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The hardest part was Sophie.
Fitz had known it would be. Had dreaded it for three days straight, ever since Keefe woke up and the flowers started receding and the world stopped being a nightmare. He'd held Keefe's hand through those three days, watched color return to his cheeks, listened to his breathing grow stronger. He'd been happy—truly, deeply happy—for the first time in months.
But Sophie was still out there.
Sophie, who had been his girlfriend. Sophie, who had done nothing wrong. Sophie, who had sat with him during everything, brought him food he didn't eat, held him when he cried. Sophie, who deserved better than a boyfriend who'd realized he loved someone else.
He found her in the garden on the third morning.
She was sitting on the bench near the rose bushes, staring at nothing. She must have heard him coming—her senses were too sharp not to—but she didn't turn around.
Fitz sat down beside her. Left a careful distance between them.
For a long moment, neither of them spoke.
Then Sophie said, quietly: "He's going to be okay."
It wasn't a question. She knew. Everyone knew. The relief that had swept through Havenfield when Elwin announced the flowers were receding had been palpable.
"Yeah." Fitz's voice came out rough. "He's going to be okay."
More silence.
Sophie turned to look at him then. Her eyes were red-rimmed, like she'd been crying, but her face was calm. Steady.
"You love him," she said.
It wasn't a question either.
Fitz's heart clenched. He could lie—could soften it, could try to explain that it was complicated, that he still cared about her, that he hadn't meant for this to happen.
But Sophie deserved better than lies.
"Yes," he said. "I love him."
Sophie nodded slowly. Looked away. Stared at the roses again.
"For how long?"
Fitz thought about it. Thought about all those years, all those moments, all the times Keefe had been the first person he looked for in a room. Thought about the way his heart raced when Keefe laughed, the way he felt seen when Keefe looked at him, the way nothing had felt right since Keefe started pulling away.
"I don't know," he admitted. "A long time, I think. I just... didn't realize what it meant."
"Because of me."
The words were quiet. Not accusing. Just... stating a fact.
Fitz flinched. "Sophie—"
"It's okay." She shook her head. "I mean—it's not okay, it hurts, but... I'm not angry, Fitz. I'm not blaming you." She paused. "I think I've always known. The way you look at him. The way you talk about him. The way you light up when he walks into a room." A sad smile touched her lips. "I just thought... I thought maybe it was something that would fade. That you'd choose me eventually."
Fitz's eyes burned. "I'm so sorry."
"Don't be." Sophie reached out, took his hand. "You can't help who you love. If I've learned anything from everything we've been through, it's that." She squeezed his fingers. "And Keefe—Keefe almost died for you. He wrote you a letter instead of telling you, because he didn't want to be your burden. That's not something you walk away from. That's not something you ignore."
Fitz shook his head. "That doesn't make it fair to you."
"Love isn't fair." Sophie's voice was soft. "It's not supposed to be. It's just... true. And what's true is that you love him. What's true is that he loves you. What's true is that you two belong together in a way you and I never quite did."
Tears slipped down Fitz's cheeks. "I never meant to hurt you."
"I know." Sophie reached up, wiped his tears away with her thumb. "I know, Fitz. And I'll be okay. I promise. It'll hurt for a while, but I'll be okay." She smiled—a real smile, small but genuine. "I want you to be happy. Both of you. You deserve that."
Fitz didn't know what to say. Didn't know how to thank her, how to apologize, how to express the tangled mess of gratitude and guilt and love in his chest.
So he just sat there, holding her hand, crying silently, while the girl he'd thought he loved let him go with grace he didn't deserve.
After a long moment, Sophie leaned over and pressed a kiss to his cheek.
"Go," she whispered. "He's waiting for you."
Fitz nodded, stood on shaky legs, and walked back to the house.
Keefe was sitting up in bed when Fitz entered the room.
He looked so much better than he had even twenty-four hours ago. Color had returned to his cheeks. His eyes were bright again—tired, but bright. He was propped against pillows, a glass of water on the nightstand beside him, and when Fitz walked in, his whole face shifted.
Concern. Hope. Fear. All of it, flickering across his expression in the space of a second.
"How'd she take it?" he asked quietly.
Fitz crossed the room slowly. Sat on the edge of the bed. Took Keefe's hand in his—still too thin, but warm now, alive.
"Better than I deserved," he said.
Keefe's fingers tightened around his. "For what it's worth... I'm sorry. For putting you in this position. For—"
"Stop."
Fitz leaned down, pressed their foreheads together. Closed his eyes. Breathed in the scent of Keefe—medicine and sleep and something underneath that was just *him*.
"No more sorry," Fitz whispered. "No more secrets. No more letters. Just... us. Okay?"
Keefe was quiet for a moment. When he spoke, his voice was rough.
"You really want that? After everything? After I almost—" He stopped, swallowing hard. "I nearly died, Fitz. I nearly left you with nothing but a letter. How can you just... forgive that?"
Fitz pulled back just enough to look at him. To meet those blue eyes—*his* blue, he realized, they'd always been his blue—and make sure Keefe heard every word.
"Because I understand why you did it." His voice cracked. "Because you were trying to protect me. Because you'd rather die than hurt me. Because you're the most selfless, stupid, *beautiful* person I've ever known." He squeezed Keefe's hand. "And because I love you. I love you, Keefe. That's not going away just because you made a bad decision."
Keefe's eyes filled with tears. "Fitz..."
"I'm not going anywhere. You hear me? Not now, not ever. You're stuck with me."
A tear slipped down Keefe's cheek. He laughed—a wet, shaky sound—and lifted his free hand to touch Fitz's face.
"You're real," he whispered. "This is real."
"This is real." Fitz turned his head, pressed a kiss to Keefe's palm. "We're real. And we have all the time in the world to figure out what that means."
Keefe's smile was small, shaky, *real*.
"Okay," he breathed. "Okay."
Fitz leaned in and kissed him.
It was soft. Gentle. Careful—Keefe was still recovering, still fragile, still *alive*. But it was also everything. Years of longing and fear and denial, poured into a single moment of contact.
When they pulled apart, Keefe was crying openly. So was Fitz.
"Wow," Keefe whispered, laughing through his tears. "That was—wow."
Fitz laughed too, pressing their foreheads together again. "Yeah. Wow."
For a long moment, they just stayed like that. Breathing together. Existing together. *Alive* together.
Then Keefe said, quietly: "Sophie's really okay with this?"
Fitz nodded against his forehead. "She said she's known for a while. The way I look at you." He smiled ruefully. "Apparently everyone knew except us."
Keefe snorted. "Sounds about right. We're both idiots."
"The biggest idiots."
"The absolute biggest." Keefe paused. "But... we figured it out. Eventually."
"Eventually." Fitz pressed another kiss to his forehead. "And now we have forever to make up for lost time."
Keefe's smile widened. "Forever sounds good."
"Yeah," Fitz agreed. "It does."
Later that night, Fitz lay in bed beside Keefe—carefully, so carefully, wrapped around him without putting pressure on his still-healing lungs. Keefe was asleep, his breathing steady and easy, no trace of the horrible rasp that had haunted Fitz's nightmares for days.
Fitz watched him for a long time.
Counted his breaths. Memorized the curve of his face. Pressed silent kisses to his hair.
Somewhere in the house, Sophie was alone with her heartbreak. Fitz would carry guilt for that for a long time—maybe forever. But she'd been right. Love wasn't fair. It was just true.
And the truth was here, in his arms, alive against all odds.
I love you, Fitz thought, pressing closer. I love you, and I'm never letting you go.
Keefe stirred slightly, murmuring something unintelligible, and Fitz smiled.
The letter was in his drawer now. He'd read it a dozen times, would probably read it a hundred more. A reminder of what almost was lost. A reminder of what they'd found.
But more than that—a reminder of who Keefe was. Who he'd always been. Someone who loved so deeply, so selflessly, that he'd rather die than be a burden.
Never again, Fitz promised silently. Never again will you carry something alone. Never again will you think you're not enough. I'll spend the rest of my life making sure you know how loved you are.
Keefe sighed in his sleep, snuggling closer.
Fitz closed his eyes and let himself be happy.