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It had been a few weeks since Eva had shown up at the bunker, going on the occasional hunts. They didn’t all go together all the time, sometimes it was her and Sam, sometimes it was Dean and Cas, sometimes Eva and Cas. You get the point. But over the past few weeks she’d gotten pretty close with the group of hunters, especially Dean and Castiel, she spent a lot of time talking to Dean about music, what they’d had in common and what they didn’t. With Cas they spent a lot of time talking about their special interests which Dean couldn’t help but smile at, he hated (not really) how much he cared about those two. Dean noticed Eva was a very interesting mix of the three hunters she had, Sam's smart’s, Dean's sass and stubbornness and Cas’s inability to pick up on obvious social cues, as well as Cas’s aversion to certain textures and getting overstimulated.
There was an unusual chill in the bunker that made it hard for Eva to sleep, so she wandered to the library, only to find Cas sitting on the couch with a book in his hands, one of the books she had recommended to him actually, and sat down next to him, only then did he look up from the book.
“Oh, hey Eva, why are you up so late? Couldn’t sleep?” Cas asked her with a small smile and a slight tilt of his head, Eva just nodded, it was warmer in the library then it was in her room but she was still kinda cold, Cas noticed, grabbed the blanket that was draped over the back of the couch and draped it over Eva’s legs. Eva initially came out to the library to read something but her eyes started to feel heavy, she pulled the blanket up to her chin and closed her eyes. It wasn’t long till she fell asleep, her head resting on Castiel’s shoulder. Cas finished his chapter and put the book down, he adjusted himself so that he and Eva were now laying on the couch instead of sitting, he closed his eyes and slept. Did Angels need to sleep? No. But was he gonna anyway for Eva? Yes, yes he was.
These past few weeks he developed a deep protective maternal instinct towards Eva and there was just something so sweet and domestic as snuggling with someone he had begun to see as a daughter.
Dean woke up late in the night to use the bathroom, when he was done he went to check on Eva, which he’d been doing a lot these past few weeks. Eva’s room wasn’t too far from his, her door was cracked and when he peaked inside he didn’t see Eva and the bathroom light wasn’t on, panic rose in his chest and he started frantically searching the bunker (quietly as to not wake Sam) till he stumbled into the library Castiel and Eva fast asleep on the couch Eva was practically laying on top of Castiel, he smiled and chuckled lightly, a hint of red rose in his checks, Cas’s hair was even messier the usual and he found it hard to not find this grown man cute not only was he a grown man but he was also an Angel of the Lord, a warrior of heaven, a warrior who had fallen to save humanity and Dean found him fucking cute. Dean didn’t know what the fuck was wrong with him but there was definitely something, he was disgusted with himself, no man should find another man cute. He ran a hand over his face and through his hair and went back to bed. It’s not like he got much sleep that night anyways, he couldn't stop thinking about the way Cas’s hair had looked messed with sleep, the slow rise and fall of his chest. He thought about what it would be like to be the one resting his head on Castiel's chest, listing to the steady beat of Cas’s heart, the slow rise and fall as he breathed, pressing a soft kiss in Dean’s hair, Dean wondered what it would be like to lay on Cas’s chest, he imagined it would be sturdy and strong with muscle but not uncomfortable, the more he thought about his feelings for Castiel the more he felt sick to his stomach until he shot out of bed and started dry heaving into the toilet, there was definitely something wrong with him, men didn’t have feelings for other men, it wasn’t natural no matter what people said, it’s something his dad had taught him from when he was very young, he needed a shower. Dean took off his sweat pants and boxers and turned the water on cold and he just stood there, letting the sweat he had broken into wash away until he couldn’t take it anymore. He turned off the water and dried off, he put on a fresh pair of sweats no bothering to put on boxers, he stared at the ceiling for a while before his eyes finally closed.
Castiel and Eva had been asleep on the couch for a few hours when Cas suddenly woke up to the feeling of something in his mouth, it felt like hair, he reached up and it was hair. Eva was laying on top of Castiel now, one arm hanging off the couch and the other hanging off the arm of the couch above Cas’s head. Cas gently moved Eva’s hair out of his mouth, planting a soft kiss to Eva’s head, adjusting them slightly so it was more comfortable and went back to sleep.
Sam was the first one up, it was an early Sunday morning, there weren't any cases that he could find so he went for his morning run. Dean liked to make fun of him for it but he knew Dean didn’t mean it maliciously, it was just an older brother teasing his younger brother. Sam got back about an hour later, it looked like everyone was still sleeping so he took a quick shower, got dressed - on his way back past Eva’s room he saw her door was mostly open and assumed she was in the library reading. Sam made his way to the library to say goodmorning to Eva before getting going on breakfast only to find Eva and Cas fast asleep on the couch, both of ‘em had bed heads and Sam couldn’t help but take a few photos, stifling a few laughs as he did so.
By the time Castiel and Eva were awake and in the kitchen Sam was pretty close to done with breakfast, he had made blueberry pancakes, which smelled amazing making Eva’s stomach growl, Cas asked if he could have some (Sam had been expecting him to ask that so he made extra batter) there were very few things the Angel of Thursday took pleasure in and blueberry pancakes was one of ‘em.
Sam was just flipping the last pancake and turning off the stove when Dean finally wandered into the kitchen, he was barefoot and shirtless, he had dark circles under his eyes like he barely slept and his short (usually neat hair) was messy, it looked like he’d gotten it wet and didn’t bother to dry it. Dean mumbled something that sounded like “morning” but it was hard to tell, Dean sat down next to Cas at the island whose ears flushed red when Dean sat down, Cas’s eyes trailed Dean’s body up and down a few times before finally stopping to look Dean in the eyes.
“Dean,” Cas’s voice was thick with sleep, it caused Dean’s face to flush red. “Did you not sleep well? Are you sick?” Castiel's voice was laced with worry as he studied Dean’s face.
“I’m not sick, calm down Cas,” Dean’s voice was also thick with sleep as he spoke, “I just slept like shit. That’s all,” and that was the last word Dean said to Cas that morning.
Sam was setting out plates, butter, syrup as well as the pancakes on the island so everyone could serve themselves when he asked the question that had been bugging him all morning.
“Hey Cas?”
“Yes Sam?”
“I have a question,”
“Ask away,”
“Okay, well I thought Angels didn’t sleep but I saw you and Eva asleep on the couch and now I’m curious,” Sam said as he made his way around the island to sit next to Eva.
“Well, technically Angels can do pretty much anything a human can do, we just don’t need to, like eating for example,” Cas gestured to his plate of pancakes, which had the perfect amount of butter and syrup on them (or at least that’s what he thought) Sam just nodded and started cutting up his pancakes. No one talked during breakfast, there was this weird tense energy coming from Dean the entire time that everyone noticed but him.
Late in the afternoon Eva, Sam and Castiel were hanging out in the map room, Dean had been avoiding Cas like the plague since this morning which only confused the Angel.
“Hey Eva, do you know what's up with Dean? He’s been avoiding me all day,” Cas’s voice was laced with confusion and worry.
“I don’t, unfortunately, he’s been acting weird since this morning and I could’ve sworn I heard him walk into the library last night after we both fell asleep,” Eva shrugged, she had a feeling she knew why Dean was acting weird but she wasn’t gonna say anything, Cas just sighed and slumped back into the chair. Sam hadn’t been paying attention, too busy looking for a case. Which he eventually found, it was a couple states over and would probably take a few days, he filled Eva and Cas in on what he found - then got up to find Dean, who was in his room listening to his music through his headphones. He had his music turned up so high he didn’t hear Sam knock or come into his room, he took his headphones off and let Sam fill him in on the case he’s found, Dean nodded and suggested Sam and Cas take this one.
Sam found Cas and asked if he wanted to leave for the hunt now or later, Cas agreed to now and they left, taking Baby - leaving Eva with a very tense Dean Winchester.
Dean cared about Cas, Okay? Don’t get him wrong he really cared - maybe a little too much and Dean just couldn’t look him in the eyes right now - those bright blue eyes that had centuries of knowledge behind them, yet hopefully innocence as well, innocence that believed Dean Winchester was good. Blue eyes that ignored Dean's sins, like the fact he was attracted to men - had been since he was in middle school, it didn’t matter how much he tried to deny it. He was disgusted with himself, it was wrong, oh so wrong - except for Charlie, Charlie was the exception to a lot of things and being gay was one of ‘em.
It was going on 6:30 when Dean finally pulled himself from his thoughts of doom *shit* Dean thought, by the time he got done with dinner it would probably be 7 at least, Dean felt kind of guilty, he didn’t mean to do that to Eva but he accidentally did. On his way to the kitchen he found Eva in the map room, she was wearing a sports bra and a pair of shorts, her skin shone with sweat like she’d been working out. Dean walked over and tapped Eva on the shoulder, he’d called out to her several times but she had earbuds in and wasn’t paying attention. Eva pulled her earbuds out and turned her attention to Dean.
“What’s up Deano?” Eva asked with a light smile, she found Dean’s reactions to her nicknames funny.
“I was just going to ask what you wanted for dinner, that's all,”
“Oh, I already had dinner, there were some leftovers in the fridge from the other night so I had those. I’m good, but thanks anyways. I’m gonna go shower, see ya later Deano,” Eva got up and went to her room, leaving Dean standing there feeling like a piece of shit.
Dean was trying his best but still somehow doing a shitty job, Dean really didn’t understand what everyone saw in him, he talked too much, he played his music too loudly, he couldn’t sit still and he never paid attention - yet people still managed to see good in him that he didn’t see.
Dean ate dinner alone that night, he didn’t like eating alone, it was too quiet it left him to overthink - which recently had been filled with Cas, his voice, his blue eyes that Dean could get lost in forever, the way Cas smelled - he smelled of ozone, petrichor and faintly of Deans shampoo that Cas and complemented once - Dean had insisted Cas take it saying he could just buy more Cas had accepted it gratefully with that smile of his - his slightly gummy smile - the smile that Dean couldn’t get enough of. Dean had only finished half of his dinner when he lost his appetite - he really had to do something about his feelings for Cas before people started to notice (they already did but Dean doesn’t know that).
It was 3 in the morning and Dean was still wide awake when he suddenly heard Eva get out of bed, urgently moving around the bunker. Dean got out of bed to see what she was doing. He saw Eva with a bundle of bedding in her arms.
“Whatcha ya doing kiddo, kind of late to be doing laundry don’t ya think,” Dean said with a joking smirk, folding his arms and leaning against his door frame. Eva suddenly looked very embarrassed or maybe ashamed? Dean couldn’t tell.
”Oh, ummm… I started my period and got blood on the sheets… sorry,” Eva looked away, her face hot with embarrassment.
“Hey, kid, nothing to be embarrassed about. It’s not something you can control. Here let me help you,” Dean took some of the bedding and helped Eva start the wash, Eva kept shifting uncomfortably,
”Kiddo, what's wrong?” Dean's voice was laced with concern,
”Nothing, just cramps,” Eva said, shifting her feet again. Dean knew that the bunker had pain killers but he didn’t know if it was the right ones for period cramps.
After some arguing Dean got Eva set up in his bed and got her some ibuprofen for the pain. He grabbed one of those stuffies that you can heat in the microwave, a kid had given it to Sam after a hunt a few years back and gave it to Eva after heating it up. Now he had to make a late night run to one of those 24 hour Pharmacies to get some proper meds for Eva’s period, there were a few cars in the garage that Dean had yet to find the keys to so that was out of the picture, of course there was the motorcycle but it was ridiculously loud and he didn’t think anyone would enjoy that at 3AM so he took Eva’s truck to the nearest 24 hour pharmacy which was a CVS.
When Dean got to the CVS he headed straight to the pain relief isle, Dean just stood there completely lost, he didn’t know what he was looking for - just then a young girl who looked to be in her early to mid 20s walked over.
”Anything I can help you with sir?”
”Umm… Yeah actually, can you help me find something for period pain relief?”
“Of course sir, I personally like Pamprin, a lot of people say it help with their symptoms more than Midol,” the clerk said, gesturing to the very bottom of the shelf
”It’s also caffeine free which is nice if you’re taking it late at night,” Dean nodded as the store clerk talked, taking her word for it he grabbed the Pamprin and followed her to check out.
”Is this all?”
”Yeah, thanks by the way, I was pretty lost,”
“No problem, have a nice night sir,” the clerk handed Dean his bag and waved goodbye, Dean waved back and headed back to the bunker.
Once Dean got back to the bunker he parked Eva’s car back in the garage and headed to his room, finding Eva fast asleep, breathing deeply. Dean went to the kitchen and sat the meds down before heading back to his room. The only way he got Eva to agree to sleeping in his bed instead of the couch was if he climbed in once he got back from the store. Dean climbed in, his back facing Eva, he didn’t know why he was now able to sleep, maybe it was the steady rise and fall of Eva’s chest, he could hear how deeply she was breathing, maybe it was because it felt like a parent comforting a child after a nightmare. Why? He didn’t know exactly - all he knew is that he felt like he needed to protect Eva at all costs.
When Dean woke up it was early in the morning and Eva was still fast asleep, at some point in the night Dean had wound up laying on his back and Eva was snuggled up against him, *Maybe we can sleep a little longer* Dean thought, he smoothed Eva’s hair back planting a soft kiss to her forehead and closed his eyes - drifting off to a dreamless sleep.