. Because apart from what I found to be irksome..you’re my type…caring, strong, and you kind of bring an energy that makes us a nice balance of each other..you’re also again, really warm. I tend to drift to people who are more warm. Cozy. That’s how you make me feel… Cozy. Despite you getting on my nerves sometimes, I love you a lot and you know that..I uh, hope you do at least. When I thought you were going to pass, I hadn’t even finished figuring out my feelings for you, I tried to push that down, instead focused on the solution that was present. I didn’t wanna worry anyone who didn’t know after all, but...deep down though I was scared….petrified……………when you eventually showed up with Citlali, the Traveler, and Paimon all fine, I was relieved of course, but I also fell deeper into my feelings..still didnt have the courage to tell you then, and..only told you few months ago how I felt, because I didn’t know if I’ll ever be that close to losing you again. ….ugh this is getting really corny..I sound like you. N-yum…..again, I’m happy with you. I love you, and I’m glad you take this relationship seriously, because I do too, ya know? It's nicer than I expected. Lovelier..more fulfilling..my only regret is that I didn’t tell you sooner, and I remember you telling me the same thing….anyways *yaaawwwn*, im getting a little sleepy..I bet I could say a lot more in person.. but I hope this is good enough ... .im gonna take a quick nap, it’s about near the afternoon… I’ll see you when I see you..bye~”
That was the end of the transmission.
The surrounding temperature of the room was as warm as the expression on the archon's face. Her smile was that of pure love and happiness. Each word moved her, and she bit her bottom lip briefly. “Xilonen..” She held the box closer to her head, though briefly as she was sure It would melt from the heat radiating from her body. She set the box on her night stand, and laid on her side, eyeing it like it was a precious gem.
She couldn’t believe she was in this moment. To think she even wondered if she deserved this happiness. If she deserved to allow herself to be undone in the presence of another, and hear such words from someone she loved.
Though she thought about Xilonen worrying about if she was doing enough. It sounded like she was worrying at least. While it was true Xilonen was the least emotional person she knew, she also knew Xilonen showed she cared in her own way, and had no problem expressing herself. Mavuika never felt like she didn’t get enough love from her girlfriend. Besides, she liked pampering her with kisses anyway.
Mavuika chuckled to herself, noting to do that as soon as she sees her, she’s gonna adorn her face with as many kisses as it can take.
The thought lingers in her mind, and hopefully will seep into her dreams… she let out a soft tranquil sigh, before sleeping quite quietly.