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Alarm on your phone went off. You hit the snooze button on it. Ugghh, it’s too damn early. Couldn’t you like… own a place that open later at the afternoon and not early in the morning in order to serve coffee to busy people getting to work..? Well, there is no point on complaining, at least you got quite decent hours of sleep since you got back quite early because of Jaehee’s condition. You should have known she can’t hold her liquor. You glanced at Jaehee, sleeping soundly in her bed, messed up mascaras under her eyes. You didn’t have a heart to wake her up so you quietly dig through your back for some change clothes and hit the shower.
She was awake, sitting on her bed wearing a bathrobe when you get back from the shower. “Oh god, my head hurts”, she muttered while holding her head to her hands. “How are you feeling?” you smiled at her empathetic. “Like a shit”, she sighed, and covered her mouth with her hand after realizing what she just said. You giggled. “Oh sorry, I’m fine, I guess… Mostly just embarrassed”, she covered her head with her hands while talking. “Embarrassed about what?”, you smiled at her while drying your hair with towel. “The condition what I was in”, she blushed, “oh god I made a fool of myself in front of everyone oh god why”, her words turned into mumble. You giggled again. “MC, it’s not funny, I…” she hesitated, “I hope I didn’t ruin your night”. You could see a tear forming up in her eye, so you walked to her, sat by her at the bed and wrap your arms around her. “Hey, hey Jaehee”, you said quietly with comforting tone. “You didn’t ruin my night, you made my night”. “Really?”, she looked up to you with teary eyes. “Yes, drunk you was actually really sweet”, you smiled, and she couldn’t help to giggle little herself.
You left for work together. You couldn’t help wondering if Jaehee was serious with her offer for you too to live together. This was clearly way more practical than you taking a train and two busses to get to the coffee shop from your place. If she was being serious and would support the idea while sober too, there was still one issue to be cleared before you could actually consider living together… What would you be? You knew you wouldn’t be satisfied with being just roommates. Being just friends was hard for you as it is. You were pretty sure it wasn’t just your hopeful thinking that Jaehee also had feelings for you. Maybe she was just afraid. You knew you were; afraid that she didn’t feel the same, afraid that thing would go awkward between you two, afraid that you would lose her as a friend, even afraid of your own feelings. Not like you were a virgin, but this clearly was a virgin territory for you. Despite being pansexual, you never had been with a woman…
Your thoughts were cut short with Jaehee walking into the kitchen where you were preparing rolls for the display case. You blushed and were really thankful for the fact that Jaehee didn’t have the ability to read minds. You cleared your throat and asked “are you feeling any better?” “Yeah”, she smiled at you, “I’m just bit tired”. “Try not to burn yourself with the milk foamer, those things are dangerous to use while tired”, you were concerned for real. You turned to look at her when she didn’t answer. She looked like she was deep in her thought, so you asked if everything was okay. “Yeah, I’m all right”, she smiled at you tiredly, “but MC..”, she started as if she was about to ask something. “Yeah?”, you encouraged her to go on. “Can we talk after work?” Oh god, her tone made you worry what she wanted to talk about. You forgot to answer right away, so she continued uncertainly: “I know we just spend the night together and you probably want to be alone after the work but…” Oh shoot, you just realized you didn’t answer yet. “Sure, do you have something special you want to talk about?”, you tried to hide nervousness on your voice. “Don’t worry, not anything bad”, she must have sensed your worry. “I need to go back to serve customers, see you later”, and off she went.
You were bit anxious about what she wanted to talk. At least it isn’t going to be anything bad like she had promised. Is she going to confess her feelings for you? That would be great! The absolute best! You have been avoiding confessing your own feelings because you still wasn’t sure about her feelings and was afraid to ruin thing between you two. You felt hyperactive, it was hard to concentrate on work, and you kept accidentally dropping stuff from your hands. Jaehee on the other hand seemed to be concentrating on her job just fine, tiredness made her maybe just a bit quieter and slower than she would be normally. Once again the workday went by with you two barely talking with each other.
You put on last round of dishes to the washing machine and walk up to Jaehee who was closing the cash register for the day. You were bit nervous but asked her “are you ready to leave after that?” She just now realized you were there and lifted her head to smile at you: “Yeah, can you wait just a few minutes…” You sat down and watched her finish the job. When she locked the register, you started little hesitated: “So… You wanted to talk about something?” “About what I said last night…” she started. Oh god, is this the moment she’s going to take everything back she said last night and blame it on the alcohol? “I meant everything I said”, she finished the sentence. Oh, that was certainly unexpected but nice. “About us living together?” you asked. “That, but everything else too”, she answered. What everything else? You were confused. She picked on your confuse and continued “about wanting to live with you, about spending every moment with you”. Her voice was quiet, she couldn’t bear to look at you in the eyes. “Jaehee…” you started but couldn’t end the sentence.
“I’ve never felted anything like this towards anyone before. But then I met you. I’ve never really had close friends so I didn’t know what it was like. But over the time I came to realize that my feelings towards you weren’t purely platonic. I can’t stop thinking about you, I often caught myself just watching you working.
First I thought that I wouldn’t tell you, you probably wouldn’t feel the same for me. But I watched you turn down every guy that have been approaching you and how you seemed to want to spend your free time with me even when we see each other all day every day at work.
Maybe there is a small change that you may feel something similar for me too?” Her face was red, she was still staring at the cash register, unable to look at you. You walked, well, almost run, to her and put your arms around her shoulders. “Jaehee, you can’t believe how long I have wanted to do this”, you muttered while brushing your cheek on her neck. “Really?”, she sounded surprised. “Jaehee, I’ve been in love with you ever since the RFA fundraiser party”.
You brushed her cheek with you thumb. “Of course I want to live with you, I want everything of you, I want our own happy ending!” “Then… Can I do this?”, she put one hand over your neck and the other on your cheek and moved her head a bit closer to yours. Breathy “Yes” was all out got out of your mouth. A kiss, this is what you have been waiting for weeks, months… She gently pushed her lips on yours. So warm, so soft…
I was almost like out-of-body-experience, like you were watching yourself from distance. Almost like a movie that you were watching. You couldn’t believe this was actually happening! Your lips parted and you gasped for air and locked eyes with Jaehee. For your surprise, she started laughing. “What?”, you asked confused, but couldn’t stop smiling yourself. “It’s just that… we must be biggest fools on the universe”, she laughed again. First you were confused but quickly catch on what she meant: you two being in love with each other but didn’t want to say anything because you were unsure each other’s feelings.
“Well, I was suspecting that your feelings for me weren’t purely platonic, but I didn’t know if you were ready to admit it even to yourself”, your honesty shooked even yourself. “Oh, I was being more obvious that I thought…”, she laughed little. “I get what you are saying but… I’ve known for a while now that I’m gay”. Well, shook. “I’ve never been into guys so I figured it out a while ago”, she continued, “but I didn’t want to say anything to anyone because I didn’t want anyone to start treating me differently because of it”. “I thought you would never be into me so I didn’t say anything, I though just working with you and being friends was enough for me and I didn’t want to ruin it. Even if gender wasn’t issue for you, why would you pick me when you probably could have anyone from the RFA or like… in general...” her words dissolved into mutter as she was losing her point in this monologue.
You cupped her cheeks on your hands: “Jaehee, I didn’t want anyone else but you!” “But... Why?”, she asked. “There are people way more good looking, funnier, more sweet and compassionate than me. And I’m just, well, me”. “Well, I could be asking the same question”, you threw the curve ball back at her: “I’m just some random person Saeran found from the street and you invited my into RFA, and in your lives, and everyone was so nice. You especially”. “That’s not true!”, she argued, “I was really bitchy when you first joined”. You couldn’t argue, she was little mean before she got to know you and started to trust you more. She was probably the only one in RFA with some level of healthy skepticism. “Well, I guess you just have to figure a way to make it up to me”, you smiled sheepishly.