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“Yuuri?”
“Are you alright?”
“Open your eyes.”
Yuuri opened his eyes to see a worried Victor on top of him, his breath was ragged and his hair was disheveled like he was suddenly woken up.
“Are you alright?” Victor repeated his question as he looked at Yuuri who was still bewildered and was scanning the entire room like he was looking for some answers.
Yuuri, on the other hand, was scanning the room. He looked around and was completely at loss.
The room was dark, so it was still night time. Though he doesn't completely know what time it is. So he decided to sit up and Victor moved a little bit to give him space without removing his eyes on his partner.
“Yuuri please, tell me are you alright? You look lost. Don't just look around and tell me what's wrong?” Victor said with a hint of worry and frustration.
“I was worried when you started sobbing in your sleep. Then you shouted my name and that when you started to cry profusely I had no choice but to wake you up.” Victor added.
Yuuri then, suddenly looked at victor.
“It was just a dream?” Yuuri said softly.
He then suddenly touched Victor's face and started to cry once more. Balls of tears sprung from his eyes making Victor more troubled since he is not good with dealing with a person crying in front of him.
“W-Why are you cry-” Victor didn't finish his last words when suddenly Yuuri launches himself to him in a tight hug. Victor was taken and had no choice but to reciprocate to the hug initiated by Yuuri.
“Thank God!”
was Yuuri's first word.
“Thank God!!” Yuuri sniffed.
Victor broke the hug and wiped Yuuri's tears with his thumb and asked again.
“What did you dreamed about?”
Instead of answering the question Yuuri began to apologized.
“I am so sorry…”
“I am so sorry, about everything!”
“I felt that we are falling apart but I didn't do anything to save us both. Instead, I hid my fears...”
Yuuri explained as tears cascade from his cheeks.
“I thought you are going to end it with me and leave me behind. I am so scared of that future!”
“I know I have been keeping you here with me and it makes me guilty...”
“T-taking you away from the competitive skating world...”
“but I just love you so much… I- I am so sorry…”
Yuuri kept breaking his words in between sobs and sniffs.
Hearing this, Victor can't help but to feel more loved. His own insecurities and doubts suddenly were gone, with Yuuri's sudden outburst.
Victor then, looked at Yuuri lovingly and asked once more.
“What kind of dream did you have?”
Yuuri wiped his tears away and answered.
“I- I had a dream where we decided to leave each other… it was so sad and….”
“Shh...” Victor didn't let Yuuri utter one more word, as he pulled his little lover over him and caress his hair soothingly to calm him down.
If I was allowed to be selfish enough, I don't want to be wanted…
but instead I wanted to be needed…
And you my dear, made me feel needed…
Yuuri never failed to make me feel that what he needs is not the Victor Nikiforov everybody knows and sees, but instead he makes me feel that he needs what is really inside me.
I had doubts but you never cease to make me feel at ease.
You really know how to make my heart flutter.
“Yuuri, you know that there is no way for me to leave you, you know.” Victor assured him then he started.
“You know, you aren't the only one who got insecure...”
“What do you mean?” Yuuri said as he looked up to Victor.
“I also got insecure these past months… You got busier and busier, the only time we had is when you practice other than that we almost had no time for each other. That's why I felt that sooner or later you might cast me away...”
“I thought about making a come back when that happens, but I am too old for doing that. And I got scared because I will be alone again… and I don't want that. Makkachin and I don't want that to happen.” Victor added.
“Cast you AWAY?!” Yuuri got back up and looked at Victor in the eye.
“That is one thing I'll never do! I'd rather give up skating than to lose you!” Yuuri said as his eyes sparkle with determination.
There was a small silence that builds within them then suddenly Yuuri becomes flustered and so he buried his face into the pillows.
“Okay that's just embarrassing…” muffled Yuuri into the pillows.
Victor can't help but let his laughter escaped filling the room with this certain ring.
“I am so loved aren't I?”
“That's why that dream of yours will never happen. You got that?”
Yuuri just nodded still his face buried into the pillows.
“Yuuri.” Victor called. His voice sweet and lovingly.
Yuuri looked up to Victor still blushing lightly, he sat up and looked at his lover directly into his eyes. Victor's blue eyes melting into his own.
Suddenly, Yuuri's heart pounded, as Victor got closer and started to caress his cheek. Leaning to his soft touch Victor then pulled his face closer to him and with that Victor suddenly planted a soft chase kiss into Yuuri's lips.
And once more, and then another. Until they both can't get enough and decided to deepen the kiss.
Yuuri willingly invited Victor inside as he parted his lips for Victor's tongue to enter.
They tasted each other, tongues exploring each of their depths; intertwining.
Yuuri can't help but let a moan escaped as Victor licked the roof of his mouth.
They broke the kiss in need of oxygen.
Yuuri looked at Victor half lidded like he wants more.
Victor then, hold Yuuri's hand and kissed the gold band he was wearing and then he placed it on his warm chest.
“Yuuri” he began.
“Can you feel my heartbeat?”
Yuuri looked at Victor his face flushed from their recent activity, then nodded.
“You are the reason why my heart pounds like that...”
And with that Victor suddenly drew closer to Yuuri's ear and whispered in a low voice.
“Thank you for loving me this much.”
You love me even though I am full of insecurities and flaws.
You love me for being the real me.
I may have sometimes forget and you may sometimes had doubts…
but none of us never did let go of each others hand.
You made me feel I am wanted not because of what people know.
But instead you made me feel that you needed me for who I really am.
If the time comes that we really have to part ways.
Let this love be a reminder of what we have shared and will always share.
This is all I ask of you.
~ END ~