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June goes to the doctor for an ultra sound and then is taken by Mayday to the Boston Globe. Nick goes to see her regularly and they have time together for about 2 months. Mayday tries to get June out of Gilead but the mission fails and she is brought back to the Waterfords.
What happened?
I’m sorry you’re back here.
Seeing you in the kitchen…
I don’t even know what to say.
I really tried. I’m sorry.
It was a shit show.
I’m grateful to our baby,
otherwise I think they’d have shot me.
It’s not your fault. I miss you.
Thank you for taking such good care of me while I was there.
And for trying.
All I did all day was try to see you.
I wish I could talk to you.
I saw you sitting at the baby shower.
You looked pretty.
I think this place has ruined your idea of pretty.
And definitely ruined baby showers.
But thanks.
It was terrible. Weird. She’s a monster.
I wish I could talk to you too.
Are you ok?
You don’t seem ok.
I’m worried about you.
I’ve put those letters in a safe place for you.
I’m so worried.
I heard AL say you’re healthy and the baby is the size of a papaya.
Never had a papaya but it sounded like a good thing.
I don’t know what this ceremony is today.
I’m really worried about you.
I hope you know I never wanted this.
I miss you so much.
Are you ok?
I’m so glad you are ok. I was so scared.
I tried to come over last night but it didn’t seem safe.
When you said you think about it too…
My heart is still racing.
I do think about it. I think about you. Us.
I know you didn’t want this, but you have to be good to her.
That’s how we stay safe.
I’m sorry for everything.
I hate myself for this.
I know you’re right.
But I hate it.
I love you.
I know, I’m sorry.
Are you doing ok?
You are working really hard.
This is sad and scary and crazy.
Seeing you at the hospital was so good.
I’m afraid of that guy.
Being in your arms is so comforting.
Even in a weird hospital hallway.
I have an idea.
God it felt good to kiss you.
Thank you for caring about me.
Wow. You did it.
By getting her to do it.
Thank you.
You are amazing.
Feels good to be able to help keep us safe.
I’ve been feeling the baby kick more.
I want to share this with you so badly.
I feel so happy and so sad at the same time.
Strange.
As long as you're both healthy, I have hope.
I love you. I miss you.
Keep thinking about our nights together.
I’d be embarrassed to write what I think about.
Doesn’t stop me from thinking it though.
Haha, I actually love that
I’m having a similar problem.
How weird to miss being in hiding, but I miss that time with you.
Thank you for getting the letters out.
I don’t how you made that happen.
Telling me what he said must have been weird.
I am grateful.
I wish I could do more.
I just want you to be safe and happy.
Walking up the stairs with you was incredible.
It felt like we didn’t have to hide our little family.
I know it wasn’t that.
It’s really hard to wait down here for news.
But not as hard as what you are doing.
I love you.
Well, that was a disaster
They are so angry.
Hope to see you soon.
I don’t know when you will see this.
I am ok. I am home.
He’s such a prick.
I don’t know where you are and I am worried.
I can hear her crying and it’s killing me.
He says we’re taking the baby for a short trip.
I don’t feel good about this.
But maybe I’ll get to see her face.
I’m so relieved you are ok.
At least physically.
What they did to you with H is cruel.
I’m glad you are here with her.
And me.
They are terrible people.
Seeing you helps me.
I can pretend she’s ours.
Fuck it, she IS ours.
She met someone, I’m trying to be supportive.
I feel less bad about us if she has someone too.
Bet I can get it in one guess.
That’s sweet.
Makes me feel less bad too.
Dreaming with you about the beach this morning
was amazing. I felt happy.
Now I have to convince her to lie through her teeth.
I’m so sorry.
I know you did everything you could.
This isn’t your fault.
You have to know that.
It is my fault.
I wasn’t good to her.
I’m a selfish asshole.
You aren’t.
I know you tried to help her.
I hate seeing you doubt yourself.
I’m so sorry.
I really don’t want to do this thing with her dad.
I’m so tired of pretending I am like these people.
You are not like these people.
Not at all.
I’m a mess.
The three of us together.
I love you. I love her.
I can’t imagine ever doing to her what E’s father did.
I will do whatever it takes to protect her. And you.
WHATEVER IT TAKES.
You are a wonderful dad already.
I love you.
I’m sorry it took me so long to tell you.
I’ve known for a while :)
What the fuck June?
Who’s going to take care of her?
How will we know she’s safe?
I don’t understand.
I can’t leave without H.
She will be safe with people I know.
I don’t expect you to understand.
I love her. I love you. I do. I’m sorry.
I’m trying to understand.
I hope we can talk soon.
I miss her.
I love you. I do.
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