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For the second time that night “home” was miscommunicated when I ended up in Mark Sloan’s apartment as he treated us both to glasses of water in hopes of sobering up. I lay on the corner of his couch, and he chose to sit right next to me. Half of his body was pressed against mine sending sparks between us. I had hoped that our moment in the bar wouldn’t be the last. His apartment hadn’t changed one bit. It was messy but still felt like home. I reminisced on all the nights Id spent here with my toothbrush and panties. I was sure I wouldn’t have to sneak out this time around. Slowly, I turned my gaze to him and inched my hand closer to his. He looked at me and I could tell he felt it too. In his eyes I could see him mulling our situation over especially the part that we both had current romantic ties to others. His apartment hadn’t changed one bit. It was messy but still felt like home. I reminisced on all the nights Id spent here with my toothbrush and panties.
“Lexie,” Mark started, “You said earlier that you, you died.” He met my eyes. “Lexie, I can’t bear to lose you.” Mark took my hand in his and tears began to swell in the back of my eyes. The truth was I reciprocated his feelings exactly. It was so hard to imagine my life without him. I thought back to our last conversation together. The one where Mark told me that we would get married and have three children, one girl and two boys, as siblings for Sofia before I succumbed to my injuries. And in this moment that was all I wanted.
I scooched closer to Mark and squeezed his hand, “You won’t have to lose me in this lifetime, Mark. We will be ok.” I looked up to Mark again and I could tell he only partly believed me. His thumb started caressing my hand and I laid my head on his shoulder. We sat like that for a few minutes before I broke the silence.
“Mark.” I said softly.
“Yes, Lex?"
“In this lifetime, with my second chance, we could get married,” I rotated my head to look up into his eyes, “and have children. I was thinking one girl and two boys?”
“How did you-“ He began.
“You told me. Before I, you know. It was all I wanted then and its all I want now.” The volume of my voice began to taper as I felt sleepiness overtake me. The last thing I heard before I fell asleep was Marks voice soon accompanied by his soft snores.
“So, Sofia can have siblings.” He said.
I first felt the sun beaming on my face before I recognized the familiar feeling of Mark Sloan body pressed against mine. The sun has just risen and a moment later Marks alarm went off. The ringing echoed from his room and I went to turn it off. My gaze met the time: “5:00” Before I left to go back to my apartment and get dressed, I planted a kiss on his cheek and quietly slipped out the door. I followed my regular routine and was in the middle of doing my hair when I heard a knock at the door. So, I went and opened it.
“Good morning, Lex.” Mark said he gave me a small kiss and walked into my room.
“Well good morning to you to!” I said cheerfully while finishing up my ponytail. He was dressed in his normal clothes, and I held myself back from fully gazing at him up and down.
“If you wanted, I could give you a ride to the hospital. I know what you said today is and I’d like to stay close to you if it's true.” If. I thought the doubt in his mind had ceased but nonetheless I accepted his ride over and we both ended up at the front of Seattle-Grace Mercy-West Hospital. God, I thought, I almost forgot about the merger. I had become so close to April and Jackson that the thought of this being new in the present felt odd. However, I still felt deeply happy to be back here working with my friends and family. For a moment, the shooting wasn’t on the forefront of my mind. That was until we entered the hospital and I watched as two body bags passed me and Mark. I knew it was Charles and Reed, but it wasn’t just my memory that gave it away, it was the dozens of cops and blood splatters on the ground that brought me to the conclusion. This was not supposed to happen.