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“So you say that tanqleaf thing is about us?” TanqR says seriously, Ren couldn’t guess if he was mad or not. “Uh— yes.” Ren says, his voice smaller than usual. “And theres…art of it?” He asks again. PinkLeaf is genuinely scared of his life, he doesn’t know if this will end their friendship or he’s just curious as shit— but how? “Yes.” Ren replies, his voice still small. TanqR could probably tell he’s nervous but Ren doesn’t care about that right now, he just wants to respond correctly.
Ren realized that TanqR still hasn’t said anything, he tries to break the silence. “Uh—“ He says before getting interrupted by TanqR. “I don’t hate you.” He says, PinkLeaf is confused, why would he randomly say that? “Have you realized something yet?” TanqR asks, “Nope.” He’s genuinely telling the truth, PinkLeaf hasn’t realized anything during the conversation. He was too nervous to.
It was silence again.
PinkLeaf wonders what the hell is TanqR thinking right now, what if he’s weirded out? Or what if..
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The call was still silent, as if this was their first time calling.
TanqR keeps thinking on what to say to keep this conversation going, but still hasn’t even realized his own feelings.
He reminisced about their times together, the things they’ve done. He still hasn’t realized what the fuck is going on with his heart, well yeah maybe he did have an idea on what he was feeling— but who even was it? He just randomly messaged Ren about it but still doesn’t know who the hell is he talking about.
He scrolls up in their discord chats and finds his message about what he was feeling.
T: i dont know if this is normal but
T: i keep thinking abt someone, abt our small conversations because of our timezones, our play sessions together, sometimes teaching each other in our favorite games too.
T: i dont even know if they like me or not
T: i dont know what is this feeling when i see them text me or.. just hear their voice
T: sorry for the spam.
Fuck, why did I send that much?
Is what TanqR repeats in his mind, then he saw PinkLeaf’s message after that.
P: nakikilig ka noh?
Shit, he still remembers the meaning of that word.
Maybe that’s what he’s feeling this entire time, well yeah it is. But who? He repeats everything he has done with PinkLeaf, them playing roblox together, training for Rbb together. Stupid shit like that.
Wait a damn minute.
What if the person who he actually likes is Ren?
He keeps repeating that in his mind, slowly getting closer to his true feelings. Ever since he was young, he never focused on love that much— only the things he really enjoyed. So that’s how he doesn’t even know how he feels.
Shit, I did like Ren.
After a long while, he finally realizes. After all those stupid stuff and feelings that he thought was messing with his shit, it’s true.
But, how was he going to say it?
He doesn’t even know if Ren likes him back or not, maybe he only sees him as a friend. What if he ruins the friendship? Well yeah he still has other friends but he doesn’t know how much this is going to affect Ren.
But still, he was going to try.
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After a long silence, PinkLeaf almost jumps by TanqR breaking the silence. “Hey Ren.” He says, it seems like he was thinking about something, but Ren didn’t know what. “Uh—Hi.” Ren responds, his voice calm but still kind of nervous. “Do you remember those messages I sent you?” TanqR asks, it wasn’t that specific but he knew what. “Those… feeling ones?” PinkLeaf asks, confirming if he was correct or not. TanqR just murmurs a ‘mhm’, “Are you going to hate me if I say this?” TanqR asks, PinkLeaf thinks about it.
What was he going to say?
PinkLeaf thinks in his mind, he’s scared as shit but also curious.
“No, I wouldn’t.” PinkLeaf responds, “Well, I finally realized my feelings.” TanqR says. Feelings for what? Was it about that person? Well that person is sure lucky, PinkLeaf says in his mind. Just shut up Ren.
“Go on.” PinkLeaf says, not knowing what to reply. “And.. the person was.. you.” TanqR says, his voice making it obvious that he was nervous. “Like.. me me?” Ren says, making sure it was actually him and not him just mishearing stuff. “Yes you.” TanqR says, reassuring him that it was actually him that he had feelings for.
Ren couldn’t think of what to say, he still hasn’t realized his feelings for TanqR were actually real or not. He doesn’t know if he says if he likes him back is true or not.
So he does the same thing as TanqR, look back to their old messages.
T: i dont know if this is normal but
T: i keep thinking abt someone, abt our small conversations because of our timezones, our play sessions together, sometimes teaching each other in our favorite games too.
T: i dont even know if they like me or not
T: i dont know what is this feeling when i see them text me or.. just hear their voice
T: sorry for the spam.
How the hell did he not realize?
It was obvious, but as an idiot, he couldn’t.
Maybe he did also have feelings for TanqR, every-time he got called Ren by him, he would always feel something in his heart, but didn’t know what.
Both of them finally realized their feelings, but didn’t know how to fully manage it.
“TanqR, I like you too.” Is what PinkLeaf manages to say to him. TanqR hasn’t responded, making him think that he just embarrassed himself.
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While waiting, he finally got his answer.
“TanqR, I like you too.”
That’s what got him to freeze— Ren actually liked him back? They both just realized what they felt for each other?
He couldn’t think of anything else, just those words repeating in his mind. Part of him wants to ramble about how much he’s obsessed with him but thats weird and a part of him wants to say he loves him so much.
It’s just silence, TanqR just thinking of ideas to say to him and PinkLeaf rethinking his life decisions.
You know what? I choose the first option.
Is what he says in his mind before he starts rambling to Ren.
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What the fuck did I just do?
I’m so fucking embarrassed.
Is what keeps repeating in his mind before he breaks out of his stance when the silence is broken by endless rambling by TanqR.
“Fuck you PinkLeaf, I fucking love you so much, your the best person I have ever met— Good thing you were on Rb battles or else I wouldn’t have met you- Well I did know you but we didn’t talk much- Ah, Ren I don’t even know how to say I love you but here I am yapping how much I do. I love how you make time for me even if we’re on the opposite side of the earth, I love how your voice makes me calm down so badly, oh my god, Ren. I would be with you for-“
“TanqR shut up.” PinkLeaf says, not seriously but amused. He really loves him that much? Goddamn. He’s a bigger fan than his own fans. “Just— I love you too.” PinkLeaf says, TanqR chuckling after. “I love you too Ren, sad that I can’t see you though.” TanqR replies, “So does this make us.. I don’t know.” PinkLeaf says, “Dating.. I guess? Or that’s too advanced..” TanqR says, still nervous. “I guess I could accept that.” PinkLeaf says.