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The next morning Ben wakes up, barely getting any sleep the previous night, his mind was just so full of thoughts... full of thoughts of Ricky. Ricky no longer next to Ben in his bed, Ben felt cold, but not the type of cold you feel in the winter, Ben misses the warmth from Ricky's body. He felt like he needed Rcky. He's never felt this possessive over someone, not even Lola, his girlfriend. How does he feel a stronger connection to someone he fought with every week than his own girlfriend? How could he feel so strong towards someone that used to annoy him, those same annoying habits now filling him with joy ... and why did he have to be a man... he wishes he could rid his mind of these thoughts, Ricky's greasy hair, Ricky's stupid fucking smirk, Ricky... the person he would never be able to get out of his head. The person he would never be allowed to love just because of his gender...