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I don't get it.
I'll never get it
Why did you do that?
Why did you let the roses harm your skin?
Why did you not stop the crimson liquid in your arms? The rose petals that permanently stained your arms
Maybe I'll never get it because I'm not human. I'll never be.
But my love for you is human, so in the most non-human way possible, I'll prove my humanity to you
So as we hold each other in a soft embrace, I close my eyes, I feel your warmth, or at least I try my best to, because someone... Something like me can't feel the soft warmth your body radiates like how the sun radiates light to the moon.
You stay quiet, your hold on me is weaker and softer than usual, it didn't feel like you were exactly trying to be gentle, but like you were too tired, exhausted and weak to even try anything.
But you still held me in your arms like I was something precious, and so I held you back, not like you were something precious. But like you were something precious... Because you were, or at least you were to me and that's what mattered, right?
As I open my eyes one more time, I stare, at you, through you, maybe even with you. But in all of them it was you, because who else could it be?
I softly open my mouth and take one of your hands in mine, wrapping it around my fingers and palm as my voice finally reaches your ears "I want to understand you..." I mutter softly as I lean closer to you, nuzzling my nose into your neck.
You didn't respond... But that was okay... You didn't have to, and you weren't talkative... That was more than okay...
"So even if it's hard for me to understand..."
"I want to try"
"I want to be there for you... Even when you're harmed by your own hand..."
"Even when I'm harmed by my own hand...?" You finally muttered back, your hand held back mine and your fingers touched mine as they were interlocked... And like how stars aligned with one another perfectly... Our fingers did too... Made for one another.
"Yes..."
"You don't have to put yourself through this..." We both muttered at the same time... And I couldn't help but giggle... You smiled back at me.
I held you closer and tighter... You tried to do the same... Even if it was hard, even if your body ached...
It was okay... I was happy to have you... And I'll always be happy to... And as we hold each other softly and lovingly... I feel your warmth... Not from your body, but from your heart and maybe from your soul too... And so I closed my eyes again... You were safe in my arms and I was safe in yours... As our souls held each other too, we were close enough for that, not only physically...
"I'm so happy to have you..." I muttered softly... Even if the words were dedicated to you, they were kept for me, myself, and I