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Wednesday arrived like a verdict.

Mingyu had spent the last three days in a state of suspended animation, moving through his life like a ghost haunting his own body. He'd gone to work. He'd attended meetings. He'd nodded at the right moments and said the right things and somehow managed to convince everyone that he was a functioning human being. Inside, he was a disaster.

Every spare moment had been consumed by the same circle of thoughts: What if he doesn't like me? What if I don't like him? What if I say something weird? What if I spill coffee on myself? What if I trip? What if I realize halfway through that I'm not actually attracted to men and I have to sit through an entire date pretending I'm not having an existential crisis?

Seokmin had helpfully provided a running commentary via text.

Minghao had been more restrained, but no less observant. He'd shown up at Mingyu's apartment on Tuesday evening with takeout and a pointed look.

"You're overthinking this," he'd said, setting the food on the counter.

"I'm not overthinking. I'm appropriately thinking."

"You've changed your outfit seven times in the last hour."

"That's not overthinking. That's... preparation."

Minghao had just shaken his head and handed him a pair of chopsticks. "Eat. You'll need your strength for tomorrow."

Now, at 2:30 PM on Wednesday, Mingyu was standing in front of his full-length mirror for the eleventh time, and he was no closer to making a decision than he'd been an hour ago.

His bed was a battlefield of discarded clothing. Three shirts lay crumpled at the foot of the mattress. Two pairs of pants were draped over the desk chair. A jacket that he'd immediately rejected because it was too hot for anything with sleeves hung limply from the doorknob.

He was holding up a soft cream-colored short-sleeve button-up when his phone buzzed.

Mingyu blinked. We?

He walked to the window and looked down. Seokmin's car was parked at the curb, and standing beside it, looking deeply unimpressed with the heat, was Minghao.

Mingyu opened the window. "What are you two doing here?"

"Rescue mission," Seokmin shouted up. "I could feel your panic from across the city."

"I'm not panicking!"

"You literally texted me 'what if he doesn't like me' at 2 AM."

"That was—that was a rhetorical question!"

"There's nothing rhetorical about 2 AM texts. That's a cry for help."

Minghao, who had been fanning himself with his hand, looked up at the window with his signature deadpan expression. "Just let us in. It's hot."

Mingyu sighed and buzzed them in. Two minutes later, they were standing in his apartment, surveying the chaos of his bedroom with expressions of varying degrees of amusement.

"Wow," Seokmin said, picking up a discarded shirt. "You really went all out."

"I'm having a crisis."

"You're having a fashion crisis. There's a difference."

Minghao walked past them both, heading straight for Mingyu's closet. He pushed aside a few hangers with the practiced efficiency of someone who had done this before, then pulled out a light blue linen button-up.

"Wear this," he said, handing it to Mingyu.

Mingyu took it, holding it up. "This one?"

"It's simple. It's clean. It makes you look like you're not trying too hard." Minghao paused. "Also, it brings out your shoulders."

"My shoulders?"

"Your shoulders. They're good. Show them off."

Seokmin nodded sagely. "He's right. You have good shoulders. You should capitalize on that."

"I don't—I'm not—" Mingyu sputtered. "This is a date. I'm not trying to—"

"You're trying to make a good impression," Minghao interrupted. "That's the whole point. Now put it on. We don't have all day."

Mingyu changed into the shirt, then looked at himself in the mirror. It was... good. The light blue brought out the warmth in his skin, and the short sleeves hit just above his elbow, showing off his forearms. He looked casual. Effortless. Like he hadn't spent an hour agonizing over every detail.

"See?" Seokmin said, clapping him on the back. "You look great."

"You think?"

"I know. Now put on some jeans that actually fit and let's get you out the door."

Minghao handed him a pair of light-wash jeans and a pair of white sneakers. "Wear these. They'll go with everything."

Mingyu dressed quickly, his hands only slightly shaking. When he turned to face his friends, Seokmin let out a low whistle.

"Look at you. Ready to break hearts."

"I'm not trying to break hearts. I'm trying to have coffee."

"Same thing."

Minghao, who had been quietly observing, gave a small nod of approval. "You'll be fine. Just be yourself."

"What if myself is too much?"

"Then he's not the right person."

Mingyu took a breath. The words settled somewhere in his chest, steadying him. He looked at his reflection one last time—light blue shirt, simple jeans, white sneakers. He looked like himself. Just a slightly more polished version.

"Okay," he said. "I'm ready."

The botanical garden was Mingyu's idea.

He'd suggested it over text the night before, his heart racing as he typed out the message. There's a place I visit alot. It's outdoors. Lots of flowers. They also have a little café inside. If that's not too weird for a first date.

Wonwoo had replied almost immediately: Not weird at all. Send me the address.

Now, standing at the entrance, Mingyu felt like he'd made the right choice. The garden stretched out before them, a riot of color and life. Pathways wound through carefully curated sections—roses in one corner, wildflowers in another, a small pond with lilies floating on the surface. The air was thick with the scent of blossoms and earth, and the afternoon sun filtered through the leaves, casting dappled shadows across the ground.

Wonwoo arrived a few minutes after Mingyu, walking up the path with an easy stride. He was wearing a simple white short-sleeve shirt and dark jeans, his hair slightly windswept. When he spotted Mingyu, a small smile tugged at the corner of his mouth.

"Hey," he said, his voice warm.

"Hey," Mingyu managed, his heart doing that thing again. "You found it."

"You gave me the address. It wasn't hard."

"I know. I just—" Mingyu laughed, rubbing the back of his neck. "I'm nervous. I keep saying obvious things."

Wonwoo's smile widened. "I don't mind. You're cute when you're nervous."

Mingyu's face flushed. "I'm not—I'm not cute. I'm a grown man."

"You're a grown man who's cute when he's nervous."

"That's—" Mingyu sputtered. "That's not fair."

Wonwoo laughed—a quiet, warm sound that made something in Mingyu's chest loosen. "Come on," he said, gesturing toward the entrance. "Show me around. I heard there's coffee somewhere in here."

Mingyu's heart lifted. "There is. A little café near the rose garden. We can grab something and walk."

"Sounds perfect."

They found the café tucked away in a corner of the garden, a small wooden structure with an awning and a few tables scattered outside. The smell of freshly brewed coffee mingled with the scent of flowers, creating a warm, inviting atmosphere.

Mingyu ordered an iced americano with a splash of oat milk. Wonwoo ordered the same thing, and Mingyu felt a small flutter of satisfaction at the coincidence.

"Same drink," he said, trying to sound casual.

"Great minds think alike," Wonwoo replied, his eyes glinting with amusement.

They took their drinks and started walking, the iced coffees cool in their hands. The pathways wound through different sections, each one more beautiful than the last. Mingyu pointed out his favorite spots—a bench tucked beneath a willow tree, a small bridge that crossed a stream, a corner filled with lavender that smelled like summer.

"I used to come here a lot," Mingyu said, his voice softer than he'd intended. "When I needed to think. It's quiet. Peaceful."

Wonwoo looked around, taking in the scenery. "I can see why you like it."

"Sometimes I'd bring my sketchbook. Draw the flowers. The trees." Mingyu paused. "I'm not very good at it. But it helps me focus."

"You draw?"

"A little. Mostly buildings. Architecture stuff." Mingyu shrugged. "It's my job. I can't help it."

Wonwoo tilted his head, his eyes curious. "Can I see sometime?"

Mingyu blinked. "My sketches?"

"Your sketches. If you want to show me."

"I—" Mingyu's throat tightened. "Yeah. Maybe. If you want."

They walked in comfortable silence for a while, the sounds of the garden filling the space between them. Birds chirped in the trees. Water trickled from a small fountain. The breeze rustled the leaves, carrying the scent of flowers and earth. Mingyu took a sip of his americano, the cold bitterness grounding him.

Then Wonwoo spoke.

"Can I ask you something?"

Mingyu's heart skipped. "Sure."

"Why did you call me? That night? You didn't know me. You didn't know if I'd answer."

Mingyu considered the question. He'd thought about it himself, in the days since. Why had he called a stranger? Why had he trusted someone he'd never met?

"I don't know," he admitted. "I just... I was scared. And alone. And I wanted someone to hear me."

Wonwoo was quiet for a moment. "That's brave."

"It's not brave. It's desperate."

"Sometimes they're the same thing."

Mingyu looked at him, really looked at him. The afternoon light caught the edges of his glasses, and his expression was soft, unreadable.

"You came," Mingyu said quietly. "You answered a call from a stranger at 1 AM, and you came."

"I told you. I would have done it ten times over."

"Why?"

Wonwoo's gaze held his. "Because I heard your voice, and I knew you needed someone. And I thought—if I was in your position, I'd want someone to come too."

Mingyu's chest ached. He didn't know what to say. The words were too big, too heavy, too much.

So he said the only thing that came to mind: "Thank you."

Wonwoo nodded, a small smile on his lips. "You're welcome."

They found a bench near the pond, shaded by an old oak tree. The water was still, reflecting the blue of the sky and the green of the leaves. A few ducks drifted lazily across the surface, their movements unhurried.

Mingyu sat down, and Wonwoo sat beside him—close enough that their shoulders almost brushed. The warmth of his presence was comforting, grounding. They both held their iced americanos, the condensation beading on the glass.

"So," Wonwoo said, breaking the comfortable silence. "Tell me something about yourself. Something I wouldn't guess."

Mingyu thought about it. The question felt familiar now, like a game they'd started playing.

"I'm scared of being alone," he said. "Not being alone, exactly. But being forgotten. Being left behind while everyone else moves on."

Wonwoo was quiet for a moment. "I know that feeling."

"You do?"

"I'm older. Most of my friends are married now. Some have kids. They have lives that don't include me anymore." Wonwoo's voice was calm, matter-of-fact. "It's not their fault. It's just how things work."

Mingyu looked at him. "Does it bother you?"

"Sometimes." Wonwoo paused. "But I'd rather be alone than be with the wrong person."

Mingyu nodded slowly. "I get that."

They sat in silence for a while, the sounds of the garden filling the space between them. The ducks continued their lazy drift across the pond. A breeze stirred the leaves above them. Mingyu took another sip of his americano, the ice clinking softly against the glass.

Then Mingyu spoke.

"I've never done this before," he admitted. "Dated a man. I've never even thought about it. Not seriously."

Wonwoo's expression didn't change. "And now?"

"Now I can't stop thinking about it." Mingyu laughed, the sound self-deprecating. "About you. About what this means. About whether I'm making a mistake or finally getting something right."

Wonwoo was quiet for a long moment. Then he said, "What do you want it to be?"

Mingyu blinked. "What?"

"What do you want this to be? Not what you think it should be. Not what you're scared of. What do you want?"

The question hung in the air between them.

Mingyu thought about it. Really thought about it.

"I want to see where this goes," he said finally. "I don't know what that looks like. I don't know if it'll work out. But I want to try. I want to see if this—" He gestured between them. "—is real."

Wonwoo's smile was small, but it was there. "That's all I needed to hear."

They walked through the garden for another hour, their iced americanos long finished, the conversation flowing as easily as the water in the stream. Mingyu talked about his work, his friends, his strange attachment to a lamp that was definitely cursed. Wonwoo talked about his editing projects, his younger sister in Busan, his secret love for terrible action movies.

They were standing near a cluster of wildflowers when Mingyu felt something brush against his hair.

He reached up automatically, but Wonwoo was faster.

"Wait," Wonwoo said, his voice soft. "There's something in your hair."

Mingyu froze. "What?"

"A petal." Wonwoo's hand came up, his fingers brushing through Mingyu's hair with a tenderness that made Mingyu's breath catch. "From the flowers. It must have blown in the wind."

Mingyu stood still, barely breathing. He could feel the light pressure of Wonwoo's fingertips, the careful way he worked through the strands. His heart was pounding so loudly he was sure Wonwoo could hear it.

Wonwoo pulled his hand back, and in his palm rested a small, delicate petal—soft pink, almost translucent in the sunlight.

"There," Wonwoo said, his voice barely above a whisper. "Got it."

Mingyu's throat was tight. "Thanks."

Wonwoo looked at the petal for a moment, then at Mingyu. "You know," he said, a small smile playing at his lips, "you look good with flowers in your hair."

"I—" Mingyu's face flushed. "I don't—that's not—"

"Just an observation."

"You're doing that thing again."

"What thing?"

"The thing where you say something that makes my brain short-circuit."

Wonwoo laughed—that quiet, warm sound that Mingyu was starting to crave. "I'm just being honest."

"Your honesty is dangerous."

"I'll take that as a compliment."

Mingyu shook his head, but he was smiling. "You're impossible."

"And yet you're still here."

"Unfortunately."

Wonwoo's smile widened. "Liar."

Mingyu opened his mouth to protest, but the words wouldn't come. Because Wonwoo was right. He was here. He wanted to be here. And for the first time in a long time, he didn't want to run away.

They left the garden as the sun began to dip lower in the sky, the afternoon light shifting to gold. The air was still warm, but there was a hint of coolness in the breeze that signaled the approaching evening.

"I should probably go," Mingyu said reluctantly. "I have... I don't actually have anything. But if I stay any longer, I might say something embarrassing."

"You've been saying embarrassing things all afternoon."

"Exactly. I'm on a roll. I don't want to break my streak."

Wonwoo's lips twitched. "Fair enough."

They walked toward the entrance, their steps slow, reluctant. The silence between them was comfortable, easy.

"I had a really good time today," Mingyu said quietly. "I know that's obvious. But I wanted to say it anyway."

Wonwoo looked at him. "Me too."

"I'm not very good at this," Mingyu continued, the words spilling out. "Dating. Or whatever this is. I don't know what I'm doing, and I don't know what I want, and I'm still kind of confused about everything. But I know I like you. I know I want to keep talking to you. I know I want to see you again."

He winced. "That was a lot, wasn't it?"

"It was honest," Wonwoo said.

"That's worse."

"It's not worse." Wonwoo stopped walking, turning to face him. "Do you want to hear something honest?"

Mingyu swallowed. "Sure."

"When you called me that night—when I heard your voice through the phone—I knew something was different. I didn't know what it was. But I knew I had to come."

Mingyu's heart stopped. "You did?"

"I don't do things like that. I don't answer random calls. I don't drive across the city at 1 AM for strangers. But I did it for you." Wonwoo's gaze was steady, unwavering. "I would have done it ten times over."

"I—" Mingyu's voice came out small. "I don't know what to say."

"Say you want to see me again."

"I do. I really do."

"Then we will." Wonwoo's smile was small, but it was there. "Whenever you're ready. I'll be here."

Mingyu nodded, his throat too tight for words.

They stood there for a moment, the garden quiet around them, the evening light soft and golden.

"Same time next week?" Mingyu finally asked.

Wonwoo's smile widened. "Same time next week."

The walk home was a blur.

Mingyu barely remembered the journey, his feet carrying him on autopilot while his mind replayed every moment of the afternoon. The garden. The coffee. The conversation. The petal in his hair and the gentle way Wonwoo had touched him, like he was something precious.

He walked into his apartment, kicked off his shoes, and collapsed onto the sofa.

His phone buzzed immediately.

Mingyu laughed, setting his phone down on his chest. He stared up at the ceiling, his heart still racing, his mind still full of Wonwoo.

He didn't know what was coming.

But for the first time in a long time, he didn't want to run away from it.